1 00:00:12,240 --> 00:00:16,199 Hello, Welcome to another episode of Ignorant Philosophy. I am Eric Dizzy, 2 00:00:16,320 --> 00:00:20,440 the host of this here podcast, and to my this side, it's my 3 00:00:20,480 --> 00:00:28,000 brother and mister. Who the are you come on? Toyamas boom boom boom 4 00:00:28,600 --> 00:00:53,000 boom boom boom boom boom boom boom May mo keen may mo may a a 5 00:00:53,880 --> 00:01:19,480 mo may a mok man man a mo maya mo ma mo okay may your 6 00:01:19,640 --> 00:01:34,239 mo y'all don't know my name? After the ship Yary Yarya. That ship 7 00:01:34,280 --> 00:01:38,280 was the ship cause that Nigga was so anxious, that Nigga was so thirsty. 8 00:01:40,319 --> 00:01:44,120 Oh me ship this ten ten? Where you being? You talking about? 9 00:01:44,200 --> 00:01:49,239 Bitch? I've been waiting. A woman is definitely gonna screenshot the fucking 10 00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:53,959 Siri interpolation of your fucking voicemail and post you on her timeline and be like, 11 00:01:55,079 --> 00:02:00,760 look at this motherfucker. Sh don't know man, modest? Where you 12 00:02:00,879 --> 00:02:04,640 being? Did you get my message? What do you say? Your your 13 00:02:04,920 --> 00:02:09,960 what do you say? Did you get my message? Yours? That I've 14 00:02:10,000 --> 00:02:15,599 been thinking that I've been thinking that's the worst one. You like a girl? 15 00:02:15,319 --> 00:02:20,240 I don't remember this is me? You like the girl when you like 16 00:02:20,319 --> 00:02:25,240 the girl, and she had a life, so you will be texting her, 17 00:02:28,000 --> 00:02:30,719 man, she ain't answering and replying to you. And when y'all finally 18 00:02:30,759 --> 00:02:35,400 do talk, she kind of anti social a little bit, so she yeah, 19 00:02:35,439 --> 00:02:37,919 so she she got a wall up, so you gotta break down the 20 00:02:37,960 --> 00:02:39,879 wall. So you know, you gotta fight for her attention, and then 21 00:02:39,919 --> 00:02:45,039 you when you got her attention, you gotta figure out what language to speak 22 00:02:45,039 --> 00:02:47,919 to this motherfucking order to get her to talk back to These are the bro. 23 00:02:49,000 --> 00:02:52,319 It's a lot, bro. That's why the niggas is writing songs. 24 00:02:52,919 --> 00:02:58,240 I forgut, what well catch you got might got an orange one, she 25 00:02:58,360 --> 00:03:00,960 might got a black one. Once they start opening up, that's when you 26 00:03:01,000 --> 00:03:05,400 realize, I don't like you. I don't like you like I thought I 27 00:03:05,439 --> 00:03:07,439 did. A bitch, I've been liking all your picks, crushing on you 28 00:03:07,479 --> 00:03:10,240 for all these years, and I like you more than when you didn't talk, 29 00:03:10,280 --> 00:03:14,719 When you didn't talk and I didn't know you. Yeah, that'd be 30 00:03:14,759 --> 00:03:16,240 the worst, because I'm pretty sure that women feel the same way. Yeah 31 00:03:16,280 --> 00:03:20,120 for sure, I know it. They probably a nigga they thought was something 32 00:03:20,120 --> 00:03:23,560 and then they'd be like this nigga really lame. He's really a stalker. 33 00:03:23,759 --> 00:03:28,360 And you knew this? Did you hear about the girl that that fucking uh 34 00:03:29,439 --> 00:03:32,120 set her tender date on fire Man? I seen the video. I didn't 35 00:03:32,159 --> 00:03:36,000 really know the back I didn't know the backstore. Now I've seen the video. 36 00:03:36,800 --> 00:03:39,159 I guess it was like he was sitting at a table damn there or 37 00:03:39,159 --> 00:03:45,599 something, and she just walked up and started dumping ship on the nigga. 38 00:03:45,639 --> 00:03:47,039 And then next thing you know, I just see her walk out and I 39 00:03:47,080 --> 00:03:52,159 just see him running with just in flames, just running up, running out 40 00:03:53,039 --> 00:03:57,240 at the building. That's crazy, bro, because I should be able to 41 00:03:57,280 --> 00:04:01,400 beat your ass after But what is the why? What put somebody on fire 42 00:04:02,960 --> 00:04:06,800 nuts date? Like, we don't even do nothing to you yet, but 43 00:04:08,120 --> 00:04:15,800 when you didn't even break your lie to you yet give me a few months, 44 00:04:15,079 --> 00:04:18,240 a few weeks, I'm a lie to you. No, That's why 45 00:04:18,279 --> 00:04:24,000 I'll be saying, like people's people's mental health, Like people in my family 46 00:04:25,279 --> 00:04:29,560 be posting. I got a family that live in Florida and they post the 47 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:34,319 most beautiful pictures, the most inspirational quotes on social media and ship like that. 48 00:04:34,800 --> 00:04:40,920 And over Thanksgiving, you just find out that you really ain't like them 49 00:04:40,920 --> 00:04:47,199 posted. I think they are, but they're trying to I guess foreshadow how 50 00:04:47,240 --> 00:04:50,839 they really want to feel. But yeah, but they going through and I'm 51 00:04:50,839 --> 00:04:54,399 like, damn, I would have never known. So when you when you 52 00:04:54,639 --> 00:05:00,839 liking somebody, the mental health of a person is not clearly displayed on their 53 00:05:00,920 --> 00:05:08,480 social media, and there know how to cover that ship up. Yeah, 54 00:05:08,639 --> 00:05:12,199 I mean, because I think I think quite as kept. People have been 55 00:05:12,360 --> 00:05:16,720 lying about how they truly feel about everybody and everything way before social media became 56 00:05:16,800 --> 00:05:21,839 social media. My homeboy, cup Cupbox was telling me about his daughter and 57 00:05:21,879 --> 00:05:28,399 how she keeps getting into it at school because you know that there was a 58 00:05:28,560 --> 00:05:31,079 there was a shooter at l C. Yeah, after the game. After 59 00:05:31,120 --> 00:05:35,079 the game started, they started dumping at the school and my niece was there 60 00:05:35,240 --> 00:05:40,279 and uh, Cupbox daughter was I know a couple of people. Yeah, 61 00:05:43,279 --> 00:05:48,240 he go to Warren but he he be shoot shooting. Yeah, he was 62 00:05:48,240 --> 00:05:58,160 there when she her mental health is now fucked up because her brother died of 63 00:05:58,199 --> 00:06:01,399 gun violence. And she'd be on he said that back to what we're talking 64 00:06:01,439 --> 00:06:06,000 about. He said that she'd be on the online and on the phone talking 65 00:06:06,040 --> 00:06:13,279 crazy and I told him, I said, I think that people today believe 66 00:06:14,160 --> 00:06:19,720 that social media and real life do not coexist. I feel like people comment 67 00:06:19,839 --> 00:06:25,439 and say things and things is just gonna stay there, stay there. I 68 00:06:25,480 --> 00:06:30,759 think the only time she get real, the only time that from my experience, 69 00:06:30,839 --> 00:06:33,959 the only time that social media did not really exist, like real life 70 00:06:33,959 --> 00:06:39,040 and social media didn't exist is black Planet in my space Planet in space because 71 00:06:39,040 --> 00:06:41,480 you can still you were talking to motherfuckers. You didn't know who they was, 72 00:06:41,519 --> 00:06:43,920 where they was from. It wasn't a live video what none of you 73 00:06:44,040 --> 00:06:46,480 still and it was like still being a kid though, like on them pages 74 00:06:46,480 --> 00:06:53,040 because music and you know what I'm saying, you're saying it was more it 75 00:06:53,079 --> 00:06:55,639 was it was childish. Yeah, it was childish, like you can you 76 00:06:55,639 --> 00:07:00,519 can decorate your page and you know what I'm saying, Like that rooms and 77 00:07:00,519 --> 00:07:03,240 didn't know who they was talking. I remember Facebook like at first you had 78 00:07:03,279 --> 00:07:08,000 to be invited to that motherfucker. Yeah. I think a lot of websites 79 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:12,439 are going to get to a point to where, uh, they want you 80 00:07:12,480 --> 00:07:16,439 to use your idea as verification. I know that Patreon has asked for that, 81 00:07:16,839 --> 00:07:20,720 Facebook has asked for that. Facebook and Instagram has asked for that. 82 00:07:20,879 --> 00:07:25,480 And I think a lot of other websites man ship gotter be crazy. They 83 00:07:25,600 --> 00:07:29,560 just try so much ship in this world. I think that that I'm what 84 00:07:29,600 --> 00:07:30,480 do you do? You feel like they should or you should? Would you 85 00:07:30,519 --> 00:07:33,199 would? You know? I mean, I'm just saying, like just everything, 86 00:07:33,319 --> 00:07:40,040 like robots, just all kinds of ship take this ship. Eventually, 87 00:07:40,040 --> 00:07:43,399 bro, there ain't gonna be no jobs for motherfuckers. I feel like we 88 00:07:43,480 --> 00:07:46,720 are the robots, and I think, I mean, hell yeah. And 89 00:07:46,759 --> 00:07:50,800 I got hot during COVID and we was like, yo, we might actually 90 00:07:50,879 --> 00:07:56,000 be the robots. The robots, we are the working machines. Because if 91 00:07:56,000 --> 00:08:01,720 you think about it, like if so let's take money out of the equation, 92 00:08:01,800 --> 00:08:05,120 this is some black mirror ship. So I just was thinking something like 93 00:08:05,160 --> 00:08:07,759 this, just take money out of the you know what I'm saying, if 94 00:08:07,759 --> 00:08:13,360 you take if you take money out of the equation, somebody, what we're 95 00:08:13,399 --> 00:08:18,199 doing is valuable to the higher being rather it be aliens, rather it be 96 00:08:18,240 --> 00:08:22,000 I don't know, whatever you want to call the higher being, the people 97 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:24,879 that are in charge. If you take money out of it and it's not 98 00:08:24,959 --> 00:08:28,879 current and maybe souls or I don't know, I don't know what the currency 99 00:08:30,040 --> 00:08:33,240 is or why or what they want us to actually be doing. I haven't 100 00:08:33,279 --> 00:08:35,639 come. I haven't figured that part out yet. But if you think about 101 00:08:37,159 --> 00:08:43,679 a motherfucker that can self replicate and self heal, like if you humans are 102 00:08:43,759 --> 00:08:50,200 extremely alien like, like if you if you said, Okay, I'm gonna 103 00:08:50,240 --> 00:08:54,159 cut you, I'm at and it's gonna growin. Is gonna hit the younger 104 00:08:54,200 --> 00:08:56,039 you are, the quicker, it's gonna be. The healthier, art the 105 00:08:56,080 --> 00:09:00,639 quicker it's gonna be. But will you put two in the room. They 106 00:09:00,639 --> 00:09:03,519 can replicate it. They can replicate over and over and over and over and 107 00:09:03,519 --> 00:09:05,440 over and over and over and over again. You can, and you can 108 00:09:07,080 --> 00:09:09,559 put fear in them. You can. You can teach them how to be 109 00:09:09,799 --> 00:09:15,600 motherfucking tree choppers or whatever you can do. You can make them be whatever 110 00:09:15,639 --> 00:09:16,559 it is that you want them to be. You can make them kill each 111 00:09:16,559 --> 00:09:20,039 other, you can make them fucking do whatever you want and then just let 112 00:09:20,120 --> 00:09:22,759 them walk freely over. Yeah, I'll say ship, carry on time. 113 00:09:22,799 --> 00:09:26,679 I say women. I always say women aliens because they and men out there. 114 00:09:26,679 --> 00:09:30,120 If you don't have any kids, if you've never seen a woman go 115 00:09:30,159 --> 00:09:35,799 through her alien like, well you got a whole human growing and and do 116 00:09:35,919 --> 00:09:41,279 you bleed for days like that motherfucker is sucking the life outs. That is 117 00:09:41,320 --> 00:09:46,159 crazy, making your ankles fat, your nose big as hell, or heartburn 118 00:09:46,240 --> 00:09:48,519 like a motherfucker. Like just the things that, yeah, it's crazy. 119 00:09:48,879 --> 00:09:52,279 Yeah, and then just having a baby like it's just I saw a video 120 00:09:52,320 --> 00:09:58,200 on Instagram where a guy was saying to his baby mom slash girlfriend. I 121 00:09:58,240 --> 00:10:01,000 don't know if they were still together, but he it was like when she 122 00:10:01,159 --> 00:10:03,840 was pregnant, he didn't want he wasn't attracted to her like that. Something 123 00:10:03,879 --> 00:10:07,679 along those lines that he wasn't attracted to her like that because with the way 124 00:10:07,720 --> 00:10:09,960 that they used to kick, it used to be like friendship ships. So 125 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:13,080 they would go out drink, smoke, and then blah blah blah blah, 126 00:10:13,120 --> 00:10:16,519 couldn't do nothing and they couldn't do none of that, and then she was 127 00:10:16,559 --> 00:10:18,919 like, damn. I felt the exact opposite because we was hanging out still, 128 00:10:20,000 --> 00:10:22,320 We was going instead of drinking, We was going to the beach, 129 00:10:22,360 --> 00:10:24,240 we was taking walks, were doing all of these type of things, and 130 00:10:24,320 --> 00:10:28,759 I felt and I feel like for me it's different because I'm married. But 131 00:10:28,840 --> 00:10:35,720 when my wife was pregnant with Dorian and the twins. I thought she was 132 00:10:35,960 --> 00:10:39,279 beautiful, even though her nose and it was fair. I thought it was 133 00:10:39,320 --> 00:10:43,440 beautiful because you carrying my seed in there. I would do anything for you. 134 00:10:43,519 --> 00:10:48,480 But to hear a man's perspective on a woman carrying your child and you 135 00:10:48,559 --> 00:10:50,120 not wanting to stick dick up in there, it's crazy to me. That's 136 00:10:50,240 --> 00:10:54,600 wild. Yeah, because I'm just definitely wild because now, nigga, what 137 00:10:54,720 --> 00:10:56,879 you did it before that and the Gucci way better now, nigga, So 138 00:10:56,919 --> 00:11:01,960 what you what? You? What? You what you're doing? He's tripping? 