WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.640 --> 00:00:07.839 This is the two seventeen Recovery podcast with Corey Winfield. Alcohol it does damage 2 00:00:07.839 --> 00:00:11.240 the brain, but I don't know if it, if it went that far 3 00:00:11.320 --> 00:00:16.519 with them already, I don't know. I drink a lot. I like 4 00:00:16.600 --> 00:00:21.480 the things that I'm not like that and hold Marny Winfield. Sometimes there's a 5 00:00:21.559 --> 00:00:26.399 very small window that if something doesn't happen and there isn't action made in that 6 00:00:26.440 --> 00:00:29.920 short period of time, that it might not happen. Maybe not ever again. 7 00:00:32.159 --> 00:00:36.600 It is the fifteenth of September twenty twenty three. My name's Corey Winfield. 8 00:00:36.679 --> 00:00:40.479 My name's Marnie Winfield. This is the two seventeen Recovery Podcasts. Welcome 9 00:00:41.479 --> 00:00:45.039 because my mama's birthday yesterday. Shout out, what's up? Happy birthday. 10 00:00:45.679 --> 00:00:49.560 I'm still waiting for you to seventy your birthday money check how that works? 11 00:00:50.159 --> 00:00:54.079 Oh it was my birthday? Two say oh damn, hey, I didn't 12 00:00:54.079 --> 00:00:57.479 get on anything yet. I didn't give it to her. Okay, that 13 00:00:57.479 --> 00:01:00.079 would be a lie. Let's not start off the pod castle lying. Let's 14 00:01:00.079 --> 00:01:03.079 not do that, all right, Mom, I didn't get you anything. 15 00:01:03.479 --> 00:01:04.959 I did think about you throughout the day many times, and that's better. 16 00:01:06.000 --> 00:01:08.640 Than just calling once and being done with it. Yeah, you know, 17 00:01:08.760 --> 00:01:11.840 she kind of was like, oh better or late than never? Excese. 18 00:01:11.840 --> 00:01:15.200 I think I text her like nine o'clock and she's like, better late than 19 00:01:15.239 --> 00:01:18.200 never. I thought, well, hey, this is the way to do 20 00:01:18.200 --> 00:01:19.560 it, because she was thinking about me all day, like as Corey gonna 21 00:01:19.599 --> 00:01:22.719 text mes, Corey gonna text me, as Corey gonna text me, as 22 00:01:22.719 --> 00:01:27.000 Corey gonna text me. Also, you're building up that. I wasn't intentionally, 23 00:01:27.120 --> 00:01:29.959 but as I thought about it, I was like, that's probably a 24 00:01:29.959 --> 00:01:33.599 good thing because she was thinking about me more than she was my brother Travis, 25 00:01:33.640 --> 00:01:36.159 sister Kylie, and brother Jerry. She was thinking about me. It's 26 00:01:36.159 --> 00:01:40.400 Corey gonna text me, so my text became the special one and then me. 27 00:01:40.480 --> 00:01:42.000 On the other hand, I was thinking about her all day because I'm 28 00:01:42.000 --> 00:01:45.439 like, oh, it's Mom's birthday. I gotta send her text. A 29 00:01:45.480 --> 00:01:49.680 couple hours later, it's Mom's wirthday. I got sent her text up until 30 00:01:49.760 --> 00:01:52.519 nine o'clock at night, So I was actually thinking about her more than my 31 00:01:52.560 --> 00:01:57.159 siblings were, guarantee you, and they were probably just like, oh, 32 00:01:57.319 --> 00:02:00.359 is mom gonna go out for dinner? Can we go with well, I 33 00:02:00.400 --> 00:02:04.680 doubt my brother was doing that. Maybe Kylie, my sister, she might 34 00:02:04.680 --> 00:02:06.560 have been doing that, like, oh, Mom'm gonna take me out to 35 00:02:06.599 --> 00:02:12.840 her birthday dinner. Hopefully Mom would have been like nope, who knows. 36 00:02:13.639 --> 00:02:15.919 Yeah, so I wasn't able to check check in with her and wish your 37 00:02:15.960 --> 00:02:23.280 happy birthday till later a little later on the day too, and she said, 38 00:02:23.439 --> 00:02:27.599 she said she had a nice little birthday. So hopefully we're gonna be 39 00:02:27.639 --> 00:02:31.719 able to come down there make a visit at some point. Never know, 40 00:02:32.280 --> 00:02:38.439 never know. So do you ever have this mccafee thing pop up every ten 41 00:02:38.479 --> 00:02:44.240 minutes? I turned it off. That's a virus that in itself is a 42 00:02:44.319 --> 00:02:46.039 virus because it's like accept a risk and it looks all threatening and then it's 43 00:02:46.080 --> 00:02:51.759 like it'll switch it up and be like I'll be okay with it anyway. 