Hello, Welcome to another episode of Ignorant Philosophy. I am Eric Dizzy,
the host of this here podcast, and to my this side, it's my
brother and mister. Who the are you come on? Toyamas boom boom boom
boom boom boom boom boom boom boom May mo keen may mo may a a
mo may a mok man man a mo maya mo ma mo okay may your
mo y'all don't know my name? After the ship Yary Yarya. That ship
was the ship cause that Nigga was so anxious, that Nigga was so thirsty.
Oh me ship this ten ten? Where you being? You talking about?
Bitch? I've been waiting. A woman is definitely gonna screenshot the fucking
Siri interpolation of your fucking voicemail and post you on her timeline and be like,
look at this motherfucker. Sh don't know man, modest? Where you
being? Did you get my message? What do you say? Your your
what do you say? Did you get my message? Yours? That I've
been thinking that I've been thinking that's the worst one. You like a girl?
I don't remember this is me? You like the girl when you like
the girl, and she had a life, so you will be texting her,
man, she ain't answering and replying to you. And when y'all finally
do talk, she kind of anti social a little bit, so she yeah,
so she she got a wall up, so you gotta break down the
wall. So you know, you gotta fight for her attention, and then
you when you got her attention, you gotta figure out what language to speak
to this motherfucking order to get her to talk back to These are the bro.
It's a lot, bro. That's why the niggas is writing songs.
I forgut, what well catch you got might got an orange one, she
might got a black one. Once they start opening up, that's when you
realize, I don't like you. I don't like you like I thought I
did. A bitch, I've been liking all your picks, crushing on you
for all these years, and I like you more than when you didn't talk,
When you didn't talk and I didn't know you. Yeah, that'd be
the worst, because I'm pretty sure that women feel the same way. Yeah
for sure, I know it. They probably a nigga they thought was something
and then they'd be like this nigga really lame. He's really a stalker.
And you knew this? Did you hear about the girl that that fucking uh
set her tender date on fire Man? I seen the video. I didn't
really know the back I didn't know the backstore. Now I've seen the video.
I guess it was like he was sitting at a table damn there or
something, and she just walked up and started dumping ship on the nigga.
And then next thing you know, I just see her walk out and I
just see him running with just in flames, just running up, running out
at the building. That's crazy, bro, because I should be able to
beat your ass after But what is the why? What put somebody on fire
nuts date? Like, we don't even do nothing to you yet, but
when you didn't even break your lie to you yet give me a few months,
a few weeks, I'm a lie to you. No, That's why
I'll be saying, like people's people's mental health, Like people in my family
be posting. I got a family that live in Florida and they post the
most beautiful pictures, the most inspirational quotes on social media and ship like that.
And over Thanksgiving, you just find out that you really ain't like them
posted. I think they are, but they're trying to I guess foreshadow how
they really want to feel. But yeah, but they going through and I'm
like, damn, I would have never known. So when you when you
liking somebody, the mental health of a person is not clearly displayed on their
social media, and there know how to cover that ship up. Yeah,
I mean, because I think I think quite as kept. People have been
lying about how they truly feel about everybody and everything way before social media became
social media. My homeboy, cup Cupbox was telling me about his daughter and
how she keeps getting into it at school because you know that there was a
there was a shooter at l C. Yeah, after the game. After
the game started, they started dumping at the school and my niece was there
and uh, Cupbox daughter was I know a couple of people. Yeah,
he go to Warren but he he be shoot shooting. Yeah, he was
there when she her mental health is now fucked up because her brother died of
gun violence. And she'd be on he said that back to what we're talking
about. He said that she'd be on the online and on the phone talking
crazy and I told him, I said, I think that people today believe
that social media and real life do not coexist. I feel like people comment
and say things and things is just gonna stay there, stay there. I
think the only time she get real, the only time that from my experience,
the only time that social media did not really exist, like real life
and social media didn't exist is black Planet in my space Planet in space because
you can still you were talking to motherfuckers. You didn't know who they was,
where they was from. It wasn't a live video what none of you
still and it was like still being a kid though, like on them pages
because music and you know what I'm saying, you're saying it was more it
was it was childish. Yeah, it was childish, like you can you
can decorate your page and you know what I'm saying, Like that rooms and
didn't know who they was talking. I remember Facebook like at first you had
to be invited to that motherfucker. Yeah. I think a lot of websites
are going to get to a point to where, uh, they want you
to use your idea as verification. I know that Patreon has asked for that,
Facebook has asked for that. Facebook and Instagram has asked for that.
And I think a lot of other websites man ship gotter be crazy. They
just try so much ship in this world. I think that that I'm what
do you do? You feel like they should or you should? Would you
would? You know? I mean, I'm just saying, like just everything,
like robots, just all kinds of ship take this ship. Eventually,
bro, there ain't gonna be no jobs for motherfuckers. I feel like we
are the robots, and I think, I mean, hell yeah. And
I got hot during COVID and we was like, yo, we might actually
be the robots. The robots, we are the working machines. Because if
you think about it, like if so let's take money out of the equation,
this is some black mirror ship. So I just was thinking something like
this, just take money out of the you know what I'm saying, if
you take if you take money out of the equation, somebody, what we're
doing is valuable to the higher being rather it be aliens, rather it be
I don't know, whatever you want to call the higher being, the people
that are in charge. If you take money out of it and it's not
current and maybe souls or I don't know, I don't know what the currency
is or why or what they want us to actually be doing. I haven't
come. I haven't figured that part out yet. But if you think about
a motherfucker that can self replicate and self heal, like if you humans are
extremely alien like, like if you if you said, Okay, I'm gonna
cut you, I'm at and it's gonna growin. Is gonna hit the younger
you are, the quicker, it's gonna be. The healthier, art the
quicker it's gonna be. But will you put two in the room. They
can replicate it. They can replicate over and over and over and over and
over and over and over and over again. You can, and you can
put fear in them. You can. You can teach them how to be
motherfucking tree choppers or whatever you can do. You can make them be whatever
it is that you want them to be. You can make them kill each
other, you can make them fucking do whatever you want and then just let
them walk freely over. Yeah, I'll say ship, carry on time.
I say women. I always say women aliens because they and men out there.
If you don't have any kids, if you've never seen a woman go
through her alien like, well you got a whole human growing and and do
you bleed for days like that motherfucker is sucking the life outs. That is
crazy, making your ankles fat, your nose big as hell, or heartburn
like a motherfucker. Like just the things that, yeah, it's crazy.
Yeah, and then just having a baby like it's just I saw a video
on Instagram where a guy was saying to his baby mom slash girlfriend. I
don't know if they were still together, but he it was like when she
was pregnant, he didn't want he wasn't attracted to her like that. Something
along those lines that he wasn't attracted to her like that because with the way
that they used to kick, it used to be like friendship ships. So
they would go out drink, smoke, and then blah blah blah blah,
couldn't do nothing and they couldn't do none of that, and then she was
like, damn. I felt the exact opposite because we was hanging out still,
We was going instead of drinking, We was going to the beach,
we was taking walks, were doing all of these type of things, and
I felt and I feel like for me it's different because I'm married. But
when my wife was pregnant with Dorian and the twins. I thought she was
beautiful, even though her nose and it was fair. I thought it was
beautiful because you carrying my seed in there. I would do anything for you.
But to hear a man's perspective on a woman carrying your child and you
not wanting to stick dick up in there, it's crazy to me. That's
wild. Yeah, because I'm just definitely wild because now, nigga, what
you did it before that and the Gucci way better now, nigga, So
what you what? You? What? You what you're doing? He's tripping?
