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Just for the record with me,
Angelina, thanks so much for being here

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listening to me go on and on
about whatever, whatever, all the things

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I care about. So I really
do appreciate you. If you haven't already,

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on that Angelina on air. In
this week's episode, and for the culture,

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Britney Spears and her husband Sam have
a split and our heading for divorce

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and Let's talk TV. I got
to see an early screening of the movie

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Grants Rismo, based on a true
story, and in Bitch, I had

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to say good by to my dog
of fifteen years, literally crying the whole

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time. So by all means,
let's get to it. This is for

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the culture, for the culture,
for la coltura. This is where I

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pick a headline and ask if they, she or he did it. For

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the culture, Britney Spears and her
husband Sam have splits and are heading for

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divorce. So TMZ, of course
is the one that broke this story.

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And anytime TMZ breaks a story,
you really just need a step back and

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ask yourself what is the motive here? When I was reading this article originally

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messy as TMZ reported that they had
a huge screaming fight over Britney allegedly cheating

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on him. Oh my side,
I was side I E. Because you

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know you immediately when you hear that, you think about how back in eight

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hundred BC, when Britney Spears cheated
on Justin Timberlake and come what two thousand

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AC Justin Timberlake continued to sing about
it and painted himself as the victim and

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played a huge han in ruining Britney
Spears's career. And honestly, he may

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need to thank her for cheating on
him, Honestly, like, after all

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the years has passed that the herd
is gone, he should send her a

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thank you card. Like if you
don't like Justin Timberlake, you love crimea

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River, that song fucking slapped how
long he dragged that out and all the

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songs he's made about her. M
M, I love future sex Love Sounds,

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but everything before that, songs about
Britney single handedly made that man's career.

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So I already I don't like how
they're twisting this and like putting you.

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I just feel like TMC is constantly
trying to paint Britney Spears to be

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this truly insane crazy person Demoy.
Later after that story, Brogue posted on

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their Instagram in case it wasn't already
abundantly clear the spin on TMZ, this

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is like a text message. I
don't know if someone's looking this to them.

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It's a Dumoy exclusive, it says, in case it wasn't already abundantly

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clear. The spin on TMZ about
the brit split is total bullshit. No

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one cheated and this is all about
reallocating assets to prepare for her lifelong care.

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Keeping Sam on the payroll doesn't make
sense given that Britney no longer can

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stand him because he's largely stopped pretending
to give two ships about her. The

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lifelong care part sounds so sinister.
The comments on this post I hate,

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like, I just feel so bad
for Brittany, Like I hate every angle

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of the story and like what this
is blowing up to be someone that commented

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under I don't think she has the
ability to cheat at the moment, for

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those asking about her life on care, the healthcare for her mental health slash

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illness, She's not mentally stable to
cheat. I know men that have actual

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dust balls rolling in their brain,
Like if you took one look into some

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of these men's brain that I know
it's straight up tumbleweeds rolling in that bitch.

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Okay, crickets, and these men
are fully capable of cheating. I

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know, the dumbest of the dumb
that can absolutely steal cheat. So shut

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the hell up with that. I
hate those comments so much. Another thing

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is like, I don't know,
Sam could be this huge asshole. I

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feel like there was a time when
he was constantly sticking up for her and

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you know, was huge on the
big Free Britney moment. Was he using

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her to hopefully get his career pop
in and maybe it never worked out,

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And now he's trying to get money
because I think if you do get a

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divorce and like it's for infidelity,
that person gets more money or something like

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that. So I really hope that
isn't the case, but it can very

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much well be. I don't know
what the situation is, and I'm sure

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Britney spears. I know there's all
those conspiracy theories about her not being a

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real person on Instagram and like it
being AI, But for the most part,

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Britney is pretty vocal and open with
her fans and her platform, so

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I'm sure she is getting ready to
clear shiit up, but yeah, I

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don't know what it is. I
don't want to point fingers or make any

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assumptions. I do think it's incredibly
sad because, you know, during this

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whole thing, Britney Spears had no
really human contact at all with anyone,

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thinks to her family, having her
closed off from everyone, and all she

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really had with Sam, So it's
like, who could she even turn to

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now, you know what I mean, Like that's literally the only person that

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was like in her life. So
I really hope he didn't screw up,

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you know, screw her in like
some malicious, like terrible evil way.

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And I really hope Britney Spears is
okay at the end of all this and

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truly free. You know. I
know there's still a lot of people out

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there that see her videos of her
dancing and just being super cringey. Can

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I just say I can aim like
up top of the dome right now,

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top of the dome. Five bitches
I went to high school with that are

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ten times more cringer than Britney Spears. Like, they have a crazy conspiracy

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theories on their Twitter and Instagram accounts, and they talk to social media every

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day speaking straight nonsense. They repost
the dumbest shit. They are absolutely just

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the cringiest of the cringe, and
no one is watching their bank accounts.

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They still have access to their money. They are allowed to talk to whoever

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the fun they want to talk to. Just because someone is cringe and makes

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you uncomfortable. I get she used
to be the biggest pop star ever.

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Trust me, I know when I
was a child, if you saw my

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bedroom wall, like you couldn't see
it because it was covered with all Britney

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spears posters. So like I had
all the DVDs, I had all the

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CDs, big Britney fans, so
I get to see like watch old music

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videos and how young and beat full
and I guess, you know whatever they

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painted her to be in the media. And then seeing these cringe posts that

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make you uncomfortable. Okay, maybe
you think she's weird or whatever, but

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that you could be cringe. But
can a bitch be free? You could

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be a cringe, but you could
be free. Okay, I'm sorry.

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It's not illegal to be cringe,
or to be crazy for that matter.

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It's not. So with that being
said, we're gonna have to see how

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this unravels. I want to believe
Sam is not going to fuck her over

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the way I think or the way
i'm that I got a feeling in the

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back of my head or you know
what's being portrayed on social media and like

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these accusations. I really hope it
doesn't get to that, but you know

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what, if it does, maybe
the silver lining, Well, first of

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all, Karma is real. Karma
is real. She is a bitch,

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and she will do what needs to
be done, and maybe this will be

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like the last thing that like truly
free Brittany from everything that was happening during

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that conservatorship and that had her down. But again, everything is still coming

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out, so I'm sure next week
we'll be talking more about this split.

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But at the end of the day, I hope Bernie's okay and Karma she

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is a patient bitch. Less talk
TV. So I got to recently go

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to in early screening of the movie
Grants Worst Moo, based on a true

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story. The true story is literally
crazy. It's about like this kid,

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Johan Martinborough, who was obsessed with
the Grants Worst Moother video game, played

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it NonStop and then Nissan basically had
this GT Academy where they took some of

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the best grants WORSTMO drivers, put
them in real cars and competed to see

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who was the best, and then
the best went on to race in actual

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competitions. So Jan Wadinborough I think
he was like one of the most successful

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wins. Because this academy was going
on for a couple of years. I

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was not familiar with the actual story. Like, after I watched the movie,

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I was doing like a bunch of
research. I was like, hold

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up, this is a real thing. I guess when I first was told

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about the movie, it seemed very
much like this is a video gamer who

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became a real racer. So I
didn't really know what to take from that.

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But I didn't know there was like
an actual academy from Nissan. They

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had this competition where they did that
and people had to go through like steps

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to become like the top five and
then and then whoever won that was trained

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to be a realized racer. So
the story is really phenomenal, Like that's

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some crazy shit. The movie.
I thought it was pretty good. I

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have mixed feelings. Honestly, I
will say a lot of the CGI was

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really good, and there's like really
dope scenes where you know he's doing real

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life shit, like whether he's playing
a video game or I'm don't want to

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give a spoiler, but there's a
scene where he's like running from the cops

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or whatever, and then it turned
into like a video game like the shit

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he's dealing with in real life.
It like the graphics turn into as if

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he's playing Grands Rismo. So all
the cgi was actually pretty amazing. The

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acting was a little iffy, except
for David Harbor. He's in the movie

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you know, Bruh from Stranger Things, and he plays kind of like the

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mean guy that doesn't believe in him
but ends up being his mentor and it's

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like, you know, really hard
on him, and like obviously they end

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up having like a really sweet relationship. I think he played that perfect and

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David Harvard was really good, But
the rest acting is a little iffy,

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and I thought I thought the beginning
was a little rushed. It was very

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much like, yeah, doesn't believe
in my dreams. I want to become

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a race car driver. Like I
just feel like if they spent more time

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with his dream to do that,
or his relationship with his parents, I

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don't know, I just I really
feel like the whole beginning was really rushed,

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so it was hard to be connected
with some of the main characters and

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like his dream to become a racer. But I did think the CGI was

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pretty dope, and I thought the
story in general was a really amazing story.