44 00:02:52.400 --> 00:02:55.719 No, I don't ever touch anything. I just accepted the risk. Oh 45 00:02:55.879 --> 00:03:04.080 I shouldn't say that the podcast. But that's that's great that you did reach 46 00:03:04.120 --> 00:03:07.680 out, and yes, we will be down there at some point in the 47 00:03:07.719 --> 00:03:12.280 future. I think, Yeah, Christmas is coming out, well, no, 48 00:03:12.479 --> 00:03:15.439 fall is almost here. Oh my god, it's beautiful. I mean, 49 00:03:15.479 --> 00:03:23.439 that's a whole podcast in itself right there northern Michigan with the colors of 50 00:03:23.759 --> 00:03:30.400 the leaves and tall trees beautiful. Oh my gosh, it's just the smell. 51 00:03:30.479 --> 00:03:36.439 And I mean the bays is obviously it's still beautiful, right and the 52 00:03:36.560 --> 00:03:39.960 sunsets are it's amazing. It's just phenomenal. Bu'st not the drone. It's 53 00:03:40.000 --> 00:03:45.759 breathtaking. Put them on our website. Yeah, you can check that out 54 00:03:45.800 --> 00:03:49.680 soon to seventeen recovery dot com. And it just happens to be that our 55 00:03:49.840 --> 00:03:57.080 our new home is like embedded in like this forest, and so there's trees 56 00:03:57.319 --> 00:04:02.879 everywhere and deer everywhere, and deer are everywhere. It's great. It's like 57 00:04:02.919 --> 00:04:06.039 I feel like I'm in like a Disney movie. You're cracking me up there. 58 00:04:06.080 --> 00:04:11.000 They're like, You're like, I just want to pet them deer. 59 00:04:11.319 --> 00:04:14.000 Yeah, I know. Good luck with that, honey, I know. 60 00:04:14.199 --> 00:04:17.759 It's it was the very It's like my inner child coming out. Yeah, 61 00:04:17.879 --> 00:04:23.120 like can I pat And we're learning things about our animals that we have. 62 00:04:23.199 --> 00:04:28.240 We have three cats, two girls and one boy. Have Nico, Luna 63 00:04:28.600 --> 00:04:34.639 and low Man Hudson. It's our youngest and we Nico has been on ground 64 00:04:34.720 --> 00:04:41.439 floor level with animals before. So she's seen them, and she's not as 65 00:04:41.519 --> 00:04:46.639 intrigued as the other two. They grew up grown up in a high rise 66 00:04:47.680 --> 00:04:53.800 downtown city apartment, you know what I'm saying. No, they just in 67 00:04:53.839 --> 00:05:00.199 the concrete jungle of low income housing traversity. Okay, maybe, Yeah. 68 00:05:00.360 --> 00:05:04.279 So now they're getting ground level and they can like look out and be level 69 00:05:04.319 --> 00:05:09.399 with little chipmunks and deer and all kinds of animals that run around out there. 70 00:05:09.560 --> 00:05:14.240 Yeah, and we're finding out these cats are bilingual. Yep, they 71 00:05:14.279 --> 00:05:18.240 sure are, especially talking chipmunk a minute ago, what's that sound like? 72 00:05:18.480 --> 00:05:23.160 I can't I can't try to do it. It sounds like a little it 73 00:05:23.240 --> 00:05:29.199 sounds like almost like a dog bark, but like yeah, like so I'm 74 00:05:29.240 --> 00:05:30.920 like, I don't know, I can't do it. But it's hilarious because 75 00:05:30.959 --> 00:05:34.360 it just came out like never have I ever heard her ever make those noises, 76 00:05:35.000 --> 00:05:36.959 And then all of a sudden, she's all excited. I'm like, 77 00:05:38.000 --> 00:05:41.199 what what do you see outside? And then she's looking right at it and 78 00:05:41.759 --> 00:05:46.560 she darts kind of around the patio door, you know, and then she's 79 00:05:46.079 --> 00:05:49.759 staring right at this chipmunk and she's making these noises like she's talking to it 80 00:05:49.839 --> 00:05:54.480 and it's adorable. And then then when they talked to birds, it's a 81 00:05:54.519 --> 00:05:57.439 different you know, different language. You know. It's like they're they're bilingual, 82 00:05:57.519 --> 00:06:00.240 and I didn't know that about them. They were born that way. 83 00:06:00.399 --> 00:06:03.360 That's crazy though. How see, I was watching a cat show one time. 84 00:06:04.480 --> 00:06:08.839 I think that didn't sound very cool, did it. I was watching 85 00:06:08.879 --> 00:06:12.800 this cat show one time about the cat is killing people and stuff. Anyway, 86 00:06:12.839 --> 00:06:15.480 they say that they mimic the birds that try to draw the bird out. 87 00:06:16.959 --> 00:06:20.279 But like when Nico used to it when she was younger, I was 88 00:06:20.319 --> 