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your support and enjoy m m hm. You know they really ought to do
more to clean the windows around here. I feel like, you know,
I feel like this whole city's going as shit, don't you owing to future
tents, Yeah, yeah, gotcha. Yeah. I mean I really thought,
I really thought I was in a bad headspace, you know, before
about this place, but I would cheer myself up, you know. And
I'm looking around kind of just disgusted with everything. I'm just you know,
do you you want to go get like a donut or something I could use.
I could use a donut maybe maybe just donut and a chat conversation.
Sure sounds good, Okay? And I removed my glasses and you can see
that my hands are shaking. There's a uh, there's a place a couple
of blocks from here. I think it's called like a Hole's Doughnuts or something.
It's a pun uh. And we we make we make our way there
and uh sawyer I probably hear you speaking, but I don't know if I
am receiving it at this point. So so I want to hear what you're
saying. But whatever it is, it's probably going to go in one air
and out the other. I'm sorry. It's okay. That was a lot
for you to take in and get it. I guess it's still a lot,
you know, it's still a lot. It's still a lot the process
because I thought here, I am here, I am with with with trying
to have direct communication. You know, that's difficult. That's difficult to somebody
who spends their time behind a computer most days, and being out on the
field and back on the beat has really taught me a lot about how you
want to treat other people, you know, how people like being treated,
Sawyer, I think, you know, it's not just about how how.
It's not about how you treat other people. It's about how they want to
be treated. And so it's just been a lifetime of trying to understand that
lack of understanding. You know, I get being passionate, I get understand.
I understand the spontaneity I really do. What I would hesitate now is
that have I given too much of myself to this, to this cause,
to this case, I feel like I feel left behind. Actually, Sawyer
and We're walking and I'm hustling, and I can see a hole donuts,
and now you can kind of smell it, you know, it's sort of
in the air, because they do. They pump out that donut smell.
They know, they know that that gets people. And right now, I
think that's where my nose is headed. So that's where I'm going. If
it's at least a point of empathy, I certainly understand the feeling of being
left behind. Yeah, ever since I've come to the LAPD, that's pretty
much what I felt like on a regular basis, or maybe I felt that
way my whole life. I've never really played well with others. I've always
found it very challenging. Typically when you open yourself up to other people,
when you trust them, then you're giving them the tools to take you apart
one way or the other. And I understand that you gave a lot of
trust the skiff. I I wanted to, you know, I wanted to
give freely there and I just stopped talking. Okay, I think we're here.
I opened the door. There's a little tinkling bail, and then as
you walk in underneath the rug there's a whoope cushion sound when you walk in,
and I'm so out of it, I don't even it doesn't even register
with me. There's some like cartoony posters on the wall. There's you know,
there's there's butt themes. There's there's a whole lot going on here.
But someone knows that they Okay, they are, they are ready? Okay?
Uh? Hello, Hi, Hi, how can I help you today?
Hi? Oh? Gosha? Can I get them? Now? See?
For me, it's always a toss up between the garbage can or the
peanut butter? Do you want that in in a size? Or super a?
Oh? Could I get the super a? Please? Absolutely, it's
a super A kind of day. I'm Sawyer. You want anything? Just
a cup of coffee is fine? Okay, you know, I think I'll
do a coffee as well. All right, would you like, uh,
sit right over there, we'll bring it over, okay, thank you.
And I settled down into this booth and it's that weird. There's no comfort
at all when you sit on it. It's basically like sitting on a box
of wood with some pleather some red pleather over it, but the pleather has
kind of gotten like some gashes in it's gally just like you know, yeah,
yep, they don't take care of it. They really don't. The
table underneath it there's like gum, so you really don't, you know,
put your hands on the on the table. But they've got great donuts,
got great donuts. So that's why I'm here. My leg is shaken,
and I feel inclined at this point to really tell Sawyer how I feel,
because I don't know if I've ever really done that with anybody. I don't
know if I've made my intentions clear. I've only been dedicated. I've only
been case oriented and and stringent to the point of it affecting my mentality and
my psyche. So I look at Sawyer and I say, how do you
how do you really feel about about And I can barely say the word about
Replicance. I've hated them for I've hated them since the blackout. I think
before then, I saw them more as harmless. And I mean, I
read the reports. I know what they were capable of, don't get me
wrong, but I guess I always just sort of saw them as a companion
to us as the species. I never really thought I never feared them.
Never. No, I might have envied them a little bit, the way
their minds work sometimes I find that fascinating. But after the Blackout I feared
them because I told you, when the blackout hit, I was very high
up in the air and my mother was in the spinner with me. And
I don't know if you've ever fallen from a great height before, but there's
this lurch that you feel where your entire world falls away and you become a
victim to gravity and nothing you do or say, or think or feel,
and that moment will change the fact that the ground is coming to meet you.
And we met it, and it took her away from me, and
it destroyed me. It nearly killed me. And on a philosophical level,
the blackout was the burden of the Library of Alexandria all over again, on
a completely unprecedented scale. Every time I have to every time these implants become
a part of my focus or a part of my attention, or I have
to get them fixed or have to adjust, or something hits me just wrong,
I remember how much I hate them. Yeah, how much I hate
the underground and what they've done to all of us. It's just there's a
very personal note there for me as well. Yeah you in the precinct,
you told me to protect myself. Yeah, I know, Bob is giving
you the third degree. He really wanted you to analyze what I was doing.
I got. I'm curious why you why you let me, why you
let me do that? And if you even know what it is that I
deleted. I don't. I'm not sure who to trust at this point,
and I think the last person that I really confided in, hm. I
don't know if having someone's back means the same as it does to everybody.
I think. I think that's a phrase that can be very subjective. When
I was a little girl, I used to read books all the time.
I loved sci fi, loved it. And uh oh, yes right here,
yep, yes, we've got we've got yeah, the two for you
here just right in the middle. Yep, yep, perfect, Thank you
very much, I thank you. I will let me take a bite of
this first. I've just I'm just I need some sugar h mm hm hm
right five stress of fresh as m oh, this place is just amazing.
You know what, No one ever comes here because no one wants to go
to a place called a hole donuts. But oh man, I can't imagine
why. I can't imagine. Huh so where was I? So? When
I was a girl, I read all the time. I loved science fiction
books, and the ones that scared me the most were the ones about robots,
the ones about aliens, the ones about people that weren't people, the
ones that were body snatchers. And I remember when they started to look like
people. I remember when they stopped looking like a row, but they stopped
looking distinguishable, And Sawyer, do you know how much that scares me?
And I had my face because I don't want anybody to see me cry.
But I'm breaking down. We we lost ourselves, Sawyer, We lost ourselves.
We're no longer human, and our soul is gone. It's lost.
I used to think I was a figurative cog in the machine, and now
we haven't been machines and the machine. How can we tell the difference?
And why why would we do this to ourselves? I'm afraid I don't have
I don't have whatever it is. I don't have whatever it is that that
skiff went looking for. I'm afraid I don't share it, and I'm terrified.