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I will say later when I googled
some stuff, not that I think

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it's more of like based on actual
events versus based on a true story,

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you know what I mean, Like, you know, when it shows him

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winning, maybe that wasn't the year
that he actually won, but he did

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end up winning one of the competence
as Honestly, I got to do more

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research. I think I read this
huge article like right after the movie and

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then carried on living my life.
But I'm sure a lot of scenes were

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dramatized. But if you are a
big fan of like race car driving,

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I think those scenes, like the
racing scenes and all the stuff I gotta

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do with cars was giving top gun, you know, instead of planes,

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it was cars. So I think
if you are into that, you would

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really enjoy it. But I will
say some of the acting, some of

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the acting was really effy, and
I don't know if I was in love

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with how fast the storyline was going, so maybe that kind of threw it

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off for me. Oh and the
product placement was a little od So if

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you were a huge fan of the
grants were small movie, though, I

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say definitely go see it. Let
me know what you think, Okay on

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my Twitter Instagram, adds Angelina on
air again, I think the story is

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incredible. How much of it is
actually true, you know, maybe debatable,

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but the fact that this is even
semi or real story is kind of

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crazy. See, like they really
took a video gamer and turned him into

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a real racer and he like won
that whole twenty four hour race that they

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do. Like that's kind of insane. So you let me know what you

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think. Grant Rismo based on a
true story. It's exclusively in movie theaters

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August at twenty fifth. I said, bitch, if you wanted to go

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to Taylor's, just tell her brother
you want to go to tailors? Man?

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You said that? Oh hell yeah, man, I laid it out

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right, I says, I says, I say, I said, bitch,

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bitch. It has been a week
for sure, I'm not gonna lie.

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I spent the past two days crying
my little eyes out me and my

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family. We had to put my
dog, my Chula Minuda. Her name

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is Chula, I just call her. That was my dog for the past

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fifteen years. We had to put
her down. She was just getting old

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and it was about that time.
But let rewind a little bit because Alside

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Lands weekend right was coming up.
So like the Thursday Friday leading up to

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Alside Lands. Alsa Lands was Friday, the past Friday. So I think

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we're on Wednesday, Thursday. Honestly, the whole week before, I've been

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visiting my parents and they'll mention how
you know, Chula's getting old, and

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like just little little hints of like
this possibly might need to happen soon.

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But like the moment they ever bring
it up, I'm always like, shut

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up, don't talk like that,
or like don't I don't want to hear

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that, Like no, she's gonna
live forever. Like I just shut the

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conversation down immediately because it's not a
conversation I'm ready to have ever. And

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I think Alsa Lands that Friday,
and I think my mom had text me.

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My mom texts me that day on
Friday. I think the day before

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we kind of had a conversation,
but I kind of blacked out didn't want

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to hear about it. Friday,
my mom texts me, Hey, our

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vet recommended a doctor that's gonna come
by, and you know they're gonna put

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Chula down like that. We're gonna
have them do a full evaluation of course

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first, And I think my mom's
saying was basically like, if they say

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that she has a year or even
more to live, than we are not

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going through with it. But if
she only has a few months, then

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we're gonna have to go through with
it. And mind you, I have

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like so much work this week,
so even then, I'm just like,

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this is just like the most heartbreaking
news to me, Like Chula is up,

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my baby. Guys. I literally
picked out Chulah when we went to

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go get a dog, like I
was like, I want this dog,

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Like I picked out Chula. And
we have two dogs. We have Chula

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and Bella. Bella's like a lot
younger than Chula, and Chula has lived

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I mean, Bella has lived a
good life. Bella is sheltered. You

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know. When me and my family
were doing really good, like they got

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a new house, this nice house, and heyward, like Bella has lived

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a good life, but chula is
truly our right or die, Like we've

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been through some shit together. I
think maybe a couple of years before I

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had I had picked you out.
I think a year or two later,

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myne and a half passed away and
that was like a really our time for

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my family, and we had got
like evicted from the apartments that we had

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lived in, and those apartments I
grew up my whole life living on four

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Cellis in South Hayward since I was
born, like I was born to say

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Rose Hospital in Hayward, and we
always lived at those town apartments. So

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it was like myight not had passed
away, we end up having to leave

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the apartments I grew up living in. It was that whole time was just

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like really were for me, and
I was transitioning. I think I was

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about to enter high school, so
like I'm changing as a person with hormones

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and shit. It was like the
best and worst time of my life,

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like looking back or remembrain because high
school was fun for me, like I

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you know, found like my group
of people I was like solidified with,

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like who my friends were. It
was just like a mixture of good and

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bad times. Okay, life was
put in hands on me, but I

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also had like a good life as
well. But there was a lot of

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stuff that we went through, and
I feel like my dog was there for

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me the whole time, you know
what I mean, Like Sheila was there

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for me when might not have passed
away. She was like truly a companion

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animal, you know, when we're
going through moving just a whole bunch of

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stuff. And then even like fast
forward, you know when when my dad

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passed away and I was still living
at my parents, just Chula has been

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through some shit with me and my
family versus you know, Bella. Bella

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has lived a good life. So
like I truly feel like she's our ride

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or die. So this was kind
of the back of my head and it

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was just like I feel like I
wasn't facing what was gonna happen. But

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I could tell like my vibe being
off the first day at Outside Lance,

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not that I was a feeling it, but I remember going in like a

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little late. I was angry.
I remember like the digital team telling me

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like what I needed to do,
and I remember just like being so annoyed,

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Like I just was annoyed, and
I probably was a vibe Killer,

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and I think it's because that was
like in the back of my head,

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right, and this Saturday comes and
I'm like, yo, I gotta see

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the Food Fighters. Oh and mind
you, I remember I told you guys

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that I like was deciding if I
go to Vegas or not because me and

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my cousin's bod tickets to the preseason
game for the Raiders and Niners. Do

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I regret not going? I mean
a lot on my Instagram story everyone was

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out there. So my whole thing
was do I leave early enough on Saturday

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so I could get there on time
for the game on Sunday, But I

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don't want to miss a Food Fighters
because they're headlining. Eventually, as dates

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got closer, more and more bills
came to and my joy still didn't have

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my flight, And basically what it
came down to, I had one.

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All my friends were like, do
it live short, catch a red eye,

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see the Food Fighters, catch a
red eye, go to Vegas Sunday,

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live your best life, come back
Monday. What Literally one person was

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like, what is your gut saying? And they were very much like,

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it's just preseason girl, Like this
is kind of doing a lot. And

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I looked at my bank account on
like this is doing a lot, Like

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do I really want to cash out
three to four hundred dollars on a round

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trip flight? Like I have my
car? No do? I had another

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like super big billdo like broke?
Your girl is broke, Jaden broke.

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So I listened to this one friend
that told me good advice, and I

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was like, you know what,
this is doing a lot. I told

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my cousin because she already asked me, I think someone else had bailed too,

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And she had asked me, do
you know anyone that wants to go

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that is willing to buy a ticket? And I was like, hey,

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can you also sell my ticket?
I don't think I'm a beable make and

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she was super cool about it.
They end up selling it, they end

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up going. So and I will
say Saturday, I enjoyed myself. Friday.

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I was in a bad mood because
you know that all that stuff was

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in the back of my head and
I was angry and just irritated. Saturday

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comes around, I'm in a better
mood. It's a lot more chill.

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I'm getting the content I need to
get for the station, and I see

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the food fighters and Dave Girl was
absolutely amazing. Michael Boublay came out.

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I had to do an artist interview
with Conan Gray, which was super quick,

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but we we're waiting forever for like
the artist people to come, and

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when they did finally come, they're
like, here, put this on,

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hurry, and we were just grabbing
it in this credier. I was like,

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yo, can you I need to
see you put it on? And

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it was like the bison pass,
bitch. Little did I know the bison

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pass gets you like almost everywhere,
Like it gets you into VIP, it

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gets you into the artists backstage,
so we had like tried it. I

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could have snuck into Dave Girl's trailers. All I'm saying. There was a

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part where like it was like main
stage access, like where you'd be right

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down the stage, and I saw
this girl go through. That is the

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one area the bison passed in that. But then I found out there's like

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tears to the bison passed because ours
was yellow. But I saw some people

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that have like a orange one and
a purple one, so the yellow bison

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was probably like clean up crew,
Like okay, you sending something up in

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the back or maybe you're getting them
water or you're doing your little artist interviews,

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but the purples and oranges, those
are like I'm Dave Girl's daughter or

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some shay. You know. It
was pretty cool, but we're back there,

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like they were already on stage.
It was just kind of cool to

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be like, oh, we snack
back here, maybe we could try this

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again. But was what was is
being able to go to VIP because VIP

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got the clean bathrooms and they have
better food and there's like a courtyard for

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the VIP area and they had like
lobster rolls and clam chatter bowls. Kaya

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was back there. That's like my
favorite roof top bar in San Francisco that

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was there. By the time I
got there, it was all sold out.

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Sweet July was there, So the
Corey the VIP pass. Being able

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to go into VIP was dope.
But yeah, we were on the side,

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kind of on the side stage where
we were able to see the food

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fighters. They killed it. I
do not regret my decision to stay there.

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Sunday comes up. Oh so Saturday's
done. Heading back. It is

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my cousin's good friend's birthday. We're
all good friends. So I go over

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there and I hang out with them. I love all of them like brothers,

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and we are getting hurt. I
ended up having to get driven home

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because I was too litty. We
like literally were up till four in the

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morning drinking and talking. It was
insane. So Sunday comes and I feel

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like I woke up still drunk,
you guys, and I at first,

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I just woke up drunk, like
okay, I need to hurry up and

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start getting ready because I woke up
super late, like at noon, and

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it was one of my co worker's
birthdays and I read to like get here

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at the station early. So week
a pregame just before outside Lands because one

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of my co workers was also one
of the only three people that were was

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setting to get content and work outside
Lands. That was not happening obviously.

