The weird things, weird, weird. So they say because of this,
because you are at such a deep level of meditation where your mind is literally
silent, and it's like it's in the void, it's in blackness. You're
not having external thoughts. You literally your perspective of time begins to dissolve to
where it could have been five minutes, it could have been three hours.
You're not sure you're content being there. You're like, this is kind of
nice. I'm just laying here, I don't even know what time it is,
and your mind is just so locked into this void. Because of this,
it's the ideal place for manifestation. So they have a whole program where
basically they use Focus fifteen for manifestation. And again the Monro Institute is genius
in the way they package terms and phrase them, so they call it patterning.
So you create these patterns in your mind in Focus fifteen that you want
to see unfold in your life. So they had us do like a manifestation
exercise and just they do free flow where they're like we're gonna get you there
and leave you there for an hour and you do whatever you want to do.
If you want to talk to your higher self. That's fine. You
want to try to go out of body, that's fine. You do whatever
you want. You're gonna free flow. And then the next one might be
like, Okay, we're gonna do patterning, and then it's like, okay,
present. The next session might be like, have five questions for your
higher self, write them down, and then when you're in that state,
just think in your mind, Okay, I have my questions written down.
Can these answers be presented to me? Because what they teach is like,
your higher self knows everything. Time doesn't exist, physical space doesn't exist.
So all the answers you've ever needed in your whole life exist outside of time
already. You just have to kind of remember them. So you get into
this focused fifteen state, you can kind of speak with your higher self and
it's real. They said it's like Zen meditation. The masters zen monks focus
fifteen state. That's what they've spent their whole lives achieving. I'm just writing
down other notes. It's beyond time, the nothingness of the mind, like
transcendental meditation, silence, the void, all potential is possible. You can
initiate infinite possibilities of being. This and opposites are reconciled emerged in this state
of consciousness, and they're like, if there's a if there's a problem in
your life that you want to find the answer when you get to focus fifteen,
just think about in your mind. Okay, show me higher self,
show me where this problem arose in the past and where it will be resolved
in the future. So I did that exercise, and the problem is personal
and I didn't even know the problem. Actually, I was just like,
whatever limitation I'm facing in my life, show me when it occurred. And
it came to me a real problem in my childhood that it is personal,
but a real problem, and I was like, okay, that's kind of
fucked up. It makes sense. Now show me the future where they merge.
And I clearly saw it flash in my mind and it was Jenny having
our first baby, and I was like, okay, this makes perfect sense.
That's so sweet. So yeah, I wrote go to the Place where
conflicts meet and resolved. I didn't write the problem because I didn't want anybody
to read it ever or have the ability to read it. Just in case
anyone ever read through this, I said, is there something that happened that
created a particular difficulty for me. Take me there so I can resolve it,
and it popped up childhood trauma. I didn't write what it was.
Saw me having a child. I saw the oh, this is where I
saw the Egyptian thing. I saw the Temple of Egypt and felt like I
was inside of it and I was fucking there, dude, I was out
of body. I was in ancient Egypt. I was in the temple laying
like Osyrus, because that's what they did in their funerary rituals. They would
lay there and mimic being like the Lord of the underworld. And I saw
that it symbolized eternal life, that they would do this to honor that we
are immortal beings and you know we exist after death. It's a symbolizing death
and rebirth, eternal life. I had the sense that they received knowledge and
communication from beings in the temple. I requested my higher self to take me
out of body because Session three it was like, you do whatever you want,
it's free flow. So I was like, okay, take me out
of my body. I want to go out of body again. And it's
weird because it's not like you know, it's not like smoking DMT where you're
like, uh, okay, this HiT's going to do it and you're out.
It's not like that. It's like you kind of lay there for a
moment, you think about the meditation, and then you just kind of start
dissolving into it and next thing you know, it's happening. It's not like,
let's do it right. It's not like that, right. It just
kind of creeps up on you. What I saw was so fucking weird.
It wasn't scary, but it was like my mind. You know, like
when you close your eyes, you have thoughts in the back of your mind,
but then you see your eyelids. Well, when you're in these states
of consciousness, it ain't that simple, and everything that's in your mind is
present and you feel like you can really see it. And then in focus
twenty one, I really saw it, and that's where this is going,
the finale of all of it. In Focus fifteen, I felt like the
perspective of my mind was completely dissolved from a single point and everything was in
three D and it was like I actually took this picture at the institute that
it looked like that. It felt like very weird. I can't explain it
other than it was literally like doing some sort of mind altering hallucinogen, except
we were completely sober. You're talking about the picture that you saw in your
mind. No, no, no, I saw a picture hanging on the
wall the inside. They reminded me of what it felt like in my mind.
Oh, I see like like complete abstract three D s. It is
extremely abstract. It felt like that in my mind. I don't know if
you can see it in the in the camera, but I could see myself
from every perspective. Oh, I know how I got there too. I
started relaxing. I was like, well, maybe I'm not going to go
out of body, and I just started thinking about playing the drums. And
the more I thought about that, the more I dissolved. And then it
was like I saw myself from behind me playing the drums, and then my
perspective went into this weird loop where I saw the circle of time. And
they called I told them this, and they're like, oh, it's called
three D or three sixty. You're three sixty. I was like, that's
that's a thing. They're like, yeah, it happens all the time.
Your mind three sixty to where you could see everything from an alternate perspective that
happened sometimes when you go out of body. I did forget to say that
that first time that I was really shocked when I went out of body.
Emily, who I had mentioned was one of the instructors went with us,
came to me at lunch privately and she was like, Hey, just say
you know that that does happen to people. I know exactly what you mean.
It is a little shocking when it happens the first time. Don't even
worry about it. You're not alone in that. And I was like,
oh, thank god. And she's like, don't even worry about it.
It's it's all right. It happens, and you know it'll be better next
time, something like that. And then they're like, oh, you're three
sixteenth this time. So I was like, this, sh it just happens
to people all the time. This is something that they see regularly. They're
not even shocked by it. When you tell them. They're like, oh,
yeah, yeah, that's that happened last week. Yeah, every time.
To you, it's the first time and it's like, what the fuck
is going on? Yeah, and they're like yeah, no, it's all
good. Yeah, we called this We've seen that happened to media, like
yeah, yeah, dude, and so that's I think that might be the
end of Focus fifteen. Actually, I think we did do one more day
of Focus fifteen and we had the five questions and it was present five questions
to our higher self and write them down. And it was just like,
have five questions that you want the order to your higher self is going to
reveal them to you in an order of significance from five to one, so
the first answer will be the least significant, all the way up to the
top. So my fifth answer was, you are one of us, a
light being walking is walking amongst earth, but everyone is. Right, Yeah,
that was the premise. It was like, you're one of us,
but everyone is. You know, every soul that comes here comes, We're
all more than our physical body. And I was like, damn, that's
pretty deep. Okay, next one I actually wrote down the questions. I
don't because I'm seeing the answers here. But the next one was like,
maybe I didn't write them down. The next answer was we have to evolve
past killing and harming other beings. We you know, the way for our
light body to ascend is to vibrate with innocence and kindness. We have to
completely have all past harm. The next one was just stay on the path,
keep going. Then the second most important answer was relaxed, lighten up,
you've already won. Just have fun. And then the first one was
and I was like, what the fuck? But I wrote it down exactly
as it came to me and said, we are coming to get you,
We're coming to help you. And I was like, Okay. When I
said that one in class, they're like, WHOA, Okay, interesting.
