WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.760 --> 00:00:14.480 Molly, you come out and play you smile day And this is Molly May 2 00:00:14.720 --> 00:00:24.960 a bad papod another nice stuff with me, Molly make me yeah hat Molly 3 00:00:25.079 --> 00:00:34.079 May. And today it feels really fucking good to be excited. Um. 4 00:00:34.119 --> 00:00:39.600 I haven't been excited, like genuinely excited about shit and what seems like, 5 00:00:39.880 --> 00:00:46.280 um way too long. But I'm super excited to have our first little Pandy 6 00:00:46.880 --> 00:00:53.799 Quarantine interview time via the Internet. Thank you Internet. My dear friend Molly 7 00:00:53.840 --> 00:00:57.679 and Nicholson is with us today. UM, and I would like you to 8 00:00:57.759 --> 00:01:06.959 follow along in your instant gram hymnal at Amalia Nicholson. We are talking fashion, 9 00:01:07.079 --> 00:01:15.239 wardrobe, mental health, fucking plus size joy and taking it to the 10 00:01:15.280 --> 00:01:22.280 internet. Um. She's a producer, she's a model, she's a creator, 11 00:01:22.719 --> 00:01:26.799 she's a wine enthusiast. She's a book reviewer with a tiny mic. 12 00:01:27.599 --> 00:01:37.280 She is the brain behind the hashtag you love during our pandemic of hashtag oot 13 00:01:37.760 --> 00:01:48.879 distancing live from Los Angeles, Amalia Nicholson, Hi, I guess this isn't 14 00:01:48.959 --> 00:01:53.040 live, is it? I mean, it's it's live to us because we're 15 00:01:53.079 --> 00:02:01.480 alive and we're in this moment. You are Hill show. Oh my go 16 00:02:01.680 --> 00:02:07.240 God, it's so lovely to hear your voice. I have missed you a 17 00:02:07.280 --> 00:02:12.879 lot, I know with that voice. Yeah, And I get to hear 18 00:02:12.919 --> 00:02:16.759 your voice because I listen to your podcast, which selfishly is the main reason 19 00:02:16.800 --> 00:02:22.360 I need it to continue forever so that I can just hear you. Thank 20 00:02:22.400 --> 00:02:28.319 you, thank you, and thank you for being on. Before we jump 21 00:02:28.360 --> 00:02:31.159 in today with the you know the what I can't take off this week and 22 00:02:31.400 --> 00:02:36.599 what our song of the week is, I wanted to acknowledge Amalia is a 23 00:02:36.639 --> 00:02:42.560 dear friend of mine and we have witnessed great trauma in our city of Minneapolis 24 00:02:43.080 --> 00:02:47.000 since the murder of George Floyd, and I want to take a moment and 25 00:02:49.000 --> 00:02:54.840 Amalia, honor your work on the front lines of the Internet in sharing your 26 00:02:55.360 --> 00:03:01.800 information and resources, and also acknowledge the state of the of the world that 27 00:03:01.840 --> 00:03:07.400 we are in. Um. I know that you are from South Minneapolis and 28 00:03:07.520 --> 00:03:14.159 have lived here your whole life, but recently made a move to la this 29 00:03:14.240 --> 00:03:20.599 past year for work. And before we dive headfirst into our closet, I 30 00:03:20.639 --> 00:03:28.280 wanted to check in on your heart and and see how you are. Yeah, 31 00:03:28.439 --> 00:03:31.680 oh the heart, baby. You know, if we had had this 32 00:03:31.800 --> 00:03:37.039 conversation, which I don't think we would have because how could we. If 33 00:03:37.039 --> 00:03:39.479 we had had this conversation two three weeks ago, I think we would have 34 00:03:39.520 --> 00:03:46.080 had a very different conversation. I grew up in Whittier, which is the 35 00:03:46.120 --> 00:03:51.520 neighborhood you saw get looted then whatever, you know, like whatever that can 36 00:03:51.680 --> 00:03:55.919 means. Really, if you see a kmart get with windows busted in, 37 00:03:57.000 --> 00:04:00.199 when you've been harassed by police outside of that kmart before in your life, 38 00:04:00.240 --> 00:04:04.280 you don't see you don't feel personally too bad about it. If I'm being 39 00:04:04.400 --> 00:04:09.719 very honest about my experience. Yeah, but uh, you know, it 40 00:04:09.800 --> 00:04:16.439 was a really bizarre, extremely weird, surreal time. I joked that, 41 00:04:16.560 --> 00:04:20.600 like, you don't really expect the first year you've ever moved away from home 42 00:04:20.639 --> 00:04:26.519 to be the year a global pandemic and like a race war starts and it's 43 00:04:26.519 --> 00:04:30.399 not really a race war, but you know it's it's it's like not what 44 00:04:30.480 --> 00:04:36.720 you expect at all, And so it was devastating, and I think I'm 45 00:04:36.720 --> 00:04:41.000 not I guess I didn't realize I was this kind of person, but I'm 46 00:04:41.319 --> 00:04:45.279 I guess it makes sense. I'm the kind of person who can't just sit 47 00:04:45.360 --> 00:04:49.560 back I had to do whatever I could with whatever I had, and being 48 00:04:49.639 --> 00:04:58.800 in Los Angeles meant that I was glued to my phone and doing whatever I 49 00:04:58.839 --> 00:05:03.600 could to share whatever I had. I you know, that includes like I'm 50 00:05:03.879 --> 00:05:08.600 fortunately, you know, I'm I still have a job, and so that 51 00:05:08.759 --> 00:05:14.160 means donating money and asking you know, those to donate money, and sharing 52 00:05:14.720 --> 00:05:23.160 resources in other ways and hopefully making a difference, even the tiniest bite. 53 00:05:23.600 --> 00:05:26.839 I don't know. Hopefully I did, but if not, that's okay too. 54 00:05:27.120 --> 00:05:30.480 I'm just really happy to see that everyone sort of sort of on the 55 00:05:30.480 --> 00:05:36.839 other side of a really scary time and now I just want to make sure 56 00:05:36.879 --> 00:05:44.439 that everyone is strong enough to keep the work going because we're seeing we're seeing 57 00:05:44.480 --> 00:05:49.279 people dip out and that's not going to work. But yeah, yeah, 58 00:05:49.680 --> 00:05:54.839 I want to thank you for sharing that, um and I know that it 59 00:05:54.920 --> 00:06:02.439 is. It's so hard to be away from home in times of great trauma, 60 00:06:02.720 --> 00:06:10.600 and what you have done in taking your resources and also sharing your experiences 61 00:06:10.639 --> 00:06:16.800 as a black woman on Instagram has been eye opening. You know, when 62 00:06:16.800 --> 00:06:25.000 you're sharing your interactions, I was like, I I didn't know, and 63 00:06:25.120 --> 00:06:29.600 you know, it's a moment of well, I should have known because this 64 00:06:29.680 --> 00:06:33.279 is our fucking world. But I also want to point people to your page 65 00:06:33.360 --> 00:06:41.639 because you have so many amazing resources up about you know, black beauty brands 66 00:06:42.040 --> 00:06:46.639 and books that you