WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.280 --> 00:00:20.320 Andogy s cancel So High Ecstasy Sage cancage Not Sorrylogy. What's up? Positive 2 00:00:20.359 --> 00:00:24.480 bitches? How are we doing today? If you're hearing this episode, then 3 00:00:24.640 --> 00:00:28.839 you are meant to be here, So keep listening on That Bitch's Positive Podcast. 4 00:00:29.000 --> 00:00:32.799 Sometimes we will laugh. Other times, Babe a girl, We're gonna 5 00:00:32.840 --> 00:00:37.320 cry, but we will always walk away feeling our most empowered, positive bitch 6 00:00:37.439 --> 00:00:42.159 self. That is Babe in true connection with herself. On this podcast, 7 00:00:42.200 --> 00:00:46.479 we unbecome who we are not so we can fully step into exactly who we 8 00:00:46.560 --> 00:00:51.359 came here to be. Today, we're talking about how to forgive yourself and 9 00:00:51.439 --> 00:00:56.799 release self criticism. I was talking to you Positive Bees on Instagram and we 10 00:00:56.880 --> 00:01:00.920 decided that for the month of February, because hello Valentine's Day, the theme 11 00:01:02.000 --> 00:01:07.439 is going to be self love, but not that mumbo jumbo self love that 12 00:01:07.519 --> 00:01:11.599 we hear all through social media. Oh you're binge eating, Shut up and 13 00:01:11.719 --> 00:01:17.040 love yourself. Oh you keep allowing toxic people into your life. Just shut 14 00:01:17.120 --> 00:01:21.920 up and love yourself. Oh you hate your whole entire life. Shut up 15 00:01:21.920 --> 00:01:27.959 and love yourself. No no, because shutting down our feelings and ignoring what 16 00:01:29.000 --> 00:01:32.799 it is we truly want. That's not self love, that's self hatred. 17 00:01:32.879 --> 00:01:38.519 Bib a girl. Okay, So we are breaking down what self love actually 18 00:01:38.599 --> 00:01:46.439 looks like in our life. Actionable self love. How to truly transform and 19 00:01:46.519 --> 00:01:49.920 give respect, trust, and love to our self at the end of the 20 00:01:51.000 --> 00:01:53.719 day. The person who needs to believe in us, who needs to push 21 00:01:53.840 --> 00:01:57.640 us, who needs to wake us up? It's us. It is us. 22 00:01:57.920 --> 00:02:00.799 We are the person who matters the most. How we're reality. The 23 00:02:00.840 --> 00:02:06.040 relationship we have with ourselves is number one, at least when it comes to 24 00:02:06.120 --> 00:02:09.000 humans. Okay, our number one relationship always with God the universe, but 25 00:02:09.039 --> 00:02:13.680 when it comes to humans, it has to be here. So the first 26 00:02:13.719 --> 00:02:21.000 week of this self Love February theme is all about forgiving ourselves and releasing self 27 00:02:21.080 --> 00:02:25.680 criticism because we can't love ourselves if we're constantly telling ourselves terrible things. We 28 00:02:25.719 --> 00:02:31.800 can't love ourselves if we don't even forgive ourselves for past experiences. We are 29 00:02:31.840 --> 00:02:38.759 going to take it step by step to learn truly how to love our own 30 00:02:39.319 --> 00:02:44.520 vessel before we get into it. A couple of announcements. If you're not 31 00:02:44.639 --> 00:02:49.680 yet following me on Instagram at VIBEINWITCC, be sure to follow me there where 32 00:02:49.680 --> 00:02:53.719 I will give you daily tips and tricks on how to step into your most 33 00:02:53.719 --> 00:02:58.639 magnetic timeline. I use a visual aid of juice to show how you are 34 00:02:58.680 --> 00:03:02.039 depleting your energy without even realizing it. People seem to love the juice. 35 00:03:02.520 --> 00:03:06.159 They just everyone wants to know what the juice is. It's vitamin water. 36 00:03:06.479 --> 00:03:09.360 I don't know. Anyway, follow me there for those daily tips and tricks. 37 00:03:09.400 --> 00:03:15.280 You can also follow this Instagram for this podcast, which is at that 38 00:03:15.319 --> 00:03:20.120 Bitches Positive. Of course, for clips of this podcast. If you are 39 00:03:20.199 --> 00:03:24.240 looking to heal after a breakup, join the twenty one day Breakup Globe Challenge. 40 00:03:24.319 --> 00:03:27.759 All the links will be in the show notes. If you want to 41 00:03:27.840 --> 00:03:30.479 learn how to date from your pedestal and get the results that you want, 42 00:03:30.759 --> 00:03:35.599 you can join the Pedestal Path. And of course I have a couple of 43 00:03:35.759 --> 00:03:38.639 workbooks on how to manifest, how to heal your divine, feminine, and 44 00:03:38.680 --> 00:03:43.800 how to call your power back again. All of those magical portals will be 45 00:03:43.960 --> 00:03:46.680 in the show notes. And if you really want to make a big splash 46 00:03:46.719 --> 00:03:50.719 in twenty twenty four, you can book a one on one session with me. 47 00:03:51.120 --> 00:03:53.919 It's a month of self love. What is more loving to oneself than 48 00:03:54.000 --> 00:03:59.520 working on our energy to shift what we broadcast, so we can shift what 49 00:03:59.639 --> 00:04:03.039 we yet in outward life. That's right. When you shift, so will 50 00:04:03.039 --> 00:04:06.360 your reality. So if you want to shift your relationships, your career, 51 00:04:06.840 --> 00:04:10.120 or just how you're feeling on the day to day, you can book a 52 00:04:10.120 --> 00:04:13.039 one on one session with me. I'm a certified life and energy coach. 