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Well, at first I thought it
was. You know, I woke up

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like new, and I'm like,
okay, if I just hung up and

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get ready make it to the station. I'm looking at the schedule. There's

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like this at three pm, there's
a Reggae throwne party, and I'm like,

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oh, we're making it to the
Reggae thrown party. I think I

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even like text my friend Angel Lake, like oh, look at we all

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to this and she's like, yes, girl, where are you? And

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I was like, okay, I'm
about to get ready, and I literally

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tell her like I'm heading to my
parents because that's my thing, Like okay,

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I'm a gonna go put my makeup
on for me and I'm gonna do

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everything fast boom. But the moment
I get in my car, you guys,

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I'm feeling the hangover is hitt and
I'm like, I need to pull

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over and yak, I'm not well. I need a vitamin water, a

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yellow energy vitamin water. Stats.
I'm struggling. I'm on the struggle bus

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and I'm literally like, am I
even gonna go to alside Lance? As

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I'm driving, I was gonna make
it. I had to turn around.

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I'm like, I'm going back in
bed real quick. I call my cousin

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Chris because he oh, so I'm
the I don't know if it was the

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last episode, like two episodes ago
when Chris was on. Remember, I

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was like, I'm gonna go to
Vegas. So that day that I go

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to Vegas on Sunday, I'm just
gonna give you my alside Lance pass and

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you could go. Obviously, I
text Chris with the bed and he's like,

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hey, Vegas is not happening.
I'll let you know if I could

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pull some strings or whatever, but
most likely is bad. Sorry, but

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I'll keep you posted, you know, like you never know what's gonna happen.

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So I'm calling him because now at
this point, he's like that sucks,

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but I'm actually down to like buy
an Alside Lance pass and meet you

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on Sunday. Still, so I'm
talking to him, like, bitch,

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I'm so hung over, Like I'm
thinking in the back of my head,

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I'm like I might literally skip out
of Aulside Lance and be like, Chris,

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you know what, here's my pass. You could go. Chris is

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also hungover, and he's talking about
how like he is dying and he's at

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work. But we're both kind of
like should we go? Should we go?

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Should we go? I don't know
what takes over me, Like I

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think I think I adored ash my
energy vitamin water down that and I kind

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of have a little bit of life
in me. And I'm like, Chris,

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if you're down to go, I'm
down to go. He's like,

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Okay, well, my friend said
he'll sell me his for one hundred and

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fifty call me back, call me
back, because he's like taking breaks.

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He's literally out work, so he
keeps like going to the break room to

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call me, and we keep like
contemplating if we're gonna do this and man

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up and go to Outside Lands last
day, and then I'm like looking at

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my wrist and I'm like, wait, I have this fucking Bison Pass.

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Obviously, I don't know what this
pass does, but I know it got

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me into VIP, it got me
everywhere. Like I'm sure I could get

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in with the Bison Pass. If
it's led to me everywhere else, why

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don't I take off my media pass
because it's still loose, because I planned

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on giving it to Chris Sunday anyway, and give him the media pass and

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me the Bison Pass, and we
both are able to go to Outside Lands.

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So in mind you, I finally
think this, even though we've done

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haved like five phone carvers pais because
I'm so hungover in brain dead, but

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now I kind of got a little
bit of a brain thanks to the yellow

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energy vitamin water, and I'm like, wait a minute. I literally text

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him, don't buy like texting like
a caveman, like call me don't buy.

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I call him, I'm like,
yo, I forgot to tell you

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this, but I have this bison
pass and I tell him the whole story

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about how I had to interviewed someone
and they gave it to me. Found

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out it gets everywhere, do you
think? He and he's like, what

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the hell's the bison passed? Like
show me what does it look like?

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And I literally text some picture of
my wrist and he's like, bitch,

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we out, let's do this.
So now I have this like burst of

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energy. I'm like, I'm gonna
get ready, you guys. I look

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like trash. My makeup is still
on from last night and it's like crusty

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because I slept in it, and
I'm still like still semi drunk from last

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night. I still feel like it's
like the blurred line of like bout to

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enter hangover era, but still filling
the alcohol a little bit. I put

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the bummiest outfit on, Like I
have my cute little cargo pants, but

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I just on like this white tank
top that definitely has a stain on it,

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my my little Oakland ruse jacket to
cover up the stain. I put

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on sunglasses, said I don't have
time to do my hair. I put

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it in a like a little low
bud. I'm a hot mess. I

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brush my teeth and I think I
don't even think. I took off my

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makeup like I was like, yo, we're just gonna touch this up.

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In the car, I go to
Nidos where Chris is working. The host

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is like, can I help you? And I look at Chris and I'm

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like I see him. He's talking
to tables and I'm like, wrap it

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up. I'm like, throw my
hands on it. I said, wrap

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it up, close out your tables. And the guy at the host is

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like cracking up. I'm like,
I'm here for Chris, and he was

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like all good. Like if you
want to go to the bar, you

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go to the bar. And when
you got the bar for Chris, I

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get a meet you, Lada.
Chris orders me some rice and beans.

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He wraps up his tables. I
got that, like the rice and beans?

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Did me right? Then? MEETI
did me right. I took Chris.

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I'm like, you're driving my car, let's go. And I we

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have so much energy, like all
of a sudden, we have this flip

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and we're so excited. I have
thought shit, I repeat, I have

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a whole Megan the Stallion playlists.
We're like ready for Outside Lands. We're

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driving straight there. I was like, because usually we would drive to the

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station park and like maybe call a
lift or something, which honestly probably would

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have been smarter anyway, but in
our heads it's like four pm at this

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point. Megan goes on at six, We're like, we just need to

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get there, so we're smashing too. Outside Lands. Oh wait, I

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need to tell you guys a story
real quick before I get there. My

408
00:26:23.279 --> 00:26:27.960
dumbass on Friday or was it Saturday, one of the days. I think

409
00:26:29.000 --> 00:26:30.200
it was Friday. It was the
first day. Yeah, it was a

410
00:26:30.200 --> 00:26:34.640
Friday, first day, my ass
because my co workers left before me because

411
00:26:34.680 --> 00:26:37.319
we I didn't meet with them in
time because I got there a little late.

412
00:26:38.599 --> 00:26:41.480
I literally call I park at the
station. I just called a lift

413
00:26:41.640 --> 00:26:48.799
to a fucking what was the park
called to Golden Gay Park. I didn't

414
00:26:48.839 --> 00:26:52.839
look on you know, Outside Lands, you know the info, because I'm

415
00:26:52.839 --> 00:26:55.240
sure there's like a street where you
need to get dropped off. Specifically,

416
00:26:55.519 --> 00:27:00.240
I literally just put on my lift
Golden Gay Park and it drops me off,

417
00:27:00.319 --> 00:27:04.160
and I didn't realize how big that
park is like, am am,

418
00:27:04.160 --> 00:27:07.680
I even from the Bay Area.
I'm such an East Bay girly. I'm

419
00:27:07.720 --> 00:27:11.799
thinking, like whatever, I'm sure
I'll just hear music and walk towards it.

420
00:27:11.839 --> 00:27:15.200
You guys, I'm like, I
don't see no music. It's actually

421
00:27:15.240 --> 00:27:19.640
really quiet, and I'm in the
area. If you're familiar, like it's

422
00:27:21.279 --> 00:27:23.480
it's like an open road, but
everyone's just walking. You see people skateboarding.

423
00:27:23.839 --> 00:27:27.079
There's like little footprints. I ask
one guy, I'm like, do

424
00:27:27.119 --> 00:27:30.519
you know how far I am from
the festival, And he's like he's telling

425
00:27:30.519 --> 00:27:33.319
me, like, okay, just
keep going straight, you're gonna hit the

426
00:27:33.400 --> 00:27:36.920
leg. Go. Another guy passes
jogget He's like two miles. You're two

427
00:27:36.920 --> 00:27:40.640
miles away. I'm like, fuck
my life. And then the other guy

428
00:27:40.680 --> 00:27:42.039
that's giving me advice, he's like, yeah, you know, it's a

429
00:27:42.039 --> 00:27:45.880
beautiful walk. You should just walk
it. Don't even bother call in an

430
00:27:45.960 --> 00:27:49.039
uber because like cars aren't even allowed
over here, because I'm my job like

431
00:27:49.079 --> 00:27:52.440
already started walking. Oh my god, damn it. So I walked like

432
00:27:52.480 --> 00:27:56.000
a whole two as miles. Finally, when I get towards the end,

433
00:27:56.039 --> 00:27:57.960
there was a shuttle that came and
it was like one stop. So I

434
00:27:57.960 --> 00:28:02.480
basically walked that whole thing. That's
why I was so angry and annoyed when

435
00:28:02.519 --> 00:28:04.599
I finally got there. But anyways, fast forward at Sunday, me and

436
00:28:04.680 --> 00:28:07.799
Chris, They're like, let's just
get there. We are like so excited.

