WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.040 --> 00:00:02.160 Today, I want to tell you about a journey that I've been on for 2 00:00:02.240 --> 00:00:05.120 most of my life. Ever since I was a kid, I've heard tales 3 00:00:05.120 --> 00:00:09.199 of bigfoot and wild men while spending time with my friends and family. As 4 00:00:09.240 --> 00:00:12.759 I grew older and read more about the paranormal, my interest in encryptids and 5 00:00:12.800 --> 00:00:17.039 other things strange only deepened. That's why I'm so excited to share with you 6 00:00:17.079 --> 00:00:22.960 what I've personally become involved with the Untold Radio Network. The Untold Radio Network 7 00:00:23.000 --> 00:00:27.480 is a live streaming podcast network that airs a new show every day across all 8 00:00:27.519 --> 00:00:31.839 podcast platforms, YouTube, and more. 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Yes, yes, I know aka 18 00:01:11.040 --> 00:01:36.719 Survivor Man, and you're listening to Brian on Sasquatch Ottisen. Hey there, 19 00:01:36.799 --> 00:01:40.920 welcome back to Sasquatch. Thank you so much for being with us for the 20 00:01:40.959 --> 00:01:42.959 show. It is Friday. I hope you guys have had a merry Christmas. 21 00:01:44.359 --> 00:01:47.040 We've got an amazing show lined up for you. But as always, 22 00:01:47.040 --> 00:01:49.319 I want to start by inviting you. If you've had an encounter and you'd 23 00:01:49.359 --> 00:01:52.599 like to be at the show, shoot me an email and give me a 24 00:01:52.640 --> 00:01:56.599 Brian at Paranamalworldproductions dot com and head over to the website. Check it out, 25 00:01:56.599 --> 00:02:00.959 become remember there and help support the show. I got to sit down 26 00:02:00.959 --> 00:02:05.000 and talk to Bridget from Ohio, and I have to be honest with you. 27 00:02:05.079 --> 00:02:12.639 Bridget has had some really amazing and out there encounters with Sasquatch and other 28 00:02:12.919 --> 00:02:15.840 entities. I'll let her tell you all about that. In just a second. 29 00:02:15.120 --> 00:02:17.560 You're going to hear us talk a little bit about a PDF that she 30 00:02:17.680 --> 00:02:22.560 put out. She sent that over to me an audio form as well as 31 00:02:22.599 --> 00:02:27.479 the PDF form, So I'm going to post the PDF over on ourparanorm World 32 00:02:27.479 --> 00:02:31.039 Productions dot com website. Go to the sasquatch Otasy blog and follow that over 33 00:02:31.080 --> 00:02:35.199 and you will be able to read that PDF. But over the next couple 34 00:02:35.240 --> 00:02:38.520 of weeks, I'm actually going to put out the audio version of that PDF 35 00:02:38.520 --> 00:02:42.159 here for you. It'll probably be a couple of episodes because it's several hours 36 00:02:42.199 --> 00:02:46.240 long, but it's a Bridget reading all of her experiences from beginning to end. 37 00:02:46.319 --> 00:02:47.879 Make sure you stick around for that. As I said, she's had 38 00:02:47.919 --> 00:02:52.879 some really interesting encounters. You're probably going to be shaking your head early on 39 00:02:52.960 --> 00:02:55.439 in this. Try to stick around into the very end because we do address 40 00:02:55.479 --> 00:02:59.520 that, and we have a really good conversation, and I think she brings 41 00:02:59.599 --> 00:03:02.240 up some fantastic points that happened right at the end of the interview. So 42 00:03:02.280 --> 00:03:06.520 I definitely think you should stick around to the end and make sure you catch 43 00:03:06.599 --> 00:03:07.879 all of that. But enough of that, I know you guys are ready 44 00:03:07.879 --> 00:03:10.919 to get into it. Bridget's on the line, She's ready to go. 45 00:03:12.199 --> 00:03:15.280 It's all you have to do is sit back, relax, and enjoy the 46 00:03:15.280 --> 00:03:37.719 show. I want to welcome our guest to the show. It is Bridget 47 00:03:37.759 --> 00:03:40.120 from Ohio. Welcome to the show, Bridget. Thank you. I'm glad 48 00:03:40.120 --> 00:03:44.400 to have you. So let's get right into it. Let's talk about Bigfoot. 49 00:03:44.479 --> 00:03:46.520 Let's talk about the pair normal. What got you interested in the subject 50 00:03:46.599 --> 00:03:53.560 to begin with? I wasn't honestly interested in the bigfoot subject. I had 51 00:03:53.560 --> 00:03:59.080 an encounter with a bigfoot in two thousand and one and became interested after that. 52 00:03:59.719 --> 00:04:05.319 I've had a lifetime of experiences with the phenomenon and high strangeness in general, 53 00:04:05.439 --> 00:04:11.319 but just that one experience with the bigfoot. It was in the Yukon 54 00:04:11.479 --> 00:04:15.600 Territories in Canada on my way back from Alaska, and I feel like I 55 00:04:15.680 --> 00:04:20.279 need to give a little bit of context here as to what I was doing 56 00:04:20.360 --> 00:04:25.800 in the Yukon Territories on my way back from Alaska. As I said, 57 00:04:25.920 --> 00:04:30.399 I've had a lifetime of experiences. I am a lifelong high level experiencer. 58 00:04:30.600 --> 00:04:35.759 I have conscious memories of grays in my room as young as two and three 59 00:04:35.839 --> 00:04:42.639 years old, and it's been a continual thing throughout my life with the phenomenon 60 00:04:42.920 --> 00:04:47.000 with non human intelligence. And I am also a lifelong my Lab abductee. 61 00:04:47.000 --> 00:04:53.279 The government as well has been very interested in my experiences. It's nothing new 62 00:04:53.319 --> 00:04:57.399 to me. It's something that I've dealt with my entire life and just had 63 00:04:57.439 --> 00:05:00.439 to accept that this was my role and this was what I was meant to 64 00:05:00.519 --> 00:05:05.720 experience. So as frightening as it all was, as confused as I was 65 00:05:05.879 --> 00:05:11.160 most of my life about it all, I realized at some point I can't 66 00:05:11.199 --> 00:05:15.439 make it stop. So I need to tuck that fear away because that emotion 67 00:05:15.720 --> 00:05:19.040 does not serve me in this situation, and I need to just lean into 68 00:05:19.079 --> 00:05:23.800 this with everything I've got and see what I can make of it. So, 69 00:05:24.240 --> 00:05:29.240 after a lifetime of various different experiences, which I won't get into here 70 00:05:29.319 --> 00:05:34.639 because there's just so many there's not enough time, I was sent a calendar 71 00:05:34.720 --> 00:05:40.360 in the mail. The electric company sends it out to everyone with those scenic 72 00:05:40.439 --> 00:05:45.439 pictures for each month, and two of those scenic pictures were of mountains, 73 00:05:46.079 --> 00:05:49.399 And as soon as I saw the pictures, I had this strange electric type 74 00:05:49.480 --> 00:05:55.240 shock inside my body. Something told me I need to go there. And 75 00:05:55.519 --> 00:05:59.839 one of the pictures was of Mount Rainier in Washington State and the other one 76 00:06:00.240 --> 00:06:04.959 was from Danali National Park in Alaska. I didn't know what mountain I needed 77 00:06:05.000 --> 00:06:09.399 to go to. Was it one of these two mountains or just a mountain? 78 00:06:09.480 --> 00:06:12.560 And why would I need to go to a mountain? But I had 79 00:06:12.600 --> 00:06:15.959 this overwhelming sense of there's something there for you. You need to go there. 80 00:06:16.680 --> 00:06:20.519 So I decided I was going to do exactly that I needed to get 81 00:06:20.519 --> 00:06:25.199 to the bottom of these experiences. Something told me that the answer I was 82 00:06:25.240 --> 00:06:30.000 looking for was in one of these mountains. So my first attempt, I 83 00:06:30.120 --> 00:06:33.800 decided I would go to Mount Rainier first. I live in Ohio, and 84 00:06:33.879 --> 00:06:38.639 I thought Mount Rainier is the closest, so I will go there first and 85 00:06:38.680 --> 00:06:41.920 see if I feel anything there, If I feel like this is where I'm 86 00:06:41.920 --> 00:06:45.199 supposed to be, and if not, then I'll know it's Alaska that I 87 00:06:45.240 --> 00:06:48.639 need to go to. So on my first attempt to Mount Rainier, I 88 00:06:48.720 --> 00:06:55.639 didn't make it. I had an experience where I was heading towards an underpass 89 00:06:55.759 --> 00:06:58.839 late at night, in the middle of the night, and I saw this 90 00:06:58.959 --> 00:07:02.199 bright light. I thought at first it was another car coming towards me, 91 00:07:02.319 --> 00:07:05.639 but then as I got closer, I could see it was one bright light 92 00:07:06.319 --> 00:07:10.519 and I initially thought this must be a work crew. How they set up 93 00:07:10.560 --> 00:07:14.199 in the center of the highway. That's their light that I'm seeing. But 94 00:07:14.360 --> 00:07:18.160 right as I got to the underpass, something hit me some feeling, and 95 00:07:18.240 --> 00:07:21.720 I knew, oh, this isn't a work crew. Just like that, 96 00:07:23.040 --> 00:07:26.279 in a snap. The next thing I know, I'm driving down the highway 97 00:07:26.360 --> 00:07:30.120 at sixty five miles an hour. My radios turned all the way up, 98 00:07:30.160 --> 00:07:33.879 but it's off station, so it's just buzz coming through. And my dog 99 00:07:33.920 --> 00:07:40.240 and I just looked at each other with this shocked, confused expression on our 100 00:07:40.279 --> 00:07:44.439 faces. What was that? Something just happened, but I couldn't place my 101 00:07:44.519 --> 00:07:46.959 finger on it. So within a day or so of that experience, my 102 00:07:47.079 --> 00:07:51.399 car broke down in a tiny little town in the middle of nowhere. They 103 00:07:51.399 --> 00:07:55.839 said they were going to have to order the part because they didn't have it. 104 00:07:55.839 --> 00:07:58.879 It was going to take days for them to get this part. Then 105 00:07:58.920 --> 00:08:01.639 they had to fix car, and it was super expensive. It took all 106 00:08:01.680 --> 00:08:05.439 the money I had just to get the car fixed so that I could get 107 00:08:05.480 --> 00:08:07.920 back home. So I knew I wasn't going to make it to Mountaineer on 108 00:08:07.959 --> 00:08:11.519 my first try, but I was not going to give up. I needed 109 00:08:11.560 --> 00:08:16.240 to get to the bottom of this. So after I spent like ten days 110 00:08:16.240 --> 00:08:20.120 in a hotel. The first few nights were fine. I was well rested, 111 00:08:20.199 --> 00:08:24.439 I was soaking in bads. We were ordering pizza. It was just 112 00:08:24.519 --> 00:08:28.040 my dog and I my husky. My dog and I were hiking during the 113 00:08:28.120 --> 00:08:31.519 day. We were well rested and felt good. A third or fourth night 114 00:08:31.600 --> 00:08:37.279 in that hotel, I woke up the next morning with that same hangover feeling 115 00:08:37.360 --> 00:08:41.879 that I had felt all my life when these strange events would happen to me. 116 00:08:41.440 --> 00:08:46.759 The back of my head felt really fuzzy. My whole body just felt 117 00:08:46.879 --> 00:08:50.399 exhausted, like my muscles. I could feel it in my muscles, and 118 00:08:50.440 --> 00:08:54.639 I knew this wasn't just a dream. Something happened to me while I was 119 00:08:54.720 --> 00:08:58.120 asleep, but I have no memory of it. I felt great last night 120 00:08:58.159 --> 00:09:01.879 when I went to bed the post got eight hours sleep. Why am I 121 00:09:01.919 --> 00:09:05.799 waking up feeling this way? And so the next three or four nights in 122 00:09:05.840 --> 00:09:09.000 that hotel, it was the same thing. I woke up feeling the same 123 00:09:09.039 --> 00:09:13.039 way, feeling that trauma and anxiety that I had been through something that I 124 00:09:13.200 --> 00:09:18.600 just couldn't remember. So I started hounding the repair shop. At this point, 125 00:09:18.639 --> 00:09:22.840 I just