139 00:11:01,200 --> 00:11:05,919 Yeah, I think a lot of he's tripping. I had a conversation 140 00:11:07,039 --> 00:11:09,960 with a I had a conversation with a woman, and I told her that 141 00:11:11,120 --> 00:11:22,360 I understand. I understand why baby mamas hate trash baby daddies like going through 142 00:11:22,360 --> 00:11:28,440 a pregnancy by yourself. That's why. That's why that women, you gotta 143 00:11:28,440 --> 00:11:31,279 be more careful about who y'all have sex with because niggas is trash. I'm 144 00:11:31,320 --> 00:11:35,240 just gonna put it. Niggas is just trash. They are trash. I 145 00:11:35,360 --> 00:11:39,600 understand that the world understand that we men are just men could be very, 146 00:11:39,879 --> 00:11:43,200 very selfish and very inconsiderate. Yes, I got that, we can't be 147 00:11:43,320 --> 00:11:48,600 that, But to think that a woman goes through a whole pregnancy with no 148 00:11:48,759 --> 00:11:52,159 help from the dude that knocked her up and then give birth and then come 149 00:11:52,200 --> 00:11:56,919 home and got to be a mom and then start they will postpartum and go 150 00:11:56,960 --> 00:11:58,960 to work and all the type of shit. And then this nigga want to 151 00:11:58,000 --> 00:12:03,159 have just have the baby every other weekend and then you have a baby with 152 00:12:03,240 --> 00:12:09,519 him again your fault? Fuck like that you Yeah, I'm saying that because 153 00:12:09,960 --> 00:12:13,879 no, like, yes, niggas is trash, but these bitches mindsets be 154 00:12:13,960 --> 00:12:18,679 trashed too, Like I'm sorry, Like y'all women put themselves in a lot 155 00:12:18,720 --> 00:12:22,960 of these fucking situations, bro, Like because why And I'm just nothing like 156 00:12:24,240 --> 00:12:30,519 because why? Because my thought process is, if you are that smart, 157 00:12:31,080 --> 00:12:33,919 why did you do it again with the same person, the same person? 158 00:12:35,039 --> 00:12:39,600 But then again, why why did you? I remember I got into it 159 00:12:39,639 --> 00:12:43,360 with a friend of mine and she was calling to me to complain about one 160 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:48,000 of my niggas and I had to listen to it because I felt obligated to 161 00:12:48,240 --> 00:12:54,480 because I am your friend. I've been in that situation more his friend. 162 00:12:54,559 --> 00:12:58,360 So watch what you say, swear to God, don't get too disrespectful. 163 00:12:58,480 --> 00:13:01,759 But letting you, letting you vent, I'm cut you off for fifteen minutes 164 00:13:01,799 --> 00:13:07,919 and thirty seven seconds into this shit, I said, Hey, out of 165 00:13:07,960 --> 00:13:13,679 all of the you have been dating since you were sixteen, you are now 166 00:13:13,799 --> 00:13:16,320 thirty four, thirty four, and you still wing through the same shit. 167 00:13:16,480 --> 00:13:24,120 Not even that, but why did you throw away everything you learned about niggas 168 00:13:24,440 --> 00:13:28,000 when you started fucking with this one, regardless if this is my nigga or 169 00:13:28,000 --> 00:13:31,120 not. Why did you allow yourself to be as dumb as you were or 170 00:13:31,120 --> 00:13:35,639 as dumb as you are when it came to him QUI because I thought he 171 00:13:35,679 --> 00:13:41,080 would be. I see, why are you thinking you should have used the 172 00:13:41,159 --> 00:13:48,240 information that you have gathered from the collection of niggas, like for real? 173 00:13:48,519 --> 00:13:52,919 Like why did you allow? And then a lot of women do that? 174 00:13:52,039 --> 00:13:58,879 But then my question to you is do you feel like men? Do you 175 00:13:58,919 --> 00:14:03,639 feel like men go through the same things that women go through when it comes 176 00:14:03,639 --> 00:14:11,080 to dating as far as being played manipulated? We can't. They can't. 177 00:14:11,080 --> 00:14:13,960 They can't. They can't get us pregnant and dash on us. No, 178 00:14:15,039 --> 00:14:18,240 they can't do that. They death can't do that, but they play all 179 00:14:18,360 --> 00:14:24,919 day. They use niggas, they use niggas, use them like what I've 180 00:14:24,960 --> 00:14:28,840 never been used. I haven't, But I can't speak on that. I 181 00:14:28,919 --> 00:14:31,360 haven't because I'm not going I'm not going to allow it. But I feel 182 00:14:31,360 --> 00:14:35,519 like if you are a man, a female with death trying to play you, 183 00:14:35,559 --> 00:14:37,360 but if she gets to play you, then you should be playing. 184 00:14:37,440 --> 00:14:39,600 Yeah, you should be playing. That's why it's gumps out here, for 185 00:14:39,679 --> 00:14:41,320 sure. There's a lot of gumps out here that fall for that ship, 186 00:14:41,960 --> 00:14:46,480 the free dates, the the just doing ship for a motherfucker, and they're 187 00:14:46,519 --> 00:14:50,919 really not fucking with you. Like That's why I'm but who, But who's 188 00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:56,919 whose responsibility is it to when it comes to dating? I guess my question 189 00:14:58,120 --> 00:15:07,120 is who's responsibility is to protect themselves? Like if somebody is if the way 190 00:15:07,159 --> 00:15:11,000 the world's set up today both sizes, is them trying to protect themselves, 191 00:15:11,039 --> 00:15:13,919 That's probably why it's just so fucked up. There's no trust out here at 192 00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:20,960 all. So you know, it's a very interesting I'm trying to word, 193 00:15:20,240 --> 00:15:24,360 I've never been I've never really been lost for words like That's why you see 194 00:15:24,360 --> 00:15:28,759 a lot of people going back to their old things because they're just more comfortable, 195 00:15:28,840 --> 00:15:31,240 like, yeah, I mean we've been through so much, you might 196 00:15:31,240 --> 00:15:33,000 as well. Shitna try to fix this ship, work the ship out type 197 00:15:33,000 --> 00:15:35,440 shit. I know you, you know me. You know what I'm saying. 198 00:15:35,679 --> 00:15:41,759 The starting over things, Yeah this is they're not on that. But 199 00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:46,519 I don't know, man, relationships, It's just it's different. It's different 200 00:15:46,559 --> 00:15:52,360 now forge all that ship. You're ready for Christmas? Yeah, you're ready 201 00:15:52,399 --> 00:15:54,480 for You're ready for Christmas or you're ready for Christmas to be over. I'm 202 00:15:54,519 --> 00:15:58,720 ready for Christmas. I like seeing the kids open the ship. I remember 203 00:15:58,720 --> 00:16:00,799 how I used to feel on christs It used to be my favorite. Dear 204 00:16:02,840 --> 00:16:06,440 bitch ass nigga, bitch ass niggas, that's me. You didn't come get 205 00:16:06,440 --> 00:16:10,039 your cookies. That's how I feel about Christmas. You not real. I 206 00:16:10,080 --> 00:16:12,279 stayed up all night to watch you come through the chimney and you never came. 207 00:16:12,679 --> 00:16:15,559 That's how I feel about Christmas. I'm trying to change. I'm trying 208 00:16:15,559 --> 00:16:19,759 to change, actually trying to change how I feel about Christmas because I have 209 00:16:19,840 --> 00:16:26,080 kids now, but I just feel like me, I never really had a 210 00:16:26,120 --> 00:16:32,600 great Christmas, not one, so now so I feel like fuck now now 211 00:16:32,639 --> 00:16:36,480 I'm an adult, and now it's not the focus is on my children. 212 00:16:36,480 --> 00:16:41,320 But I never really got my Christmas. I need, I need my Christmas. 213 00:16:41,720 --> 00:16:45,080 So I guess I'm I guess I'm I'm guess I'm hating my kids because 214 00:16:45,080 --> 00:16:49,960 the motherfuckers be they gonna be happy. Bro, they get everything like they 215 00:16:51,000 --> 00:16:53,720 mam must be only too. So shout out to the good mind the families. 216 00:16:53,960 --> 00:16:56,440 Yeah, shout out to the good mind. Women be giving good ass 217 00:16:56,440 --> 00:17:00,759 presents. Women. Women are good up, Bro, A good woman is 218 00:17:00,799 --> 00:17:04,759 good. I'm happy none of that miserable ship in my life. Bro. 219 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:10,519 I thank God for that all the time, like she could be worse. 220 00:17:11,519 --> 00:17:17,880 I have. I have moments, but just like miserable moments, frustrated moments, 221 00:17:18,119 --> 00:17:22,880 frustrated moments with the baby mamas. But other than that, they do 222 00:17:22,039 --> 00:17:27,200 my dogs. I feel like I'm just so grateful that I don't have the 223 00:17:27,240 --> 00:17:33,839 baby mamas that that some people got. Yes, yes, boy, some 224 00:17:33,880 --> 00:17:38,240 of these baby mamas are flucked, and I thank God that my baby mamas 225 00:17:38,480 --> 00:17:45,119 they always there, but they always fluck though, Like I'm sure, I'm 226 00:17:45,119 --> 00:17:47,599 sure. I used to look at some people mamas and their mamas used to 227 00:17:47,640 --> 00:17:53,480 be on bullshit. It ain't just start. You're a date of the girl 228 00:17:53,519 --> 00:17:57,519 with a fluck bob or messed with a girl with a girl with a fluck 229 00:17:57,599 --> 00:18:03,480 mom. Nah. Not not all the ones, nah, any of the 230 00:18:03,480 --> 00:18:10,359 ones that I was serious with. Nah cool, I ain't if I ain't 231 00:18:11,079 --> 00:18:15,079 like that, we were just fucking. I ain't mean Chibama didn't want to 232 00:18:15,119 --> 00:18:18,599 make got a question, but I don't know how to word it without signing 233 00:18:18,599 --> 00:18:26,519 and sensitive. But here we go. Would I was dating a girl and 234 00:18:26,559 --> 00:18:33,839 her mom's mental health was awful, like months of depressive states, like in 235 00:18:33,880 --> 00:18:37,079 the bed for months weeks at a time. It's awful. It's awful ship, 236 00:18:38,599 --> 00:18:42,839 And unconsciously I made the decision that I would never take her serious because 237 00:18:42,839 --> 00:18:45,839 of that, because I felt like, you feel like it's gonna run for 238 00:18:45,880 --> 00:18:51,000 her one thousand, especially if you're around that ship all the time. It 239 00:18:51,119 --> 00:18:56,319 might one Oh man, I'm cool. I don't. Some people don't even 240 00:18:56,319 --> 00:19:02,119 realize that they are the draining friend. Like I'll be like, bro, 241 00:19:02,640 --> 00:19:04,599 sometimes I don't even ask my phone. I swear I'm sorry, but I 242 00:19:04,640 --> 00:19:08,640 know who I know because you're about to call him with something, because you 243 00:19:08,680 --> 00:19:14,440 only called me with something with a story or something. I hear that ship. 244 00:19:14,519 --> 00:19:18,079 Bro, God damn, always something the same ship. You just gonna 245 00:19:18,119 --> 00:19:21,759 keep going on with the ship. I'll be like, bruh, my grandma 246 00:19:21,839 --> 00:19:23,240 told me this ship in two thousand and nine. I'll never forget it. 247 00:19:23,319 --> 00:19:26,279 I was like, man, I just feel like this is when I was 248 00:19:26,279 --> 00:19:29,200 complaining about everything. Life was just trash. I was like, man, 249 00:19:29,240 --> 00:19:32,400 I just feel like y'all don't give a fuck. So I just don't feel 250 00:19:32,440 --> 00:19:33,559 like She said, well, baby, you know, it's out of sight, 251 00:19:33,559 --> 00:19:36,720 out of mind. And I didn't want to hear that. And I 252 00:19:36,720 --> 00:19:38,519 said, what, I feel like I'm drowning and I don't feel like y'all 253 00:19:38,519 --> 00:19:41,680 ever. I don't even feel like y'are trying to really save me. She 254 00:19:41,720 --> 00:19:44,880 said, we can't save you. We y'all drowning. I said, oh, 255 00:19:45,240 --> 00:19:48,160 oh, oh oh. That changed mind. You're going through it too, 256 00:19:48,279 --> 00:19:52,200 that's and that and that changed my whole That line right there just made 257 00:19:52,240 --> 00:19:56,359 me stop venting to people like that. It made me because it was like, 258 00:19:56,480 --> 00:20:00,880 oh, everybody's looking for a life saver right now. Everybody. Everybody 259 00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:03,640 is looking for somebody to throw something in the water and help them. Saying 260 00:20:03,759 --> 00:20:07,279 rather that be an extra few hundred dollars a week, of extra few hundred 261 00:20:07,279 --> 00:20:10,000 dollars a month, rather it be more hours of the job. Everybody try 262 00:20:10,039 --> 00:20:12,359 to stay afloat everybody trying to stay said. And that's back then, so 263 00:20:12,440 --> 00:20:17,400 especially now now, it's crazy. Everything so fucking hot. I bought these 264 00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:25,000 mother fucking Jordan's yesterday. Then business was two forty six. I'm so hurt. 265 00:20:25,079 --> 00:20:27,880 I'm happy because I really wanted them. It's my birthday gift to me. 266 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:33,240 Yeah, so, but shit, to forty six is crazy When I 267 00:20:33,319 --> 00:20:40,880 say, god, damn, what the fuck? Last year, it's been 268 00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:42,720 buying Jordan's feet your whole life. I don't bomb like I used to, 269 00:20:42,759 --> 00:20:48,359 though now if I really want them, your feet stopping. I'm ten and 270 00:20:48,400 --> 00:20:53,480 a half, maybe eleven, depending on the shoe. So you got shoes 271 00:20:53,480 --> 00:20:59,400 from when you was nigga eighteen? Nah, when I was in high school, 272 00:20:59,400 --> 00:21:02,519 I think I was like a nine nine and a half. You wasn't 273 00:21:02,559 --> 00:21:07,720 eighteen in high school. I was, well, I graduated. You might 274 00:21:07,759 --> 00:21:11,839 know you probably seventeen eighteen. Yeah, I was eighteen. No, I 275 00:21:11,839 --> 00:21:15,200 probably was seventeen. I think I turned eighteen when I was so even wearing 276 00:21:15,240 --> 00:21:21,519 the same side shoe for maybe what what do you think since probably two thousand 277 00:21:22,039 --> 00:21:26,839 nine ten, so you still so you still have shoes from there? Nah, 278 00:21:26,920 --> 00:21:30,640 My nephews used to come take ship and put my ship on when I 279 00:21:30,720 --> 00:21:34,319 was at school and come back and fucking ship up. I'm still mad about 280 00:21:34,359 --> 00:21:38,240 some shit they fucked up. I'll be man, Why you make me think 281 00:21:38,279 --> 00:21:44,200 about that ship. I'm pissed they fucked some ship up of mine. Yeah, 282 00:21:44,319 --> 00:21:45,519 I mean, try to say the game. I know I did, 283 00:21:45,640 --> 00:21:49,079 but damn you know you just come back, mo fucker you just seeing motherfucker 284 00:21:49,079 --> 00:21:52,920 you like column Is that you expected to put that ship on? Yeah? 285 00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:56,160 You just looking Nah, motherfucker come over and you just looking like, damn 286 00:21:56,160 --> 00:21:59,839 it, looking like my motherfucking shoes, my pants, You got my whole 287 00:22:00,160 --> 00:22:03,519 fucking bro What the fuck? They know? And they know and they know, 288 00:22:03,680 --> 00:22:07,559 and they like, I just was worrying, I'm gonna throw you something, 289 00:22:07,559 --> 00:22:10,400 and you just looking like, nigga, you ain't gonna throw me ship. 290 00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:15,400 I might throw these hands. Bitch for my mom about the shot I 291 00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:18,880 never had that. I never had that, I never had the older they 292 00:22:18,920 --> 00:22:22,480 got boy, and they then they got my size motherfucking ship. Start coming 293 00:22:22,519 --> 00:22:26,480 up, missing us to go and visit your mom and come up, shout. 