Yeah, I think a lot of he's tripping. I had a conversation
with a I had a conversation with a woman, and I told her that
I understand. I understand why baby mamas hate trash baby daddies like going through
a pregnancy by yourself. That's why. That's why that women, you gotta
be more careful about who y'all have sex with because niggas is trash. I'm
just gonna put it. Niggas is just trash. They are trash. I
understand that the world understand that we men are just men could be very,
very selfish and very inconsiderate. Yes, I got that, we can't be
that, But to think that a woman goes through a whole pregnancy with no
help from the dude that knocked her up and then give birth and then come
home and got to be a mom and then start they will postpartum and go
to work and all the type of shit. And then this nigga want to
have just have the baby every other weekend and then you have a baby with
him again your fault? Fuck like that you Yeah, I'm saying that because
no, like, yes, niggas is trash, but these bitches mindsets be
trashed too, Like I'm sorry, Like y'all women put themselves in a lot
of these fucking situations, bro, Like because why And I'm just nothing like
because why? Because my thought process is, if you are that smart,
why did you do it again with the same person, the same person?
But then again, why why did you? I remember I got into it
with a friend of mine and she was calling to me to complain about one
of my niggas and I had to listen to it because I felt obligated to
because I am your friend. I've been in that situation more his friend.
So watch what you say, swear to God, don't get too disrespectful.
But letting you, letting you vent, I'm cut you off for fifteen minutes
and thirty seven seconds into this shit, I said, Hey, out of
all of the you have been dating since you were sixteen, you are now
thirty four, thirty four, and you still wing through the same shit.
Not even that, but why did you throw away everything you learned about niggas
when you started fucking with this one, regardless if this is my nigga or
not. Why did you allow yourself to be as dumb as you were or
as dumb as you are when it came to him QUI because I thought he
would be. I see, why are you thinking you should have used the
information that you have gathered from the collection of niggas, like for real?
Like why did you allow? And then a lot of women do that?
But then my question to you is do you feel like men? Do you
feel like men go through the same things that women go through when it comes
to dating as far as being played manipulated? We can't. They can't.
They can't. They can't get us pregnant and dash on us. No,
they can't do that. They death can't do that, but they play all
day. They use niggas, they use niggas, use them like what I've
never been used. I haven't, But I can't speak on that. I
haven't because I'm not going I'm not going to allow it. But I feel
like if you are a man, a female with death trying to play you,
but if she gets to play you, then you should be playing.
Yeah, you should be playing. That's why it's gumps out here, for
sure. There's a lot of gumps out here that fall for that ship,
the free dates, the the just doing ship for a motherfucker, and they're
really not fucking with you. Like That's why I'm but who, But who's
whose responsibility is it to when it comes to dating? I guess my question
is who's responsibility is to protect themselves? Like if somebody is if the way
the world's set up today both sizes, is them trying to protect themselves,
That's probably why it's just so fucked up. There's no trust out here at
all. So you know, it's a very interesting I'm trying to word,
I've never been I've never really been lost for words like That's why you see
a lot of people going back to their old things because they're just more comfortable,
like, yeah, I mean we've been through so much, you might
as well. Shitna try to fix this ship, work the ship out type
shit. I know you, you know me. You know what I'm saying.
The starting over things, Yeah this is they're not on that. But
I don't know, man, relationships, It's just it's different. It's different
now forge all that ship. You're ready for Christmas? Yeah, you're ready
for You're ready for Christmas or you're ready for Christmas to be over. I'm
ready for Christmas. I like seeing the kids open the ship. I remember
how I used to feel on christs It used to be my favorite. Dear
bitch ass nigga, bitch ass niggas, that's me. You didn't come get
your cookies. That's how I feel about Christmas. You not real. I
stayed up all night to watch you come through the chimney and you never came.
That's how I feel about Christmas. I'm trying to change. I'm trying
to change, actually trying to change how I feel about Christmas because I have
kids now, but I just feel like me, I never really had a
great Christmas, not one, so now so I feel like fuck now now
I'm an adult, and now it's not the focus is on my children.
But I never really got my Christmas. I need, I need my Christmas.
So I guess I'm I guess I'm I'm guess I'm hating my kids because
the motherfuckers be they gonna be happy. Bro, they get everything like they
mam must be only too. So shout out to the good mind the families.
Yeah, shout out to the good mind. Women be giving good ass
presents. Women. Women are good up, Bro, A good woman is
good. I'm happy none of that miserable ship in my life. Bro.
I thank God for that all the time, like she could be worse.
I have. I have moments, but just like miserable moments, frustrated moments,
frustrated moments with the baby mamas. But other than that, they do
my dogs. I feel like I'm just so grateful that I don't have the
baby mamas that that some people got. Yes, yes, boy, some
of these baby mamas are flucked, and I thank God that my baby mamas
they always there, but they always fluck though, Like I'm sure, I'm
sure. I used to look at some people mamas and their mamas used to
be on bullshit. It ain't just start. You're a date of the girl
with a fluck bob or messed with a girl with a girl with a fluck
mom. Nah. Not not all the ones, nah, any of the
ones that I was serious with. Nah cool, I ain't if I ain't
like that, we were just fucking. I ain't mean Chibama didn't want to
make got a question, but I don't know how to word it without signing
and sensitive. But here we go. Would I was dating a girl and
her mom's mental health was awful, like months of depressive states, like in
the bed for months weeks at a time. It's awful. It's awful ship,
And unconsciously I made the decision that I would never take her serious because
of that, because I felt like, you feel like it's gonna run for
her one thousand, especially if you're around that ship all the time. It
might one Oh man, I'm cool. I don't. Some people don't even
realize that they are the draining friend. Like I'll be like, bro,
sometimes I don't even ask my phone. I swear I'm sorry, but I
know who I know because you're about to call him with something, because you
only called me with something with a story or something. I hear that ship.
Bro, God damn, always something the same ship. You just gonna
keep going on with the ship. I'll be like, bruh, my grandma
told me this ship in two thousand and nine. I'll never forget it.
I was like, man, I just feel like this is when I was
complaining about everything. Life was just trash. I was like, man,
I just feel like y'all don't give a fuck. So I just don't feel
like She said, well, baby, you know, it's out of sight,
out of mind. And I didn't want to hear that. And I
said, what, I feel like I'm drowning and I don't feel like y'all
ever. I don't even feel like y'are trying to really save me. She
said, we can't save you. We y'all drowning. I said, oh,
oh, oh oh. That changed mind. You're going through it too,
that's and that and that changed my whole That line right there just made
me stop venting to people like that. It made me because it was like,
oh, everybody's looking for a life saver right now. Everybody. Everybody
is looking for somebody to throw something in the water and help them. Saying
rather that be an extra few hundred dollars a week, of extra few hundred
dollars a month, rather it be more hours of the job. Everybody try
to stay afloat everybody trying to stay said. And that's back then, so
especially now now, it's crazy. Everything so fucking hot. I bought these
mother fucking Jordan's yesterday. Then business was two forty six. I'm so hurt.
I'm happy because I really wanted them. It's my birthday gift to me.
Yeah, so, but shit, to forty six is crazy When I
say, god, damn, what the fuck? Last year, it's been
buying Jordan's feet your whole life. I don't bomb like I used to,
though now if I really want them, your feet stopping. I'm ten and
a half, maybe eleven, depending on the shoe. So you got shoes
from when you was nigga eighteen? Nah, when I was in high school,
I think I was like a nine nine and a half. You wasn't
eighteen in high school. I was, well, I graduated. You might
know you probably seventeen eighteen. Yeah, I was eighteen. No, I
probably was seventeen. I think I turned eighteen when I was so even wearing
the same side shoe for maybe what what do you think since probably two thousand
nine ten, so you still so you still have shoes from there? Nah,
My nephews used to come take ship and put my ship on when I
was at school and come back and fucking ship up. I'm still mad about
some shit they fucked up. I'll be man, Why you make me think
about that ship. I'm pissed they fucked some ship up of mine. Yeah,
I mean, try to say the game. I know I did,
but damn you know you just come back, mo fucker you just seeing motherfucker
you like column Is that you expected to put that ship on? Yeah?