wanted to go home. So finally they did fix my car 126 00:09:22.000 --> 00:09:26.399 and we did make it back home, but I wasn't going to give up. 127 00:09:26.600 --> 00:09:30.919 I regroup and bought another car, and less than a year later I 128 00:09:31.080 --> 00:09:35.519 made my second attempt to Mount Rainier in Washington. This time we did make 129 00:09:35.559 --> 00:09:39.679 it out there. I had changed a few things. I knew that these 130 00:09:39.720 --> 00:09:43.559 things were happening at night when I was asleep, so I decided that we 131 00:09:43.600 --> 00:09:46.799 would sleep during the day at a public place like a Walmart in the parking 132 00:09:46.840 --> 00:09:52.080 lot, under a security camera, with lots of people walking by, and 133 00:09:52.159 --> 00:09:54.519 that we would drive at night, because at least if I was a week 134 00:09:56.120 --> 00:09:58.840 I had some sort of fighting chance of fighting this off, whatever it was. 135 00:10:00.879 --> 00:10:03.720 So on the second trip, we did make it to Mountaineer, and 136 00:10:05.000 --> 00:10:07.840 it was just as beautiful as the picture that I had in that calendar that 137 00:10:07.919 --> 00:10:11.320 I'd kept, But I knew as soon as we got there that was not 138 00:10:11.440 --> 00:10:15.720 the mountain I was being called to, and I knew at that point that 139 00:10:15.759 --> 00:10:18.559 it was the last guy I was going to have to go to. I 140 00:10:18.600 --> 00:10:22.799 also knew that was a much more in depth trip than just cross country to 141 00:10:22.960 --> 00:10:28.960 Washington, so I knew I would have to go home and regroup and seriously 142 00:10:28.039 --> 00:10:33.279 planned for this trip. On the way back from the second trip, where 143 00:10:33.320 --> 00:10:37.840 we did make it to Mountaineer, my grandmother died. I didn't know that 144 00:10:37.039 --> 00:10:41.039 though I was woken up in the middle of the night this gold ball of 145 00:10:41.159 --> 00:10:46.399 light that just came through the back window of my suv where we had been 146 00:10:46.399 --> 00:10:50.200 sleeping, and came into my body. It went into my chest, and 147 00:10:50.840 --> 00:10:56.080 as the light started entering my chest, I recognized it. I knew that 148 00:10:56.200 --> 00:10:58.919 it was a part of that light that we are all part of. And 149 00:11:00.120 --> 00:11:03.840 as the rest of the energy entered into my body, it clicked, and 150 00:11:03.919 --> 00:11:07.879 I knew instantly this was my grandma's soul, and she said to me in 151 00:11:07.919 --> 00:11:11.360 her voice. I heard her voice in my head say, no, matter 152 00:11:11.399 --> 00:11:16.840 what happens, it's okay. And before I could even respond, that light 153 00:11:16.919 --> 00:11:20.639 started steeping out of my back. And as it was leaving my back, 154 00:11:20.799 --> 00:11:26.200 it left me with this overwhelming feeling of just loneliness and being left all alone, 155 00:11:26.240 --> 00:11:31.279 and a feeling of loss and a feeling of sadness. I grabbed my 156 00:11:31.399 --> 00:11:33.399 dog, who was sleeping next to me in the back of the suv, 157 00:11:33.559 --> 00:11:37.799 and I was just sobbing so hard, just rocking back and forth. I 158 00:11:37.840 --> 00:11:41.440 don't remember going back to sleep, but apparently I did. And the next 159 00:11:41.480 --> 00:11:46.200 thing I remember is my phone ringing at seven point thirty in the morning, 160 00:11:46.320 --> 00:11:48.559 and it was my dad, and he didn't want to tell me that my 161 00:11:48.600 --> 00:11:52.320 grandma had died because he knew I still had to drive all those miles to 162 00:11:52.399 --> 00:11:56.000 get back home. So he just said, in the most cheerful voice that 163 00:11:56.080 --> 00:12:00.320 he could come up with, I need you to come back home now. 164 00:12:00.399 --> 00:12:01.840 We'll talk when you get back here, but I need you to head back 165 00:12:01.919 --> 00:12:05.840 right now. And I said to him, Dad, I already know Grandma 166 00:12:05.879 --> 00:12:09.799 died. At one twenty two last night. Her spirit came and said goodbye 167 00:12:09.879 --> 00:12:15.600 to me, and I could feel his shock and disbelief through the phone. 168 00:12:15.679 --> 00:12:20.799 I could feel it. Then I also felt some anger or jealousy that his 169 00:12:20.919 --> 00:12:24.000 mother had chosen me to do that with and not him. So they ended 170 00:12:24.080 --> 00:12:28.080 up delaying my grandmother's funeral until I made it back for my trip. That 171 00:12:28.240 --> 00:12:33.559 was one of the most difficult experiences of my life, was sitting through that 172 00:12:33.679 --> 00:12:39.039 funeral and realizing that door really is closed and she really is gone. So 173 00:12:39.240 --> 00:12:43.279 I took that energy, that sadness, that anger. I was very angry, 174 00:12:43.320 --> 00:12:45.720 like, why did they take her from me? I was closest to 175 00:12:45.799 --> 00:12:48.480 my Grandmo than anyone else in the world, and I was just very angry 176 00:12:48.480 --> 00:12:52.440 that they took her from me at a time when I needed her most, 177 00:12:52.480 --> 00:12:56.039 when I was facing this big final showdown of mine, that's when they chose 178 00:12:56.120 --> 00:12:58.320 to take her from me. It was like a kick in the guy. 179 00:13:00.080 --> 00:13:05.480 So I took that anger and sadness and I turned it into energy and determination 180 00:13:05.759 --> 00:13:09.279 to get to the bottom of this. I spent nearly the next year preparing 181 00:13:09.320 --> 00:13:13.720 for this trip to Alaska. I bought a shotgun and started training at the 182 00:13:13.720 --> 00:13:18.240 shooting range with my uncle. I'll never forget something that he said to me 183 00:13:18.320 --> 00:13:22.799 on one of our last training sessions. He said, don't ever point this 184 00:13:22.960 --> 00:13:26.240 gun. It's something that you don't want to kill. But if you have 185 00:13:26.320 --> 00:13:31.320 to point this gun, you better be ready and able to pull that trigger. 186 00:13:31.200 --> 00:13:35.600 And I had thought that the gun would be used perhaps if a bear 187 00:13:35.799 --> 00:13:39.240 or a bobcat came out in the wilderness in Alaska, because I knew that 188 00:13:39.320 --> 00:13:45.679 I was taking off into the wilderness by myself in Alaska to find some mountain 189 00:13:45.879 --> 00:13:50.080 and supposedly there was something there for me. So I was preparing in any 190 00:13:50.120 --> 00:13:56.039 way I could. I created a sophisticated first aid kit with painkillers, with 191 00:13:56.120 --> 00:14:01.879 a needle and thread if I needed to give myself stitches with these plastic bandages 192 00:14:01.000 --> 00:14:05.600 to stop blood loss and gaping wounds. Because I knew I was going to 193 00:14:05.639 --> 00:14:09.279 be on my own and if something happened, nobody would be there to help 194 00:14:09.320 --> 00:14:13.720 me. I had a new car, I had fair tires, I had 195 00:14:13.840 --> 00:14:16.679 any and all fluids that I could need for this car. I was well 196 00:14:16.720 --> 00:14:20.519 prepared. I had the whole journey mapped out in a binder where I had 197 00:14:22.039 --> 00:14:26.240 figured out the distances from one point to the next and where I would be 198 00:14:26.320 --> 00:14:30.519 stopping. And I made sure that I would stop at a large town that 199 00:14:30.639 --> 00:14:35.200 had a big, twenty four hour a day open situation, where I could 200 00:14:35.200 --> 00:14:39.200 sleep during the day with hopefully security cameras or at least a large amount of 201 00:14:39.240 --> 00:14:43.320 foot traffic going by, and that I would be driving at night. I 202 00:14:43.360 --> 00:14:48.320 set off on this third trip to Alaska, and I did make it to 203 00:14:48.440 --> 00:14:54.720 Alaska. However, it was the single most terrifying experience of my life. 204 00:14:54.679 --> 00:15:00.639 I felt this darkness following me the whole way there. I knew I was 205 00:15:00.679 --> 00:15:05.799 being watched, and as we got closer to Alaska, my dog and I 206 00:15:05.879 --> 00:15:09.919 both became very sick. We couldn't eat or drink anything. We were vomiting, 207 00:15:09.960 --> 00:15:13.039 we were dry heaving. We couldn't even take a few SIPs of water, 208 00:15:13.279 --> 00:15:18.720 and we were vomiting and dry heaving. Something was attacking us. I 209 00:15:18.759 --> 00:15:22.399 could feel the energy, and the closer we got to Alaska, the more 210 00:15:22.440 --> 00:15:28.200 intense that got. We did make it to Alaska, and a lot of 211 00:15:28.240 --> 00:15:31.960 bad things happened, physical bad things like men trying to break into my car 212 00:15:33.039 --> 00:15:37.919 when I was in a store purchasing some sweatshirts and postcards and memorabilia type stuff. 213 00:15:39.000 --> 00:15:43.080 Even though something inside me knew that I wasn't going to make it back. 214 00:15:43.279 --> 00:15:46.279 I knew that this was a one way trip, but I was trying 215 00:15:46.320 --> 00:15:48.120 to cover my ass, if you will, and make it look like, 216 00:15:48.159 --> 00:15:52.720 oh, yeah, this was a tourist trip out to Alaska, because my 217 00:15:52.799 --> 00:15:56.440 parents were very concerned about my mental well being at this point. This was 218 00:15:56.480 --> 00:16:00.200 the third time that I was taken off by myself to drive to alaa so 219 00:16:00.320 --> 00:16:03.200 with my dog, and I couldn't really tell them why it was I was 220 00:16:03.240 --> 00:16:07.960 going out there. I just had this feeling that my car would be found 221 00:16:07.039 --> 00:16:11.679 but I wouldn't, and I wanted them to find those mementos in there, 222 00:16:11.879 --> 00:16:17.320 I guess to legitimize what I had said. So while I was in the 223 00:16:17.360 --> 00:16:21.639 store, I had this overwhelming feeling that you need to leave right now. 224 00:16:21.759 --> 00:16:23.799 I just grabbed a few things off the shelf, and I threw the money 225 00:16:23.840 --> 00:16:26.960 at the cashier and said keep the change, and I ran out the door. 226 00:16:27.519 --> 00:16:30.720 And as I ran out the door, I had left my windows cracked 227 00:16:30.759 --> 00:16:34.000 for my dog to have some air. And as I ran out the door, 228 00:16:34.080 --> 00:16:37.360 there were these two men. One was sticking his hand through the front 229 00:16:37.399 --> 00:16:41.720 window that was open a few inches as my dog lunged at him. The 230 00:16:41.759 --> 00:16:45.080 other man would try to stick his hand through the back window. So my 231 00:16:45.200 --> 00:16:48.799 dog was lunging back and forth trying to keep these two men from getting the 232 00:16:48.840 --> 00:16:52.960 car door open. And mind you, this was after like seven to ten 233 00:16:52.039 --> 00:16:56.519 days of us being seriously ill and attacked by this energy. So when I 234 00:16:56.559 --> 00:17:00.200 saw them, I just dropped everything and hit the alarm button on my car 235 00:17:00.240 --> 00:17:03.720 and started screaming, Hey, what the hell are you doing? And I 236 00:17:03.840 --> 00:17:07.480 just took off, running straight forward them, and they stopped and turned to 237 00:17:07.559 --> 00:17:12.799 me in this very slow motion and I saw something flash or flicker in their 238 00:17:12.839 --> 00:17:17.480 eyes. Something changed in their eyes, and they get I'm starting to shape 239 00:17:17.559 --> 00:17:22.960 even just recounting this, and they gave me like this sickening smile, and 240 00:17:23.000 --> 00:17:26.960 they just turned and ran away. So I knew at this point, this 241 00:17:27.079 --> 00:17:30.680 is getting serious, this is getting intense. Something is trying to keep me 242 00:17:30.720 --> 00:17:34.759 