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Yo, I just has a comeback
on here and for real, because I

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literally just got down on my knees. I literally just got down on my

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knees and cry and thank the Universe, thank the Lord, thank source for

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my blessings. Bro. I still
have tears coming down my face right now.

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I am so fucking grateful. Bro, I am so fucking grateful.

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I am so fucking grateful. I'm
so grateful. I cannot express the way

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that I feel when I say,
Bro, I don't know how many times

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I've said on this podcast, like
I had to get it out the mud,

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nigga, I had to get this
shit out the fucking mud. I

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have worked my ass off. I
don't give a fuck about what nobody says

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about me, Like I used to
let that shit affect me. But I

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know who I am. I know
who I am, I know how hard

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I work. I know how great
of a fucking mother I am. I

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am so fucking grateful for all of
the trials, all of the tribulations,

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the fucking struggle. That shit makes
you who the fuck you are. I

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know y'all so tired of me talking
about Panda, but for real, like

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that's really I'm not gonna lie,
that's like my best friend for real,

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and that situation is so crazy to
me. And I talked about this before,

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Like me and her got cool,
like really on some fluke shit.

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We met because us and it was
so crazy because our ex boyfriends are best

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friends. But by the time that
her and her ex got together, me

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and my ex was already like the
damn near broke up. But whatever,

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we ended up crossing paths and we
hung out on some fluke shit. When

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she lived in Michigan. We was
at fucking bar seven or whatever, and

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like I ended up following her on
Instagram. And it wasn't even until I

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had went and visited Calli for the
first time for real, Like I had

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hit her up and was like,
hey, do you know where I should

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stay, like because I wanted to
stay in Long Beach and blah blah blah

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whatever, and we had hung out
that time or whatever. And then when

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by the time that I had moved
to Calli, we had got a lot

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closer or whatever, and like now
I talked to her like every single day

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and we lived on opposite sides of
the fucking world. It's a three hour

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time difference. I don't really like
to call her because of the time difference.

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You know what I'm saying, I
can't be calling me it's gonna be

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fucking six am if it's nine a
m. Here. So she usually calls

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me. But I literally talked to
her every day. I really appreciate her

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friendship because, like I said,
she's ordered to me. She's ye're ordered

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to me. But it's just so
many times and so many conversations that we've

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had and she's always like Jazzmine,
I've been where you being before, and

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like she is just like Panda is
so um. She's so versatile, she's

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so like well rounded, Like she's
a person like that could go anywhere in

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the world. She can go to
the hood, she can go to the

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classiest of the bougiest event, you
know what I'm saying, and just be

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able to adapt to her environment.
But she just really has a beautiful spirit,

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a beautiful soul. Like she's a
great advice giver. I'm not sure

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why she doesn't have a podcast.
She like a factional speaker. But even

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like today we had a conversation that
she was just telling me because I was

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talking about my whole money situation or
whatever, and she was like Jasmine,

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Like I worked somewhere for a year
and a half, like doing an internship.

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It never got paid for it,
and I'm like, what the fuck.

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But again, it's just a testament
to where she is now, to

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her craft, to her skill all
of that, and you know whatever.

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But anyway, the blessings came through
niggas that fucking quick. And it's so

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funny because I was literally in my
mind having a conversation. I was preppering

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myself for the conversation that I was
gonna have with somebody about some shit that

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I was gonna try to do,
and I'm like, I gotta figure this

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out. And then all of a
sudden, the fucking nigga melodies from heaving

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them bitches rained down, like everything
literally came down, And so, like

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I said, I was all my
knees crying saying thank you, like I'm

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just, oh my god, bro, Like y'all don't understand, bro,

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or maybe you do, and I
hope that you do understand in your own

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way, in your own right,
like because I don't know what a person's

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personal struggle is and shit like that, but I'm trying to tell y'all,

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like I really just want to be
able to live an authentic life and be

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able to connect with people. One
thing that I'm really trying to just be

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aware of is my ego. Like
everybody has an ego, and you got

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to keep that shit in check.
And I think that the best way for

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me to be able to like really
disconnect from my ego is just to consciously

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just live my authentic life and be
my true self, you know what I'm

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saying, being able to be vulnerable
and transparent and to not get a big

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kid about shit, but to also
be confident because I know, you know

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what I'm saying, You gotta know
who the fuck you are. But don't

