WEBVTT 1 00:00:05.519 --> 00:00:30.559 Weird things happened in the back. Weird weird, weird welcome that can't be 2 00:00:30.679 --> 00:00:36.479 it, okay, because I loved it too. I loved it too much. 3 00:00:36.719 --> 00:00:42.320 One. It's kind of crazy. I don't even think it needs to 4 00:00:42.320 --> 00:00:44.840 be stated. Why. But there's a lot of people that don't watch video. 5 00:00:44.960 --> 00:00:49.000 That's true, so you should say why? Uh why don't why don't 6 00:00:49.039 --> 00:00:52.200 you? All right, I'll say what or maybe no no, no, 7 00:00:52.200 --> 00:00:54.920 no, no, no, I'm not gonna do it. You should Jinny, 8 00:00:55.200 --> 00:00:57.799 No, Nick, I'm not stealing her thunder. Okay, all right, 9 00:00:58.159 --> 00:01:03.640 I'll take the thunder. We are in the green room. Did you 10 00:01:03.759 --> 00:01:07.400 happen to tell Jenny about that whole idea that you had? Oh no, 11 00:01:07.400 --> 00:01:10.799 no, we I don't think so. Actually, yeah, I'm confirming. 12 00:01:10.879 --> 00:01:12.920 No. He was saying that, like, you know, because the Gray's 13 00:01:12.959 --> 00:01:17.040 Creek House had the red room, this is the green room. I like 14 00:01:17.079 --> 00:01:22.319 that for the Green Boys. Yeah right right, okay, Yes, we're 15 00:01:22.359 --> 00:01:26.400 in the new studio. Uh and it's like really bare bones right now. 16 00:01:26.480 --> 00:01:29.040 We just kind of like threw together what we could because the house is still 17 00:01:29.040 --> 00:01:34.280 being worked on and stuff. But it is so weird. It honestly feels 18 00:01:34.359 --> 00:01:38.319 really amazing recording an air It does alkay, I can see you. You're 19 00:01:38.359 --> 00:01:42.920 not on a couch anymore. I still can't really see Alex though, I 20 00:01:42.959 --> 00:01:45.840 can't at all. Hey, but that doesn't matter. Alex is here. 21 00:01:45.879 --> 00:01:49.719 Though Alex want to say Hi, Hi, everybody, I'm here. We 22 00:01:49.760 --> 00:01:55.560 didn't get rid of him with the old studio, right was not over yet. 23 00:01:55.920 --> 00:01:59.799 I now sleep in this studio. No one's got to sleep in here 24 00:02:00.079 --> 00:02:02.599 under my desk. Nobody. We've talked about this at a drum setting. 25 00:02:04.439 --> 00:02:07.879 Sorry, no, that's okay you. Nick and Jenny are not present for 26 00:02:07.879 --> 00:02:12.240 every episode of Full Disclosure. So for the last seven weeks now, Alex 27 00:02:12.280 --> 00:02:14.879 and I have been talking a lot about like the renovations. So I guess 28 00:02:14.879 --> 00:02:16.960 we can kind of just drive by that real quick on the main show. 29 00:02:17.000 --> 00:02:21.960 But we've been working on this house for seven weeks. This is week seven, 30 00:02:22.400 --> 00:02:24.919 and we've had the apartment at the same amount of time. We've been 31 00:02:24.960 --> 00:02:29.159 living at the apartment and then working on the new house. We are moving 32 00:02:29.159 --> 00:02:31.439 into the new house this week, and we finally have just gutted the old 33 00:02:31.479 --> 00:02:35.879 studio. I think we did talk about that aspect of it in the last 34 00:02:35.919 --> 00:02:38.680 episode that we were you know, last episode whatever, but it's pretty crazy. 35 00:02:39.039 --> 00:02:43.120 Last day it's going. Yeah, and now that we're here in the 36 00:02:43.120 --> 00:02:46.159 new studio right off rips setting it up this weekend, we just pulled the 37 00:02:46.159 --> 00:02:50.919 trigger and just bought a ton of new fun toys to play with. We're 38 00:02:50.919 --> 00:02:53.439 gonna soup everything up. It's gonna be bad ass. This is kind of 39 00:02:53.439 --> 00:02:58.000 like summer school, yeah, you know, because it's like in between yeah, 40 00:02:58.039 --> 00:03:00.000 like online class. The teachers don't have their room set up yet, 41 00:03:00.199 --> 00:03:02.840 Like they don't have all the pretty stuff all over the walls. Dude, 42 00:03:02.840 --> 00:03:07.199 they're still sending you home a piece of paper on the first day of class. 43 00:03:07.240 --> 00:03:13.319 That's like if your parents wouldn't mind donating erasers you remember that. Yes, 44 00:03:13.840 --> 00:03:15.639 Shopping spreez always made me so excited though, because I'm like, okay, 45 00:03:15.680 --> 00:03:19.199 like what am I to contribute? Like what are we going to get 46 00:03:19.199 --> 00:03:23.960 tribute? Right? Exciting shopping for yourself, That's what I got. That's 47 00:03:23.000 --> 00:03:30.879 fine talking off brand crayons, yeah, Expo markers, oh yeah. But 48 00:03:31.000 --> 00:03:35.680 to me, it feels like the last day of school where the kids go 49 00:03:36.000 --> 00:03:40.439 and throw all of the textbooks out of the window and then four molasses in 50 00:03:40.479 --> 00:03:46.639 the teacher's coffee. What and then destroy the bookshelves and tear all the books 51 00:03:46.639 --> 00:03:50.280 down. But that was last time. Yeah, we're already done with school. 52 00:03:50.280 --> 00:03:53.479 We did that, and I feel you're stuck in high school, bro, 53 00:03:53.840 --> 00:03:59.080 floating in space glory days? Can I give you? Can I say 54 00:03:59.159 --> 00:04:01.639 my favorite grade? Though? Yeah? My favorite grade was fourth and I 55 00:04:01.639 --> 00:04:05.000 have like this like a living meme where like my mom is always like she's 56 00:04:05.000 --> 00:04:09.080 stuck in the fourth grade, but it was really really like my favorite grade. 57 00:04:09.080 --> 00:04:13.000 But I have a corener memory from it where you know, some like 58 00:04:13.919 --> 00:04:23.240 funky person I don't know, donated Garfield hand sanitizer Garfield, right, okayn't 59 00:04:23.279 --> 00:04:29.079 work on mondays. Well that's funny, but no for real, So they 60 00:04:29.160 --> 00:04:31.560 donated that, and you know, because you're used to just germs, right, 61 00:04:31.639 --> 00:04:34.519 smells good, smells clean. Right before lunchtime, you get a squirt 62 00:04:34.600 --> 00:04:40.839 on your hand whatever. The Garfield stuff tasted like lemon tasted excuse me, 63 00:04:45.319 --> 00:04:47.480 let's wrap it up. No, no, no, no, it tastes 64 00:04:47.480 --> 00:04:57.319 it's it smelled like, Okay, lemon vomit like is what it smelled like. 65 00:04:57.759 --> 00:05:00.519 It smells like the taste of lemon vomit. If you kind of get 66 00:05:00.519 --> 00:05:02.360 what I'm saying. I feel like I feel like, to be fair, 67 00:05:02.720 --> 00:05:08.279 you say that pretty much everything smells and tastes like vomit, though, so 68 00:05:08.759 --> 00:05:13.160 I don't know how much. Maybe this is where it started, but I'm 69 00:05:13.160 --> 00:05:16.040 like, who would donate this? Like, as as a parent, I'm 70 00:05:16.040 --> 00:05:20.480 not donating that. Okay, I just want to set that straight. Garfield 71 00:05:20.560 --> 00:05:27.399 hand sanitizer coming from the Bledsoe family. Did y'all taste test what you donated? 72 00:05:27.600 --> 00:05:32.759 Markers for sure? Crayons? I mean I always ate one. Just 73 00:05:32.839 --> 00:05:36.240 make sure you got to. You got to test the pack and make sure 74 00:05:36.240 --> 00:05:40.680 they're not toxic, you know, because if they are, then who knows 75 00:05:40.680 --> 00:05:44.360 what kid is going to grab one and you don't have that on your hands. 76 00:05:44.519 --> 00:05:47.600 No, you can't. You better, you know, you die yourself 77 00:05:48.199 --> 00:05:51.680 than to let one of your classmates perish. You want to die yourself? 78 00:05:51.720 --> 00:05:56.720 Blue? No? All right? Why was fourth grade the your favorite? 79 00:05:56.920 --> 00:06:00.240 Dude? I just had so much fun that year, I really did. 80 00:06:00.480 --> 00:06:08.079 I man, what did we do? This is? This is funny. 81 00:06:08.319 --> 00:06:14.879 Mss Hannah was my teacher, okay, but she had so many health issues. 82 00:06:14.879 --> 00:06:16.519 It's funny. She was a young woman. She was in her thirties. 83 00:06:17.240 --> 00:06:20.560 Yeah, And did I say it was funny? Okay, no, 84 00:06:20.560 --> 00:06:24.079 no, no, I don't mean that, but it was. It was 85 00:06:24.160 --> 00:06:28.399 just kind of funny because we never had her as a teacher, I guess, 86 00:06:28.439 --> 00:06:30.480 and we always so first of all, she was pregnant, and then 87 00:06:30.480 --> 00:06:34.120 she had like an eye surgery problem where she had to stop teaching us in 88 00:06:34.160 --> 00:06:39.360 the middle of the year, and our entire class was split into three and 89 00:06:39.439 --> 00:06:43.879 went to all of the other fourth grade classes. So it was just chaos, 90 00:06:44.000 --> 00:06:47.040 right, Like the whole second half of the year was like PJ themed 91 00:06:47.120 --> 00:06:51.240 parties and like field trips and like we had a whole lot of nothing to 92 00:06:51.319 --> 00:06:57.000 do, and you had like a mega classes of like one and a half 93 00:06:57.040 --> 00:07:00.000 class. Yeah, because miss Hannah, like I don't know if she delivered 94 00:07:00.120 --> 00:07:02.480 her baby, but I know she had a really like severe eye surgery, 95 00:07:03.120 --> 00:07:05.920 and like a lot of crazy stuff happened. Can I ask you a real 96 00:07:06.000 --> 00:07:11.600 question, yes, uh, how when you combined classes? How many kids 97 00:07:11.639 --> 00:07:15.279 per class you're talking here? She said a third? They split the well 98 00:07:15.399 --> 00:07:20.040 total total, so I mean it was probably ten each to like new class, 99 00:07:20.399 --> 00:07:26.360 So ten you're talking about ten to a class of thirty. Yeah, 100 00:07:26.959 --> 00:07:30.839 yes, so there were four classes total our class was one. We split 101 00:07:30.879 --> 00:07:32.959 them up into three other class right, I'm trying to get a total number 102 00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:40.439 here of each of the Classes' so mathematical. I don't know, probably thirty 103 00:07:40.600 --> 00:07:44.639 thirty forty eight each class. Yeah, yeah, it was bizarro. It 104 00:07:44.720 --> 00:07:48.240 was crazy. And that same year I that was That was the year that 105 00:07:48.360 --> 00:07:54.360 my friend had an iPod and we would sneak it to lunch every day and 106 00:07:54.480 --> 00:08:00.319 we would listen to Bergie No No, No, Evan Essense and what the 107 00:08:00.360 --> 00:08:05.439 one the Christian singer Flyleaf. Yes, the one really really hardcore song. 108 00:08:05.480 --> 00:08:11.240 I don't remember, but it was like Screamo. And and then he listened 109 00:08:11.279 --> 00:08:15.720 to Avril Lavine. There's a song called Slipped Away, which I listened to 110 00:08:15.839 --> 00:08:18.920 every day and cried and just thought about my grandpa. It was like the 111 00:08:18.920 --> 00:08:24.240 only heart, like my dying grandfather. It got dark but all but again 112 00:08:24.439 --> 00:08:28.319 like ups and downs in the fourth grade. It was a year for you. 113 00:08:28.600 --> 00:08:31.120 Yeah. I think I saw the Jonas brothers that year for my first 114 00:08:31.159 --> 00:08:37.080 time, which is really huge. It's just an amazing year of trials and 115 00:08:37.120 --> 00:08:43.480 tribulation. Everything happened that year hand Sanitizer. I remember there was Jordan's sparks. 116 00:08:43.519 --> 00:08:48.039 Do you guys remember her? Oh yeah, water of American idol? 117 00:08:48.200 --> 00:08:52.600 She sang, wait did she sing that? Tattoos tattoos? Her cousin went 118 00:08:52.639 --> 00:08:58.519 to school with me. So the day that Jordan had won, I was 119 00:08:58.600 --> 00:09:01.240 walking through you know, the domin area at school seeing her cousin. We 120 00:09:01.240 --> 00:09:05.159 were all rooting for jordan'spurks because her cousin went to school with us. That 121 00:09:05.320 --> 00:09:09.039 was the year that well maybe that was fifth grade. Whenever girlfriend came out 122 00:09:11.039 --> 00:09:20.759 a lavine, I'm showing my age, my young and my age right right, 123 00:09:22.000 --> 00:09:26.320 but yeah, I mean nothing too major though. Wow, well I 124 00:09:26.320 --> 00:09:35.159 would love to introduce my wonderful wife. I butted my way onto this episode 125 00:09:37.960 --> 00:09:45.320 young and right, Jennifer bloodsoe right. Well, but anyway, so I 126 00:09:45.360 --> 00:09:48.840 forced myself onto this episode essentially because I said, I want to be the 127 00:09:48.840 --> 00:09:50.679 first guest, like I want the whole band to be together. And y'all, 128 00:09:50.679 --> 00:09:54.639 I didn't even realize that Alex won't have a camera this episode. He 129 00:09:54.679 --> 00:09:58.600 sacrificed his camera for me, and I feel terrible because I feel like he's 130 00:09:58.600 --> 00:10:11.039 finally I'm a team player. Make sure you twisted before you pull it out? 131 00:10:11.879 --> 00:10:18.960 No, no, yeah, but but yeah, I just forced my 132 00:10:20.000 --> 00:10:22.879 way on to here, and here we are. We are so happy to 133 00:10:22.919 --> 00:10:26.279 have it doesn't feel like an episode because of the room though. All right, 134 00:10:26.320 --> 00:10:30.720 that's a wrap. No, it's gonna feel it's gonna feel weird for 135 00:10:30.759 --> 00:10:33.440 a little bit, but yeah, we'll get used to it and it's gonna 136 00:10:33.480 --> 00:10:35.679 be so awesome whenever it's all finished. It's it's a work in progress. 137 00:10:35.720 --> 00:10:41.559 It's like whenever we first started, like you know, we started like in 138 00:10:41.679 --> 00:10:46.879 your living room of your old apartment. This is actually our fourth location because 139 00:10:48.320 --> 00:10:54.600 the first time we ever tested and recorded something was that Nick's apartment in back 140 00:10:54.679 --> 00:11:00.879 home, and we so we tested, we recorded our trailer there, Yeah, 141 00:11:00.919 --> 00:11:05.600 we Nick's apartments vocal trailer, Yes, yes, I forgot about that. 142 00:11:05.679 --> 00:11:09.679 And then we were in our old apartment, and then in the new 143 00:11:09.720 --> 00:11:16.000 apartment and then now here. Well we also recorded it Casey's dad's house and 144 00:11:16.080 --> 00:11:20.720 at my dad's house. So technically six locations. Well technic, no, 145 00:11:20.799 --> 00:11:24.799 I'm kidding. Yeah, that's Enough's that's it. We've been going all over 146 00:11:24.840 --> 00:11:31.600 the world, y'all international. That's hilarious. It is really weird. It's 147 00:11:31.639 --> 00:11:35.080 like how far we've come, you know, starting at the first apartment and 148 00:11:35.120 --> 00:11:39.559 then literally three years until last week in the other apartment, and now we're 149 00:11:39.559 --> 00:11:41.720 here and it's like, oh my god, it's this new space, but 150 00:11:41.799 --> 00:11:46.159 it's also like empty. Yeah, it does kind of feel like is this 151 00:11:46.240 --> 00:11:48.399 even an episode? Yeah? Yeah, it's gonna feel like this for a 152 00:11:48.399 --> 00:11:52.600 little bit, but it'll be short lived and we'll be onto the main stuff. 