437
00:28:07.799 --> 00:28:11.480
We got the playlist. I remember
this one car pulled up to us

438
00:28:11.519 --> 00:28:14.000
at a red light and they were
like also jamming to their playlists. So

439
00:28:14.000 --> 00:28:15.720
we just had a little moment.
I was like, Oh, I love

440
00:28:15.759 --> 00:28:18.200
the Bay Area. We park,
we cannot find any parking. We parking

441
00:28:18.279 --> 00:28:23.359
at tim Buck two and like the
houses, walk probably another two miles to

442
00:28:23.400 --> 00:28:26.519
get to the festival, like I
did on Friday. We get there and

443
00:28:26.559 --> 00:28:30.680
I feel like my hangover starting to
hit once again, like that that energy

444
00:28:30.720 --> 00:28:33.759
that I had was kind of dying. Me and Chris go to the media

445
00:28:33.799 --> 00:28:37.279
tent. That is the best part
about having a media pass at Outside Lands

446
00:28:37.279 --> 00:28:41.880
because the media tent there is free
beer. Baby that's it's Heineken, but

447
00:28:41.880 --> 00:28:44.240
you know what, free bear,
what are you gonna do? And it's

448
00:28:44.319 --> 00:28:47.880
right by the land Ends stage,
So whoever that headliner is, you get

449
00:28:47.880 --> 00:28:49.039
to watch it from the media tent. So like Friday, I got to

450
00:28:49.039 --> 00:28:52.599
see Janelle Monet from the media tent, and I mean I could have saw

451
00:28:52.680 --> 00:28:57.359
Megan and whoever else, so that
was cool. But by the time Megan

452
00:28:57.440 --> 00:29:03.759
started, I literally was downing liquid
death like crazy because that was also the

453
00:29:03.759 --> 00:29:06.559
free water they had at the media
tent. And there's parts where I was

454
00:29:06.599 --> 00:29:07.920
like, oh, I feel a
little dizzy, like it's hidden. It's

455
00:29:07.960 --> 00:29:12.279
hidden, but I'm trying to join
her set. I'm not gonna lie.

456
00:29:12.319 --> 00:29:18.519
I love me some Megan. I
don't think it was the greatest performance.

457
00:29:18.680 --> 00:29:21.599
She looks amazing. She had this
red fit on. I know she was

458
00:29:21.640 --> 00:29:23.000
complaining because it was like coming apart
and she was like, oh, someone

459
00:29:23.000 --> 00:29:29.359
from wardrobe was in trouble. But
I feel like she didn't rap a lot

460
00:29:29.400 --> 00:29:32.720
of the songs, like even one
of the clips I posted on my Instagram

461
00:29:32.759 --> 00:29:37.640
story. I'm like, I always
come to sing along. I'm gonna sing

462
00:29:37.640 --> 00:29:40.000
every word every song. I got
a no word for word at any concert

463
00:29:40.039 --> 00:29:41.559
I go to you, But I
did not come to see me perform,

464
00:29:41.640 --> 00:29:45.319
like I'm gonna need you to also
be rapping. So I mean the torking

465
00:29:45.480 --> 00:29:49.119
was she was torking for sure,
but she wasn't. She was a lot

466
00:29:49.119 --> 00:29:52.640
of the songs she wasn't rapping to
the point where it was like very evident.

467
00:29:53.480 --> 00:29:56.599
So I was kind of annoyed with
that. And she didn't play thought

468
00:29:56.640 --> 00:29:59.720
shit, Like there was two three
songs that I didn't know, and I

469
00:29:59.720 --> 00:30:03.039
feel like she could have swapped it
out with that, Like I literally had

470
00:30:03.079 --> 00:30:06.720
thought shit on repeat driving to Outside
Lance. I was so bummed that she

471
00:30:06.720 --> 00:30:10.960
didn't do that. And also when
she ended, I forgot what song it

472
00:30:11.039 --> 00:30:14.160
was, but she literally just walked
off the stage like didn't say goodbye,

473
00:30:14.240 --> 00:30:17.559
walked off mid song, like the
record is still playing and she's not there,

474
00:30:17.759 --> 00:30:19.480
And that was kind of like,
Okay, it's a wrap, And

475
00:30:19.599 --> 00:30:22.799
someone next to us told us like, oh yeah, she did this at

476
00:30:22.880 --> 00:30:26.880
Pride LA or something. Also like
literally just walked off the stage while the

477
00:30:26.920 --> 00:30:30.960
records playing, like no goodbye.
Nothing. One thing I did like though,

478
00:30:32.000 --> 00:30:33.519
I love that she played Big Goldfree
because that's my favorite Megan the Stallion

479
00:30:33.599 --> 00:30:37.680
song. And I do like that
she did the Savage remix and like did

480
00:30:37.680 --> 00:30:42.000
Beyonce's verse, I'm I did not
like Savage when it dropped, but the

481
00:30:42.000 --> 00:30:45.279
remix I remember, like I remember
when it dropped. I remember I was

482
00:30:45.279 --> 00:30:48.480
in my room. This is when
I lived with my parents. I remember

483
00:30:48.480 --> 00:30:49.519
popping out of bed like I was
gonna sleep in, but I was like,

484
00:30:51.400 --> 00:30:52.920
because Beyonce wasn't feeding us, you
know, she didn't give us anything.

485
00:30:52.920 --> 00:30:57.680
This is obviously way before Renaissance no
album, so like goes like Beyonce

486
00:30:59.240 --> 00:31:02.359
and it was shipped talking Beyonce.
I said this before I'll say it again.

487
00:31:02.599 --> 00:31:06.880
Shit talking Beyonce is my favorite Beyonce. So I remember like literally like

488
00:31:07.000 --> 00:31:08.079
that pop up. You know when
you're like laying down, you just like

489
00:31:08.680 --> 00:31:11.559
hop on your knees, hop on
your legs right away. That's what I

490
00:31:11.599 --> 00:31:15.319
did when I saw this came out. I saw I'm a big stand of

491
00:31:15.359 --> 00:31:18.880
the Beyonce Savage remix. Chris actually
loves the original, so I know he

492
00:31:18.920 --> 00:31:21.440
was kind of I'm like, oh, is this version? He didn't hate

493
00:31:21.440 --> 00:31:23.160
it. We'll let him talk about
it next week if if he pulls up.

494
00:31:23.240 --> 00:31:27.720
But I was I was thrilled for
that. I was like, Okay,

495
00:31:27.759 --> 00:31:32.519
I respect that, Doug. We're
gonna do Beyonce's verse and she wasn't

496
00:31:32.559 --> 00:31:34.400
like skipping any Beyonce's versus either,
So I thought that was really cool because

497
00:31:34.440 --> 00:31:40.319
does the Queen Bee but overall,
I feel like her performance was mid and

498
00:31:40.359 --> 00:31:44.079
I was a little disappointed. I
hate to say that, but she was

499
00:31:44.119 --> 00:31:47.119
beautiful and I'm glad that. I'm
glad that she did a couple of Tina

500
00:31:47.160 --> 00:31:49.440
Snow joints because I think I'm a
bigger a Tina Snow a Megan fan.

501
00:31:52.039 --> 00:31:56.519
But yeah, So after that,
me and Chris are after Megan's we're kind

502
00:31:56.519 --> 00:32:00.960
of done. Like I think we're
like full on hungover. We're so tired.

503
00:32:00.680 --> 00:32:05.839
I'm like, yo, you want
to go get some fun and leave

504
00:32:05.920 --> 00:32:08.240
now? Run into my co workers. Tell them aboutfully. They're like,

505
00:32:08.279 --> 00:32:12.799
you're leaving. I'm like, yeah, I got enough content. I'm about

506
00:32:12.960 --> 00:32:17.240
here. We go. I'm trying
to see what fus spots are open,

507
00:32:17.279 --> 00:32:20.440
and Chris lives in Alameda, so
I'm trying to, you know, look

508
00:32:20.480 --> 00:32:22.480
for something. We're on the East
Bay side. We go to the spot

509
00:32:22.480 --> 00:32:24.880
in Alameda. Me and Chris took
separate cards. I dropped him off to

510
00:32:24.920 --> 00:32:27.960
go pick up his car at his
job, and then we're going to meet

511
00:32:28.039 --> 00:32:32.400
up the spot in Alameda. I
see Chris where he's sitting. I'm sure

512
00:32:32.400 --> 00:32:36.000
he's cracking up on my reaction because
I walk in and I'm like, what

513
00:32:36.160 --> 00:32:40.279
the fuck you guys? This place
was like a rave. It wasn't packed

514
00:32:40.279 --> 00:32:45.839
like a rave, but the music
is blasting, it's so there's so much,

515
00:32:45.839 --> 00:32:49.119
it's so spacious, it's so open, like there's tables where people could

516
00:32:49.119 --> 00:32:50.960
sit. But it looks like,
I don't know if you guys been to

517
00:32:51.039 --> 00:32:53.599
that one pizza spot in downtown Hayward
that like tries to be an after It's

518
00:32:53.640 --> 00:32:55.680
not after our spot, but it
looks like it needs to be. It

519
00:32:55.680 --> 00:33:00.559
looks like something's happening that they're not
announcing, like it's an after hour spot,