from making it to this mountain. But it just pissed me off, and 243 00:17:34.839 --> 00:17:37.559 I was like, now I'm going to get there one way or another, 244 00:17:37.720 --> 00:17:42.359 or I'm going to die trying. So we went to a hotel in Anchorage, 245 00:17:42.440 --> 00:17:47.000 and I wanted to take a couple days for us to try and retoop 246 00:17:47.039 --> 00:17:49.519 and hopefully feel a little bit better, get something to eat or drink in 247 00:17:49.640 --> 00:17:55.079 us before we took off into the wilderness on our own. While we were 248 00:17:55.160 --> 00:18:00.079 at that hotel, the window had a broomstick type mechanism that was attached to 249 00:18:00.160 --> 00:18:04.039 it that is a safety mechanism, and it kept the window from sliding all 250 00:18:04.079 --> 00:18:08.079 the way open. So I'm sitting in the hotel room, my dog and 251 00:18:08.119 --> 00:18:11.880 I are still very sick, and all of a sudden, all the hair 252 00:18:11.920 --> 00:18:15.759 on my dog's back stands up and he starts burying his teeth, saliva just 253 00:18:15.839 --> 00:18:19.240 dripping from his mouth, and I see this hand through the corner of the 254 00:18:19.319 --> 00:18:23.240 window. I had the curtains drawn, so I could just see the hand 255 00:18:23.279 --> 00:18:26.359 in the arm come down through the curtains, and it was reaching around trying 256 00:18:26.359 --> 00:18:30.839 to find that broomstick like mechanism to lift that up so that it can slide 257 00:18:30.880 --> 00:18:34.799 the window the rest of the way. I grabbed my shotgun at that point, 258 00:18:34.839 --> 00:18:38.480 and I was ready to blow that man's head off. Like I just 259 00:18:38.559 --> 00:18:42.680 sat there hoping that he would get the window open, because I knew legally 260 00:18:42.799 --> 00:18:45.880 he had to be in the room for me to not be held accountable for 261 00:18:45.920 --> 00:18:49.880 his death. So I quieted my dog and I let him know not to 262 00:18:49.920 --> 00:18:52.839 make a sound. I took the safety off my gun, aimed it, 263 00:18:52.920 --> 00:18:56.039 and just sat there waiting for him to get through the window so that I 264 00:18:56.079 --> 00:19:02.359 could blow his head off. He never did get that broomstick thing lifted up 265 00:19:02.440 --> 00:19:04.960 and gave up eventually, But we sat there all night, shaking like a 266 00:19:06.039 --> 00:19:08.519 leaf, just waiting for this man to attempt to come back in the room. 267 00:19:10.200 --> 00:19:14.559 And at the first light, I grabbed all of our stuff and my 268 00:19:14.640 --> 00:19:17.960 dog and I still had my shotgun in my hand. I was so scared 269 00:19:17.960 --> 00:19:21.440 that somebody was going to be right outside the door when I opened the door, 270 00:19:21.440 --> 00:19:25.039 that they would be by my car, so I had the gun loaded 271 00:19:25.119 --> 00:19:27.920 the safety off. If anybody would have approached me or tried anything, I 272 00:19:27.960 --> 00:19:32.400 would have pulled the trigger. That's how frazzled I was at that point. 273 00:19:33.440 --> 00:19:37.000 I also had some episodes where there was some missing time and I knew some 274 00:19:37.039 --> 00:19:42.400 really traumatic bad things had happened, but I didn't try to remember what they 275 00:19:42.440 --> 00:19:48.000 were. Something inside me knew that I couldn't go back there. I couldn't 276 00:19:48.039 --> 00:19:51.599 and didn't want to remember that, or that would be the end of me. 277 00:19:52.039 --> 00:19:55.920 I had to just keep going and get to this mountain and get whatever 278 00:19:56.000 --> 00:19:59.960 this was, and be done with this, and stay tuned for more sasqua 279 00:20:00.160 --> 00:20:06.880 job to see. We're right back after these messages, after all of that 280 00:20:07.079 --> 00:20:11.519 happened, and my dog and I were just getting sicker, and then the 281 00:20:11.559 --> 00:20:17.359 traumatic missing time, and I decided that's it. My dog's about to die. 282 00:20:17.480 --> 00:20:19.079 I could see that it was really taking a toll on him. He 283 00:20:19.200 --> 00:20:23.200 was in a lot worse shape than I was, and I just decided that's 284 00:20:23.240 --> 00:20:26.400 it. I'm giving up. I'm going to turn around and go back home. 285 00:20:26.519 --> 00:20:30.799 It's not worth losing my dog over. So we got in the car 286 00:20:30.839 --> 00:20:33.759 and decided that we were going to drive back. We were in no shape 287 00:20:33.759 --> 00:20:38.119 to take off driving for weeks to get back to Ohio, but I had 288 00:20:38.160 --> 00:20:42.880 no choice, really, so we got in the car and took off driving 289 00:20:42.960 --> 00:20:48.960 back home. I could still feel that darkness following me. There was an 290 00:20:48.000 --> 00:20:52.200 episode. We hadn't been able to eat or drink. He hadn't gone to 291 00:20:52.240 --> 00:20:56.279 the bathroom. It had been like ten days at least, maybe more so. 292 00:20:56.519 --> 00:20:59.759 Finally my dog drank a little bit of water. The further we got 293 00:21:00.160 --> 00:21:03.519 out of Anchorage, moving out of Alaska, it's like I could feel that 294 00:21:03.759 --> 00:21:07.440 illness, that energy that was making us sick, kind of diminish. So 295 00:21:07.559 --> 00:21:11.720 my dog finally did drink a little water, and he was acting like he 296 00:21:11.759 --> 00:21:15.000 needed to go to the bathroom. So I pulled over on the side of 297 00:21:15.039 --> 00:21:18.119 the road. I told myself that we were not going to get out of 298 00:21:18.160 --> 00:21:22.039 the view of the car. I had my gun, I had my dog, 299 00:21:22.160 --> 00:21:26.839 and I had my keys, and we were just going to stay right 300 00:21:26.880 --> 00:21:29.920 by the car and walk along the edge of the woods and let the dog 301 00:21:30.000 --> 00:21:32.599 sniff around and go to the bathroom, and then we were going to get 302 00:21:32.640 --> 00:21:36.559 back in the car and take off. I don't know how it happened. 303 00:21:37.039 --> 00:21:41.000 I don't have any memory of entering into the wilderness. I have no memory 304 00:21:41.039 --> 00:21:45.640 of walking through the wilderness. One minute, I'm remembering walking back and forth 305 00:21:45.680 --> 00:21:49.839 looking at my car, and the next minute we're deep in the woods. 306 00:21:51.160 --> 00:21:55.799 I can't remember how we got there, and I'm wondering what just happened. 307 00:21:55.839 --> 00:21:59.039 Something just got a hold of me again, And how far in these woods 308 00:21:59.119 --> 00:22:02.799 are we? And did I walk straight in? Or are we going to 309 00:22:02.839 --> 00:22:06.880 be lost out here? So all of a sudden, my dog once again, 310 00:22:07.559 --> 00:22:11.200 same as in the hotel room. He just stopped dead in his tracks, 311 00:22:11.200 --> 00:22:12.640 and all the hair on the back of his neck stood up. He 312 00:22:12.720 --> 00:22:17.720 was baring his teeth, aliba dripping, and he was looking at this big 313 00:22:17.759 --> 00:22:22.200 tree that was probably about thirty feet in front of us. I expected a 314 00:22:22.240 --> 00:22:26.440 bear or a bobcat or some predator animal was going to come out of that 315 00:22:26.519 --> 00:22:30.680 tree or behind that tree. He was definitely focused on the tree. So 316 00:22:30.960 --> 00:22:33.279 I threw his leash on the ground and stepped on it with my boot to 317 00:22:33.400 --> 00:22:37.359 keep him from running into the tree. I got my gun and took the 318 00:22:37.400 --> 00:22:41.720 safety off, and I just stood there and I was scanning my surroundings. 319 00:22:41.759 --> 00:22:48.240 I was looking for any movement. I was just hyper fixated on something's about 320 00:22:48.279 --> 00:22:52.079 to happen here, and I need to be ready. And about that time, 321 00:22:52.240 --> 00:22:57.599 this scraggly looking wild man stepped out from behind the tree, and I 322 00:22:57.640 --> 00:23:03.759 could see flames doancing in his eyes. I could feel the evil, the 323 00:23:03.920 --> 00:23:07.240 darkness in this man. So I said to him, buddy, I don't 324 00:23:07.240 --> 00:23:11.440 want any problems here, but if you take one more step in my direction, 325 00:23:11.599 --> 00:23:15.599 that's exactly what we're going to have. And he gave me this evil 326 00:23:15.680 --> 00:23:18.279 smile like he was thinking about that, and then he lunched at me, 327 00:23:18.440 --> 00:23:22.480 and I pulled that trigger so fast. I didn't hesitate for a second. 328 00:23:23.279 --> 00:23:26.319 And I'm not trying to pat my own back here. But I had become 329 00:23:26.359 --> 00:23:30.079 a really good shot. I had hit a bull's eye from three times that 330 00:23:30.240 --> 00:23:34.119 distance. In my practice, I had learned to control the kickback. I 331 00:23:34.200 --> 00:23:37.279 knew what I was doing with that gun, and he was only thirty feet 332 00:23:37.319 --> 00:23:41.519 away from me. There's no way I didn't hit him. I aimed at 333 00:23:41.519 --> 00:23:47.440 his chest and I was using large game cartridges, and those pellets spread a 334 00:23:47.519 --> 00:23:51.079 pretty good distance, so there is no way that at least some of those 335 00:23:51.119 --> 00:23:55.680 pellets wouldn't have hit him. But yet those pellets seemed to just go right 336 00:23:55.759 --> 00:23:59.599 through him. He didn't even register that anything had happened. He was still 337 00:23:59.680 --> 00:24:03.359 running towards me, and I knew at that point this is not a mere 338 00:24:03.480 --> 00:24:08.240 human that I'm dealing with. And I threw the gun around my shoulder and 339 00:24:08.319 --> 00:24:12.000 scooped up my dog's leash and we just took off and started running. I've 340 00:24:12.079 --> 00:24:15.599 never run so fast in my entire life. It felt like my feet weren't 341 00:24:15.599 --> 00:24:21.640 even hitting the ground. We eventually break out of this wilderness and we're on 342 00:24:21.680 --> 00:24:23.559 the road and I can see about a quarter of a mile down the road 343 00:24:23.680 --> 00:24:29.160 is my car. So I'm heading towards the car, and I'm telling myself 344 00:24:29.559 --> 00:24:32.319 I could feel him behind me. He was chasing me, and I could 345 00:24:32.400 --> 00:24:36.200 feel him getting closer and closer. It felt like at any moment he was 346 00:24:36.240 --> 00:24:40.519 going to reach out and just grab me. So I went to turn around 347 00:24:40.559 --> 00:24:44.279 to see how close he was, and this voice in my head said, 348 00:24:44.680 --> 00:24:48.039 no, don't turn, and look. If you do, you lose put 349 00:24:48.079 --> 00:24:52.799 all your energy into getting out of this. You can see how you did 350 00:24:52.839 --> 00:24:56.599 when it's over. I didn't recognize the voice. I had no idea what 351 00:24:56.680 --> 00:25:03.480 it was, but I could feel the light coming from this communication. I 352 00:25:03.519 --> 00:25:07.519 could feel that this entity was on my side, and I listened to that 353 00:25:07.599 --> 00:25:12.079 voice. I didn't turn around. I was fumbling through my pocket trying to 354 00:25:12.119 --> 00:25:15.160 get my keys out so that I could unlock the car. As we got 355 00:25:15.160 --> 00:25:18.119 to the car, I knew I couldn't stop to get my keys. Once 356 00:25:18.160 --> 00:25:22.039 we got there, I never broke pace. I never looked back. We 357 00:25:22.160 --> 00:25:26.160 continued running. I finally got the keys out of my pocket right before we 358 00:25:26.240 --> 00:25:30.640 got to the car, unlocked the car. We dove in, and I 359 00:25:30.920 --> 00:25:34.359 fish tailed it out of there. The Alaskan Highway at the time was just 360 00:25:34.400 --> 00:25:38.400 a gravel road. You could only go about thirty five