Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I'm your host Jazz and Dan Yale.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. Oh my god, this
is so fucking crazy. This is so fucking crazy. This is so fucking
crazy. This is so fucking This is so fucking crazy. Bro, this
is so fucking crazy. That's wild as fuck. Let me put my phone
on, do not fucking discern, bitch, and a motherfucker better not call
and get through to the line. This is so fucking crazy. This is
so fucking crazy. This is Oh my fucking bro, bro, oh my
oh, y'all don't understand, y'all, don't understand what has happened. Baby,
full circle I'm talking about in a matter of five minutes, Nigga,
in the matter of five minutes, some shit just came full circle for me.
Intuition is a motherfucker into This shit is so crazy. This shit is
so crazy. First of all, one thing that I say when I'm teaching
yoga is that the body holds so much wisdom. Communicate with you. To
communicate with your body when when we're starting to practice, when we're igniting the
spirit, warming up the body, I'm telling people, just get your body
moving. You know what I'm saying. Get your body moving whatever you need
for your body. So you're moving your body in circles, moving the hips,
rolling your neck, taking some cat calls. When you're doing that,
I'm telling you communicate with your body. What does your body need? You
know what I'm saying, What do you need? The body holds so much
wisdom. You've got to listen to your intuition, bro, you have to
listen to your intuition. And that's been one of my struggles for a very
long time. It's so fucking wild because I'm a Pisces. I'm the most
intuitive nigga in the zodiac. I'm the most intuitive nigga in the zodiac.
Pisces is the last sign that means we got something from everybody. That means
we got something from everybody. But my intuition is out of this fucking world,
bro. So it's crazy that I've had to go through all of the
things that I go through in life when I have impeccable intuition. It's crazy
that I have to go through all of the shit that I go through in
life when I have impeccable intuition. But that's how you know, Nigga,
you're a student of life. You gotta fucking learn from experience. What are
we on the Black girl fucking experienced? Nigga, You're not gonna learn until
you go through some shit. And sometimes they'd be like, damn, why
do I gotta go through this? Though? But you gotta go through some
shit, especially when you're a good person. I'm on this bitch preaching.
I ain't gonna lie. You gotta go through some shit, especially when you're
a good person. That's it's fucked up, bro, because I'm a good
ass person and it'd be some demonic ass people trying to fuck with me.
Bro. It'd be some nasty as spirits dealing with me. Bro. And
I'm not just talking about on a romantic level. I'm just talking about in
life, Nigga, I got some nasty spirits around me, some nasty spirits.
When I tell you, motherfucker's be so mean spirited to me, and
I don't wanna do shit to niggas. I'd be like, Bro, why
are you so mad at me? I didn't even do anything to you.
Niggas be mad at me? Do y'all hear how crazy that sounds? Niggas
be mad at me, and I haven't done shit to them. I'm just
existing, and niggas be mad at me. People will be mad at me.
Bro, I understand being mad when somebody do something to you, when
somebody ain't being shit to you. When you mad and you nasty, Oh,
that says a lot about your care arter, That says a lot about
the demons that you're dealing with. I haven't done shit to you, and
you're mad. You're a big mad, You're big mad. And I'll just
be looking at niggas like, Bro, what are you mad at? What
are you mad at? I bet you, I bet you ask a motherfucker
that I got a problem with you. What are you mad at? Because
a lot of times niggas be mad over nothing. Please pull out a reason
to be mad, Show me a reason to be mad. I give niggas
not a I give niggas zilch. I give niggas zero to be mad at.
And you're mad and your mad at fuck what they say, though,
misery loves company. Misery loves company. You want to bring everybody down,
which you are crab in the bucket, ass nigga. You want to bring
everybody down, So trying to get back to full circle. I was just
having a conversation with somebody about my about my temperament lately, and when it
when it all came together from me, I'm like, you know what,
my temperament is a little bit differ, Frank, And I'm looking at why
Why has my temperament different? Why am I acting the way that I'm acting?
What's affecting me? What's causing me to feel this way? And that's
how you have to pinpoint the problem within yourself. First of all, I
just was talking about I have impeccable intuition. I know why my temperament is
the way it is. I already know why. But I gotta be real
with myself. I gotta be real with myself. I gotta take accountability.