53 00:04:13.439 --> 00:04:17.399 I have so many different offerings from self concept work to divine feminine healing work, 54 00:04:17.399 --> 00:04:20.600 to energy healing and her child work. I will send you all my 55 00:04:20.680 --> 00:04:25.759 offerings. You can DM me now on Instagram at Vibe with CC for more, 56 00:04:26.480 --> 00:04:30.920 but without further ado, let's get into two day's episode. By the 57 00:04:30.959 --> 00:04:33.120 way, if you are watching on YouTube and you're wondering where is CC, 58 00:04:33.360 --> 00:04:38.959 this is not her usual setup. I'm currently in Fido Rada. A girl 59 00:04:39.000 --> 00:04:42.279 needed to get out of the cold weather and ground herself in some nature, 60 00:04:42.519 --> 00:04:46.879 so I will be here for the next month. And yeah, but we're 61 00:04:46.959 --> 00:04:50.079 still going to have that Bitch is Positive every Thursday. Don't worry. I 62 00:04:50.120 --> 00:04:53.800 don't have my sparkly mic, but I do have this one, so we're 63 00:04:53.839 --> 00:04:58.839 going to make it work. Anyway, let's get into all of this jazz 64 00:04:58.920 --> 00:05:04.199 shall we. So many of us experience this feeling of Oh, why did 65 00:05:04.240 --> 00:05:08.519 I let myself go through that pattern for so long? Why did I keep 66 00:05:08.600 --> 00:05:11.839 dating that guy? Why did I keep binge eating? Why did I keep 67 00:05:11.839 --> 00:05:15.800 doing these maladapting coping mechanisms. I should have known better. I should have 68 00:05:15.839 --> 00:05:19.199 known better. I should have known better. I've been there, and I 69 00:05:19.279 --> 00:05:27.079 get it. But berating ourselves that we should have known better sooner isn't going 70 00:05:27.120 --> 00:05:31.720 to help us now. That version of us we needed her, We needed 71 00:05:31.759 --> 00:05:35.959 her to get to this current version of ourselves. We needed her to be 72 00:05:36.040 --> 00:05:42.160 the bridge to get us to that next version of who we desire to be. 73 00:05:42.920 --> 00:05:46.319 Even this current version of you, it doesn't end here. This current 74 00:05:46.439 --> 00:05:50.600 version of you is yet another bridge to another future version of you. Because 75 00:05:50.600 --> 00:05:57.839 we're always shifting, we're always changing, we're always up leveling. We can't 76 00:05:57.920 --> 00:06:02.240 say I'm gonna love myself and still be telling ourselves every single day I should 77 00:06:02.279 --> 00:06:06.839 have known better. We can't be telling ourselves I don't want to love myself. 78 00:06:06.879 --> 00:06:11.319 I need to love myself and be telling ourselves I'm terrible all this, 79 00:06:11.560 --> 00:06:15.199 I'm a mess up. Nothing ever works out for me. It doesn't work 80 00:06:15.240 --> 00:06:17.959 that way. Okay, you want to heal, you gotta get on board 81 00:06:17.959 --> 00:06:21.959 with your own healing. You have to be an active participant in your journey 82 00:06:23.000 --> 00:06:25.759 if you want to see your life change. Because I can jab job, 83 00:06:25.839 --> 00:06:29.279 job, job, all day, all night, it won't matter unless you 84 00:06:29.319 --> 00:06:31.360 take the reins in your own life and you get y up on this journey 85 00:06:31.399 --> 00:06:40.360 yourself. If we want to truly forgive ourselves and release self criticism, I'm 86 00:06:40.360 --> 00:06:46.040 gonna give you four steps. But the primer is to realize you needed that 87 00:06:46.120 --> 00:06:49.600 version of you in order to get here. You are living this current incarnation, 88 00:06:50.079 --> 00:06:55.000 not just to fly around and be perfect. No, you came here 89 00:06:55.079 --> 00:06:59.319 to learn, to grow, to evolve, And how do we evolve? 90 00:07:00.279 --> 00:07:04.240 To push against something, how do you build muscle? It's through resistance that 91 00:07:04.319 --> 00:07:11.639 you physically build muscle. So through resistance, through hardship, we can learn. 92 00:07:11.800 --> 00:07:15.480 We don't always have to go through hardship to learn, but oftentimes we 93 00:07:15.560 --> 00:07:21.120 do. We do. It's the way of life. Let's get into these 94 00:07:21.319 --> 00:07:26.519 four steps. I'm making it so simple, Okay, four steps for you 95 00:07:26.560 --> 00:07:30.360 to forgive yourself and release self criticism so you can be on your way to 96 00:07:30.399 --> 00:07:34.480 truly loving yourself. Now the primer is realizing, well, I needed that 97 00:07:34.600 --> 00:07:39.240 version of me to get where I currently am, So I can't hate on 98 00:07:39.360 --> 00:07:44.439 her for being my step in the right direction. I can't hate on her 99 00:07:44.480 --> 00:07:47.800 for being the bridge to get me where I currently am. I kind of 100 00:07:47.959 --> 00:07:51.680 respect her. I kind of needed her. Okay, awesome. Step number 101 00:07:51.680 --> 00:07:58.639 one we have to stop engaging with the self harming behaviors and thoughts that we're 102 00:07:58.680 --> 00:08:03.360 having if we want to actually learn to love ourselves and forgive ourselves. People 103 00:08:03.399 --> 00:08:07.319 are going to hurt us. It's a part of life. But you know 104 00:08:07.399 --> 00:08:11.439 what I say, Yeah, people may try to hurt me. They may 105 00:08:11.519 --> 00:08:16.160 even get away with it, but I will be damned if I hurt myself. 106 00:08:16.639 --> 00:08:20.439 Not gonna happen. No, not today, not tomorrow, not in 107 00:08:20.480 --> 00:08:24.319 this incarnation. I'm not doing that. It's not on my to do list, 108 00:08:24.920 --> 00:08:28.959 not ever. People are going to hurt us. It's a part of 109 00:08:28.000 --> 00:08:33.840 life. Okay, Fine, we don't have to hurt ourselves. Ask anyone 110 00:08:33.000 --> 00:08:37.360 who's currently alive, and they'll tell you someone has hurt them in their past. 111 00:08:37.720 --> 00:08:43.360 It happens. We're humans, but we don't have to stay in that 112 00:08:43.600 --> 00:08:46.360 hurt. If you stepped in a puddle I wouldn't be like, oh, 113 00:08:46.360 --> 00:08:50.799 you will. You stepped in a puddle, you have to stay there forever. 114 00:08:52.000 --> 00:08:54.480 You can't step out of that puddle. Who do you think you are? 115 00:08:54.759 --> 00:08:58.519 You stepped in that puddle, you can drown in it. No, 116 00:08:58.960 --> 00:09:01.480 I'd be like, sis, just take your other foot and step out of 117 00:09:01.519 --> 00:09:05.360 it. You know you can keep moving forward. You don't have to stay 118 00:09:05.759 --> 00:09:09.720 in the puddle. You're allowed to move on from the hurt. You don't 119 00:09:09.759 --> 00:09:13.440 have to stay in it. You're allowed to step forward from that puddle. 