forty miles an hour 361 00:25:38.440 --> 00:25:41.599 on there, and there's these huge pot holes, so you really had to 362 00:25:41.680 --> 00:25:45.480 watch the road like a hawk. But we fishchailed out of there, and 363 00:25:45.720 --> 00:25:48.960 I hadn't even taken the gun off of my shoulder. I just I was 364 00:25:49.000 --> 00:25:52.200 shaking like a leaf. I could barely breathe. I think I was starting 365 00:25:52.200 --> 00:25:56.200 to hyper ventilate, but I was not about to stop. I had to 366 00:25:56.359 --> 00:26:00.839 just get out of there. It was a couple of hours before I even 367 00:26:00.960 --> 00:26:03.039 slowed down enough to take the gun off my shoulder. I never stopped, 368 00:26:03.079 --> 00:26:07.319 but I did slow down enough to get the gun off my shoulder and catch 369 00:26:07.359 --> 00:26:11.000 my breath. So that's the backstory to how it is that I found myself 370 00:26:11.039 --> 00:26:17.880 in the Yukon Territory on my way back from Alaska, on a trip that 371 00:26:17.960 --> 00:26:22.000 I never thought that I would make it back from. A couple of days 372 00:26:22.039 --> 00:26:26.960 goes by after that incident of that man in the wilderness. We made it 373 00:26:27.000 --> 00:26:32.720 out of Alaska, and we were in the Yukon Territory in Canada Head and 374 00:26:32.759 --> 00:26:34.960 back down to the Lower forty eighth. I hadn't seen a car in a 375 00:26:36.000 --> 00:26:38.799 couple of days. It was normal like that out there at that time. 376 00:26:38.920 --> 00:26:42.680 You rarely saw another human being or another car. You were lucky if you 377 00:26:42.720 --> 00:26:47.279 saw one every few days. So it had been a few days since we'd 378 00:26:47.319 --> 00:26:51.359 seen another car or person. We were coming up over this hill. It 379 00:26:51.480 --> 00:26:55.960 was a normals I won't say, Sonny, it's always cloudy and overcast up 380 00:26:56.000 --> 00:27:00.960 there, but it was a totally clear, normal day. Nothing to where 381 00:27:00.960 --> 00:27:03.880 it would obstruct my view or anything. And as we come up over this 382 00:27:04.039 --> 00:27:07.559 hill, I can see down the hill and straight out in front of me 383 00:27:08.319 --> 00:27:14.440 there is a sasquatch walking from the edge of the road up onto the road. 384 00:27:14.960 --> 00:27:18.359 I knew that this was not a chance encounter, that this thing was 385 00:27:18.400 --> 00:27:23.200 here for me, and I also knew that it had planned it perfectly, 386 00:27:23.440 --> 00:27:27.960 the timing so that it would be standing in the center of the road right 387 00:27:29.000 --> 00:27:33.279 at the point that my car intersected it. I didn't know what to do. 388 00:27:33.640 --> 00:27:36.400 I was scared to death. I couldn't turn around and head back in 389 00:27:36.400 --> 00:27:40.400 the direction that I just came from. That was just nothing but death and 390 00:27:40.519 --> 00:27:45.799 horrifying things that had happened back there. I certainly wasn't going to stop, 391 00:27:45.000 --> 00:27:48.319 so all I could do the only choice I had was to keep going. 392 00:27:49.119 --> 00:27:52.960 I was worried that my dog was going to go berserk and jump across my 393 00:27:53.039 --> 00:27:56.400 lap trying to get to this thing, which was going to be right outside 394 00:27:56.480 --> 00:28:00.680 my driver's side window. And in a matter of second, and I turned 395 00:28:00.720 --> 00:28:06.240 and looked at my dog, and he's in some sort of trance. He's 396 00:28:06.319 --> 00:28:10.079 not moving. I don't even see him breathing. He's just sitting there. 397 00:28:10.319 --> 00:28:14.039 I've never seen him like that before, no movement at all from my dog. 398 00:28:14.920 --> 00:28:17.720 So I looked at my dog and I look back, and I think, 399 00:28:17.759 --> 00:28:19.640 Okay, here we go. I'm about to intersect with this thing. 400 00:28:19.720 --> 00:28:23.160 And I knew that I was no physical match for this thing. It was 401 00:28:23.799 --> 00:28:29.359 eight or nine feet tall, It had black fur. I could see the 402 00:28:29.480 --> 00:28:33.720 muscles rippling under the skin as it walked across the road. This was no 403 00:28:33.839 --> 00:28:40.039 man in a monkey suit. And I could feel the consciousness of this thing. 404 00:28:40.079 --> 00:28:42.279 It was there for me, and it timed it perfectly to be in 405 00:28:42.319 --> 00:28:47.799 the center of the road right when my car intersected it. And this is 406 00:28:47.880 --> 00:28:52.039 going to sound so crazy, but I swear to you this is the truth. 407 00:28:52.880 --> 00:28:56.400 As my car intersected this thing, and it was standing about six inches 408 00:28:56.559 --> 00:29:02.240 from my driver's side window, it was like someone pushed the pause button. 409 00:29:02.839 --> 00:29:07.160 Everything froze. The leaves were no longer rustling on the trees, My car 410 00:29:07.319 --> 00:29:14.839 was not moving, my dog already had not been moving. Everything just froze. 411 00:29:14.880 --> 00:29:19.480 And here's my car just hanging in suspended animation with this being right beside 412 00:29:21.039 --> 00:29:25.759 my car window. And I turned and looked, and when I made eye 413 00:29:25.799 --> 00:29:32.359 contact with it. There was a telepathic communication, and the communication was so 414 00:29:33.599 --> 00:29:40.079 complex and multi layered and overwhelming it's difficult to even put it into words. 415 00:29:40.480 --> 00:29:45.720 But the gist of this telepathic communication was that he said that he was a 416 00:29:45.839 --> 00:29:51.359 programmed being who was sent here to keep me from making it out of this 417 00:29:51.519 --> 00:29:56.680 wilderness alive, but that he was hurting in here too, just like me, 418 00:29:56.519 --> 00:30:00.720 and that he wasn't going to kill me. He was going to help 419 00:30:00.759 --> 00:30:04.960 me in the hopes that I could help us all. He said his boss 420 00:30:06.000 --> 00:30:10.680 would be coming for me, and that I shouldn't stop and I shouldn't sleep, 421 00:30:11.279 --> 00:30:15.440 that I just should go all the way. And at that moment, 422 00:30:15.519 --> 00:30:19.920 it was like someone pressed the unpaused button. My car sped past this thing. 423 00:30:21.400 --> 00:30:26.480 The leaves started rustling again, my dog was moving again, and I 424 00:30:26.720 --> 00:30:30.319 just was shaking like a leaf, thinking this didn't really happen. I'm trying 425 00:30:30.359 --> 00:30:33.160 to talk myself out of this, like I had to have created this in 426 00:30:33.240 --> 00:30:37.319 my mind because of all this trauma that's been going on. And I glanced 427 00:30:37.359 --> 00:30:44.400 in my driver's side rear view mirror and this thing was black, and the 428 00:30:44.480 --> 00:30:48.319 grass and the foliage and the leaves on the trees was green. So there 429 00:30:48.440 --> 00:30:51.200 was no way that it blended into the edge of the road. As I 430 00:30:51.279 --> 00:30:57.359 glanced in my driver's side view mirror, I see this thing pixel out. 431 00:30:57.680 --> 00:31:03.920 It turned into a bunch to pixels and disappeared into thin air. That just 432 00:31:04.079 --> 00:31:10.000 pulled the rug right out from under me. So at that point I had 433 00:31:10.039 --> 00:31:15.039 it several points throughout my life felt that this was a simulation, that this 434 00:31:15.279 --> 00:31:18.440 was some sort of virtual reality, based on some of my other experiences that 435 00:31:18.480 --> 00:31:25.240 had happened throughout my life, but this was yet another experience that pretty much 436 00:31:25.319 --> 00:31:29.720 solidified it for me. If I could believe my eyes and this thing actually 437 00:31:29.759 --> 00:31:33.880 did pixel out as I saw it do in my mirror and disappear into thin 438 00:31:33.920 --> 00:31:38.200 air, then I knew I was right. This was a simulation, This 439 00:31:38.400 --> 00:31:42.880 was some sort of virtual reality, that this whole experience of mine has all 440 00:31:42.920 --> 00:31:48.799 been some sort of simulated experience. Again, I felt like the rug had 441 00:31:48.839 --> 00:31:53.119 just been pulled out from under me with everything that had happened in Alaska and 442 00:31:53.160 --> 00:31:59.000 then that experience. But I also felt even though I felt like this being 443 00:31:59.240 --> 00:32:02.160 was a player of the dark Side, I'd always known that there were two 444 00:32:02.279 --> 00:32:06.640 teams at play, the side of the Dark and the side of the light, 445 00:32:06.839 --> 00:32:09.599 and I'd always been able to read energy signatures. I could tell when 446 00:32:09.599 --> 00:32:14.119 something approached me if it was a player for the dark side or the light 447 00:32:14.200 --> 00:32:19.480 side. I could just identify that the energy signature. Even though I knew 448 00:32:19.559 --> 00:32:24.279 that this being was a player for the dark side, I felt love and 449 00:32:24.400 --> 00:32:30.880 respect from this being. I felt that it understood that I was hurting and 450 00:32:30.960 --> 00:32:36.240 it was hurting too, and that it was trying to help me, and 451 00:32:36.279 --> 00:32:38.480 that it loved me. I could feel that I could see it in its 452 00:32:38.519 --> 00:32:44.720 eyes, which scared me because most of the dark beings that I'd had interactions 453 00:32:44.759 --> 00:32:46.559 with, that was not the feeling I got from any of them, like 454 00:32:46.599 --> 00:32:52.279 they wanted to destroy me. And I barely made it out through all those 455 00:32:52.319 --> 00:32:57.160 other experiences. But here this player for the dark side was showing empathy to 456 00:32:57.240 --> 00:33:04.400 me and love and compassion, and it basically sacrificed itself and went against its 457 00:33:04.400 --> 00:33:08.839 own orders to help me. So the whole way back, I was filled 458 00:33:08.880 --> 00:33:14.519 with this guilt and this weight on my shoulders. What did he mean so 459 00:33:14.599 --> 00:33:17.599 that I could help us all? What can I possibly do to help us 460 00:33:17.640 --> 00:33:22.039 all? I can't even help myself. I don't understand all of this. 461 00:33:22.640 --> 00:33:25.359 I don't know why all this is happening to me, and I certainly don't 462 00:33:25.440 --> 00:33:30.720 know what I can do to help us all. So I've had that weight 463 00:33:30.799 --> 00:33:35.440 on my shoulders the rest of my life, really, and I did end 464 00:33:35.519 --> 00:33:39.240 up making it back from Alaska. We drove pretty much NonStop. We only 465 00:33:39.279 --> 00:33:44.039 slept a couple of times when I physically had no choice. I was so 466 00:33:44.200 --> 00:33:46.119 wren down. I was afraid I would crash us and kill us if I 467 00:33:46.160 --> 00:33:50.720 didn't get some sleep, So we would pull over always during the day, 468 00:33:51.279 --> 00:33:54.799 only for a couple of hours. I could still feel that darkness. It 469 00:33:54.920 --> 00:33:59.480 was like it was always two steps behind and catching up quick. I could 470 00:33:59.559 --> 00:34:01.640 feel it coming for me, like it was waiting for me to mess up. 471 00:34:01.720 --> 00:34:07.559 So I slept as little as humanly possible the whole way back then, 472 00:34:07.759 --> 00:34:12.760 when we made it to Interstate seventy four, that's the interstate that the exit 473 00:34:12.840 --> 00:34:15.119 for my home is off of. Now, we were still a few hours 474 00:34:15.119 --> 00:34:20.159 away from my home. We were in Indiana, but that is the highway 475 00:34:20.239 --> 00:34:23.800 that the exit for my home is on. When we hit Interstate seventy four, 476 00:34:24.559 --> 00:34:30.239 my body like involuntarily let out this sigh of relief, oh, this 477 