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let that shit turn into the ego. But um no, like really man,

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like I don't. I just I
don't know what to say. I

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don't know what to say, and
I keep tearing up because I'm just so

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fucking great, Like it's tears of
joy, bro, it's tears a fucking

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joy. I'm just so fucking grateful
because and when I say, get it

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out the mud, nigga, I'm
so glad that y'all know, like I'm

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never in my life like fuck with
us. Well, I don't want to

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say I never funck with a scammera
or nothing like that. But like I

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never seriously dated like no scammer,
no hood niggas for real or nothing like

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that. And you know, there
have been times in my mind where I'd

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be like, dang, I wish
I just fucked with a scammer so that

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nigga could just pay off my training
or you know what I'm saying, or

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just help me out with life and
what the fuck I gotta do. But

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no, nigga, I'm so glad
that I did this shit, buy myself

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for myself on my own and got
it out the fucking mud because nobody can't

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ever take this ship from me.
Nobody could never hold no shit over my

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head. Like if it wasn't for
me, you wouldn't had like I did

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this shit on my own, nigga. I'm talking about back to the struggle

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when I very first lost that job
where, um, where was all working

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at? Then when I lost Nigga, I haven't lost so many fucking jobs,

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um in twenty eighteen, Damn,
where the fuck was I working at

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Orleans? Was that Orleans? No, it couldn't have been m No when

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I was working at the time I
was working at Best Homes title like two

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thousand, two thou seventeen. That's
when I had lost my job and at

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that time, I had just moved
in with my best friend, Chelsea at

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the time, me and my son, we had moved in with my best

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friend, and you know, we
was gonna go half on the ram Blais

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Bligh and then I lost my job
and she's still in me stay there,

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you know what I'm saying, and
we thugged it out or whatever, and

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that's when I started the podcast,
and you know what I'm saying, So

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like even then, you know what
I'm saying. But just period, I

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just always have been in a situation
where I've never really been completely financially stable,

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and so just go all these years, just going through these ups and

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downs, going through this roller coaster
ride of trying to figure out where to

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go, trying to figure out what
my purpose was in life, and all

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of that, like all of that
ship brought me to this very fucking moment

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where I was just all my fucking
knees crying saying thank you. And I

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just made a post on Instagram that
was saying what did it say? Like

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it said that you see it said
I I'm excited to finally start living the

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life that I always wish for.
Like that's bro Like, I don't know,

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man, it's so much, but
I just wanted to come back on

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here and say that, like,
I'm just so fucking grateful. The party

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is on. My birthday party is
on. I was scared that I wasn't

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gonna be able to go through with
it because I thought I just wasn't gonna

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have everything together. But I got
everything together. So the party is fucking

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on. And then like I was
going back before I got on here another

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what I was just working on before
I had broke down crying. I just

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looked at my um. I got
this little planner that I write my affirmations

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in every day, and my stomach
hurt too right now too, But I

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nigga, I missed a whole week
of affirmations. I'm like, so I'm

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over here filling out my ship with
my affirmations. But what else was I

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about to say? Oh? Before
that, I was like, oh,

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I was looking at the videos,
so you know, I recorded a YouTube

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video. I was only able to
capture the like the first half of my

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class today, and I told yall
one of the things was like I move

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really fast through the practice or whatever. It's that anxiety shit. So watching

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the video back, like I already
know that i'd be going fast, and

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it's like, I know I got
to slow down. But when I watched

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the video, it was like,
okay, you be going super fast.

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So but it just it hit different
watching the video. So now I feel

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like I kind of understand the pace
that I have to go at. So

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I'm like, fuck it, let
me run through a hole mat And you

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know, I didn't really fall out
do the whole yoga thing during class today,

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so I'm like, I didn't even
do no yoga today for real,

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So let me do it right now
at home and try to do it at

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the pace or whatever. And so
I went through the whole hour by myself,

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and I feel like I did a
really good job. And I'm ready

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for a fucking Friday. I'm gonna
be ready for the party. So like,

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I'm just really excited, but I'm
also just very grateful. So I

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had to come on here and share
that it's fucking two fifty eight in the

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morning and the grind don't stop,
nigga, okay, but that is um,

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that's it. So you know I'll
be back sometimes soon, but that's

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all that I had to share.
I'm out.