1 00:00:09,640 --> 00:00:20,679 I want you have to be famous if you if you, if you're a 2 00:00:20,719 --> 00:00:27,719 content creator. I don't know what I was talking about before we were talking 3 00:00:27,719 --> 00:00:32,200 about I was talking making beats, making beats, creating content. Black and 4 00:00:32,240 --> 00:00:44,039 Black Widow ship hit yeat, that's that ship you make when you hit your 5 00:00:44,079 --> 00:00:55,200 toe on the motherfucking bed. That's probably one top top three pains hitting that 6 00:00:55,320 --> 00:01:00,159 toe. That's because the motherfuckers don't put the bed right in their room. 7 00:01:00,359 --> 00:01:10,239 Manne, your shit bleed instantly one thousand percent. Yeah. Yeah. The 8 00:01:10,319 --> 00:01:15,040 content is probably the same for clothes too, like when you make when you 9 00:01:15,280 --> 00:01:19,200 when you're making something, the thought process is how am I going to sell 10 00:01:19,239 --> 00:01:21,560 this? When am I going to sell this? Where am I going to 11 00:01:21,640 --> 00:01:26,719 sell this? Who's going to buy this? And I don't know if that's 12 00:01:26,079 --> 00:01:30,640 I'm It is smart to think that way because you do have to handle the 13 00:01:30,680 --> 00:01:37,200 marketing. I think that I'm working on a new series of Black Widow and 14 00:01:37,239 --> 00:01:44,799 it's gonna be fire, But I never thought about the marketing first, like 15 00:01:45,480 --> 00:01:48,120 who am I talking to? When are they going to listen to it? 16 00:01:48,319 --> 00:01:52,519 Why are they listening to it? When do I want them to masturbate or 17 00:01:52,560 --> 00:01:53,959 whatever the case may be like I'm thinking about all of that shit. I 18 00:01:55,040 --> 00:01:57,319 never thought about it before, and I don't know if that's good or if 19 00:01:57,319 --> 00:02:04,079 that's bad or if it's necessar because I don't want to create nothing and then 20 00:02:04,159 --> 00:02:07,639 not not and then be mad when people don't receive it. The marketing is 21 00:02:07,680 --> 00:02:10,759 deaf, deaf, the major the main thing, Like I know, that's 22 00:02:10,800 --> 00:02:16,080 my problem with Like with the clothes, like my marketing. I'm not really 23 00:02:16,120 --> 00:02:21,080 good at the marketing, like getting it out there. I post here and 24 00:02:21,120 --> 00:02:25,120 there and the share and share, but like contents, making videos and editing 25 00:02:25,159 --> 00:02:28,680 and all that, I'm just not good with it. Like I'm not good 26 00:02:28,719 --> 00:02:30,360 with coming up with shit to make it, you know what I'm saying to 27 00:02:30,360 --> 00:02:36,639 get people attention? My shit just be plain. And that's why I just 28 00:02:36,680 --> 00:02:38,360 be like, Man, I don't even want to do it because I don't 29 00:02:38,400 --> 00:02:43,960 know. Man, my going to change some of my ways. Though my 30 00:02:44,039 --> 00:02:46,840 issue ain't lazyess. My issue is I don't trust none of you niggas. 31 00:02:47,520 --> 00:02:51,240 That's my biggest issue, bro. I swear to God, like I feel 32 00:02:51,240 --> 00:02:55,840 like I feel like Black Widow could have been or can be to the next 33 00:02:55,919 --> 00:02:59,599 level if I had a little bit more trust. And the problem is is 34 00:02:59,639 --> 00:03:05,800 that too many times I will give somebody the responsibility down what I go to 35 00:03:05,840 --> 00:03:07,719 sleep, wake up, and I was like, yo, so what happened? 36 00:03:07,719 --> 00:03:10,599 And now motherfuckers is either ignore my text or they got some elaborate ass 37 00:03:10,639 --> 00:03:15,840 excuse as to why they couldn't do what they begged me to do. And 38 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:16,800 now I'm like, all right, you know what, I'm just gonna write. 39 00:03:16,840 --> 00:03:20,759 I'm just gonna write this whole season. I think that I think that's 40 00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:23,400 what it is. They get a motherfucker so shitty is that motherfucker will beg 41 00:03:23,479 --> 00:03:29,639 you to do some shit or just come to you with ship and don't even 42 00:03:29,680 --> 00:03:34,159 be really talking about nothing. Yeah, because I think it sounds fun, 43 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:39,840 Like the result sounds fun the work, but the work is that is serious 44 00:03:40,280 --> 00:03:44,599 work. It's not no play. Well, when I was with E's and 45 00:03:44,639 --> 00:03:50,680 I did the first one of his shout out to Eric Washington, play stays 46 00:03:50,719 --> 00:03:57,360 play. That ship is not a game. Especially I don't like type ship 47 00:03:57,479 --> 00:04:00,439 like that anyway, you know what I'm saying. So like that ship was 48 00:04:01,680 --> 00:04:09,879 bro nervous, that's like man washed. I'm like, bro, I don't 49 00:04:10,199 --> 00:04:13,280 want to fuck up. You know what I'm saying, it ain't like stage 50 00:04:13,280 --> 00:04:16,920 plays ain't the same as doing movies or you know what I'm saying. Some 51 00:04:16,959 --> 00:04:21,800 ship that you where the cameras on is cut. Stop that ship a wonder 52 00:04:21,879 --> 00:04:26,639 it again, try it again with this ship. And it was so fucked 53 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:31,879 up because it took us like them there two years, bro like a year 54 00:04:31,920 --> 00:04:36,439 and a half. It was crazy. Nah, we was. We started 55 00:04:36,519 --> 00:04:41,879 doing COVID right, We started right before COVID and COVID came, so boom 56 00:04:41,920 --> 00:04:44,680 the place we had, they kept pushing it back. Okay, boom. 57 00:04:44,680 --> 00:04:46,480 We pushed it this day, push it, this day, pushes this day, 58 00:04:46,560 --> 00:04:50,319 next thing. You know, it's THEMN there twenty twenty two, you 59 00:04:50,360 --> 00:04:54,560 know what I'm saying. But we still but we've still been going hard for 60 00:04:54,600 --> 00:04:58,360 all these years. So it's like damn. It felt like at one point 61 00:04:58,360 --> 00:05:00,480 we kept happening to Louis kept blues people and other people come. We had 62 00:05:00,480 --> 00:05:04,480 to catch them up because shit was happening during them times. It was times 63 00:05:04,480 --> 00:05:06,360 where I felt like, man, fuck it, but I'm like, nah, 64 00:05:06,360 --> 00:05:10,519 this is my nigga, Like I got them, I don't been through 65 00:05:10,519 --> 00:05:13,279 this. I can't just leave them now. But we end up doing it 66 00:05:13,279 --> 00:05:15,720 and it turnt that cool, but it was just like, damn grind. 67 00:05:16,040 --> 00:05:19,160 I'm like, man, I just got to make sure I do fuck up 68 00:05:19,399 --> 00:05:24,560 man, that motherfucking grind. If you watch Maxines Baby on, I seen, 69 00:05:24,680 --> 00:05:27,519 I seen, I started watching it, but I ain't finished watching all 70 00:05:27,639 --> 00:05:31,600 that crazy that motherfucker Tyler Perry Dog, the ship that he went through growing 71 00:05:31,680 --> 00:05:38,439 up. Man, it'd be crazy, man. It be seeming like motherfuckers 72 00:05:38,480 --> 00:05:41,319 go through the craziest ship. Bro. They go through the crazy, but 73 00:05:41,360 --> 00:05:44,600 the work ethic that but but the work, the work ethic is crazy. 74 00:05:44,639 --> 00:05:50,399 But it just seems like sometimes or most of the times, you you gotta 75 00:05:50,519 --> 00:05:57,800 hit like them the rock bottom to like feel like like I can't never hit 76 00:05:57,839 --> 00:06:00,040 that again, you know what I'm saying, Like I can't say that I 77 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:01,519 being that down and bad and out, you know what I'm saying. I've 78 00:06:01,560 --> 00:06:06,439 never been in this situation to where I felt like I can't never go there 79 00:06:06,439 --> 00:06:11,639 again. Because when he was homeless, like home, being homeless, like 80 00:06:12,319 --> 00:06:16,519 that a change the motherfucker. I feel like it should. But you got 81 00:06:16,560 --> 00:06:19,800 some people who just okay with it, and they just okay, We've been 82 00:06:19,879 --> 00:06:26,319 out there begging, like I just don't like this shit like motherfucker's at the 83 00:06:26,319 --> 00:06:30,639 gas station, but like bro, it is fucking five forty five in the 84 00:06:30,639 --> 00:06:34,040 morning. Why are you out here begging already? Like nigga, Damn, 85 00:06:34,560 --> 00:06:40,120 you ain't even thought about making you'll like even thinking about doing something yourself. 86 00:06:40,160 --> 00:06:45,079 Nigga are asked for change, Nigga like motherfuckers ain't even up yet. You're 87 00:06:45,600 --> 00:06:48,759 you out here asked for fifty from ghosts. Nigga's out here begging. Fuck 88 00:06:48,839 --> 00:06:54,879 Nigga, Im about to be asking for some dollars of early Condamn the fuck 89 00:06:55,000 --> 00:06:59,279 motherfucker's with asking for coffee and shiita. I'm gonna say this and then I'm 90 00:06:59,279 --> 00:07:01,240 gonna start the show and I'm gonna use this and I'm gonna click this up. 91 00:07:03,560 --> 00:07:14,040 Writers who don't write, please leave me alone. Please leave me alone. 92 00:07:14,079 --> 00:07:17,040 Look, I don't I don't want to be mean. I don't want 93 00:07:17,079 --> 00:07:20,759 to I don't want to rub you the wrong way because a lot of writers 94 00:07:20,759 --> 00:07:25,399 are very extremely emotional. I don't want to bother I don't want to be 95 00:07:25,480 --> 00:07:30,040 mean to y'all. But I don't know what y'all praying for. But God 96 00:07:30,079 --> 00:07:34,480 don't work like that. Niggas swear, do you want to write and do 97 00:07:34,600 --> 00:07:38,720 not write. I meet writers and I'd be like, what do you have? 98 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:42,519 They say nothing? When's the last time you wrote a year ago? 99 00:07:42,959 --> 00:07:47,199 You're not a writer. You think about writing and writer. What you are 100 00:07:47,600 --> 00:07:51,800 is a thinker people who want to act. If you got to get paid 101 00:07:51,800 --> 00:07:55,639 to act, you are not an actor. Not an actor because you're not 102 00:07:55,680 --> 00:07:59,839 getting You're not getting paid like tarajip ain't getting No, they're not getting paid. 103 00:07:59,839 --> 00:08:03,800 That not getting paid now and their own the fact that you're that you 104 00:08:03,879 --> 00:08:05,639 have this, y'all, you got this passion for something. You can swear 105 00:08:05,680 --> 00:08:09,800 you get this passion for something, but you only do it with somebody pay 106 00:08:09,839 --> 00:08:13,920 you. That's a lot of people. That's a lot in this city. 107 00:08:13,040 --> 00:08:16,279 Bro, You're not y'all get a little clout and y'all feel like a motherfucker 108 00:08:16,279 --> 00:08:20,800 got to pay off for y'all time like that. You're not nobody like that. 109 00:08:20,959 --> 00:08:24,240 I'm not even I'm not coming hard like I'm coming like that because I 110 00:08:24,399 --> 00:08:28,639 just don't get it. Like y'all say, y'all want to help somebody, 111 00:08:28,720 --> 00:08:31,279 y'all want to do this and that, but then y'all y'all try to charge 112 00:08:31,279 --> 00:08:35,559 motherfuckers to do to do ship for him like it's weird. The thing for 113 00:08:35,720 --> 00:08:39,799 me is that so say like, uh, DeMarco plays right, shout out 114 00:08:39,840 --> 00:08:48,039 to DP. This motherfucker is doing shows Quarterly and Philly and Dallas everywhere, 115 00:08:48,120 --> 00:08:54,720 right, but he has an audience and he has I ain't gonna say C 116 00:08:54,879 --> 00:08:56,080 list or D list, but he got some. He got some F list, 117 00:08:56,240 --> 00:08:58,799 G lists, you know what I mean, actors on there, maybe 118 00:08:58,840 --> 00:09:03,159 some too be stars or something like that. He got some motherfuckers. I'm 119 00:09:03,159 --> 00:09:05,679 not trying to throw no shade, but if my thing was to be seen, 120 00:09:07,919 --> 00:09:11,080 if my thing was to be seen and to act and to be on 121 00:09:11,159 --> 00:09:16,440 stage and get the opportunity, who am I to go to him and say, 122 00:09:16,480 --> 00:09:18,639 you gotta pay me an absorbing amount of money for me to do this. 123 00:09:20,399 --> 00:09:22,960 The only thing you should be asking for is gas money and maybe some 124 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,919 food. Can you can you? Can you get me here? And can 125 00:09:24,960 --> 00:09:28,440 you feed me when I'm here. I'll make the time, I'll find a 126 00:09:28,480 --> 00:09:30,919 babysitter, I'll do all of these things. I'm not saying that to get 127 00:09:30,919 --> 00:09:35,759 free work out of nobody. But if you are like I know motherfuckers who 128 00:09:35,799 --> 00:09:37,960 are doing shit, they only get like fifty views, and I'd be like, 129 00:09:37,000 --> 00:09:39,600 hey, man, you should come over here, and you know, 130 00:09:39,639 --> 00:09:41,519 fuck with me, I can get you at least a couple more thousand views. 