I just had a conversation with somebody and I was asking me questions, and
every time I asked them a question about theirselfs, they made it about everybody
else. I'm like, I don't give a fuck about everybody else. I'm
talking about you. Every no accountability, could not accept nothing, any anything.
Every time you try to throw something and pushing it off, pushing it
up, bro bro Bro. I rarely talk about other niggas like, if
something, especially if you're addressing something about me, why am I bringing up
anybody else? If you got a problem with me? Why the fuck am
I talking about Tim, Sue and James, Keisha, Derek and Brian.
Why am I talking? You know what I'm saying like accountability as a motherfucker,
and niggas don't want to take that. I need a motherfucker to be
accountable because I am. I'm very very self aware. I'm very self aware.
I'm very self aware. I can't fuck with people that always point the
blame, point the blame, especially I think it ain't even got shit to
do with me. What are you talking about? What are you talking?
What are you talking about? Don't let them ufuck a spatulate. You don't
let them flip shit on you, don't let them do it. Don't let
them do it. So anyway, Yeah, this still supposed to be the
beginning. This, this still supposed to be the intro. What I really
wanted to come on here and say before I had caught that full circle moment,
was that I've been m mya like a Florida girl. Okay, I'm
in my I ain't recorded an episode in a fucking month. I'm ashamed of
myself. I'm ashamed of myself and I shouldn't be. I don't have to
be. There's nothing wrong with that. There's nothing wrong with that. It
was something else that I wanted to say. But yeah, I've been gone.
But again, I just told you my temperament been different. My temperament
is different. But that's okay. So the first full circle thing though,
as soon as I hopped on this bitch and here record, I felt amazing.
I was smiling, I was feeling good, I was feeling bright,
I was feeling like I was feeling like me, nigga, my temperament changed.
It was it was it was me. It was me, you know
what I'm saying. So obviously it's something going on in my life. My
temperament is different, nigga, I ain't recorded in a month. What the
fuck is going on? You know what I'm saying? What's what's really going
on? What's really good? What's good? Miley? What's good? What's
going on? You're good? And that's the thing, you know what I'm
saying. God forbid, something happened to a nigga. Niggas be like,
oh day she didn't record an episode for a month. Niggas ain't checked on
me at all. Niggas ain't checked on me at all. And that's what
I'm saying. That's what I'm saying. Is it still we still in May?
It's still Mental Health Awareness month? Nigga, That's what I'm saying.
Niggas do not check on a strong friend. A bitch been gone for a
month. Niggas ain't niggas. Niggas ain't made a peep. That's a little
sick. That's a little sick. That's a little sick. My god,
that's a little sick. But I don't want y'all to think like it's something
seriously wrong with me. I'm good, but I definitely have been neglecting myself.
I've definitely been neglecting myself. I feel like I'm not myself. Don't
let nobody pull you back in life. Don't let nobody pull you back.
That's crazy. Don't let nobody pull you back. Nigga running in my own
race. I'm in my own motherfucking lane, and they getting grab my arms
and tried to pull me back. Fuck own to pass the tide. No,
no, you know what I'm saying, don't let nobody pull you back
for real. Um, what else was I about to say? So,
yeah, I've definitely been neglecting myself. The best part of me is also
the worst part of me, and that's that Yina yang shit. The best
part of me is the worst part of me. I'm so loving, I'm
so giving, I'm so nurturing. I'm always pouring into others, rarely pouring
into myself. The best part of me is the worst part of me.
Like I said, I haven't made an episode in the month, I'm neglecting
myself. But like I said, as soon as I hopped on this bitch,
I was smiling. I was happy. I'm like, damn, this
is this is what I'm this is this is where I needed to be,
This is where I needed to be. I think that I do need to
find balance in my life. The funny party is now that I do yoga
damn near every day, I feel like I have physical balance in my life
and that's needed as well. Nigga, You ain't trying to top nigga,
We ain't trying to what was her name, whoever takes a tumble? I
forgot her name? But you know what I'm saying, I feel like I
have physical balance in my life. I feel like I'm grounded, you know,
in the physical aspect. But I do need balance. I definitely.