00:06:23.800 like, Nico, there's no way, and how that bird sounds like that? 89 00:06:24.399 --> 00:06:30.199 Like you're not fooling anybody, because that's that's like like a attack helicopter 90 00:06:30.360 --> 00:06:35.199 or something. I don't know. Sober people problems, right, Yeah, 91 00:06:35.839 --> 00:06:39.720 No, it's a good day to be in recovery. I'm so glad and 92 00:06:39.879 --> 00:06:46.079 blessed. Every day is the opportunity and every day that I go through life 93 00:06:46.079 --> 00:06:49.680 sober, there's there's challenges, there's struggles, there's things that I don't want 94 00:06:49.680 --> 00:06:55.920 to deal with, but I have to deal with and you just have to 95 00:06:55.959 --> 00:06:59.920 go through it. Man, when I did the podcast last week or whatever, 96 00:07:00.000 --> 00:07:02.879 I was stressing again, you know, and a funding for the two 97 00:07:02.879 --> 00:07:06.199 seventeen recovery Center and for the two seventeen recovery rides, you know, like 98 00:07:06.240 --> 00:07:11.319 that's kind of up in the air, and I didn't want to be the 99 00:07:11.360 --> 00:07:14.240 person who was just blowing up their emails like hey, you know we applied 100 00:07:14.279 --> 00:07:15.920 for them, what's going on or what's up? You know. Remember we 101 00:07:16.120 --> 00:07:20.439 talked, and I didn't want to be that guy. And a few times 102 00:07:20.480 --> 00:07:23.319 I was like, I gotta send the email. I gotta send the email. 103 00:07:23.399 --> 00:07:25.600 I didn't it because again I didn't want to be that guy. And 104 00:07:25.600 --> 00:07:27.839 then we got the email, Hey we need to talk, and we're like, 105 00:07:27.879 --> 00:07:30.920 okay, this good or bad? But it turned like it turned out, 106 00:07:30.120 --> 00:07:33.399 I think, very very nice for us, and you know, we'll 107 00:07:33.439 --> 00:07:38.240 have the two seventeen recovery center open, know another year, which is great, 108 00:07:38.800 --> 00:07:41.519 yea. And that allows us, you know, they say that you 109 00:07:41.519 --> 00:07:44.199 don't want to rely on grant funding, and we don't, you know, 110 00:07:44.279 --> 00:07:47.480 but it's nice to have, and it's especially when we're new, we're just 111 00:07:47.519 --> 00:07:55.160 starting up. It's it's nice. And of course there's restrictions on that, 112 00:07:55.279 --> 00:07:57.879 so it's like you can't do all the stuff you want to do, you 113 00:07:57.920 --> 00:08:01.199 know, but at the same time, you can do the necessities and not 114 00:08:01.240 --> 00:08:03.800 the bare necessities, but you can do a lot of other things. But 115 00:08:05.079 --> 00:08:09.839 it's it's an opportunity for us to grow and to be in the community and 116 00:08:09.959 --> 00:08:13.759 to raise awareness for people in early recovery and for our cause to help other 117 00:08:13.800 --> 00:08:18.959 people and to grow that way. And you know, maybe there's other you 118 00:08:20.000 --> 00:08:24.000 know, funding sources out there. I know there are, just now we 119 00:08:24.040 --> 00:08:26.240 can maybe focus on being better at that. Yeah, you know. And 120 00:08:26.560 --> 00:08:30.560 again there's things in my recovery that I don't want to do, I don't 121 00:08:30.560 --> 00:08:35.639 know how to do, but that would be it, And that's a challenge, 122 00:08:35.679 --> 00:08:41.200 I guess. Yeah, sometimes you have to challenge yourself. But if 123 00:08:41.240 --> 00:08:45.080 I just sat back and just did a podcast, because that's what I'm familiar 124 00:08:45.080 --> 00:08:48.799 with, that's what I know, we would be in a trailer somewhere and 125 00:08:48.840 --> 00:08:50.919 not there's nothing wrong with trailers, but I'm just saying like we would be 126 00:08:52.240 --> 00:08:54.960 at a way different spot than we are right now. Yeah, you know. 127 00:08:54.000 --> 00:08:56.840 And same thing with you if you're just like, well, I don't 128 00:08:56.600 --> 00:09:00.000 I don't know how to get back into school. Of course you knew. 129 00:09:00.240 --> 00:09:03.960 But like your thing was when you you mentioned the last podcast, when you 130 00:09:05.039 --> 00:09:09.200 become delinquent on your student loans, then it's not as easy just to go 131 00:09:09.240 --> 00:09:13.000 get one that make you pay them for six months. But you could have 132 00:09:13.080 --> 00:09:16.320 