131 00:09:41,879 --> 00:09:46,600 They be like, I'm gonna say. I'm like, Bros, this 132 00:09:46,679 --> 00:09:50,799 is hard. Like gaining an audience and keeping an audience is fucking hard work. 133 00:09:50,879 --> 00:09:54,879 And I think that's probably why I never really wanted to get into like 134 00:09:54,919 --> 00:09:58,919 the skits and shit like that or just certain shit, because it's consistent work 135 00:10:00,039 --> 00:10:07,039 and you're not guaranteed huge like that to be happening to try to make y'all 136 00:10:07,120 --> 00:10:11,879 laugh and shit every day, happen to go dude skits and just yeah, 137 00:10:13,200 --> 00:10:16,159 like it's crazy, like the dedication that I see, Like people will find 138 00:10:16,159 --> 00:10:20,080 a video and just to match the video, they gotta go to Walmart, 139 00:10:20,159 --> 00:10:22,960 or they gotta go to a car wash or you know what I'm saying, 140 00:10:24,039 --> 00:10:26,879 just to master this video. And that's what they do. See a video 141 00:10:26,279 --> 00:10:31,039 and go save it and then hopping a car and go do a skin. 142 00:10:31,080 --> 00:10:35,799 I'm like, no, but I know a lot of people who who who 143 00:10:37,039 --> 00:10:43,799 who have that creative bug and they make every excuse in the motherfucking world creative 144 00:10:43,799 --> 00:10:46,879 bug. Yeah, some people just got it. They make every excuse in 145 00:10:46,919 --> 00:10:50,000 the world to not be consistent with that ship, and that ship is just 146 00:10:50,080 --> 00:10:56,200 extremely troubling, and it's extremely frustrating to me, because why do you think 147 00:10:56,320 --> 00:11:01,799 I give a fuck about? Why do you think I Why do you think 148 00:11:01,919 --> 00:11:05,399 me, Eric, Why do you think I give a fuck about? Why 149 00:11:05,519 --> 00:11:09,919 you can't accomplish your dream? You gotta figure that ship out, bro. 150 00:11:09,960 --> 00:11:15,080 You can't be walking around complaining to motherfuckers about how life is this, and 151 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:18,200 and life is dad and your mama did this, and your daddy didn't believe 152 00:11:18,200 --> 00:11:20,559 in you. Your boyfriend is this, and your best friend is that. 153 00:11:20,039 --> 00:11:26,440 I don't give a fuck at all. Most people don't I no one, 154 00:11:26,720 --> 00:11:31,879 No one gives a fuck, and neither does your dream. My nigga. 155 00:11:31,960 --> 00:11:35,320 Your dream does not give a fuck, and it does not stop the time 156 00:11:35,399 --> 00:11:37,480 and say, hey, we're gonna wait on you figure it out. Figure 157 00:11:37,559 --> 00:11:41,600 we're gonna wait on you to get the perfect situation. It does not work 158 00:11:41,799 --> 00:11:45,679 like that, my nigga. God damn, they have got to put some 159 00:11:45,799 --> 00:11:48,519 type of work in you, got it. It's just it's just how the 160 00:11:48,600 --> 00:11:54,200 thing about life is. You're not gonna supress. It's hard. It's hard. 161 00:11:54,279 --> 00:11:56,039 It's hard, and I hate it because her life should not be this 162 00:11:56,159 --> 00:12:00,559 hard. I swear to God it should not never be this hard. Like 163 00:12:00,960 --> 00:12:05,360 I don't understand why the fuck will we be born to be put on this 164 00:12:05,480 --> 00:12:11,840 fucking earth and it's so fucking hard like this, like it don't make sense 165 00:12:11,879 --> 00:12:16,919 to me. It should never be this hard. I promise, motherfucker said, 166 00:12:16,159 --> 00:12:18,639 motherfucker suit her parents because she was like I asked to be here and 167 00:12:20,679 --> 00:12:24,039 no, like for real, like I should be able to sue. I 168 00:12:24,080 --> 00:12:26,879 wouldn't suit my parents, but ship I should be able to sue somebody, 169 00:12:26,360 --> 00:12:30,960 because what the fuck? I definitely I definitely thought about so, my mama 170 00:12:31,000 --> 00:12:35,039 a few times. You got me fucked up. I love you, but 171 00:12:37,440 --> 00:12:39,200 I didn't ask to be here. I did not. I did not, 172 00:12:39,559 --> 00:12:46,440 but they didn't. They didn't either. They better get that mother fucking sueing, 173 00:12:46,679 --> 00:12:52,279 Like how much you're suing for it? Though I don't even know. 174 00:12:54,279 --> 00:12:56,240 I don't even know, bro, I don't even at this, Like I 175 00:12:56,279 --> 00:13:00,639 was thinking, like you, how much money would a motherfucker need give me 176 00:13:01,039 --> 00:13:05,879 for me to jump so far ahead for you to just be comfortable for me 177 00:13:05,919 --> 00:13:11,399 to be able to grind until that money runs out, And then I was 178 00:13:11,440 --> 00:13:18,200 thinking, like what ship everybody, every actor in all these these motherfuckers complaining 179 00:13:18,279 --> 00:13:22,600 that they broke What I do? Would I take that money and and go 180 00:13:22,799 --> 00:13:26,200 to fucking medical school or something like? Would I just get out of this 181 00:13:26,240 --> 00:13:28,120 field completely? Like what I I don't even know. That's what some people 182 00:13:28,159 --> 00:13:31,519 say, Like I uh bees used to say. They was like, but 183 00:13:31,519 --> 00:13:35,600 if I want to a lottery a lottery and I had this money, Bro, 184 00:13:35,039 --> 00:13:37,399 I'm telling all this shit, fuck this shit. I'm like why though, 185 00:13:39,960 --> 00:13:43,000 they like cause I got bread, like I don't have to work ever 186 00:13:43,080 --> 00:13:48,159 again. But I'm like that ship, that ship gonna it can man, 187 00:13:48,720 --> 00:13:52,360 Like this ship is not as much money as you think. Motherfuckers be like, 188 00:13:54,879 --> 00:13:58,120 I would definitely try to invest something like That's why I'm saying he got 189 00:13:58,159 --> 00:14:01,039 good things going. I'm like, why wouldn't you to invest in it? 190 00:14:01,519 --> 00:14:03,799 A gym all that type ship? Like he like, I wouldn't want to 191 00:14:03,799 --> 00:14:05,639 do it. I don't want to have to do it. I'm like we 192 00:14:05,639 --> 00:14:09,159 was like, bro, you're crazy. I'm feeling though I feel him, 193 00:14:09,200 --> 00:14:13,440 but I feeling I feel him. Man, Look, you can at least 194 00:14:13,600 --> 00:14:18,559 get a gym, like you can get something. I'm not getting nothing. 195 00:14:18,960 --> 00:14:24,000 So about doing nothing to bring more money in. Nope, if I if 196 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:28,120 I win the lottery, if I win, let's say I win for a 197 00:14:28,159 --> 00:14:33,120 million. By the time I pay off my wife student loans, my student 198 00:14:33,159 --> 00:14:37,559 loans off, the car that she got, they already taken. They already 199 00:14:37,600 --> 00:14:41,360 taking. Yeah, the money that I'm left with, I think, I 200 00:14:41,399 --> 00:14:46,960 think. I think the I think the relief from student loans being gone and 201 00:14:46,000 --> 00:14:50,440 then owning a house and the cars, I think that would make getting up 202 00:14:50,480 --> 00:14:56,639 and going to work that much easier. I'm not I'm not opposed to going 203 00:14:56,639 --> 00:15:01,159 to work, and neither is my wife. The problem is is that if 204 00:15:01,200 --> 00:15:03,240 you go to work and you and they talk to you, and you and 205 00:15:03,320 --> 00:15:07,480 you want to punch them in they ship, and you can't because you need 206 00:15:07,519 --> 00:15:09,960 that motherfucker. It's a completely different thing from when you own your car in 207 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:13,799 your house and a motherfucker say something slick to you. Your back what I'm 208 00:15:13,799 --> 00:15:16,720 saying, But that's just that's just the same as only your business. No, 209 00:15:16,759 --> 00:15:20,960 it's not. You don't have to be there. No, no, 210 00:15:20,960 --> 00:15:22,919 no, it's not the same because I don't have to do I don't have 211 00:15:22,919 --> 00:15:26,440 to do nothing. Don't go to do none of the operating. I don't 212 00:15:26,480 --> 00:15:28,960 want to. I just want to show up to a place and they pay 213 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:31,159 me to be here, and then I go home and then I eat, 214 00:15:31,200 --> 00:15:35,360 and I'm happy because I know that all of the things that used to stress 215 00:15:35,399 --> 00:15:39,559 me out, car notes, insurance that this that is gone, It's alleviated. 216 00:15:41,200 --> 00:15:45,440 I don't mind working, I actually don't want to. I don't want 217 00:15:45,440 --> 00:15:48,080 a large number of something. I don't mind working either, as long as 218 00:15:48,120 --> 00:15:50,360 long as it's something I want to do right. But I think, I 219 00:15:50,399 --> 00:15:54,519 think, I think a lot of people don't know what they want to do, 220 00:15:54,840 --> 00:15:56,799 and winning a large lump sum of money is going to make you have 221 00:15:56,840 --> 00:16:00,919 to figure that ship out expeditiously. And I think I think, I think 222 00:16:02,080 --> 00:16:04,080 just having a job like what I do now, I just drive. If 223 00:16:04,080 --> 00:16:07,679 it paid better, I will be okay, you know what I'm saying. 224 00:16:07,799 --> 00:16:11,720 Like or even when I was doing landscaping, if it would have paid more, 225 00:16:11,919 --> 00:16:15,559 I would have been okay. Like those are the job like jobs where 226 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:18,720 I I got a boss, but they're not over me, right, I'm 227 00:16:18,720 --> 00:16:22,200 not working around too many people. Really, I'm working by myself, you 228 00:16:22,200 --> 00:16:25,559 know what I'm saying? And I do what I want to do, and 229 00:16:25,600 --> 00:16:29,639 when I'm done, I'm done. But other than that, I don't want 230 00:16:29,679 --> 00:16:33,759 to work in no building with a bunch of people where people over my back 231 00:16:33,840 --> 00:16:36,639 and I got it, like, no, I'm cool. I think for 232 00:16:36,759 --> 00:16:41,320 me in twenty twenty four, I do want to be the lead audio editor 233 00:16:41,480 --> 00:16:48,320 at a company. The problem is is when motherfuckers say something crazy. That's 234 00:16:48,360 --> 00:16:52,480 what I'm saying, because like jobs feel like they can talk and it don't 235 00:16:52,480 --> 00:16:56,240 even be the job, be like the supervisors and shit like that's you think 236 00:16:56,279 --> 00:17:02,480 you don't own me? Yeah, yeah, And I should be able to 237 00:17:02,480 --> 00:17:07,319 tell the motherfucker watch your watch your mouth. I'm a grown ass man. 238 00:17:07,359 --> 00:17:08,880 As a matter of fact, I'm older than you. Watch your mon like 239 00:17:10,559 --> 00:17:14,960 that was another thing, like working at these warehouses you got motherfuckers that's twenty 240 00:17:15,039 --> 00:17:18,839 two twenty three, that's your fucking boss, like, and I feel sorry 241 00:17:18,880 --> 00:17:23,200 for people that got their degrees and shit and you gotta come get a job. 242 00:17:23,240 --> 00:17:26,799 And this motherfucker that's younger than you telling you what to tell you what 243 00:17:26,839 --> 00:17:32,119 to do, like oh hey, shit like that. It's just I ain't 244 00:17:32,119 --> 00:17:37,359 even introduced the pot man. We've been talking this thirty minutes. What's going 245 00:17:37,400 --> 00:17:41,480 on? Everybody? I am Eric Dizzy And this is a combination episode of 246 00:17:41,519 --> 00:17:47,519 Black Widow and Egnan Philosophy because it's Christmas. Yeah, yeah, my nigga 247 00:17:47,599 --> 00:17:51,599 dropped by the day, So we're gonna give y'all a episode about a bunch 248 00:17:51,599 --> 00:17:56,119 of shit that is on our hearts. To my this side is my brother, 249 00:17:56,319 --> 00:17:59,079 my cousin, keenan, mister, who the fuck are you? Come 250 00:17:59,160 --> 00:18:14,559 and tell you? I'm usop stoos, don't don't don't boom who woom boom, 251 00:18:14,680 --> 00:18:26,839 don't do may mo cokain may a moo boom boom boom boom may mon 252 00:18:27,039 --> 00:18:55,640 kein mayamo okay even maya mon amy amy eing may may may ammo cokini mem 253 00:18:56,079 --> 00:19:00,720 don't don't to me. That's what the guy wrote. I can rap like 254 00:19:00,799 --> 00:19:06,359 out there in Spanish because if you can wrap in Spanish, you really can 255 00:19:06,440 --> 00:19:11,839 just say some ship and it'll sound good because a postuph a thousand times like 256 00:19:11,880 --> 00:19:22,519 Twist Boy Twist said, not me. If you want to get flee why 257 00:19:22,599 --> 00:19:26,960 niggas, Why I freak you right? I will I freak you right, 258 00:19:26,079 --> 00:19:33,440 I will I freak you like no one I freak you right, I will 259 00:19:33,000 --> 00:19:37,440 I freak you right, I will I free if you letting them? What 260 00:19:37,759 --> 00:19:42,960 ever? Major few, Yeah, that's what did. He was saying that 261 00:19:42,960 --> 00:19:47,519 that motherfucker what they call him? Uh uh, what's the fun? They 262 00:19:47,559 --> 00:19:53,440 called a bottom power a power bottom power bottom. Wow, that's an old 263 00:19:53,720 --> 00:19:57,880 thick nigga. Pause, that's a big nigga. Bro. They gotta chill 264 00:19:57,960 --> 00:20:03,640 up these allegations, Yeah, especially if y'all don't know if they true. 265 00:20:03,880 --> 00:20:08,720 My thing is this at some point, if a lot of motherfuckers coming out 266 00:20:08,759 --> 00:20:11,640 saying that I did, I'm like, look, you ain't even my tight 267 00:20:12,359 --> 00:20:15,880 Oh God, like stop. I wouldn't even fuck with nobody like you. 268 00:20:15,920 --> 00:20:18,119 I wouldn't even take it from nobody like you. Like, if I'm gonna 269 00:20:18,160 --> 00:20:21,359 take something, I'm gonna take it from the train. I'm not taking it 270 00:20:21,400 --> 00:20:25,799 from you. You are not my And I think that I don't think. 