Can you find out? So um, thank you guys for tuning in to
this week's episode of Hocially Awkward. If this is the first time joining us,
I'm I could properly introduce myself. I'm hosting favorite holtivational speaker, MEMI
me me someone hundred or comer walker if you nasty. I am joined by
my co host as always, we got mister tone deaf ed classic man,
our producer over here producing shit, getting our visuals ready for this evening.
See, I never send them in advance because I'd be wanting real time reactions
and I'd be wanting everybody to see shit at the same time. So I
don't be wanting him to cheat and see it, and then you know,
I want us all to watch it as a unit. We also got got
because he came on my post on some bullshit to that he got the narcissist
nigger the post. It's the same every week, every week. Every week.
It is every week, I know, but so I'm the only one.
I called it. The holes not rejoice in my name. Narcissistic.
It is not man. It is not like there's a whole kingdom of post.
So are you like the bowser of homes that ship no bowser begetting beat
and then all these houses like yop, since we're talking about homes got hit
with like something that blew my fucking mind. Hold on real quick so I
can introduce these two first, and then we jump into that because we do
that a lot were cut into the intros and shit, and then motherfucker's that's
new. Probably be like, so who are our other motherfucker going for?
Start with them, because when you get to us, we we just like
we in the right. We also got the beautiful Sida joining us. Gone
ahead and plug yourself, darling, and don't forget to listen to me on
ninety eight point three, that's what she said. Hey, can we get
that over here too? Maybe Okay, I just need to know these things,
okay. And of course we got mister essential Tomas is in um now
wait wait wait wait wait, can I have some of your delicias? Yeah?
So I made him wait to ask me on er because when I came
in, like I said, I was like I would have been like on
time time, but I had to stop at the liquor store. And then
he's he was ah see with the black bag. Then I pulled out.
You know, my reader, she's like I thought she has some real dreams,
can have something. I'm just really good. I'm just saying like it's
got something in there. I thought it was cute her bringing in some drink.
Very fine, but thank you me me, I look hot. Look,
it's been a long it's been a long day. Not hi, because
that's it's not a whole hole in the middle. It's like that little filter
a baby cap on it. Yeah, just to make sure the drunks don't,
you know, spill. It was probably what's good n look at you?
Yeah, I made sure. Now I did not go to the shelf.
It's for everybody. It's for everybody passed around, Dina said, be
smarter than the bottom Tommy. Hey, um so, before we even get
started, I want to go ahead. I'm gonna wait for wine to pour
up so that he can go ahead and hop on the buttons kid by you
man, hey reader, you and them to the show. Um So,
before we get started, I want to let everybody know an update from our
last show. You know, we were not in last Sunday because it was
Easter. Um so it's been you know, good two weeks. But because
you were here Thursday. Yeah, right, didn't. You didn't miss nothing,
right, y'all didn't. It was just easter then. But I got
the job, y'all. So if you did not see my Facebook posts,
I did get the job. So yeah, yeah, yeah, when you
find out about all your ship, uh they said two weeks. So was
it the day that you It was the day after. I feel like your
your application process was like the fucking Hunger Games. That was the foref interview
and they said they would let me know in two weeks. But I left
everything on the table. I was like, hey, I'm the man for
your job. Really slattered yourself out, yea, hold myself out? What's
up? Because though you ain't wrong, Hey, thank you, thank you,
thank you. Yeah. But I can tell y'all that UM appreciate it.
I can tell y'all that I am really, really really excited. So
I will actually I'll be starting next week Monday. Damn. Yeah. They
And that's what I'm saying, like, this is the fastest I have ever
like the whole process from you know, applying, interviewing, testing, getting
hired and all of that shit. So now no, because I'm drinking this
um unless y'all want me pooting like I was when Rapping was here. No,
but um it's going to be nice. Um. I did go ahead,
Remember I told you I was kind of struggle on if I want to
do the full time of the part time. I did go ahead and decide
to just do the part time for now because I feel like, one,
that's the reason why I apply it in the first place, and it'll give
me the opportunity to really get my feet wet in the position and see if
that's even something that I would want to do full time. And then from
there, you know, I can always I try to push forward. But
the main thing that pushed my decision was because you know, both of my
babies are graduating this year. Ree is graduating high school on May thirty first,
and then Jellybean is graduating from eighth grade on her way to high school
on June fifteenth. And because of how training is structure, you know,
you can't miss training, and they're talking about this shit like four four and
a half five months of training and ship and you have to be there.
I'm not missing my babies graduations, and as a single parent, I have
to be there the full day to help them get ready and get situated and
all of that shit. So you know, there's no in hell I would
have been able to work a full shift and then be able to get them
and myself ready for graduation. So I just went ahead and went with the
part time. But it's all good as long as my foot in the door.
Yeah, I'm sure it was put back recommendation, you know, I
know, listen, listen, listen. I was like, yes, do
you feel like you can sell your recommendation? I think so. I think
I can't too, because the same people every time somebody come to me,
they always get the job me too, always. Ye, I'm gonna keep
that in mind. Oh, don't have them call me. Oh that's it's
a it's a rap. It's a rap. I'ven't played a whole like,
um, what's your last name again? Oh? Yes, yes, aly
Man, I'm so sad to see your goal, like I'm going to miss
herndon going to miss her. But let me tell you, let lemonade is
my favorite drinking the entire world. I'm definitely gonna with you. My pockets
been a little hit right now, y'alling up between me being injured and ship.
But now that I'm back on the workforce. I got you. Hey
poo said, you got the munkeys and ship. Thank you, thank you,
thank you for all the congratulations. I am like, I'm I'm excited
because it's it's been, you know, a couple of years since I've had
a regular job, and my main thing is because of the fact that I
have so many health issues. It's hard working for people because employers don't give
they don't give a fu don't know. I got so many it's hard to
exactly. Kiva Kiva said, Uh, once you in there, you can
move on up exactly. No, I definitely got you. Anybody that needs
references, I'm man. Let me and if you truly truly know me,
like not like just Facebook know me, Like, if you truly know me,
you know how I write shit like I turn that shit on I'm a
hood right on Facebook. But outside of that, nigga, be like,
I literally I literally referenced every sound like hey, I sound like sereda on
Facebook and referenced everything that I witness you do here. Man works. The
job is done. She's consistent, very thorough, and hear love and beyond
because we definitely don't envy, buts two hours, very thorough with a research.
Hey, man, blame them. They be interacting so much that people
be drawing the ind Hey, good shit. Just let me know if you
ever put mango in anything, because I am allergic to mango and I'm not
trying to seize the pineapple on me. So the mang on the pineapple.
Now we just sucking up bought an island shit over here. Wow that sounded
so yeah saying that mango tight seem That's why I'm glad you've been watching camera
so fucking childish brother. If y'all, if y'all have not seen like it's
called, it is what it is, it is what it is camera And
like I didn't watch a full show. I only called two clips on on
Twitter. I took a break from porn Twitter and I've been on a regular
Twitter. Look there's there's a regular Twitter. Because I bit because I logged
into my uh my mimis some one hundred page my regular page instead of my
commer walker page. And I was like, dog this shit, it's fucking
wild. Like they went not a dog mace one giving no fu went in
on PEP. He was like, joke you out pat I know choking like
this ship, because what made me even click on it was the person that
retweeted it and then caption and that was like Ken was trying to apologize to
Pat bad Mason was like, no, fuck that. I was like,
I gotta watch this. He was like, oh, he was like,
oh like that. He was like, and it's like you sounding like murdering,
I'm sounding like killer. He was like, yeah, you're right.
I don't like the side. But when they talked about, um, Charles
Barkley with the soap in his ass, oh c D. He said,
can went in on Charles Barkley. Yeah, so if y'all haven't go look,
please watch it. Watch the whole show. That's some of the funniest
shit. Keep it talking about. She don't know how she ended up on
porn Twitter, but she'd be seeing stuff. Yeah, that was definitely cooking
chucked, you know, management like like that ship was wild as fuck.
But um, yeah, that that was like one of the funnier things that
that I saw on Twitter. Now, Um, for our women that are
in the comments, I know some of y'all like that. Uh it's from
what I heard is pronounced she in, not she it is she in and
what that that's the name of the compan like she In. I don't know
why, but yeah, it's it's she In instead of she So yeah,
yeah, So there is UM some controversy surrounding them, and of course it's
gone now attention was brought to a twenty four hours ago. But you can
go ahead and put that first one up. So when you go on UM
as of yesterday, if you went on their website, UM trying to shop
for jump suits, like, you know, searching for jumpsuits on their site.
You know how most clothing sites, it breaks things down in the categories
like okay, well you know, sizes, patterns, colors, blah blah
blah blah blah. Um. So when you went and looked up jumpsuits and
saw the color black, there was something that popped up. So you got
you know, you're playing your neutral spaghetti strap black. Now from this you
probably can't tell what that is. Oh I sent the regular one. You
don't got a zoom? Yeah? Oh a monkey on a bunch of bananas
for black? How do you get out of that though? Right? Like,
like, how do you use my bad dest one? You know,
white people? Let it go? Damn? Hey, my bad brother,
you can't they let her do that? Nope, How do y'all pronounce the
story? I damn sure, don't call a galaxy. That's what I call
cost that. I don't know how to say that word. I don't never
word. I just say gallas. I've never heard anyone say that word.
Most words you getting here? I used to work there. How do you
say, yeah, there's gas, it's a monkey. But dude, and
let everybody call whatever bananas you know to come shot here? Right? Absolutely,
that's a that's definitely a monkey, kind of might actually be a gorilla
because proper representation, that's definitely a chimp. Like I don't think we chimps.
I can't be like a simperma, you know, I'm not. I
wouldn't even want to be one. Sees was that nigga? He was a
chimp? Was yeah? Seeson ran Ship the white one. That was that
big albino motherfucker the fuck out here? Seeing you already biased against albinos,
I bet that was like, get your ass nigga for you, wasn't it?
But I'm not biased against albinos. Let's stop putting that out there so
you make one. He should makes a good point, she said, the
fact we're keeping them in business though, the fucking audacity see, and that
is why tonight's episode Audacity and food Lastery, that is the name of tonight's
episode, because, believe me, there's a lot of that shit going on
tonight. So I got a question to the ladies and sent a comment,
what's the y'all? What's y'all in car right now? Say? Now,
why the fun would they do that? Some dresses? I want to know
what's in yr machine cart right? A bunch of sun dresses? You said,
A whole suit for forty five dollars is hard to ignore. Yo,
can't we really be bad at this? Monkey? Because these prices, so
go to the just the screenshots. But but you know these prices. Obviously
there are people that agree these prices as motherfucker. So, I mean,
you can't pass them forty five dollars, these are that huh No, it
makes it pop out. I mean, imagine getting getting getting high end jumpsuits.
These are just some of the tweets under the person that brought attention to
it, because you're not they screening. It was like, dude, what
the fuck? And they tagged them on Twitter? Um, so you know,
obviously there were people that were like commenting under it, um sho got
distracted its head trying to find this. Now my card at four hundred dollars
said right, let's be real, I'm gonna just oh you know what.
That's why because this one wasn't first. Yeah, it was so basically the
of what was that? Oh that was a video? Yeah, yeah,
that was the first one. So the first chick was basically like, I'm
still go order from there, but you know, shaking my head. Yeah,
you can't respect, you can't not not mad at the honesty. But
it's the fact that when you look at how they're acting about this, go
ahead, you see the next one. I mean, yeah, oh shit,
we're not these these prices are low. We're not monkeying around. I'm
house said in my brother's house. He's supposed to be coming you being for
me right now. But that's the kind of text menthy you might get from
their ass to right. Kayla said she got too much shit in her card
right now. Prices prices solo, we're not monkey, and one said we
gotta do it like girls used to doing songs. They ain't talking about me.
Price is so back she bout the oscars. Kiva said, damn,
I literally just submitted the order to she. She said, I just act
like I've never seen this because I'm an order from them. Later then somebody
else said, I can't see I'm blind. I guess I can't say.
I guess my main thing we're here now it's too many people that actually prices
lower than n You gotta think about the ridiculous where you can get like your
whole weekend wardrone for under sixty bucks. They not, They're not gonna walk
away from that, Kiva said, are safe for a later section? O
c as fuck. I guess my problem is this? So you got plenty
black women in the comments. It's like shit, it is what it is,
nigga. I'm still gonna shop there my card and I ain't giving it
up. You know whatever. These persons are brananas, you know what,
Just go ahead dropping for you, Just go ahead, dumbass down. I
think I found the joking. Won't let it go? Um, Kiba said,
I mean I could boycott if I wasn't already a frequent shopper for hell,
how long I've been there before? I never knowed No, this was
new that just happened. Yeah, this was new and then they took it
down right away. Um, everybody't even up twenty four hours before somebody,
you know, I think somebody did that as somebody got fired and that's what
they did. Is they going out? No, I guess, like my
big this thing is the fact that so many women because it's obviously it's black
women. You don't see no white women under there because they don't gotta give
a fuck. But all of the black women that are under their like when
I'm still gonna shop and I'm still this and I don't give a fuck about
that or whatever, And it's like y'all being so dismissive about the blatant disrespect
and racism, bragging about the fact that you feel to go place to order
right fucking now. But I guarantee you bitches are the exact same ones that
we're talking about. See this why I don't shop black that's because black people
ain't racist enough. Like I bet that I would bet one of my long
ass titties your prices so it would be like, let's see, this is
exactly why I don't shop around support black business because you feel like, oh,
well, they took too long for shipping. Their motheruckers don't get you
your ship in two three fucking business days. That's because you be monkeying around
with the prices. Your shit ain't your shit, ain't banas he trying to
make it land to Median be out there working on a material and then they
go back to the previous joke because they thought it was funny. Oh god,
that's what you're doing, y'all gonna laugh. I definitely gonna catch these
jokes. It's okay. Yeah, we definitely need to cut his fucking mic
off key because he bowned it. Yeah, I don't think I should remember
this nigga is terrible. Yeah, no one no laughing laughing at you.
Cales said, I finally got my sizing right with them and they do this
ship on to the next place. But yeah, and that's my thing.
That's like, y'all will really talk about black people don't have custom service skills
and got attitudes, but they call you a monkey in your face and like
submit payment like bro. And I've never arched anything from that same thing with
h and them though when they had a little right, I do act like
a nigga sometimes, the self admitted Yeah, I was. But you know
what, I can't really say that I'm surprised because it's black women, and
black women are the same ones that would take lousy ass niggas back because their
friends up. So can I? So can I really be shocked this nigga
can cheat still and do all of this ship and it's well, it's a
different type of love. But you mad at your friend and cut her off
and be like, bitches ain't loyal because she couldn't make your birthday party.
She was, what do you expect? It might be a good reason to
cut your friend off, But nigga beating your ass and cheating on you and
getting somebody else pregnant and a good reason to cut him off. They really
do be taking a nigga who get somebody else pregnant? I've never let I've
never did that. I don't know. Like, imagine you sleep in the
side chick, bring your doorbell, but now you manage your friend. He
don't talk to her no more, I don't. I'm not finding And then
they used the excuse that the friend told you to leave the nigga because of
the side chick as why the friendship ended. Bro. See, look,
keeping something use them at me next time meet me because I say that sometimes.