Now you can see my handwriting here is pretty normal for the most part.
Look at my handwriting on the last day, talk about shook up? WHOA
you were shook? I wrote very intense out of body that was very much
like d MT that could be shaped by thought. You are in control?
WHOA? Like what the yeah? I said, I get the sense it
takes mastery. Look at look at the look at the difference in the handwriting
here. Yeah, like completely normal, even the previous shocking out of body
stuff. And then this one was like barely can even write on the paper.
There was that guy he had a million gazillion dollars. I mean it
just like I was so shook up by this one. I don't even remember
what happened. I think I was, Oh, that's the one where I
was running around like the Flash and then I was flying around like Superman and
I was seeing things, but it was like I wasn't aware of my body.
They showed us an amazing TED Talk that I'm gonna skip over because I
don't remember the name of the presenter, But it was this neuroscientist who talked
about the hemispheres of the brain. And while this is possible basically because the
left brain is the logic side, the physical side, attached the material world,
attached to time and space. The right side is the energy side,
consciousness, art, creativity, connected to the energy field around you. And
it was really good. Right brain is the parallel processor. Left brain is
the serial processor. The right hemisphere is consciousness collected connected kinesthetically to energy of
body and the environment. Left hemisphere is past and future linear thinking like oh
shit, I forgot lunch just left the house, I forgot to bring lunch
for later today, or oh man, I forgot to do my homework last
night. The left brain is always thinking about time. Yah was the TED
Talk presenter, male or female? Female. Was it Jill Bull Tay Taylor,
Jill Taylor, It might be it's it's she had a stroke, Yes,
Jill Taylor, that's her. Jill Taylor, profound. She's got a
couple of them. Profound. She she had a stroke in her brain,
but she's literally a neuroscientist, so she was like explaining what happened in her
brain as the stroke increased the hemorrhage, and it was really profound. The
left brain is the I am. It's the ego, categorizes information, connects
events from the past and the future. And the right brain is separate from
the ego. It is connected to the energy filled around us. And that's
very important because the hem the HEMI sink technology, which is Munroe's technology,
it's it's hemispheric synchronization. These deep states of consciousness. You're synchronizing these aspects
of the brain where all this is possible. Uh okay, yeah. I
on day five was the last day, and this is where it got crazy.
So I had this exercise where it was like give me what I need
the most and take away what I no longer need. They had us write
that down. They're like getting to focus twenty one and just you know,
write that down and your higher self will come through. It was I was
so exhausted. My brain was so exhausted that I had a hard time,
like actually seeing visuals in my mind after five days of meditating four or five
hours a day. But then there was this guy there, Marco, who
I talked about earlier. He's a wonderful guy, and I saw a massive
flash of his mind come into my meditation. And it was weird too because
his braids were down, which is interesting because but when I saw him before
the session they were up. But I guess he took him down to meditate.
And when I told him that in the class, he was like,
interesting because I was thinking of you. There were a lot of moments like
that where we would be seeing each other in meditation and getting information about each
other that was real private information. It happened the whole week. I mean
it, it was insane. It was very hard to visualize. I saw
Marco and then his face was smiling at me. And then when I thought
about the stress of money and the house and all this that I've been going
on in my daily life, I saw a black and white face with snakes
coming out of the mouth, and I was like, what the fuck?
What is that? And then I saw a light being rushing towards me.
But it was like real and I was like whoa, and it felt very
real. Then we get to class and they're like, okay, we're gonna
do our final Focus twenty one. We're gonna do it differently, though I
did, forget to say. The day before we did this amazing exercise where
for about five hours we couldn't speak. Oh wow, Yeah, we couldn't
speak at all. We had to go through several meditations and just sitting in
silence by ourselves. Don't text anybody, don't speak to anybody. Okay.
So everybody was like in their individual rooms or walking around. Yeah, oh
okay, so there was some mingling, but it's like, do not speak
for five hours. Yeah, it was until lunchtime at one o'clock, from
like nine thirty in the morning or something to like one. It was maybe
not quite five hours, but it was like, don't speak. Yeah,
And they taught about how when you sit in silence and you don't speak,
you're like allowing your mind to shift into a state of receptivity. And it
was very powerful. It was actually very incredibly powerful, and I found that
I wanted to keep being in silence. I mean, granted we were going
through intense meditation too, I found that I wanted to stay in silence.
And when the meditation ended and it was lunchtime, I got out and I
was just thinking, to my mind, I wasn't tech dude. I'm always
on my phone, I'm always playing video games, I'm always doing stupid shit.
But this day I was sitting there in silence for four hours and I
was like, this is amazing. I don't want to do anything except lay
here and meditate. It really changed you. And I walked upstairs. I
got a little cup of coffee and I was like, I'm just gonna keep
not talking. You feel so at peace. Your mind is so quiet,
it feels so clear. And I walked to the fridge because they have an
amazing chefs staff that's round the clock feeding us and all this. I walked
to the kitchen and I was looking for the oat milk to put in my
coffee because they had a bunch of like healthy alternatives and vegan options. They
didn't have coffee creamer that was good for me except oat milk. So I
was like fuck it, I'll have oat milk. All week. I was
looking for the oat milk and I was in silence, and one of the
kitchen staff looks at me. He's like, can I help you find something?
Man? And I looked at him. I thought to myself and I
said, yeah, I'm just looking for oat milk. You said that out
loud, and I realized coffee was worth it. Coffee was worth breaking.
It was manome and it was a profound moment that I chose to speak for
the first time. And it was over coffee. I mean, you're really
in this state where you're like, is this worth speaking over? Yes?
You like paused for like a good life. I did ten seconds, I
did, I'm looking for the I consider it if I was going to speak
back to him at all. There were some of the staff that spoke to
me and I just kept walking, not to be rude, but like they
get it. They're all aware of what's happening. Yeah, all the time.
And people will be walking up to me they're like, are you speaking
yet? Yes? And I walked with somebody, I'm like, are you
speaking yet? And he's Ignacio said for you, I will if you're in
this altered state where you're like, God, I just want to stay here.