should read. And I've learned so much from you and 67 00:06:46.279 --> 00:06:53.800 even you being across the country, you've been my my, my go to 68 00:06:54.079 --> 00:07:00.759 of even you know, there's a food shelf and it's in my community, 69 00:07:00.839 --> 00:07:08.000 but Molly has got it share um and the Internet in this way has been 70 00:07:08.040 --> 00:07:14.160 an amazing connector in this time. So I just I wanted to thank you, 71 00:07:14.560 --> 00:07:19.120 UM, and I honor you, and I love you. I love 72 00:07:19.160 --> 00:07:24.839 you, and I think you know, I'm glad you're I'm glad it's helped 73 00:07:24.879 --> 00:07:28.319 you, and I'm glad it's helped other people. And I hope that anyone 74 00:07:28.360 --> 00:07:32.519 who's listening which choose us to check me out on the internet, you know. 75 00:07:32.839 --> 00:07:35.279 You know, I think one thing that I've been thinking a lot about 76 00:07:36.199 --> 00:07:40.959 is I've gotten you know, a lot of you followers over the past three 77 00:07:41.000 --> 00:07:45.000 weeks. And they were they were people who would have never followed me when 78 00:07:45.040 --> 00:07:48.560 I was talking about being plus size or what I was wearing or whatever. 79 00:07:48.839 --> 00:07:55.800 And that's that's fine. I think It's an interesting thing to have people come 80 00:07:55.839 --> 00:07:59.639 to me now that they're being told they need to diverse the side of feed 81 00:07:59.720 --> 00:08:03.959 and amplify melanated voices and all of that. And I'm so happy to have 82 00:08:05.959 --> 00:08:09.079 new people who are interested in what I have to say. But it's it's 83 00:08:09.120 --> 00:08:13.000 also weird, right because it's like, all I'm doing is sharing what I 84 00:08:13.040 --> 00:08:16.439 already have and what I've already been doing. The books I read are the 85 00:08:16.439 --> 00:08:20.519 books they've already been. The books that I'm sharing on Instagram are just books 86 00:08:20.560 --> 00:08:26.560 I've already owned. It's not because I'm trying to better anyone else. You 87 00:08:26.600 --> 00:08:31.440 know. The films I'm going to recommend, or the stories about my life 88 00:08:31.679 --> 00:08:35.960 and my experience of police with police brutality, our stories I've already had. 89 00:08:37.240 --> 00:08:41.360 It's just I'm open to sharing them as people are open to listening to them. 90 00:08:41.679 --> 00:08:48.679 But I think it's as people, especially white people, choose to follow 91 00:08:48.759 --> 00:08:54.159 new accounts and diversify what they see, which I think is phenomenal and so 92 00:08:54.240 --> 00:08:58.799 important. I think we also have to remember that, like the creators behind 93 00:08:58.840 --> 00:09:03.759 those Instagram accounts are just people, and so my experience as a black woman 94 00:09:03.080 --> 00:09:09.279 is one thousand percent different. From the experience of any other black woman and 95 00:09:09.440 --> 00:09:13.120 same with that. You know, so follow a lot of black people, 96 00:09:13.120 --> 00:09:18.360 you know, follow a lot of every kind of person because we're all different 97 00:09:18.360 --> 00:09:20.559 and we all have different perspectives, and like, I'm just sharing what feels 98 00:09:20.559 --> 00:09:24.639 authentic to me. Yeah, thank you so much for doing that, And 99 00:09:24.960 --> 00:09:33.720 I hope it is my greatest hope that these followers stick around for the plus 100 00:09:33.720 --> 00:09:37.720 sized fashion. I don't know if you can hear, but Rosie the dog 101 00:09:37.799 --> 00:09:43.519 is at the door and she is very like, yes, follow Amalia. 102 00:09:43.720 --> 00:09:50.559 She is whining scratching on the door. But they better fucking stick around because 103 00:09:50.720 --> 00:09:56.200 your closet is one of my all time favorites. And that leads me to 104 00:09:58.720 --> 00:10:01.759 what I can't take off this week? Do you want to go first? 105 00:10:01.759 --> 00:10:05.519 You want me to go first? I the wind just opened my closet door. 106 00:10:05.879 --> 00:10:11.279 Oh my god, Oh no, it's it's my boyfriend. I need 107 00:10:11.360 --> 00:10:18.120 to go away. That was scary, scary. I'm in my closet, 108 00:10:18.159 --> 00:10:26.120 speaking of my closet because it's quiet, and I thought the wind opened the 109 00:10:26.159 --> 00:10:31.759 door, and I got scared, and then it just was a man. 110 00:10:33.240 --> 00:10:37.559 It's a man I lived with, but he was not invited the boyfriend, 111 00:10:39.120 --> 00:10:43.559 the dog. Why can't they just leave me alone? Can't away from me 112 00:10:45.039 --> 00:10:52.519 circumstances. Uh, it feels so good to giggle with you. Yeah, 113 00:10:54.600 --> 00:10:58.639 I can. I can share what I can't take off. Yeah. Um. 114 00:10:58.080 --> 00:11:05.159 So at the beginning of Quarkar Quarkar, I everyone was like, oh 115 00:11:05.159 --> 00:11:07.480 my god, you need sweatpants, and I was like, yeah, for 116 00:11:07.600 --> 00:11:11.080 sure, And I bought some sweatpants. But I live in LA and like 117 00:11:11.200 --> 00:11:18.159 it gets hot here very quickly. And I decided that nightgowns are gonna be 118 00:11:18.240 --> 00:11:24.200 my sing now. And I started looking on what's they called the Vermont County 119 00:11:24.519 --> 00:11:30.120 Country Store, Yeah, the Vermont Country Store, and they sell like eighty 120 00:11:30.159 --> 00:11:35.519 dollars nightgowns, and I was like, no, I can't. But fun 121 00:11:35.639 --> 00:11:41.080 fact H and M sells things that are supposed to be used as regular dresses. 122 00:11:41.480 --> 00:11:45.840 But I would never wear them outside of my home. They are wonderful 123 00:11:45.960 --> 00:11:54.360 nightgowns. Yeah. So now I just look like a little ghost lady who's 124 00:11:54.360 --> 00:12:00.200 haunting the halls of my own home in these like very oversized Chloe grounds own. 125 00:12:00.879 --> 00:12:05.039 Is it like a sorry, yeah one? You know, they're they're 126 00:12:05.159 --> 00:12:11.919 so like spaghetti strapped hense dressed very flowy. Um. One of them is 127 00:12:11.080 --> 00:12:16.399 like an off the shoulder number with spilowy sleeves and floral prints. And my 128 00:12:16.440 --> 00:12:20.840 boyfriend thinks they look like a curtain, but I think I look like, 129 00:12:20.120 --> 00:12:26.080 um, a widow who is trying to haunt her home. I love them. 130 00:12:26.200 --> 00:12:31.080 They are the best thing about them is they're like from the straight sizeline. 