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I'm sorry. It would never happen again. It ain't never happened before,
and it never happened again. I promise. I'm sorry. I left you
left, I left you crying sence you being gone. I've been all because
all of my tears, you know, they left me rounding. Please,
baby, I'm begging for you. To stay home tonight last start I love
again, y'all trash left. What the fuck? I see what happened when
I leave this mother again. I'm gonna say whatever I'm song. I know
I'm gonna say a fucking Kanye West song when you bitch, I can't say
that around. I don't know what it is? Oh what for reading to
her baby water? Just stay, oh bitch, come over and stays voice
for really to spike Keena's punch so I can take the omnig crib don't Instagram
and a little scary shops nigga gotta beat my fucking blue to day. What's
going on in Eric Dizzey and this is another episode of ignorant philosophy. I
might here with my brother Keenan, mister, who the fuck are you?
Cold mote? I couldn't try. I was thinking, how I'm gonna doing
that voice? Mann? Man, God damn man. Boooooo those kids bang
on a cloud? Do you do boom boom? Shit? I mean hear
my sister dynasty a die. Oh what's haness? I mean hear my brother
DJ boogie bang. I can't even do it, man, it's just boogie
bang here. My throught ain't gonna allow me to do it. Tell miss
hut this booky bank in the I didn't my lab, I didn't. I
gott. I was trying to do it. I was trying to do on
my way here here I couldn't get out of Tell your voice had swallow in
between. Wow, that gave me the remember that probation. Stop bringing up
because I always want to bring up old shit. God damn, keep the
ship to yourself. I was on the phone my sister man, and she
was telling me everybody everybody's business that like she ain't a gossiper, but she
a gossiper. She got some Sometimes I think that's just a woman thing.
You know why, because y'all tell each other everything. Y'all just beach.
Let me tell you about yourself. Nothing bro niggas until ship to take to
the grave. I think that's might know like two personal things about just verything
else he probably picked up on the way. Tell everything. But there are
some sometimes you need an opinion, somebody else's opinion or thought something. I'm
gonna have to say, I'm not talking that. You want to move it
this way? Yeah, so you can look into it. Yeah, yea
m y'all might take YA might take friends advice. They might take their friends
advice, but they ask their nigga or somebody the dude they messing with,
something like how this look? Or how do you know what I'm saying?
And then you say it's always fine, and they're like, no, it's
not, don't ask me shit. I feel like you go against it.
I don't. I feel like, if you have a real if you're in
a relationship, you shouldn't communicate with any of your friends about anything not fact
because you have a designated advice giver. If I'm mad at you, I
can't talk to nobody about it that I think. See, I think that's
I think for me. I'm just gonna speak for me. I believe that
the reason me and Sierra works so well is because we don't have She don't
have nobody that she can go to but she but I also don't go invent
about ship because it ain't none of their business. It forces me to all,
right, hey, we gotta talk about blah bla blah blah, opposed
to me using the internet and not saying to anybody in this room, dude,
I'm I believe when I go online and I see people like just paragraph
of the paragraph. I'm like, Bro, whoever you're talking about or whoever
you're talking, you should be talking to somebody. You know what I'm saying
to you, because if you get to my business now, like everybody's like,
didn't get mad when people voice their opinions, like get opinion. You
put mother fuck in your life with your toxic mind. Now you're thinking.
She shouldn't even be thinking. Ye. Advice is really weird to get anyway,
to ask for it anyway, especially when a motherfucker don't know that diaspora
of your relationship, Like, how the fun? How the fuck I'm go
to a bitch that that ain't never stuck nothing out or I ain't never had
to stick nothing out with somebody to ask for advice? You don't know,
you ain't never fall for shit relationship? Three months? My mama, What
a nigga that ain't there? Boy? I know, I know that I
know niggas that I know niggas that I know niggas that don't get bitches.
They always try to give niggas who get bitches advice you don't know about.
You don't even get. Yeah, you don't even know how to even communicate
properly to get women to like you. So you want to get one girl
like you at a time, and I feel like I feel like that's an
issue if they one girl like you at the time, And not saying that
every nigga should have a bunch of bitches liking them, but I believe that
if you're not in a relationship while I don't know a bitch like you,
oh my mama, because you're weird, like most females don't even want that,
don't nobody like like you? Say what, most females don't even want
a nigga that don't nobody like like them, don't. I don't want to
be I don't want to be about you. I don't want to be a
rounding nigga that bitches don't like like I'm the only mother fucking like you you
because I don't know who like Johnny before me and Johnny got together. I
mean, I'm just Johnny low key though he key, but about other dudes
that might be low key, it ain't even about It's just like Johnny motherfucker
living a hole like you that I hope some people knew him before. But
I say, but I'm saying, like, just seeing motherfucker on social media.
You see reaction with motherfuckers like you could tell if if he if he
a cool ass nigga and he got girls that they like them and shit like
you didn't the nigga that got fifty followers on Instagram. You go to this
page, you got two hundred thirty two followers and he following eight hun are
you doing at pay attention? See that you capping? I do? I
don't. Well, man, I've been with Johnny for six years, so
I don't really go to Johnny's Instagram page right now? Tell me howny followers?
You got? She the lions if she fucking if she wasn't dating Johnny
and she went to a nigga's page that she just met, and the nigga
got seventy five followers and he followed eight thousand motherfuckers and all the posters means
she's not sucking his tick. She's not sucking she's not doing that. You
get them, petim, you're not talking to him. You has he has
like a thousand followers. Yeah, it ain't seventy five, But I'm just
saying he don't have He probably need he probably need be on social media like
he really don't. But if he was, though, he's an alpha,
So yeah, you dated nigga. That's you dating the nigga that's in the
world star comments arguing Fuck no post because I'll definitely be commed every one though,
like I see certain people, I'll be like brood be too old.
I got kill in the first hour or so me too if it's twelve hours
later. Comment I'm all the academics every time. I'm wanna academics page a
lot. Because I don't even follow that nigga. I might see it.
Shit, why don't niggas follow? Why? Dog? He's annoying me?
Ain't you annoying? He he? He's master just crabbed. I mean,
I mean that's cool. I don't know. That's why different piece. I
got listen to everybody that nigga. I don't care for him, just like
I don't care for Williams. I don't like it. I don't I don't
like her. I don't like people like like Charleston White. I don't like
people who instigate. I don't like people who instigate and didn't act like a
bitch. Women fucking on your ass. I don't like that shit. Don't
don't talk shit and and I can't talk shit, all right, well,
don't don't act like a bitch when the mu that's some weak ass shit,
I'm gonna shoot you. That's that's that's I didn't do that. I'd rather
you do that. That's but how can you do that when you so uh
piece? He's for violence in all this, it's a character. He's a
weak ass nigga. Bro. I'm sorry, everybody, I'm not I'm nothing
niggas like him. I feel like if you allow this nigga to make you
act out of character, who's really the bitch? If you know this nigga's
like you talking about people kids and wives and calling them bitches and bro,
get the fuck out of here. Bro, if the motherfucker did that to
you, Bro, when you see him, you smacking them period, academics
smash. I'm not talking about who motherfuckers don't really see him, bro,
But like he's saying, when he seen me this, he said, this
was the time I was frightened. This hell motherfucking about get on his ass,
nigga, Meek Meals and his entourage who saw Charson White the only way
he got out because of his people. Um that that was that booked him
and ship. They knew the people whatnot. But I don't think I'm scared.
I don't think I'm backing down. I'm not backing down to me.
I don't think i've seen him. I don't think it was Meek that he
was. I don't think it was Meek that he was. I don't think
it was Meek that. Yeah, he likes, he like, I'm checking
in and they he liked. He liked them to everybody in on the ship
type shit. Mother he like, I think your motherfucker set me up.
Like he said, I jumped over the counter. Yeah, but your mouth,
bro like talking about you. I ain't talking about the seventy five niggas
you got with you. You you come, you coming here. If if
a niggas say that you coming here and then that squab it out, I'm
just saying, it ain't about how how how I go. It's just if
he wants you to get disrespect from you, like it's all fair games.
