Ready. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, cause I'll be noticing that about
me by myself too. Sometimes I'll be sitting back right, but I'll be
trying to see, like I want to make sure it be looking good.
I'm a little afraid for this because when I was at home, they popped
out and I was like, that can't happen on camera. That can't happen
on camera. It ain't that type of party. Ooh. Life is so
real. Life is so real. Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience.
I am your host, Jasmine Daniel. Life is so real because I had,
of course, I kind of had a plan in my mind about what
I wanted to talk about, but the universe came through like, oh,
bitch, we gonna really talk about it, like we're gonna make some shit
happen today, so you can really talk about it. Like you were just
gonna come in here and play talk about it, Like no, we're gonna
make some shit happen, so you can really talk about it. And like,
just on the way here, I was just piecing all of this stuff
together and I'm like, dog, the life is so fucking real. Life
is so fuck real. So first of all, we were just trying to
figure out what color to put behind me here. Y'all know, you know,
I'm a purple girl. You know my favorite colors are purple and black.
Off top is black. And then I had added I was so emo
and just so dark, not not for real, but like I do,
I just love black. This is the black girl experience. I love black.
But at some point I'm like, I like purple and purple is symbolic
of luxury royalty, you know what I'm saying. And I'm like, wow,
So that became the colors of the podcast, black and purple. So
today and I'm like, what color do I want? I'm like, I
don't really fuck with these colors, but I feel like purple is my color.
I'm like, fuck, let's do purple. But then I was looking
at the blue and I'm like, the blue look good today. And then
I also was like, nah, I'm on some throat chakra shit today.
Like a lot of self expression, just a lot of expressing myself. And
again that that is one of the things that I struggle with is which is
crazy because I have a whole podcast and I talk my shit on here,
but I do have a hard time expressing myself for whatever reason like that,
and that's a part of my healing journey is learning how to express myself and
really use my throat chakra. So throwt chakra blue, Okay, it's all
about self expression today. So today was a motherfucking day. Like y'all know,
I got a little note, I got Hella notes. But again,
I'm probably only gonna touch on the bottom of what like just pretty much happened.
And it's just so funny how it all come together. So I don't
even know where I want to start. Like I was saying that I wanted
to come on here, and like you know, I had an idea what
I was gonna talk about. Oh, that's what I was saying. But
the universe really made some shit happen for me to talk about. So I
had put on my story today on Instagram when I was at work. I'm
like, uh, I can't wait to get off work so I can go
talk my shit. I got a lot of stuff to say. I'm like,
I'm gonna be talking about toxic workplace. What else did I say?
I said, toxic workplace, appreciating the season of life that you're in.
Uh, I'm about to go listen on a love on the love what else,
because I do want to just I'm just ready to so sh hurry up,
appreciating hurry up. That'solations and boundaries and on business and all aspects of
as a relationships the word okay. And then I had also took notes,
and I said, I know I was talking about humanity and stuff or whatever,
so all of that shit is just gonna come together. But okay,
So I don't know where I wanna start with. The First of all,
I knew that this episode was gonna be real ast fuck when I came in
here because I cried today and I love that for me. I love that
for me because you'll be having to let that shit out. And I didn't
expect to cry to day, and I actually wish I could have cried some
more. I wanted to cry some more, but I'm like, my eyes
gonna be puffy, my fucking uh, I'm gonna fuck my lashes up.
But at least I got some of that shit out, and I cry at
work. I cried at fucking work. Oh, So that's where I was
gonna go with it first, before I even like to let y'all know how
divine this shit is. So you know, I be fucking with the angel
numbers and not just the one, one, one to two, three,
thy like I whatever numbers be hitting me, I'd be like, let me
look that up and see what it's about. So which one did this one
say something about work too? Okay? I just said that I was gonna
talk about humanity too. One of the angel numbers that popped up before I
got here was forty I mean, no, where's the other one? The
first one was uh oh, seventy four to twenty one. So my toxic
workplace and all of that. So I ended up looking up seventy four to
twenty one before I came here. Is said that this first of all,
this is a financial meaning that's big for me. I'm always heavy on finances.
Seventy four to twenty one is meaningful when it comes to the workplace.
I'm talking about what was it? A toxic workplace? I cry at work
today. I can't make this shit up. It's meaningful when it comes to
the workplace. Having vast knowledge is essential for success. So number seventy four
to twenty one advises you to try different things. That way you will gain
plenty of work experience, you will learn incredible lessons and improve your skills.
Having a fresh perspective can make you more innovative and creative. These traits can
help you solve your problems and achieve your success. Ultimately, number seventy four
to twenty one tries to improve your career. What is something that I always
talk about, y'all know another one of my biggest struggles in life is work
because I see myself having a career creatively. I see a life of an
abundance for me by doing what I love and living a fulfilling life. I
struggle in the workplace because I don't belong there. Baby. I could sit
here and do this all day for free. But guess what, I know
the money is gonna come with this shit. Because bro, you telling me
the money not gonna come with this This shit is so easy to me.
Look at my smile. I do not look like this at work. However,
one of the best things about me at my job that my manager told
me today was like, you have so much charisma. Your energy is great,
Like, we love you, know what I'm saying. They need that
in there. On top of the fact that your performance has to be great
too. But what really does it for them for me is my personality because
we deal with a lot of bullshit in there, customer service. Dealing with
customers, baby, you want to deal with somebody with personality. So that's
one thing. What else did I let me see? The meaning of number
seventy four to twenty one advises you to be bold, innovative and creative.
Change can change, can show you a new perspective and transform your life.
Remember these lessons the next time you see seventy four to twenty one. So,
and the other one was about humanity. I'll get to that in a
second. But so the toxic workplace I don't even know. So I'm getting
to a point where my job is not really enjoyable. I think that one
of the most important things in the workplace is that it should be enjoyable.
It should be a pleasure to be here because I spend the majority of my
time here. I gotta see y'all motherfuckers every day. I gotta show up
and have a smile and give the best customers over. You know what I'm
saying. Regardless of how people are treating me talking to me, you know
what I'm saying, Like I gotta do this shit every day, right,
so it should be enjoyable. But a part of that is making sure that
the morale is high in that bitch. Y'all want me to be in here
slaving for you, and y'all don't even make it enjoyable. It's hard to
be productive when your job is not enjoyable, when it's not fulfilling, when
you know what I'm saying, like, and of course, you gotta do
what you gotta unders then everybody has to work at some point in their life
or whatever you're playing it, Well, you know what I'm saying, some
points you gotta work. But baby, when you a chosen one, that
shit is so hard. It is so hard. Like I'm so ready to
be past this point in my life. I feel like I've been talking about
this shit for years. It's about to be six years for the podcast in
January, like this is what I'm trying to tell it, like whatever,
But I just know it's all a part of the journey. So yeah,
just you know, just the regular stresses of a job, the fact that
you're overworked and underpaid, the fact that people just don't respect you as a
fucking human. Do you think I'm a fucking robot. Do you think that
I don't have a family. Do you think that I don't have problems?
Do you think that I don't have bills? Do you not think that I
have to go take care of life outside of this bitch, Like I don't
want to be here every day. At the same time, I have things
that I have to take care of outside of this in my real fucking life,
And y'all don't have just no consideration for that, no respect for that,
and it shows and how you treat your employees, that's a problem for
me, you know what I'm saying. So again the morale is very oh,
y'all, no bunshit in this bitch. Y'all treat me like a slave,
you know what I'm saying. It really weighs on you. So when
I'm not showing up and giving my best performance, it becomes a problem for
you. But I have problems with this job so today, like so it's
just been you know, a number of things getting up until this point.