00:34:30.320 --> 00:34:32.800 is the highway I live on. We might actually make it through all of 478 00:34:32.840 --> 00:34:37.920 this. And that was all it took, was me letting my guard down 479 00:34:37.000 --> 00:34:43.800 that little bit, and all of these horrifying images of the things that had 480 00:34:43.840 --> 00:34:46.880 happened in Alaska just started coming out of nowhere and hitting me. And I 481 00:34:46.920 --> 00:34:50.800 was trying to push it out of my head, saying, nope, you 482 00:34:50.840 --> 00:34:52.639 can't remember that. You don't want to know that. That'll be your end. 483 00:34:53.519 --> 00:34:57.599 I was starting to have a panic attack. My hands and my feet 484 00:34:57.639 --> 00:35:00.480 went numb, and I felt this w on my chest. I felt like 485 00:35:00.519 --> 00:35:04.920 I was going to have a heart attack. And I ended up with my 486 00:35:05.239 --> 00:35:08.960 arms being able to steer the car to the side of the highway and I 487 00:35:09.039 --> 00:35:13.559 brought it to a stop with my numb foot on the brake, but I 488 00:35:13.599 --> 00:35:15.960 couldn't shift it into park. I was just sitting there, leaned up against 489 00:35:16.000 --> 00:35:20.679 the steering rail with my foot trying to push down on the brake, and 490 00:35:20.760 --> 00:35:22.239 I felt like I was going to die. I felt, okay, I 491 00:35:22.320 --> 00:35:24.760 was right, I'm not going to make it back from this trip. We 492 00:35:24.760 --> 00:35:29.440 were close, we almost made it, but I'm not going to make it. 493 00:35:30.159 --> 00:35:35.480 Then I saw in my driver's rear view mirror a Semi coming my way, 494 00:35:36.519 --> 00:35:40.000 and I knew that I had to do something to stop those memories from 495 00:35:40.159 --> 00:35:45.960 entering back into my head no matter what. So I realized, I'm going 496 00:35:45.039 --> 00:35:49.039 to have to pull out in front of this semi and let it hit me, 497 00:35:49.679 --> 00:35:52.679 and it's going to knock me unconscious, and there's a good chance I 498 00:35:52.719 --> 00:35:57.880 won't survive it. But there's zero chants that I'll survive with these memories resurface 499 00:35:57.960 --> 00:36:00.440 in my head. So this is my best shot, my only shot. 500 00:36:00.519 --> 00:36:05.320 It's the only car I see coming, and I knew my dog, who 501 00:36:05.400 --> 00:36:09.760 wasn't strapped in, would not survive this impact. But those were my choices, 502 00:36:10.599 --> 00:36:15.280 and so I made it. And as the Semi got near me, 503 00:36:15.679 --> 00:36:21.880 I used my numb arms and lammed my foot on the gas and pulled out 504 00:36:21.920 --> 00:36:24.440 right in front of this semi. As it's coming down the highway at sixty 505 00:36:24.480 --> 00:36:31.039 five miles an hour. This poor guy almost jackknifed his trailer to keep from 506 00:36:31.119 --> 00:36:37.639 hitting me. He swerved so hard, screeched his truck in this mangled position 507 00:36:37.800 --> 00:36:40.400 to a stop, and got out of his truck and was screaming at me, 508 00:36:40.920 --> 00:36:45.480 what do you have of fucking dug wish, and all I could get 509 00:36:45.519 --> 00:36:51.000 out was heart attack, nine one one cleat and his demeanor, the look 510 00:36:51.079 --> 00:36:53.880 on his face just changed instantly, and he grabbed his cell phone and he 511 00:36:53.960 --> 00:36:58.480 called nine one one and he was talking to them. They were trying to 512 00:36:58.519 --> 00:37:01.400 get him to get me to unlock the car door so that he could check 513 00:37:01.480 --> 00:37:06.599 me, check my pulse or something, and I wouldn't because I knew that 514 00:37:06.719 --> 00:37:09.880 darkness was still after me, and I didn't trust anything or anyone. And 515 00:37:09.920 --> 00:37:14.360 I told him, buddy, I am not opening these doors or rolling down 516 00:37:14.400 --> 00:37:19.159 these windows till I see siren. He relayed that to the nine one one 517 00:37:19.199 --> 00:37:22.119 operator, who suggested that I roll down my window a few inches and stick 518 00:37:22.159 --> 00:37:25.639 my wrist out so that he could check my pulse via my wrist. So 519 00:37:25.719 --> 00:37:30.239 I agreed to do that. Shortly after that, the ambulance and the police 520 00:37:30.280 --> 00:37:35.039 showed up. They were all trying to convince me to get out of the 521 00:37:35.079 --> 00:37:38.400 car and to get into the ambulance and let them check me out. And 522 00:37:38.440 --> 00:37:44.199 I just kept hearing that Sasquatch's voice in my head over and over, don't 523 00:37:44.239 --> 00:37:49.079 stop, don't sleep, just go all the way. Something inside me was 524 00:37:49.119 --> 00:37:52.159 telling me, no, I have to keep going. I have to keep 525 00:37:52.199 --> 00:37:55.880 going. But the police officer said to me, you have no choice. 526 00:37:55.880 --> 00:38:00.119 I can't let you take off driving in this state. You have to to 527 00:38:00.119 --> 00:38:02.239 get out of the car and come to the ambulance and let them check you 528 00:38:02.320 --> 00:38:07.760 out. And I was telling the police officer, I can't leave my dog 529 00:38:07.800 --> 00:38:09.679 on the side of the road in the darkness, because I knew what was 530 00:38:09.719 --> 00:38:14.519 after us, and that was my biggest fear. I can't leave my dog 531 00:38:14.559 --> 00:38:16.559 on the side of the road in the darkness to go off in this ambulance. 532 00:38:16.599 --> 00:38:22.119 That's not going to happen. He said, call your parents and tell 533 00:38:22.159 --> 00:38:24.559 them the location and tell them to come get your dog right now. And 534 00:38:24.639 --> 00:38:30.000 I promise you I will stay right here with your car until your parents get 535 00:38:30.039 --> 00:38:35.559 here to pick him up. So I agreed. After that police officer promised 536 00:38:35.559 --> 00:38:37.400 me that he would stay with my dog. I agreed. I told them 537 00:38:37.400 --> 00:38:42.360 all just back up. I'll do it myself. I unlocked my car door, 538 00:38:42.559 --> 00:38:45.280 I got out of my car, and I remember taking two steps and 539 00:38:45.400 --> 00:38:50.320 then I blacked out. I woke up in the ambulance, which the doors 540 00:38:50.360 --> 00:38:52.960 were still open, and I could see my car and my dog could see 541 00:38:53.000 --> 00:38:58.679 me. And I can see the look on his face. It's like he 542 00:38:58.840 --> 00:39:02.440 was hoping and praying that I would get out of that ambulance and come back 543 00:39:02.480 --> 00:39:07.119 to the car. And he had this very worried look on his face, 544 00:39:07.280 --> 00:39:13.760 and as they started to close the ambulance doors, he realized that I wasn't 545 00:39:13.800 --> 00:39:20.559 coming back to the car. The look of Kert on that dog's face did 546 00:39:20.599 --> 00:39:23.320 more to me than any of those terrible things that had happened to me in 547 00:39:23.360 --> 00:39:30.760 Alaska. It broke me. It just broke me. I came undone in 548 00:39:30.840 --> 00:39:35.440 the ambulance. I was shaking. I was shaking so hard, and I 549 00:39:35.559 --> 00:39:38.119 was so hot from the inside. All this heat was radiating out at me, 550 00:39:39.360 --> 00:39:42.800 and I was shaking so hard. They said that I was going to 551 00:39:42.840 --> 00:39:45.559 break my teeth, and that since I couldn't calm myself down, that they 552 00:39:45.559 --> 00:39:51.000 were going to have to tranquilize me for my own safety. And all I 553 00:39:51.039 --> 00:39:53.440 could see was that look on my dog's face, that heart broken look, 554 00:39:53.480 --> 00:39:58.199 as they closed those doors and he watched me drive off, leaving him there 555 00:39:58.239 --> 00:40:01.920 in the darkness, knowing what was at after us. And they did tranquilize 556 00:40:01.960 --> 00:40:06.760 me within a few minutes. It was like I was floating on this cloud. 557 00:40:06.880 --> 00:40:09.519 I didn't forget anything. I knew everything that had happened and what I 558 00:40:09.519 --> 00:40:14.599 had done to my dog, and then I basically sacrificed him to save myself, 559 00:40:15.400 --> 00:40:17.320 but that I had no choice. The police officer was not going to 560 00:40:17.440 --> 00:40:22.639 let me drive off anyway. So we get to the hospital and I thought 561 00:40:22.679 --> 00:40:27.239 just a few minutes had gone by, but apparently a few hours had gone 562 00:40:27.280 --> 00:40:30.679 by, because my parents were walking into the hospital and the first thing out 563 00:40:30.679 --> 00:40:35.800 of my mouth is where's Arrows? Where is my dog? And my mom 564 00:40:35.840 --> 00:40:38.440 said, calm down, Arrows is in the car. He's fine, he's 565 00:40:38.480 --> 00:40:42.679 waiting for you. Let's get you checked out of here and get you home. 566 00:40:43.480 --> 00:40:46.239 So I was checked out of the hospital. My mom was going to 567 00:40:46.360 --> 00:40:51.079 drive my car back with me and Arrows in it, and my dad was 568 00:40:51.119 --> 00:40:54.440 going to drive their car and follow us back home. So my mom was 569 00:40:54.519 --> 00:40:58.159 driving, I was in the passenger seat, and my dog was in the 570 00:40:58.199 --> 00:41:01.360 back seat. And as we took off driving, my dog laid his head 571 00:41:01.360 --> 00:41:06.800 on my mom's shoulder and let out this sigh, and I could hear him 572 00:41:07.079 --> 00:41:10.199 almost telepathically. I could hear him say, thank God, you guys are 573 00:41:10.199 --> 00:41:14.920 here because we weren't gonna make it. I did make it back home. 574 00:41:15.360 --> 00:41:17.519 It wasn't like we were safe. Once I made it back home, I 575 00:41:17.599 --> 00:41:22.360 knew that darkness was still after me and that it would not be the last 576 00:41:22.400 --> 00:41:24.400 I would see of it. But it was like, at least now we 577 00:41:24.480 --> 00:41:28.920 have the home court advantage. I'm back home, I know my surroundings, 578 00:41:28.920 --> 00:41:31.719 I have my family, So there was a little bit of a sigh of 579 00:41:31.840 --> 00:41:37.559 relief. Dark things continued to happen. That was not the end of the 580 00:41:37.599 --> 00:41:40.400 saga, for sure, but it was different. I felt like I had 581 00:41:40.440 --> 00:41:45.519 more control over it. I felt stronger in some way. I felt like 582 00:41:45.599 --> 00:41:50.840 I was more able to deal with it. And I never did let those 583 00:41:50.920 --> 00:41:54.039 memories back in. I always knew it was there, I always felt it 584 00:41:54.159 --> 00:41:59.280 sitting in my head, but I had repressed it and knew that I could 585 00:41:59.280 --> 00:42:01.559 not let that back in, no matter what, at any cost, I 586 00:42:01.599 --> 00:42:07.320 could not let that back in. So then I had an awakening. During 587 00:42:07.360 --> 00:42:12.320 the COVID lockdowns in twenty nineteen and twenty twenty, I was hit with an 588 00:42:12.360 --> 00:42:16.280 awakening where all of a sudden, it was like a dozen TV screens being 589 00:42:16.360 --> 00:42:21.079 whizzed at my head. But It wasn't just images, it was everything. 590 00:42:21.360 --> 00:42:27.480 It was the emotion, the feeling, everything that I experienced during these episodes 591 00:42:27.480 --> 00:42:31.679 of high strangeness throughout my life was just hitting me like downloads, like one 592 00:42:31.800 --> 00:42:37.639 after another. And I was seeing it from a different perspective, not from 593 00:42:37.760 --> 00:42:42.679 this three D person that I am experiencing it sad and scared and traumatized. 594 00:42:42.760 --> 00:42:45.840 I was seeing it from outside myself, from above it all, and I 595 00:42:45.880 --> 00:42:50.719 can see why this had to happen, and how this led me here and 596 00:42:51.159 --> 00:42:54.480 who was responsible for this? Just hit with a massive amount of stuff. 