120 00:09:13.480 --> 00:09:18.360 You don't have to stay in it. Why would we stay miserable in that 121 00:09:18.440 --> 00:09:22.639 puddle? Okay, you're right, we wouldn't. We wouldn't do that. 122 00:09:24.360 --> 00:09:26.320 We may step in puddles, people might try to hurt us, but that 123 00:09:26.360 --> 00:09:31.200 doesn't mean we have to continuously hurt ourselves. Now, I'm going to start 124 00:09:31.240 --> 00:09:37.000 something on this podcast where it's a mantra moment, okay, and a mantra 125 00:09:37.120 --> 00:09:39.320 moment that I want us to have and I would love for you to include 126 00:09:39.360 --> 00:09:43.840 in your life as we're on this self love journey for February is even if 127 00:09:43.840 --> 00:09:50.600 people hurt me, I will not hurt myself. So mantra moment, even 128 00:09:50.639 --> 00:09:56.120 if people hurt me, I will not hurt myself. When we love people 129 00:09:56.200 --> 00:10:01.480 from our past control our present, what is That's just allowing them on our 130 00:10:01.519 --> 00:10:07.840 pedestal. That's making them more important than we think of ourselves. That's giving 131 00:10:07.879 --> 00:10:09.720 them all of our time, all of our attention, all of our focus. 132 00:10:11.159 --> 00:10:15.159 And what are we left with but obsessing about how they hurt us? 133 00:10:15.679 --> 00:10:18.799 It's bound to happen that people are gonna hurt us. We don't need to 134 00:10:18.840 --> 00:10:24.279 stay in that hurt. How do we hurt ourselves? And maybe this is 135 00:10:24.320 --> 00:10:26.720 what you're currently doing and that's why you're listening to this podcast. Well, 136 00:10:28.120 --> 00:10:31.960 we hurt ourselves when we allow those from our past to influence us negatively in 137 00:10:33.000 --> 00:10:37.519 our present moment. Honestly, are you really gonna let that X who hurt 138 00:10:37.559 --> 00:10:41.919 you in your past control your present relationship? Are you really gonna let all 139 00:10:43.000 --> 00:10:48.600 the insecurities from that past relationship flood your current healthy relationship? Are you really 140 00:10:48.639 --> 00:10:52.440 gonna let that teacher from fifth grade who told you you weren't good enough control 141 00:10:52.679 --> 00:10:58.440 your current business and how you feel about yourself? Are you really gonna let 142 00:10:58.440 --> 00:11:03.399 them have that much power over you? It is your adventure, pick your 143 00:11:03.440 --> 00:11:05.679 avatar baby girl, pick your avatar. What do you want to do. 144 00:11:07.200 --> 00:11:13.919 It's your decision. Are you really gonna let these unhealed people control you in 145 00:11:15.120 --> 00:11:18.480 your life or the rest of your incarnation, or do you want to step 146 00:11:18.559 --> 00:11:22.720 up and say, I'm getting out of this puddle. I'm taking my other 147 00:11:22.840 --> 00:11:28.600 foot and I'm stepping out. I'm taking control back over my own life. 148 00:11:30.039 --> 00:11:33.559 If these people couldn't give you what you needed, then they can't give you 149 00:11:33.600 --> 00:11:37.639 what you needed. Now, Okay, they can't give you what you need, 150 00:11:37.120 --> 00:11:43.519 so let them go. Letting go because here's the thing. I really 151 00:11:43.600 --> 00:11:48.559 think a lot of us harbor on our past negative moments because we think, 152 00:11:48.600 --> 00:11:52.639 well, if I let go of this, where's my justice? Where is 153 00:11:52.720 --> 00:11:56.039 my justice? I can't let go of this, I say, keep thinking 154 00:11:56.039 --> 00:12:00.960 about it and keep harping on it. No, no, go of what 155 00:12:01.120 --> 00:12:03.720 they did to you. Doesn't let them off the hook. It doesn't free 156 00:12:03.759 --> 00:12:07.879 them from karma. No, don't worry, baby, They're still gonna get 157 00:12:07.919 --> 00:12:11.120 theirs and you will get yours. But you can't get yours if you're focused 158 00:12:11.159 --> 00:12:16.240 on theirs, you gotta refocus on you give it up to God. I 159 00:12:16.519 --> 00:12:22.679 swear one of the reasons I'm able to stay in my magnetic energy is because 160 00:12:22.799 --> 00:12:28.559 if you want to hurt me, okay, send out negative energy, You're 161 00:12:28.600 --> 00:12:31.639 only gonna get it back. I'm not gonna take it personal. God will, 162 00:12:31.679 --> 00:12:37.120 though, so count your blessings. I'm not gonna worry about people trying 163 00:12:37.159 --> 00:12:41.440 to harm me. I'm working on creating positivity in my own life and in 164 00:12:41.519 --> 00:12:48.919 others. Remember your blessings. Know your address. Karma also knows their address. 165 00:12:50.039 --> 00:12:54.120 Don't worry about it. Let Karma. Oh yeah, did you know? 166 00:12:54.279 --> 00:12:56.240 Karma's a fellow positive bitch. Oh did you not know? Yeah, 167 00:12:56.440 --> 00:13:01.480 Kara's a fellow positive bitch. She will find them where they're at. She 168 00:13:01.600 --> 00:13:05.200 will take care of it. You don't need to worry about them getting their 169 00:13:05.279 --> 00:13:07.159 karma. You don't need to worry about them getting their justice and you're getting 170 00:13:07.159 --> 00:13:11.879 their justice. No, when you relax and just focus on you, naturally, 171 00:13:13.320 --> 00:13:18.600 your positive justice will come on in and the karma that they have that 172 00:13:18.639 --> 00:13:20.879 they sewed, okay, it will find them. You don't need to watch 173 00:13:20.919 --> 00:13:26.559 them and worry about it. That's it. When you give it up to 174 00:13:26.639 --> 00:13:28.120 miss Karma, when you give it up to God, when you give it 175 00:13:28.200 --> 00:13:37.519 up and just let go this lowers the volume of anger, of disappointment and 176 00:13:37.679 --> 00:13:45.320 hurt you had for them, and it allows you to raise the love you 177 00:13:45.360 --> 00:13:50.879 have for yourself. You are letting it go, not even because it's the 178 00:13:50.960 --> 00:13:58.320 right thing to do, but because it's gonna free you, and that's why 179 00:13:58.360 --> 00:14:01.919 you're here. You are on this planet for you. You're not letting it 180 00:14:03.000 --> 00:14:05.279 go because, oh, it's the right thing to do, blah blah blah. 181 00:14:05.320 --> 00:14:09.600 No, you're doing it because you have to free yourself. What do 182 00:14:09.679 --> 00:14:13.480 you want to stay in their bondage forever? They hurt you, Now, 183 00:14:13.480 --> 00:14:16.879 you're gonna let them continuously hurt you the rest of your life. Your past 184 00:14:16.000 --> 00:14:20.240 is over. Refocus, Look at what's in front of you. It's not 185 00:14:20.440 --> 00:14:24.879 them. Stop looking in your rear view mirror, Stop looking behind your back, 186 00:14:24.200 --> 00:14:26.399 Look at what's in front of you. If you want to create a 187 00:14:26.440 --> 00:14:33.720 new life, what are we doing? Letting this go isn't letting go of 188 00:14:33.759 --> 00:14:37.720 the carra they're gonna get. It's not taking them off the hook. It's 189 00:14:37.759 --> 00:14:41.639 setting your self free. They've taken enough of your time and your energy and 190 00:14:41.679 --> 00:14:46.000 your focus. We're not gonna spend any more of our time having these self 191 00:14:46.360 --> 00:14:52.679 harming thoughts. About them, about what they're doing. We're no longer gonna 192 00:14:52.720 --> 00:14:56.840 place them on our pedestal because we understand that's not our job. That's not 193 00:14:58.000 --> 00:15:03.120 why we came here, that's not why we incarnated. It's to be someone 194 00:15:03.120 --> 00:15:09.440 else's watchkeeper. That's not what we're doing here. So Step one is giving 195 00:15:09.759 --> 00:15:15.519 up refocusing and being obsessed about our past and what they've done to us. 196 00:15:16.000 --> 00:15:20.039 It's having the Mantra moment of even if people hurt me, I'm not gonna 197 00:15:20.039 --> 00:15:24.480 continuously hurt myself. I'm taking my power back and I'm gonna realize I'm creating 198 00:15:24.559 --> 00:15:28.200 a new life with new rules. I have the power to decide how I'm 199 00:15:28.240 --> 00:15:31.919 gonna live for the rest of my life. I don't need to live in 200 00:15:31.960 --> 00:15:35.679 my past anymore. I can live however I please. And it starts with 201 00:15:35.759 --> 00:15:41.399 taking back my thoughts. It starts with stopping gauging, stalking their social media, 202 00:15:41.720 --> 00:15:46.240 checking up on what they're doing. It doesn't matter. Take back your 203 00:15:46.240 --> 00:15:52.240 control, take back your focus, take back your energy. If you keep 204 00:15:52.279 --> 00:15:56.399 focusing on your hurt, that's what you're gonna grow in your life. You 205 00:15:56.519 --> 00:16:00.919 have to start focusing on your healing. We can't heal the disease in our 206 00:16:00.960 --> 00:16:07.039 life. If we become it, you have to start focusing on your healing, 207 00:16:07.919 --> 00:16:11.279 on you, not what they're doing, not what they're thinking, not 208 00:16:11.399 --> 00:16:14.639 what they're living it up in their life. It doesn't matter. It doesn't 209 00:16:14.639 --> 00:16:19.559 matter no more, no more so. Step one, stop engaging with this 210 00:16:19.639 --> 00:16:25.919 harmful behavior of thinking about them, stalking them, wondering what they're doing. 211 00:16:26.440 --> 00:16:32.919 Step two ties into Step one, and it's all about realizing how the harmful 212 00:16:32.960 --> 00:16:38.159 behaviors we have engaged with and maybe are still engaging with right now, they 213 00:16:38.200 --> 00:16:44.759 were actually trying to help us. If you are dating the worst of the 214 00:16:45.080 --> 00:16:48.919 worst, if you've been binging, if you're drinking, whatever it is that 215 00:16:48.960 --> 00:16:53.759 you're currently doing that's harming you. Of course we have to give up these 216 00:16:53.799 --> 00:17:00.759 behaviors in order to love ourselves. But before we completely shut the door on 217 00:17:00.799 --> 00:17:04.880 them, I want you to understand something about them. If you weren't binging 218 00:17:06.279 --> 00:17:08.480 or dating the worst of the worst, or whatever it may be, that 219 00:17:08.519 --> 00:17:15.279 your maladaptive coping mechanism is God knows what you would have been doing. I 220 00:17:15.440 --> 00:17:21.000 hated myself for so long because I just, oh God, abuse my body 221 00:17:21.319 --> 00:17:25.400 to the heavens, to the heavens, I really did. I would starve 222 00:17:25.480 --> 00:17:30.160 myself, then binge, eat overwork out, be exhausted. Oh my god, 223 00:17:30.200 --> 00:17:38.359 the cycle was addictive and god awful. It's just like you're always starving, 224 00:17:38.440 --> 00:17:44.599 you always feel too full, You're just it's a never ending cycle of 225 00:17:44.839 --> 00:17:48.880 never feeling good enough, always feeling guilty like you ate too much or I 226 00:17:49.119 --> 00:17:55.359 then hurt my body. It just it's god awful. And honestly, if 227 00:17:55.799 --> 00:17:57.400 I have goosebumps right now, because if you're going through this right now, 228 00:17:57.480 --> 00:18:04.240 I understand, Like I get it. It's really difficult. And I'm not 229 00:18:04.480 --> 00:18:11.599 here to say these things aren't really difficult, because they are. They are, 230 00:18:11.720 --> 00:18:18.119 and these cycles we become slaves to our eating habits, to the image 231 00:18:18.119 --> 00:18:21.799 that we want to be, and it just has such a choke hold on 232 00:18:21.960 --> 00:18:27.480 us and we lose ourselves in it. When I was binging really bad, 233 00:18:27.559 --> 00:18:32.160 like, oh my god, like really badly, I was starving myself and 234 00:18:32.160 --> 00:18:34.039 then just binge binge, binge, and then I would feel guilty, so 235 00:18:34.079 --> 00:18:37.279 I would starve myself and then I would binge because I was starving, and 236 00:18:37.319 --> 00:18:41.799 then I would feel guilty and I would serve myself over exercising when I was 237 00:18:41.839 --> 00:18:45.640 doing that, like, oh my god, level ten okay. And I 238 00:18:47.079 --> 00:18:51.799 will say this, My biggest issue in life always been food. Always been 239 00:18:51.799 --> 00:18:56.640 food, and it's something that I will always heal through and I love learning 240 00:18:56.640 --> 00:19:00.480 about it because then I get to share it with you. But I realized 241 00:19:00.519 --> 00:19:07.839 that if I wasn't abusing my body with food, I probably would have found 242 00:19:07.880 --> 00:19:11.640 something else. Yeah, if it wasn't food, maybe