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Welcome to my side of the crystal ball. My side of the crystal ball
is going to be a little bit unusual compared to what we normally do.
The whole episode tonight is all about ww rs. What would Robert say?
I'm going to be talking, discussing, and sharing with you the most painful,
hurtful, devastating experience of my life, and in the very same conversation,
I'm also going to be talking to you about some of the greatest experiences
in my life as a direct result of the emotional tragedy that I experienced.
It is my proof to you that when one door closes, another door opens.
And now without further ado, ww r s dogs came late to me
in life. I was in think forty eight years old. I thought I
liked them. I've accept that I was always on the road, and a
good amount of my time I've been single, and it wouldn't have been fair
right, or it wouldn't have been the dog. A dog couldn't have fit
into my lifestyle. In about the mid part of the nineteen nineties, I
became involved in a committed, serious relationship with a woman and her two children.
It was quite a positive one for me, and as we were getting
closer and closer together, we had a cat, mister Max, and we
all decided to get a puppy. We got a puppy, and as a
family, we decided we picked that one. I thought I was getting it
for everybody else and you know, the very on the wide home. Even
though we all shared in what we called her, we called her Matilda Tillie
for short. She became came closer and closer to me, and I became
more bonded, even though I was still driving, and you know, she
was sitting on my partner's lab the next day when I started doing readings.
This this ten week old puppy insisted on being in the room with me while
I was doing readings, and then very quickly she was beside me with every
reading I did. For many, many years, thereafter our time in that
small town, we we we bought a house and moved to a small town,
and it didn't work out for us. It didn't work out for us
as a family, It didn't work out for us as a relationship, it
didn't work out for us as a place to be. My partner and her
her two children moved away. I was at the house with mister Max.
They toned and Riley, and we had one more year of our five year
mortgage to pay off, and I decided to stay there. And Tillie and
I would go back and forth to work every day in Toronto, which by
the way, is in miles it's seventy miles and in kilometers it's one hundred
and twenty. We did dad every day and Tillie was with me, and
she was always part of my readings, and she went with me everywhere we
went. I never let anyone look after her. She was always by my
side. February twenty first, I had a business meeting in downtown Toronto,
but it was in the evening and I didn't want to leave Tilly in the
office. I drove back to Beamsville, dropped her at home, and I
bumped into a friend of mine and who lived across the street, and she
saw me dropping Tillie off, and she said, instead of leaving her all
by herself, why don't you just leave her with us. I thought,
I know this person, I know their dog. Shure, that'll be just
great. And they took Chillie over to their house and I went into the
city to my meeting. I came back several hours later, and on the
way back and this was just you know, we were all just starting to
get cell phone said. I got a cell phone call from my friend saying
that when I left, Tillie got out, ran away, got hit by
a car. She's in the emergency ward at animal clinic and she has a
broken spine. I immediately went to that veterinary clinic, it was an emergency
c one and discovered what had happened. I had a few options, and
I knew that she even though there was surgery possible, I knew that she
she she would um it wouldn't, she would never survive. When she died.
I never felt so much hurt as I did then. I couldn't,
I couldn't function. Um. I remember driving home from the veterinary clinic and
my first stop was to liquor store. I hadn't had a drink in years,
and on the way home, I drank what was in the bottle.
That Friday, Saturday, Sunday was just a blur. Monday I work.
I actually tried to dry. I tried to go to work. I drove
and got to my office. Of course, everybody asked where chili was.
That was great. Um. I realized that day I couldn't do really,
so I left. Throughout that time, I got drunk. I'd lost the
relationship that I was in and ended. The lifestyle was over, and I
lost the only being that had ever given me unconditional lot. I couldn't function.
I was just drunk. I drove back and forth to work. There
were some days I could do readings. There were some days that I couldn't.
I remember one day I did get into work, and you know,
Tillie was part of my life. The job. You know, she would
meet the people at the door. She would escort them to their chair.
They would sit in the chair. She would sit in front of them and
they would pat her. And what she was doing was calming them down.
And I would go around. I would do fidget getting ready to do the
reading, and then when it was time for me to do the reading,
I would just tap on my knee and she would come by and lay by
my side, and then I started reading. If my client got upset during
the session, with my permission, till he would get up and go and
give give comfort. And when the session was over, because she could sense
the energy, she would get up and go and sit in front of the
person and complete the reading. This one day, I made it to work
and managed to do a couple of readings. It was a struggle, and
it was back in the days that I was recording on cassette. I was
doing a reading for this person. It was dark, so it could have
been seven o'clock or six whatever. I'm in the middle of doing this reading
for somebody recording it, and I just got so upset and I just couldn't
do the reading. And I just looked at the person and I said,
I'm so terribly sorry, I can't do this reading right now. And I
got out and I just walked out. I left the recording on, didn't
turn the tape recorder off. I didn't say goodbye to the person. I
walked out the door. I didn't put my coat on, left everything on
the lights, walked out good in my car, and drove back to Beamsville.
