1 00:00:01,080 --> 00:00:07,599 Oh god, damn, you have been showing nothing belove, and we truly 2 00:00:07,639 --> 00:00:15,160 appreciate it. Two things before this episode start. For those asking about platforms 3 00:00:15,160 --> 00:00:19,399 that allow you to leave comments as you listen. If you're one of the 4 00:00:19,440 --> 00:00:23,600 people that want to leave comments as you listen to the show, please download 5 00:00:23,640 --> 00:00:29,280 the spreaker app. Spreaker, that's sp r e a k e R Spreaker. 6 00:00:29,519 --> 00:00:33,200 I'll put the link in the description of this show. But download the 7 00:00:33,240 --> 00:00:36,679 Spreaker app and you can leave comments while you listen, and we can check 8 00:00:36,679 --> 00:00:39,840 those out and reply back to y'all and all that good stuff. The second 9 00:00:39,840 --> 00:00:44,280 thing is my fucking recording software kept stopping in the middle of our conversations, 10 00:00:44,280 --> 00:00:47,799 and I didn't notice because I was too deep into the conversation. So the 11 00:00:48,079 --> 00:00:52,359 ads are gonna come randomly because that's when. That's when it stopped. And 12 00:00:52,439 --> 00:00:55,520 I'm sorry. It would never happen again. It ain't never happened before, 13 00:00:55,560 --> 00:01:10,840 and it never happened again. I promise. I'm sorry. I left you 14 00:01:10,480 --> 00:01:22,640 left, I left you crying sence you being gone. I've been all because 15 00:01:22,680 --> 00:01:29,920 all of my tears, you know, they left me rounding. Please, 16 00:01:30,079 --> 00:01:41,239 baby, I'm begging for you. To stay home tonight last start I love 17 00:01:41,400 --> 00:01:47,920 again, y'all trash left. What the fuck? I see what happened when 18 00:01:47,920 --> 00:01:52,640 I leave this mother again. I'm gonna say whatever I'm song. I know 19 00:01:52,680 --> 00:01:57,760 I'm gonna say a fucking Kanye West song when you bitch, I can't say 20 00:01:57,840 --> 00:02:07,400 that around. I don't know what it is? Oh what for reading to 21 00:02:07,120 --> 00:02:19,759 her baby water? Just stay, oh bitch, come over and stays voice 22 00:02:19,759 --> 00:02:38,240 for really to spike Keena's punch so I can take the omnig crib don't Instagram 23 00:02:38,360 --> 00:02:43,800 and a little scary shops nigga gotta beat my fucking blue to day. What's 24 00:02:43,800 --> 00:02:46,800 going on in Eric Dizzey and this is another episode of ignorant philosophy. I 25 00:02:46,879 --> 00:02:49,360 might here with my brother Keenan, mister, who the fuck are you? 26 00:02:49,879 --> 00:03:00,719 Cold mote? I couldn't try. I was thinking, how I'm gonna doing 27 00:03:00,759 --> 00:03:17,120 that voice? Mann? Man, God damn man. Boooooo those kids bang 28 00:03:17,680 --> 00:03:22,879 on a cloud? Do you do boom boom? Shit? I mean hear 29 00:03:23,000 --> 00:03:27,319 my sister dynasty a die. Oh what's haness? I mean hear my brother 30 00:03:27,360 --> 00:03:29,759 DJ boogie bang. I can't even do it, man, it's just boogie 31 00:03:29,800 --> 00:03:32,639 bang here. My throught ain't gonna allow me to do it. Tell miss 32 00:03:34,240 --> 00:03:39,840 hut this booky bank in the I didn't my lab, I didn't. I 33 00:03:39,840 --> 00:03:44,039 gott. I was trying to do it. I was trying to do on 34 00:03:44,080 --> 00:03:49,759 my way here here I couldn't get out of Tell your voice had swallow in 35 00:03:49,800 --> 00:04:14,319 between. Wow, that gave me the remember that probation. Stop bringing up 36 00:04:15,039 --> 00:04:18,959 because I always want to bring up old shit. God damn, keep the 37 00:04:18,959 --> 00:04:23,480 ship to yourself. I was on the phone my sister man, and she 38 00:04:23,639 --> 00:04:31,240 was telling me everybody everybody's business that like she ain't a gossiper, but she 39 00:04:31,360 --> 00:04:36,160 a gossiper. She got some Sometimes I think that's just a woman thing. 40 00:04:39,040 --> 00:04:42,759 You know why, because y'all tell each other everything. Y'all just beach. 41 00:04:42,839 --> 00:04:50,519 Let me tell you about yourself. Nothing bro niggas until ship to take to 42 00:04:50,560 --> 00:04:56,480 the grave. I think that's might know like two personal things about just verything 43 00:04:56,519 --> 00:05:00,319 else he probably picked up on the way. Tell everything. But there are 44 00:05:00,360 --> 00:05:05,480 some sometimes you need an opinion, somebody else's opinion or thought something. I'm 45 00:05:05,480 --> 00:05:10,399 gonna have to say, I'm not talking that. You want to move it 46 00:05:10,399 --> 00:05:13,000 this way? Yeah, so you can look into it. Yeah, yea 47 00:05:13,079 --> 00:05:16,879 m y'all might take YA might take friends advice. They might take their friends 48 00:05:16,920 --> 00:05:20,480 advice, but they ask their nigga or somebody the dude they messing with, 49 00:05:23,199 --> 00:05:25,680 something like how this look? Or how do you know what I'm saying? 50 00:05:25,720 --> 00:05:28,319 And then you say it's always fine, and they're like, no, it's 51 00:05:28,360 --> 00:05:32,040 not, don't ask me shit. I feel like you go against it. 52 00:05:33,120 --> 00:05:36,040 I don't. I feel like, if you have a real if you're in 53 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:43,199 a relationship, you shouldn't communicate with any of your friends about anything not fact 54 00:05:43,240 --> 00:05:50,959 because you have a designated advice giver. If I'm mad at you, I 55 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:56,000 can't talk to nobody about it that I think. See, I think that's 56 00:05:56,160 --> 00:05:59,279 I think for me. I'm just gonna speak for me. I believe that 57 00:05:59,439 --> 00:06:03,360 the reason me and Sierra works so well is because we don't have She don't 58 00:06:03,360 --> 00:06:11,079 have nobody that she can go to but she but I also don't go invent 59 00:06:11,160 --> 00:06:16,279 about ship because it ain't none of their business. It forces me to all, 60 00:06:16,360 --> 00:06:19,319 right, hey, we gotta talk about blah bla blah blah, opposed 61 00:06:19,360 --> 00:06:24,720 to me using the internet and not saying to anybody in this room, dude, 62 00:06:24,879 --> 00:06:29,360 I'm I believe when I go online and I see people like just paragraph 63 00:06:29,439 --> 00:06:31,240 of the paragraph. I'm like, Bro, whoever you're talking about or whoever 64 00:06:31,279 --> 00:06:34,279 you're talking, you should be talking to somebody. You know what I'm saying 65 00:06:34,439 --> 00:06:41,120 to you, because if you get to my business now, like everybody's like, 66 00:06:41,720 --> 00:06:45,360 didn't get mad when people voice their opinions, like get opinion. You 67 00:06:45,480 --> 00:06:47,399 put mother fuck in your life with your toxic mind. Now you're thinking. 68 00:06:47,480 --> 00:06:51,959 She shouldn't even be thinking. Ye. Advice is really weird to get anyway, 69 00:06:53,560 --> 00:06:57,000 to ask for it anyway, especially when a motherfucker don't know that diaspora 70 00:06:57,120 --> 00:06:59,879 of your relationship, Like, how the fun? How the fuck I'm go 71 00:07:00,319 --> 00:07:04,920 to a bitch that that ain't never stuck nothing out or I ain't never had 72 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:08,800 to stick nothing out with somebody to ask for advice? You don't know, 73 00:07:08,839 --> 00:07:12,720 you ain't never fall for shit relationship? Three months? My mama, What 74 00:07:13,120 --> 00:07:16,480 a nigga that ain't there? Boy? I know, I know that I 75 00:07:16,600 --> 00:07:20,360 know niggas that I know niggas that I know niggas that don't get bitches. 76 00:07:20,920 --> 00:07:25,720 They always try to give niggas who get bitches advice you don't know about. 77 00:07:25,720 --> 00:07:30,399 You don't even get. Yeah, you don't even know how to even communicate 78 00:07:30,160 --> 00:07:33,759 properly to get women to like you. So you want to get one girl 79 00:07:33,839 --> 00:07:38,800 like you at a time, and I feel like I feel like that's an 80 00:07:38,839 --> 00:07:41,759 issue if they one girl like you at the time, And not saying that 81 00:07:41,759 --> 00:07:44,439 every nigga should have a bunch of bitches liking them, but I believe that 82 00:07:44,720 --> 00:07:46,160 if you're not in a relationship while I don't know a bitch like you, 83 00:07:46,240 --> 00:07:53,240 oh my mama, because you're weird, like most females don't even want that, 84 00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:56,920 don't nobody like like you? Say what, most females don't even want 85 00:07:56,920 --> 00:07:59,879 a nigga that don't nobody like like them, don't. I don't want to 86 00:07:59,879 --> 00:08:01,560 be I don't want to be about you. I don't want to be a 87 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:05,319 rounding nigga that bitches don't like like I'm the only mother fucking like you you 88 00:08:07,360 --> 00:08:13,439 because I don't know who like Johnny before me and Johnny got together. I 89 00:08:13,519 --> 00:08:16,040 mean, I'm just Johnny low key though he key, but about other dudes 90 00:08:16,079 --> 00:08:20,399 that might be low key, it ain't even about It's just like Johnny motherfucker 91 00:08:20,199 --> 00:08:28,920 living a hole like you that I hope some people knew him before. But 92 00:08:30,040 --> 00:08:33,279 I say, but I'm saying, like, just seeing motherfucker on social media. 93 00:08:33,360 --> 00:08:35,679 You see reaction with motherfuckers like you could tell if if he if he 94 00:08:35,759 --> 00:08:39,679 a cool ass nigga and he got girls that they like them and shit like 95 00:08:41,080 --> 00:08:45,879 you didn't the nigga that got fifty followers on Instagram. You go to this 96 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:50,879 page, you got two hundred thirty two followers and he following eight hun are 97 00:08:50,919 --> 00:08:52,559 you doing at pay attention? See that you capping? I do? I 98 00:08:52,639 --> 00:08:56,200 don't. Well, man, I've been with Johnny for six years, so 99 00:08:56,279 --> 00:08:58,120 I don't really go to Johnny's Instagram page right now? Tell me howny followers? 100 00:08:58,120 --> 00:09:03,200 You got? She the lions if she fucking if she wasn't dating Johnny 101 00:09:03,240 --> 00:09:05,759 and she went to a nigga's page that she just met, and the nigga 102 00:09:05,840 --> 00:09:09,960 got seventy five followers and he followed eight thousand motherfuckers and all the posters means 103 00:09:09,039 --> 00:09:13,600 she's not sucking his tick. She's not sucking she's not doing that. You 104 00:09:16,799 --> 00:09:28,960 get them, petim, you're not talking to him. You has he has 105 00:09:28,039 --> 00:09:31,440 like a thousand followers. Yeah, it ain't seventy five, But I'm just 106 00:09:31,519 --> 00:09:35,879 saying he don't have He probably need he probably need be on social media like 107 00:09:37,000 --> 00:09:39,039 he really don't. But if he was, though, he's an alpha, 108 00:09:39,720 --> 00:09:43,679 So yeah, you dated nigga. That's you dating the nigga that's in the 109 00:09:43,720 --> 00:09:56,639 world star comments arguing Fuck no post because I'll definitely be commed every one though, 110 00:09:56,480 --> 00:10:00,320 like I see certain people, I'll be like brood be too old. 111 00:10:00,320 --> 00:10:03,600 I got kill in the first hour or so me too if it's twelve hours 112 00:10:03,679 --> 00:10:09,799 later. Comment I'm all the academics every time. I'm wanna academics page a 113 00:10:09,879 --> 00:10:11,399 lot. Because I don't even follow that nigga. I might see it. 114 00:10:11,480 --> 00:10:16,080 Shit, why don't niggas follow? Why? Dog? He's annoying me? 115 00:10:16,200 --> 00:10:20,159 Ain't you annoying? He he? He's master just crabbed. I mean, 116 00:10:20,320 --> 00:10:22,919 I mean that's cool. I don't know. That's why different piece. I 117 00:10:22,960 --> 00:10:26,679 got listen to everybody that nigga. I don't care for him, just like 118 00:10:26,799 --> 00:10:30,919 I don't care for Williams. I don't like it. I don't I don't 119 00:10:31,000 --> 00:10:37,039 like her. I don't like people like like Charleston White. I don't like 120 00:10:37,120 --> 00:10:39,919 people who instigate. I don't like people who instigate and didn't act like a 121 00:10:41,000 --> 00:10:43,320 bitch. Women fucking on your ass. I don't like that shit. Don't 122 00:10:43,360 --> 00:10:46,759 don't talk shit and and I can't talk shit, all right, well, 123 00:10:46,799 --> 00:10:50,399 don't don't act like a bitch when the mu that's some weak ass shit, 124 00:10:50,559 --> 00:10:52,240 I'm gonna shoot you. That's that's that's I didn't do that. I'd rather 125 00:10:52,360 --> 00:10:58,639 you do that. That's but how can you do that when you so uh 126 00:10:58,519 --> 00:11:01,799 piece? He's for violence in all this, it's a character. He's a 127 00:11:01,879 --> 00:11:05,440 weak ass nigga. Bro. I'm sorry, everybody, I'm not I'm nothing 128 00:11:05,759 --> 00:11:11,240 niggas like him. I feel like if you allow this nigga to make you 129 00:11:11,320 --> 00:11:15,320 act out of character, who's really the bitch? If you know this nigga's 130 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:20,600 like you talking about people kids and wives and calling them bitches and bro, 131 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:24,320 get the fuck out of here. Bro, if the motherfucker did that to 132 00:11:24,360 --> 00:11:31,000 you, Bro, when you see him, you smacking them period, academics 133 00:11:31,200 --> 00:11:39,879 smash. I'm not talking about who motherfuckers don't really see him, bro, 134 00:11:41,320 --> 00:11:43,960 But like he's saying, when he seen me this, he said, this 135 00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:48,399 was the time I was frightened. This hell motherfucking about get on his ass, 136 00:11:48,559 --> 00:11:54,399 nigga, Meek Meals and his entourage who saw Charson White the only way 137 00:11:54,399 --> 00:11:58,600 he got out because of his people. Um that that was that booked him 138 00:11:58,600 --> 00:12:01,639 and ship. They knew the people whatnot. But I don't think I'm scared. 139 00:12:01,639 --> 00:12:03,600 I don't think I'm backing down. I'm not backing down to me. 140 00:12:05,759 --> 00:12:07,399 I don't think i've seen him. I don't think it was Meek that he 141 00:12:07,559 --> 00:12:11,320 was. I don't think it was Meek that he was. I don't think 142 00:12:11,360 --> 00:12:15,159 it was Meek that. Yeah, he likes, he like, I'm checking 143 00:12:15,240 --> 00:12:18,159 in and they he liked. He liked them to everybody in on the ship 144 00:12:18,279 --> 00:12:22,240 type shit. Mother he like, I think your motherfucker set me up. 145 00:12:22,320 --> 00:12:26,679 Like he said, I jumped over the counter. Yeah, but your mouth, 146 00:12:26,799 --> 00:12:30,559 bro like talking about you. I ain't talking about the seventy five niggas 147 00:12:30,600 --> 00:12:33,399 you got with you. You you come, you coming here. If if 148 00:12:33,440 --> 00:12:37,440 a niggas say that you coming here and then that squab it out, I'm 149 00:12:37,480 --> 00:12:39,639 just saying, it ain't about how how how I go. It's just if 150 00:12:39,679 --> 00:12:43,679 he wants you to get disrespect from you, like it's all fair games. 