I'm a person that has an addictive personality. So if I do something,
or if I try something or whatever, I'm gonna be on that for a
little minute. You know what I'm saying. I go I go crazy on
shit when I first do it. That's why I would never do no serious
drugs because I go crazy on shit. You know what I'm saying. Whether
it be a motherfucking restaurant, what, it don't matter. You know what
I'm saying. If I do something new and I like it, baby,
I'm gonna do it for a minute, and then you know, get burnt
out. But I do need to find balance because when I when I find
something new, I for sure burnout on that ship. And speaking of burnout,
I do yoga every day. It's kind of hard to say, but
you absolutely need a break from everything in life, nigga, Like you need
a break from everything. I don't think that you could do something every fucking
day. You know what I'm saying. Again, that's that shit about that,
like that addictive personality type shit. You know what I'm saying, Like
it is cool to do yoga every day. You can't do it every day,
but um, just for me personally, nigga, I think that you
could take a break for a day, you know what I'm saying. Even
though I'd be hashtag yoga every damn day, I ain't gonna lie. It'd
be times when I'm black. Dang, I'm I feel like I'm experiencing burnout.
I feel like I'm doing too much, you know what I'm saying.
And that's the thing. Going back to the body has so much wisdom.
Listener to your intuition. Your body tells you everything that you need to know,
nigga. Your body tell you when you sleep, you when you're ready
to go to bed at night. Your body is gonna wake you up in
the morning. Your stomach is gonna tell you when you're hungry. Your body
tells you when you hide. Your body tell you when you cold. You
know what I'm saying. Your body tells you. Your body tells you when
you sick. So if you sleepy, nigga, go to sleep. If
you need rest, take a break. Like and I say that too.
I say that too. I talk about how you know, in life,
we be feeling guilty for one to take rest, like, bro, fucking
relax, go take a nap, don't do shit today, laying the fucking
bed, Nigga, you rest, But we be so caught up in the
matrix. Nigga, I gotta go to work every day. I gotta do
that first of all. Nigga's don't nothing come before work, Nigga, your
own health can't come before work because you like nigga, I gotta work.
I need a job. That's crazy as fuck. I'm not living like that.
I'm not living like that. I'm not living like that. Bro.
I come first, My body comes first, my mental health comes first.
I don't give a fuck about this job, Nigga, I don't give a
you need me the fuck? No. No, I don't want yoga to
become jobby for me. But that's also why I feel like it's important to
take a break sometimes. Again. I don't want it to start to feel
jobby for me, you know, because it's something that I do absolutely have
a passion for, and there are a lot more things that I need to
incorporate into my yoga to really make it me, to really make it me.
But that also takes time. Like I'll be looking at the calendar,
I'll be looking at the day. It's like, Bro, I've been doing
this like six months. Relax. You got your whole fucking life to do
yoga. Bro, you have so much. You know what I'm saying.
You don't have to learn everything in a day, baby girl, Relax,
take a chill pill. But I definitely do have a passion for it,
but I don't want it to become jobby. You know. One of my
main things right now is just working on creating events for myself with yoga and
just figuring out where I want to go with it and what the yoga branch
of Black Girl experience is going to be. So that's a lot to figure
out. But again, if if my focus is in other places, I'm
not giving it the proper attention. I'm not watering it. I'm not you
know what I'm saying. I'm planting seeds elsewhere. When I need to be
worrying about myself, I need to be worrying about myself, babying. If
you're gonna stress about anything in life, let it be about your own fucking
self. Don't let it be about nobody else and what the fuck they got
going on. And that's baby, when whenever you off kill her, nigga,
bring it back to self, Bring it back to self. That's what
this ship is all fucking about. The focus needs to be on yourself,
you know. Trying to maximize my income with yoga that as well, because
again, a nigga is not going back to one nine of five, not
me, no sir. So that's out m my romantic life and nigga that
shit. I have come to the conclusion because y'all know I'm a lover girl,
and I've talked about this so many times on here. I do want
companionship. I do want to be in a relationship if I do. You
know what I'm saying. I do want to have them in you feel me.