294 00:22:27,079 --> 00:22:30,079 Used to be talking to my mom on the phone. Yeah, telling 295 00:22:30,079 --> 00:22:33,880 them touch ship. Put a lock on that motherfucking door. Hear me, 296 00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:37,440 don't touch nothing. You still got some of the games from back in the 297 00:22:37,519 --> 00:22:41,960 day. I mean I got Xbox. You know what I'm saying, like 298 00:22:41,079 --> 00:22:44,880 sixty four and Ship. No, I don't got no ship. What happened 299 00:22:44,920 --> 00:22:48,519 to it? Ain't no telling. Probably got it. I know my Xbox 300 00:22:48,559 --> 00:22:53,119 ones and all that ship. I took that ship shot. I wasn't playing 301 00:22:53,119 --> 00:22:56,440 that ship a moment. I got the new Xbox. What game are you 302 00:22:56,519 --> 00:22:59,880 playing? Two K? Call of Duty? Waiting for that grand there? 303 00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:03,160 I don't come out. Twenty twenty five, they got us fucked. That 304 00:23:03,200 --> 00:23:07,680 motherfucker is selling from Instagram. Put it on mother. Motherfucker said, uh, 305 00:23:07,599 --> 00:23:10,599 all about that grand theft. Follow that, Nigga said, I ain't. 306 00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:14,039 I'm gonna stop selling drugs. And Nigga said, I'm gonna stay out 307 00:23:14,079 --> 00:23:18,079 the street. I'm out. I'm gonna stop eat McDonald's and win these I'm 308 00:23:18,079 --> 00:23:21,960 about to go and get some broccolin for what they said. They try to 309 00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:30,039 live twenty five, I don't know where to all about that, all about 310 00:23:30,039 --> 00:23:37,279 that that crazy bro that ship looked crazy and people, and people ain't noticed 311 00:23:37,319 --> 00:23:40,440 every if you look at the trailer, every scene that they had, like 312 00:23:40,519 --> 00:23:44,599 from the from the motherfucking police or whatever, it is a control pulling out 313 00:23:44,599 --> 00:23:48,880 the gators all Florida ship, this ship that happened, like that really happened. 314 00:23:48,920 --> 00:23:52,799 They just put it in the game. What's crazy is that I didn't 315 00:23:52,880 --> 00:23:56,720 know. I haven't played. Uh, I haven't played Grand Theft Fotos since 316 00:23:57,599 --> 00:24:00,319 I mean, five is still ship. Motherfucker is still playing. I know, 317 00:24:00,359 --> 00:24:03,119 but I ain't play since three. Yeah, five, I didn't play, 318 00:24:03,200 --> 00:24:06,680 so I didn't Plaything Andres, I didn't play Vice City. I didn't 319 00:24:06,680 --> 00:24:11,160 play none of that. So we just playing. We was playing Summer of 320 00:24:11,240 --> 00:24:15,279 O three and then once the what I think Vice City came after that. 321 00:24:15,519 --> 00:24:18,119 I didn't play Vice City, but I didn't know that niggas was still playing 322 00:24:18,279 --> 00:24:22,960 five boy as ship. They they've been updating that month. Bro. That 323 00:24:23,039 --> 00:24:27,079 ship you can you can have we houses, you can have clubs, you 324 00:24:27,079 --> 00:24:30,720 can have banks, you can own all that ship and do all the world's 325 00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:33,519 intertwine. It's people, it's it's online. So people everywhere, so so 326 00:24:33,599 --> 00:24:37,680 I can't it be little white dots on there. There'll be other motherfuckers. 327 00:24:37,839 --> 00:24:41,359 I stopped playing that ship because you couldn't never do ship because niggas be just 328 00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:45,640 coming trying to kill you. Bro. Like as soon as they see there, 329 00:24:45,759 --> 00:24:48,079 they coming to kill you. Bro, it's over like or you gotta 330 00:24:48,160 --> 00:24:51,400 kill them. I remember what fucking got me on there one time. I'm 331 00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:53,559 just on there playing with myself and ship, and motherfucker like, hey, 332 00:24:53,839 --> 00:24:57,599 you and licoln talking like shit, follow me. I don't follow this nigga, 333 00:24:57,640 --> 00:25:00,480 Bro, I'm just following this nigga. But they turned the corner. 334 00:25:00,519 --> 00:25:06,359 It's a gang. Ain't gonna smoked me. They take your money off kind 335 00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:08,359 of ship. But I'm like, hell, now, what do you respond 336 00:25:08,400 --> 00:25:14,599 at the hospital? What if you get locked up when you respond and be 337 00:25:14,759 --> 00:25:19,279 jail? What? Bro? And then you got people like let's start their 338 00:25:19,319 --> 00:25:22,160 own little ship now I want to play the ship. They ship fun in 339 00:25:22,279 --> 00:25:26,160 a bit? What is it? It's basically like Grand Theft Auto, but 340 00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:32,160 it's it's they stream like his own stream type ship. But it's the Grand 341 00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:34,200 Theft follow though, But it's everything on there, really the bit they got 342 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:40,359 that's crazyzy my cleric goes the chargers like everything they have is real life. 343 00:25:40,400 --> 00:25:44,440 Ship you go to jail on there. I wish that nigga kept trying to 344 00:25:44,440 --> 00:25:48,240 break out. I saw a video he said five million, somebody can get 345 00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:51,480 me like all that ship, bro, Like it's crazy. When I saw 346 00:25:51,519 --> 00:25:55,039 the Grand Theft auto trailer, I was just like, this is had a 347 00:25:55,079 --> 00:25:57,720 bitch on the car tworking. If if they make it to where you put 348 00:25:57,799 --> 00:26:02,319 VR on, it's over. If you could put a vo if you could 349 00:26:02,319 --> 00:26:07,160 put a VR headset on and Grand thefto six a g t A six, 350 00:26:07,160 --> 00:26:08,440 if you put it, if you could put a v VR head set on 351 00:26:08,480 --> 00:26:12,720 to where you are that person? You are that person niggas has never come 352 00:26:12,759 --> 00:26:15,359 out the house, bro, never coming out. Never come at the house, 353 00:26:15,400 --> 00:26:18,839 bro never They never come out the house because it's it's hard to get 354 00:26:18,880 --> 00:26:21,319 motherfuckers out of the house. Now they need to do that with motherfucker two 355 00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:26,440 K with my player. Nah, it's too difficult. That shipped them to 356 00:26:26,599 --> 00:26:29,440 be hard on a bitch. How would they would they make a ball? 357 00:26:30,720 --> 00:26:33,160 They can make the ball and everything, the controllers are everything in the same. 358 00:26:33,599 --> 00:26:37,839 It probably would be hard to play like that. Though, yeah, 359 00:26:37,839 --> 00:26:40,839 because you have to play with the I guess you. I don't know, 360 00:26:41,119 --> 00:26:42,400 it just had to be you have to play by yourself. You wouldn't be 361 00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:45,799 able to play with teams like that because you, I don't know, Yeah, 362 00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:49,440 maybe you could TV. The only game I've been playing lately is a 363 00:26:49,839 --> 00:26:55,319 m K one. I told myself that I was I wasn't allowing to play 364 00:26:55,319 --> 00:26:59,440 more to combat when I played one hard it is spider Man, so I 365 00:26:59,440 --> 00:27:03,680 bought. I bought MK eleven right before it was on sale because the MK 366 00:27:03,759 --> 00:27:07,920 one was coming out. And then, uh, I got really good. 367 00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:11,359 I ain't say I got really good. I got good enough that I would 368 00:27:11,400 --> 00:27:14,680 beat motherfuckers if if I played them in person. But I try to play 369 00:27:14,680 --> 00:27:22,400 online, and the mother new online online anything. If you're playing rank motherfuckers 370 00:27:22,480 --> 00:27:26,079 is over. Then mother, that motherfucker beat me so fast. Pause that 371 00:27:26,160 --> 00:27:30,559 mother. And they was sitting And what's crazy is I could feel what they 372 00:27:30,559 --> 00:27:36,119 were thinking as they was beating my ass because I was throwing ship and they 373 00:27:36,240 --> 00:27:40,119 was like they was like counting and then they and then they stood back, 374 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:44,079 and I guess they was waiting on me to swing. But then I was 375 00:27:44,119 --> 00:27:48,079 too scared because everything I did, they was bro. That was the first 376 00:27:48,119 --> 00:27:52,079 and last time I ever played online. Now I'm not playing you motherfuckers, 377 00:27:52,079 --> 00:27:59,559 and nothing online online. Motherfuckers be cheating, bro. The last time I 378 00:27:59,559 --> 00:28:03,799 played the fucking Madden Online, a motherfucker hit me with a direct snap to 379 00:28:03,920 --> 00:28:08,880 the receiver. Motherfucker said hunt and the receiver had the ball broke one tackle 380 00:28:08,920 --> 00:28:12,119 score. I cut that ship out. What the fuck was that? It 381 00:28:12,160 --> 00:28:18,680 wasn't a good like I'm nothing. Yeah, I'll be playing the storyline for 382 00:28:18,759 --> 00:28:21,839 more m K one. I know this is some nerve talk, but that 383 00:28:21,880 --> 00:28:25,119 ships so far. I'm captivated by this motherfucking story, bro, And they 384 00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:29,079 made it longer because I used to be a gamer. I used to play 385 00:28:29,119 --> 00:28:33,559 all kinds of games like that, like metal Gear, Solids, all that 386 00:28:33,599 --> 00:28:37,599 type of ship, Max Payne, sh me all. I used to play 387 00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:41,240 like all the game games. Now, no, just give me sports, 388 00:28:41,680 --> 00:28:44,880 no fighting. I want to fight. I still play my old boxing game. 389 00:28:45,440 --> 00:28:48,880 I played two K and shoot and give me m K one. I'm 390 00:28:48,920 --> 00:28:52,960 on that motherfucker. And then when I beat that, I don't know what 391 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:56,279 I'm gonna do because I don't want to. I don't want to. I 392 00:28:56,319 --> 00:29:00,440 don't want to play anything else, I don't want to. I don't want 393 00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:03,279 to play without a storyline. I need a storyline. I like storyline. 394 00:29:03,279 --> 00:29:04,319 Game, Yeah, I need I need a storyline. So I wish more 395 00:29:04,359 --> 00:29:11,599 to comebat to come out with this fire ass battling storyline joint. But mm 396 00:29:11,640 --> 00:29:17,039 hmmm, speaking of niggas getting punched, Charleston White got punched up on stage. 397 00:29:18,079 --> 00:29:21,799 How I feel about that? I mean, I fuck with Charleston man, 398 00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:25,400 I really do, like I fuck with him a little more than I 399 00:29:25,519 --> 00:29:30,640 used to. But I mean, you gotta come in like motherfuckers be starting 400 00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:34,799 ship and then try to it's frail like he always starting ship and then try 401 00:29:34,839 --> 00:29:37,559 to play the victim type ship. That's what I don't like. I love 402 00:29:37,599 --> 00:29:41,839 it, no, because then we get mad at other motherfuckers that do it. 403 00:29:42,680 --> 00:29:51,000 We do women the fuck or whoever like Karen's and ship you know what? 404 00:29:51,519 --> 00:29:53,519 Like yeah that, but don't start shipping. And then when the mother 405 00:29:53,559 --> 00:29:56,799 fucker get on your ass, you want to try to like you going to 406 00:29:56,839 --> 00:30:00,559 jail now, no or not? This nigga threw a planet. The niggahad 407 00:30:00,519 --> 00:30:03,279 I got a green thumb. I want to try to harm you. I'm 408 00:30:03,279 --> 00:30:07,480 trying to take myself trying to knock his head with that microphone. You know, 409 00:30:07,599 --> 00:30:12,880 I like Charleston White because he takes some real ship, though sometimes most 410 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:15,440 of the ship the time, most of the time, I feel like I 411 00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:19,720 connect with the ship because I was watching Boys in the Hood. I started 412 00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:22,759 watching Boys in the Hood the other day. I swear it's gonna make sense, 413 00:30:23,319 --> 00:30:30,160 and for the first time I identified with Trey, but not Trey who's 414 00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:33,480 kimming good and the junior's characters. Trey, I find like that was the 415 00:30:33,599 --> 00:30:37,799 character. Like I know that, I know the movie is from his point 416 00:30:37,839 --> 00:30:41,839 of view. I understand that, but it didn't dawn on me that we 417 00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:47,160 are like that, like we in the we in the trenches, but our 418 00:30:47,319 --> 00:30:52,279 parents are way different from y'all parents. The ship that everybody's parents was different. 