You just looking Nah, motherfucker come over and you just looking like, damn
it, looking like my motherfucking shoes, my pants, You got my whole
fucking bro What the fuck? They know? And they know and they know,
and they like, I just was worrying, I'm gonna throw you something,
and you just looking like, nigga, you ain't gonna throw me ship.
I might throw these hands. Bitch for my mom about the shot I
never had that. I never had that, I never had the older they
got boy, and they then they got my size motherfucking ship. Start coming
up, missing us to go and visit your mom and come up, shout.
Used to be talking to my mom on the phone. Yeah, telling
them touch ship. Put a lock on that motherfucking door. Hear me,
don't touch nothing. You still got some of the games from back in the
day. I mean I got Xbox. You know what I'm saying, like
sixty four and Ship. No, I don't got no ship. What happened
to it? Ain't no telling. Probably got it. I know my Xbox
ones and all that ship. I took that ship shot. I wasn't playing
that ship a moment. I got the new Xbox. What game are you
playing? Two K? Call of Duty? Waiting for that grand there?
I don't come out. Twenty twenty five, they got us fucked. That
motherfucker is selling from Instagram. Put it on mother. Motherfucker said, uh,
all about that grand theft. Follow that, Nigga said, I ain't.
I'm gonna stop selling drugs. And Nigga said, I'm gonna stay out
the street. I'm out. I'm gonna stop eat McDonald's and win these I'm
about to go and get some broccolin for what they said. They try to
live twenty five, I don't know where to all about that, all about
that that crazy bro that ship looked crazy and people, and people ain't noticed
every if you look at the trailer, every scene that they had, like
from the from the motherfucking police or whatever, it is a control pulling out
the gators all Florida ship, this ship that happened, like that really happened.
They just put it in the game. What's crazy is that I didn't
know. I haven't played. Uh, I haven't played Grand Theft Fotos since
I mean, five is still ship. Motherfucker is still playing. I know,
but I ain't play since three. Yeah, five, I didn't play,
so I didn't Plaything Andres, I didn't play Vice City. I didn't
play none of that. So we just playing. We was playing Summer of
O three and then once the what I think Vice City came after that.
I didn't play Vice City, but I didn't know that niggas was still playing
five boy as ship. They they've been updating that month. Bro. That
ship you can you can have we houses, you can have clubs, you
can have banks, you can own all that ship and do all the world's
intertwine. It's people, it's it's online. So people everywhere, so so
I can't it be little white dots on there. There'll be other motherfuckers.
I stopped playing that ship because you couldn't never do ship because niggas be just
coming trying to kill you. Bro. Like as soon as they see there,
they coming to kill you. Bro, it's over like or you gotta
kill them. I remember what fucking got me on there one time. I'm
just on there playing with myself and ship, and motherfucker like, hey,
you and licoln talking like shit, follow me. I don't follow this nigga,
Bro, I'm just following this nigga. But they turned the corner.
It's a gang. Ain't gonna smoked me. They take your money off kind
of ship. But I'm like, hell, now, what do you respond
at the hospital? What if you get locked up when you respond and be
jail? What? Bro? And then you got people like let's start their
own little ship now I want to play the ship. They ship fun in
a bit? What is it? It's basically like Grand Theft Auto, but
it's it's they stream like his own stream type ship. But it's the Grand
Theft follow though, But it's everything on there, really the bit they got
that's crazyzy my cleric goes the chargers like everything they have is real life.
Ship you go to jail on there. I wish that nigga kept trying to
break out. I saw a video he said five million, somebody can get
me like all that ship, bro, Like it's crazy. When I saw
the Grand Theft auto trailer, I was just like, this is had a
bitch on the car tworking. If if they make it to where you put
VR on, it's over. If you could put a vo if you could
put a VR headset on and Grand thefto six a g t A six,
if you put it, if you could put a v VR head set on
to where you are that person? You are that person niggas has never come
out the house, bro, never coming out. Never come at the house,
bro never They never come out the house because it's it's hard to get
motherfuckers out of the house. Now they need to do that with motherfucker two
K with my player. Nah, it's too difficult. That shipped them to
be hard on a bitch. How would they would they make a ball?
They can make the ball and everything, the controllers are everything in the same.
It probably would be hard to play like that. Though, yeah,
because you have to play with the I guess you. I don't know,
it just had to be you have to play by yourself. You wouldn't be
able to play with teams like that because you, I don't know, Yeah,
maybe you could TV. The only game I've been playing lately is a
m K one. I told myself that I was I wasn't allowing to play
more to combat when I played one hard it is spider Man, so I
bought. I bought MK eleven right before it was on sale because the MK
one was coming out. And then, uh, I got really good.
I ain't say I got really good. I got good enough that I would
beat motherfuckers if if I played them in person. But I try to play
online, and the mother new online online anything. If you're playing rank motherfuckers
is over. Then mother, that motherfucker beat me so fast. Pause that
mother. And they was sitting And what's crazy is I could feel what they
were thinking as they was beating my ass because I was throwing ship and they
was like they was like counting and then they and then they stood back,
and I guess they was waiting on me to swing. But then I was
too scared because everything I did, they was bro. That was the first
and last time I ever played online. Now I'm not playing you motherfuckers,
and nothing online online. Motherfuckers be cheating, bro. The last time I
played the fucking Madden Online, a motherfucker hit me with a direct snap to
the receiver. Motherfucker said hunt and the receiver had the ball broke one tackle
score. I cut that ship out. What the fuck was that? It
wasn't a good like I'm nothing. Yeah, I'll be playing the storyline for
more m K one. I know this is some nerve talk, but that
ships so far. I'm captivated by this motherfucking story, bro, And they
made it longer because I used to be a gamer. I used to play
all kinds of games like that, like metal Gear, Solids, all that
type of ship, Max Payne, sh me all. I used to play
like all the game games. Now, no, just give me sports,
no fighting. I want to fight. I still play my old boxing game.
I played two K and shoot and give me m K one. I'm
on that motherfucker. And then when I beat that, I don't know what
I'm gonna do because I don't want to. I don't want to. I
don't want to play anything else, I don't want to. I don't want
to play without a storyline. I need a storyline. I like storyline.
Game, Yeah, I need I need a storyline. So I wish more
to comebat to come out with this fire ass battling storyline joint. But mm
hmmm, speaking of niggas getting punched, Charleston White got punched up on stage.
How I feel about that? I mean, I fuck with Charleston man,
I really do, like I fuck with him a little more than I
used to. But I mean, you gotta come in like motherfuckers be starting
ship and then try to it's frail like he always starting ship and then try
to play the victim type ship. That's what I don't like. I love
it, no, because then we get mad at other motherfuckers that do it.
We do women the fuck or whoever like Karen's and ship you know what?
Like yeah that, but don't start shipping. And then when the mother
fucker get on your ass, you want to try to like you going to
jail now, no or not? This nigga threw a planet. The niggahad
I got a green thumb. I want to try to harm you. I'm
trying to take myself trying to knock his head with that microphone. You know,
I like Charleston White because he takes some real ship, though sometimes most
of the ship the time, most of the time, I feel like I
connect with the ship because I was watching Boys in the Hood. I started
watching Boys in the Hood the other day. I swear it's gonna make sense,
and for the first time I identified with Trey, but not Trey who's
kimming good and the junior's characters. Trey, I find like that was the
character. Like I know that, I know the movie is from his point
of view. I understand that, but it didn't dawn on me that we
are like that, like we in the we in the trenches, but our
parents are way different from y'all parents. The ship that everybody's parents was different.
Everybody's parents was different. And the nigga's parents who either was on drugs
or or just didn't give before then, like Doboy Machine Bro, I just
was thinking about ya. Tr houses here. It was a nigga that stayed
here and he ended up going to jail for running somebody over Jerome. I
was thinking about him. I was I started just thinking about thinking about think
like that all time. I would think about all the niggas from him.