been afraid of that and not even checked into from I'll just go through life. 133 00:09:16.440 --> 00:09:22.120 Just should have done that. Yeah, maybe one day I will, 134 00:09:22.120 --> 00:09:26.360 but you didn't. You looked into it and you faced, Okay, well 135 00:09:26.399 --> 00:09:28.360 here's what I gotta do. When you did it, and then you finished 136 00:09:28.360 --> 00:09:33.799 and look at you know. You know, sometimes I said, it's not 137 00:09:33.879 --> 00:09:35.399 what you want to do that day, but it's what you need to do 138 00:09:35.519 --> 00:09:45.399 that day. Absolutely, And for me it's been hard lately because I have 139 00:09:45.480 --> 00:09:48.600 people that are struggling. Man, then I just there's nothing I can do 140 00:09:48.639 --> 00:09:52.919 about it, you know, And that kind of wears on me personally, 141 00:09:52.960 --> 00:09:56.120 even though deep down I know there's nothing I can do for anybody else. 142 00:09:58.240 --> 00:10:01.559 You know, they gotta want it themselves. They have to realize that there 143 00:10:01.639 --> 00:10:05.519 is a problem there. And sometimes I'll be driving. That's why I do 144 00:10:05.559 --> 00:10:09.360 a lot of thinking and I just want to say to people sometimes, you 145 00:10:09.360 --> 00:10:15.399 know, like like what's wrong, Like not even attack them with the whole 146 00:10:16.200 --> 00:10:18.120 you know you have a drinking problem, or you know you're using too many 147 00:10:18.200 --> 00:10:24.240 drugs, or I just want to go are you okay? But I don't 148 00:10:24.240 --> 00:10:26.440 think I would get that. I would get them Yep, I'm fine because 149 00:10:26.440 --> 00:10:28.399 that's what I would have done. Yeah, I'm good, I'm cool. 150 00:10:28.440 --> 00:10:35.519 Man. This is where are us. Our experience and addiction sometimes works against 151 00:10:35.600 --> 00:10:43.080 us because it's like we know that will not not for sure, but we 152 00:10:43.200 --> 00:10:46.799 know the answers that we can get and the fact that that's not really where 153 00:10:46.840 --> 00:10:52.799 the person's at because we gave them to other people ourselves, you know, 154 00:10:52.639 --> 00:10:56.480 like they're not ready to talk about it, you know, and we don't 155 00:10:56.519 --> 00:11:01.360 know the whole story. But seems like in a lot of these situations, 156 00:11:01.440 --> 00:11:05.879 like we know enough that we know things are not going well, but they 157 00:11:07.080 --> 00:11:11.600 continue to say, Nope, things are okay, everything's fine, but they're 158 00:11:11.639 --> 00:11:16.840 not They're not okay. Yeah. Part of that might be because my drug 159 00:11:16.919 --> 00:11:20.080 of choice is alcohol, and part of that might be the alcohol, you 160 00:11:20.080 --> 00:11:24.440 know, telling me, don't worry. You gotta tell them everything's fine so 161 00:11:24.480 --> 00:11:28.000 that you can go drink again, you know, like once they leave, 162 00:11:28.080 --> 00:11:31.120 you'll be drinking. You know, and that kind of mentality kept me stuck 163 00:11:31.159 --> 00:11:35.240 for a long time, you know, because I would go to a therapist 164 00:11:35.360 --> 00:11:39.080 or whatever and tell them everything was fine, everything was cool. Usually it 165 00:11:39.159 --> 00:11:45.919 was at the river Wood and Bent Harbor, and I would just lie to 166 00:11:45.960 --> 00:11:48.279 them, and I was wasting my time, I was wasting their time. 167 00:11:48.120 --> 00:11:52.919 But you can't make somebody open up to you. And again, like if 168 00:11:52.919 --> 00:11:54.600 I went to the people that I know that are struggling and said, what's 169 00:11:54.639 --> 00:12:00.639 wrong? You know, what's what's bothering you? I don't know. I'm 170 00:12:00.679 --> 00:12:01.879 not the guy they should be telling this to, you know, like I'm 171 00:12:01.919 --> 00:12:07.039 not the person that I mean. I'll be there for them, I'll listen, 172 00:12:07.360 --> 00:12:11.320 but don't I don't know what to tell them. And maybe just getting 173 00:12:11.320 --> 00:12:16.240 it off their chests is a start, I guess. But I just would 174 00:12:16.240 --> 00:12:18.279 hope if I did say that and they started saying stuff that they wouldn't expect 175 00:12:18.279 --> 00:12:24.879 me to have the answers to anything. Therapists aren't supposed to have the