520
00:33:00.559 --> 00:33:04.880
but only the cool people know that
it is. It's giving that vibe

521
00:33:05.480 --> 00:33:07.119
because you know the pizza spotting downs
on hereward. It has all that space,

522
00:33:07.160 --> 00:33:09.440
and it's like, what the hell
is this for? Is it supposed

523
00:33:09.440 --> 00:33:14.119
to be a dance floor? Like
are you gonna put something here? That

524
00:33:14.240 --> 00:33:16.880
was the vibe of this place.
But what made it worse Not only was

525
00:33:16.880 --> 00:33:20.920
there a blasting music in the front, there was a whole separate party,

526
00:33:20.960 --> 00:33:25.079
like maybe someone rented it out in
the backside so you can hear both like

527
00:33:25.519 --> 00:33:30.359
music, both both of the speakers
from whatever music they're playing in the back

528
00:33:30.359 --> 00:33:32.480
and the one that's blaring in the
front. And also the seats were so

529
00:33:32.559 --> 00:33:37.039
uncomfortable, you just like sank right
into him. So me and Chris are

530
00:33:37.079 --> 00:33:38.319
both looking at each other because he's
already looking like bitch, I know,

531
00:33:38.640 --> 00:33:44.680
this is crazy, this is insane. I'm so tired. I just wanted

532
00:33:44.759 --> 00:33:49.359
to, like some thought to soothe
my soul and make me warm and then

533
00:33:49.359 --> 00:33:52.799
after I take my fun or eat
my fuck head home, go to bed.

534
00:33:52.319 --> 00:33:54.720
This is not the vibe. The
music is giving me a headache.

535
00:33:54.720 --> 00:33:58.119
I'm like, let's go. He's
like, I'm so down to dip.

536
00:33:58.319 --> 00:34:00.680
Let's get a monkey king down the
street. I don't even know. I've

537
00:34:00.680 --> 00:34:01.759
been in Muky King many times,
so I know the music was going to

538
00:34:01.799 --> 00:34:06.720
be loud there too, Like it's
always that's like the spot you go after

539
00:34:06.759 --> 00:34:09.320
the club, right, but I
haven't been there at a while, and

540
00:34:09.320 --> 00:34:12.159
I'm not gonnae. When we got
there, I was like, oh,

541
00:34:12.159 --> 00:34:15.760
this music, it's not that it's
loud. It's like it's just a bass

542
00:34:15.880 --> 00:34:17.599
like whatever is playing loudly. I
don't even know what the song is because

543
00:34:17.599 --> 00:34:22.159
you can only hear the bass.
So it's a chaotic night. But we

544
00:34:22.239 --> 00:34:25.000
got the garlic noodles. The garlic
noodles from like a kinggle smack every time.

545
00:34:25.079 --> 00:34:30.719
It's strictly butter. Those noodles are
listening, honey, but so good.

546
00:34:30.719 --> 00:34:32.760
When you're hungover, you know you
and you're just like, you're not

547
00:34:32.800 --> 00:34:36.880
even hungry, but you keep eating
because you want the food to like absorb

548
00:34:37.679 --> 00:34:43.480
you're alcohol and you're hangover, so
that hit. Of course, I got

549
00:34:43.480 --> 00:34:46.679
the sng pepper wings yum, and
some hot and sour soup because you know,

550
00:34:46.719 --> 00:34:51.519
I'm a soup grilling and that's what
I originally wanted. Of course,

551
00:34:51.559 --> 00:34:53.679
like the portions were Hella bag,
we end up taking Hella home and then

552
00:34:53.800 --> 00:34:58.320
I went home. And now that
I'll say Lands is over, I know

553
00:34:58.360 --> 00:35:01.800
it's time to face reality. So
I finally like it's Monday, so I

554
00:35:01.880 --> 00:35:07.039
go over to my parents' house and
I go say good bye to Chula.

555
00:35:07.679 --> 00:35:10.840
I'm gonna emotionally even talk about it
right now. I'm just so sad,

556
00:35:10.880 --> 00:35:15.760
Like I think for me, I
hit me extra hard on Monday because I

557
00:35:15.840 --> 00:35:19.800
knew that I was not going to
be able to come over Tuesday when the

558
00:35:19.840 --> 00:35:22.440
person was coming to put her down, and me and my family kept going

559
00:35:22.440 --> 00:35:25.440
over this because I know my stepdad
felt the same way, and I'm sure

560
00:35:25.440 --> 00:35:28.760
my mom did too, Like this
is definitely not an easy decision to make,

561
00:35:29.199 --> 00:35:32.440
but for me, like I known
Chula to be old for a while

562
00:35:32.519 --> 00:35:36.800
now like this, you know,
with those for fifteen years, so I'm

563
00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:39.400
used to her like limping. I
mean, it's definitely been extra this year.

564
00:35:39.440 --> 00:35:42.719
And like, I also don't live
with my parents anymore, so they

565
00:35:42.719 --> 00:35:45.119
see like her really bad days,
and you know, they see her all

566
00:35:45.159 --> 00:35:46.599
the time, so when I see
her, it's like, oh, she

567
00:35:46.800 --> 00:35:50.800
was just limping. She's okay,
and like, okay, she's panting,

568
00:35:50.800 --> 00:35:54.599
but she always pants. But my
mom said, like the last like like

569
00:35:54.599 --> 00:35:58.159
two or three weeks before, it
was like really really bad, like they

570
00:35:58.159 --> 00:36:01.239
said she wasn't even eating because at
Google, I was googling to like when

571
00:36:01.320 --> 00:36:06.119
is it time to put your dog
down? My mom said, like it

572
00:36:06.199 --> 00:36:09.159
was really really bad, like the
weeks prior. But she said, since

573
00:36:09.159 --> 00:36:13.079
they've been talking about like putting her
down, all of a sudden, she

574
00:36:13.159 --> 00:36:15.840
looked at like a spunk in her
and was like eating her food, you

575
00:36:15.880 --> 00:36:20.480
know, trying to walk better.
So it was really hard for my parents

576
00:36:20.480 --> 00:36:22.760
to like finally come to this decision
and what to do. But my mom

577
00:36:22.800 --> 00:36:25.000
was like, you know, they're
gonna come to a full evaluation and they'll

578
00:36:25.039 --> 00:36:27.920
let us know because like, you
know, if she does have a year

579
00:36:27.960 --> 00:36:30.920
or two, we're not going to
go through with it. So I'm just

580
00:36:30.960 --> 00:36:35.400
like laying with her and like it
was just really sad for me because I'm

581
00:36:35.440 --> 00:36:37.400
like, oh, it's probably last
time I'm going to see her, you

582
00:36:37.400 --> 00:36:40.480
know, because I knew I did
not want to, and I also,

583
00:36:40.920 --> 00:36:45.559
I guess I went back and forth
on like feeling bad if I didn't come

584
00:36:45.559 --> 00:36:46.599
on Tuesday because a part of me, a big part of me, felt

585
00:36:46.599 --> 00:36:50.079
like I should be there, you
know, this is gonna be like her

586
00:36:50.159 --> 00:36:52.039
last day, be there with her
last breath, because I was like my

587
00:36:52.079 --> 00:36:57.360
baby. But Monday was so hard
for me, Like I was like I

588
00:36:57.360 --> 00:37:00.880
couldn't stop crying, and I was
like, no way I could go through

589
00:37:00.880 --> 00:37:02.800
it Tuesday, Like it's just it's
too much for me. And I still

590
00:37:02.840 --> 00:37:06.800
had to go into work early because
of course both Monday and Tuesday I have

591
00:37:06.880 --> 00:37:12.480
artists interviews. There's just like too
much going on. So Monday I am

592
00:37:12.559 --> 00:37:15.599
a mess, And exactly I was
even more of a mess because I'm like,

593
00:37:15.639 --> 00:37:16.280
damn, this is my last time
I'm going to see my dogs.

594
00:37:16.400 --> 00:37:21.280
Every time I like hugged her or
said anything like, I'm just bawling.

595
00:37:21.360 --> 00:37:25.559
It's just too much for me.
In another part, I'm sorry, this

596
00:37:25.559 --> 00:37:29.639
is what I was trying to get
at for me, like exactly, like

597
00:37:29.679 --> 00:37:34.880
me seeing Chula, it's regular for
me to see her like exactly always limping

598
00:37:34.960 --> 00:37:37.599
like she's been she has the gray
face for a while, so just it

599
00:37:37.679 --> 00:37:38.920
seemed wrong for me to see her
that way and just like to have someone

600
00:37:38.960 --> 00:37:43.320
put her down, like because to
me, it's just a selfish thing,

601
00:37:43.360 --> 00:37:45.239
like I'm like, no, we
need to wear until she can't move and

602
00:37:45.320 --> 00:37:47.320
she's throwing up, like that's when
it's her time to go. Like to

603
00:37:47.360 --> 00:37:50.280
me, I'm like, well,
this is her normal, so I feel

604
00:37:50.320 --> 00:37:51.960
like, you know, it's okay, like she doesn't need to be put

605
00:37:52.000 --> 00:37:57.480
down. But yeah, I went
to work after Monday so I could bye

606
00:37:57.480 --> 00:38:00.280
to her. I'm a hot fucking
mess. My eyes are like bloodshot.

