WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.960 --> 00:00:06.080 Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I am your host, Jasmine Dan 2 00:00:06.280 --> 00:00:22.679 Yell. What's up, guys, what's up? I really miss y'all. 3 00:00:22.760 --> 00:00:28.839 I missed the podcast. I missed the podcast. I just feel like I'm 4 00:00:28.879 --> 00:00:38.479 in a really weird space, but I also feel a spark of inspiration and 5 00:00:38.560 --> 00:00:45.520 creativity coming back after yesterday. Yesterday was my off day from work, so 6 00:00:46.240 --> 00:00:52.799 I I went downtown by where my job is and just really try to get 7 00:00:52.840 --> 00:00:57.640 acclimated with the area and all of that, because I need to be able 8 00:00:57.719 --> 00:01:03.880 to you've recommended that recommendations and suggestions and stuff when people come to my job 9 00:01:03.040 --> 00:01:04.840 like, Hey, where can I go for this? Where can I go 10 00:01:04.879 --> 00:01:07.560 for this? Where's the best place? How do you get to X, 11 00:01:07.719 --> 00:01:11.439 Y and Z? And I'm like, I don't know. I just relocated 12 00:01:11.560 --> 00:01:15.439 here. I'm really from Detroit, and I feel like it's only so long 13 00:01:15.560 --> 00:01:19.719 that I could, you know, use that as an excuse on top of 14 00:01:19.719 --> 00:01:23.879 the fact that I need to explore this city and explore the different opportunities, 15 00:01:23.079 --> 00:01:30.239 explore the different places to go, the vibes, the people, all of 16 00:01:30.319 --> 00:01:34.000 that. You know, I really kind of been locked in the crib and 17 00:01:34.120 --> 00:01:38.480 just going to work every day, so I needed to get out there. 18 00:01:38.640 --> 00:01:42.959 And it was a not even I wanted to. It was a beautiful day, 19 00:01:42.000 --> 00:01:47.879 but I ain't gonna lie this. This Texas heat is different. It's 20 00:01:48.040 --> 00:01:51.439 very different. But people keep telling me like it's hotter than normal, like 21 00:01:51.480 --> 00:01:53.640 you usually don't beat this hot here. And they also keep telling me it's 22 00:01:53.640 --> 00:01:59.840 gonna be a really crazy winter. So to me, when people will show 23 00:01:59.879 --> 00:02:01.680 on me like videos and pictures of the winter, I'm like, that ain't 24 00:02:01.719 --> 00:02:07.120 shit. But I mean to them, they can't driving this shit. It's 25 00:02:07.280 --> 00:02:09.879 different, like it ain't like Detroit. You know what I'm saying. It's 26 00:02:09.919 --> 00:02:15.520 it's just different. But also like they was talking about they gonna be without 27 00:02:15.759 --> 00:02:17.599 they could be without power and all that type of shit. So I don't 28 00:02:17.599 --> 00:02:21.840 know. I guess it's just something to prepare for. But I was able 29 00:02:21.879 --> 00:02:24.879 to get out yesterday. I went to this good little barbecue spot. The 30 00:02:24.919 --> 00:02:30.400 food was really good. Unfortunately, when I eat, I I literally only 31 00:02:30.439 --> 00:02:32.639 take a bite of my food and I'll always be fool as fucked. But 32 00:02:32.800 --> 00:02:40.280 the food was good. I do wanna try some different spots. Like I 33 00:02:40.319 --> 00:02:45.639 said, I just really gotta get out there and explore. So yesterday was 34 00:02:45.680 --> 00:02:46.759 a really cool day for me. Like I said, it was my off 35 00:02:46.879 --> 00:02:51.080 day, did I unt I didn't. I didn't go to yoga yesterday. 36 00:02:51.439 --> 00:02:53.360 I didn't. I need to go. I've been to yoga a few times 37 00:02:53.400 --> 00:03:00.199 here. I really liked the vibes. Man, the hot yoga is really 38 00:03:00.280 --> 00:03:07.960 hot yoga. It's it's really hot yoga. Man. That shit is crazy. 39 00:03:08.120 --> 00:03:13.360 I think when I was back at home, I did a sixty minute 40 00:03:13.400 --> 00:03:16.240 hot yoga class before. And when I took that class, I'm like, 41 00:03:16.240 --> 00:03:20.479 oh, I for show could do a ninety minute. Man. I got 42 00:03:20.479 --> 00:03:22.439 here and did a ninety minute. I'm like, Okay, this is too 43 00:03:22.520 --> 00:03:29.280 much. This is too much, nah like, and then I fucked around 44 00:03:29.280 --> 00:03:31.520 and then I did a I did a sixty minute the other day and that 45 00:03:31.719 --> 00:03:36.960 still was just like, But maybe it's because I haven't really since I got 46 00:03:37.000 --> 00:03:38.840 here, I haven't really been doing yoga every day, Like how I shouldn't 47 00:03:38.840 --> 00:03:44.800 be doing it and I'm slipping. And I've acknowledged that and I need to 48 00:03:44.840 --> 00:03:46.879 get back on my shit. I've acknowledged a lot of things. I've been 49 00:03:46.879 --> 00:03:52.599 doing a lot of self reflection in this uh this Hybernation time from the podcast, 50 00:03:53.520 --> 00:03:59.159 I oh man, I'm going through a lot. I don't even know 51 00:03:59.199 --> 00:04:00.840 what I would name the chapter of my life, but it's just it's a 52 00:04:00.879 --> 00:04:05.319 little bit of everything. It's a little bit of everything. I have realized 53 00:04:05.360 --> 00:04:14.560 that I really need to focus on self love and pouring into myself. I 54 00:04:14.680 --> 00:04:20.240 need to not get distracted by people and the things around me. I I've 55 00:04:20.279 --> 00:04:24.920 come to the conclusion. And my home girl be saying, like, no, 56 00:04:25.040 --> 00:04:28.839 I don't think that's what it is. I mean whatever, whatever y'all 57 00:04:28.839 --> 00:04:30.519 know, like Nigga's wanna be in a relationship and all that, But I 58 00:04:30.519 --> 00:04:39.399 I honestly, honest, fucking lee, I really believe that I'm meant to 59 00:04:39.439 --> 00:04:46.199 be alone. I really, deep in my heart believe that I am meant 60 00:04:46.279 --> 00:04:48.759 to be alone. Number one, I'm meant to be alone because I have 61 00:04:48.839 --> 00:04:53.120 a mission to fulfill in this life. Like I have a destiny. I 62 00:04:53.199 --> 