If I see you and me and my niggas, If me and my niggas,
me bubb and an't listen, we see it, motherfucker that was disrespecting
his kids or mom or whoever. I'm on his ass, which we don't
give a fun I wish I had it in me the troll at that one.
You feel, man, the hell, I don't want that type of
energy, bro. That is not good energy. Bro. I mean it
is. It could be rich all that shit, ain't I probably I'd probably
be a world to run. DJ just did that. That's that, and
that's for me. For me, the reason why, the reason why,
I like he makes niggas act out of characters so much, and I feel
like Nigga that weighs a hundred and forty five pounds, he should not be
getting anybody. You don't weigh enough to make me act this Westling feathers like
a motherfucker. Yeah, he causing so many grown men to be like he
was on Live and he's like, man, fuck that, fuck your baby,
and then Nigga on there, I'm gonna kill you. That's why he
said, I really go for the young motherfucker. He said for old motherfucker,
fall for that ship. Then Nigga, that's on you, which I
mean, I'll feel it, but just you're picking on the motherfucker's who you
know gonna react and then he's trying to send them to jail. Like no,
bro, Like he talking about he seen motherfucker's um pulling in a in
a neighborhood or somewhere, and he was picking some fuffuckers up. He's like,
I don't know what they was on. I called the police on him,
Like, get b bro, like that ship weak bro, rather as
weak or not you you get motherfucker's locked up or even got the police fucking
with motherfuckers for no reason, and then some shit can happen and then it's
all your fault because you want to be a lay mass. If a person,
if if a troll, if a troll only trolls seventy five percent of
the time, what do you what do you think of the twenty five percent,
the other twenty five percent of the ship that he'd be saying? Can
you you ignore that? Now? I say, he say, I said,
he says some real shit. Sometimes he say real shit. Most of
the time he says some real shit. So what do you think about?
What are you thinking about? Uh? Kevin Samuels, I don't think he
said anything wrong. I don't think he ever said anything never because he said
both sides. He said he got on niggas and he got on bitches,
like he'd be saying some real shit too, like nigga. I feel like
when him women just only you know how women they hear what they want to
hear. Who are you type thing? Think that's what it was? What
it was, I wasn't saying shit wrong? Were you to say this?
I feel like if Kevin Samuels was Beyonce and Beyonce was saying the same,
ship's bitch as bitch as be like, you know what you my mama,
let me get my mom. I didn't pay attention se so because you thought
he bad. You thought he was bashing women because that's what you heard you
that's what most women think. He's bashing women. I mean women. And
you ain't the prize no more. And it's just written, but you didn't.
But you didn't think you was the prize. If you got three baby
daddies and four kids, there's no way I'm the prize anymore. Although I
am the gift, but I ain't the prize no more. I'm just saying
I got I got, I got five kids. Do you ever think about
it? If you if you about his prize if you if you weren't Brittany
split up, do you ever think, damn, I'm going to nickel with
five kids the last one for sure, and I probably would be the nigga
with five kids. But I ain't thought about like she ain't going nowhere.
I would always think out that happened. She's definitely on my hit. We're
gonna split up and her apartment gonna be up from mine. Nothing. Yeah,
if I if I ever get married, bit we are dying together.
But I mean, even even before I did, used to think I'd beat
the nigga with four kids. But after the second one came, and that
was carming because I was talking shit about the nigga in Texas row house one
day came in with five kids. I had three at the time. God
said, you don't even know that. God said, so why I gotn't
listen to stuff like that, and nigga never hear me when I talk about
why do you want to hear the negative stuff? God, I've been looking
at on the financial I have a question when you, how did you know
that you wanted to marry Brittany, because y'all for how long before we was
together? For about two, two years before she had the baby. Yeah,
I went through the pandemic together. Yeah, we went through the pandemic
together, and it's just three years. And then when she got pregnant again,
it was that second one and I spent a lot of time sucking up
women. So I really want to do something right this time. That really
be what it is about you? Because how long were you a sire together
before y'all got married? Only it was only not together for like three months.
Ye forever, I know that, but I mean that always been married
seven years before, yeah, seven years. That that two months three months
apart, that's what did it. And I was like, oh, okay,
nah, I'm good. Then the pandemic and then her her being pregnant.
I think that's I think that's what expedited. I think that's what kind
of like it was. It was. It was a one two combo.
When we were went together, I started to see that I was trash,
Like, no, I'm not. I am trash, but I'm also also
a good person. And I see I started to look in the mirror and
started to see not only what I thought her flaws were, but I also
started to see the flaws on myself that she accepted. And then once she
started accepting those flaws with a baby inside of her stomach, I was like,
oh, yeah, let's do this because if you because you're the only
one that's really accepted me not And it's not like a oh I'm settling,
it's like, oh, you're the only one accepted me. I need to
start looking and I need to start focusing in on you. And the only
way I can do that is if I put a ring on my finger and
just look at this situation like I don't know, like the phone, she's
gonna get a message. So she's been my emergency contact about four years.
I couldn't imagine putting my mama down Steel. I ain't put my mama down
to my emergency contact in a long time. It's at least a decade.
I always had somebody else and I put whoever, whoever I know gonna answer
that my fucking phone. Maybe I should have changed it is, like you
said, it is, She's right the point I don't. I don't.
I don't. I don't think that when I was growing up, I never
really heard positive things about being married and never seen I've never seen positive images
of being married. Was the since you had you didn't see that and she
came from she came from it. She came from that. Was that something
that held you back from marrying her? And in the beginning that that would
have made that should have made me marry her sooner because and then I was
just saying because sometimes people with two different backgrounds on well, her her parents.
The beauty of the beauty about having a girl who has her parents is
that you've seen She's seen them at their worst. She's seen when they didn't
like each other, and she's seen and she has people to go to that
will tell her how to deal with whatever the problem came when I came along,
because they couldn't tell her how to handle a nick like me. I'm
overly opinionated, overly emotional, over everything is over the top. So they
it was like, shit, baby, I don't I don't know, I
can crack him, don't, right, you know what I'm saying. So
it was and then but also you know her having her father there that nigga
did every fucking thing. Bro, I'm like this nigga did every fucking I'm
like, hey, I ain't him and this shoes you gotta feel but I'm
not. I'm not necessarily scared to to to try to feel them. But
no, I feel like the world is just a fucking lonely place. Bro.
At the end of the day, it's a very extremely lonely place.
When you it's like it's like going it's like going to illusions and you don't
know anybody. That's That's what it feels like. No, that's what it's
like. Illusions and the door girl different. I'm turning around, Bro,
what if it ain't. If if it ain't, if its people that I
know, I don't feel comb Yeah, yeah, but that's how I feel
in this world without somebody that I can all on that I don't know just
see the best of me at all the fucking at all times. She just
always sees the best of me. It's more than it's and I feel like
it's more than my mom. But my mom saying morning, when my dad
say morning, when my family say, I had to men see. I
was talking about like we finally was I finally started to see like her childhood
trauma with her siblings. He started to show it to me and I was
like, oh, so we really are like puzzle pieces, Like I think
we need to start recognizing those puzzle pieces that come together naturally, because like
our friendships weren't like people, yeah, people don't just people don't realize.
Like it was like, all right, I need hosts for the podcast.
I was in there. Oh yeah, he was like hey, but but
but but it was at the right time because it was like why not.
And then once I stopped, once I stopped being reluctant to somebody wanting to
come on board opposed to me always picking who comes on board, it was
like, hey, let me up there, and it was like, no,
nigga, this ain't high pupposed to go. But even with y'all,
I was like, I need hosts. And then Kenan naturally popped up and
I don't even know how I popped up and then just stayed. You know
what I'm saying it just so it's like me, you Keenan, Roger and
Ebanie was on there like one of the first one really early. But you
know it's I feel like the when I started to see recently, I started
to see like how her family has made her the way that she is,
and she started seeing how my family made me the way that I am,
and she she accepted. I think that's a huge thing because I don't feel
accepted by my family all the time as much as that mother's I love you,
Yeah, I don't believe that because your actions don't show me that you're
saying yeah, you're just saying that shit, you know what I'm saying.