So then the next day they're like, Okay, now we're going to
kick it up a notch. We're going to do that again, but you're
not going to be in your room. You're going to be walking around the
campus, walking through nature, touching trees, observing leaves, looking around,
and you're going to get to Focus twenty one without the frequencies complete silence,
don't speak to anybody. When we ring the bell, you're going to go
back to your unit. You're going to make eye contact with us to let
us know that you've returned and that you're safely going to go into your room
and meditate. And then we did it like a two hour Focus twenty one.
I forgot to say what Focus twenty one even is. Yeah. Focus
twenty one is the bridge. It's the bridge between worlds. It's the state
of consciousness that provides a bridge between the physical and non physical realms where access
to non physical energies and intelligences is possible, a state where greatly expanded awareness
is facilitated. So it's essentially the state where you can at will go out
of body, not by accident, you know, because people do by accident.
It happened to Robert and Roe spontaneously. They were telling us to bet
a monks thousands of years ago. We're doing it at will yea. You
know, they figured it out that you can do it without. It's not
the frequencies that's your brain. But focus twenty one is the state. And
you know they taught us how to get to that state, very very powerful
state. So I got there in the woods. Now I'm gonna pause here.
I want to say this is important to set this up because when I
finished this story, there's gonna be a sequence of events that unfolded. But
what happened throughout the week, in addition to all the class, was after
that first night when Chris was like, let's go SkyWatch that you know,
that first not Saturday night that I showed up the first full night, you
know, I was like, okay, we all skywatched. The next night
was too cloudy, so nobody went out. We all went inside hung out
watch Christy magic all night, like literally like for hours. He would do
magic tricks and we're all who we're all cheering and video it was hilarious and
he had the crowd rolling and so the second night was too cloudy, so
we didn't at all. Then literally every other night we went out and skywatched.
Everybody saw, even people that had no clue who we were, what
any of this stuff is, they all saw. Each night, the crowd
got a little bigger. It's important. Yes, So on the last day
we Focus twenty one thing and they're like, walk around in the woods.
So I got to the top of this path. Now, when I started
the path, I saw wood in my mind. I was like, huh,
there's a wooden structure at the top of this. And when I got
there, there was this old concrete slab with wood all around it, and
I was like interesting. By the time I got to the path, I
was at Focus twenty one and I was like, Wow, this is like
really intense, Like this is amazing. I feel like I could just walk
out here all day. You're just looking over the mountain. They taught us
that if you want to meditate while walking in nature, you look up because
if you look down, the left brain is focused on all the details of
your environment and it's distracting your right brain. But if you look up,
you're stimulating your right brain. So we were using that looking up at the
trees, looking up at the mountaintops, looking all around us at the flowers
and the bugs. By the time I got to twenty one at the top,
I was literally felt like being on mushrooms. I was like, wow,
this is feeling and everything. Yes, I was like, this is
so beautiful. And then a bee swarmed around my head. I was like,
ooh, just like a reball and it landed on my head and I
just kind of giggle, and you know, we weren't supposed to speak,
but we were smiling at each other ear to ear as we were walking by.
Marco shot me at piece. Brad was just like waving at me.
Everybody was so happy and so serene. And when I got to the unit,
we did the two hour free flow. Now this was insane. They
taught us how to go out of body in twenty one and it's this process
where you visualize going through these different colored dimensions. It's a little weird what
happened here, but I was completely out of body and in the sense that
like it was completely different from every other experience, and it was sort of
like a montage of events in my mind that reminded me of two thousand and
one a space odyssey where you see the shot of the eclipse of the planets
and the monolith and then you know, he goes through this portal and you
see all this. It was like that, and it started off. Let
me let me read how this started off, because I know how it ended,
but how it started off is a little weird. Is this the free
flow? Yeah? This was about a two hour session. Okay, Yeah,
So at first I was seeing some things, like just just things I
had been seeing throughout the week that wasn't quite out of body, but it's
like you're in this expanded awareness state where you're sensing all this other information and
thoughts are coming in. You're you're like your subconscious mind is like speaking to
you very clearly. When you're in the state, you're not always out of
body, but there's magical things happening. You're you're feeling other people, You're
you're seeing things from an altrue perspective, and a lot of that was happening.
And then when I started to go out of body, my body began
to get ice cold. I was like, you're you're in such a deep
state of meditation that I'm sitting there like you're not moving, You're not twitching.
I wasn't even shivering even though I was freezing. You're so locked into
meditation that you don't move a muscle, You don't ohe me, it doesn't
happened. You're like, I'm not moving. You know you were locked.
You are zoned into this state. And in this state, I started to
feel ice cold, like I wanted to shiver, but I didn't because I
chose not to, because I was so deep into this state of consciousness.
And I started sinking deeper and deeper into the ice. And I was scared
at first, and I said, no, no, no, I will
see without fear. Go deeper, go all the way to the bottom,
sink all the way to the end, and you know, see what's on
the other side. And I got all the way into what felt like this
ice cold water, and then I felt the energy like if you think of
your finger or your pinky or your toe or any part of your body,
you can feel the tingles. I could feel like an ocean of tingle throughout
my body, like a strong current. And I was my body was freezing,
and I could feel the energy throughout my body. And then I started
to see things and It started off with the crystal in the mountain and I
saw the big crystal which was right outside my room. It's right outside the
building and we would hang out there every night in SkyWatch. I saw the
crystal, and then I saw the night sky and I saw the night sky
swirl around the crystal, like a hyper lapse where like you know how people
will track something and it goes really fast, like the sun or the moon
or a decaying body or something. I saw that in the night sky and
the stars were swirling. And then I saw a streak of light shoot by
the moon. And that night was the solstice and the full moon, and
I saw a streak of light go by the moon and it was an orb
and then it flashed so bright and it was like it was no different than
seeing it with my eyes. It was real. And it shocked me because
it was so bright even though my eyes were closed. It was like I
literally was seeing it. It was fucking real. And I saw it and
it flashed into my mind. There's gonna be a miracle tonight on the solstice
in the full moon by the crystal. Everybody in the crowd is going to
see the orbs because throughout the night there had been kind of small crowds.
Some people weren't very interested, some people didn't know, some people just weren't
aware when we were going out. But I saw it clearly in that state.
Tonight there's gonna be a miracle, and the whole crowd is going to
see. And then I want to make sure I don't mix up a story
here, because I did write it down. I saw the beautiful night sky
with stars in the full moon and a streak of light shoot by the moon,
and it flashed so bright like it was real with my eyes. Something
is going to happen tonight on the solstice, in the full moon, I
felt freezing cold and strong sensations of my energy body. I kind of began
to inject out into this, and in my mind I thought, no,
I don't want to get my hopes up. Last time I said there's gonna
be a miracle, and it was a word on the TV. I don't
have that connection, dad has. I just don't want to get my hopes
up. And a voice screamed at me. It said don't It said stop
doubting yourself, Ryan bled so you are who you are, and it flashed
into my mind like all of the stuff that's been happening throughout my life and
our experience doing all of this is not something that we chose or that I
chose, but that it's just happening because it's a part of who we are,
and it's something that can't be changed. It's something that has to be
accepted. And whether I doubt it or believe it or not, it's real
and it's happening. And I was like, okay, all right, yeah.