271 00:20:26,480 --> 00:20:30,440 I don't think you can do that because it sounds really really rape. But 272 00:20:32,079 --> 00:20:34,599 did he just taking it? Bro? Just taking it? Bro? Like 273 00:20:34,759 --> 00:20:37,960 just seeing a video when they just standing there and he just got his head. 274 00:20:38,599 --> 00:20:42,039 I'm like, bro, come on, what did y'all do even find 275 00:20:42,039 --> 00:20:45,480 these pictures there? Bro? Like should be crazy. I don't know, 276 00:20:45,599 --> 00:20:49,039 Like but td I never really he do. Like I said, don't be 277 00:20:49,039 --> 00:20:56,119 the people to be having the messages straight bullshit. My thing is my thing 278 00:20:56,200 --> 00:21:02,079 is why at this point why do we give for flying? Yeah, like 279 00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:07,319 if Bishop Tdjke's wife's cool with him doing whatever he's doing, it shouldn't be 280 00:21:07,319 --> 00:21:11,599 a problem. Then why And I feel like because people feel like they got 281 00:21:11,640 --> 00:21:15,480 some say so, Like that's what I've never understood if if whatever, who's 282 00:21:15,480 --> 00:21:18,319 ever doing well, like even with the j don't wheel shit, like if 283 00:21:18,359 --> 00:21:23,279 they already know what's going on, Like who gives a fuck, But why 284 00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:27,079 why y'all gotta call her stupid? Or why y'all gotta call him stupid? 285 00:21:27,160 --> 00:21:30,960 Like you know what I'm saying, Like just even like with polygamy, like 286 00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:36,960 people look at people that's like that and they judge them and they oh, 287 00:21:37,480 --> 00:21:40,839 if two women or whoever two men or whoever whoever the two people are, 288 00:21:40,839 --> 00:21:44,000 they're stupid their low life because they do this and that, and then whoever 289 00:21:44,039 --> 00:21:47,039 the other person is. If it's a man that got two women, he's 290 00:21:47,119 --> 00:21:48,960 child and he's not a man because he got he gotta have more than one, 291 00:21:49,160 --> 00:21:52,839 Like that's damn if they happy with that ship, you give a fuck. 292 00:21:53,119 --> 00:21:57,359 You might not have your own idea of how your life is supposed No, 293 00:21:57,559 --> 00:22:00,559 you can't, because it has to be how it's supposed to be, 294 00:22:00,680 --> 00:22:04,160 how we grew up, how they told us it's supposed to be. That's 295 00:22:04,160 --> 00:22:07,279 how people we got to live. If you're not living like that, then 296 00:22:07,319 --> 00:22:12,400 you're wrong and you're foul and you're you're not like, shut up like you. 297 00:22:12,519 --> 00:22:17,920 It's a lot of people out here that don't have their own opinion about 298 00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:22,319 how they want to live their life or sexuality, like not a lot of 299 00:22:22,319 --> 00:22:27,240 people are brave enough to have their own identity. And I feel like I 300 00:22:27,240 --> 00:22:33,000 feel like I feel like with celebrities, if we grew up thinking that I 301 00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:37,960 me personally, I didn't. I've never had an opinion about Diddy's sexual life. 302 00:22:37,640 --> 00:22:41,440 Never once in my mind did it ever cross nothing. It never crossed 303 00:22:41,480 --> 00:22:45,519 my mind or even maybe even his music never made me be like, well, 304 00:22:45,559 --> 00:22:48,799 I wonder what he's doing in the bedroom. It never dawned on me 305 00:22:48,920 --> 00:22:53,000 to ever even think about Diddy like that. So now that all of this 306 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:59,720 shit is coming out, it's weird because yeah, if what he did, 307 00:22:59,839 --> 00:23:02,839 if what he did was egregious, then he should go to jail. But 308 00:23:03,039 --> 00:23:06,799 us sitting here talking about what this nigga do with is dick? Yeah, 309 00:23:06,839 --> 00:23:08,160 see like that ain't even a ship. I don't really care all the ship. 310 00:23:08,240 --> 00:23:11,720 I used to hear about what the Biggie Tupaca ship like that, all 311 00:23:11,759 --> 00:23:15,119 of all the businesses with you know how he people, all that shit that 312 00:23:15,279 --> 00:23:18,480 it has gone. Now you fuck about the record, fuck about none of 313 00:23:18,519 --> 00:23:21,839 that. You're a fuck about that dick deal. They like, nigga, 314 00:23:21,880 --> 00:23:25,559 what is you doing? We heard all the stories though, but motherfuckers always 315 00:23:25,599 --> 00:23:27,640 talked about the ship. Though. People just look over like that's what I'm 316 00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:32,839 saying. Like even with R Kelly, y'all seeing a tape, Nigga, 317 00:23:32,839 --> 00:23:36,839 I seen the tape in ninety nine, nigga, that's the most that's I 318 00:23:36,920 --> 00:23:40,839 was listening to my Uh. I was listening to some radio on Spotify. 319 00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:45,519 I forget who, and uh, some song with R Kelly came on. 320 00:23:45,599 --> 00:23:47,480 I was like, man, this shiit slap and I was thinking, like, 321 00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:52,279 y'all, niggas was out here making songs with buddy songs. Buddy, 322 00:23:52,279 --> 00:23:56,480 That's what I'm saying. Jay Z like bro going on tour all that ship. 323 00:23:56,559 --> 00:24:00,440 Bro, Bro, I'm still man at Jay's ze. Not that it 324 00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:04,480 matters, not that none of this ship matters. But this nigga jay Z 325 00:24:06,759 --> 00:24:10,680 thought that it would be a great idea to make Fiesta, and I love 326 00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:14,160 Fiesta, love it. I love that era of R Kelly in general. 327 00:24:14,680 --> 00:24:18,839 That motherfucker. I wish the mom step in the name of love all of 328 00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:22,440 this. That's that's the that's that's that's the that's that's that's the good era 329 00:24:22,519 --> 00:24:26,839 of R. Kelly. Despite the rape ship. But this nigga, jay 330 00:24:26,920 --> 00:24:33,319 Z made two albums with this nigga, and then when Aliyah died, this 331 00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:38,799 nigga made a song tribute to Aliyah. Nigga, you did a tour with 332 00:24:40,039 --> 00:24:45,319 her Predator, my nigga, you did a whole fucking two album tour with 333 00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:48,880 the nigga who was raping her. I do not understand. He was trying 334 00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:52,480 to get her to though, And I feel like he did that ship to 335 00:24:52,480 --> 00:24:56,720 get back at Dame because she chose and he was mad. She chose Dame 336 00:24:56,799 --> 00:24:59,759 and he was mad, and he was mad because why in the fuck, 337 00:25:00,039 --> 00:25:03,880 as no one ever questioned this nigga, if you love the lead as much, 338 00:25:03,079 --> 00:25:06,839 why the fuck was you making this music with this nigga? And Dame 339 00:25:06,920 --> 00:25:10,039 said, I was never in any of the fucking shots with R Kelly. 340 00:25:10,200 --> 00:25:11,359 I don't want I didn't want to fuck with this nigga. I was kind 341 00:25:11,359 --> 00:25:15,680 of unsure on why this nigga was doing it. In my mind, I'm 342 00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:22,160 thinking you're a sicko. Yeah, And and the video you mentioned it for 343 00:25:22,359 --> 00:25:27,400 that video to be that clear, that clear back then, I saw it 344 00:25:27,559 --> 00:25:30,480 and it wasn't It wasn't child poorn to me, because I was a child. 345 00:25:30,559 --> 00:25:34,279 I was a child. Y'all was grown ass adults going to barbershops and 346 00:25:34,319 --> 00:25:38,680 beauty shops and popping them in and watching this shit and then went to go 347 00:25:38,759 --> 00:25:44,119 buy twelve play Swear to god, y'all went and bought like y'all, y'all 348 00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:48,640 like That's why I'm saying, like nobody cared. Nobody brother surviving R Kelly 349 00:25:48,720 --> 00:25:52,039 wasn't even done that well for y'all to be canceling R Kelly the way that 350 00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:56,559 y'all the ship wasn't done that well, which is mind boggling to me that 351 00:25:57,880 --> 00:26:03,920 now y'all care about didy No. No, y'all did albums with R Kelly 352 00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:07,839 nigga. Y'all did Jiggloh. Y'all did motherfucking fiesta. Y'all, motherfucking did 353 00:26:07,119 --> 00:26:10,519 get it. Y'all, motherfucking did up. Y'all did a bunch of shit 354 00:26:10,599 --> 00:26:15,240 with llyf ninety nine after that ship, y'all did ninety nine. Bro, 355 00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:18,720 I don't want to hear about all this shit. I don't hear about none 356 00:26:18,759 --> 00:26:22,440 of that ship. Bro, niggas was stepping in, stepping in the name 357 00:26:22,480 --> 00:26:26,519 of lovefucker was watching Trap in the closet one through goddamn one hundred and seventy 358 00:26:26,559 --> 00:26:32,680 five, word for word, watching that ship every day. Bro, I 359 00:26:32,720 --> 00:26:34,480 want to hear it, bro, and for me, And when you were 360 00:26:34,519 --> 00:26:40,480 sending me the songs, the R Kelly songs that dawned on me like I 361 00:26:40,559 --> 00:26:45,839 never bought and listened to a whole album of R Kelly. I never listened 362 00:26:45,079 --> 00:26:48,319 or liked an entire album of R Kelly. I just liked the singles. 363 00:26:48,599 --> 00:26:52,319 Plus I was a kid. I was a fucking kid. But it's crazy 364 00:26:52,359 --> 00:26:57,079 now how them songs still be like God damn when you hear them like this 365 00:26:57,160 --> 00:27:02,960 is good as fuck, like and this nigga just yeah. But back to 366 00:27:03,000 --> 00:27:07,759 T D Jake's he lost me, him and him and Tyler Perry lost me 367 00:27:07,799 --> 00:27:15,920 with the little fake holy ghost ship, the nigga t D. Jake's doing 368 00:27:15,960 --> 00:27:21,920 all this and Tyler Perry doing the ship today that pastors do in the boom 369 00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:27,400 now fainted and why y'all playing with God bro? Like stop playing man? 370 00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:32,240 And then and then while he doing all that holy ghost a woman come out 371 00:27:32,480 --> 00:27:36,400 and talking about push that baby out? Like what are y'all talking about up 372 00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:41,880 here? Like what's going on right now? We need to have a for 373 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:48,559 real, for serious conversation about how the church manipulates me. But that's not 374 00:27:48,599 --> 00:27:53,839 for today today. I just feel like churches be on bullshit. Not all 375 00:27:55,759 --> 00:27:59,279 I mean, but so some got good pastors. I ain't gonna lie something 376 00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:02,720 might got good, but a lot of them are in it for the moment. 377 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:07,599 What happened to the other bishop or the other guy that was in Atlanta 378 00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:10,319 who was sleeping with those boys? Run two and nine ten? You have 379 00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:15,200 the weird ass beer. It's not Bishop td Jake's. What's Eddie? Bishop 380 00:28:15,319 --> 00:28:17,680 Eddy Loan? Is that his name? Yeah? I don't know what. 381 00:28:18,039 --> 00:28:19,640 I ain't seen that nigga name in a minute. I ain't seen that one 382 00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:23,839 one that they just was wearing all the designer ship they got robbed, the 383 00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:30,160 little fake robbery and ship. Yeah, it's too easy to people like that. 384 00:28:30,200 --> 00:28:33,359 It's too easy to take advantage of poor people. And I just it's 385 00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:36,640 too easy. I hate it. Bro. I saw a video the other 386 00:28:36,720 --> 00:28:40,799 day that was like, because everybody gonna believe, like every most people believe 387 00:28:40,839 --> 00:28:44,599 in God. So once you throw anything with like God or like that or 388 00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:48,640 anything, it's gonna get the people running. Like even when you strolling on 389 00:28:48,720 --> 00:28:52,359 social media, you see apposed to be like if you scroll past this God 390 00:28:52,640 --> 00:28:55,960 some some something or you know what I'm saying, motherfucker, be like, 391 00:28:56,480 --> 00:29:00,079 damn, I seen this, motherfucker. Let me go ahead the right guy 392 00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:04,720 in the comments right quick. If around you might strike me or bad luck. 393 00:29:04,880 --> 00:29:10,160 You know. I remember the chaining letter back in Nigga ninety eight or 394 00:29:10,279 --> 00:29:12,000 ninety nine. It had to be wearing that time. I saw something that 395 00:29:12,160 --> 00:29:17,599 was like if you do not, if you don't, I don't forget. 