I'm terrified that I've lost my friends, and I'm terrified. I'm terrified
that humans are going to lose each other. And I'm terrified because I've spent
my entire life wondering who I am and figure it out, only to be
told that I'm no better than a computer. And I feel like I'm I'm
no longer on the same road. I feel like I'm no longer walking that
same path of self discovery. I feel like I'm just living for other people,
and now other people are living for things that aren't living. And I
don't know what to do. And I stopped and I grab another donut.
M Oh, there's the one with them with the jam inside. Are truly
good you. I don't even think I asked for this one. They just
gave me an extra donut. That's why I lack them here. They can
tell when I'm having a bad day. You haven't lost yourself. So out
of all the people I've ever met, you are the one who's stuck to
her guns and her convictions in spite of everything. Straight Shooter sell, You've
always tried to do right by others, but ultimately you do what's right for
everybody, even if it's difficult. But what is right you? That's very
complicated questions. That's the question, right like where where? Where's the line?
And who says this is this is the line? I thought, I
thought I could be that person. But that's where I felt like, maybe
there's fewer and fewer people with that mindset, because hell, if I can't
tell the difference, then you wonder what is the difference, what's the difference,
and what difference does it make if I keep trying, if I keep
trying to be this straight shooter, I've killed nine of those things. Nine.
I mean, that's for me. It was easy to do and I
didn't have a qualm in the world about it. Are you? Are you
having qualms now? I'm having qualms about what direction this world is leaning in.
I found myself gone with a flow more often than not. But I
take being a blade runner very very seriously. I know I looked at it
less as a job and more of a mission, a call, a calling,
something that I felt I needed to do. I needed to have separation,
I needed to have something that gave me purpose, something that told me
you're fighting for humanity. You're doing what's right by humanity. I might not
always agree with the force, but I have my reasons for doing things.
And I've seen so much that some of my brain feels like it's constantly on
fire and I can never put it out. What worries me the most is
really sharing this with anybody else. At this point. I don't think this
is a common opinion at all, So you're and that also scares me.
It scares me because I I never wanted to be a bad guy. I
didn't want to be the villain, but it feels that way now. Heroes
and villains is all just a matter of perspective. It's what's right. It's
a line in the sand. He's sworn yourself to a higher calling, law
and order against chaos and unmitigated, uncontrolled replicants that can seamlessly blend in with
society. That's chaos. It feels chaotic. It feels like I when you
really think about it, Sawyer, when you really truly look at what makes
a person a person, we're just meet sex with imprints and all of our
experiences make us who we are. Years, decades, half a century,
for fuck's sake. That's such a long time. In the grand scheme of
a human it's such a long time, and we're only here for a short
time, Sawyer. Humans have only been here for a blip out of a
blip in the in a huge blip. And this bigger picture is who are
we going to be? Who are we? What are we going to look
like? And are we now going to rely so heavily, so heavily on
machines to deep in our connection with each other that we're just going to end
up in the dirt anyway, It is not gonna matter. I don't know
what kind of legacy we're creating for ourself, Sawyer, but it scares the
fuck out of me every single day. Scares me because they're They look like
people, and they breathe like people, and they have these memories like people,
They have these experiences like people, They have feelings like people. They
made them to have feelings like people. I have qualms about that. I
have qualms. I have qualms about the roach that screams for mercy and I
take a swig of my coffee. Do you want to know what I deleted?
Yes? I do. After the accident, I lost one eye and
both of my ears were damaged beyond repair. The rest of my body didn't
look too good either, but that was able to heal with a bit of
assistance. I was trained to be. I was trained to be counter security
for Wallace Corporation. I studied at one of the universities. That was my
career path, That's where I was meant to end up. The crash changed
everything. I lost my mother and my father lost his wife. He was
a considerably influential and powerful man, and he used that influence to give his
son his life back. I guess that's a funny thing. Replicants walk around
with meat and sinew and bones. I guess I've got more circuitry in me
than the average replicant does. That's kind of funny. And it was given
to me as a newly sung life. And I was prepared to serve Wallace
Corporation and exactly the capacity that I previously intended. But suddenly they didn't want
me anymore. When I woke up the deal that my father took, whatever
it is, he's off world now it's just me. So I talked to
this Wallace representative and she tells me that they don't have a place for me
anymore. Says, go, spend a few years developing your skill set elsewhere,
and then maybe we can talk again. And that kind of suited me
because after everything went down, the thing I hated more than anything was replicants.
So you know, my psychological profile was not perfect, but I had
all the marksmanship credits to my name. I had effectively a I don't know,
an equivalent to police academy training trans friend of the LAPD and joining the
blade running Unit's all I wanted. There's no debt or strings hanging over me.
What was on my terminal was designed to make it look like there is.
I'm silent for a good bit. I'm not too old of anybody on
coffee or anything. Oh and I wiped my eyes like furiously. Can I
just sit down like a bandkerchief? Oh? Thank you? Thank you so
much. Read sure, Yeah, that'd be great, thank you. I
enjoy it. Thank you so much. Oh I did? I'm sorry,
I'm sorry. What were you saying? There are no strings on me.
I'm here by my own accord. I don't report to anybody. I joined
the LAPD because it felt like my calling. No one, That's why I'm
here, And whoever this mole is he seemed to be aware of my history
with Wallace and they're trying to use it to their advantage and put me under
That's what I deleted. That's what you gave me, the leave to delete
my bank records and details about my implants that are pulled up in such a
fashion that it's meant to porch my reputation if it comes to light, and
as far as I can tell, throw the scent off Tyrell. It all
comes back to Tyrell. It all comes back to this, because if there's
one thing I hate more than a Replican sell, it's Tyrell. I know
me too. I understand what you're saying about them thinking and feeling. They
have memories, they have thoughts, they have feelings. I understand that,
like every single one of them, is stolen. It's both of stolen memories,
stolen thoughts, other people's stolen dreams. Whatever thoughts and dreams and feelings
they have don't belong to them. And I feel a great deal of sympathy
that fact, But it doesn't change the fact that I could care about them
a lot more if they weren't killing us, if they weren't trying to de
Troy the civilization that we've built upon. The blackout is a nightmare that I
never want to see repeated, and that's why I have it out for the
underground. Yeah, that's what they did is unconscionable. Yeah. Yeah.
So you said you're not sure what having someone's back means. Yeah, and
I'll tell you this. Having someone's back to me is that I've handed you
everything you need to destroy me if you want to, you haven't, and
that means I trust you with my life, and that means I don't care
what side we're on. I'm on your side. So whatever road you choose,
whatever path you take, I will follow you on that road. That's
what having your back means. I hope you mean that I do. There's
a reason I sought you outsell when I hesitated the first time I ever pointed
a gun at a replicant, and I hesitated, and that poor guy got
mulched because of it, and you had to retire it because I couldn't in
that moment. I have never forgiven myself for that mistake, and I have
just been trying to make it up ever since. You deserve a partner,
not just an LAPD appointed partner, but someone who is going to watch your
back? You know what's really eating at me right now? I think the
thing that's eating at me the most is is the squad sawyer when you hesitated.