00:04:57.639 have a purpose. And I've known this for so long and for whatever reason, 63 00:04:58.319 --> 00:05:00.399 and this is something this is something that me, my homeboys have always 64 00:05:00.439 --> 00:05:04.759 said, like before we become super successful in life, we wanted to find 65 00:05:04.839 --> 00:05:10.199 our person because when you get to that point of success, when you get 66 00:05:10.240 --> 00:05:14.560 to that peak in life, niggas niggas ain't gonna be genuine. Nigga's only 67 00:05:14.600 --> 00:05:16.720 gonna want you for what you got, who you are, you know what 68 00:05:16.800 --> 00:05:20.720 I'm saying at that point, not for who you truly are. So in 69 00:05:20.759 --> 00:05:25.079 my mind, I've always been like, first of all, I've always been 70 00:05:25.079 --> 00:05:28.199 a lover girl, always been a fucking lover girl. You know what I'm 71 00:05:28.199 --> 00:05:32.480 saying, Just love, love, love, deep love. Heart would give 72 00:05:32.639 --> 00:05:36.240 a motherfucker my all, just cause that's just the type of person I am. 73 00:05:36.279 --> 00:05:41.240 And sometimes it really makes me upset to be that person and be like, 74 00:05:41.439 --> 00:05:45.480 damn, you know what I'm saying, Like, but my heart will 75 00:05:45.560 --> 00:05:49.839 never change no matter what happens to me, no matter, you know, 76 00:05:50.240 --> 00:05:55.120 whatever I go through with a person or what Nobody's ever gonna turn me cold. 77 00:05:55.160 --> 00:05:57.959 And I also think that's another reason why people hate me, because it's 78 00:05:58.040 --> 00:06:01.199 like, damn, bitch, I gotta be is dirty ass, fucked up 79 00:06:01.240 --> 00:06:03.839 ass person. You like. I want to be a better person, but 80 00:06:04.000 --> 00:06:06.920 I like, you know, but it's just not in. It's sometimes it's 81 00:06:06.959 --> 00:06:12.040 just not in a person to be a good person or a genuine person. 82 00:06:12.360 --> 00:06:15.560 A lot of people be fighting a lot of demons and a lot of internal 83 00:06:15.639 --> 00:06:18.879 issues you know what I'm saying. And that's not to say that I don't 84 00:06:18.879 --> 00:06:23.399 have my own issues, because I just said I need to really focus on 85 00:06:23.439 --> 00:06:29.399 self love and pouring into myself and putting myself first. So of course a 86 00:06:29.480 --> 00:06:31.959 relationship a nigga, all of that is going to be a distraction for me 87 00:06:33.399 --> 00:06:38.480 because if niggas was giving me what I wanted and giving me that lover girl 88 00:06:38.560 --> 00:06:43.959 action, I would just be man. I'd probably be pregnant with a kid 89 00:06:44.040 --> 00:06:47.319 right now, you know what I'm saying. So it's probably best that I 90 00:06:47.360 --> 00:06:50.199 don't get the things that I want cause I need to be focused on the 91 00:06:50.279 --> 00:06:58.839 things that are going to bring me to my purpose in life. Another thing 92 00:06:59.040 --> 00:07:08.199 is anytime i'm that I date or I get distracted by men, I always 93 00:07:08.240 --> 00:07:11.399 feel like they hate on me. I'm not gonna lie every time. I 94 00:07:11.439 --> 00:07:15.399 feel like every time, and a nigga don't have to necessarily be pursuing me. 95 00:07:15.439 --> 00:07:18.519 I could be pursuing a nigga. But regardless, any time that I 96 00:07:18.639 --> 00:07:25.319 become romantically involved or gets on that level with a man, I promise you 97 00:07:25.680 --> 00:07:29.240 they love me in the beginning, they love the person that I am, 98 00:07:29.360 --> 00:07:31.000 and then all of a sudden, these niggas just hate me, and it's 99 00:07:31.040 --> 00:07:36.040 like it's the craziest thing to me. But I'm aware of my light, 100 00:07:38.319 --> 00:07:45.480 I'm aware of my greatness. I'm aware of the person that I and I 101 00:07:45.600 --> 00:07:49.639 and that's another thing I always talk about self awareness, and that's like I 102 00:07:49.759 --> 00:07:57.639 will say, I'm a very strong minded person, not to say that things 103 00:07:57.639 --> 00:08:00.000 don't get to me or you know what I'm saying, because I'm here, 104 00:08:00.000 --> 00:08:01.879 I'm in this fuck nigga, you know what I'm saying. My feelings will 105 00:08:01.879 --> 00:08:05.000 get hurt by shit, But for the most part, I'm a very strong 106 00:08:05.040 --> 00:08:09.399 minded woman, and I know who I am. I'm a very self aware 107 00:08:09.399 --> 00:08:13.560 of person, so I understand where things are being projected onto me, you 108 00:08:13.639 --> 00:08:20.279 know what I'm saying. That's why it's very important to be just very aware 109 00:08:20.319 --> 00:08:24.279 of who you are as a person and to really learn yourself and and be 110 00:08:24.399 --> 00:08:26.480 okay with the person that you are, so that you are solid enough to 111 00:08:26.560 --> 00:08:31.399 stand on your own two feet, solid enough to stand on your tin toes 112 00:08:31.439 --> 00:08:35.559 and still be cool regardless of whatever the world or people is throwing at you. 113 00:08:35.600 --> 00:08:43.039 Because motherfucker's is gonna try to tear you down. And that's another thing. 114 00:08:43.120 --> 00:08:46.080 I'm in a really weird space right now because I feel like I'm in 115 00:08:46.080 --> 00:08:50.720 a counterproductive space because for me, I'm happy where I am. You know 116 00:08:50.720 --> 00:08:54.240 what I'm saying. I'm happy with the moves that I'm made. I'm happy 117 00:08:54.279 --> 00:08:56.279 with the things that I'm doing in the in the direction that I'm going, 118 00:08:58.360 --> 00:09:03.200 and I feel like I'm building myself off up. But I feel like the 119 00:09:03.320 --> 00:09:11.960 things around me are trying to tear me down. I feel like people are 120 00:09:11.039 --> 00:09:15.559 throwing rocks and trying to hide their hands. You know what I'm saying. 