But it takes away. It takes away from me, bro. It
takes away from me every time, every time, every time I try it,
it takes away from me. And it's like, a I could really
be one hundred percent by myself, you know what I'm saying. And I
haven't even reached one hundred percent by myself, and that's the thing. Maybe
I should just focus on reaching one hundred percent by myself because anytime I try
to add something else in the picture, it'd be like sixty seven thirty two,
Like hold on't wait, nigga, I was I was at eighty five.
Like so for real, focus on yourself, nigga, focus on your
fuckings. That's all that you could really focus on. And that's when I'm
the happiest. That's when i'm the best. That's when i'm the brightest.
That's when i'm elevating, that's when i'm fly, that's when you know what
I'm saying like anything else, I'm not myself. Um, but it's so
crazy because I'm a lover girl. But it's just like I don't know.
And then it's like, oh my god, do niggas wanna be me?
For real? Do the niggas that I fuck we wanna be me? Because
what what's teasus? Like? What what's up? Why are we acting like
this? Why are we acting like this? But that could be with anybody
in your life, anybody that's giving competition, right, So I don't know,
fam, what's up? What are we doing? You know what I'm
saying, like what you want? But also trying to remember that no relationship
is perfect, that as well. That is fucking will. But you have
to be able to differentiate between healthy conflict and some bullshit, you know what
I'm saying. Um, but sometimes it's hard, and that's the thing it'd
be, Oh my god, have people always been this fake? Have people
always been this? Uh? What do I want to say? Have people
always been like I don't even know what I want to say, but just
fake and calculated and like you know what I'm saying, like, ah,
I don't know, it's it's it's a crazy world out here though, Like,
um, it's a crazy world out here. But again, that's why
it's just best to stick to yourself and stick to what the fuck you know.
And that's all I know is self, Nigga, That's all I know.
And I'm not gonna lie. That's that's when i'm the happiest. That's
when i'm the best. That's when I'm mean, um, you know,
and motherucker's always want to come in and try to fuck up the path always,
you know what I'm saying, Like, get these Mario banana peals out
of my way, Like what are you doing? What are you? What
are you doing? We have a hard time of letting things go in life,
which is baby. The concept it's very straightforward. It's very simple when
you think about it. You know what I'm saying. When you release your
attachment to whatever, you allow stuff to come in. We don't be willing
to let shit go though. It's like, bro, we trying to put
the new shit in your life, but you still holding on. Like the
longer you hold on, the longer the delay, the longer you wait,
the longer you know, you make this hard, Like it'd be you making
it hard, bitch. We got your blessings waiting to drop these they're waiting
to drop your blessings. I'm talking heads to the sky. They like dog
as soon as we drop our arms, this ship coming down. But you're
holding onto old shit. Let that shit go. I was just talking about
Nigga's better not call and get through to my line. Somebody was trying to
call me and it was like, damn, I thought you black to me
yo. I'm like no, it was like, man, I called you
like thirty times. I'm like, damn, you called me like thirty times
and you couldn't get through. Baby, that's a sign. I didn't say
that, but in my mind, I'm like, that's a sign, and
I just said, as soon as I hit record on this bitch, I
felt like myself. I was like this, let me put my phone on,
do not disturb because I don't want no clause coming through. Okay,
this is full circle in five minutes, baby, um. And then when
you releash your attack the attachment to shit, you just be free to be.
You know what I'm saying. You don't feel that bird no more.
You feel light. You feel na I could boo boop boop on my tiptoes
through life. Nigga. You know what I'm saying, You're just free to
be. Motherfucker's be trying to lock me down, baby, when I tell
you, niggas be trying to lock me down. Nick I didn't got trapped
before. Oh I didn't got trapped before? Oh my god? And where
do I work at the trap studio? I didn't. I hadn't been trapped
before. I wouldn't been trapped before. I'm a baby mama, nigga.
I'm a baby mama. That's a form of control to a nigga. A
nigga feel like you his territory when you his baby mama. Niggas want to
treat women like dogs piss on you. This is mine, this is this
is where ippen. You know what I'm saying. Niggas dogs be going outside
sniffing where I want to piss at, where I want where I want to
piss at. I'm a piss on this bitch, Okay r Kelly Like whoa,
But for real, niggas be trapping bitches and that shit be a form
of control. Now another point that I want to make Nobody can control you.