So on top of that that you have like the fact I don't like that
at a lot of job, well, I don't know some of my jobs
like they have actual training processes where people come out with a binder on your
first day and be like, hey, this is really the process, Like
we really have a whole process. Sometimes you get to a job and it's
like, okay, just watch this person for a day and this is what
it is. Okay, Okay, So you know what I'm saying. You
learn how to do things, and hey, this is how it is.
Right, there's no real training process in here, so keep that in mind
as well. Then you just have the fact that it's a toxic work environment,
you know what I'm saying. I don't know if you work amongst a
lot of older people or younger people, like that makes a difference. And
it's so crazy because I've been on both sides of the fence where it's a
toxic working environment with old people hating on you because you're the youngest in that
bitch. But if you're in there with a whole bunch of people that are
your peers or younger than you, that could be crazy too, you know
what I'm saying. And then don't be the pretty quiet, unproblematic girl at
work, because that's a problem too. So it's like, bro, it's
oh and I hate and when I think about this and saying it out loud.
I never want to make it seem like damn, somebody always hating on
you or it all like no, because I take accountability in all my situations.
But you also got to understand that when you're a solid individual, like
people just hate on you and that shit is crazy to me. So that
what else? So many things had So I had a conversation after my shift
today with my manager and we did talk about my performance and all of that,
and he asked me, he said, is it is it personal or
is it the work? Is it the workplace? And I'm like, it's
both. It's both, Like you know what I'm saying, It's just all
of these things going on. And so he was just like, you know,
just saying like, well, it's about to be a new year whatever,
da da da da, just I guess given that advice or whatever.
But then it was just asking me, like, well, what is it?
I said that it was both. I addressed a lot of I addressed
all of those things in the workplace, the toxic workplace, the messy people.
I had to address the fact that I'm like, you have racist employees.
He was like, are you sick? Dead ass. I'm like,
if you don't believe me, ask the people in this bitch, Like you
have racist employees that had to be addressed, like just other just toxic shit
with them. BLA. I'm like, bro, all of this stuff,
all of this stuff. So again, it's the workplace, but also hell
yeah, I got a whole personal life in this bitch outside of it,
And that's what I'm trying to say. Y'all have no regard for that.
And I'm not a person that's just come to work, Like first of all,
I'm not a person that's gonna take work home and I'm not gonna bring
whatever I got going on at home to work. But at the end of
the day, like you gotta understand that that's going on. You know what
I'm saying, And I've said on this podcast many many times, like I'm
a very strong person. Motherfuckers think you don't be shit wrong with me,
and I'd be like, y'all don't even know, like I be going through
it. And that that's another thing about social media, Like I'm not a
motherfucker at pretend like it ain't shit right, Like it ain't shit wrong with
me, It ain't like and maybe it's not. And again, I feel
like, you know, no everybody posts their highlight reel on social media.
You know what I'm saying, nobody's gonna be on the internet, like I
got X, Y and Z going on, But a lot of people just
be acting like, ain't shit wrong, and that's cool, But stay over
there. I got real life shit going on. You know, I'm a
real fucking person, And the only way that I can deal with that is
by expressing myself about talking about it, about letting it out. I'm a
very emotional person by nature. I'm a Pisces. I don't give a like
I know a lot of I know a lot of people don't believe in astrology.
But even before I got deep into birth charts and all of that and
all the different placements in your chart, always knew just me being a Pisces,
I'm like, bro, like, I'm really an emotional person, Like
I feel on a very deep level and that's a strength, but it's also
a weakness for real, Like I'm really a fucking Pisc's. I'm super dreamy,
super intuitive, like a very spiritual person I like, and I'm like,
I just feel very deeply for real, like I'm a very passionate person,
so that shit, yeah, I don't even know. I just lost
my train of thought with that. But oh, I was saying, like
people be acting like they don't go through shit or were like, yeah,
I go through shit, and I'd be having to let that shit out.
And again, I feel like the podcast is my outlet. It's like really
one of my only outlets. And I think that again, I said that
I feel like a lot of people be like it don't never be shit wrong
with you. You just hold everything together. You're a strong person, like
because I hold a lot in you know what I'm saying, like, and
I've always known that that's not good. But also like I feel like just
dealing with shit and just like compartmentalizing it all and just putting it like you
trying to hold it together. So yeah, like you start to become strong,
but also you have to release that stuff. So I cried today.
I cried at work when I was talking to my manager, and not like
a oh my god, like not a crazy cry, but it was like
one of them cries where like you put your hand over your face and like
the tears is flowing down, and he was just kind of looking at me.
But it was like, oh, this is a deep cry cause he
asked me, is it personal or is it work? And I said it's
both and that's triggering when it's like you have so much shit going on,
it's like this is all I can do. And he was like damn.
And then he asking me like, so what can I do for you?
Amazing question, great, great, great question to hear. You know what
I'm saying, what can I do for you? Honestly, it ain't shit
you can do for me, sir, you know what I'm saying. I
wanted to be like, give me some motherfucking money, like on some city
shit, like for real, that'll really help some shit. But of course
I didn't say that. But other than that, like it's not really shit
that he can do for me, you know what I'm saying. But I
appreciate the gesture, the question whatever, you know what I'm saying. But
yeah, it's a lot so and of course niggas came up with a whole
action plan about whatever job and all of that, but it just it was
a very real moment for me. I was happy that I got to cry
today. I was happy that I got to let that shit out because I
am dealing with a lot. I am going, man, and that's the
thing, so appreciating the season of life that you're in right now. I
be thinking about this like the other day I was thinking about it. I
was like, Jazmine, you have to learn, like, hut, I'm
trying to think. Do I really think like I'm just like a super big
complainer. I don't think that I am, but I do notice that every
time I get to a different phase in my life, I see when I'm
complaining and I'm like, Jasmine, this is where you wanted. I remember
when I prayed for days like this. I remember when I was like I
can't wait to be in Texas and that, like you know what I'm saying,
every day I do wake up and I express gratitude for being here.
I love being here. I'm happy being here, but it's all of the
shit around me that just makes it be like you know what I'm saying,
And I really have to bring myself out of that and be like, Jasmine,
you need to be looking at the good shit, don't look at the
problems. But it's hard because the problems be on your ass like some fucking
panties like get off, like the problems be crazy. But you know what
I'm saying, you just really got to learn how to change your perspective.
I one of the most important things for me, especially during this time.
So this is said to be like the seasonal depression season. A lot of
people be depressed around these times, around the holidays. Money don't be right,
all these fake ass pagan holidays that y'all break, y'all fucking next for
all of this shit whatever, you know what I'm saying, It's still just
everyday life. And then the fact that the sun goes down earlier, you
know what I'm saying, all of that, the weather change, like,
it gets to be a very depressive time. So again, just lost my
train of thought. I be mad. So it's a crazy time. It's
a really crazy time. I don't know where I was about to go with
that. I was really about to uh, I was really about to hit
on something with that. I don't know. But let's see, because again
I have so much stuff on here. Oh what do you do when you're
in a dark place? So I was saying that I know that this is
the time of seasonal depression, but also I have moments where I catch myself.