597 00:42:55.199 --> 00:43:00.920 So after that awakening, I started trying to put them all together. What 598 00:43:00.320 --> 00:43:05.559 does all of this mean? These were those answers that I've been searching for 599 00:43:05.679 --> 00:43:07.800 my whole life. I got most of it back, but I knew they 600 00:43:07.880 --> 00:43:10.440 would. They didn't give me all of it back. In my mind, 601 00:43:10.480 --> 00:43:15.599 I kept saying, how does Alaska fit in? Why did I keep trying 602 00:43:15.599 --> 00:43:19.840 to get back to the same place over and over again? What was there 603 00:43:19.880 --> 00:43:23.280 for me that I obviously didn't find? There's something you're not telling me here 604 00:43:23.320 --> 00:43:29.559 because this battle would have happened anywhere. Why did I keep trying to get 605 00:43:29.599 --> 00:43:34.239 back to a particular place, what was in Alaska that I didn't find? 606 00:43:34.320 --> 00:43:38.800 And at that point I was hit with this memory that I had no knowledge 607 00:43:38.880 --> 00:43:43.239 of. Most of these things that I had been hit with, I would 608 00:43:43.280 --> 00:43:47.599 have conscious flashback is what I called them, little instances where if somebody showed 609 00:43:47.599 --> 00:43:51.960 you a slide, and a slide show, you just get one frame and 610 00:43:52.440 --> 00:43:57.320 you can't put anything around it or connect it to anything, and you don't 611 00:43:57.320 --> 00:44:00.639 know really what it was, and you didn't really have consciousness memory of that 612 00:44:00.719 --> 00:44:04.840 experience. But here it is this one little flash, this one little slide, 613 00:44:04.920 --> 00:44:08.400 and during that slide, you feel the emotion, the trauma, the 614 00:44:08.440 --> 00:44:12.519 stress. So it happened to you. You remember it, You have a 615 00:44:12.599 --> 00:44:15.400 remembrance, and you're like, why didn't I remember that before? Where has 616 00:44:15.440 --> 00:44:19.960 that been all my life? How could this memory just not be there? 617 00:44:20.800 --> 00:44:23.599 So as I'm getting hit with all of this stuff during my awakening, I 618 00:44:23.880 --> 00:44:28.639 was suddenly starting to put it all together, what this all was? Then 619 00:44:28.719 --> 00:44:31.559 I knew that they had still kept something from me. What was the Alaska 620 00:44:31.639 --> 00:44:36.960 deal? Why did I have to go that far? And I was shown 621 00:44:37.039 --> 00:44:42.159 this memory that I never had any flashbacks of. I never had any knowledge 622 00:44:42.159 --> 00:44:49.800 whatsoever of this and the memory was of me being in an underground city. 623 00:44:50.079 --> 00:44:54.039 This underground location, I was in a huge arena and it was like a 624 00:44:54.079 --> 00:44:59.719 hockey rink. There was a glass wall that was from about my waist all 625 00:44:59.760 --> 00:45:04.320 the way way up to the ceiling. There was this blue skinned being sitting 626 00:45:04.400 --> 00:45:08.119 beside me. My body was frozen. I couldn't move anything but my eyes, 627 00:45:08.199 --> 00:45:12.079 but I was looking out of the corner of my eyes trying to see 628 00:45:12.079 --> 00:45:15.119 what this being is, who's sitting beside me. All of a sudden, 629 00:45:15.159 --> 00:45:20.599 at the end of this field, there was this white wall, and it 630 00:45:20.719 --> 00:45:25.159 seemed unnatural, almost alive. There was something really strange about this white wall, 631 00:45:25.159 --> 00:45:29.239 and it was emitting so much light. It was lighting up this full 632 00:45:29.400 --> 00:45:32.599 underground stadium. And all of a sudden, a door opened up in the 633 00:45:32.639 --> 00:45:37.199 center of it. It was probably the length of three football fields away, 634 00:45:37.239 --> 00:45:44.599 that's how big this stadium was. And I see this blue being step out 635 00:45:44.639 --> 00:45:47.880 of this door from the white wall, and the white wall closes, and 636 00:45:47.920 --> 00:45:52.480 this being is walking towards us, but it's so far away, it's like 637 00:45:52.519 --> 00:45:55.639 all I can see is like a spot on the horizon, and I'm sitting 638 00:45:55.679 --> 00:46:01.880 there and I get this message like this telepathic message from this being sitting beside 639 00:46:01.880 --> 00:46:06.679 me that says focus, And I'm thinking, what am I supposed to be 640 00:46:06.719 --> 00:46:10.039 focusing on? This is nothing but an empty field and some being walking across. 641 00:46:10.039 --> 00:46:13.519 Why is it taking so long for this being to get over here? 642 00:46:13.840 --> 00:46:16.280 You guys can do all this, but you don't have a hoverboard or a 643 00:46:16.320 --> 00:46:21.280 golf cart to get this thing over here. And that quick could hit me. 644 00:46:21.519 --> 00:46:23.719 That's it. I just hit the nail on the head. Of course, 645 00:46:23.760 --> 00:46:30.119 they could instantly being before me if they wanted to. They're purposely having 646 00:46:30.159 --> 00:46:34.559 this being start from a far off distance and they're waiting for some sort of 647 00:46:34.599 --> 00:46:39.079 reaction from me, so they're obviously trying to judge at what distance this reaction 648 00:46:39.280 --> 00:46:45.280 will happen. And at that point I felt anger from not only this being 649 00:46:45.360 --> 00:46:47.719 beside me, but these beings that I could feel were behind me. I 650 00:46:47.719 --> 00:46:52.639 couldn't see them, but I could feel them behind me, and I knew 651 00:46:52.679 --> 00:46:54.679 I'd hit the nail on the head. They were pissed off that I landed 652 00:46:54.719 --> 00:47:00.159 on that truth. As this being got closer and closer, I could see 653 00:47:00.199 --> 00:47:02.920 that it was carrying something. As it got close enough to where I could 654 00:47:02.920 --> 00:47:09.880 start to make out details. It was this beautiful, luminous, blueskinned being 655 00:47:09.960 --> 00:47:15.199 that had this light coming from underneath of it, and it hit me all 656 00:47:15.239 --> 00:47:19.800 of a sudden that this light coming from this blue being is the same light 657 00:47:19.880 --> 00:47:23.239 that's making up this white wall down at the end of the stadium. And 658 00:47:23.320 --> 00:47:29.519 I knew, whatever this being is made of is the same material that wall 659 00:47:29.599 --> 00:47:32.079 is made of. And once again I landed on a truth, and I 660 00:47:32.119 --> 00:47:37.679 could feel the beings behind me go into a rage. They wanted to tear 661 00:47:37.760 --> 00:47:44.480 me apart, and the blue being sitting beside me said telepathically, sometimes I'm 662 00:47:44.559 --> 00:47:49.639 able to pierce these veils through some of these experiences. I've been privy to 663 00:47:49.719 --> 00:47:52.679 conversations that they weren't aware that I was privy to. I always thought of 664 00:47:52.719 --> 00:47:57.360 it as like a special little gift or ace up my sleeve that I had 665 00:47:57.360 --> 00:48:01.000 been given that somehow I perceived these stations that they didn't think I was listening 666 00:48:01.000 --> 00:48:06.880 to. And the being beside me, when these beings behind me were pissed 667 00:48:06.880 --> 00:48:09.199 and they said something to her to the being beside me, something to the 668 00:48:09.239 --> 00:48:14.639 effect of, this isn't going the way it's supposed to, or we're giving 669 00:48:14.679 --> 00:48:17.960 away more than we're getting or something like that, and they wanted to tear 670 00:48:19.000 --> 00:48:22.119 me apart, to kill me right then and there. But this blue being 671 00:48:22.159 --> 00:48:27.199 beside me said telepathically to them, no weight, she hasn't even seen it 672 00:48:27.280 --> 00:48:31.280 yet, And that caught my attention, and I thought, seen what yet? 673 00:48:31.519 --> 00:48:36.599 And as this blue being walking across the field got even closer, I 674 00:48:36.679 --> 00:48:40.840 could see that she was carrying a child, and she was carrying this child 675 00:48:40.960 --> 00:48:45.079 like a woman would carry a toddler on her hip, and the child was 676 00:48:45.119 --> 00:48:50.320 facing the white wall looking over this being shoulder, so I could only see 677 00:48:50.360 --> 00:48:54.639 the back of this child. But something about its hair caught my attention, 678 00:48:55.519 --> 00:49:00.599 and I thought to myself, Hey, that's like my hair. And before 679 00:49:00.639 --> 00:49:04.400 I could even finish the thought, I knew, no, it's not like 680 00:49:04.519 --> 00:49:08.119 my hair. It is my hair. And I was so confused, thinking 681 00:49:08.320 --> 00:49:13.679 what is this? Was this being made from me? And right at that 682 00:49:13.840 --> 00:49:20.519 moment, the being beside me smiled and gave me a flashback of a pregnancy 683 00:49:20.559 --> 00:49:23.960 when I was nineteen years old that I ended up having a miscarriage on Christmas 684 00:49:24.119 --> 00:49:29.440 night, of all times, in the middle of the night, I had 685 00:49:29.480 --> 00:49:34.480 this miscarriage, and this being was conveying to me that they had taken that 686 00:49:34.559 --> 00:49:37.880 fetus, and that was what I was seeing in this being before me. 687 00:49:38.159 --> 00:49:44.000 They gave the instruction for the being on the field to have this child turn 688 00:49:44.119 --> 00:49:47.280 and face me, and the being on the field that was carrying this child 689 00:49:47.400 --> 00:49:52.199 whispered something into its ear, and this child turned and faced me, and 690 00:49:52.280 --> 00:49:59.280 it was a hybrid child of a gray alien and a human stay tuned for 691 00:49:59.360 --> 00:50:06.960 more sasquad jobysy war right back after these messages. It had the big, 692 00:50:07.000 --> 00:50:10.440 black slanted eyes, the arms and legs were too long for the body, 693 00:50:10.480 --> 00:50:15.039 and the hair was really thin. But I knew it was my hair. 694 00:50:15.119 --> 00:50:19.960 I knew it was my child. I could feel the connection. But I 695 00:50:20.039 --> 00:50:23.159 also knew that this glass wall that was put up was like some sort of 696 00:50:23.159 --> 00:50:28.000 one way mirror. That I could see this child, but this child couldn't 697 00:50:28.039 --> 00:50:31.840 see me, and that it blocked any resonance. No energy of any sort 698 00:50:31.920 --> 00:50:37.199 could get through this wall. This child couldn't sense my presence, just as 699 00:50:37.239 --> 00:50:43.119 I didn't sense her presence until I saw her hair, and that triggered something 700 00:50:43.159 --> 00:50:46.079 in me. I recognized it on a cellular level, if that makes any 701 00:50:46.119 --> 00:50:53.519 sense. And so after I'm given back this experience during my awakening, and 702 00:50:53.920 --> 00:51:00.119 I like snap out of that experience and just fall to the floor in tears. 703 00:51:00.199 --> 00:51:07.519 I'm hysterical and I'm vomiting and I'm shaking, and I realized that's what 704 00:51:07.639 --> 00:51:12.199 was drawing me to Alaska. It was this hybrid child, and it had 705 00:51:12.239 --> 00:51:17.639 been conveyed to me in the awakening that we were important to their research, 706 00:51:17.800 --> 00:51:22.559 that they were trying to study that connection and what happens when that connection is 707 00:51:22.679 --> 00:51:27.880 kept from the both of us. And I realized and put it all together. 708 00:51:28.679 --> 00:51:34.639 This child developed her sighabilities and was drawing me to Alaska like some sort 709 00:51:34.679 --> 00:51:39.519 of beacon. And that's what was drawing me to Alaska over and over again. 