I mean, you know what I'm saying. You get what I'm saying
to a certain extent, But at the end of the day, nobody can
control you. My life is my life, you know what I'm saying.
My shit gonna be what it's supposed to be. But it's some banana peals
from the path for sure. Like yeah, but um where did this all
start from? Where did where did all that branch from? I just forgot
but um yeah, man, Like, oh, niggas be trying to lock
me down. Niggas be trying to and I'll and I'll be on this bitch
always something about I've been single for solo. Niggas be trying to lock me
down where I go Like, but in a different type of way, like
niggas be like this bitch light too bright, put a box on top of
it. You're running too freely through life. Let me give me your arms,
let me pull your arms, but be trying to make that shit seem
fun. Hey, I'll let you, Yeah, but handcuffs on me,
Like yeah, niggas be trying to lock me down for real. No,
I'm not doing it. Full circle in five minutes, damn is not the
name of the episode. Full circle in five minutes. That's crazy. Um.
And you gotta be open to whatever's coming next. Like I said,
they're ready to drop the blessings down. You gotta be open to whatever it's
coming next. That's another thing that I say. Being open to receive,
while your blessings, your prosperity, to your abundance, being open to new
opportunities, being opened a new energy, being open minded, being open to
receive, open your heart, open your throat, be open to receive,
like you can't do that when you hold on and breathing. It's so good
too. Like did I tell you all about that day I had a breakdown?
I don't really something like i'd be going through it? Did I tell
you all about the day I had a breakdown. I don't know. I
ain't been on this bitch in a month. I don't know if I told
y'all, but one day I did have a breakdown. Like I was on
my knees crying, but it felt so good to cry, and I was
breathing through it all, and it felt so good to release that. It
felt so fucking good to release all that shit that was on my heart.
And like, you know, it's it's not really crazy, but it's also
crazy to me because nigga, I'm the strong friend. Like damn, this
bitch finally broke the fuck down. But I just said that today. I
just said that to somebody. I was like, uh, I was talking
about going to a rage room. I've never been to a rage room.
I'm like, that's something that I want to do one day, and it's
probably something that I really need to do, because I, um, I
bottle everything up. You know what I'm saying. Shit, I feel like
the only time I really really shit is on here. But you know,
I bottle a lot of shit up. But I know that's not healthy,
But I manage my emotions and my anger whale, you know what I'm saying,
I'm a very calm person. I'm a very level headed person, and
you need that, you need to have a sound mind in this life,
because baby, you can't. You can't. You can't be a boiling pot.
You cannot, you cannot, you will not. You will not make
it in life being a boiling pot. So yeah, but that's not good.
I need to release shit. So yeah, I had a breakdown,
But like I said, it felt so good to breathe like I was.
I wasn't like boohoo crying, but it was just like it was like some
real it was, nigga, if I was down on my knees, I
damn near, I was at church, you know what I'm saying, Like,
but I was breathing through that shit and it just felt so fucking good
to release it, you know what, Like damn, nigga, a breakdown
means that a breakthrough is coming, and my breakthrough is for show coming,
like it just be like when though, you know what I'm saying, it
was eleven eleven, Oh my, I cannot make this shit up. Bro.
It's gonna happen in divine timing four circle in five minutes. What the
fuck? I cannot make this shit up. I cannot make this shit up.
Bro, It's gonna happen in divine time. To stop sucking asking what
time, Jason, stop sucking asking and just wake up and live your day
to day. It's gonna it's gonna be the day. It's gonna be the
day. It's so crazy, and that's why you really can't worry about shit
the day that I actually so this is what's gonna happen. I'm gonna be
more mindful. I'm gonna be more conscious every day like it's gonna happen when
it's gonna happen. Stop fucking worrying, dadda, dadda die every day.
I'm gonna keep being mindful, Like, just focus on the day, focus
on the present moment, focus on what you got going on, breathe.
The day that I finally just fucking forget about it, and it's gonna be.