answers 176 00:12:24.960 --> 00:12:28.799 for it. They're supposed to help you work through your own experiences and your 177 00:12:28.879 --> 00:12:35.279 history and your feelings and your barriers and all that stuff. But I'm not 178 00:12:35.320 --> 00:12:39.679 therapists to get to where to get to where they can address their own issues 179 00:12:39.720 --> 00:12:50.519 themselves and find answers for themselves or resolve or healing or calmness and or acceptance 180 00:12:50.639 --> 00:13:01.440 or whatever it is. And yeah, we're complicated people, but it's sex 181 00:13:01.519 --> 00:13:03.759 when they're like people you care about and people you want to see do good 182 00:13:03.799 --> 00:13:07.799 and this is like what's going on? Like clearly this is not good, 183 00:13:07.919 --> 00:13:18.320 but you can't really focus like that. You can't attack them because the drug 184 00:13:18.759 --> 00:13:24.960 has them. The drug has their brain and if they were able to step 185 00:13:24.960 --> 00:13:28.399 outside their body and look in, they would see ogs. That's not good. 186 00:13:28.960 --> 00:13:33.120 Yeah, but when you're clouded like that and it's telling you that, 187 00:13:33.000 --> 00:13:37.279 you know, my precious from Lord of the Rings, you know, it 188 00:13:37.720 --> 00:13:39.919 telling you. It gets people that way, like that's all they think about. 189 00:13:39.960 --> 00:13:43.639 That's their friend. Yeah, that protective shield until you realize you put 190 00:13:43.679 --> 00:13:48.159 up a protective shield around it. And even then it's hard to even look 191 00:13:48.200 --> 00:13:52.000 at it because A, I don't want to be an alcoholic. That was 192 00:13:52.039 --> 00:13:56.840 my thing, right, I'm not an alcoholic. Those people beat their wives, 193 00:13:56.879 --> 00:14:01.639 lose their jobs. Those are the people that's not me. Almost died 194 00:14:01.840 --> 00:14:09.679 from drinking, but not alcoholic, you know, and that's the stigma. 195 00:14:09.720 --> 00:14:13.519 I think part of that goes with it because if I was growing up and 196 00:14:13.519 --> 00:14:18.440 people were like, oh, you have people who have a substance use disorder, 197 00:14:18.799 --> 00:14:20.159 they can get help. It's easy. Here, call this number, 198 00:14:20.200 --> 00:14:22.440 you know, and then you can change your life and turn it around. 199 00:14:24.879 --> 00:14:28.879 M I would have had a different view of it, you know, but 200 00:14:30.000 --> 00:14:33.440 just being Oh, these bad sick people, it's oh, their their fault, 201 00:14:33.240 --> 00:14:35.120 you know, the same thing with gambling, anybody. We'll go find 202 00:14:35.159 --> 00:14:41.639 the drone later. Yeah. I remember when loved ones would ask me like, 203 00:14:43.480 --> 00:14:46.679 how are you doing? Like how are things going? And they knew 204 00:14:46.679 --> 00:14:50.159 things weren't going. They ask you the question like they alread you know the 205 00:14:50.240 --> 00:14:54.279 answer, how are you doing? And it's like they know you're not good, 206 00:14:54.519 --> 00:14:58.679 right, and you're just like I'm fine. And I think a lot 207 00:14:58.720 --> 00:15:01.519 of it too, is IM like if I tell them I'm not okay, 208 00:15:01.639 --> 00:15:05.240 then I'm gonna have to follow up with like all the things that are not 209 00:15:05.320 --> 00:15:16.120 okay, And then I'm really like really kind of disclosed, like I'm really 210 00:15:16.559 --> 00:15:22.000 I don't know what the word I'm looking for is, but I'm showing everything 211 00:15:22.080 --> 00:15:24.639 like and then I have to go into everything that really is really going on. 212 00:15:24.519 --> 00:15:28.559 And I'm like, kind of like that vulnerability. I did not want 213 00:15:28.600 --> 00:15:35.519 that, because then they can really see like this is a fricking house of 214 00:15:35.600 --> 00:15:39.399 fucking smoking mirrors, man, Like I'm not doing well at all, and 215 00:15:41.000 --> 00:15:43.360 you know, whatever I say that I'm doing good, and it's the opposite, 216 00:15:45.679 --> 00:15:46.799 you know. And I didn't want to go into all that. And 217 00:15:48.360 --> 00:15:52.399 I don't want them to have to worry about me like I was their problem. 