151 00:12:43,960 --> 00:12:46,759 If I see you and me and my niggas, If me and my niggas, 152 00:12:46,840 --> 00:12:50,399 me bubb and an't listen, we see it, motherfucker that was disrespecting 153 00:12:50,440 --> 00:12:54,879 his kids or mom or whoever. I'm on his ass, which we don't 154 00:12:54,879 --> 00:12:56,279 give a fun I wish I had it in me the troll at that one. 155 00:12:56,399 --> 00:12:58,639 You feel, man, the hell, I don't want that type of 156 00:12:58,720 --> 00:13:01,759 energy, bro. That is not good energy. Bro. I mean it 157 00:13:01,960 --> 00:13:05,080 is. It could be rich all that shit, ain't I probably I'd probably 158 00:13:05,120 --> 00:13:09,200 be a world to run. DJ just did that. That's that, and 159 00:13:09,240 --> 00:13:13,440 that's for me. For me, the reason why, the reason why, 160 00:13:13,480 --> 00:13:18,960 I like he makes niggas act out of characters so much, and I feel 161 00:13:18,000 --> 00:13:22,720 like Nigga that weighs a hundred and forty five pounds, he should not be 162 00:13:22,840 --> 00:13:28,480 getting anybody. You don't weigh enough to make me act this Westling feathers like 163 00:13:28,519 --> 00:13:31,879 a motherfucker. Yeah, he causing so many grown men to be like he 164 00:13:31,960 --> 00:13:35,960 was on Live and he's like, man, fuck that, fuck your baby, 165 00:13:35,080 --> 00:13:39,399 and then Nigga on there, I'm gonna kill you. That's why he 166 00:13:39,440 --> 00:13:41,320 said, I really go for the young motherfucker. He said for old motherfucker, 167 00:13:41,519 --> 00:13:45,080 fall for that ship. Then Nigga, that's on you, which I 168 00:13:45,159 --> 00:13:48,919 mean, I'll feel it, but just you're picking on the motherfucker's who you 169 00:13:48,039 --> 00:13:50,639 know gonna react and then he's trying to send them to jail. Like no, 170 00:13:50,960 --> 00:13:56,639 bro, Like he talking about he seen motherfucker's um pulling in a in 171 00:13:56,679 --> 00:14:00,480 a neighborhood or somewhere, and he was picking some fuffuckers up. He's like, 172 00:14:00,559 --> 00:14:03,240 I don't know what they was on. I called the police on him, 173 00:14:03,320 --> 00:14:09,879 Like, get b bro, like that ship weak bro, rather as 174 00:14:09,919 --> 00:14:13,360 weak or not you you get motherfucker's locked up or even got the police fucking 175 00:14:13,399 --> 00:14:16,000 with motherfuckers for no reason, and then some shit can happen and then it's 176 00:14:16,039 --> 00:14:18,960 all your fault because you want to be a lay mass. If a person, 177 00:14:20,240 --> 00:14:24,080 if if a troll, if a troll only trolls seventy five percent of 178 00:14:24,159 --> 00:14:28,519 the time, what do you what do you think of the twenty five percent, 179 00:14:28,240 --> 00:14:31,240 the other twenty five percent of the ship that he'd be saying? Can 180 00:14:31,320 --> 00:14:33,679 you you ignore that? Now? I say, he say, I said, 181 00:14:33,720 --> 00:14:37,039 he says some real shit. Sometimes he say real shit. Most of 182 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:39,200 the time he says some real shit. So what do you think about? 183 00:14:39,240 --> 00:14:45,519 What are you thinking about? Uh? Kevin Samuels, I don't think he 184 00:14:45,639 --> 00:14:48,080 said anything wrong. I don't think he ever said anything never because he said 185 00:14:48,159 --> 00:14:50,799 both sides. He said he got on niggas and he got on bitches, 186 00:14:50,879 --> 00:14:54,039 like he'd be saying some real shit too, like nigga. I feel like 187 00:14:54,120 --> 00:14:58,120 when him women just only you know how women they hear what they want to 188 00:14:58,159 --> 00:15:01,039 hear. Who are you type thing? Think that's what it was? What 189 00:15:01,120 --> 00:15:03,720 it was, I wasn't saying shit wrong? Were you to say this? 190 00:15:03,799 --> 00:15:07,279 I feel like if Kevin Samuels was Beyonce and Beyonce was saying the same, 191 00:15:07,360 --> 00:15:09,919 ship's bitch as bitch as be like, you know what you my mama, 192 00:15:09,120 --> 00:15:13,879 let me get my mom. I didn't pay attention se so because you thought 193 00:15:13,919 --> 00:15:16,840 he bad. You thought he was bashing women because that's what you heard you 194 00:15:18,240 --> 00:15:22,080 that's what most women think. He's bashing women. I mean women. And 195 00:15:24,480 --> 00:15:28,919 you ain't the prize no more. And it's just written, but you didn't. 196 00:15:28,120 --> 00:15:31,919 But you didn't think you was the prize. If you got three baby 197 00:15:31,000 --> 00:15:37,759 daddies and four kids, there's no way I'm the prize anymore. Although I 198 00:15:37,879 --> 00:15:41,320 am the gift, but I ain't the prize no more. I'm just saying 199 00:15:41,360 --> 00:15:43,799 I got I got, I got five kids. Do you ever think about 200 00:15:43,799 --> 00:15:46,919 it? If you if you about his prize if you if you weren't Brittany 201 00:15:46,919 --> 00:15:48,639 split up, do you ever think, damn, I'm going to nickel with 202 00:15:48,720 --> 00:15:52,320 five kids the last one for sure, and I probably would be the nigga 203 00:15:52,320 --> 00:15:56,759 with five kids. But I ain't thought about like she ain't going nowhere. 204 00:15:58,480 --> 00:16:03,960 I would always think out that happened. She's definitely on my hit. We're 205 00:16:03,960 --> 00:16:08,240 gonna split up and her apartment gonna be up from mine. Nothing. Yeah, 206 00:16:08,240 --> 00:16:12,440 if I if I ever get married, bit we are dying together. 207 00:16:12,519 --> 00:16:17,600 But I mean, even even before I did, used to think I'd beat 208 00:16:17,600 --> 00:16:21,200 the nigga with four kids. But after the second one came, and that 209 00:16:21,320 --> 00:16:23,000 was carming because I was talking shit about the nigga in Texas row house one 210 00:16:23,080 --> 00:16:26,399 day came in with five kids. I had three at the time. God 211 00:16:26,480 --> 00:16:32,960 said, you don't even know that. God said, so why I gotn't 212 00:16:33,000 --> 00:16:34,440 listen to stuff like that, and nigga never hear me when I talk about 213 00:16:37,399 --> 00:16:38,879 why do you want to hear the negative stuff? God, I've been looking 214 00:16:38,879 --> 00:16:45,200 at on the financial I have a question when you, how did you know 215 00:16:45,399 --> 00:16:48,960 that you wanted to marry Brittany, because y'all for how long before we was 216 00:16:49,039 --> 00:16:52,960 together? For about two, two years before she had the baby. Yeah, 217 00:16:52,960 --> 00:16:56,200 I went through the pandemic together. Yeah, we went through the pandemic 218 00:16:56,240 --> 00:17:00,240 together, and it's just three years. And then when she got pregnant again, 219 00:17:00,919 --> 00:17:04,119 it was that second one and I spent a lot of time sucking up 220 00:17:04,160 --> 00:17:07,119 women. So I really want to do something right this time. That really 221 00:17:07,200 --> 00:17:11,920 be what it is about you? Because how long were you a sire together 222 00:17:11,960 --> 00:17:18,279 before y'all got married? Only it was only not together for like three months. 223 00:17:18,359 --> 00:17:23,400 Ye forever, I know that, but I mean that always been married 224 00:17:25,160 --> 00:17:27,759 seven years before, yeah, seven years. That that two months three months 225 00:17:27,799 --> 00:17:33,720 apart, that's what did it. And I was like, oh, okay, 226 00:17:33,759 --> 00:17:38,400 nah, I'm good. Then the pandemic and then her her being pregnant. 227 00:17:38,799 --> 00:17:42,599 I think that's I think that's what expedited. I think that's what kind 228 00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:45,920 of like it was. It was. It was a one two combo. 229 00:17:47,039 --> 00:17:49,039 When we were went together, I started to see that I was trash, 230 00:17:49,559 --> 00:17:52,720 Like, no, I'm not. I am trash, but I'm also also 231 00:17:52,799 --> 00:17:56,400 a good person. And I see I started to look in the mirror and 232 00:17:56,440 --> 00:18:02,799 started to see not only what I thought her flaws were, but I also 233 00:18:02,839 --> 00:18:06,640 started to see the flaws on myself that she accepted. And then once she 234 00:18:06,720 --> 00:18:10,279 started accepting those flaws with a baby inside of her stomach, I was like, 235 00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:14,319 oh, yeah, let's do this because if you because you're the only 236 00:18:14,359 --> 00:18:18,119 one that's really accepted me not And it's not like a oh I'm settling, 237 00:18:18,240 --> 00:18:22,200 it's like, oh, you're the only one accepted me. I need to 238 00:18:22,240 --> 00:18:26,119 start looking and I need to start focusing in on you. And the only 239 00:18:26,160 --> 00:18:27,920 way I can do that is if I put a ring on my finger and 240 00:18:29,480 --> 00:18:38,599 just look at this situation like I don't know, like the phone, she's 241 00:18:38,640 --> 00:18:41,480 gonna get a message. So she's been my emergency contact about four years. 242 00:18:41,480 --> 00:18:45,160 I couldn't imagine putting my mama down Steel. I ain't put my mama down 243 00:18:45,200 --> 00:18:49,359 to my emergency contact in a long time. It's at least a decade. 244 00:18:49,359 --> 00:18:55,119 I always had somebody else and I put whoever, whoever I know gonna answer 245 00:18:55,200 --> 00:19:02,559 that my fucking phone. Maybe I should have changed it is, like you 246 00:19:02,599 --> 00:19:04,599 said, it is, She's right the point I don't. I don't. 247 00:19:04,680 --> 00:19:07,960 I don't. I don't think that when I was growing up, I never 248 00:19:08,039 --> 00:19:12,519 really heard positive things about being married and never seen I've never seen positive images 249 00:19:12,559 --> 00:19:17,400 of being married. Was the since you had you didn't see that and she 250 00:19:17,599 --> 00:19:21,720 came from she came from it. She came from that. Was that something 251 00:19:21,880 --> 00:19:29,440 that held you back from marrying her? And in the beginning that that would 252 00:19:29,440 --> 00:19:30,960 have made that should have made me marry her sooner because and then I was 253 00:19:30,960 --> 00:19:36,880 just saying because sometimes people with two different backgrounds on well, her her parents. 254 00:19:37,079 --> 00:19:42,519 The beauty of the beauty about having a girl who has her parents is 255 00:19:42,599 --> 00:19:48,079 that you've seen She's seen them at their worst. She's seen when they didn't 256 00:19:48,079 --> 00:19:51,200 like each other, and she's seen and she has people to go to that 257 00:19:51,319 --> 00:19:57,200 will tell her how to deal with whatever the problem came when I came along, 258 00:19:57,240 --> 00:20:00,200 because they couldn't tell her how to handle a nick like me. I'm 259 00:20:00,480 --> 00:20:06,079 overly opinionated, overly emotional, over everything is over the top. So they 260 00:20:06,319 --> 00:20:08,000 it was like, shit, baby, I don't I don't know, I 261 00:20:10,039 --> 00:20:12,720 can crack him, don't, right, you know what I'm saying. So 262 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:17,400 it was and then but also you know her having her father there that nigga 263 00:20:17,480 --> 00:20:21,880 did every fucking thing. Bro, I'm like this nigga did every fucking I'm 264 00:20:21,920 --> 00:20:26,240 like, hey, I ain't him and this shoes you gotta feel but I'm 265 00:20:26,319 --> 00:20:30,359 not. I'm not necessarily scared to to to try to feel them. But 266 00:20:30,799 --> 00:20:34,559 no, I feel like the world is just a fucking lonely place. Bro. 267 00:20:34,839 --> 00:20:37,599 At the end of the day, it's a very extremely lonely place. 268 00:20:37,839 --> 00:20:41,359 When you it's like it's like going it's like going to illusions and you don't 269 00:20:41,400 --> 00:20:48,039 know anybody. That's That's what it feels like. No, that's what it's 270 00:20:48,039 --> 00:20:51,240 like. Illusions and the door girl different. I'm turning around, Bro, 271 00:20:51,400 --> 00:20:52,960 what if it ain't. If if it ain't, if its people that I 272 00:20:53,079 --> 00:20:57,240 know, I don't feel comb Yeah, yeah, but that's how I feel 273 00:20:57,279 --> 00:21:02,799 in this world without somebody that I can all on that I don't know just 274 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:04,920 see the best of me at all the fucking at all times. She just 275 00:21:06,079 --> 00:21:08,240 always sees the best of me. It's more than it's and I feel like 276 00:21:08,319 --> 00:21:11,799 it's more than my mom. But my mom saying morning, when my dad 277 00:21:11,839 --> 00:21:14,720 say morning, when my family say, I had to men see. I 278 00:21:14,799 --> 00:21:19,759 was talking about like we finally was I finally started to see like her childhood 279 00:21:19,839 --> 00:21:23,400 trauma with her siblings. He started to show it to me and I was 280 00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:29,079 like, oh, so we really are like puzzle pieces, Like I think 281 00:21:29,119 --> 00:21:33,359 we need to start recognizing those puzzle pieces that come together naturally, because like 282 00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:37,759 our friendships weren't like people, yeah, people don't just people don't realize. 283 00:21:37,880 --> 00:21:41,519 Like it was like, all right, I need hosts for the podcast. 284 00:21:42,279 --> 00:21:51,839 I was in there. Oh yeah, he was like hey, but but 285 00:21:52,119 --> 00:21:56,319 but but it was at the right time because it was like why not. 286 00:21:56,680 --> 00:22:00,920 And then once I stopped, once I stopped being reluctant to somebody wanting to 287 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:03,359 come on board opposed to me always picking who comes on board, it was 288 00:22:03,400 --> 00:22:07,240 like, hey, let me up there, and it was like, no, 289 00:22:07,359 --> 00:22:08,799 nigga, this ain't high pupposed to go. But even with y'all, 290 00:22:08,839 --> 00:22:11,960 I was like, I need hosts. And then Kenan naturally popped up and 291 00:22:12,079 --> 00:22:15,400 I don't even know how I popped up and then just stayed. You know 292 00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:21,160 what I'm saying it just so it's like me, you Keenan, Roger and 293 00:22:21,519 --> 00:22:26,440 Ebanie was on there like one of the first one really early. But you 294 00:22:26,519 --> 00:22:32,960 know it's I feel like the when I started to see recently, I started 295 00:22:32,960 --> 00:22:36,000 to see like how her family has made her the way that she is, 296 00:22:36,440 --> 00:22:37,920 and she started seeing how my family made me the way that I am, 297 00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:41,839 and she she accepted. I think that's a huge thing because I don't feel 298 00:22:41,839 --> 00:22:45,400 accepted by my family all the time as much as that mother's I love you, 299 00:22:47,160 --> 00:22:49,559 Yeah, I don't believe that because your actions don't show me that you're 300 00:22:49,599 --> 00:22:52,720 saying yeah, you're just saying that shit, you know what I'm saying. 