It was like what the fuck, Like, okay, man, you
know, give me a break. It just it just was it. This
voice screamed to me. It was yourself. Yes. It was like,
stop doubting yourself, like it's real. Yeah. And and when that voice
came through, I knew it wasn't me it was it was somewhere else.
It was something else. And then I fully went into another somewhat like dimension
and it wasn't so recognizable. They did warn us that in this state things
begin to get more alien, like like like how DMT is so foreign from
the real world. It started to change and everything around me was waves of
light, just like how DMT was, but it was more. It wasn't
so abstract. It was connected, and I saw a face and I recognized
the face, and everything around me was lines of light, and I saw
this massive entity and it was as big as the sky, and I could
clearly see the face of Robert Monroe. And he grabbed my left hand,
and I felt tingles all through my physical body, and he grabbed my hand
and he shook my hand, and he said thank you for helping me,
and he turned and he smiled and he walked away, and then his voice
came on the track and guided me back. And I woke up and I
was like I was shivering cold. I was freezing cold, and my vision
was blurry when I came back, and I was like, what the fuck.
I picked up my pen and I couldn't hold it. I kept dropping
it and I was trying to write with my pen, and for like twenty
minutes, I couldn't even function. I couldn't write. Everything was blurry,
just like what he was describing last night on the Discord event, and my
pen felt like rubber, and I was like, it's gonna bend, It's
gonna bend, and I went to bend it and I heard it creak with
the little gel track in the middle where there's the actual pen insert and I
was trying to bend it and then I was like, wait a minute.
They bend spoons, not pins. And I put it down and then I
took my finger and I was like, what the fuck? And it felt
like rubber and it felt like the energy of my finger was farther down into
my body. And I was just doing this. I was like touching my
piece of paper. Was like. I was like, well, maybe it'll
go through the paper. No, And then I took the pen and I
was just like poking my finger. I was like, this is so weird.
And I even wrote down that meditation ended at twelve fifty. I finally
was able to write at one oh nine pm. Then I wrote it one
fourteen, still sitting in check unit. And then I wrote it one twenty
two, still laying down. I laid in bed for thirty minutes, unable
to get up. The funny thing is I was usually the first one out
of the room, cause by about day three I realized, okay, we
have narrow windows a break here. I want to maximize this. So when
the meditation was over, I would flip that light off the little flip switch.
I would flip it off. I would get up. I would,
you know, run pee, whatever I have to do, go get a
couple of coffee and get ready for class. Because I was tired of being
the last class. I was tired of being the last to meditate. I
was like on it this time. I laid in bed for thirty minutes.
I almost I made it very late to lunch, and I sat down beside
I pulled up a chair beside Arkie, the teacher, at a full table,
like I grabbed the table from another chair and sat beside him. And
he's sitting beside Allan, the CEO, and I was like, Archie,
I'm freezing. I was like, this just happened to me. And I
told him and Alan, I was like, and the pen felt like rubber.
And when I said that, they looked at me. They were like,
what the fuck, Like they thought I was gonna bend it, and
I said, but it wouldn't bend and they're like oh. And I was
like, what does this mean? And Arkie said, well, that means,
based on the symptoms, that you were really far and out of your
body and there was a real spirit or a ghost near. And what I
didn't tell anybody was that for three days, I was sending it out into
my mind. I wanted to receive a message from Robert Monroe because I started
to get the sense that he was very similar to my father, that they
had the same mission. It's just one of them is looking out, one
of them is looking in. And I had this sense that we're connected with
them and that what we're doing is the same thing. The mission is literally
the same, you know, try to reach a certain number to awaken human
consciousness and all this. And he was like that that was real. Like
there was you know, the ice cold body descending into the bath and you
know, everything feeling like rubber. He said, what happened was your energy
body was slowly phasing back into your physical body. Is why it took so
long to be able to get up. So that was weird, yeah,
a little bit. And we went to class. We did one more meditation.
They didn't tell us a focus level or anything. It was a heart
Chokra meditation and it was the final meditation, and basically it was like we
closed our eyes, we listened to frequencies, but they didn't tell us what
they were. And it was like, imagine your your you know, your
energy is in your eyes. If you close your eyes, there's tension there,
there's energy. But it was like moving that energy back to the back
of your skull and then slowly down your spine and you could really feel it
move and then into your heart and then it expands and it explodes with energy.
And we really felt it. And I did forget to mention after that
thing, going really far out of body. For the rest of the day,
I felt like I was on a gummy Like I felt completely like the
whole day, Yeah, the rest of the day, for days. When
I saw you two days later, I was completely different, and yeah,
I mean this meditation really alters your state of consciousness, like really alters you.
And it's real. So we did the hard choker thing. It was
amazing. We did one final class. Everybody was sad to go and leave
each other. People were crying and it just so like we're all just destroyed
that it was coming to an end. And Jason, the program manager,
was like, I brought something fun for you guys. Let's go, and
we get back to the building and it was this this sound and light psychedelic
experience and they laid us under these lights on these mats and they put the
headphones on our ears and they shine these lights in our eyes and it was
literally just like an acid trip. I've never, you know, done LSD
before, but it was real. It was like I woke up from that
and I said, what the fuck? How is this possible? That was
real? And Jason was like yeah. I was like, that wasn't in
my head. That was real. He's like, yeah, man, it's
real. It was a long of a session. I don't know. Yeah,
you probably had no concept of time. It was like fractals and all
these images moving around and it was a real psychedelic experience induced through light and
sound, and it was crazy. This was the last day before wey'all were
leaving. The last night, yeah, and then we got up and left
the next morning. I left later in the day. A lot of people
had flights and then had to get up at like five, six in the
morning whatever. But yeah, so that last day it was really emotional.
We were all having crazy experiences. Everybody was breaking down. People were crying
left and right. And that was the night of the solstice and I at
four o'clock, I went to that debrief session after the break and I said
y'all for real tonight. There's gonna be a miracle. I'm not doubting at
this time. We saw it on TV last time. There's gonna be a
real miracle tonight. And I said it out loud. I said, everybody's
going to see the orbs tonight, everybody, and they were like, okay.
And after the psychedelic experience, we all went out to the crystal.
Everybody saw the orbs. Damn, I've been waiting, man, I've been
on the edge of my seat. Everybody saw the miracle. Everybody saw it,
the solstice, the full moon. Oh that's incredible, man, somehow
I saw the future. Oh oh oh, right, you saw that happening.
You saw that miracle happening before it happened. It happened so incredible,
man, it actually happened, and none of them denied it that it was.