it would have been 243 00:19:11.680 --> 00:19:15.799 men. If it wasn't men, maybe it would have been drugs. If 244 00:19:15.839 --> 00:19:19.279 it wasn't drugs, god knows what I would have gotten into. I had 245 00:19:19.319 --> 00:19:25.119 to realize that I wasn't binging so I could have fun. You know. 246 00:19:25.160 --> 00:19:30.720 It wasn't a fun experience for me. That was my coping mechanism. That 247 00:19:30.920 --> 00:19:36.000 was how I was surviving. If I wasn't binging, I would have picked 248 00:19:36.079 --> 00:19:38.759 something worse. And if I wasn't binging or doing something worse, I don't 249 00:19:38.799 --> 00:19:44.880 know how I would have coped with that reality that I was dealing with the 250 00:19:44.920 --> 00:19:49.160 behaviors that we engage with, even though they're not self loving and they're not 251 00:19:49.359 --> 00:19:53.880 something we should continuously engage with. If they're hurting us, I want you 252 00:19:53.960 --> 00:20:00.160 to understand they're coping mechanisms. You're not doing it to hurt yourself. You're 253 00:20:00.160 --> 00:20:03.640 doing it because you're saying, I don't know how else to survive right now. 254 00:20:03.680 --> 00:20:07.680 And this is this is where I'm given in. This is where I'm 255 00:20:07.720 --> 00:20:11.160 letting go of control. This is where I'm just letting it all loose. 256 00:20:11.559 --> 00:20:15.920 This whole entire time, while you've been hating yourself. I hated myself for 257 00:20:15.960 --> 00:20:21.400 binging and then over exercising, starving, making myself eat too much. I 258 00:20:21.519 --> 00:20:26.720 didn't enjoy that that whole entire time. Though those behaviors were trying to keep 259 00:20:26.720 --> 00:20:33.400 me alive. Subconsciously, I was trying to keep CC going. I was 260 00:20:33.400 --> 00:20:40.039 trying to keep CC alive. My body always been on my side. It's 261 00:20:40.160 --> 00:20:45.880 always wanted me here. It's always been communicating with me. It's always been 262 00:20:45.920 --> 00:20:48.440 talking to me. It's always been telling me, this is what we need 263 00:20:48.480 --> 00:20:52.400 to run our best. Most of the time, I just ignored those messages 264 00:20:52.440 --> 00:20:57.240 and I said, no, you're going to be starved because you have to 265 00:20:57.240 --> 00:21:00.680 look a certain way. And now that you're starving and can't even think or 266 00:21:00.720 --> 00:21:04.880 get up and you're blacking out, I'm gonna feed you so much that you're 267 00:21:04.880 --> 00:21:11.839 not gonna be able to walk or breathe. Basically, I was trying to 268 00:21:11.880 --> 00:21:18.119 override what my body was naturally trying to do, which would love me, 269 00:21:18.279 --> 00:21:26.079 because my body is a gift from God and all it's ever has done is 270 00:21:26.119 --> 00:21:33.680 try to love me and help me survive. If your parents gave you a 271 00:21:33.799 --> 00:21:37.279 really expensive or nice gift, or even a partner gave you a really expensive 272 00:21:37.359 --> 00:21:41.559 or nice gift, how would you treat it. Would you throw it in 273 00:21:41.599 --> 00:21:47.039 the back of your car, never look at it again. Would you disregard 274 00:21:47.119 --> 00:21:49.519 it? Would you spill your coffee on it? No, you would hold 275 00:21:49.559 --> 00:21:52.319 it with the utmost respect. You'd be like, Wow, this is such 276 00:21:52.319 --> 00:21:56.119 a nice gift. It's so meaningful, it was so expensive. I'm gonna 277 00:21:56.160 --> 00:22:00.799 treat this right. Our body is a gift from God. It is the 278 00:22:00.839 --> 00:22:07.960 only way we're able to exist on planet Earth, and we're disrespecting it with 279 00:22:07.079 --> 00:22:12.400 binging, whether it's drugs, alcohol, food, men were disrespecting it. 280 00:22:12.720 --> 00:22:17.000 We had to start seeing our body not as something that we're trying to run 281 00:22:17.039 --> 00:22:19.920 into the ground and make look perfect. We had to start treating it as 282 00:22:19.920 --> 00:22:23.319 a freaking gift, because that's what it is. Without this body, we 283 00:22:23.400 --> 00:22:26.640 couldn't be here right now. You couldn't be hearing me. I can't be 284 00:22:26.799 --> 00:22:36.279 connecting with you. I recently was on an airplane and I had at the 285 00:22:36.319 --> 00:22:38.599 airport a smoothie and I think there was almonds in it. Because I broke 286 00:22:38.640 --> 00:22:42.440 out with dermatitis and I had an allergic reaction, I had to take benadryl. 287 00:22:44.160 --> 00:22:49.279 And this was the first time I really had germatitis where I thought to 288 00:22:49.359 --> 00:22:56.839 myself, I'm not gonna hate myself. I'm gonna realize my body is trying 289 00:22:56.880 --> 00:23:02.039 to save me. I put something in my system accident that my system does 290 00:23:02.079 --> 00:23:04.359 not like, and it's bad for my body because it's causing this reaction. 291 00:23:04.400 --> 00:23:07.440 I'm allergic to it, and my body is trying to alert me of that, 292 00:23:07.559 --> 00:23:12.640 so it's causing me to break out. And instead of trying to pop 293 00:23:12.680 --> 00:23:15.200 the dermatitis, which by the way, don't you die because you can't there's 294 00:23:15.200 --> 00:23:21.359 nothing to pop it's in allergic reaction or make it worse looking, I just 295 00:23:21.400 --> 00:23:25.359 said, my body's trying to protect me. I just took the managerial. 296 00:23:25.720 --> 00:23:30.160 I want us to start seeing these behaviors as not a reason to hate ourselves, 297 00:23:30.319 --> 00:23:33.640 but as a reason that our body has always been on our side and 298 00:23:33.680 --> 00:23:36.759 has been trying to keep us alive. We get to go sleep, and 299 00:23:36.799 --> 00:23:41.079 our heart continues to beat for us, Our lungs continue to work for us, 300 00:23:41.319 --> 00:23:45.759 our organs, our digestive system. This vessel here is a gift. 301 00:23:45.599 --> 00:23:49.920 It's not something to hate, it's not something to disrespect. It's a gift. 302 00:23:51.000 --> 00:23:56.759 It's something to treat with the utmost respect and understand it's a communication center. 