396 00:29:17,640 --> 00:29:19,000 What they was asking for you to do is something like similar to like a 397 00:29:19,039 --> 00:29:25,400 repost. If you don't repost it that you like, I love her. 398 00:29:25,480 --> 00:29:27,160 I got to make sure. Yeah, I need everything. I mean, 399 00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:30,920 I used to little bitch so much. Man. I remember they used to 400 00:29:30,960 --> 00:29:33,519 say something like, if you look at a red a red bird and make 401 00:29:34,359 --> 00:29:40,200 make good wishing and fly away. I used to make wishes like the motherfucker 402 00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:42,720 I was shooting ship after we got damn state birds. Bitch y'all alled to 403 00:29:42,759 --> 00:29:45,240 me so many god damn times. All these red birds I don't seen in 404 00:29:45,319 --> 00:29:48,920 them, made wishes and ain't nothing. The bit just came true, man 405 00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:53,160 I was I always wish for a chick, always man, a chick, 406 00:29:53,359 --> 00:29:56,480 money, a car. I never wish for money or a car. I 407 00:29:56,480 --> 00:30:00,759 always wish for a damn girl. Oh no, I done it for money, 408 00:30:02,160 --> 00:30:08,000 cars or just somebody else like Nah, that ship was crazy and all 409 00:30:08,079 --> 00:30:11,720 that. Man. I just I saw a post. Uh it said that, 410 00:30:11,839 --> 00:30:17,119 uh, poor people make up eighty percent of the people who buy a 411 00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:22,480 lottery tickets. And I know it ain't nothing, but they cheap to buy 412 00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:27,279 well here and spend all your money. It was not winning what they were 413 00:30:27,319 --> 00:30:30,880 saying. They were saying that if you hated your job and there was no 414 00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:37,240 room for growth, and you hated your life and you couldn't afford than a 415 00:30:37,279 --> 00:30:41,200 lottery ticket does seem like a for sure shot way to get out of the 416 00:30:41,279 --> 00:30:45,039 hell hole now. And I used to be like, there's a lot of 417 00:30:45,039 --> 00:30:51,160 people struggling, like struggling, struggling, bro like and y'all like like people 418 00:30:51,519 --> 00:30:55,920 saying that ship long time ago. People are fucking struggling, bro And and 419 00:30:56,079 --> 00:31:00,079 I might think that I'm without money, but this motherfucker it's worse than me, 420 00:31:00,240 --> 00:31:03,160 bro, way worse worse than us. Bro. I'm like, so 421 00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:07,880 that's why I just never got that ship neither, Like why y'all hear God, 422 00:31:07,960 --> 00:31:12,279 motherfucker's playing for all this money because they need that money. My mama 423 00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:15,359 said this ship all the time. If I wouldn't a lot of eybody this, 424 00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:18,200 I'm like you, I'm not even making it on that, bro. 425 00:31:18,599 --> 00:31:22,119 And and they really think they got a shot. That's the thing. I 426 00:31:22,160 --> 00:31:26,640 saw another video. It was like it's just like why not just this should 427 00:31:26,720 --> 00:31:30,960 there shouldn't be no homeless people, like some people want to be homeless. 428 00:31:30,079 --> 00:31:33,000 I'll just be I don't know, I just be thinking about like period, 429 00:31:33,119 --> 00:31:38,079 like really money, like none of that ship really should have ever even been 430 00:31:38,079 --> 00:31:41,400 a problem, Like all of this ship that we do, motherfuckers could have 431 00:31:41,519 --> 00:31:45,799 just all this ship would have been free, like every life could have been 432 00:31:45,799 --> 00:31:51,519 free as fuck. You know that you ain't with it. With that, 433 00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:55,480 I'm just saying, if we never really needed it, why do we need 434 00:31:55,519 --> 00:32:01,039 it? Because I need it for If you give people, let's say you 435 00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:06,119 just give people like I just think it to be a Let's let's say let's 436 00:32:06,119 --> 00:32:08,480 say you take money out of it. Let's say you take money out of 437 00:32:08,519 --> 00:32:15,359 it. Money isn't money. I don't feel like money is the issue most 438 00:32:15,400 --> 00:32:21,200 of the time. I feel like majority of the time is a motherfucker's mind 439 00:32:21,279 --> 00:32:25,119 that is preventing them from getting ahead, the inability to think clear. And 440 00:32:27,039 --> 00:32:30,519 when I start when I was in pain, like and I couldn't walk for 441 00:32:30,680 --> 00:32:35,559 far far or sit too long or stand up too long, it dawned on 442 00:32:35,640 --> 00:32:44,319 me how much pain over overly consumed my life. I didn't I nigga. 443 00:32:44,559 --> 00:32:46,200 If I had to park too far at the grocery store to go in, 444 00:32:46,359 --> 00:32:49,519 I wouldn't. I wouldn't go. I'd be like, no, I'm not 445 00:32:49,559 --> 00:32:51,839 about to park way back here because I gotta walk, and then I gotta 446 00:32:51,880 --> 00:32:54,480 walk in there. I wasn't so much pain. I was in so much 447 00:32:54,519 --> 00:33:00,440 pain that I started thinking about what if that pain wasn't physical pain but mental 448 00:33:00,440 --> 00:33:02,960 pain. You got people who've been right lested, they got their parents is 449 00:33:04,079 --> 00:33:08,640 killed, they got some babies are born up to the drugs, motherfucker's DNA 450 00:33:08,759 --> 00:33:12,960 chromosomes. All this shit is fucked up. If you have all of this 451 00:33:13,000 --> 00:33:16,599 shit, Bro, money ain't the issue. My issue is I can't silence 452 00:33:16,680 --> 00:33:22,200 my fucking thoughts long enough to do homework or to love this person, or 453 00:33:22,200 --> 00:33:23,640 to go to work, or to sit in the car, or to pay 454 00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:29,240 my I can't silence these fucking thoughts. The mental I think, the overall 455 00:33:29,319 --> 00:33:32,119 mental health of what has happened, like motherfucker's fucked up. So imagine if 456 00:33:32,160 --> 00:33:36,119 you didn't have your mama, or you didn't have Rodney, or if I 457 00:33:36,119 --> 00:33:38,920 didn't have my mama, or to my mama. I'm from I'm we was 458 00:33:38,920 --> 00:33:42,839 in Gary, So what if my family never left Gary. I'll be going 459 00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:45,680 to Gary, like, Bro, we made it out this motherfucker nigga, 460 00:33:46,359 --> 00:33:50,319 And I'll be talking to niggas from where I'm from. And I'm like, 461 00:33:50,359 --> 00:33:54,480 bro, I see why you still here because if you left this place with 462 00:33:54,680 --> 00:33:59,640 that mentality, you're fucked. When you talk to certain when you talk to 463 00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:01,640 a certain motherfuckers bro, and you be like, bro, talk the mother 464 00:34:01,640 --> 00:34:04,640 fuckers from the hood. Bro. I' was like, like, bro, 465 00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:09,159 why you still like you ain't changed? You still listen to chopping screw music. 466 00:34:10,119 --> 00:34:15,239 I'm just saying, like, like, what are you doing. You're 467 00:34:15,239 --> 00:34:19,199 still coming out, just sitting on the porch every day. So it's not 468 00:34:20,039 --> 00:34:22,400 for me. I don't think it's because you can get these people money. 469 00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:24,360 You can give them a million dollars. I remember one time we was talking. 470 00:34:24,800 --> 00:34:29,280 I was ever a curb and uh. We were talking about the lottery 471 00:34:29,280 --> 00:34:31,000 ship and Shawayne was like, I was like, Yo, you know what 472 00:34:31,079 --> 00:34:34,840 niggas do if you got a million. Minch just said, I'm not I'm 473 00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:40,320 not leaving. Listen what he said. I'm not leaving. I'm staying here. 474 00:34:40,920 --> 00:34:44,880 And Wayne was so Wayne said, she was like why you don't want 475 00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:47,159 to? He said, because this is all I know. If I get 476 00:34:47,199 --> 00:34:51,199 money, I'm just gonna do what I've been doing every single day. And 477 00:34:51,199 --> 00:34:54,519 and the look on her face was like you raggedy pitched the look on her 478 00:34:54,559 --> 00:35:00,599 fact, but you some people don't want there's situation to change. They just 479 00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:06,639 want money to buy more bullshit, like and then I feel like I saw 480 00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:12,199 mother fucking video motherfucker about a jet ski broo yah, dumb ass ship. 481 00:35:14,159 --> 00:35:15,199 That's why I just said. I just feel like it would be a better 482 00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:20,519 place because like if it never was a thing, people wouldn't do dumb ship 483 00:35:20,599 --> 00:35:22,360 that they do for you know what I'm saying, Like people get money and 484 00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:25,800 just because they got money, they want to splurs and show out and just 485 00:35:25,920 --> 00:35:30,920 buy dumb ass ship and now and now and now they got people like us 486 00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:35,480 that don't got money, that that spend a little money that they got just 487 00:35:35,519 --> 00:35:38,880 to try to be like these motherfuckers. But I see what you're saying, 488 00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:43,559 and I agree, But I think it's a double as toward because I feel 489 00:35:43,639 --> 00:35:49,119 like people believe that money is going to solve their issues and it's not. 490 00:35:49,679 --> 00:35:52,159 Yeah they do, That's what I'm saying, Like people rob kill for money 491 00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:59,280 and it's still bro you still you still like two and rent for not fifteen? 492 00:35:59,360 --> 00:36:01,800 You know what I'm saying, Like it's just stupid ship. So I 493 00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:06,280 don't know. I was just saying, like I think the illusion of money 494 00:36:06,360 --> 00:36:10,880 because like I know, when I don't know, everything just seems like it's 495 00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:15,559 about money though, when it comes to the world, all the dead and 496 00:36:15,599 --> 00:36:20,440 all the bullshit, ship that money that that needs to be that we need 497 00:36:20,480 --> 00:36:22,840 to remake ship or just whatever. But I just feel like we got people. 498 00:36:23,199 --> 00:36:25,960 It's the people that does that do the ship, you know what I'm 499 00:36:25,960 --> 00:36:30,320 saying, that make the ship. Yeah. People probably if before people started 500 00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:37,000 getting paid, I feel like motherfuckers would have just done the ship. No, 501 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:42,679 No, absolutely not. They wouldn't know no better. If you like 502 00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:45,360 how back in the day, motherfuckers was just builling shit. Bro, they 503 00:36:45,400 --> 00:36:47,719 probably won't get paid shit for it. They just bill shit at the bill 504 00:36:47,760 --> 00:36:53,239 shit there was. There has always been an instance of I do this for 505 00:36:53,440 --> 00:36:58,599 something, work exchange, work in exchange for something, or you wore a 506 00:36:58,639 --> 00:37:01,519 slave pretty much, so I'm going for food or for anything, I'm gonna 507 00:37:01,559 --> 00:37:05,199 we're gonna exchange services, or I'm gonna give you this cow and you're gonna 508 00:37:05,239 --> 00:37:08,480 give me this or it was always a barter system, and then the motherfuckers 509 00:37:08,599 --> 00:37:13,320 like, oh well, we'll just have taxes and we'll make motherfuckers. Yeah 510 00:37:13,360 --> 00:37:16,719 I know. So what I'm saying is I'll give what you're saying. There's 511 00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:20,840 always that, but you but you got but but then you have those people 512 00:37:21,559 --> 00:37:27,280 who know how to do things and they just do it like and they don't 513 00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:30,559 need money. If I if I can do certain ship, I don't need 514 00:37:30,599 --> 00:37:32,519 the money. I'm just saying like people are just doing ship that they love 515 00:37:32,559 --> 00:37:37,000 to do. Yeah, so I feel like if it started like that, 516 00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:43,559 then you but then now then everybody would mindset would be different. But keep 517 00:37:43,599 --> 00:37:50,039 that. Keep that's keep what you're saying. If people could think that's that's 518 00:37:50,039 --> 00:37:52,800 what that's to go back to what I'm saying, some people can't even make 519 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:55,599 that decision about what they love and what they would You ask the motherfucker right 520 00:37:55,639 --> 00:38:00,960 now, Hey, what would you do everything all day? What would you 521 00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:05,440 want to do everythingle if? And I asked my wife this, I asked 522 00:38:05,480 --> 00:38:08,760 Mama this, I asked everybody this. If you didn't have to worry about 523 00:38:08,880 --> 00:38:15,280 money, what would you do every day? Sit down and map it out 524 00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:19,639 from Sunday to Saturday? What would you do every day if you didn't have 525 00:38:19,719 --> 00:38:23,280 to worry about money? And motherfuckers will say watch TV, bro, I 526 00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:25,960 swear to god, bro. Motherfuckers will say that, And I'd be like, 527 00:38:25,960 --> 00:38:29,559 all right, I'm gonna wake up at this time I'm gonna go to 528 00:38:29,559 --> 00:38:30,679 the gym. I'm gonna come home. I'm gonna eat this, I'm gonna 529 00:38:30,679 --> 00:38:32,280 do this. I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna 530 00:38:32,280 --> 00:38:36,360 do it. I have a whole I think I will be able to program 531 00:38:36,400 --> 00:38:39,199 my life a lot, a lot better if I did not have money. 