I was like, damn, like we all in the same environment, really,
Arthur, where the funk was his mama? Do you remember Arthur?
He used to man, I know I used to steal around you talking about
but I swear to guy, can't picture with that name. Bro. He
was all talking menace to society, but he was so bro. He was.
He used to steal cars and just go on high speed chases through the
neighborhood and ship. And I asked somebody about it. It was like,
yeah, he got killed. I mean, I will figure that Corey Matthew
rest in peace, Matthew. Bro. I was thinking in my head like,
bro, savage, Bro, we lost a lot of motherfuckers, Bro,
And we was outside playing at the same park, smoking the same weed,
chasing the same girls, going to the same school. But your environment
inside of this environment was totally fucking different. And people parents was deaf different.
Bro, they was fucking I cut that shit off so goddamn fast because
I was like, oh no, no, no, And it's crazy,
Like if you like thinking about it now, looking at the parents, you
can see why certain people was the way they was one thousand percent, brocause
I was thinking about Uh, I hate to say people's names because I don't
know they listened or not. Really don't want to be disrespectful like Yonny and
them. They situation like just to see them come out of that, and
then they sister die giving birth, Bro, I was like, what the
old girl he used to have to fucking I know this how you know we
really know each other? Old girl used to have a house party, bro,
or the light skinned girl who used to hang out with U. But
Brandy they got burned up in the car Brandy, Yeah, yeah, yeah,
I remember. I remember that whole situation. Bro. I'm thinking in
my head, like, Bro, we really we should be going to therapy.
I've been I've been actually thinking about it, like God damn, Bro,
Like we just we just went through the ship and was like, Oh,
that's just growing up in the hood, like my brother being killed,
like all that shit. I forgot. That was my first funeral I ever
went to. I didn't even know how that shit worked, you know what
I'm saying, Like, we walked in there and all I know is nineteen
two thousand and one, he got killed in Georgia. Remember that so it
was. And the ship was crazy because me and Jamar was just leaving Ma
Cho Cred and We're getting chased by that child and were playing you know what
I'm saying, We running the house, We running the house, laughing and
ship and I'm and my mom and right there when they tell me he just
got shot. I remember that. So it was just like vividly. But
it was like because you had to go down there. Nah nah, they
shipped them here. Okay, they had the funeral here and ship, but
it was just crazy, like no, Jennika went down there, yeah,
lived, she lived there here, so yeah, the ship was That ship
was crazy. That was the first one I ever went to though, so
and I feel like I've been fucked up ever since for real though Low was
the keys when I feel like I didn't really want I didn't. This ain't
even on the fucking docket. But we went to Derek's mom passed and she
had they had the funeral and Gary. Yeah, they had the funeral and
Gary and I had. The last time I was there was for a funeral,
was for Grandma for a mama, And that was the last time I
had seen a lot of niggas. So that whole process kind of put me
in a in a weird space because now Misha's mom's house is the funeral house.
So the last time I was there was for a funeral. Then I
went back for a funeral. But this time I'm older and more emotional,
So we're gonna be more emotional life. So we're driving through We're driving through
Gary, and I'm like, why the fuck do y'all still live here?
Bro? Why do y'all still why do y'all still come here? I just
was saying this because every every Gary motherfucker I know still drives to Gary every
weekend or every other weekend. And I'd be like, there's no way.
I was me and me, there's no way. He had a conversation about
going there like that, and we was like, why the fuck did our
parents, Donna and my mama moved us from Gary and then sent us back
every fucking summer? What the fun? This is not where I want to
be for the summer, not even but why the fun would you move us
away from this ghetto ass back every summer every summer? Bro? What?
But no, I don't want to be here in the summer, Like we
only get the had fun in the living room. That's swear to God.
I swear to God. Damn, I'm not going nowhere. The last time,
the last summer that I spent the Geary, my cousin Bro, his
his daddy died. Bro. His daddy died the year prior got shot,
died in the car. His little brother died the same exact way, in
the same exact neighborhood. Bro got shot and died in a fucking car.
And I'm there they telling him this shit, and it didn't He was already
fucked up from his daddy, so this shit didn't really process to him.
So I'm near the whole summer. At the end of the summer, Shorty
down the street, come down, come down and say yo, her and
her mama go down and say yo, she pregnant. And then I'm like,
all right, damn, this is crazy because he's two or three years
younger than me. I get home. They said, oh, the girl
around the corner it's pregnant too, So he got two kids, Damn,
Bro. A week apart today a week I said, this type of environment
is that God? Uh No, that's called no condoms. I don't know
what the fuck you lose to people, then you gain no, that's our
situation. So HER's dad and sister died and then we had the twins right
after that she was pregnant. But I feel like, I feel like,
how the fuck do we expect people to overcome trauma like that? Like crazy?
Like because some people really go through some ship being right, being all
kinds of ship growing up and y'all and motherfuckers be expecting to just be Okay,
I'm listening to this book called The Body Keeps the Score shout out the
cupbox of telling me to read it, and it was basically saying it's basically
about trauma and how people deal with trauma, and they were and it got
on the subject that people and their teachers and how the teacher might unknowingly remind
a victim of their the past or or the person that does the harming.
So you go to school, abuser, Yeah, the abuser dan that it's
crazy. You go to school and your teacher has the same might wear the
same cologne or the same perfume, and have the same manner hythms and remind
you of your abuser, and now you're acting out because you're scared, Like
the motherfucker might come behind you and grab your shoulders, so now you're doing
all I said. Oh, I didn't even fucking think of none of this
ship, bro, because it was definitely some some crazy ass kids in fucking
school when I was in Gary that was fucking going crazy, bro. And
I'm thinking in my head if niggas daddy's in jail, mama's on drugs,
or fucking got random niggas in and out of the house and ship, it's
just bro. I don't know how we got on this subject, but when
you think about these are the people out here on Tinder, on Facebook,
on Instagram leaving like yo, I don't even really want to even have I
don't even want to you not when I'm leaving comments on Instagram, I'm not
even thinking that a fucking victim might be reading this ship and interpreting what I'm
saying what I'm saying and then start feeling some type of and then now they
now they coming at me, and now they saying and this, I'm like,
yeah, because you see it like some comments, I'll just be reading
and I'll be like, damn, why they just I'd be like, how
the fuck did you get there from? That what what it was you even
thinking about? You're the problem. See you're you're like, it'll be something
about whatever it is. And then somebody had come comment feeling some type of
way about what was said, and then they not even really reading what the
fuck was saying. You just automatically jump off the fucking legs. Yeah for
everybody, like and then you didn't read. You obviously didn't cut in the
red. What this trying to have. I'll be trying to have sympathy for
motherfuckers because you just never know. Like I know, Gary ain't the worst,
but ship it's up there, but that flint like flint like New Orleans
down in Alabama certain places. Bro, it's crazy and niggas is should be
different. Motherfuckers be raised different. They like with Kodak bro like Kodak bro
Sh'S sad bro watching watching around them. They they gotta be on the same
ship he owned, because otherwise I don't think they will be letting him do
that ship Like Yeah, it just seems it seems like when you when you
see somebody like somebody I love, I don't give a fuck. I'm talking
if I found out that any of my niggas ever did crack or god damn
heroin or meth. I will beat they ass. Bro, I'm gonna talk
bad to you all that ship brouse. That's probably not the best route there.
It's not what I'm doing it because brother, what the fuck is you
are? My niggas? We don't. We don't move like that my niggas.
And well, I think, I think, I think. I don't
know how a person will receive that, but I do think that you showing
them that, hey, I love you? Why are you doing this?
A lot of the times niggas just BECAU lot of the times victims can't can't
don't receive the love. They do not see it. They they don't.