419 00:30:52,319 --> 00:30:57,599 Everybody's parents was different. And the nigga's parents who either was on drugs 420 00:30:59,000 --> 00:31:04,160 or or just didn't give before then, like Doboy Machine Bro, I just 421 00:31:04,279 --> 00:31:11,000 was thinking about ya. Tr houses here. It was a nigga that stayed 422 00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:15,559 here and he ended up going to jail for running somebody over Jerome. I 423 00:31:15,599 --> 00:31:21,160 was thinking about him. I was I started just thinking about thinking about think 424 00:31:21,599 --> 00:31:22,640 like that all time. I would think about all the niggas from him. 425 00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:26,519 I was like, damn, like we all in the same environment, really, 426 00:31:26,640 --> 00:31:30,920 Arthur, where the funk was his mama? Do you remember Arthur? 427 00:31:30,599 --> 00:31:36,839 He used to man, I know I used to steal around you talking about 428 00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:38,680 but I swear to guy, can't picture with that name. Bro. He 429 00:31:38,839 --> 00:31:45,720 was all talking menace to society, but he was so bro. He was. 430 00:31:45,119 --> 00:31:48,960 He used to steal cars and just go on high speed chases through the 431 00:31:48,000 --> 00:31:52,359 neighborhood and ship. And I asked somebody about it. It was like, 432 00:31:52,440 --> 00:31:56,799 yeah, he got killed. I mean, I will figure that Corey Matthew 433 00:31:57,359 --> 00:32:00,559 rest in peace, Matthew. Bro. I was thinking in my head like, 434 00:32:00,759 --> 00:32:05,920 bro, savage, Bro, we lost a lot of motherfuckers, Bro, 435 00:32:06,039 --> 00:32:08,880 And we was outside playing at the same park, smoking the same weed, 436 00:32:09,000 --> 00:32:14,279 chasing the same girls, going to the same school. But your environment 437 00:32:14,359 --> 00:32:19,759 inside of this environment was totally fucking different. And people parents was deaf different. 438 00:32:19,799 --> 00:32:22,680 Bro, they was fucking I cut that shit off so goddamn fast because 439 00:32:22,039 --> 00:32:24,839 I was like, oh no, no, no, And it's crazy, 440 00:32:24,920 --> 00:32:29,119 Like if you like thinking about it now, looking at the parents, you 441 00:32:29,119 --> 00:32:35,119 can see why certain people was the way they was one thousand percent, brocause 442 00:32:35,119 --> 00:32:37,839 I was thinking about Uh, I hate to say people's names because I don't 443 00:32:37,839 --> 00:32:40,599 know they listened or not. Really don't want to be disrespectful like Yonny and 444 00:32:40,599 --> 00:32:45,240 them. They situation like just to see them come out of that, and 445 00:32:45,279 --> 00:32:51,440 then they sister die giving birth, Bro, I was like, what the 446 00:32:51,480 --> 00:32:53,200 old girl he used to have to fucking I know this how you know we 447 00:32:53,200 --> 00:32:57,759 really know each other? Old girl used to have a house party, bro, 448 00:32:59,079 --> 00:33:02,880 or the light skinned girl who used to hang out with U. But 449 00:33:04,039 --> 00:33:08,640 Brandy they got burned up in the car Brandy, Yeah, yeah, yeah, 450 00:33:08,640 --> 00:33:12,279 I remember. I remember that whole situation. Bro. I'm thinking in 451 00:33:12,279 --> 00:33:16,039 my head, like, Bro, we really we should be going to therapy. 452 00:33:16,359 --> 00:33:21,839 I've been I've been actually thinking about it, like God damn, Bro, 453 00:33:22,039 --> 00:33:24,039 Like we just we just went through the ship and was like, Oh, 454 00:33:24,119 --> 00:33:29,440 that's just growing up in the hood, like my brother being killed, 455 00:33:29,640 --> 00:33:32,160 like all that shit. I forgot. That was my first funeral I ever 456 00:33:32,200 --> 00:33:35,880 went to. I didn't even know how that shit worked, you know what 457 00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:40,079 I'm saying, Like, we walked in there and all I know is nineteen 458 00:33:40,359 --> 00:33:44,519 two thousand and one, he got killed in Georgia. Remember that so it 459 00:33:44,559 --> 00:33:47,160 was. And the ship was crazy because me and Jamar was just leaving Ma 460 00:33:47,279 --> 00:33:52,759 Cho Cred and We're getting chased by that child and were playing you know what 461 00:33:52,759 --> 00:33:53,920 I'm saying, We running the house, We running the house, laughing and 462 00:33:53,920 --> 00:33:57,880 ship and I'm and my mom and right there when they tell me he just 463 00:33:57,920 --> 00:34:00,119 got shot. I remember that. So it was just like vividly. But 464 00:34:00,160 --> 00:34:04,319 it was like because you had to go down there. Nah nah, they 465 00:34:04,599 --> 00:34:07,079 shipped them here. Okay, they had the funeral here and ship, but 466 00:34:07,119 --> 00:34:09,800 it was just crazy, like no, Jennika went down there, yeah, 467 00:34:10,360 --> 00:34:14,639 lived, she lived there here, so yeah, the ship was That ship 468 00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:15,719 was crazy. That was the first one I ever went to though, so 469 00:34:16,639 --> 00:34:20,880 and I feel like I've been fucked up ever since for real though Low was 470 00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:24,920 the keys when I feel like I didn't really want I didn't. This ain't 471 00:34:24,920 --> 00:34:30,320 even on the fucking docket. But we went to Derek's mom passed and she 472 00:34:30,360 --> 00:34:36,079 had they had the funeral and Gary. Yeah, they had the funeral and 473 00:34:36,119 --> 00:34:39,679 Gary and I had. The last time I was there was for a funeral, 474 00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:44,840 was for Grandma for a mama, And that was the last time I 475 00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:47,800 had seen a lot of niggas. So that whole process kind of put me 476 00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:54,639 in a in a weird space because now Misha's mom's house is the funeral house. 477 00:34:55,719 --> 00:34:59,440 So the last time I was there was for a funeral. Then I 478 00:34:59,480 --> 00:35:04,880 went back for a funeral. But this time I'm older and more emotional, 479 00:35:05,480 --> 00:35:09,840 So we're gonna be more emotional life. So we're driving through We're driving through 480 00:35:09,880 --> 00:35:15,119 Gary, and I'm like, why the fuck do y'all still live here? 481 00:35:15,159 --> 00:35:19,760 Bro? Why do y'all still why do y'all still come here? I just 482 00:35:19,960 --> 00:35:27,239 was saying this because every every Gary motherfucker I know still drives to Gary every 483 00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:30,880 weekend or every other weekend. And I'd be like, there's no way. 484 00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:35,400 I was me and me, there's no way. He had a conversation about 485 00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:37,199 going there like that, and we was like, why the fuck did our 486 00:35:37,239 --> 00:35:43,559 parents, Donna and my mama moved us from Gary and then sent us back 487 00:35:43,679 --> 00:35:46,480 every fucking summer? What the fun? This is not where I want to 488 00:35:46,519 --> 00:35:49,719 be for the summer, not even but why the fun would you move us 489 00:35:49,719 --> 00:35:53,639 away from this ghetto ass back every summer every summer? Bro? What? 490 00:35:55,039 --> 00:35:59,360 But no, I don't want to be here in the summer, Like we 491 00:35:59,400 --> 00:36:04,239 only get the had fun in the living room. That's swear to God. 492 00:36:04,719 --> 00:36:08,960 I swear to God. Damn, I'm not going nowhere. The last time, 493 00:36:09,079 --> 00:36:15,400 the last summer that I spent the Geary, my cousin Bro, his 494 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:21,719 his daddy died. Bro. His daddy died the year prior got shot, 495 00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:28,639 died in the car. His little brother died the same exact way, in 496 00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:32,360 the same exact neighborhood. Bro got shot and died in a fucking car. 497 00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:37,679 And I'm there they telling him this shit, and it didn't He was already 498 00:36:37,679 --> 00:36:42,639 fucked up from his daddy, so this shit didn't really process to him. 499 00:36:42,639 --> 00:36:45,599 So I'm near the whole summer. At the end of the summer, Shorty 500 00:36:45,639 --> 00:36:49,519 down the street, come down, come down and say yo, her and 501 00:36:49,519 --> 00:36:52,119 her mama go down and say yo, she pregnant. And then I'm like, 502 00:36:52,159 --> 00:36:54,559 all right, damn, this is crazy because he's two or three years 503 00:36:54,559 --> 00:36:58,039 younger than me. I get home. They said, oh, the girl 504 00:36:58,079 --> 00:37:00,000 around the corner it's pregnant too, So he got two kids, Damn, 505 00:37:00,239 --> 00:37:06,760 Bro. A week apart today a week I said, this type of environment 506 00:37:06,880 --> 00:37:10,440 is that God? Uh No, that's called no condoms. I don't know 507 00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:15,719 what the fuck you lose to people, then you gain no, that's our 508 00:37:15,760 --> 00:37:19,800 situation. So HER's dad and sister died and then we had the twins right 509 00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:22,559 after that she was pregnant. But I feel like, I feel like, 510 00:37:22,679 --> 00:37:36,599 how the fuck do we expect people to overcome trauma like that? Like crazy? 511 00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:42,920 Like because some people really go through some ship being right, being all 512 00:37:43,000 --> 00:37:49,199 kinds of ship growing up and y'all and motherfuckers be expecting to just be Okay, 513 00:37:49,320 --> 00:37:51,840 I'm listening to this book called The Body Keeps the Score shout out the 514 00:37:51,840 --> 00:37:54,199 cupbox of telling me to read it, and it was basically saying it's basically 515 00:37:54,480 --> 00:37:58,840 about trauma and how people deal with trauma, and they were and it got 516 00:37:58,880 --> 00:38:07,320 on the subject that people and their teachers and how the teacher might unknowingly remind 517 00:38:07,559 --> 00:38:15,119 a victim of their the past or or the person that does the harming. 518 00:38:15,400 --> 00:38:19,119 So you go to school, abuser, Yeah, the abuser dan that it's 519 00:38:19,119 --> 00:38:22,880 crazy. You go to school and your teacher has the same might wear the 520 00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:29,679 same cologne or the same perfume, and have the same manner hythms and remind 521 00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:32,480 you of your abuser, and now you're acting out because you're scared, Like 522 00:38:32,679 --> 00:38:37,280 the motherfucker might come behind you and grab your shoulders, so now you're doing 523 00:38:36,599 --> 00:38:39,159 all I said. Oh, I didn't even fucking think of none of this 524 00:38:39,159 --> 00:38:44,639 ship, bro, because it was definitely some some crazy ass kids in fucking 525 00:38:44,679 --> 00:38:49,000 school when I was in Gary that was fucking going crazy, bro. And 526 00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:53,639 I'm thinking in my head if niggas daddy's in jail, mama's on drugs, 527 00:38:53,760 --> 00:38:58,719 or fucking got random niggas in and out of the house and ship, it's 528 00:38:58,760 --> 00:39:02,079 just bro. I don't know how we got on this subject, but when 529 00:39:02,079 --> 00:39:07,119 you think about these are the people out here on Tinder, on Facebook, 530 00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:12,440 on Instagram leaving like yo, I don't even really want to even have I 531 00:39:12,480 --> 00:39:15,880 don't even want to you not when I'm leaving comments on Instagram, I'm not 532 00:39:15,960 --> 00:39:22,679 even thinking that a fucking victim might be reading this ship and interpreting what I'm 533 00:39:22,679 --> 00:39:24,320 saying what I'm saying and then start feeling some type of and then now they 534 00:39:24,480 --> 00:39:27,920 now they coming at me, and now they saying and this, I'm like, 535 00:39:28,239 --> 00:39:30,800 yeah, because you see it like some comments, I'll just be reading 536 00:39:30,800 --> 00:39:31,920 and I'll be like, damn, why they just I'd be like, how 537 00:39:31,960 --> 00:39:36,000 the fuck did you get there from? That what what it was you even 538 00:39:36,079 --> 00:39:39,440 thinking about? You're the problem. See you're you're like, it'll be something 539 00:39:39,440 --> 00:39:45,920 about whatever it is. And then somebody had come comment feeling some type of 540 00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:50,039 way about what was said, and then they not even really reading what the 541 00:39:50,039 --> 00:39:53,960 fuck was saying. You just automatically jump off the fucking legs. Yeah for 542 00:39:53,960 --> 00:39:58,440 everybody, like and then you didn't read. You obviously didn't cut in the 543 00:39:58,480 --> 00:40:01,199 red. What this trying to have. I'll be trying to have sympathy for 544 00:40:01,280 --> 00:40:07,559 motherfuckers because you just never know. Like I know, Gary ain't the worst, 545 00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:15,199 but ship it's up there, but that flint like flint like New Orleans 546 00:40:15,239 --> 00:40:22,039 down in Alabama certain places. Bro, it's crazy and niggas is should be 547 00:40:22,079 --> 00:40:29,360 different. Motherfuckers be raised different. They like with Kodak bro like Kodak bro 548 00:40:29,599 --> 00:40:35,199 Sh'S sad bro watching watching around them. They they gotta be on the same 549 00:40:35,239 --> 00:40:37,119 ship he owned, because otherwise I don't think they will be letting him do 550 00:40:37,199 --> 00:40:40,559 that ship Like Yeah, it just seems it seems like when you when you 551 00:40:40,599 --> 00:40:45,280 see somebody like somebody I love, I don't give a fuck. I'm talking 552 00:40:45,320 --> 00:40:50,480 if I found out that any of my niggas ever did crack or god damn 553 00:40:50,519 --> 00:40:53,239 heroin or meth. I will beat they ass. Bro, I'm gonna talk 554 00:40:53,280 --> 00:40:58,960 bad to you all that ship brouse. That's probably not the best route there. 