301 00:22:52,759 --> 00:22:56,839 And even that that that kind of plays a part how Dorian is with my 302 00:22:56,960 --> 00:23:03,039 family. He's an over He's an over extension of how I am, how 303 00:23:03,119 --> 00:23:07,640 I feel about y'all. I MI can hide it. He ain't learned to 304 00:23:07,799 --> 00:23:11,759 ye, So as soon as he come around, it's like, yeah, 305 00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:15,599 kids are the most honest people world. Ain't reaching my arm out to you, 306 00:23:15,880 --> 00:23:18,119 Yeah for sure? Who are you? Yeah? But some people just 307 00:23:18,200 --> 00:23:22,920 don't know how to love though, and and I think I think I'm one 308 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:26,960 of them, Like I'm a good person outside of relationships. When come relationships, 309 00:23:26,119 --> 00:23:30,000 um, just because I don't know, Like the parents still together, 310 00:23:30,839 --> 00:23:33,640 my stepfather and my mama, Yeah, I've been together our whole life. 311 00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:37,880 You can never seen him, are you or nothing? Like, really, 312 00:23:37,079 --> 00:23:40,039 you ain't learned how to love. If you had that, It's like, 313 00:23:41,240 --> 00:23:44,640 I guess I'll just never paid attention to it because it was like it was 314 00:23:44,680 --> 00:23:49,720 like it was like they his different different. They are extremely different. They 315 00:23:49,799 --> 00:23:55,920 like you know, they like they like Sitcom. His parents are like Sitcom 316 00:23:56,000 --> 00:24:02,039 parents, like like they just nothing. He was working in Rolls Royce for 317 00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:06,319 forty five years. She working for the hospital for thirty three. Like he 318 00:24:06,680 --> 00:24:08,039 finally retires from now he off. He don't know what to do. He'd 319 00:24:08,039 --> 00:24:12,559 just be able to create painting, just whatever, like whatever, that's all 320 00:24:12,599 --> 00:24:15,319 they do, go to work. My mom would go to work Monday through 321 00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:22,559 Friday and then go to church Saturday Sunday. Stepfather was working Monday through Sunday 322 00:24:22,319 --> 00:24:29,319 every day. Brow they don't think it now, don they go out to 323 00:24:29,400 --> 00:24:32,480 eat here and there? But they don't never. They don't never go out 324 00:24:32,519 --> 00:24:34,039 to eat. They don't ever go places. I'd be like, go out 325 00:24:34,039 --> 00:24:41,400 of town. They don't don't want to do nothing. Then we see on 326 00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:44,839 the pacer games and stuff like that, but they don't. That's why I 327 00:24:44,839 --> 00:24:47,759 said, like we ain't never really go out to eat as a family. 328 00:24:48,000 --> 00:24:51,559 We ain't really never really not do trips, Like I ain't really know, 329 00:24:51,720 --> 00:24:55,119 I ain't really I never had birthday parties and none of this ship. But 330 00:24:55,240 --> 00:24:59,160 I was spoiled, but they got me everything that I ever. When your 331 00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:03,920 birthday, bro, we're gonna damn I missed it. His birthday been the 332 00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:14,880 center four. Yeah, but I think I think, I think NA, 333 00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:18,240 but I believe. I believe that to be like, I don't think. 334 00:25:18,480 --> 00:25:23,640 I don't. I think that my my brother and my brothers, my step 335 00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:30,200 brothers, I believe that they'll marry white girls because white girls compliment them, 336 00:25:30,680 --> 00:25:33,119 will compliment them differently than black girls, because of the way that they was, 337 00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:36,960 because the way that they grew up. Yeah, my dad and his 338 00:25:37,039 --> 00:25:41,160 wife they've been together for twenty for thirty years, damn there or however long. 339 00:25:41,279 --> 00:25:47,519 But the way he is and the way she is, my stepmom ain't 340 00:25:47,519 --> 00:25:49,079 a traditional black girl, you know what I'm saying, Like she she she 341 00:25:49,240 --> 00:25:52,960 a white girl. Black. Yeah, she a white girl at heart, 342 00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:56,839 you know what I'm saying. But just the ship that they like, they 343 00:25:56,920 --> 00:25:59,200 not consider black, you know what I'm saying, Like they don't, they 344 00:25:59,240 --> 00:26:02,519 don't like app like that. They don't really get the like the way that 345 00:26:02,559 --> 00:26:07,759 they was raised. And it's no fault to my my my my dad and 346 00:26:07,799 --> 00:26:11,160 my step mom, but I feel like sorry, they grew up in Texas. 347 00:26:11,599 --> 00:26:12,920 So they grew up in San Antonio on the Air Force. My dad 348 00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:17,480 my parents was an Air Force. My dad was an Air Force and she 349 00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:22,519 retired and became a principal. So, but the dynamic of them is different, 350 00:26:22,839 --> 00:26:25,039 and it's kind of it's kind of like with Kennan. I'm like, 351 00:26:25,519 --> 00:26:33,920 how how can how can I recognize love when they don't seen it? Yeah, 352 00:26:34,079 --> 00:26:37,920 like they just this is just normal, Like this's just normally. They've 353 00:26:37,920 --> 00:26:40,559 just been together like I never like I don't really never seen it. I've 354 00:26:40,559 --> 00:26:44,400 never seen it, like really nothing, Like they just love each other. 355 00:26:44,599 --> 00:26:48,400 Like they don't be overly on each other love like lovey dovey, they don't. 356 00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:51,599 They just they just coexist. I know they love each other, you 357 00:26:51,640 --> 00:26:55,319 know what I'm saying. Because they've been together since I was too. That 358 00:26:55,440 --> 00:26:56,759 is a good question, Like how did my stepfather my day? Like, 359 00:26:56,839 --> 00:27:00,559 so I know how to my daddy ain't never been into it, never got 360 00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:04,160 into it. My daddy always accepted them. So I always seem like how 361 00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:08,000 that goes? So if that's why I said, I would never trip. 362 00:27:08,079 --> 00:27:11,680 If my baby Mamas was to get somebody, as long as it's a good 363 00:27:11,759 --> 00:27:17,359 person, a good man, you know what I'm saying. No, that 364 00:27:17,640 --> 00:27:19,839 just probably ain't gonna happen. It probably not gonna happen. I'm very high 365 00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:25,640 bar, so I don't get I don't think you're at the bar. I 366 00:27:25,759 --> 00:27:27,160 just believe that was deep bar. I said. I might high bar, 367 00:27:30,559 --> 00:27:33,319 but I really the highest. I'm really a low bar. But I'm a 368 00:27:33,440 --> 00:27:37,440 high bar. But I feel like I feel like I feel like to find 369 00:27:37,519 --> 00:27:41,000 somebody. I feel like to find somebody as understanding as you. It's gonna 370 00:27:41,039 --> 00:27:44,960 be weird, it is, but I mean, I will give you that, 371 00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:48,319 like you are one of the most understanding motherfucker's and and that might be 372 00:27:48,359 --> 00:27:51,880 a privilege that I have that other people might not have. But I don't 373 00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:57,079 think. I think that sometimes childhood trauma prevents people from really believing that people 374 00:27:57,160 --> 00:28:00,599 love them, because a lot of people did. It's just different how you 375 00:28:00,680 --> 00:28:03,440 grow up. Like me and b bump heads because I grew up in poverty 376 00:28:03,480 --> 00:28:07,400 and she grew up kind of Yeah, so yeah, there's a lot of 377 00:28:07,440 --> 00:28:10,640 shit I dealt with growing up that don't affect How does that? How does 378 00:28:10,640 --> 00:28:14,559 that affect your parents? We bump heads often, like, but that's really 379 00:28:14,720 --> 00:28:18,160 that's really our main issue that I'm I'm I'm always working and not trying to 380 00:28:18,200 --> 00:28:22,319 spend money, and she ain't trying to work and have family time and I'm 381 00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:25,960 trying to like these vacations. And that's how it because it's like not not 382 00:28:26,079 --> 00:28:27,920 not say she's not trying to because she do work. She do work. 383 00:28:30,279 --> 00:28:32,920 Like when you somebody who's not used to doing stuff like this, but then 384 00:28:32,960 --> 00:28:36,960 you, like you somebody who's not really a family oriented person, but then 385 00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:40,240 you mess with somebody who is family who are in it's like y'all gonna bump 386 00:28:40,279 --> 00:28:42,880 heads. But just I think it kind of go to, uh, like 387 00:28:44,000 --> 00:28:48,200 what you were saying in the notes, like my father lost my train thought 388 00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:51,640 because she cut me off. When you grow one of the one of the 389 00:28:51,720 --> 00:28:56,720 things when you grow up different, the one thing that where your phone. 390 00:28:56,799 --> 00:29:00,839 I think I think I think one of the shoes for Sierra not is that 391 00:29:02,480 --> 00:29:06,160 when she started telling that you got time shares in Florida and we went here 392 00:29:06,240 --> 00:29:07,640 with on a crew, that this this this my dad did, I'm like, 393 00:29:08,400 --> 00:29:15,039 damn, I know, I stopped stun Oh my mom jealous. It 394 00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:18,880 goes into what you was saying, how we look so much younger than our 395 00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:22,960 parents and everything now musician, now that my parents were at my age and 396 00:29:25,160 --> 00:29:27,759 my parents were not a good situation at all at thirty five, Bro, 397 00:29:27,799 --> 00:29:37,359 I had to My mom had me at twenty six, so privilege twenty They 398 00:29:37,480 --> 00:29:41,240 was already in the same house. They in the same house working when you 399 00:29:41,319 --> 00:29:45,880 was born, the same job I had to struggle through. They was twenty 400 00:29:45,920 --> 00:29:49,759 when they had men. My mom was so traumatized she fucked her way into 401 00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:53,559 more trauma. Funny how trauma works that way. But she was, she 402 00:29:53,759 --> 00:29:59,559 was trying, she was she was so she was real, nigga. She 403 00:29:59,799 --> 00:30:03,279 heard her mom say, I'm going to die before I have grandkids. Damn. 404 00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:07,000 She walked in on her mom trying to kill herself. Bro, Bro 405 00:30:07,160 --> 00:30:08,960 the story, I'm like, when I'm Alma started telling me these stories, 406 00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,400 I'm like, I understand. Mom. Like, Bro, I'm like, 407 00:30:12,039 --> 00:30:18,960 give me a hug, like they'd be trying to keep that shit from that. 408 00:30:18,119 --> 00:30:22,839 Help it might help us understand and later on and like, yeah, 409 00:30:22,319 --> 00:30:27,039 you can understand it more. Like back then, I told my mom, 410 00:30:27,119 --> 00:30:32,279 I said, look, you damn they're dumb, because you should have told 411 00:30:32,400 --> 00:30:36,240 me and t when when I was a freshman and she was in seventh grade. 412 00:30:36,279 --> 00:30:38,119 You should have sat us down and say, hey, this is why 413 00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:41,799 I want y'all to do this shit. I need y'all to wash the dishes 414 00:30:41,839 --> 00:30:44,799 because I gotta go to the this motherfucking job that don't pay me that well. 415 00:30:45,119 --> 00:30:47,279 And if I come home and the diches ain't clean, I'm gonna feel 416 00:30:47,279 --> 00:30:51,200 like YA don't appreciate me. I think we would have understood that completely different 417 00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:56,920 than just I told you how to clean this. Damn. I did a 418 00:30:56,960 --> 00:31:00,759 better job of motherfucking taking a chicken out. But I don't even know like 419 00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:03,359 I was even thinking like the chicken out. I wasn't thinking like that. 420 00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:06,279 And I told her, I said, I think you forgot to take the 421 00:31:06,359 --> 00:31:10,279 chicken out. I don't even if you forgot. Why can't I forget exactly? 422 00:31:10,440 --> 00:31:15,039 Especially because I'm kids, right you you know when you woke up this 423 00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:18,079 morning and went to the kitchen and got something to drink, you right there 424 00:31:18,119 --> 00:31:18,759 by the freezer. But you now you're trying to put it on me. 425 00:31:18,920 --> 00:31:22,759 But I feel like the communication with parents, like I don't know if it's 426 00:31:22,799 --> 00:31:29,640 y'all, but I my dad and his inability to communicate makes me want to 427 00:31:29,759 --> 00:31:32,920 hate him. But I know that it's not on purpose, but I'd be 428 00:31:33,000 --> 00:31:38,000 like, Bro, your communication skills are horrible. Just I'm trying to talk 429 00:31:38,039 --> 00:31:41,720 to you about like, at least you have a parent that can communicate. 430 00:31:41,839 --> 00:31:47,400 Both my parents are trash. Both my parents sucker communication. My mom my 431 00:31:47,559 --> 00:31:52,200 mom, My mom is she takes every we all suck. She takes offending, 432 00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:56,599 she takes offense to everything, like her trauma won't allow her to connect. 433 00:31:56,640 --> 00:32:00,720 I just don't like, I don't know. I've tried to conversations. 