131 00:12:31.120 --> 00:12:35.080 They're like all like an extra large or an extra large, and they're 132 00:12:35.519 --> 00:12:39.879 gigantic and I love it. It's fabulous. And I'm not like, I'm 133 00:12:39.879 --> 00:12:43.000 not an in between me like, I'm very much a plus sized person. 134 00:12:43.080 --> 00:12:48.000 I like I wear like a twenty two to twenty four, Like these are 135 00:12:48.240 --> 00:12:52.320 highly recommended. Keep her eye at H and M Yeah, H and M. 136 00:12:52.679 --> 00:13:00.360 It's it's wonderful. What that's like. Think I'm that a listen. 137 00:13:00.600 --> 00:13:03.720 I will say this right now. I have said. This is I very 138 00:13:03.799 --> 00:13:07.440 first see in any sort of fashion blogging back in like two thousand and ten. 139 00:13:07.879 --> 00:13:11.840 If you don't go into straight sized stores and try stuff on, you're 140 00:13:11.879 --> 00:13:16.960 doing yourself a disservice because it's just it's a free for all. Nothing makes 141 00:13:16.960 --> 00:13:20.440 any sense. I have. I'm looking at like a reformation tank up By 142 00:13:20.480 --> 00:13:24.480 the way, we're not talking about reformation anymore. But like whatever, I 143 00:13:24.559 --> 00:13:26.200 have this tankop from them. It's a side large or I'm like, okay, 144 00:13:26.200 --> 00:13:31.240 it works for me, Like you have to try les. Yeah, 145 00:13:31.279 --> 00:13:35.799 I haven't gone in a store and tried anything on for a long fucking time 146 00:13:37.200 --> 00:13:41.279 for the obvious reasons of you know, they're usually not plus friendly. The 147 00:13:41.360 --> 00:13:45.759 last time I feel like, the last time I actually tried on something in 148 00:13:45.919 --> 00:13:54.559 store was with you. You introduced me to Big Bud Press. I'm so 149 00:13:54.600 --> 00:14:01.120 obsessed, Thank you so much. It's also another example of trying shit on 150 00:14:01.240 --> 00:14:07.559 in the store because sizing is so fucked up, So like I am a 151 00:14:07.679 --> 00:14:15.759 five X in their pants and I'm usually like twenty and if I go to 152 00:14:15.799 --> 00:14:20.679 another store that will translate to a three X. Yeah, I can't even 153 00:14:20.720 --> 00:14:26.799 wear their clothes, but you have you have all that really cute tight I 154 00:14:26.879 --> 00:14:30.960 shit, Oh yeah, the strikey T shirts do hit. But yeah, 155 00:14:30.639 --> 00:14:35.639 the like structured pants are like a hard path. But yeah, you know, 156 00:14:35.440 --> 00:14:39.840 everything is made differently. It is what it is. Yeah, and 157 00:14:39.960 --> 00:14:43.480 some there's some stuff of theirs that I've gotten, So the what I can't 158 00:14:43.519 --> 00:14:48.159 take off this week is basically my summer wardrobe. They're like a Shartrouse pant 159 00:14:48.879 --> 00:14:54.240 and they look like a they're like a canvas, I guess, and then 160 00:14:54.279 --> 00:15:03.480 there's like a an elastic to the back U which sounds really fucking horrendous um 161 00:15:03.039 --> 00:15:07.039 and really ugly, but they're great, um, And they're just like oversized, 162 00:15:07.440 --> 00:15:11.799 and it's it's hard to find an oversized fit in plus size, which 163 00:15:11.840 --> 00:15:18.279 is why I'm so shocked about this H and M straight size nightgown situation, 164 00:15:18.960 --> 00:15:24.840 which I'm gonna do immediately after we're yeah, um. But sometimes in Big 165 00:15:24.919 --> 00:15:33.519 Bud there's like a different canvas material that has more structure, and it's again 166 00:15:33.639 --> 00:15:39.480 this goes back to like knowing your measurements and reading the fucking size charts on 167 00:15:39.480 --> 00:15:46.000 on shit. But I've since shopped online with Big Bud and what I they're 168 00:15:46.559 --> 00:15:52.679 size inclusive in terms that they carry everything from straight size up to like I 169 00:15:52.759 --> 00:16:03.000 think five x X but yeah, five X to them. Um. But 170 00:16:03.080 --> 00:16:07.480 I like how they have different models for different sizes, so I can shop 171 00:16:07.519 --> 00:16:15.279 their entire online experience through five X only looking at five X models or looking 172 00:16:15.320 --> 00:16:19.639 at size four. You know. Yeah, I think that's like a very 173 00:16:19.720 --> 00:16:25.919 cool new trend with I haven't seen it with a lot of brands. I 174 00:16:25.960 --> 00:16:29.159 feel like Good American does it, and a couple of others that are like 175 00:16:29.679 --> 00:16:33.600 and even they like they'll show you it like close on a size two and 176 00:16:33.679 --> 00:16:37.000 a size fourteen, which is like not enough, but it's I want smart 177 00:16:37.320 --> 00:16:44.600 moved, I want like a big bellied model. Huh yeah, I love 178 00:16:44.600 --> 00:16:48.919 so excited, you know, I fucking love them. Um And I got 179 00:16:48.960 --> 00:16:55.399 another pair and like a like a rusty pumpkin um that I just feel like, 180 00:16:56.159 --> 00:17:00.080 you know, they're one of those pants that I can cuff up and 181 00:17:00.840 --> 00:17:06.759 where with a T shirt or I can like put on a mule and wear 182 00:17:06.799 --> 00:17:11.640 it with a blazer. So it's a nice cross functional piece, these pants 183 00:17:11.279 --> 00:17:15.200 with good I love, we need. I feel like all pieces need to 184 00:17:15.240 --> 00:17:22.240 be cross functional. Yeah, maybe not all A lot um. I'm dying 185 00:17:22.319 --> 00:17:26.720 to know what your song of the week is. I feel like you will 186 00:17:27.480 --> 00:17:32.920 know what mine is. I actually don't think i'll know what yours is, 187 00:17:33.000 --> 00:17:36.160 and I have to I have to remember what it's called. Hold on. 188 00:17:36.359 --> 00:17:41.559 Oh no, okay, So here's the deal, guys. I am a 189 00:17:41.680 --> 00:17:45.480 very complex woman and I'm not gonna find any more. Maybe well, I'm 190 00:17:45.480 --> 00:17:51.279 a very complicated woman. I have a lot of diverse taste. I you 191 00:17:51.319 --> 00:17:55.720 know, can listen to any like I've listened to every genre of music in 192 00:17:55.759 --> 00:17:59.559 my entire life, and like blah blah blah whatever. Very educated. But 193 00:18:00.759 --> 00:18:07.160 the song I can't stop listening to right now is it's called like the Yodel 194 00:18:07.279 --> 00:18:17.200 Song and it's on the Trolls to movie soundtrack. Okay, first of all, 195 00:18:17.279 --> 00:18:22.359 you are I have a niece and nephew, and so you'd think I 196 00:18:22.440 --> 00:18:32.319 watched Trolls because of that, but that is not true. Yeah, the 197 00:18:32.359 --> 00:18:36.799 first time I watched the Trolls movie was with a friend while drinking wine. 198 00:18:37.079 --> 00:18:41.400 And I love that movie so much that my