Like, you know, you have those days where you're super high energy,
you want to wake up and work out, you're feeling good. Like
some days you just wake up and be like, damn, I feel good
as fun today today. But some days you wake up and you just don't
be feeling it, you know what I'm saying. Some days you wake up
thinking about your fucking problem. Some days you wake up like, damn,
I gotta do x x X. Damn you wake up you got this going
on, You got this going on, you got a tax coming from everywhere,
You got all this, you know what I'm saying. Some days you
wake up like, damn, can I catch a break on top of the
fact that again you might have to go to a job that you don't like,
you know what I'm saying. So whatever it is that you're dealing with
is like, you gotta be able to acknowledge when you're in that dark place
and how the fuck do you get out of there? The main thing is
acknowledging when you're in that dark place, cause you can you can spiral,
you can fucking spire. You gotta catch yourself, You gotta catch your thoughts.
You gotta bring it me. You gotta really back end my boy,
like, hey, you about to go off the DPN, like for real.
So I noticed that. I'm like, you know, on certain days,
it just be like you're really going there, You're really in your head.
It's okay, you know what I'm saying, And just depending on what
you're dealing with. And that's why when he was asking me, is it
work or is it really really to me? In my mind, It's like,
I don't give a fuck about work. I care about the real shit
that I gotta deal with every when I go home, my real life shit,
you know what I'm saying, The stuff that's in my immediate fucking circle,
the shit that's in my everyday life, the shit that I really have
to deal with when I go home and lay down in my bed at night.
What is the last thing on my mind. Not that motherfucking job.
It's about what's going on here. And that's the thing, you know.
I feel like I talk about people dealing with demons internally, you know what
I'm saying, Like, you don't know what a person is dealing with,
what's in their mind, was in their heart, was in the soul,
think about all the shit that you don't Again, I said, I was
so happy that I cried. I was able to release, I was able
to let some shit go. Today, think about all of the shit that
you hold inside, all of the thoughts that you hold in your mind.
And baby, people be thinking some crazy stuff, but even still, it's
just like all the shit on your mind. Just think about if you think
about all of your problems, that shit manifests in your physical world, all
of you. If all that you're thinking about is your problems, how does
that manifest in your world? If you holding on to shit in your heart,
if you holding grudges in your heart, if you whatever, you know
what I'm saying, Whatever you've been through in your life that was traumatic is
shit. That's like, damn, that's my heart. Imagine if a person
got hate in their heart and they hold on to that shit inside. Again,
we're not even talking about work. We're talking about again. This is
what I'm saying. Is it is it personal or is it work? It's
both. But when you think about the shit that's going on internally, people
be talking at mental health shit. Are you okay? Are you okay?
Are you okay? My eyes look glossy as fusal. You could tell I
was crat Why shit look glossy? So you gotta let that shit out,
bro Like, So realizing when you're in that dark space and pulling yourself out.
I think for me, it's just like, I don't know if y'all
talk to y'allselves, I talk to myself. I gotta consult the realist nigga
in the room. I gotta have one on one with me. If you
don't talk to yourself, I think that you're crazy. You don't have conversations
with yourself in the mirror. You don't be giving yourself pep talks, you
don't be like Jazmine, what's wrong with you? Like, if you don't
talk to you, I talk to myself for sure. So yeah, that's
what happened with work. And so that angel number was very just on point
for me. We all have struggles in life. We all have struggles,
and I feel like if you feel like you ain't got no type of struggle.
First of all, if you feel like you ain't got no type of
struggle in your life, you're lying. That's number one. Number two,
if you can't acknowledge the fact that you struggle with something. I don't even
want to talk to you because we all have struggles. We're all struggling with
something. So if you can't even acknowledge that, I don't know, you
know what I'm saying. Your struggle looks different than mine. But we all
have a struggle, so whatever that may be. Like am I struggle with
communication. I struggle with giving and receiving love. I struggle with selfishness.
I struggle with I don't know, finances, with money management, like you
struggle with something. Everybody has a struggle. I struggle with food. Let
me, let me, let me bring this in. Let me let me
bring this in because I ain't gonna I love food, Okay, I love
food. But it's very important to be health conscious if you're a spiritual person,
because that's the only way that you can hear God. That's the only
way that you can hear the God within you is by being health conscious.
So when people be on the internet to making jokes about low vibrational plates like
that, shit lowers your vibration, that like, you can't hear God with
you can't you can't hear God on that. So that's something that I struggle
with. But I know that everything would be so much more clearer if I
really got on my ship. As far as being health conscious, that's something
that I struggle with but okay, and again that's me acknowledging it though,
right and then taking the proper steps to change that. But again, if
you can't acknowledge that you struggle with something, that's a problem. So yeah,
I was very vulnerable today. I'm being very transparent on here. I
think that's a very great trait to have those to be vulnerable. Like I
don't like to go deep into like celebrity shit and stuff like that, but
I really I felt a little triggered today for my homegirl, for Cardi B
because I was on TikTok and I guess she had went live on Instagram and
was like going the fuck off about Offset And I love Offset, I love
a migos, I love the music. And I was thinking about this in
the shower. I was thinking about this in the shower about you. Sometimes
I don't know, I do think like I used to think that it was
hard to separate the music from a person, but it's very important. I
think it's very important to do that, Like, especially with the way the
celebrity world is now like people are separating the music from the person. But
yeah, she was going off about offset. You know, I saw something
the other day that she was saying, like they're no longer together. I'm
assuming that they're just separated right now or whatever. He popped out with a
new cheek whatever. But on the line, she was just going off talking
about how he's made a fucking full of her the entire time that they've been
together, and she said that he was ungrateful, like I guess just never
showed thanks for the way that she supported him and all of that. And
hate to make it a bashing nigga moment, but I just I was thinking
about this. It brought me back just as a woman, and I felt
her past like cause she was really going off on that video, like you
could hear it in her voice, you could hear the pain in her voice.
And I was like, niggas, just don't be giving a fuck about
us, bro, That shit is crazy to me. So it's like she's
saying all of this, but I felt it as a woman because it's like,
again, I said, he popped out with some chick as I'm a
ven or whatever and It's like she was on there saying, like he know
that I'm in the house. He know I'm not doing nothing. He knows
that I'm not an easy woman. You know, she gonna be at the
create with her kids problem, you know what I'm saying. And again being
Cardi B. It's not a lot of people that she could just go out
and be with. She could, but on some real shit, she's her.