And even that that that kind of plays a part how Dorian is with my
family. He's an over He's an over extension of how I am, how
I feel about y'all. I MI can hide it. He ain't learned to
ye, So as soon as he come around, it's like, yeah,
kids are the most honest people world. Ain't reaching my arm out to you,
Yeah for sure? Who are you? Yeah? But some people just
don't know how to love though, and and I think I think I'm one
of them, Like I'm a good person outside of relationships. When come relationships,
um, just because I don't know, Like the parents still together,
my stepfather and my mama, Yeah, I've been together our whole life.
You can never seen him, are you or nothing? Like, really,
you ain't learned how to love. If you had that, It's like,
I guess I'll just never paid attention to it because it was like it was
like it was like they his different different. They are extremely different. They
like you know, they like they like Sitcom. His parents are like Sitcom
parents, like like they just nothing. He was working in Rolls Royce for
forty five years. She working for the hospital for thirty three. Like he
finally retires from now he off. He don't know what to do. He'd
just be able to create painting, just whatever, like whatever, that's all
they do, go to work. My mom would go to work Monday through
Friday and then go to church Saturday Sunday. Stepfather was working Monday through Sunday
every day. Brow they don't think it now, don they go out to
eat here and there? But they don't never. They don't never go out
to eat. They don't ever go places. I'd be like, go out
of town. They don't don't want to do nothing. Then we see on
the pacer games and stuff like that, but they don't. That's why I
said, like we ain't never really go out to eat as a family.
We ain't really never really not do trips, Like I ain't really know,
I ain't really I never had birthday parties and none of this ship. But
I was spoiled, but they got me everything that I ever. When your
birthday, bro, we're gonna damn I missed it. His birthday been the
center four. Yeah, but I think I think, I think NA,
but I believe. I believe that to be like, I don't think.
I don't. I think that my my brother and my brothers, my step
brothers, I believe that they'll marry white girls because white girls compliment them,
will compliment them differently than black girls, because of the way that they was,
because the way that they grew up. Yeah, my dad and his
wife they've been together for twenty for thirty years, damn there or however long.
But the way he is and the way she is, my stepmom ain't
a traditional black girl, you know what I'm saying, Like she she she
a white girl. Black. Yeah, she a white girl at heart,
you know what I'm saying. But just the ship that they like, they
not consider black, you know what I'm saying, Like they don't, they
don't like app like that. They don't really get the like the way that
they was raised. And it's no fault to my my my my dad and
my step mom, but I feel like sorry, they grew up in Texas.
So they grew up in San Antonio on the Air Force. My dad
my parents was an Air Force. My dad was an Air Force and she
retired and became a principal. So, but the dynamic of them is different,
and it's kind of it's kind of like with Kennan. I'm like,
how how can how can I recognize love when they don't seen it? Yeah,
like they just this is just normal, Like this's just normally. They've
just been together like I never like I don't really never seen it. I've
never seen it, like really nothing, Like they just love each other.
Like they don't be overly on each other love like lovey dovey, they don't.
They just they just coexist. I know they love each other, you
know what I'm saying. Because they've been together since I was too. That
is a good question, Like how did my stepfather my day? Like,
so I know how to my daddy ain't never been into it, never got
into it. My daddy always accepted them. So I always seem like how
that goes? So if that's why I said, I would never trip.
If my baby Mamas was to get somebody, as long as it's a good
person, a good man, you know what I'm saying. No, that
just probably ain't gonna happen. It probably not gonna happen. I'm very high
bar, so I don't get I don't think you're at the bar. I
just believe that was deep bar. I said. I might high bar,
but I really the highest. I'm really a low bar. But I'm a
high bar. But I feel like I feel like I feel like to find
somebody. I feel like to find somebody as understanding as you. It's gonna
be weird, it is, but I mean, I will give you that,
like you are one of the most understanding motherfucker's and and that might be
a privilege that I have that other people might not have. But I don't
think. I think that sometimes childhood trauma prevents people from really believing that people
love them, because a lot of people did. It's just different how you
grow up. Like me and b bump heads because I grew up in poverty
and she grew up kind of Yeah, so yeah, there's a lot of
shit I dealt with growing up that don't affect How does that? How does
that affect your parents? We bump heads often, like, but that's really
that's really our main issue that I'm I'm I'm always working and not trying to
spend money, and she ain't trying to work and have family time and I'm
trying to like these vacations. And that's how it because it's like not not
not say she's not trying to because she do work. She do work.
Like when you somebody who's not used to doing stuff like this, but then
you, like you somebody who's not really a family oriented person, but then
you mess with somebody who is family who are in it's like y'all gonna bump
heads. But just I think it kind of go to, uh, like
what you were saying in the notes, like my father lost my train thought
because she cut me off. When you grow one of the one of the
things when you grow up different, the one thing that where your phone.
I think I think I think one of the shoes for Sierra not is that
when she started telling that you got time shares in Florida and we went here
with on a crew, that this this this my dad did, I'm like,
damn, I know, I stopped stun Oh my mom jealous. It
goes into what you was saying, how we look so much younger than our
parents and everything now musician, now that my parents were at my age and
my parents were not a good situation at all at thirty five, Bro,
I had to My mom had me at twenty six, so privilege twenty They
was already in the same house. They in the same house working when you
was born, the same job I had to struggle through. They was twenty
when they had men. My mom was so traumatized she fucked her way into
more trauma. Funny how trauma works that way. But she was, she
was trying, she was she was so she was real, nigga. She
heard her mom say, I'm going to die before I have grandkids. Damn.
She walked in on her mom trying to kill herself. Bro, Bro
the story, I'm like, when I'm Alma started telling me these stories,
I'm like, I understand. Mom. Like, Bro, I'm like,
give me a hug, like they'd be trying to keep that shit from that.
Help it might help us understand and later on and like, yeah,
you can understand it more. Like back then, I told my mom,
I said, look, you damn they're dumb, because you should have told
me and t when when I was a freshman and she was in seventh grade.
You should have sat us down and say, hey, this is why
I want y'all to do this shit. I need y'all to wash the dishes
because I gotta go to the this motherfucking job that don't pay me that well.
And if I come home and the diches ain't clean, I'm gonna feel
like YA don't appreciate me. I think we would have understood that completely different
than just I told you how to clean this. Damn. I did a
better job of motherfucking taking a chicken out. But I don't even know like
I was even thinking like the chicken out. I wasn't thinking like that.
And I told her, I said, I think you forgot to take the
chicken out. I don't even if you forgot. Why can't I forget exactly?
Especially because I'm kids, right you you know when you woke up this
morning and went to the kitchen and got something to drink, you right there
by the freezer. But you now you're trying to put it on me.
But I feel like the communication with parents, like I don't know if it's
y'all, but I my dad and his inability to communicate makes me want to
hate him. But I know that it's not on purpose, but I'd be
like, Bro, your communication skills are horrible. Just I'm trying to talk
to you about like, at least you have a parent that can communicate.
Both my parents are trash. Both my parents sucker communication. My mom my
mom, My mom is she takes every we all suck. She takes offending,
she takes offense to everything, like her trauma won't allow her to connect.
I just don't like, I don't know. I've tried to conversations.
I don't just be depending on conversations sometain conversations I shut down. I don't
even like talk, don't even want to talk about. I took my mom's
to dinner for my thirtieth birthday to try to get like a summary of life
period. It was so short winded, like her responses was like I was
just struggling son eating her food. I'm proud of you, soning eating her
food. She told me she was disappointed in me with the third kid.
How I came around, I'm just saying that that was my third kid by
a third woman. Shit, I'll probably be disappointed in mind too, Like
you just saw the transformation from there. So ain't doing what. I'm proud
of you, But I wouldn't even know how to sit my pops. Now,
you know what's crazy. They probably just don't know how to communicate at
all. It's probably a reason why they buy themselves. If they buy themselves,
they are. Yeah, I think my dad only married because he had
nigga retired from the military. I feel like he was just a regular nigga.