My mom didn't love me, so why would you love me? But that
ain't got ship to do with that, nigga, that's what they be saying.
Yeah, I know, but y'all tripping like no. I will be
pissed if I found out that they would not. Just never really understood how
motherfucker can stick a needle in the on to get high or or like the
it's too pooky ish to me, Like I mean, I just I don't
know. I don't get it because I see other ships and I be like,
oh no, I'm cool. I would know, but I guess niggas
be getting high tomb numb the pain because like like I said, Kodak,
we know that Nigga had to be grown. He was then there about nine
ten, you know what I'm saying, Like, so that's different, motherfucker
seeing motherfuckers get killed. Or I also feel like those type of people should
not be able to make music, bro, because why are you singing these
harm these a lot of this trauma, this trauma melody. He do say
some ship sometimes like the Perk, even though he said he shouldn't said that
ship. Uh I knew that that ship. But other than that, like
motherfucks we listening to Kodak, Kodak be on some real ship with his music,
like the messages and ship that he be trying to just be basically what
he go through and ship like that. Kodak is really intelligent. That's why
it's fucked up, and people know that like most of them, niggas is
intelligent, most of them. Most of the trauma feel niggas and women be
like once you get like Sukiyana, right, yeah, I feel like if
you turn the cameras off and just sit with her. She's probably the most
intelligent person in the room. Sweet yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah. But she just got an image to I don't even know if this
I've never met somebody that is that intelligent. I've met I've met a troubled
woman before, and I understand that she was very intellectual. She was very
smart, but she was very guarded and so much so that she kind of
guarded the best attributes of herself from the world. So nobody knew she would
have a job, come home, door thing, she will go to the
club, maybe here and there, but you still wouldn't be able to see
the best attributes of this woman. And but I've never met somebody like that
was like a rapper or a model or something like you know what I'm saying,
I've never met that type of Uh. I ain't gonna say, I
guess damaged woman because I don't know if it's a I don't know if it's
a personality that that they're trying to push or character they're trying to push,
or said she just herself. I'm not gonna change. Like when she's doing
red Red carp or whatever. She was at vm A, she was doing
she doing. She like shit, I ain't think I was gonna be here
and I probably will never be here again, So I'm gonna be me.
I'm a clown. Motherfucker. Don't funk with her, And I funk with
her because I respect the motherfucker that's gonna be real with herself like that,
And they trying to say whatever they want to say about it. But everything
she does, she still be just fucking with her nigga like it ain't like
she just got her fucking everybody or whatnot, you know, for kissing her
nothing for real. And she she even said that like I ain't mean for
you know what I'm saying him to get that type of backlass like that,
like he's a he's a sweet guy, he's cool. He was never nothing
like that. But you know, social media takes ship and just that's why
that's why i'd be like, I'm cool, I'll be famous because I ain't.
I know me, I ain't nothing. I'm getting motherfucker's pressing charges on
me because I'm hitting niggas in their mouth. Bitch nigga getting too disrespectful.
I'm gonna find you. I will find you. Won't find you I will
find you reminds me of the the motherfuckers that was putting uh the vr headsets
on and getting raped in there or getting killed in there. You heard about
that m niggas is putting them vr head really died. I'm just dying on
the So niggas is they're supposed to be in like the metaverse. It is,
it was a metaverse. That's just some weird ass ship. To me,
man, that's some weird creepy that the motherfucker that made that is the
motherfucker with the sex dolls. That's why I'm trying to tell you that them
type of motherfuckers. Bro. I'm telling you that. But but you just
said it though. That's what they do in Grand theft Odle. So it's
not gonna be any different if you go into the metaverse just because we in
just because the look like the Sims and not Grand theft Oto niggas think it's
gonna be friendly niggas is going into a club, definite, not friendly niggas
club with their headset on and getting poked, shooting, shooting this motherfucker up
like the video game. Though. Oh but that's where there's a movie.
There's a speaking of shooting shooting up. There was a movie we need we
need to talk about whatever the kid's name is. I don't know if you
saw it, but it came out. It came out, remember like ten
and so years ago. But the movie starts with the mom getting paint thrown
on her. She got she got paint, newspaper all over the over the
curtains. She don't really want nobody to know where she lives. And she's
the mother of a kid who trapped kids inside of a gymnasium and was shooting
with a bowing arrow. So the kid the kid when when the kid came
I got my phone struck recorder. When the kid came out, the kid
would cry every time she held him, every single time. Every single time
she held the baby, he would cry. She would give the baby to
the daddy stopped crying. Cool, you get older. He didn't like the
mam or was He never liked the mom never never never, never never never.
So they get his nigga a bowing arrow. He's been he's been problematic
his whole life. To get his nigga a born arrow, he becomes a
fucking archer nigga high school, he practiced in the backyard, bulls eye,
fucking niggas, fucking the bulls up, nigga. And then he you know,
he traps the kid inside the gymnasium and he started shooting, uh,
shooting school. He was killing them with the bourn arrow with the bow and
arrows, just piling them up, piling them up, bro, because they
couldn't get out. So every time you running too the door, well there
you are, I get to shoot you because you running into the door.
So damn. My question is this, at what age should we be able
to throw a motherfucker to the wolves based off their behavior if we're trying to
save the public. Yeah, because I'm nothing on that too young shit fucker
you you ten eleven twelve, Like, if you're showing signs that you're a
psychopath, bitch, you're a psychopath. Wen't need to put you in a
crazy home then or something. You need to being straight jacket your little ass.
And then they just be like, oh, it's just so cute.
Nah, this a little motherfucker is a killer. Bro. You met a
kid and be like, I will fuck you up. Yes, I used
to some badskets. I remember when Kennedy was in uh elementary and I used
I used to go on field trips with him, like when she was in
fifth grade school field trips. She had this bad little nigga and here I
used to be like that little motherfucker right there, it's going to be a
problem in this community. You're in this community. You ever noticed that about
a kid in school? What back in school? Hell yeah, I knew,
now, man, Some of them dead, some of them in jail,
some of them changed. But you could tell that motherfucker right there there
was a dude that was a dude that was a problem, gonna be in
and out of jail, like I know, Like it was these twins,
Bro, I knew these little motherfuckers was gonna be in prison for life.
Like they were just too bad. It was. They were bad as hell,
Bro, just doing was terrified of them niggas bro around the neighborhood.
You, I don't know if you knew them, because they wouldn't. They
used to be in our neighborhood, but they used to come from like another
neighborhood. Yeah, but yeah, motherfuckers was flucked robbing, taking an old
lady car, some ship robbing her and beat her with some crazy ship.
Bro, I do remember that. Yeah, they death got locked up or
was it? It was this dude. We was in sixth grade together and
he was just doing the most out. It would be some ship at like
growing up and Gary. Well we left when I was in third grade,
but kindergarten, first and second grade. I do remember this vividly. It
would be some kids that would be troubled, but they would be troubled because
they wouldn't stop talking in class. That's different. That was me. That
was different class fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth grade. Niggas was getting
dishrespect, gett knocked out. Niggas was getting Niggas was being disrespectful to every
teacher, principal, every every everything. So this one, nigga, I
don't want to say his name. He was just very very very very very
problematic. I go to college. I hit up his ex girlfriend because it
was cool. So, yo, what's so, what's up with a Whatever
happened? What happened to you and your boyfriend? That was that was dating.
But last time I checked and she was like, are you trying to
be funny? And I was like no, because I'm in I'm in Atlanta.
This is before Facebook. So this is my space days I didn't,
we wouldn't. He said he got killed. It's some niggas that he had.
I was like, damn, bro, and rest in peace to my
nigga Doners. I talked to his mom on the phone I had. I
tracked her down, you remember marcol tracked down. I asked some mom and
I was like, Yo, do you have doing this? Baby moms?