710 00:51:40.159 --> 00:51:44.719 And they were trying to stop me from reaching her because our part in 711 00:51:44.760 --> 00:51:47.840 this experiment was that there was to be no contact and they wanted to see 712 00:51:47.840 --> 00:51:52.000 what that would do to us. But I guess after the third try, 713 00:51:52.079 --> 00:51:55.800 they realized she's never going to give up. She's going to keep coming for 714 00:51:55.840 --> 00:52:00.719 her. And that was one of the repress things that happened when I was 715 00:52:00.760 --> 00:52:05.440 in Alaska that I had told myself, I don't want that back. So 716 00:52:05.559 --> 00:52:09.400 it all came together for me and after my awakening, I was left feeling 717 00:52:09.480 --> 00:52:15.000 like, wow, Okay, so I got some of the answers that I 718 00:52:15.039 --> 00:52:19.039 had been after during my whole life and what it all meant and why some 719 00:52:19.119 --> 00:52:22.719 of these things had happened to me. But I'm still left with that guilt, 720 00:52:22.880 --> 00:52:30.719 that feeling of obligation to the Sasquatch. It sacrificed itself for me in 721 00:52:30.760 --> 00:52:36.400 the hopes that I could help us all, and I'm still thinking with all 722 00:52:36.440 --> 00:52:39.280 the answers that I was given back and everything in my awakening, I'm still 723 00:52:39.320 --> 00:52:43.920 thinking, what does it mean? What am I supposed to do with all 724 00:52:43.960 --> 00:52:47.360 of this? What can I do to help us all? This creature sacrificed 725 00:52:47.400 --> 00:52:52.880 itself in the hopes that I might do something, and I don't know what 726 00:52:52.920 --> 00:52:57.440 that is. And then it hit me what I can do to help us 727 00:52:57.480 --> 00:53:01.400 all is to go public with my experience, to shine a light on all 728 00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:06.559 of this, and to share with everyone what I learned from it, what 729 00:53:06.599 --> 00:53:10.360 it meant, what it showed me, and hopefully that will change the way 730 00:53:10.360 --> 00:53:14.360 we live our lives and the way we treat each other, and the way 731 00:53:14.400 --> 00:53:17.360 we treat the earth and animals in it. It has the ability to reshape 732 00:53:17.400 --> 00:53:22.480 our entire life experiences. And it was like an epiphany moment. That's what 733 00:53:22.559 --> 00:53:27.760 I can do to make the sacrifice that this feature made for me worth it 734 00:53:27.840 --> 00:53:30.599 in some way to feel like I lived up to or earned what he gave 735 00:53:30.679 --> 00:53:35.320 for me. So that's when I sat down, in like a stream of 736 00:53:35.360 --> 00:53:38.760 consciousness, I typed out my PDF. I typed it out in four or 737 00:53:38.800 --> 00:53:44.920 five marathon typing sessions. I didn't even go back and read it. I 738 00:53:44.960 --> 00:53:49.480 didn't fit any spelling mistakes, nothing. As soon as I typed the last 739 00:53:49.480 --> 00:53:52.679 word, I pulled the thumb drive out of my computer. I ran down 740 00:53:52.719 --> 00:53:55.400 to the copy store, had him print out a few hard copies, and 741 00:53:55.440 --> 00:54:00.760 then I posted it as a public, free PDF for everyone to see, 742 00:54:01.079 --> 00:54:06.599 know, and have access to. And I felt this sense of ah, 743 00:54:06.639 --> 00:54:08.920 it's out of my hands. Now it's off my test. I did do 744 00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:13.960 something with all of this, something that's hopefully going to make a positive change. 745 00:54:14.000 --> 00:54:17.719 And I've continued to try and make that positive change by coming onto shows 746 00:54:17.760 --> 00:54:22.920 and speaking like I am today, trying to make as many as I can 747 00:54:22.440 --> 00:54:28.199 aware of these experiences in the hopes that it'll help fill in some blanks for 748 00:54:28.280 --> 00:54:32.760 others. Or give others the courage to come forward with their experiences. I 749 00:54:32.800 --> 00:54:38.119 think our world is changing fast, and I think that this topic isn't as 750 00:54:38.199 --> 00:54:42.840 taboo as it once was. I think people are realizing that there is a 751 00:54:42.920 --> 00:54:47.360 lot more to our reality than we ever realized or had access to in the 752 00:54:47.440 --> 00:54:53.480 past. I believe that this great awakening that we're going through is us being 753 00:54:53.519 --> 00:54:59.039 given an upgrade, a chance to partake in some of this greater reality that 754 00:54:59.079 --> 00:55:02.360 we've not had act access to. So it was pretty much shown to me 755 00:55:02.599 --> 00:55:08.079 that our brains are receivers. They're like a radio. All the stations are 756 00:55:08.119 --> 00:55:14.320 present, but you only experience what you're tuned into. We're going to be 757 00:55:14.360 --> 00:55:19.320 given the ability to have control over our dial and be able to tune into 758 00:55:19.480 --> 00:55:22.320 more stations, if you will, than what we've ever been able to before. 759 00:55:23.320 --> 00:55:29.639 So with regards to the Sasquatch, I came to believe it's my belief 760 00:55:29.679 --> 00:55:37.239 that these beings are existing all around us in another frequency that we can't perceive, 761 00:55:37.960 --> 00:55:42.400 but they have the ability to tune their dial, to tune into and 762 00:55:42.519 --> 00:55:46.760 become a part and interact with our physical reality, and then they can tune 763 00:55:46.800 --> 00:55:52.400 themselves right back out to a higher frequency that we're unable to reach or unable 764 00:55:52.440 --> 00:55:57.880 to see, and that would explain why some crafts and beings appear and disappear 765 00:55:57.960 --> 00:56:02.800 right before our eyes. How it is that these beings are physical and able 766 00:56:02.840 --> 00:56:07.760 to interact with our reality, yet we've never found a skeleton or a dead 767 00:56:07.760 --> 00:56:13.920 body, or any solid physical proof to prove that these beings are here. 768 00:56:14.639 --> 00:56:19.199 And it just all flicked for me that they're tuning into our reality and interacting 769 00:56:19.239 --> 00:56:24.079 with it and interacting with us, but that's not the frequency that they exist 770 00:56:24.119 --> 00:56:29.400 at, and they're able to tune back out of our reality just as easily. 771 00:56:29.920 --> 00:56:34.599 And prior to now, we've not had the ability to pierce those frequency 772 00:56:34.679 --> 00:56:38.039 veils and get to those higher frequencies that we can perceive these beings. And 773 00:56:38.079 --> 00:56:43.840 I believe that's changing with the Great Awakening and everything that's starting to come out, 774 00:56:43.880 --> 00:56:46.639 and science is starting to catch up with it all. I just think 775 00:56:46.679 --> 00:56:52.159 it's going to be a whole new world before too long. So thank you 776 00:56:52.239 --> 00:56:57.159 for letting me come on and share all this craziness. Like I said, 777 00:56:57.360 --> 00:57:00.440 if it helps one person fill in one blank, and it was all worth 778 00:57:00.480 --> 00:57:06.880 it as scary and traumatizing as my experiences were. Now that I'm out of 779 00:57:06.920 --> 00:57:09.440 it out the other end, if you will, I think of it as 780 00:57:09.480 --> 00:57:13.760 an honor that someone thought that I was strong enough to make it through all 781 00:57:13.800 --> 00:57:15.559 of this, and they were right. I did, and I'm going to 782 00:57:15.639 --> 00:57:21.159 make something positive of it, hopefully make a change in this world. There's 783 00:57:21.199 --> 00:57:23.199 a ton of questions that I wrote down, but I'll just keep it simple 784 00:57:23.239 --> 00:57:25.519 because people are going to listen to this and they're going to have a lot 785 00:57:25.519 --> 00:57:29.719 of questions, right so, I can see the emails pouring in now, 786 00:57:30.039 --> 00:57:32.400 So I'll just keep it simple and ask this because I've asked this of folks 787 00:57:32.440 --> 00:57:37.159 recently that I've had on the show and some of the topics that we've covered 788 00:57:37.199 --> 00:57:40.000 on the show recently. There are people that are going to listen to your 789 00:57:40.039 --> 00:57:45.440 story and say, she is absolutely batshit crazy. That's going to happen. 790 00:57:45.639 --> 00:57:49.199 I can get the emails. I can see them in my brain. Now 791 00:57:49.199 --> 00:57:52.960 it's going to happen. Let's address that here and now, how do you 792 00:57:53.039 --> 00:57:58.119 deal with that? Because if you tell your story often you've put this pdf 793 00:57:58.159 --> 00:58:04.519 out there, how do you address that with people asking respectfully or having concerns 794 00:58:04.559 --> 00:58:07.840 to say, maybe there's some mental health issues on board, or maybe there's 795 00:58:07.840 --> 00:58:10.400 something else going on here. How do you address that with the naysayers and 796 00:58:10.400 --> 00:58:15.000 the people that are going to be skeptical and cynical about your story? How 797 00:58:15.000 --> 00:58:17.840 do you address that going in? Because I even jotted down that at one 798 00:58:17.880 --> 00:58:22.400 point when you were making these trips your parents had concerns about your mental health 799 00:58:22.840 --> 00:58:25.079 and what was going on with you. I guess start there with your parents. 800 00:58:25.159 --> 00:58:30.159 Was it directly in correlation to you just having abnormal behavior and taken off 801 00:58:30.199 --> 00:58:34.239 into the wilderness by yourself, or was there something else that they were concerned 802 00:58:34.280 --> 00:58:37.280 about? And then move into if you wouldn't mind addressing the question of the 803 00:58:37.320 --> 00:58:40.639 here and now the people that are going to hear this and say it's not 804 00:58:40.679 --> 00:58:44.480 a mental health issue. These things really happen to me, And how do 805 00:58:44.559 --> 00:58:46.760 you address that with the folks that are going to have those kind of questions. 806 00:58:47.559 --> 00:58:52.280 Sure, so, here's what I'll say regarding my parents. My parents 807 00:58:52.360 --> 00:59:00.719 have throughout my life experienced strange things surrounding me. They can't deny it. 808 00:59:00.719 --> 00:59:05.599 It scares them. They don't know what to make of it, so they, 809 00:59:05.719 --> 00:59:08.280 like many people, just try to write it off or turn away from 810 00:59:08.360 --> 00:59:13.199 it, and when I've tried to force the issue with them, they've actually 811 00:59:14.159 --> 00:59:16.679 gotten angry and pushed back and said, yeah, we know there are things 812 00:59:16.719 --> 00:59:21.440 out there in the world that we don't understand. There are unexplainable things, 813 00:59:21.440 --> 00:59:25.000 but we just don't feel that it affects our daily life enough for us to 814 00:59:25.480 --> 00:59:30.760 sit and really look into it or put some stock into it. But they 815 00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:36.360 cannot deny the things that they've witnessed that have happened with me, various things 816 00:59:36.400 --> 00:59:39.360 throughout my life, as young as two and three years of age. So 817 00:59:39.400 --> 00:59:45.400 they've always known that there's been something about me that these strange events follow. 818 00:59:45.880 --> 00:59:52.559 They saw the progression as this stuff started happening more, and they could see 819 00:59:52.599 --> 00:59:57.360 that at some point it shifted to a very dark path, a very dark 820 00:59:57.440 --> 01:00:02.519 trajectory, like I was becoming paranoid. I didn't trust anybody. I changed 821 01:00:02.519 --> 01:00:07.079 what I wanted in life and decided I guess I had always kept this balance. 