303 00:23:56.799 --> 00:24:00.039 It's trying to communicate with us all of the time. So, whether 304 00:24:00.119 --> 00:24:07.799 you were binging and starving yourself, or you were doing some other maladaptive coping 305 00:24:07.839 --> 00:24:14.839 mechanism, or you kept engaging with the same toxic relationships, understand that what 306 00:24:14.880 --> 00:24:17.599 you were doing you were doing because you thought that was the only way you 307 00:24:17.640 --> 00:24:22.480 could survive. And subconsciously, all you've ever done since you were a baby 308 00:24:22.680 --> 00:24:26.480 was try to survive. And even though that's been your past, your past 309 00:24:26.519 --> 00:24:30.240 doesn't have to equal your future. You're allowed to change, you're allowed to 310 00:24:30.279 --> 00:24:37.559 shift, you're allowed to become a new person. And these coping mechanisms, 311 00:24:37.920 --> 00:24:40.720 they may have been the best that we knew how to do, and so 312 00:24:40.839 --> 00:24:45.039 we did them, but now we're learning to do better and we're allowed to 313 00:24:45.559 --> 00:24:49.839 release them. We're allowed to release the criticism, the behavior, all of 314 00:24:49.880 --> 00:24:56.680 these things. We don't have to keep engaging with them. So Step one 315 00:24:56.359 --> 00:25:03.279 is to stop engaging with our past through focusing on it with these self harming 316 00:25:03.319 --> 00:25:08.079 thoughts. Step two is to realize that the self harming thoughts and behaviors weren't 317 00:25:08.119 --> 00:25:11.559 something we were doing to get back at ourselves. It wasn't because we hated 318 00:25:11.599 --> 00:25:15.920 ourselves. We're actually just doing these things to survive. We were actually just 319 00:25:15.960 --> 00:25:22.000 doing these things so we could continue on this planet. We've actually always had 320 00:25:22.119 --> 00:25:26.240 been loving ourselves, even if the vehicle in which we loved ourselves in wasn't 321 00:25:26.279 --> 00:25:32.599 helpful to us, but we tried. We didn't always know the best way 322 00:25:32.640 --> 00:25:36.920 to love ourselves, but we tried. Now we're gonna learn and do better. 323 00:25:37.200 --> 00:25:42.880 So step three is something I'm calling line up and label. The really 324 00:25:42.920 --> 00:25:47.680 interesting thing about being a human being is that not all of your thoughts and 325 00:25:47.720 --> 00:25:52.480 your emotions are yours. Thoughts are energy, emotions, emotions, energy in 326 00:25:52.599 --> 00:26:00.839 motion. We are not just broadcasters of frequency, we're also receivers. So 327 00:26:00.680 --> 00:26:04.799 if you were growing up and you had a coach or a parent, or 328 00:26:04.839 --> 00:26:11.519 you were bullied and you were heavily criticized, We are receivers of that energy, 329 00:26:11.759 --> 00:26:15.759 and from ages about two to seven, we're operating in data state. 330 00:26:15.279 --> 00:26:19.079 That means our subconscious mind is wide open. So anything we're being told, 331 00:26:19.160 --> 00:26:25.720 we truly believe. If we've been heavily criticized while we're growing up, those 332 00:26:26.119 --> 00:26:30.079 thoughts of others, we receive them, they now become our own thoughts and 333 00:26:30.160 --> 00:26:37.240 become our inner critic. Even while we're adults or teenagers, whatever it may 334 00:26:37.279 --> 00:26:41.599 be, we can go to a party or a yoga studio or wherever, 335 00:26:42.000 --> 00:26:45.400 and we can still pick up on thoughts that are negative from other people and 336 00:26:45.559 --> 00:26:52.720 think they are ours because the thoughts that we think they will come through in 337 00:26:52.839 --> 00:26:56.519 our own voice. The thoughts that we receive will also come through in our 338 00:26:56.559 --> 00:27:00.880 own voice. So it's hard to decipher. Is this it's my thought or 339 00:27:00.960 --> 00:27:03.200 is this the thought I'm picking up? Is this my emotion or is this 340 00:27:03.400 --> 00:27:07.839 an emotion I'm picking up? I always say my endpaths. Girly girls, 341 00:27:08.039 --> 00:27:12.960 you gotta be careful and you gotta protect your energy, because if you're too 342 00:27:14.039 --> 00:27:18.079 receptive, your solar plexus is too old been you're receiving too much energy, 343 00:27:18.519 --> 00:27:25.759 You're going to be constantly anxious, constantly self critical. So what you're gonna 344 00:27:25.799 --> 00:27:30.200 do is number one, every single morning, when you wake up. This 345 00:27:30.240 --> 00:27:33.640 is a technique I learned from this woman called pat Long I believe her name 346 00:27:33.720 --> 00:27:37.400 is, And a technique that she taught me is when I wake up, 347 00:27:37.839 --> 00:27:44.039 I'm going to think in my mind, and thoughts are energy, so they 348 00:27:44.039 --> 00:27:47.400 are very real, They're as real as can be in this energetic universe. 349 00:27:47.839 --> 00:27:52.000 I'm going to see a golden chest plate on me, and every single morning, 350 00:27:52.079 --> 00:27:56.880 I'm going to really surround myself in this golden plate, see that it's 351 00:27:56.880 --> 00:28:00.640 on my chest, and know that I'm protected. And while I'm going throughout 352 00:28:00.640 --> 00:28:03.519 my day, anyone who sends me energy, it's just going to hit this 353 00:28:03.640 --> 00:28:07.119 golden plate and be sent back to them and I don't need to worry about 354 00:28:07.160 --> 00:28:14.359 it done. So every single morning, we're protecting ourselves with this golden chest 355 00:28:14.359 --> 00:28:18.759 plate. The other thing I want you to do is write out. Have 356 00:28:18.799 --> 00:28:22.039 a notebook with you throughout your day, even your phone, Okay, and 357 00:28:22.119 --> 00:28:26.960 I want you to pay attention when you have a negative thought, write it 358 00:28:27.039 --> 00:28:32.400 down, write it down, and then I want you to reflect on this 359 00:28:32.440 --> 00:28:36.799 thought, either in meditation or journal about it at night. Do I actually 360 00:28:36.839 --> 00:28:41.880 believe that I'm not worthy of anything good? When did I first think