121 00:09:16.480 --> 00:09:20.120 I feel I feel like a lot of shit is It's like a it's very 122 00:09:20.200 --> 00:09:24.279 backhanded, like damn, that was a backhanded compliment, Like damn. D 123 00:09:24.519 --> 00:09:26.279 you know what I'm saying, Like, tell me how you really feel. 124 00:09:28.240 --> 00:09:31.159 So it's just a really weird situation. But at the end of the day, 125 00:09:31.320 --> 00:09:35.200 I know that I'm blessed. I know that I'm protected, I know 126 00:09:35.279 --> 00:09:39.360 that I'm covered, I know that I'm in God's good grace. So, 127 00:09:39.720 --> 00:09:41.480 you know what I'm saying, And at the end of the day, I'm 128 00:09:41.480 --> 00:09:46.519 always end up wherever it is that I'm supposed to be. I know that 129 00:09:46.519 --> 00:09:50.360 I'm a mother fucking warrior. I'm a motherfucking fighter. I'd haven't been through 130 00:09:50.399 --> 00:09:54.799 the worst of all for i'dn't been through the worst shit in in life. 131 00:09:54.960 --> 00:09:58.840 F you know what I'm saying, in in my own in my own life, 132 00:09:58.840 --> 00:10:01.320 in my own aspect what I'm saying, I'm sure other people have been 133 00:10:01.399 --> 00:10:03.679 through worst, but for me, I hadn't been through the worst of the 134 00:10:03.679 --> 00:10:07.039 worst in my life. You know what I'm saying. It can't get it 135 00:10:07.440 --> 00:10:09.279 can't get no worse than the shit that I've already been through. And the 136 00:10:09.279 --> 00:10:13.200 point is that I've made it through all of those moments. Anytime that I'm 137 00:10:13.240 --> 00:10:16.399 in a situation with a nigga, I'd be like, it can't be no 138 00:10:16.440 --> 00:10:18.639 worse than my baby dad, that nigga, you know what I'm saying, 139 00:10:18.799 --> 00:10:22.799 Like that was probably the worst of all situations, cause I ended up having 140 00:10:22.840 --> 00:10:24.039 a kid with that person, you know what I'm saying. So I always 141 00:10:24.080 --> 00:10:26.080 just look back at that, like, nigga, if I went through that 142 00:10:26.120 --> 00:10:31.840 with my baby daddy, y'all, niggas ain't shit to me. So it 143 00:10:31.879 --> 00:10:37.840 is what it is. I also was having a conversation with my home girl 144 00:10:37.960 --> 00:10:43.000 yesterday and we was talking about how our roles are reversed. So one thing 145 00:10:43.039 --> 00:10:50.120 that I also have really recognized in this time in my life is that I 146 00:10:50.159 --> 00:10:54.759 appreciate where I am and I feel like I'm in a different phase. So 147 00:10:56.200 --> 00:11:01.159 for my home girl, she's in a in a season where she gets to 148 00:11:01.200 --> 00:11:05.600 really be on her mom shit and really spend time at home with her daughter 149 00:11:05.519 --> 00:11:09.639 and be very nurturing and taking care of the home and spending that quality time 150 00:11:09.679 --> 00:11:13.840 with her to like, cause she always had to work. So now I'm 151 00:11:13.879 --> 00:11:18.279 in a space where I could be in my in my bag, and I 152 00:11:18.320 --> 00:11:20.360 could work, and I could really be on my hustle and bustle and all 153 00:11:20.399 --> 00:11:26.720 of that, and I could step away from, you know, the many 154 00:11:26.799 --> 00:11:31.240 responsibilities of being a mom. And somebody had told me before, like, 155 00:11:31.720 --> 00:11:37.120 you know, you are a great mom, and you have spent the majority 156 00:11:37.200 --> 00:11:41.799 of your years really being a nurturer and raising your child, you know what 157 00:11:41.879 --> 00:11:48.279 I'm saying, But you never really got the chance to be a like a 158 00:11:48.440 --> 00:11:52.000 a mom and another aspect of being like a provider and going to work. 159 00:11:52.039 --> 00:11:54.960 I mean I I have, I've I've had jobs, I've worked and all 160 00:11:54.960 --> 00:11:56.759 of that, but it's just it's just a different space it's a different time. 161 00:11:56.799 --> 00:12:03.039 And even with other things, like right before I came here, I 162 00:12:03.080 --> 00:12:05.320 wasn't really working like a full time job. I was just trying to do 163 00:12:05.399 --> 00:12:09.600 yoga full time, which was not really a thing. You know what I'm 164 00:12:09.639 --> 00:12:11.360 saying, It's very hard. You gotta really be able to build up your 165 00:12:11.360 --> 00:12:16.799 clientele and build your own yoga tribe like that shit ain't gonna come overnight. 166 00:12:16.879 --> 00:12:20.720 So you just teaching a class here and there during the week. First of 167 00:12:20.759 --> 00:12:24.120 all, you're not gonna be a motherfucking millionaire yoga off that shit, Like 168 00:12:24.399 --> 00:12:31.559 niggas need money to survive. So I was really in my yoga bag. 169 00:12:31.679 --> 00:12:37.320 I'm talking about you doing yoga every day, teaching yoga every not every day, 170 00:12:37.399 --> 00:12:41.799 but I was just doing yoga every day, and so you know, 171 00:12:43.159 --> 00:12:46.960 I was also on my mom bag, being a mom every day. But 172 00:12:46.159 --> 00:12:50.360 then when I got here, it's switched. So now I'm kind of, 173 00:12:50.440 --> 00:12:52.799 you know, kind of chilling on them on on the mom aspect as far 174 00:12:52.879 --> 00:13:01.480 as like being there every day doing the everyday shit. And then and I 175 00:13:01.600 --> 00:13:03.919 noticed that I kind of started slipping with yoga, Like dang, I came 176 00:13:05.000 --> 00:13:09.799 here and just like not doing yoga every day, but again, I feel 177 00:13:09.840 --> 00:13:13.360 like it's a different season. Obviously that's something that I still should be doing 178 00:13:13.639 --> 00:13:18.320 daily, but I ain't gotta do yoga every day right now, cause that's 179 00:13:18.320 --> 00:13:20.240 not why I came I mean, that is a part of the reason why 180 00:13:20.279 --> 00:13:24.759 I came here, but the main thing was to get money and to get 181 00:13:24.799 --> 00:13:28.840 myself established and to really get on my feet. So right now, I'm 182 00:13:28.879 --> 00:13:31.720 in my bag bag, I'm in my hustle bag, I'm