607
00:38:00.280 --> 00:38:04.000
I'm like I've been crying my eyes
out. I try to get it together.

608
00:38:04.000 --> 00:38:06.639
I put some makeup on because I
have an interview with that Mexicano t

609
00:38:07.679 --> 00:38:09.840
that Mexicano t I was doing my
research. I do love him. He's

610
00:38:09.840 --> 00:38:15.000
a great rapper and stands for that
Mexican out of Texas. You might be

611
00:38:15.000 --> 00:38:17.760
familiar with one of his clips that
went viral when he redid or made like

612
00:38:17.800 --> 00:38:23.440
a trap version to Lama Lama red
Pajama. Honestly, all the interviews I

613
00:38:23.480 --> 00:38:28.199
watched with him, he was so
wild, like he's talking about doing cocaine,

614
00:38:28.239 --> 00:38:30.360
how much he loves it, all
this out of pocket shit, all

615
00:38:30.400 --> 00:38:34.079
these crazy stories. So a little
part of me was like, damn,

616
00:38:34.119 --> 00:38:37.480
I need to warn my boss that
this might not be top forty or like,

617
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:39.840
I don't know if this is gonna
be an appropriate interview for a while

618
00:38:39.840 --> 00:38:43.320
at ninety four nine, how crazy
it might get. So maybe I'll do

619
00:38:43.360 --> 00:38:45.519
it like strictly for my podcast,
Like we'll just see how it goes.

620
00:38:45.519 --> 00:38:47.039
But I gave I just told my
boss, like, yo, it probably

621
00:38:47.079 --> 00:38:52.440
will go viral because he is a
viral sensation and like has that he has

622
00:38:52.480 --> 00:38:57.119
a huge following and his fan base
is like kind of crazy about him.

623
00:38:57.199 --> 00:39:00.239
But just let you know, Like
I don't know if it's like something that

624
00:39:00.239 --> 00:39:01.840
we can use on the New hit
List or even on Wild ninety four nine.

625
00:39:04.079 --> 00:39:07.000
He's like, I trust you,
just do it whatever, We'll see

626
00:39:07.000 --> 00:39:12.039
how it goes. But he was
very and again, mind you, I'm

627
00:39:12.079 --> 00:39:15.840
like heartbroken because I just liked bind
him my dog and were your puffy as

628
00:39:15.840 --> 00:39:20.079
eyes? Crying my eyes out?
So that threw me off a lot too.

629
00:39:21.400 --> 00:39:23.599
But I will say the interview like
there was a lot of serious moments,

630
00:39:23.920 --> 00:39:27.639
which I respect, like he was
being very real, but I will

631
00:39:27.679 --> 00:39:30.119
say it threw me off a little
bit, like I think there and maybe

632
00:39:30.119 --> 00:39:35.559
the interview will be out by the
time I put this out or by next

633
00:39:35.559 --> 00:39:38.079
week, like you know, I
told him how like I love how you

634
00:39:38.119 --> 00:39:43.800
know he has like songs where he's
like being so obnoxious and like I love

635
00:39:43.840 --> 00:39:46.320
like arrogant bars like some of the
ship, he says. I said,

636
00:39:46.320 --> 00:39:49.840
but you also have like a lot
of vulnerable records, and you know,

637
00:39:49.920 --> 00:39:51.679
I you know, I'd tell him, like, you know, and one

638
00:39:51.719 --> 00:39:53.119
song you talk about how your mom
passed away when you're eight, and then

639
00:39:53.159 --> 00:39:55.679
you know the next track after that
you go more in depth about how it

640
00:39:55.719 --> 00:39:59.760
makes you feel. And I'd like
asked, you know, do you consider

641
00:39:59.800 --> 00:40:02.480
this, you know, form of
therapy or like or are these do you

642
00:40:02.519 --> 00:40:07.280
talk about like how you feel about
your mom often or like are these harder

643
00:40:07.280 --> 00:40:09.320
records to write? And he literally
just responded, he was like that shouldn't

644
00:40:09.400 --> 00:40:14.000
that don't do shit for me,
and like just this long pusse Like I

645
00:40:14.039 --> 00:40:15.960
guess I didn't know if he was
going to be talking more so I kind

646
00:40:15.960 --> 00:40:20.320
of like, you know, I
didn't want to respond right away. He's

647
00:40:20.360 --> 00:40:22.960
like that shit don't help me,
and it just got very serious and I'm

648
00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:27.239
sure like thinking back, like I
could appreciate it, because you know,

649
00:40:27.239 --> 00:40:30.280
that's some real shit. Like he's
like, no, it's I just wasn't

650
00:40:30.320 --> 00:40:34.239
expecting it, like you know,
brs just like yeah, like that helps

651
00:40:34.280 --> 00:40:37.519
me. So I guess I just
wasn't expecting that response. And in the

652
00:40:37.559 --> 00:40:39.480
back of my head, I'm like, oh, did your mom die when

653
00:40:39.519 --> 00:40:43.760
you're eight? But did your dog
die when you were twenty nine? Just

654
00:40:43.880 --> 00:40:47.800
kidding being selfage is sad. I'm
just like, in the back of my

655
00:40:47.800 --> 00:40:52.039
head, I'm just depressed, a
little depressing, little stressy. So I'm

656
00:40:52.039 --> 00:40:55.480
trying to focus on this interview and
I was expecting it to be like crazy

657
00:40:55.559 --> 00:41:00.679
and funny, and when this got
deep because obviously like hiss it was crazy

658
00:41:00.719 --> 00:41:04.960
too. It was just sad.
I was like, damn, well what

659
00:41:05.039 --> 00:41:07.239
makes you happy? So you got
you got you guys will watch it.

660
00:41:07.320 --> 00:41:10.840
But I will say I think I
just think my head's everywhere, you know.

661
00:41:12.960 --> 00:41:14.960
I don't honestly, I don't even
know if it's a good interview.

662
00:41:15.000 --> 00:41:17.280
I gotta see it when they send
it back to me. But I will

663
00:41:17.360 --> 00:41:21.119
say I didn't come out feeling like, damn, my helly killed that interview.

664
00:41:21.760 --> 00:41:22.880
And I don't know why. I
don't know why I feel that way.

665
00:41:23.239 --> 00:41:25.840
I think maybe just because I have
all these emotions and I have like

666
00:41:25.880 --> 00:41:29.199
so much going on that I couldn't
like fully be in it. I feel

667
00:41:29.199 --> 00:41:31.000
like I was fully in it,
and I had prepared my questions even beforehand.

668
00:41:32.440 --> 00:41:35.039
I don't know. I was just
feeling very uneasy, and I think

669
00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:37.199
I just had anxiety about everything that
was happening, Like at the end of

670
00:41:37.199 --> 00:41:37.760
the day, that's the stuff that
was in the back of my head.

671
00:41:38.519 --> 00:41:42.880
And then Tuesday came and I did
not go over to my parents, and

672
00:41:42.960 --> 00:41:45.760
like that whole night, I literally
Monday night stood up crying, like the

673
00:41:45.800 --> 00:41:46.800
whole night. I didn't get any
sleep. I went to better like five

674
00:41:46.800 --> 00:41:52.800
in the morning and woke up,
but I knew I was very much awaken

675
00:41:52.880 --> 00:41:54.320
nine am. I knew that's when
the doctor. The doctors were going over

676
00:41:54.719 --> 00:41:58.639
or the vet by nine and ten
am, so I knew they were over

677
00:41:58.679 --> 00:42:00.440
there. And I kept contenting,
like should I just go their church?

678
00:42:00.480 --> 00:42:02.039
Just go over there, But then
I kept crying thinking about it, so

679
00:42:02.039 --> 00:42:05.000
I was like, no, it's
it's just gonna be too much, but

680
00:42:05.000 --> 00:42:07.400
I did. I went to texting
my mom like Okay, what's happening.