See like, how y'all gonna be like, Bro, I ain't never
supporting black businesses to get this. This is why I don't fuck with black
people. Oh you monkey? Hey, bro, you got that in the
large? What the fuck? Like? Let me get a medium too,
because I want to try it on? Like what's the return policy again?
Okay? Black people for you? Hey? All I know is I'm still
waiting on my old man from Coffee Makes You Black from twenty thirteen. I'm
still hey, good food for you? Ain't that the slogan fuelcast lower you?
I was want to say, if you just kind of squeeze the bottle,
it comes out a little fast. It come out chunky though, no
like you'd be like it comes in slashes ship. Nobody wants chunky drink.
I need to take them chunky monkey is okay? Can't we say that you
because that's what it's called chunky monkeys cream? I know, but we know
why you said you said, well I said it the other monkey. What
Yes, long titties. I am not a shame because guess what when they
get sucked? He pull one of these like he lift them. It's like
elevator. How did we get here? And you can put them together?
Yep? How how did we get It's easier to suck when him on top
two because they just dangle right in his face. That's the greatest. That
is the greatest. Want big perky, big perky ts. And he gott
strained his neck to suck them while you on top. They appreciate it.
A little dangle, just hanging his face like Christmas ornaments, like a baby
bird. I didn't do this man, we get here no alco without the
label. Yes, it holds a crav on, strawberry margarito. This is
fire. Yeah, but he was talking shit, a strawberry line, a
strawberry line. It's about to be gone. That's the only reason why I
said something. You can for me because I'm over here working. Anybody hacked
them? Who you talk about? The backyard aget. This is how they
are when they get together. No, Kna said that she and said that
somebody somebody got fired and they did that on their way going out the door.
Now Kia saying she don't do that part like about to cutting the friends
off keeping then no, but I'm saying like that that is a huge thing,
especially especially with our women, like you will see them cut their friends
off for the slightest fucking reason a while taking ship from a nigga for years
and I mean the worst of the worst from a fucking nigga, all types
of disrespect, physical abuse, mental abuse, and everything, and they stick
through it. One little disagreement for a friend and bitches ain't real. That's
why this, This is why I'm by myself, and that's why I don't
hang with fuck up for people that be like I ain't got no friends.
I want y'all to know that's not a flex. You are weird of that.
I just just not a flex. And I'll tell them I don't have
as many friends as I used to because as I grew, I realized I
had a lot of associates, you know what I'm saying, but like the
people that I do have, like I cherished the funk out of my people,
like ile no quality over quantities. Yeah, I think it's a flex.
If somebody's calling you their friend and you just say you don't have any
friends, you obviously are more valuable than them than you heard they are to
you. It's kindle. You're telling me that you don't like anybody or nobody.
I'm here but to but to what Timmy said, I will say,
you have to you have to watch people like that because there were people that
I can see, like we have friendships at the moment, but it's like
when you have somebody and y'all gotta buy y'all do all this shit, but
then you always saying them talking about how they loaners and they this, and
they this, and they don't be like you know what I'm saying, and
they're like real dismissive of it. Take that as you're cute. I didn't
and I should have, so like now moving forward, when I see that,
I'm like, oh, bit, you want to be by yourself?
You could be by yourself. I can show you what it is to not
be your fucking friend since you feel like you don't have nobody. Yeah,
sometimes it's fun to go outside by yourself. Now I'm not talking about that,
though, I'm saying like, when you have people that you know have
never turned their fucking back on you, have always been there wherever you whenever
you call, and even when you didn't call, just because they knew you
that much to know that, damn I know they need me right now.
But then you always talking about how you by yourself. You don't got no
friends and you were loaner and shit, and it's like, hey, perfect
example, perfect this perfect face. Remember y'all know I always go back to
movies and shit. Remember straight out of Compton when they when they first told
Q they was distening to me. He was like, I adn't say shit
about all right, and then he went off, that's me, that's me,
that's me. God damn, y'all set it off. I have a
small circle of friends. How about that. It's still like, now you
already hurt my familis, this is this is a this is family though not
friends, um Dina says shell maker shell maker ski either though see in this
now he's talking about like why chicks cut off friends instead of that niggas And
he's saying basically like, well, it's easier because he has sex with her.
And it's like, this is one of those reasons why I tell you
bitches that feel like it's weird to masturbate, that's why y'all end up in
situations like that, because y'all don't know what self pleasure is. So you
have to rely on this nigga to pleasure you to where you have to let
him disrespect you and treat you like shit. And you're like, well,
damn, I can't let him go because he makes me feel good physically.
Look, I will motherfucking who's that, Jimmy Hendrix, No, no,
all on this motherfucker. Okay, I will print computer blue solo all over
my pussy, myself all through it, kiss my ass. If anybody at
my door unannounced, it's not gonna be a nice exchance. You know.
That's one thing that I never had a problem with. Just know that if
you ever pop up at my house unannounced, you probably gonna be out there
for a while because I don't be having on clothes. But no, but
this is this is the thing. Only people only The only people that know
where I live aren't the people that I wouldn't mind if they was like,
hey, meet me, what you're doing? All right, I'm around the
corner, open the door. Them not only people I know where I live
at anyway, So I think that's probably why I'm different and don't really care
about people popping up on me, because motherfucker's don't be knowing where I live.
At unless I really really fucked with you like that, And if I
really fucked with you like that and you're in the neighborhood, shit stopped through.
Yep, Now I'm be doing shit, don't. That's why we used
to record at her house because she wasn't doing en you know what, technically
chicken but the fun Timmy going small claims for it? What you do you?
Oh for my my oatmeal from you can't talk about small? Don't trying
to make sure you ain't. Tommy ordered oatmeal. D nobody hate non friend,
he's ignorant. Oh, my bad job. The monkey dog is terrible
man who's more terrible than people that are still gonna shop? Or my bad
monkey job. Yeah, you're a little bit of a little bit of be
a whole lot of sea. Yes, he wears a headband with his dreads
every week. He doesn't like his eye. Don't reach his fucking eyes and
keep it, replied to him. She said, big baby, you're batting
out your headache, you know. And keiba case, she said. She
says that she doesn't make friends. Well, so you know if you got
in. But she's a loaner and can go and do places a loaner and
I feel away. No, I I do that myself, Like I'm not
a person where I have to have people with me in order to go places.
I go out to eat so much by my fucking self, like especially
without my kids, like mainly without my fucking kids, because I just want
to get away from everybody. I got to the bars by myself because um
I usually, you know, I might do that shit tomorrow because it's m
night. But um I do. I like to go places and hang out
by myself. But I don't have a lot of creams anymore. I do
got a couple, you know what I'm saying. And the friends that I
do have, I definitely appreciate them, like I got all you gotta Amazon,
bro oh God. That same day every week, that same day shipping
cool Friday, we took a mental health day and we went to out back
and they paid for their own food. He said, what me and the
girls went to out back and they paid for their own food. What kind
of allowance do you give your kids? Here's the crazy part. The allowances
don't come from me. It'd be from their grandparents. They just be dropping
money and they green like cars. Now they know not to like come up
to my door and like ring the doorbell. They'll sit in the car and
they'll call me and be like, hey, you in the crib. You
you know whatever you did, And I'd be like, give me a minute,
because yeah, even when y'all used to be like and I think they
knew automatically it was like, bro, what is that? It's some show
that came on ABC that the father would come home and you take his fans
off right when he came in the house. Some sitcom that was it was
based on this dude's real life situation. Apparently his father got off work and
come on take his plans. Y'are always welcome to y'all watched Beef yet I
started it. I think it's just funny because it all started over bad driving
from two Asians. Ali Wa, she's funny hel too. Yeah. You
gotta watch her both her stand ups because she pregnant on both of them,
and she pissed as fuck on the second one. She pregnant. See,
and I don't I saw a beef, but I instantly thought of, like,
remember them hood videos. They used to had the Hood DVDs and ship
the beef videos. That's how you knew what rap beef was going on.
This is not about rap beef because that's how you learned about rap. I'm
just sad like that would It's funny the first thing that came right. Yeah,
Um, shout out to Montrey sipping the tea with Monty because from now
like because of him, I'll be calling Dick a beef bullet all right time.
You know how to go ahead and work these things. Go ahead,
turn the radio station off. I'm out of here. Make sure y'all a
tone different now. Blind spiders popped up, Um when I finished one show,
and then you know how it automatically tries to like turn into you're talking
about blind Spoders? Are blind Spotting because there's a show on Stars called blind
Spotty. Okay, mate, maybe it's different than because I'm talking about blind
Spotting. That pops up because the light skinhake with the husband and I don't
know, it just pops up after power goes off. Yeah, that's blind
spot that's how new Because you said Stars. Yeah, it's funny as hell.
She didn't have on pants one day in the preview. I think,
yep, but the mom hit the crypt killing with no pants because I was
gonna watch it because of that. I'm like, hey, this should look
funny. But then I never got into it this second season. Oh yeah,
she's talking about the same one, she said, because it came on
after us. She was watching Power, Thank you, said, out of
all the shit I do, that's the final straw for you. Tone.
What about leaving? Yes, you, I have not paid attention to meat.
Leaving, like several times already part of the routine in the script.
Bullet is crazy, but it's it's so it's I'm like, damn, I
can't stop calling it a beef bullet. Now. How many times have you
told that light skin bastard, bring your beef bullet here? Pause? That's
a new one. You are, was ab said the meat giver outer.
Yeah, calling the niggas the meat give up right? Tone fake quit every
show meat provider, butcher, the meat provider, the butcher, beecher,
butcher. That's a whole different meaning now, sausage slangy. If two homosexual
men get together, we're not doing called the butcher. I see, mind
is better one, it was better. Mind was better. You don't know
what mind is better? Because who didn't get it? Right? Now?
About ten twenty minutes later when they mind their business, they're gonna get it.
Oh here, because I don't think I sent you to you never sent
me the tweet, all right, everybody that you're getting responses, see you
want they're coming too. Don't got to relax, heyself, Um, I
just sent it. It didn't don't mind. So, Um, I'm going
to start something new community. I've been doing that, my mamm. I'm
on pay management. I'm just playing. No you're not, I am no.
Um, what about the bucks? Right? You know what? It
was not the fun. We lost your honest and like the first two minutes,
it wasn't good. So it was the struggle it was, you know,
speaking of Jamie Fox is okay and prayers up to him. Um.
It looks like he was said to have a stroke, um that he's recovering
from. And you know, only this time. Like in all of these
years of Jamie Fox's career, I don't think I've ever heard of him being
involved in any type of scandal whatsoever. Well, he did marry Tom Cruise
wife. You don't think Jamie Fox game whoa. So I've actually heard some
things about that. I ain't talking about that. I'm talking about like problematic
shit. No, sucking a little wee wee, that's I suck we we
Now maybe it's just me because smoke a lot of weeks. Lord you know,
said not to be that guy. But I feel like it was dirty
coke. You were just like put two and two together like when shit started.
Like, look like remember when Tank was just doing these radio interviews talking
about like all the gaits. He was talking about all these things that he
likes to do about sexual right, and then it was like and then I
watched him he ain't a scandal though I'm not talking about scandals. I'm just
asking if think Jamie Foxx is game No, he's b sexual. And then
like I think him would take to be fucking whoa because all of the things
that Tank was out here saying. Then I watched these two niggas do a
podcast and this is one thing to like be friendly with your dog. This
is a little true friend. It was, I mean, it is Hollywood.
So I just think tank. Would Tank be describing all these game encounters
he had, I believe they were Jamie Foxx. I'm one man with an
opinion that's some that's some wild shit, because like if they harmonize into each
other. That's nuts. Can I go home? Man? During sex?
Before he was singing, Lord, lay ahead on my pillow, but what
was at my house? So it was my pillow whispering and Jamie FOXX talk
about when you said to him too see that's see. He was probably trying
to be funny in the moment and you just destroy his humor. But this
is my house. Oh Lord, Dino said, all them Hollywood niggas and
edictrious, Yeah that's funny. Yeah, he would say gay like I got
nothing against I mean you with your left right. At the same time,
these two, these two niggas are a little friendly. Let him be you
know, that's cool. Yeah, but I mean that's I mean, he
was getting the nigga job like, that's gotta be his babe him on the
road. He let Tank be his background singer. You know, I harmonize
him. What having the sex of the gab of RIETI it's crazy. He'd
be blowing his back out singing to him, is what please do? Remember
when Jamie Fox and that chick was going back and forth for the little jingle
off right, Jamie Fox singing unpredictable. Oh I can't imagine high notes when
he first put in to do something you never done before, baby, not
the usual, telling them nigga that this is not the usual. It's great,
you're gonna get unpredictable, just a mother g Van Dross this, let's
getting take Luther Van draws crazy, y'all are terrible people. This is why
y'all have to come on Sunday nights. Most people are gone to bed.
Luther Van draws for the game for like people that watch Power. So Kiva
said, So, I've been trying to understand how come on Power when you
Drew begin crack? How come he always on the bottom? He gives bottom
energy? Though? My thing is, how come Drew is the only one
getting some ass on this show to be getting as? We don't know that
though it is definitely fucking effict. No, no, no, no,
What I mean is we don't see it happening. No, Um, what's
the white boy name? He was getting some asks five abouts to go to
another level? Wait to the mushrooms? What episode is this? I stopped
counting a while ago, right, so you're supposed to be keeping track?
What's that position is called? Because where they wings that note? No just
something I'm going on. We ain't near two hundred yet, I tell you
that much. We are near two hundred. It's like when you were like
when I told it was like one eighties, we were definitely six nights.
Oh shit, damn told you all right, some two weeks telling me two
weeks because I because I'll be hired by the end and I gotta worry about
no drug testings. I'm good. How could they test for shoots anyway?
Drug testing on the jobs that were real talk, I bet you're gonna get
drugs testing. I don't either, don't think because they didn't because usually whenever
I get hired, they were like, they give you yo, drugs information
before you even accept the offer. So yeah, that way they can disqualify
you because yeah, yeah, yeah, I thought that working where I worked
out with the all kind of tests. Look, I believe it. If
you don't, don't. Some places don't. Some places they actually recommend you
do it because you need a d stressor yeah, and get jokes about it
at work. I'm like, I ain't jumping in your jokes. I ain't
count you me saying shit, right, you're correct? Yes, oh,
and definitely have tons of jokes. I am so interested in seeing like glory
holes up close, like I really want to. Like, Okay, so
here's the thing. Some niggas are very like some niggas are very unfortunate looking,
right, I don't want to call them ugly. Some niggas are just
very unfortunately. Where are you going with this? But I got something to
follow up on leng their their their facial features were not um ideally placed,
right, okay, but they got a nice slab on them. But if
that's what it says, what it does, maybe want to come out like
this just like this whatever. But you know, he got a like slab
on him, But I can't get aroused by it because I've already seen his
face. So it's like, you know, you got this big just big
being held by niggas like so now it's like I can't because it's just like
so as ca Okay, So you know the gloria would be a benefit for
you, right because then it's like he's behind this wall and then you just
have this big, beautiful dick out that I'm not biased against because I haven't
seen his face. So then it's like, man, I can man,
you know, but if I see his face. First, I be like,
yeah so so yes, So scrolling through Facebook today while trying to get
shows together, it was dropped on somebody's timeline if they have made Milwaukee based
pages. Again, so there's Milwaukee bad bbls. T Hunt not in the
group, but he made a big Backs page. Yeah, there's like big
Back, Milwaukee Back, Milwaukee little Dicks, Milwaukee stinky pussy like for somebody
reasons, Milwaukee Big Backs. Yes, there is like five or six random
ass pages where they just talking about people. How do you somebody just they
sing they I don't know what it is, but I guess chicks or niggas
are sending the photos up. This bitch is this and this and they got
photos and they just go to town river. Can I can I draw a
big bag bitch real quick and you put it on the screen because your jewels
are unfortunately so immaculate. Gohead. You doing just like being a heavier size
person in life. You minding your business, but you're on the heavier side.