153 00:11:52.879 --> 00:11:56.759 But how have y'all been feeling? This is a huge transformation, Like, 154 00:11:58.799 --> 00:12:01.360 you know, y'all are kind of going through it. This also is 155 00:12:01.399 --> 00:12:07.679 your house exactly right, Like it's a huge undertaking. You know, it's 156 00:12:07.679 --> 00:12:09.919 been insane. I'm just glad to see this room done. You know what 157 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:13.559 I'm saying. It's been insane. It's been well, not only the house 158 00:12:13.600 --> 00:12:16.759 stuff, Like you know, it's been a it's been a year, Like 159 00:12:16.799 --> 00:12:20.120 this year's been insane so far. Yeah, I know. One weird thing 160 00:12:20.159 --> 00:12:24.360 about growing up is like you're like, okay, no, no, no, 161 00:12:24.360 --> 00:12:26.879 like I'll get to that like when things slow down, and then you're 162 00:12:26.919 --> 00:12:31.559 like, holy crap, Yeah, when's it gonna slow down? Yeah? 163 00:12:31.759 --> 00:12:33.759 Time is so weird. Yeah, I'm kind of learning that now too. 164 00:12:35.000 --> 00:12:39.320 It's like you'll have it's almost like seasons. It's like seasons of your life 165 00:12:39.960 --> 00:12:45.679 where things are just like pedal to the metal. You don't get a breath. 166 00:12:46.080 --> 00:12:50.279 You just got to grind constantly to achieve whatever you're going after. I 167 00:12:50.279 --> 00:12:54.879 mean it could be it could be many things, but and you just in 168 00:12:54.919 --> 00:13:00.279 those moments like yearn for like I just want to sit and do nothing thing 169 00:13:00.759 --> 00:13:03.759 for an hour, just an hour. And then you finally get that hour 170 00:13:03.799 --> 00:13:07.080 and you sit there and do nothing, and you're like, all right, 171 00:13:07.159 --> 00:13:09.519 let's let's get let's get it. What are we doing for me? I'm 172 00:13:09.519 --> 00:13:13.840 like, I feel like crap now, I feel like I'm wasting time. 173 00:13:13.879 --> 00:13:16.799 I know, I'm like hard on myself. Like if I sit down and 174 00:13:16.840 --> 00:13:20.440 relax, I'm like, wow, you're worthless, literally just nothing. And 175 00:13:20.480 --> 00:13:26.519 it's like it's like, dang, you got you gotta preserve your sanity something 176 00:13:26.720 --> 00:13:33.039 you do. You have to take breaks. Your spirit can't handle that kind 177 00:13:33.039 --> 00:13:37.759 of constant I mean maybe some people can. I can't tell you right now. 178 00:13:37.000 --> 00:13:46.840 It ain't me. One day, one thing that's weirded out. Now. 179 00:13:48.120 --> 00:13:52.399 I need about four hours every other relaxation and just chill time. Nobody 180 00:13:52.440 --> 00:13:54.679 talk to me. I don't want you hitting on my phone, no nothing. 181 00:13:54.720 --> 00:13:58.080 I want to sit there and watch TV and do nothing. Yeah, 182 00:13:58.320 --> 00:14:05.039 Ryan, like's alone time too. You guys had chaotic childhoods probably guys has 183 00:14:05.200 --> 00:14:11.120 siblings and nieces and nephews and and I didn't have a door to my bedroom. 184 00:14:11.320 --> 00:14:16.960 Oh rap, Yeah, thats pretty much. See, I'm needy. 185 00:14:16.240 --> 00:14:20.039 I was. It was me when I was little, only child, here 186 00:14:20.279 --> 00:14:24.720 playing by myself. So I'm just like I'm ready to go. When someone 187 00:14:24.720 --> 00:14:28.559 walks in the room, I'm like, whoa, here we are. Yeah. 188 00:14:28.639 --> 00:14:31.080 For the first half of the time we've been together, which is going 189 00:14:31.120 --> 00:14:39.679 on eleven years, she would never even let me like nap or sleep you 190 00:14:39.799 --> 00:14:43.519 mean nap sleep. She would shake you in. She would never let me 191 00:14:43.600 --> 00:14:48.320 nap or I never let my mother nap back when I was younger. That 192 00:14:48.600 --> 00:14:50.279 ticked me off when she said it was nap time. I'm like, hold 193 00:14:50.360 --> 00:14:54.559 up, who am I going to play with? Right? I don't like 194 00:14:54.720 --> 00:14:58.519 me time, guys, But I will say, like, as I've gotten 195 00:14:58.519 --> 00:15:01.120 older, like me times. Fine. It's one of those things where it's 196 00:15:01.120 --> 00:15:03.200 like I'm not going to ask for me time, but when I get it, 197 00:15:03.200 --> 00:15:05.840 it's like, okay, this is fun. So as you're like what 198 00:15:05.960 --> 00:15:09.919 is your social battery? Like are you do you feel like your social battery 199 00:15:09.919 --> 00:15:15.200 gets recharged around people or does it get recharged by yourself? Because that's like 200 00:15:15.320 --> 00:15:18.759 technically that's what they're kind of using these days to delineate between an extrovert and 201 00:15:18.799 --> 00:15:24.240 an introvert. Like if you're actually no idea, really you don't even have 202 00:15:24.279 --> 00:15:28.679 a social battery? Is she's like she is no thing is like if I'm 203 00:15:28.759 --> 00:15:37.759 alone too long, I'll start to get like really really like really stir crazy, 204 00:15:37.799 --> 00:15:43.000 well stir crazy, but more so just like very too content with like 205 00:15:43.080 --> 00:15:46.519 being alone, and then like I'll have a threshold where it's like, okay, 206 00:15:46.559 --> 00:15:50.679 I'm around people again, that's annoying because like I'm alone and I'm used 207 00:15:50.679 --> 00:15:52.679 to being alone now, and then people come and I'm just like Okay, 208 00:15:52.679 --> 00:15:56.879 I have to get over a threshold of like being annoyed by people first and 209 00:15:56.919 --> 00:16:00.159 then I'll like have fun. So it's like going down to my like social 210 00:16:00.480 --> 00:16:06.559 like to where I'm lonely is like not really like the best place for me 211 00:16:06.759 --> 00:16:08.159 because I have to kind of crawl out of there. Yeah you know what 212 00:16:08.159 --> 00:16:12.000 I'm saying. So I just like to be stimulated all the time. Yeah, 213 00:16:12.440 --> 00:16:18.759 yeah, very much. That's I can't relate. I'm like kind of 214 00:16:18.759 --> 00:16:22.759 the opposite. I'm like, like I like being social and I like being 215 00:16:22.799 --> 00:16:26.279 around people. And when I'm around people, I can like I have a 216 00:16:26.279 --> 00:16:30.799 lot of fun and like it's cool and whatever. But if if there's not 217 00:16:30.080 --> 00:16:34.080 like a day in the week or a couple of days in the week where 218 00:16:34.120 --> 00:16:38.360 I can just like go into my little like Heidi hole and sit at my 219 00:16:38.440 --> 00:16:42.240 desk and like just play music with headphones on or something, yeah, I 220 00:16:42.279 --> 00:16:47.039 will start to go pretty insane. Yeah that's how I been feeling in the 221 00:16:47.080 --> 00:16:49.559 last seven weeks. Really, I've had one little stretch of a few hours 222 00:16:49.559 --> 00:16:53.519 to myself in like seven weeks. So what about you? Do you feel 223 00:16:53.519 --> 00:16:57.360 like you're like you recharge getting some a long time. I mean, it 224 00:16:57.360 --> 00:17:00.759 don't even got to be alone time. It's just got to be like, 225 00:17:00.840 --> 00:17:03.000 let me do what the hell I want to do. I want to do 226 00:17:03.039 --> 00:17:06.400 the things that I enjoy doing. You can sit with me, we can 227 00:17:06.440 --> 00:17:08.400 be together. I just I have to do things that I want to do. 228 00:17:08.720 --> 00:17:15.359 I can't constantly be devoted to doing other things for other people that I 229 00:17:15.519 --> 00:17:19.119 have to do. You know, Like I'm like I want to do my 230 00:17:19.200 --> 00:17:22.599 hobbies. I want to. I want to if I want to research, 231 00:17:22.200 --> 00:17:26.039 you know, esoteric style for play video games or you know, play drums 232 00:17:26.079 --> 00:17:30.400 or whatever. I get recharged by doing the things that I enjoy doing, 233 00:17:30.079 --> 00:17:33.359 you know what I mean. It's not about like being alone for me. 234 00:17:33.039 --> 00:17:37.640 No. Yeah. Yeah. The thing that's scary for me is something that 235 00:17:37.680 --> 00:17:41.079 I'm kind of like starting to learn is when I do get in those spaces 236 00:17:41.079 --> 00:17:45.519 where I haven't been able to like go and recharge and whatever, it starts 237 00:17:45.640 --> 00:17:52.319 like kind of fucking up my psychology. Like my brain starts being like it 238 00:17:52.359 --> 00:17:56.519 gets dark. I think that's when I don't know, maybe that's when like 239 00:17:56.599 --> 00:17:59.599 my depression kind of rears its head a little bit. Yeah, you know, 240 00:17:59.680 --> 00:18:02.240 it's just so that's kind of like what I'm saying, Like I'm not 241 00:18:02.279 --> 00:18:06.759 saying I get like into you know, I don't get too too deep, 242 00:18:06.880 --> 00:18:11.240 but it's like if I get a second it causes you to like really overthink 243 00:18:11.359 --> 00:18:14.160 and think too much and then panic. I feel it for me anyway, 244 00:18:14.759 --> 00:18:17.519 No, I kind of feel that. I think I do a fair amount 245 00:18:17.559 --> 00:18:21.799 of that. And I was just talking to somebody today about shadow work. 246 00:18:22.240 --> 00:18:25.599 Do y'all know much about that a little bit. It's like a Jungian thing, 247 00:18:25.720 --> 00:18:29.640 right, Yeah he did. He kind of like pioneer that or discover 248 00:18:29.720 --> 00:18:32.920 it, or I know he wrote extensively about it. I'm not sure he. 249 00:18:33.200 --> 00:18:36.440 I mean he came up with the idea of like the shadow, you 250 00:18:36.480 --> 00:18:40.039 know, which, yeah, as I understand, it is like the parts 251 00:18:40.039 --> 00:18:44.200 of yourself that you don't like, or it's like, I just think, 252 00:18:44.240 --> 00:18:48.240 Peter Pan, do you think it was based off of that? For real? 253 00:18:48.839 --> 00:18:52.519 No? I don't, no, no, No, there's got to 254 00:18:52.519 --> 00:18:56.359 be something esoteric. Okay, well, Peter Pan. Everyone knows it's Pan. 255 00:18:56.920 --> 00:19:02.920 Uh, you know, the creepy guy with the right. But why 256 00:19:02.960 --> 00:19:07.480 did Peter Pan? What was that whole thing about with his shadow and stuff? 257 00:19:07.519 --> 00:19:11.519 Remember he his shadow got loose and then he had to retie it back 258 00:19:11.559 --> 00:19:15.319 onto himself. Yeah, I feel like was that about a shadow person? 259 00:19:15.519 --> 00:19:18.519 Like stitch your shadow to your heel thing? That's what he did? Yeah? 260 00:19:18.599 --> 00:19:22.240 Yeah, yeah, I mean I feel like that's have we done up 261 00:19:22.240 --> 00:19:25.960 Peter Pan episode? No? We haven't. We're sucking up. We need 262 00:19:26.000 --> 00:19:32.799 to We need to get right now. Switch up. I looked up the 263 00:19:32.799 --> 00:19:36.839 shadow and it's just the various personified structures to interact with one another in our 264 00:19:36.839 --> 00:19:37.920 inner world. Oh, that's the model of the psyche. There were four 265 00:19:37.960 --> 00:19:41.759 parts of the psyche, the anima or the animus, which is like you 266 00:19:41.839 --> 00:19:45.559 know Assassin's creed, the persona, the shadow, and then I guess the 267 00:19:45.599 --> 00:19:51.279 ego. Yeah, as I understand it this, I learned that in communication 268 00:19:51.440 --> 00:19:56.279 class, the shadow is the hidden and repressed, most inferior part and guilt 269 00:19:56.359 --> 00:20:00.559 laden aspect of the personality, like your dark side, you know, the 270 00:20:00.799 --> 00:20:04.200 part that you're repressing that you don't like about yourself that makes you feel guilt 271 00:20:04.279 --> 00:20:07.279 or remorse or shame. Yeah, I should probably say. Also, it 272 00:20:07.319 --> 00:20:10.720 was Danny who I was talking to. Shout out Danny, she's in our 273 00:20:10.720 --> 00:20:12.680 discord. Oh nice, yeah nice. She was telling me all about like 274 00:20:12.759 --> 00:20:17.680 shadow work and stuff. Oh nice, which I don't know if that seems 275 00:20:17.720 --> 00:20:19.400 cool. I don't really know much about it. I've heard about it, 276 00:20:19.440 --> 00:20:22.640 And so what is shadow work? Is it pulling that side out of you 277 00:20:22.759 --> 00:20:26.839 so you can accept it or what is it? I think? I mean, 278 00:20:26.839 --> 00:20:32.200 I looked into it just briefly today and I think it's like, so 279 00:20:32.279 --> 00:20:34.720 there are like journals like shadow work journals, that you can do. And 280 00:20:34.839 --> 00:20:41.680 I think it's like a way of through like meditation and journaling and self reflection, 281 00:20:41.519 --> 00:20:48.759 like identifying those those characteristics of your shadow that you're not happy with or 282 00:20:48.759 --> 00:20:52.680 aren't serving you in some kind of way, and it's a way to like 283 00:20:52.839 --> 00:20:57.119 air those things out and put a face to them so that you can come 284 00:20:59.279 --> 00:21:03.559 address I don't know if Emily might have talked about this on her show, 285 00:21:03.720 --> 00:21:07.799 but I did a practice called ischara, which is like a body movement practice 286 00:21:08.359 --> 00:21:14.200 and it is linked to like spirituality, following your tuition intuition. It's very 287 00:21:14.279 --> 00:21:18.160 like a spiritual practice that allows you to kind of use intuition to move emotion 288 00:21:18.279 --> 00:21:26.720 through your body and let it out through movement and your body like that way 289 00:21:26.720 --> 00:21:30.480 you're kind of treating it, and it's directed directly correlated with your nervous system 290 00:21:30.559 --> 00:21:36.480 and like actually because you feel things through your body first and then your brain 291 00:21:36.599 --> 00:21:41.880 processes it. And your body is also something it's a being that has your 292 00:21:41.920 --> 00:21:48.400 mind is what is damaging. Essentially, your body has never done anything wrong 293 00:21:48.480 --> 00:21:51.480 to you other than allow you to stand, allow you to feel, allow 294 00:21:51.519 --> 00:21:55.000 you to see it, heals your your wounds. You know what I'm saying, 295 00:21:55.240 --> 00:21:59.039 so, your actual body is just a very very how I see it 296 00:21:59.160 --> 00:22:03.839 is just like a little tiny baby unicorn or something, you know, It's 297 00:22:04.000 --> 00:22:07.559 just like it's just a sweet little being that you need to nurture and take 298 00:22:07.599 --> 00:22:11.119 care of, right, And so through these body movement courses, we learn 299 00:22:11.200 --> 00:22:21.680 to move parts of ourselves that are really good at like allowing you to deflect 300 00:22:21.680 --> 00:22:25.640 emotion, and then parts of you like that are very strong and it makes 301 00:22:25.720 --> 00:22:30.839 you deflect emotion. And then the other side is a movement that you're very 302 00:22:30.440 --> 00:22:37.200 sensitive for or feels very unfamiliar to you. So once you move those, 303 00:22:37.359 --> 00:22:44.160 essentially you're supposed to just become more familiar with the different parts of your spirit 304 00:22:44.240 --> 00:22:48.279 and the different attitudes and that sort of thing. So that kind of reminds 305 00:22:48.359 --> 00:22:53.079 me of what we were taught to like move our like moving our shadow people 306 00:22:53.240 --> 00:22:56.319 is kind of how I see that. I know that sounds very niffy. 307 00:22:56.599 --> 00:23:02.039 Oh it doesn't know, doesn't sound crazy. It's like intentional. Right. 