in my grind 183 00:13:31.799 --> 00:13:35.240 bag, you know what I'm saying. So again, it's gonna be different 184 00:13:35.279 --> 00:13:39.759 seasons in your life. It's gonna be different stages, it's gonna be different 185 00:13:39.759 --> 00:13:43.960 phases, and you gotta be able to understand and recognize what season you're in, 186 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:52.279 you know what I'm saying. Another thing that I've really realized during my 187 00:13:52.399 --> 00:13:56.720 time here, and just as I'm making these decisions and just following my own 188 00:13:56.720 --> 00:14:01.480 fucking path, marching to the beat of my own drummers that you cannot listen 189 00:14:01.519 --> 00:14:07.080 to other people. You cannot nobody else can tell you about your life, 190 00:14:07.120 --> 00:14:09.440 where you should be going, what you should be doing, what works best 191 00:14:09.480 --> 00:14:15.279 for you, because it's not their fucking life. And again, look at 192 00:14:15.279 --> 00:14:18.519 them motherfucker's lives and where they are and where their decisions have got. You 193 00:14:18.559 --> 00:14:20.200 know what I'm saying, Because a lot of people really be unhappy with their 194 00:14:20.200 --> 00:14:24.360 own lives. So who are you to fucking tell me what I should be 195 00:14:24.399 --> 00:14:26.039 doing, how I should be moving, you know what I'm saying, Like, 196 00:14:26.120 --> 00:14:30.000 I really just wish that people will worry about their own fucking lives, 197 00:14:31.960 --> 00:14:35.080 especially when they shit is not together, especially when your shit is not together, 198 00:14:35.320 --> 00:14:39.120 you know what I'm saying. And I don't even know why you would 199 00:14:39.120 --> 00:14:46.159 have so much time and energy to put into what the fuck I got going 200 00:14:46.240 --> 00:14:48.200 on and trying to tell me some shit like you're fucking guy like that shit 201 00:14:48.320 --> 00:14:54.919 is just wild to me. I think everybody should just worry about themselves and 202 00:14:54.039 --> 00:15:01.679 what they got going on in their own life. I mean, it's cool 203 00:15:01.720 --> 00:15:05.080 to get advice from people if you ask for it or if you want it, 204 00:15:05.159 --> 00:15:11.480 you know what I'm saying. But ultimately, this is my life and 205 00:15:11.519 --> 00:15:16.559 I'm gonna navigate it the way that I fucking want to. That's another thing. 206 00:15:16.480 --> 00:15:22.320 I feel like I've never really lived my life for myself. And I've 207 00:15:22.360 --> 00:15:26.759 said this on here many times before. I've never lived my life truly for 208 00:15:28.639 --> 00:15:33.879 myself. For Jasmine Daniel Bradford, I've never lived for myself. I've never 209 00:15:33.919 --> 00:15:37.320 put myself first. And that's what I think that women really need to understand, 210 00:15:39.039 --> 00:15:41.960 especially as mothers, because I think we get it twisted. I think 211 00:15:43.000 --> 00:15:46.720 we really get it twisted. I'm not saying that your children are not a 212 00:15:46.799 --> 00:15:54.240 priority in that they shouldn't come first, but in reality, you can't put 213 00:15:54.279 --> 00:15:58.120 anything above or before yourself. If you're not good, you're never going to 214 00:15:58.200 --> 00:16:04.080 be able to flourish or be great for the other things or the other people 215 00:16:04.240 --> 00:16:07.399 in your life. You know what I'm saying. If you don't put yourself 216 00:16:07.440 --> 00:16:12.039 first and you're not together, we always talk about pouring from an empty cup 217 00:16:12.159 --> 00:16:17.519 or you know what I'm saying, Like, it's just not possible. It's 218 00:16:17.559 --> 00:16:22.279 just not possible. And that's why it does take a fucking village to raise 219 00:16:22.480 --> 00:16:26.039 kids and all of that. Like, so you definitely want to have a 220 00:16:26.120 --> 00:16:30.000 great support system. Hopefully you have a great baby father. Hopefully you got 221 00:16:30.080 --> 00:16:34.240 a nigga around you that wanna see you flourish and succeed and do good. 222 00:16:34.279 --> 00:16:37.320 And uh, you know what I'm saying, Like, where is the supportive 223 00:16:37.399 --> 00:16:42.519 niggas at cause God damn niggas be trying to tear a bitch down. I'm 224 00:16:42.600 --> 00:16:47.600 trying to break up it now. Niggas wanna take you the Poundtown. They 225 00:16:47.639 --> 00:16:52.679 wanna break a bitch down too, like Poundtown and Downtown, tear this bitch 226 00:16:52.720 --> 00:16:57.840 down to the ground. But no, we're the supportive niggas at. You 227 00:16:57.879 --> 00:17:03.919 know what I'm saying, And that's you know, I ain't gonna I don't 228 00:17:03.960 --> 00:17:07.839 know, I don't know, well know, I do know, Like I 229 00:17:07.880 --> 00:17:11.039 remember, I used to kind of laugh at the whole Nicki Minaj just a 230 00:17:11.079 --> 00:17:14.880 fari situation like in the beginning, like damn that nigga just be running up 231 00:17:14.920 --> 00:17:18.880 behind her and just whatever. But that I ain't gonna lie that. That's 232 00:17:18.920 --> 00:17:22.480 the type of nigga you need at least, at least a nigga is supporting 233 00:17:22.519 --> 00:17:29.599 and holding you down. You know what I'm saying, Cause you don't wanna 234 00:17:29.440 --> 00:17:33.279 know Ike Turner as nigga because that's the thing. Ike knew that Tina was 235 00:17:33.319 --> 00:17:37.359 the star. You know what I'm saying. I think that's why he behaved 236 00:17:37.400 --> 00:17:41.039 the way that he did. I think that's why, you know, the 237 00:17:41.200 --> 00:17:44.160 relationship was the way that he that it was because he knew that she was 238 00:17:44.200 --> 00:17:51.519 the star. Ain't shit without Tina turn you know what I'm saying. Like, 239 00:17:51.559 --> 00:17:52.880 I mean, Ike had his own thing going on in the beginning, 240 00:17:52.920 --> 00:17:57.319 but even still, he was never