It was a minding business, right, you take a big person minding
business? Is why the big like why sender eating their chicken minding their business?
Like because I automatically because I automatically pictured your mind and their business was
eating something something. Right, are we trading like that? Right over here?
Think about that chick that bigg ass panel asia that she checked back to
the room. Usually noodle's gonna be sliding all over the place. She's better
get in the bed with a fucking noodle. A panelis on how do you
get because usually when I'm minding my business, I'm probably mind your business.
Well, I'm saying, you wake up to a bunch of notifications and they
got you in this big backpack, like everybody know my back being friend,
that's like outside of my friends, it's been like the five hundred and fifty
six people that knew me already that was cool. But now but just like
tick came up there. But it's funny because lately they've been making these polets
you can't unbig your back, And I'm like, how did we get here?
I had people with big bags that wear like little shirts and big the
grocery store, and I was like, yo, her like her back was
big, and what she looked like boser Like her back was big, her
arms was a little. She had very smart titties. You know what she
was built really big back and smart. They really be built like panguins.
Wow, so did somebody say, y'all fat built like pancus. We're the
bad guy you are. And it's crazy because when you see him from the
back, like the back of the head, always sit on that that hump
of meat back there because they're just a regular big back. It's a hump
of meat like right here at the top. Like they got a fucking one
of them fucking airplane pillows and they shut like a linebacker from the eighties.
You know, you know, you're nothing decorative pillows and ship that women like
right in the front on their bedroom set. Ye, that's right across the
back and the bootes be sucked then, oh no, it's like that two
of the ground beef that that people get that audies like they just stay with
that motherfucker right across the back and it just it's just there. And then
they didn't go in. I feel like, I feel like we're shaming people.
I was like, what't nigga's minding their business a minute? But I'm
saying, just you're waking up niggas, Like you're waking up the niggas like
you right now for no reason I would not be talking about anybody's back.
One you just literally sat was a hypothetical person. I don't know whose back
is this big seven that white lady. I saw a white women back there
big. Her back was big, the big they all big. It's no
in between you with that. Her back was big, her butt was like
non existent. Imagine drawing and then taking a bottom thumb like that you discussed.
I mean just not in but like the damage the picture of the heart,
like that's what it looked like. It is crazy. It looked like
a bad cut of beef tender like you ever see the tender steak that look
like better? Say, you're definitely working badly cut that. You know what,
all my state lovers knew what I was talking about because as soon as
one of the bitches pissed me off in the comments and I'm like you Chuck
Ro's back, bitch. No, it is really bitches that be built like
the meat that I put on the ship and like relaxed black angers. Why
does Chuck Rose sound fatter than any other ro sharp frost guy? Really fan
when Charles Roast bitches be built like top third one. That's that's absolutely And
they always be with a black dude, right, the one that we don't
want. So I'll be like, you couldn't find no one else we didn't
want him, and the black dude is you couldn't find nobody else gonna come
up him. She'd be driving and I'm just praying my picture that needs groups
come on back and tad bigger than it never been. And look, and
I'll be watching cuts to say you're not proportion with. They'd be like,
that's why I was in the middle of trying to draw, but I got
distracted because one suck no like do because it's like, okay, so this
this is the wideness of the back, right, but then it's like it
narrows out being the legs do this shit and that's actually the legs they built
like ice cream. And it'd be like, yeah, they built they definitely
got that Cops double scoop action. This just be built like soft sir.
Do you do you disagree? Hey? Speaking to make flurry that strawberry shortcake
joint. I with it and had a couple Hey, I wonder you think
they got that. They don't. They don't even got it on a regular
McDonald's app. I was pissed because I was trying to use my uh my
code for it. I had to actually go and ask for it through the
speak. I want to go this. I want to start going to like
McDonald's Windy to start ordering these fast food items that ain't and coolers are back
at Colvers Yo's Fire. Absolutely, I can't get the strawberry mango anymore.
That sucks. I can only do it strawberry. But but the the every
April, I can't wait, Covers brings their fruit coolers back and then they
stayed throughout the summer. I said, they always bring them back at April
because it prepares a spratorious season. But when do the peach shakes come to
that all I want? Probably not until like June too late. It's like
June because they just came out with the watermelont lemonade. See, and I'm
not a fan of watermelon flavored stuff because I love the actual watermelon fruit.
And nothing ever tastes like fucking It never tastes like watermelon to me. It's
like artificial, artificial. It's a completely different thing. I prefer, uh,
but I don't and I don't like mint. So that's why I was
actually surprised because I had that that the simply the little mixers that they have
now simply mixology or whatever they're uh because I don't like men, but that
it was good, exactolutely good mascot mules, ginger beer. Do you know
what saying? My question is how the fuck their legs be that then?
And they're carrying around all that way? That's what I don't get, and
begin pull all the black man peach shake said already how I really don't want?
No, I don't know, but you know how you that's my ship.
I don't know what you mean. You don't want You don't even know
if you're just than this guy. You never had a conversation. It's just
a look so fat white woman be buying a man like six rings of Mexican
Jordans. I can't not at all. I don't like that. I mean,
you're gonna say that fat ugly white woman, at least make that betch
values in retro, please. So I took a gamble at pot of why
to me right, it was one hundred dollars. It was one hundred dollars
gamble. I lost, but I'm okay with it because I was up so
much that it wasn't my money, it was Poto's money. Um. I
only took a chance because I know how desperate gamblers get, and I was
like, in the off chance that this is legit, I'm gonna just go
ahead and I'm gonna give it to him. If it's not, then I'm
not mad about it, because again, this is money that I do that
I want. And even with me giving him that, I was still up
hundreds of dollars, so it was cool. Um. But I was at
Poto and there was this foreign guy that came up. He was from Dubuying
Ship. Now I had seen him over there at the tables and ship when
I walked in to the slots. I had to go to the slots I
have walked past, and he came in and I was over there. You
know, Like I said, I was up, I was doing good.
I didn't want to get off my machine, so I'm going I didn't even
have on my pink hare that day. I had. I had on my
short red curly one. Um, he comes up and you know, like
he produced himself and he can tell. He is like, bro, don't
ask me to pronounce that ship. I'm just gonna call him. I think
you're gone. Who needs my family of my head? Let me buy you.
So he comes up and like he's he's drunk as fun, and I'm
like, I saw the NIKEA gambler on the tables when I first walked in.
He's fucking lit and he's talking to me, and it's like that's you
know, he's talking about a liar, you know whatever, you know,
yeah, no, but but he's telling me. He's like, but he's
telling me how like how he lost how he lost ten k on the tables,
right, And because I'm in paddle so much, I know that that
is not far fetched because niggas that play the tables well way more money than
us on a slot, Like they will literally lose tens of thousands of dollars
playing black jack, Roulette and craps. Good yeah, shut up, I
keep telling you about to have my wig on, bitch, I was.
I was at that because because it was a because it was a Friday night.
Like if I'm in there on a weekend, I like to kind of
go undetected, so I switch my other wig on or I just have on
my hat. But um, yeah, so you know he was talking about
like the money and stuff that he lost, and he was pulling up his
bank stuff and was like, I can't you know, I can't get any
more money out of the ATM. I'm like, you own good. I'm
like, He's like, you know, I just you know, I really
really, I like, I don't want to gamble no more. I lost,
I lost, I lost, tinkerd you know, do you want to
go back to So he's asking, I hate this nigga so much. Job.
This is why I can never do my stories y'all because wine is immature.
Wine is always fucking up when I'm trying to tell y'all something. So
when y'all being like, damn, why the pie so long, It's because
I can't get through my shit. Oh my god, I have no more
money picking up, I'm gonna shoot you fucking remoded your glasses. Oh got
real life here? Oh my god, Cat help for your time. You
and me both, cayleb you and me fucking and I hate the show.
Oh god, I'm not easy. Emose you from the iPhone like I I
can't even blame Rabbi. This week, Dina said, Marguerita's activated clearly,
nigga. Oh my god, I got more. I'm ready to him turn
one mic off you dog, Okay, I told you I didn't have my
pink wig red. We can't send him home because he don't fucking dry send
them to the car. Oh my god, I so so anyway, so
I poost it down and he, you know, so he talking like about
the money he lost and ship, and he was like he just really wants
to get drinks from the bar, like he don't want to, you know,
gamble. So he got bro legs on and like a bunch of jewelry
and ship and he like, you know how you know a motherfucker from here?
Like you know, we know it's Miami. What no Florida. He
doesn't pronounce it Florida. He's like, no Florida, Florida, Florida.
I don't know. Do you know how to drive? Mm hmm, ok
look over I can. Then we're not being Funny's liking, yeah, I
know not everytimes I'm taking this and it's literally the only reason why you don't
fail. I remember one time I took that motherfucker duh, Like, do
you know what it's like to do everything right? And the motherfucker on the
side of you not saying nothing. They ain't frowning up. I'm like,
bro, I was killing me. He ken of trying to send us home.
She said, thanks for you man Ac episode three, playing two as
a team until next time. I gotta go, Like, Bro, I
was out there killing that ship, like like I practiced parallel parking like one
time. I was like, I hope they'll ask me do that shit.
This is like I get you parallel whip that motherfucker. Like I did everything
right and didn't imagine you get in there, you thinking you for the pastor
ship and above was like, bro, we ain't safe here. You ain't
checking your blind spots properly. Black bitch, we made it back? Who
was that? Like, you need to unbate your back, bron. The
fact that that is why it's not as funny as when Tone said why he
wasn't even smiling. It wasn't you better pick you up all the time.
And I get highly upset that that's the only reason why you ain't got your
ell because you can't look over the seat like I think you're just you.
Probably you probably just not taking your tests in the big enough vehicle that gives
you you Probably just too fucking restrict you like whiting big Hamster. That's not
the same. Bro. You can get with this, or you can get
with that. You can get with or you can get with that, or
you can get with that sc like tone never laughed. I'm gonna get my
sho. I tell y'all how I got scammed in the casino. What I'm
saying, So he was a scammer. He was a scammer. You should
have known all that. But like, but like I said, it's like
and goodness, the event that he was really really that fucking desperate. It's
like it's gonna be a win or lose because either way it go. I
was probably gonna put that hundred dollars back into machine. It was the same
thing, hundred dollars. So thank you, pink. I think the only
reason you're pissing me off is because I told you my hair wasn't pink that
night. It was redd. You sound like, oh round hole, run,
come give me money. Show your boy what you drinking? Not checking
your bind spossible wearing glasses is wild? Check saying anything is wild or it's
crazy. And it's funny because I know how difficult, like because I hate
like if I got like a crooking my neck and I got and I have
to drive, and I know how that stiff shit is, so I can
only imagine, bro, like I get it. It's just funny because mine
goes away and you just be like, Bro, I just I can't do
this. I really do think that it's just the vehicle that you're driving.
Maybe I'll take your shit in the van, something that like the seat actually
scoops, because like, yeah, and then Paula is considered big nigga friendly,
but you're not, like you taller than Monte and you're a little bit
bigger than them, like Monte, it was different. But you I think
you need like an actual truck or just something that lets the seat go all
the way back, because um, like the fone fifty seat, then motherfucker's
go all the way back and all the way front, like all the way
to the front. I ain't never seen no ship get give you that much
room in the back seat because they screwed up that fucking far. So yeah,
I think that's all it is. I think once you find a vehicle
that gives you the room to be able to push back and be comfortable enough
where you can just because it ain't it ain't like you turning your whole fucking
body around just look at me. Why don't move your body to look over
your shoulder? Yeah he could do. Yeah, that same example. They
want you to over exaggerate it to guarantee you look so they want you to.
I felt like that, wanted to fully turn around and my eyes off
the road in front of ye because you are supposed to take it off the
road in front of You're supposed to be looking at me. Here. I
saw it back there to know there wasn't nothing coming for me to merge into
this language. Is what the fuck you asked me to do? All right,
let's tell you what. How about you kind of fake it a little
bit, all right, you're a big guy, so you turn your head
just kind of fake look at your shoulder a little bit and make it give
the illusion like you turn. So man, my test, and that's what
it was, because because my body position is staying the same right and I'm
looking. But then it's like, see, I look like I turned further,
but I didn't, just because he puts effort in, go ahead,
do that shoulder shimmy shoulder, shimmy it out. So back to this niggas
one doing you out of some money, because he definitely did. Um.
Yeah. So and I'm sitting here and I'm playing, and it took him
a minute, like a long time because I'm like, bro, I'm hot
right now, and I'm like, I'm like, I don't know shit about
Drewelry. I don't even know if that's real, bro, Like I feel
I feel like you addressed like Ali j oh. Did he me have him
like up a hat on or like a dude rag or something, be like
like part of you were you were a black dude rag. Sometimes he got
on this stupid ass yellow jog and sup Okay, I think yeah, but
no, he wasn't. Um, you're dress like tigers. It was like
silk shirt, middle Eastern taco meat. His taco me was velvet. They
here be so smooth. Look at what I'm saying. He spoke proper English
when he tell these people how he got you that he probably did black like
give me money, he works a bitch. Yeah. But but it was
for a minute because like I said, I was, I was on the
run. Joan sitting there, he talking the whole time, and he's talking
to me about so he takes his change off and he's like, uh,
he put it in my hand. He like he folds it up like this,
and I'm like, I said, I don't want you. I said,
I don't know nothing about jewelry. I don't know if this you know,
I don't And he was like no, l look, he was like,
um like. So he's so he's talking to me about like the jury
and the ship, about like him and his family and like the ship or
whatever, and I'm like, damn, like I don't I'm like, bro,
I said, I don't know about jewelry and nothing. So I don't
know if this was I'm sitting here and I'm like, he's talking. I'm
sitting here. I'm literally still gambling, like pushing the buttons and shit.
So I go on the bonus around this nigga rooting for me and shit,
I'm like yeah, bruli shit and I'm like yeah, what then was no
hand job? So he like he pulls out his sponge and he opened and
he opened his galloping and ship and I'm like and I'm like, bro,
I don't want to see me because I'm thinking that you've been to like to
show a dick pick or something look at the penis. Look at the penis.
You're like, it the big dick, And I feel like it would
have been so bushy. You're like a little I should have don that niggau
made me musty, you know, said, y'all definitely got to relax during
Ramada. No fuck him, he scammed me. Fu the man a holiday.