nephew, who's like six and 199 00:18:41.480 --> 00:18:44.599 thinks, he's like whatever about it now, He's like if he sees me, 200 00:18:44.640 --> 00:18:47.279 he's like, you want to go watch Trolls, Aunty, and like, 201 00:18:47.359 --> 00:18:49.599 thanks for doing me a solid kid, Like he thinks I can't watch 202 00:18:49.640 --> 00:18:57.240 it by myself. And so when the new Trolls movie came out, uh, 203 00:18:57.279 --> 00:19:02.319 we facetimes with the kids and watch shit and it was great. Um, 204 00:19:02.400 --> 00:19:07.440 but that song on the soundtrack is a banger. It's so good and 205 00:19:07.480 --> 00:19:12.960 like Anderson Pack is all over the soundtrack. It's great. Wow, but 206 00:19:14.039 --> 00:19:18.440 it's just like it's called like the yodel song, and it's just like yodeling 207 00:19:18.559 --> 00:19:25.359 mixed with like like dub step chaos. It's like definitely for like children with 208 00:19:25.440 --> 00:19:30.119 too much energy, who needs to just like jump around. But I all 209 00:19:30.160 --> 00:19:34.960 like it a lot. I haven't. I haven't checked out trolls too yet, 210 00:19:36.160 --> 00:19:41.839 but I know your love for trolls runs deep. Um, especially regarding 211 00:19:41.880 --> 00:19:47.640 the trolls oreos with glitter. You know, the glitter was a scam. 212 00:19:48.000 --> 00:19:53.160 I wondered. I wanted it to be better, but I you know, 213 00:19:53.240 --> 00:20:00.680 I'm I'm happy with what I can get in the trolls universe. I love 214 00:20:00.680 --> 00:20:03.839 it. Did you have trolls as a kid. I'm sure I had like 215 00:20:03.920 --> 00:20:07.319 one or two, but they were I think they're kind of creepy. Yeah, 216 00:20:07.519 --> 00:20:11.279 like the dolls with the belly button. I think it's weird. Yeah. 217 00:20:11.319 --> 00:20:15.680 I never I like the modern one. I mean, I'm sure they're 218 00:20:15.720 --> 00:20:21.160 making them again, because there's a fucking trolls movie. Um. I didn't 219 00:20:21.200 --> 00:20:25.720 even realize. I am. Yeah, they're very different. They're very different 220 00:20:25.920 --> 00:20:30.359 from the old school trolls. They will be incredibly different. Um, Yeah, 221 00:20:30.400 --> 00:20:33.920 they were clothes. There's no jam in the belly. Okay, Uh, 222 00:20:34.400 --> 00:20:38.720 yeah, they're evolved. You know, I only had a m I 223 00:20:38.839 --> 00:20:45.440 never had an actual troll doll. But when I would go to the dentist. 224 00:20:45.079 --> 00:20:48.559 Um, you know, I'm from a super small town, and so 225 00:20:48.599 --> 00:20:52.559 when we would go to the dentist, would get a treat of McDonald's afterwards. 226 00:20:53.079 --> 00:20:59.559 And the only troll that I had was a happy Meal troll and it's 227 00:20:59.640 --> 00:21:04.000 basic, just like you know, a nude piece of plastic. Yeah, 228 00:21:04.039 --> 00:21:08.759 I have UH. When things are really bad in Minneapolis, I have a 229 00:21:08.799 --> 00:21:14.319 neighbor of who I also work with more friends. She brought me UM some 230 00:21:15.759 --> 00:21:19.640 things helped me relax, which I won't name. But he also brought me 231 00:21:19.880 --> 00:21:26.720 a happy Meal with two tools toys, so I also have. I also 232 00:21:26.880 --> 00:21:37.119 told from McDonald what a great friend we loved her. Um. My song 233 00:21:37.200 --> 00:21:41.400 of the week is a song that I hold very near and dear to my 234 00:21:41.480 --> 00:21:45.079 heart when I think of you, UM and our sweet friend Emily, and 235 00:21:45.200 --> 00:21:48.920 that is um the Earth, the air, and the fire of the water. 236 00:21:49.880 --> 00:21:53.599 UM. And I can't believe I lucked it up on Spotify today. 237 00:21:55.440 --> 00:22:00.519 UM the Proper band, I don't know if we call them. The band 238 00:22:00.680 --> 00:22:07.680 is Labanna, Levana or Lebana. Yeah, it's Labana. It's just like 239 00:22:08.240 --> 00:22:15.240 it's what you would expect to find um in a coffee shop in Stockholm, 240 00:22:15.319 --> 00:22:26.279 Wisconsin during a festival at midnight. Um Like Okay. So I feel like 241 00:22:26.319 --> 00:22:30.720 when I really started getting to know you was right when pen fifteen came out 242 00:22:30.759 --> 00:22:38.680 on Hulu and yeah we you. Emily and I were planning a photo shoot 243 00:22:38.720 --> 00:22:48.160 together and the end of our planning session just turned into us basically creating this 244 00:22:48.359 --> 00:22:52.920 almost like sance. It was like a sance like atmosphere where we just sang 245 00:22:53.000 --> 00:22:57.400 that song over and over, like with our palms. We are adult women, 246 00:22:57.559 --> 00:23:00.920 by the way, it's just sitting on a living room floor with our 247 00:23:00.960 --> 00:23:10.880 palms connected and eyes shut, going do you see the fire the watery yea. 248 00:23:15.680 --> 00:23:19.680 I think you also have to remember we after we also left Emily's apartment 249 00:23:21.079 --> 00:23:25.319 and went multiple places and just started singing it there, like in an art 250 00:23:25.400 --> 00:23:30.200 gallery as you do, where other people were the art. We just sang 251 00:23:30.240 --> 00:23:36.240 it. Yeah, really emotional. It's a great song. It's a great 252 00:23:36.279 --> 00:23:38.200 song, and I think I need to listen to it more. Yeah, 253 00:23:38.319 --> 00:23:41.839 then I need to yodel more. That's really great. Um, I want 254 00:23:41.839 --> 00:23:47.880 to know. Yeah, those are chaotic choices. Well, what's really great 255 00:23:48.000 --> 00:23:52.839 is there gonna go We have like a progressive Spotify playlist, So these two 256 00:23:52.920 --> 00:23:59.720 are now gonna go back to back and I'm really excited about that mood journey 257 00:24:00.039 --> 00:24:06.680 that is going to be very rough. Um, tell me what has brought 258 00:24:06.720 --> 00:24:11.359 you joy this week? Oh? Um, joy? Let's see what's that? 259 00:24:12.119 --> 00:24:21.559 Um shit? Oh god, you know what I took. I'm on 260 00:24:21.640 --> 00:24:27.319 PTO right now, tell you. Yeah, Like I just decided that, 261 00:24:27.400 --> 00:24:30.960 like I'm gonna do what my heart wants me to do, and like I 262 00:24:30.000 --> 00:24:33.319 have a stack of books I'm supposed to read, and like, yeah, 263 00:24:33.400 --> 00:24:37.400 I'll maybe I'll learn how to read through osmosis someday. But right now, 264 00:24:37.519 --> 00:24:44.519 I'm just watching Married at First Sight in ninety Day Fiance a lot and it 265 00:24:44.759 --> 00:24:48.960 feels feeling good. Yeah, um yeah, And maybe I'll take a shower 266 00:24:49.000 --> 00:24:56.240 today Wolfee. Maybe not. Yeah, but it's just like no pressure situations 267 00:24:56.319 --> 00:24:59.160 or what's what's going to bring me joy right now? I think? Yeah, 268 00:24:59.319 --> 00:25:03.599 I love that. Yeah, I love that. Um. What brought 269 00:25:03.680 --> 00:25:07.640 me joined this week was, uh, you saw this on the internet and 270 00:25:07.680 --> 00:25:12.440 it was just really fucking awesome and everything that I love about the Internet, 271 00:25:12.519 --> 00:25:19.240 and reminded me how the Internet can be such a source of giggles. Um. 272 00:25:19.720 --> 00:25:27.720 So there was a uh like an online auction going on for a homemade 273 00:25:29.160 --> 00:25:37.640 um acab rug. Um you don't know what it means all cops are bastards? 