that 361 00:28:42.000 --> 00:28:47.359 I was not worthy of anything good? Who made me feel like this growing 362 00:28:47.519 --> 00:28:52.400 up? What I want you to understand is that these thoughts you'll come to 363 00:28:52.519 --> 00:28:56.880 realize through self reflection are not yours. That have never been yours. You 364 00:28:56.920 --> 00:29:02.640 weren't born with these thoughts. You inherited them through existing. Through existing, 365 00:29:03.400 --> 00:29:08.160 don't let other people's projections become your predictions, because you're letting their negative energy 366 00:29:08.200 --> 00:29:12.480 into your own vessel and then thinking that they're yours. Just because that is 367 00:29:12.640 --> 00:29:18.319 in your head doesn't mean it's your authentic voice or it's your truth. It 368 00:29:18.400 --> 00:29:22.359 means that your receptive to someone else's negative energy. That's all it means. 369 00:29:22.680 --> 00:29:26.359 So when you have a negative thought, write it down and reflect on it. 370 00:29:26.759 --> 00:29:30.079 Who gave me this? When did I first feel it? Do I 371 00:29:30.160 --> 00:29:33.519 actually believe this? What's a better feeling thought I can think? And then 372 00:29:33.559 --> 00:29:41.039 that's going to be your new affirmation. We need to better understand that we 373 00:29:41.279 --> 00:29:45.880 have always been on our own team. Our body has always been on our 374 00:29:45.920 --> 00:29:48.400 own team, Our thoughts have always been on our own team, and we 375 00:29:48.440 --> 00:29:52.160 can't help that. We live in an energetic universe and we are receptors. 376 00:29:52.440 --> 00:29:56.119 But now we can understand, Okay, I can protect myself with my golden 377 00:29:56.160 --> 00:30:00.400 plate. When someone sends me negative energy, I can say back to center, 378 00:30:00.480 --> 00:30:03.359 back to center, back to sender. I literally would go to this 379 00:30:03.440 --> 00:30:06.440 yoga class, and every time this woman is in the yoga class, I 380 00:30:06.480 --> 00:30:08.720 get negative thoughts every single time, and I realized, wait, these are 381 00:30:08.799 --> 00:30:12.799 not my thoughts, but every time this woman is here, I'm feeling so 382 00:30:14.680 --> 00:30:18.240 negative, so negative, and I literally had to move my spot because I 383 00:30:18.240 --> 00:30:19.880 couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I had to surround myself. 384 00:30:19.920 --> 00:30:22.799 I had to put my golden plate on, and I said, okay, 385 00:30:22.799 --> 00:30:26.920 see see, get it together here. Protect your energy, and we're gonna 386 00:30:26.000 --> 00:30:30.640 refocus on our yoga class. But you do have to protect your energy. 387 00:30:30.119 --> 00:30:36.240 So Step one to self forgiveness is understanding that we have to stop engaging with 388 00:30:36.279 --> 00:30:40.119 our past. Our past doesn't equal our future and we're not going to allow 389 00:30:40.160 --> 00:30:45.680 it to continuously flood our present moment. Step two is realizing we've always actually 390 00:30:45.680 --> 00:30:48.519 been on our own side, even when we were engaging in the same patterns 391 00:30:48.519 --> 00:30:52.559 with the same dudes or the binging or the starving or whatever it is. 392 00:30:52.880 --> 00:30:56.440 We were actually just trying to cope with our reality and that was the only 393 00:30:56.480 --> 00:30:59.720 way we knew how. And if we knew how to do better, we 394 00:30:59.759 --> 00:31:02.279 will. But that's all we knew at that moment, So we can forgive 395 00:31:02.319 --> 00:31:06.359 that. Okay, then we're gonna step three line up and label are these 396 00:31:06.400 --> 00:31:08.440 thoughts mine? Are they someone else's? When did I start thinking this? 397 00:31:08.519 --> 00:31:12.039 And we're gonna protect our energy with the golden plate. Now step four is 398 00:31:12.079 --> 00:31:18.720 the most important part. Now, Step four is something called hapona. Now, 399 00:31:18.920 --> 00:31:26.799 this is my favorite way to connect with my body and really give it 400 00:31:26.839 --> 00:31:32.079 self love. If you deal with autoimmune disease, this is because a lot 401 00:31:32.079 --> 00:31:37.119 of the time there's energetic dysfunction, and so what happens is we're so self 402 00:31:37.200 --> 00:31:44.440 critical of ourselves that our body starts attacking itself to yep, I love using 403 00:31:45.720 --> 00:31:52.400 to work with any autoimmune dysfunction, any disease in the body. It's it's 404 00:31:52.480 --> 00:32:00.559 really helpful. What is so hap is an ancient Hawaiian healing modality that literally 405 00:32:00.599 --> 00:32:05.119 means to make right. This technique allows us to take responsibility over our life, 406 00:32:05.160 --> 00:32:08.119 our state of being, our pedestal, and ultimately allowing us to take 407 00:32:08.160 --> 00:32:13.240 our power back. This modality allows us to release our past so we may 408 00:32:13.319 --> 00:32:19.079 live in our present moment, and it's for mantras. These four mantras are 409 00:32:19.160 --> 00:32:22.799 I'm sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you, don't 410 00:32:22.799 --> 00:32:25.160 worry. We're going to do this together. When you're doing this technique, 411 00:32:25.200 --> 00:32:29.599 you can think of someone who has hurt you in your past if you want 412 00:32:29.599 --> 00:32:32.640 to make it right energetically with them, or maybe someone you hurt. But 413 00:32:32.960 --> 00:32:37.279 since we're learning how to forgive ourselves, I really think it would be most 414 00:32:37.319 --> 00:32:42.519 beneficial that we use this to think about either our past self or our body 415 00:32:42.720 --> 00:32:46.000 or our current version of ourselves, and we're gonna make it right with either 416 00:32:46.079 --> 00:32:50.839 a past version, our body, or who we are today. We want 417 00:32:50.880 --> 00:32:55.359 to give ourselves love and forgiveness so that we can move on to the next 418 00:32:55.440 --> 00:33:00.359 version of who we wish to be, or just feel more peace in our 419 00:33:00.400 --> 00:33:07.279 