You're gonna be so caught up in being present in the moment you're not
even gonna realize that you're not thinking about it no more. And that's when
the fuck is gonna happen. Eleven eleven Divine timing, And that's the point
of mindfulness that you have to be at. That's the point of mindfulness that
you have to be at. That you you know what I'm saying, we
be so caught up on the past and on the future, we'll be bringing
so much anxiety to ourselves not understanding that. Nick, if you were just
focused on the present fucking moment you were, your mind is full with that.
Whatever is on your plate in the present, your mind is cool with
that. As soon as you said it, there boom, they're damn okay,
I'm in the next I'm into my next step. I'm here, Like
when the fuck did I even get here? Just paying attention to what you
needed to be paying attention to. You gotta have a mental strength and the
discipline to not let people get you off your square. Also, that's the
same approach that you have to take when you on the show The Circle on
Netflix and I'm about to apply for the third fucking time. They say third
times as the charm, they need to let that like, first of all,
I fucking love the Circle. I love the Circle, bro, that
is my shit. I'm applying to be on that bitch because I would win.
I would fucking win. I would win on the Circle. But that's
what I'm saying. So even like on there, you gotta have a mental
strength and a discipline to not let people get you. I feel square people
be on that bitch tripping. They always ask you know what approach you're gonna
take in the game. Are you gonna come in at ya so far?
Are you're gonna be a catfish? If I want on the circle, I
would be myself. I feel like, oh no, it do be catfish
is winning. But I feel like I feel like the niggas that are themselves
get very far. I'm trying to remember who won that was their self.
Look, don't get me the line right now. I can't think right now.
But and this is the thing, and this is the thing in life
too. I would go on as myself because why would I go in as
somebody else? It would just be easiest to be me. I know,
my you know what I'm saying. But that's the same thing in real life,
Like why do why do people want to be other people or pretend to
be something that they not when you could just be your fucking self. It's
so hard to keep up a facide, It's so hard to keep on a
mask. It's so hard. It's so hard to be something that you're not.
What do niggas do on the circle when they be playing somebody else?
Oh? Man, they're on to me. I'm not talking like a thirty
a twenty two year old girl when I'm really a fifty two year old man.
Because you're not being yourself, you don't know what to do. Nigga's
be like, Oh, that's a catfish this person. You know what I'm
saying. Oh, I'm a makeup artist. Okay, we do on the
challenge, do makeup on a motherfucking pumpkin and that shit come out looking like
this bitch ain't no makeup artist? Is this bitch a cat? Who are
you? You know what I'm saying? Like, niggas know when you ain't
you? So just be you. And that's the thing if you if you
can't accept yourself for who you are, then the world is definitely not going
to accept you. The world is definitely not going to accept you because you
can't even accept you. Why the fuck would somebody else accept you when you
don't even accept you. You're not even cool with the person that you are,
truly, truly, I don't want to walk through life not being able
to be myself. That's a lot of fucking work. That's a full time
fucking job to walk through life having to be somebody that you're not. That's
the baby. I don't even want to know what that day entails. I
don't want to. Nigga. Your son up to sun down is hell.
On top of the fact that you've got to live his fake life. You
gotta pretend to be something that you're not. You don't know what you're doing
for real. You're faking it till you make it, and you gotta live
that life though. So I'm faking it in this life, but I gotta
live it for real. And I don't even know. You could just be
yourself, my guy, You could just be yourself and your days would be
very, very free, very free flowing, very just chipper as fuck walking
through smiling. You know what I'm saying. Because you being you, you
love yourself. Other niggas is loving you. It's it's a fucking blast over
here. But I do understand people's approach on the circle and the purpose of
going in as a catfish, um, you know, because a lot of
people would be a lot of a lot of deeply rooted stories behind that shit
like, oh, I'm I'm a model, but I don't. I just
don't want people to just think I'm just a blind like I don't know anything.