555 00:40:59,039 --> 00:41:00,960 It's not what I'm doing it because brother, what the fuck is you 556 00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:02,559 are? My niggas? We don't. We don't move like that my niggas. 557 00:41:02,599 --> 00:41:06,239 And well, I think, I think, I think. I don't 558 00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:09,199 know how a person will receive that, but I do think that you showing 559 00:41:09,400 --> 00:41:12,480 them that, hey, I love you? Why are you doing this? 560 00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:17,599 A lot of the times niggas just BECAU lot of the times victims can't can't 561 00:41:17,800 --> 00:41:21,760 don't receive the love. They do not see it. They they don't. 562 00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:23,519 My mom didn't love me, so why would you love me? But that 563 00:41:24,599 --> 00:41:27,840 ain't got ship to do with that, nigga, that's what they be saying. 564 00:41:27,920 --> 00:41:30,000 Yeah, I know, but y'all tripping like no. I will be 565 00:41:30,079 --> 00:41:35,199 pissed if I found out that they would not. Just never really understood how 566 00:41:35,280 --> 00:41:39,119 motherfucker can stick a needle in the on to get high or or like the 567 00:41:39,719 --> 00:41:45,159 it's too pooky ish to me, Like I mean, I just I don't 568 00:41:45,199 --> 00:41:47,320 know. I don't get it because I see other ships and I be like, 569 00:41:47,360 --> 00:41:52,079 oh no, I'm cool. I would know, but I guess niggas 570 00:41:52,119 --> 00:41:57,760 be getting high tomb numb the pain because like like I said, Kodak, 571 00:41:58,079 --> 00:42:00,320 we know that Nigga had to be grown. He was then there about nine 572 00:42:00,480 --> 00:42:05,480 ten, you know what I'm saying, Like, so that's different, motherfucker 573 00:42:05,559 --> 00:42:10,039 seeing motherfuckers get killed. Or I also feel like those type of people should 574 00:42:10,039 --> 00:42:14,119 not be able to make music, bro, because why are you singing these 575 00:42:14,239 --> 00:42:19,320 harm these a lot of this trauma, this trauma melody. He do say 576 00:42:19,360 --> 00:42:22,239 some ship sometimes like the Perk, even though he said he shouldn't said that 577 00:42:22,239 --> 00:42:27,920 ship. Uh I knew that that ship. But other than that, like 578 00:42:28,199 --> 00:42:32,079 motherfucks we listening to Kodak, Kodak be on some real ship with his music, 579 00:42:32,360 --> 00:42:37,440 like the messages and ship that he be trying to just be basically what 580 00:42:37,519 --> 00:42:42,079 he go through and ship like that. Kodak is really intelligent. That's why 581 00:42:42,079 --> 00:42:45,679 it's fucked up, and people know that like most of them, niggas is 582 00:42:45,679 --> 00:42:49,920 intelligent, most of them. Most of the trauma feel niggas and women be 583 00:42:50,159 --> 00:42:57,719 like once you get like Sukiyana, right, yeah, I feel like if 584 00:42:57,760 --> 00:43:01,320 you turn the cameras off and just sit with her. She's probably the most 585 00:43:01,360 --> 00:43:06,960 intelligent person in the room. Sweet yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 586 00:43:07,000 --> 00:43:09,119 yeah. But she just got an image to I don't even know if this 587 00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:15,079 I've never met somebody that is that intelligent. I've met I've met a troubled 588 00:43:15,119 --> 00:43:21,719 woman before, and I understand that she was very intellectual. She was very 589 00:43:21,719 --> 00:43:24,880 smart, but she was very guarded and so much so that she kind of 590 00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:30,199 guarded the best attributes of herself from the world. So nobody knew she would 591 00:43:30,239 --> 00:43:32,559 have a job, come home, door thing, she will go to the 592 00:43:32,599 --> 00:43:37,199 club, maybe here and there, but you still wouldn't be able to see 593 00:43:37,239 --> 00:43:42,199 the best attributes of this woman. And but I've never met somebody like that 594 00:43:42,360 --> 00:43:44,880 was like a rapper or a model or something like you know what I'm saying, 595 00:43:44,920 --> 00:43:49,159 I've never met that type of Uh. I ain't gonna say, I 596 00:43:49,199 --> 00:43:52,079 guess damaged woman because I don't know if it's a I don't know if it's 597 00:43:52,079 --> 00:43:55,679 a personality that that they're trying to push or character they're trying to push, 598 00:43:55,840 --> 00:44:00,920 or said she just herself. I'm not gonna change. Like when she's doing 599 00:44:01,119 --> 00:44:05,519 red Red carp or whatever. She was at vm A, she was doing 600 00:44:05,559 --> 00:44:07,480 she doing. She like shit, I ain't think I was gonna be here 601 00:44:07,519 --> 00:44:08,400 and I probably will never be here again, So I'm gonna be me. 602 00:44:08,480 --> 00:44:12,440 I'm a clown. Motherfucker. Don't funk with her, And I funk with 603 00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:15,000 her because I respect the motherfucker that's gonna be real with herself like that, 604 00:44:15,360 --> 00:44:19,000 And they trying to say whatever they want to say about it. But everything 605 00:44:19,079 --> 00:44:21,800 she does, she still be just fucking with her nigga like it ain't like 606 00:44:21,840 --> 00:44:25,280 she just got her fucking everybody or whatnot, you know, for kissing her 607 00:44:25,880 --> 00:44:29,840 nothing for real. And she she even said that like I ain't mean for 608 00:44:30,079 --> 00:44:31,320 you know what I'm saying him to get that type of backlass like that, 609 00:44:31,719 --> 00:44:36,360 like he's a he's a sweet guy, he's cool. He was never nothing 610 00:44:36,440 --> 00:44:39,960 like that. But you know, social media takes ship and just that's why 611 00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:44,480 that's why i'd be like, I'm cool, I'll be famous because I ain't. 612 00:44:44,559 --> 00:44:47,199 I know me, I ain't nothing. I'm getting motherfucker's pressing charges on 613 00:44:47,199 --> 00:44:52,639 me because I'm hitting niggas in their mouth. Bitch nigga getting too disrespectful. 614 00:44:53,119 --> 00:44:58,719 I'm gonna find you. I will find you. Won't find you I will 615 00:44:58,760 --> 00:45:05,480 find you reminds me of the the motherfuckers that was putting uh the vr headsets 616 00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:10,679 on and getting raped in there or getting killed in there. You heard about 617 00:45:10,719 --> 00:45:16,599 that m niggas is putting them vr head really died. I'm just dying on 618 00:45:16,760 --> 00:45:23,119 the So niggas is they're supposed to be in like the metaverse. It is, 619 00:45:23,280 --> 00:45:25,960 it was a metaverse. That's just some weird ass ship. To me, 620 00:45:27,119 --> 00:45:30,320 man, that's some weird creepy that the motherfucker that made that is the 621 00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:35,519 motherfucker with the sex dolls. That's why I'm trying to tell you that them 622 00:45:35,639 --> 00:45:38,639 type of motherfuckers. Bro. I'm telling you that. But but you just 623 00:45:38,679 --> 00:45:40,840 said it though. That's what they do in Grand theft Odle. So it's 624 00:45:40,880 --> 00:45:44,480 not gonna be any different if you go into the metaverse just because we in 625 00:45:44,719 --> 00:45:46,800 just because the look like the Sims and not Grand theft Oto niggas think it's 626 00:45:46,800 --> 00:45:51,039 gonna be friendly niggas is going into a club, definite, not friendly niggas 627 00:45:51,760 --> 00:45:55,320 club with their headset on and getting poked, shooting, shooting this motherfucker up 628 00:45:55,840 --> 00:46:01,000 like the video game. Though. Oh but that's where there's a movie. 629 00:46:01,039 --> 00:46:05,960 There's a speaking of shooting shooting up. There was a movie we need we 630 00:46:06,960 --> 00:46:10,760 need to talk about whatever the kid's name is. I don't know if you 631 00:46:10,800 --> 00:46:15,440 saw it, but it came out. It came out, remember like ten 632 00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:22,039 and so years ago. But the movie starts with the mom getting paint thrown 633 00:46:22,119 --> 00:46:24,239 on her. She got she got paint, newspaper all over the over the 634 00:46:24,280 --> 00:46:28,199 curtains. She don't really want nobody to know where she lives. And she's 635 00:46:28,280 --> 00:46:34,599 the mother of a kid who trapped kids inside of a gymnasium and was shooting 636 00:46:34,719 --> 00:46:39,000 with a bowing arrow. So the kid the kid when when the kid came 637 00:46:39,719 --> 00:46:44,119 I got my phone struck recorder. When the kid came out, the kid 638 00:46:44,119 --> 00:46:45,800 would cry every time she held him, every single time. Every single time 639 00:46:45,840 --> 00:46:49,360 she held the baby, he would cry. She would give the baby to 640 00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:52,320 the daddy stopped crying. Cool, you get older. He didn't like the 641 00:46:52,360 --> 00:46:57,480 mam or was He never liked the mom never never never, never never never. 642 00:46:58,000 --> 00:47:00,760 So they get his nigga a bowing arrow. He's been he's been problematic 643 00:47:00,800 --> 00:47:04,599 his whole life. To get his nigga a born arrow, he becomes a 644 00:47:04,599 --> 00:47:08,719 fucking archer nigga high school, he practiced in the backyard, bulls eye, 645 00:47:08,760 --> 00:47:14,039 fucking niggas, fucking the bulls up, nigga. And then he you know, 646 00:47:14,079 --> 00:47:16,719 he traps the kid inside the gymnasium and he started shooting, uh, 647 00:47:17,559 --> 00:47:22,199 shooting school. He was killing them with the bourn arrow with the bow and 648 00:47:22,280 --> 00:47:24,000 arrows, just piling them up, piling them up, bro, because they 649 00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:28,559 couldn't get out. So every time you running too the door, well there 650 00:47:28,559 --> 00:47:30,440 you are, I get to shoot you because you running into the door. 651 00:47:30,559 --> 00:47:38,320 So damn. My question is this, at what age should we be able 652 00:47:38,360 --> 00:47:45,920 to throw a motherfucker to the wolves based off their behavior if we're trying to 653 00:47:45,920 --> 00:47:51,079 save the public. Yeah, because I'm nothing on that too young shit fucker 654 00:47:51,199 --> 00:47:54,079 you you ten eleven twelve, Like, if you're showing signs that you're a 655 00:47:54,119 --> 00:47:57,760 psychopath, bitch, you're a psychopath. Wen't need to put you in a 656 00:47:57,760 --> 00:48:00,480 crazy home then or something. You need to being straight jacket your little ass. 657 00:48:00,880 --> 00:48:02,559 And then they just be like, oh, it's just so cute. 658 00:48:02,599 --> 00:48:06,400 Nah, this a little motherfucker is a killer. Bro. You met a 659 00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:10,119 kid and be like, I will fuck you up. Yes, I used 660 00:48:10,119 --> 00:48:16,119 to some badskets. I remember when Kennedy was in uh elementary and I used 661 00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:19,960 I used to go on field trips with him, like when she was in 662 00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:22,840 fifth grade school field trips. She had this bad little nigga and here I 663 00:48:22,920 --> 00:48:25,360 used to be like that little motherfucker right there, it's going to be a 664 00:48:25,480 --> 00:48:32,079 problem in this community. You're in this community. You ever noticed that about 665 00:48:32,079 --> 00:48:37,280 a kid in school? What back in school? Hell yeah, I knew, 666 00:48:37,719 --> 00:48:39,199 now, man, Some of them dead, some of them in jail, 667 00:48:39,599 --> 00:48:45,320 some of them changed. But you could tell that motherfucker right there there 668 00:48:45,360 --> 00:48:49,000 was a dude that was a dude that was a problem, gonna be in 669 00:48:49,079 --> 00:48:51,639 and out of jail, like I know, Like it was these twins, 670 00:48:51,719 --> 00:48:57,840 Bro, I knew these little motherfuckers was gonna be in prison for life. 671 00:48:58,159 --> 00:49:00,920 Like they were just too bad. It was. They were bad as hell, 672 00:49:01,039 --> 00:49:06,079 Bro, just doing was terrified of them niggas bro around the neighborhood. 673 00:49:07,199 --> 00:49:10,440 You, I don't know if you knew them, because they wouldn't. They 674 00:49:10,519 --> 00:49:15,800 used to be in our neighborhood, but they used to come from like another 675 00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:23,159 neighborhood. Yeah, but yeah, motherfuckers was flucked robbing, taking an old 676 00:49:23,199 --> 00:49:28,599 lady car, some ship robbing her and beat her with some crazy ship. 677 00:49:28,679 --> 00:49:31,320 Bro, I do remember that. Yeah, they death got locked up or 678 00:49:31,440 --> 00:49:36,519 was it? It was this dude. We was in sixth grade together and 679 00:49:36,559 --> 00:49:40,199 he was just doing the most out. It would be some ship at like 680 00:49:44,679 --> 00:49:46,719 growing up and Gary. Well we left when I was in third grade, 681 00:49:46,719 --> 00:49:51,199 but kindergarten, first and second grade. I do remember this vividly. It 682 00:49:51,199 --> 00:49:54,360 would be some kids that would be troubled, but they would be troubled because 683 00:49:54,360 --> 00:49:58,960 they wouldn't stop talking in class. That's different. That was me. That 684 00:49:59,039 --> 00:50:04,400 was different class fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth grade. Niggas was getting 685 00:50:04,480 --> 00:50:09,519 dishrespect, gett knocked out. Niggas was getting Niggas was being disrespectful to every 686 00:50:10,840 --> 00:50:15,599 teacher, principal, every every everything. So this one, nigga, I 687 00:50:15,639 --> 00:50:19,599 don't want to say his name. He was just very very very very very 688 00:50:19,599 --> 00:50:23,400 problematic. I go to college. I hit up his ex girlfriend because it 689 00:50:23,519 --> 00:50:29,039 was cool. So, yo, what's so, what's up with a Whatever 690 00:50:29,079 --> 00:50:30,519 happened? What happened to you and your boyfriend? That was that was dating. 