I remember you told me not to put it in the report, and
I did anyway, and we didn't speak after that. I watched my partners
dissolve. I don't know what I'm going to do with that just yet,
but I can tell you it sure feels very heavy, like I'm trying to
balance on a tight rope with uneven weight and I'm tipping and that's gonna be
hard. I I thought we built a pretty good rapport. So anyway,
thank you, thank you, thank you for listening. Really a lot to
me, and uh I feel a little better. You know. It's just
gonna be a different road to take, I suppose than the one I was
expecting. The question I have, sal is what do we do next?
You know my answer to that. Our job, our fucking job. In
that case, I have a suggestion. Please ask Holden to instate me as
a blade runner so I can watch your back properly. I'm ready to sell.
This is what I'm meant for. We'll see what we can do.
I think this might call for it. You ready, here's the thing.
Oh, we currently have the tyrou network in our office. You've identified it,
and we've identified its relay point pre sees control of that. We can
redirect it. We can shut the whole thing down. We can get rid
of the intelligence leak from inside the department, or at least the technological leak.
I still believe there's a personnel leak behind that. If you've been hiding
things from holding because we haven't been able to trust what's set inside those walls.
We may be able to change that. Now we may be able to
tell him everything, and from there we can do our job. Let's head
back and stand up. I got your backst thanks sir, and I reach
out my hand or handshake. I shake your hand with both hands, that
double handed clasp and real to look you in the eyes for a second before
we go to leave. Thank you for the donuts. They're delicious. Have
a good day you too, may beat less of an a. Thanks,
and the little bell goes off and we head out. You sure know how
to pick her, they really do. And I started heading back a few
pieces of shit fucking scum. Oh you do just take you leech off the
city. Fuck you, h M, fuck you. Come on. Bob
is standing in an alleyway. He's got a little blood dribbling down his mouth.
He's taking a couple of hits. He's surrounded. There are four people
common thugs. Maybe he doesn't know. I don't care. I step back
to try and get the brick wall at my back so I can get a
view of all of them, waiting for one of them to get close enough
again so I can punch. And I'm waiting and I throw a punch.
Oh that is a fail. Would you like to push it? No,
not yet, I miss? Do I take? Yeah, let's find out
which one were you attacking? So I would have been attacking. Let's say
this guy right here, they're absolutely going to strike back here. Oh okay,
they also missed. But I believe I will push. Sure, I
can't. Right, it doesn't work for me on that screen. Hold on,
sorry one second, take your ton uh, and I will push both
of them. They miss. God, You're useless, You're worthless. Who's
next? I believe it is one of the other's turns, So we're gonna
go for the one behind you, all right? And I think I just
remembered that you can't push if you're the one that is on defense. Oh
all right, so I wouldn't have been able to do that, but that's
okay. It's been a while since we've done combat. So okay, we're
having this one come in and strike you here and they're gonna be using their
brass knuckles and they miss. Do you get to push? So yeah,
you get to go as well, because every single attack is a contested role
essentially where they get to potentially do damage or you get to potentially do damage.
So you can roll to attack here. But I am going to push
sure two one, So you hit me. How much damage do you do?
I think it's just too damage or your fist. It's not one,
it's one damage. Okay, Like, holy shit, you're gonna destroy it.
Okay, I mean that's fine. I would like that to happen.
Okay, your character sheet is covering the window. Bb oh is it?
Why is it this window? Okay? Thank you? All right, So
now we will go to the one to your right up in front of you,
and I know you guys are gonna not be able to see as I
navigate to the right character sheet here, but one second, and then you
will there you go. How do I pop? I'll just pop this out?
There we go, and they have a club, all right, and
that's a two. I can test that with hand to hand absolutely, okay,
and I also see the rolls are a little behind. I will take
the damage for this one. Okay. What is the what is your Do
you have armor or anything on? I would have the normal police gear.
Yeah, okay, the normal shirt. I believe the shirt does something though,
right, like I need to remove something from your Oh I don't remember
how that works. I know I can roll it. I'm pretty sure,
quite sure. Let's see if this is the right window here. Sorry,
guys, one second, it is not. There we go, there,
we go. Okay, okay, so you take one damage, all right,
and then the last one is going to come in here and strike you.
And they are also using a club. Kay, one zero, you're
gonna take another one, all right. I am turning towards the one that
just hit me, right, and I am going to go for punch them,
and I miss yeah. Would you let go right past him and stumble
a little bit, I'd send up, turn back around and wait. Okay,
they hate you. Yeah, at the club. I take another damage
question. You are taking a you are doing your uh stress right, you
hit your end of your resolve, and this is part of your stressor Now,
I believe the one that you've chosen could potentially give you advantage on these
roles. Would you like to accept that considering the one that you're taking,
That would make sense to me? Sure? Okay, I mean as of
right now, I'm not really caring about my own safety and I'm putting my
all into it. Yeah, so well let the other roles run going forward.
Yeah, yeah, you can have advantage for sure. I think I'm
definitely much more pissed off with each hit. Every time something hits, I'm
angry with a slight smile, so I want to feel it. Okay,
then it is your return, all right. Oh no, no, no,
no, oh no. You just went right, and now they all
get to go again. Okay, wonderful. All right, So we are
starting with number one, who's using a folding knife, and they come at
you with a flick of the wrist and I'm gonna push. Okay, God,
damn it, I did it on the wrong window again. I'm so
sorry, guys. I'll wait for the push and then I'll love yeah,
and I'll do my role. I pushed them both and got the same role.
So one, Hey, they cancel each other out and we do no
damage to each other. Yep. My side step as he goes to stab,
and I just sort of push his arms as he goes past. Hey,
you got the two in front of you and behind you with the club
coming in. Now, okay, I'm gonna go ahead and push, not
on that window. I'm not zero still zero as well. Okay. I
think there's just a lot of dancing going on right now. I'm moving.
The second one coming in with the club is zero, and I'm pushing and
I hate you too. Oh there it is, okay, yeah, that's
to create ring. Yes, unless you roll to defend, which you still
No, No, that was the other one right, No, no,
no, I've rolled after each time, so I don't see it. You
did the club and then I rolled, and oh and then the club go
and then I rolled again. Okay, I believe you. I don't see
it. I see the club, then I see your hand to hand,
then I see the club in my push, and then I see your hand
to hand for that original club in the push. But I don't see one
for this. Oh I rolled a zero, I rolled a four, and
the one for it I thought that was the other club person. There are
two. Yeah, you've got one in front and one behind. Yeah,
go ahead and roll again. I mean I'll hit you critically if you want.