822 01:00:07.159 --> 01:00:14.320 I compartmentalizes the word that I used. You have to compartmentalize because it 823 01:00:14.440 --> 01:00:20.000 is extremely difficult to accept and live these strange realities and still get up every 824 01:00:20.079 --> 01:00:22.559 day and go to work and do your thing and be a normal person. 825 01:00:22.800 --> 01:00:27.559 It wasn't that I went around on a daily basis talking about these things, 826 01:00:27.559 --> 01:00:30.519 because, as you said, most people would think you are batshit crazy if 827 01:00:30.519 --> 01:00:36.480 it hasn't happened to you, if you haven't experienced it, felt the energy 828 01:00:36.320 --> 01:00:40.239 that surrounds it and comes with it, seen it interact with your physical reality, 829 01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:45.320 it would be hard for someone to take at face value. So as 830 01:00:45.360 --> 01:00:51.239 these things started taking that darker turn, and I felt like my early life 831 01:00:51.280 --> 01:00:54.920 experiences were strange. They were scary and traumatic, but they were more based 832 01:00:54.920 --> 01:00:58.840 in the light side, if you will, the team of the light. 833 01:00:59.599 --> 01:01:04.159 And then at some point that changed and it switched over to the dark side. 834 01:01:04.239 --> 01:01:07.119 They could see that happening in me, and they knew that something was 835 01:01:07.119 --> 01:01:10.760 wrong. They knew that I was dealing with some very heavy stuff, but 836 01:01:12.760 --> 01:01:15.639 it was like they couldn't be there for me. They didn't understand it enough. 837 01:01:15.679 --> 01:01:20.360 They were scared of it. So when they saw all of a sudden 838 01:01:20.400 --> 01:01:23.000 that I'm trying to take off to Alaska and not really given them a good 839 01:01:23.039 --> 01:01:27.519 reason as to why I need to take off to Alaska, and not once, 840 01:01:27.599 --> 01:01:30.519 not twice, but three times, I'm trying to make it out there, 841 01:01:30.239 --> 01:01:35.000 they were worried, and rightfully, I was worried at this point because 842 01:01:35.039 --> 01:01:38.880 I've always maintained this balance between my normal three D life, as I call 843 01:01:38.920 --> 01:01:43.480 it, and this crazy five D stuff that I've been forced to deal with 844 01:01:43.519 --> 01:01:46.599 my whole life. I've always been able to keep a balance because I knew 845 01:01:47.079 --> 01:01:51.119 if I start talking about this stuff, people are going to lock me up 846 01:01:51.159 --> 01:01:54.440 in an insane asylum and I'm going to have no light and I'm definitely not 847 01:01:54.519 --> 01:01:58.440 going to get to the bottom of any of this. So I'd have to 848 01:01:58.440 --> 01:02:02.920 do both simultaneous and see which one worked out. Hopefully they'll mesh together and 849 01:02:04.000 --> 01:02:07.199 come to one full circle type thing in the end, which is actually what 850 01:02:07.360 --> 01:02:13.880 ended up happening. So with my parents, they've always known that these things 851 01:02:13.880 --> 01:02:15.760 have been going on with me. They've witnessed it, They've been a part 852 01:02:15.800 --> 01:02:21.119 of it many times throughout my life, so they can't really deny it. 853 01:02:21.639 --> 01:02:25.159 But yet they aren't secure enough and comfortable enough to turn and face it. 854 01:02:25.159 --> 01:02:29.239 It airs them, and with a lot of people, it airs them. 855 01:02:29.559 --> 01:02:32.840 With the PDF, I will say this, every person that is mentioned in 856 01:02:32.920 --> 01:02:38.639 my PDF was sent a hard copy of the book. I sent a letter 857 01:02:38.960 --> 01:02:44.960 explaining to them that if and when the time should come that this would go 858 01:02:45.079 --> 01:02:47.440 public, that I would end up in a court of law or testifying before 859 01:02:47.519 --> 01:02:52.880 Congress, that I would be seeking for them to sign some sort of an 860 01:02:52.920 --> 01:02:57.559 affidavit that what I say in the book that pertains to what they saw or 861 01:02:57.679 --> 01:03:01.840 experienced is in fact as I claim that it was. And every one of 862 01:03:01.880 --> 01:03:07.440 them contacted me after reading the book and said, absolutely, whatever you need. 863 01:03:07.679 --> 01:03:13.039 So I would have signed affidavits in a moment's notice from everyone that's mentioned 864 01:03:13.039 --> 01:03:16.719 in my book, which also adds some credibility that it's not just me saying 865 01:03:16.719 --> 01:03:21.599 this happened. These people that witness these parts of it are all saying under 866 01:03:21.639 --> 01:03:24.920 oath and a signed statement that yes, as she says it happened is as 867 01:03:25.000 --> 01:03:29.800 I saw it happen as well. So there is that aspect to it. 868 01:03:30.559 --> 01:03:35.920 As far as right now moving forward, what would I say to people who 869 01:03:35.960 --> 01:03:39.840 think that I'm crazy? I would say this little saying is going off in 870 01:03:39.920 --> 01:03:45.800 my head that says those that are seen dancing were thought to be crazy by 871 01:03:45.800 --> 01:03:51.119 those who couldn't hear the music. I think some of us are tuned into 872 01:03:51.719 --> 01:03:55.280 these things more so than others, and I don't exactly know why or what 873 01:03:55.440 --> 01:04:00.000 the reasoning that I was put through all this was, but that is my 874 01:04:00.119 --> 01:04:04.760 truth, and I'm not trying to force these truths down anyone's throat by any 875 01:04:04.840 --> 01:04:09.360 means. If you read the PDF and you think that it's a bunch of 876 01:04:09.440 --> 01:04:12.559 hooplah, then I would say, I'm sorry to have wasted your time and 877 01:04:12.679 --> 01:04:16.519 good luck to you. But that's not any of the responses that I've gotten. 878 01:04:16.599 --> 01:04:20.679 Over four thousand people have read this PDF, and I have gotten nothing 879 01:04:20.880 --> 01:04:27.880 but positive responses and people contacting me saying, oh my gosh, you just 880 01:04:27.960 --> 01:04:31.079 totally enlightened me with this, because this happened to me too, and I 881 01:04:31.119 --> 01:04:34.239 thought I was crazy, but hearing you say that it happened to you makes 882 01:04:34.280 --> 01:04:40.599 me realize that it probably really did happen, or someone else contacting me saying 883 01:04:41.119 --> 01:04:44.360 wow, I didn't know why this was the case, but something you said 884 01:04:44.360 --> 01:04:47.159 in the PDF filled in that blank for me and it gave me an answer. 885 01:04:47.360 --> 01:04:51.920 So I've gotten nothing but positive reviews from that PDF. And I had, 886 01:04:53.519 --> 01:04:56.320 I guess, developed the thick skin when I put it out there, 887 01:04:56.360 --> 01:05:00.440 because, just like you said, I fully expected everybody to be like, 888 01:05:00.559 --> 01:05:03.480 Okay, you're absolutely nuts. So I developed this thick skin and I was 889 01:05:03.519 --> 01:05:09.239 readying myself for that type of response, and I have not once gotten that 890 01:05:09.320 --> 01:05:13.119 type of response from anyone. I think when you read the PDF, it 891 01:05:13.320 --> 01:05:18.400 fans the course of my entire life and how these events that happened individually throughout 892 01:05:18.400 --> 01:05:24.239 my life actually come together to culminate in a big picture that you can see 893 01:05:24.360 --> 01:05:28.000 at the end of the PDF. It's hard to doubt that. And then 894 01:05:28.039 --> 01:05:31.719 there's also the documentation. No, I can't prove to somebody what I saw 895 01:05:31.920 --> 01:05:36.880 or heard in my head or some experience that happened to me that I repressed. 896 01:05:36.960 --> 01:05:42.400 However, there is documentation to prove that I was where I said I 897 01:05:42.559 --> 01:05:46.039 was when I said this happened, that I did participate in the college and 898 01:05:46.159 --> 01:05:53.960 programs and situations that I speak about in the PDF, that my grandmother did 899 01:05:54.000 --> 01:05:57.960 pass away at this time on this date, and that my family members can 900 01:05:58.079 --> 01:06:01.920 verify that I did tell them that, having been halfway across the country getting 901 01:06:01.920 --> 01:06:05.199 a call in the morning, that I told them what time my grandmother died. 902 01:06:06.039 --> 01:06:13.360 So there are irrefutable things that you can't really pull apart because there is 903 01:06:13.519 --> 01:06:17.599 documentation there. So when you look at that, the documentation, the people 904 01:06:17.599 --> 01:06:20.800 that are willing to go on record and verify that, yes, what she 905 01:06:20.960 --> 01:06:26.880 is saying is as I saw it as well. Eventually you come down to 906 01:06:27.119 --> 01:06:30.400 Okay, if all of those things are true, and I can't dispute this 907 01:06:30.559 --> 01:06:34.840 and the dates and the fact of this and the affidavits that people have signed, 908 01:06:35.079 --> 01:06:41.559 it basically comes down to do you believe the things that I say I 909 01:06:41.599 --> 01:06:45.480 saw and heard or do you think that I'm crazy and making this up. 910 01:06:45.360 --> 01:06:49.039 At that point, logic and common sense has to kick in. Do you 911 01:06:49.159 --> 01:06:56.519 know how detailed and how difficult it would be to make up this whole other 912 01:06:56.679 --> 01:07:01.360 aspect of your entire life that then how all fits in together and ties in 913 01:07:01.400 --> 01:07:06.719 at the end and can be proven through your physical interactions and where you were 914 01:07:08.039 --> 01:07:12.719 and by others. That would be very difficult to do. And if somebody 915 01:07:12.719 --> 01:07:15.400 wants to say, yeah, I think that you did do that, then 916 01:07:15.400 --> 01:07:18.199 my question to them would be what reason would I have to make all of 917 01:07:18.239 --> 01:07:23.920 this up. I'm not making a dime off of anything, so I'm not 918 01:07:24.079 --> 01:07:28.360 looking to get rich off of it. I'm nearly fifty years old, so 919 01:07:28.639 --> 01:07:31.840 I'm not trying to become famous, certainly not at this point in my life. 920 01:07:32.480 --> 01:07:36.280 So what reason would I have to make all of this up? Why 921 01:07:36.280 --> 01:07:42.199 would everything in my life that I document and that I can prove be accurate, 922 01:07:43.000 --> 01:07:46.239 But yet the little aspect of it that you can't see what I saw 923 01:07:46.360 --> 01:07:51.239 or heard in my head I can't physically prove to you. What reason would 924 01:07:51.239 --> 01:07:56.840 I have for making this all up? Bridget I appreciate you coming on and 925 01:07:56.880 --> 01:08:01.039 sharing your experience and sharing the PDF. I think it's amazing. I've never 926 01:08:01.079 --> 01:08:04.639 heard a story like this before, so I really appreciate you coming on and 927 01:08:04.679 --> 01:08:09.440 taking the time to share it with us today. Thank you. I appreciate 928 01:08:09.480 --> 01:08:14.199 the opportunity to come on and share these experiences. Hopefully, if it does 929 01:08:14.320 --> 01:08:17.439 something for someone, then it's all worth it. I think eventually we will 930 01:08:17.479 --> 01:08:21.279 start getting these answers. People will start to realize more and more what this 931 01:08:21.439 --> 01:08:28.359 is all about. They say, you don't gotta go home, but you 932 01:08:28.600 --> 01:09:01.199 can't stay. I don't want to feel out it. Joy this job, 933 01:09:01.399 --> 01:09:09.760 that time, everything came right by looking back, Joy from me, Joy 934 01:09:09.960 --> 01:10:01.640 staying right. You come in right away, steps still step step steps dot 935 01:10:11.479 --> 01:10:26.960 Us stass State passes states, bass Us, THESS