308 00:23:02.400 --> 00:23:06.599 So for example, like one of my it sounds like a form of energy 309 00:23:06.640 --> 00:23:10.960 work. It sounds like a distant cousin to yoga. It's the same principle 310 00:23:11.039 --> 00:23:15.079 that energy can flow through the body. Yes, so like mine, one 311 00:23:15.119 --> 00:23:19.079 of mine was like good girl, the good girl. So like forever in 312 00:23:19.119 --> 00:23:23.880 my life, something that I've always just used to cope, right, or 313 00:23:23.920 --> 00:23:29.480 to deal with emotion or just in my lifestyle or way of life was just 314 00:23:29.519 --> 00:23:33.640 like I was always honestly the good girl. Like only child, all I 315 00:23:33.680 --> 00:23:37.559 had to do was focus on schoolwork, like so I always got a's, 316 00:23:37.599 --> 00:23:41.440 I always listened to my teachers because I was around adults like my whole life, 317 00:23:41.519 --> 00:23:44.240 you know, as an only child, I was just hanging out with 318 00:23:44.279 --> 00:23:48.400 my parents' friends, like you know, right, and so like I would 319 00:23:48.400 --> 00:23:52.240 move to good Girl, and it would just allow you to I don't know, 320 00:23:52.559 --> 00:23:56.240 it allows you to just kind of feel that energy through your body and 321 00:23:56.359 --> 00:24:03.119 like essentially just do the movements that feel intuitively good to you and it helps, 322 00:24:03.160 --> 00:24:04.440 I don't know, and it really does. Like there have been times 323 00:24:04.440 --> 00:24:10.240 where I've been in stressful situations or like I was just feeling stressed in the 324 00:24:10.279 --> 00:24:12.720 moment at a restaurant and I would literally go into a bathroom stall and just 325 00:24:12.799 --> 00:24:18.079 like do some intuitive movements that feel really nice to me, and then I'd 326 00:24:18.079 --> 00:24:21.240 be like, Okay, wow, I'm good, like shake it off. 327 00:24:21.400 --> 00:24:25.079 Type thing. You know. That's cool. That's so that's just what that 328 00:24:25.119 --> 00:24:26.400 brought me back to. I don't know, it made me think about, 329 00:24:26.599 --> 00:24:30.279 well, it sounds it sounds like it's adjacent like to the same thing. 330 00:24:30.400 --> 00:24:37.359 Like what we're kind of like beating around is like energy work shadow work that 331 00:24:37.440 --> 00:24:41.039 it sounds like what you're talking about is a way of kind of like getting 332 00:24:41.079 --> 00:24:47.200 to your brain through your body, like exactly. Yeah, it's like starting 333 00:24:47.240 --> 00:24:49.720 with the body and hoping the brain will follow suit. Like yes, like 334 00:24:49.920 --> 00:24:55.279 that kind of thing. Exactly. It's funny that we're like kind of like 335 00:24:55.400 --> 00:24:59.599 organically talking about this because it's just something that I've been thinking about a lot 336 00:24:59.640 --> 00:25:03.440 lately, like energy work like in the body or just in general, I 337 00:25:03.440 --> 00:25:07.599 mean in general, but it you know, relates to the body. You 338 00:25:07.640 --> 00:25:11.279 feel your feelings in your body. You know, you feel like when I 339 00:25:11.319 --> 00:25:18.160 don't know when I feel heavy or stressed or like sad or upset, like 340 00:25:18.200 --> 00:25:22.480 I feel it in my chest for sure. It's a heavy weight on my 341 00:25:22.599 --> 00:25:26.720 chest. And this thing that I've been trying lately is like because I read 342 00:25:27.279 --> 00:25:32.519 basically, so there was a brief moment where I was like just doing some 343 00:25:32.559 --> 00:25:37.880 odd jobs like back in like December January. And I don't even know if 344 00:25:37.880 --> 00:25:41.119 I told you about this. This is so bizarre. This These are like 345 00:25:41.160 --> 00:25:45.079 a bunch of rough, tough, you know, dudes that work in a 346 00:25:45.079 --> 00:25:49.519 warehouse, right that I was working with. And one day this like just 347 00:25:49.559 --> 00:25:55.720 skinny, little like fifty year old, bald, smiley guy walks up to 348 00:25:55.759 --> 00:26:00.559 me and introduces himself. He was just like a freaking ray of sunshine among 349 00:26:00.599 --> 00:26:03.480 all of these like sounds like gandhi. Well that's it's funny you say that, 350 00:26:03.920 --> 00:26:12.160 because he just starts spitting to me about like yogi's and gurus and like 351 00:26:12.319 --> 00:26:18.240 collective consciousness and like energy work and all this stuff. And I was like, 352 00:26:18.440 --> 00:26:22.880 he didn't even know I had a show that's about all of this stuff. 353 00:26:22.920 --> 00:26:26.000 He just started. He just like it was like he saw me and 354 00:26:26.119 --> 00:26:29.599 just knew and he just started. And everybody around. I could hear the 355 00:26:29.640 --> 00:26:33.400 guys around kind of like you know, gigglingnock in front of the guy or 356 00:26:33.440 --> 00:26:37.319 whatever. But we were just like locked in talking about it. And he 357 00:26:37.519 --> 00:26:40.759 was like, hey, give me a second, I'll be right back, 358 00:26:40.799 --> 00:26:42.359 And he went to his car and he brought me back a copy of this 359 00:26:42.400 --> 00:26:48.640 book that is called it's called it might be like Diary of a Yogi, 360 00:26:48.839 --> 00:26:53.799 Autobiography of a Yogi. Yeah, Autobiography of a yoga para Nanda. Yeah, 361 00:26:53.960 --> 00:26:56.880 yeah, I've read one of his books. He brought me that book 362 00:26:57.319 --> 00:27:02.680 he's considered, like you know, yeah, yeah. Well he explained to 363 00:27:02.720 --> 00:27:04.720 me that, like the reason this guy was such a big deal is because 364 00:27:04.759 --> 00:27:11.359 he's like one of the few enlightened masters who wrote everything himself as he was 365 00:27:11.480 --> 00:27:17.839 going through his awakening. So like everything that's recorded, his books and all 366 00:27:17.839 --> 00:27:22.839 that are like literally him, like it's not people around him writing about him 367 00:27:22.920 --> 00:27:26.319 or whatever, like he's writing it. And I started reading some of it, 368 00:27:26.359 --> 00:27:32.039 and some of it was about like energy work and how we're not we 369 00:27:32.079 --> 00:27:37.799 don't we don't grow up thinking that we can actually control or influence our emotions 370 00:27:38.000 --> 00:27:44.240 aka our energy. But that's like completely untrue, and we actually can, 371 00:27:45.039 --> 00:27:48.000 and that's all part of it. They're hiding that from us, that we 372 00:27:48.079 --> 00:27:52.119 have powers. I think we all do have powers. My God, listen, 373 00:27:52.279 --> 00:27:57.039 not like superpower he he oh, I mean yeah, I know what 374 00:27:57.079 --> 00:28:02.400 you mean it, but it kind of is like they kind of our superpowers, 375 00:28:02.480 --> 00:28:06.440 Like if you really tap into some of this stuff like imagine being able 376 00:28:06.480 --> 00:28:11.359 to at will control the way that you feel. Like, well, do 377 00:28:11.400 --> 00:28:15.640 you think that? So let's say this world was like a million times beer 378 00:28:15.640 --> 00:28:21.960 than it was today, and each of us got our own like I have 379 00:28:22.079 --> 00:28:26.720 no idea size, but like a million or like whatever, just like the 380 00:28:26.759 --> 00:28:33.359 most peaceful place and we meditated every single day and we didn't talk to one 381 00:28:33.400 --> 00:28:37.039 another, and all we did was connect with nature. Do you think that 382 00:28:37.119 --> 00:28:41.119 we like what if what if we could start and like develop powers? Like 383 00:28:41.160 --> 00:28:45.200 do you think that we could do you think without all these distractions? Yeah, 384 00:28:45.240 --> 00:28:49.200 there are there are like monks who have devoted their lives to meditation, 385 00:28:49.480 --> 00:28:52.920 who like can just like set stuff on fire with their hands like that. 386 00:28:53.079 --> 00:28:56.559 There's videos of it, like Rescrusians teach it. Yeah, like that, 387 00:28:56.920 --> 00:29:03.599 there's there's real there's real like superpower. I mean, think about like astral 388 00:29:03.599 --> 00:29:07.519 projection, right, that's a superpower. They really think about it. You're 389 00:29:07.759 --> 00:29:12.359 casting your soul out of your body, and the same with remote viewing. 390 00:29:12.400 --> 00:29:18.599 His smile concept. You know, you know I first learned about that through 391 00:29:18.839 --> 00:29:22.559 the Insidious movie. Really that was the first That's why I love that movie. 392 00:29:22.599 --> 00:29:26.599 That was the first ever horror movie I saw was Insidious, so like 393 00:29:26.640 --> 00:29:27.920 even though like back in the day, like you know, it could be 394 00:29:27.920 --> 00:29:30.640 a corny movie whatever, but back in the day, it's a great movie. 395 00:29:30.720 --> 00:29:33.440 I was like, I loved that movie because I was like, that's 396 00:29:33.480 --> 00:29:37.480 such a cool like thing to think about. And then like I grow up 397 00:29:37.519 --> 00:29:40.799 and then I meet the blood SOEs and then they're all like, oh, 398 00:29:40.880 --> 00:29:44.440 yeah, like that's a thing, and I'm like, what, that's not 399 00:29:44.640 --> 00:29:48.319 insidious. There's like astral projection and stuff. Yeah, it's the main point, 400 00:29:48.400 --> 00:29:52.480 the main theme. It's the main theme of the movie is the child 401 00:29:52.559 --> 00:29:57.119 has a demon attached to him and he's like literally stuck in the astral world. 402 00:29:57.160 --> 00:30:00.799 He's in a coma, but they don't know he a demon attached to 403 00:30:00.839 --> 00:30:03.160 him. He's just in a call min and he's really sick. And I 404 00:30:03.200 --> 00:30:06.119 think they get in touch, like the parents, they get in touch with 405 00:30:06.160 --> 00:30:08.319 like this psychic or something. It's been many years since she's like renowned, 406 00:30:08.440 --> 00:30:12.119 like she's like this stuff and she starts and they call it the Further. 407 00:30:12.240 --> 00:30:17.240 They don't call it the astral world, but they do call it the astral 408 00:30:17.279 --> 00:30:21.200 world. They do. They thought they call it. No, I knew 409 00:30:21.240 --> 00:30:26.640 it was astral projection because they actually say astral and the father like literally like 410 00:30:26.799 --> 00:30:30.960 astral projects and goes and finds his son in the astral world and goes into 411 00:30:30.000 --> 00:30:34.519 the layer of the demon and like rescues his son. I feel like that, 412 00:30:34.680 --> 00:30:37.880 that's so cool. It was out there when it came out. I'm 413 00:30:37.880 --> 00:30:41.240 pretty sure you've like explained this to me on an episode of the premise. 414 00:30:41.400 --> 00:30:44.920 That's such a cool premise. It was really out there, kind of liked 415 00:30:45.000 --> 00:30:48.000 movie. That was the one, don't you remember they had tiny tim in 416 00:30:48.079 --> 00:30:49.839 it, the tiptoe by the way, the one with the red face. 417 00:30:49.960 --> 00:30:53.279 Yeah, mirror, Yes, Like, here's the thing. It's not that 418 00:30:53.359 --> 00:30:56.839 corny because you only see that face like twice in the whole movie, and 419 00:30:56.880 --> 00:31:00.680 it's like for like two seconds. It's not like a corner thing where he's 420 00:31:00.720 --> 00:31:03.960 like, ah, I'm a monster and he's like ugly. The brilliance of 421 00:31:04.000 --> 00:31:07.920 the movies is not anything to do with the demon at all. Actually, 422 00:31:07.920 --> 00:31:11.279 the demons the lamest part, and it's okay, what's so cool about the 423 00:31:11.319 --> 00:31:15.079 movie is that while they're all in the waking state, a lot of the 424 00:31:15.079 --> 00:31:21.480 little scary moments are things interacting with them from the astral world, like came 425 00:31:21.519 --> 00:31:23.880 from the astral world, right, and then you find out in the second 426 00:31:23.920 --> 00:31:30.160 movie most of it was the Dad and the future in the astral world spoiler 427 00:31:30.200 --> 00:31:34.920 alert, interacting with the past, so it's like whoa, oh yeah. 428 00:31:36.079 --> 00:31:38.400 And then the third movie was when it kind of was like what yeah, 429 00:31:38.440 --> 00:31:42.839 the third everything past the second is a spin off, right, more than 430 00:31:42.880 --> 00:31:47.160 one past the second one, Dude, there's like four or five. Yeah, 431 00:31:47.200 --> 00:31:49.079 we stopped watching it. We were really into like, okay, the 432 00:31:49.079 --> 00:31:52.480 first one, the second one, cool, whatever, and then it was 433 00:31:52.559 --> 00:31:56.759 first and second or like whoa, amazing. Yeah. Most movie series don't 434 00:31:56.759 --> 00:32:00.839 even make it past like the first one. So but anyway, I would 435 00:32:00.880 --> 00:32:05.839 saying all that just to say that, like just getting back to the energy 436 00:32:05.839 --> 00:32:09.000 work thing, just after reading a little bit of that book, not even 437 00:32:09.119 --> 00:32:14.960 really understanding what I read, by the way, just kind of like intuiting, 438 00:32:15.119 --> 00:32:19.559 like just trying something from the little bit that I read. If since 439 00:32:19.599 --> 00:32:22.319 then, if I find myself in like like kind of slip it into a 440 00:32:22.400 --> 00:32:30.200 dark place or whatever, I will like consciously try and shift my energy and 441 00:32:30.359 --> 00:32:34.839 sometimes it works. Yeah, I don't know how to do it like the 442 00:32:35.000 --> 00:32:37.920 right way. I don't where do you shift it to, like do you 443 00:32:37.000 --> 00:32:43.240 kind of like imagine it going like a light going somewhere. I know some 444 00:32:43.240 --> 00:32:46.640 people will do that, or like how do you actually I So I feel 445 00:32:46.720 --> 00:32:52.000 the heavy stuff in my chest, like the heavy dark stuff in my chest, 446 00:32:52.640 --> 00:32:55.319 and whenever I imagine it, I kind of imagine it just kind of 447 00:32:55.359 --> 00:33:01.200 going up and out, like it feels like it goes up past my shoulders 448 00:33:01.240 --> 00:33:07.119 and just kind of like like leaves my body and where it was feels like 449 00:33:07.559 --> 00:33:14.680 warm and almost like light, like lighter. You know. It's it's it's 450 00:33:14.720 --> 00:33:17.359 hard to explain, but I can't, like I can't like do it every 451 00:33:17.440 --> 00:33:22.640 time, you know. And so that's why I'm getting I'm like really getting 452 00:33:22.640 --> 00:33:27.559 curious about energy work. There's a bunch of different visualization methods. There's one 453 00:33:27.599 --> 00:33:30.359 method that I thought was really cool. That's like you imagine like a three 454 00:33:30.440 --> 00:33:35.359 D merkaba, right, and that's like you have like a pyramid shape pointing 455 00:33:35.400 --> 00:33:37.599 up a pyramid shape pointing down, but they intersect and it makes the mercaba. 