274 00:25:37.960 --> 00:25:44.000 Um? Or does it right? That's this is where this is gonna 275 00:25:44.000 --> 00:25:48.599 go. Um, you know, and it's just like, I'm a white 276 00:25:48.599 --> 00:25:52.160 woman. I had to google what acab meant and I'm like, okay, 277 00:25:52.240 --> 00:26:00.880 yeah, fuck yeah acab um. And the comments were really loved it basically 278 00:26:00.920 --> 00:26:07.319 went um, you know, this woman said all cops are not bad in 279 00:26:07.519 --> 00:26:14.480 a very you know, like all lives matter momentum. And then someone else 280 00:26:14.559 --> 00:26:18.920 commented, don't worry, that's not what it stands for. And then the 281 00:26:18.960 --> 00:26:22.839 conversation continued to be like, well what does it stand for then, because 282 00:26:22.880 --> 00:26:27.480 you know that's what I've heard and and people need to be careful um. 283 00:26:29.720 --> 00:26:36.720 And then everyone was just like, it means all cats are beautiful. And 284 00:26:36.759 --> 00:26:41.079 the final bid on this homemade rug where the you know, the money was 285 00:26:41.160 --> 00:26:48.839 going to a local nonprofit um was four hundred and seventy five bucks, and 286 00:26:48.000 --> 00:26:55.519 the winning bid was just like, I fucking love cats, Like it was 287 00:26:55.599 --> 00:27:03.160 so good. It was it was like a roast of positivity and I don't 288 00:27:03.200 --> 00:27:07.119 I don't think it's so good. Not a roast, but it was like 289 00:27:07.079 --> 00:27:11.720 so light. You know, we needed that little moment on the internet. 290 00:27:11.720 --> 00:27:15.279 I think we did. And you know what it was like, it was 291 00:27:15.319 --> 00:27:18.440 like how to deal with trolls in the funniest, the bad kind of trolls, 292 00:27:18.480 --> 00:27:22.400 not a good time. The it was like how to deal with them 293 00:27:22.440 --> 00:27:26.400 in the best way possible where it's just like it's like, it was so 294 00:27:26.480 --> 00:27:33.599 funny, and the artist Crystal Quinn is just like unbelievably talented and I highly 295 00:27:33.599 --> 00:27:38.839 recommend checking it out because it is death kiss funny. I hope it lives 296 00:27:38.839 --> 00:27:48.240 on forever. Oh yeah, I want to now dive into your wardrobe. 297 00:27:48.279 --> 00:27:55.839 I feel good and warmed up and giggly and fucking thank you. You are 298 00:27:56.039 --> 00:28:03.720 such a true inspiration of mine and such a great example of celebrating our bodies 299 00:28:03.880 --> 00:28:11.480 through our wardrobe. And I want to know kind of where your exploration and 300 00:28:12.160 --> 00:28:21.079 passion for fashion inside your body began. M I mean, I don't, 301 00:28:21.160 --> 00:28:26.759 I don't know, like I've never not been this way. I think it 302 00:28:26.839 --> 00:28:30.599 kind of goes back to what I like. It's I don't know, because 303 00:28:30.640 --> 00:28:36.599 it's just who I am, right Like, I apparently growing up with someone 304 00:28:36.640 --> 00:28:41.160 who wanted to lay out my outfit for the next day. And then that 305 00:28:41.319 --> 00:28:47.240 transformed into, oh, I need my Delia's and girlfriend's la catalog so I 306 00:28:47.240 --> 00:28:51.880 can figure out what I want to wear, and then that turned into making 307 00:28:51.960 --> 00:29:00.599 sure my sims look truly good all the time. And then, you know, 308 00:29:00.880 --> 00:29:03.799 as soon as I was able to, you know, and then and 309 00:29:03.880 --> 00:29:07.079 my mom was always very thrifty and we would go to like Discount Stars and 310 00:29:07.079 --> 00:29:10.440 figure out what to wear. And um, but you know, as your 311 00:29:10.440 --> 00:29:12.599 body changes and you get older and your you know, your plus size, 312 00:29:12.720 --> 00:29:17.200 you don't have the options as much. And you know, I think I 313 00:29:17.279 --> 00:29:21.480 just, um, I didn't care. I don't know. I just would 314 00:29:21.519 --> 00:29:25.319 wear like band T shirts and I had hot pink hair and like would like 315 00:29:26.519 --> 00:29:30.279 remember there's these really great pictures of me in like middle school with like jeans 316 00:29:30.440 --> 00:29:34.240 and I sewed like pink fabric into the sides, so my jeans were really 317 00:29:34.279 --> 00:29:38.240 big because I couldn't before I couldn't fit into Jinko jeans. It would just 318 00:29:38.279 --> 00:29:42.480 be skinny jeans on me. So you know, I figured out my own 319 00:29:42.480 --> 00:29:52.000 way to do it. It's a look. Um. So it's just always 320 00:29:52.000 --> 00:29:57.240 been this way, I think. And um, as like the years have 321 00:29:57.400 --> 00:30:03.519 gone on, it's gotten easier to access the types of clothes I authentically want 322 00:30:03.559 --> 00:30:11.079 to wear and like to wear because they're being made. Um. But you 323 00:30:11.160 --> 00:30:15.960 know, it's again, it's like the idea of celebrating my body. It's 324 00:30:15.000 --> 00:30:18.440 like or like a plus I've body. It's like I don't know, I 325 00:30:18.480 --> 00:30:22.079 just know I dressed better than a lot of people who aren't fat. So 326 00:30:22.160 --> 00:30:27.200 like you should look at it. I guess fucking this is over. That 327 00:30:27.400 --> 00:30:34.559 is it you did? It's looking like I'm very on top, dude. 328 00:30:34.759 --> 00:30:41.319 Yes, I've been, Like I my friend Liz and I started a fashion 329 00:30:41.440 --> 00:30:45.240 tumbler back in twenty ten when that wasn't a thing, right, Like I'm 330 00:30:45.240 --> 00:30:51.559 friends with like Gabby and Nicolette and like Kelly and like all these girls who 331 00:30:51.559 --> 00:30:56.599 have been doing this for so so long. Um and and they're amazing and 332 00:30:56.599 --> 00:30:59.559 they're like total inspirations to me, and I don't want to do what they 333 00:30:59.599 --> 00:31:06.200 do because so they're killing it like Gabby is killing it. Gabby Fresh. 