gonna be what Tina Turner was gonna be, 241 00:17:57.440 --> 00:18:02.480 you know what I'm saying. And so I'm not saying that you gotta 242 00:18:02.519 --> 00:18:04.559 be a motherfucking diva. But if you, if you know you, if 243 00:18:04.559 --> 00:18:07.519 you know you the star, bitch, then you the star. And you 244 00:18:07.799 --> 00:18:12.640 see another thing that I really like. And niggas be hating on these niggas 245 00:18:12.640 --> 00:18:17.039 too. Niggas always be hating on Sierra and Russell Wilson so hard, and 246 00:18:17.160 --> 00:18:21.240 niggas always be trying to talk shit about him like he a ham, he 247 00:18:21.359 --> 00:18:23.920 had cornball, and like, no, he loves his wife and his fucking 248 00:18:23.960 --> 00:18:30.359 family, you know what I'm saying. And not that niggas know the ends 249 00:18:30.400 --> 00:18:37.279 and outs some niggas relationships, but from the outside looking in, they look 250 00:18:37.359 --> 00:18:41.039 like a very happy couple and he looks like a very supportive husband, you 251 00:18:41.079 --> 00:18:44.839 know what I'm saying. Like, and that's the type of shit that I 252 00:18:44.920 --> 00:18:47.599 want. But anyway, that's the type of shit that is always a distraction 253 00:18:47.680 --> 00:18:52.200 for me. So I'm really just trying to focus on myself and get to 254 00:18:52.240 --> 00:18:55.039 where the fuck I need to be. Cause every time, every time, 255 00:18:55.240 --> 00:19:00.079 every time I get a little momentum going, I get distracted and then and 256 00:19:00.880 --> 00:19:06.200 be like God, damn, ten two steps for for ten steps back. 257 00:19:06.559 --> 00:19:11.039 So it's just very important to do a little self reflection on your life and 258 00:19:11.039 --> 00:19:33.079 where you are. What else, Like I said earlier, I feel like 259 00:19:33.160 --> 00:19:37.319 I'm in a weird space. I feel like I'm in a counterproductive space, 260 00:19:37.400 --> 00:19:41.680 but ultimately I feel like I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. Right now, 261 00:19:41.160 --> 00:19:48.079 I feel like I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. I feel like, 262 00:19:48.440 --> 00:19:55.599 even though I sometimes feel like I'm surrounded by bad energy and shit that's 263 00:19:55.759 --> 00:20:00.359 trying to throw me off, I I just look at everything is if like, 264 00:20:00.519 --> 00:20:03.200 what is this trying to teach me? What is this trying to tell 265 00:20:03.200 --> 00:20:11.640 me? And ultimately it's not even like it's all on outside uh sources or 266 00:20:11.799 --> 00:20:15.880 people or it isn't it's it's not about it being a whole external thing. 267 00:20:15.920 --> 00:20:26.119 It's really about me because I attracted everything that is around me right now, 268 00:20:26.160 --> 00:20:30.799 you know what I'm saying, I attracted all of this to me, And 269 00:20:30.160 --> 00:20:34.839 one thing that you have to realize is that your life is a fucking mirror. 270 00:20:37.359 --> 00:20:41.640 Everything is something that you attracted. Everything is a reflection of who you 271 00:20:41.720 --> 00:20:48.119 are. So I could say I got all this shit going on all around 272 00:20:48.200 --> 00:20:52.119 me, everything is a distraction and shit trying to bring me down, but 273 00:20:56.319 --> 00:21:02.559 there's a much deeper understanding of why it's in my life and what it's here 274 00:21:02.559 --> 00:21:06.039 to show me because I do have a lot of work to do as a 275 00:21:06.079 --> 00:21:10.680 person, you know what I'm saying. As an individual, I've learned a 276 00:21:10.720 --> 00:21:15.839 lot about myself as far as even wanting to be in a relationship or have 277 00:21:17.000 --> 00:21:22.440 a companion like this whole situation has really put a mirror up to me and 278 00:21:22.519 --> 00:21:26.640 just shown me who I am. And I I understand that I do have 279 00:21:26.720 --> 00:21:32.240 a lot to work on, but I also again, I do have a 280 00:21:32.240 --> 00:21:36.400 lot to work on, but this is also showing me how strong I am 281 00:21:36.440 --> 00:21:38.599 and just who I am and what's in me. You know what I'm saying, 282 00:21:38.680 --> 00:21:42.240 Like I'm telling you a bitch cannot be spiritually broken. I'm too fucking 283 00:21:42.279 --> 00:21:48.160 strong for that shit. And that's and that's and that's word, that's word 284 00:21:48.200 --> 00:21:51.559 to the Lord, that's word to God, that's word to the universe, 285 00:21:51.599 --> 00:21:59.559 that's word to just the fact that like it's in me, not own me. 286 00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:06.680 I cannot be spiritually broken. I cannot be spiritually broken because I'm that 287 00:22:06.839 --> 00:22:10.279 girl. Period. It's just in me, you know what I'm saying, 288 00:22:10.440 --> 00:22:17.880 Like, it's just it's what it is. But I will say though life, 289 00:22:18.000 --> 00:22:23.079 life is hard. Shit is hard. The universe is gonna throw them 290 00:22:23.200 --> 00:22:32.400 curveballs. It's gonna put baby, it's gonna put the big bad wolf in 291 00:22:32.480 --> 00:22:36.680 your motherfucking story. It's gonna it's gonna do it all. It's going to 292 00:22:36.839 --> 00:22:41.720 do it all. But you gotta be able to overcome all of that shit. 293 00:22:41.839 --> 00:22:45.759 You gotta be over You gotta be able to overcome all the obstacles, 294 00:22:45.160 --> 00:22:51.480 all the shit that's thrown in your path, all of the speed bumps, 295 00:22:51.519 --> 00:22:55.079 all the shit that's meant to break you. Bro, It's really just gonna 296 00:22:55.079 --> 00:22:59.599 build you the fuck up. So keep coming with the shit too. I 297 00:23:00.000 --> 00:23:07.759 went to pass the test every fucking time. Period. Mh. I'm tryna 298 00:23:07.759 --> 00:23:12.519 think of what else is going on. I met a lot of interesting people. 