691 00:50:30,519 --> 00:50:34,679 But last time I checked and she was like, are you trying to 692 00:50:34,719 --> 00:50:37,079 be funny? And I was like no, because I'm in I'm in Atlanta. 693 00:50:37,119 --> 00:50:40,039 This is before Facebook. So this is my space days I didn't, 694 00:50:40,239 --> 00:50:47,159 we wouldn't. He said he got killed. It's some niggas that he had. 695 00:50:47,239 --> 00:50:51,920 I was like, damn, bro, and rest in peace to my 696 00:50:52,000 --> 00:50:55,800 nigga Doners. I talked to his mom on the phone I had. I 697 00:50:55,880 --> 00:51:01,280 tracked her down, you remember marcol tracked down. I asked some mom and 698 00:51:01,280 --> 00:51:07,199 I was like, Yo, do you have doing this? Baby moms? 699 00:51:07,960 --> 00:51:08,679 Do you have Doner? Do you have Do you have a way I can 700 00:51:08,719 --> 00:51:12,000 get in contact with this mom? She was like, yeah, I'm friends 701 00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:15,519 with the baby mama. I got the number, so called her. She 702 00:51:15,599 --> 00:51:17,760 was like yeah, she called me and she said yeah, uh. Somebody 703 00:51:17,800 --> 00:51:22,000 told me to get in contact with Eric, but they said he was friends 704 00:51:22,000 --> 00:51:23,480 with doing this. But I don't know who Eric is. I was like, 705 00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:27,880 oh, it's poop Bert mama, and she was like oh yeah, 706 00:51:29,079 --> 00:51:34,280 and she was she was so happy to hear from me. But the reason 707 00:51:34,320 --> 00:51:38,559 why I brought this up because all three of her sons was killed in Hallville, 708 00:51:39,440 --> 00:51:44,000 all of them. And I said, Mom, are you She was 709 00:51:44,039 --> 00:51:47,639 like, I'm angry, I'm hurt. I don't know what I did wrong, 710 00:51:47,719 --> 00:51:51,000 she said. I questioned myself. I questioned. I was like, 711 00:51:51,840 --> 00:51:55,000 I was not expecting this when I called it, when you called me, 712 00:51:55,119 --> 00:52:00,679 because I just genuinely just wanted to I don't know, I just hear you. 713 00:52:00,760 --> 00:52:02,840 I just wanted to just talk to you. But here like she was 714 00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:07,559 just like pooper, I'm angry, I'm sad. She said, I gotta 715 00:52:07,599 --> 00:52:09,360 go to therapy, she said, she said, I'm doing so much ship 716 00:52:09,400 --> 00:52:15,239 to just put myself back together because as a parent, I thought I did 717 00:52:15,280 --> 00:52:17,840 everything that I could. And they went to church every Sunday because they was 718 00:52:17,920 --> 00:52:23,679 they It wouldn't even the crazy thing about it, the church kids be the 719 00:52:23,719 --> 00:52:28,039 worst. Man. I hate it, not not all the time, all 720 00:52:28,079 --> 00:52:31,719 the time, but they be trying to escape the household. The house wasn't 721 00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:35,400 really fucked up. I mean, I guess it just depends on like the 722 00:52:36,079 --> 00:52:40,079 fathers. Some fathers or mothers be strict. And that's what I'm saying that 723 00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:45,599 being strict ain't ain't the way to go. I've seen that because of the 724 00:52:45,639 --> 00:52:50,599 rebellion, rebelling against it. Yea, it is being strict. I mean, 725 00:52:50,599 --> 00:52:52,840 I'm sure that like not being able to do nothing with your friends, 726 00:52:52,920 --> 00:52:55,599 like it's gonna make a motherfucker be like, man, fuck this. But 727 00:52:55,639 --> 00:53:00,719 I'm gonna start sneaking out. I'm gonna start lying. I'm gonna start because 728 00:53:00,760 --> 00:53:01,840 y'all got me fucked up. I'm not my friends come back to school, 729 00:53:01,920 --> 00:53:05,719 everybody get talked about ship and I can't talk about nothing. I can't go 730 00:53:05,800 --> 00:53:12,960 nowhere. But why, but why why do the result to the street life? 731 00:53:13,119 --> 00:53:15,519 You can? You can and then they probably I'm not even just saying 732 00:53:15,519 --> 00:53:20,559 street life just I'm just saying, like even just I'm talking about I'm talking 733 00:53:20,559 --> 00:53:25,440 about niggas dying. I'm talking I meangas that that that that that escape that 734 00:53:27,159 --> 00:53:30,760 strict because I understand what you're saying. I'm saying the niggas that do what 735 00:53:30,760 --> 00:53:35,000 you're saying, but instead of just going out and having fun, they going 736 00:53:35,039 --> 00:53:37,199 to the streets to be street when they don't even got to be like that. 737 00:53:37,199 --> 00:53:39,960 You ain't got to be like that. I don't know. That's just 738 00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:44,280 the same thing as king, like what you want, my nigga, you 739 00:53:44,280 --> 00:53:47,320 were too light to be like bro? Stop it like like no, Bro, 740 00:53:47,400 --> 00:53:52,639 you got what everybody want. Bro. A motherfucking mother and father that 741 00:53:52,800 --> 00:53:57,639 cares that that can put you in right situations. They can plug you with 742 00:53:57,719 --> 00:54:00,280 anything that you need. Why do you want to be so hood and so 743 00:54:00,400 --> 00:54:02,679 street and try to go get it on your own. You can go get 744 00:54:02,679 --> 00:54:06,079 it on your own, but in a positive way, my nigga, Like 745 00:54:06,519 --> 00:54:08,480 I'm gonna tell you like this, I don't want to get it on my 746 00:54:08,559 --> 00:54:12,920 own. I wish that I had a parent, no that could have set 747 00:54:12,960 --> 00:54:14,920 me up. They could set me up and then I can get it on 748 00:54:14,960 --> 00:54:17,679 my own, right, Yeah, not hell or no what and that and 749 00:54:17,719 --> 00:54:22,320 I And I'm blessed because my mom and my stepfather, anything I asked for, 750 00:54:22,400 --> 00:54:25,159 they always gave it to me to this day. So that's why I 751 00:54:25,159 --> 00:54:28,599 said, that's why I fly on handle husks because I never really had to, 752 00:54:29,039 --> 00:54:30,800 you know what I'm saying. So, yeah, I ain't nothing. 753 00:54:30,880 --> 00:54:35,519 I was never in the streets. I was just a hood nigga that was 754 00:54:35,559 --> 00:54:38,559 around it because I was from the hood when I seen I ain't a hood 755 00:54:38,599 --> 00:54:42,559 nigga, but a nigga from the hood. Yeah, Ma, Mama stayed 756 00:54:42,559 --> 00:54:45,199 on me, so I turned out pretty good. Yeah, a lot of 757 00:54:45,360 --> 00:54:49,280 a lot of everybody knew me from my mama. Yeah, God damn it. 758 00:54:49,639 --> 00:54:54,000 Everybody we around and got damn corner of your mama for sure. Damn. 759 00:54:54,440 --> 00:55:00,199 That's that's what I always misunderstood about peer pressure, because if nigg just 760 00:55:00,280 --> 00:55:02,360 knew that you wasn't trying to be into that, they would not let you 761 00:55:02,400 --> 00:55:07,079 get into that. That's why I'm so confused. Like if your mom to 762 00:55:07,119 --> 00:55:10,840 scream at the top of her lungs and we would be around the corner and 763 00:55:10,960 --> 00:55:14,440 everybody would be like, hen, you gotta go, it wouldn't be like 764 00:55:14,559 --> 00:55:17,760 no, you stay, man, you would never be It would never be 765 00:55:19,159 --> 00:55:24,280 Janice would My mama wasn't mean or nothing. My mama. I don't always 766 00:55:24,360 --> 00:55:29,559 say positive about their mamas, but like my mama is probably like really one 767 00:55:29,599 --> 00:55:34,400 of the most nicest. Like if you, I don't think mama got no 768 00:55:34,480 --> 00:55:37,079 enemies. If you can't get along with my mama, it's you. It's 769 00:55:37,079 --> 00:55:43,159 definitely my mama. Definitely sweet Poe, Like no never cause drink none of 770 00:55:43,159 --> 00:55:46,039 that. That's why I'd be like, I get high. But I don't 771 00:55:46,079 --> 00:55:51,519 understand. I just never understood peer pressure because for me, when I was 772 00:55:51,519 --> 00:55:52,119 in when I was in the street, they were like, bro, you're 773 00:55:52,159 --> 00:55:58,440 rap too good. Bro, you ain't even know Yeah, like you it's 774 00:55:59,559 --> 00:56:04,800 motherucker couldn't peer pressure me to do ship like I'm not. No, if 775 00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:07,000 I don't. If I say I don't want to do it, nigga, 776 00:56:07,039 --> 00:56:07,920 I'm not doing it. No, I don't think. I don't think that's 777 00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:12,119 what peer pressure really is. I think peer pressure is you believing that you 778 00:56:12,239 --> 00:56:14,679 have to do it because your peers are doing it. I don't think it's 779 00:56:14,719 --> 00:56:17,280 necessarily no, but that's what I'm saying. You got some people who peers 780 00:56:17,480 --> 00:56:22,320 can make them do some ship. My peers can't make me do nothing. 781 00:56:22,400 --> 00:56:24,400 I don't give a fuck. I don't want to do it. I'm not 782 00:56:24,440 --> 00:56:28,559 doing it. You know what I'm saying. It's just that's just what it 783 00:56:28,599 --> 00:56:31,039 is. Ain't no peer pressure. I drink this about. No, I 784 00:56:31,039 --> 00:56:34,840 don't want to drink it. No, I said, no, you bitch, 785 00:56:35,840 --> 00:56:40,199 you laying all right whatever. I never really cared about that pop pills. 786 00:56:40,440 --> 00:56:44,159 No, I don't pop pills. I was around my fucker that popped 787 00:56:44,159 --> 00:56:45,639 all kind of pills. No, I'm cool. I used to pop X 788 00:56:46,679 --> 00:56:51,880 and once I had my last little experience in college. Fuck No, I 789 00:56:51,920 --> 00:56:54,519 was through with that ship. I was so scared, nigga, Why bro, 790 00:56:54,880 --> 00:57:00,000 I didn't even I've never heard the most I had ever popped well, 791 00:57:00,639 --> 00:57:05,320 a double double, like a double X pill. So it was. It 792 00:57:05,360 --> 00:57:09,199 was it's a thicker one. But I didn't know they had three trumple a 793 00:57:09,239 --> 00:57:13,920 triple. Didn't know they had a triple. My nigga at school gave me 794 00:57:13,960 --> 00:57:16,280 a triple. I'm thinking it's a double. It's a triple. I'm used 795 00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:22,480 to this motherfucker taking thirty to forty five minutes to kick in. This motherfucker 796 00:57:22,639 --> 00:57:28,159 kicked in so fucking fast, Bro, I was terrified. I remember everything. 797 00:57:28,199 --> 00:57:31,280 I was sitting on the couch watching the game and I was stuck then 798 00:57:31,360 --> 00:57:35,920 and I just remember them like that motherfucker kicked in, and I'm like, 799 00:57:36,039 --> 00:57:38,599 hell, yeah, I'm scared because now I'm like it, I kicked in 800 00:57:38,639 --> 00:57:43,920 too fast. So now I know this motherfucker ride is about to be long. 801 00:57:44,519 --> 00:57:46,760 So now y'all try to go in there and lay down. What fuck 802 00:57:46,840 --> 00:57:49,559 now? Bro, I'm like, I got it. I don't know. 803 00:57:49,639 --> 00:57:52,400 I was like, no, Bro, I was scared. Y'all was taking 804 00:57:52,440 --> 00:57:55,199 y'all took it and chilled. Man. Nah, I mean we end up 805 00:57:55,280 --> 00:58:00,599 turning up. But it was like probably only like a thirty nine because like 806 00:58:00,639 --> 00:58:04,760 I said, it was the Broncos and Stiller game. I remember what I 807 00:58:04,800 --> 00:58:07,079 was watching. You took it early. Was in the turn up. No, 808 00:58:07,159 --> 00:58:12,679 because I've done this before, like, oh TI seven o eight you 809 00:58:12,719 --> 00:58:15,039 were trying to yeah, oh seven o eight. I'm like, I was 810 00:58:15,320 --> 00:58:19,159 little Stevie pass nigga. We went through a little time where we was fucked 811 00:58:19,239 --> 00:58:23,079 up, so we used to pop as but nigga, no, hell no, 812 00:58:23,960 --> 00:58:28,199 I went. I went. I laid down. I seen red and 813 00:58:28,320 --> 00:58:30,599 I heard a loud ring, so I shaid, fuck no, that ship 814 00:58:30,639 --> 00:58:32,840 is over with and you can't do that. Your body gonna reject it. 815 00:58:32,920 --> 00:58:36,119 I couldn't move, motherfucker try and get me water. I was like, 816 00:58:36,199 --> 00:58:40,199 oh no, this was no never again. I'm through never going up. 817 00:58:40,960 --> 00:58:46,039 I damn don't even remember Loki. I know we did, but I just 818 00:58:46,119 --> 00:58:50,199 can't like after that, I just know I was scared as hell. The 819 00:58:50,320 --> 00:58:53,079 first, the first and last time I took Molly was I never took Molly. 820 00:58:53,519 --> 00:58:59,199 It was a Hawaii and motherfucker did the right The trend of that James 821 00:58:59,239 --> 00:59:05,320 Long was popping fucking gamy one and that ship felt awesome. Yeah I heard 822 00:59:05,360 --> 00:59:08,440 it, but I was just too scared awesome. That was after after popping 823 00:59:08,480 --> 00:59:10,800 that. It was a rap. I don't wanna pop ship out. But 824 00:59:12,199 --> 00:59:15,519 the next day, Bro, it felt like my body got hit by a 825 00:59:15,679 --> 00:59:20,360 fucking max trock because Joe Ass was probably after jumping off all kinds of ship. 826 00:59:21,159 --> 00:59:22,039 Bro. I was the only nigga in the club too. I was 827 00:59:22,119 --> 00:59:28,239 dancing my ass. You didn't even know you can hear was They was looking 828 00:59:28,280 --> 00:59:30,400 at me like, dnnis nigga got? I was the only nigga and that 829 00:59:30,519 --> 00:59:34,639 nigg got the juice that nigga can dance. I was the only nigga in 830 00:59:34,679 --> 00:59:37,679 there. I'm not no exaggeration. I was the only nigga in the club 831 00:59:37,760 --> 00:59:42,039 for with some Owen's niggah, all types of different Asians, all type of 832 00:59:42,159 --> 00:59:43,800 bro. I was the only nigga in there, and they was looking at 833 00:59:43,960 --> 00:59:46,320 this nigga got some rhythm and granted agent people can dance like you know the 834 00:59:46,440 --> 00:59:58,719 jabwakes and ship like that. That was racist, But okay, said some 835 00:59:58,760 --> 01:00:04,440 of the niggas. I thought, but all of them brought up the next 836 01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:07,920 because I was drinking. I was drinking too, so bro, it was 837 01:00:07,320 --> 01:00:10,760 it was awful. That next day was awful and I saw something recently. 