218 00:15:52.440 --> 00:15:56.559 Like if I tell them that I'm not doing well, then in some 219 00:15:56.639 --> 00:16:00.919 weird way, I felt like it was making they would feel a responsibility that 220 00:16:00.919 --> 00:16:04.399 they now had to fix me because they knew I was not well. Like 221 00:16:04.480 --> 00:16:10.480 they couldn't walk around this earth knowing that I was not doing well, you 222 00:16:10.559 --> 00:16:14.320 know yea, and they wouldn't leave or they wouldn't shut up about it, 223 00:16:15.120 --> 00:16:17.120 right, And so then I'm like, I'm just going to do them a 224 00:16:17.120 --> 00:16:21.120 favor and just tell them I'm okay so they can keep on with their own 225 00:16:21.159 --> 00:16:23.919 lives because I am not their problem. And if I tell them I'm not 226 00:16:25.000 --> 00:16:27.840 okay because they're my family, They're going to make me their problem. And 227 00:16:29.000 --> 00:16:33.759 and that's a phenomenon that's a real it's a relationship. It's a relationship, 228 00:16:33.559 --> 00:16:41.320 you know, connection thing that pops up a lot with spouses and children and 229 00:16:42.720 --> 00:16:47.279 you know, we'll see. I don't ever ask you if you're okay. 230 00:16:48.919 --> 00:16:56.320 You don't, I don't think so do I you do, but I would 231 00:16:56.360 --> 00:16:59.320 tell you if I'm not okay, I do. I'm like, you're all 232 00:16:59.399 --> 00:17:02.039 right. Yeah, it's earlier. You were coming on the couch and I 233 00:17:02.120 --> 00:17:03.640 was like, you're right. Yeah, I walked in and you didn't have 234 00:17:03.640 --> 00:17:15.400 dinner made. No, I did not, Just kidding. She doesn't have 235 00:17:15.440 --> 00:17:18.000 dinner made it all the time. No, we're not that kind of family. 236 00:17:18.039 --> 00:17:22.319 And actually, well no, you do get irritated when I spend too 237 00:17:22.400 --> 00:17:26.079 much time at work, though, oh yeah, I do irritated. Is 238 00:17:26.119 --> 00:17:27.039 there anybody out there that knows what I'm talking about? You know what I'm 239 00:17:27.039 --> 00:17:30.079 talking about? Yeah, my wife does that to me too. So yeah, 240 00:17:30.119 --> 00:17:33.240 I'm trying to figure it out. I'm not trying. I'm not trying 241 00:17:33.279 --> 00:17:34.720 to hide I don't hide it. But there's stuff I have to do. 242 00:17:34.880 --> 00:17:38.240 And you look at it like you're just dicking around at work, because you 243 00:17:38.279 --> 00:17:41.599 are a lot of times. But see that time is already wasted, Like 244 00:17:41.599 --> 00:17:44.640 I already did that earlier in the day. But when I'm still there at 245 00:17:44.640 --> 00:17:47.319 the end, I'm really trying to finish it. That's why time management, 246 00:17:47.359 --> 00:17:51.079 it's already too late. So why be at that point because earlier in the 247 00:17:51.160 --> 00:17:55.720 day, when you were when you were doing nothing for forty five minutes bing, 248 00:17:55.880 --> 00:17:57.640 I don't. It's not just bssing. Yes it is. I've heard 249 00:17:57.680 --> 00:18:00.559 it with my own ears. It's not it's I was doing stuff. No, 250 00:18:00.799 --> 00:18:03.680 I word it. You understand. I work in the same office as 251 00:18:03.720 --> 00:18:07.039 you. Sometimes sometimes you don't. You didn't the other day. You weren't 252 00:18:07.039 --> 00:18:11.960 there. It's worse, but it's worse then the fire as I was putting 253 00:18:11.960 --> 00:18:17.359 out, Man, you wouldn't believe it. One thing after another, people 254 00:18:17.400 --> 00:18:21.640 coming in, people saying this, people doing that, telling me, Man, 255 00:18:21.960 --> 00:18:26.079 I wish I could work from right here. You can know I wish 256 00:18:26.079 --> 00:18:32.240 I could, but I can't. I know I'm gonna have to learn no, 257 00:18:33.759 --> 00:18:37.160 because he can't. You hire like an office director to like direct the 258 00:18:37.200 --> 00:18:41.359 office that you have. It's not in your house because I like this working 259 00:18:41.400 --> 00:18:52.319 at home thing. M more cameras. There you go, big brother. 260 00:18:52.440 --> 00:18:59.000 It that whole situation yeah, okay, well yeah, just camera everywhere. 