I feel like I feel like I feel like it's different between for men
and women because my dad's attractive, so he can just find a bit,
you know what I'm saying. Like a bitch will take care of a nigga
if she if she really, but a nigga ain't gonna take care of no
bit like he ain't. I don't I feel like a woman. A woman
will work two jobs just to have a nigga even if he ain't. Ain't
shit nigga a nigga. I don't feel like a nigga just gonna keep a
chicken around very shot. Nah, he gotta he gotta, he gotta know
you fun with him? Who but the nigga for him for him to even
is that truth? For ever? I don't. Yeah, I'm not about
to do nothing for you. And I don't even know if you bro I'm
talking about it, ain't like a bitch that ain't working. No, And
I don't feel like a bitch that won't work. Ain't I'm talking about I
just stay at home chick. That's just now I'm talking about don't want to
get a job, like I want to get a job. She's smoking,
playing two kuck and some bake. You gotta go? Yeah, come home?
You say, she cheating on you and she bringing and she bringing home?
Like nah, bitches, women will stick through some bullshit because they don't
want to start over because they got a timeline they got they got a timeline
they gotta go to. You know, you know nigga that are cut fucking
computer keep I don't know why why I keeps Steff recording record. Yeah I
don't. I don't. I don't know what what instance? Are you talking
about it the same way? Like, well, maybe not the exact same
way, but I feel like you gotta look bad. I don't know,
but I feel like if you us I've never had pussy good enough to maybe
they even consider that. No at all. I want to cut off me,
Yeah, I want it. I want to try it and see,
Okay, I can see how you cut an, but I'm not doing that.
He was good for now. I'm not doing you. Y do you?
Too many times I'm addicted. Females are getting too with sisters and everything.
Love is I feel like not not enough. It's talked about when it
comes to love or the look of love, because it's like a drug.
It is because I I imagine I imagine a nigga being like coke and he
but cocaine, being able to call you and being like, hey, hey,
how you doing. Don't you wanted something to me? You'd be like,
don't you want to get high? Like Nigga's like really be toxic like
that. Like they'll beat They'll they'll bring a chick all they'll beat it.
They'll beat the chick down. They'll gasp like her, I never did this.
They'll they'll learn her traumas, playing to her traumas and make her feel
like she's less of a person, only for him to keep her around whenever
he wants. And then she's so and she's so wrapped up into the ship
that she don't even realize that she's being played. So she stayed like the
It's so many different aspects of this ship that I'd be like, yeah,
then you got this is weird. Then you got some it's no, it
happens all the time. Yeah, it happens for sure. But then you
got something. Who let the chick know like this it ain't nothing or whatnot
and they still won't leave when when women women won't what they want. Yeah,
like I was thinking about ship with a woman and want you know it.
Yeah, I was thinking about my mama. Even John was definitely my
boyfriend before telling motherfucker is that that's my man? I had. I had
two girlfriends in a bitch though she was my third. I said, I
never told you none of that. Whose fat is that? It ain't?
It ain't mine, cousin. Where did you get this from? You?
I mean, if we're together every single day and eating and doing all this
and friends, we can be friends you my house? Where did you get
this from? So what I fed you? So what? I'm sucking you
wrong? Nothing was wrong. Disgusted. Girls were just saying, no,
that's dead ass though it's real though, because women, it's our y'all for
assuming they'll fall for that ship didn't because it can be because it can be
vice versa sumer ties. Yeah, Na, nigga can be on that and
you like, no, But I never said I ain't. Never I never
said it was my mama. Y'all be on the same ship. But if
it ain't a nigga, you really nigga aggressive? When they come to that,
that's when they start sending you gonna we gonna start posting her. He
threatening her all on her ship now, he posted on Facebook, look at
this weird nigga. Mama, you don't put that pussy on him now,
he's weird. Now, So why are you being with the same thing?
Why you found me like that? Like what, well, I thought we
thought he was together. Don't if you don't know, you don't nobody nobody
like that. Yeah, everybody like that. Damn I know it hap with
me, Johnny in the beginning of our relationship. No, I just was,
I mean, well, yeah, but he was my boyfriend that he
wasn't my boyfriend. And he told me he was like, I never said
that we were together, And I was like, nigga, what, yeah,
you're doing some shit like my mama. That's definitely I didn't. I
mean, I was like, in my head, I said, nigga,
what I was like three months on some shit like, Man, she's just
stupid with niggas. That one nigga. We don't talk, Bro, I
was so mad at you about that. A lot people want do you ever
look at yourself like I don't like to beat him up? We probably would
have beat him. I was always I wanted to whoop him that one time.
If you just said, ya, what's crazy? What's crazy is Dynasty
has like one hundred niggas. That's like her brother and she never used you
never used to read. I would never. I was just I would never
want to put you on a situation but your livelihood or your true true feel
that. But back then, the time we talked about it was good to
go. We had to really worry about too much extra. Back then you
assisted. Now now you got to think about that ship. But back then,
fuckers could catch phase and then just feel me. My dad came over
and handled it. No, he didn't have to. He didn't have to.
He just fearing and it's still traumatizing fear in a little nigga heart.
Daddy, he hit what what here? I was just talking about. That's
what I was just talking about, Bro, I don't give a fuck.
Bro. If a motherfucker little nigga put their hands on my daughter, I
don't even know, Bro, I don't get fucking. I don't give a
bro might twite, I might stay, he might get whooped. Oh my
mom like period twelve. That's that's that's old enough for me to be depending
on how you did my daughter too. You damn whooped. I'm sending the
brother to get him first. I don't know. I got a girl.
I'm sending a little brother getting first, big brother getting first. The big
brother don't get him to them come getting That's definitely what's happening. Hey,
sending brother Hey on his ass. Dad. He's not sending anybody that I'm
gonna sending somebody that I have to pay to come see. You go get
your dad. Twelve year old, I don't get get your daddy. I
know I can go, I can go into the get don't got my nigga.
Gota my nigga got ay to go to the same Schoolift a twenty year
old to shoot you, I'll beat his ass kid. Okay, two k
two years in the row store, two years in a row. Yeah,
you don't get to two or whatever the year. I don't know what the
extra VC just like o VC. Whatever you here's y'all see. Did y'all
see? Did y'all see the teacher? The little girl that broke the teacher
leg. I don't know she broke her leg, broke her ship. That's
the one I sent to the group. They they was talking. She was
pushing up on her, the little girl in the door fighting or up in
the doorway store. I guess she broke it when she failed or whatnot.
But the teacher brokers. I'm nothing. Bro I couldn't be a teacher high
school because I'm beating a nigga. I mean, that's why I never wanted
to be a teacher. Because you just say I broke his wrist, but
he slammed me against the lockers. I'm on your ass. I didn't.
I didn't break his wrist. He slammed me against you because I remember me.
You baby, go outside of the school, Oh my mama, by
yourself. I remember when I was the second grade amuck teacher. She wasn't
my teacher. She muck pushed my head against the wall. Boom, I
stole her boots talking about my head. She's gonna send my head and hit
the wall. Boom. I don't know your sister. I don't give a
fuck what you're talking about. Plenty on me. I was bad as hell?
When did you come from? These love? I got put in the
other They trying to paddle them ships. They ain't never seen love at my
parents fucking mushy gushy brother like his parents are like his father and his father
in law is such a good father in law. This nigga is a fucking
mentor to other badass kids. But he never had a birthday party. He
was looking for. This nigga had everything. But what are you supposed to
give this nigga on his birthday? When you just buy this nigga just games
on two. I said, I ain't ever had a party, That's all
I said. I ain't never had a party like this nigga was with his
friends all the time. I said, I got everything, bro. Some
of these parents take the word bullying to a whole different because the call and
be like, well, somebody was talking about my kid. I need this
bullying to stop, ma'am. I'm sorry. That's a part of life,
like roasting. I mean, it's just I guess it depends on it depends
on picking with them motherfucker every day and they like stop, Yeah, they
actually stopping, y'all keep working with him. That's bullying. He was playing
at first. Bully. Yeah, I don't, don't, don't. Don't
talk about me period. I'm not if you if I know you now,
if I know you, like before knowing you or something like that, we
was in class or school or not noting and you don't joan back or I
see that you're not that type of person and alone like yeah you boring.
