Over the weekend, I had some events that made me feel very out of
control, and I realized this is how America feels right now and why our
mental health is suffering. Most of us do not feel like we are in
control of our lives or the things happening in it. So what can we
do, if anything, Well, the first thing we can do is talk
about it. Uncensored, unfiltered, unhinged. ASM courel Cast listen daily on
your favorite streaming service. Hey, it's Correll and Happy Monday. Normally the
show is posted by now, and I want to explain to you all why
I am late. Maybe some of you can relate, and why I'm not
in the studio at the moment. I'm here at the breakfast table with Ember
the wonder pup right there next to me. There she is. Did y'all
see you're in the chair. She's sleeping there, there's her head it is
anyway, she's part of the reason or maybe Yeah, Anyway, I wanted
to talk to you all this morning about how to deal with things that you
can't control. And I know that in today's world it's a relevant topic because
we all feel there's so much going on that we can't control, and it
really is affecting our mental health. These statistics are out there. Our mental
health is very poor in America right now. Our young people's mental health are
older people's mental health. It is not well. And one of the reasons
is because it's very hard to deal with things that you feel you can't control.
You feel you can't control the price of groceries. You just have to
deal. You have to deal with the price of gas. You can't control
really how much income you make. It it's tied to how much employers want
to pay you and how many physical hours you have in a day to work,
or if you're on a pension, it's tied to that pension plan or
social Security and what they deem you should live on. You can't control copais
or medical co paids, or when you go to the pharmacy the amount that
you have to pay there. You can't control so much. You can't control
what's going on with Donald Trump, whether he's going to be convicted, whether
he's going to really face charges. You know, none of this is in
your control. And it's important that we talk about how it makes you feel
when you are encountering so many things that are out of control. Now,
I'll give you what's happening with me and why I can't think of anything right
now. So last week Emberg got a Cido point shop for her allergies.
I don't know if that's relevant or not. But yesterday Sunday morning, I
was massaging her neck and leg area because she heard her right leg going down
the stairs. So when she woke up Sunday morning, I thought, oh,
i'll massage her, you know, her right side, and that'll make
her feel better. And so I did. And when I was doing that
in what's called her prescapula area in between above her right shoulder blade in her
neck, I found a swollen lymph plant and it's you know, I can
feel it. It's it's about the size of I don't know, a kidney
bean or something. Anyway, So I found this lymph node. She knows
i'm talking about her. And when I found this lymph node, I immediately
you noticed it and looked up on the web, you know, and yes,
it says allergies can cause it it, you know. And she did
have a shot in the neck on Tuesday of a mono clonal antibody shot,
so maybe that's affecting her lymph system or cancer lymphoma, and the web doesn't
give a dog a good prognosis for that. If you get them chemo,
it can go into remission for twelve to twenty four months and then come back
and it's always fatal. So, of course, like so many when I
read that, you know, yes, it could be this, it could
be this, it could be this, or it could be this. Of
course I fixate, like many of you, on the lymphoma, and so
I have been convinced for twenty four hours that Ember has cancer. Now she
has a great appetite, great energy level, all of that, but I've
still been convinced in my brain that this is like the beginning of the end,
and that has triggered all of these feelings in me of everyone that I
love leaving early, Andrew dying at thirty four, my dad at fifty nine,
Mom at seventy one, Pippa getting run over before she was three,
Attila dying at ten. So it triggered all of this in me, and
when it did, it started a spiral, really, and so my brain
will not focus on anything right now except getting her to the doctor, getting
an explanation for this. And just all hopes beyond hopes that it's not lymphoma.
Okay, so that's that's what's in my brain. Because she's only seven,
she'll be eight in November. I'm greedy. I want her to have
more years. And I know you shouldn't pre grieve and you should live in
the moment, and I know all that, but and you know all that,
But when something like this is facing us, we don't follow that advice.