You know what I'm saying, because you niggas be putting stigmas on you,
you know what I'm saying, Like, Damn, I can't be a
smartass bitch because I'm a model. I can't beat this because I'm you know
what I'm saying. Like, So that's the thing too, But I would
just much rather going to circle as myself. I love myself and that's the
only person that I know how to be, So you know, that's what
the fuck I'm rolling with. But m full circle in five minutes. Ain't
playing those games? Um So, yeah, a lot just came full circle
when I hear record on this bitch, And that's what's up. Like,
I feel good, I feel good. I feel me. I feel that
I feel it. Nigga it tag your it, period, pool tag me
tag me in. This might turn you feel me? Um man, Oh
my god, and just yes, listen to your intuition for real, like,
because if you don't listen, it's gonna be hell to pay. It's
gonna be hell to pay. Oh, if you don't listen to your intuition,
it's gonna be hell to pay. So save yourself now, nigga,
save yourself. You are trying to figure out, like, mmmm, should
I do it? Should I? Nigga's playing double dutch with that motherfucking future.
You playing double dutch with your future when your intuition already told you like
this is what it is. How what's up you playing double dutch with your
future and you got impeccable intuition. Baby girl, have a seat in the
back. Give it to us, thing, Give it to a nigga that's
gonna use it. Okay, man, stop playing with yourself. Stop playing
with yourself. Ah, I'm just but it's cool. It's cool growth,
you know what I'm saying. Okay, girl, if I see you,
I see me becoming a better person. But damn, maybe, like girl,
you don't even gotta do all of this, baby girl, we could
really be doing other things but you, but this school. You don't.
You want to go through the lessons. You want to do it. That's
on you. But you need that. Fuck what I need? Give me
what I want, you feel me, give me what I want. I'm
at the wants baby give a funk about what I need. It's like nah,
but um yeah, man, But life, life gonna teach you.
Okay. One thing life gonna do is teach you. Life is going to
teach you. Are you here for the test? Are you here for the
test? Okay? Did you come prepare? Did you bring a pencil?
Do you have your scantrone with you? Did you bring a calculator? Do
you have a highlighter? Okay? All right, have a seat right there,
third row, third desk. Do you feel me? Are you ready
for the test? Oh? The test be so hard. To test be
so fucking hard. The test be so fucking hard. The test be so
fucking hard, dude, they though, or do you just make it seem
hard? I don't know. I'm just but that's why you gotta be.
That's why you gotta be working on your physical every day, because nigga light,
I tell niggas this too. I'd be like, life is way harder
than both posts niggas, So you can, nigga, I'll be sitting in
that ship like man, and I'm about to start going harder on niggas.
But I'm about to start going harder on niggas. I'm about to start going
harder on niggas. And that's another thing that that pisses niggas off, but
in a good way. It motivates niggas. You know what I'm saying,
Like, fuck, I don't want you know what I'm saying. I don't
want to fall out. I don't want to get out when you you know,
and it's it's different when you know you can hold it. It's different
when you know you can hold it. It's different when you know you could
do it, but it's like, oh, I'm just too lazy to do
it, Like, no nigga do it, No nigga hold it. So
when you build that mental toughness in yoga, you build that mental toughness in
life. And that's what I'm saying, My life be beating my ass.
So that's why I need to do yoga every day, you know what I'm
saying. That's why I'll be working all by shit and I ain't gonna lie.
I need to. I feel like I haven't like taken no no classes
for real, like I do be doing yoga, but I don't, you
know, I gotta get back to my strength and in myself fury. I
need to get back to really practicing myself because look, damn slipping there and
Nigga slipping there. I do it every day. But you know, but
also I'll be looking at that as needing a break to or just to like
kind of chill out, you know, for a while, nigga, because
yo, body, you gotta get your time, your body, yo body,
time to rest. Don't be out here breaking niggas down, build them
up. Okay that too that part? Um. So yeah, man I
this was good, this is this was cool, This was needed. Um.
I definitely released some things here and yeah, so um I'll be back
with some things. Y'all know where y'all can find me if you ever,
if you ever need to know or or get an update on me and where
I'm at, hit me at Hill and my homies, and damn, it's
like, damn maybe y'all niggas should check in. And Nigga was gone for
a month and just damn didn't even hear from niggas. Didn't even hear from
niggas. But yeah, y'all know where to find me, hilling my homies
and y'all know where to find me in the streets. Yeah, So that's
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