456 00:33:37.680 --> 00:33:42.400 Yeah, And you imagine the top part of it spinning clockwise, and 457 00:33:42.440 --> 00:33:46.640 you imagine the bottom part of it spinning counterclockwise, and then you imagine like 458 00:33:47.079 --> 00:33:51.599 there's like a vertical pole going through it. You could imagine it as your 459 00:33:51.680 --> 00:33:53.960 chakras. You could imagine it as a beam of white light, and you 460 00:33:54.039 --> 00:34:00.599 imagine light going up and down the pole. The idea is you're like stretching 461 00:34:00.640 --> 00:34:05.319 the limitations of what you can visualize, right. I was going to say, 462 00:34:05.319 --> 00:34:07.839 like I was trying to visualize, and I was like, that's kind 463 00:34:07.880 --> 00:34:10.920 of difficult, exactly. That's the point. The point, yes. And 464 00:34:10.960 --> 00:34:16.599 then another one that I read from the Gnostic method is you imagine like an 465 00:34:16.719 --> 00:34:27.639 infinite pedaled lotus spinning clockwise, and each pedal is a multitude of infinite rainbow 466 00:34:27.639 --> 00:34:30.920 colors of white. The idea is to visualize this these insane you know, 467 00:34:31.039 --> 00:34:35.719 it's like Buddhists were staring at mandalas and meditating, you know what I mean, 468 00:34:35.760 --> 00:34:37.199 Like there's oh I didn't know that. That's what those were. Four 469 00:34:37.599 --> 00:34:43.239 it's a meditative at them, you really well, and also the creation of 470 00:34:43.280 --> 00:34:47.639 them, like right while they knew that or something that works for me. 471 00:34:49.320 --> 00:34:55.239 I just think of Alex smiling at me. How often does that work every 472 00:34:55.280 --> 00:34:59.920 time? Yeah? But what I was gonna what I was thinking, though, 473 00:35:00.119 --> 00:35:04.199 Nick, is like the first step though, is honestly just awareness and 474 00:35:04.239 --> 00:35:07.320 the fact that I think you're focusing so much of your energy on that. 475 00:35:07.679 --> 00:35:13.800 I mean, it's that's that's the first step into like your intuition propelling you 476 00:35:13.840 --> 00:35:17.199 towards it. Yeah. Yeah, I find I have to I have to 477 00:35:17.840 --> 00:35:22.719 try to focus on things like that. If I don't put any effort into 478 00:35:22.760 --> 00:35:27.679 like trying to recognize it or identify it, I'll just never really well, 479 00:35:27.719 --> 00:35:30.000 the tide just pulls you under. Yeah, yeah, yeah exactly, I'll 480 00:35:30.039 --> 00:35:36.719 never notice it. I have to actually try, like actively reflect, not 481 00:35:36.920 --> 00:35:39.599 just like it doesn't happen passively for me, right, I have to like 482 00:35:39.760 --> 00:35:45.000 put effort into trying to do it, and so I don't know, it 483 00:35:45.480 --> 00:35:47.840 works sometimes, it doesn't work other times. But the whole point is like 484 00:35:49.559 --> 00:35:52.840 you have those moments in life where you feel like you are on ten, 485 00:35:52.320 --> 00:35:58.280 everything feels perfectly lined up and you're like you could take the fucking world down, 486 00:35:58.440 --> 00:36:02.039 like you're everything is amazing. And I feel like when you're in those 487 00:36:02.800 --> 00:36:07.000 points, like you're the best you can be for the people around you. 488 00:36:07.000 --> 00:36:10.280 You're you're the best friend that you can be to people. You're you know, 489 00:36:10.519 --> 00:36:15.119 and like the most productive the most. Yeah, you're getting the most 490 00:36:15.159 --> 00:36:17.800 done and all this stuff, and you know, I just want to be 491 00:36:17.880 --> 00:36:23.360 able to. I want to. I want to put effort, active effort 492 00:36:23.519 --> 00:36:30.400 into like lining myself up that way, you know, just like bringing things 493 00:36:30.480 --> 00:36:35.800 back to the center, like identifying the troubles, identifying the issues, and 494 00:36:35.920 --> 00:36:39.840 like working on it. Something Emily has been really into for the last year 495 00:36:39.920 --> 00:36:45.559 or two is grounding walking out barefoot, and I do. I do a 496 00:36:45.599 --> 00:36:47.559 lot of that. We we go on walks. I mean, it's been 497 00:36:47.639 --> 00:36:52.960 so nice, like going walking around our new place is beautiful and you know, 498 00:36:53.519 --> 00:36:57.559 it's finally summer again. Oh my god. I felt like this winter 499 00:36:57.599 --> 00:37:00.320 would never end. Yeah it was. Yeah, well it's not summer's spring, 500 00:37:00.360 --> 00:37:04.320 but you know what I mean, it's hot. It's hot. Yeah, 501 00:37:04.599 --> 00:37:07.239 it's finally the sun is out again. So we've been going outside and 502 00:37:07.320 --> 00:37:13.480 standing in the grass and soaking in the sun. That does help. I'm 503 00:37:13.480 --> 00:37:17.719 allergic to grass, so I always tell Emily, well, but I'm like 504 00:37:17.840 --> 00:37:22.719 really allergic to grass, and it gets like really So I was telling Emily, 505 00:37:22.760 --> 00:37:25.800 I'm like, if I can't stand barefoot outside, and she was like, 506 00:37:25.840 --> 00:37:28.800 well, if you do it more than you'll be immune to it. 507 00:37:28.840 --> 00:37:31.000 But I'm like, it's hard to get over that hump though, Yeah, 508 00:37:31.199 --> 00:37:35.000 it is so hard. You want to know something too, that was embarrassing. 509 00:37:35.519 --> 00:37:37.480 We sat down, you remember that eclipse that just happened. We all 510 00:37:37.559 --> 00:37:40.679 sat down in the grass, and I was like, ooh, like lovely 511 00:37:40.719 --> 00:37:44.440 awesome. I stand up and I'm like, oh, my goodness, my 512 00:37:44.519 --> 00:37:49.320 tushie feels a little itchy. Now turns out I had the big hole in 513 00:37:49.360 --> 00:37:53.199 my pants. Oh no, eclipse, and they must have ripped at some 514 00:37:53.320 --> 00:38:00.320 point. You were grounding. It was itchy because of all the inn energy 515 00:38:00.360 --> 00:38:05.320 coming up the grass. Yeah, grass I set in the fire ant. 516 00:38:05.800 --> 00:38:09.079 Oh I was a little kid. No, how was that? I'm pretty 517 00:38:09.079 --> 00:38:14.840 sure I'm I'm immune to fire ants now. Oh good, good, positive 518 00:38:14.920 --> 00:38:17.760 came out of it. Yeah. My dad was chasing me around, spanking 519 00:38:17.800 --> 00:38:22.639 me. Okay, he was trying to kill the fire ants. But he's 520 00:38:22.800 --> 00:38:29.440 very traumatic for me. This is why he loves pain. How many how 521 00:38:29.480 --> 00:38:35.280 many bites do you think you had realistically? I mean realistically thirty forty? 522 00:38:35.719 --> 00:38:39.000 No, like I got fire ant bites. Yeah, did you like throw 523 00:38:39.079 --> 00:38:44.400 up or anything from that? I know sometimes people I was too little to 524 00:38:44.440 --> 00:38:47.519 throw in the pool. My dad was cleaning the pool. I was outside. 525 00:38:47.519 --> 00:38:50.840 I sat in the fire ants. He could have just thrown me in 526 00:38:50.880 --> 00:38:53.039 the pool, but I don't think I could swim as the time. Let's 527 00:38:53.159 --> 00:38:58.480 let's finally admit that the real reason that we do this show and have done 528 00:38:58.480 --> 00:39:01.920 one hundred and forty eight episodes in hopes to understand Alex someday. Oh, 529 00:39:01.960 --> 00:39:07.280 that's been the whole secret. That's the secret motive. And we got one 530 00:39:07.320 --> 00:39:09.719 hundred and forty eight more, and we'll we'll check on the progress there. 531 00:39:10.360 --> 00:39:15.000 If you think about three hundred, you figure it out. I don't know, 532 00:39:15.079 --> 00:39:16.360 man, you're complex. That's about ten percent. You need to do 533 00:39:16.480 --> 00:39:21.360 the Alex episode part two at some point. Interview style, all right, 534 00:39:21.440 --> 00:39:23.880 Jenny, fine, I'll pay you for he's he's been begging to do that, 535 00:39:23.880 --> 00:39:27.320 by the I know, I toldy I'll give her twenty dollars if she 536 00:39:27.400 --> 00:39:31.079 mentioned stop. No, he didn't know, he didn't. I think that'd 537 00:39:31.079 --> 00:39:36.039 be fun. Yeah, I'm always a little bit more. I'm always trying 538 00:39:36.039 --> 00:39:38.760 to understand Alex more. I don't always gives some tarot readings, and like 539 00:39:38.800 --> 00:39:45.920 every time we're like it's true, we are always shocked because it's the stuff 540 00:39:45.960 --> 00:39:52.400 that we all know that he's not listening to. He's always he's historically been 541 00:39:52.519 --> 00:39:59.119 Casey's like biggest tarot fan patient patient, her patient, Yeah, her client. 542 00:39:59.519 --> 00:40:04.400 Yeah yeah. Well has it worked, Alex? What do you mean? 543 00:40:04.800 --> 00:40:09.320 I'm doing great? I'm always doing great. It's literally going to be 544 00:40:09.320 --> 00:40:14.119 the biggest party of the year, Alex's wedding this year. I have thought 545 00:40:14.239 --> 00:40:21.440 so much about that day about to probably thought about it more than I have. 546 00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:23.960 I have terrible Alex a lot more. What do you mean it's terrible? 547 00:40:23.960 --> 00:40:36.519 I don't think it's not that I don't less, I don't listen though 548 00:40:36.559 --> 00:40:39.480 we all know that she don't listen to me. I mean it goes both 549 00:40:39.480 --> 00:40:44.800 ways kind of. I'm just you know, I love her a lot. 550 00:40:44.880 --> 00:40:47.440 I just don't think about my wedding all the time. It's okay. I 551 00:40:47.480 --> 00:40:51.199 got other things going on, like right now. No, that's a good 552 00:40:51.239 --> 00:40:52.719 point, man. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I even 553 00:40:52.800 --> 00:40:57.239 the present, I think about it a lot because I'm rehearsing it in my 554 00:40:57.320 --> 00:40:59.159 head. What am I going to say? What am I going to say? 555 00:40:59.159 --> 00:41:01.920 What am I say? Yes, dude, you got the easy job. 556 00:41:01.960 --> 00:41:07.360 I got a kiss her in front of like three hundred people. Everybody 557 00:41:07.400 --> 00:41:15.199 out there is just in shock at how backwards that was. You have to 558 00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:20.480 kiss your wife and he has to officiate the entire wedding. Yeah, it's 559 00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:22.599 I think you got a little backwards there, buddy, in front of like 560 00:41:22.639 --> 00:41:25.159 three hundred people. But you know what, I'm working. You're partying, 561 00:41:25.320 --> 00:41:29.639 You're gonna do great. We're all part You're gonna do great. You're gonna 562 00:41:29.679 --> 00:41:31.679 do great, Alex, I hope. So. I believe in you, 563 00:41:31.719 --> 00:41:38.400 and I'm scared to dance once you're in that since win believe it or not. 564 00:41:38.480 --> 00:41:42.360 But I don't really like to be the center of attention. Yeah, 565 00:41:42.519 --> 00:41:45.719 that's the biggest lie you've ever told. I love you so much. I 566 00:41:46.079 --> 00:41:50.280 have what he's saying, man, and it's I just want to party. 567 00:41:50.320 --> 00:41:52.920 But now I got to dance in front of everybody. There. It is 568 00:41:52.960 --> 00:41:54.920 there is in front of everything, and I gotta get my moves critiqued, 569 00:41:55.280 --> 00:41:59.119 like in front of everybody. You know, there's gonna be pictures forever. 570 00:41:59.239 --> 00:42:04.800 You're the star of that. I no, it's Olivia's wedding featuring me. 571 00:42:05.159 --> 00:42:08.679 Yeah, you know, bro Bs is gonna roll up on your turf and 572 00:42:08.679 --> 00:42:12.559 we're gonna steal the show. Baby, this is Alex's night. Hey, 573 00:42:14.280 --> 00:42:16.360 Hey, we're gonna set up a pop up and do an episode from his 574 00:42:16.400 --> 00:42:21.920 wedding. Uh huh, and we'll get his dad on. Yes, that's 575 00:42:21.920 --> 00:42:25.840 gonna happen. That's gonna happen. I'm gonna stay tuned. Will be Father's 576 00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:30.719 Day twenty twenty four. I'm gonna do a little role reversal. I'm gonna 577 00:42:30.719 --> 00:42:34.639 whoop my dad. Wow, you know, spank his ant bitten bottom. 578 00:42:34.960 --> 00:42:38.800 Yeah, wow, get him back. What's happening right now? Well, 579 00:42:38.840 --> 00:42:44.320 I wanted to show you something. You brought up autobiography of a yogi, 580 00:42:44.440 --> 00:42:46.760 and that struck me because I wanted to show you I actually have read one 581 00:42:46.760 --> 00:42:52.360 of his books Para Mohanda Yoga Nanda. Yeah, that's him. Let me 582 00:42:52.400 --> 00:42:54.159 see it. If you don't show me, I won't have believed you at 583 00:42:54.159 --> 00:43:00.119 all. Okay, now I believe you. I won't have believed you at 584 00:43:00.159 --> 00:43:04.519 all. What was it called for the people out there harmonizing physical, mental, 585 00:43:04.559 --> 00:43:07.639 and spiritual methods of healing, which was about like energy work, and 586 00:43:07.679 --> 00:43:09.400 so how did you grow from that? Oh? It was just like a 587 00:43:09.440 --> 00:43:14.000 tiny little pamphlet. Honestly, it wasn't like a full sized book or anything. 588 00:43:14.039 --> 00:43:15.360 It was. It was just a bunch of bullet points of a lecture 589 00:43:15.400 --> 00:43:20.320 he was giving about like prayer and faith in God can actually heal you from 590 00:43:20.320 --> 00:43:24.480 the inside out. Yeah, this is though, Yeah, yeah, very 591 00:43:24.559 --> 00:43:30.639 quick read. Yeah No, I'm going to finish that book at some point 592 00:43:30.840 --> 00:43:34.440 because even the tiny bit that I read was really profound and has already been 593 00:43:35.079 --> 00:43:39.519 Well, let me ask you this. So it all stems from intention then, 594 00:43:39.599 --> 00:43:45.199 right, because if we're thinking about God, God could mean something different 595 00:43:45.239 --> 00:43:52.960 to everyone. Yeah, and they're harmonizing with their understanding of God. Is 596 00:43:52.000 --> 00:43:57.760 it just because there's intention that's going to where that's why that works? Or 597 00:43:57.840 --> 00:44:01.519 what if somebody is thinking about a slightly I mean, nobody really knows knows 598 00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:07.039 what God is. Everyone has an interpretation. Yeah, but it's your heart. 599 00:44:07.320 --> 00:44:09.239 It's all your heart. So you think that people have to kind of 600 00:44:09.239 --> 00:44:14.320 focus in on that specific thing to like really benefit from it, or well, 601 00:44:14.599 --> 00:44:20.280 I don't know in my very limited opinion and understanding, it's like, 602 00:44:21.079 --> 00:44:24.239 yeah, if your heart is reaching out to the thing that all other hearts 603 00:44:24.280 --> 00:44:31.000 are connected to, then that's like the core essence of life and healing and 604 00:44:31.000 --> 00:44:36.079 growth and light like that's what it's all about. That's the core. Right, 605 00:44:36.519 --> 00:44:42.320 So it's like whatever your understanding is of that infinite love or infinite light, 606 00:44:42.920 --> 00:44:45.599 you know. And yeah, everybody has different views of God. But 607 00:44:47.159 --> 00:44:53.039 it's it's interesting because I've met I've met Christians who I feel like know the 608 00:44:53.079 --> 00:44:57.280 real God. I've met Christians who I feel like do not know the real 609 00:44:57.320 --> 00:45:00.679 God. I've met Muslims the real God meaning like love like meaning or me 610 00:45:00.840 --> 00:45:05.920 or your interpretation of God. No, no, no meaning like I will 611 00:45:05.960 --> 00:45:08.159 never claim to know exactly what the real God is. But to me, 612 00:45:09.119 --> 00:45:16.519 the real God is like conditionless love and compassion and light and like the connectedness 613 00:45:16.519 --> 00:45:24.239 of all things, transcendent and ineffable. Yes, absolutely, which is how 614 00:45:24.239 --> 00:45:28.920 do you say his name? Yoga Nanda? Right, that's his idea of 615 00:45:28.920 --> 00:45:31.800 God is like the esotery view of God. You know, you hear somebody 616 00:45:31.840 --> 00:45:37.880 talk about God in that way versus you hear somebody talk about God with like 617 00:45:37.039 --> 00:45:43.320 rigid rules and judgment and stuff, and it's like, I think your heart 618 00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:46.920 knows, like which one is real? Oh yeah, well it's so funny 619 00:45:46.960 --> 00:45:50.920 because and I hate I don't want to even get on this tangent, but 620 00:45:50.960 --> 00:45:52.480 I'm getting on it. On it. God is not a tangent. That's 621 00:45:52.480 --> 00:45:57.360 my favorite subject. No, the tangent of church. Right, So, 622 00:45:57.599 --> 00:46:01.239 whenever I was younger, VBS a vacation Bible School that was poppin'. Oh 623 00:46:01.320 --> 00:46:06.920 yeah, I was right, I will listen. You know, I was 624 00:46:06.960 --> 00:46:10.039 in one of those tints, like they had a big tint and we role 625 00:46:10.079 --> 00:46:16.039 played that we were in the belly of the whale with Noah Jonah's whale and 626 00:46:16.119 --> 00:46:20.719 we were in there and that was fun, right, Like we even little 627 00:46:20.719 --> 00:46:23.679 little campfire in there, like there was some silly stuff going on at BBS. 628 00:46:23.679 --> 00:46:28.280 But then it came down for Sunday church. That stuff was terrible. 