Ain't that like a week long? Because he put that ship. He
put that shit on his guide and he lied no, but um so he
so he so he grabbed his phone. He pulls his phone and he pulls
up his gallery and I'm like, that's what I'm like. So I'm like
turning my head and I'm like to make sure that I can only see the
screen. And then he taps you, and I'm like, yeah, he
was like no. Look he was like, he was like, we own
we own jewelry stores, and we blah blah blah blah blah. So I
look and you can see him in there, like you see all the money
and ship the jewelry day, behind the counters and all of that little shit,
like not actually like at the counters, but like behind the counters,
like you know, people that were on it would be So I'm like,
all right, cool, and I'm sitting like I'm still gambling. I'm like,
it got to it like once I was up so far, I'm like,
if this nigga is truly that fucking desperate, it's not go hurt,
it's one hundred dollars because I've seen niggas do that. I told you one
week when I was in here, when I said, when a motherfucker h
was at the ATM and left, they received how much they had over and
they accountant shit. But niggas were really fucking gambling is like crack. What
crack is for some people, Like I know y'all have seeing like them stories
and like videos and shit like motherfucker's literally in the hallway crying in Vegas because
they've they've lost every fucking thing. Oh I don't not in a system,
not in a sense where I'll lose everything, but it's like I'll be up
up, but it's like I'm bored. I don't want to go home.
I really blame my family for the fact that I lose my money back,
because if they were tolerable, I wouldn't mind going home. And I was
like, oh, I'm up and going home. But the fact that they
get on my fucking nerves. We like, I'm not gonna go home,
and then I just sit there and keep gambling. So then by the time
I go home, I'm mad because I gotta go home and because I got
my fucking money. So now I'm double pissed. That sacript it is because
if you just win the money and didn't go somewhere else should be cool.
Like, yeah, my ex told me that. He told me I haven't
addictive personality, and I believe that because how many songs do I put on
repeat? Like the smallest things. It's like, yeah, like I will.
We could ride somewhere and listen to one song the entire time, Like,
so I do I have a very addictive like I will. It'll be
a jam though, Like it'd be some ship that you don't mind listening to
over and over again. Yeah, but I will listen to that motherfucker back
to back and not think twice about it. If she listening to that now
she was listening to this bullshit, I would, I would say, because
you should probably check the song. Give me an example of a song,
then that's worthy of that case intentional well married blise, that's what ship I
could get a few specs. I do um right now, okay, it's
right now. I've been listening to Joda see Um on repeat because you know,
crazy and you know and you lose this fucking shirt in the first thirty
seconds of the song. You know, That's never been one of my ones
that I put on repeat, like I'll listen to it, but I always,
like, even when i'm like playlist sing, I'll never that's one of
my one. That's one of my ones I put on whatever kind of vagina
that he was described, that's too happy, that wasn't sinking like they wanted
pussy. I know what I'm saying, Like that wasn't one of my things.
He should say. She's ashamed to how many times she could listen to
us song my money, my house, my house, and my car.
That's favor. Oh no, Jesus, And yeah, who's that when he
saw the stars, the moon, the mountains, and the rivers, saw
heaven. But right right now, like as far as like when I get
in the car was cued up to play My heart belongs to you, okay,
ye, mynd belongs to you whatever you need. No, you know
that is very like I have a very very very addictive person like this,
Like, look, look how easy it was to me for me to get
addicted to cheaperhood after that one sandwich. I'm meant to tell y'all when the
cheaperhood nigga, I don't know what the fuck I got That ship was fire.
I didn't heal that motherfucker. That's what I got that. I felt
guilty. I walked by Oak heroes like I'm loving that. But you know
what's so funny about that for me to like, I can acknowledge that I
haven't addicted personality, but when it like guys with good dick, that doesn't
happen. I don't know, not because you have no because you haven't.
Like we've talked about being digmatized before, and even with me having that type
of personality, like I've never just been the line's been drawn. Yeah,
Like literally the the only person that I've ever been like anything with, like
Beata's not Bay. But it's not because of sex. It's because of everything
else outside of that. I think you consciously make that not be an issue
though. But Dick, yes, I think you have a block, like
a dick block in your head. He would not let whatever. But that's
what I'm saying. But the fact that I don't try to do that but
everything else is like, oh, such thing, because that's how I got
addicted to like slots in the first place. So me and my ex um,
it was my birthday and he was like, I don't want to see
you sitting in the house. Come on, let's let's go down the podole.
Let's go play Bengo. I was like, oh, I always wanted
to play Bingo, So we go. We play beingo not didn't wear nothing.
He was like, you want to go downstairs. I'm like, all
right, cool. So money that I had that I didn't, you know,
spend that Bingo, went downstairs, putting in the slots, putting in
the slots, I start hitting and I was hitting good. I'm like,
damn all right. And then ever since that night, like that's what kicked
it off. I had never went and pottle to gamble like that before ever,
never been in there. And then from that, that's what kicked it
off. Thinking like twenty it's like twenty fifteen, sixteen, yea, even
there a few times, and I would never go back. It's not like
I don't have to go back and stand like that's that's been my thing.
But I do like I get hooked on shit so fucking easy, just not
Dick. And that is so crazy to me looking at all the women that
get hooked on Dick around me, and it's like, damn, how the
fuck do I have? It's such an addictive personality. But that is the
one thing. And they'll just be like, you can go byland because you
can. You can take care of yourself. So that's a part of it.
Yeah, I just be like Dick's dick. You'll be all right,
there's another one. They're like us. But when it's them slots. If
I lose, I'm like, bitch you from giving this back. And then
I'm at the ATM you can. I was minding my business. He came
up to me because you wanted to give me your money, Tray said.
I memory playing the same song every day for months. Big Kenna said she
needed to be in the desert and leather, singing the power desert and leather
walking on but just like Jesus walking on water, brabb my ear holding the
waste while singing the Coochie. Those were the time M these great r and
B Drake. I've said this on the show before. But I just I
don't think Drake can fuck Drake. Drake is black adjacent, but I don't
think he got a nigga stroke. I think Drake got that brad stroke black.
Yeah, I don't. I don't think Drake. I don't think he'd
be dropping dick off. No, I think you have. I think that
you have to fuck Drake. I don't think Drake can fuck you. And
when he does, I feel like it's weird and like off rhythm and ship
which sucks because it's just like, how could the nigga that sings be off
rhythm? But I just feel like it's just he can't help it. He
makes love. Drake gives me little dicky vibes when it comes to sex.
The rapper rapper dude, Yeah, yeah that's funny. Yeah I do.
I just, I just I don't feel like Drake can drop dick off on
nobody. Drake seemed like he takes his pants off and just like he still
leaves his T shirt hanging over his dick before climbing the bed. All right,
thank you for another edition Awkward. Make sure you check us out on
all should you check us out on all streaming platform. Drake said, he
go starts sweating and want to stop me a way to clean up this Monday
said Drake looked like he said, whoa, that was wild? Come here?
Oh man, I just I feel like when it's over, like he'll
sit there fanning and stuff like who you had? Right? Yeah, Drake?
Really? He just I don't know because who's black Drake dad? Yeah?
Okay, now when right? But when mixed dudes have a black dad,
they typically have a chance of having black that's usually their best chance of
having black dick. So Drake might actually have one of those big dicks that's
like darker than him. Because the only time I really know, like the
only mixed guy that I've known that had a pink dick like it was lighter
than him, it was the dad was white and the mama's black. I've
never had a mixed dude with a black dad that had you know, um
fucking you know little pit bull thing. Everybody else been like, you know,
they had men dingo. Still what oh I can tell Drake got shirtless
picks, don'ty If it's nipples brown, he's dick brown. Yeah. Yeah,
if he got pink nipples, his dick is pink. Let's let's take
a look real quick. Yeah, if he if he got brown nipples.
M hmm, can we leave in YouTube? Stay? Yeah? Absolutely absolutely,
he could be packing, but he would annoy me in conversation and turn
me off. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. Like Drake is just he's
not a person, and I feel like like having sex with he got brown
dick, Yeah, jim nipples, his stick is brown. Haven't got enough
pink meat? Yeah, we just look Caleb. You know, I got
a house in Calabasas. He just said, ain't no sex appeal? Yeah,
Like, ladies, I'm talking to y'all for a minute, Like,
just imagine, especially because we're filthy, if y'all wouldn't, y'all wouldn't be
here. Can't you imagine nigga like Drake trying to like actually talk dirty to
you during sex, like trying to talk dominant to you during sex. I
mean, he is a scorpio though, but he October scorpio. So that's
where it kind of falls off. As Jesus said, the fact that no
one has leaked his nudes, it's trapped black woman because he goes he goes
black women honestly, for for the for the male celebrity news that get leaked.
I don't think bitches be leaking them anyway. You know, you know,
bitches be weird now we want to share anyway. I really think that
if niggas be leaking their own ship, and that is what we like to
call a call back my friends, y'all terrible. Trace said that ain't gonna
be in my mirror after sex fixing your hair. Before I get there,
he'd be putting his hair upon. She said, Drake, remind me to
do that giggle up for every friend. I feel like, does does it
feel good to you? To feel good to you? He's gonna be a
Madison may night, but I'm scared to stage trash, you know. And
this is the thing, like you think Drake kind of nigga? Mm hmm?
He said, what kind of nigga? And he famous, what?
Oh? I go imagine walking into an industry party just from I don't know,
but Drake seemed like the zipa nigga, Like if I let him come
over my crib to fuck, he go wear my hoodie home. He just
like a whole as nigger to me, I feel like you're talking wraps and
then not only does he go whar smiling and grinning and ship, I'm sorry,
sorry, who I mean? It's just October scorpions came scorpios we having
to me. I'm assuming that October ones don't. Okay, so listen,
who determines me by the month of the version. Actually a November scorpio,
my my favorite scorpio to have sex with, was actually born in October.
Like he's on the more dominant side, like he knows what to say but
to touch, like we're talking to you, like he has everything down.
The November scorpios that I've had sex with a real just yeah, remember speaking
month a man, I got my butt eight though, I'll just busting like
you're ready to get your ass eight tone. I was like, yep for
the get out to the grass up quick, whatever you like, at least
look at you see asked because they came in. I told Nigga, I
said, I got something to do it give me a minute, give me
a head start, because we was I think we was at BW Three's and
I was like, all right, I gotta run to mate. You know,
I'm gonna go home. Give me a minute, and mante he had
the keys to my crib. Um. Oh yeah. So before before I
moved in the house, um, I was in like a townhouse style apartment.
I say style because it didn't have a basement. It had upstairs and
you know all of that, but it didn't have a basement. Nope.
And I that was perfect for me because I don't like basements. I had
a laundry room, you know when you walk in the back doors, the
laundry room here, but all my storage and shit. And then you had
the kitchen. So I was cool with that because I don't like basements.
But um, when you walk in the back door, as soon as you
step in, you know in the kitchen is right here. You can see
right in the living room. So I was getting my butt munch storm on
the full time. And I mean he was like full spread, right,
And I told them to give me a minute. Bro didn't clear it with
me, like all right, is it safe to come in? Like you
know whatever. So niggas coming the back door and he heard the door and
he thought that it was like I don't know if he thought it was a
boyfriend, husband, baby, daddy or what, because you're like, well,
who the fuck else? Well, you know, like have a key.
So he got and he took off and he hauled ass and ran out
the front door and like left, and I was sound. I don't think
we ever heard from that young man again. I know I did remember that
Facebook post that I made when I was like, what happened if a duce
nort coke off your booty and he eat it after? Did that mean that
the senior system? Yeah, that was him for you out here getting Wolf
of Wall streeted. I never saw that movie. That's literally one of the
opening You never seen that. That's just wild ad. Hey, look,
I don't judge folks like you know, because he is actually he's he wasn
smarting, you know he was, but he doesn't now. But that sound
like you know, driving trucks and all that show, like dude off.
No, it was like it was on the cheek. But then he like
ate my butt right away. He was like motor boating it a little bit.
And I was like, damn, I wonder like coke residue like it
because you know, shit absorbs faster through your button. So I was like,
damn, like did I technically do coke? And I know it like
it is int my sister now because he got you know, nos residue in
my booty hole. Like I didn't know what was going on, but it
was. I was so high I couldn't check out the next day. But
no, no, no, but it wasn't that, No, he had
um. I had never had weed and liquid form, and as you know,
when I tried weed and new forms, I tend to overdo it because
I'm not used to it. And we all know Mimi loves what fucking lemonade.
It was weed lemonade, So I don't know how to fucking gauge.
I don't know how to gauge fucking weed lemonade. And who the fuck's just
Oh, I'm thirsty, but I'm gonna stop drinking because it's fucking drugs in
here. Like I killed that shit. So between that and you know other
shit that was going on, like I was so high, like I could
not check out that day. So that night costs me like an extra two
hundred dollars because I couldn't check out. But he was so cool about it.
When I was like, I said I couldn't leave like I was,
so he was like, how much did it cost you to say? So
he actually he cash shafted me the money for me having to stay because he
knew I was fucked up. Whatever you want, you know what I'm said,
coke residue from getting your ass eight. It's crazy, but I did
it. Yeah, I went on because Okay, So I knew that he
was gonna have weed because he like and his weed be weed weed. It
don't be that huffass ship that niggas we had. Like, he's a real
smoker. So when he got this shit, it's like, damn, nigga,
you just getting off the elevator. I smelled shit in my room,
like got weed weak. So I was getting edibles and shipped from him because
I knew his ship was gonna be legit sudden he was like, hey,
I got this lemonade, you know, blah blah blah blahm alright cool,
and then I junk it and I forgot it was weed lemonade and something like
damn. And you really don't taste it to the end either. So that's
the other things. So if you're sitting there drinking and drinking, often he
stopped, he'd be like, oh shit, too late, because he was
like he was like, you mind if I used the bathroom when the fun
would. I be like, no, you can't go pee, but you
know, I hate when people asked that. But he come back and he
was like, he's like, you drunk that whole thing. I was like,
I was thirsty, it's hot in here. He was like, and
I felt like that was kind of a but you know, but we made
it. But no, it was really the fact that he was like,
you know something, you know I've been wanting to do blah blah blah.
And I was like what he was like, he was, I don't know
how you gonna feel about it. And I was like, nigga, what
I was like, an'ta don't He was like no, he was like he
was like and he poured it out of his pocket and then he asked me
like if he could snore the line off my boy. I was like,
I don't care. Then you did it? You down for whatever because in
dress, but I didn't. I didn't know that it was gonna go from
It was like one fluid motion and I had no time to react and I
was like, yeah, it didn't because I was like, you know,
but then it's like I kind of like propped myself up, like I'm like
elbows a little bit more like give a little arch. I was like,
oh shit, like you know, he didn't have no time to like you
know, so I know it was you know, I'm like, dang,
yeah, mushroom class. Did he come in with like fly out of college
like college. Did he come in with like a shirt opened up to his
chest with his college alway out to his shoulders? Oh? No, no,
he Actually it's funny because he's like he like one of them, Like
what do you call like the cool nerds Tommy. That's why I asked.
That's why I actually told call him. I knew he would know. I
don't know, I'm lot key cool nah man. But that was that was
a very fun night. Kayla said, I was the chaser, right,
it's given super fly right. No, he was not born He was not
born in the seventies. He was born in the eighties. He only because
I was born eighty four. He probably at most he's probably like eighty one
Jaine. You you know, cocaine was very popular. The hell of a
drug. Hey, y'all can see the outline from my opin when I was
drawing the fat Bitch that's gone no on the street. No, not on
the I mean the outline like through the grease and ships light. Nah they
are oh um, so y'all know, like speaking of the nigga that scamming
somebody bought his jury from Florida. Ship Um. The only this is probably
I want y'all to make a note of this, Okay, Like I want
y'all to really really soaked this in because this will probably be the only time
that you will ever hear me say on this podcast or otherwise that Florida got
something right. So Florida lawmakers are pursuing the death penalty and child rapes.