Yeah, but even that, even that, I feel like, take your
bad ass on somewhere. Bro, We're taught, we're in English class.
Are supposed to be doing fucking work. We are. You're not. I
am, You're not. My work's done, Geo, geo work wasn't done.
If you if you math and math I used to be one of the
first ones done. Now I'm about to. If you one of those kids,
then you need to be an APD and get your bad ass out of
here. If you if you finish it fast enough, if you're finish it
fast enough to roast, get your ass about it here. But if you
if you find if you find another person that you can go back and forth
with cool. I feel like I feel like a lot of the times that
roast and shit, that roast and shit, that class clown shit. It's
cool, But I hated it because I feel like, why why ya ain't
here to do? Why are y'all in here? I don't we got why
y'a ain't here doing this? Because I don't even really want to be here.
I'm just here because I have to be. When I hate I play
sports. Class be extended like you can't leave to you shut up and just
want to keep talking. And you'd be like, shut up, we can
go. We don't. I'm not I'm not shutting up the bossing me.
Oh, I would never go home. I was never that person. I
was never that. It was one time I got it so much choke because
it was a bitch and she just kept going. I said, put it
dick in your mouth and shut the fuck up there because she wouldn't shut us,
and everybody in there was telling her to be quiets. They can go
teach you. When I took it to the extreme, put the dick in
your mouth and shut the funk up so we can go. But we have
ten minutes class Cover's office, Like, damn, okay, help you.
I got to leave though I was helping you certain certain kids. What can
you tell about I'm being an extra certain like the Jonas ship. Yeah it's
cool, but there He's right in regards of sometimes just read the room,
and I think that the kids just don't know how to read the room.
And then parents don't. My nieces, fucking babies, sucking dogs and their
dog. I hate that fucking dog. But I feel like I roast them
as soon as they walk into the house, my mom as soon as they
walk into because why the fuck did you lead a house looking like that?
So that's and I'm and I'm talking about and I'm talking about your mama in
front of your mama because I feel like she shouldn't look the way she do.
And y'all look as ashy as y'all. Fucking dude. Now, I
understand this whole giving my child freedom to put on lotion or not put on
lotion and wear magic clothes. Now, man, no, you don't have
the option of looking like shit when you leave my house. That's a reflection
of me. But here but you, but you also, but you also
they nigga, they fucking uh, what's Warren I'm saying, if we're about
to step one, what's Warren Districtship? They in Warren Township, or they're
in Lawrence Township, whatever township they whatever township you win. It's full of
niggas. If you're to be going around browhere, bro, you're not about
to be going around with your hair looking like Yeah. It's however, so
I feel they are they so now you know now you hate school. They
jumped back because you are low, because your your parents allowed you to go
to school looking like this because whatever they got going on, and I don't
like that. That's the point of one of the things that come with being
a parent. We know a little bit more than That's what I'm saying.
That's that's that's here be a mess. I stopped arguing with this money.
It's now if your kid is going to school and getting joned on, it's
your fault. You allow you your fault. Yeah, yeah, you entry.
Because now they're wearing uniforms anyway, So all you gotta do it's probably
get some shoes or something. You know what I'm saying, But what's the
point of having you But even having uniforms if the shoes ain't uniform, because
now we can join some schools something some schools there are some schools they are
but some schools. Lets you wear any type shoes? Yeah, have a
blue. I hope they changed that. I don't color. I don't like
uniforms, K kind of pants. I like dressing myseln up my mom.
I like I like being at dressed. Yeah, I'm all these shoes.
Now, this is dress yourself up. I do dress myself up. And
that's it. No fashion week I'm saying. I'm saying, like, yeah,
I want my kids in school, akthing. I don't care. I'm
not I'm not thinking of better everybody else. But I'm not. He's he
was reference reference and when I was in schooling, but if, but if,
but you you being fresh wasn't a representation of your parents. No,
it wasn't. It wasn't differently contradicted different times, different times. You was
actually a contradiction to a nice sass parents. Your parents was fucking warm,
snuggly, fucking Alaskan husky poodles with chocolate, fucking milk, nigga warm chocolate.
Like I'm trying to paint a fucking picture to where you just walk in
the room and you automatically feel like you were in good hands. That's his
parents, him leaving the house dressed the way to eat dressed. Yeah,
but that's because they don't they don't care that. I'm saying, like,
it's just different times. That was ninety six in me as a parent,
no, nigga, no, my reputation not. I never thought about it
because like John and JJ's class that I'll just be like, I look and
I'll be like, I feel like, do they have this or do they
have that? Just because of what they look like. I don't send That's
why I send my child to school. We have the means to send you
to school this way. I'm going to make sure that you look okay.
I'm not going to just let you wear any and everything out just because then
somebody you might not have like when I don't. One kid in his class
their parents don't have it all. So and that's what he comes to school
looking like. I don't want you to come to school looking like that and
somebody making it seem like I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do as a
parent. I feel all that I feel. You send your kid to school
and uniform, and a uniform is still look like you ain't got nothing.
And that's a problem. Yes, your mother, because because I used to
people understand when I drop. I used to drop doing everybody. They were
like, we can tell when you send your son in the school versus when
his mom sitting in school. And it's not that she doesn't do what I
do, but cologne on he he just looks different when I take him to
school. He walks different. Yeah, I'm and I'm trying to be less
like this, but I'm like, bro, at two, you still you.
You shouldn't ever get comfortable. Oh I should ask y'all this. Everybody
in here got sons and step keenan, how do y'all feel? How do
y'all feel about? Do y'all for me? I always tell us year like,
I don't really want him to ever get accustomed to having downtime because he
won't ever have downtime in life, like just because he a kid. I
feel like when I was a kid, I had downtime because I wasn't making
use of my time I could have studied. You should only have downtime if
you have straight a's. If you don't have straight a's I don't feel like
you should have downtime because in life as a grown man, I don't want
my son living for the weekend. I want him to be a hustler.
I want him to understand that hard work isn't something to be frowned at.
I feel like I feel like some black kids make it, make other black
kids that are smart feel like they less than being black. I feel like
I feel like some black boys that you don't I don't want. I don't
want you to work, go hard with sports. I don't want you doing
none of that ship. I want you to fucking be on a debate team.
I want you to make use of the township we put you in.
So if you went to motherfucking Pike and you wasn't in, if you your
network ain't expansive, then that's a reflection of your parents as well, because
they didn't understand the importance. But we different, we all we know the
importance of networking. So your son, your kids, your daughters, my
son, my kids, they should be all right, I'm going to school
to be in this and this and this and this and this, but you
just come home and just playing a game and just relaxing. Oh yeah,
no, ain't what looked at his iPad until the weekend. I feel I
think that that was probably me because I mean I was always outside of shit
though we was always outside. I saw I played a game shit, and
I always played sports. And I feel like with me just playing sports,
me growing up thinking I'm going, I'm gonna go to the league, like
that's what I'm doing. Like I really never had like a plan B or
none of that. So then once I wasn't going, it's like, damn,
wasn't he now come home, get a job. I don't know,
and look with me, Like I said, my mom and them always did
shit for me, So I never really had the hustling mentality, right,
And I feel and that's what I want and I and I and I'm trying
to find it now, like I'm trying to figure out how to save money
and that's something I'm not good at it. And I feel like that's also
a reflection of the parents too. And I feel like my mom and them
wasn't even they wasn't even home enough to fucking prepare us for the life that
they didn't know that was going to exist, Like they couldn't have prepared us
for the Internet age. They couldn't. There was no way from them,
none of this. Yeah, they couldn't even think about that, shcause that's
a totally different world. Yeah, prepare my kids for the metaverse, bro.