Oh wow, okay, holy shit. Okay, So that means yep,
I grab it and then punch him in the face. Okay, Now
you do the one damage because our two have canceled each other out, so
it really only leaves you with the one. I fucking love the combat the
hand hand like this, it's so good. Okay. Actually there's one person
left. Yeah yeah, yeah, so I did this one okay, okay,
and this one is gonna hit you with the brass knuckles one and I
will not push. I got it one as well, so cancel it out
again. Yep. Okay, nothing happens, and now it is your whoever
did the breast knuckles? Yeah, That's what I'm focused on. Now.
Okay, there's the person directly behind the last person that comes at me with
a two. Okay, I'm gonna go ahead and defend two. Nothing happens,
all right, Okay, I am now going to attack you with everyone.
Here we go again. Yeah, one and I'll push, okay,
with just the one. I probably shouldn't push continually, but yep, still
just the one. Yeah, and I rolled one too, so we canceled
each other out. Okay, okay, you motherfuckers are nothing. You're nothing.
Come on. The fuck is wrong with you, man, the fuck
is wrong with you? He comes in with the club fuck you? Oh
jesus, Okay, you've got the folding knife guy coming in for a low
abdomen stab. It's a one I cannot reroll it. And a one and
they cancel each other out. It is your drink A two? Who are
you going for? Uh? Look the knife? Folding knife? Yep?
Okay, all right, so you only hit for the one damage? Okay,
stay down or run away. Okay, I'm going for folding knife guy
again. Zero, I'm gonna push. I'm pushing them a road. The
two I still failed. Yeah, okay, roll the two? So you're
going to do critical damage to me? What happens? I want to break
their jaw? Yeah? Okay, oh Jesus, okay, Yeah, So
I go in. They come at me with the knife and again I get
within their space like as they lunge. I move in close and I bring
my fist up into their jaw as hard as I can. Okay, so
we're going to say that you didn't roll on this table, but that is
going to be Let me see there is an option for peith knocked out disadvantage
to manipulation roles. Okay, awesome, that's what I'll go with. Okay.
Next, you got the person with the club one in zero they hit
you, take one damage. And then you've got brass knuckles coming in twice,
so you got two three. Oh my god, I rolled a three
okay, So they come at you and you hit them, they take a
damage. And then you got the other person that is now switched from club
to brass knuckles coming in with the one. I'm gonna push it yeah double
krit okay, awesome, let me roll for that crit actually roll me a
one D twelve please sure twelve A two. You have a broken nose and
you have a disadvantage to observation rolls. Hey's sure turn and that's who I'm
gonna hit. Okay with a three two you only do one, that's okay,
and they're going to turn right back around and hit at you with one.
They're going to push still only the one, so nothing happens. You
guys swing and manage to block each other. The next one with the brass
knuckles will come in. That's a two. That's a one. Okay,
they're going to do one damage to you where you at now? Just out
of curiosity. I have one health left? Okay, I thought so at
one health. Okay, this last individual is going to uh strike at you
here with their folding knife. I'm going to push still only the one.
I'll push again. Sure, Actually I don't think I care. Can I
push more than once in combat? I don't know? Does anybody remember?
Why do I vaguely feel like I cannot do that? If you were the
attacker, which I am, should be able to push as many times as
I like, as long as I've got the resolve. Okay, awesome,
let's go, baby God Technically it's not a resolve for NPC's it's health.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. Oh okay, yes, I'm
gonna I'm gonna go one more time here wished me luck? Nope, still
only the one. Okay, nothing happens, Okay, it is your turn.
I'll go for that guy. Yep, it's zero one. They do
want to damage to you. Yep, he gets you what happens, So
I'm real quick before you take the damage. How I put it in the
chat. But how armor works is if damage gets through, you roll your
armor whatever. Oh yeah, the classes like my police shirt is seeze,
I roll too. You roll two. I think you might just be able
to click on a character sheet, but it's earl two d eights. I
will highly recommend that you do that, and every success is a point of
damage taken off for that one. I don't know how it would have worked
with the other since we've you know, we've gone through all this at this
point, so it's okay. I don't think I can push that. So
your police gear, I don't know if you can or not. But with
that I will let you, though only because you're using this is your stressor
moment, and the particular text of this stressor moment says you are able to
do a feat on unbelievably insane like your your mom lifting a car off of
her toddler right now. So I will allow you to do that for sure
if you want to reroll, and it won't take a result from you.
I'm what I'll do is. I'll roll a D eight, so if it's
a sex or higher, it'll network. I like your ca all right,
there you go? No, yeah, okay, so I'm gonna put it
zero. So what happened? So I'm surrounded. I don't know how haggard
these guys look, but they looked pretty fucked up. But one of them's
laughing. I think kind of you see the world going a little bit dark
around you. One of them spits on you. It's full of blood and
bile, and I guess you collapse to the ground. Yeah. I go
against the brick wall and just we're gonna switch scenes unless aalen, where are
you? I'm nearby, I was watching. We'll go to you. Then
I'm gonna flash the badge and you know, walk up behind these guys and
I'm just gonna say, l A PD you want some as well? Like
your friend here, I'm gonna pull out the gun. I'm gonna say,
I don't have as much patience as he does. Sucker attacks us out of
nowhere. I understand what do you mean you understand? Are we under a
rastack off? And leave them? Be get out of here. Manipulation role
please, that's a I'm gonna I'm gonna push, Okay, Okay, you
will, Okay. Then I don't suppose i'd get advantage because I took my
gun out. No, I don't think so. I think. The only
reason I say that is because normally I think maybe. But they're all fired
up because this guy attacked them and they took down the L A p.
D guy. So I think now they're feeling a little bit unstoppable, and
so it might balance that out. But they are going to lunge at you
and attack insane people. Okay, I have a subcompact. Does that is
that short range? It is? It's engaged? Is a minimum range?
Okay? Then we have the gentleman with the folding knife that comes at you.
That is a one. Now I'm just looking right now because I want
to see what my options are for defense here, Okay, I'm intrigued.
Normally, what it says you'd use a firearm in close combat and the range
is fine, so you can actually use your weapon to defend. I believe
you don't have to use hand to hand if you want, but you will
blow their head off if you hurt them, you know what I mean?
Like it's not non lethal damage. Right. If you want to be non
lethal, you have to use your hands, right. Uh. I will
use the gun like a blunt object, and I will try to use it
as a just like a crush. Yeah. I'm gonna use the butt of
the gun to try and smack somebody across the face with it. I'll allow
it. Yeah. Okay. One, it was in with the knife and
you managed to knock his hand away with the with the butt of your gun.
Uh. And that's chance. You got three more attacks coming in.
Uh, not that one, you got this one. Okay, brass knuckles
two sets coming in. That was a fail. I'm going to push the
one. Okay, that's a one. It's a zero for me. Oh
my god. Okay, so they hit you for one damage. Yeah,
here comes in and the other person with the uh, brass knuckles here or
actually we're going to do the club. Oh no, I couldn't find the
sheet. Okay, here we go coming in. Oh yeah, I gotta
roll armor. Sorry, yeah, do that. It's very hard ones.