434 00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:05,559 I don't just be depending on conversations sometain conversations I shut down. I don't 435 00:32:05,559 --> 00:32:07,079 even like talk, don't even want to talk about. I took my mom's 436 00:32:07,079 --> 00:32:12,160 to dinner for my thirtieth birthday to try to get like a summary of life 437 00:32:12,279 --> 00:32:16,079 period. It was so short winded, like her responses was like I was 438 00:32:16,160 --> 00:32:21,160 just struggling son eating her food. I'm proud of you, soning eating her 439 00:32:21,200 --> 00:32:22,440 food. She told me she was disappointed in me with the third kid. 440 00:32:24,319 --> 00:32:29,920 How I came around, I'm just saying that that was my third kid by 441 00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:34,240 a third woman. Shit, I'll probably be disappointed in mind too, Like 442 00:32:34,319 --> 00:32:37,279 you just saw the transformation from there. So ain't doing what. I'm proud 443 00:32:37,319 --> 00:32:38,480 of you, But I wouldn't even know how to sit my pops. Now, 444 00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:42,240 you know what's crazy. They probably just don't know how to communicate at 445 00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:45,160 all. It's probably a reason why they buy themselves. If they buy themselves, 446 00:32:45,359 --> 00:32:50,400 they are. Yeah, I think my dad only married because he had 447 00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:52,480 nigga retired from the military. I feel like he was just a regular nigga. 448 00:32:52,519 --> 00:32:55,759 I feel like I feel like I feel like it's different between for men 449 00:32:55,799 --> 00:32:59,440 and women because my dad's attractive, so he can just find a bit, 450 00:32:59,759 --> 00:33:00,799 you know what I'm saying. Like a bitch will take care of a nigga 451 00:33:00,799 --> 00:33:04,519 if she if she really, but a nigga ain't gonna take care of no 452 00:33:04,640 --> 00:33:08,160 bit like he ain't. I don't I feel like a woman. A woman 453 00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:10,559 will work two jobs just to have a nigga even if he ain't. Ain't 454 00:33:10,559 --> 00:33:13,839 shit nigga a nigga. I don't feel like a nigga just gonna keep a 455 00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:17,880 chicken around very shot. Nah, he gotta he gotta, he gotta know 456 00:33:19,000 --> 00:33:22,720 you fun with him? Who but the nigga for him for him to even 457 00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:24,920 is that truth? For ever? I don't. Yeah, I'm not about 458 00:33:24,920 --> 00:33:27,839 to do nothing for you. And I don't even know if you bro I'm 459 00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:30,519 talking about it, ain't like a bitch that ain't working. No, And 460 00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:35,440 I don't feel like a bitch that won't work. Ain't I'm talking about I 461 00:33:35,440 --> 00:33:38,279 just stay at home chick. That's just now I'm talking about don't want to 462 00:33:38,279 --> 00:33:40,440 get a job, like I want to get a job. She's smoking, 463 00:33:40,759 --> 00:33:46,240 playing two kuck and some bake. You gotta go? Yeah, come home? 464 00:33:46,319 --> 00:33:50,000 You say, she cheating on you and she bringing and she bringing home? 465 00:33:50,319 --> 00:33:53,880 Like nah, bitches, women will stick through some bullshit because they don't 466 00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:57,880 want to start over because they got a timeline they got they got a timeline 467 00:33:57,880 --> 00:34:06,599 they gotta go to. You know, you know nigga that are cut fucking 468 00:34:06,640 --> 00:34:09,599 computer keep I don't know why why I keeps Steff recording record. Yeah I 469 00:34:09,639 --> 00:34:13,199 don't. I don't. I don't know what what instance? Are you talking 470 00:34:13,199 --> 00:34:16,480 about it the same way? Like, well, maybe not the exact same 471 00:34:16,519 --> 00:34:21,360 way, but I feel like you gotta look bad. I don't know, 472 00:34:22,039 --> 00:34:24,960 but I feel like if you us I've never had pussy good enough to maybe 473 00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:31,119 they even consider that. No at all. I want to cut off me, 474 00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,719 Yeah, I want it. I want to try it and see, 475 00:34:35,159 --> 00:34:37,119 Okay, I can see how you cut an, but I'm not doing that. 476 00:34:38,039 --> 00:34:40,760 He was good for now. I'm not doing you. Y do you? 477 00:34:40,840 --> 00:34:45,800 Too many times I'm addicted. Females are getting too with sisters and everything. 478 00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:52,360 Love is I feel like not not enough. It's talked about when it 479 00:34:52,440 --> 00:34:58,039 comes to love or the look of love, because it's like a drug. 480 00:34:58,320 --> 00:35:05,119 It is because I I imagine I imagine a nigga being like coke and he 481 00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:09,320 but cocaine, being able to call you and being like, hey, hey, 482 00:35:09,360 --> 00:35:12,239 how you doing. Don't you wanted something to me? You'd be like, 483 00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:15,400 don't you want to get high? Like Nigga's like really be toxic like 484 00:35:15,519 --> 00:35:19,519 that. Like they'll beat They'll they'll bring a chick all they'll beat it. 485 00:35:19,920 --> 00:35:22,559 They'll beat the chick down. They'll gasp like her, I never did this. 486 00:35:23,480 --> 00:35:28,960 They'll they'll learn her traumas, playing to her traumas and make her feel 487 00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:32,000 like she's less of a person, only for him to keep her around whenever 488 00:35:32,079 --> 00:35:36,679 he wants. And then she's so and she's so wrapped up into the ship 489 00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:39,719 that she don't even realize that she's being played. So she stayed like the 490 00:35:40,079 --> 00:35:45,840 It's so many different aspects of this ship that I'd be like, yeah, 491 00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:50,440 then you got this is weird. Then you got some it's no, it 492 00:35:50,519 --> 00:35:52,440 happens all the time. Yeah, it happens for sure. But then you 493 00:35:52,559 --> 00:35:58,159 got something. Who let the chick know like this it ain't nothing or whatnot 494 00:35:58,199 --> 00:36:00,679 and they still won't leave when when women women won't what they want. Yeah, 495 00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:04,840 like I was thinking about ship with a woman and want you know it. 496 00:36:05,159 --> 00:36:08,119 Yeah, I was thinking about my mama. Even John was definitely my 497 00:36:08,199 --> 00:36:14,079 boyfriend before telling motherfucker is that that's my man? I had. I had 498 00:36:14,119 --> 00:36:15,559 two girlfriends in a bitch though she was my third. I said, I 499 00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:20,320 never told you none of that. Whose fat is that? It ain't? 500 00:36:20,559 --> 00:36:22,039 It ain't mine, cousin. Where did you get this from? You? 501 00:36:22,880 --> 00:36:28,239 I mean, if we're together every single day and eating and doing all this 502 00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:37,000 and friends, we can be friends you my house? Where did you get 503 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:37,840 this from? So what I fed you? So what? I'm sucking you 504 00:36:37,920 --> 00:36:51,840 wrong? Nothing was wrong. Disgusted. Girls were just saying, no, 505 00:36:54,000 --> 00:37:00,360 that's dead ass though it's real though, because women, it's our y'all for 506 00:37:00,440 --> 00:37:04,199 assuming they'll fall for that ship didn't because it can be because it can be 507 00:37:04,360 --> 00:37:07,519 vice versa sumer ties. Yeah, Na, nigga can be on that and 508 00:37:07,599 --> 00:37:09,239 you like, no, But I never said I ain't. Never I never 509 00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:13,119 said it was my mama. Y'all be on the same ship. But if 510 00:37:13,119 --> 00:37:15,800 it ain't a nigga, you really nigga aggressive? When they come to that, 511 00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:20,280 that's when they start sending you gonna we gonna start posting her. He 512 00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:23,159 threatening her all on her ship now, he posted on Facebook, look at 513 00:37:23,199 --> 00:37:27,079 this weird nigga. Mama, you don't put that pussy on him now, 514 00:37:27,159 --> 00:37:30,639 he's weird. Now, So why are you being with the same thing? 515 00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:34,719 Why you found me like that? Like what, well, I thought we 516 00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:37,199 thought he was together. Don't if you don't know, you don't nobody nobody 517 00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:43,000 like that. Yeah, everybody like that. Damn I know it hap with 518 00:37:43,079 --> 00:37:46,039 me, Johnny in the beginning of our relationship. No, I just was, 519 00:37:46,199 --> 00:37:51,920 I mean, well, yeah, but he was my boyfriend that he 520 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:53,519 wasn't my boyfriend. And he told me he was like, I never said 521 00:37:53,559 --> 00:37:58,079 that we were together, And I was like, nigga, what, yeah, 522 00:37:58,840 --> 00:38:00,119 you're doing some shit like my mama. That's definitely I didn't. I 523 00:38:00,159 --> 00:38:02,679 mean, I was like, in my head, I said, nigga, 524 00:38:02,719 --> 00:38:06,960 what I was like three months on some shit like, Man, she's just 525 00:38:07,239 --> 00:38:10,679 stupid with niggas. That one nigga. We don't talk, Bro, I 526 00:38:10,840 --> 00:38:16,000 was so mad at you about that. A lot people want do you ever 527 00:38:16,079 --> 00:38:21,000 look at yourself like I don't like to beat him up? We probably would 528 00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:22,679 have beat him. I was always I wanted to whoop him that one time. 529 00:38:23,480 --> 00:38:28,199 If you just said, ya, what's crazy? What's crazy is Dynasty 530 00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:31,679 has like one hundred niggas. That's like her brother and she never used you 531 00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:37,920 never used to read. I would never. I was just I would never 532 00:38:38,000 --> 00:38:45,360 want to put you on a situation but your livelihood or your true true feel 533 00:38:45,400 --> 00:38:47,519 that. But back then, the time we talked about it was good to 534 00:38:47,599 --> 00:38:52,800 go. We had to really worry about too much extra. Back then you 535 00:38:52,880 --> 00:38:55,880 assisted. Now now you got to think about that ship. But back then, 536 00:38:58,159 --> 00:39:00,599 fuckers could catch phase and then just feel me. My dad came over 537 00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:06,760 and handled it. No, he didn't have to. He didn't have to. 538 00:39:06,960 --> 00:39:16,320 He just fearing and it's still traumatizing fear in a little nigga heart. 539 00:39:17,159 --> 00:39:22,880 Daddy, he hit what what here? I was just talking about. That's 540 00:39:22,880 --> 00:39:25,480 what I was just talking about, Bro, I don't give a fuck. 541 00:39:25,599 --> 00:39:30,239 Bro. If a motherfucker little nigga put their hands on my daughter, I 542 00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:32,320 don't even know, Bro, I don't get fucking. I don't give a 543 00:39:34,239 --> 00:39:38,800 bro might twite, I might stay, he might get whooped. Oh my 544 00:39:38,880 --> 00:39:43,719 mom like period twelve. That's that's that's old enough for me to be depending 545 00:39:43,719 --> 00:39:45,800 on how you did my daughter too. You damn whooped. I'm sending the 546 00:39:45,840 --> 00:39:49,119 brother to get him first. I don't know. I got a girl. 547 00:39:49,119 --> 00:39:52,039 I'm sending a little brother getting first, big brother getting first. The big 548 00:39:52,079 --> 00:39:53,800 brother don't get him to them come getting That's definitely what's happening. Hey, 549 00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:58,920 sending brother Hey on his ass. Dad. He's not sending anybody that I'm 550 00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:01,159 gonna sending somebody that I have to pay to come see. You go get 551 00:40:01,199 --> 00:40:05,000 your dad. Twelve year old, I don't get get your daddy. I 552 00:40:05,119 --> 00:40:08,360 know I can go, I can go into the get don't got my nigga. 553 00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:13,639 Gota my nigga got ay to go to the same Schoolift a twenty year 554 00:40:13,639 --> 00:40:17,280 old to shoot you, I'll beat his ass kid. Okay, two k 555 00:40:17,440 --> 00:40:20,960 two years in the row store, two years in a row. Yeah, 556 00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:24,119 you don't get to two or whatever the year. I don't know what the 557 00:40:24,639 --> 00:40:29,920 extra VC just like o VC. Whatever you here's y'all see. Did y'all 558 00:40:29,920 --> 00:40:32,159 see? Did y'all see the teacher? The little girl that broke the teacher 559 00:40:32,280 --> 00:40:37,679 leg. I don't know she broke her leg, broke her ship. That's 560 00:40:37,679 --> 00:40:43,039 the one I sent to the group. They they was talking. She was 561 00:40:43,119 --> 00:40:45,639 pushing up on her, the little girl in the door fighting or up in 562 00:40:45,679 --> 00:40:47,639 the doorway store. I guess she broke it when she failed or whatnot. 563 00:40:47,719 --> 00:40:51,400 But the teacher brokers. I'm nothing. Bro I couldn't be a teacher high 564 00:40:51,440 --> 00:40:58,559 school because I'm beating a nigga. I mean, that's why I never wanted 565 00:40:58,559 --> 00:41:00,239 to be a teacher. Because you just say I broke his wrist, but 566 00:41:00,519 --> 00:41:04,000 he slammed me against the lockers. I'm on your ass. I didn't. 567 00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:06,760 I didn't break his wrist. He slammed me against you because I remember me. 568 00:41:07,159 --> 00:41:09,360 You baby, go outside of the school, Oh my mama, by 569 00:41:09,440 --> 00:41:14,079 yourself. I remember when I was the second grade amuck teacher. She wasn't 570 00:41:14,239 --> 00:41:16,320 my teacher. She muck pushed my head against the wall. Boom, I 571 00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:22,599 stole her boots talking about my head. She's gonna send my head and hit 572 00:41:22,639 --> 00:41:23,320 the wall. Boom. I don't know your sister. I don't give a 573 00:41:23,360 --> 00:41:28,440 fuck what you're talking about. Plenty on me. I was bad as hell? 574 00:41:28,519 --> 00:41:31,320 When did you come from? These love? I got put in the 575 00:41:31,360 --> 00:41:36,960 other They trying to paddle them ships. They ain't never seen love at my 576 00:41:37,039 --> 00:41:42,039 parents fucking mushy gushy brother like his parents are like his father and his father 577 00:41:42,119 --> 00:41:45,400 in law is such a good father in law. This nigga is a fucking 578 00:41:45,440 --> 00:41:47,760 mentor to other badass kids. But he never had a birthday party. He 579 00:41:47,840 --> 00:41:54,000 was looking for. This nigga had everything. But what are you supposed to 580 00:41:54,039 --> 00:41:58,400 give this nigga on his birthday? When you just buy this nigga just games 581 00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:04,960 on two. I said, I ain't ever had a party, That's all 582 00:42:05,000 --> 00:42:07,039 I said. I ain't never had a party like this nigga was with his 583 00:42:07,199 --> 00:42:15,679 friends all the time. I said, I got everything, bro. Some 584 00:42:15,840 --> 00:42:22,000 of these parents take the word bullying to a whole different because the call and 585 00:42:22,159 --> 00:42:24,119 be like, well, somebody was talking about my kid. I need this 586 00:42:24,199 --> 00:42:27,719 bullying to stop, ma'am. I'm sorry. That's a part of life, 587 00:42:28,679 --> 00:42:31,800 like roasting. I mean, it's just I guess it depends on it depends 588 00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:36,840 on picking with them motherfucker every day and they like stop, Yeah, they 589 00:42:36,920 --> 00:42:39,719 actually stopping, y'all keep working with him. That's bullying. He was playing 590 00:42:39,760 --> 00:42:45,360 at first. Bully. Yeah, I don't, don't, don't. Don't 591 00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:47,920 talk about me period. I'm not if you if I know you now, 592 00:42:47,960 --> 00:42:52,880 if I know you, like before knowing you or something like that, we 593 00:42:52,039 --> 00:42:55,639 was in class or school or not noting and you don't joan back or I 594 00:42:55,719 --> 00:43:00,920 see that you're not that type of person and alone like yeah you boring. 