838 01:00:10,840 --> 01:00:15,800 It said like people who get drunk and people who get high off things outside 839 01:00:15,800 --> 01:00:22,519 of weed. You're borrowing tomorrow's happiness, so tomorrow you're gonna have to deal 840 01:00:22,599 --> 01:00:24,280 with that ship. And I was like, damn, that's exactly what a 841 01:00:24,360 --> 01:00:30,880 hangover feel like. Bro. Hangover, like a real hangover is fucking terrible. 842 01:00:30,000 --> 01:00:32,840 Bro, Yeah I could. I'm I'm so happy I drink no more 843 01:00:32,840 --> 01:00:37,519 because the hangover just started getting worse. But if I drink, I ain't 844 01:00:37,519 --> 01:00:43,239 about to get crazy drunk. You remember that story back in the day of 845 01:00:43,920 --> 01:00:46,719 Jekyling High. You ever heard that story. It was a It's it's like 846 01:00:47,000 --> 01:00:52,159 English English class or something like that, doctor Jekylline, mister hog Like he 847 01:00:52,239 --> 01:00:54,800 would be a doctor and then at night he would turn into another person. 848 01:00:54,800 --> 01:00:59,400 And I was like, all the niggas just high. It was just drunk. 849 01:00:59,400 --> 01:01:00,920 He would just turn to it. And I don't think I like who 850 01:01:01,000 --> 01:01:05,400 I become when I'm drunk, so I just don't. I saw a video 851 01:01:05,599 --> 01:01:07,199 I recorded video of me drunk at Jeff House and I watched this show. 852 01:01:07,199 --> 01:01:13,519 I said, all hell, and I never again. Never No. That's 853 01:01:13,559 --> 01:01:16,320 the thing about You're gonna get out your body and club five twenty because it's 854 01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:21,719 just too much liquor in that mon and it's just too many good vibes. 855 01:01:21,800 --> 01:01:28,920 It's just too provide. It's really safe. It's safe and over there just 856 01:01:29,039 --> 01:01:35,599 cool because everybody Club five twenty is crazy because I don't know. I don't 857 01:01:35,679 --> 01:01:37,840 know as many people over there as you do. But because I know you 858 01:01:37,960 --> 01:01:42,239 and I know Jamar and I know I know, I know, I know 859 01:01:42,480 --> 01:01:45,440 enough people, it's a it's a lot of mon and then uh, Dynasty 860 01:01:45,519 --> 01:01:49,320 sister be over there. I'll be like, I know enough of y'all, 861 01:01:49,400 --> 01:01:51,679 so I really do feel safe, and I ain't seen it. I ain't 862 01:01:51,679 --> 01:01:54,360 seen a lot of y'all in a minute. But it's just so much liquor. 863 01:01:54,480 --> 01:01:57,639 And you be like, oh, I would just take a little bit. 864 01:01:57,639 --> 01:02:00,920 I'll just drink a little bit. And you're not just every hour it's 865 01:02:00,960 --> 01:02:05,880 a shot o clock. It's definitely so you gonna get drunkn that motherfucker because 866 01:02:05,960 --> 01:02:09,519 motherfuckerbody's bottles for nothing. Bro. Yeah, I saw. I was like, 867 01:02:09,679 --> 01:02:13,039 never, I'm not doing this ship no more. Bro that just because 868 01:02:13,039 --> 01:02:15,679 I say it every time. But once you get over there, just drink 869 01:02:15,719 --> 01:02:20,760 since then I really, I really I really ain't either. I ain' drink 870 01:02:20,760 --> 01:02:25,119 since that motherfucking fight that was That was I said, just smoke, I'm 871 01:02:25,119 --> 01:02:30,519 gonna try some streams though, Oh yeah, you ain't trying yet. I 872 01:02:30,719 --> 01:02:32,480 chick it out every time I'm about to, I'd be like, you know 873 01:02:32,599 --> 01:02:37,320 what, I'm cool, scared. I don't know what you think is gonna 874 01:02:37,320 --> 01:02:42,119 happen. You know you can microdose. You know you can take very small 875 01:02:42,159 --> 01:02:44,199 doses of it. No, no, yeah, yeah, yeah. Like 876 01:02:44,320 --> 01:02:46,440 everybody that I've talked to about him told me, like, what for the 877 01:02:46,519 --> 01:02:51,239 first time would you take? Everybody should take something different deep, everybody should 878 01:02:51,239 --> 01:02:53,880 take something different because everybody body different type ship everybody. People can take less 879 01:02:53,920 --> 01:02:55,639 than you know what I'm saying, But I don't know. I just be 880 01:02:55,719 --> 01:03:00,719 thinking, like I don't I want to make try. I'm in the right 881 01:03:00,920 --> 01:03:05,000 environment. You just micro does first. You ain't gotta be nowhere microdoes micro 882 01:03:05,159 --> 01:03:08,199 dooceing it. I'm a birthday now, you should have got hot yr birthday. 883 01:03:08,199 --> 01:03:12,679 But you should microdose every day. You should microdose people if if you 884 01:03:12,800 --> 01:03:15,760 feel like there is a mental block from you getting to the next whatever. 885 01:03:16,320 --> 01:03:22,519 Definitely where it's I really feel like it's something that's about Oh yeah, I'm 886 01:03:22,519 --> 01:03:27,719 about to partner with somebody who makes the pills, so they're gonna get a 887 01:03:27,760 --> 01:03:30,719 discount code for people who want a microdose, and the next episode I have 888 01:03:30,800 --> 01:03:31,840 it. She just she just texts me too, was like, do you 889 01:03:31,880 --> 01:03:40,800 want to for sure? Because I feel like yeah and no, Yeah for 890 01:03:40,920 --> 01:03:45,960 the clarity. No, because it's not a stimulant like some people want the 891 01:03:45,960 --> 01:03:51,159 adderall to but that's not gonna it's not gonna do that for you. So 892 01:03:51,280 --> 01:03:53,119 if you want, I feel like, if you want that, then I 893 01:03:53,199 --> 01:03:59,039 feel like you should drink. Damn. They're like a pre workout when you're 894 01:03:59,039 --> 01:04:00,519 not about to work out, like drinking throughout the day because it does give 895 01:04:00,559 --> 01:04:03,679 you that clarity, and it says it on the bottom. Not trying to 896 01:04:03,800 --> 01:04:08,039 prescribe niggas to do something that they're supposed to do. But I feel like 897 01:04:08,840 --> 01:04:14,199 micro dooson from the lady that I buy my ship from in Chicago. That 898 01:04:14,320 --> 01:04:17,960 ship that's what helped me nigga gets sober up. They just cause and a 899 01:04:18,000 --> 01:04:24,480 lot of the times I feel like it just be I just need to learn 900 01:04:24,519 --> 01:04:29,159 how to like really focus on like certain ship that I need to focus on 901 01:04:29,280 --> 01:04:32,119 because I get sidetracked, and I forget a lot of ship. I just 902 01:04:32,880 --> 01:04:38,400 you know how, you need to tell your doctor my brain. Go to 903 01:04:38,440 --> 01:04:40,920 the doctor and tell your doctor. I told my doctor that ship. They 904 01:04:40,960 --> 01:04:45,320 nigga gave me some ship, and I didn't think it was working until you 905 01:04:45,440 --> 01:04:46,519 know how, you like come upstairs and be like, what the fuck did 906 01:04:46,559 --> 01:04:49,400 I come up here for? And then you go back downstairs you don't remember. 907 01:04:50,079 --> 01:04:54,320 I remember, I said, oh it works because I used to never 908 01:04:54,400 --> 01:04:56,519 be here, Like what the fuck did I come out here for? And 909 01:04:56,599 --> 01:04:59,199 they be like like I just hate shit, Like motherfucker, tell me to 910 01:04:59,239 --> 01:05:00,480 do some shit, and then I I know I'm about to do it, 911 01:05:00,599 --> 01:05:03,719 and then I something else will pop up and I do something else, And 912 01:05:03,760 --> 01:05:06,920 now I forgot. That's what most of what the funk I just said. 913 01:05:08,119 --> 01:05:12,440 That's that's where most of the be becoming relationship ship Mama, thousand percent. 914 01:05:12,639 --> 01:05:15,840 You wuldn't listening to me. I swore to God. I swear to God. 915 01:05:15,960 --> 01:05:20,280 I was. I swear to God when you when you told me every 916 01:05:20,400 --> 01:05:25,239 intention of doing when you told me, I really I saw a squirrel. 917 01:05:25,599 --> 01:05:30,280 I seen the squirrel and said, oh my god, look at that squirrel 918 01:05:30,360 --> 01:05:33,400 flying and I forgot and I just got in the car and drove off swear 919 01:05:33,440 --> 01:05:38,719 to God ship like that. I was like, what the fuck, that's 920 01:05:38,800 --> 01:05:41,000 part of getting old. She was like, you're not listening. You're not 921 01:05:41,039 --> 01:05:43,519 gonna remember. I was like, yes, I swear to God. Bro, 922 01:05:43,679 --> 01:05:46,960 there's something happened. Man. I knew I was supposed to do something. 923 01:05:47,159 --> 01:05:49,840 That's why I'd be like, I just need to use my notes on 924 01:05:49,920 --> 01:05:54,000 my phone. Yeah, man, that's why I just just text me the 925 01:05:54,000 --> 01:05:57,599 ship. Yeah, I got I have to tell hey, set a reminder 926 01:05:57,719 --> 01:06:00,320 for this. Tell me because if I don't, it's no. I will 927 01:06:00,440 --> 01:06:05,920 forget. No, like I tore to God, like yesterday, I promised 928 01:06:05,960 --> 01:06:09,280 to God. That's why. And then when I thought about it, I 929 01:06:09,320 --> 01:06:12,079 said, because because we got a group with all of us, Me, 930 01:06:12,360 --> 01:06:15,960 Jamar, Jeff West, Alan, all us. But I hit Allan up 931 01:06:15,039 --> 01:06:18,679 separate because you know what I'm saying, I'm trying to get smoke. So 932 01:06:19,119 --> 01:06:23,960 I'm like, shit, you in the hook. I'm in a hook, 933 01:06:24,000 --> 01:06:27,760 babe, I'm gonna pull up. I don't know what happened. You didn't 934 01:06:27,760 --> 01:06:30,679 pull up? No, I end up doing something. I end up. 935 01:06:31,079 --> 01:06:33,480 Matter of fact, I think I ended up going with you yesterday we went 936 01:06:33,679 --> 01:06:40,159 we went went downtown, got something. He ain't even said nothing. He 937 01:06:40,480 --> 01:06:43,360 I just thought about it later on when I was about to head to go 938 01:06:43,440 --> 01:06:46,320 out the fight in the game, I'm like, oh, I know I 939 01:06:46,400 --> 01:06:51,639 did never pull. I'm like what he said? He say nothing. I 940 01:06:53,000 --> 01:06:55,360 end up just getting from somebody else because I'm like, I know he not 941 01:06:55,440 --> 01:06:58,000 in the hood no more. I'm like, what the fuck? Bro? 942 01:06:58,239 --> 01:07:00,599 Like, how did I just forget that fast? That's the nigga had a 943 01:07:00,639 --> 01:07:04,199 whole plane. I thought about the ship four five hours later, like get 944 01:07:05,480 --> 01:07:09,400 it didn't hit you too, like a brand new idea. I said, 945 01:07:09,440 --> 01:07:12,360 what the fuck is wrong with me? I never I did never go over 946 01:07:12,440 --> 01:07:14,519 to like soon as I got the phone, Like soon as I got the 947 01:07:14,559 --> 01:07:17,199 phone, my mind went somewhere else. That's why, that's why I try 948 01:07:17,239 --> 01:07:23,519 to stay sober with the crazy with the kids, because, Bro, the 949 01:07:23,800 --> 01:07:28,519 worst thing I just don't want to forget that my kids right now is broy 950 01:07:28,760 --> 01:07:31,559 because sometimes they get quiet, bro, and I be like, oh shit, 951 01:07:31,559 --> 01:07:39,840 I'm a dad, got case. Then you here? She like what 952 01:07:39,960 --> 01:07:43,480 the hell? She in her sleep? I'm all right, oh shut damn 953 01:07:43,679 --> 01:07:45,880 oh ship. Yeah, Because like lately I've been having to be like more 954 01:07:45,960 --> 01:07:48,960 before time, you know what I'm saying. So I'll just be like, 955 01:07:50,719 --> 01:08:00,719 yeah, respect to the women, to the mothers. Got I'd be doing 956 01:08:00,760 --> 01:08:02,840 this sh like at first, yeah, but once you really get you. 957 01:08:04,239 --> 01:08:08,039 I was to try to I was about to try to get some brownie points 958 01:08:08,119 --> 01:08:11,119 for that. No, Mama, because I just said I said, I'm 959 01:08:12,280 --> 01:08:15,559 asked me, is it hard? I'm like not really, No, I'll 960 01:08:15,559 --> 01:08:18,239 be having to get her ready for school, get all her ship ready today, 961 01:08:18,479 --> 01:08:21,680 like all that ship is. My wife is struggling, Like it's really 962 01:08:21,760 --> 01:08:25,319 not hard. My wife is struggling like a motherfucker. I'm not here, 963 01:08:25,319 --> 01:08:27,520 Bro, I swear to God, it's really not hard. I'd be like, 964 01:08:27,720 --> 01:08:30,840 bro. I was watching them, all three of them, every day 965 01:08:31,079 --> 01:08:33,920 Monday through Friday while trying to do podcast ship. I was like, bro, 966 01:08:34,079 --> 01:08:36,279 I gotta get him up. I gotta get all of them up, 967 01:08:36,720 --> 01:08:40,640 change all of them, feed all of them, play with all of them, 968 01:08:40,680 --> 01:08:42,640 put all I'm down for nap, Wake them up from the nap, 969 01:08:42,760 --> 01:08:45,359 feed them, snack all of that ship before she got home from school. 970 01:08:45,800 --> 01:08:47,760 When you get home from work, baby, I don't want to be a 971 01:08:47,920 --> 01:08:50,840 parent anymore. So, I would, I would, I would be doing 972 01:08:50,840 --> 01:08:54,159 all this ship and I be like, bro, this ship is not as 973 01:08:54,239 --> 01:08:57,000 hard. It's not as hard as they make it seen. You know why. 974 01:08:57,439 --> 01:09:00,720 I feel like because once I had kids, I made up in my 975 01:09:00,800 --> 01:09:02,960 mind that I was just the father, that was it. I think the 976 01:09:03,039 --> 01:09:08,880 problem is that mothers be trying to be themselves still and you don't get to 977 01:09:08,960 --> 01:09:11,800 be that no more. I keep having to tell motherfucker. I keep having 978 01:09:11,840 --> 01:09:15,319 to tell my wife, you are a fucking mother right now. That is 979 01:09:15,399 --> 01:09:17,880 it. A mother and a wife. That's all you are right now. 980 01:09:17,920 --> 01:09:23,319 You ain't ship else and I'm not nothing else. And I think that some 981 01:09:23,439 --> 01:09:26,960 of that time want to I don't want to be just the mon like, 982 01:09:27,119 --> 01:09:29,960 no, the mom, this is this is it? That should not be 983 01:09:30,039 --> 01:09:31,960 hard, bro, it ain't it ain't no. And I just feel like, 984 01:09:32,239 --> 01:09:34,880 like with us, I don't know, like it's just like a routine. 