She's that girl. So it's not a lot of people that she could
go be with. A dude is gonna run and be with a million chicks,
you know what I'm saying. But guess what, none of them girls
is Cardi B. And I'm bringing it back to me like as a woman,
because you know how that shit feels to be a good woman to a
man. And it's like, yeah, you could go on and you know
whatever, go live your life, but you could be again, you could
be with a million women, but you're not gonna find another good woman like
me. Not. I don't want to say that you can, you know
what I'm saying, That people could change or whatever, but you're not gonna
You're not gonna find a lot of good women, is the point I'm trying
to make you know what I'm saying. So it was just fucked up because
like and again I had to go into the celebrity but even like the Tianna
Taylor situation and all of that, like men really be jealous of women,
and that's that's the only way that they could get back at you when you
a good woman is to cheat on you or try to you know what I'm
saying, or degrade you or disrespect you and just do all that crazy,
foul dumb shit got people out here looking like why would you embarrass me like
that? Bro? Just so as a woman, I feel for my girl,
Like that's fucked up. That's fucked up. And you just look at
all of this shit, well all of these again, like all of these
different situations where like the real character of people are being exposed and at some
point you gotta separate the music from the person, like damn, you're really
just a terrible person. And it ain't get that deep for him. You
know, it's other celebrities too, But it's just like that shit is very
wild to me. There was another Angel number and I was talking about humanity,
what else let's see And that's the thing too with humanity. Let's go
okay, let's go see what I said about that, and it's so funny,
and I did. I talked to my homegirl Tammy today. Shout out
to Tammy cause I'll talk to her about that work shit on the phone,
you know, cause I was like, I she had text me, and
I'm like, what did I say? I said, I let me see
what I said to her. I said, I have a really bad feeling
right now, like my stomach was in knots, Like so just that whole
work situation or whatever, but hold on, let me see. So the
whole humanity thing, I don't know, maybe a couple of weeks ago or
something, my friend Tammy had sent me like this little I don't even know
what to call it kind of like a personality test type thing for careers,
and so, like, you know, she was talking about how she scored
on it or whatever, and she was like, you should take it,
and I'm like, so we both like we already know what it's gonna say,
like you know what I'm saying, and ours were very similar. But
I took it and it came out like it was like zero percent for anything
work for real, and it was just like all creative, just all creative,
and that's what I'm saying, that's what I know about myself. And
it had also said something about so it gave me like creative art type jobs,
all of that type of stuff. But it had also said something about
like being a humanitarian and so again like I really feel like my purpose here
on this earth is to serve and again to be a light for the world
and to be on some humanitarian shit because we don't have that in the fucking
world. When you look at the state of the world, this shit is
going to shit. This shit is going straight to hell, and I don't
want no fucking parts of it. And I feel like that's why I am
the way that I am. That's why I am the person that I am.
Like, that's why I try to bring that goodness wherever I go,
you know what I'm saying, and keep that light flowing all around the room,
because that shit is not there. It's not there in the world,
and that shit is scary to me. Like this how we live in.
This is how we live in, Like this is really how we're living.
So okay, so Angel number forty two ten, you will live longer.
Okay, It looked like it looking younger every day, got that Benjamin Buddon
period. So if you're seeing this angel number, it is a good sign.
Don't worry. Angels are sending you the right message. Therefore, be
kind to people. It makes them feel special and loved. Furthermore, the
angels assure you that goodness travels far and wide. Also, being kind will
enable you to learn to tolerate it. Number forty two ten is a symbol
of hard work, compassion, enjoy. It relates to the act of kindness
to humanity. In this case, you should do well in the community.
Round at y'all. I'm in the community, okay. However, self determination
and discipline our vital in helping others. This act makes you warm person.
Let me see what else? Mmm. It's saying that I have complete support
and protection from my angels, my spirit, guys, my ancestors, all
of that. The presence of divine force indicates that you're on the right path.
Therefore, it should act as inspiration and encouragement to you. Believe in
your dreams and goals and your reap abundantly. Again, we're talking about workplace
and how I struggle there every day that I wake up, I'd be like,
man, how do I get closer to my dreams? How do I
get closer to my goals? How do I get closer to my aspirations?
How do I live a fulfilled life? How do I put fucking goodness back
into humanity? Because it's not there? It's not there. Mm. The
angels are speaking to you, and it reveals that your project will succeed.
This video gonna go crazy, okay. Period. Moreover, professionally you will
be promoted again. Were talking about workplace? So am I gonna be promoted
in the workplace? Or I'm gonna be promoted in my purpose? Am I
gonna be promoted creatively? What did I say earlier? I could do this
shit or day I could literally stay in this bitch until six in the morning
and like be having an amazing time. Obviously I don't. I probably would
not really talk to six in the morning. But I'm just saying, like,
I could do this shit for hours and hours and not like for real,
I love this at work, baby mama. And that's the thing I
talk. They treat you like a slave in that bitch. You gotta stand
for eight hours. I can't take a seat for five seconds I don't have.
There is no HR at my job. I gotta stand for eight hours.
I don't get a lunch break. My job position, we don't get
a lunch break. Other departments do, but we don't. I have to
stand there and eat my lunch behind the desk, and people be coming up
like, Oh, I'm so sorry. I don't mean to interrupt you.
No, I'm on the clock. Let me let me help you. You
know what I'm saying. I don't get a lunch break. They got a
first of all, I didn't even like this in elementary school for kids.
I don't gotta raise my motherfucking hand to go to the bathroom. I don't
need a pass. And if I have to go to the fucking bathroom,
I'm walking off this floor and I'm going to the fucking bathroom where they do
that at again, were talking about humanity. I've said, no, I
don't ask to go to the bathroom at work. Let's get that clear.
I don't ask. I walk the fuck off. If I come back and
somebody sitting at the front desk, oh, how can I help you?
You know what I'm saying, I had to go to the fucking bathroom.
What else, no HR, no lunch break, the bathroom shit. And
that's another thing. So with the whole yoga thing, and I didn't want
to be you know what I'm saying. I was really excited. I think
when did I bring that up on the last episode. I don't know,
but I was really excited about that. And then I was getting in my
head about it cause but it's because I have problems with the workplace period.
So number one again, and this is the thing. Oh so working at
the front desk two. Like again, we got very minimal employees and that
position, and you need some employees there because guess what, a person that
works at the front desk at a hotel, we can't leave until we get
relieved. You can't just walk off the front desk. Somebody gotta be there
at all times. So again, imagine somebody being stuck in traffic or something
happened with their family, you know what I'm saying. So, but the
thing about that is I'm considerate of others because I want people to be considerate
of me. I do my best to be on to I do my best
to be early, you know what I'm saying, Because when that clock hit
motherfucker's be ready to go. I don't want to be sitting around waiting on
you because you walked out the house fifteen minutes late. And you know what
I'm saying. Like, but first of all, I'm first shit in that
bitch. So but still it's more than trafficking whatever. But I try to
be considerate of others in that situation because I want you to be considerate of
me. I'm ready to go after dealing with the bullshit in here, you
know what I'm saying. So, so that's the thing. So in that
position, for me, if I do a yoga event in my job,
I want every First of all, everybody wants to participate, but the gang.
Can the gang participate? Can the people that work my position, can
they participate? Because somebody always has to be at the front desk. They're
having a holiday, a holiday party, and this is the thing, this
is not like a typical job. Look at my cousin, how you're on
live, You're on the podcast now I'm recording. So no, I'm gonna
hit you when I when I'm done with this, everybody, What was I
saying? So I want the gang to be able to participate, First of
all a lot of people. Everybody wants to part I don't want to say
everybody, but motherfuckers want to participate in yog Everybody love everybody love me in
that bitch. Not everybody, not everybody, but for the most part,
everybody love me in that bitch. So you know, niggas want to do
yoga and shit. My thing is, though, I got a whole plan
for my shit, and if I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do it
right right. First of all, if I'm going to do this, I
gotta have at least thirty minutes. I want to do a legit session.
So this is not a ten minute, fifteen minute we're gonna throw this on
during and employee lunching. I'm not doing that, you know what I'm saying,
Like, this is real, and I want people to be able to
really participate. You talking about you care about people's health and wellness. Let's
really care about health and wellness. Not Oh, we're just gonna do this
for five minutes and then we're gonna go eat that pizza that we got from
Domino's. No, it's gonna be a real thing. Don't mix my sh
don't travel my shit in with the employee lunching. No, this is a
rett health and wellness in the workplace. Okay, So that that's I was
feeling some type of way about that. That was number one. Number two,
can the gang participate? First of all, is this gonna be happening
on a day where I'm working. I gotta go to the bathroom, I
gotta put on my yoga gear. I want other people put on their yo
nobody's doing yoga and fucking work clothes. So again, this has to be
a set aside timed. This has to be a real event, you know
what I'm saying, Like again, this is not no five minute thing,
like, this is for real. So that was a thing for me.