Do you have Doner? Do you have Do you have a way I can
get in contact with this mom? She was like, yeah, I'm friends
with the baby mama. I got the number, so called her. She
was like yeah, she called me and she said yeah, uh. Somebody
told me to get in contact with Eric, but they said he was friends
with doing this. But I don't know who Eric is. I was like,
oh, it's poop Bert mama, and she was like oh yeah,
and she was she was so happy to hear from me. But the reason
why I brought this up because all three of her sons was killed in Hallville,
all of them. And I said, Mom, are you She was
like, I'm angry, I'm hurt. I don't know what I did wrong,
she said. I questioned myself. I questioned. I was like,
I was not expecting this when I called it, when you called me,
because I just genuinely just wanted to I don't know, I just hear you.
I just wanted to just talk to you. But here like she was
just like pooper, I'm angry, I'm sad. She said, I gotta
go to therapy, she said, she said, I'm doing so much ship
to just put myself back together because as a parent, I thought I did
everything that I could. And they went to church every Sunday because they was
they It wouldn't even the crazy thing about it, the church kids be the
worst. Man. I hate it, not not all the time, all
the time, but they be trying to escape the household. The house wasn't
really fucked up. I mean, I guess it just depends on like the
fathers. Some fathers or mothers be strict. And that's what I'm saying that
being strict ain't ain't the way to go. I've seen that because of the
rebellion, rebelling against it. Yea, it is being strict. I mean,
I'm sure that like not being able to do nothing with your friends,
like it's gonna make a motherfucker be like, man, fuck this. But
I'm gonna start sneaking out. I'm gonna start lying. I'm gonna start because
y'all got me fucked up. I'm not my friends come back to school,
everybody get talked about ship and I can't talk about nothing. I can't go
nowhere. But why, but why why do the result to the street life?
You can? You can and then they probably I'm not even just saying
street life just I'm just saying, like even just I'm talking about I'm talking
about niggas dying. I'm talking I meangas that that that that that escape that
strict because I understand what you're saying. I'm saying the niggas that do what
you're saying, but instead of just going out and having fun, they going
to the streets to be street when they don't even got to be like that.
You ain't got to be like that. I don't know. That's just
the same thing as king, like what you want, my nigga, you
were too light to be like bro? Stop it like like no, Bro,
you got what everybody want. Bro. A motherfucking mother and father that
cares that that can put you in right situations. They can plug you with
anything that you need. Why do you want to be so hood and so
street and try to go get it on your own. You can go get
it on your own, but in a positive way, my nigga, Like
I'm gonna tell you like this, I don't want to get it on my
own. I wish that I had a parent, no that could have set
me up. They could set me up and then I can get it on
my own, right, Yeah, not hell or no what and that and
I And I'm blessed because my mom and my stepfather, anything I asked for,
they always gave it to me to this day. So that's why I
said, that's why I fly on handle husks because I never really had to,
you know what I'm saying. So, yeah, I ain't nothing.
I was never in the streets. I was just a hood nigga that was
around it because I was from the hood when I seen I ain't a hood
nigga, but a nigga from the hood. Yeah, Ma, Mama stayed
on me, so I turned out pretty good. Yeah, a lot of
a lot of everybody knew me from my mama. Yeah, God damn it.
Everybody we around and got damn corner of your mama for sure. Damn.
That's that's what I always misunderstood about peer pressure, because if nigg just
knew that you wasn't trying to be into that, they would not let you
get into that. That's why I'm so confused. Like if your mom to
scream at the top of her lungs and we would be around the corner and
everybody would be like, hen, you gotta go, it wouldn't be like
no, you stay, man, you would never be It would never be
Janice would My mama wasn't mean or nothing. My mama. I don't always
say positive about their mamas, but like my mama is probably like really one
of the most nicest. Like if you, I don't think mama got no
enemies. If you can't get along with my mama, it's you. It's
definitely my mama. Definitely sweet Poe, Like no never cause drink none of
that. That's why I'd be like, I get high. But I don't
understand. I just never understood peer pressure because for me, when I was
in when I was in the street, they were like, bro, you're
rap too good. Bro, you ain't even know Yeah, like you it's
motherucker couldn't peer pressure me to do ship like I'm not. No, if
I don't. If I say I don't want to do it, nigga,
I'm not doing it. No, I don't think. I don't think that's
what peer pressure really is. I think peer pressure is you believing that you
have to do it because your peers are doing it. I don't think it's
necessarily no, but that's what I'm saying. You got some people who peers
can make them do some ship. My peers can't make me do nothing.
I don't give a fuck. I don't want to do it. I'm not
doing it. You know what I'm saying. It's just that's just what it
is. Ain't no peer pressure. I drink this about. No, I
don't want to drink it. No, I said, no, you bitch,
you laying all right whatever. I never really cared about that pop pills.
No, I don't pop pills. I was around my fucker that popped
all kind of pills. No, I'm cool. I used to pop X
and once I had my last little experience in college. Fuck No, I
was through with that ship. I was so scared, nigga, Why bro,
I didn't even I've never heard the most I had ever popped well,
a double double, like a double X pill. So it was. It
was it's a thicker one. But I didn't know they had three trumple a
triple. Didn't know they had a triple. My nigga at school gave me
a triple. I'm thinking it's a double. It's a triple. I'm used
to this motherfucker taking thirty to forty five minutes to kick in. This motherfucker
kicked in so fucking fast, Bro, I was terrified. I remember everything.
I was sitting on the couch watching the game and I was stuck then
and I just remember them like that motherfucker kicked in, and I'm like,
hell, yeah, I'm scared because now I'm like it, I kicked in
too fast. So now I know this motherfucker ride is about to be long.
So now y'all try to go in there and lay down. What fuck
now? Bro, I'm like, I got it. I don't know.
I was like, no, Bro, I was scared. Y'all was taking
y'all took it and chilled. Man. Nah, I mean we end up
turning up. But it was like probably only like a thirty nine because like
I said, it was the Broncos and Stiller game. I remember what I
was watching. You took it early. Was in the turn up. No,
because I've done this before, like, oh TI seven o eight you
were trying to yeah, oh seven o eight. I'm like, I was
little Stevie pass nigga. We went through a little time where we was fucked
up, so we used to pop as but nigga, no, hell no,
I went. I went. I laid down. I seen red and
I heard a loud ring, so I shaid, fuck no, that ship
is over with and you can't do that. Your body gonna reject it.
I couldn't move, motherfucker try and get me water. I was like,
oh no, this was no never again. I'm through never going up.
I damn don't even remember Loki. I know we did, but I just
can't like after that, I just know I was scared as hell. The
first, the first and last time I took Molly was I never took Molly.
It was a Hawaii and motherfucker did the right The trend of that James
Long was popping fucking gamy one and that ship felt awesome. Yeah I heard
it, but I was just too scared awesome. That was after after popping
that. It was a rap. I don't wanna pop ship out. But
the next day, Bro, it felt like my body got hit by a
fucking max trock because Joe Ass was probably after jumping off all kinds of ship.
Bro. I was the only nigga in the club too. I was
dancing my ass. You didn't even know you can hear was They was looking
at me like, dnnis nigga got? I was the only nigga and that
nigg got the juice that nigga can dance. I was the only nigga in
there. I'm not no exaggeration. I was the only nigga in the club
for with some Owen's niggah, all types of different Asians, all type of
bro. I was the only nigga in there, and they was looking at
this nigga got some rhythm and granted agent people can dance like you know the
jabwakes and ship like that. That was racist, But okay, said some
of the niggas. I thought, but all of them brought up the next
because I was drinking. I was drinking too, so bro, it was
it was awful. That next day was awful and I saw something recently.
It said like people who get drunk and people who get high off things outside
of weed. You're borrowing tomorrow's happiness, so tomorrow you're gonna have to deal
with that ship. And I was like, damn, that's exactly what a
hangover feel like. Bro. Hangover, like a real hangover is fucking terrible.