261 00:19:00.359 --> 00:19:03.839 I'd be interesting do a trial for like a week or see what the free 262 00:19:03.880 --> 00:19:07.960 trial is, and then' like buy a bunch of them from Amazon. See 263 00:19:07.079 --> 00:19:11.000 I think I have thirty days to return them? Who and then we can 264 00:19:11.039 --> 00:19:15.440 make a game out of it. Who's making the cut thirty days? Thou 265 00:19:15.559 --> 00:19:18.519 Cory? And then I'll have it to where like I'll oh, I think 266 00:19:18.519 --> 00:19:23.599 I can do it because it turns my from here from home. It'll turn 267 00:19:23.640 --> 00:19:27.119 my office on if I tell it too, like the lights and stuff. 268 00:19:27.599 --> 00:19:33.359 So I think I yeah, I could. I could just do messages, 269 00:19:34.640 --> 00:19:37.319 like if I did a message, I wonder if I do that now? 270 00:19:37.400 --> 00:19:44.720 If it does it if I say keyword dinner's ready, It's like, what 271 00:19:44.759 --> 00:19:48.160 would you want to say? And I'm like that dinner's ready, and then 272 00:19:48.200 --> 00:19:52.319 it says dinner's ready out of all of our speakers. Does it do that 273 00:19:52.359 --> 00:19:56.240 at work too? I'd imagine, So that'd be sweet. So I can 274 00:19:56.279 --> 00:20:00.720 mess with them. I'm like, hey, what do you do? Hey 275 00:20:00.759 --> 00:20:06.799 tell the guy in the green shirt there's no smoking outside our door. And 276 00:20:06.839 --> 00:20:07.759 then I'll put it a speaker out there too, like hey, buddy in 277 00:20:07.799 --> 00:20:11.960 the green shirt. Don't smoke cigarettes there, man, you gotta go to 278 00:20:11.960 --> 00:20:15.680 the road, buddy. Yep, see you later. Thanks for listening, 279 00:20:15.680 --> 00:20:22.400 Matt. That's funny kind of but that would be interesting. And then we 280 00:20:22.440 --> 00:20:26.119 could seriously, like, we could stream it online, charge people like six 281 00:20:26.200 --> 00:20:32.160 bucks a day or a month and see how entertaining it is in our office, 282 00:20:32.960 --> 00:20:36.400 and we can make a TV series out of it. It is pretty 283 00:20:36.519 --> 00:20:41.279 entertaining. And Iwai call it thirty day free trial. Then people get confused 284 00:20:41.279 --> 00:20:45.920 because there's no free trial. They gotta pass the six bucks we get taking 285 00:20:45.960 --> 00:20:48.000 a court and be all over the news. Oh you're a rabbit hole. 286 00:20:48.000 --> 00:20:52.799 You're going on a rabbit hole famous, Okay, aren't you the thirty day 287 00:20:52.799 --> 00:20:55.400 free trial guy? That's not really a free trial. It's six bucks? 288 00:20:56.279 --> 00:21:02.559 Yep. I'd be like that. Catch me outside, girl, cash me 289 00:21:02.559 --> 00:21:04.319 outside. How about that? You know who that is? Right? No? 290 00:21:04.559 --> 00:21:07.359 Oh my goodness, any I need to get that as a drop. 291 00:21:07.400 --> 00:21:14.559 Anyway, she was on Doctor Philka. She was like twelve or fourteen or 292 00:21:14.599 --> 00:21:17.079 something, I don't know. She's like, I'll do what I want. 293 00:21:17.160 --> 00:21:18.400 The mom brought her on there, and Doctor Phil's like, well, you 294 00:21:18.480 --> 00:21:22.960 need to just settle down you need to buy a dirt or dirt and then 295 00:21:23.559 --> 00:21:26.200 somebody in the audience started yelling at or something. She was like, yeah, 296 00:21:26.200 --> 00:21:33.519 we'll cash me outside. How about that she's a rapper or something now? 297 00:21:33.160 --> 00:21:36.839 And see this is what burns my ask because then she got one of 298 00:21:36.839 --> 00:21:44.519 those go watch me video sites or whatever and she made like fourteen million dollars. 299 00:21:45.279 --> 00:21:48.480 Wow. I heard him talking about on the ticket and they were saying 300 00:21:48.519 --> 00:21:52.039 that there's like one picture of her of her up there. She doesn't have 301 00:21:52.039 --> 00:22:00.079 any videos, not even showing boobies. H what the m m? And 302 00:22:00.119 --> 00:22:03.880 seeing you get mad at me for asking for millions of dollars in deviations, 303 00:22:04.480 --> 00:22:07.119 I'm like, wait, wait what people gave her money for? What? 304 00:22:10.200 --> 00:22:14.880 Ah? This world? Were you gonna do? Honey? I don't know. 305 00:22:15.160 --> 00:22:18.160 He's gonna do what we can and we didn't make the world, and 306 00:22:18.240 --> 00:22:21.640 we're just trying to live in it peacefully and being focused and worrying about doing 307 00:22:21.640 --> 00:22:23.599 the next right thing. Yeah, if you get too caught up in the 308 00:22:23.640 --> 00:22:27.799 world, that's