Over that time period of a couple of weeks, I was drunk all
the time. I was devastated. I was trying to get back and forth
to work. The house was up for sale, and this one Friday afternoon
I got a call from the real estate agent saying that there was an offer
on the house and could I come home early to read it and sign it.
And I said yes, And as I was packing up my office,
the telephone ran and I and I answered it, and a man at the
other end of the phone said to me, Colo, mister Robert, you
don't know me. My name is Sam. I in my frame of mind,
I could have reacted in any way. I could have tell him to
get lost for a whole lot worse. Anyway, some reason, I just
said yes, Sam, and he said, UM, you don't know him,
but I have a question. Until I was to a degree a bit
cynical at this point time, and I was kind of pissed with God,
because, Um, how come I'm doing all this for others and you know,
my dog dies. So Sam says to me, I, Um,
you know. He said, I have a question. You know, I
have a question. And he said, my son is autistic. And my
attitude at that time was come on, get to your point. And the
way I responded was yes, uh huh. And he said I don't like
dogs, and I said to him, that's not necessarily a good reference.
He said, our doctor recommended we get a dog for our son because dogs
are really good for kids with autism. And I said, yes, Sam,
I've heard that. And he said, we got a dog for our
son, and in a very short amount of time, our son started coming
out of himself and opening up, and the dog also became part of our
family. And I said to him, Sam, that can happen. And
he said, yesterday, our dog got out of the yard and we can't
find him. And they start and he started to cry. I said to
him, I sense your dog is alive. I don't know if I can
help you with this, but you have to. I'm going to ask you
a couple of questions, and depending upon how you answer the questions will depend
on if I can help you. And I said, are you at home
right now? And he said yes, and are you sitting in the living
room and he said yes. And I said, if you look out the
window straight out the living room window, straight ahead from where you're sitting,
are you looking out the window the living room window? Yes, of course.
And I said, and you live on kind of like a cul de
sac looking straight ahead and he said yes. And then there's of course a
road going by the direction. Yes, if you drive to the left,
turn to the left. Does it lead you to a kind of mall area
and he said, yes it does. If you go to that mall.
Somewhere in that mall, you're going to see a sign that says dog found
Sam. I don't know if this is right or wrong. I don't know
if it worked for you, but I really wish you the best of luck
and let me know how it turns out. End a conversation. Didn't think
about it anymore because it was something that I could could have done at any
day in my work life and do get in my beat up older jeep,
drove back to Beamsville, signed the papers Monday morning. I was feeling a
little bit more refreshed, knowing that the time had come and you know,
the house was sold and I was going to be starting my new life without
chilly by the way, and I couldn't even talk about it what happened to
her without just breaking down and crying. I drove back to from on Monday
morning. I set out for a great day at work and you know,
a starting or beginning of my new life, so to speak. When I
got there, the phone was ringing and it was Sam, and Sam said,
mister Robert, we followed your advice on Friday, and we went to
that place, that mall, and we walked all over for a couple of
hours, and we couldn't find anything that said dog found, and they said.
We walked out the rear side door, and as we were walking out,
we saw a sign that said veterinary office and we just followed it and
there was a sign that said dog found and he said it was our dog.
And I would like to thank you very much. I said to Sam
that I was very happy for him that it happened, and I wished him
the best of luck and said goodbye. It was devastating. How could I
have the ability to help someone find their dog and my dog gets killed.
I got so mad at God. On the way, I just did another
walk out of the office day and I was driving back to Pep's show,
and I was cursing and swearing and calling dog. You know, God,
you sort of used the sixth out of a bitch. How dare you give
me the ability to help somebody find their dog and you take mine from me,
you rotten bastard. I was so mad and so hurt. That was
almost as bad as till they getting killed. The next several days were a
blur. I woke up one day I saw licture bottles all over my house.
I looked like shit. My house looked like ship. I felt like
shit on my shot. This has to stop, This has to stop now.
It was if I didn't, I just was gonna. I was giving
up. I missed having a dog. I didn't want to betray Chilieum I
needed. I needed to connect ship. So I went to the internet.