Bro, Yeah I could. I'm I'm so happy I drink no more
because the hangover just started getting worse. But if I drink, I ain't
about to get crazy drunk. You remember that story back in the day of
Jekyling High. You ever heard that story. It was a It's it's like
English English class or something like that, doctor Jekylline, mister hog Like he
would be a doctor and then at night he would turn into another person.
And I was like, all the niggas just high. It was just drunk.
He would just turn to it. And I don't think I like who
I become when I'm drunk, so I just don't. I saw a video
I recorded video of me drunk at Jeff House and I watched this show.
I said, all hell, and I never again. Never No. That's
the thing about You're gonna get out your body and club five twenty because it's
just too much liquor in that mon and it's just too many good vibes.
It's just too provide. It's really safe. It's safe and over there just
cool because everybody Club five twenty is crazy because I don't know. I don't
know as many people over there as you do. But because I know you
and I know Jamar and I know I know, I know, I know
enough people, it's a it's a lot of mon and then uh, Dynasty
sister be over there. I'll be like, I know enough of y'all,
so I really do feel safe, and I ain't seen it. I ain't
seen a lot of y'all in a minute. But it's just so much liquor.
And you be like, oh, I would just take a little bit.
I'll just drink a little bit. And you're not just every hour it's
a shot o clock. It's definitely so you gonna get drunkn that motherfucker because
motherfuckerbody's bottles for nothing. Bro. Yeah, I saw. I was like,
never, I'm not doing this ship no more. Bro that just because
I say it every time. But once you get over there, just drink
since then I really, I really I really ain't either. I ain' drink
since that motherfucking fight that was That was I said, just smoke, I'm
gonna try some streams though, Oh yeah, you ain't trying yet. I
chick it out every time I'm about to, I'd be like, you know
what, I'm cool, scared. I don't know what you think is gonna
happen. You know you can microdose. You know you can take very small
doses of it. No, no, yeah, yeah, yeah. Like
everybody that I've talked to about him told me, like, what for the
first time would you take? Everybody should take something different deep, everybody should
take something different because everybody body different type ship everybody. People can take less
than you know what I'm saying, But I don't know. I just be
thinking, like I don't I want to make try. I'm in the right
environment. You just micro does first. You ain't gotta be nowhere microdoes micro
dooceing it. I'm a birthday now, you should have got hot yr birthday.
But you should microdose every day. You should microdose people if if you
feel like there is a mental block from you getting to the next whatever.
Definitely where it's I really feel like it's something that's about Oh yeah, I'm
about to partner with somebody who makes the pills, so they're gonna get a
discount code for people who want a microdose, and the next episode I have
it. She just she just texts me too, was like, do you
want to for sure? Because I feel like yeah and no, Yeah for
the clarity. No, because it's not a stimulant like some people want the
adderall to but that's not gonna it's not gonna do that for you. So
if you want, I feel like, if you want that, then I
feel like you should drink. Damn. They're like a pre workout when you're
not about to work out, like drinking throughout the day because it does give
you that clarity, and it says it on the bottom. Not trying to
prescribe niggas to do something that they're supposed to do. But I feel like
micro dooson from the lady that I buy my ship from in Chicago. That
ship that's what helped me nigga gets sober up. They just cause and a
lot of the times I feel like it just be I just need to learn
how to like really focus on like certain ship that I need to focus on
because I get sidetracked, and I forget a lot of ship. I just
you know how, you need to tell your doctor my brain. Go to
the doctor and tell your doctor. I told my doctor that ship. They
nigga gave me some ship, and I didn't think it was working until you
know how, you like come upstairs and be like, what the fuck did
I come up here for? And then you go back downstairs you don't remember.
I remember, I said, oh it works because I used to never
be here, Like what the fuck did I come out here for? And
they be like like I just hate shit, Like motherfucker, tell me to
do some shit, and then I I know I'm about to do it,
and then I something else will pop up and I do something else, And
now I forgot. That's what most of what the funk I just said.
That's that's where most of the be becoming relationship ship Mama, thousand percent.
You wuldn't listening to me. I swore to God. I swear to God.
I was. I swear to God when you when you told me every
intention of doing when you told me, I really I saw a squirrel.
I seen the squirrel and said, oh my god, look at that squirrel
flying and I forgot and I just got in the car and drove off swear
to God ship like that. I was like, what the fuck, that's
part of getting old. She was like, you're not listening. You're not
gonna remember. I was like, yes, I swear to God. Bro,
there's something happened. Man. I knew I was supposed to do something.
That's why I'd be like, I just need to use my notes on
my phone. Yeah, man, that's why I just just text me the
ship. Yeah, I got I have to tell hey, set a reminder
for this. Tell me because if I don't, it's no. I will
forget. No, like I tore to God, like yesterday, I promised
to God. That's why. And then when I thought about it, I
said, because because we got a group with all of us, Me,
Jamar, Jeff West, Alan, all us. But I hit Allan up
separate because you know what I'm saying, I'm trying to get smoke. So
I'm like, shit, you in the hook. I'm in a hook,
babe, I'm gonna pull up. I don't know what happened. You didn't
pull up? No, I end up doing something. I end up.
Matter of fact, I think I ended up going with you yesterday we went
we went went downtown, got something. He ain't even said nothing. He
I just thought about it later on when I was about to head to go
out the fight in the game, I'm like, oh, I know I
did never pull. I'm like what he said? He say nothing. I
end up just getting from somebody else because I'm like, I know he not
in the hood no more. I'm like, what the fuck? Bro?
Like, how did I just forget that fast? That's the nigga had a
whole plane. I thought about the ship four five hours later, like get
it didn't hit you too, like a brand new idea. I said,
what the fuck is wrong with me? I never I did never go over
to like soon as I got the phone, Like soon as I got the
phone, my mind went somewhere else. That's why, that's why I try
to stay sober with the crazy with the kids, because, Bro, the
worst thing I just don't want to forget that my kids right now is broy
because sometimes they get quiet, bro, and I be like, oh shit,
I'm a dad, got case. Then you here? She like what
the hell? She in her sleep? I'm all right, oh shut damn
oh ship. Yeah, Because like lately I've been having to be like more
before time, you know what I'm saying. So I'll just be like,
yeah, respect to the women, to the mothers. Got I'd be doing
this sh like at first, yeah, but once you really get you.
I was to try to I was about to try to get some brownie points
for that. No, Mama, because I just said I said, I'm
asked me, is it hard? I'm like not really, No, I'll
be having to get her ready for school, get all her ship ready today,
like all that ship is. My wife is struggling, Like it's really
not hard. My wife is struggling like a motherfucker. I'm not here,
Bro, I swear to God, it's really not hard. I'd be like,
bro. I was watching them, all three of them, every day
Monday through Friday while trying to do podcast ship. I was like, bro,
I gotta get him up. I gotta get all of them up,
change all of them, feed all of them, play with all of them,
put all I'm down for nap, Wake them up from the nap,
feed them, snack all of that ship before she got home from school.
When you get home from work, baby, I don't want to be a
parent anymore. So, I would, I would, I would be doing
all this ship and I be like, bro, this ship is not as
hard. It's not as hard as they make it seen. You know why.
I feel like because once I had kids, I made up in my
mind that I was just the father, that was it. I think the
problem is that mothers be trying to be themselves still and you don't get to
be that no more. I keep having to tell motherfucker. I keep having
to tell my wife, you are a fucking mother right now. That is
it. A mother and a wife. That's all you are right now.
You ain't ship else and I'm not nothing else. And I think that some
of that time want to I don't want to be just the mon like,
no, the mom, this is this is it? That should not be
hard, bro, it ain't it ain't no. And I just feel like,
like with us, I don't know, like it's just like a routine.