532 00:38:39,199 --> 00:38:43,199 All right, cool, great, I'm so happy we having this conversation. 533 00:38:44,199 --> 00:38:47,199 All right, all right, shut it up, meute it up now that 534 00:38:47,440 --> 00:38:52,960 now that, now that I've asked you that question, tell me, honestly, 535 00:38:52,199 --> 00:38:57,360 have you ever sat and thought about what you wanted your life to be 536 00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:02,400 from Sunday to Saturday, taking into account every hour of the day. Have 537 00:39:02,480 --> 00:39:06,719 you ever sat and thought? Honestly, have you ever saw Sat to Saturday, 538 00:39:06,920 --> 00:39:10,840 Sunday to Saturday. Have you ever sat probably not set in thought yesterday 539 00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:15,199 Monday? No? No, all right, cool. Let's say that life 540 00:39:15,280 --> 00:39:20,920 is like a restaurant and you go to and you're in this restaurant of life 541 00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:25,639 right now, and God is the and God is the server what he gonna 542 00:39:25,639 --> 00:39:29,440 give you? If you never sat down and said what you want it, 543 00:39:30,599 --> 00:39:34,280 if you never actually sat down and told yourself what you want it, then 544 00:39:34,280 --> 00:39:39,400 how is God who's here to ship? Like, take three steps, you 545 00:39:39,440 --> 00:39:44,039 take this step. If he's if he's all of this, if you never 546 00:39:44,159 --> 00:39:49,039 actually sat down and said I want this, this, this, this, 547 00:39:49,039 --> 00:39:52,199 this, this and this, then how he gonna bless you? I mean 548 00:39:52,239 --> 00:39:55,199 I've sat and sat in thought. Probably not like I said Monday through Sunday, 549 00:39:55,199 --> 00:40:00,800 but I've deaf sat like and I feel like if I if I had, 550 00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:04,719 if I if my finances was right, and don't take finances out. 551 00:40:04,960 --> 00:40:08,199 I think that's the issue. Ain't no finances, ain't no finances because what 552 00:40:08,239 --> 00:40:10,559 you want in life? I know you. You're a simple nigga, bro, 553 00:40:12,119 --> 00:40:15,840 you are not. You are not a finance nigga. You want bills 554 00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:20,800 paid. I want my bill, I want I want my kids. I 555 00:40:20,840 --> 00:40:24,679 want to be able to do things for my family and people that I love. 556 00:40:24,960 --> 00:40:30,320 Right so now, so now now this is what this is like. 557 00:40:30,639 --> 00:40:34,079 This is the assignment. This is the assignment. You need to sit down 558 00:40:34,159 --> 00:40:38,119 and be It's detailed as like a like a fucking playbook when it comes to 559 00:40:38,159 --> 00:40:44,239 sports, as detailed as fucking possible when it comes to this ship. Because 560 00:40:44,280 --> 00:40:46,719 my nigga d j A I he was like he said, hey, bro, 561 00:40:47,199 --> 00:40:50,280 because last year we had this conversation and he was like, hey, 562 00:40:50,280 --> 00:40:52,920 man, I want to say that I'm proud of you. And I was 563 00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:57,920 like why. He said, because you're living life the exact same way you 564 00:40:57,960 --> 00:40:59,639 said you wanted to live. And I was like, what do you mean? 565 00:40:59,719 --> 00:41:01,280 He said, Bro, you waking up, going to the gym, 566 00:41:01,320 --> 00:41:05,760 You're dropping your kids off, you're eating, you edit in podcasts, and 567 00:41:05,760 --> 00:41:07,119 you with your kids. You with this, He said, if you was 568 00:41:07,119 --> 00:41:10,719 a little bit more detailed about how much money you want it, you probably 569 00:41:10,719 --> 00:41:15,880 would have it the way. And I was like, damn it. Really 570 00:41:15,159 --> 00:41:20,159 I really had to stop and think like, yeah, I'm struggling financially, 571 00:41:20,280 --> 00:41:23,320 but everything else is exactly the way I want it. And I was like, 572 00:41:23,519 --> 00:41:30,960 fuck, I need to become more grateful and start acknowledging how grateful that 573 00:41:30,039 --> 00:41:35,519 I am, because I don't want my server to think that I don't like 574 00:41:35,559 --> 00:41:37,199 the food that they gave me, because this is the food that I asked 575 00:41:37,199 --> 00:41:40,079 for, you know what I'm saying. And I feel like, as black 576 00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:45,400 boys and as black people, I feel like a lot of the times I 577 00:41:45,480 --> 00:41:47,559 used to go to the store of my mom and she'd be like, don't 578 00:41:47,599 --> 00:41:51,519 ask for nothing, don't touch nothing. Da da da da da da da 579 00:41:51,599 --> 00:41:55,119 dah. Or well, we mighta grew up broke to where we didn't ask 580 00:41:55,119 --> 00:41:59,639 for nothing because we didn't want to put the burden on our parents to get 581 00:41:59,679 --> 00:42:01,760 us to sh shit. So I was like I when I got the morning, 582 00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:04,719 when I bought the Mortar Combat, I was like, that was the 583 00:42:04,760 --> 00:42:07,559 first game I ever bought with my money. Like that was like, I 584 00:42:07,599 --> 00:42:08,719 mean, I about Mario and shit like that, but it was like on 585 00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:14,320 sale, this motherfucker was one old something. I bought the Premium Joint and 586 00:42:14,320 --> 00:42:19,280 I was like, I was like, damn, Like this is what I 587 00:42:19,320 --> 00:42:22,800 didn't ask myhama to do for me because we nigga, we had crazy taxi 588 00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:27,480 cruise in USA, motherfucking crash, Tony howg double seven, motherfucker all of 589 00:42:27,480 --> 00:42:30,280 that shit. So I didn't ask none of that stuff. And I think 590 00:42:30,320 --> 00:42:37,599 I grew up reluctant to ask God, like God was my mom, Like 591 00:42:37,639 --> 00:42:39,800 I didn't want to Like who am I to ask for this stuff? Nigga, 592 00:42:39,800 --> 00:42:43,920 I can ask for whatever the fuck I want. So I think that 593 00:42:44,159 --> 00:42:51,000 until we grow the balls or grow the I don't gonna say grow the balls 594 00:42:51,000 --> 00:42:54,840 because niggas is ballsy. Pause. I think it's more so like I deserve 595 00:42:55,039 --> 00:42:58,800 this and I need to ask. I need to find a way to act 596 00:42:59,039 --> 00:43:02,440 ask. And then and I feel like like like I was thinking, like, 597 00:43:02,559 --> 00:43:07,800 damn, what if Jeff had a vision board party instead of a fight 598 00:43:07,840 --> 00:43:09,519 party? Jeff had a vision board party. The reason why I use Jeff 599 00:43:09,599 --> 00:43:15,599 is because over there, I feel like his environment that he creates for his 600 00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:19,440 friends makes it. Makes it like when me and Jamar sit on the couch 601 00:43:19,599 --> 00:43:22,159 I forgure, I don't know where you was at. I was looking at 602 00:43:22,199 --> 00:43:23,440 it and I was like, man, this motherfucker is nice. Man. 603 00:43:23,880 --> 00:43:27,239 He was like, bro, imagine if we grew up and some ship like 604 00:43:27,280 --> 00:43:30,480 that. He was like, imagine if we grew up thinking that this was 605 00:43:30,519 --> 00:43:34,840 possible, that this that the ceiling like this. What if we thought that 606 00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:39,079 this was the normal and not TIBs or not growth if we And I was 607 00:43:39,119 --> 00:43:43,960 like, fuck, Broma supposed to be watching a fight. You got member 608 00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:47,199 her fucking thinking. But it always ended up being like that though. But 609 00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:52,639 I'm saying like if if I knew, if I knew what I know now, 610 00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:53,840 no no, no, yeah. With that, I'm talking about like 611 00:43:54,360 --> 00:43:58,519 back to the vision board ship. If I I feel like family members and 612 00:43:58,599 --> 00:44:02,519 not friends, well, whoever you talk to the most, I feel like 613 00:44:02,800 --> 00:44:07,840 they opposed to being an accountability partner for the gym. What if you knew 614 00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:12,920 everything that I was trying to accomplish and I knew everything that you was trying 615 00:44:12,920 --> 00:44:17,920 to accomplish and opposed to being an accountability partner. Whenever I see something on 616 00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:22,079 my timeline that aligns with what you're trying to do, or somebody presents an 617 00:44:22,079 --> 00:44:25,440 opportunity to me with something that you're trying to do, I send it to 618 00:44:25,480 --> 00:44:30,480 you, opposed to just only sending you funny stuff. You know what I'm 619 00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:37,199 saying. And I feel like I feel like more people need to figure out 620 00:44:37,519 --> 00:44:43,239 what it is they want from this life because we only get one. And 621 00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:47,119 I think that's the thing is figuring out figuring out what we want. Yeah, 622 00:44:47,119 --> 00:44:50,880 because I feel like for me, like when I'm I'm trying to write 623 00:44:50,880 --> 00:44:53,480 this Black Widow shit and I feel like I haven't written in a long time, 624 00:44:53,599 --> 00:44:58,400 and I feel like now I want to learn the proper way to write. 625 00:44:58,480 --> 00:45:00,360 I want I'm watching the The Tyler Period shit, I'm like, bro, 626 00:45:00,559 --> 00:45:05,360 this this ship ain't that far off from what you're doing. Yeah, 627 00:45:05,360 --> 00:45:07,800 like his start, I'm where he at now, completely way off. But 628 00:45:08,000 --> 00:45:12,960 I'm saying how he started is not too far off from me. Invited all 629 00:45:13,119 --> 00:45:16,480 you fucking Reef and Brooklyn and all these motherfuckers to my crib to record some 630 00:45:16,519 --> 00:45:20,280 ship that I wrote, or that Liz rote, or that Brittany wrote. 631 00:45:20,360 --> 00:45:23,079 And now, if we did this consecutively and then found somebody who was good 632 00:45:23,119 --> 00:45:27,440 at marketing who wanted to do this, bro, we could have did whatever. 633 00:45:28,000 --> 00:45:30,119 We could have did whatever. But so many people, everybody that I 634 00:45:30,199 --> 00:45:35,119 just named, all have mental hurdles that stopped them from doing exactly what they 635 00:45:35,159 --> 00:45:39,039 want to do. And God can't bless those blessings come from the sky. 636 00:45:39,079 --> 00:45:45,119 And if we blocking them with uncertainty or running away from it, yeah yeah, 637 00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:47,760 death run away from me too. I'd be like, Nah, I 638 00:45:47,800 --> 00:45:52,079 ain't ready for that, nigga, you are. I'm sending it for a 639 00:45:52,159 --> 00:45:55,199 reason. God keeps saying I'm sending this ship. I'm gonna stop one day, 640 00:45:55,400 --> 00:45:59,119 but right now I'm gonna keep sending it. I had that thought too, 641 00:45:59,199 --> 00:46:02,519 like man show, I'll be like, man, I just please don't 642 00:46:02,559 --> 00:46:07,599 stop. I knew I wasn't open and ready to receive pause what you are 643 00:46:07,639 --> 00:46:09,800 trying to give me? But I just hope that you what you ain't done 644 00:46:09,880 --> 00:46:15,440 yet, I swear, I just I just need to learn, Like I 645 00:46:15,480 --> 00:46:21,519 think my problem is organized. Once once you, once you sit down and 646 00:46:21,519 --> 00:46:24,199 say what you want, bro, everything is gonna be. Everythings gonna be 647 00:46:24,239 --> 00:46:27,559 cacking. Promise you. I swear to God because now it's gonna be like, 648 00:46:27,880 --> 00:46:30,719 now you know what help to ask for? I think that's what it 649 00:46:30,800 --> 00:46:35,280 is too. I don't really know what what I need help with. You 650 00:46:35,320 --> 00:46:38,360 know what I'm saying. Like, so I don't even want to ask nobody 651 00:46:38,400 --> 00:46:42,960 because I'm not sure. I asked my mentor. I asked this Nigga Random 652 00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:49,119 Questions movie producer. He owns Q Coke podcast company. I was like, 653 00:46:52,000 --> 00:46:57,000 what is a successful podcast? I've never asked that question. How do I 654 00:46:57,079 --> 00:46:59,639 know that what I'm doing is successful? So I asked him, I was 655 00:46:59,679 --> 00:47:05,639 like, what my fucking phone is recorded? How he told me? He 656 00:47:05,679 --> 00:47:09,960 told me he was like your audience selling ass to the like who your audience 657 00:47:10,079 --> 00:47:14,960 is, how big the audience is? As you can sell the audience and 658 00:47:15,039 --> 00:47:19,400 whatever content that you create, can you sell it to become a TV show 659 00:47:19,519 --> 00:47:23,360 and or a TV series, And he said, those are the main three. 