But but at the at the very least, I want you to always
be thinking of ways to make your job easier. YEA, that's it,
because I I mean, She'll I tell C I said, you're a teacher.
I want you to teach. I want you to teach my son and
my kids all day every day. She's like, well, that's gonna that's
gonna she feels like it's gonna be too much. Now do it if you
If it's it's not the only the only way that it's going to be looked
at as if you're teaching me something is if there's ever a downtime, Like
I ain't saying this be militant, but I'm saying, nigga, if sitting
in the school shouldn't be the only time that we talk about shapes, colors
and this. This You used to do it at home too. But at
the same for her, I can understand, like I do this all I
don't want to do it today when I come home. When you was a
kid, no, when you went yes, yes, your opinion yes,
and my opinion no. Because when your black ass was a fucking kid playing
school and you thought about all the things in life that you wanted to do,
and you wanted to have a kid and be married, then why the
fuck would you pick something that you know that you know you can have to
like, why would you? Why would you pick something and then not want
to come home. But at the same time, your kids don't react to
you the same way that they do their teachers. It's harder. It's it's
it's harder to do same. How she can teach her how she can teach
her students in school is not going to be the same way because she knows
her kids. She knows her kids and what they can, what they are
going to her do, and how they act. It's gonna be totally different.
Because I do the same thing with JJ because I was like, I
know you can do this because you do it at school, we're gonna do
it at home and we're But he acts different with me because he knows.
And that's a problem kids are. That's I know. I'm glad, that's
the problem I'm yeah, because I'm so happy you brought that up, because
when it's serious, not here and I gotta get this nigga up. He
acts completely different with me then he does with her, because I ain't going
for that ship. Yeah. And then and then he'll act because I'm not.
I'm not going, but I'm not playing. So then he'll be like,
I want mommy. And then in my mind, I know why you
asking for her, but you got I'm not doing that, and I'm not
and I don't and I don't want to be the disciplinarian, but I'm like,
bro, the world is different for the world is just different for black
boys. And you are not going to always be able to lean on the
crutch of your mother. I don't want you to ever develop a crutch of
leading your mother. I want the time you spend with your mother to be
the time you spend with your mother. It's not clutching. That's so I
wish I had my sling more one day. They're both of them really,
because they're getting older now. There's a lot of shit I want to teach
him. I don't have him, but area the weekend and area of the
weekend I'm working yeah, Dejan, we end up doing some things or teach
him some shit at home, like they both my daughter got a little slinner
and my son got some creative some creative. But if I had them more,
could mold them better. But I don't have them. What it is,
so it's just the world is just so the list of shit I wish
I could have no but I didn't. I'll be telling them. I'll be
telling my sister in law. I'm like, why you ain't teaching your daughters
how to do hair? Because they're not at the age that I said,
bro. I also don't want a woman I don't want to do well.
At the same time, I don't want to force them to do something because
then you have to do your fucking hair every day. Anyway, it ain't
really you just do. It's just doing one step, brush your hair and
do it. I can learn something else, and they can learn something else.
What you mean brushing their hair and doing the hair. It's this sep
of thing. I can brush my hair and put it in a ponytail.
That's doing it. That's doing that's doing well doing hair. I cannot sit
you down and put a lace from on your hair. I cannot you can,
I can everybody everybody a little if you got right, you don't have
everybody's not at what age they can put their hair up nice? And at
what age would you want your daughter just start start learning how to put her
hair up by herself all, I mean at least fifth grade? How old
is that? It's like Tina Leve, Yeah, I say because I'm gonna
say this. I say this because I started to try to do my own
hair and do shit to my hair and I'm cutting my hair off or my
hair's fallen out because I don't know exactly what it is my mom did if
she didn't go to school or no exactly how to do it. She stop
you from fucking you're sucking yourself up, TikTok and everything. My daughter the
retwisted her here a couple of times now. But the time if you stopping
up from not being able to see all that, then it's just you need
to be on there learning how to do all the motherfucker dances. No,
you need to be on his mother fucking retwist. But that's the parent.
But but be retwisting the hair. No, they should be retwisting the hair
because they they they're intelligent enough. I think they are really smart, fucking
smart as hell, and I feel like they'd be understanding everything that's going on.
They understand I don't understand my business. Understand my business. If you
can understand my business and what's going on and your emotions, if you can
articulate your emotions, grab A. She's like just remembering sh like the fact
that she remembers, like she seeing motherfuck on TV and be like, that's
Lebron James. I'm like, what, how do you even know? I'm
like, which one Lebron number twenty three? I'd be like, that's but
I don't eve never like shoulder that nigga though, Like it's crazy, it's
Michael Jordan, Michael Jackson. I'm like, you know all these motherfuckers now
that I'm a parent, yeah, and Boogie you could probably and Kenya get
tested this well. I have been parents. I just didn't realize how soon
a motherfucker could become a bitch ass nigga, Like very early, extremely early,
extreme, extremely I'm like, Syria, you're trying to make him a
bitch ass nigga, and and I'm gonna fight you. That's different hard on
him too, because I'd be like, I'm not out right. I'm right.
I'm not raising the hole for no song, not about to be out
here. I'm getting violent popping my son whooping on his sister one years old,
and and and I whoop him every time. I pop his hand every
time. She's like, you know he heard because he d doing too much
and he ain't about to keep beating the sister. I ain't raising the hole,
ass think your sister, you protect yoursel. Easy to see like how
important it is to be home. It's my first time doing it, bro,
and so like I'm like, Bro, I would have missed out of
all of this ship. I'm I'm with like grow up, Like every day
they wake up and it's something something like bro programsleep like muffins and dancing to
day And I said, look at you dancing happy to eat with Case.
I got to see more of Case growing up than I did of my other
ones because I wasn't really in the house with them like that. I just
get them. And then they've been in Georgia the last three years, so
now it's like when I see him, it's like you are a different person,
Like, oh my god, I'll be watching the Oh my god,
yeah, I hate that. I would hate that. I hate that for
you, because, man, bro I when I went to Atlanta for the
weekend, I came back them bitches look different. I never speak on this,
but when my daughter, my oldest daughter was born, I went like
a month without seeing or don't know what happened, but I went to go
see her one day and I went in the room and it was like a
room full of kids we just wanted to pick up. I just sat there
because she was like, she wasn't a baby. She was like two months,
three months type shit like that much time and patting. And I went
in there and I was just, hey, put my arms out. You
think she was gonna come to you, but nah, but she handed to
so she goes where that's I mean, that's honest. I ain't know that
time changed up, fucked up. I ain't go a month without seeing my
babies again. I think we was into it heavier some shit, and I
was like, ain't playing the game? Yeah that that being a parent like
I I'm that's that's where that that that noting that the comment about ignoring fears,
that's where that came from. Because I Sierra but I used to.
Every time I looked at Dorian, I stared at me long enough I were
crying. She was like, why are you doing that? I was like,
because the world, it's just not I can ignore it most of the
but the world is a very fucked up place. And and and he's a
handsome dude, and if he's charismatic and charming and this and that, and
he I don't want him to have to deal with like like a lot of
our friends are in jail, bro, like a lot of our the niggas
we grew up with, like one wrong decision up your whole and you have
to be And I'm not saying that. I'm not saying that I'm not going
to prepare him to take care of himself. But it's like one day he's
not gonna need me one day. He's not gonna say daddy can play with
me one day. They're not gonna want to sleep in our bed one day.
Like one day, all this is gonna be over. And I don't
and it and it bothers me because right now it's just that's my world.
This is all this is all new to me, This is all that's my
world. But it's like when you just turn on on the news and you
just see all the ship that's happening. Y, niggas ain't drinking the tap
water like we used to drink tap water. When these kids niggas ain't niggas,
ain't fingers, ain't drinking tap water. The air is fucked up,
like nigga I had. I'm I'm so paranoid. Not paranoid, but I'm
so conscious as a parent. I'm like, I'm changing my air fitters in
mind. I'm just conscious about like niggas is getting sick or quicker. Thought
about I thought about how her parents used to send us outside to play for
hours. I wish I sent my kids to the street to the gas station,
and I got anxiety, like, oh my mama, why has it
been ten minutes? Like what? I couldn't imagine how my parents did it.