Yeah, and I am so for it. Oh, I'm so forth of
all the things that they fuck up, that is probably the only thing that
they have ever proposed that it is actually fucking smart. Um, Like for
there to be so many different like child crimes and shit like that, Like,
I was actually happy to see. I'm I was shocked though, to
see that Florida was like the one to have that out there. You would
think it would be somewhere else and then they might be like, oh,
yeah, all right, that's kind of a good idea, We're with that.
But to see that these motherfuckers was like, hey, we need to
offer these niggas is out here touching kids, Like, well, it take
so long. Florida is fucking weird. Not even I mean, we can't
even say it's Florida because right the whole nation is like, oh, we
just labeled him and tell everybody and put them in the house, and right
that the kid, your name's going like Jericho the list. That's it.
Niggas is going on to the list. Elementary school is the worst, though,
put it on the board, your name on the board, shit,
right, check check mark out for the extra recess. Yeah, teacher ever
put the word recess on the any Raci's letter. Yeah, and we don't
got no letters this night. Terror we got laugh But you know it's crazy
about that, Like I understand the concept of it, right because you know,
it's it's kind of trying to make your class accountable for each other.
But they don't realize that shit got niggas folded up because if because if you
were that nigga, if you were that nigga that got that last letter took
away, you was getting shredded. I ain't gonna lie. I helped tune
a couple of niggas up. I definitely did. Did you like the real
gangster about it? Too? Black? Right? Right? And it's crazy
because they were staying there for a minute. They already knew they was taking
the letter, but they want as many eyes on them as possible at the
time that they finally decided to erase it because they want to drive that shit
home. So if they got to go two thirds in the classroom, swipe,
man, we told you man, and then they try to act like
men don't get about going outside. Man, I don't on site, you
like, you go care nigga. As soon as that three fifteen, we're
beating your ass, nigga. So it was like I said, I got
it. But at the same time, I don't think they truly realized unless
it was kind of like a power play. Yeah, like maybe they knew
exactly which kids. I was like, I can't stand a little motherfucking I
know he's gonna sucking. They gonna beat his ass. So it's so it
was kind of a set up in some way, and that help it being
an asshole in the class like you just you just knew. Uh. So
one of the main, main, main, main mains that I wanted to
talk about you don't care about replace no more because they made the fucking scroll
on my look, go on my page, push search and hoctially awkward and
then to come up you, um, what's up? First of all,
I've never had a set time frame. The only reason why I was timing
myself was before the Lives. And then I thought about it. I'm like,
now they can see the Lives regardless, But um, okay, if
it's only four minutes, well if they if they are on time for the
Lives and actually watch the Lives, then they don't have to worry about a
replay that you're incentive to have your ask her on not getting a replay on
Monday the little kids. No. But I saw a post and of course
it was a chi um because you know how they do. And she was
like loud with it, like she put black women like in all caps and
she was like, black women are single because they want to get paid for
being in a relationship. Where are your thoughts on that? Because I know
mine, I can see that POV from the way the world, the date
the world is right now, why agree or disagree that want to be paid?
That black women are single because they I don't think that's the main reason
why they're single. But I can see Sera is a black woman, I
would saying no, so I don't fall into that category. Songs for need
to be paid. I do not think they want to be paid, eat,
but they what I have I have, I don't I don't think they
want to be paid, but they don't mind somebody showing them that they are
able to take care of them. So my take provider the meat provider,
but the butcher girl you don't know, but I did. I can't see
a woman being arousing. I can't see it. I just can't see.
If I wore panties I take them off. I just can't see her going,
Oh I like that. I like I really just broad conversation with somebody
and we were just talking and talking about I don't forgot what we were talking
about. And she said, yeah, I want to get fucked. That
has changed the whole name of the conversation. I mean, so it worked
for me. From her, I was like, oh, well shit,
let's get that. What's your next question, like, are you offering no?
It was it was that was Keshia saying she disagrees, and Dina said,
most definitely want to get paid. Y'all may be different though, so
it's not necessarily that I'm different. Um, yes, is there more context
to this situation or that that's literally that was her post word for word,
black women not women. Black women are single because they want to get paid
for being in a relationship. That was her exact post. There is a
lot of representation online where his financial status it seems to matter more than what
how she feels about him. So I can see that person thinking that you
know of women, like all of y'all are single because y'all want to get
so right now, I'm between blessings and I have actually let women know like,
hey, this is where I am, and then it has not been
an issue. It hasn't been an issue at all, Like this is what
I am. I mean, I can't do this, I can't do that,
and it's like, hey, that's all right, this natural season,
but you know that ain't gonna keep me from my china. You know,
do what we gotta do. And it's funny because so many black women are
actually like that. It's very rare that I have been in company of,
or have seen personally women that weren't like that. Um, So it would
be killing me when niggas that don't even got that much fucking money in the
first place be making posts like women are all about money and gold diggers because
it's like, make up your mind, because the same niggas that will say
that will get mad when a bitch that they like don't like them and then
get to talking about, Oh, I guess I got to be a bum
that stay home and play PlayStation all day and I had no job and I
pay no bills because you're mad and she didn't use you. But my taker
is that that's absolute bullshit because it's not that black women want to be paid
for being in a relationship. I feel like black women are just the only
ones that are vilified when they want that standard of a lifestyle because white,
white, white and foreign women becoming trophy wives having nothing to offer but a
smile and what they call it a tight ass that has been not only fucking
except but encouraged it for the longest. Like when you look at celebrities and
shit like you look at motherfuckers like doctor Dre or anybody like and you were
like, bro, that's what he married. Like the strong face as white
woman, they don't even have to be cute. They don't have to offer
anything, they don't have to have anything on the fucking table. But whenever
it's us, then it's some more. Yeah, but can you could?
Can you clean? You gotta have more than this, You gotta have more
than that. But when it's one of the mother and motherfuckers, one of
them pale ones, something gott to justify your back, they just gotta be
a fucking just bullshit, bullshit because because they love spicy Hispanic bitches. So
I don't want to hear that they fetishized that they love when a Hispanic bitch
because them out they love that shit. I'm anna stab you, poppy bus
she could she clean? Large? You're done? Kids? Is good?
Like yeah? So why is that gotta all be me? That's but you
know, because of the lifestyle that you want, this is what you gotta
do to have it. If you don't do it, if you won't need
to go out here and make all this money and you don't have a care
in the world, why you can't do that? But the crest, actually
that's more of a job than anything. Because actually they just did a study.
I believe they said, if you're a stay at home mom. You
should be paid at least one hundred and eighty seven. Why is it more
of a job. And it's just not the role you chose. You chose
to be a stay at home mom. You chose to want to live his
life. I chose to want to go out here and get it. So
if I want to give you this life that you chose to live, this
is what I gotta do. So this is what I'm asking you to do.
Yeah, I means you had enough money that then you couldn't actually have
us having made no, no, we're not having you want to stay at
home to take care of kids. But but that's the funny part, right,
So niggas that don't even make as much fucking money in the first got
damn place the ones that should actually be complaining about having to spend money for
a kept bitch. They can't keep a bitch because they don't got the money
to keep a bit. But it's like you look at it, like I
said, like, because niggas don't be having celebrity money, but they always
fucking talking like they have celebrity money to fucking live off of in the first
place. But you have a celebrity right, and he has all of this
money. This bitch has absolutely nothing to offer him but pussy and being arm
candy. It ain't about well, can you cook? Because she got you
paying for a fucking a chef. Y'all got a private chef? Can you
clean? She got you paying for a fucking maid all of the ship that
she should be quote unquote doing because she's staying at home. She got you
paying for somebody to do that shit. So she is literally just at home
spending your fucking money. And these are not even the niggas that's complaining as
a nigga, As a nigga who would love to have that type of lifestyle
that I could trick. I would love a trick. I would love to
be able to do that shit, and most niggas would. So the niggas
who are talking shit are the niggas who don't have. No they don't have.
I definitely pay for convenience. It's convenience something I would pay for.
I would pay for everything I don't would if I don't have to claim my
house. Definitely pass A real nigga just not complain about what money he's spending
on his lady, because that's what he want to do. That's that's what
he's gonna do. You want, right? I like taking care. I
like taking care of motherfucker. Like when when the shoes on the other fun.
No, Because for as for as many niggas who complain about how women
like what we're just talking about, who don't have rapper money, there's a
bum ass bitch that won't rapper qualities from your normal nigga that goes to work
every day that's a nine to five. And then she frowned her face upon
the end of that line. I don't day broke niggas m so like it's
all one of the same. No, But but that's my point. It
that only falls when it comes to us. When you got white bitches that's
literally bread to marry niggas for money so that they don't have to work for
nothing. It's fine for them, but when it's us as bitch, how
dare you? How how dare you want me to take care of you?
And you're not bringing nothing to the table. These bitches don't have to do
nothing, and nobody blinks the fucking eye. They can't. They can't fucking
boil water without burning a pot. But you want us to cook fucking goddamned
soul food movie meals seven days a week, clean up the house, take
care of the kids, and still go half on bills. To you talking
about niggas who don't know how to be men, so they sit there and
bitch online all day because men who could do it. And I feel like
some of that should be relative to what you say, Like if you grew
up in a in a way where you watched your pops get that ship and
take care of your mommy, your mom don't really got to lift a finger.
Your mom may work a part time job, but you're always home with
you and your little brother, Like when you watch your father do that shit
for your mama. When you grow up and you get your own family,
you now have your father's mentality to a degree where like this is what I've
seen my dad go out there and get that shit and make sure mom's cool.
So now my wife, I gotta go out here and get that shit,
make sure my wife is cool. Some niggas grow up watching their mom
do everything. So now when you get a girlfriend, you like, well,
my mama did this, Why you can't do that? And I got
my half? You got your half what's probable I have. I have made
a post and I share it whenever it's that time of year, and I've
said so many times, you're that yeah, because you know, Facebook memories
pop up share to tell him that I feel like women are definitely, definitely
majorly responsible for breeding some of the biggest suckers out here because the way that
they coddle their sons and take care of their sons and their brothers, their
nephews. Like I've dated a nigga where he was surrounded by women, the
only the only brother that he had. The nigga was always in jelly.
It would have been the same thing for him, but his mom, his
sister, his aunties. Then he had female cousins. The only other males
that were indeffant like they were his sisters kids and they were younger than him.
So his entire life, it was always women man coming to the rescue,
billing him out, never holding him accountable for anything. Whenever he did
some shit wrong, it was always like, you know, it was always
something to where it took him a very, very very long time to be
able to stand on his own two feet as a man because he didn't he
didn't know what the fuck to do. He had motherfucker's always cooking for him,
he had motherfucker's cleaning for him, he had motherfucker's doing his laundry and
all of this type of ship. And it's like single moms of sons get
mad when you tell them, like, stop colining your son so much.
That's not telling you not to love your sons. That's not telling you.
Yeah, that's not telling you not to show them affection. Yes, love
on your fucking babies. If anything, they need that so that they quit
grow up growing up being fucking terrorists and hating us for no fucking reason because
you didn't give him a fucking hug when he scraped his knee. Bitch,
they had nonna do with me. Why are you upset with me? Right?
I feel like we just say fucked me for But I've always hated that
because when it comes to black women, we are not only expected to seek
and accept struggle love, we are expected to fucking be grateful when the nigga
offers us struggle love. The thing I think that's crazy with all that,
though, too, is that like I came from a householware, just like
how you said, like my dad was taking care of things. My mom
worked part time, but guess what, she was also a nurse, so
she still was making you know, decent money, is working part time as
well too, and then still making sure that you know, home was okay
and taking care of And so then when I raised my son, my son
is capable of doing everything. That's the one good thing benefit because of him
being like a seven is seven years between him and my middle one, and
then ten between him and my youngest, okay. And so by the time
you know, I'm having my younger kids, he up doing everything himself.
So like you need men make you something to eat, You need me gonna
throw that stuff in the wundry, you need me gonna do whatever. Cool,
And now he on his own. He stayed with his girlfriend, but
he did the same thing where he makes sure stuff is taking care of in
the house, and that's she okay. And she worked too. And I
love that because in so many situations of friends and family that I've seen like
grow up, even when the girl is not the oldest she becomes responsible for
She's basically a fucking substitute mother for everybody else. So she didn't have time
to really be a kid. Because she had to step up and fucking parent
everybody else, even fucking older brothers, because she was forced to be more
responsible because they were so used to fucking everybody doing everything for them. So
I don't feel like that is something that they need to be going around saying
like it is not the fact that black women want to be paid for being
in fucking relationships. That is not what it is. Motherfucker is just tired
of always being expected to accept fucking struggle love And why are we the only
ones that get talked down on for that ship for having standards that we are
literally the only ones. I don't never see them talking about fucking Becky or
Consuala for that shit too. Got to have a job. My thing too
is like with me is I'm yeah legacy because it and that goes to what
um Serida said too. She said how we are raised plays a big part
how we act in relationships. And that's another thing um with me and bad,
that's not bad no matter what like I said, like even like we
haven't talked in a couple of d he you know, moves twins period,
But even with me not talking to him and him having because we'd be cool
and then all of a sudden, it be as soon as I get that
blue fucking message that pops up and said, can I ask you a question?
Like, Bro, we ain't gonna talk for like five days. I
already know because I know it's going to be some bullshit. And then it's
like he'd be on the road too much with his thoughts, driving the trucks
late at night. He ain't got nothing to do but think, and now
it's going to be some bullshit. But even with that, if I was
to call or text him right now and be like, hey, I need
you such as such, whatever, he would look out right. And because
of how he was raised, like he watched his dad take care of everything,
So even when we were younger, like in our early twenties, that
was the kind of mindset that he had whenever I needed something or anything was
going on. I didn't have to ask him twice if I had to ask
at all, If he knew something was going on, yeah, you're good,
you got gas in the car, you're good, you know, jelly
being all right? Like I didn't have to because that is what he saw.
And I've said that um on my Facebook post. You know, a
couple of times. How it was completely different my experiences dating men in two
parent households where you know, because their dads were not only involved, but
they were very dominant in the household and handle everything, versus dating guys with
single moms, especially when they had very troublesome relationships with their mothers. Ye
like that shit is a completely the contrast. It's crazy. Yeah, I
see, I haven't had the privilege of raising an ain't raised girls, So
yeah, I feel stuff saying he ain't Bay. Y'all just weird Bay.
That ain't Bay. God damn it. That's what I said, Um,
Ray say, y'all need calling. We used to fucking have him when we
was on a block talk that was a topic on these two Nigga show earlier,
and was talking about how all of this started. Do what call in?
I mean technically it's here you're talking about when you do the join the
live thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I just don't want to do
it. No, you need to lay down because start something probably prepared.
We don't have enough infrastructure in our community that supports relationships and families. That
was a season. You know, she had to get deep with it,
and no, that's true. It's true, Caleb. Both my relationships came
from two parents homes and they were horrible, very active dass. And see
that's a crazy part with me. Like with me and my ex husband,
his mom was more dominant with everything that she was doing, and I could
tell. And then when I was done with crazy controlling, it doesn't matter.
He was in a single you know family household was just his mom.
So that was another one too. Now with what I'm doing right now somewhere
with how I grew up. But see, and I have to worry about.