299 00:23:12.640 --> 00:23:18.920 I've met a lot of cool people. I really be back and forth 300 00:23:18.960 --> 00:23:22.759 with a lot of the decisions that I'll be making, like damn, I 301 00:23:22.799 --> 00:23:26.839 should have did this, I should have did that, like one of the 302 00:23:26.920 --> 00:23:32.039 decisions that I've made. When I first got here, I I had two 303 00:23:32.119 --> 00:23:37.200 jobs. I got two jobs, and the first job that I got was 304 00:23:37.240 --> 00:23:45.880 at a luxury hotel, and that bitch was nice as fuck, and I 305 00:23:45.960 --> 00:23:48.720 just felt like two jobs would be too much for me. I ain't go 306 00:23:48.799 --> 00:23:52.119 a lot. I'd be tired with one job. It's just it's a lot, 307 00:23:52.200 --> 00:23:56.240 and just based on my circumstances and everything that's going on, I just 308 00:23:56.279 --> 00:24:00.119 feel like it was possible to do both, but I'm like, I'm just 309 00:24:00.200 --> 00:24:04.440 gonna do one. So I ended up going with another job that actually paid 310 00:24:04.960 --> 00:24:11.799 more than the luxury hotel. But I ain't gonna lie. I just missed 311 00:24:11.799 --> 00:24:15.880 the luxury hotel, like I missed the vibes. And I look at the 312 00:24:15.960 --> 00:24:18.480 differences, because I do work at a hotel, so I look at the 313 00:24:18.519 --> 00:24:22.839 differences between the two, and I know that the other one would have been 314 00:24:22.839 --> 00:24:26.799 more of an experience and probably just you know, better on a resume and 315 00:24:26.880 --> 00:24:30.599 all of that, and I just really missed the fucking vibes cause it's just 316 00:24:30.680 --> 00:24:33.240 not the same. The one that I work at is nice, but it's 317 00:24:33.279 --> 00:24:40.319 just like it's not luxury though it's not giving, it's not given experience. 318 00:24:40.559 --> 00:24:44.720 But I mean, it all happened for a reason. And I also think 319 00:24:44.799 --> 00:24:52.319 that another reason why it happened the way that it did was because it just 320 00:24:52.359 --> 00:24:59.839 all worked out perfectly. Like I only went to like four days of orientation 321 00:25:00.119 --> 00:25:03.240 for the one job before I had got caught up with the other one trying 322 00:25:03.240 --> 00:25:07.119 to trying to make a decision on what I was gonna do between the two, 323 00:25:07.599 --> 00:25:11.640 and so I let one go. But luckily that job was paying weekly, 324 00:25:11.720 --> 00:25:14.799 so it was enough to, you know, keep a bit steady above 325 00:25:15.440 --> 00:25:19.200 water, you know what I'm saying. And then I got this other job. 326 00:25:19.799 --> 00:25:26.720 So I don't know, but it's just it's been an experience. I've 327 00:25:26.720 --> 00:25:33.480 been here for shit almost a month now. The weather is fucking crazy, 328 00:25:33.480 --> 00:25:36.920 Like you can't even be outside. You could not even fucking be outside cause 329 00:25:36.960 --> 00:25:40.559 it be that fucking hot. And you gotta have air. You gotta have 330 00:25:40.720 --> 00:25:42.559 air in this bitch, Like I ain't gonna lie. We ain't have air 331 00:25:42.799 --> 00:25:48.559 to crib in Detroit. Uh. We got the little uh, the little 332 00:25:48.599 --> 00:25:51.920 air conditioners that you put in the window, but like no, like you 333 00:25:52.079 --> 00:25:55.359 have to have air in this bitch, or your shit is gonna melt. 334 00:25:55.559 --> 00:25:57.480 Another thing, I saw a video on TikTok the other day talk about do 335 00:25:57.559 --> 00:26:03.279 not move to Texas. It was just running down all the shit, like 336 00:26:03.880 --> 00:26:07.000 niggas gotta pay tolls on the free Like why the fuck do you gotta pay 337 00:26:07.039 --> 00:26:11.519 on the fucking you gotta pay to drive on the freeway? Bro, I 338 00:26:11.519 --> 00:26:15.720 I haven't uh, I haven't crossed no tolls though not on the path that 339 00:26:15.759 --> 00:26:19.599 I'd be going. But it's like why the fuck that? What? What? 340 00:26:19.880 --> 00:26:22.960 And didn't even at work? There was like do you have a toll 341 00:26:22.000 --> 00:26:25.799 tag? And I'm like, no, nigga, what the fuck? Like 342 00:26:26.319 --> 00:26:27.920 it's just very wild to me that what else did she say in the video? 343 00:26:29.000 --> 00:26:33.200 She she complained about the heat. I don't know. And then I 344 00:26:33.279 --> 00:26:37.359 also just be seeing niggas on TikTok talking about like don't move to tag. 345 00:26:37.400 --> 00:26:38.720 A lot of niggas be talking about don't move to Houston. I heard that's 346 00:26:38.759 --> 00:26:44.960 like lyddy city something, and I do wanna go to Houston, but that's 347 00:26:44.960 --> 00:26:47.680 not really the vibes for me, Like I'm not trying to be in a 348 00:26:47.720 --> 00:26:51.240 party city twenty four seven, but I do wanna go check it out. 349 00:26:51.519 --> 00:26:55.000 I feel like everybody on my timeline be going to Houston all the fucking time, 350 00:26:55.960 --> 00:27:02.559 but Dellas, Dellas got some cool vibes. I I also have been 351 00:27:02.599 --> 00:27:04.240 just trying to, like, you know, look at different places and see 352 00:27:04.279 --> 00:27:14.039 what areas that I would like to live in. The other night, man, 353 00:27:14.519 --> 00:27:18.279 I think I was in Grand Prairie maybe, And then I was also 354 00:27:18.400 --> 00:27:23.000 liking what is that shit called Cedar Oak or some shit Cedar Hill or some 355 00:27:23.079 --> 00:27:30.440 shit, but man, very beautiful neighborhood, very beautiful houses, Like I 356 00:27:30.480 --> 00:27:33.519 couldn't even believe it. It was. It was giving all of the inspiration 357 00:27:33.599 --> 00:27:37.480 that I needed. Like, and that's another thing that I'd be writing down 358 00:27:37.519 --> 00:27:41.960 the like my manifestations and in my journal and about you know, just being 359 00:27:42.039 --> 00:27:45.079 blessed with a new home, in a new car and all of that shit. 360 00:27:45.319 --> 00:27:49.240 And baby, when I went through that neighborhood, I I've never seen 361 00:27:49.279 --> 00:27:55.240 no houses that beautiful before. I was just in awe. So I was 362 00:27:55.319 --> 00:28:00.319 taking that all in for inspiration and motivation. And I also saw some really 363 00:28:00.359 --> 00:28:03.000 nice houses. Yes, I saw some million dollar houses yesterday. Uh, 364 00:28:04.599 --> 00:28:11.000 when I was on my little journey downtown and shit, and I also got 365 00:28:11.039 --> 00:28:14.599 on the scooters and shit, it was just it was a vibe. It 366 00:28:14.640 --> 00:28:18.000 was a vibe. So I really enjoyed myself. And that's another thing. 