It was real. Everybody saw it, the instructor. By the end
of the night, the instructors were in the pool with us. They were
all everybody was so elated from the energy, from from everything that we had
all been through, from everybody seeing the orbs. And that was only a
small part of it. I mean, it was everything else and it was
just so insane. And was it some people's first time ever seeing orbs?
Yeah? Most most of them. Yeah, some people had read the book,
heard the podcast, maybe went out one time, like Chris told me,
he went out after reading Dad's book and that was the first time he
saw orbs. Oh really yeah, And lots of people there had no clue
about any of it. And oh, I forgot to say this. Maya.
Maya is a powerful human being. An Archie too, amazing human being.
And I will say this. It was so funny because when they were
instructing us, you would think that going to this place would be serious,
but it was the opposite. Everybody there was Yoda. Everybody was giggling,
everybody was silly. Every one of them up to the CEO. Every one
of them were just the most vibrant, luminous, just loving beings. It's
real. And Archie was so funny because I had some amazing footage of him,
but he would say the most mind blowing shit and then he would laugh
like Yoda and everybody's just dying, dude. There was so much laughter throughout
the week. It was not serious at all. And he would be like
he'd be like, you know, you get to focus twenty one where you
can perceive higher realities, and you know, he would tell all the science
and Robert Monroe would teach you know, life after death and the immortal existence
of the soul, and then you get to the state and then you ask
your higher self and you can leave your body or don't, and every and
then he would just giggle and everybody, it's just the way he would say
things was so fucking funny. It was. It was. It made the
experience amazing. Am I sitting there quiet because he was the main instructor and
She's sitting there quiet, but you could tell she was thinking some profound shit.
And then at the end she would say some profound shit. And throughout
the week I was paying attention and I was like, there's something special about
these people. And the second day I was showing my the orb stuff and
she was like, oh my god. Her eyes got really big. She
was like, I've taken pictures like this, but I've never seen them with
my eyes. WHOA, So she's taking pictures or pictures so she can see
it through the camera, yes, never with her eyes. By the fourth
night, she walked outside to me and she said, look at this video.
I'm going to show you this ORB video right now. She walked out
when we were she was like, I have jet lag. I don't think
I should staut in SkyWatch with you guys, but she wanted you so bad.
She's from Lithuania. There's like a brutal flight getting here and getting up
early, and oh yeah, look at this. Do you want me to
put that in? Maybe yeah, yeah, yeah, I'll ask her if
she's okay with that, but but obviously yes, if she's okay with that,
I don't think she would mind, but I'll ask her. And she
took this video when and where. I want you to watch it first.
Now it's it's very hold on, it's very dark, but you can clearly
see here there is an ORB of light. Yeah it was in her unit.
No, ye, in her room in the unit. Not that,
not just the room in her the pod. Oh what No, this is
a video. I zoomed in really hard, so you know. And there's
also two of them. There is this small singular point of light that was
flashing at her and one shoots by in the unit. Woh man. So
in four days she went from Wow, this is so cool. I've only
ever taken pictures like this too, walking out showing me this video. And
it's in her unit, which is like her little bunk bed, Like,
yes, it's a twin bed with a curtain. Whoa man, you have
walls all around here. Two? Yeah, there's two. It's hard to
see with all the lights on because it's black in the room and the orbs
are tiny. Yeah, but yeah, there were two in her units.
She went from that that's never seeing them in person ever with her eyes to
there's one literally like almost touching her. And there were four other people that
week. I think it was Rosalie, Marco, Jordan, and I can't
remember who else had one in their room because there were so many more people
in the other building and there were four of us. Other people had them
in their room at one night, Yeah, after the first sky watching night,
and we were all talking about it and people were sharing that they saw
four people had entities in their room. Three of them felt it, and
you know, we're in such an altered state for meditating all day. Three
of them felt it. Marco saw it behind the curtain and they were freaked
out. There was a lot of weird like interference. I actually have video
proof that when I went into film the control room, my light was flipped
off. Because when you're done meditating, you flip your light off. Ye,
you have a little switch that's like wired to the next building where they
we all meditated at the same time. It's like everybody has a switch.
You flip it on. Green light. Okay, everybody's green light is on.
Now we begin, right, My light was off. I went and
recorded a video in the control room and I zoom in and I show my
light is off. But I wasn't thinking to do that. I was just
like, oh, look, here's my name in the control And when I
went back for the next session, my switch was flipped. There was all
kinds of stuff like that happening. And Alan the CEO, Paul the CTO,
and multiple instructors. Instructors told me personally multiple times throughout the week,
this is insane. This is the best gateway group we've ever had. This
is the most paranormal week in the history of the institute. They never see
nothing like that. Nobody had. Damn man. Now that's not counting custom
programs. You know, Dad did go to a couple of custom programs and
some very profound things happened. And I'm sure there have been many other custom
programs where other people have come and things like this have happened. What they
were saying is like the Gateway experience. Even though we were allowed to film
everything and go on private tours, we still did the original program. We
did the program that everybody else does most paranormal, supernatural, magical week ever
in the history of the Institute. Is what they told me. That everybody
was blown away. Everybody was blown away. I was blown away. All
the board members were blown away. The instructors were blown away. I'm telling
you. By the last night, the instructors were in a pool with us
and we were all dancing you know, this goo and we were all at
or we you know, we were all seeing them shoot by, and it
was it was insane, dude. So well it's faded. It was faded
like it was supposed to happen exactly when it happened with the people that it
happened with like that, you know, it was always supposed to be the
most crazy event that they've ever done. It was insane. It was for
a reason, like literal miracles happened, you know what I mean. Yeah,
like that's not and you you even foresaw some of those miracles before they
happened, like it's like this huge energy vortex. Yeah, that is that
is nuts. People were seeing orbs in their units and then and then your
like light switch getting flipped. That's crazy. That's crazy to me. Nobody's
going in your in your unit to flip your light switch like that's not that's
ridiculous, man, how insane? Yeah it was. It was definitely insane.
And that's basically it. And one thing that I completely glossed over.
One of the things that I saw either in Focus twelve or fifteen was that
the Monroe Institute and they don't consciously know this. I said this to them.
I said this to Alan and Paul and the instructors. They don't.
This isn't their intention. But what came to me was that it is the
genuine emergence, re emergence of the temple. Like back in the old days
we had the Elysian mysteries or Elucinian mysteries, we had the temples of Parthenon
or you know, Alexandria, all these secret mystery temples that would have this
knowledge that people would travel from all over to go to and What came to
me was that the Monroe Institute is that in the modern day. But that's
not like something they know. It's just emerged from the spirit world and all
these different strings were pulled. Yeah you know what I mean. Yeah,
but it's the power of the place. It is a very deeply real spiritual
thing. Yeah. I think it's I think it's so focused and so powerful
because of how pure everyone's intentions have been, including Robert Monroe. From the
very beginning, his intentions were only ever pure, like he just it happened
upon him. He didn't go seeking this spontaneously for any kind of like ulterior
motives. It was it just it literally was like bestowed on him to have
this experience and like chase it. And it seems like his legacy has been
preserved from that point even up until now. The people around this project,
they get it, they get the intention, the energy behind it, and
they're only interested in maintaining that purity. That's like, I think that's why
it's so if they had set out to be like we're going to create the
new Temple, We're going to create the new Parthenon, because people do that.