And then again you got all the toxic workplace shit going on as well as
well, is in addition to the shit going on, like you know what
I'm saying, all the others that's going on. So yeah, so still
trying to figure that thing out as well. You know, maybe we can
again he was talking about, oh it's supposed to be a new year.
Yeah, maybe we'll bring a new year in, right, Maybe gonna bring
the new year in right. So all of that and then just everything that's
going on in life. So like back to it again where he was asking
was it the workplace or was it personal? There are a lot of things
going on in my personal life. There are a lot of things going on
in my personal life. And that's tough because I'm a tough cookie, but
I'm very tough on myself, Like, and I just want to tell y'all
to be easy with yourself, Be gentle with yourself, talk to yourself in
a positive manner, like you already got the whole world ready to come down
on you. One of the funniest fucking videos that I'll be watching on TikTok,
I don't even know her name, is this girl that like she'd be
acting like a cashier at a gas station and it's just like a reenactment of
how people talk to cashiers and shit, and she'd be so loud and what
the fuck like just going off and it just be like, this is really
how people be. So that shit is funny. It's fuck to me.
But yeah, so if you got people, you already gotta deal with people
in the fucking world. You gotta deal with the motherfuckers trying to tear you
down. Uh, don't be on your Cardi B Tianna Taylor, jazz and
rapper shit, where you be in relationships or in whatever and them motherfucks.
That's what I'm saying, Like, that's how you know the hate be real
because people in the world won'ta try to tear you down when your spot's trying
to tear you down. That's a different type. Like it's different. But
if you know, you know, So, yeah, lost my trailer thought
again, But yeah, that just threw me. Oh, I just wanted
to show this real quick. My homegirls, my homegirl's been on my head,
like, girl, you don't be doing the tarot cards no more,
you don't be talking about astrology no more. And I had to really,
I had to really have a moment with myself, like, jasn't it up.
But again, it goes back to appreciating the season of your life that
you're in. Cause I am definitely an astrology girly. I'm definitely a tarot
girly. Y'all know. I had my face where I was heavy on the
tarotts, pulling cards whatever. I was heavy with the astrology shit. Taking
online class I took online classes for tarot and for astrology and all types of
shit, and it's like that shit kind of died out. But there was
a time on the podcast where I was doing that heavy and people love that
pulling for the signs and just whatever, doing shit for the collective, and
that shit just kind of went ghosts for a minute. So my homegirls always
be like, you should pull cars, you could do this, and so
like I left all my tyrot cars, all that shit is still in Detroit.
Like again, I came here on a trial run at first, just
to see and you know what I'm saying, just to see if it was
gonna work out, if opportunities was gonna present themselves with the jobs and shit.
And again when I stepped off the plane, I had a fucking job.
But you know, so I didn't bring everything here, but I had
to have a moment with myself, like I think you should get back to
that. I think you should tap back into the tarrot, the astrology.
You know. I feel like I'm kind of getting away from my intuitive side
and ways, and I think that's very important because as a very spiritual person,
it's very important to be in tune with your intuition, very important,
and a lot of people, I feel like I get a lot of flak
for again being an emotional person, for being an intuitive person, for Ooh,
you feel like you ain't supposed to go with how you feel, You're
supposed to go off your logic in your brain. Like absolutely, it's a
place in time for that. But also you gotta walk through life, you
know, off your intuition. Think about when you are in dire situations like
dang, your intuition tap in like dang, I feel like something about to
happen, or you know what I'm saying, those gut feelings. You have
to be in tune with your intuition. So yeah, I think And y'all
remember when I was the High Priestess Queen on Instagram again in It Again seasons
seasons? Remember when I was High Priest's Queen. I remember when I was
podcast Bay. I remember when, like when I first got on Instagram,
I was Mommy Sita. I don't know why the fuck, but you know
what I'm saying, I went, you go through those phases. Now I'm
healing my homies, So you go through those seasons. Cat shout out to
Cat Miss Cat. She was. I've been seeing her on Instagram live in
the mornings. She getting back on her morning routine. She said, like
she was in her grinding season with her job, trying to get much she
at that season, I'm like, I feel you. And she had said,
we were talking about yoga, and I'm like, yeah, I remember
when I was. We were talking about like when we was on our health
shit, when we was on our yoga kicked tough. I'm talking doing yoga
every day, every day, sometimes multiple times a day. I was in
better physical shape. You know what I'm saying. I was a little more
healthier. But guess what that and I hate this word, but we both
said it's like I was like, that was one of the broken times in
my life. I'm not gonna lie. I was on my shit, but
I didn't have a lot of money. I had lost my job. Did
I look. Oh, when I was working at Yoga six and that location
like just was not doing it, just wasn't but it wasn't doing well before
I got there and the manager had just hit me up. It was a
couple of days before Christmas or it might have been the start of December,
and she was like, Hey, I'm shutting this bitch down my fence,
Like I can't do this. I gotta pay bills, and I'm like,
oh damn, Like, do you think that we don't have family? You
knew that shit was going under? You should have you should have warned people
a long time ago. But anyway, So I had lost my job and
during that I had just signed up for yoga teacher training. I was like,
how the fuck am I gonna pay for this? Like what? So?
And that was that was a very crucial time in my life. I
was working my ass off. Literally, I was working at the yoga studio
that I was taking my yoga teacher training at. I wasn't seeing a penny
of that money that shit was going to the training. I was like,
this is crazy as hell, But I did that. Shit. That's one
of my greatest accomplishments to this day. And as quick as I did it,
like I've been doing yoga. It was a year in October of this
year. It's December. I've only been doing yoga year. I became a
certified yoga teacher in February of twenty twenty three. Was that this year?