660 00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:29,280 If you don't have if you're creating, if you're creating ship back to 661 00:47:29,320 --> 00:47:31,719 the original conversation we start the pod. If you're creating ship without the and 662 00:47:32,000 --> 00:47:37,159 without the audience in mind, you don't have an audience because you don't know 663 00:47:37,199 --> 00:47:39,559 how to communicate to this audience. Which if you knew how to communicate to 664 00:47:39,599 --> 00:47:43,199 this audience, somebody can give you something to tell. You know, you 665 00:47:43,199 --> 00:47:45,639 can tell your audience to buy it. And because we know that your audience 666 00:47:45,719 --> 00:47:49,119 bought it from that, then we put it on Amazon. We could sell 667 00:47:49,159 --> 00:47:51,480 you know what I'm saying Like that, that's that's define how they look at 668 00:47:51,519 --> 00:47:53,400 it. They're looking to see that. You see, he got a following. 669 00:47:53,440 --> 00:47:58,960 They got a following that they following their followers or the listeners, gauge, 670 00:47:59,159 --> 00:48:01,599 engage and then do whatever they tell them to do. Another person told 671 00:48:01,599 --> 00:48:07,559 me they said, stop doing business, stop doing business with people, start 672 00:48:07,639 --> 00:48:13,920 doing business with business with businesses. So now Rare needs to do business with 673 00:48:14,159 --> 00:48:16,840 another business and not people. So now you go to a company and say, 674 00:48:16,920 --> 00:48:22,519 yo, I want to do and will handle this and it'll be this 675 00:48:22,679 --> 00:48:27,039 much, and I think too. The problem is that we don't even know 676 00:48:27,079 --> 00:48:30,039 how to price our ship because now price comes from a self worth thing self 677 00:48:30,079 --> 00:48:34,800 worth. Like then I don't want to say too much. I'm scaring motherfucker. 678 00:48:35,159 --> 00:48:39,159 And then and then it comes like area as well. So like here, 679 00:48:39,199 --> 00:48:45,719 I'm in Indianapolis, I couldn't. I can, but I probably wouldn't 680 00:48:45,320 --> 00:48:49,679 sell ship for what I could selling for because I know the marketing here. 681 00:48:49,719 --> 00:48:53,000 I know people here might not. You know what I'm saying. Surprised, 682 00:48:53,039 --> 00:48:57,599 bro, now you would, you would be surprised at how many motherfuckers I've 683 00:48:57,639 --> 00:49:00,719 been surprised since what I what I do, I've done, you know what 684 00:49:00,760 --> 00:49:04,639 I'm saying. But I also some stuff I had to, like, I'm 685 00:49:04,639 --> 00:49:07,239 gonna just keep it here, you know what I'm saying. I don't have 686 00:49:07,280 --> 00:49:08,280 stuff where people like, bro, you can sell it for more than this. 687 00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:10,480 I'm like, Nah, I'm gonna just keep it here because I just 688 00:49:10,599 --> 00:49:15,960 know that might be too much. You know what I'm saying, But it 689 00:49:16,039 --> 00:49:19,840 is my price. My price is my price. Like one of my niggas 690 00:49:19,880 --> 00:49:22,119 told me when I asked when I first started doing this, he said, 691 00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:24,719 I'd rather get my ship, away for free than the lower my price. 692 00:49:25,800 --> 00:49:30,960 And I said, oh my mama, okay, because it is what it 693 00:49:30,119 --> 00:49:34,159 is like if I if I'm a lower my price, somebody will just give 694 00:49:34,199 --> 00:49:37,039 it to you for I'm already I'm already losing. At this point, motherfucker 695 00:49:37,079 --> 00:49:40,400 hit me up and asked me how much would it cost to mix a song? 696 00:49:42,519 --> 00:49:45,079 And I said, give me five. I do it for five if 697 00:49:45,159 --> 00:49:47,880 I do it in two days, give me five. It was like, 698 00:49:47,880 --> 00:49:53,239 oh that's how much. That's how much so and so charged? And Bro, 699 00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:58,199 I got so upset? What that? What does that mean? The 700 00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:01,360 fuck that got it? Do it? Big worms said at the motherfucking best 701 00:50:01,360 --> 00:50:08,639 the niggas Craig got fired, got do with me? Bro? What the 702 00:50:08,920 --> 00:50:12,960 do that even mean? Because I feel like you're trying to tell me that 703 00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:16,880 I should lower my price because it's not It might be where another engineer is 704 00:50:16,880 --> 00:50:22,960 who you might deem is more credible than me, And this is the problem. 705 00:50:23,239 --> 00:50:27,119 I don't give a fuck, Bro, I don't give a fuck who 706 00:50:27,199 --> 00:50:30,039 they are. I don't, bro, because my level of my standard. 707 00:50:30,920 --> 00:50:35,800 You are paying for a standard level, and you're paying for my time. 708 00:50:35,880 --> 00:50:38,280 I got three kids and a wife and my own projects. So you're paying 709 00:50:38,320 --> 00:50:44,000 me to take me away from them and away from my ship and away from 710 00:50:44,000 --> 00:50:46,360 the gym. You're you're not. I don't give a fuck about the Yes, 711 00:50:46,440 --> 00:50:49,800 I'm gonna make it sh it sound cool. But even in that, 712 00:50:50,639 --> 00:50:53,599 you ain't about to do nothing with this motherfucking song. Bro. You ain't 713 00:50:53,639 --> 00:50:57,079 about to do ship, but put it on fucking Instagram and put it on 714 00:50:57,119 --> 00:50:59,880 iTunes and do a video and then that be that. It's not about to 715 00:51:00,280 --> 00:51:05,280 You're not about to do nothing behind It doesn't matter. Your audience doesn't know 716 00:51:05,320 --> 00:51:07,800 you for fucking quality, bro, So you're you coming to me like bro? 717 00:51:07,880 --> 00:51:09,880 You making me mad, bro, And I don't want to be mad. 718 00:51:10,320 --> 00:51:15,039 Make me mad because all of you niggas fucking are ramon noodle eating niggas 719 00:51:15,480 --> 00:51:20,960 when it comes to quality, and I am a motherfucking surfing turf nigga. 720 00:51:21,719 --> 00:51:25,840 My quality is surfing turf, motherfucking and they don't understanding that. Bro. 721 00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:30,000 It's not bro, we are not no you when you come over here. 722 00:51:30,159 --> 00:51:35,280 It ain't no great value over here, man, but you are creating great 723 00:51:35,440 --> 00:51:40,159 value content. And until you get to a level like, stay where you 724 00:51:40,239 --> 00:51:47,960 at. Just stay where you at and I feel like a lot of motherfuckers. 725 00:51:50,320 --> 00:51:52,320 I got to a point now, bro to where I would much rather 726 00:51:52,519 --> 00:51:55,920 do nothing like you said. I would much rather give it away for free. 727 00:51:57,920 --> 00:52:00,079 It's lower my price because I feel like you asking me to low on 728 00:52:00,119 --> 00:52:05,760 my price. It's telling me that it's given broke. Yeah, like it's 729 00:52:05,800 --> 00:52:08,039 given broke, and it's giving what you gonna think my ship good enough? 730 00:52:08,079 --> 00:52:12,280 And it's given that, what do you think? Why so why are you 731 00:52:12,280 --> 00:52:16,760 even fucking asking me what the fuck? You ain't going in mother fucking Gucci 732 00:52:16,760 --> 00:52:22,519 and telling them, motherfuckers, there's too much y'all going to that motherfucker spend 733 00:52:22,760 --> 00:52:29,280 two hundred three hundreds some fucking flip flops or some feel so bro don't want 734 00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:31,400 to hear that, And I feel like and I feel like too when I 735 00:52:31,440 --> 00:52:37,559 try to give motherfuckers like maybe people don't understand ship y'all be spending all his 736 00:52:37,639 --> 00:52:45,039 money on on this chest. I was not talking about rear goddamnout. I'm 737 00:52:45,079 --> 00:52:52,519 more so speaking about where I started, and you know, and maybe maybe 738 00:52:52,559 --> 00:52:55,000 like fifty other people know, maybe people I went to high school with. 739 00:52:55,039 --> 00:53:00,920 But brob been making ship on their computer since I was fourteen years old. 740 00:53:00,239 --> 00:53:04,800 I am thirty seven. I didn't have all of this. I got a 741 00:53:04,840 --> 00:53:07,480 lot of shit over here. My shit sound different, my shit sound better. 742 00:53:08,840 --> 00:53:12,559 But it took a while to get to this point, bro, And 743 00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:20,280 I used to feel like I used to feel like I couldn't be as braggadocious 744 00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:22,880 as I am currently. I used to feel like I had to shrink myself. 745 00:53:22,920 --> 00:53:25,159 And the only reason why I felt like I needed to shrink myself is 746 00:53:25,159 --> 00:53:32,840 because me not shrinking myself made you, trash motherfuckers very uncomfortable. Them days 747 00:53:32,840 --> 00:53:37,239 are fucking over, Bro, though, these days are over. When I 748 00:53:37,239 --> 00:53:40,199 talk to people about they content, I'm now like, Yo, we've talked 749 00:53:40,239 --> 00:53:44,039 for ten minutes. If you want to talk more, it's three hundred dollars 750 00:53:44,079 --> 00:53:47,920 an hour. I'm sorry, it's three hundred dollars a conversation, because now 751 00:53:49,039 --> 00:53:52,719 what niggas is doing? Like, if now what niggas is doing, they'll 752 00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:54,079 come to you and say, Ken and I got an idea for a clothing 753 00:53:54,119 --> 00:53:59,000 line, and then they'll talk yo, motherfucking ear off, ear off, 754 00:53:59,280 --> 00:54:02,320 And I'm like, bro, why the fuck do you think this information that 755 00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:05,920 I had to pay for on my I had to pay for this, whether 756 00:54:05,920 --> 00:54:07,639 I pay somebody else for the consultation, or I had to pay you had 757 00:54:07,679 --> 00:54:10,679 to go and order some shit from China and the motherfuckers some shit. You 758 00:54:10,679 --> 00:54:15,280 gotta go. You went through all the No, what I'm giving you now 759 00:54:15,519 --> 00:54:17,840 needs to be paid for. If you a motherfucking chef out there and you 760 00:54:17,960 --> 00:54:22,159 answering motherfucker's questions in your inbox, stop it, stop it. You gotta 761 00:54:22,199 --> 00:54:25,599 pay for this. If you a motherfucking you gotta pay for it. That's 762 00:54:25,599 --> 00:54:30,320 why I just don't get it. Like Cauz, Like, hain't he hit 763 00:54:30,400 --> 00:54:35,079 me up, little meat, Like a couple of motherfuckers that hit me up 764 00:54:35,119 --> 00:54:38,719 about my clothes. You know they do the little shit and like tag such 765 00:54:38,719 --> 00:54:42,400 and such such motherfuckers tag me in the inbox. You all your people with 766 00:54:42,519 --> 00:54:45,760 tagging boom boom. So I'm like, shit, what's up, whe's your 767 00:54:45,760 --> 00:54:47,480 po boxer? What's the name? I seen you some shit out for free. 768 00:54:47,519 --> 00:54:50,840 I've seen you some shit. They're like, no, they're trying to 769 00:54:50,840 --> 00:54:54,280 promote they on videos or what boom Boom paid it? Like what, No, 770 00:54:54,320 --> 00:54:58,599 I'm not paying twelve hundred for you to put my shit in your fucking 771 00:54:58,599 --> 00:55:00,000 story for twenty four hours bro, like, get the fuck out of my 772 00:55:00,039 --> 00:55:06,079 face, out of these niggas's broken there. You're not strumming me by trying 773 00:55:06,079 --> 00:55:08,480 to scam people with dreams. Bro, if I had it and that shiit 774 00:55:08,559 --> 00:55:12,400 wasn't nothing, then all right. But I don't got it. If I 775 00:55:12,440 --> 00:55:16,880 wouldn't need to be paying and I wouldn't need to be like or maybe I 776 00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:21,800 do, but it wouldn't be you. It wouldn't be you. I saw 777 00:55:21,840 --> 00:55:24,360 you a little me and you took a picture with dirty nails looking back at 778 00:55:24,400 --> 00:55:30,039 your ass. Oh my god, you need to be fired for that. 779 00:55:30,119 --> 00:55:31,679 I don't even know how you keep getting away. Hold on, I don't 780 00:55:31,679 --> 00:55:36,079 know how you keep getting away with this bullshit. Your daddy sold drugs to 781 00:55:36,159 --> 00:55:39,480 the community. Your daddy did. Your daddy has locked the fuck up and 782 00:55:39,519 --> 00:55:44,119 all of his friends are locked the fuck up. And he looks crazy as 783 00:55:44,159 --> 00:55:47,480 hell because he sold so much drugs to the community, and he put a 784 00:55:47,480 --> 00:55:53,440 fucking billboard in Atlanta to showcase that he was buying drugs for the community. 785 00:55:53,480 --> 00:55:57,599 He went to jail because he was stupid, and you stupid as a motherfucker 786 00:55:57,639 --> 00:56:01,840 too. You're too flashy, bro, You you ain't nobody meach you're not 787 00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:07,960 nobody. Your dad is and barely he's so drugs to the community. That's 788 00:56:08,039 --> 00:56:13,159 it. Bro. You're you acting on the show about your daddy. Of 789 00:56:13,280 --> 00:56:16,360 course you can act like your daddy. So yeah, that's great, kudos 790 00:56:16,360 --> 00:56:21,920 to you, But my nigga, I don't like how you ain't dead enough. 