681
00:42:07.440 --> 00:42:09.000
What did they say? And you
know, she told me like you know,

682
00:42:09.159 --> 00:42:13.559
no, like it's not just like
her joint problems that she has,

683
00:42:13.679 --> 00:42:16.880
Like they just definitely said there's like
neurology problems. And my mom was telling

684
00:42:16.920 --> 00:42:21.719
me even before that they think she
might have dementia. Because when I lived

685
00:42:21.719 --> 00:42:24.599
with my parents, I always let
Chila sleep with me, like telling me,

686
00:42:24.639 --> 00:42:27.519
that's my girl. Okay. We
spent a lot of time in that

687
00:42:27.599 --> 00:42:30.639
room together. But when I moved
out, my sister got the room and

688
00:42:30.639 --> 00:42:34.679
then I gets my sister and the
baby and my sister. My sister loves

689
00:42:34.719 --> 00:42:37.280
chi La too, but she always
kicks to the all the room. She's

690
00:42:37.280 --> 00:42:40.519
like, ah, I'll go on
the parents room, So that whole time

691
00:42:40.559 --> 00:42:44.719
that, you know, since I
moved out, she loves always gone to

692
00:42:44.760 --> 00:42:47.000
my parents' room, like Chila will
let her her end Bella. They both

693
00:42:47.079 --> 00:42:50.320
let everyone know when they're time to
go to bed. They don't even wait

694
00:42:50.360 --> 00:42:52.559
for everyone and be like, okay, let's go, Like they go straight

695
00:42:52.599 --> 00:42:55.239
to the room when they're feeling tired. But my mom had told me,

696
00:42:55.280 --> 00:42:59.599
like the past couple of weeks,
since it's been like an ongoing conversation like

697
00:43:00.079 --> 00:43:02.199
that, has been going to my
old room. So she's like, you

698
00:43:02.239 --> 00:43:06.199
know, maybe she does have dementia, Like she's thinking, like you know,

699
00:43:06.239 --> 00:43:10.360
back when she used to always go
in there. So sad, I

700
00:43:10.360 --> 00:43:16.639
don't want to cry. I'm so
tired of crying. Uh, it was

701
00:43:16.679 --> 00:43:22.320
just hard. Saying about your dog
is like the war should ever Like I've

702
00:43:22.360 --> 00:43:27.039
had a lot of deaths and we
will do a grave differently. I was

703
00:43:27.199 --> 00:43:30.559
not saying it's like I'm more sad, definitely not, but it just hits

704
00:43:30.599 --> 00:43:36.800
different. I can't explain it.
It's just so sad trying not to be

705
00:43:36.840 --> 00:43:39.320
a cry baby right now on this
podcast. I hate when people record themselves

706
00:43:39.360 --> 00:43:43.920
crying. I mean, obviously on
a podcast is different. But yeah,

707
00:43:44.400 --> 00:43:47.599
I've just been an emotional wreck this
whole week. So Tuesday it happens,

708
00:43:47.599 --> 00:43:51.519
I'm texting my mom, She's letting
me know what's happening. I'm crying,

709
00:43:51.639 --> 00:43:57.360
bawling my eys out of my room
because I feel like I'm there and I

710
00:43:57.360 --> 00:43:59.679
need a hurry up and get ready
because I have this artist's interview at two

711
00:43:59.719 --> 00:44:04.199
with Ally, So I'm like putting
on as much Conceller and fucking Foundations that

712
00:44:04.280 --> 00:44:07.639
I can trying to get my life
together. It's funny if you go,

713
00:44:07.719 --> 00:44:09.960
like on the New hit List or
on One Nighty for nice Instagram page,

714
00:44:09.960 --> 00:44:14.519
we like did a TikTok and my
eyes like puffy as hell over here like

715
00:44:14.840 --> 00:44:17.039
gott a white blahma rasta. But
like, clearly I've been crying like it's

716
00:44:17.159 --> 00:44:22.039
ridiculous, and I just feel like
my vibe was thrown off, Like I'm

717
00:44:22.039 --> 00:44:25.159
doing this interview with her. She
was so sweet. Cally was so sweet.

718
00:44:25.679 --> 00:44:28.719
But again, I feel like the
interview just could have been better.

719
00:44:28.760 --> 00:44:32.360
And maybe I'm just in my own
head because I wasn't fully there, like

720
00:44:32.480 --> 00:44:35.480
maybe it was a great interview.
It's just me being in my head.

721
00:44:35.519 --> 00:44:37.199
But if I don't come out feeling
like I fucking killed that interview. Then

722
00:44:37.280 --> 00:44:40.239
I'm feeling like it's trash. Like
if it's not great, it's it's terrible.

723
00:44:40.599 --> 00:44:45.079
No in between for me. And
there was just like a lot of

724
00:44:45.119 --> 00:44:47.239
facts. She had her dog and
the dog was like barking in the back

725
00:44:47.639 --> 00:44:52.840
and I'm like, girl, my
dad just died. I was so annoyed.

726
00:44:53.159 --> 00:44:59.360
So yeah, I think it just
hasn't been my week. You know,

727
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:01.679
it was a tough one. So
we did the interview. I think

728
00:45:01.679 --> 00:45:08.480
we did get some cute content though
Tuesday wraps up. Yeah, and I

729
00:45:08.519 --> 00:45:12.920
just feel like my soul I think
it's a factor of things like that was

730
00:45:12.960 --> 00:45:15.920
really traumatic and I'm really sad about
it, and I just there's so much

731
00:45:15.920 --> 00:45:16.880
should do at work, but I
just want to go home and like eat

732
00:45:16.880 --> 00:45:21.360
my hot cheet, doesn't cry myself
to sleep, And luckily I was able

733
00:45:21.400 --> 00:45:22.360
to cry a lot on Monday and
Tuesday. But I feel like I need

734
00:45:22.400 --> 00:45:27.440
like a full day to just like
be by myself and cry and be sad

735
00:45:28.079 --> 00:45:30.920
or do anything going on hot girl
walk, do something and read a book.

736
00:45:30.599 --> 00:45:34.360
But it's just been like that traumatic
event happening for me and then just

737
00:45:34.400 --> 00:45:36.840
like go go go, like outside
lands, like need to beginning content and

738
00:45:36.880 --> 00:45:37.719
need to be talking to co workers, need to be talking to people.

739
00:45:38.159 --> 00:45:42.840
Artist interview with that Mexicot Next Day
Artist interview with CALLI doing my live show,

740
00:45:42.960 --> 00:45:45.280
like being happy on air and like
talking about all this stuff when you

741
00:45:45.360 --> 00:45:50.000
talk about and being local and writing
blogs and posting on socials. And then

742
00:45:50.239 --> 00:45:53.360
me and Gabby. I'm so excited, Like Gabby's flying down tomorrow. I'm

743
00:45:53.360 --> 00:45:57.239
gonna pick her up from the airport. We're gonna pregame, We're gonna go

744
00:45:57.280 --> 00:46:00.639
to Drake. One of the record
labels got us take us to Drake.

745
00:46:00.679 --> 00:46:02.559
We're gonna get content. She's fine
down for that, and I'm so excited

746
00:46:02.599 --> 00:46:06.519
to go the show. But it's
just it's just so much going on.

747
00:46:06.599 --> 00:46:07.840
Like Friday, Okay, I need
to pre record my show. I like,

748
00:46:07.880 --> 00:46:10.239
after this, I need to go
send my brakes in for the mix

749
00:46:10.360 --> 00:46:14.760
that's pre recorded, so I need
to finish that and like all my shows

750
00:46:14.760 --> 00:46:20.880
that are due before I leave Drake
Saturday. I hope I don't have anything

751
00:46:20.880 --> 00:46:23.199
going on, but I probably should
like clean or do something or I you

752
00:46:23.239 --> 00:46:25.320
know, I think Gabby wants to
go get brunch with green Us. We're

753
00:46:25.320 --> 00:46:28.559
probably gonna do something like that,
and then I'm gonna drop her off at

754
00:46:28.599 --> 00:46:32.000
the airport. And then Sunday is
my best friends. She's having another bridle

755
00:46:32.000 --> 00:46:36.719
fitting because I'm her maid of honor. I think we talked about it in

756
00:46:36.719 --> 00:46:38.840
the past episodes. So I'm like
excited for all these things. But i

757
00:46:38.920 --> 00:46:44.599
just think my social battery is like
by baby ba baby like girl a low

758
00:46:44.639 --> 00:46:47.480
battery. Charge me, charge me, charge me, And I'm satisfied because

759
00:46:47.599 --> 00:46:52.079
I had to put my dog down. So it's been a lot, but

760
00:46:52.159 --> 00:46:57.800
we are going to power through.
We are gonna get through this. But

761
00:46:58.719 --> 00:47:01.079
yeah, that's what's going on no
today in the Bay today because I'm like,

762
00:47:01.119 --> 00:47:04.840
oh, there's just so much sad
news. Like that's another thing I

763
00:47:04.920 --> 00:47:07.440
keep looking at the news, you
know, the stuff with the Maui fires.

764
00:47:07.559 --> 00:47:08.360
By the way, all my Instagram
story, I think I'm gonna put

765
00:47:08.360 --> 00:47:12.239
a link in my bio. There
is this link someone put this schoogle dock

766
00:47:12.280 --> 00:47:16.119
together that like all the goal fun
fund means that go directly to the families.

767
00:47:17.360 --> 00:47:21.199
So if you hit on my Instagram
at angelian on there, I'm actually

768
00:47:21.199 --> 00:47:23.559
gonna put that link in my link
tree, so if you hit the link

769
00:47:23.599 --> 00:47:27.639
in my bio, it's gonna be
the first clip if you're willing to help.

770
00:47:27.679 --> 00:47:30.760
But just lopped and right there was
something one of my co workers,

771
00:47:30.840 --> 00:47:34.119
one of his family members, passed
away. Like it's it's just been sadness

772
00:47:34.159 --> 00:47:38.719
everywhere. I'm like illllllll ill every
time I opened the news. So I

773
00:47:38.760 --> 00:47:42.960
think it's just been like a down
week for me. It's like the most

774
00:47:42.960 --> 00:47:45.639
down but also most exciting week ever. There's a lot going on. I'm

775
00:47:45.639 --> 00:47:49.880
looking forward to or resting next week. I'm looking at my calendar, not

776
00:47:50.000 --> 00:47:51.760
much on it. I mean,
you never know. By Monday, I'm

777
00:47:51.760 --> 00:47:54.760
sure my job's gonna hit me up
with twenty million things. But yeah,

778
00:47:54.840 --> 00:48:00.719
guys, I'm just sad my chula
actually, just kid, I'm looking at

779
00:48:00.000 --> 00:48:04.119
my calendar. There's a lot of
stuff to do next week, whatever,

780
00:48:04.320 --> 00:48:09.320
whatever, whatever. After I dropped
Gabby off on Saturday, I don't know.