629 00:46:28.320 --> 00:46:30.760 And you know what, I have a serious you know, I have a 630 00:46:30.800 --> 00:46:37.519 negative connotation with church because whenever I was whenever I lived in Alaska, we 631 00:46:37.639 --> 00:46:45.159 had gone to a Catholic church because my mother had never right alex Wu anyway, 632 00:46:45.239 --> 00:46:47.760 I was born, my mother is German, I was born a Catholic, 633 00:46:47.880 --> 00:46:51.320 I got christened, I did all of that stuff. So I made 634 00:46:51.320 --> 00:46:54.320 it to the age where it was time for my first communion. So we 635 00:46:54.719 --> 00:46:58.239 had gone to that church, and that was a church that I did my 636 00:46:58.280 --> 00:47:00.480 first communion at all that stuff. But I swear to God, this church 637 00:47:00.519 --> 00:47:05.639 had a habit of never keeping us in the loop. So my mom would 638 00:47:05.639 --> 00:47:12.000 literally drop me off for like Sunday school church and there'd be nobody there, 639 00:47:13.119 --> 00:47:15.639 and I would be roaming the church because my mom would just drop me off 640 00:47:15.639 --> 00:47:17.480 at the front. She wasn't gonna bring me to the class. So my 641 00:47:17.519 --> 00:47:22.599 mom dropped me off at the front. She's like bye. I'm like bye, 642 00:47:22.880 --> 00:47:27.639 I go inside the church. Not a single soul and I'm walking around 643 00:47:27.760 --> 00:47:31.639 like it was terrible. It was really terrible because it was before cell phones, 644 00:47:32.159 --> 00:47:36.639 you know, so I eventually like had to find I was looking and 645 00:47:36.679 --> 00:47:39.079 looking and sure maybe there'd be somebody in the back or something and I'd be 646 00:47:39.119 --> 00:47:45.599 like hello, my mother helped me. Yeah, that happened several times at 647 00:47:45.599 --> 00:47:51.119 that church. Oh my god, it's like home alone five. It really 648 00:47:51.280 --> 00:48:00.440 was. Shees Man, Yeah, that's a church experience. I'm not thinking 649 00:48:00.440 --> 00:48:04.559 everybody got raptured and she's a sinner who got left behind. Oh I didn't 650 00:48:04.559 --> 00:48:08.119 even know that left behind? You remember those movies I do? What is 651 00:48:08.199 --> 00:48:14.239 that yo? Left behind? Was Kirk Cameron. Dude, those movies were 652 00:48:14.239 --> 00:48:16.719 wild. It was like it was like movies based on like it was like 653 00:48:16.760 --> 00:48:22.719 about the Rapture and like the people who got left behind in the Rapture were 654 00:48:22.719 --> 00:48:24.800 they like it was like a drama series. Wit? Wait, were they 655 00:48:24.920 --> 00:48:30.639 like all like fiends and stuff? I mean some characters for sure, Like 656 00:48:30.000 --> 00:48:34.159 I mean some of them were just struggling with their faith and stuff. Yeah. 657 00:48:34.280 --> 00:48:38.599 Yeah, it was a broad array of folks who were left because sins, 658 00:48:38.800 --> 00:48:43.239 they're all the same exactly. Know what talk about crazy bro, talk 659 00:48:43.280 --> 00:48:46.599 about how time flies. You remember growing up believing in the Rapture? Oh, 660 00:48:47.039 --> 00:48:51.960 oh my god, absolutely, dude. I had dreams, nightmares about 661 00:48:51.960 --> 00:48:53.320 the Rapture. I remember it. And then you were going up and then 662 00:48:53.320 --> 00:48:57.440 you started falling down. You never heard the rapture right now? You don't 663 00:48:57.440 --> 00:49:00.599 know. I know, before Ryan, I had never heard of the Rapture. 664 00:49:00.639 --> 00:49:04.920 I remember. I remember when Ryan had first told me about it and 665 00:49:05.079 --> 00:49:07.320 was like, but everything will be great, and like Jesus will be here 666 00:49:07.360 --> 00:49:12.360 and it would be great. Not not saying like that exposed conversations. No, 667 00:49:12.360 --> 00:49:15.199 no, no, no, Ryan, it wasn't about you. I 668 00:49:15.239 --> 00:49:17.440 was just saying that, like what you were saying the interpretation was, but 669 00:49:17.519 --> 00:49:21.719 that it would be a better place because whatever Jesus would be, and I 670 00:49:21.719 --> 00:49:27.039 would just be like, that sounds terrible rapture to happen, Like I want 671 00:49:27.079 --> 00:49:31.039 things to stay normal because I'm having fun. And that tells you something right 672 00:49:31.079 --> 00:49:35.440 there, Because if all of these other people in church are talking about this 673 00:49:35.679 --> 00:49:37.559 like it's the most beautiful thing that's ever gonna happen, Yeah, it's gonna 674 00:49:37.599 --> 00:49:43.039 be great, and in your heart you're terrified of it. Girl is telling 675 00:49:43.079 --> 00:49:46.400 you something. When we first got together, she literally knew nothing about the 676 00:49:46.400 --> 00:49:50.800 Bible. Nothing, And that's that's expected of Catholic people, I mean, 677 00:49:50.920 --> 00:49:54.280 and that sounds like an insult. No, it does. Where's the light? 678 00:49:55.000 --> 00:50:00.440 Yeah, where's the light? There's none. But it was never just 679 00:50:00.480 --> 00:50:04.440 one of those things where you know, oh, you know, I'd rather 680 00:50:04.480 --> 00:50:07.320 be listening to Kelly Clarkson, you know, back in the day than read 681 00:50:07.400 --> 00:50:12.840 my Bible. So I was watching Mulan Kelly Clarkson playing battery, I was 682 00:50:13.199 --> 00:50:16.960 wafers drinking wine, right right, That's what I'm exactly. And Catholicism is 683 00:50:17.000 --> 00:50:22.960 not encouraged to like study your Bible. You just had the list of yeah, 684 00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:27.440 exactly. In the Pentecostal church. It's like I read the Bible forty 685 00:50:27.440 --> 00:50:29.840 times this year. Yeah, it's like you're going to hell if you don't 686 00:50:29.880 --> 00:50:31.639 read the Bible. Yeah, it's like you you are supposed to read it 687 00:50:31.639 --> 00:50:35.880 as much as you can. And and I just was shocked at the lack 688 00:50:35.920 --> 00:50:38.079 of knowledge that she had. She didn't even know who no it was, 689 00:50:38.239 --> 00:50:43.719 you know, I mean hot take This is just my opinion, but like 690 00:50:43.840 --> 00:50:49.480 maybe it's by design, you know which part like they don't like you know, 691 00:50:49.559 --> 00:50:52.079 oh yeah, yeah, the machine we got. You don't don't read 692 00:50:52.119 --> 00:50:54.760 that, just listen to us, Like, don't worry about reading it for 693 00:50:54.840 --> 00:50:59.480 yourself, Like that's boring, We'll read it to you. Yeah. But 694 00:50:59.480 --> 00:51:00.719 then the flips, it is like you need to know this inside and out 695 00:51:00.719 --> 00:51:06.760 and take it literally. Both are terrible. The first time that I realized 696 00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:09.239 I didn't know a lot about the Bible was when I went to my first 697 00:51:09.320 --> 00:51:15.599 and only church camp. That was like it was like five seven day wait 698 00:51:15.719 --> 00:51:17.800 was it? How long was it? I think it was a week long 699 00:51:17.840 --> 00:51:22.639 thing where we had gone to It was a beach called Caswell. They had 700 00:51:22.639 --> 00:51:27.880 a fort there and everything, and it was kind of like the church at 701 00:51:27.920 --> 00:51:31.079 least around here, like the church camp that everyone kind of like had known 702 00:51:31.119 --> 00:51:35.000 about. So it's like a big deal. I was going to Caswell and 703 00:51:35.039 --> 00:51:37.920 then here I am. I'm like all right, like let's have some fun, 704 00:51:37.280 --> 00:51:42.599 right, And then there's like the morning classes where they're doing hot takes 705 00:51:42.639 --> 00:51:45.599 and quizzes on all of this stuff, and I'm like, oh, rats, 706 00:51:45.920 --> 00:51:49.400 I don't know anything. I don't know. I don't know who this 707 00:51:49.480 --> 00:51:51.960 guy is. What are we talking about? And all these guys are like 708 00:51:52.039 --> 00:51:57.719 raising their hands answering questions, and I'm like, hotly I know. I'm 709 00:51:57.760 --> 00:52:07.320 like I don't know David, Jeremy and stuff. Jeremy, isn't this such 710 00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:10.559 a wonderful balance for me, like my soulmate? Like I'm like studying this 711 00:52:10.599 --> 00:52:15.039 ship like with a fire in my mind to figure it out. And she's 712 00:52:15.079 --> 00:52:20.400 like, Jeremy's from the Bible, Yeah, David and Jeremy. Jeremy was 713 00:52:20.400 --> 00:52:22.760 the Giant, right, Yeah, we're no, that was the Giant's brother. 714 00:52:24.679 --> 00:52:29.800 So when we first got together, I really felt like I don't know. 715 00:52:29.840 --> 00:52:30.920 I just I like talking about that stuff anyway, And back then I 716 00:52:30.960 --> 00:52:35.840 still was Pentecostal, so I was explaining the rapture. Explaining all this stuff, 717 00:52:35.960 --> 00:52:40.039 dude, was a Bible study I had in yours hanging out with and 718 00:52:40.280 --> 00:52:44.679 I'm like, I'm pretty embarrassed about that stuff. I'm pretty embarrassed that I 719 00:52:44.880 --> 00:52:46.599 like, No, it's part of your transformation, dude. Yeah, that's 720 00:52:46.599 --> 00:52:54.400 true. I mean all of it, really believing it. No, no, 721 00:52:54.199 --> 00:53:00.119 no, just being so like you got to know this stuff, you 722 00:53:00.159 --> 00:53:01.800 know what I mean? Oh yeah, yeah, I mean a passionate person. 723 00:53:02.159 --> 00:53:08.400 Yeah, that's how That's how Pentecostals are, right, That's how you 724 00:53:08.440 --> 00:53:12.719 are supposed to. It's like your one duty in life is to like preach 725 00:53:12.760 --> 00:53:15.920 the gospel what do they call it? Testify? Yeah? But Ryan, 726 00:53:15.119 --> 00:53:20.159 you very much had a very like normal social life though, Like you went 727 00:53:20.199 --> 00:53:22.079 and saw the movies, you went and played with you know, swords, 728 00:53:22.079 --> 00:53:27.199 and that plagued my mind in the front yard. That was that was why 729 00:53:27.239 --> 00:53:30.719 I felt like I never swords meaning lightsabers. Yeah, no aggression, right, 730 00:53:30.880 --> 00:53:34.440 No, we would play with light lightsabers stuff when we were kids. 731 00:53:34.679 --> 00:53:36.960 No, but that was like, if we're going to be candid here, 732 00:53:37.599 --> 00:53:39.800 you know about transformation. That was the one reason why I never felt like 733 00:53:39.840 --> 00:53:44.320 I could be filled with the Holy Ghost like Pentecostas are because I was into 734 00:53:44.360 --> 00:53:47.119 the world culture. Yeah, and I always felt like it held me back. 735 00:53:47.159 --> 00:53:51.599 But like I always, I also always felt like I had to be 736 00:53:52.760 --> 00:53:54.880 who I really was and I couldn't. I tried. I tried to deny 737 00:53:54.920 --> 00:53:58.519 that part of myself and I was miserable. But look at you now, 738 00:53:58.760 --> 00:54:01.360 like you're the most spirit that you've ever been, I think, I would 739 00:54:01.400 --> 00:54:07.880 say. And you also still really love your movies. Yeah that's true. 740 00:54:07.079 --> 00:54:12.079 You're eating you know, you got both sides. Yeah, fun, it's 741 00:54:12.079 --> 00:54:15.679 good. Now. I think you've made it here because you were there, 742 00:54:16.320 --> 00:54:20.400 right, Yeah. Yeah, you wouldn't be here unless you went through that 743 00:54:20.440 --> 00:54:22.639 stuff. Yeah, that's true, you wouldn't. That's part of your story. 744 00:54:23.000 --> 00:54:25.760 Yeah, and it was important and you shouldn't be embarrassed by it. 745 00:54:25.840 --> 00:54:30.159 Let that judgment go. That was another life. I used to be teaching 746 00:54:30.199 --> 00:54:32.800 about the rapture, like I don't know, man, like you know, 747 00:54:34.199 --> 00:54:36.760 because here I am a young girl in love and I'm like, but I 748 00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:38.639 just want to be with you, and he's like, well, you know, 749 00:54:39.000 --> 00:54:42.280 like if the rapture comes and so and so, and I'm like, 750 00:54:43.199 --> 00:54:45.199 but you know, I just I just want to hang out with you and 751 00:54:45.239 --> 00:54:49.159 be here forever and you know, live a normal life. And it's like, 752 00:54:49.360 --> 00:54:52.400 Wow, I had no clue that this was going to turn into like 753 00:54:52.480 --> 00:54:57.360 this kind of conversation. You never know where this when we don't have a 754 00:54:57.400 --> 00:55:00.840 topic, you never know where this is. I'm going to bring something up, 755 00:55:00.840 --> 00:55:02.960 but you go first. Well, for one hundred and forty eight plus 756 00:55:02.960 --> 00:55:07.159 episodes, I've been pretty freaking clear that I used to be a Pentecostal, 757 00:55:07.760 --> 00:55:09.559 and that's kind of like, I think that's kind of what makes our story 758 00:55:09.719 --> 00:55:15.960 so profound as a family, because we were Pentecostal, which is like literally 759 00:55:15.400 --> 00:55:22.840 one of the most insane forms of Christianity, and it took seeing the beings 760 00:55:22.880 --> 00:55:24.559 and the phenomenon and all this to like rip us out of it. I 761 00:55:24.639 --> 00:55:29.480 mean, but you understand that like this is and this is not. This 762 00:55:29.519 --> 00:55:34.760 is no real judgment though against people that are Pentecostal, and there are people 763 00:55:34.800 --> 00:55:38.519 out there, including Ryan's family, that do believe it's very right and very 764 00:55:38.559 --> 00:55:42.320 real. And I don't think only right. I don't think that they have 765 00:55:42.519 --> 00:55:45.320 ill intentioned but it's the way they've been taught. I'm not trying to insult 766 00:55:45.320 --> 00:55:51.360 Pentecostal people. But whenever you say, oh, I was really religious, 767 00:55:51.400 --> 00:55:52.440 they'll be like okay, and then you say, yeah, I was part 768 00:55:52.480 --> 00:55:58.880 of the Pentecostal church, like oh okay, oh geez right, Like so 769 00:55:58.960 --> 00:56:02.519 like it just goes to you're one of the ancient fricking mafia families of religious 770 00:56:02.519 --> 00:56:06.840 you know what I mean. But that's that's you know, Pentecosta told that, 771 00:56:06.920 --> 00:56:08.840 like your family like kind of start. No, that's that's true. 772 00:56:08.920 --> 00:56:13.960 Yeah, what our ancestors actually did start the Pentecostal movement. That's why my 773 00:56:14.000 --> 00:56:19.000 family is so into it. It's the D's book. Wow. Yeah, 774 00:56:19.239 --> 00:56:21.480 yeah, Well what else I was going to say? I was going to 775 00:56:21.599 --> 00:56:25.920 kind of switch it up. You guys had recently had a chat on the 776 00:56:25.960 --> 00:56:30.400 discord, a community chat, and somebody was talking about some different kind of 777 00:56:30.440 --> 00:56:36.639 astrology. What was it, Yeah, sidereal sidereal yeah, or true Sky. 778 00:56:37.400 --> 00:56:39.079 