But but that's why I was specific and saying with two parents and two
parent households where the dad was the dominant one and handling everything, That's exactly
why I was specific, because every two parent household, like it's not the
same. Because that's like even with me, like I technically like even after
my dad, like once my mom, because my mom has been with my
stepfather since I was graduating eighth grade. That was nineteen ninety eight. This
is twenty twenty three. But then again had ship. You are owned ship,
he didn't you know mom? You know, my mom was the fucking
the sour dough, the honey wheat, the multi grain, whatever fucking type
of bread you got. She was the bread winner. You know, this
was the nigga. He cooked all the meals and shit and you know,
fix whatever run like. That was his way of contributing because he had a
fucking money. He's in all of these years, I can literally only remember
him having two legit jobs. And this was before I graduated high school.
This nigga singing to le Quod the Margharitas have kicked in or Tomas. But
there's also somebody that I dealt with from a single parent household. But the
difference was his mother was older. I've also noticed that dating guys were like
older parents. That makes a difference too. So with his mom being up
there, you know, she fucking sixty whatever you're like, she don't play
that ship, and she set a certain standard for him. So even though
she was a single mom and he came from a single mom household, again
completely different because of how she was, because she was old school with ship.
So she raised her son not to be like his father. So let
me see, Kayla said, I hate I'm raising my son alone. I
feel absolutely horrible about it. We're in very important years and he's literally being
moded by me because there aren't any men present. I pray every day he
don't end up messed up or caused some turmoil to a woman as I help
you, bro, I got some aggression, like we could stump that and
got out because it's like, I really don't understand how you're gonna have a
whole child out in the world and be like, I really don't. That's
a lot of people that are like that, though I don't understand it either.
That's triggering right now. Yeah, But like because I've talked to Kayle
about this, like on her on her post um because kayleb post you know,
sometimes she'll put up stuff about, you know, interactions between her and
her son. I am not a boy mind, but there are certain things
that I understand, like when you have boys, just because of the type
of people that I've dated and seeing what it was, it's like, please,
please, please do not cater to these boys in every single way because
you ain't doing shit but making like you're not building them up to be the
men that understand reciprocity. You're not building them up to be the men that
understand being providers. You're building up entitled, fucking brats that are going to
be looking for women to fill your shoes. That's all you're doing when they
they want a women like their mama, not because oh well, my mom
was wholesome and she was into the church, and you know when she cooked
meals and she did this, and I saw how she treated my dad.
And this is why I want to know. They want to replace the fucking
maid that gave birth to them. That's literally all it is. I said,
I'm definitely not Jesus Christ. I hope not my mom's I love her
to death, man, fucking annoying love her, though, I mean,
and that's the thing, nervous and and and here's the thing. And I
can say this about Wine's mom, I can say this about Wine's grandma because
I can say this about my mom. Something with Dincin's women is fucking off.
And that is like I stopped the cycle with mine. I don't treat
mine like that. And it's like their parenting style sucked in the way of
even when they did a lot for you, you would wish they fucking didn't
because they make you. It's it's like getting in it's like getting in the
bed with a loan shot it's forever day. Yeah, for every day,
remember that day I gave birth to you, right, Like, man,
I mean, you chose to do that shit like I didn't. I was
like, that was on you. I used the one I wanted to get
that the same shit I'm doing now is what you let you? He said,
some nice shit. You was like, let me take these draws on.
I do all the time. I said, some nice shit, but
just take their pennies on. That's what happened to. Tray said, Yeah,
that's the one thing I can't do. What are you talking about?
As far as I with being a boy, mom as easy to say,
damn me me, Tray said, I tell oh okay, she said she
tell him every single day. I ain't know made Yeah. Um Keisha saying
my ex told me all this shit is mom did for history as dad.
One flag I ignored. Yeah, but that's something that I have learned to
like maneuver around. And I mean it's it's not a fucking foolproof system because
people turned out how they turn out. I just know a huge red flag
like when the nigga was raised by a single mom and their relationship is shitty,
or he was raised by a single mom, and he was like,
because they're there are two different kinds of mama boys mama's boys, would you
agree, Yes, I feel like there is the mama's boy, where they
have a very healthy relationship with boundaries, and then there's the mama's boy,
where this is a grown ass man with his mama titty and his mouth rum.
One of my relationships where I thought that shit was sweet with us,
ended up like it was intolerable because it was mama's boy with Titian's mom.
So it's like, even though he had one of those older moms that you
know, taught him all of this ship and he knew how to treat me,
he knew how to provide and all of this kind of shit, it
was like it was always a wedge because it was always with my mom my
mom my, mom my mom. And it's like, who are you fucking
here? Bro? Like I'm like, you know, and and it's nah,
because it's because some shit is real weird, you know, it's like
borderline ancestral. So you're kind of like, okay, and it's like and
I and I look at the same way about when I look at certain ship
that boy mom's post on Facebook and it's like, bro, that's not your
man, that's your son, right. I hate that. I hate passion,
but I didn't seeing Kelly said one thing I ain't doing is clean it
alone. I'll cut all this shit off, right, um my girl,
and I couldn't wait. And that was the thing. And it was like
my mom didn't like she didn't want us choosing a washing machine because she thought
she I was like, man, I really like I wanted to do my
own ship, Like I wanted that extra independence. I wanted to be able
to show that I was responsible and able to do my own ship. So
it was certain like I just wanted to learn I couldn't actually keep me out
of cook because we had this conversation, heard that apron and fucking Salisbury Steak
and Grants biscuits. Wre to go fucking cut it. But you know what
she did when she could Tracy he makes his own food, cleans his room,
et cetera, and Tristan being there helping because he liked to follow his
brother. I still love on my boys though, And that's the thing,
like I said, a lot of women get offended when you bring that point
up to them because they think that we're telling you to just stonewall your fucking
son, like, don't show them emotion, don't hug gum, don't kiss
them, don't tell them you love them, just fucking ignore them. No,
give your boys all of these things because they need it. They fucking
need it. They need to be able to not only show love, but
to be able to feel that shit. They need to know what love feels
like when they are coming up. That's what some people are not teaching.
I'm lucky to have not I'm just looking to have the children I have because
I hear what people go through and the struggles that have. I keep looking
at Timmy here because his shit is popping the day. Can't y'all can't see
the definition? I camera here right find hold on very defined. That's saying
hold on, hold on. I got to use it as twenty two pro
can for this. And I'm posting this in the group like the butters it's
shiny baby, I'm posting this and a host butters like I was saying,
I have a very privileged to have had girls that I did not have any
problems with whatsoever. So this whole like like twenty six years of having children,
I've never had to run into know like bitch ass nigga behavior. I
mean, they do what they're supposed to do. They clean up when they're
supposed to clean up, they come home when they're supposed to come home.
They I mean, I've never had any issues with them, So I think
I've just been blessed. So I feel bad. I feel bad when people
have like bad situations with their children and find out that they are growing to
be hole ass niggas and shit like that. And I don't think I was
supposed to have boys. I don't think I was supposed to raise That would
break my heart to look at my son. But like you really your fuck
nigga, right, like you really That's how That's how jelly Bean's dad talks
about I mean, jelly Bean's granddad talks about her dad awesome. He wasn't
raised like this. But it's like, Okay, you say that, and
I understand where you know you feel like, well, I was always there
for him, but it's like you wasn't in the same state as him,
Like you know, y'all had a relationship to where you know, if he
come visit and whatever, like you've never turned your back on him. But
at the same time, you weren't a constant presence in his life either.
Not to say that's you know either, you know, y'all split, you
and his mom split. She wanted to live here, you wanted to live
there. It is what it is, but you weren't a constant in his
life to where it's like, well, every day I get to see my
pops, like, hey, with my pops or whatever, like y'all had
huge gaps in between because y'all had to schedule time between. All right,
well, he got school in Mississippi. He can't just come out to fucking
California, and when he do, you know, it's fucking nine months in
between because he got the school year, all right, Well he out here
for the summer. Like so, I don't know if maybe that's a thing
that kind of makes him feel like, all right, well, she can
live without me, because you know, I used to have to live without
my dad for you know, so much months at a time. Like I
don't know what it is, but it's like you feel like you didn't raise
him to be the kind of father that he is because you were always available
as a father to him, but you weren't always present as a father to
him. Two totally different things. But imagine being present and doing everything right
for your kids and teaching them right for wrong. You go to basketball games,
give them the love and to teach them everything, and he'll grow up.
That's crazy to me. The one thing that I may have done,
because my oldest is single still is probably how old is your oldest? Twenty
six? That ain't got anyhing to do with you? No, she didn't
ran some whole as niggas and she like, I'm just gonna chill out.
My friends are saying, made me be happy. Maybe her standards are just
way too high, or her standards are normal people can't right, right,
I mean, yeah, I recognize that because the dating pool got shipping there
at this point. No, I don't think of that, because I mean
I may have spoiled them to the point where the expectation of that, Hey,
you know you can do better a father, that's literally your job more
need to do. And I feel like her being twenty six and single,
it's okay, you can stay with me. Yeah, like no, but
that whole situation, I'm actually happy to hear it, because you know what
that says to me about your daughter. She's not fucking settling, and so
you raised her to have a standard enough, So she was like, look,
I know what this feels like to be loved. I know what a
man is supposed to do in my life. You're not gonna come here and
short change me, right, So fuck you. I'd rather be by myself.
So for her to be not even thirty years old and already have that
realization and standard for herself, when a lot of women they got to be
fucking thirty five before they're really damn man, I wasted all my twenties on
this fu niggas. You know what, from this point forward, no more
fuck niggas. She already has that down. Yeah, I hope so about
it. And the good thing about it is is she don't have to stay
in a situation. She don't have to because she knows she can always come
to her daddy house no matter what. Fuck you, nigga. That's why
I don't understand why people be so mad at Lorie Harvey. She said on
an interview a long time ago that her daddy told her she it, don't
ever forget she is the prize. Don't don't ever forget that. So if
she ever ends up in a situation where she feels like it's no longer serving
her and it's not you know, it's not for her. Leave it.
You do not have to stay in no situation. I applause everything she do,
all this, all these fun niggas who talks about her being a whole
whatever nigga? What cause she move around like you definite? Yeah, yeah,
there's a lot of broks. This is probably shot because my dad just
kind of you know how when you're reading the clothes captions and they'd be like
nervous chuckle. That was my daddy. When I told him, I said,
I said, I said, I feel like my love life is Joe
Karma. I said, I feel like I'm being punished for yo see him
sometimes. I told him that, I said, I said, sometimes I
do. I feel like, you know, all of the stuff that you
did and like stuff that you put my mom because my mom and dad were
like they were together since high school and out of all of those years,
they didn't even get married until I was already in the third grade, after
being together since high school, so they were together for a very long time.
Um, and it's like out of all of that, I feel like,
you know, as your firstborn, Carmen was like dice and I crapped
out and I ain't even hadn't it, bro? First of all, I
wasn't even supposed to be here. Bro, I was on an abortion docket,
nigga, I was penciled in. She was sitting I tell y'all all
the time. I tell y'all all the time. My mom's was in the
paper gown ass out reading the jet mad and dad was, please don't kill
my baby, please, And he talked her out of that ship just to
leave her to be a single mom in the end. So I know,
so you know, and sometimes I feel like, because don't get me wrong,
my mom a thousand percent when it came to being a provider, taking
care of business, pa like, she never dropped the ball. But when
it came to being a nurturer and like a mother, she didn't know how
to do that right. And it's like, I'm turning thirty nine this year
and I still have to kind of wrestle with myself, like, Bro,
you gotta forgive her for that, because it's like, Bro, she didn't
even want to be a mom, you know, she didn't like she wasn't
ready for it or even toil what you're saying. And like my mother was
not raised by her mother. She was raised by her father and her grandmother.
So same similar thing where my mother did love her everything, but she
didn't have that maternal instinct. Yeah, so she didn't know how to do
those things. So like I was overcomp and saying I could tell with my
kids where I was always telling them because I probably nine. I was like
in my late twenties thirties, that's when I finally heard my mother said I
love you. I never heard that my father. I never heard my father
say I love you until my son forced him to do it when my son
was two, And that's the first time I've heard my father say it.
So stuff like that, when you look back and recognize you, like,
damn, I'm the one that had the basically like change that standard in the
family. Black. No, I'm loving all my kids and everything. And
my son now he's six three, two fifty, you know, and I'm
still that's my baby. And it's like their words, I'm not in this
business. He got his own house. He got his own house old so
he and a month and I have conversations with my kids because I am not
if I ever get this book out, like I really need to. I
really need this book done. But um, i've you know, I've talked
about this before, like I don't consider myself the perfect mom, broybe a
long shot. Um, there are a lot of things that I went through
as a kid that kind of molded my personality. And it was hard having
kids and adjusting that part of my personality, like my mom not being like
having that maternal instinct, like she didn't you know, spend time with me
when we were when I was a kid, like I even had like you
know, my foster sister, Like my mom didn't take us and just oh,
you know, let's go have s five days and let's you know,
go to the movies or let's just go out Like I didn't have those moments
with my mom. My mom was a homebody. She didn't like to do
anything. Like she get off work, she come home, she you know,
go in the room. And that was kind of you know, she
stayed put unless she came out like cooked dinner or something, she's back in
her room. And I found myself being like that. And it's like when
they come in there, like like I interact with them, or it was
like, hey, you know, y'all want to sit down and I want
to watch this movie and stuff like like so I try to do some things
with them, Like I said, like, you know, even if it's
just hey, y'all want to sit here, just we watch watch a bunch
of Marvel movies together, watch Harry Potter movies, or you know, if
it's something that they wanted to you know, it was hey, man,
can you watch this? And it's like it ain't complete bullishit like but I'm
not gonna watch see when Universe get on my face. I'm gonna watch this
YouTube and watch but you know, but we but we can, you know,
do stuff. So that portion I had to learn from because it's like
I knew how I felt when I felt like my mom was kind of like
secluding herself for me in the house. But it took me a minute because
I was feeling like, well, I do shit with them outside the house.
Then my mom didn't do. I take them skating whenever Marvel movies come
out. Where we're at, we're the first one. We're in the movies.
You know what I'm saying, We're going bowling we go, I take
them out to eat. It was a point where when I was working two
jobs, I still make sure I'm like, all right, well, bowling
every Thursday or you know, skating every Wednesday, like little stuff like that.
Like I was doing shit like my mom. She never did that with
me. So it used to piss me off when I felt like my mom
used to like try to criticize my parenting and It's like, how the fuck
can you criticize me? Do you know? I felt like Eddie, I
like, what the fuck are you to put me on trial? Like I
got mad? Um? And this might be news to you know some of
you, but if you've been friends with me on Facebook for a while,
you probably already knew. But there was a point where, like Bree was
having mental health issues back in twenty eighteen um, and I had to,
you know, put her through a program um she was, you know,
suicidal thoughts and everything, and I'm like, I've been through that. And
my mom wasn't the nurturing type to be like whoa, you know, what
help do you need? How can I help? You know, talk to
me? You know this and that, And it was kind of like,
well, what you want to do you know, like I gotta get back
the work type shit like that was her thing, and it was like for
me, it was being a lot more proactive than being involved. Like I
talked to my kids all the time. I asked them how they feeling every
single day when they walk in the door. How was school today? I
work today? You know like today? Like and I was. I was
proud and cracking up at the same time because Ree finally had her you know,
y'all know she just started sucking work and what did she do? She
when she was like, somebody pissed her off and get the hell out of
her face off. It's like she eighteen now, but no, um.