We know that advice, but we don't follow it. The other thing
is, I'm losing a friend to drug Well, let me rephrase. I
have lost a friend to drugs for almost a year now, since my birthday
last His problem has been evident to all of his friends, and we have
tried everything short of an actual intervention. We have begged for the person to
go to rehab. We have begged for them to stop using ketamine. We
have begged and begged and begged, and now he's become a bad friend.
You call him for three days in a row, it doesn't answer the phone.
You call him at two in the afternoon, he's high. You want
him to be the old person that he was, and he's just not that
person anymore. He's not responsible, he's not caring. He's not He doesn't
reach out. You know, he doesn't ring your phone. You know,
he doesn't call you. You always got to track him down. He doesn't
text you, and when he does it's you know, a spurt of text
and then gone, just you know. I mean, this person has been
texting me, literally texting me, and so I called speak to them and
they don't answer the phone. And he works from home, so so you
know, I've talked to his other best friend about this, and we both
feel powerless. And this weekend was sort of the manifestation of how powerless.
It was his birthday weekend, and for every birthday for fifteen years, I've
spoken to him, and I didn't speak to him yesterday or the day before,
and that hurts it. You know, it hurts to be losing or
have lost a friend to drugs. It hurts. And some of you have
to alcohol or another drug. You know. I don't want to condemn anybody
because I used opiates for so many years, but I had to clean up,
and you know, this person needs to clean up. But I can't
make them. I'm out of control of that. So I'm out of control
of his path. I can't control his path, and he's not treating me
like a good friend. There was an incident last weekend where I really needed
him. I called him several times with a problem that had presented itself in
Las Vegas that he could help with, and I said, please call me.
I have this problem. I need your help. You know you can
help. I need you to help me. He never called back, And
the next day I called him all day, Hey, you know, I
never called back. And then that Sunday, at like five in the morning,
he texts me to tell me he was aware of my problem because the
neighbors told him about my problem. So it that hurt. And this weekend
hurt where you know, on his birthday he can't even make time to talk
to me. That hurt, you know. And combine that with Ember.
Combine that with I really feel that the nation is moving into a bad area,
and that you know, I I don't know if I want to stay
here, but I don't have the money to leave, the fact that the
entertainment industry is in turmoil, jobs, they're scared. You combine all of
that. I feel out of control. But how do you deal? How
do you deal? With it. We'll talk about that when my compact.
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of you, I'm feeling out of control of many things in my life.
I'm worried that about this lumping Ember's neck, which will be checked by a
vet today Monday, I hope, and I'm very blessed to be able to
do that. Have a credit card that I can use, and insurance and
all of that. I have a friend that I've lost to drugs, basically,
and I feel out of control of my career because a I'd have to
reinvent it to go back out on stage and then be radio, you know,
podcasting. I'm not sure that I want to stay in the type of
podcasting I'm doing because of the hatred. It's dangerous to be an out gay
liberal right now, and I don't know that I want the hatred. Over
the weekend, I posted a clip on social media from Friday's show. It's
been seen three thousand times on Instagram, and the hatred underneath because I call
out MAGA as racist, homophobes, transplugs all that. Oh oh, little
girl, Yeah, I'm worried she got cancer. She's jumping up out the
chair, barking and care on. All right, honey, you just wanted
to be on the show, didn't you. You just wanted to be on
the show. I think she just wanted to be on the show. Come
here, a little barker. Shouldn't even know what she's barking out. Should
know She's like, I don't know what I'm barking out. I'm just barking.
So I know in your life there's a lot of things that you're not
So what do the self help books say? First of all, Well,
they say to take back control of your life in the areas that you can.
In other words, basically, let go of the areas that you cannot
control, just stop trying, and to control the smaller things in your life
that you can. To regain this self of control, this sense of control.
You know, I've talked to the best psychiatrists in the world, both
personally and professionally on the radio. I've talked to some really incredible people and
learned a lot, and I realized that in times like these. None of
that matters, and that's why mental health is so poor. Right now.