something I used to especially when I drank. And maybe it's 309 00:22:27.839 --> 00:22:33.880 because I drank. I don't see you ever being this way, but I 310 00:22:33.920 --> 00:22:37.599 always had an opinion and about something about some people. I was thinking, 311 00:22:37.599 --> 00:22:41.839 all those people on medicade. No, I didn't little did I know. 312 00:22:42.440 --> 00:22:45.480 I was like the oblivious. I didn't know what was going on in the 313 00:22:45.480 --> 00:22:51.559 world. I didn't have much to say about anything. I love sad times, 314 00:22:51.759 --> 00:22:56.400 I'll give them my opinion about stuff that no knowledge on or no right 315 00:22:56.440 --> 00:23:00.920 to give. Oh those people, they're just using this system. People like 316 00:23:00.079 --> 00:23:06.680 that Mark suck, you know, and it's scary to know that you are 317 00:23:07.160 --> 00:23:11.960 radio broadcaster in that moment. Those moments too, I wasn't saying stuff like 318 00:23:11.000 --> 00:23:12.839 that on my radio show, but I'm just saying, like when I would 319 00:23:12.839 --> 00:23:18.759 get drunk, and which is all the time every night. We're talking about 320 00:23:18.759 --> 00:23:21.720 that last night because I was like, man, I would drink over a 321 00:23:21.759 --> 00:23:25.039 fifth a day. But when I say that, I mean from like when 322 00:23:25.039 --> 00:23:30.359 I got home at five thirty to like eleven, Like that's some heavy drinking, 323 00:23:32.799 --> 00:23:36.720 like hardcore. Yeah, that will cause your liver to fail. Well 324 00:23:36.880 --> 00:23:41.319 f why but no, But like when I was starting to drinking mode, 325 00:23:41.359 --> 00:23:42.160 you know, and then I would start, you know, thinking that you 326 00:23:42.160 --> 00:23:45.440 know, I'm better than other people because I got a house and I got 327 00:23:45.480 --> 00:23:48.079 a car and blah blah, blah blah blah, barely holding on to any 328 00:23:48.119 --> 00:23:52.079 of it, maxing out credit cards just to buy the liquor. It didn't 329 00:23:52.079 --> 00:23:56.119 matter if I made twenty eight thousand, if I made forty four thousand, 330 00:23:56.279 --> 00:24:00.680 it didn't matter. It was all check to check and going to liquor. 331 00:24:07.400 --> 00:24:11.440 But I wouldn't change it, wouldn't change any bit of it. I had 332 00:24:11.480 --> 00:24:14.000 to go through that, I had to go through the struggle. Yeah, 333 00:24:14.119 --> 00:24:17.799 it's a lot of pain to go through, and that's why I enjoy being 334 00:24:17.799 --> 00:24:22.480 on the side of it now. Absolutely, it's a beautiful thing. It 335 00:24:22.559 --> 00:24:26.920 really is. Well, we figured we would just do a podcast at the 336 00:24:26.039 --> 00:24:30.839 end of the week. We have a pretty good little day, and it 337 00:24:30.920 --> 00:24:33.279 was exciting, and we are gonna have a pretty good little night if Marty 338 00:24:33.319 --> 00:24:38.920 can stay awake. We're gonna go to the Windfield Plex and John Wick four 339 00:24:40.039 --> 00:24:44.319 is supposed to be on Stars Soon, but we've already seen in the regular 340 00:24:44.359 --> 00:24:52.599 theater, but it has come into Star soon. This podcast we're gonna watch 341 00:24:52.640 --> 00:24:55.640 tonight. No, I have not, but it'll be a good movie. 342 00:24:56.279 --> 00:25:03.039 I think, Yeah, that's Trey's movie. Will Ferrell and Jamie Fox doing 343 00:25:03.160 --> 00:25:06.799 voices. I saw a preview for it like nine months ago. It looked 344 00:25:06.799 --> 00:25:08.920 funny. I watched the preview the other day. Maybe it's because I'm older. 345 00:25:10.599 --> 00:25:12.640 It didn't look funny at all. Right, what's up with that? 346 00:25:12.880 --> 00:25:18.920 Yeah? Yeah, But whatever we watch tonight, we can review tomorrow in 347 00:25:18.960 --> 00:25:21.839 a quick little movie review podcast because we haven't done with those in quite a 348 00:25:21.880 --> 00:25:23.680 while. Okay, And we're gonna get back in the swing of things. 349 00:25:23.720 --> 00:25:26.640 If you want me in this office more, we gotta get back in the 350 00:25:26.640 --> 00:25:29.839 swing of things for the podcast too. Okay, sounds a deal. All 351 00:25:29.920 --> 00:25:32.480 right. Well, thanks for listening to seventeen recovery dot com. 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