But she was talking to me about how, you know, how annoyed she
was because at work she's doing her ship. Don't just come assuming because she
feels that they are looking at her and underestimating her or they basically like they're
looking down at her. Like she she was like, I know how to
fucking read it says this, I'm making it this way. Don't come fucking
on my ship because you think that you know, I made it this way
because the customer said, no this and you come, oh, well this
is supposed to come with this on it and then just dumping on my fucking
sandwich. I didn't put it on there for a reason, right, And
then I guess one of her managers was like, oh, well, when
you're wrapping a cold sandwich to go, you're supposed to put it on this,
and she's like, I just look at and I kept doing. She
was like, because it was a it was a for here order. So
then the lady repeated like, um, I don't see the same when she
was like, well, that's fine, but this is an order for Oh
well, why didn't you just say that? Why are you over here fucking
with me like I can't read us on the screen, right, because you
could have easily started out, is that order for it to go? Okay?
Well, if it's to go, then make sure that you blah blah
blah blah blah. You just came over here, assuming I didn't know what
the funk I was doing, so, you know, being able to just
vent to me about shit like that. Jellybean every single day she getting the
car and she's how was school to that? Oh? Well we did this,
we did that. I hate kids blah blah, like you know,
because they were pressing. It sounds like we're parenting similar children. Definitely.
Yeah, But um, that's something that I had to learn based off of
what I knew I was missing. And I tell people all the time,
no, I am not a perfect mom, but all of the areas that
my mom went wrong with me, those holes that she had in her parenting,
I plugged them in mind. Ye I knew where she went wrong.
So it's like, now I feel like so many parents are parenting out of
guilt instead of parenting out of love. And parenting out of guilt means that
you were going to be too worried about appeasing your kids and I pissing them
off instead of telling them what they need to hear and doing what's best for
them, or the perception of reality people who don't give a fuck that you're
a good parent. Yeah, so like we're re We wanted to go to
Riverside. That was going to be her first choice on you know, her
high school selection. I was like, oh, that's fine, arts,
but my arts you only want because because no one was at Riverside? Right?
Where was no Ad? Oh? No, it was that Golden Who
the fuck Jonathan was at Riverside? Was it Jonathan? No, no,
no, I'm talking to wind uh his nephews son. I think that was
Jonathan was at Riverside, but it was Jonathan. And then it was like
a couple of her friends and you know, I want to go to No,
because there's no there's no reason for that. And imagine she wanted to
go to Riverside because they had volleyball. But I told you all how bad
she sucked that volleyball. So just so just imagine had had had I not
vetoed that decision and like, oh well, yeah, you can go there,
and then she got to play fucking volleyball and she goddamn sucking m So
now what So now we are sitting here but no opportunity whatsoever because I let
you do what you wanted to do versus me doing what's best for you as
your mother. Ye, because I didn't give a fuck if I pissed you
off or not. So she was mad at first, like, oh man,
yeah, go do about in your room, Go slay me, go
right about me in your journal, go draw me as a hangman. I
don't give a fuck. You're going through the arts. And now look what's
happened in that time, thirty seven out of forty thousand dollars paid for for
her freshman year because of scholarships herself during that time frame, too, right,
And it's like different if it was riverside. Oh yeah, yeah,
she meant the cheaperhood. Oh we listened out on comments. We can we
can we getting yoll that in the comments, y'all try said, it's the
balance she had to learn. Um. Dino said, I'm proud of y'all
for changing your family structures. No bullshitkay, let's say yep. I had
to learn to be affectionate with my son because my mom wasn't. Now she
hugs me, and it feels weird because she didn't do that with us,
as kids complain it now. Just a disgust though, too, because I
know it was like that initially my mom. And then we had that conversation
about that because I said there, I was like, look, I said,
don't try to do this now out of guilt, the conversation about it,
and then after we did, we were good. Out of guilt.
Yeah, it was, she she told me it was. Dino said,
we were still learning every day. There's no concrete parents and mangua at all
and there was a thing with my mom that some of y'all may not know.
But um, when when I first, like while I was locked up,
I had you know, I signed over rights to my mom to be
able to handle everything so they didn't have to contact me for nothing. If
anything happened, my mom was able to make all the decisions. And knowing
my mom and how she likes to control shit, I dated it until because
and I put my release date there. I got it notarized, sent it
up. So anything that she did, whether it was doctor Poyman's or whatever,
she she had this document. Um. But my mom like really tried
to take over with re Read, like jelly Bean was she wasn't even thought
of at this time. And my mom spent so much time re Read and
she's been away more active and involved grandmother than she was a mother. And
I always felt like that was out of guilt because she she wasn't like that
with me. So when re Read was a baby, and then even you
know, when she got Tyler and jelly Bean was born, her and my
stepfather like they always had my kids always, and I didn't think nothing of
it because I mean that's that's how I grew up. I was always at
my grandpa house, my grandma. Like that's what grandparents fucking interacted with their
grandkids back then. So that's a tradition that I expected to carry on because,
like I told you, like me and Wine, we grew up in
the same house because we lived where with our fucking grandmother. Like granny house
was open at all, so it was like my mom and me living there,
his mom and him living there and this, you know, it was
room for everybody type shit. So it wasn't out of the ordinary for my
mom to want to spend so much time with my kids. I didn't dump
my kids off on her. I can be at home and they come pick
them up, and I'm like, well, shit, when Nigga's on to
night, next thing you know, I'm in the whole dress, I'll mixed
because the kid's gone, I'm gonna I'm gonna enjoy it. And then it's
like yeah, and it's like I would literally like through the week my mom
was at home, I'm spending the fucking school week with my grandmother and shit,
because my grandmother lived closer to my school, so may Mark, she
was like, well, no, I don't want you to have to,
you know, worry about that. I'll get her up, I'll get her
ready for school, you know. So I was basically raised by my grandmother.
And then it's like even on the weekends, Brian going home on my
friends in the hood. You I don't know nobody el We're in a fucking
apartment building up there, and nigga can't bounce no ball over there. I'm
staying at Granting house. So I was always at my grandmothers house, so
that wasn't something that was foreign to me. So for me to find out
that my mother was feeding to my kids, like, oh yeah, mama
just want a party all the time. So she leave y'all like she made
them feel like I was jumping them off on her when that was a voluntary
decision for her and my stepdad to pick them up. And me and re
have had this conversation. She was like, I'm not gonna lie. She
was like, I felt the way about you all of these years. She
was like, but finding out that that's not the case, she was like,
now me and Granny not close no more because I don't like how she
did that. So now my mom feels the way because her and Reid's relationship
has suffered, and Reid's not as close to her because they got the same
birthday. But she was like, she really made it seem like it was
this way and we didn't know no better. Yeah, because you did that.
So I'm like, because we was talking one day and I'm like,
we really gotta you know, I had to sit down and I'm like,
all right, so I don't punch you in the forehead. What is your
problem? You know? And when she was I was like what, I
was like, No, I said, your granny was just fucking come get
you. I said, I didn't even have plans until after they decided they
was go throw y'all in the back of the fucking car, like you know,
because I wasn't. I didn't plan shit like that. So after having
that conversation with her, her whole perspective of me as a mother chance because
she was like damn this whole time, I'm thinking, like damn, like
she ain't Vonnus or something, or she just didn't whatever, like because we
always at her granny house and I'm like, no, nigga, that was
your granny's fucking I did. I used to be at home board sometimes and
she's like, damn man, she go get my kids, you know.
But because of the fact that I always felt like my mom was trying to
make up for not being a mother like that to me, I let her
have those moments. But when I bought the house, I'm like, they
ain't coming over there. So I had to break that and keep my kids
at home. And then she started seeing like she started feeling bad, like
because you made my kids really think that I was just fucking dumping them off
on you and didn't want them to fucking be at home because I wanted to
party, when me partying was a result of y'all just fucking coming and get
them. Or we went over to visit and I'm putting their coats on.
Oh you would just leave them here? You sure? Well, shit,
it's already you know such and such they and ate already, just you know,
we I give them a bath, put them whatever. Sucker in my
heart, shit, you know, because that's that's how I was used to
growing up. There were literally times where and even now I can't tell you
what the fuck I ate last week, but I can tell you times when
I had on my little fucking Carabar pajamas and being sleep and filling my body
doing this ship and it's my mom lifting me up and sneaking my coat on,
picking me up to take me home in the middle of the night.
And then my granny like, well, why are you taker? She was
like, Wellma, you was you know, you had her all week.
You know, I just brought her home. Yeah. So that it's something
that, you know, I've wanted to talk about the fact, like me
having my kids, it took a longer time to build that foundation with them
because my mom broke a trust with them, making them think that something completely
off the map was how I felt about them. So even with that,
it's like me and my mom, like we fell out for a long time
behind that. Yeah. Yeah, So I'm happy now that they have a
full, you know, understanding of the situation. And I explained to them
like, well, you know, your granddad ain't shit, but this is
how I grew up with his dad. You know, I was always over
there. I was always at my granny house, or I was always I
was literally never at home. It's to a point where what kids don't stay
home on Christmas Christmas Eve, I would go spend a night at my cousin
house and my mom and dad would sneak presence to my aunt and uncle like
here, you know, put these under the tree for her, because Santa
was still a thing then, so that I would think, well, how
Santa no I was here because he real he knows where all the kids is
that type shit. So I'm not even staying home on fucking Christmas night because
I'm I'm staying at other people's house. But I didn't look at that as
something wrong. I didn't look at that as being fucking neglectful. I wanted
to be where it was fun at I was the only child at that time,
Like I didn't have foster siblings at that time. Like I didn't want
to be at home. I was by my fucking self. It was lonely
at granny house. My cousins and ship was there and I want to go
kick it. So that, you know, that was a huge thing that
I had to learn from from my own childhood, like how I felt about
my mom and feeling like she was avoiding me and shit because she really didn't
want to be a fucking mom. Like I didn't even know about the abortion
shit back then. But like as I I older, I'm like a lot
of shit makes sense because you probably liked bitch as Nigga left me in the
house with this fucking kid that I didn't even goddamn won't. Now I'm taking
care of everything. He was fucking dead beating. She just here like,
you know, hey, it'd be like that sometimes. Held on reality.
Keisha said, you got a seriousness, break it up and get all the
back. Dino said, kids learned from adult examples of how to do shit
from talking to morals. Yeah, my girl bounced back like a player though.
What Yeah right, Oh, Keisha, time about her boss. Time
on TERRB. Throw that home the grill. Yeah, my school, she
went to the better school. Uh, y'all leaving us out in the comments.
Sorry, not bad. When we get to talking, I know right,
it gonna be way behind. Wasn't paying attention. I think I gotta
start like rotating, like keeping the laptop in front of me. Comments.
Uh, saying my grandma always had us, raised me my whole first year.
And that's the thing, and it's like and it works and black households
like back then, like grandparents were very very very important. Now grandparents ain't
done being young, so they still want to party and ship because and I
don't that nineteen. I don't, but no, because I mean, you
were me and we are twenty years apart. But my mom was always like
from the very beginning, my mom has always been an outstanding fucking grandmother.
I will never take that away from her. But she has spent way more
time with my kids and she's ever spent with me. And I'm twice re
fucking age. She was still growing up with you. Uh no, she
said, we're the same person, literally child. Oh my mother in law.
I said, maybe your grannie did the same to your mom. Sorry
if that's the first, Oh, no, that that and and I think
that's the thing that hurt me so bad about it, because my grandmother has
never ever ever treated my mom the way that my mom has treated me.
Like my grandma's demeanor and just everything is completely fucking different. My mom was
the baby of all of my grandie's kids. Um My mom was number nineteen,
twenty and twenty one, was twins, but they didn't they didn't live
too long, so my mom was the baby. She was number nineteen,
instant favorite, and shit, you know about it, I was kind of
like the favorite grandchild. And shit, I didn't have those problems, like
my my Grannie didn't she wouldn't like that to my mom at all. Actually,
the house that I grew up in UM with my grandmother, me and
Juan, she actually ended up like she signed that house over to my mom,
and people were mad about that, and she was like, well,
Brenda worked hard, she do you know, like she did everything from my
mom because my mom was a type to do everything for herself. You're so
lucky to have your grandparents in your life, however, and on my dad's
side, and I think that's what hurts me so much about my um,
my dad and his side of the family, like they're not active with my
kids. And I grew up with all of my grandparents except my mother's father,
and that's because he passed when she was nine. So on my dad's
side, not only did I have his mother and his father, I had
both full sets of my great grandparents from both of his parents. So I
was going to Louisiana every summer and I was seeing both sets of my great
grandparents. So yeah, and then we shoot over the little rock. Uh.
Motherfucker said I was crazy and she would never help me again. After
I had the cop call the cops on her for keeping Tristan story for another
day. If you want to be a quote unquote parents, start with the
ones you had and stopped making it seem like I'm a bad parent. Yeah,
that's wild. Uh, it'd be so hard because like I can't just
scroll with my finger. We almost side of here, y'all, tone being
weird, like he don't know my shows being on the everybody tell you started
nine, y'all, I got so much anger. Now I'm in therapy to
get over all that shit. Um. I can attest to that because when
I started therapy, my mom was mad. Um. I didn't realize how
my mom was the root and like the trigger for a lot of my issues.
And then once I started addressing ship, my mom was like, well
that bitch just trying to turn you against me, and she a lot because
I'm actually addressing. Yeah, that therapy definitely helps. Um. Yeah,
I can said to my granny, my mama, and my mom's be hot
about it. They'd be like that child, you know. It's funny.
Um, for those that know about like my relationship with Marvin and his mom,
um, my girls are like they've always been like super super close to
her, like she doesn't have any biological grandkids because her daughter passed I think
twenty fifteen, and then Marvin doesn't have any kids yet. And me and
her relationship was so close because she has mothering instinct. Like I said,
she's older, she's in her sixties, and she has that nurturing to her.
So when I was sick, like she's making me homemade soup and she's
making sure I'm okay. And if I spent the night over there and had
to go to fucking work the next morning, she here, I made you
breakfast and here, you know, take this for lunch. Like she you
know, she just that's the kind of person that she was. She would
call and make sure I'm good. She's a type day you know, when
you come in give her hood, like she slides you twenty dollars in your
hands, like you know what grand And I was like, my mom wasn't
like that. So my mom would get mad because I had to go in
install you know, like one of the little nest things and that up for
I'm like, she doesn't make me feel like I'm obligated to do it.
You make a motherfucker feel like they're obligated to do something for you because you're
my mom. Even though when you do shit for me, it always comes
with a price. It's always going to come up later. It's always going
to bite me in the ass. You have been living here with me,
rent and build free for all of this time. But if I were to
ask you for something that's a problem, it's it's gonna bite me in the
ass somehow how, because that's how Dinkins mothers are. And I don't know
where they got that from, because my granny wasn't fucking like that, like
not at all. Like my granny died with motherfucker's like depending on her and
ship um. My grandma always tell my mama that I was her cold and
she didn't care what my mama said. Like your own kids, I'm barely
fuck with you, but you want to make up for it through my kids.