334 00:31:06.279 --> 00:31:12.440 For those who don't know Gabby on a first name basis, she is. 335 00:31:12.920 --> 00:31:21.200 She's like the beacon celebrity of plus sized fashion. All hail Gabby. Yeah, 336 00:31:21.240 --> 00:31:25.039 yeah, she's the reason fat girls wear bikinis. She literally was like, 337 00:31:25.759 --> 00:31:30.119 I'll wear a bikini right now, and then it turned into like let's 338 00:31:30.519 --> 00:31:34.359 let's let's let Gabby make her own line and like that is the reason there 339 00:31:34.400 --> 00:31:41.880 are fat bikinis now. Um, so you know I did that a little 340 00:31:41.880 --> 00:31:45.200 while and so it's always been a part of me. It's not so much 341 00:31:45.240 --> 00:31:49.640 like it wasn't so much a goal of like what my internet presence was leading 342 00:31:49.680 --> 00:31:56.119 up to now necessarily um that is until you know, not for the distancing, 343 00:31:56.160 --> 00:31:59.839 I guess, but um yeah, I don't know. I just like 344 00:32:00.240 --> 00:32:06.759 pictures of what I wear. How it did? Um, how did oot 345 00:32:07.079 --> 00:32:12.920 distancing start? And what does it mean? Yeah? How did this our 346 00:32:12.960 --> 00:32:17.440 econo? Man? I think this kind of goes back like I am learning 347 00:32:17.440 --> 00:32:24.279 more about myself in that when faced with crippling anxiety and fear, I don't 348 00:32:24.359 --> 00:32:30.359 let myself stop too much. I sort of am like if I don't pay 349 00:32:30.359 --> 00:32:34.200 attention to how scared. I am. I won't be scared anymore. So 350 00:32:34.279 --> 00:32:38.880 I stay really really dizzy, and so like with all the stuff in Minneapolis 351 00:32:38.880 --> 00:32:45.839 and like wanting to spring into action once the pandemic kind of became a very 352 00:32:45.920 --> 00:32:50.960 real reality, especially if someone in Los Angeles. I was really freaked out. 353 00:32:51.039 --> 00:32:55.400 I have really severe asthma, and so like leaving the house is not 354 00:32:55.440 --> 00:33:00.680 an option, like really it's it's like we're in lockdown, and I don't 355 00:33:00.680 --> 00:33:04.240 really know when I'm not going to be in lockdown because people are crazy and 356 00:33:04.359 --> 00:33:10.880 think they deserve to go to brunch right now. So I can't. I 357 00:33:10.880 --> 00:33:15.799 don't understand. I don't get it. I don't get it at all. 358 00:33:15.839 --> 00:33:19.799 And so I was through like laying around and I was like, what is 359 00:33:19.839 --> 00:33:24.200 gonna like you inspire me? And like what can I do? And like 360 00:33:24.240 --> 00:33:30.000 how can I like put something positive out into the world, because I was 361 00:33:30.599 --> 00:33:34.839 it was doom scrolling every day, like it was just like everyone's just posting 362 00:33:34.960 --> 00:33:37.799 over and over, like all these conspiracy theories are like here's why you need 363 00:33:37.839 --> 00:33:40.759 to wear a mask, Here's why you shouldn't wear a mask, Here's here's 364 00:33:40.759 --> 00:33:45.359 how many people are gonna die by February third or whatever, and I'm like 365 00:33:45.359 --> 00:33:51.200 its February fifteenth. Were talking about like so it's just like its chaos, 366 00:33:52.519 --> 00:33:55.440 and so I was like, Okay, how do we find a way to 367 00:33:55.599 --> 00:34:02.440 encourage people to stay home? And like how do we talk about distance social 368 00:34:02.480 --> 00:34:08.440 distancing and not quarantine but like kind of. And I was like texting with 369 00:34:08.480 --> 00:34:12.239 our friend Alex and I was like, what if we did like daily outfit 370 00:34:12.360 --> 00:34:15.280 challenges and she was like, I just want to wear my ath leisure and 371 00:34:15.280 --> 00:34:17.280 I was like respect. And the next way I woke up and I was 372 00:34:17.320 --> 00:34:21.840 like, I'm just gonna try it, and I texted like you and Emily 373 00:34:22.320 --> 00:34:23.800 and I was like, Okay, we're gonna try to sing if you want. 374 00:34:23.920 --> 00:34:29.880 And it's gonna be called outfit of the distancing and that comes from UM. 375 00:34:30.519 --> 00:34:37.719 In the fashion blogger instagrammy community, there's a term hashtag oot D, 376 00:34:37.400 --> 00:34:43.199 which stands for Outfit of the Day. And so I was like, oh, 377 00:34:43.320 --> 00:34:49.679 that's easy. Outside of the distancing, you just add instancing. I 378 00:34:49.760 --> 00:34:53.320 don't know how to think distancing without a D. So perfect, you just 379 00:34:53.519 --> 00:35:04.079 add it to the d's special together, Um, you just together. What 380 00:35:04.400 --> 00:35:10.119 OOT distancing UM did for me was so I have always been a huge advocate 381 00:35:10.159 --> 00:35:15.519 of no one has a good day in sweatpants. Um. But when it 382 00:35:15.800 --> 00:35:21.559 was day in and day out of and we were like, we were releasing 383 00:35:21.719 --> 00:35:25.280 a new a brand new net news section of our website at this time, 384 00:35:25.320 --> 00:35:31.719 and so I was just like getting up straight to my desk and it was 385 00:35:32.039 --> 00:35:38.079 very much I'm working in my pajamas, which are just underwear sometimes the sweatpants. 386 00:35:38.639 --> 00:35:43.519 UM. And then you know, feeling off my game and I'm like, 387 00:35:43.599 --> 00:35:45.639 what the fuck am I off my game? It's oh, it's because 388 00:35:45.679 --> 00:35:51.559 I'm not wearing clothes. Um. And when you sent this this text, 389 00:35:51.679 --> 00:35:57.119 this email of this challenge, UM, you had themes to it initially, 390 00:35:57.199 --> 00:36:00.199 right like what are what are you going to wear when you flatten the curve? 