Okay, so you are taking that damage. Okay, brass knuckles came in
the second one with the Oh Jesus with a one. So I could only
reroll push the second role, but I got a ten, so now I'm
at two instead of zero. All right, rule your defense it is zero.
Would you like to push that? I cannot. I'm defending. Oh
right, okay, Ano, there's zero on the defense and the armor.
Okay, roll me a one D twelve. It's not a D twelve.
What is it? It's based Oh on yours? No, it's based on
yours. You're using grass snu god. Okay. Each weapon has the cride
and that's his highs. Yeah, so you technically would roll a D ten.
Do you want me to do that? Yeah? Yes, please?
Just because I have four different character sheets open, three broken fingers, disadvantage
to firearms and hand to hand combat, it should be fine based on the
situation. Okay, his hands with the brass knuckles just come right down on
top of your hand that is holding the subcompact. Do you drop your weapon
or eight? Are you able to grab it with your other hand? Not
making you lose your weapon to be clear, but narratively I will draw my
weapon. Oh okay, all right, So you drop the weapon and your
hand is now broken, your fingers are broken, and we have one final
attack coming in and that is the club. That is a zero. I
do not push. It's my turn, yep to defend because you have a
chance to do damage to me also a zero. Okay, nothing happens.
It is now your turn. Okay, going to see what I can do
here because I'm about to bolsom bullshita. Please do uh. I have several
grenades on me. Okay, I'm going to pull out the flash bang grenade
that I have, Okay, and I'm going to puld it up with my
thumb on the release. Okay, and I'm going to show them. Okay,
back off, fuckers. Okay. This is a combat action which is
manipulate, so you need to do a manipulation role. Holy shit, three
successes. You have three of them that will run off or back up.
I'm trying to think about what I would do in this situation if you showed
a grenade. Question is do I know it's a flash grenade or regular grenade?
Also, your friend is on the fucking floor. There's no way you're
going to throw that grenade at me. So I'm gonna say two of those
will back up, maybe run away, but you still have two remaining that
laugh and stand close to Bob and go There's no way you're gonna fucking throw
that. You don't know shit about me, But you know that guy on
the ground there, Yeah, this fuckingt he just tried to kill himself by
fighting you. If he wants to go down, that's his choice. But
I'm not gonna let you fuckers take me down. I should have thought of
that before he walked in the alleyway. Just back the fuck off and folding
knife, lunges forward with the knife. That's a two, also too perfect.
No damage is done one of the ones with the club. It remains
coming in. That's a one two perfect. You do one damage. Yeah,
I'd kick them in the balls. Lunges, Oh god, excellent.
All right, it's your turn, just like a push kick right in the
balls. Oh are you rolling at disadvantage? By the way, No,
because you have a broken hand, and now you have disadvantage to hand to
hand and hand on Oh okay, well that would have been a one then,
okay, okay, So then kicking the balls is that hand to hand?
Yeah, believe me, I don't want to be doing this. It's
foot to balls. It is foot to balls, but broken fingers, yes,
for for the next week is what your healing is listed as you have
disadvantage to firearms in hand to hand unless we get some healing done. Okay,
it is now your turn. Okay. Uh let's see here. I
think I'm gonna try and do the old switcheroo. Uh. I think I'm
gonna make it look like I have pulled the pin from the grenade. Okay,
and I leave the pin in and I throw it, all right,
and then I rush for Bob okay, and I'm gonna try and grab Bob
and get him out of there. I think this counts as a manipulation rule,
So go ahead and roll. It's a zero, but I'm gonna push
this. Okay. You have to get it too. Mm hmm. Those
listening, I rolled one for both of the two that were remaining. Is
a zero. I will I'm not gonna push. Okay. Then you throw
the grenade. The pin is still and they look down briefly for a second.
You might see a flash of panic flicker over one of the faces,
and then they see the pin and then they come in to attack. As
you are leaning over Bob folding knife guy is coming in. I will push.
Oh, that is a critical one for both of those, so nothing
happens on that. I got a zero anyway. Okay, second guy with
the club comes in, that's a one. I'm still gonna pushkaus have infinity
health. They're pretty pretty zero for me. Uh okay, that's another.
However, I got a two on my undershirt. Oh thank god. That
canelifies the damage. Thank god, because that would have been another critical.
Okay, all right, it's your turn. Okay. Uh splash bangs on
the ground, subcompacts on the ground. Uh. I'm gonna try and handcuff
this one that's attacking me. Okay, Now that is something strange. That's
like a grapple, right, I think it would still fall under a hand
to hand roll or force. Maybe No, I think that's a right because
the whole point of grapple is that they're unable to move or and they have
to try to have to break free. The only other options are like throw
weapon, first aid, manipulate, sprint, crawl, unarmed attack, and
mealy attack. So I think I'll go with grapple. I think that makes
the most sense. So don't forget. Yeah, you've got disadvantage. Unfortunately
A one. Ah, I can do a standard hand to hand roll here,
right, Yeah, okay, also a one, so it is not
a success okay, Uh I will I'm gonna push Okay, God damn it.
That's a one. Okay, natural one, I should say, so
zero success zero U. He was rolling only one die, so he was
taking a huge risk there. Uh, this is my stress moment as well.
Yeah, okay, great, are you rolling on the table. I'm
gonna roll that secretly if I can find the right die. Okay, let's
see here, I need to confirm what I'm rolling. Okay, this is
base die corresponding to your empathy rating sending you a d M yep. Okay,
okay. So as this happens and I go for this handcuff role,
and I'm assuming that this person as I try to like slap the handcuffs on
their wrist, I just kind of get my wrist grabbed or something. Yeah.
Absolutely, or he splashes at your wrist because he can do damage to
you here. Yeah, However, in this case, what's going to happen
is I'm actually going to anticipate that and need him really hard in the balls.
He doubles over and again starts like heating, almost like he's about to
vomit because you can him so hard. Okay, the guy with the club
is still gonna come in at you though it's a two. There's just a
really cold expression on my face. I'm not talking with them anymore now it
looks like I'm trying to hurt them. Yeah, as he comes in with
the club, I will no longer be a disadvantage. I am going to
that's right. I'm probably gonna try and go in and punch him in the
neck. Okay, So he is using his role on the table to remove
his disadvantage for those listening. So now he's just doing a straight role.
That's a zero success okay, and that's a one take damage. He still
has to do the please gear Yep, that's right, thank you. It's
a two, so I nullify it. Oh thank god. Okay, it's
your turn again because I'm letting that stressor thing that amazing feet take away.
This guy's turn. The other one's charge with the knife. Yeah, when
I go to punch on the neck, he goes up to stab, but
there's that the like kevlar that's underneath, and you can there's resistance there and
he can't he can't quite pierce and I've stopped talking now and as he gets
in close, I'm gonna grab his wrists and twist and try and either break
his wrists or his elbow. Okay, okay, that is ah, And
this is remind me which guy this is again? The club or the folding
knife? The guy you kicked the ball just attacked me? Okay, the
club on, Yes, nothing happens. He blocks it with the club.