You place biases, you place things on it when and it like kind
of can lose some of the freedom because you're trying to shape it into a
specific thing. It doesn't seem like that was ever the plan. It was
just like, this is happening, this is real, we're discovering these things.
And they just kind of chased that and it all happened organically and naturally,
and now it is what it is. Yeah, it's like it's like
it happened in the subconscious realm, that power and that prestige, and you
know that's what came to me, and the conscious just chased it was they
don't even know it. Yeah, And I told him this. I told
Alan, I told Paul, I told the instructors that were there with me,
and they were like, wow, that's very interesting. That's not They're
like, yeah we know that. No, No, they're very humble.
Yeah, they're very humble, and that's not something that they even considered.
Yeah. Isn't that kind of how all profound temples get erected. Where it's
not like somebody's like I'm going to build a temple and make a lot of
money. It's they wake up and God told them in a dream, build
this temple here. Yea, many of them, right, yeah, many
of them. I'm trying to see if I missed any honorable mentions. Oh
my god, my brother Hakim was there. I was trying to specifically not
shout. I wanted to shout people up as they came up in story.
But I'll go ahead and drop everybody else that was there. My buddy Hakim,
who we will meet soon because he's going to be on our show.
And other than that, that's everybody I've said, everybody that was there.
Hakim is an amazing individual. That's the guy that I keep telling y'all,
once we get this new studio built, we're gonna have him out. Remember,
Yeah, he was there. Yeah, yeah, and he's of course
didn't know. I had no idea. He didn't know either. He is
an amazing individual and we had such a wonderful time together. And he told
me no, no. He posted on Facebook he said, I'm at Monroe
with my brother from another mother, and he came and showed me. He
was giggling about it later, but his mom commented and said, y'all really
do resemble. I mean, it's just cut. That had me cracking up.
But Hakeem is funny. He kept the party going, dude. He
was the DJ. Every time we spontaneously broke out in to dance, it
was him playing songs and just getting the crowd going and rolling with the jokes.
And I'm very excited to have him on. Actually, he has an
event in October that we're invited to cool. It's Infantteville. He has about
thirty people. He invited about thirty people. I don't know who's all going
to show up, but it's gonna be like a you know, he was
on Naked and Afraid right and other shows too, So he's a big survival
guy. He's a martial artist. He's obviously consciousness based. He's really in
with Monroe. He's really in with the Vibravision crew, which are people that
like see blindfolded. That's a thing too. There's a whole discipline of that
and he practices that. And he's gonna have those kinds of people like it's
like a it's like a wilderness survival expo retreat in Fetteville that we're invited to
do in October. So I told him I would go, and you guys
as well, if you want. I told him I'm going. That could
be cool content. I am down. I'm so down. That sounds awesome.
Yeah, I'd love to be a part of that. He owns like
one hundred acres out there. And there was a couple other things that I
forgot to bring up entirely that I hinted at earlier. So we talked a
lot about life after death. Obviously, that was the big question about all
this being possible and what happens next. And according to the Institute, which
I really like and really agree with, that you never truly die, You
exist forever. You are more than your physical body. You are immortal and
your eternal right. And they basically likened it as to the earth is like
a place where we learn, we grow, and kind of like the vibratory
rate of how you are when you die dictates what happens next. You know,
if you're like a really bad person and do really bad things, you
might have this really heavy energy. It might take a little while to you
know, kind of free to where you can go to the next place.
But eventually we all do They say that, you know sometimes yeah, yeah,
like purifying your your vibrational energy, all the stuff we say that's the
mind blowing things, like all the stuff that we've been researching on the show
and talking about. It's it's all there. It's the same source exactly.
These people from thousands of years ago were accessing the same stuff exactly. It's
the same source. It's not like they're not just like theorizing and jotting stuff
down, like, No, they were experiencing this. Yeah, and and
dah cuminting it. It's not a story, it's a documentation, right,
So cool. So they have a whole program at Monroe called Lifeline. So
I just a Gateway which is the first program. Then once you graduate from
Gateway you can do other programs, and they have one called Lifeline, which
is where you get to let me see what focus level. I think it's
like twenty two or something, twenty seven. Maybe it's either, I don't
know, man twenty three or twenty seven. And they literally assist trapped souls
in ascending to the other side, crossing over. And the only other Wink
Wink TV appearance of the Monroe Institute was in twenty thirteen of it was this
A and E documentary and it was about the Lifeline program. Yeah, where
they helped souls cross over to the other side, and they made us watch
the documentary one night. It's about an hour and a half or an hour
maybe, And they had a group of people doing the Lifeline program going in
getting information from these souls, and they were verifying a lot of it as
real people, like real people that passed over historical records all of it.
Like some of them, they locked in that they were real. But get
this, the first name of a spirit that came through in this documentary Daniel
Bledsoe. Huh. When they said that on TV, everybody in the room
looked at me and guessed, I mean, I'm sure what I'm sure?
The first name Daniel Bledsoe. Get out, dude. Arcie looked at me
and he was afterwards, he was like, I've seen these hundreds of times
and never cared. But that's weird. That's very weird. It's very weird.
And there were millions of these little moments throughout the week, like the
mirror on the TV, like the entity interaction, and all kinds of other
things that I will probably never even be able to remember it because it was
so much non stop, synchronious, NonStop and an entity interaction and and astral
projection all this stuff. It was like there was so much going on that
I really had the profound sense that they are a very powerful ally that we
were meant to come together. They're definitely an ally to us. They they
like our show. That's cool, which is why they invited me to be
there. Yeah, and I did try to request for people to come with
me, but ultimately it was full. So you know, but yeah,
I'm thinking of BSS does Monroe Bro you have no idea? Like, Okay,
it this might sound weird, but I feel drastically different right now than
I did when we started recording me too. I feel very different right now.
It's kind of strange. I feel like my energy is completely different,
Like I really yeah, I feel like I who knows how long it could
be before Like if I ever even get the opportunity to go there, I
would it would be incredible. And I after having this conversation, I'm like,
I would absolutely love to go and do that. But until then,
like I want to do don't they have like an online thing that you can
do, yeah, and significantly cheaper. I just want to get this information
and start practicing this stuff like on my own. Like many of the things
that you said, uh that you guys did and the things that they do
there are things that I've wanted to do for a long time already. Yeah,
and I just didn't know where to find like the answers, or I
didn't even know how to look for what I was looking for. I will
say this for the audience. I went to the Monroe's too, with a
lot of questions about myself and a lot of them personal. And I do
feel like I left with every question I've ever had being answered. And something
Joe mcmonagall told me. I wrote it down and it's funny as shit,
but it's powerful. He's really a funny guy. He said. Hold on,
I gotta go all the way back to day two, flipping through my
joint O here. I know what he said, but I want to read
it. He said. The ego is the bad part of the mind.