current incarnation. When you're saying I'm sorry, that's the first mantra of this. 420 00:33:07.359 --> 00:33:09.559 I'm sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you. 421 00:33:09.880 --> 00:33:14.240 I'm just going to explain why we're saying each mantra, and then we're actually 422 00:33:14.279 --> 00:33:16.480 going to do it together. When we say I'm sorry, you're saying this 423 00:33:16.599 --> 00:33:22.440 to accept the responsibility for the energy you have brought to the table and any 424 00:33:22.599 --> 00:33:25.920 of the events that may have corresponded to this energy. So if you've been 425 00:33:27.000 --> 00:33:30.200 hurting your body, you're saying I'm sorry for engaging in those behaviors. So 426 00:33:30.200 --> 00:33:34.759 you're saying I'm sorry to myself. Then you're going to say, please forgive 427 00:33:34.799 --> 00:33:37.200 me, and you're saying this to make amends with either that past version or 428 00:33:37.240 --> 00:33:43.480 your body, the current version of you. This is asking for forgiveness for 429 00:33:43.599 --> 00:33:46.240 the past treatment. Then you're going to say thank you. You're showing gratitude, 430 00:33:46.319 --> 00:33:51.119 you're raising your vibration. And then the last mantra is self love. 431 00:33:51.119 --> 00:33:55.359 It's just I love you, and this further raises your your vibration. So 432 00:33:55.599 --> 00:33:59.240 I want us to just, you know, shake out our bodies for a 433 00:33:59.279 --> 00:34:04.160 second. Okay, and let's take a deep breath and through her nose and 434 00:34:04.200 --> 00:34:08.559 out through her mouth, and you can close your eyes if it's applicable to 435 00:34:08.599 --> 00:34:12.880 you. If you're driving or working out, obviously keep your eyes open. 436 00:34:13.079 --> 00:34:19.639 But I want you to imagine, envision in your minds. I either this 437 00:34:19.800 --> 00:34:24.000 past version of you, your current self, or your body, and I 438 00:34:24.039 --> 00:34:31.880 want you to say to this part of you, I'm sorry. Please forgive 439 00:34:31.960 --> 00:34:43.000 me. Thank you. I love you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for 440 00:34:43.079 --> 00:34:49.920 treating you negatively, for staying in patterns for longer than maybe I should have. 441 00:34:51.360 --> 00:34:55.960 I'm sorry for starving you and I'm binging. I'm sorry for not learning 442 00:34:57.000 --> 00:35:00.599 better sooner. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I want to make this 443 00:35:00.760 --> 00:35:12.400 right. Thank you, I love you. I'm sorry, Please forgive me, 444 00:35:13.719 --> 00:35:21.280 thank you, I love you. The whole entire point of this episode 445 00:35:21.440 --> 00:35:25.840 of making amends with our self or the past version of us, even the 446 00:35:25.880 --> 00:35:32.039 current version of us, is to understand that even if we didn't always engage 447 00:35:32.079 --> 00:35:37.440 in the best behaviors, our intention was always to survive and keep going, 448 00:35:38.920 --> 00:35:46.599 the binging, the staying around toxic relationships. Our intention was just to survive. 449 00:35:49.079 --> 00:35:52.360 You actually have been on your team this whole entire time, even if 450 00:35:52.360 --> 00:35:57.840 you didn't realize that you were. You actually have been trying to save yourself 451 00:35:57.920 --> 00:36:00.679 this whole entire time. Even if you didn't really lies you were, You 452 00:36:00.760 --> 00:36:07.440 actually have been really trying really hard this whole entire time. Even though you 453 00:36:07.480 --> 00:36:14.599 didn't know you were, and you got yourself here. So now we're not 454 00:36:14.639 --> 00:36:20.559 gonna stay in the patterns that have not been the best vehicle. We're gonna 455 00:36:20.599 --> 00:36:28.760 release these, We're gonna let these go so we can make room to become 456 00:36:28.880 --> 00:36:31.559 a better version of ourselves, so we can make room for peace, so 457 00:36:31.599 --> 00:36:37.280 we can make room for happiness, whatever it may be. You're not standing 458 00:36:37.280 --> 00:36:40.480 in that puddle anymore. You stepped away from it, you stepped out, 459 00:36:40.960 --> 00:36:47.079 You moved on. Let the past rest in peace, so you can come 460 00:36:47.119 --> 00:36:55.639 alive in this new cycle. It's rebirth, rejuvenation, resetting, refocused, 461 00:36:55.960 --> 00:37:01.760 redirected. That's who you are now. Practice with O pon pono every single 462 00:37:01.840 --> 00:37:07.320 day and you will start giving, oh my god, such a release to 463 00:37:07.400 --> 00:37:09.519 yourself. You're going to feel so amazing, You're going to feel aligned. 464 00:37:09.519 --> 00:37:13.920 It just will get better and better and better. Now, next week, 465 00:37:14.000 --> 00:37:17.880 we're going to continue to talk about self love, but this time it's going 466 00:37:17.920 --> 00:37:21.079 to be a little bit different, and we're going to talk about how to 467 00:37:21.119 --> 00:37:24.960 create self safety, because it's hard to love ourselves when we're constantly looking over 468 00:37:25.079 --> 00:37:30.760 our shoulder and feeling really uncomfortable and really unsafe. I love you so much 469 00:37:30.920 --> 00:37:34.519 as always the Sparkle in Me honors of Sparkle in You. If you enjoyed 470 00:37:34.559 --> 00:37:37.079 this podcast, please interact with it on YouTube, leave me a comment. 471 00:37:37.119 --> 00:37:40.400 I would love to speak back to you in the comments like the video. 472 00:37:40.480 --> 00:37:45.320 Subscribe and if you would like to. It would mean the world to me 473 00:37:45.440 --> 00:37:49.960 if you could leave a positive review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify. If not 474 00:37:50.039 --> 00:37:52.559 for me to do it for you, because good karma and I will see 475 00:37:52.559 --> 00:37:57.679 you in the next episode. For next week when we talk about self safety, 476 00:38:00.360 --> 00:38:08.000 I can see Pana not Sorry set into energy. Saf can shape, 477 00:38:09.480 --> 00:38:28.480 how can how can jengy No? Can s can SA sphet cancer spect