It was it was just the early days two thousand and two, and I
googled Golden Retrievers Golden Retriever breeders, and what came up was that from Keyon
Kennels, and I looked at their website and I phoned them, and one
of the owners, Karen from Keyon Kennel's, answered the phone, and I
started to talk with her. I couldn't hardly get past what happened Untillie before
breaking down and completely losing it. And she listened to me kindly, patiently,
quite tenderly for a pretty long time. And I was looking to get
a Golden Retriever puppy. She told me that if she had any puppies,
she would have one for me, but she wasn't didn't have any. And
then she said, we have a dog here. Her name's Kindred Spirit,
by the way, and she's been a house dog. She's a champion.
She's retired, she's been living in the house, and she's just a beautiful,
beautiful dog. She's a little older, she's just around seven. But
she sounds like just the right dog for you, sounds like what you're going
through. And she said, look at the website. You'll see her Kindred
Spirit. If you like her, call back and then come on out.
I went to the website, looked at her. She looked pretty good,
right. I was just an older dog puppy and I didn't know. But
I called her back anywhere, and I said, I would really be interested
in seeing this dog. Meeting with this dog that Sunday throughout the next few
days I went and got some references from my vat from you know, from
the person that worked at the dog food store and in the town, um
from friends, how I was with my dog, you know, etc.
And then on that Sunday, I drove from where I lived all the way
up to a farm north of Orangeville. In Orangeville is um uh, I
don't know, one hundred kilom or sixty miles north of Toronto. I drove
into the farm. I didn't know what to expect, and I went to
the farmhouse I had by the way, I had no idea who these people
were. Not on the door, Karen came to greet me, and her
family was there, and there was a group of about six or seven of
the most beautiful dogs I've ever seen in my life, breathtaking, different colors.
I came in and sat down and once again started talking about what had
happened and couldn't stop crying. They were all very kind and patient. I
was also looking at these beautiful dogs, knowing that Kindred's spirit was one of
them. Some of them paid attention to me, some weren't. And then
this other dog came over and sat beside me, and by the way,
she was just beautiful. And I started patting her as I was talking with
Karen and you know, making the arrangements. I said, to her,
by the way, which dog is Kindred? And she said, you're the
one you're patting. I said, I brought some references here, and I
handed her from my references and she said, you don't need those references,
your tears or your reference and she said that if you love her, if
you can love her, and you can have her. And they gave Kindred
spirit to me. I didn't even have all these I was that massed up.
And Kindred got up and walked with me to the door and the family,
and she walked to the car with me, and I opened the car
door and she jumped in. I closed the door and we drove home.
Kindred lived with me. She was a magnificent girl. She adopted immediately to
my environment, she adopted in my work, and she didn't stop the pain
of Chilly dying so drastically. But what did happen is that I started being
focusing on receiving from Kindred. Over time, each day I started feeling better
and better and closer and closer to Kindred. But I still felt so deeply
about losing Chilly, as I still do. I was so deeply grateful to
the people at key On Kennel's for what they had done for me. I
did everything to reach out to them, keep in touch, share with them.
Anybody that would do such a beautiful thing for me, I would forever
be grateful and forever show my gratitude. Over time, we became friendly and
they liked the way I after Kindred. As time wore on, Kindred got
older and just a little bit for her fourteenth birthday, she got sick and
it was her time to complete her life. It was painful, but not
like Tiller's. I kept in front with Keyon Kennels and they followed her progress
with me. And when Kindred completed her life, I asked them if they
had another dog that I could have, and they told me that they had
this dog named Dixie, and they said that she has She also was a
champion. She was younger than Kindred. She was only now five and a
half and she only had to have one more litter before she was retired.
And if I would like to take her on those conditions, she would come
back to have one more letter. She could come with me and I went
up to see Dixie, and I remember sitting in the office, still mourning
the loss of my dear Kindred and remembering Tillie too out from the kennel into
the office. This most beautiful doctor. I just I looked at the dog
and said, you are beautiful, and she came right up and sat in
front of me. That was Dixie. And Dixie came home with me,
and I think Dixie has been the most magnificent dog I ever had. Dixie
had her last letter, she was incredibly dedicated with me, and she became
by my side as all my dogs have when she was going through that process.