367 00:28:18.039 --> 00:28:23.319 You gotta take time to enjoy your fucking self, okay, Cause also there's 368 00:28:23.400 --> 00:28:29.559 nothing it's nothing worse than being in a relationship or whatever, being in the 369 00:28:29.640 --> 00:28:33.640 space or you know, being in the presence of somebody else and still feeling 370 00:28:34.000 --> 00:28:38.680 alone or feeling lonely like that shit as whack as fuck. Like I could 371 00:28:38.720 --> 00:28:41.720 be alone and feel alone, but also you could be you could be alone. 372 00:28:42.279 --> 00:28:45.880 I could be alone and feel alone, you know what I'm saying. 373 00:28:45.400 --> 00:28:49.000 But you don't have to be alone and feel lonely. Cause I feel great 374 00:28:49.039 --> 00:28:52.839 by my fucking self. Like I said, I could do anything by my 375 00:28:52.920 --> 00:28:56.680 fucking self. Go to eat by myself, have drinks by myself, spend 376 00:28:56.720 --> 00:29:00.039 the block by myself, go to a concert by myself, go to the 377 00:29:00.039 --> 00:29:03.559 movies by my Like, I can have a great time by my fucking self. 378 00:29:03.559 --> 00:29:06.640 I don't need to be with somebody else and feel like god damn like 379 00:29:07.559 --> 00:29:10.319 I might as well be by myself, cause what are you even bringing, 380 00:29:10.480 --> 00:29:18.400 you know what I'm saying. So it's just crazy. And at the end 381 00:29:18.440 --> 00:29:22.160 of the day, it's it's no bad blood here, It's no bad blood. 382 00:29:22.319 --> 00:29:30.000 But you know, every everything is a is a learning lesson and everything 383 00:29:30.200 --> 00:29:36.680 is just an experience, And how how are you ever going to learn if 384 00:29:36.680 --> 00:29:41.160 you don't experience it, how are you ever gonna grow? And that's also 385 00:29:41.200 --> 00:29:44.160 why I'm so glad that I'm in the space that I'm in now and I 386 00:29:44.200 --> 00:29:48.680 decided to, you know, take the steps that I took to get to 387 00:29:48.720 --> 00:29:52.960 where I am now, because it really changed the trajectory of my life. 388 00:29:52.960 --> 00:29:56.240 It put me in a different space, you know what I'm saying. It's 389 00:29:56.279 --> 00:30:00.720 putting me around new opportunities. It's helping me grow as an individual, as 390 00:30:00.759 --> 00:30:03.920 a as a woman, as a mother, all you know what I'm saying, 391 00:30:03.960 --> 00:30:07.839 Like you you gotta put yourself in different spaces, in different places to 392 00:30:07.880 --> 00:30:11.599 be able to grow, cause if not, you're gonna be stagnant. And 393 00:30:11.640 --> 00:30:15.319 that's how I felt like being in Detroit. The energy is very stagnant for 394 00:30:15.440 --> 00:30:23.039 me, is very complacent. It's very like just very still, and I'm 395 00:30:23.160 --> 00:30:30.119 very much tired of feeling like that in my life. I'm not gonna lie. 396 00:30:30.119 --> 00:30:33.839 And the other thing is, you know, I'll be taking my my 397 00:30:33.079 --> 00:30:38.440 very long breaks from the podcast, and I think it's a part of it. 398 00:30:38.359 --> 00:30:47.079 It's just the very weird space that I'm in with a little sprinkle of 399 00:30:47.200 --> 00:30:52.839 not feeling inspired, a little sprinkle of not feeling like myself, but also 400 00:30:52.960 --> 00:31:03.160 just feeling very confused with myself and where I am, and also a little 401 00:31:03.200 --> 00:31:07.160 sprinkle of like it'd be like embarrassment and shame. I'm not gonna lie being 402 00:31:07.160 --> 00:31:12.039 one hundred percent honest right now. Like and again, I shouldn't have to 403 00:31:12.079 --> 00:31:15.680 feel like I. I shouldn't have to feel like that, and I shouldn't 404 00:31:15.720 --> 00:31:19.119 feel like that because at the end of the day, where all humans having 405 00:31:19.160 --> 00:31:22.759 a human experience. But another part of me is just like, I don't 406 00:31:22.759 --> 00:31:26.880 know. I feel like when I come on here and I share my experiences 407 00:31:26.920 --> 00:31:30.200 and my story, and y'all probably like, bitch, we need to hear 408 00:31:30.240 --> 00:31:33.559 this, we want we going through it too, like y'all probably all gonna 409 00:31:33.559 --> 00:31:36.039 agree with me, But a lot of times I just don't like coming on 410 00:31:36.119 --> 00:31:40.759 here to share my experience and what i'd be going through because I feel like 411 00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:45.440 number one, I feel like a lot of the shit be redundant. I 412 00:31:45.519 --> 00:31:52.119 feel like I've been in this space many times where you know, I'm back 413 00:31:52.160 --> 00:31:55.039 to square one, trying to get back on my feet. I just feel 414 00:31:55.079 --> 00:31:59.160 like I'll be telling the same story over and over and it's just I don't 415 00:31:59.200 --> 00:32:05.480 know, But that's just me being in my own head about the situation, 416 00:32:05.559 --> 00:32:07.400 cause it's it's somebody out there, like, bitch, I'm back at square 417 00:32:07.440 --> 00:32:09.440 one two, I don't know, you know what I'm saying, Like people 418 00:32:09.559 --> 00:32:15.319 really be looking for me, waiting for me, all of that. But 419 00:32:15.599 --> 00:32:17.960 again, at the end of the day, we're all fucking human and we 420 00:32:19.119 --> 00:32:25.039 all are having this