Because then I'm like, all right, where they get I'm going outside
to peep out. Yeah, Like, why y'all ain't walking back here calling
their phone? What's going on is over here? They was down the street
too long. They were riding the bikes back and forth, but they had
stopped and was playing. So I was like, come back, I'm nervous.
I'm nervous when I'm in the gas station and Case go to a different
aisle. Hey, get over here. I can't see you. What are
you doing with me? I'm calling her name. Case with me, I'm
yelling my mama looking at me. Shit, don't sneak out. How we
used to be outside outside house outside, have no idea where we ain't No
phones either, no phone. I can't find those wanting no phone or that's
what I'm saying. Case like got a phone, like you know what I'm
saying, Like kids got fine? My daughter had she could FaceTime. I
was riding blocks and blocks away Nigga on some adventure time type shits different neighbor,
you feel me on a whole another mission. I would never motherfucking mom
found out I was there. I'd probably be in trouble. Oh I know
I was in trouble riding to speedway on a bike. What are you doing?
What are you doing? Round the We're going to fund were going to
play the game, remember you right with us? Went with me? But
I had like Dan. It just sounds far now that I'm an adult,
because I would never do that as an adult right from my hood. Never
on a bike. Fuck no, hell no, I'm not even walking down
the street that once I started driving all that shit without the window, bro,
walking man, all the ship that's over here, I would have been.
We would have been everywhere, all through the I'm not walking nowhere.
I never know nothing about none of this shit out here. When I was
a kid. It's been built up since then. I would have loved to
be in some of these big ass neighborhoods and ship. Boy, when I
was a kid, boy, I work in no obvious seeing these neighborhoods.
Bro, they got courts and all kinds of shit in their neighborhoods, like
housing, the dish and I'm like, bro, that motherfucker not apartment.
I'm good as it's not even rich areas. I mean it is, but
it's not. I mean, I just think it's too parent households. I
just think that it's just too A lot of people will be like, if
you if I'm right now, if you couldn't, but we don't have,
but you probably could you could have. What are you talking about? Seemed
like you live in the fucking projects. I said, I have those type
of house and you you have the health about yourself too for a while.
No house them my fuck neighborhood. The house in my fucking house. Be
big in the neighborhoods, be nice as hell. I think I think,
I think, I think we believe that it's I believe that. I think
we believe it's harder to obtain than what it really is. There's a lot
of there's a lot of programs and assistance and this and that and that.
But if it's if you bringing in sixty or fifty and your partner bringing in
fifty or sixty, that's good. You can do that. I think a
lot of the people I think, if you but that just hot right now?
Anybody though, nigga, what yeah? They got you beating on rink?
Now, apartments bids? What is the rint bid? If if it's
if it's for fifteen hundred, and you say I do fifteen hundred, somebody
else can come behind you. I got seven. Yes, apartments are doing
that now. It's crazy crazy. I'm nothing, bro, that is sick
of I'm not playing sixteen front apartment for an apartments too much seventeen something I
pay half that for my market man and motherfuckers want more us to pay all
the bills. Man, if you don't work together at this time, I
can't later myself. I can't later. But right now we need to work
as a team because shit is high as hell. I heard with that,
let's put it off. I'm just saying right now the times everything is fucking
high. For like I feel like for unless you got it, got it
like that, man, For you to be expecting motherfucker's like us to be
paying all the like, everything is crazy. It's that never ever crossed my
mind. Always everything what I'm not paying everything or nothing? I think because
I think because if I had it, if I had it, I would
if I if I had like if I had it, you gotta define had
it like if I had it, Like there's no worries like what I mean
by I can wait, don't get to go to work and not pay.
If I have it and you're going to work. If I have a job
to where you can stay home, then stay home. Then if you want
me to pay for everything, because I'm not. I'm not about to watch
these kids too and cook too and clean too. I'm not about to do
all that shit. But if it's fifty to fifty, then we're splitting everything
everything, time with the kids, everything, everything, But I feel I
don't want the year to work because I don't. I never think that's never
going to be mean at home, never, but no, but this is,
this is, this is why I say that, Actually, where where's
her money coming from? You? Yea? What she can do? I'm
not no, a fuck no, I'm not depending. I am not going
to depend to ask you for some money because I don't account. Just go
take it if you if we have it, if it's in the budget to
go, I will feel like so you will. So if it's something happening
and y'all get a divorce, and then and I'm not working and I don't
I'm not entitled the ship I have to start all the way? Why would
you? What do I mean you go in a relationship thinking like that?
I think, I think, I mean, that's a thought on the back
of my head. I can never fully depend. I've seen how I've seen
some things. I could never just not have my own income coming in.
It's hard not to have like so some doubt. So that's then that's that,
that's that's that's the ability to ignore fear. Some people can do it
with certain things, and some people can't. That's that's that's like with the
kids, I can't ignore it, but relationships, I can't ignore it because
if I for me, I feel like and correct me if I'm wrong.
But I feel like their marriage is gonna fall apart. If all we're doing,
if all both of us are doing is working. I work from home
because y'all never see each other, y'all ain't never spending time with vacations.
It is angry, like like what if you get if you get to come
home and your attitude is deterred from your job, and then my attitude the
term from my job. And there's the dog shitted on it, the motherfucker
and the little bitty dog down there, and Nigga Olivia was sick. I
had to hold her up. It's two in the morning. I'm sucking piss
and she finally go to bed and I step in the hallway and that little
motherfucking dog almost stepped in his ship. If me and Sierra was man a
beefit out of woke, everybody, get the fucked up, get your clear
his motherfucker, I would have been on that type of time. But I
had to. I just if that family shit, I'm now understanding like the
importance of communication and what type of shit can limit our communication and if you
don't if you don't love your job like I love my job because if you
can make if she could make enough money to work, I wouldn't have to
work. I wouldn't work. I would just do everything in the house.
I don't give a fuck. I would love. I would love enough money
to make me quita cool. I'm gonna quit, I'm gonna be my DJ,
I'm gonna graphic design on the weekend or whatever. But I need you
to take I would love to make enough money to the point where I don't
feel like taking care of kids. No matter I'm working, should be on
one person. No no, no, no, no, no, you're
right, but do that shit. I'm a worker anyway, so I don't
matter what. Going to work, coming home working got them working again,
I don't. I don't mind it. You're both your parents work all the
time, Yes, both of my My mom's had a job forever and my
dad goes to work every single day. Then you don't think that had an
effect effect on one. I don't know. I think my parents like money,
so they don't know. Nig I don't know, because my dad was
there to help me with my math homework when I needed it. My mom
helped me with my English. I have food every night, like it didn't.
We went on trips, we did stuff I don't I mean, I
didn't walk in the house. No. I know that they struggled. Everything
wasn't perfect. But I'm just saying I don't agree that a marriage is gonna
fall apart because two people were working. I mean, I guess, I
just it just depends on the hours. I feel like, if y'all both
work mornings, then it'd be cool, but if one worked more than one
work nights, it might be well. My dad didn't start working nice until
after we was all grown. But me and Johnny are on schedules now.
But there's not I'm not hurt. I'm from it. I'm nothing on.
We talk all the time night jobs with people in relationships because I work like
a motherfucking night. I get off. I get off between twelve light lights
to get off at five. I'm saying like, if you work in the
mornings, I'm out at four am. Yeah, if you work nights and
you get home very night together, she adn't even got nobody to sleep with
all the time. You know what I'm saying. A woman, A woman
donna wan't dad eventually to sleep with somebody. Yeah, like you never home
to cutter with your woman. I'm too old to be doing running. I'm
too old the weekend at forty. I'm not doing a third shift job at
forty. I mean, depending on how many days they work out of here.
On my situation, your body don't even function like that no more.
