So this is interesting. I'm at the beach see and I'm meditating on the
beach. I've got secret acoustics playing in my earbuds, and it's talking about
knowing myself. I do this meditation that's meant to be inside yourself and help
you to know who you are. This meditation is meant to explore inside yourself
and help you to know who you are. And so I start doing that
and I get starting to get all these different images. But the image that
really struck me the most, like it made me stop the meditation, come
out of it and record this. I found myself going through what could only
be described as a tunnel, but not really a tunnel, like you see
a circular like you're going into a tunnel, but like the distance between the
Earth and the sky, that horizon line flying between the horizon. That's what
I saw. Then the next thing I know, I'm going into space.
It's not really space, it's a I'm inside of a womb. I'm being
filtered into a body that's inside the womb to the fetus, and the fetus
is almost completely formed already. But now I feel myself in there, and
I feel how safe and uncomfortable. I'm in that womb, how warm,
how hugged, safe, totally encapsulated by the walls of my mother's uterus,
just safe, feeling my mom's warm hug all around me. And then something
happens. I find myself upside down and something is pushing me, pushing me.
It's almost crushing me, almost stopping me from breathing. Before I know
it, I'm pushed through a wall and now I'm outside, no longer inside.
I'm outside. It's wide open space, but completely open, and I
can't feel my mom. I can't feel my person around me. I can't
feel anything but air space. There's no safety, there's no warmth, there's
no comfort. I'm like, what is going on? And here's where the
personal stuff comes up. Most babies, when they're born, they're given to
their mother. Those babies, I can only assume feel the way that I
felt, completely vulnerable, open, alone, cold, confused, scared.
And then the babies are handed to the mothers, and the mothers bring the
baby to them, to their skin, to a warm embrace. She holds
them against her skin, and suddenly they feel a little semblance of what we're
feeling inside the womb. Warmth, safety, comfort, being held close,
feeling and hearing a heartbeat, a comforting heartbeato. Again, here's where the
personal part comes in. Unfortunately, when I was born, my mother had
terrible postpartum syndrome, and the hug that I so desperately needed never came because
she couldn't hold me, she couldn't touch me, she couldn't be with me
because she was so depressed that the doctors immediately took me away. They did
everything that they had to do, weigh me, measure me, then left
me in the cribble alone, forcing me to never feel that warmth of my
mom's embrace again. Sure, my aunt was there. She raised me,
she helped me, she loved me. She gave me the hugs that I
didn't get from my mom. But it wasn't the same. It wasn't my
mom, It wasn't a part of me. I was a part of her.
It wasn't the person who I was inside of, who I could feel
that it was a part of and then was taken away from. And now
my aunt, I love her and bless her, and thank you for being
you and being able to raise me and hold me and love me. When
my mom couldn't. But it wasn't me. It wasn't who I recognized as
me, right, I was another version I was a part of my mother.
And then I wondered how many kids out there feel the same. Kids
are born and never get the chance to be hugged by their parents, by
a mom that loved them, embraced them. That says a lot about me.
Then, immediately after the meditation, as I'm still meditating after, I
thought that as I'm sitting there, I come to the realization that suddenly there
are angels all around me holding me, rapping not just their wings but their
arms around me, holding me safe, helping me to understand that I was
never alone, that the entire universe is here hugging me, loving me,
keeping me safe, that I can't not be safe, and that every time
that I feel disconnected from the universe, from the me, I just have
to remember that my angels are there, and they're there whenever I need them,
and whenever I need them will hold me, hug me and love me
the way I needed, the way that they did immediately from the time that
I was born, and they are assuring me that even though I felt physically
that I was alone. They were there, holding me, keeping me warm
and safe the entire time. And as I had that realization, I suddenly
saw the most beautiful angel I've ever seen or ever felt in front of me,
with majestic wings, and suddenly I realized it was Michael. And he
held his hands out and came to me and wrapped his arms around me and
hugged me and held me so tight I've never felt so safe. And he
said, anytime anyone needs them, just know that they're there. And it's
an amazing realization. It's not just that they were there for me, they're
there for you too. All you need is know that they're there. We're
all in this journey together. We're all on different parts of our journey,
and every part is just fine. Hey. I know this sounds crazy,
and I don't know if I really saw archangel Michael in front of me or
not. But I tell you the feelings that I got, the knowing,
the messages that I received them sharing here with you today. It's sounds crazy.
I know it sounds crazy, but it makes so much sense to me.
When you open yourself up to the presence of angels, to the knowledge,
to the realization that we are never alone, that we are always surrounded
and protected and hugged and kept safe by the universe, by the angels,
by our spirit guides, our higher selves. Suddenly, an amazing feeling of
love, warmth, comfort and safety definitely came over me, and I'm sure
it will come over you as well. I really appreciate you listening to me.
This sounds like a crazy Blaver, but I loved it, and I
hope it makes sense to you too,