Yeah? That was this year I started. Yeah, I started in October
last year. October twenty twenty two is when I first started doing didn't know
shit I had. Man, I had did yoga a couple times. The
first couple of times that I had did yoga, I hated it. I
was like, this is terrible, uh Like, and also I think it
was the shape that I was in, you know what I'm saying, just
because I wasn't super active, but also like yoga is a different type of
beast, Like you know what I'm saying, stretching your body and all that,
that's not just like people like to just go work out real quick,
but baby, actually stretching your body and being in them poses like that shit
is uncomfortable as hell. I was like, I hate this and it wasn't
hot yoga. I love fucking hot yog Like that's that's my shit. Like,
but okay, you can't really you gotta your hair gotta be braike if
you're a black girl, your hair has to be braided to do yoga for
real, Like you gonna switch your shit again if you just doing regular yoga,
maybe, but I like hot yoga, so you can't really have your
hair like this every day. But yeah, like I hated yoga. I
was like this, Like I did it a couple of times. I used
to hate Cat Kyle. I used to think that was the worst. How
do you do your back? Like, like I hated that shit. I
was like, yoga is just not it. So I had did it a
few few times and then you know, I've talked about this before on the
podcast, so but whatever, we'll tell the story again. So it wasn't
really until I had that incident where I fainted twice, and I was like,
bro, I got it. I'm like, literally, I need to
get balanced. Not I fainted, even though that probably ain't that's not like
one hundred percent of it, like actually being balanced with you know, just
on some funny shit like I need to get balanced, I need to figure
something out. But also I felt like it was a lot of stress and
anxiety in my life. I had so much going on. I'm like,
let me just I don't know whatever. I just felt called to look into
yoga, and I remember they had started building or yoga studio was about to
open up on fucking seven mile of Livernoids. I'm like, that's crazy as
fuck, that's dope. So I remember just like looking into yoga studios and
yoga teacher training and all of that, and then that's when I had got
the job at Yoga six and I was working at the front desk and baby
the free yoga membership. So and I remember even then like I had took
a few of the classes and I'm like, oh, this is you know,
whatever is cool, It's cool. And then I just fell in love
with that shit. And I was doing that shit every day, multiple times
a day. And then I felt called to do Yoga's teacher training and I'm
like, bro, I'm really about to do this shit, like I'm about
to be like I really love that shit, and I'm like I want to
be a teacher. So again, lost the job all of that, and
again that was like one of the I hate that but you know what I'm
saying, It was a very hard time in my life financially, but I
was very proud of myself for accomplishing that in such short time. Again,
like I said, just this past October just made it a year that I've
been doing yoga. So yeah, like, and that shit really get you
together physically, mentally, spiritually, Like it's just I just can't even describe
the release, Like I just love going to class. I look, oh,
I don't know. But also, you know, there are a lot
of lessons that you learn on the mat just through body movements and also through
if you got a dope ass, deep ass teacher talking that shit to you.
You know what I'm saying, But it's just a reflection of life and
having to be strong physically, you know what I'm saying, to be able
to withstand those tough moments, those hard times when you want to give up
where you like in yoga, there are a lot of times where you want
to where your body want to give out, and it's like no, hold
this post, hold it. That shit gets painful, But SODA's life.
Trying to keep it together, trying to keep pushing through, trying you know
what I'm saying, to remain standing to like to man, life is gonna
take you through some shit. Life is gonna beat your ass. Life got
hands. So it's a lot. And again it's a lot physically, but
it's a lot mentally as well. And that's what you gotta understand about life
too. Like you literally are in this three D reality like going through life
physically, but it's a lot on you mentally. What was I talking about
earlier, Like mental health is real? Are you okay? Are you okay,
are people asking you? Are you okay? Are you asking people?
Are you okay? Uh? Are you being kind to others? Because again,
you don't know what somebody is dealing with. You don't know what somebody
is going through, you know what I'm saying. Back to humanity, and
again in the way that we're treating people, man, look at again,
look at the state of the fucking world. My homegirl Panda okay, free
Palestine, she okay, she don't fucking play. But again, shit like
that, like, look all we're treating people in the world. So yeah,
this shit goes beyond a fucking job to me. And again, if
I have to show up to a place every fucking day and I'm not being
treated right, yeah, it's a problem. Let's see. Is there anything
else I want to talk about? Should I get into these cards? It's
real life shit over here. I also just want to say, you could
put lipstick on a pig, but it's still a pig. Because you really
gotta live this fucking life, Okay, you really gotta do the work,
You really gotta heal, you really gotta be about the shit that you say
you're about. You could see through it when people are not doing the work.
You can see through it when people be lying, like it's gonna show
what type of person you really are. Period, move like your blessing is
around the corner. I had to do that at work for real one day.
That was one of my high energy days. I was listening to my
morning affirmations and all that stuff, and I was like, Jasmin, going
to work today and move like your blessing is around the corner. And I
remember that day. I had got in a work and I was about to
go clock in. I was going down the steps and I turned the corner.
I'm like, bitch, you gotta move like the blessings around the corner.
So I was at the shock that, like I literally had to do
that in my mind, but for real, like and then I had to
ask myself, so if you how would I move if I was moving like
my blessing was around the corner. Initially, you're gonna be kind of anxious,
kind of scared, you know what I'm saying, Because if it's around
the corner, that bitch gonna pop out, like you know what I'm saying.
So, but how would you move if you knew that it was around
the corner. I wouldn't be worried about my problems. I wouldn't be you
know what I'm saying. I wouldn't be in that negative energy. I wouldn't
be in that low vibrating energy. I'm gonna be happy as fuck. I'm
I got it in the bag. I already know what's coming. It's around
the corner. As soon as I turned this corner, boop, my blessing,
my abundance, my prosperity, my you know what I'm saying, My
success, my happiness, my peace, my beautiful life, my you know
what I'm saying. Like, so you have to move in that energy.
You have to move and that energy, and the energy has to be real.
The energy has to be real with the people around me. The energy
has to be real. And that's what's really fucked up about being a very
intuitive person, like on some real shit when you know the energy not right,
and motherfuckers still sit there and smile on your face, and it's like,
bro, fucking fraud. When you can feel the energy, when you
can feel the tension, when you can feel the This is me looking at
a person that like, bro, you in here lying to my face.
You look at me dead in my eye, youre key king with me.
You're saying all of the things, but the energy that's real. I can
feel the energy, you know what I'm saying, So it's like the energy
gotta be real. I said that detaching and separating is where you gain clarity
and it gives you the time to really self reflect and grow. I really
recognized my growth within these past couple months, and I love the clarity that
I have received with a lot of things. But with so many things,
I do a lot of self reflection. But I love the clarity that I
get when I really just look at my life and all of my experiences and
the shit that I'm going through. I've had a couple encounters with someone and
I was able to see like the clarity of myself again, you know what
I'm saying. Now that I'm detached or separated from a situation, I'm able
to see clearly now. Remember when I said, like from the outside looking
in, when you in a situation, you can't you can't really see what's
happening. Now that I'm detached and separated, I can really see clearly now.
Uh. I d like I just I have clarity in my mind I
can see things clearly, and it's always great. First of all, I'm
a person that always takes the high road. I always have been, and
that sucks to always be the person that has to take the high road.
But it's whatever. It's like, that's again, that's why, like I'm
always just gonna be blessed. And when my big blessing come through, it's
gonna be like again, it's gonna be like damn, because I always took
the high road, So my shit gonna be you know, my cup gonna
be runneth over. Like when people see me blessed, it's gonna be like,
oh my God, like you gonna be able to see it. And
it's just like a part of that is because I always took the high road.
I was always a good person. But anyway, yeah, I always
take the high road. So again, I feel like I'm a person that
takes accountability. You can't force that on people, you know what I'm saying.
People got their own path and their own life to live, and they
own shit to figure out. Uh. When I reincarnate, I'm hoping I'm
gonna be up to the next level. You know, I hope I'm not
dealing with no bullshit. But again, I think because I take a lot
of accountability and I do a lot of self reflection, I think I'm gonna
be good. But to see a person not grow, to see a person
not take accountability, to see a person not self reflect at all, it's
a very sad sight to see. I feel like a lot of people be
adult toddlers, and you could see how people's growth is stunted emotionally and mentally,
and it's just like I said, it's just a sad sight to see.
But again, I am just glad that I have a sense of clarity,
and again not just about other people, but I have a sense of
clarity about my growth and what my issues were in certain situations. You know
what I'm saying, And that's why I'm working on myself. That's why I'm
working on myself too. Only accept the best, going forward, only accepting
the best. There are times, like a couple of days ago, I
was like, that would not be the best, Jasmine, that would not
be the best. So you know, I just had to tell myself that.