391 00:36:00.400 --> 00:36:04.320 That's what it was. Yeah, that was the first one. Yeah. 392 00:36:04.400 --> 00:36:07.000 Yeah, because it was like I didn't want it to just be totally 393 00:36:07.079 --> 00:36:08.360 random. I didn't want because you know what, I didn't want to see 394 00:36:08.400 --> 00:36:12.559 people wearing footpants. I was like, I want to give someone a challenge 395 00:36:12.599 --> 00:36:15.039 because I don't want to see that. Yeah, And it gave us a 396 00:36:15.119 --> 00:36:22.239 reason to get dressed. And in this I learned something about myself. It 397 00:36:22.320 --> 00:36:25.440 was like I have always thought, you know, oh, I'm getting dressed 398 00:36:25.440 --> 00:36:30.000 for myself and it's a form of self expression. And then I'm just like, 399 00:36:30.679 --> 00:36:36.000 or do I get fucking dressed for the internet? What have I? 400 00:36:36.119 --> 00:36:40.119 And I had like this moment of who am I when I'm not dressed up? 401 00:36:40.679 --> 00:36:44.599 Do you know what I mean? Yeah, it was like this, 402 00:36:44.800 --> 00:36:52.119 and then the second that I put on actual denim or put thought into what 403 00:36:52.199 --> 00:37:01.519 I was wearing, it was like an immediate readiness. Yeah, yeah, 404 00:37:01.559 --> 00:37:07.679 it's I It's been interesting. Like when I first started it, I was 405 00:37:07.760 --> 00:37:10.400 so into it. I was so ready and I was like, Okay, 406 00:37:10.400 --> 00:37:14.360 I'm gonna took another outfit photo. It's gonna be great. And I felt 407 00:37:14.440 --> 00:37:19.559 all of that, and then I went through a really serious mental health crisis, 408 00:37:21.639 --> 00:37:23.519 and I don't remember exactly when. It's been a few weeks since I've 409 00:37:23.519 --> 00:37:25.639 sort of come out the other side of it, but like, to be 410 00:37:25.719 --> 00:37:31.280 really frank and honest, like I had to have like an emergency psychiatric call 411 00:37:31.360 --> 00:37:37.159 where I was like, I need antidepressions as soon as humanly possible because I 412 00:37:37.239 --> 00:37:42.400 can't keep doing this. Like this has been so hard. I hate it. 413 00:37:42.559 --> 00:37:45.840 I hate being stuck at home. I hate being afraid of everyone. 414 00:37:45.920 --> 00:37:52.639 I hate being afraid of getting sick. I just I reached this point where 415 00:37:52.679 --> 00:37:55.800 I was like, I don't like this. I don't like this life of 416 00:37:57.559 --> 00:38:01.159 quarantine and I'm not happy, and like my mental health is really suffering, 417 00:38:01.639 --> 00:38:07.800 and the correlation of like I need to get back on my antidepressants, which 418 00:38:07.840 --> 00:38:14.239 I had meaned myself off of like in January often timing, and then the 419 00:38:14.440 --> 00:38:19.519 like my ability to get dressed, like is directly correlated, right, And 420 00:38:19.599 --> 00:38:28.480 so it is really obvious that like doing something as simple as putting on a 421 00:38:28.519 --> 00:38:32.599 piece of clothing that brings you joy, doing something as simple as putting on 422 00:38:32.639 --> 00:38:37.159 an outfit that brings you joy is a sign of where you're at mentally, 423 00:38:37.239 --> 00:38:43.800 but also like what your desires are for yourself, I think, yeah, 424 00:38:44.519 --> 00:38:51.400 wow, Yeah, there are a lot of levels to what you just said, 425 00:38:51.559 --> 00:38:57.519 and I'm like, on every fucking one of them. A first off, 426 00:38:57.559 --> 00:39:04.559 I commend you on the courage to reach back out and to you know, 427 00:39:04.559 --> 00:39:09.800 know the signs for yourself to getting that help. I have had to 428 00:39:09.840 --> 00:39:15.400 reach out again um to my therapist during this time, and it's I'm glad 429 00:39:15.480 --> 00:39:21.400 that I have that option. I realized I'm very privileged to have that option. 430 00:39:21.719 --> 00:39:28.039 And in the other vein of that, there were so many years where 431 00:39:28.039 --> 00:39:31.880 I neglected those signs in myself, and like you said, the days where 432 00:39:31.920 --> 00:39:37.320 I can't get out of bed and I can't get dressed, I would just 433 00:39:37.400 --> 00:39:39.440 be like, this is an off day. But you know, like sometimes 434 00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:46.400 it would last three days, and that's that's depression. It's a part of 435 00:39:46.400 --> 00:39:52.760 how depression manifests itself for me. Anyway, well done on that. And 436 00:39:52.960 --> 00:39:57.679 I'm a big fan of jobs. I'm just I'd like to be very honest. 437 00:39:57.880 --> 00:40:07.920 I am Wow. I just love my antidepressant. Yeah yeah, yeah, 438 00:40:07.079 --> 00:40:13.639 it for me, it helps me. Um, it's like a little 439 00:40:13.639 --> 00:40:19.960 bit of a safety net. Um. So my my antidepressants also helped me 440 00:40:20.800 --> 00:40:28.280 curb my panic attacks. M yeah. So it's just like a little bit 441 00:40:28.280 --> 00:40:31.920 of I'm in control because I took that pill today, um, and it's 442 00:40:31.960 --> 00:40:37.440 there to help me. Um. I am not broken. Um, but 443 00:40:37.519 --> 00:40:40.760 I'm gonna take this thing that helps me feel better. And you know, 444 00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:45.639 it's all about if it helps me feel better, and if I can fucking 445 00:40:45.719 --> 00:40:49.760 get dressed in a cool fucking outfit, then it's you know worth it to 446 00:40:49.840 --> 00:40:55.239 me, right, totally I want to know your thoughts on because OOT distancing, 447 00:40:55.440 --> 00:40:59.519 you know when you started it, and this is one of the cool 448 00:40:59.800 --> 00:41:09.719 things things about the Internet is it took off without you sending challenges every day 449 00:41:09.840 --> 00:41:16.199 or like every week, and now people are still using that hashtag of OOT 450 00:41:16.480 --> 00:41:22.559 distancing, and it's you know, spread beyond just your friend group, and 451 00:41:22.760 --> 00:41:30.400 it's a way that people are celebrating their wardrobe and still getting up and still 452 00:41:31.039 --> 00:41:36.960 showing up to their work from home or even just showing up to read a 453 00:41:36.960 --> 00:41:43.599 book on their couch, but kind of getting back into that into the the 454 00:41:44.599 --> 00:41:50.800 day to day and the what's the word I'm looking for, the routine of 455 00:41:50.880 --> 00:41:54.400 the day. It's it's taken off a bit. What's been the coolest thing 456 00:41:54.400 --> 00:42:01.639 that you've seen unfold with it? So I have two thoughts on that I'll 457 00:42:01.679 --> 00:42:06.920 start with. I'll start with the coolest and I don't actually know, but 458 00:42:07.119 --> 00:42:10.760 I think the coolest thing has been seeing people in other parts of the world 459 00:42:10.960 --> 00:42:15.719 using it. I also think it's been really cool. I think something that 460 00:42:15.800 --> 00:42:21.199 happens a lot in plus size fashion, in plus size fashion blogging is that 461 00:42:21.280 --> 00:42:29.719 it's so sequestered from like quote unquote mainstream and so for a hashtag to transcend 462 00:42:29.800 --> 00:42:35.599 that, it's really cool to me. I see people plus and straight size 463 00:42:35.719 --> 00:42:40.039 using it, which I love. I think that's like, that's awesome. 