human experience going through life experience and life, going through 421 00:32:25.039 --> 00:32:31.160 the trials and tribulations, going through the ups and downs of life. But 422 00:32:31.240 --> 00:32:35.720 at the end of the day, you gotta have that balance and you gotta 423 00:32:35.759 --> 00:32:38.680 stay balanced even when they trying to throw you off. Okay, that's a 424 00:32:38.759 --> 00:32:49.079 motherfucking word shots fired for real. You gotta stay balanced cause motherfucker's will try 425 00:32:49.079 --> 00:32:52.720 to throw you off your square every time. And it's just like why why 426 00:32:53.000 --> 00:32:58.559 you know what I'm saying, But and that's why you gotta know it. 427 00:32:58.559 --> 00:33:04.160 It's so much going on internally with people. And I say this all the 428 00:33:04.200 --> 00:33:08.559 time even with my other situations, Like a person that is truly good within 429 00:33:08.839 --> 00:33:13.319 and truly good with themselves would not be trying to bring somebody else down, 430 00:33:13.599 --> 00:33:16.839 you know what I'm saying. I've never intentionally tried to bring nobody down, 431 00:33:19.680 --> 00:33:22.680 because that's just weird to me. And especially if you're truly in a good 432 00:33:22.680 --> 00:33:25.759 space, if you're truly happy with yourself and where you are, why the 433 00:33:25.759 --> 00:33:30.160 fuck would you waste your time spewing out negative energy, you know what I'm 434 00:33:30.160 --> 00:33:34.160 saying. You trying to bring other niggas up too. You could gratulate niggas, 435 00:33:34.240 --> 00:33:38.000 you supporting niggas, you you know what I'm saying, Like, that's 436 00:33:38.039 --> 00:33:43.400 just I don't know, That's just never been my vibe period. So h 437 00:33:44.359 --> 00:33:46.519 it's very weird to me. But it also just shows like to me, 438 00:33:46.599 --> 00:33:50.680 that shows how powerful you are, and like, man, you must really 439 00:33:50.720 --> 00:33:53.119 got something in you for people to you know what I'm saying, that treats 440 00:33:53.119 --> 00:33:57.680 you a certain type of way, or to want to bring you down or 441 00:33:57.720 --> 00:34:05.160 to you know what I'm saying, try to m so you gotta be wearing 442 00:34:05.200 --> 00:34:09.800 and energy around you for real and protect yours and stay on your path and 443 00:34:10.360 --> 00:34:15.679 never forget who the fuck you are because niggas be waiting on you to forget. 444 00:34:15.800 --> 00:34:17.719 Okay, niggas can't wait for you to forget who the fuck you is. 445 00:34:19.800 --> 00:34:22.599 And don't let them motherfucker tell you who they think you are, cause 446 00:34:22.599 --> 00:34:30.079 you don't know shit. Some self awareness is key, listening to your heart 447 00:34:30.199 --> 00:34:34.599 is key, listening to your intuition is key. And sometimes I ain't gonna 448 00:34:34.599 --> 00:34:37.719 lie. Sometimes listening to your heart, I say that's key. But sometimes 449 00:34:37.719 --> 00:34:39.239 that shit'll put you in a crazy direction. But like I said, at 450 00:34:39.239 --> 00:34:43.760 the end of the fucking day, you're gonna end up where you're supposed to 451 00:34:43.760 --> 00:34:47.199 be. There's no wrong turn that you could take. It's a it's all 452 00:34:47.280 --> 00:34:52.679 been like you know what I'm saying. This has all been sketched in stone, 453 00:34:52.719 --> 00:34:58.960 This has all been playing. Every step has been predetermined period. I 454 00:34:58.960 --> 00:35:04.199 mean, along the way, you could do things to detour your path, 455 00:35:04.320 --> 00:35:06.639 but at the end of the day, you're going to be where the fuck 456 00:35:06.679 --> 00:35:08.519 you're supposed to be. So I don't even feel like, oh I fucked 457 00:35:08.599 --> 00:35:10.719 up. I did. At the end of the day, nigga you gonna 458 00:35:10.800 --> 00:35:15.639 learn some shit and move the fuck home. Period. So life gonna keep 459 00:35:15.719 --> 00:35:19.400 pushing. And that's and that's what you gotta that's what you gotta know. 460 00:35:19.760 --> 00:35:23.639 Life is gonna keep pushing. Niggas is gonna keep moving without you. Niggas 461 00:35:23.679 --> 00:35:29.519 gonna keep breathing without you. If you die today, the world is still 462 00:35:29.599 --> 00:35:35.679 gonna turn tomorrow. Your job is gonna find somebody else. Your family gonna 463 00:35:35.719 --> 00:35:37.239 have to keep paying bills. Nigga. You know what I'm saying, niggas. 464 00:35:37.280 --> 00:35:39.880 Niggas might beget about you, Niggas might not. You know what I'm 465 00:35:39.880 --> 00:35:43.440 saying. Niggas might post you on the ground every day if they really fuck 466 00:35:43.480 --> 00:35:45.000 with you. I don't know. But at the end of the day, 467 00:35:45.039 --> 00:35:52.000 this shit is still gonna move, this shit still gonna shake. So it 468 00:35:52.079 --> 00:35:54.679 is what it is. I hope that y'all enjoy this. I hope that 469 00:35:54.760 --> 00:35:59.159 y'all missed me and and was glad to hear my voice. And where I'm 470 00:35:59.199 --> 00:36:07.159 where I'm at with everything, you know, I'm just I'm just out here 471 00:36:07.280 --> 00:36:15.239 living my life l legitimately, like living my life, taking this shit to 472 00:36:15.320 --> 00:36:28.239 day at a time, walking into my destiny, m wherever that is where 473 00:36:28.320 --> 00:36:30.800 wherever it's taking me where I don't I don't know what the endpoint is, 474 00:36:31.000 --> 00:36:37.719 but I know I'm on the right path for sure. I know I am. 475 00:36:37.800 --> 00:36:40.360 So that is all that I have for y'all. Hope that y'all enjoyed 476 00:36:40.400 --> 00:36:45.159 this episode. Make sure that you follow me on all platforms that healing my 477 00:36:45.239 --> 00:36:50.400 homies. Subscribe to the podcast. Right at five stars, they were reviewing, 478 00:36:50.440 --> 00:36:52.119 like you little blackgirn experience, That's all I have for you. I'm out