595 00:43:00,039 --> 00:43:07,920 Yeah, but even that, even that, I feel like, take your 596 00:43:07,960 --> 00:43:09,800 bad ass on somewhere. Bro, We're taught, we're in English class. 597 00:43:09,840 --> 00:43:13,840 Are supposed to be doing fucking work. We are. You're not. I 598 00:43:13,960 --> 00:43:17,400 am, You're not. My work's done, Geo, geo work wasn't done. 599 00:43:17,840 --> 00:43:21,320 If you if you math and math I used to be one of the 600 00:43:21,400 --> 00:43:23,840 first ones done. Now I'm about to. If you one of those kids, 601 00:43:24,440 --> 00:43:27,679 then you need to be an APD and get your bad ass out of 602 00:43:27,719 --> 00:43:30,039 here. If you if you finish it fast enough, if you're finish it 603 00:43:30,119 --> 00:43:32,360 fast enough to roast, get your ass about it here. But if you 604 00:43:32,480 --> 00:43:36,519 if you find if you find another person that you can go back and forth 605 00:43:36,559 --> 00:43:40,480 with cool. I feel like I feel like a lot of the times that 606 00:43:40,719 --> 00:43:45,679 roast and shit, that roast and shit, that class clown shit. It's 607 00:43:45,719 --> 00:43:52,119 cool, But I hated it because I feel like, why why ya ain't 608 00:43:52,159 --> 00:43:54,719 here to do? Why are y'all in here? I don't we got why 609 00:43:54,800 --> 00:43:58,440 y'a ain't here doing this? Because I don't even really want to be here. 610 00:43:58,480 --> 00:44:01,599 I'm just here because I have to be. When I hate I play 611 00:44:01,679 --> 00:44:07,400 sports. Class be extended like you can't leave to you shut up and just 612 00:44:07,480 --> 00:44:10,159 want to keep talking. And you'd be like, shut up, we can 613 00:44:10,199 --> 00:44:14,719 go. We don't. I'm not I'm not shutting up the bossing me. 614 00:44:15,039 --> 00:44:19,639 Oh, I would never go home. I was never that person. I 615 00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:22,760 was never that. It was one time I got it so much choke because 616 00:44:22,760 --> 00:44:24,840 it was a bitch and she just kept going. I said, put it 617 00:44:24,880 --> 00:44:30,000 dick in your mouth and shut the fuck up there because she wouldn't shut us, 618 00:44:30,360 --> 00:44:34,519 and everybody in there was telling her to be quiets. They can go 619 00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:37,159 teach you. When I took it to the extreme, put the dick in 620 00:44:37,199 --> 00:44:43,639 your mouth and shut the funk up so we can go. But we have 621 00:44:45,000 --> 00:44:54,000 ten minutes class Cover's office, Like, damn, okay, help you. 622 00:44:54,119 --> 00:45:00,800 I got to leave though I was helping you certain certain kids. What can 623 00:45:00,800 --> 00:45:02,800 you tell about I'm being an extra certain like the Jonas ship. Yeah it's 624 00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:08,159 cool, but there He's right in regards of sometimes just read the room, 625 00:45:08,559 --> 00:45:10,880 and I think that the kids just don't know how to read the room. 626 00:45:10,960 --> 00:45:16,159 And then parents don't. My nieces, fucking babies, sucking dogs and their 627 00:45:16,199 --> 00:45:20,599 dog. I hate that fucking dog. But I feel like I roast them 628 00:45:20,599 --> 00:45:22,719 as soon as they walk into the house, my mom as soon as they 629 00:45:22,840 --> 00:45:27,679 walk into because why the fuck did you lead a house looking like that? 630 00:45:28,440 --> 00:45:31,000 So that's and I'm and I'm talking about and I'm talking about your mama in 631 00:45:31,119 --> 00:45:35,480 front of your mama because I feel like she shouldn't look the way she do. 632 00:45:35,800 --> 00:45:37,239 And y'all look as ashy as y'all. Fucking dude. Now, I 633 00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:42,199 understand this whole giving my child freedom to put on lotion or not put on 634 00:45:42,320 --> 00:45:45,599 lotion and wear magic clothes. Now, man, no, you don't have 635 00:45:45,760 --> 00:45:50,000 the option of looking like shit when you leave my house. That's a reflection 636 00:45:50,039 --> 00:45:53,920 of me. But here but you, but you also, but you also 637 00:45:54,360 --> 00:45:59,559 they nigga, they fucking uh, what's Warren I'm saying, if we're about 638 00:45:59,599 --> 00:46:04,840 to step one, what's Warren Districtship? They in Warren Township, or they're 639 00:46:04,840 --> 00:46:07,960 in Lawrence Township, whatever township they whatever township you win. It's full of 640 00:46:08,039 --> 00:46:13,199 niggas. If you're to be going around browhere, bro, you're not about 641 00:46:13,199 --> 00:46:15,480 to be going around with your hair looking like Yeah. It's however, so 642 00:46:15,599 --> 00:46:20,480 I feel they are they so now you know now you hate school. They 643 00:46:20,599 --> 00:46:23,440 jumped back because you are low, because your your parents allowed you to go 644 00:46:23,519 --> 00:46:28,039 to school looking like this because whatever they got going on, and I don't 645 00:46:28,119 --> 00:46:30,119 like that. That's the point of one of the things that come with being 646 00:46:30,159 --> 00:46:35,280 a parent. We know a little bit more than That's what I'm saying. 647 00:46:35,320 --> 00:46:37,039 That's that's that's here be a mess. I stopped arguing with this money. 648 00:46:39,039 --> 00:46:42,719 It's now if your kid is going to school and getting joned on, it's 649 00:46:42,719 --> 00:46:49,079 your fault. You allow you your fault. Yeah, yeah, you entry. 650 00:46:49,119 --> 00:46:52,199 Because now they're wearing uniforms anyway, So all you gotta do it's probably 651 00:46:52,239 --> 00:46:54,679 get some shoes or something. You know what I'm saying, But what's the 652 00:46:54,760 --> 00:46:59,800 point of having you But even having uniforms if the shoes ain't uniform, because 653 00:46:59,840 --> 00:47:05,360 now we can join some schools something some schools there are some schools they are 654 00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:10,960 but some schools. Lets you wear any type shoes? Yeah, have a 655 00:47:12,039 --> 00:47:15,639 blue. I hope they changed that. I don't color. I don't like 656 00:47:15,800 --> 00:47:19,840 uniforms, K kind of pants. I like dressing myseln up my mom. 657 00:47:20,159 --> 00:47:22,760 I like I like being at dressed. Yeah, I'm all these shoes. 658 00:47:22,840 --> 00:47:27,320 Now, this is dress yourself up. I do dress myself up. And 659 00:47:27,480 --> 00:47:32,880 that's it. No fashion week I'm saying. I'm saying, like, yeah, 660 00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:37,360 I want my kids in school, akthing. I don't care. I'm 661 00:47:37,400 --> 00:47:40,639 not I'm not thinking of better everybody else. But I'm not. He's he 662 00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:45,039 was reference reference and when I was in schooling, but if, but if, 663 00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:50,000 but you you being fresh wasn't a representation of your parents. No, 664 00:47:50,440 --> 00:47:57,400 it wasn't. It wasn't differently contradicted different times, different times. You was 665 00:47:57,400 --> 00:48:02,320 actually a contradiction to a nice sass parents. Your parents was fucking warm, 666 00:48:02,719 --> 00:48:09,880 snuggly, fucking Alaskan husky poodles with chocolate, fucking milk, nigga warm chocolate. 667 00:48:10,079 --> 00:48:14,079 Like I'm trying to paint a fucking picture to where you just walk in 668 00:48:14,119 --> 00:48:16,800 the room and you automatically feel like you were in good hands. That's his 669 00:48:16,960 --> 00:48:24,239 parents, him leaving the house dressed the way to eat dressed. Yeah, 670 00:48:24,639 --> 00:48:31,679 but that's because they don't they don't care that. I'm saying, like, 671 00:48:31,920 --> 00:48:42,519 it's just different times. That was ninety six in me as a parent, 672 00:48:42,800 --> 00:48:46,679 no, nigga, no, my reputation not. I never thought about it 673 00:48:46,719 --> 00:48:54,239 because like John and JJ's class that I'll just be like, I look and 674 00:48:54,280 --> 00:48:57,440 I'll be like, I feel like, do they have this or do they 675 00:48:57,480 --> 00:49:00,000 have that? Just because of what they look like. I don't send That's 676 00:49:00,039 --> 00:49:05,320 why I send my child to school. We have the means to send you 677 00:49:05,400 --> 00:49:07,880 to school this way. I'm going to make sure that you look okay. 678 00:49:07,960 --> 00:49:10,559 I'm not going to just let you wear any and everything out just because then 679 00:49:10,679 --> 00:49:15,320 somebody you might not have like when I don't. One kid in his class 680 00:49:15,400 --> 00:49:19,719 their parents don't have it all. So and that's what he comes to school 681 00:49:19,719 --> 00:49:21,760 looking like. I don't want you to come to school looking like that and 682 00:49:21,840 --> 00:49:24,840 somebody making it seem like I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do as a 683 00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:30,239 parent. I feel all that I feel. You send your kid to school 684 00:49:30,280 --> 00:49:34,039 and uniform, and a uniform is still look like you ain't got nothing. 685 00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:39,280 And that's a problem. Yes, your mother, because because I used to 686 00:49:42,320 --> 00:49:46,719 people understand when I drop. I used to drop doing everybody. They were 687 00:49:46,800 --> 00:49:51,119 like, we can tell when you send your son in the school versus when 688 00:49:51,519 --> 00:49:53,480 his mom sitting in school. And it's not that she doesn't do what I 689 00:49:53,599 --> 00:50:00,599 do, but cologne on he he just looks different when I take him to 690 00:50:00,599 --> 00:50:06,800 school. He walks different. Yeah, I'm and I'm trying to be less 691 00:50:06,880 --> 00:50:13,000 like this, but I'm like, bro, at two, you still you. 692 00:50:13,280 --> 00:50:17,320 You shouldn't ever get comfortable. Oh I should ask y'all this. Everybody 693 00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:23,199 in here got sons and step keenan, how do y'all feel? How do 694 00:50:23,320 --> 00:50:29,239 y'all feel about? Do y'all for me? I always tell us year like, 695 00:50:29,360 --> 00:50:32,320 I don't really want him to ever get accustomed to having downtime because he 696 00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:37,440 won't ever have downtime in life, like just because he a kid. I 697 00:50:37,519 --> 00:50:42,079 feel like when I was a kid, I had downtime because I wasn't making 698 00:50:42,159 --> 00:50:45,000 use of my time I could have studied. You should only have downtime if 699 00:50:45,039 --> 00:50:47,239 you have straight a's. If you don't have straight a's I don't feel like 700 00:50:47,239 --> 00:50:52,599 you should have downtime because in life as a grown man, I don't want 701 00:50:52,639 --> 00:50:55,199 my son living for the weekend. I want him to be a hustler. 702 00:50:55,280 --> 00:51:00,400 I want him to understand that hard work isn't something to be frowned at. 703 00:51:00,559 --> 00:51:02,960 I feel like I feel like some black kids make it, make other black 704 00:51:04,039 --> 00:51:07,039 kids that are smart feel like they less than being black. I feel like 705 00:51:07,320 --> 00:51:09,880 I feel like some black boys that you don't I don't want. I don't 706 00:51:09,880 --> 00:51:13,519 want you to work, go hard with sports. I don't want you doing 707 00:51:13,559 --> 00:51:15,760 none of that ship. I want you to fucking be on a debate team. 708 00:51:16,000 --> 00:51:19,920 I want you to make use of the township we put you in. 709 00:51:20,239 --> 00:51:23,199 So if you went to motherfucking Pike and you wasn't in, if you your 710 00:51:23,280 --> 00:51:28,840 network ain't expansive, then that's a reflection of your parents as well, because 711 00:51:28,880 --> 00:51:31,480 they didn't understand the importance. But we different, we all we know the 712 00:51:31,559 --> 00:51:36,159 importance of networking. So your son, your kids, your daughters, my 713 00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:38,239 son, my kids, they should be all right, I'm going to school 714 00:51:38,320 --> 00:51:42,760 to be in this and this and this and this and this, but you 715 00:51:42,920 --> 00:51:45,760 just come home and just playing a game and just relaxing. Oh yeah, 716 00:51:45,840 --> 00:51:52,880 no, ain't what looked at his iPad until the weekend. I feel I 717 00:51:52,960 --> 00:51:58,280 think that that was probably me because I mean I was always outside of shit 718 00:51:58,360 --> 00:52:00,239 though we was always outside. I saw I played a game shit, and 719 00:52:00,239 --> 00:52:04,960 I always played sports. And I feel like with me just playing sports, 720 00:52:05,039 --> 00:52:07,920 me growing up thinking I'm going, I'm gonna go to the league, like 721 00:52:08,039 --> 00:52:12,039 that's what I'm doing. Like I really never had like a plan B or 722 00:52:12,159 --> 00:52:15,679 none of that. So then once I wasn't going, it's like, damn, 723 00:52:15,760 --> 00:52:17,159 wasn't he now come home, get a job. I don't know, 724 00:52:17,239 --> 00:52:20,360 and look with me, Like I said, my mom and them always did 725 00:52:20,400 --> 00:52:24,559 shit for me, So I never really had the hustling mentality, right, 726 00:52:24,800 --> 00:52:29,119 And I feel and that's what I want and I and I and I'm trying 727 00:52:29,119 --> 00:52:30,679 to find it now, like I'm trying to figure out how to save money 728 00:52:30,719 --> 00:52:35,519 and that's something I'm not good at it. And I feel like that's also 729 00:52:35,599 --> 00:52:38,440 a reflection of the parents too. And I feel like my mom and them 730 00:52:38,599 --> 00:52:45,679 wasn't even they wasn't even home enough to fucking prepare us for the life that 731 00:52:46,000 --> 00:52:51,480 they didn't know that was going to exist, Like they couldn't have prepared us 732 00:52:51,480 --> 00:52:52,840 for the Internet age. They couldn't. There was no way from them, 733 00:52:53,559 --> 00:52:57,360 none of this. Yeah, they couldn't even think about that, shcause that's 734 00:52:57,360 --> 00:53:00,880 a totally different world. Yeah, prepare my kids for the metaverse, bro. 735 00:53:02,440 --> 00:53:07,639 But but at the at the very least, I want you to always 736 00:53:07,760 --> 00:53:13,239 be thinking of ways to make your job easier. YEA, that's it, 737 00:53:13,360 --> 00:53:17,199 because I I mean, She'll I tell C I said, you're a teacher. 