781
00:48:09.400 --> 00:48:13.119
I'm having a full rest day next
weekend. I need to have like

782
00:48:13.119 --> 00:48:15.199
a real treat yourself self care day. You know. Maybe I'll buy me

783
00:48:15.199 --> 00:48:19.760
a little face mask, maybe I'll
have a friend over, you know,

784
00:48:19.840 --> 00:48:22.960
my girl Christina or one of my
besties. We'll have some a little wine

785
00:48:22.039 --> 00:48:28.800
night cry, watch a movie,
put on sleeping. I do have so

786
00:48:28.880 --> 00:48:30.360
much Launcher I need to catch up
on. I did not know this was

787
00:48:30.360 --> 00:48:32.960
a thing, but my friend was
telling me, like, obviously I've been

788
00:48:32.960 --> 00:48:36.559
a dry cleaner, is like,
but dry cleaners to me is like okay,

789
00:48:36.559 --> 00:48:37.760
that one peak coat that you can't
put in the washer, you know,

790
00:48:38.400 --> 00:48:42.800
or like your down comforter or something. My friend was telling me there's

791
00:48:42.840 --> 00:48:45.280
places in like San Francisco, and
I think even in Oakland we could drop

792
00:48:45.320 --> 00:48:47.559
off like your dirty hamper, and
not only do they wash the clothes,

793
00:48:47.599 --> 00:48:51.599
but they fold them for you.
And I was talking to my other coworker

794
00:48:51.639 --> 00:48:52.559
Van about this today and he was
like, yeah, you didn't know that,

795
00:48:52.639 --> 00:48:55.000
like all the I think all the
dry cleaning places do that. And

796
00:48:55.000 --> 00:48:58.639
I'm like, no, I didn't
know that. I think we were talking

797
00:48:58.679 --> 00:49:00.920
about what we would do if we
were like billionaires, and then I was

798
00:49:00.960 --> 00:49:01.840
like, yo, you know what
I think. I mean, I'm not

799
00:49:01.880 --> 00:49:05.920
a billionaire. I don't hope this
isn't crazy expensive, because I'll say it

800
00:49:05.960 --> 00:49:07.440
how I never want to do laundry
ever again. If I become a billionaire,

801
00:49:08.039 --> 00:49:13.159
it won the lottery. But if
I'm gonna look up how much this

802
00:49:13.320 --> 00:49:15.719
is because I think that's the one
thing when I have depression room. It's

803
00:49:15.719 --> 00:49:19.000
not that my room's hell a messy, but it's just that my clothes are

804
00:49:19.119 --> 00:49:22.679
overflowing and just the clutter of them
being there. You don if I hide

805
00:49:22.679 --> 00:49:25.239
them all behind my closet, knowing
that it's behind there, it's stressing me

806
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:30.800
the hell out, Like I have
like three hampers. So I'm actually gonna

807
00:49:30.840 --> 00:49:35.679
look into that. If I could
pay someone to wash all my clothes and

808
00:49:35.960 --> 00:49:37.880
fold them, that is a game
changer. When I tell you, guys,

809
00:49:37.920 --> 00:49:42.000
I hang everything up because I do
not want to fold. I'm going

810
00:49:42.039 --> 00:49:44.320
to my closet. I'm the hang
You're like, Mama, wear this underwear

811
00:49:44.320 --> 00:49:46.480
today, Just kidding out, gonna
go that far. But I also don't

812
00:49:46.480 --> 00:49:51.239
fold my underwear. It's all thrown
in the thing. I'm gonna look into

813
00:49:51.280 --> 00:49:53.599
that. But yeah, next weekend
is definitely gonna be a treat yourself weekend.

814
00:49:53.639 --> 00:49:57.000
Even my parents, like you know, they're all going through it too.

815
00:49:57.000 --> 00:49:59.800
I call them today. It's just
sad for all of us we're going

816
00:49:59.800 --> 00:50:02.559
through. This is a big family
loss. You know, She's impacted all

817
00:50:02.599 --> 00:50:07.039
of our lives in so many stupid
ways, and losing a pet is just

818
00:50:07.599 --> 00:50:13.360
really one of the most heartbreaking things
ever. So that's my life. But

819
00:50:13.440 --> 00:50:16.760
yeah, I know today in the
bay, today I'm just send up there,

820
00:50:17.400 --> 00:50:21.960
all dogs go to heaven, bitch. So many people kept telling me

821
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:24.800
that, and it's like, I
know, I'm not sad because I think

822
00:50:24.800 --> 00:50:28.199
my dog's going to hell. Okay, It's like when people tell you,

823
00:50:28.199 --> 00:50:30.559
like, oh, they're in a
better place. Now, I know I'm

824
00:50:30.599 --> 00:50:34.079
not sad because I'm like, damn, is this person going to hell?

825
00:50:34.719 --> 00:50:37.000
Are they not going to be in
a better place. I'm sad because they're

826
00:50:37.039 --> 00:50:39.079
not here on earth with me anymore. That's what I'm sad about. So

827
00:50:39.199 --> 00:50:43.000
just let me be sad, you
know what I mean. But truly,

828
00:50:43.159 --> 00:50:46.039
I know she is in a better
place, and she's running up there and

829
00:50:46.119 --> 00:50:50.719
doggy Heaven, living her best life
and licking the hell out of her pause.

830
00:50:50.960 --> 00:50:52.280
That's one thing we would always yell
at Chella out because she would lick

831
00:50:52.280 --> 00:50:57.639
her paws like crazy and like that
noise is just so annoying. It would

832
00:50:57.639 --> 00:51:00.960
always be like Chula and yell at
her. But hopefully in heaven, no

833
00:51:01.000 --> 00:51:06.039
one is yelling at her, and
she got the cleanest pause in the game.

834
00:51:06.400 --> 00:51:07.559
She look at the cleanest pause in
the game, and that's going to

835
00:51:07.599 --> 00:51:10.920
continue, all right. Thanks so
much for kicking with me, guys and

836
00:51:12.280 --> 00:51:16.280
having to listen to my almost crying
voice. Crack left and right and be

837
00:51:16.400 --> 00:51:20.440
depressing with me. If you like
us, if you love us, hit

838
00:51:20.480 --> 00:51:24.000
the subscribe button, poor favor.
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839
00:51:24.119 --> 00:51:28.480
comments in the comments section. You
should do that because you know why my

840
00:51:28.519 --> 00:51:30.119
dog died and you feel bad for
me, So give me five stars and

841
00:51:30.199 --> 00:51:35.559
leave some comments. Hit the subscribe
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842
00:51:35.639 --> 00:51:37.800
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843
00:51:38.159 --> 00:51:42.920
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844
00:51:42.960 --> 00:51:45.599
listen to me weeknights on Wild ninety
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845
00:51:45.679 --> 00:51:51.239
music station seven pmso midnight PST time. You can listen from anywhere on the

846
00:51:51.239 --> 00:51:52.880
free iHeartRadio app and you could come
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847
00:51:52.960 --> 00:51:57.320
How cool is that? You could
come leaving messages and I'll play it live

848
00:51:57.360 --> 00:51:59.960
on air. If you open up
the free iHeart Radio app, there's like

849
00:52:00.039 --> 00:52:02.159
that little red microphone right next to
the play button. Can't miss it.

850
00:52:02.400 --> 00:52:05.719
It's called the talk back mike.
You hold it down like a little walkie

851
00:52:05.760 --> 00:52:09.679
talkie, spit your little game,
say what you want to say, and

852
00:52:09.719 --> 00:52:13.360
then hit sound. It's that easy, so you can let me talk backs.

853
00:52:13.400 --> 00:52:15.800
I'm on seven to midnight. Also
have the new hit list, which

854
00:52:15.840 --> 00:52:20.960
is eleven PM to midnight, and
it's available everywhere. Okay, syndicated,

855
00:52:21.000 --> 00:52:24.000
baby, this moment will be syndicated. I don't know. This night does

856
00:52:24.159 --> 00:52:29.039
reminds me of whatever. Give me
a gi give us all the flowers,

857
00:52:29.199 --> 00:52:31.039
give us all the lights, give
us all the comments, follow us everywhere,

858
00:52:31.119 --> 00:52:34.519
listen to all my shows, and
I will talk to you next week.

859
00:52:34.559 --> 00:52:38.400
Okay, love you, bye bye
the Continental. Can you see that

860
00:52:38.440 --> 00:52:55.199
he's received by the concierge. Let
this service to war, good talking ricket.

861
00:52:55.239 --> 00:53:00.480
If you live for our bricket,
do talk our bricket. Do just

862
00:53:00.519 --> 00:53:14.639
want the acid, Just just want
the acid, Just want the acid.

863
00:53:16.039 --> 00:53:34.119
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