Once I figure that ship out, it's just the routine and it's the
same ship. It's the same for every day. And once I figured that
out, it's just I think the best easy, the best thing for parents
to do meal prep, but the hardest thing to do as a parent is
meal prep because my kids don't want to eat the same shit. If if
you make it, they ain't going to eat it. If you don't make
it, they will. They will request it every fucking day. But if
you think you're about to get smart and make a week worth of meals that
you don't, don't. Yeah, don't do that. Don't plan ahead like
that, because no, that's the hardest thing. Now you're mad, well,
you ain't gonna eat man, and you know they're gonna eat, So
don't even stretch yourselfs because you about to make something else. I don't even
know. I'm so sick of my kids wanting chicken nuggets and fries because I'd
be like, bro, ma made salmon and fucking afraid of go ahead,
you're gonna eat these motherfuckers. I love it. You want nuggets, you
want fries, air fry on the air, friers smoking. Bro, We're
gonna make this right quick, and I'm gonna eat this. It's so it
is so easy, is the best. I put a motherfucking turkey burger in
that motherfuckeress burger ever made in my life. Bro. Pause that that was
just I was like, damn, you can just really make anything in this
I'll be cooking in that motherfucker. Boy, what air fry was the best
thing ship, the best thing that could have ever happened to a nigga?
Bro? Yeah, I mean it may it may being a parent way easier,
man, Just forget about it. I'm putting the whole meal in this
month. Forget about it. I need a bigger one. I need.
I need. I need one that I could put a plethora of. Right
now, I can only put like a burger and a few fries in one.
I got three kids. I need. I need one nigga that's the
size of a oven Moore, a nice little size one ship I'm gonna put
it. I could put mother fucking nuggets, tenders or nuggets, wings,
fries, and I'm put this one. Put several things in this motherfucker.
I'm gonna get it cracking. Yeah, because I'm trying to lose more weight,
and I think that they I keep saying on Instagram, motherfuckers making chicken
in that motherfucker or turkey perkers or b I'm tired of chicken. Bro.
I'm sick of chicken. Bro. I am I knew I was sick of
chicken nigga. I had a lemon pepper. I had a lemon pepper,
and I was like, man, that's the disgusting said, I'm changing chicken.
I'm sick of it. Chicken, chicken, French fries. I can
eat French fries with every goya do thing, salmon, salmon and fresh fries.
I'm saying, I'm just like this fish spirit fish, fish, fish,
chicken, chicken, fish, burgers, fries, pizza, spaghetti,
chili. Ship like that simple ship. Yeah, I'm trying to lose his
guts. Just name just made me feel fat. But I missed pizza.
I haven't had pizza. Well, fish fish should make you feel fat.
No fish though, Yeah, fish fish, it's too light. I'll be
hungry in thirty minutes, my mama, thirty more. I mean in gen
for ninety minutes. Then I might walk. I might take a forty five
minute walk. That's that's what I don't get, Like, I'll be hungry.
Motherfucker. Healthy food be nasty. Healthy food did just so fucking fast
like it, and that shit costs like a motherfucker. So it's like you
want me to spend extra money, more money own is good ship. That's
just gonna motherfucking get up out of me so fast. I'm gonna need some
more in me again. I think the trick is and I'm not getting as
big of a portion that I will get if I think the trick is.
I think the trick is like rice, rice, rice, or sweet potatoes,
rice and sweet potatoes to fill you up with the broccoli or whatever protein.
But I've just been I've been, I've been trying to stay with brown
beer. But I've been going to Meyer buying a roll of meat pause and
making it like like you would taco meat, and just putting it in the
refrigerator. And then when it's time for me to eat, I'll take that,
put it in a bowl. I'll take two cups of meat, put
it in a bowl, rice, a cup of rice, spinach and guawk
and piko, and I would just eat that. That should be. I'm
sick of eating that ship. But I'm I'm down, I'm down. Wait,
I don't give a fuck about food right now. The only reason that
I have to think of variations of food is because of these fucking kids.
But even then, they want the same fucking ship. Really, the biggest
problem, the biggest culprit of my fucking pain is my wife because this motherfucker
don't know what she wants. Never know what they want to eat. Never,
never, I don't. I don't like bro stop asking me. You
just want me to just be well, you should know what I won't know
because because I do know what you want. And then when I say that,
that ain't what you want. So what do you want? And I'm
not about to keep playing with you. I'm gonna treat you like these I'm
gonna treat you like these kids. You ain't gonna eat today, Okay,
that's what. That's what. That's what we go do. You ain't gonna
eat today. So I'm gonna ask you in the morning, what what you
want to eat today? You got to I get off to want to eat
and if you don't, you ain't gonna eat today. Need some cereal or
some ship beg going there, make some goddamn oatmeal or some noodles. I
swear to God because that's the hardest part. That's the hardest part is from
me. We can get about of here that I think for me, going
to the gym and then having to eat the same thing makes it hard for
me and my wife to have that what are we eating? Because she's not
counting calories or being mindful of calories. I ain't either. I need to
be and I don't even be thinking about what I'll be m Look up,
damn, it's ten o'clock. I need something. All day, I've been
snacking. I need some food. But yeah, I mean, I don't
know, but you, but you don't look like you're gaining weight like you
was a couple of years ago. I worked motherfucking in and out the vand
are got the dynasty for losing motivated me. She was I did was like
about to get in the gym. Dynasty lost a lot of work. That's
how we, that's how we. I just want to tone up, man.
I just want my I just want my abs back when six, I
just want my tighten my gus muscles up. Yeah, it's this big white
it's this big white, boky motherfucker in the gym. He ain't American,
but this motherfucker is his shoulders is bro. Yeah, I don't want to
be like that. I don't want to be crazy. I don't, but
I was like bro enough. Whenever I see a nigga in the gym with
a body like there's a body part pause that I like. I like how
you do that? And I ain't like that? And he told me motherfuckers,
was like yeah this And I said, bro, how you get this
the upper chest? He was like, you know, do the incline this.
I was like, I bet all the niggas that I follow on Instagram
works hey man, time Bees used to have me there. I was like,
damn did this ship when I was in high school? I wish I
wasn't in pain when I was trying to train with Bees. I was going
to that motherfucker. I was in so much pain, oh bro. But
he definitely knew what he was talking about. Bees definitely know what he's doing
with that ship. He over there short Ridge. They strength and conditioning and
all that ship about to be right. You like it over there? You
trying? He was, uh hollering at me with the football. Everybody been
trying to do that too, though. I've been thinking about it, though,
just do it? I mean really, I just be like, I
don't have a I don't have a son, so I just like I don't
know what. No I know, I know, but that ship takes a
lot of time, bro, and I pay probably not what I need to
be, you know what I'm saying. So that's why we said a lot
of people can do that ship because they got sons, and their sons are
there and their sons in there, so it's easier for them to be a
part of it, you know what I'm saying. But I've been thinking about
it. Look into that ship. Man might get paid more than what you
think, Mike, Yeah, might end up being good at it and go
fucking I wouldn't learn how to clear though. I've been thinking about that likely
too, I know, I just been thinking about it. Yea, go
to our school probably, man, I think think of something that I know,
motherfucker's gonna need always, and I think I think. I think because
you got such a huge network, I think it might benefit you, kind
of like Rachel. Yeah, kind of like Rachel, Rachel and yeah,
the hardest females in here to cut me when you're gonna ask niggas will want
to come see it, and you just cut their hair. They really can
cut though, like I really yeah, Like it helps to break for sure,
but then we do really good because I say it, like Rachel Fire,
I see her come from the beginning. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
shout out to Jamar he ain't slick is one of her first ones too.
Yeah, it's just my dog man. All right, man, let's get
up. I'm hungry as hell. Hell, I'm trying to think what I'm
about to eat. Thank y'all so much listening to the Ignoran philosophy. Man,
I really do appreciate you all. We do appreciate you'll. We're doing
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