The subconscious mind knows everything. Take my word for it. Damn every answer
we've ever had, or every needed we already do, it's in there some
way. It's in there. Yeah. We just have to learn how to
get to the state so that we can clearly see them and hear them.
And I do. I have a lot of questions like that. I have
a lot of like personal questions about like my higher self and about like my
my body self and my spirit itself and my past lives. Like I have
a lot of things that I feel like this program could bring clarity. Yeah,
it absolutely would and it will. I feel like, very very drawn
to this for some reason. I think that that's looking bright. I think
that we'll have some sort of opportunity and that could be in the form of
us, you know, investing and going together or sending one by one.
That's what I'm saying, man, like this this isn't the end for us
some in roe. I feel that strongly in my heart, and you know,
I would just keep your hopes up, you know, stay optimistic about
it, and even if it's as simple as us figuring out a time and
a when and how we do it. But yeah, it's something that when
I left that place, I was like, everybody needs to go here.
Yeah, Like I feel I have this feeling like I need to experience this
knowledge in one way or another. Like if I got the chance to go
there, that would obviously be incredible, but like, regardless, I just
want to practice this stuff. Yeah. Well, the good news is and
I was gonna say this anyway for the listener. They have an app,
the Expand App, and it goes up to Focus twenty one. Because they
haven't implemented all the Focused levels yet. I don't know that they will.
I think they intend to if I remember correctly. But this probably sounds like
a huge ad, just so everybody knows. It's not. It's not like
it's not like we're being paid or something. This stuff is just fucking amazing.
Like it's just incredible, and it's changing the Bledsoe's lives. Like now
three of you have been and you've all had like profound life changing experiences.
Yeah. Like, but that's what I'm saying, like profound. You know,
obviously going there is a better experience, but it can be done at
home. Yeah, they have the app where you can listen to these programs.
You can look up the protocols online. Also, they have online programs
that are significantly less expensive. Yeah, that can be done virtually. That's
I didn't even know they did that until last night when we did the discord
event. Yeah, it's it's not possible because of Monroe. They're the facilitator.
They perfected it, they figured it out, and they are the proprietors
of the program and and all of that that they've developed and given to the
world. But it's possible because of our brain. Yeah you know what I
mean. Yeah, the mind is the power, right. Yeah, they
just they they have the keys, they know they know the secrets and the
tricks. Yeah, man, I mean it was, it was. It
was unbelievably life changing and mind altering. And yeah, I don't think it's
the end for our connection with Monroe. I think I think it's a beautiful
thing forming there. And yeah, I mean I would love for all of
us to go. That would be so unbelievable. Like if we all got
to go, that would be so unbelievable. I mean, they'd be unbelievable
just for me to go. But but it'd be particularly awesome if we all
got together, if we were all there at the same time. I'm gonna
be playing jokes on you in a different dimensions, dude. I will say
this just so you guys have like, cause it's one thing for me to
say, like, yeah, we were talking to each other in the astrol
But I'll give you a vulnerable example one of them that happened to me.
So Hannah the manifestation expert. Actually we Brad coined the term hannifestation, which
was fine and the ship, but one thing. After a meditation session,
we would all like find somebody afterwards and be like I saw you, and
it's like, really, what did it say? So Hannah came up to
me after meditation. She was like, I saw you, and this might
be nothing, maybe it's super weird, but I just wanted to tell you
exactly what I heard. But in my meditation I saw that you were worried
nobody would want to book a hotel hell room with you because you were afraid
that everybody thought that you talked too much. And I was like, were
you? I was like, damn, that cut deep. That's like my
biggest thing in life is like, you know, people used to tell me
that grown up like you talk too fucking much. Shut up, you know,
like and also like because I've been suppressed so much and told to be
quiet so much to do. Yeah, it's it's it's like there is a
subconscious part of me that's like I can't share too much, I can't reveal
too much, I can't say too much whatever. Whatever. And the fact
that she didn't even know me and said that specific thing to me. I
was like, damn, how did you know that? Like, is this
the same Hannah that was there with Emily? That was Amy? Amy?
My bad, my bad. Yeah, yeah, that's how I met Amy.
I thought that her whole thing was I thought it was Hannah that she
had that experience with, but Amy, That's right, it was Amy.
But that's just one example. And that was happening all week between everybody.
Yeah, you know, like like hearing these messages from each other that were
real and we were all like, whoa, this is weird. Yeah,
I mean it was amazing. And I feel like that's that's the majority of
it. I mean, it was life changing. I think like if money
is not an issue, I mean I think every you know, people are
so quick. Me included like let's go to Mexico, let's go on a
cruise, let's go to the Bahamas, let's go to europeah blah blah blah
blah blah whatever, you know, let's let's go on vacation here and there.
But like what if you took one of those times and you were like,
let's go to a place that is half spiritual spa half psychic temple,
that's a sick vacation. Oh yeah, you know what I mean, Yeah,
you want to do that? Or Mickey Mouse's there is a joke about
it being spiritual Disneyland. I could see that because like people go there and
they go on rides and you know, out of body and all these things
happen, and it's this amazing heightened energy and you could go to Monroe and
out of body Disneyland. Yeah, you could. You could travel to bring
your spirit to Disney World. Yeah, dude, astral Project and ride Space
Mountain. Right, that'd be sick. That's bogo vacation right there. But
I mean, I think that's pretty much the majority of my notes here.
And obviously there's gonna be stuff I missed because there was so much, but
oh, I do gotta say this. So they have a bunch of stories
about people being ungrounded when they leave, which you know, can confirm it's
very true. And honestly, I've just been laying around all week not really
wanting to do anything. But that's also partially because of three months renovating a
house being so exhausting. You're due for some chill time. Yeah, And
then we turn around and go to Germany for three weeks next week, which
I'm excited about. I feel like it'll be the perfect come down thing.