You can in your brain know what you need to do, But if you're
drowning in a sea of facts, grabbing onto just the facts that you need
to use them as a lifeboat and ignoring all the others is one way to
survive. In other words, what are some of the facts that aren't serving
me well right now? That Ember could have the lymphoma, that's a fact.
She could, but it's not serving me well. Another one of the
facts is that she could not that it could be allergies. It could be
many other things causing the lymph node to swell. So I should hold on
to that fact, not the lymphoma fact. I should make my lifeboat out
of the fact that it could be other things. When I think about my
career and what are the facts that I may never be as quote successful as
Correll was on KFI KGO. Yes, that's a fact. That's even though
I'm getting a word October twenty one in Long Beach and being put on the
wall and everything that doesn't matter. I may never regain that height of popularity
that I had working for a big three letter station. That's a fact,
but doesn't serve me. Well, no, so what are the other facts?
Another fact is that I may surpass that, that I may hit with
either the stage show or a song that I've done or whatever. There you
know, something may end up working to bring me back up to that level
again, the podcast could take off. Okay, So that's a fact.
Okay, Oh, yes, that's a fact, So I should I should
pull that fact in and let the other fact go. Now we all know
this, and in your life, like there's always two separate sets of facts.
There's a fact that it could go badly, and then there's the fact
that it could be Okay, there's a fact that Joe Biden may win the
election and that these Maga people may be down with Trump being arrested and incarcerated
and all of that. That's a fact, or it's also a factor possibility
that it's not going to die down, that he could be arrested and it
could really cause civil unrest and it becomes a dangerous place to live in our
country for a while. So you when you're when you're drowning in this sea,
you have to pick the things that serve you best to help you get
out of it. Well, it's one thing to intellectually know that, it's
another thing to actually do it. You know, a lot of times we
want to be Kate Winslet on the giant piece of wood in the sea of
chaos, surviving, but we feel like Leonardo DiCaprio, barely hanging on in
freezing water, about to go under. You want to be Kate Winslet,
you don't want to be Leo. Okay, that's and that's the truth.
This weekend I felt like Leo. I felt like I was drowning in a
sea of chaos and cold water. That the thing I love most in life,
Ember was going to be taken from me in six or twelve months,
and that one of my closest, dearest friends has been totally lost to drugs,
and that we're just going to keep drifting apart and they'll come a time
where I haven't spoken to him in months. Those are possibilities. They are
It's a possibility that I may just have to retire on what I've got and
learn to live on that and not travel the world anymore and not be Correll
anymore. That's a possibility, Or there's a possibility that I will continue to
be me and travel the world and see new things and expose them to you
through a show. And so what I want you to do if you feel
like you're drowning in that sea of ice water and that you can't climb up
on the board with Kate winslet on you to realize that when you are out
of control, when you release it is when you are in the most control.
If that makes any sense, You have to let it go. I
have to let it go, you know, or it's going to make you
completely crazy. Now. I don't know what letting go in your life looks
like, but in mine it means every time I walk in the grocery store,
I can't have my blood pressure rise because of prices. And it really
does, you know, Heather said yesterday in Seattle, and avocado is four
dollars four dollars that tomatoes are two fifty each. So all of a sudden,
I felt very lucky about the prices in Las Vegas. It's all perspective,
all of it. And when you let go, like with Ember,
I have to let go. Whatever's gonna happen with her health is gonna happen,
and I'm gonna have to deal. And if she passes away in six
or twelve months and she does, I have to keep going. I have
to keep living. I don't think she's going to I'll know today. If
it's just some you know, inflammation or something, I don't want to give
that energy. But even if it's the real deal, if that's the truth,
then it's the truth. You know. We have trouble dealing with the
truth nowadays because it's so overwhelming, and I think one of the ways we
deal with it is grab it, process it and let it go. Let
it go, Let Trump go, Let Donald Trump go, let him go.
That's gonna work out, however that works out. You gotta let the
things go that are drowning you or you will be Leonardo DiCaprio and sing.