791 00:56:22,239 --> 00:56:24,360 I'm sorry you ain't did enough out here. You're just out here, 792 00:56:24,400 --> 00:56:30,920 just doing the most. I wish you would have told me what you told 793 00:56:30,960 --> 00:56:32,519 him, Bro. I would have blasted you, bro, because no, 794 00:56:32,760 --> 00:56:37,079 you ain't dead enough. Bro. I've produced more shit than you. So 795 00:56:37,159 --> 00:56:42,280 my thing is my thing is if this is my bragg of shit, and 796 00:56:42,280 --> 00:56:45,119 I'm going into twenty twenty four like this, my nigga, if I produced 797 00:56:45,159 --> 00:56:50,039 more than you, you can't. You can't talk to me, and you 798 00:56:50,079 --> 00:56:52,920 can't talk to me. You can talk to me, but you can't talk 799 00:56:52,920 --> 00:56:55,920 to me any fucking kind of way. Shut your mouth when you're talking to 800 00:56:55,960 --> 00:57:02,280 me. He's so fluck my soul. FU anybody, but that's anybody. 801 00:57:02,320 --> 00:57:06,320 If you a fucking my sister, she's a baker. She's baked hundreds and 802 00:57:06,400 --> 00:57:10,119 hundreds of fucking cakes. I can't tell her you can't cake. You can't 803 00:57:10,119 --> 00:57:15,719 tell her Ship if you if you can't do something consistently for years, you 804 00:57:15,840 --> 00:57:20,039 can't tell me ship. If you can't do nothing consistently for years without getting 805 00:57:20,079 --> 00:57:23,239 paid for it. You can't tell me Ship if the quality keep going up 806 00:57:23,239 --> 00:57:28,559 and I'm still not getting paid because it's a fucking journey, you can't tell 807 00:57:28,639 --> 00:57:32,480 me Ship and everybody. You gotta put that work in. You gotta put 808 00:57:32,519 --> 00:57:36,199 that work in. And I feel like what you're doing right now, you're 809 00:57:36,199 --> 00:57:38,519 putting that work in. Me. We putting that work in. But us 810 00:57:38,559 --> 00:57:45,239 deflating ourselves because we ain't got money or because we y'all feel we don't got 811 00:57:45,239 --> 00:57:50,840 a name, or we ain't celebrities. I feel like crying. Yeah, 812 00:57:51,239 --> 00:57:53,079 I said, are you regularly? Like regular than the bitch? And it's 813 00:57:53,079 --> 00:57:58,079 fucked up because Moniga is saying the shit forever and motherfuckers thinks she's motherfuckers thought 814 00:57:58,119 --> 00:58:00,119 that she was going crazy. And that's the fun thing about the world. 815 00:58:00,199 --> 00:58:02,480 Like that's why I say, like with the industry and shit is just fucked 816 00:58:02,559 --> 00:58:07,480 up because I'll just be feeling like like they be saying the little rituals and 817 00:58:07,519 --> 00:58:09,960 Ship the humiliation rituals. They got to go through that and ship like that 818 00:58:10,199 --> 00:58:16,599 or just people be thinking that ship is sweet and it's not. It's not 819 00:58:16,800 --> 00:58:22,519 sweet, like it's not. They're struggling. They're struggling, bro, They're 820 00:58:22,559 --> 00:58:24,639 struggling. And then and then when they get the exposed and they want to 821 00:58:24,679 --> 00:58:30,199 talk about the ship, the media flip it to make you think that these 822 00:58:30,239 --> 00:58:36,079 motherfuckers are nuts and they're not. They just tell the truth because the motherfucker's 823 00:58:36,119 --> 00:58:42,199 definitely flipped on Monique bro flip it was crazy and Monique was talking about the 824 00:58:42,280 --> 00:58:46,800 same person that's Eraji was talking about, yes, which is Oprah Oprah Oprah, 825 00:58:49,079 --> 00:58:52,800 but they said Tyler Perry looked out, but it's Lee Daniels and Oprah 826 00:58:52,960 --> 00:58:58,320 and Oprah. Yeah. I feel like I saw a video Oprah said people 827 00:58:58,360 --> 00:59:01,119 should be happy about the role that they got. I told people that they 828 00:59:01,119 --> 00:59:07,000 should be joyful that I asked them to play in this movie. And I'm 829 00:59:07,039 --> 00:59:13,320 like, Nigga, I can't pay motherfucking bills with joy. Bitch, give 830 00:59:13,360 --> 00:59:15,519 me my money, Bitch, I don't. I'm not about to bust my 831 00:59:15,599 --> 00:59:21,679 ass for for this all this hard work. But I feel when I already 832 00:59:21,679 --> 00:59:23,639 got a name, I got, you gotta name. I just feel like 833 00:59:24,880 --> 00:59:30,320 I feel like we are a lot of people are fighting to get into an 834 00:59:30,360 --> 00:59:34,519 industry that is not that it is not like y'all think it is. And 835 00:59:34,559 --> 00:59:37,679 that's why I say, you gotta find joy in creating this ship for free, 836 00:59:38,119 --> 00:59:43,360 because right now, if I can create my ship with my friends and 837 00:59:43,400 --> 00:59:45,840 I canna pay my bills and I can and I can eat the way I 838 00:59:45,880 --> 00:59:49,000 want to eat, and I would be all right, good, I will 839 00:59:49,719 --> 00:59:53,079 worry about it. I would be childcare and eating. How I gotta pay 840 00:59:53,119 --> 00:59:57,559 childcare rent and I gotta eat. That's it, you know what I mean. 841 00:59:57,559 --> 01:00:00,920 I gotta pay these bills, man. And I feel like people wanting 842 01:00:01,039 --> 01:00:05,679 more, you can want more. I'm not saying, don't ask for more. 843 01:00:05,719 --> 01:00:07,800 And I might be selling myself short by not asking for more. I 844 01:00:07,840 --> 01:00:14,280 just said, ask for more. But my thing is that the actors and 845 01:00:14,320 --> 01:00:16,559 the writers and the producers and the directors and the musicians and this and this 846 01:00:16,639 --> 01:00:20,679 and that we keep hearing stories about how they do not have any money, 847 01:00:21,639 --> 01:00:23,039 and then we keep hearing J Cole say, well I got money. That 848 01:00:23,159 --> 01:00:28,239 wasn't happy. I keep telling like this whole podcast like it's crazy, because 849 01:00:29,599 --> 01:00:34,400 even with sports players, like we looking at them with all this money that 850 01:00:34,440 --> 01:00:37,480 they getting. Stephannim get forty years like this and that. But depending on 851 01:00:37,559 --> 01:00:44,119 what state they in, shit is different taxes all that. So I was 852 01:00:44,159 --> 01:00:47,360 watching some of TikTok word dude was breaking down everybody like people that got the 853 01:00:47,360 --> 01:00:53,480 big contracts where they're from, and then like a motherfucker's death was like got 854 01:00:53,639 --> 01:01:00,880 like a four year or two hundred something like that. Boom. By the 855 01:01:00,920 --> 01:01:06,280 time all this shit was out, he was looking at bro. It was 856 01:01:06,360 --> 01:01:08,920 it was crazy. It was like eighty billion or so or some shit like 857 01:01:08,960 --> 01:01:12,280 that, which is still cool, but it's like, so think about the 858 01:01:12,320 --> 01:01:15,079 people with lower than that. By the time they get like like the motherfuckers 859 01:01:15,119 --> 01:01:19,800 they got the Lakers they won, they get five hundred k. Once they 860 01:01:19,840 --> 01:01:23,039 take all that, they only getting two hundred and some thousands, Like Bro, 861 01:01:24,039 --> 01:01:27,360 it's something, and the way that they live their life, the two 862 01:01:27,440 --> 01:01:30,679 hundred thousand is not long, it's not nothing. So it's like the more 863 01:01:30,920 --> 01:01:35,199 it's just fucked up. How the more you make, the more taxes they 864 01:01:35,280 --> 01:01:37,400 gonna take. So it's basically you back to square, back to where I 865 01:01:37,440 --> 01:01:43,320 was when I was making fucking fifteen dollars an hour. No, I mean 866 01:01:43,760 --> 01:01:47,840 shit, like, all all that overtime ship, all that shit is a 867 01:01:47,840 --> 01:01:52,880 fucking scam. You got me working all these overtime hours and then when taxes 868 01:01:52,880 --> 01:01:55,920 come you know, and took all this bread. Now I'm looking like, 869 01:01:57,159 --> 01:02:02,440 bitch, you raggety I could have got damn. This is what I was 870 01:02:04,199 --> 01:02:07,280 basically my check when I worked, not over time before y'all took You know 871 01:02:07,280 --> 01:02:10,480 what I'm saying, like, just be crazy, man, because I thought 872 01:02:10,559 --> 01:02:14,000 when I got this one job, I'm like, shit, that's all right, 873 01:02:14,000 --> 01:02:16,159 I'm getting paid twenty three. No bet, I'm looking at them checks. 874 01:02:16,199 --> 01:02:19,239 I'm like, bro, why do this don't look like what is supposed 875 01:02:19,239 --> 01:02:21,519 to be though I feel like it's supposed to be more money than this. 876 01:02:21,639 --> 01:02:24,159 I had an interview there and they was like, it was like how much 877 01:02:24,199 --> 01:02:28,679 money? I said, yo, so what's the what's the starting salary for 878 01:02:28,719 --> 01:02:31,039 this? She said something. I was like, she said that enough. 879 01:02:31,119 --> 01:02:35,480 I was like, no, that's definitely not enough. She was like, 880 01:02:35,519 --> 01:02:37,000 well, how much do you? I said, what a going rate for 881 01:02:37,039 --> 01:02:43,320 this position is eighty, so it's close to that as possible. And then 882 01:02:43,679 --> 01:02:51,280 the way bro niggas I have I keep having to tell people I have to 883 01:02:51,280 --> 01:02:55,039 pay for childcare. Bro, that shit is not cheap, So I'm not 884 01:02:55,159 --> 01:02:59,440 about to Yes, this job is the job that I want. Yes, 885 01:02:59,480 --> 01:03:02,320 this job awesome, But if you're not gonna pay me, and I got 886 01:03:02,320 --> 01:03:07,480 to come to this motherfucker and listen to y'all, and y'all not like everything 887 01:03:08,360 --> 01:03:14,920 you my tolerance for my tolerance, My attitude is way better when I have 888 01:03:14,960 --> 01:03:19,679 money in my pocket and I know that you're gonna piss me off in some 889 01:03:19,679 --> 01:03:22,119 capacity. I know that, and I'm willing to let that ship go if 890 01:03:22,119 --> 01:03:25,440 you pay me, right, But if I got to walk into this motherfucker 891 01:03:25,760 --> 01:03:30,079 knowing that y'all not paying me, and then I start to feel like y'all 892 01:03:30,119 --> 01:03:32,960 playing me, and then I still got to pay child care and and then 893 01:03:34,079 --> 01:03:39,440 bills and all other stressed if you just if you just pay and I feel 894 01:03:39,440 --> 01:03:45,639 like that Now now I'm waking up yourself. Know your worth, nigga, 895 01:03:46,239 --> 01:03:50,960 My action has been louder than my words, nigga. Yeah, Drake, 896 01:03:51,119 --> 01:03:55,280 Drake was right. Craig was right about that because because asking asking your asking 897 01:03:55,440 --> 01:04:02,039 for your worth can be very scary, because now you gotta wait on the 898 01:04:02,119 --> 01:04:06,440 response you gotta read on response and it might not be like, well, 899 01:04:06,480 --> 01:04:11,880 you know what I mean, your time's ran up here. I feel like 900 01:04:11,920 --> 01:04:15,079 you did enough here, So you fire me now because I just asked you 901 01:04:15,159 --> 01:04:17,440 a question. Yeah, some questions you can't even ask some questions. Why 902 01:04:17,559 --> 01:04:20,280 why are you stepping to me like this? Why are you putting this pressure 903 01:04:20,320 --> 01:04:24,280 on me while you overstepping them bound, That's what it is. Why you 904 01:04:24,360 --> 01:04:27,880 putting this pressure on me? Now? I feel like twenty twenty four. 905 01:04:28,760 --> 01:04:32,320 I feel like twenty twenty four. I think I have a better understanding of 906 01:04:33,639 --> 01:04:42,400 I think I have a better perspective of my ability. And I was thinking 907 01:04:42,440 --> 01:04:46,320 about I was thinking about when we first started potting and when Black Widow first 908 01:04:46,400 --> 01:04:48,960 came out. When we first started potting, people wasn't potting. When Black 909 01:04:49,000 --> 01:04:51,639 Widow came out, there wasn't There wasn't no script of shit like that. 910 01:04:51,880 --> 01:04:56,039 No. And I was like, man, niggas, I really had a 911 01:04:56,079 --> 01:04:59,639 wave. We really had a wave, my Mama, We did. And 912 01:04:59,679 --> 01:05:01,679 I was like going lived shows and all kinds of I was thinking in my 913 01:05:01,719 --> 01:05:09,639 head, like I think the problem was I didn't know what success was supposed 914 01:05:09,679 --> 01:05:17,639 to look like. We were successful and I feel like not identifying what success 915 01:05:17,920 --> 01:05:27,719 is properly will fuck up everything. So I feel like going into the next 916 01:05:27,800 --> 01:05:33,760 year, identify what success is for you, for your brand, for your 917 01:05:33,800 --> 01:05:39,840 health, for everything. It's just And then the reason why I think that 918 01:05:40,000 --> 01:05:45,119 working out helps me is because I go to that motherfucker every day and then 919 01:05:45,159 --> 01:05:48,400 I look in the mirror and sometimes I don't see nothing change. I don't 920 01:05:48,400 --> 01:05:51,360 see anything. But then I'll see somebody and they like, bro, yeah, 921 01:05:51,400 --> 01:05:55,239 my mama, because that's how when I was born. I'm like, 922 01:05:56,199 --> 01:06:00,519 yeah, but it's that every day. It's it's chiseling away. It's just 923 01:06:00,599 --> 01:06:03,159 every day you just don't see it. Because when I had dreads like my 924 01:06:03,239 --> 01:06:06,159 ship, they looked the same to me, but like your shit longer, 925 01:06:06,199 --> 01:06:10,360 Tim, I'm like, damn, is it look I see these mouers every 926 01:06:10,440 --> 01:06:15,000 day. Yeah. I definitely got to get back in the gym, though, 927 01:06:15,000 --> 01:06:17,719 because at that time when I did finally like really went for them to 928 01:06:17,880 --> 01:06:23,360 like a year, that shit felt great. I think that I think for 929 01:06:23,559 --> 01:06:30,320 you just being transparent because you're my dog, I think you just got