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So this is interesting. I'm at
the beach see and I'm meditating on the

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beach. I've got secret acoustics playing
in my earbuds, and it's talking about

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knowing myself. I do this meditation
that's meant to be inside yourself and help

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you to know who you are.
This meditation is meant to explore inside yourself

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and help you to know who you
are. And so I start doing that

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and I get starting to get all
these different images. But the image that

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really struck me the most, like
it made me stop the meditation, come

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out of it and record this.
I found myself going through what could only

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be described as a tunnel, but
not really a tunnel, like you see

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a circular like you're going into a
tunnel, but like the distance between the

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Earth and the sky, that horizon
line flying between the horizon. That's what

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I saw. Then the next thing
I know, I'm going into space.

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It's not really space, it's a
I'm inside of a womb. I'm being

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filtered into a body that's inside the
womb to the fetus, and the fetus

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is almost completely formed already. But
now I feel myself in there, and

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I feel how safe and uncomfortable.
I'm in that womb, how warm,

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how hugged, safe, totally encapsulated
by the walls of my mother's uterus,

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just safe, feeling my mom's warm
hug all around me. And then something

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happens. I find myself upside down
and something is pushing me, pushing me.

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It's almost crushing me, almost stopping
me from breathing. Before I know

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it, I'm pushed through a wall
and now I'm outside, no longer inside.

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I'm outside. It's wide open space, but completely open, and I

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can't feel my mom. I can't
feel my person around me. I can't

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feel anything but air space. There's
no safety, there's no warmth, there's

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no comfort. I'm like, what
is going on? And here's where the

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personal stuff comes up. Most babies, when they're born, they're given to

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their mother. Those babies, I
can only assume feel the way that I

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felt, completely vulnerable, open,
alone, cold, confused, scared.

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And then the babies are handed to
the mothers, and the mothers bring the

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baby to them, to their skin, to a warm embrace. She holds

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them against her skin, and suddenly
they feel a little semblance of what we're

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feeling inside the womb. Warmth,
safety, comfort, being held close,

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feeling and hearing a heartbeat, a
comforting heartbeato. Again, here's where the

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personal part comes in. Unfortunately,
when I was born, my mother had

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terrible postpartum syndrome, and the hug
that I so desperately needed never came because

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she couldn't hold me, she couldn't
touch me, she couldn't be with me

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because she was so depressed that the
doctors immediately took me away. They did

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everything that they had to do,
weigh me, measure me, then left

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me in the cribble alone, forcing
me to never feel that warmth of my

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mom's embrace again. Sure, my
aunt was there. She raised me,

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she helped me, she loved me. She gave me the hugs that I

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didn't get from my mom. But
it wasn't the same. It wasn't my

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mom, It wasn't a part of
me. I was a part of her.

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It wasn't the person who I was
inside of, who I could feel

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that it was a part of and
then was taken away from. And now

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my aunt, I love her and
bless her, and thank you for being

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you and being able to raise me
and hold me and love me. When

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my mom couldn't. But it wasn't
me. It wasn't who I recognized as

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me, right, I was another
version I was a part of my mother.

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And then I wondered how many kids
out there feel the same. Kids

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are born and never get the chance
to be hugged by their parents, by

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a mom that loved them, embraced
them. That says a lot about me.

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Then, immediately after the meditation,
as I'm still meditating after, I

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thought that as I'm sitting there,
I come to the realization that suddenly there

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are angels all around me holding me, rapping not just their wings but their

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arms around me, holding me safe, helping me to understand that I was

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never alone, that the entire universe
is here hugging me, loving me,

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keeping me safe, that I can't
not be safe, and that every time

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that I feel disconnected from the universe, from the me, I just have

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to remember that my angels are there, and they're there whenever I need them,

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and whenever I need them will hold
me, hug me and love me

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the way I needed, the way
that they did immediately from the time that

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I was born, and they are
assuring me that even though I felt physically

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that I was alone. They were
there, holding me, keeping me warm

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and safe the entire time. And
as I had that realization, I suddenly

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saw the most beautiful angel I've ever
seen or ever felt in front of me,

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with majestic wings, and suddenly I
realized it was Michael. And he

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held his hands out and came to
me and wrapped his arms around me and

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hugged me and held me so tight
I've never felt so safe. And he

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said, anytime anyone needs them,
just know that they're there. And it's

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an amazing realization. It's not just
that they were there for me, they're

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there for you too. All you
need is know that they're there. We're

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all in this journey together. We're
all on different parts of our journey,

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and every part is just fine.
Hey. I know this sounds crazy,

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and I don't know if I really
saw archangel Michael in front of me or

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not. But I tell you the
feelings that I got, the knowing,

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the messages that I received them sharing
here with you today. It's sounds crazy.

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I know it sounds crazy, but
it makes so much sense to me.

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When you open yourself up to the
presence of angels, to the knowledge,

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to the realization that we are never
alone, that we are always surrounded

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and protected and hugged and kept safe
by the universe, by the angels,

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by our spirit guides, our higher
selves. Suddenly, an amazing feeling of

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love, warmth, comfort and safety
definitely came over me, and I'm sure

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it will come over you as well. I really appreciate you listening to me.

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This sounds like a crazy Blaver,
but I loved it, and I

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hope it makes sense to you too,