And the reason I wanted to bring it up is because I'll let them 779 00:56:39.079 --> 00:56:43.239 explain it in a second. But there was this whole thing about how this 780 00:56:43.320 --> 00:56:46.599 actually follows, you know, the stars in the sky and it's the actual 781 00:56:46.719 --> 00:56:52.880 astrology. And my whole entire life, I have been a proud Capricorn whoop, 782 00:56:52.880 --> 00:56:58.920 whoop, proud, And honestly, my mom had always bought me things 783 00:56:58.920 --> 00:57:01.519 with little goats on it, like literally my whole life because my mom is 784 00:57:01.519 --> 00:57:05.599 also a Capricorn, so we take pride in it, and I think I'm 785 00:57:05.639 --> 00:57:12.599 also very Capricorn. And then Ryan does my chart in this Siberian Siberian and 786 00:57:12.880 --> 00:57:15.440 all of a sudden, I'm as Sagittarius, and I'm not going to accept 787 00:57:15.480 --> 00:57:19.480 it because I was like, Ryan and I are perfect together, right, 788 00:57:19.559 --> 00:57:23.920 he is fire, I am Earth like I'm gonna right like grounding, and 789 00:57:23.960 --> 00:57:28.079 then all of a sudden, I'm Sagittarius too. There's no way I'm fire. 790 00:57:28.599 --> 00:57:31.679 Well, no way. The idea is that both are true, both 791 00:57:31.719 --> 00:57:35.400 are supposed to be. Yeah, but that's just too much. Well, 792 00:57:36.159 --> 00:57:38.559 you gotta humble yourself to the forces of the universe. You're denying the fire 793 00:57:38.679 --> 00:57:47.559 is the most fire thing of you know what I'm saying, right right right, 794 00:57:47.760 --> 00:57:51.519 Yeah, So anyway, I thought that was interesting, But explain a 795 00:57:51.519 --> 00:58:00.679 little bit about the Siberial I'm serious, Siberial Siberial astrology. I guess the 796 00:58:00.760 --> 00:58:06.239 concept is, like, so your traditional zodiac is, you know, it's 797 00:58:06.280 --> 00:58:10.519 according to how the sky was when that system was created, correct. Yeah, 798 00:58:10.559 --> 00:58:15.719 the sidereal is like they're like, no, this is actually where the 799 00:58:15.760 --> 00:58:20.320 stars are when you were born. Sidereal takes into account, like where the 800 00:58:20.360 --> 00:58:23.800 sky was when you were born, so not like not take your birthday and 801 00:58:23.840 --> 00:58:28.360 compare it to a chart that was made thousands of years ago how the sky 802 00:58:28.519 --> 00:58:32.360 was back then, which is which is what traditional zodiac is. This sidereal 803 00:58:32.400 --> 00:58:36.159 thing is like, no, where were the because the sky changes. Wait, 804 00:58:36.199 --> 00:58:42.199 but that's so annoying. I thought that real astrology wastr well not real 805 00:58:42.239 --> 00:58:50.599 astrology Western. Yeah, was was tracking that. It's just based on one 806 00:58:50.719 --> 00:58:57.079 chart. Yeah chart, the original zodiac chart that they created thousands days ago. 807 00:58:57.719 --> 00:59:00.599 I mean, whatever community created the zone? Do you guys know? 808 00:59:00.159 --> 00:59:07.119 But two, Oh it's Mesopotamians. It's the Mesopotamians. I thought they maybe 809 00:59:07.360 --> 00:59:10.079 started that or something. I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, but yeah, 810 00:59:10.199 --> 00:59:14.320 if there's two different like if there were two different groups or there are 811 00:59:14.360 --> 00:59:16.199 many, there are many that you know, they weren't the only ones that 812 00:59:16.199 --> 00:59:20.760 did it, Like the Greeks had their own brand of it. Everybody kind 813 00:59:20.760 --> 00:59:23.639 of had their owns. Yeah, all the Egyptians. Yeah, but I 814 00:59:23.719 --> 00:59:28.920 mean the one that like is popular today. How you know what's your sign? 815 00:59:29.079 --> 00:59:32.320 That whole thing, like that's traditional zodiac, Like that's based off of 816 00:59:32.360 --> 00:59:37.119 a chart that's thousands of years old, and like, you know, we've 817 00:59:37.159 --> 00:59:40.239 talked at length about astrology on the show, and I've always said that my 818 00:59:40.280 --> 00:59:45.199 whole understanding of like if you wanted to get scientific with how it works or 819 00:59:45.239 --> 00:59:52.239 why it works, is it's like the exact moment that you emerge into consciousness 820 00:59:52.239 --> 00:59:57.360 in this realm, all of the different celestial bodies and the planets and their 821 00:59:57.480 --> 01:00:04.960 specific alignment. That matters because those massive objects in space are emitting inner huge 822 01:00:05.199 --> 01:00:09.360 vibration. Vibration, yeah, like huge, and so you emerging into this 823 01:00:09.480 --> 01:00:15.559 realm, everybody is different because they're getting a different blend of all of those 824 01:00:15.559 --> 01:00:20.199 things. Right, So that wouldn't make sense according to traditional astrology, because 825 01:00:20.199 --> 01:00:23.920 that's based off that's thousands of years old. This is based off of the 826 01:00:24.039 --> 01:00:28.719 day that you were born, the moment that you were born. It makes 827 01:00:28.760 --> 01:00:30.159 more sense to me. I don't know, it does make sense. It 828 01:00:30.199 --> 01:00:32.760 does because that's what I thought the real stuff was. So I'm a tourist, 829 01:00:32.760 --> 01:00:36.960 baby, let's go and I see it. I don't really get that 830 01:00:37.079 --> 01:00:42.960 either or maybe we've just convinced each other of our personalities all along. I 831 01:00:43.039 --> 01:00:46.639 don't know. I mean, I felt like pretty confused because with the Sideial, 832 01:00:46.679 --> 01:00:50.599 it's like some of them say I'm Leo and then some of them say 833 01:00:50.760 --> 01:00:55.960 I'm Cancer. Yeah, well you well I could see a little bit of 834 01:00:57.000 --> 01:01:02.320 that. I don't know enough about cancer. Cancer is just known for it's 835 01:01:02.400 --> 01:01:07.320 water, it's emotions, it's very Why do you think I'm not a Taurus? 836 01:01:07.239 --> 01:01:15.440 I don't know. I just probably because you're not like the Tauruses. 837 01:01:15.639 --> 01:01:19.239 I know, but maybe they're not really But that's but yeah, but I 838 01:01:19.280 --> 01:01:27.599 mean that this questions everything very stubborn, stern and very I don't know, 839 01:01:27.639 --> 01:01:31.760 they're just they're just very stern and hard energy. Someone ever said, I'm 840 01:01:31.800 --> 01:01:37.639 not stubborn. No, but but to me, you're more like a not 841 01:01:37.800 --> 01:01:42.599 like a that's accurate, Alex. Don't look at me like that, dude. 842 01:01:42.639 --> 01:01:44.800 She's right, what is Alex? What are you? You're a Virgo. 843 01:01:44.880 --> 01:01:47.519 See, that's that's it. But according to Siderial, he's Leo. 844 01:01:49.519 --> 01:01:53.960 I don't see that. I'm not. To me, I've got a Leo 845 01:01:54.039 --> 01:02:00.519 moon in the sidereal my moon was Leo and my rising was it was Taurus, 846 01:02:01.519 --> 01:02:07.440 oh a rising? Oh do you remember yours? No? It was 847 01:02:07.519 --> 01:02:15.960 like, oh yeah, it was it was Leo or cancer sun, it 848 01:02:15.159 --> 01:02:23.559 was cracking, it was Pisce's moon, and I think it was Sagittarius rising. 849 01:02:24.639 --> 01:02:29.079 Okay, see, yeah, that's very interesting because you're actually a Capricorn 850 01:02:29.199 --> 01:02:38.639 rising according to the yes and Western astrologers. Step your game up. We 851 01:02:38.719 --> 01:02:45.159 know the truth. Now do you remember mine? Though? I don't. 852 01:02:45.360 --> 01:02:52.760 Don't you look it up. I make Ryan do all the research. I'm 853 01:02:52.800 --> 01:02:54.679 trying to remember mine. I can't remember everybody. This is the problem with 854 01:02:54.800 --> 01:02:59.519 me. I feel like I've let my intelligence dull ever since I've gotten into 855 01:02:59.519 --> 01:03:04.159 a relationship with Ryan, because Ryan has just been my living and walking encyclopedias. 856 01:03:04.159 --> 01:03:07.519 I'm just like, I'll just ask Ryan ten years now. Yeah right, 857 01:03:07.039 --> 01:03:12.000 I'm worried. I just feel like I've dumped it all out. And 858 01:03:12.039 --> 01:03:15.599 then like sometimes I get really smart, like if I focus, like sometimes 859 01:03:15.639 --> 01:03:17.880 I sound pretty smart. And then most of the time, like I make 860 01:03:17.960 --> 01:03:22.880 Ryan finish my stories. I make Ryan talk about a movie, I make 861 01:03:22.960 --> 01:03:27.559 him describe things. Well, it sounds to me like you just let him 862 01:03:27.679 --> 01:03:32.159 hit freaking home runs right out of his wheelhouse. Yeah, you are all 863 01:03:32.320 --> 01:03:36.760 open and he is just slammed dunking the ball. Yeah, but I don't 864 01:03:36.840 --> 01:03:39.360 gloves, but I don't. I don't really hear you going, Hey, 865 01:03:39.400 --> 01:03:45.119 Ryan, organize my schedule. Hey Ryan, you know what's the description for 866 01:03:45.159 --> 01:03:51.199 the podcast episode? Actually, because you're here, it's me that does come 867 01:03:51.280 --> 01:03:53.360 up with those. Well, Ryan, this is the thing, because we 868 01:03:53.480 --> 01:03:57.960 have to get into our system, don't we. Boys were after the fact 869 01:03:58.000 --> 01:04:01.480 we debrief. We have really gotten into a good been sending messages every time 870 01:04:02.000 --> 01:04:09.119 I've been seeing some what's happening? Oh shoes is episode? Okay? Oh 871 01:04:09.199 --> 01:04:14.639 well see right now for this one. Okay, we'll keep it going. 872 01:04:14.679 --> 01:04:16.639 So what they do is they give me keywords and then I just write, 873 01:04:16.840 --> 01:04:20.840 you know, I do the template and then I insert the keywords as it 874 01:04:20.880 --> 01:04:26.159 makes sense. Yeah right, yeah. But see here's the thing. It's 875 01:04:26.199 --> 01:04:30.800 like, you do actually give me big fiery meteor home runs to just knock 876 01:04:30.840 --> 01:04:32.519 out of the park. But then I'm like, hey, let me tell 877 01:04:32.559 --> 01:04:34.239 you guys what happened. You're like, no, no, no, let 878 01:04:34.280 --> 01:04:40.400 me tell it. But then I immediately go, no, no, let 879 01:04:40.400 --> 01:04:43.400 me go, And then I'll start talking and I'll say, okay, Ryan, 880 01:04:43.480 --> 01:04:45.440 actually take it over. I'm getting no no, no, no, 881 01:04:45.440 --> 01:04:47.559 no, no, let me say it. Everybody listen to me, and 882 01:04:47.559 --> 01:04:50.039 then you'll go. I forgot what I was going to say. I just 883 01:04:50.039 --> 01:04:56.280 think that some people are natural storytellers. That's what I'm saying. I used 884 01:04:56.320 --> 01:04:59.760 to be such a good storyteller back in the day. You need to work 885 01:04:59.760 --> 01:05:02.840 that also out do it for you. I know, I know you're right. 886 01:05:03.199 --> 01:05:05.480 You need to practice in front of the mirror. And oh wait, 887 01:05:05.920 --> 01:05:13.039 but that's another reason the fourth grade was great. Okay, I'm with you 888 01:05:13.679 --> 01:05:16.119 really. So back in the day, I lived in Florida in the fourth 889 01:05:16.159 --> 01:05:21.079 grade, so my final exams were f cats. Okay here and in not 890 01:05:21.159 --> 01:05:30.679 America against it was called the Florida cat something there so f cat and so 891 01:05:31.119 --> 01:05:34.119 that was the first year and it was probably the same in North Carolina that 892 01:05:34.159 --> 01:05:41.159 you had to do a writing assessment in in your final EOGs cats fourth grade. 893 01:05:41.239 --> 01:05:43.760 In the fourth grade, I had to do my first writing assessment. 894 01:05:44.400 --> 01:05:46.239 I killed that thing. I don't remember what it was about, but I 895 01:05:46.280 --> 01:05:50.440 remember having the most confidence in the world, just gloating along. Just I 896 01:05:50.519 --> 01:05:56.400 hope gloating means like ragging. Yeah, but internally gloating. I didn't go 897 01:05:56.519 --> 01:05:59.920 everyone I did so good on my Yeah, but I was feeling good about 898 01:06:00.119 --> 01:06:03.119 that. So and I learned a lot about you know, Ponce de Leon 899 01:06:03.280 --> 01:06:09.159 and Saint Augustine in the fourth grade too, So we actually went on a 900 01:06:09.159 --> 01:06:14.519 field trip there. It's a Saint Augustine. Where's that you don't know about? 901 01:06:14.760 --> 01:06:16.960 It's the oldest town in America. I feel like they said about that 902 01:06:17.000 --> 01:06:20.800 about every historical time. Agustin's real. It's like the oldest standing that's where 903 01:06:20.840 --> 01:06:26.199 like the Fountain of Gold was like where you get youthful? Yeah, fountain 904 01:06:26.199 --> 01:06:30.440 of youth and gold. It's it's an ancient military fortresses, the oldest in 905 01:06:30.480 --> 01:06:34.960 America, the oldest standing structure in America. To it real? No, 906 01:06:34.679 --> 01:06:36.840 no, no, they said it was a fountain of youth, and it 907 01:06:36.920 --> 01:06:40.480 was because it was gold. I wonder if that has something to do with 908 01:06:40.519 --> 01:06:44.119 alchemy. I thought they could never find the Fountain of youth. I think 909 01:06:44.119 --> 01:06:47.800 you're mixing the Cortes's gold in the Fountain of Youth. Legends somewhere the wires 910 01:06:47.800 --> 01:06:53.440 got crossed. See, and that's why I don't tell stories, right, 911 01:06:53.599 --> 01:06:56.960 was because I probably I just saw it live. You just gave us a 912 01:06:57.000 --> 01:07:00.840 demonstration I don't do it. Thanks for providing on Texas well. Right, 913 01:07:00.000 --> 01:07:03.239 to be fair, I did provide a good bit of kickback there, so 914 01:07:03.800 --> 01:07:08.199 it just kind of it was going along great and then kind of folded. 915 01:07:09.119 --> 01:07:12.480 But that's I feel like that's my fault. Are are you reviewing this live? 916 01:07:14.440 --> 01:07:17.360 Yeah, that's what we do, I think. See there you go 917 01:07:17.599 --> 01:07:24.119 where Saint Augustine. It's in Florida. It's just it's north or then Orlando, 918 01:07:24.800 --> 01:07:29.079 north north than Orlando. It's about two hours away from Orlando. Yeah, 919 01:07:29.320 --> 01:07:31.800 it's very cool. You would love it. Saint Augustine is really like 920 01:07:31.920 --> 01:07:36.239 and in Florida in general, there's a lot of like psychic mediums and like 921 01:07:36.400 --> 01:07:39.840 tarot readings and that sort of thing, and there's a lot of that stuff 922 01:07:39.840 --> 01:07:42.480 in Saint Augustine. It's one of the most haunted places in the country. 