It's like kind of like being in this different, magical place because Germany's like
that, there's no responsibility, but also like active, we're walking through the
park, we're going here, we're going there. I think it'll be nice
kind of comeback. But they give a packet on grounding and integrate integration,
and they say it takes weeks or months, some people up to a year
to get back to normal, and they have hundreds of stories of reports of
people missing flights after leaving, missing exits on highways because they're so like in
an alterat, I miss two exits. Yeah, And it's just really funny
because they're like, you need to ground. You need too ground. You
will not be the same. You think you will be the same, you
will not be the same. And instructors are like, and we have to
do it too. And Archie when he left the institute, he had like
a couple of day journey to Spa. You know, it's a long flight
and then you rest and then a day or two later he texts us all
and he's at the beach he's like grounding, Yes, we need it because
even the instructors, even though they're not going through the program, from all
of our energy being so amplified, there's amplifies too, I'm sure. And
yeah, So for the first twenty four hours or was home from Monroe,
I actually felt like I was still there, Like I actually felt like I
was still there, and it was very hard to grapple with suddenly coming home.
And now it feels like a dream. You came like straight to my
birthday party weekend, and that must have been such a shock because it's just
like all of my friends are so loud, like that's I was thinking about
that. Like I saw you, you looked exhausted, and I was like,
oh my god, this is probably like such a shell shock to Ryan's
body right now. It was honestly a really good time. I'm glad you
had a good time. We all had a great time, and I'm so
happy that you and Jenny got to come there. There was a moment where
I had to walk outside and go look at the fireflies, not because of
the party, not because of being around the people, but because I was
having a hard time reconciling being gone. Sure, you know what I mean,
Yeah, because it's like, you know, going my whole life,
like having this crazy stuff happen all around me and ninety nine I'm not talking,
you know, being with you guys and doing this and being with like
minded people, but most people in the world are not like minded, at
least with me. And then going to a place for six days where I
was completely normal, not only normal, but there's people doing weird, are
shit than me, you know, and it really felt like being Harry Potter
at Hogwarts. Yeah, and you know he's always sad when he leaves school,
and I felt like, you know it, it was like really shocking
having to come home and being like, oh my god, I have to
snap back to live normal life again. Yeah. Yeah, it's been so
long that I've had to do this and and bear this normal life. And
then going to a place where it's normal and everybody's having these experiences and everyone's
on the same page and there's so much magic and energy, and then I
just had to shock back home. So I still felt like I was there,
like twenty four to seven. I could still see it in my mind
and I couldn't get it out of my head. And it was actually at
your party that I was finally able to do that, which was good.
About twenty four hours. It was towards the end of the night I finally
was able to shift back to being here. Yeah, and I will say
this too, I think this is valuable information. A big fear of mine
leaving was what if what if I lose it? Oh? Right? Because
they, like I explained earlier, well, I guess in part one,
they encode this process into your mind subconsciously where you can access these states,
and that's this big fear. Oh fuck, what if I lose it?
What if all this happened just because I'm there? What if I can't do
this anymore? What if it fades away and I go back to how I
was. I don't see that happening. You see Emily having gone there and
her whole life took a one eighty, And they report that happens for everybody's
in the packet. Like people, they go there and they leave in there
forever changed. And going there gives you the tools to be able to deal
with this ordinary life and it be more bright and more positive. And obviously
everybody has bad days. But what I will say is today, for the
first time it's been. I got back. I got back Friday. It's
Thursday, so I've been back six days. Today is the first time that
I finally said, okay, I want to try a Focus twelve because the
other things I've been doing have been like some of their other guided meditations that
are like release limiting fears. They have a bunch of different guided programs.
So today I knew you guys were coming, I knew we were doing this
episode, and I was like, I want to get into the Focus twelve
state, and just kind of set the intention for this, and I said
it the fifteen minutes. Usually it's an hour we do these meditations, and
I said it for fifteen minutes. I laid the phone beside me. I
didn't even put in headphones because remember they have new technology now, and I
got to the Focus twelve state instantaneously with it playing out of the speaker.
Jenny was in the kitchen doing dishes, blasting like music, clanking around,
putting dishes away, and I remember sitting there meditating, doing my reball,
doing the energy conversion box. I kept I kept putting Jenny in the energy
conversion like the noise she's making in the box the sound in the box,
not being able to do it in the box, everything that popped up.
Throw that shit in the box. And what I do with my box is
I take it with me, and you know, when you're out of body
or whatever, it's like, oh shit, there's a fear the energy box
pops up, throw it in it. I forgot to say, when you
do the box, you're supposed to turn away and put it behind you,
but I kind of keep it with me because sometimes you might want to throw
some more into it. And I did all that. I did about you
know, twenty five to thirty seconds of om because I wanted to reconnect with
the process. But I didn't want Genny to hear me. And you know,
because I'm still not you know, you're doing this privately in your room
and doing it as loud as you can. And I was like, I
want to do an own but discreetly. So I did. I did the
actual process. I got to focus twelve like that, I came to and
my vision was blurry and I was like, yes, it worked, and
I felt really fuzzy. And then within five seconds of me coming to from
the meditation, Alex knocked on the door. So the timing of that was
crazy. Yeah, and then we went right into the episode in the focus
twelve state and here we are, yep, that's great. So you can
you immediately recalled it. There is no worry about you. You don't lose
it. Yeah, losing it, it's like it took it would took no
time at all, instantly right back into it. They teach you to do
it just by saying the number twelve in your mind, because when you do
the guided meditation so much and you're focus on twelve, twelve, twelve,
and they're like, now, in order to reach this state, just you
know, take a deep breath and focus on the number twelve. And the
more you focus on your breathing and you just say twelve twelve, you're like,
oh shit, and you feel the energy shifting back in your eyes into
the back of your head, and then your body starts getting locked up and
then you don't want to move a muscle when you're there, and you can
tell when you're there, you know. So yeah, so you don't lose
it. I thought people would like to know that at home, that it's
something that can be achieved at home. It can be achieved online, it
can be achieved to the app just listening to it, but honestly, going
there would be the most magic. You know, So this is our first
three hour episode. Well it's not a three hour episode, that's true,
it's three one hour episodes. Yeah, that's that's Yeah, it could be.
I was thinking that too. Well yeah, of course, yeah,
why not. Yeah, we didn't plan on this, but here we are.
No. I was all like, I don't know if I can get
more than an hour out of this. No, but that's why I meditated
before all came. So call it all. Yeah, thanks for giving me
the time to explain all that. Thank you for giving us the rundown.
I've been so stoked to hear about it ever since you got back, and
it didn't disappoint. One thing is for certain that at all costs, I
am motivated to get us all there, and it's something that whether it's we
save up or what you know, maybe they'll extend something for us. Either
way we're all going there. That would be if it's one by one,
yeah, if it's together, it doesn't matter. There are pros and cons.
Well there's not really any cons, but there are pros to us either
going individually or together. Yeah, it doesn't matter if you get the opportunity
to go take it. Yeah. Oh, absolutely kidding me. I wouldn't
pass that up. I'd be sick. I would love that. Yeah.
So that's all I got. Monroe'stitute. Love them whoa oh yeah, all
right, love y'all. Bye guys, Bye guys. Weird things happen in
the backyard and let house like that. It's so weird, kind of closer
to us. Layers this straight up like smiring on the inside of it.
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