But you know, you gotta acknowledge those things. So it's the clarity
for me. Okay, let's get to these cards. I don't even know
what's about to happen with this. I told y'all I was on an astrology
in terror hiatus, so I have no idea what is about to happen.
I don't know what's going to happen. I don't know what happened, but
I'll pull you know what. And I know, y'all, I'm like,
oh my god, pulls. I know, y'all would just die if I
pulled something for every sign. Oh that was another thing. So, man,
we're coming to a close of twenty twenty three. The end of the
year is coming. It's about to be twenty twenty four. That is so
crazy to me. I will be thirty four next year, March third.
That's a very odd age. Like I feel like, you know, it's
not like a milestone birthday, So thirty four I have to think of like
a theme or a vibe for thirty four. But twenty twenty four is crazy
to me, Like did you ever think that you would be here? I
don't know. I don't know. Like when I think back to young Jasmine,
I don't even know what I would have seen for myself at thirty four
for real, Like if I went back to Jasmine at thirteen right now and
was like, where do you think you would be at thirty four? I
wonder what I would have said. It wouldn't have been this for show,
It would not have been this. I could not have seen this coming.
But as a thirty four year old woman, I look back at thirteen year
old Jazmine, do you know how you got here? And look at the
road that it took to get here. I'm looking at myself on the screen
right now, because to me, I look the same, Like I said,
I feel like I still look very young. I feel like I look
very youthful. I feel like I look very radiant and vibrant. I love
my energy. I've always been this person. I've this personality just like this
is again, what did I say? What did my managers say about me?
He said that he loved my energy in my charisma, Like I've literally
always been this person. So I'm proud of me for that. I have
been through a lot, like in my life from thirteen from I say thirteen
because I feel like thirteen was a very monumental point in my life. If
y'all listen to the podcast over the years, y'all y'all know, I talk
about this all the time about like where I came from and like what it
was like for me growing up, Like thirteen is a very significant point in
my life because I was grown at thirteen. I'm not gonna lie. I
had a very very mannish boyfriend. He was the same age as me,
but he was just super experienced, super mannish, and so that's like that's
when life started for me for real at thirteen. I started smoking weed at
thirteen. Not that like I like the first time I ever smoked weed,
I didn't enjoy it, like it was like I was tweaking for real,
But I did start smoking at thirteen, Like you know what I'm saying.
Thirteen was just like that was it for me. That's when life changed.
And that's also crazy to me because my son is twelve. But it's so
crazy because my son is on a whole different wavelength than me. Like I
can't see my son being on the shit that I was on at thirteen at
thirteen, my son is so different. And not to say like I was
bad, Like I don't think that I was a bad kid, but I
mean I just the environment that I was in, the kids that I went
to school with like that's just what we was on. I don't I can't
really say what the kids are doing at at school. I don't know what
you know, what kids are really doing for real. But I have a
very good child and you know, the world, the world has not gotten
to him yet. Knock on wood. I don't want the world to get
to him. But the reality of it all is that the world is going
to get to him at some point, you know what I'm saying. But
for right now, he's still in a very good space. He's still a
child. I love that for him. But back to me, kid,
So thirteen year old me, like I said, thirteen was like was grown.
Like I said, I experienced a lot. I had a conversation with
my homegirl, Cherish the other day. I was just checking in on her
and she was talking about her daughter. I want to say, her daughter
is thirteen, so she's at that age and it's like, you know,
as a parent, you could do the best that you the best that you
can do is all that you can do, you know what I'm saying.
Like, at the end of the day, a kid is going to be
a kid. A child is going to be a child. A child is
going to do childish things, you know what I'm saying, And when you
start to come of age, you're just gonna do things, you know what
I'm saying. So you can never be down on yourself as a parent for
a kid being a kid. But like I said, for me and even
for my homegirl, like I feel like we are doing some of the best
mother that I fucking know. So it's like, you know, however,
our kids turn out like and I don't think that our kids are going to
be bad or nothing like that, but it's just like we did a really
good job. We are doing a very good job. So I'm proud of
that young Jasmine went through a lot and as a black girl, as a
black woman, Like right now, I'm only a mother of one. I
have a son. I really do want to have a daughter, and if
I ever do have a daughter, I am going to be the person that
I needed as a young girl. You know what I'm saying. You can't
speak to everybody else's parenting, you know what I'm saying, But I definitely
want to be able and it's different, you know what I'm saying. With
a son is different. Of course, my son is a mama's boy and
all of that, but it's gonna be different with a girl because just the
mother daughter thing, you know what I'm saying. And with me, I
didn't really have like a very close relationship with my mom growing up. You
know what I'm saying. That relationship was very it was a very unique relationship.
It was a very unique experience. My mother daughter experience is very different.
So I want my experience with my daughter, if I ever had one,
I wanted to be different and I wanted to be a very good one.
But it's just important to be you know, that that good influence over
your child's life and to be the person that I want to be the person
that I needed for my daughter. You know what I'm saying. Because when
I tell y'all, women and girls go through a lot, and not to
say that man don't, but this ain't This ain't for you know what I'm
saying. That's your podcast. I don't know, but women and girls we
go through so much. And it's like, but that's why I love myself
though, because of my strength, you know what I'm saying. That's the
masculine energy, my strength, but also that divine feminine energy you know what
I'm saying, that nurturing spirit, that loving spirit, that creative spirit,
that sensual spirit, that sexual spirit, like that grace, that that eloquence,
that all of that, Like you know what I'm saying, like all
of that to be a fucking black girl, to be a woman. So
let's see, I'm just gonna pull some cards for the collective spirit. What
are the vibes? What are the vibes? That's the lies I feel because
I want to be able to hm whatever, I'll take it. These fell
out first quinno Wan's two a Pinnacles fell out first. Okay, first of
all, it's giving confidence, it's giving passion, it's giving creative energy and
trying to find your balance with that. What do you need to take action
on in your life creatively passionately? The page lines, Okay, it's giving
new opportunities, new creative opportunities, and you're gonna be on fire with it.
You're gonna be on fire with it. You're gonna be on fire with
it. Let's see out of cups again. We're talking about juggling something.
We're talking about trying to make a decision about something, making a decision about
a creative opportunity that's gonna be coming in or some type of mess. Bitch
an idea on something to do. When one door opens, another door closes.
So you have to walk away from something I was talking about, detaching
and separated from, you know, a situation in life. You have to
like I just said, when one door opens, another closes. So in
life, we have to walk away from a lot of things. We have
to walk away from things that we were once emotionally attached to. We have
to walk away from mm. We gotta walk away from those things that got
to because usually those things have a hold on you. King of Pinnacles,
not of swords, it is given. Walk away from whatever is in the
past and look coming in fast on that new shit. Talk your shit.
It's given. Talk your shit about what you wanna manifest in your life.
Talk your shit about what you wanna manifest in your life. King of Pinnacles
energy is somebody that is super grounded. This is okay. That that's the
big dog. That's that, that's the that's the big boss. Sitting on
the bag, sitting on the throat, secure the back, this gives secure
the bag alert, Okay, King of Pinnacles, is secure the bag alert.
Ooh, I didn't talk about my legal battles. I'm also going through
a legal battle. That's not a sort of energy. But that's another thing
too. That's that's another thing too. But yeah, you have to manifest
whatever it is that you want for yourself, step into your creative back.
I feel like with the way that the world is moving, society is moving,
social media is moving, especially like if you're a social media influencer or
you in that bag, like, baby, the coins is there, the
coins is there. This makes this also makes me think about the people around
me that I'm around creative energy all the fucking time. I have a lot
of creative friends. Baby, creativity is key. No, I'm not.