We've got to get on the board and be Kate Winsford because we have to
survive, no matter what happens to Ember, no matter what happens to my
friend, no matter what happens or whatever. I have to divide it.
And so to do that, you gotta let know of a thing. Ways
you're down, And I know that part. I know that, but like
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Okay, I think I'm just going to finish the show right here.
So this weekend, we had an overt act of racism kill some incredibly innocent
people in Jacksonville, Florida. All a white racist spurred Byron Descantis at his
policy in Florida, spurred by the rhetoric of critical race theory. And you
know, the blacks are coming for your kids with the gays. And I
don't want to say we have to let it go with the theme of the
show, but we can't do anything about it. There's nothing we can do
to end racism in this country except not be racist ourselves. That's what you
can do to end racism. Don't let someone around you be a racist,
don't hang out with racist, don't post racist things, and don't be a
racist yourself. That's all you can do. You can't change the minds of
people like this guy in Florida. I've learned that over the weekend. Those
of you listening to me, you already feel the way I feel so I'm
not telling you anything new. And those that need to listen to me and
need to change their minds not things, they're not going to. You know,
they're not going to. So we live in a time where these people
don't want education. They don't want to be tolerant, they don't want to
be enlightened, they don't want to be awake. They don't want it.
They don't want what we're selling, and we'll never convince them. So you
have to let that go. Don't live in larder, you know my friends
do. And it's a great climate in such except this weekend week and hit
bi hurricane. But don't live in places that don't match who you are.
And if you're forced to for economics, Like me, I don't really want
to live in Las Vegas anymore. It's not who I am. There's no
sense of community here, it's too hot in the summers, and it's just
not me. It's not who I am. I am a more city boy
in a gay district with friends and gatherings. And you know, you can't
get on media list out here because they don't care about media out here.
You can't, you know that, because they don't need to you know,
So I would much other do a show in a place like Portland and where
I could be on all the media list and go to all the events and
all of that and bring all that to you. You know. Another reason
you wonder why the show has changed since I moved to Vegas. I can't
get on any of these invite lists to bring you all these great events,
you know, And I don't have the money to go pay to go to
see Adele and tell you how she is or you know whatever and so,
and they don't care about media in Las Vegas because they know they're gonna get
visitors. So over the weekend there were horrors. There was this racist killing,
there was other horrors in the news. Today, we've got Trump in
Fedor or not Trump, but Mark Meadows and Court trying to get his case
moved to federal court. If that works, then others are going to try
to do it. They're gonna try to get him dismissed. They're gonna try
to you know, all this legal stuff and just means they're not punished yet,
you know. So what do we do. Well, it's Monday,
and I'm going to take Ember to the VET to deal with her. Lump.
So in your world, you need to deal with the most pressing issues
yourself, your family. That's the most pressing issue in terms of the country,
you know. I hate to say that. I just don't think it's
redeemable. It's terrible to live in a place where you've given up hope.
I don't have hope for America as a union, Okay, I don't.
I really believe ultimately we're going to need to break up. I mean,
I just I've been paying attention. They don't want to be a part of
what we want. We want equality, we want movement on climate change.
We want peace in the world. We want to be able to thrive in
our environment. We want an economy that doesn't cripple us, and we don't
want distorted religious and racist beliefs to dictate our policies. Well, that's exactly
what they want. And you can't have a union. You can't have a
marriage of two people or two forces that are so diametrically opposed. It doesn't
work. You have to agree on some common ground, and we don't.
So I'm not optimistic for the USA. I'm not. I think we need
to break up before we do that. Could I really move to Europe.