When we have our stress moment, our, our resolve resets correct. Well,
I think it's one. It resets one until the gene is over.
I think we just looked that up until the seed is over. Yeah,
you do one automatically if there's no one around to help you, which is
the case because Bob's unconscious. Okay, then yeah, then one to one,
so that's no damage. I try to break his arm, and then
I think the other one sort of interrupts, trying to hurt me from behind.
Hey, I'm coming in with the knife. I do not push.
It's a zero. It's a one for me. This guy stumbles backward when
you hit him. This time, his blood is gushing. I've got the
guy. I'm trying to grab the guy's wrist and I can't get good leverage,
so spin him around and I throw him into the other one. Sure,
the one comes into attack me with the folding knife, yep, okay,
And but he stumbles back as he's hit a little bit and seems a
little dazed for a second. But the guy with the club is going to
come in to attack. Sorry, that was your move, right just now?
No, that was mine defending. Okay, nothing happens. We're going
to and I'm not going to push it. So we're going to say that
he's toppled into him and he's unable to come in for an attack for you,
but you get it zero to defend as well. Okay, So nothing
happens, Okay, all right, it's your turn out, now it's my
turn. Okay, all right, So, uh I think this time I'm
going to again. I'm trying to use one of them to block the other
one. Okay, So the way that I'm fighting is I'm using the other
guy to sort of get in between and block the other guy from attacking.
And uh, I will, is there anything on the ground here anything I
can use as an improvised weapon? Are we like in an alley? You
are in an alleyway? Okay, I mean you could use the grenade as
an improvised weapon. I could use the grenade, just beat them bluntly with
the grenade. Right, I'm sure you can find an improvised weapon. I
will use the grenade, but not as an improvised weapon. I'm actually gonna
pull the pin and throw the flash bang and try and cover my ears and
my eyes. Uh. And I don't know if that is a what I'm
rolling for that. I think that's firearms actually, okay, I believe that's
before it. Also, you get one point of resolve after a shift has
passed, so technically you don't have that result still zero. Okay, all
right, thank you. See that's okay. So then what happens with the
flash bang when it goes off at disaurients or does it disengage them from loud,
very loud sound in an enclosed alley way. It's going to be extremely
loud, no, I know, but mechanically very bright light, So mechanically
I'm not sure. I'm not sure either. That's the one. We haven't
really used those before. Well, I've used the four but it didn't work.
Explosions, but it's not an explosion type of grenade. So I mean
it's it's gonna be loud and bright and probably definitely at least make them lose
a turn. All in the zone must roll observation or lose their next turn.
Yeah, okay, that means you as well. Right, well,
I rolled a crit. So I don't know if you want to give me
that as a freebie or if you want me to roll that or with some
kind of advantage on my observation role. Maybe, Yeah, it's a crit
as in uh, I think maybe you might borrow your tie, please zeke
your honor. My client is he has suffered much from your accusa. Wait
where are we exactly? Okay, so I'm gonna do observation. I got
a zero as well. I also got a zero hold on let me roll
for the other one. I also got a zero. I think that we
all lose two rounds, but we all lose it because of your crit.
So it's loud. We hear the you know, if this were a film,
we hear that, Yeah, exactly, the like super high pitch.
You're struggling maybe to find Bob. I just realized Bob has to make a
medical role as well. But we'll do that in a minute. Okay,
So after that, uh, they're gonna I will give you your turn again
because everybody lost two rounds, including you, so now that makes it your
turn again. Yeah, I'm gonna pick up my gun yep, okay,
will that be my action or that this is way cooler. I'm gonna say
that during the two you know, I'm listen. Any chance I get that
narratively makes sense, I'm trying to help you guy, okay. Yeah,
Also, no mercy, So I've got my gun out, I'm just gonna
shoot somebody. Yep, okay, pick one please we'll say folding knife.
Yeah, okay, that would make sense. And I don't know if I
still have am rolling with normal or if I'm back to disadvantage. Now what
would you say? I think you're still in your stressor moment. So I'm
actually gonna let you stay at normal okay for now, but when it's over,
when the scene is over, then yeah, you'll be back at disadvantage
for the week. So one I will push because I have zero you can
you're defending all right damage, and this is shoe damage. He goes down.
How do you kill him? Uh? I think that I shoot him
in the head. It's right through the eye. Okay, get out of
here. He's going to come in at you. That's a two. He's
shaking and screaming and absolutely inconsolable right now. Okay, uh yeah, I
shoot, but I miss uh two successes on the club, one success of
my firearms to defend, and I will Yeah, I'm gonna take damage here.
Okay, who okay, now we're back to my turn right. Yeah.
I think he's uh. The man who's facing you is screaming. Tears
are running down his face and he's saying, just came out of nowhere.
We're not even doing anything. The fuck is wrong with you? I'm going
to point the weapon at him and I'm going to say, looks like it's
a bad day for everybody, and I fire. Fuck you, man,
Our lives are worth something, and you kill him? How do you kill
him? This is also the same shot through the eye. What do you
do now, kiln? I look at my gun and I run over to
Bob and I check on him. Okay, So I think this means you
can do a medical role if I'm not mistaken. Yeah, okay, Bob,
Yeah, how are you? How are you? You were really fucked
up? Right. You want to describe what he sees? Uh? Yeah,
you Most of everything you see is just blunt force trauma. My nose
is broken, blood is dribbling out of my mouth. My forehead is split
where a club landed at one point. Ah, you don't need to see
under my shirt to know how bruised my ribs are. The purple is already
starting to show. There's probably a crack, maybe a break. I am
slumped down against the brick wall in a very awkward way, the way that
you could only fall if you pass out while standing. If you didn't knowing
better, you'd think that my arm is broken, but it's not. It's
just laying behind me. I am drenched. What did you do, Bob?
What did you do? You fucking idiot? You can absolutely make him
conscious or bring him, make him wake up right now if you'd like,
Bob. But there are I think when you open your eyes, there's a
rain coming down on top of you. Galen is bloodied as well. He's
leaning over you. There's the neon lights, you know, cascading over his
face. It's really kind of hard to tell what his expression is at the
moment because of where he is and where the light is coming from and you
can't help. But notice there are two dead bodies beside you, eyes wide
open. Oh fucking fuck, Galen. Mm hmm, what you do?
They were going to kill you, Bob. You should have let them.
Why are you helping me? I push him back? Fuck? You're my
partner, you dumb ass. What the fuck is that even mean? What
the fuck's that even mean? The partner who cares? Man, who fucking
cares? Just let me die, Just let me die. Stop whining.
If you were angry with somebody, you should have. Why didn't you punch
me? That's who you're really angry at, isn't it. No? No,
maybe you didn't do anything. The skiff didn't do anything. How am
I not the bad guy? Alan? I don't know, Bob, I
don't know. What are we doing? What are we doing? You said
you were just trying to do your job. Yeah, look, I'm sorry.