738 00:53:17,199 --> 00:53:20,199 I want you to teach. I want you to teach my son and 739 00:53:20,360 --> 00:53:23,159 my kids all day every day. She's like, well, that's gonna that's 740 00:53:23,159 --> 00:53:29,679 gonna she feels like it's gonna be too much. Now do it if you 741 00:53:29,920 --> 00:53:34,239 If it's it's not the only the only way that it's going to be looked 742 00:53:34,239 --> 00:53:37,119 at as if you're teaching me something is if there's ever a downtime, Like 743 00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:40,840 I ain't saying this be militant, but I'm saying, nigga, if sitting 744 00:53:40,840 --> 00:53:44,480 in the school shouldn't be the only time that we talk about shapes, colors 745 00:53:44,519 --> 00:53:45,920 and this. This You used to do it at home too. But at 746 00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:52,159 the same for her, I can understand, like I do this all I 747 00:53:52,239 --> 00:53:54,840 don't want to do it today when I come home. When you was a 748 00:53:55,320 --> 00:54:00,679 kid, no, when you went yes, yes, your opinion yes, 749 00:54:00,760 --> 00:54:04,679 and my opinion no. Because when your black ass was a fucking kid playing 750 00:54:04,760 --> 00:54:07,079 school and you thought about all the things in life that you wanted to do, 751 00:54:07,280 --> 00:54:10,119 and you wanted to have a kid and be married, then why the 752 00:54:10,199 --> 00:54:14,039 fuck would you pick something that you know that you know you can have to 753 00:54:14,119 --> 00:54:15,599 like, why would you? Why would you pick something and then not want 754 00:54:15,599 --> 00:54:21,280 to come home. But at the same time, your kids don't react to 755 00:54:21,480 --> 00:54:25,880 you the same way that they do their teachers. It's harder. It's it's 756 00:54:27,039 --> 00:54:30,039 it's harder to do same. How she can teach her how she can teach 757 00:54:30,079 --> 00:54:34,920 her students in school is not going to be the same way because she knows 758 00:54:35,000 --> 00:54:37,519 her kids. She knows her kids and what they can, what they are 759 00:54:37,599 --> 00:54:42,199 going to her do, and how they act. It's gonna be totally different. 760 00:54:42,239 --> 00:54:45,360 Because I do the same thing with JJ because I was like, I 761 00:54:45,519 --> 00:54:46,719 know you can do this because you do it at school, we're gonna do 762 00:54:46,760 --> 00:54:51,920 it at home and we're But he acts different with me because he knows. 763 00:54:52,400 --> 00:54:59,280 And that's a problem kids are. That's I know. I'm glad, that's 764 00:54:59,320 --> 00:55:01,039 the problem I'm yeah, because I'm so happy you brought that up, because 765 00:55:01,079 --> 00:55:05,840 when it's serious, not here and I gotta get this nigga up. He 766 00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:08,159 acts completely different with me then he does with her, because I ain't going 767 00:55:08,239 --> 00:55:12,239 for that ship. Yeah. And then and then he'll act because I'm not. 768 00:55:12,440 --> 00:55:14,559 I'm not going, but I'm not playing. So then he'll be like, 769 00:55:14,599 --> 00:55:15,880 I want mommy. And then in my mind, I know why you 770 00:55:16,000 --> 00:55:22,679 asking for her, but you got I'm not doing that, and I'm not 771 00:55:22,840 --> 00:55:27,199 and I don't and I don't want to be the disciplinarian, but I'm like, 772 00:55:27,320 --> 00:55:31,199 bro, the world is different for the world is just different for black 773 00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:35,119 boys. And you are not going to always be able to lean on the 774 00:55:35,199 --> 00:55:37,360 crutch of your mother. I don't want you to ever develop a crutch of 775 00:55:37,480 --> 00:55:40,000 leading your mother. I want the time you spend with your mother to be 776 00:55:40,119 --> 00:55:44,079 the time you spend with your mother. It's not clutching. That's so I 777 00:55:44,119 --> 00:55:46,119 wish I had my sling more one day. They're both of them really, 778 00:55:46,840 --> 00:55:51,000 because they're getting older now. There's a lot of shit I want to teach 779 00:55:51,039 --> 00:55:52,119 him. I don't have him, but area the weekend and area of the 780 00:55:52,159 --> 00:55:57,119 weekend I'm working yeah, Dejan, we end up doing some things or teach 781 00:55:57,159 --> 00:56:00,400 him some shit at home, like they both my daughter got a little slinner 782 00:56:00,440 --> 00:56:02,800 and my son got some creative some creative. But if I had them more, 783 00:56:04,000 --> 00:56:07,280 could mold them better. But I don't have them. What it is, 784 00:56:07,519 --> 00:56:09,639 so it's just the world is just so the list of shit I wish 785 00:56:09,639 --> 00:56:14,119 I could have no but I didn't. I'll be telling them. I'll be 786 00:56:14,159 --> 00:56:15,360 telling my sister in law. I'm like, why you ain't teaching your daughters 787 00:56:15,400 --> 00:56:19,320 how to do hair? Because they're not at the age that I said, 788 00:56:19,360 --> 00:56:25,679 bro. I also don't want a woman I don't want to do well. 789 00:56:25,880 --> 00:56:29,760 At the same time, I don't want to force them to do something because 790 00:56:29,800 --> 00:56:36,519 then you have to do your fucking hair every day. Anyway, it ain't 791 00:56:36,519 --> 00:56:40,480 really you just do. It's just doing one step, brush your hair and 792 00:56:40,599 --> 00:56:44,119 do it. I can learn something else, and they can learn something else. 793 00:56:44,159 --> 00:56:45,199 What you mean brushing their hair and doing the hair. It's this sep 794 00:56:45,239 --> 00:56:47,880 of thing. I can brush my hair and put it in a ponytail. 795 00:56:49,039 --> 00:56:52,519 That's doing it. That's doing that's doing well doing hair. I cannot sit 796 00:56:52,639 --> 00:56:59,880 you down and put a lace from on your hair. I cannot you can, 797 00:57:00,119 --> 00:57:14,280 I can everybody everybody a little if you got right, you don't have 798 00:57:14,960 --> 00:57:19,960 everybody's not at what age they can put their hair up nice? And at 799 00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:23,519 what age would you want your daughter just start start learning how to put her 800 00:57:23,559 --> 00:57:29,920 hair up by herself all, I mean at least fifth grade? How old 801 00:57:30,000 --> 00:57:37,119 is that? It's like Tina Leve, Yeah, I say because I'm gonna 802 00:57:37,119 --> 00:57:40,760 say this. I say this because I started to try to do my own 803 00:57:40,800 --> 00:57:44,519 hair and do shit to my hair and I'm cutting my hair off or my 804 00:57:44,599 --> 00:57:49,199 hair's fallen out because I don't know exactly what it is my mom did if 805 00:57:49,239 --> 00:57:52,400 she didn't go to school or no exactly how to do it. She stop 806 00:57:52,480 --> 00:57:57,119 you from fucking you're sucking yourself up, TikTok and everything. My daughter the 807 00:57:57,239 --> 00:58:04,920 retwisted her here a couple of times now. But the time if you stopping 808 00:58:05,000 --> 00:58:07,440 up from not being able to see all that, then it's just you need 809 00:58:07,559 --> 00:58:09,800 to be on there learning how to do all the motherfucker dances. No, 810 00:58:09,840 --> 00:58:16,280 you need to be on his mother fucking retwist. But that's the parent. 811 00:58:16,360 --> 00:58:22,000 But but be retwisting the hair. No, they should be retwisting the hair 812 00:58:22,519 --> 00:58:25,840 because they they they're intelligent enough. I think they are really smart, fucking 813 00:58:27,159 --> 00:58:31,000 smart as hell, and I feel like they'd be understanding everything that's going on. 814 00:58:31,079 --> 00:58:35,519 They understand I don't understand my business. Understand my business. If you 815 00:58:35,559 --> 00:58:37,719 can understand my business and what's going on and your emotions, if you can 816 00:58:37,960 --> 00:58:44,000 articulate your emotions, grab A. She's like just remembering sh like the fact 817 00:58:44,079 --> 00:58:46,119 that she remembers, like she seeing motherfuck on TV and be like, that's 818 00:58:46,199 --> 00:58:51,960 Lebron James. I'm like, what, how do you even know? I'm 819 00:58:52,000 --> 00:58:55,760 like, which one Lebron number twenty three? I'd be like, that's but 820 00:58:55,880 --> 00:59:00,800 I don't eve never like shoulder that nigga though, Like it's crazy, it's 821 00:59:00,199 --> 00:59:04,639 Michael Jordan, Michael Jackson. I'm like, you know all these motherfuckers now 822 00:59:04,719 --> 00:59:07,920 that I'm a parent, yeah, and Boogie you could probably and Kenya get 823 00:59:07,159 --> 00:59:14,760 tested this well. I have been parents. I just didn't realize how soon 824 00:59:15,039 --> 00:59:20,440 a motherfucker could become a bitch ass nigga, Like very early, extremely early, 825 00:59:20,960 --> 00:59:24,119 extreme, extremely I'm like, Syria, you're trying to make him a 826 00:59:24,159 --> 00:59:30,320 bitch ass nigga, and and I'm gonna fight you. That's different hard on 827 00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:34,760 him too, because I'd be like, I'm not out right. I'm right. 828 00:59:34,840 --> 00:59:37,480 I'm not raising the hole for no song, not about to be out 829 00:59:37,519 --> 00:59:44,039 here. I'm getting violent popping my son whooping on his sister one years old, 830 00:59:45,760 --> 00:59:49,519 and and and I whoop him every time. I pop his hand every 831 00:59:49,559 --> 00:59:52,199 time. She's like, you know he heard because he d doing too much 832 00:59:52,719 --> 00:59:55,079 and he ain't about to keep beating the sister. I ain't raising the hole, 833 00:59:55,079 --> 01:00:00,599 ass think your sister, you protect yoursel. Easy to see like how 834 01:00:00,679 --> 01:00:05,960 important it is to be home. It's my first time doing it, bro, 835 01:00:06,119 --> 01:00:07,440 and so like I'm like, Bro, I would have missed out of 836 01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:10,840 all of this ship. I'm I'm with like grow up, Like every day 837 01:00:10,880 --> 01:00:19,559 they wake up and it's something something like bro programsleep like muffins and dancing to 838 01:00:19,599 --> 01:00:22,280 day And I said, look at you dancing happy to eat with Case. 839 01:00:22,360 --> 01:00:25,519 I got to see more of Case growing up than I did of my other 840 01:00:25,599 --> 01:00:29,719 ones because I wasn't really in the house with them like that. I just 841 01:00:29,840 --> 01:00:32,199 get them. And then they've been in Georgia the last three years, so 842 01:00:32,360 --> 01:00:37,920 now it's like when I see him, it's like you are a different person, 843 01:00:38,360 --> 01:00:44,400 Like, oh my god, I'll be watching the Oh my god, 844 01:00:45,000 --> 01:00:46,639 yeah, I hate that. I would hate that. I hate that for 845 01:00:46,719 --> 01:00:50,599 you, because, man, bro I when I went to Atlanta for the 846 01:00:50,639 --> 01:00:58,239 weekend, I came back them bitches look different. I never speak on this, 847 01:00:58,400 --> 01:01:01,000 but when my daughter, my oldest daughter was born, I went like 848 01:01:01,079 --> 01:01:04,400 a month without seeing or don't know what happened, but I went to go 849 01:01:04,480 --> 01:01:07,440 see her one day and I went in the room and it was like a 850 01:01:07,599 --> 01:01:14,800 room full of kids we just wanted to pick up. I just sat there 851 01:01:14,840 --> 01:01:17,800 because she was like, she wasn't a baby. She was like two months, 852 01:01:17,920 --> 01:01:21,559 three months type shit like that much time and patting. And I went 853 01:01:21,599 --> 01:01:25,639 in there and I was just, hey, put my arms out. You 854 01:01:25,719 --> 01:01:29,159 think she was gonna come to you, but nah, but she handed to 855 01:01:29,199 --> 01:01:32,559 so she goes where that's I mean, that's honest. I ain't know that 856 01:01:34,639 --> 01:01:37,400 time changed up, fucked up. I ain't go a month without seeing my 857 01:01:37,480 --> 01:01:39,559 babies again. I think we was into it heavier some shit, and I 858 01:01:39,639 --> 01:01:43,880 was like, ain't playing the game? Yeah that that being a parent like 859 01:01:44,000 --> 01:01:50,800 I I'm that's that's where that that that noting that the comment about ignoring fears, 860 01:01:51,360 --> 01:01:54,480 that's where that came from. Because I Sierra but I used to. 861 01:01:54,679 --> 01:01:57,800 Every time I looked at Dorian, I stared at me long enough I were 862 01:01:57,840 --> 01:01:59,480 crying. She was like, why are you doing that? I was like, 863 01:01:59,599 --> 01:02:01,840 because the world, it's just not I can ignore it most of the 864 01:02:02,519 --> 01:02:06,960 but the world is a very fucked up place. And and and he's a 865 01:02:07,039 --> 01:02:10,320 handsome dude, and if he's charismatic and charming and this and that, and 866 01:02:10,800 --> 01:02:14,840 he I don't want him to have to deal with like like a lot of 867 01:02:14,920 --> 01:02:16,679 our friends are in jail, bro, like a lot of our the niggas 868 01:02:16,719 --> 01:02:23,480 we grew up with, like one wrong decision up your whole and you have 869 01:02:23,639 --> 01:02:29,159 to be And I'm not saying that. I'm not saying that I'm not going 870 01:02:29,280 --> 01:02:32,559 to prepare him to take care of himself. But it's like one day he's 871 01:02:32,599 --> 01:02:36,079 not gonna need me one day. He's not gonna say daddy can play with 872 01:02:36,199 --> 01:02:37,920 me one day. They're not gonna want to sleep in our bed one day. 873 01:02:37,960 --> 01:02:42,079 Like one day, all this is gonna be over. And I don't 874 01:02:42,159 --> 01:02:45,480 and it and it bothers me because right now it's just that's my world. 