923 01:07:42.719 --> 01:07:48.320 Yeah, oh my gosh, you missed the Ghosts episode and stuff. Pirates 924 01:07:48.519 --> 01:07:51.400 yea pirates, ye, pirate culture. There's a lot of cool bars. 925 01:07:53.079 --> 01:07:57.119 The ghost Hunters had an episode there where they went into the most haunted I 926 01:07:57.199 --> 01:08:00.599 know people that have done parallelm investigations there. The people that had spirit box 927 01:08:00.599 --> 01:08:03.559 at our place right there. But that would be kind of a fun BSS 928 01:08:03.599 --> 01:08:06.599 trip, wouldn't it, Saint Augustine. I mean, you know, i'd 929 01:08:06.599 --> 01:08:11.840 go for that. I don't like going places stuff like it takes a lot 930 01:08:11.880 --> 01:08:15.600 to drag me out of my house for that. Charlie, Oh yeah, 931 01:08:15.880 --> 01:08:19.399 Oh, he's never left Philly. No, keep me in my one little 932 01:08:19.640 --> 01:08:23.399 We'll get a U haul and we'll put Nick in the back in some wicker 933 01:08:23.439 --> 01:08:27.319 furniture. Yeah, dude, I was talking about that episode two day with 934 01:08:27.359 --> 01:08:30.279 one of my coworkers, Like, my new coworker, that's so crazy that 935 01:08:30.359 --> 01:08:33.000 you just said that, that's absurd. I don't remember that one well because 936 01:08:33.000 --> 01:08:38.720 we were talking about remember the episode. It was like Charlie had never been 937 01:08:38.760 --> 01:08:43.000 out of Philly, and he was like they like tricked him into saying that 938 01:08:43.039 --> 01:08:45.760 they were gonna go where were they going, Pittsburgh or something. They were 939 01:08:45.760 --> 01:08:47.640 going to drive like a few hours away just to get him out of Philly, 940 01:08:47.960 --> 01:08:50.960 And they rented a U haul and him and Dennis ended up in the 941 01:08:50.960 --> 01:08:57.319 back of the U haul like cooking hot dogs over broken wicker wicker furniture, 942 01:08:58.079 --> 01:09:00.399 and they both passed out in the back of the U haul. Didn't they 943 01:09:00.520 --> 01:09:02.119 just kind of like drive around town all day? Yes? Yeah, they 944 01:09:02.199 --> 01:09:04.960 never even left. They never left. Yeah, yeah, I remember that. 945 01:09:05.199 --> 01:09:11.199 Did they do that because they wanted to get Charlie out of of uh 946 01:09:11.640 --> 01:09:15.640 Philly? But they ended up only driving around all day because that kid ended 947 01:09:15.720 --> 01:09:19.439 up stealing the d's new car. Remember. Oh, so he just drove 948 01:09:19.479 --> 01:09:21.760 them around and made them think they were leaving, but they didn't. But 949 01:09:21.840 --> 01:09:25.399 the reason I was talking about that is because I was talking about Derek and 950 01:09:25.479 --> 01:09:28.600 like the the knon how he did the cut that cut, that cut that 951 01:09:28.680 --> 01:09:31.760 for them and stuff like that. Yeah. So that's a wild synchronosity, 952 01:09:31.760 --> 01:09:35.399 Alex that you brought up that specific episode. I did have an OMEN today. 953 01:09:35.880 --> 01:09:41.319 Oh yeah, Oh ruined my day? Go go god? No, 954 01:09:41.439 --> 01:09:45.840 I thought I was saving it episode baby. Yeah. Oh I'm sorry. 955 01:09:45.880 --> 01:09:49.439 I thought you were talking about it this Well, hey, you're not going 956 01:09:49.520 --> 01:09:51.359 to be on the OMEN episode, so do you want to talk about Oh? 957 01:09:51.399 --> 01:09:56.039 Yeah, I had a terrible something. Something is in the air, 958 01:09:56.119 --> 01:09:59.640 and it might be just because it's spring. I don't know. I dropped 959 01:09:59.680 --> 01:10:04.520 three different things in the crack between my car seat and the and the console. 960 01:10:04.600 --> 01:10:09.600 You know what I'm talking about was it food? No? Three important 961 01:10:09.640 --> 01:10:15.319 things today. I've never I've gone weeks without dropping stuff because we're posted to 962 01:10:15.319 --> 01:10:19.760 clips. Yeah, but I think a new moon just happened or whatever. 963 01:10:19.960 --> 01:10:24.279 The clip's bigger than all that. Everything's changed. Well, I can tell 964 01:10:24.319 --> 01:10:29.159 you about mine because this was wacky, freaky, so I get. I 965 01:10:29.840 --> 01:10:33.000 don't know again, I have too much without only child syndrome type thing. 966 01:10:33.399 --> 01:10:36.359 But I don't know if it was because I was an only child, but 967 01:10:36.840 --> 01:10:41.640 I was just got I'm very attached to like animals, right, Like I 968 01:10:41.760 --> 01:10:44.600 just have like I don't know what it is. I just get very very 969 01:10:44.640 --> 01:10:49.760 sensitive around animals and so on this r Ryan, anyone could you know admit 970 01:10:49.800 --> 01:10:53.520 to this. But whenever there's an animal, I'm like, there's a here, 971 01:10:53.600 --> 01:10:56.479 there's a here, there's a deer, like yah me mechanic thing or 972 01:10:56.600 --> 01:11:00.520 like around like it's like a whole thing if a dog was like half a 973 01:11:00.520 --> 01:11:02.840 mile away and runs across the road to freak out. Yeah, but don't 974 01:11:02.880 --> 01:11:08.399 hit it, right because well really just I don't. I don't know. 975 01:11:08.479 --> 01:11:11.119 Sometimes Ryan, be a little crazy, you know what I'm saying. I'm 976 01:11:11.159 --> 01:11:14.159 just like whoa like, don't get there So the other day, I was 977 01:11:14.279 --> 01:11:20.079 driving home from Fayetteville and they're out of nowhere, dude, was a cardinal 978 01:11:20.800 --> 01:11:26.000 that just literally flew directly in front of my car. It was nowhere to 979 01:11:26.000 --> 01:11:28.520 be seen, directly in front of the car. I hit it with the 980 01:11:28.520 --> 01:11:31.680 front of my car. It bounced and splattered on my windshield, and then 981 01:11:31.680 --> 01:11:35.399 it full like goes behind my car and I could see it bouncing on the 982 01:11:35.399 --> 01:11:41.840 ground behind my car, and I literally I just had an emotional reaction. 983 01:11:41.880 --> 01:11:43.680 I just go, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 984 01:11:43.760 --> 01:11:48.319 I just started crying, crying. I I was just like apologizing. 985 01:11:48.399 --> 01:11:51.880 I felt so terrible too, because I've just been very like emotional and sensitive 986 01:11:51.880 --> 01:11:55.279 with nature lately too, and I'm just like, oh my gosh, like 987 01:11:55.319 --> 01:11:59.000 I literally did not mean to do that. It's almost like I wanted God 988 01:11:59.159 --> 01:12:01.880 or somebody else to know, like I did not mean to do that, 989 01:12:02.680 --> 01:12:06.319 right, So it was terrible. I was like struck for a while. 990 01:12:06.760 --> 01:12:11.920 And then later on that day, down the road the same road trip, 991 01:12:12.000 --> 01:12:15.880 the same thing happens again where a cardinal comes directly in front of my car. 992 01:12:15.920 --> 01:12:17.439 Which again, like we live in North Carolina, that's our state. 993 01:12:17.439 --> 01:12:20.960 Bird. It's not like it's the most uncommon thing ever, but it came 994 01:12:21.079 --> 01:12:26.439 right in front of the car. And then later on that day, we're 995 01:12:26.479 --> 01:12:31.840 pulling into the neighborhood. Ryan was driving the same day and two Cardinals back 996 01:12:31.880 --> 01:12:36.399 to back, like literally flying together in unison, go directly in front of 997 01:12:36.439 --> 01:12:41.079 the car. I think it's important and I like, and we almost hit 998 01:12:41.159 --> 01:12:45.399 it all of those times, and I have a mini panic every single time. 999 01:12:45.720 --> 01:12:48.520 It's important to mention that that song by Casey Musgrave just recently came out 1000 01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:51.920 about Cardinals being an omen and you've been singing it and playing it a lot 1001 01:12:53.000 --> 01:12:56.399 lately. Yeah, Like I mean, her Yeah album came out, which 1002 01:12:56.760 --> 01:13:00.479 is so funny because the first song that she released on that album was called 1003 01:13:00.479 --> 01:13:03.399 Deeper Well, and it was all about your Saturn return and about how whenever 1004 01:13:03.439 --> 01:13:08.399 you turn twenty seven, everything starts to change and you drow up and you 1005 01:13:08.479 --> 01:13:14.000 view life differently. And that song came out and then it was just okay, 1006 01:13:14.039 --> 01:13:16.039 another random thing. I'm gonna get into little like weeds here. But 1007 01:13:16.199 --> 01:13:23.000 then gosh, Nazia what's her name, Sizza? She came out with a 1008 01:13:23.000 --> 01:13:27.800 song called something about Saturn and it's all about Saturn, and then Ariana Grande 1009 01:13:27.920 --> 01:13:30.439 like this is literally all within the same month of each other. Ariana Grande 1010 01:13:30.520 --> 01:13:34.239 comes out with an innerlude that's about Saturn and your Saturn return, and I 1011 01:13:34.279 --> 01:13:38.760 was just like, WHOA, Like you ever sometimes like in the most non 1012 01:13:38.760 --> 01:13:42.039 selfish way, just like really actually feel like things are revolving around you and 1013 01:13:42.079 --> 01:13:45.600 you're like WHOA, Like that's like that was really really strange. But anyway, 1014 01:13:45.640 --> 01:13:48.640 Yes, the cardinal thing was really weird, the fact that I literally 1015 01:13:48.680 --> 01:13:54.039 like I haven't I don't think I've ever hit an animal with my car unless 1016 01:13:54.039 --> 01:13:58.279 it was like a snake. The song is about cardinals being like messages from 1017 01:13:58.439 --> 01:14:00.279 the dead spirits on the other side, which it is. And then last 1018 01:14:00.359 --> 01:14:03.680 night and then boom it flies right into our window over power. Last night 1019 01:14:03.720 --> 01:14:08.800 I had a really significant dream about my grandfather. Like it wasn't even the 1020 01:14:08.840 --> 01:14:12.119 type of thing. It was like an energy thing, Like I felt it 1021 01:14:12.359 --> 01:14:15.840 very intensely even whenever I woke up in all day today. I had one 1022 01:14:15.840 --> 01:14:18.000 this week about my grandfather as well. Yeah, and it wasn't even a 1023 01:14:18.039 --> 01:14:21.479 specific thing of like us doing something, but it was just like his energy 1024 01:14:21.520 --> 01:14:26.239 and being near and talking to him like that sort of thing. I had 1025 01:14:26.279 --> 01:14:29.800 a very vivid dream. Ryan, you were in my dream last night. 1026 01:14:30.439 --> 01:14:35.000 Ooh, okay, that's my man. Do tell well. It was like 1027 01:14:35.119 --> 01:14:40.920 some sort of brand new gym, like they had just opened this gym and 1028 01:14:40.920 --> 01:14:44.399 they were throwing this party and it was this all you can eat breakfast buffet 1029 01:14:44.640 --> 01:14:49.720 at this gym, and we were there, but I vividly remember shaving my 1030 01:14:49.800 --> 01:14:55.359 face beforehand and then being mad that I did, and then we were at 1031 01:14:55.640 --> 01:15:01.680 this gym opening ceremony eating cereal. But it was all very real. Wow. 1032 01:15:02.880 --> 01:15:13.479 I just I can't wait to see Nick glowing after post buzz cut clarity. 1033 01:15:14.520 --> 01:15:17.119 What I mean you were talking about before we started recording, about how 1034 01:15:18.760 --> 01:15:21.840 you're going to tell everybody about his costume change. He just wants to be 1035 01:15:23.079 --> 01:15:26.920 like me. That could not have been more random, Ryan, You understand 1036 01:15:26.960 --> 01:15:31.279 that well, he's talking about shaving his face and it just Yeah. I 1037 01:15:31.319 --> 01:15:34.800 have thought about it many times in the past two weeks, just because like 1038 01:15:34.840 --> 01:15:38.840 I don't know where to go get a hair cut. It's getting so long. 1039 01:15:40.319 --> 01:15:42.359 I mean, I can neither one to do it. Thanks, I 1040 01:15:42.399 --> 01:15:44.760 can, I can do it. Yeah, I have to do it. 1041 01:15:45.920 --> 01:15:47.960 Nobody else touched his head. I have to do it, Okay. I 1042 01:15:48.000 --> 01:15:53.720 think that he just wants to bond with you. That's all it is. 1043 01:15:55.079 --> 01:15:58.520 You know Randy, my friend Randy, she's she cuts my hair. I 1044 01:15:58.560 --> 01:16:01.319 haven't gotten my hair. This is well, I'm ashamed. It's definitely been 1045 01:16:01.359 --> 01:16:05.119 over a year, okay. And Randy's been cutting it, you know, 1046 01:16:05.199 --> 01:16:10.479 in my bathroom that easy. And I've saved a lot of money. But 1047 01:16:10.720 --> 01:16:15.199 Casey's been like giving me trims in the bathroom too. But I mean, 1048 01:16:15.840 --> 01:16:18.039 I don't know, it's just getting annoyed some days. Some days I'm happy 1049 01:16:18.079 --> 01:16:20.600 with it. In other days I'm not. But you know whatever, who 1050 01:16:20.640 --> 01:16:24.760 cares. But Ryan's telling me now that I got to shave it because I'll 1051 01:16:24.800 --> 01:16:30.640 have what do you call it post buzz cut clarity? It is real? 1052 01:16:30.159 --> 01:16:34.479 What does that mean? So specifically, it's just like, you know, 1053 01:16:34.560 --> 01:16:43.119 you feel fresh man guys on God on God, If my wife who is 1054 01:16:43.159 --> 01:16:46.880 here to speak up? If my wife would ever let me buzz my head, 1055 01:16:48.079 --> 01:16:51.800 Alex, you could do the honors. You should do it. If 1056 01:16:51.840 --> 01:16:56.640 I'm trying to get all my guys to do it before the wedding, I 1057 01:16:56.680 --> 01:17:00.279 want all shaved heads at the wedding. Why why do you? Yeah, 1058 01:17:00.319 --> 01:17:03.920 honestly, think about for two seconds, I'm panicking for two seconds. I'm 1059 01:17:03.920 --> 01:17:08.920 not to think about the visual wedding, think about what that would look like, 1060 01:17:09.039 --> 01:17:13.640 what you know, just just consider it. It looks very clean, 1061 01:17:14.239 --> 01:17:18.479 Oh Alex, But Alex, you've got good locks. Why why aren't you 1062 01:17:18.520 --> 01:17:21.720 going to let your locks out? Well? Well, it's too late and 1063 01:17:21.760 --> 01:17:26.359 too and most importantly, I don't want to wait what do you mean it's 1064 01:17:26.359 --> 01:17:29.039 too late? You got four months to grow your hair. It won't make 1065 01:17:29.079 --> 01:17:31.359 it in four months. I don't mean locks down to you're just like a 1066 01:17:31.479 --> 01:17:34.119 nice little won't make it though. She doesn't like that. In between, 1067 01:17:35.399 --> 01:17:38.800 Oh yeah, no, one does. No, she don't like. I 1068 01:17:38.840 --> 01:17:42.119 call it the corporate cut. Yeah, like high and tight, but with 1069 01:17:42.199 --> 01:17:45.800 a little uh, a little more personality on top. Right right, Okay, 1070 01:17:45.840 --> 01:17:48.119 I can see it's very corporate cut. It looks like it's in my 1071 01:17:48.159 --> 01:17:51.359 head shot if you've seen my corporate head So show Olivia doesn't like that. 1072 01:17:51.359 --> 01:17:56.600 What's Olivia's preference? She likes the buzz cut. Now wow, whoa? 1073 01:17:57.479 --> 01:18:00.680 So this is wedding day, Alex. See you are in her wedding day. 1074 01:18:00.840 --> 01:18:04.359 I like that's deep, you know. I think that's great. She 1075 01:18:04.399 --> 01:18:06.439 allows him to have a buzz cut. No, no, no, no, 1076 01:18:06.439 --> 01:18:09.880 no, she invites it. Yeah, she doesn't allow it. No, 1077 01:18:10.000 --> 01:18:12.640 she did not invite it. Craves it, she did not invite it. 1078 01:18:13.000 --> 01:18:15.159 Right, it showed up, it came in the house. Well that 1079 01:18:15.239 --> 01:18:18.640 really did not kick it out. It worked out for you. I love 1080 01:18:18.680 --> 01:18:23.760 it. You guys must really love each other. I guess, yeah, 1081 01:18:23.840 --> 01:18:27.880 that really works. Yeah, Ryan, That's just the thing is, I'm 1082 01:18:27.880 --> 01:18:29.800 going to let you do what you want at the end of the day, 1083 01:18:29.880 --> 01:18:35.760 but I'm gonna, like you know, I might make a physical like you. 1084 01:18:40.279 --> 01:18:44.159 All right, well, let's keep it growing then, right, Yes, 1085 01:18:44.640 --> 01:18:46.680 I think Ryan's you've got such a nice curly hair like your grandpa did. 1086 01:18:48.840 --> 01:18:53.119 See. When I hear that, Ryan, I say, let's let's 1087 01:18:53.119 --> 01:18:56.319 see how serious she is. Well, hey, man, I mean look, 1088 01:18:57.439 --> 01:19:00.079 we want that is chaos. We want to talk brass tacks. My 1089 01:19:00.119 --> 01:19:02.560 brother, She's the one I wake up next to, man, not you. 1090 01:19:04.079 --> 01:19:08.560 I wasn't all kind of going that direction. I was just saying, 1091 01:19:08.720 --> 01:19:12.119 let's invite some chaos because it's hair and it grows back. I just I'm 1092 01:19:12.159 --> 01:19:15.760 saying, if I gotta make somebody happier. I got you gotta make some 1093 01:19:16.199 --> 01:19:20.520 happy, and that person is you, Hey, Andrew. Yes, no, 1094 01:19:20.680 --> 01:19:24.840 yourself. You do need to do what's best for yourself, even though 1095 01:19:29.560 --> 01:19:30.840 you need to do what's best for yourself, honey. But just no, 1096 01:19:31.760 --> 01:19:39.600 that's not It's just like you slightly change your physical appearance, like you're just 1097 01:19:39.680 --> 01:19:45.079 dancing such a fine line right now that you cannot change any direction whatsoever. 