I put this all on you. You didn't put shit on me?
What do you mean put no, Bob, you're the one that's always retired,
the replicants, all that, all that's been put on you, Bob.
I've killed so many feelings. I know, I've killed so many I
know. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. H me too,
I'm sorry I made you. I look over at the dead bodies. Oh
god, they were gonna kill you. Fault. They weren't doing ship.
Look at me, Bob, they were going to kill you. I had
to do it. I'm just sorry I didn't get here sooner. I gotta
call this in, Bob mhm, oh no, don't, don't. Don't.
I'll I'll call it in. Go give me you're gonna know it was
my bullets. Bob, give me your gun. My gun's in the car,
right, No, and take out his gun. I didn't leave it
in the car. I brought it with. You're not gonna leave your gun
in your car? What are you? An idiot? Should happen sometimes?
Just leave your gun and go. I'll call it in. I'll deal with
it. That's not what partners do, Bob. No, No, but
partners listen to each other. Not this time. Shut up and rest against
the wall. Dispatch now, D yeah, this is this is uh Detective
Galen Edwards badge B three three seven dash four one go ahead. Uh.
We get an officer injured, uh conscious injured, and we have two dead
bodies okay, uh I I can send uh back up if you need or
do you just need medical? Be medical? Al right, well done,
officers. Now, Bob, you gotta get our story straight. At a
disagreement with Skiff, left a bit angry, walked into a alleyway and there
was four guys. Maybe it was a drug deal. Maybe maybe they were
about to fight. I don't know. I don't know, galic, I
can't do this shit. I'm not good at this shit. He had a
disagreement, he yelled at some thugs. They pulled weapons and attacked. You
left. You didn't have your weapon on you. He left it with me
for safe keeping. By the time I saw what happened, I tried to
intervene stopped the attack, but you had already been injured. I was forced
to shoot to these individuals. They wouldn't back off. Used a flash bangrenade
to try and scare them off. Didn't work. Had to shoot him,
all right, all right? The other two ran off. Four by the
way, Really, you are an idiot. Almost had them They had weapons.
I didn't, Yeah, they did. Gonna sit down next to Bob,
leaning against the wall, just absolutely drenched. At this point, broke
my fucking fingers. Sorry, look over at him. Your nose is broken
too. Yeah, I'll leave it like that for now. I don't know
what to do, Galen. We'll figure it out. Yeah, I wanna
ask you some questions, shoot might as well? Who are the bad guys,
who are the enemies? Who's right and who's wrong? And who gets
to decide that just because somebody's a replicant doesn't mean that they deserve any other
kind of treatment and kill somebody and go to jail. I say this,
and I look at the two on the ground. I just I don't.
I can't get past. I'm trying so hard, Ailan. The whole walk
here from that ice cream shop all the way to here, and they took
her. They killed her, maybe not directly, but you, I mean
they would they would have known. And then and then I want to apply
that to them. I want to apply that to the replicants, that they
would have known, and how how could they how could they not care?
And then you and then you, then you look at why they did what
they did, and and I just never wanted to care. I never wanted
to care because they took her. We all know why they did what they
did. We know why they set that off. So they they care about
each other, they care about themselves. I look over at the two dead
in the alleyway. I've had to kill humans in the line of duty because
I'm doing my job, because I care. I don't want to be wrong
Galen, nobody does. Uh. I want to hate h the only reason
I get up, and I just don't care anymore. You told me before,
maybe not with words, but I'm pretty good at reading people. Bob.
You killed a lot of replicants, retired them. You can say that
you hate them all you want, but it's eating you up. They're too
real. I I don't know when it happened, but mh, whatever that
separation is, I can't. I can't. I can't make it make sense
anymore. That's okay. In a I'm gonna just kind of nudge him with
my shoulder. So do you have partners for Yeah? I would ask for
Galen to roll a manipulation, but in a negative way. One success.
I look up, I look over at him and thank you. I'll have
your back. I need you a little bit right now. Okay. I
don't think I can. There's a lot about me I can't trust I guess,
I don't know. I don't care, but I'm angry. I don't
know how I'm gonna react to things. I'm gonna and then I I do
lean over and say, I'm leaning on you as your partner. I can
trust you, you can trust me. You had to do a lot of
the dirty work, Bob. I'm sorry. It was dirty work. God,
I already couldn't sleep. Fuck, it's a bad day for everybody,
Bob. Yeah, okay, I'm just gonna close my eyes just for a
minute. Yeah, just be careful. You got a concussion. Probably you
idiot? Am I allowed to ask her by what just happened? Yeah?
By all means? Is it true? What's that child? You met?
One of the you know, even your project? Yeah? I wasn't sure
for a long time myself, but been confirmed that that was a real thing
that happened. And it must have been so confusing. It wasn't though,
I mean, unless you're talking about later on. But at the time,
kids are pretty good about accepting what's in front of them and not thinking too
hard about it. At least I was. So. She told me she
was what she was, and I didn't really think about it all that much
after that. It was just one of those funny things that you know,
like my friend has freckles or curly hair or something. Just something you know
about them, but it's not something that you've back then ever defined them for
me. The teacher once who said that if one in ten kids went on
an exchange, you'd have no war because no one wants to kill their friends.
Yeah, I've also heard the uh, I don't know thought experiment,
philosophical debate about the only thing that will unite the planet is a alien invasion,
a common enemy. Exact. We've always been our own worst enemy,
though, and that hasn't changed apparently. Yepe, are you going to get
in trouble? Seemed like you was very upset? You know, that's a
good question. I don't know, and you're okay. I'm just just sit
here and continue eating ice cream with you anytime. Well, what if they
come for you? That doesn't scare you. When you join the force,
join the force for a reason, and sometimes you lose that, sometimes you
lose the reason why you did it in the first place. I bet you
most people, most cops will tell you something in the in the neighborhood of
a sense of duty. That's why they do it. They felt like now
being copied, call it a calling. Sometimes you lose that feeling with all
the different cases in the minutia, paperwork and all that stuff. But I'll
tell you this. You ask if I'm scared if they come and get me.
I suppose. But along with that, I feel like I found my
copy. Reason Again, I was a little mixed up. But the thing
we forget a lot of times, try and do good, just good,
try and allow more good in the world by taking away some of the bad.
And I feel good about what I'm where I am right now mentally,
So if they take me away to be with a smile on my face,
because if you go down for something that you know is right, not really
going down, I think I agree with that. Maybe we don't lose it,
Maybe it just changes reason. What about you? You get a story?
I have lots of stories. Do you mean why I joined the force?