875 01:02:46,119 --> 01:02:49,679 This is all this is all new to me, This is all that's my 876 01:02:49,800 --> 01:02:52,559 world. But it's like when you just turn on on the news and you 877 01:02:52,599 --> 01:02:55,199 just see all the ship that's happening. Y, niggas ain't drinking the tap 878 01:02:55,239 --> 01:02:59,719 water like we used to drink tap water. When these kids niggas ain't niggas, 879 01:02:59,719 --> 01:03:02,239 ain't fingers, ain't drinking tap water. The air is fucked up, 880 01:03:02,320 --> 01:03:07,599 like nigga I had. I'm I'm so paranoid. Not paranoid, but I'm 881 01:03:07,639 --> 01:03:09,519 so conscious as a parent. I'm like, I'm changing my air fitters in 882 01:03:09,599 --> 01:03:14,559 mind. I'm just conscious about like niggas is getting sick or quicker. Thought 883 01:03:14,599 --> 01:03:17,400 about I thought about how her parents used to send us outside to play for 884 01:03:17,519 --> 01:03:23,079 hours. I wish I sent my kids to the street to the gas station, 885 01:03:23,239 --> 01:03:25,679 and I got anxiety, like, oh my mama, why has it 886 01:03:25,760 --> 01:03:31,280 been ten minutes? Like what? I couldn't imagine how my parents did it. 887 01:03:31,320 --> 01:03:34,840 Because then I'm like, all right, where they get I'm going outside 888 01:03:34,920 --> 01:03:37,000 to peep out. Yeah, Like, why y'all ain't walking back here calling 889 01:03:37,079 --> 01:03:42,400 their phone? What's going on is over here? They was down the street 890 01:03:42,400 --> 01:03:44,760 too long. They were riding the bikes back and forth, but they had 891 01:03:44,840 --> 01:03:47,199 stopped and was playing. So I was like, come back, I'm nervous. 892 01:03:49,039 --> 01:03:51,800 I'm nervous when I'm in the gas station and Case go to a different 893 01:03:51,840 --> 01:03:54,639 aisle. Hey, get over here. I can't see you. What are 894 01:03:54,639 --> 01:03:59,559 you doing with me? I'm calling her name. Case with me, I'm 895 01:03:59,719 --> 01:04:04,159 yelling my mama looking at me. Shit, don't sneak out. How we 896 01:04:04,239 --> 01:04:10,199 used to be outside outside house outside, have no idea where we ain't No 897 01:04:10,320 --> 01:04:14,159 phones either, no phone. I can't find those wanting no phone or that's 898 01:04:14,159 --> 01:04:15,440 what I'm saying. Case like got a phone, like you know what I'm 899 01:04:15,440 --> 01:04:18,360 saying, Like kids got fine? My daughter had she could FaceTime. I 900 01:04:18,440 --> 01:04:24,559 was riding blocks and blocks away Nigga on some adventure time type shits different neighbor, 901 01:04:24,800 --> 01:04:29,519 you feel me on a whole another mission. I would never motherfucking mom 902 01:04:29,599 --> 01:04:30,880 found out I was there. I'd probably be in trouble. Oh I know 903 01:04:31,079 --> 01:04:34,360 I was in trouble riding to speedway on a bike. What are you doing? 904 01:04:34,559 --> 01:04:39,199 What are you doing? Round the We're going to fund were going to 905 01:04:39,239 --> 01:04:44,559 play the game, remember you right with us? Went with me? But 906 01:04:44,920 --> 01:04:47,000 I had like Dan. It just sounds far now that I'm an adult, 907 01:04:47,039 --> 01:04:50,239 because I would never do that as an adult right from my hood. Never 908 01:04:50,480 --> 01:04:56,239 on a bike. Fuck no, hell no, I'm not even walking down 909 01:04:56,280 --> 01:05:00,159 the street that once I started driving all that shit without the window, bro, 910 01:05:00,840 --> 01:05:02,719 walking man, all the ship that's over here, I would have been. 911 01:05:02,840 --> 01:05:08,079 We would have been everywhere, all through the I'm not walking nowhere. 912 01:05:08,320 --> 01:05:11,000 I never know nothing about none of this shit out here. When I was 913 01:05:11,039 --> 01:05:14,840 a kid. It's been built up since then. I would have loved to 914 01:05:14,920 --> 01:05:16,280 be in some of these big ass neighborhoods and ship. Boy, when I 915 01:05:16,360 --> 01:05:20,320 was a kid, boy, I work in no obvious seeing these neighborhoods. 916 01:05:20,360 --> 01:05:24,960 Bro, they got courts and all kinds of shit in their neighborhoods, like 917 01:05:25,199 --> 01:05:27,880 housing, the dish and I'm like, bro, that motherfucker not apartment. 918 01:05:28,440 --> 01:05:32,400 I'm good as it's not even rich areas. I mean it is, but 919 01:05:32,480 --> 01:05:40,199 it's not. I mean, I just think it's too parent households. I 920 01:05:40,320 --> 01:05:44,119 just think that it's just too A lot of people will be like, if 921 01:05:44,239 --> 01:05:49,880 you if I'm right now, if you couldn't, but we don't have, 922 01:05:50,760 --> 01:05:56,440 but you probably could you could have. What are you talking about? Seemed 923 01:05:56,440 --> 01:06:00,400 like you live in the fucking projects. I said, I have those type 924 01:06:00,400 --> 01:06:03,840 of house and you you have the health about yourself too for a while. 925 01:06:05,360 --> 01:06:12,559 No house them my fuck neighborhood. The house in my fucking house. Be 926 01:06:12,639 --> 01:06:15,639 big in the neighborhoods, be nice as hell. I think I think, 927 01:06:15,719 --> 01:06:18,079 I think, I think we believe that it's I believe that. I think 928 01:06:18,159 --> 01:06:20,920 we believe it's harder to obtain than what it really is. There's a lot 929 01:06:20,960 --> 01:06:24,599 of there's a lot of programs and assistance and this and that and that. 930 01:06:24,920 --> 01:06:28,400 But if it's if you bringing in sixty or fifty and your partner bringing in 931 01:06:28,519 --> 01:06:31,039 fifty or sixty, that's good. You can do that. I think a 932 01:06:31,119 --> 01:06:34,159 lot of the people I think, if you but that just hot right now? 933 01:06:34,199 --> 01:06:41,440 Anybody though, nigga, what yeah? They got you beating on rink? 934 01:06:41,519 --> 01:06:45,639 Now, apartments bids? What is the rint bid? If if it's 935 01:06:45,719 --> 01:06:48,559 if it's for fifteen hundred, and you say I do fifteen hundred, somebody 936 01:06:48,559 --> 01:06:54,559 else can come behind you. I got seven. Yes, apartments are doing 937 01:06:54,639 --> 01:06:58,480 that now. It's crazy crazy. I'm nothing, bro, that is sick 938 01:06:58,519 --> 01:07:05,119 of I'm not playing sixteen front apartment for an apartments too much seventeen something I 939 01:07:05,239 --> 01:07:10,840 pay half that for my market man and motherfuckers want more us to pay all 940 01:07:10,880 --> 01:07:15,519 the bills. Man, if you don't work together at this time, I 941 01:07:15,280 --> 01:07:18,559 can't later myself. I can't later. But right now we need to work 942 01:07:18,599 --> 01:07:23,280 as a team because shit is high as hell. I heard with that, 943 01:07:24,039 --> 01:07:27,880 let's put it off. I'm just saying right now the times everything is fucking 944 01:07:27,960 --> 01:07:30,679 high. For like I feel like for unless you got it, got it 945 01:07:30,800 --> 01:07:33,400 like that, man, For you to be expecting motherfucker's like us to be 946 01:07:33,480 --> 01:07:40,559 paying all the like, everything is crazy. It's that never ever crossed my 947 01:07:40,639 --> 01:07:45,719 mind. Always everything what I'm not paying everything or nothing? I think because 948 01:07:45,880 --> 01:07:49,360 I think because if I had it, if I had it, I would 949 01:07:49,920 --> 01:07:54,000 if I if I had like if I had it, you gotta define had 950 01:07:54,039 --> 01:07:58,039 it like if I had it, Like there's no worries like what I mean 951 01:07:58,119 --> 01:08:00,480 by I can wait, don't get to go to work and not pay. 952 01:08:01,239 --> 01:08:03,920 If I have it and you're going to work. If I have a job 953 01:08:04,039 --> 01:08:08,159 to where you can stay home, then stay home. Then if you want 954 01:08:08,159 --> 01:08:10,760 me to pay for everything, because I'm not. I'm not about to watch 955 01:08:10,800 --> 01:08:13,599 these kids too and cook too and clean too. I'm not about to do 956 01:08:13,639 --> 01:08:15,600 all that shit. But if it's fifty to fifty, then we're splitting everything 957 01:08:15,640 --> 01:08:19,960 everything, time with the kids, everything, everything, But I feel I 958 01:08:20,079 --> 01:08:26,239 don't want the year to work because I don't. I never think that's never 959 01:08:26,359 --> 01:08:31,079 going to be mean at home, never, but no, but this is, 960 01:08:31,159 --> 01:08:34,439 this is, this is why I say that, Actually, where where's 961 01:08:34,479 --> 01:08:38,119 her money coming from? You? Yea? What she can do? I'm 962 01:08:38,159 --> 01:08:41,000 not no, a fuck no, I'm not depending. I am not going 963 01:08:41,119 --> 01:08:46,199 to depend to ask you for some money because I don't account. Just go 964 01:08:46,439 --> 01:08:48,279 take it if you if we have it, if it's in the budget to 965 01:08:48,359 --> 01:08:53,680 go, I will feel like so you will. So if it's something happening 966 01:08:53,680 --> 01:08:56,920 and y'all get a divorce, and then and I'm not working and I don't 967 01:08:57,439 --> 01:09:00,960 I'm not entitled the ship I have to start all the way? Why would 968 01:09:00,960 --> 01:09:02,680 you? What do I mean you go in a relationship thinking like that? 969 01:09:03,840 --> 01:09:06,399 I think, I think, I mean, that's a thought on the back 970 01:09:06,439 --> 01:09:12,560 of my head. I can never fully depend. I've seen how I've seen 971 01:09:12,760 --> 01:09:16,039 some things. I could never just not have my own income coming in. 972 01:09:16,399 --> 01:09:21,960 It's hard not to have like so some doubt. So that's then that's that, 973 01:09:23,119 --> 01:09:26,199 that's that's that's the ability to ignore fear. Some people can do it 974 01:09:26,279 --> 01:09:28,840 with certain things, and some people can't. That's that's that's like with the 975 01:09:28,920 --> 01:09:30,720 kids, I can't ignore it, but relationships, I can't ignore it because 976 01:09:31,359 --> 01:09:35,079 if I for me, I feel like and correct me if I'm wrong. 977 01:09:35,159 --> 01:09:39,479 But I feel like their marriage is gonna fall apart. If all we're doing, 978 01:09:39,600 --> 01:09:42,199 if all both of us are doing is working. I work from home 979 01:09:42,840 --> 01:09:47,800 because y'all never see each other, y'all ain't never spending time with vacations. 980 01:09:47,880 --> 01:09:51,199 It is angry, like like what if you get if you get to come 981 01:09:51,279 --> 01:09:55,279 home and your attitude is deterred from your job, and then my attitude the 982 01:09:55,359 --> 01:09:59,880 term from my job. And there's the dog shitted on it, the motherfucker 983 01:10:00,000 --> 01:10:02,720 and the little bitty dog down there, and Nigga Olivia was sick. I 984 01:10:02,800 --> 01:10:05,399 had to hold her up. It's two in the morning. I'm sucking piss 985 01:10:05,640 --> 01:10:09,479 and she finally go to bed and I step in the hallway and that little 986 01:10:09,520 --> 01:10:13,319 motherfucking dog almost stepped in his ship. If me and Sierra was man a 987 01:10:13,439 --> 01:10:17,800 beefit out of woke, everybody, get the fucked up, get your clear 988 01:10:17,880 --> 01:10:21,640 his motherfucker, I would have been on that type of time. But I 989 01:10:21,720 --> 01:10:27,920 had to. I just if that family shit, I'm now understanding like the 990 01:10:28,039 --> 01:10:33,640 importance of communication and what type of shit can limit our communication and if you 991 01:10:33,680 --> 01:10:38,079 don't if you don't love your job like I love my job because if you 992 01:10:38,119 --> 01:10:40,279 can make if she could make enough money to work, I wouldn't have to 993 01:10:40,359 --> 01:10:44,039 work. I wouldn't work. I would just do everything in the house. 994 01:10:44,159 --> 01:10:46,720 I don't give a fuck. I would love. I would love enough money 995 01:10:46,760 --> 01:10:49,359 to make me quita cool. I'm gonna quit, I'm gonna be my DJ, 996 01:10:49,439 --> 01:10:53,159 I'm gonna graphic design on the weekend or whatever. But I need you 997 01:10:53,199 --> 01:10:56,279 to take I would love to make enough money to the point where I don't 998 01:10:56,319 --> 01:11:00,520 feel like taking care of kids. No matter I'm working, should be on 999 01:11:00,680 --> 01:11:02,279 one person. No no, no, no, no, no, you're 1000 01:11:02,359 --> 01:11:06,760 right, but do that shit. I'm a worker anyway, so I don't 1001 01:11:08,039 --> 01:11:11,279 matter what. Going to work, coming home working got them working again, 1002 01:11:11,359 --> 01:11:13,560 I don't. I don't mind it. You're both your parents work all the 1003 01:11:13,600 --> 01:11:16,079 time, Yes, both of my My mom's had a job forever and my 1004 01:11:16,159 --> 01:11:20,319 dad goes to work every single day. Then you don't think that had an 1005 01:11:20,319 --> 01:11:24,520 effect effect on one. I don't know. I think my parents like money, 1006 01:11:24,600 --> 01:11:29,880 so they don't know. Nig I don't know, because my dad was 1007 01:11:29,880 --> 01:11:31,399 there to help me with my math homework when I needed it. My mom 1008 01:11:31,520 --> 01:11:34,920 helped me with my English. I have food every night, like it didn't. 1009 01:11:34,960 --> 01:11:39,640 We went on trips, we did stuff I don't I mean, I 1010 01:11:39,720 --> 01:11:45,520 didn't walk in the house. No. I know that they struggled. Everything 1011 01:11:45,720 --> 01:11:49,720 wasn't perfect. But I'm just saying I don't agree that a marriage is gonna 1012 01:11:49,720 --> 01:11:53,039 fall apart because two people were working. I mean, I guess, I 1013 01:11:53,159 --> 01:11:56,199 just it just depends on the hours. I feel like, if y'all both 1014 01:11:56,199 --> 01:11:58,680 work mornings, then it'd be cool, but if one worked more than one 1015 01:11:58,720 --> 01:12:00,920 work nights, it might be well. My dad didn't start working nice until 1016 01:12:00,920 --> 01:12:04,920 after we was all grown. But me and Johnny are on schedules now. 1017 01:12:05,000 --> 01:12:09,800 But there's not I'm not hurt. I'm from it. I'm nothing on. 1018 01:12:10,239 --> 01:12:15,680 We talk all the time night jobs with people in relationships because I work like 1019 01:12:15,720 --> 01:12:18,239 a motherfucking night. I get off. I get off between twelve light lights 1020 01:12:18,239 --> 01:12:20,600 to get off at five. I'm saying like, if you work in the 1021 01:12:20,640 --> 01:12:24,680 mornings, I'm out at four am. Yeah, if you work nights and 1022 01:12:24,800 --> 01:12:28,840 you get home very night together, she adn't even got nobody to sleep with 1023 01:12:29,000 --> 01:12:30,479 all the time. You know what I'm saying. A woman, A woman 1024 01:12:30,520 --> 01:12:33,960 donna wan't dad eventually to sleep with somebody. Yeah, like you never home 1025 01:12:34,079 --> 01:12:38,840 to cutter with your woman. I'm too old to be doing running. I'm 1026 01:12:38,840 --> 01:12:41,720 too old the weekend at forty. I'm not doing a third shift job at 1027 01:12:41,760 --> 01:12:44,119 forty. I mean, depending on how many days they work out of here. 1028 01:12:44,159 --> 01:12:47,039 On my situation, your body don't even function like that no more. 1029 01:12:47,079 --> 01:12:49,399 When I was twenty, I could do a third shift job. Forty I 1030 01:12:49,560 --> 01:12:53,640 can't do it. Bro. I told myself, I'm done if I got 1031 01:12:53,680 --> 01:12:59,079 to do work in the worldhouse forklift fork I'm not If I'm not riding, 1032 01:12:59,319 --> 01:13:00,880 if I'm not four live, I don't want the job. I'm not doing 1033 01:13:00,920 --> 01:13:06,000 it. I'm not sorting ship, I'm not sorting shit. I'm not unload 1034 01:13:06,079 --> 01:13:10,840 shit. I'm not loading nothing unless I'm on this motherfucking forklif. I think, 1035 01:13:11,279 --> 01:13:15,119 I just think. I think it's Sierra expressed that she had a real, 1036 01:13:15,239 --> 01:13:18,840 true passion for what she does. I think my mindset would be different. 