1098 01:19:45.079 --> 01:19:47.760 I love you and support you, but now I'm making it clear. These 1099 01:19:47.800 --> 01:19:51.600 men are turning it into dry heaving. I never was dry heaving. I 1100 01:19:51.640 --> 01:19:59.399 was just going up. I'm alert, I'm alert you I don't I don't 1101 01:19:59.399 --> 01:20:01.159 actually want to ahead. No no, no, no, no no no 1102 01:20:02.000 --> 01:20:05.600 back on me, back on the Alex, give me the control. I 1103 01:20:05.640 --> 01:20:11.279 was just going not right. The truth is, I don't actually want to 1104 01:20:11.279 --> 01:20:14.359 buzz my head. I just love torturing her with it. And we don't 1105 01:20:14.399 --> 01:20:17.000 believe you though I don't. I don't believe that you think I actually want 1106 01:20:17.000 --> 01:20:19.640 to buzz my head. I do because you talk about how freeing it would 1107 01:20:19.640 --> 01:20:30.000 be, had so much. It really is so nice. It is so 1108 01:20:30.119 --> 01:20:34.680 nice, like when you have that. Sure, it looks a little funny 1109 01:20:34.680 --> 01:20:39.359 for a minute, but like it feels so, what do you mean it 1110 01:20:39.359 --> 01:20:42.880 looks a little funny for a minute to put you you had a camera on 1111 01:20:42.960 --> 01:20:47.640 yourself, we would all be able to no wedding day. Alex is perfectly 1112 01:20:48.159 --> 01:20:54.840 handsome the way he is. Okay, I liked this episode. This is 1113 01:20:54.880 --> 01:20:57.880 wedding day alex is. He already said this is how he's going to go 1114 01:20:57.920 --> 01:21:00.720 on his wedding, So we got to be supportive. Looks good, but 1115 01:21:00.840 --> 01:21:03.640 not to Ryan if he does it, we do not that. Okay, 1116 01:21:04.079 --> 01:21:10.159 we at that Alex. If we support you and love you and do whatever 1117 01:21:10.199 --> 01:21:14.760 you want, you look great and perfect. Ryan, Alex. Alex is 1118 01:21:14.800 --> 01:21:21.880 not my property, right. Actually I think it's the other way around. 1119 01:21:23.119 --> 01:21:27.800 Alex is like the yard across the street. Who's that, Alex is the 1120 01:21:27.880 --> 01:21:29.720 yard across the street. I'm like, oh, well, yeah, if 1121 01:21:29.720 --> 01:21:31.920 you want to cut your line, right, but I like to have some 1122 01:21:31.960 --> 01:21:36.439 weeds, some mess in there. Yeah. Hey, I'm just I'm just 1123 01:21:36.640 --> 01:21:45.079 flattered you care. At least everybody's property values going up because clean and Nick's 1124 01:21:45.159 --> 01:21:55.840 yards looking great. Nice bush. I got some hedges right right, some 1125 01:21:55.880 --> 01:22:00.079 big trees, some damn azaleas, some large tree. Yeah, that could 1126 01:22:00.119 --> 01:22:04.119 you know, maybe I think that he's a little bit more like Pines because 1127 01:22:04.159 --> 01:22:09.199 of the way that they kind of I think I think if Nick were to 1128 01:22:09.199 --> 01:22:13.199 be Yeah, he'd be kind of Pine. Yeah, because he's like the 1129 01:22:14.520 --> 01:22:17.439 lost So your cod trees are regional there, so I would say he's like 1130 01:22:17.520 --> 01:22:21.960 the massive Pine kind of given an east bound and Down? Yeah, is 1131 01:22:21.960 --> 01:22:26.840 that what this is? I like this era. Yeah, you're kind of 1132 01:22:26.840 --> 01:22:30.600 giving Stevie from season four of Eastbounding Down Alex when he his head. Don't 1133 01:22:31.039 --> 01:22:35.239 don't spoil it. Oh, so I'll tell you what. This might be 1134 01:22:35.479 --> 01:22:40.760 the most all over the place episode we've ever recorded. Sorry, are you 1135 01:22:40.760 --> 01:22:44.079 having anxiety about it? No? Okay, I'm here for it. I 1136 01:22:44.119 --> 01:22:49.960 hope y'all like this episode. I do. Just what huh, what you 1137 01:22:50.000 --> 01:22:53.800 gotta say about Eastbounding Down? I said, don't spoil Oh, I was 1138 01:22:53.840 --> 01:22:58.159 gonna say that I started watching Eastbounding Down to emotionally take a break from the 1139 01:22:58.199 --> 01:23:00.760 seriousness of the Sopranos. Okay, yeah, So I was like, okay, 1140 01:23:00.840 --> 01:23:03.720 yeah, season one, we're laughing, we're laughing, we're laughing. 1141 01:23:04.039 --> 01:23:09.520 And then I think season two he leaves her at the gas station and it 1142 01:23:09.560 --> 01:23:13.720 got sad, and I was like, fuck this, I can't be sad 1143 01:23:13.960 --> 01:23:17.880 watching both shows. So we're going back to Sopranos and locking in. So 1144 01:23:17.920 --> 01:23:20.800 that's where I'm at. That's just funny as hell. No, I've had 1145 01:23:20.800 --> 01:23:24.439 a great time. I was kind of sitting here smiling because I'm like, 1146 01:23:24.479 --> 01:23:27.479 this is our first time in our new studio. Great. That's why I 1147 01:23:27.520 --> 01:23:30.720 selfishly wanted to have the band altogether. That's that's my bad, y'all. 1148 01:23:30.960 --> 01:23:40.520 You're bad. You're an honored guested, my wife, you're you're a distinguished 1149 01:23:41.359 --> 01:23:45.239 distinguished and that's not even you're more than a guest. Come on now, 1150 01:23:45.680 --> 01:23:50.880 yeah, can I say something about the distinguished whatever. The other day, 1151 01:23:50.920 --> 01:23:56.199 I had seen an old friend from high school, and everyone knew that I 1152 01:23:56.359 --> 01:23:59.720 married a blood like one of the bloodsos. But the blood shows around town, 1153 01:24:00.359 --> 01:24:02.039 it's like they're related to freaking everybody, Like you can't give it, 1154 01:24:02.199 --> 01:24:06.119 you can't get a break from them. They're everywhere everywhere. It's true, 1155 01:24:06.159 --> 01:24:10.079 man, those freaking blood shows. I see aliens. They're fucking no, 1156 01:24:10.239 --> 01:24:13.960 that's not true. I was just talking about the fact that you have a 1157 01:24:13.960 --> 01:24:16.760 big family and he literally goes, So, how was it like marrying into 1158 01:24:16.760 --> 01:24:19.760 the bloodsos like, that's like, how is that feeling? I'm like, 1159 01:24:20.479 --> 01:24:24.840 I feel like I'm the first lady, you know, I just be like 1160 01:24:24.920 --> 01:24:29.640 the first lady. I feel like Princess Diana. And he thought it was 1161 01:24:29.680 --> 01:24:36.600 funny. But yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, just listening 1162 01:24:36.640 --> 01:24:45.079 to these stories y'all. For all of those not watching on camera, we're 1163 01:24:45.079 --> 01:24:49.119 doing an epic fist bump right now, yeah we are. But anyway that, 1164 01:24:49.359 --> 01:24:53.239 I mean, that can be all? What time is it? I 1165 01:24:53.359 --> 01:24:59.159 didn't I could ponder, but can I can I lean into the next episode 1166 01:24:59.199 --> 01:25:02.079 a little bit? It was my idea. The thing I want to lean 1167 01:25:02.119 --> 01:25:06.279 into about Omens, which is going to be the next episode, is that 1168 01:25:06.760 --> 01:25:10.920 what you guys can maybe talk about this a little bit more too next week, 1169 01:25:11.000 --> 01:25:15.079 but whenever. What I find so crazy about omens is like, no 1170 01:25:15.119 --> 01:25:19.359 matter I feel like, how spiritual or not even spiritual, how religious or 1171 01:25:19.399 --> 01:25:26.520 like church going people, they still have superstitions. And I find that so 1172 01:25:26.840 --> 01:25:31.960 interesting because superstitions are like they all lie in like this kind of I think 1173 01:25:32.039 --> 01:25:35.359 about like the witchchiald type, you know, yeah, don't touch a picture 1174 01:25:35.359 --> 01:25:40.960 when he's hot, right right? Like I guess I don't know. I 1175 01:25:41.000 --> 01:25:43.359 don't know if I understand, I don't know that one like a baseball picture. 1176 01:25:43.439 --> 01:25:45.119 What, Yeah, that's the thing. I just can't fuck believe you. 1177 01:25:45.159 --> 01:25:56.279 Sometimes I really can't hear. Sometimes I just give up play baseball. 1178 01:25:56.479 --> 01:26:00.680 I mean, look, look when the picture's hot, when he's throwing strikes 1179 01:26:00.920 --> 01:26:04.520 and he's hot and he's on fire, you don't touch it. But aren't 1180 01:26:04.560 --> 01:26:08.000 you in the bleacher. You don't. You're in the you're in the dugout. 1181 01:26:08.079 --> 01:26:10.520 Wait, it's your team, bro. You don't touch him. You 1182 01:26:10.520 --> 01:26:12.880 don't high five, you don't pat him on the back, you don't ruin 1183 01:26:12.960 --> 01:26:15.680 his mojo. You let him do his thing right. You don't touch a 1184 01:26:15.720 --> 01:26:18.119 picture when he's hot, as everyone knows, or you don't show up to 1185 01:26:18.199 --> 01:26:21.920 a job and go this is gonna be easy. Yeah, that's let's have 1186 01:26:23.119 --> 01:26:30.039 this episode Baseball, no mental base We'll call it the green Room. Oh 1187 01:26:30.079 --> 01:26:32.880 that's cute. But anyway, leading into that, I just wanted you guys 1188 01:26:32.920 --> 01:26:36.439 to ponder that because it's been something I've been thinking about for a long time. 1189 01:26:36.600 --> 01:26:42.119 Is in the back of everyone's minds, there's still that like, but 1190 01:26:42.359 --> 01:26:46.279 what if I'm not gonna step on this crack because what if my mom faults 1191 01:26:46.319 --> 01:26:49.680 in half like a cheer. Even Saturday, when we were moving all of 1192 01:26:49.680 --> 01:26:54.199 our stuff over here, we had that standing mirror and your dad was like, 1193 01:26:54.239 --> 01:26:56.079 I'll let you handle it rhyme, and I was like, oh, 1194 01:26:56.119 --> 01:26:58.560 I'm not worried about breaking it. He said, well, I'm worried about 1195 01:26:58.600 --> 01:27:01.800 the bad luck. M oh. I thought he just didn't want to do 1196 01:27:01.800 --> 01:27:05.319 that because it was very sentimental to y'all. Everything he said, I'm worried 1197 01:27:05.359 --> 01:27:08.840 about the bad look. No, everything that had to do with the wedding 1198 01:27:08.960 --> 01:27:13.920 or everything that was like fragile Jenny's personal trinkets. He was like, I'm 1199 01:27:13.920 --> 01:27:15.880 not touching that. Yeah, he did not touching that. Touched respect. 1200 01:27:16.000 --> 01:27:18.960 I respect that, man. Yeah, thank you. You know what, 1201 01:27:19.199 --> 01:27:23.199 this has been a very fun episode. I feel like this is the first 1202 01:27:23.199 --> 01:27:28.399 time in the entire history of the entire show that they really got to see 1203 01:27:28.439 --> 01:27:31.520 our dynamic as husband and wife because the first episode not really husband and wife 1204 01:27:31.560 --> 01:27:36.239 and friends. This is actually my third episode, is it. Yeah? 1205 01:27:36.720 --> 01:27:41.600 Even then, right, it wasn't the real dynamic. Yeah, it was 1206 01:27:41.600 --> 01:27:44.239 fun. We talked a little bit about, you know, some fun stuff. 1207 01:27:44.680 --> 01:27:47.359 Yeah, the fourth grade and baseball and all kinds of stuff. I've 1208 01:27:47.399 --> 01:27:50.159 been hearing about the damn fourth grade for eleven years. Now, y'all, 1209 01:27:51.520 --> 01:27:55.600 didn't you say your mom says you're stuck in the fort? I say that, 1210 01:27:55.720 --> 01:28:01.239 Oh no, my mom does too, though I was somebody, y'all. 1211 01:28:01.279 --> 01:28:04.159 My fish died in the fourth grade. Whenever I got good grade. 1212 01:28:04.960 --> 01:28:11.560 When I got good grades, cried, we did. I was crying in 1213 01:28:11.680 --> 01:28:15.279 the in the common room. I was crying because Conan, this guy, 1214 01:28:15.960 --> 01:28:20.000 he was very into dirt bikes. He bullied me because I was upset about 1215 01:28:20.000 --> 01:28:25.079 my fish dying. And he bullied me so hard that I had to go 1216 01:28:25.119 --> 01:28:29.600 to the common area and cry in his hands. I know, jerk face, 1217 01:28:29.840 --> 01:28:33.319 right, Conan, I've never forgotten. No, it's Conan. Conan. 1218 01:28:33.760 --> 01:28:38.159 Ye, well, that was his first life together, dude, right, 1219 01:28:38.239 --> 01:28:42.479 that was his first mistake pronouncing it like that. Because where is he 1220 01:28:42.560 --> 01:28:45.079 now? I don't know. Maybe on a dirt bike. I'm wearing Florida 1221 01:28:45.199 --> 01:28:49.560 Man. He's the Florida man who knows. I'll see him on the news 1222 01:28:50.479 --> 01:28:58.000 anyway. Okay, we'll let y'all go. You exited as as brightly as 1223 01:28:58.000 --> 01:29:03.279 you entered. But cat in the hat the green Man, Right, Jenny 1224 01:29:03.359 --> 01:29:08.199 is the true one. Yeah, I am so thrilled that you came on 1225 01:29:08.239 --> 01:29:11.119 the show and the first time in the studio, and you know, at 1226 01:29:11.159 --> 01:29:13.359 the end of the day, this is all memories we get to look back 1227 01:29:13.359 --> 01:29:15.840 at together. I know it's still weird being in this room, but it 1228 01:29:15.880 --> 01:29:20.880 feels really right. Yeah, it feels a lot less like it feels like 1229 01:29:20.960 --> 01:29:25.439 it doesn't feel like I'm in house anymore. To me. It feels like, 1230 01:29:25.520 --> 01:29:30.279 Okay, I'm in a dedicated space that's dedicated to this, and it 1231 01:29:30.279 --> 01:29:32.520 feels like it's not like, oh, let me sneak in here and get 1232 01:29:32.560 --> 01:29:36.359 my postage stamps. Let me sneak in here and get whatever. Like all 1233 01:29:36.359 --> 01:29:40.439 my childhood stuff was in there, barbies were in that room. It's like, 1234 01:29:40.479 --> 01:29:43.640 okay, we're done. Finally it's about the podcast. Yeah, now 1235 01:29:43.680 --> 01:29:48.399 we're in the green room cutting a road. Stuff coming good. Thanks for 1236 01:29:48.439 --> 01:29:51.960 having me on though, Thanks for coming on, even though I basically was 1237 01:29:53.000 --> 01:30:00.399 like I have to be on anyway. We love you, love you. 1238 01:30:00.039 --> 01:30:02.479 Do you still say bye? Guys? Yes, we do. Yeah. 1239 01:30:02.640 --> 01:30:05.520 We're not just gonna ditch that. We're not just gonna you know, move 1240 01:30:05.560 --> 01:30:08.880 on to college and forget it. No, I didn't know if you guys 1241 01:30:08.880 --> 01:30:11.880 still said it. I I don't know if i've heard in a while. 1242 01:30:12.119 --> 01:30:16.640 Of course, Well you don't watch so right. The secret is out, 1243 01:30:17.920 --> 01:30:25.640 all right, okay, bye bye bye, guys. Weird things happened in 1244 01:30:25.640 --> 01:30:35.840 the backyard of Bletsoe House ship. Oh look up, it's so weird. 1245 01:30:38.039 --> 01:30:46.760 You're coming closer to my heart like smirre ring on the inside of it. 1246 01:30:49.439 --> 01:31:38.239 No one knows. It's come right over a siding, and happy happ