464 00:42:40.119 --> 00:42:45.679 I think everyone who has a body on the Internet deserves to show what they 465 00:42:45.719 --> 00:42:51.840 want to show and be celebrated for it. I don't care what it is 466 00:42:52.119 --> 00:42:55.079 or what you put in it, like what you wear, like if you 467 00:42:55.159 --> 00:43:00.039 want to use that hashtag, it's yours. And I love that. And 468 00:43:00.079 --> 00:43:01.480 I also think it's cool about a hashtag. I'm like, you know, 469 00:43:01.519 --> 00:43:06.400 it's interesting. Some people kind of came to me about this, but I 470 00:43:06.440 --> 00:43:07.880 think it's cool about a hashtag. Is like I don't need the credit, 471 00:43:08.079 --> 00:43:13.440 Like it's a hashtag. Those aren't created to have ownership. You're not supposed 472 00:43:13.440 --> 00:43:16.760 to say hashtag outfite of the distancing by a Molly and Nicholson. No, 473 00:43:17.119 --> 00:43:23.920 that's that's not what that's for. Like this is just like organic and and 474 00:43:24.000 --> 00:43:27.920 I don't need that credit. And I think that that's really cool that like 475 00:43:28.000 --> 00:43:34.599 it has surpassed anything I've done because like whatever, like no one's monetizing that. 476 00:43:34.719 --> 00:43:38.320 Like maybe if it was like somehow, you know, a brand was 477 00:43:38.440 --> 00:43:42.519 using it and making billions of dollars. Opposite, i'd be salty and maybe 478 00:43:42.519 --> 00:43:45.360 we'd have a different conversation. But like, this is about community building and 479 00:43:45.400 --> 00:43:52.280 about encouraging something good, So I think that's awesome. The weirdest thing know 480 00:43:52.480 --> 00:43:58.960 about it has been like creating something two months ago, three months ago now 481 00:44:00.159 --> 00:44:02.119 that I don't want to see anymore. Uh. It's not that I don't 482 00:44:02.400 --> 00:44:05.760 like, I don't. I don't want to see an alpha photo right now. 483 00:44:05.880 --> 00:44:10.280 I don't want to see UM. Right now is not the time for 484 00:44:10.280 --> 00:44:15.840 for selfies to me in a lot of ways, UM, And I don't. 485 00:44:15.880 --> 00:44:19.039 I don't mean that in like a steadfast way, Like if someone wants 486 00:44:19.039 --> 00:44:22.400 to post an alpha photo right now, they're one thousand percent allowed to do 487 00:44:22.440 --> 00:44:25.440 that. And I I, you know, I enjoy seeing people UM. 488 00:44:27.280 --> 00:44:30.639 But you know, because I subscribe to the just like overall hashtag. I 489 00:44:30.679 --> 00:44:35.159 see people in my you know, timeline, and I see the people that 490 00:44:35.199 --> 00:44:38.719 are just they're they're acting as if their lives has gone on completely unchanged since 491 00:44:38.760 --> 00:44:44.280 the beginning of quarantine and since you know, George Floyd's murder and UM, 492 00:44:44.280 --> 00:44:50.800 and that's hard. But I think the difficult part of creating something that's UM 493 00:44:51.320 --> 00:44:54.960 so like equal to anybody who wants to use it, is that you also 494 00:44:55.079 --> 00:45:01.639 have to accept that, like people who aren't necessarily aligned with your political beliefs 495 00:45:02.119 --> 00:45:06.199 are allowed to use that thing too and not. Okay, I mean, 496 00:45:07.599 --> 00:45:09.880 I'm happy to see that it's still being used and people are still finding ways 497 00:45:09.920 --> 00:45:15.559 to feel good. Um, I just hope it also means that they're distancing 498 00:45:15.599 --> 00:45:19.440 at the bare minium and if not trying to dismantle the systems, that a 499 00:45:19.519 --> 00:45:29.480 process would also be nice. Well, ma'am, I am here for you. 500 00:45:30.519 --> 00:45:37.039 Well done. Um, I didn't even think about the way that it 501 00:45:37.079 --> 00:45:42.159 would come into your feed. Does it come into your feed more regularly because 502 00:45:42.960 --> 00:45:49.639 you started it? Is there like a weird I don't think Instagram cares who 503 00:45:49.719 --> 00:45:53.400 started it, which is fine, Yeah, I don't. I don't see 504 00:45:53.400 --> 00:45:58.199 it's too often. I follow enough people that I don't. I don't see 505 00:45:59.000 --> 00:46:01.039 that hashtag all that often. So I actually haven't checked on it in a 506 00:46:01.039 --> 00:46:06.119 while because it just hasn't felt like the right time. Um, it feels 507 00:46:06.159 --> 00:46:08.559 like it's the right time for outfit of the revolution. Maybe you know, 508 00:46:09.199 --> 00:46:16.239 I am she's doing it. You are great as starting revolutions, Amalia. 509 00:46:17.480 --> 00:46:20.280 Yeah, I didn't you know what the best part is. The outfit of 510 00:46:20.280 --> 00:46:28.119 the revolution is a nightgown form H and nab Wow Wow from from homemade Jinko 511 00:46:28.280 --> 00:46:38.559 flares to H and M Nightgowns of the Revolution exactly. I am proud of 512 00:46:38.559 --> 00:46:45.840 you, and I love you, and I think that you are smart and 513 00:46:46.320 --> 00:46:54.199 hilarious and I want the whole world to follow you because your your brilliance and 514 00:46:54.280 --> 00:47:00.960 your brain is I'm so lucky to get to know what I'm person but also, 515 00:47:00.079 --> 00:47:06.320 like your Instagram is pretty fucking good too, So God, I just 516 00:47:06.360 --> 00:47:08.039 feel like I'm an idiot on the internet. So that's thanks to here. 517 00:47:08.119 --> 00:47:13.119 But like, really only follow if you're prepared for me to talk about controls 518 00:47:13.400 --> 00:47:16.440 who've like honestly, that's where we're headed once this we've all done. Like 519 00:47:16.719 --> 00:47:24.119 also and maybe King of the Hill. Fucking love you so much, Thank 520 00:47:24.199 --> 00:47:30.840 you so much for coming on your dear dear love and the world is so 521 00:47:30.920 --> 00:47:35.400 lucky to have you. I'm lucky to have you in my world, so 522 00:47:35.800 --> 00:47:40.480 thank you for inviting me to be here. And if you got this far 523 00:47:40.519 --> 00:47:45.440 in the pod, I'm impressed as book and really grateful to have you listening. 524 00:47:45.000 --> 00:47:49.199 If you want to know more information about me or the show, check 525 00:47:49.239 --> 00:47:52.440 out the show page on Matriarch dm dot com, where we host all of 526 00:47:52.440 --> 00:47:57.320 the what I Can't Take off, our progressive Spotify playlist from the songs of 527 00:47:57.360 --> 00:48:00.199 the week, and obviously they remind Dr Wood to follow for the week, 528 00:48:00.280 --> 00:48:06.440 all in a nice little fucking Matriarch Digital Media bow. Theme song is Molly, 529 00:48:06.519 --> 00:48:09.400 made by Ben Karen Like I'll never get oversang that it's so good right, 530 00:48:10.199 --> 00:48:14.360 thanks for listening. You're so cute.