I'm gonna be honest with y'all. I'll keep it, but I don't really
funk with reversals. But I'll keep it because I'll keep it in the reverse.
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold off,
because why it's giving hold on. I want to clarify it to me.
This is saying that whatever situation you got going on is not a divine
connection. The lovers in reverse is not a divine connection. That's what it's
giving you. Also got the six of cups the Emperor in the Will of
Fortune again because we had the edcups two and I said the lovers in reverse
is not a divine connection, walk away from and it doesn't have to just
be a romantic relationship. But walk away from anything. Of course, everybody,
let us say that's no longer serving you. But walk away from anything
that is not divine. Walk away from anything that is not aligned with you,
your goals, your purpose, whatever, Like anything that is unsettling in
your spirit, anything that you are unsure of, anything that is like a
hesitation to in your life, any relationship, but especially the lovers like cause
again we were talking about Cardi b Tianna Taylor or like. Those relationships are
some of the most important relationships in your life. Those relationships can make or
break you. So anything that's not divine, anything that's not walk away from
that or remove it from your energy. Because there are stable connections in your
life. Will of fortune meaning good fortune is coming. You know what I'm
saying. As the tables turn will a fortune given is short time. So
you're going to come into stable connections. You're gonna come into relationships where there's
an equal give and take where there is generosity, where there is like where
you're getting where your energy is being reciprocated. It's also given daddy energy,
ladies. It's given Daddy energy, it's given big dog energy. It's giving
King energy, it's giving Emperor energy. Okay. And that's what you need
in a connection. Okay, I don't need I don't need a three.
And also it's like when I talk about situations aligning in your life that when
I talk about situations aligning in your life, go wer shit feels good,
Go where shit flows. Go where the energy is reciprocated. Go where you
get back what you get. Will of fortune is good, Karma energy,
Queen of cups. Go where your heart is, Go where your heart is.
And again I said, what did I say earlier when I first got
out here. I said, I'm a Pisty's I said that I'm emotional by
nature. I'm really tapped into my spirituality and my intuition. I'm gonna always
go with my heart, baby, and I ain't gonna lie. I always
talk about that too on the podcast. Like that one little picture on Instagram,
it's a picture like the heart and he walking out the door on the
crutches, and the brain is like, don't go back out there again,
Like that's me every time i'm'a still go. I'm still gonna go back out
there. What's the Drake song? I still got some loved inside of me,
please drag it out. I still got love inside of me. I
still got love inside of me. So go where your heart is, Go
where the passion is. Why should you go there? Because that's where the
money is. That's what that that's where the money is. That's where the
Nina pinnacles is. That is giving secure the bag alert. Also the Hermit
card. So earlier I talked a lot about self reflection, right, the
hermit card is self reflection, it's it's retreating, it's going deep within.
Earlier when I was talking about what do I struggle with? And I was
talking about food and stuff like that, the own So it's very important to
be health conscious because that's the only way that you can hear God. The
hermit card is going inside, listening to the voice within, listening to the
God within, so you can receive those answers. And I am a motherfucking
hermit. I don't be out in these streets either, Yah, That's what
I'm saying. I told y'all, chaos is not quiet. I need peace.
I need to be able to give my answers. We need clarification on
the devil in the wh Energy is who the fuck? Energy is this?
And that's why and that's why, that's why, just how how I just
use the food as an example, but I'm just saying, so, the
hermit card is is that retreat energy going within? Is that inner guy energy?
Right, the devil and the nanosaurds. When you are attached to negativity,
whether that be lower vibrational plates at the table, whether that be sex,
drugs, alcohol, toxic relationships, bad friends, bad boyfriends, bad
girlfriends, situations, and people that want to keep you bonded together on bullshit,
on toxic negativity, on all of that type of shit, this is
the energy that you're going to be in up at night, mental anguish,
mental anxiety. Can't fucking sleep. What did I say earlier when I first
got out here. The swords are also symbolic of communication. I said that
this was gonna be the throat shocker episode. The color is blue. Self
expression, It is very important. But yeah, you can't. You can't
be in your hermit energy. You can't hear God. You don't know what
type of decision to make when you're in this energy, So you have to
get clear. What was I talking about earlier? I was able to.
I feel like I have clarity now, and not that I'm trying to make
this about me, but I'm just trying to get your to understand where I'm
going with this. Some boom I'll do that. I also was gonna say
I was thinking about doing a like I guess, like just an overview or
recap of my twenty twenty three but I don't even feel like I gotta do
that, cause I did that on my first video back on YouTube. I
talked about the last eight months of my life and like whatever, so I
kind of filled you all me in on what I did all year. So
I don't really think that. I mean, y'all know that I'm I'm here
now. I'm gonna always be here, Okay, that's what you gotta know.
So whatever monkey wrenches that the universe throws into plans, whatever, whatever
obstacles step in my way, whatever, you know, all of that bullshit,
I'm still here. I am still here. I am still here,
period. So yeah, Today was a Today was a very good day.
That was an interesting day. Like I said, I'm glad that I cried.
I'm glad that I had that moment. I told you after all of
that happened, I knew this was gonna be a real last episode when I
came in here today. That's what the fuck it is. Let me see,
I really got like four more minutes A girl can talk for two Well
it wasn't two hards because again I didn't the traffic and I think what else
held me up? Again that that happened the last time I got held back
at work too, But again it all it always works together for the greater
goods. So is there anything that I want to leave you guys with?
Let me see anything anything. Let's go back on here? Hm, No,
liven with something off the top of the dome jasmine, mm hmm.
What can I say? Until about twenty twenty four, it's about to be
a new year. What is my goal for the new year? My goal
is to step into my true self. My goal is to step into the
highest version of myself. And I say that and I truly honestly want to
do it from the bottom of my heart and I am going to do that.
However, I know that there's still a lot of work. You know
what I'm saying. We are all all works in progress. It's not an
overnight thing. Again, I do a lot of self reflection, so just
even on a daily I just look at myself, like I'd be really hard
on myself about just everyday life. Like Jazmine, you're not doing enough,
You're not doing enough, and it's like, I have to again, I
have to catch myself in those moments. You're doing a lot, baby girl,
You're doing a lot. You're doing good, You're doing great. You're
doing fan fucking tastic, Jazzmine, And that must be the thirteen year old
me saying that, because like, and that's the thing. Thirteen year old
Jazzmin would love me. She would be like, oh my god, like
she's so dope, Like I want to hang with her, like that's my
big sister. Like that's how I know. That's how I know, Like,
that's how I know. So I'm doing fan fucking tastic. Life is
gonna happen, problems are gonna be there, all of that shit. But
I am very proud of myself. I'm proud of my growth spiritually, mentally,
emotionally, as a woman, as a mother, just as a dope
ass individual. So like, I am very proud of myself, Like I'm
kind of myself, Like no for real though, Like I'm that girl period.
Okay mm hmmmm. So yeah, but that's it. That's that's all
that I have for y'all. Hope that y'all really enjoyed this episode. Let's
look at let's let's look at the stats. Let's look at the really quick
see how we're doing in life. What do the likes say, what other
views say? That stuff means nothing, guys, but we're gonna check it
out anyway. So that first video we're now at three hundred and forty views.
That second video is at three hundred and six views. Where's the third
video gonna be at? Until next time? On Dragon ball Z, we're out