When I was twenty, I could do a third shift job. Forty I
can't do it. Bro. I told myself, I'm done if I got
to do work in the worldhouse forklift fork I'm not If I'm not riding,
if I'm not four live, I don't want the job. I'm not doing
it. I'm not sorting ship, I'm not sorting shit. I'm not unload
shit. I'm not loading nothing unless I'm on this motherfucking forklif. I think,
I just think. I think it's Sierra expressed that she had a real,
true passion for what she does. I think my mindset would be different.
But I think the fact that you know my partner coming home and she
ain't her eyes don't light up about her job, like my eyes light up
about my ship then and it might and it might just be me being an
extra. But do you complain about anything about your job's audio? I think
doing what you want, I'm doing what But that's that's also why her parents
couldn't tell her how to handle me, because I don't and it could be
I just I want to create regardless period. I ain't able to do what
your daddy did, and I ain't able to do what your mamma did.
And you how can you? How can you even give advice on the nigga
that his emotions. I ain't gonna say dictate what I do. But if
I don't, if I ain't feeling it, if I ain't fucking with it,
then I ain't going. So there's that. But now what But I
see, I see, I see what it does to my children, and
so if if if having both parents in the house and been and then one,
I'm overly aware of how everybody is feeling in the house. I feel
like that's my job. I want to make sure that everybody in my house
is all right, and everybody's smiling, and everybody all right. If your
household got two working people in it and y'all, and and and the and
the kids are happy still then cool. But I often feel like somebody gets
neglected when the parents are so overly consumed with their own life outside of the
kids, like work and fitness and health be hard because I I dinner be
needing somebody to remind me to take care of myself. And I don't want
to put that on her because she got her own ship. I feel like
that's what a partner due. I saw a video was talking about why men,
why men like fat shaming and why women hate fat shaming, and the
dude was like, I need my friends to tell me that I'm slipping.
Yeah, and I wish the motherfucker called me fat? What is going on?
And but shall I? I don't know. Back to the conversation we
had last week, I just feel like a lot of motherfuckers are too busy
with their own life to where they don't recognize your flaws, or they don't
care to tell you your flaws, or you ain't friends like whatever the case
may be, or your flaws or bigger than my flaws, and as long
as you got bigger flaws than me, I look better or you just one
of them people who can't accept it. When somebody tell you about you,
A lot of people probably won't say nothing because they were like people just can't
accept it or take criticism or you know, did those people be your friends?
No? I mean probably not, but they probably already are. And
y'all probably you got a hell of love for each other. So it's like,
bro, if I couldn't if I couldn't tell you I ain't like something
about your ship, or you couldn't tell me you ain't like I was DJ
without it being some respect here? You know what I mean? And why
are we even kicking it? Like? If I can't tell this nigga something
he did was trash, she can't tell me somebody did was trash. Or
if I can't tell you something you did was why are we even what are
we doing here? I'll be asking myself that you get mad. You're gonna
get mad at me for being honest with you right now. I know you
can do better than this. Why are you doing this? You should be
You sit back and say, oh, well, maybe, I think a
lot of the times that people for me, I'm I always want to be
the best, So please tell me I might not I might not I might
not be happy you told me that the ship that I just spent hours on
right now, but I definitely would like somebody to tell me. You know
what I'm saying, I'm sucking up and I feel like nowadays I think so.
Then that goes back to the conversation that we just had at the very
beginning of the podcast. When I have a friend, if I want to
go and talk to them about something or need an advice, not necessarily relationship,
I should be able to do that. I don't even know when it
stopped. But what you're saying is like what I'm saying is if you have
a if you have a if you have a question, and you ask somebody
who you've never ever seen or might understand what you're talking about, then that
doesn't make sense because I wouldn't. I would if I have if I if
it's if it's quality related, then most people send me stuff, But a
lot of people don't send me stuff because I'm overcritical, so they'd be like,
all right, I'm I want to know if this is good or not,
so I'm gonna sending this to Eric. But if it's a if it's
a photography question, if I took a picture and I'm like, I want
to post it. I wouldn't send it to Keenan. I'm gonna send it
to you. But if if I have a question about our relationship or anything,
I'm not asking anybody. I'm going to sit on it and then I'm
talking about partner about your relationship. Yeah, but if if if if if
I if when it comes to like I'm trying to use people friends we know,
like Brittany and Sharif. They're both working out right now. So if
I have a question about that, I'm like, Yo, how y'all do
it? I would ask them how y'all balanced that? I would ask them
first, yeah, because they're doing it. But I wouldn't just asking someone
who yeah, yeah, I wouldn't ask I wouldn't even talk about it with
them because because now you open yourself up, like I would even ask shrief
yo, like how did you motivate your wife to or how did she motivate
you bone? But I wouldn't necessarily ask the motherfucker who ain't never did it?
Because how are you gonna tell me you ain't never did it? And
then you're gonna get me something bullshit about what you hypothetically would do, and
I don't want to hypothetical. I want what you did. I actually did
this and it actually worked because I feel like too many times people because like
you could ask you can ask her about a picture that you took and she'd
like, it's fine, it's fine. Do you you ask somebody else that
do what you doing? They be like, well, exposure and be a
little dimmer, or this can be brightened. Is that what? But is
that what you want when you ask for advice? What like like to be
heavily like because some people just say, yeah, I don't know super detail
with the super detail with no, I don't want. I don't ask them
to be super detailed. When I do that, I know who to call
it text Like I text somebody for specific knowledge advice. But if I want
your opinion on how it looks overall from somebody on the outside looking in,
just looking at the picture, just looking at it, I think you can
give me your opinion on that or it's not. Or if it's not,
because they don't know that's why, Well they'll be like, this isn't some
of the best work that I've seen you do. I seen you do stuff
better, like this man, I don't like yes man, I don't know
no better they're gonna be yes man. It's cool. I don't have I
don't think I respect enough people's opinions for them to give me feedback on ship
that I would need feedback on. I feel like at the people that if
I were respect your opan and I have my phone for that reason because I
do respect you and your opinion on what you have to say. If I
don't, then there's no reason for me. Yeah, I respect some shit.
I just I'll be like I ain't only seen them there is I know
what he gonna say. Sometimes I send you because I'll be sending it to
all y'all. But a lot of the times, a lot of the times
when it comes to art, I just not enough motherfucker's are obsessed like me,
so I know what's wrong with it before I use that as an example.
It doesn't necessarily I'm just going off with r shit. I'm saying,
like on our shit, this is probably like I send my ship to people
who makes movies. No, I want you to. I want you to
critique the hell out of this motherfucker. But a lot of the times I'll
send some shit that I don't like to people. They'd be like, man,
they shit fire. I'm like, but they don't know whatever, Yeah,
they don't. They just don't. They don't. They don't know.
And a lot of times they send me shit and I'll be like, it's
not that good. Then they never send me shit again because I don't know.
But when it comes to advice about life, maybe I just don't have
enough people that I care about their opinion enough to ask them about There's not
too many people I would actually like go to to ask their opinion. I
have maybe one person, one or two people that I would talk to.
Outside of that, if it's something that drastic, I'm gonna go to my
mom and dad first. I mean, I'll go to if depending on what
it's about. Yeah, I will say I'll talk to Johnny about everything.
But if I'm mad at him, then I need and I don't know how
to relationship wise, I go to my parents like, because, like you
said, that's somebody i've seen go through it or do it. They don't
change seven years, That's what it must be nice because that's a nice niggas.
I would never I don't know, I couldn't. I'm not talking to
any of you niggas about nothing. Yeah, all your relationships suck. Oh,
but that's what I said when we talk about not being able to communicate.
I said, I can't relate because my mom and dad tell me how
it is if I want to hear it, or if I don't want to
hear, so I don't. I can't relate to not being able to communicate
with them because those that's who I've had to communicate with for my thirty five
years of living. That's what Bookie gotta go at two and this motherfucking computer
keeps stopping. I might have to upgrade my pro tools. But I am
Eric Dizzey who gave you breakes you ain't yeah really, but well be able
to We gonna see them face together, right, I'm gonna figure it out.
But uh, Eric, did you thank you for listening to another episode
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