985 01:09:35,079 --> 01:09:39,399 Once I figure that ship out, it's just the routine and it's the 986 01:09:39,479 --> 01:09:42,800 same ship. It's the same for every day. And once I figured that 987 01:09:43,119 --> 01:09:45,840 out, it's just I think the best easy, the best thing for parents 988 01:09:45,880 --> 01:09:48,960 to do meal prep, but the hardest thing to do as a parent is 989 01:09:49,000 --> 01:09:53,800 meal prep because my kids don't want to eat the same shit. If if 990 01:09:53,840 --> 01:09:56,239 you make it, they ain't going to eat it. If you don't make 991 01:09:56,319 --> 01:09:58,880 it, they will. They will request it every fucking day. But if 992 01:09:58,920 --> 01:10:01,560 you think you're about to get smart and make a week worth of meals that 993 01:10:01,680 --> 01:10:05,399 you don't, don't. Yeah, don't do that. Don't plan ahead like 994 01:10:05,479 --> 01:10:09,439 that, because no, that's the hardest thing. Now you're mad, well, 995 01:10:09,479 --> 01:10:12,039 you ain't gonna eat man, and you know they're gonna eat, So 996 01:10:12,159 --> 01:10:15,000 don't even stretch yourselfs because you about to make something else. I don't even 997 01:10:15,039 --> 01:10:17,359 know. I'm so sick of my kids wanting chicken nuggets and fries because I'd 998 01:10:17,359 --> 01:10:20,359 be like, bro, ma made salmon and fucking afraid of go ahead, 999 01:10:20,479 --> 01:10:25,439 you're gonna eat these motherfuckers. I love it. You want nuggets, you 1000 01:10:25,520 --> 01:10:30,399 want fries, air fry on the air, friers smoking. Bro, We're 1001 01:10:30,399 --> 01:10:31,359 gonna make this right quick, and I'm gonna eat this. It's so it 1002 01:10:31,399 --> 01:10:34,199 is so easy, is the best. I put a motherfucking turkey burger in 1003 01:10:34,239 --> 01:10:40,600 that motherfuckeress burger ever made in my life. Bro. Pause that that was 1004 01:10:40,680 --> 01:10:43,680 just I was like, damn, you can just really make anything in this 1005 01:10:45,159 --> 01:10:49,560 I'll be cooking in that motherfucker. Boy, what air fry was the best 1006 01:10:49,600 --> 01:10:53,600 thing ship, the best thing that could have ever happened to a nigga? 1007 01:10:53,640 --> 01:10:56,880 Bro? Yeah, I mean it may it may being a parent way easier, 1008 01:10:58,039 --> 01:11:00,039 man, Just forget about it. I'm putting the whole meal in this 1009 01:11:00,159 --> 01:11:02,520 month. Forget about it. I need a bigger one. I need. 1010 01:11:02,720 --> 01:11:06,560 I need. I need one that I could put a plethora of. Right 1011 01:11:06,600 --> 01:11:10,000 now, I can only put like a burger and a few fries in one. 1012 01:11:10,079 --> 01:11:13,279 I got three kids. I need. I need one nigga that's the 1013 01:11:13,399 --> 01:11:18,000 size of a oven Moore, a nice little size one ship I'm gonna put 1014 01:11:18,000 --> 01:11:23,359 it. I could put mother fucking nuggets, tenders or nuggets, wings, 1015 01:11:23,439 --> 01:11:26,399 fries, and I'm put this one. Put several things in this motherfucker. 1016 01:11:26,439 --> 01:11:30,560 I'm gonna get it cracking. Yeah, because I'm trying to lose more weight, 1017 01:11:30,640 --> 01:11:33,199 and I think that they I keep saying on Instagram, motherfuckers making chicken 1018 01:11:33,279 --> 01:11:38,880 in that motherfucker or turkey perkers or b I'm tired of chicken. Bro. 1019 01:11:40,199 --> 01:11:44,159 I'm sick of chicken. Bro. I am I knew I was sick of 1020 01:11:44,279 --> 01:11:45,680 chicken nigga. I had a lemon pepper. I had a lemon pepper, 1021 01:11:45,680 --> 01:11:50,880 and I was like, man, that's the disgusting said, I'm changing chicken. 1022 01:11:51,479 --> 01:11:58,640 I'm sick of it. Chicken, chicken, French fries. I can 1023 01:11:58,720 --> 01:12:02,279 eat French fries with every goya do thing, salmon, salmon and fresh fries. 1024 01:12:02,800 --> 01:12:06,880 I'm saying, I'm just like this fish spirit fish, fish, fish, 1025 01:12:08,439 --> 01:12:13,600 chicken, chicken, fish, burgers, fries, pizza, spaghetti, 1026 01:12:13,720 --> 01:12:16,079 chili. Ship like that simple ship. Yeah, I'm trying to lose his 1027 01:12:16,159 --> 01:12:20,880 guts. Just name just made me feel fat. But I missed pizza. 1028 01:12:21,159 --> 01:12:24,800 I haven't had pizza. Well, fish fish should make you feel fat. 1029 01:12:25,039 --> 01:12:27,359 No fish though, Yeah, fish fish, it's too light. I'll be 1030 01:12:27,439 --> 01:12:30,239 hungry in thirty minutes, my mama, thirty more. I mean in gen 1031 01:12:30,319 --> 01:12:33,399 for ninety minutes. Then I might walk. I might take a forty five 1032 01:12:33,439 --> 01:12:38,079 minute walk. That's that's what I don't get, Like, I'll be hungry. 1033 01:12:38,279 --> 01:12:45,239 Motherfucker. Healthy food be nasty. Healthy food did just so fucking fast 1034 01:12:45,119 --> 01:12:48,960 like it, and that shit costs like a motherfucker. So it's like you 1035 01:12:49,039 --> 01:12:55,039 want me to spend extra money, more money own is good ship. That's 1036 01:12:55,159 --> 01:12:58,239 just gonna motherfucking get up out of me so fast. I'm gonna need some 1037 01:12:58,359 --> 01:13:02,840 more in me again. I think the trick is and I'm not getting as 1038 01:13:02,880 --> 01:13:06,199 big of a portion that I will get if I think the trick is. 1039 01:13:06,800 --> 01:13:12,800 I think the trick is like rice, rice, rice, or sweet potatoes, 1040 01:13:13,680 --> 01:13:16,199 rice and sweet potatoes to fill you up with the broccoli or whatever protein. 1041 01:13:16,560 --> 01:13:19,880 But I've just been I've been, I've been trying to stay with brown 1042 01:13:19,920 --> 01:13:27,960 beer. But I've been going to Meyer buying a roll of meat pause and 1043 01:13:28,119 --> 01:13:31,680 making it like like you would taco meat, and just putting it in the 1044 01:13:31,680 --> 01:13:35,039 refrigerator. And then when it's time for me to eat, I'll take that, 1045 01:13:35,520 --> 01:13:41,640 put it in a bowl. I'll take two cups of meat, put 1046 01:13:41,680 --> 01:13:46,279 it in a bowl, rice, a cup of rice, spinach and guawk 1047 01:13:47,199 --> 01:13:53,600 and piko, and I would just eat that. That should be. I'm 1048 01:13:53,640 --> 01:13:57,479 sick of eating that ship. But I'm I'm down, I'm down. Wait, 1049 01:13:58,000 --> 01:14:00,960 I don't give a fuck about food right now. The only reason that 1050 01:14:00,039 --> 01:14:02,720 I have to think of variations of food is because of these fucking kids. 1051 01:14:02,800 --> 01:14:06,720 But even then, they want the same fucking ship. Really, the biggest 1052 01:14:06,800 --> 01:14:12,199 problem, the biggest culprit of my fucking pain is my wife because this motherfucker 1053 01:14:12,279 --> 01:14:15,840 don't know what she wants. Never know what they want to eat. Never, 1054 01:14:15,159 --> 01:14:18,840 never, I don't. I don't like bro stop asking me. You 1055 01:14:19,000 --> 01:14:21,640 just want me to just be well, you should know what I won't know 1056 01:14:21,800 --> 01:14:25,840 because because I do know what you want. And then when I say that, 1057 01:14:25,960 --> 01:14:29,159 that ain't what you want. So what do you want? And I'm 1058 01:14:29,159 --> 01:14:31,359 not about to keep playing with you. I'm gonna treat you like these I'm 1059 01:14:31,359 --> 01:14:33,800 gonna treat you like these kids. You ain't gonna eat today, Okay, 1060 01:14:34,560 --> 01:14:38,439 that's what. That's what. That's what we go do. You ain't gonna 1061 01:14:38,439 --> 01:14:43,039 eat today. So I'm gonna ask you in the morning, what what you 1062 01:14:43,119 --> 01:14:47,079 want to eat today? You got to I get off to want to eat 1063 01:14:47,199 --> 01:14:50,359 and if you don't, you ain't gonna eat today. Need some cereal or 1064 01:14:50,399 --> 01:14:55,640 some ship beg going there, make some goddamn oatmeal or some noodles. I 1065 01:14:55,720 --> 01:14:59,880 swear to God because that's the hardest part. That's the hardest part is from 1066 01:15:00,079 --> 01:15:03,279 me. We can get about of here that I think for me, going 1067 01:15:03,359 --> 01:15:08,960 to the gym and then having to eat the same thing makes it hard for 1068 01:15:09,039 --> 01:15:12,640 me and my wife to have that what are we eating? Because she's not 1069 01:15:12,760 --> 01:15:16,000 counting calories or being mindful of calories. I ain't either. I need to 1070 01:15:16,079 --> 01:15:20,840 be and I don't even be thinking about what I'll be m Look up, 1071 01:15:21,119 --> 01:15:26,479 damn, it's ten o'clock. I need something. All day, I've been 1072 01:15:26,520 --> 01:15:30,680 snacking. I need some food. But yeah, I mean, I don't 1073 01:15:30,720 --> 01:15:32,239 know, but you, but you don't look like you're gaining weight like you 1074 01:15:32,479 --> 01:15:41,399 was a couple of years ago. I worked motherfucking in and out the vand 1075 01:15:41,439 --> 01:15:45,159 are got the dynasty for losing motivated me. She was I did was like 1076 01:15:45,279 --> 01:15:47,880 about to get in the gym. Dynasty lost a lot of work. That's 1077 01:15:47,920 --> 01:15:50,560 how we, that's how we. I just want to tone up, man. 1078 01:15:50,640 --> 01:15:57,800 I just want my I just want my abs back when six, I 1079 01:15:57,920 --> 01:16:02,039 just want my tighten my gus muscles up. Yeah, it's this big white 1080 01:16:02,199 --> 01:16:05,439 it's this big white, boky motherfucker in the gym. He ain't American, 1081 01:16:05,520 --> 01:16:10,840 but this motherfucker is his shoulders is bro. Yeah, I don't want to 1082 01:16:10,920 --> 01:16:13,159 be like that. I don't want to be crazy. I don't, but 1083 01:16:13,239 --> 01:16:16,399 I was like bro enough. Whenever I see a nigga in the gym with 1084 01:16:16,520 --> 01:16:20,479 a body like there's a body part pause that I like. I like how 1085 01:16:20,560 --> 01:16:25,640 you do that? And I ain't like that? And he told me motherfuckers, 1086 01:16:25,720 --> 01:16:27,560 was like yeah this And I said, bro, how you get this 1087 01:16:27,720 --> 01:16:30,359 the upper chest? He was like, you know, do the incline this. 1088 01:16:30,560 --> 01:16:34,520 I was like, I bet all the niggas that I follow on Instagram 1089 01:16:35,560 --> 01:16:42,920 works hey man, time Bees used to have me there. I was like, 1090 01:16:43,079 --> 01:16:45,840 damn did this ship when I was in high school? I wish I 1091 01:16:45,920 --> 01:16:49,119 wasn't in pain when I was trying to train with Bees. I was going 1092 01:16:49,159 --> 01:16:51,880 to that motherfucker. I was in so much pain, oh bro. But 1093 01:16:53,800 --> 01:16:56,239 he definitely knew what he was talking about. Bees definitely know what he's doing 1094 01:16:56,279 --> 01:17:00,199 with that ship. He over there short Ridge. They strength and conditioning and 1095 01:17:00,279 --> 01:17:03,960 all that ship about to be right. You like it over there? You 1096 01:17:04,079 --> 01:17:10,560 trying? He was, uh hollering at me with the football. Everybody been 1097 01:17:10,600 --> 01:17:13,359 trying to do that too, though. I've been thinking about it, though, 1098 01:17:14,079 --> 01:17:15,920 just do it? I mean really, I just be like, I 1099 01:17:15,960 --> 01:17:17,439 don't have a I don't have a son, so I just like I don't 1100 01:17:17,439 --> 01:17:20,800 know what. No I know, I know, but that ship takes a 1101 01:17:20,880 --> 01:17:26,239 lot of time, bro, and I pay probably not what I need to 1102 01:17:26,319 --> 01:17:29,640 be, you know what I'm saying. So that's why we said a lot 1103 01:17:29,680 --> 01:17:31,279 of people can do that ship because they got sons, and their sons are 1104 01:17:31,319 --> 01:17:34,079 there and their sons in there, so it's easier for them to be a 1105 01:17:34,199 --> 01:17:40,119 part of it, you know what I'm saying. But I've been thinking about 1106 01:17:40,119 --> 01:17:42,600 it. Look into that ship. Man might get paid more than what you 1107 01:17:42,680 --> 01:17:45,000 think, Mike, Yeah, might end up being good at it and go 1108 01:17:45,560 --> 01:17:49,840 fucking I wouldn't learn how to clear though. I've been thinking about that likely 1109 01:17:49,920 --> 01:17:56,159 too, I know, I just been thinking about it. Yea, go 1110 01:17:56,159 --> 01:17:59,600 to our school probably, man, I think think of something that I know, 1111 01:18:00,039 --> 01:18:03,359 motherfucker's gonna need always, and I think I think. I think because 1112 01:18:03,399 --> 01:18:09,640 you got such a huge network, I think it might benefit you, kind 1113 01:18:09,680 --> 01:18:14,319 of like Rachel. Yeah, kind of like Rachel, Rachel and yeah, 1114 01:18:14,439 --> 01:18:18,600 the hardest females in here to cut me when you're gonna ask niggas will want 1115 01:18:18,640 --> 01:18:21,800 to come see it, and you just cut their hair. They really can 1116 01:18:21,880 --> 01:18:28,640 cut though, like I really yeah, Like it helps to break for sure, 1117 01:18:29,239 --> 01:18:32,039 but then we do really good because I say it, like Rachel Fire, 1118 01:18:32,479 --> 01:18:39,039 I see her come from the beginning. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 1119 01:18:39,239 --> 01:18:43,840 shout out to Jamar he ain't slick is one of her first ones too. 1120 01:18:44,039 --> 01:18:45,720 Yeah, it's just my dog man. All right, man, let's get 1121 01:18:45,760 --> 01:18:48,359 up. I'm hungry as hell. Hell, I'm trying to think what I'm 1122 01:18:48,359 --> 01:18:51,479 about to eat. Thank y'all so much listening to the Ignoran philosophy. Man, 1123 01:18:51,479 --> 01:18:54,920 I really do appreciate you all. We do appreciate you'll. We're doing 1124 01:18:54,920 --> 01:18:57,399 the niggas doing it like that, Jared. I am Eric Dizzy. You 1125 01:18:57,439 --> 01:19:00,199 can follow me on Instagram at Ericdizzy dot audio, and I'm here with my 1126 01:19:00,239 --> 01:19:01,960 brother Keenan. Mister, who the fuck are you used to? Who the 1127 01:19:02,039 --> 01:19:04,239 fucking you? Twitter? Instagram? You know what I'm saying. Rich A 1128 01:19:04,359 --> 01:19:09,560 Really Expensive? Three one seven Instagram. The link of the link for rich 1129 01:19:09,600 --> 01:19:12,520 A Really Expensive is Lincoln is in the bio, both of the bios, 1130 01:19:12,760 --> 01:19:15,920 Twitter, Facebook, everywhere, it is everywhere. We'll see you next time, manh