I wanted to talk about something with you. You see, most people know
that Karen and I are all about service to others, and every spiritual book,
every spiritual teacher, every message that you get, everybody is saying how
important it is to be of service to others. And in fact, in
my life, I've noticed that the more I'm in service to others, the
more positive things happen to me. The less I think about myself and more
about others, the more good things come to me as a result. It
just makes sense. It's an energy exchange. The more energy you give to
someone, the more energy comes back to you. Right, whether you're Pagan
and you believe in the law of three which says that whatever you send out
to universe, you get back to you three times, or you believe in
law of karma that says what you give out you receive. Almost every thought
process out there talks about this energy exchange. The giving of something is what
you get in return. So I've been trying to live my life for the
last few years with that thought foremost in my mind, and it's been truly
a wonderful experience. It's been eye opening, it's been wonderful, truly wonderful
to see, for example, the success of this show. The more we
are in service to you, the listener out there, the more that the
show grows, and it's been wonderful. So I want to live my life
with that thought process in mind at all times. But very recently, some
of you may know, I underwent difficult period in my professional life where I
didn't feel like I was treated the way that I felt I should have been
treated. Now, I completely understand that that's a totally ego driven, judgmental
thought process, and I understand where it comes from, but I won't go
into that here. Just know that I understand and I recognize it's not how
I should have thought about the whole process. But no matter how much I
focus on spirituality, come on, let's face it, I'm still just a
human being, just like everyone else, and I'm learning. I'm on this
path of learning and discovery just like you. So petty things like that,
like not getting a job that I felt I was perfect for, still affect
me as much as I don't want them to. So in this case,
it affected me in a very very very hard way, and it's almost like
a sort of PTSD where I'm having a hard time shaking it. I meditate
every day, I focus on the teachings. I have interviews with wonderful spiritual
people that help me put things in perspective. Friends that I value very much
remind me of things like the Surrender experiment and being of service to others in
all those thought processes, And it works for a bit, but I always
seem to fall back, and I'm finding that I'm falling into a more ego
driven, self serving day to day decision making process, and I have to
admit that I'm not liking myself these days again as much. So I'm trying
to keep myself focused on service to others again, writing these concepts on sticky
notes, and I'm putting them everywhere my computer in the kitchen and my bathroom
mirror, everywhere anywhere that can see them, just so I can remind myself
the importance of understanding and really knowing and living the fact that I'm not here
to serve myself. I'm here to serve others. And if there's anything I
can do to serve others, that is a focus that I need to follow
that I want to follow. So, friends, if you feel lost like
I, somewhat am right. Now, I invite you to change your focus,
to put your sticky notes everywhere, remind yourself over and over again of
the right way to move forward, the way that you know is the right
way to move forward, and be kind to yourself. Give yourself grace and
understanding, because we all know we do live in this three dimensional world.
We are in these physical bodies, and our minds have been programmed for such
a long time that it's going to take some doing for us to get beyond
it. To yourself, forgive yourself, and when you fall, just get
back up again take the next step, just like I'm trying to do now.
Thanks for listening, guys. This really helped get this off my chest.