1037 01:13:19,439 --> 01:13:23,880 But I think the fact that you know my partner coming home and she 1038 01:13:24,000 --> 01:13:28,800 ain't her eyes don't light up about her job, like my eyes light up 1039 01:13:28,800 --> 01:13:31,560 about my ship then and it might and it might just be me being an 1040 01:13:31,600 --> 01:13:36,960 extra. But do you complain about anything about your job's audio? I think 1041 01:13:38,119 --> 01:13:43,039 doing what you want, I'm doing what But that's that's also why her parents 1042 01:13:43,079 --> 01:13:48,359 couldn't tell her how to handle me, because I don't and it could be 1043 01:13:49,000 --> 01:13:54,800 I just I want to create regardless period. I ain't able to do what 1044 01:13:54,880 --> 01:13:56,920 your daddy did, and I ain't able to do what your mamma did. 1045 01:13:57,239 --> 01:14:00,079 And you how can you? How can you even give advice on the nigga 1046 01:14:00,159 --> 01:14:05,199 that his emotions. I ain't gonna say dictate what I do. But if 1047 01:14:05,239 --> 01:14:08,199 I don't, if I ain't feeling it, if I ain't fucking with it, 1048 01:14:08,239 --> 01:14:12,880 then I ain't going. So there's that. But now what But I 1049 01:14:13,239 --> 01:14:16,039 see, I see, I see what it does to my children, and 1050 01:14:16,159 --> 01:14:24,159 so if if if having both parents in the house and been and then one, 1051 01:14:24,560 --> 01:14:28,199 I'm overly aware of how everybody is feeling in the house. I feel 1052 01:14:28,239 --> 01:14:30,720 like that's my job. I want to make sure that everybody in my house 1053 01:14:30,840 --> 01:14:33,640 is all right, and everybody's smiling, and everybody all right. If your 1054 01:14:33,680 --> 01:14:38,279 household got two working people in it and y'all, and and and the and 1055 01:14:38,399 --> 01:14:42,720 the kids are happy still then cool. But I often feel like somebody gets 1056 01:14:42,800 --> 01:14:49,760 neglected when the parents are so overly consumed with their own life outside of the 1057 01:14:49,880 --> 01:14:56,760 kids, like work and fitness and health be hard because I I dinner be 1058 01:14:56,880 --> 01:15:00,560 needing somebody to remind me to take care of myself. And I don't want 1059 01:15:00,560 --> 01:15:02,239 to put that on her because she got her own ship. I feel like 1060 01:15:02,359 --> 01:15:08,680 that's what a partner due. I saw a video was talking about why men, 1061 01:15:09,279 --> 01:15:13,000 why men like fat shaming and why women hate fat shaming, and the 1062 01:15:13,079 --> 01:15:15,600 dude was like, I need my friends to tell me that I'm slipping. 1063 01:15:15,239 --> 01:15:18,960 Yeah, and I wish the motherfucker called me fat? What is going on? 1064 01:15:19,560 --> 01:15:25,920 And but shall I? I don't know. Back to the conversation we 1065 01:15:26,000 --> 01:15:29,119 had last week, I just feel like a lot of motherfuckers are too busy 1066 01:15:29,159 --> 01:15:32,960 with their own life to where they don't recognize your flaws, or they don't 1067 01:15:32,960 --> 01:15:35,920 care to tell you your flaws, or you ain't friends like whatever the case 1068 01:15:36,000 --> 01:15:40,239 may be, or your flaws or bigger than my flaws, and as long 1069 01:15:40,279 --> 01:15:43,079 as you got bigger flaws than me, I look better or you just one 1070 01:15:43,119 --> 01:15:45,039 of them people who can't accept it. When somebody tell you about you, 1071 01:15:48,399 --> 01:15:53,319 A lot of people probably won't say nothing because they were like people just can't 1072 01:15:53,359 --> 01:15:59,239 accept it or take criticism or you know, did those people be your friends? 1073 01:16:00,960 --> 01:16:02,960 No? I mean probably not, but they probably already are. And 1074 01:16:03,039 --> 01:16:06,239 y'all probably you got a hell of love for each other. So it's like, 1075 01:16:08,039 --> 01:16:10,439 bro, if I couldn't if I couldn't tell you I ain't like something 1076 01:16:10,479 --> 01:16:12,920 about your ship, or you couldn't tell me you ain't like I was DJ 1077 01:16:13,119 --> 01:16:15,479 without it being some respect here? You know what I mean? And why 1078 01:16:15,479 --> 01:16:16,640 are we even kicking it? Like? If I can't tell this nigga something 1079 01:16:16,680 --> 01:16:19,159 he did was trash, she can't tell me somebody did was trash. Or 1080 01:16:19,159 --> 01:16:21,560 if I can't tell you something you did was why are we even what are 1081 01:16:21,600 --> 01:16:25,279 we doing here? I'll be asking myself that you get mad. You're gonna 1082 01:16:25,279 --> 01:16:28,399 get mad at me for being honest with you right now. I know you 1083 01:16:28,439 --> 01:16:30,760 can do better than this. Why are you doing this? You should be 1084 01:16:30,800 --> 01:16:31,840 You sit back and say, oh, well, maybe, I think a 1085 01:16:31,920 --> 01:16:34,920 lot of the times that people for me, I'm I always want to be 1086 01:16:35,039 --> 01:16:40,439 the best, So please tell me I might not I might not I might 1087 01:16:40,479 --> 01:16:44,239 not be happy you told me that the ship that I just spent hours on 1088 01:16:45,000 --> 01:16:48,039 right now, but I definitely would like somebody to tell me. You know 1089 01:16:48,079 --> 01:16:54,479 what I'm saying, I'm sucking up and I feel like nowadays I think so. 1090 01:16:54,840 --> 01:16:57,800 Then that goes back to the conversation that we just had at the very 1091 01:16:57,880 --> 01:17:00,359 beginning of the podcast. When I have a friend, if I want to 1092 01:17:00,399 --> 01:17:03,479 go and talk to them about something or need an advice, not necessarily relationship, 1093 01:17:03,840 --> 01:17:16,039 I should be able to do that. I don't even know when it 1094 01:17:16,079 --> 01:17:19,640 stopped. But what you're saying is like what I'm saying is if you have 1095 01:17:19,760 --> 01:17:24,039 a if you have a if you have a question, and you ask somebody 1096 01:17:24,119 --> 01:17:29,239 who you've never ever seen or might understand what you're talking about, then that 1097 01:17:29,319 --> 01:17:31,319 doesn't make sense because I wouldn't. I would if I have if I if 1098 01:17:31,359 --> 01:17:35,199 it's if it's quality related, then most people send me stuff, But a 1099 01:17:35,239 --> 01:17:39,479 lot of people don't send me stuff because I'm overcritical, so they'd be like, 1100 01:17:40,760 --> 01:17:42,720 all right, I'm I want to know if this is good or not, 1101 01:17:42,800 --> 01:17:44,760 so I'm gonna sending this to Eric. But if it's a if it's 1102 01:17:44,760 --> 01:17:46,880 a photography question, if I took a picture and I'm like, I want 1103 01:17:46,920 --> 01:17:48,960 to post it. I wouldn't send it to Keenan. I'm gonna send it 1104 01:17:49,000 --> 01:17:53,119 to you. But if if I have a question about our relationship or anything, 1105 01:17:53,159 --> 01:17:57,279 I'm not asking anybody. I'm going to sit on it and then I'm 1106 01:17:57,399 --> 01:18:00,680 talking about partner about your relationship. Yeah, but if if if if if 1107 01:18:00,760 --> 01:18:05,319 I if when it comes to like I'm trying to use people friends we know, 1108 01:18:05,439 --> 01:18:10,000 like Brittany and Sharif. They're both working out right now. So if 1109 01:18:10,039 --> 01:18:11,960 I have a question about that, I'm like, Yo, how y'all do 1110 01:18:12,039 --> 01:18:15,680 it? I would ask them how y'all balanced that? I would ask them 1111 01:18:15,479 --> 01:18:18,880 first, yeah, because they're doing it. But I wouldn't just asking someone 1112 01:18:18,920 --> 01:18:21,359 who yeah, yeah, I wouldn't ask I wouldn't even talk about it with 1113 01:18:21,520 --> 01:18:26,520 them because because now you open yourself up, like I would even ask shrief 1114 01:18:26,560 --> 01:18:29,319 yo, like how did you motivate your wife to or how did she motivate 1115 01:18:29,359 --> 01:18:31,600 you bone? But I wouldn't necessarily ask the motherfucker who ain't never did it? 1116 01:18:31,640 --> 01:18:33,760 Because how are you gonna tell me you ain't never did it? And 1117 01:18:33,800 --> 01:18:38,399 then you're gonna get me something bullshit about what you hypothetically would do, and 1118 01:18:38,439 --> 01:18:41,560 I don't want to hypothetical. I want what you did. I actually did 1119 01:18:41,640 --> 01:18:45,600 this and it actually worked because I feel like too many times people because like 1120 01:18:45,760 --> 01:18:50,479 you could ask you can ask her about a picture that you took and she'd 1121 01:18:50,560 --> 01:18:54,920 like, it's fine, it's fine. Do you you ask somebody else that 1122 01:18:55,279 --> 01:19:00,159 do what you doing? They be like, well, exposure and be a 1123 01:19:00,199 --> 01:19:02,399 little dimmer, or this can be brightened. Is that what? But is 1124 01:19:02,439 --> 01:19:06,520 that what you want when you ask for advice? What like like to be 1125 01:19:06,680 --> 01:19:11,279 heavily like because some people just say, yeah, I don't know super detail 1126 01:19:11,359 --> 01:19:14,359 with the super detail with no, I don't want. I don't ask them 1127 01:19:14,439 --> 01:19:16,279 to be super detailed. When I do that, I know who to call 1128 01:19:16,319 --> 01:19:23,479 it text Like I text somebody for specific knowledge advice. But if I want 1129 01:19:23,520 --> 01:19:27,479 your opinion on how it looks overall from somebody on the outside looking in, 1130 01:19:27,880 --> 01:19:30,039 just looking at the picture, just looking at it, I think you can 1131 01:19:30,079 --> 01:19:34,319 give me your opinion on that or it's not. Or if it's not, 1132 01:19:35,560 --> 01:19:42,319 because they don't know that's why, Well they'll be like, this isn't some 1133 01:19:42,439 --> 01:19:44,800 of the best work that I've seen you do. I seen you do stuff 1134 01:19:44,880 --> 01:19:48,439 better, like this man, I don't like yes man, I don't know 1135 01:19:48,560 --> 01:19:51,239 no better they're gonna be yes man. It's cool. I don't have I 1136 01:19:51,279 --> 01:19:56,159 don't think I respect enough people's opinions for them to give me feedback on ship 1137 01:19:56,239 --> 01:19:59,640 that I would need feedback on. I feel like at the people that if 1138 01:19:59,680 --> 01:20:02,079 I were respect your opan and I have my phone for that reason because I 1139 01:20:02,159 --> 01:20:05,279 do respect you and your opinion on what you have to say. If I 1140 01:20:05,319 --> 01:20:10,279 don't, then there's no reason for me. Yeah, I respect some shit. 1141 01:20:10,319 --> 01:20:12,720 I just I'll be like I ain't only seen them there is I know 1142 01:20:12,760 --> 01:20:15,920 what he gonna say. Sometimes I send you because I'll be sending it to 1143 01:20:16,039 --> 01:20:18,199 all y'all. But a lot of the times, a lot of the times 1144 01:20:19,520 --> 01:20:24,159 when it comes to art, I just not enough motherfucker's are obsessed like me, 1145 01:20:24,439 --> 01:20:27,520 so I know what's wrong with it before I use that as an example. 1146 01:20:27,560 --> 01:20:30,159 It doesn't necessarily I'm just going off with r shit. I'm saying, 1147 01:20:30,159 --> 01:20:34,159 like on our shit, this is probably like I send my ship to people 1148 01:20:34,199 --> 01:20:36,840 who makes movies. No, I want you to. I want you to 1149 01:20:36,920 --> 01:20:40,840 critique the hell out of this motherfucker. But a lot of the times I'll 1150 01:20:40,880 --> 01:20:42,960 send some shit that I don't like to people. They'd be like, man, 1151 01:20:43,000 --> 01:20:46,319 they shit fire. I'm like, but they don't know whatever, Yeah, 1152 01:20:46,319 --> 01:20:48,720 they don't. They just don't. They don't. They don't know. 1153 01:20:48,880 --> 01:20:51,359 And a lot of times they send me shit and I'll be like, it's 1154 01:20:51,399 --> 01:20:56,159 not that good. Then they never send me shit again because I don't know. 1155 01:20:56,880 --> 01:21:00,560 But when it comes to advice about life, maybe I just don't have 1156 01:21:00,720 --> 01:21:04,439 enough people that I care about their opinion enough to ask them about There's not 1157 01:21:04,479 --> 01:21:08,720 too many people I would actually like go to to ask their opinion. I 1158 01:21:08,840 --> 01:21:11,520 have maybe one person, one or two people that I would talk to. 1159 01:21:11,960 --> 01:21:15,560 Outside of that, if it's something that drastic, I'm gonna go to my 1160 01:21:15,640 --> 01:21:20,319 mom and dad first. I mean, I'll go to if depending on what 1161 01:21:20,439 --> 01:21:25,560 it's about. Yeah, I will say I'll talk to Johnny about everything. 1162 01:21:26,119 --> 01:21:29,520 But if I'm mad at him, then I need and I don't know how 1163 01:21:29,600 --> 01:21:32,720 to relationship wise, I go to my parents like, because, like you 1164 01:21:32,800 --> 01:21:36,479 said, that's somebody i've seen go through it or do it. They don't 1165 01:21:36,560 --> 01:21:43,239 change seven years, That's what it must be nice because that's a nice niggas. 1166 01:21:43,399 --> 01:21:45,000 I would never I don't know, I couldn't. I'm not talking to 1167 01:21:45,039 --> 01:21:49,000 any of you niggas about nothing. Yeah, all your relationships suck. Oh, 1168 01:21:49,239 --> 01:21:53,720 but that's what I said when we talk about not being able to communicate. 1169 01:21:53,840 --> 01:21:57,560 I said, I can't relate because my mom and dad tell me how 1170 01:21:57,600 --> 01:21:59,800 it is if I want to hear it, or if I don't want to 1171 01:21:59,840 --> 01:22:02,880 hear, so I don't. I can't relate to not being able to communicate 1172 01:22:02,960 --> 01:22:08,800 with them because those that's who I've had to communicate with for my thirty five 1173 01:22:08,880 --> 01:22:14,479 years of living. That's what Bookie gotta go at two and this motherfucking computer 1174 01:22:14,960 --> 01:22:18,760 keeps stopping. I might have to upgrade my pro tools. But I am 1175 01:22:18,880 --> 01:22:25,399 Eric Dizzey who gave you breakes you ain't yeah really, but well be able 1176 01:22:25,439 --> 01:22:30,840 to We gonna see them face together, right, I'm gonna figure it out. 1177 01:22:30,920 --> 01:22:33,319 But uh, Eric, did you thank you for listening to another episode 1178 01:22:33,319 --> 01:22:36,479 of Egg and Flosphim here with Keenan and Shore the are you rare Richard really 1179 01:22:36,520 --> 01:22:43,640 expensive moment nigga doing it like that? You're a dynasty and DJ Boogie Bang 1180 01:22:43,720 --> 01:22:46,079 Bookie brand dot Co tapping in order some fliers or something. We'll see you 1181 01:22:46,199 --> 01:22:47,319 when we see you. But