I'd loved it so much. I asked Karen and Wally at key On
Kennels if there was ever a time they would have a co ownership with someone
with with a younger dog, a puppy. And while he said that they
did it sometime and UM, he'd let me know two weeks later, right,
you know, I had Kindred her Dixie back home. Um. A
couple of weeks later, UM, Karen called me and told me that they
had this this puppy that would do better in a family home than in the
kennel. And m she was showing at at the UM the Golden Retriever Canada,
the Canadian Golden Retriever Club Championships UM that Sunday and she was um in
senior puppies. I went out to see her and she was just beautiful as
she finished first in senior puppies. The next day, when to the farm
and brought Tessa home with me. Tessa came home with me on the condition
that she would go back to Keian for showing and breeding to become a champion
and also to have three litters. And that happened, and when she was
going through her showing time, it was really a lot of fun driving her
around to all the dog shows and being a co owner and taking her up
when she was having her puppies. It was just a fantastic and having her
at home when she was you know, when she was pregnant, it was
just absolutely magnificent. It's time more on. Dixie got sick. She got
sick early and we had to say goodbye to her sooner. Over this time
period, Karen and Wally and I end their whole family and I became good
friends. I was starting to realize these people are quite well known in the
International Dog Golden Retriever and bou Hound breeding, showing and training. They share
with breeders and they share their breeds around the world. Just started learning about
that after all the dogs that I've been getting. Once again, when Dixie
died, I asked Karen if she might have another dog for me, and
very quickly she found a dog and her name was Lacy, and Lacy came
home to live with us, but it was me and Tessa during that time.
Sean, second oldest boy in the key On clan, bought the farm
so to speak, and started taking over the business. And he came to
me and he said, you know, Robert, you've you've shown a lot
of skill with dog with no training. I think that you would do really
well in the dog show rang And I said, no, I didn't think
so, and he said yes, and if you would like, you can
come in and have I would I would, mum, if you would go
into competition, I would pay for first of all your your lessons with you
and the dog. I'd supply the dog, and I would pay for going
into the shows, just as long as the dogs, you know, m
performed under the key On banner took a long time, and I decided yes,
so started off with taking Lacy. We took her to and advanced dog
training school all the way up to grade three. We did a couple of
shows, but Lacy just didn't want to do it, so we let her
off to Hawk. When Tessa was eight, we entered her into dog training
and she went all the way to grade three at a very advanced dog school,
and then she went on to her rally obedience trials and she completed her
novice title. She was nine years old, and she was competing against three
year old puppies, the three year old dogs. Tessa then just said,
I don't want to do this anymore enough. And then Sean said, we
have another dog here and his name is Tyson, and this could be the
one for you. And then Tyson came home with me and on the condition
that he'll go back for confirmation training and he'll go back for stud Other than
that, he'll go to the training with me and I'll show him and all
these three dogs will live with me. I have become close personal friends with
everyone in the family after getting those three dogs from Keyon Kennel's. Over the
years, there has been more than twenty dogs from Keion that have come down
to stay with me for socializing, training and confidence building. They stay with
me for a little while and then they go back to the to the breeder.
I've learned how to dog handle, I've learned how to train. I've
had all these beautiful dogs. And then I saw this dog and her name
was Christy Kringle, and she was sixteen years old and she was a Norwegian
Boothhound. And I saw on the website, on Karen's website, that this
beautiful little dog at sixteen and a half years old, had lost her mother,
her family, and I decided I wanted her. And Karen from Keon
Kennel and you know, a Golden Retriever breeder as well as a Norwegian Buhun
breeder and shower and trainer. She got in touch with that. When I
told Karen I would like that dog, she got in touch with that group
and arranged to have Christi Kringle come and stay with us. You know me,
Tessa, Lacy and Tyson. And at sixteen years old, Christi Kringele
came and stayed with us for another fourteen months. I have had a twenty
year experience. It was you see last February twenty first, twenty second was
the twenty the twentieth anniversary until his death, and over that twenty years,
as a result of that tragic event, the way I handled that tragic event
and the way I kept going with that tragic event, I turned it around
and has become a twenty year glorious experience, all because of that horrible tragedy
twenty years ago. And that's what Robert has to say. Wow, that
certainly is an emotional experience, well at least for me. But I wanted
to share this with you for many reasons. I wanted to share with you
the love of my dogs. I wanted to share with you the depth of
my feelings. I wanted to share with you another side of me, and
above everything else after that, I wanted to share with you and demonstrate clearly
in black and white that when one door closes, another door opens, but
you have to open the door. You have to walk through the hallway to
get to the other door. You have to do something. I still think
about Tilly after twenty years. She lives in my heart. I still think
about Dixie. She lives in my heart and I miss her. I think
about CHRISTI Kringle and she lives in my heart. But I have Tessa,
Lacy and Tyson, and they're alive and they're thriving with me. Kindred Spirit,
Dixie, Tessa, Lacy, Tyson, Christi Kringo are the result,
the exact result of when one door closes, another one opens. My heart
is fuller, deeper, broader with all the loves that these dogs brought me.
Then if I just would have lived with the sorrow and the hurt,
with Tillie's loss, remember, when one door closes, another one always opens.
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