I wish I could, but I have to say order that's growing and I
need to be around US hospitals in case I need open chest surgery. Maybe
in three years, maybe in five. But is that a person that should
be moving abroad. Probably not so. I have, like you, so
many things this week to think about. And if you notice in my thought
and in your happiness doesn't really play into our where when am I going to
be happy this week? Well, I'll be happy if I get news from
the vet that Ember's lump is just allergies or something. I'd be happy if
my friend that's lost to drugs actually called me, apologized and and said,
you know, I'm going to work on my life. I'm going to go
to rehab. I'm going to actually get control of this substance. I'd be
happier if you were happier. I'd be happier if you were able to live
happier lives, that the economy wasn't so hard, that you know, there
wasn't so much racism and transphobia. Another gender Missouri this morning. Their gender
band affirming care laws are going into effect over the weekend. A court upheld
another States right to ban gender affirming care. I'd be happy if that stuff
wasn't happening, but it is. So how do you deal with horrible stuff
that's happened. I guess you just deal. When Andrew died, I just
got through it, you know. I think that we all just have to
get through these times. I don't know what's on the other side. I
can't tell you there's a bright, shining nation of opportunity and happiness on the
other side of all this turmoil. I don't know that the United States will
ever be in my lifetime a bright, shining beacon of happiness and prosperity and
equality for its people. I don't know if that's possible anymore. You know,
all we do is reward bad behavior. That's all we do, you
know, and throw up our hands. Oh, people are shoplifting all the
time. Now what do we do nothing. I have a friend that works
at Walgreens. He's seventy nine and he's only worked there twelve days, and
he said, I've seen at least twenty robberies. He even had a guy
picked up off the counter. A homeless guy walked out with a bunch of
stuff, and the guy at the counter said, aren't you going to stop
him? And he goes, well, I'm the only person here and we're
told not to. And so the guy just grabbed his stuff off the counter
and walked out. He goes, why should I be a chump? And
it's you should be a chump because you should do the right thing. You
shouldn't do the wrong thing because other people are getting away with the wrong thing.
But that's how we've become now. We now become a nation of people
that see other people getting away with the wrong thing, so they do it.
People that shouldn't be commenting on social media, that just shouldn't have accounts,
shouldn't be allowed to speak publicly. These vitriolic views are being allowed to
so others are allowed to Shoplifters are being allowed to shoplift, so others are
shoplifting. Homeless are being allowed to just be homeless wherever. They are not
going to programs, so other homeless are joining them. We have a nation
that was not just rewarding bad behavior, but we're not punishing it, so
other people aren't doing bad behavior. I don't know how to stop that trend.
It's getting worse everywhere you look. I don't know how to stop people
behaving badly because they seem to be being rewarded for it. The richest people
in podcasting are people that are vitriolic, hateful, transphobic, and homophobic.
That's who the richest podcasters are, like Joe Rogan, Charlie Kirk, Ben
Shapiro. They're evil, and more people join them with evil podcasts and make
money. Meanwhile, the good people, me Stephanie Miller and Tom Hartman,
we're not making those fortunes. How do we turn that around? I don't
know that we can. I just know that you, in your life have
to start striving to be Kate Winslet on the wood, in the chaos and
the freezing, and not be Leo. If that means tuning out, tune
out. If that means moving, if that means focusing just more on your
world, then I guess you have to do that. But we cannot you
and I cannot go through life now miserable because of the miserable existence. I'll
leave you with this. In the concentration camps, Jews still made music.
They still made music. Musicians and concentration camps found a way to still make
music. I want you to find a way in your life to still make
music. No matter what news I get today or tomorrow about Ember, no
matter what happens with my career, no matter what happens with politics or grocery
prices or homeless whatever, I still got to find a way to make music
right. And so do you. I am Corral. You'll be who you
want to be. Solvedn't hurt any buddy. I'll have a proper show for
you on Wednesday. I was just sitting here at the kitchen table this morning
and thought, why not talk to you guys honestly, and so I have
and I hope to see you on Wednesday. To the three patrons, to
the didn't finish logging in, and then one James that did log in on
Sunday, thank you. We'll try another call in two weeks and see if
more of you can attend. Until then, stay safe and we'll talk on
Wednesday. I'll let you know via social media at really Correll on Instagram or
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