Have a good fucking day, ma'am. Your show's therapy today second half
is man therapist therapy saved my life last year. I love my therapist for
myself because of the two she gave me to release reset and when shout out
to that coming ready to go lately, you know, don't like that he
always becoming ready to go. He do, though, I gotta be here
since like that is not my fun because who moved me? Who moved me
to Sundays because they said, well, you can do Sundays because that way
nobody's on after you, and then we don't have to worry about you.
Russian who put me on Sundays because I was on Tuesdays. I was on
Tuesday, I was on Tuesdays. I multiple days, I remember, I
remember now initially I was after Scales, and Scales used to be here sometimes
and end up making me late. I moved and I moved her to Mondays
and moved Keyana to Tuesdays, and then Keyana almost killed. We have a
very respectful lineup of shows now that we honor each other's time. I appreciate
that. Yeah, really, except for except for me. Don't come on,
I do what the four minutes I'll be like nervous chuckle. I appreciate
the man. And we ain't even hit three hours yet, and he complaining,
no, it's a podcast, you know who You start to get like
that that other podcast across town that go forever in a day. People listen
and they usually listen to me at work too, so that helped them get
through because they had their jobs. One thing I appreciate. There's no dead
horses being beat here. No, it's topic after topic after topic. It's
true, it's no waste space that you want. But but that's for a
minute. The monkeys that hair get a joke out gonna you know what that
one that one character on a black TV show who's just there to be funny
and sometimes a joke don't land, but he don't give a fuck because he's
still gonna check. That's why I look, man, you miss that's his
whole career. One of the motherfucker jompers going swish. Don't do that in
the playoffs though, Bro, Yeah, that's been time trying. Not news,
damn. But if if you you know, I've been in a similar
situation, trust me, I get it. And that is definitely some shit
that you really really really got to work through because how many times have we
heard people, you know, talk about breaking generational curses, but they've never
actually broken generational curses. And I haven't broken all of them, you know,
but I've done my absolute best to make my kids feel loved, because
growing up I knew my mom loved me. But it's like I didn't necessarily
feel that from her. It felt more like an obligatory love. Yeah,
it's an obligation because the thing is that they weren't emotionally available to you,
so they didn't know how to provide that emotional support to you. Like I
try to have a conversation with my dad about that, and he went off
on me and I said, you know what, you're not ready for this
conversations. My mom never gonna have this. I said, but that's okay
because now I know where you stand and I know where I stand, and
I'm good. That's why she got to snapping talk about my therapists, and
you know, because you try to sweep it was like, well, I
going to church. I said, what's that got to do what we're talking
about right now? My wife got to bring the church into it. I
said, I want to bring the church into it. I'm parts of feelings
because they think they can pray everything away. And I've talked about that with
my therapist as well. Um, but with my mom it was crazy because
it's like I told y'all, when you know, Ree was going through her
suicidal shit and everything, and it's like I'm calling my mom and like Brian
to this lady like she was in Alabama at the time, because it's like,
this is my first born and she's going through this, and it's like,
even though I know that I know how this feels like at the time,
I don't know exactly how to help her write in this moment other than
you know, bringing somebody else in. And the first thing that she did
was blame me. Yeah, blame me for refiling this way. It didn't
have shit to do with me, but she automatically that that was that was
the direction that she went, like when you know, this is your fault
because and I'm like, I just hung up on her. Yeah, yeah,
as it should um, But it was like that that was a difficult,
difficult thing, not being able to talk to my mom about real shit
like that. Me and my mom have always had an openation ship, but
it was never about like the heavy hitting and emotional shit right that I needed
to be able to talk to her about. We've always had an open relationship
where I was able to discuss bullshit with her, or sexual shit with her,
or you know, just day to day shit where I didn't have to
filter things with her. But when it came to actual emotion and love and
nurturing and like meeting her to be an actual support person that was not there.
So me being able to provide that to the girls is something that you
know, I am. I am proud of because me being able to notice
patterns. Okay, I know that when I was this age and I was
acting this way or I felt like this, this is what was going on.
Let me step in, let me have a conversation. How can we
fix this? So RhE is like a complete you know, one eighty for
what the fuck I was as a kid, because I was able to be
there for her emotionally and mentally more than my mom was for me. Like
I said, I can't say that I didn't drop the ball. Sometimes there
was a point where I was working two jobs. I'm getting off one job,
going right to the other, I'm going to school, I'm doing all
this shit, and by the time I might come home, like Nigga's getting
ready to go to bed, I wasn't able to spend that time with them.
So you know, I did feel guilty about that because I'm like,
bro, you're turning and say your mom like you, You're not able to
give them that time and shit that you wanted from your mom at that time.
There wasn't really anything that I can do about it, because financially,
that's what needed to be done. But all I can do is let them
know, like, you know, I do love you. I'm just you
know, this is what Mommy got to do right now. You know,
I hate that, you know, we can't do this and do that,
but I don't want y'all to think that I'm avoiding you. And that was
something that I also had to talk to them about when I was dealing with
my own mental health issues. I have my points where I still spiral sometimes
and they haven't understanding, like you know, Mom, we understand you know
you dealing with you know shit. But I've had to talk to them about
that, like because when I'm in those modes where I'm depressing, my shit
is all out of wrack, like I want to be left alone, and
I have to tell them like I don't ever want y'all to feel like it's
y'all. Like I don't want y'all in my space. I don't want to
be bothered with y'all. I don't want nothing to do with y'all. Is
just mommy's having a difficult time right now, and it's hard for me to
really be engaged and interact with y'all how I would like to, because this
is affecting me. And now I've gone to this, I've gone through similar
as well too. I've had to have those same conversations with my kids,
and like my younger, she takes it because, like I said, I
feel like we probably parent with the same kids, But like my younger,
she takes it very literally, like she thinks it's her and I have to
constantly sit down with her and be like, look, you didn't do anything
wrong. Yep, you didn't do nothing. I said. You're doing the
best that you can. You're doing good. I appreciate everything you're doing.
It's that I'm having a hard time right now. I says, a lot
of things going on and it's over your head and it's not something that you
can do anything about. All I can ask for you to do is just
to be supportive towards me, just like how I'm supportive towards you. Yep,
we're gonna go ahead and we're gonna work through this together. And that's
all I can do. Yeah, I get it, and it is,
and it's like a lot of times just like they'd be kind of like stay
out of grown folks business type ship, and you have to have those conversations
with them because if you're not talking to them about it, it's gonna internalize
some shit and they go get to like, damn, man, my mama
really don't like me right, like you know, and i'd be feeling bad,
like damn read chill up. Like she'd be on her friend on the
phone with her friendship like, oh shit, I don't know about that.
Mama ain't like that. Like, bro, you know, you don't gotta
say it like that, but like she'd like she'd be reason you know how
scorpios are, but she she'd be kind of like just kind of out of
her mouth with it, Like I don't think she thinks twice because I know
she'd be kind of like damn, I'm glad I don't gotta deal with that.
But it's like, bro, day in the middle, like venting and
feeling away and it's kind of like, you know, it's just like whoo
kind of suck for you. Yeah, Like I told like with her turn
of eighteen, and you know, they were basically like projecting on her,
talking to her like, oh girl, you're gonna be eighteen your mama And
she was like, she's like I got one of them. Yeah, she
was like she was like, my mama said nothing about me moving out,
Like and look, she's starting falling to college and starting college in the falling.
Where the fuck is she fing to be? Write in her bedroom,
like nothing happened. She just going from fucking the high school to college at
this point, Like, I'm not at a point where I want to make
her feel like she has to leave when she leaves, I want her to
be fully prepared. Now, that's one thing like with my mom, I
was always able to go back home, but she always made me regret it,
right because it always seemed like there was an obligation attached to it.
There was always some kind of terms or stipulations, like something was always held
over my head for it. And it's like that is one thing that I'm
actually kind of glad that my mom did because that showed me how not to
be with my kids. So no matter what my kids do, like it's
you're not obligated to me for anything. You did not ask me to be
here anything that I am doing for you. It is because I want you
to succeed and I want you to be better than I am. It's not
because I want you to owe me. Like Reid's working now she's eighteen.
How many black households because she is eighteen and working even if she wasn't eighteen,
because she started working, start playing some of these bills now, Well,
you gotta have to start giving me some on the light bill or the
water builder. No, you gotta pay your phone bill now, or you
gotta do something else. Like even when my son, my son moved out
when he was because he's twenty three now, who moved down when he was
almost twenty one? And that's just because he was like, my I'm I'm
doing my own thing with some of the stuff that I'm doing dad, you
know, tripping on me or whatever. And I'm like, well, you
can come over here. Sometimes I said, you can't be here all the
time. I'm like, I'm like you can. I'm like, you can
still be here if you want you, Like now, I'm gonna get my
own place, okay. But it wasn't something that was forced on him,
like you have to go do it so Olive Reese paychecks when she gets paid,
they go right into her account and reads cheap, so they go stack
that nigga do not like to spend no fucking money around. Look at you
like so, But I'm happy for that because she knows how to save money.
And one thing that even with one, there was a point in time
because I know how our mothers are. I tried to help one. I
had one to move in with me so that he can get a job and
actually save his money. I knew that I would be able to cover my
rent without him being there. Save your money within a slight little shit like,
all right, at least just put some tissue in this motherfucker something.
You know, you got a lot more ass than I do. Bro Put
some put some on a charm in my nigga. So my daughter, my
daughter had came came home during the pandemic. She had already graduated, and
she was staying with my uncle. And my uncle was older, and you
know, back then they were like elderly people were more susceptible to the COVID
And she was trying to go in and out the house, and they had
this conversation where you're like, hey, you need to be still and She's
like, I probably just need to go home. I was just come home.
So she came home and stayed with me, and she didn't stay with
her mother. She could stay with me, and the stipulation was come home,
get yourself. Freddie even decided going to go to grad school whatever,
just you know, just stay with me to you figure it out. I
ended up dating somebody who had an issue with the fact that I wasn't making
her pay for anything like that wasn't the agreement I had, Like, I'm
not gonna renig on the agreement, and and uh, that's projecting. She
was probably projecting whatever might have happened to her aunt you because she had to
deal with whatever that was. Because the argument on social media is always parents
feel like they have to charge their kids to live with them, to teach
them responsibility rights. She got like fifteen thousand dollars stage she knows how to
do it. She got a cardinal I co signed in the car. She's
she's paying the cardinal. I've never had to worry about that shit. And
I gave her her cell phone bill, like you pay your cell phone bill,
and she has favorite car assharance. Yeah, she's And I think that
was the only thing that I said I might have restart doing, and it's
spectrum. It is twenty nine ninety nine a month, just so that she
can get used to like paying having a study bill and put somebody on the
charman. Oh no, if anybody got to put some on the scharman,
it's fucking jelly. Being the smallest ass in the house, shoes is the
most Why hey, I said, the little girls eat tissue. The smallest
ass in the fucking house uses all the tissue. Yes, I agree,
yeah, but I do. I really, really really want to be able
to provide a foundation for my girls to be able to build off of and
be successful and not have to keep looking over their shoulder like, damn without
my mama, now, my mama now, without my mama now, or
let me hurry if I'm trying to get this money together so I can get
out of here, right, because that's how I was because baby on my
hip out the house. Um, my mom's sister. She ain't my auntie
no more. Her um every every Christmas, every Christmas. Her Christmas gift
to us was fifty dollars savings bobs every Christmas. So I wasn't obviously allowed
to spend those I had to let them, you know, acimulate yea,
to mature. But because Ship was so bad, like to the point like
when my mom like I with my stepping and sh and I'm like, bro,
I'm not gonna stay here, like something that I could still been saving
and invest you know, letting build for my future. And ship I took
out, I shouldn't cash it in just so I can get my fucking security
depositing ship for me to be able to move the fuck out. Yeah,
And and I didn't even do it as soon as I turned eighteen, like
it just it was it was super I'm like, I can't live here,
but like the money that I was making, I'm like, I need my
security deposit so that I fucking cash my shit in to get my security deposit.
And then I moved out, ye and then gets who ended up pregnant
with re read ended up backfucking home anyway. Yeah, I'd already had my
son, so he was just a little bit over one at that time when
I moved out, and I was like, I got to get out here.
I'm like, y'all just doing too much. Yeah, so I don't
want her to feel that she has to leave if she ever gets to a
point where it's like, bro, look, I really just want to walk
out with my coucie out and have my girlfriend here. I gotta move.
It is what it is. I get it. And that's because I own
this. I own this, motherfucker. I can't even walk out with my
coucie out with my nigga, you know, just hey, I'm gonna get
it quickie by the toaster. I can't do nothing of that because it's always
a house full of people here, and I paid for the house. So
I think about having joined cust go home right now and just walk around the
way I feel and be okay with it. Ia is responsible. God I'm
so jealous, but yeah, uh, hear your traumas, man, so
you don't pass them down to your kids and and really really really try to
like do better by your kids and your parents did by you. Look at
the support that you need as well too, because I'm there are people like
myself with our coaches, and that's what we do. We work with people
and we are able to assist you with your traumas and things like that as
well. So to go ahead and plug myself no, see, see he'd
be put out. Yeah, he rolling the fucking tissue off into the shower
and ship, said Chris, and rolling the rolls right into the shower.
And if we saw its fuck then he rolls in the balls and chew on
it or it's all over the tub and y'all know how hard like wet tissue
and ship you got to really scoop that shit up because it'd be sticking.
Yeah. So our takeaways from today, like our little therapy session, boy
moms, stop fucking hiding them from responsibilities and accountability. Okay, you can
love on them, you can provide them with affection, you can be supportive,
but there is some point where you have to realize he has to be
a man without me taking over everything. Oh, I mean or douchebags.
Don't be a douche No. So one of our Facebook friends, she acts
like, what is the white equivalent of bitch ass nigga? Now? I
said, cracker ass cracker Now. Unfortunately, I don't know if anybody else
has noticed this, the cracker emoji is no longer available. I noticed that.
Yeah, I think because the context in which we were using it.
Then the Castrolians. Yeah, so so now we no longer half the other
cracker emoji. It might be a castle rowdition pad bucko. You are people
you don't call, don't say listen here there's a buck there's a castro.
What's what white people love? Buddy too? Oh yeah, I was gonna
say that. Look at here, buddy, there it is castle row look
like a burger on the laptop. Yeah, because because if you because if
you type, if you type cracker now it brings up like one of them
Japanese cracker with seaweed on it. It's a rice cracker, which technically tone
calling the rice skin it rice crackers. It's still white people. I told
my favorite m h, well, um, we're gonna go ahead and get
out of here because I'm tired of these bitch ass niggas fucking crying, like
why put me on Sundays for me to do my show my way and then
complain about me doing my motherfucker show my way. So anyway, if you
were not able to catch the full show, we will not have a replay,
but you can always go on my page and then just scroll and look
for tonight's episode Audacity and Full Assery that will be available on my page,
or you can always stream on all of your favorite platforms starting on Tuesdays at
ten am every single week, well every week that we actually have a podcast,
because you're not. So before I go, I'm gonna say I want
to say one more thing about these bitch ass niggas rushing me. Right.
Tone said before we came in here that he already knew that it was gonna
be a long show because we had to skip last week because the Easter.
But yeah, he's still rushing me, So fuck these niggas until next time
we got a hope. It wasn't rushing. I was just bitching and moaning.
It's different, Well I got rushing. You would I would have kept
trying to close the black on appointments. I'm