to 930 01:06:30,360 --> 01:06:39,599 become very very comfortable with being uncomfortable because and I know that is that's it 931 01:06:40,400 --> 01:06:44,000 on my life because I do not like being uncomfortable. Once I'm uncomfortable, 932 01:06:43,960 --> 01:06:46,960 I'll shut up. I shut down, and I just you gotta be very, 933 01:06:47,559 --> 01:06:50,679 gotta be very, You gotta become that gotta be the new normal for 934 01:06:50,800 --> 01:06:55,039 you. I feel like the more comfortable you feel, the more you should 935 01:06:55,039 --> 01:06:57,840 be trying to get out of that, because it's like, Okay, I've 936 01:06:57,920 --> 01:07:00,679 learned what I needed to learn here. I mean, go let me do 937 01:07:00,800 --> 01:07:04,079 something else. And I feel like the circle. I feel like your circle 938 01:07:05,159 --> 01:07:11,719 can serve you way better. But until you figure out exactly how your circle 939 01:07:11,800 --> 01:07:15,679 can serve you, your circle can't serve you. You know, you know 940 01:07:15,760 --> 01:07:17,760 a lot of motherfuckers, bro, you know a lot of motherfuckers that can 941 01:07:18,039 --> 01:07:21,039 You know what I'm saying, and I do too. So that's why I 942 01:07:21,079 --> 01:07:25,360 was like, you know what, I need to really write, write a 943 01:07:25,400 --> 01:07:29,199 story that is that's gonna get an audience, and I need to bring the 944 01:07:29,199 --> 01:07:31,360 show back. I need to do it consistently because I don't feel like recording 945 01:07:31,440 --> 01:07:35,480 every fucking day. I don't feel like editing every day, but I like 946 01:07:35,599 --> 01:07:39,719 recording. I just don't. I gotta do the video, I gotta do 947 01:07:39,760 --> 01:07:41,480 the audio. You know what I'm saying. I set the lights up, 948 01:07:41,519 --> 01:07:44,679 but I want to do that ship. But that's just ship that I want 949 01:07:44,679 --> 01:07:47,599 to learn though to. But you just gotta do it. Got everybody, 950 01:07:47,639 --> 01:07:49,960 hey, listeners. I know y'all ill be like, man, this nigga 951 01:07:50,079 --> 01:07:56,599 is well, I don't give a fuck. You know why because I got 952 01:07:56,639 --> 01:08:00,880 two daughters and a son, right And I told my wife last night, 953 01:08:00,880 --> 01:08:06,320 I was like, well, we gotta do you know before Christmas? I 954 01:08:06,360 --> 01:08:10,320 said, well, can I go to the gym? And she said why? 955 01:08:11,039 --> 01:08:14,960 And I said, well, because I want my daughters and my son 956 01:08:15,079 --> 01:08:17,680 to look at me like I'm a superhero and I want to. I want 957 01:08:17,680 --> 01:08:23,039 them to think that I'm cool, and I want them to understand that when 958 01:08:23,159 --> 01:08:26,079 Daddy say he wants to do something, Daddy's going to do it. Because 959 01:08:26,159 --> 01:08:29,560 when I grew up, I didn't really see I didn't see nobody in my 960 01:08:29,560 --> 01:08:32,399 family to go to the gym, and nor did I see any nigga getting 961 01:08:32,520 --> 01:08:36,000 up every day doing some shit that they did not want to do. Like 962 01:08:36,000 --> 01:08:38,640 I don't want to go to the gym every day, but I don't go 963 01:08:38,680 --> 01:08:41,199 to that motherfucker. I don't want to clean up my house. I got 964 01:08:41,199 --> 01:08:45,439 to clean up my house every day, like I didn't just clean it yesterday. 965 01:08:45,880 --> 01:08:48,880 My kids would take everything out of the toy box and sprinkle it like 966 01:08:49,000 --> 01:08:54,520 salt bag all over the fucking floor. They take bananas and squash it on 967 01:08:54,680 --> 01:08:57,479 place in May and they leave it there and I don't know that they left 968 01:08:57,479 --> 01:09:00,199 it there, and I step in and I squished it. Now I have 969 01:09:00,279 --> 01:09:03,960 to do this every single day. But when you start looking at responsibility, 970 01:09:05,000 --> 01:09:12,079 I look at responsibility like I'm blessed to have this responsibility. I'm blessed to 971 01:09:12,119 --> 01:09:15,199 be a father, I'm blessed to be a husband. I'm blessed to be 972 01:09:15,319 --> 01:09:18,159 able to take care of these little motherfuckers. So I want to look the 973 01:09:18,199 --> 01:09:23,399 best and I want to have a clear head. And I used to look 974 01:09:23,439 --> 01:09:26,079 at it like a burden. I used to look at this ship like a 975 01:09:26,079 --> 01:09:28,920 burden, like fuck, I gotta get up and go. I gotta get 976 01:09:28,960 --> 01:09:30,279 up and take it. I gotta get up. And I was like, 977 01:09:30,319 --> 01:09:35,159 bro, if these motherfuckers was taken from me, be sick? What now 978 01:09:35,279 --> 01:09:39,680 for real life? Like what? I used to be like that sometimes, 979 01:09:39,720 --> 01:09:44,359 But now I'd be like, it's my daughter. I want to be right, 980 01:09:45,600 --> 01:09:47,239 and I get excited when I see y'all stuff like that. So it's 981 01:09:47,279 --> 01:09:49,640 like where to God is? That's why that's how I feel with job. 982 01:09:49,720 --> 01:09:53,119 Like if I feel like it's a burden, it's it's pretty much over. 983 01:09:53,199 --> 01:09:55,439 It's pretty much right. When I try, I try, I'm trying to 984 01:09:55,439 --> 01:10:00,079 save. I'm trying to prevent that from happening with a lot of ship, 985 01:10:00,119 --> 01:10:02,239 you know what I'm saying. Trying to prevent that from happening. So I 986 01:10:02,239 --> 01:10:06,880 gotta go and I gotta walk into this anything like that. With this brand, 987 01:10:06,960 --> 01:10:11,359 I'd be like, bro, I just be like fuck it sometimes because 988 01:10:12,840 --> 01:10:15,319 they gotta serve you. It has to serve I just like I'm putting so 989 01:10:15,439 --> 01:10:19,199 much money in it, and it's just like, don't give up on I 990 01:10:19,279 --> 01:10:23,159 ain't seeing it. Don't give up on that ship because you just gotta figure 991 01:10:23,159 --> 01:10:27,640 out what's gonna work for you and identify that success because like I said, 992 01:10:27,720 --> 01:10:32,359 the server ain't gonna give it to you until you identify until you fully Like 993 01:10:32,479 --> 01:10:36,359 just think about that, Like, just think about going into a restaurant and 994 01:10:36,399 --> 01:10:43,600 a server keep coming up, and what do you want people come back? 995 01:10:44,119 --> 01:10:46,079 You keep saying that ship and the motherfucker gonna stop coming, Mama, You're 996 01:10:46,079 --> 01:10:50,119 gonna look up with my serviuckers service somebody else. You know what I'm saying, 997 01:10:50,239 --> 01:10:53,439 because Nigga, I look at some people and I'm like, man, 998 01:10:53,520 --> 01:11:00,520 God ain't even talking to you right now, talking to you on your side 999 01:11:00,560 --> 01:11:03,600 of the town over there, he gone, he'd be back over there later, 1000 01:11:03,640 --> 01:11:08,199 a couple of years later or something. Some people ain't even being blessed 1001 01:11:08,239 --> 01:11:10,560 like that. Bro. I just feel like I'm being blessed. So I 1002 01:11:10,600 --> 01:11:14,520 can't sit here and not now that I have your attention, I want this, 1003 01:11:14,520 --> 01:11:15,079 this, this, this, this, this, and this. I'm 1004 01:11:15,119 --> 01:11:17,119 gonna do this. Would this, would this? With this? Would have 1005 01:11:17,159 --> 01:11:21,319 this? Would it? I just and especially with Black Widow Man, I 1006 01:11:21,359 --> 01:11:25,760 was like, man, if I stop, a lot of people wouldn't. 1007 01:11:26,399 --> 01:11:29,039 I mean, I want to make it to where it's like a platform to 1008 01:11:29,159 --> 01:11:33,520 wear. Actors from here and from local plays around here come to me and 1009 01:11:33,560 --> 01:11:35,720 be like, y'all, I want to act in this ship because I want 1010 01:11:35,720 --> 01:11:39,039 to you. I want to. I want I want to be heard. 1011 01:11:39,760 --> 01:11:42,119 I want to be heard. I want to and I'm thinking in my head, 1012 01:11:42,159 --> 01:11:46,479 I wish that people look like if people if Tyler Perry could start over. 1013 01:11:47,000 --> 01:11:54,800 Yeah, I wonder if people would be willing to do the ship, 1014 01:11:55,359 --> 01:11:58,239 to put it in the work that it took to get to where he is 1015 01:11:58,279 --> 01:12:01,159 now. Like and I'd be feeling like if only people can see me like 1016 01:12:01,239 --> 01:12:06,199 that? But do I even see myself like that? So I gotta change 1017 01:12:06,199 --> 01:12:15,199 my mentality? You know what I mean? Because I come here? Cuse 1018 01:12:15,159 --> 01:12:25,000 say, right, what's your name? Why are you so shy? What's 1019 01:12:25,079 --> 01:12:31,319 up talking talking to Mike? You to hell me? Bro? They really 1020 01:12:31,359 --> 01:12:39,720 get shy though, like quick, what type of like in case we be 1021 01:12:39,760 --> 01:12:44,439 in the car, she'd be singing her telle I Nigga's singing. Soon as 1022 01:12:44,479 --> 01:12:48,319 I look though, I'm like, why why you stop? Keep going? 1023 01:12:48,359 --> 01:12:53,680 But I'll be the same way my tea daughter, her oldest daughter. She 1024 01:12:53,760 --> 01:12:56,880 come around me and she be she'd be shrinking herself. Yeah, I definitely 1025 01:12:56,920 --> 01:13:00,800 used to be on there, like, bro, stop doing that. I'm 1026 01:13:00,880 --> 01:13:03,960 like, what's up? Hey, why are you talking to that? For? 1027 01:13:04,239 --> 01:13:09,880 What are you talking about? Like? You know me? Like girl, 1028 01:13:10,000 --> 01:13:14,039 your daddy. Girls, I have seen you ship on yourself and all 1029 01:13:14,119 --> 01:13:15,560 kinds of shit. Girls. You know, I have seen way more embarrassing 1030 01:13:15,600 --> 01:13:18,760 stuff than you singing. And she be singing though, So I mean, 1031 01:13:19,079 --> 01:13:23,960 man, my oldest Kennedy, she being singing. She takes like singing classes 1032 01:13:24,000 --> 01:13:30,359 and stuff, so she do that cheer dance. I'm just trying to see 1033 01:13:30,359 --> 01:13:32,479 what Case's gonna do because she keeps backing like she want to play sports. 1034 01:13:32,520 --> 01:13:36,359 One man is basketball, and then it's soccer. Then now he's watching volleyball, 1035 01:13:36,399 --> 01:13:42,520 and she wanted So we're gonna we're gonna see tell the baby playing get 1036 01:13:42,600 --> 01:13:44,760 a little height on you. We're gonna have to put you in the back. 1037 01:13:45,119 --> 01:13:49,479 You ain't tall enough to be they need they need them tall ones up 1038 01:13:49,479 --> 01:13:54,880 front. Yeah, I really wanted to hoop. Of course you do. 1039 01:13:55,680 --> 01:13:57,920 I'm about to go get something to eat. Man, there was a pleasure 1040 01:13:57,920 --> 01:14:00,840 sitting here with you today because I love you. Man, what are you 1041 01:14:00,880 --> 01:14:02,359 about to eat? I don't know what I'm about to eat Sunday. So 1042 01:14:02,399 --> 01:14:06,399 I need some soap. I need. I need some baked beans and macarney. 1043 01:14:06,680 --> 01:14:11,640 I got some mother fucking protein waffles and chicken sausage about the bag. 1044 01:14:12,920 --> 01:14:16,319 I need some protein. Ship then I've been I ain't breakfast. Yeah, 1045 01:14:16,720 --> 01:14:20,479 I hat shit either today. Well, listeners, Merry Christmas to y'all. 1046 01:14:20,479 --> 01:14:25,720 Thank y'all so much for Cross Black and the philosophy. I really do appreciate 1047 01:14:25,800 --> 01:14:30,600 y'all. We appreciate child Christmas is cool and not for those who have lost 1048 01:14:30,600 --> 01:14:32,600 family members and this is a rough time for y'all. We pray for you. 1049 01:14:32,840 --> 01:14:38,279 Rush, Bro, Christmas is your head up. Christmas is fucking overbearing. 1050 01:14:38,319 --> 01:14:42,239 Bro to the grocery store and they fucking blasting the motherfucking Christma music out 1051 01:14:42,279 --> 01:14:45,880 of six twelves at the I love Christmas music though, but imagine if you 1052 01:14:45,560 --> 01:14:50,039 Christmas but but but working as somewhere like that. I remember I worked at 1053 01:14:50,039 --> 01:14:56,279 Walmart on Amazon and they was playing the Christmas same Christmas songs every day, 1054 01:14:56,560 --> 01:15:00,000 every fucking day. I mind you, I was in Amazon for twelve hours 1055 01:15:00,439 --> 01:15:02,119 every day, the same ship. I'm like, Bro, I don't want 1056 01:15:02,119 --> 01:15:05,520 to hear this ship man working at Walmart Walmart to you. I don't want 1057 01:15:05,560 --> 01:15:10,600 to at least play play a different After a while, you just stopped hearing 1058 01:15:10,640 --> 01:15:14,760 that ship crazy, Like how the fuck did I just zone that out? 1059 01:15:14,800 --> 01:15:19,680 I just went death for this whole fucking work ship. I hear everything else 1060 01:15:19,760 --> 01:15:25,039 besides the music music crazy. I hear my complaining about the music, like 1061 01:15:25,319 --> 01:15:28,039 I don't even you hear that ship. I don't hear that. Kind of 1062 01:15:28,239 --> 01:15:30,279 kind of be what people must be like when they hear my kids, because 1063 01:15:30,279 --> 01:15:34,039 I don't hear that ship no more. Yeah, motherucking kids, And that's 1064 01:15:34,039 --> 01:15:38,399 how I be with the daddy. The dads can after a while, that 1065 01:15:38,520 --> 01:15:42,479 ship, that ship, you know, just I don't hear that ship. 1066 01:15:42,560 --> 01:15:45,199 Let them play, let them do the kids, let them, let them 1067 01:15:45,239 --> 01:15:47,920 do what they do. We handled that later. Let them play. I 1068 01:15:47,920 --> 01:16:00,199 don't hear. Well, listeners, We do appreciate you allways, See y'all next week