Yeah? I want to hear. I want to hear a lot more
of them, but that one will start, okay, Well, I I
I was recruited by Wallace at the very young age, and it made me
feel smart working for them, you know, like I could I could do
anything, and you know, I mean, every corporation has some sort of
you know statement as to you know, why you should work for us and
we're great and we're going to change the world, and none of them mean
it. But I really felt like, like Wallace did, they have this
whole division devoted to food and trying to solve that problem, and but instead
of doing that, I couldn't. I mean, I know that I sit
at the desk and I look at numbers all day, but there was something
about being in a laboratory doing that all the time every day that I felt
like I would I would lose my reason because it seems like it's easy to
forget about the world outside of the laboratory. You're only looking for one result,
and then you're looking for a specific result and you're hoping, and day
after day you might not get that result. And I need little wins in
my life. I don't have the constitution to sit there and go and go
and just continue hoping for the one result that continues to elude me. You
gotta remember to give yourself a break. I mean, I bet, I
just bet. There were times when Mother Teresa was alone with her best friend
or something when you know, one of these motherfuckers going to stop being hungry?
Yeah, probably she probably swore too, do you think? So why
do we do that? Actually? I don't know. Why do we like
idolize people and strip away all their flaws? Is it so that it's as
easier for us to strive for something? Okay, say that home or not?
Why do we? Okay, so like Mother Teresa, for example,
you said one of these motherfucker's going to stop being hungry? And I laughed,
thinking Mother Teresa wouldn't say that, And then I thought, well,
Mother Teresa's a real person? Or why is a real person? Maybe she
did, you know? But then I thought, we do that a lot.
We strip away when we think about some figures in history, particularly the
good ones, we somehow over time their flaws are gone and it's just this
idol Why do we do that? Wouldn't it feel more attainable if I could
say, yes, Mother Teresa did all these great things, and she also
called people account to once in a while. I mean it would to me.
I would feel like it was attainable to be Mother Teresa. Like maybe
then I could spend my life in a lab and think, you answer your
own question. I think it's so we can't look at them and go,
yeah, I'm just I'm just shy of doing something that great or being someone
that good. I mean, apparently here tells she's not that good. But
you know what I mean, never meet your heroes. Yeah they say that
too, don't. I don't agree with that. Really. I think you
meet your heroes and you see that they're human, and you go, then
I can be someone's hero, and I think striving for that is noble.
To be someone zero, just the one person I got to start somewhere.
I mean, you're my hero. I was just going to say that,
but I thought maybe it would be too cheesy to say. And now you
beat me to it. Hey you know I like cheese, especially on my
part. Oh you got you like it then? Huh, yeah, I
do? Told you now my favorite. So this, this this history that
you have, is it what's driving you towards this project? Is that's why
you asked me to look into it. It was there's more at stake now
than just my own personal feelings and what are your personal feelings? I mean
my history? But now it feels like I can do some genuine good.
I can I can I can do what every cop, nurse, doctor,
amt. I can do what every one of them wants to do in a
real way. I can save lives. I really, really hope I can
do that. That's weird, it's so weird. For years years, I
would have never ever said the word lives. What would you have talked?
I would have said replicants. I would have said any of the slang words
that we've all thrown around before. Do you think one day we will have
a replicant hero or idol? Maybe there might be a like an ambassador or
a liaison and someone, hopefully that they they choose amongst themselves to represent their
interests and their concerns with the rest of the world. I think I think
we put a lot of pressure on them, more pressure than we do ourselves
as a whole. We want them to be better than human, to be
accepted as human, they must be perfect. Every failure on their part sets
them back ten times what it would for any other group of people. So,
yes, it's going to be a long road, but I think it's
one that's worth helping to pave the way for agreed. So I want to
know what's you please? You want to know what's really on my mind right
now. Yes, absolutely not replicans, not any of this, these ideas
that are barely big, barely enough to fit inside my skull. Selma.
I'm terrified because someone's been the closest thing to family that I've had very long
while, and I know her thoughts and her feelings about replicants, and he
used to be able to live with that. I don't know what she's gonna
say to me. All I know is it's probably not gonna be good.
Suppose he should let her hear it from you. I mean, mhm,
there is the elephant in the room of are you going to tell them?
I mean you you sort of We're open enough just now, but like if
anybody else in your department he hears about it, it's, you know,
the act right now. It is retire on site, no questions. And
also any human sympathizer that's us, we could be retired. You know who
talked me out of quitting the job? Me? Well, sorry, I
wanted to take credit just a little bit. No, there's a little piece
of me that I have a miss seeing you. But I uh, I
put my gun and my badge on the hood of my spinner and I slid
it over to Galen told him, I need to think about this. I'm
probably quitting. He's the one he has always scared to me, that one
intimidate. Maybe not scared intimidate. He's always quiet. And then I hear
him like on dispatch sometimes and the sounds completely different because he's doing something else
where. He's undercover, very intimidating, and he was just standing over there
at the door like watching like I don't know. Yeah, but if you
get in, if you have a human moment, so to speak with Galen,
you'll see a side of him then up till then I had never seen
and it it's like mother Teresa's saying, hunt. You turn around and you
notice that's what he did. It made me notice it's about feeling safe,
right, you must make him feel safe enough to do this. I didn't
think about it like that, but yeah, probably the case. What he
said, well, what he said got me thinking. Then I I came
over to you. I guess I wanted you to confirm what I was debating
in my head. And also, you know, kind of like being around
you just a little bit m moderation, Oh yeah, too much A skiff
is not a good thing. Trust me. I live with the guy.
I guess we'll find out about that. I think at the end of the
day, everyone wants to just feel safe, safe enough to be human.
Yeah, well, let me ask your advice then, Okay. Galen kind
of has an idea of where I'm at. Bob now kind of does,
sort of. He's he is a blade runner, so I thought he'd give
things. He didn't though that it seemed like much but huge as far as
Bob goes, because Bob is one of the most black and white motherfuckers I
ever met. So yeah, okay, if he didn't shoot me or arrest
me, that means he's going through his own shit right now. Things are
becoming a lot less black and white for him. If you ever met someone
like that, they do not like shit gets messy. It's in the gray.
Okay, what did you want to ask me? Do you want to
ask me how to approach Selma? I don't know. I don't know where
that well. She has a reputation for being straight and narrow, always likes
her coffee a certain no way, you know, very friendly, but not
your friend. I just have the department to be fair. I don't think
I can. I don't think I can tell you how to tell her.
All I can tell you is that you probably already know how to tell her.
You're just you know, it's all gray in there. You want it
to be black and white. I say this, she's going to do that?
Or you know, this is the approach I take, and this will
be the response. But it's not like that. You don't know how she's
going to react. What if I don't tell her, then you will have
lied to her and you have to be okay with that. You have to
be able to sleep with that. I think, And this might be a
weird way to think about it. Is it for you or is it for
her? Are you telling to relieve pain or discomfort that you are feeling or
are you doing it for her? Does she want to know the truth from
you? No matter what? Will she thank you for it even if she
hates you? Any other truth I would say without I would say yes,
without hesitation. This is the one thing, one subject where I don't know
if she wants the truth. She might say she does, but deep down
yeah, well then until you know, I would not I would not say
anything. Yeah, but that's easy for me to say because I told you,
but boy, I was scared to do so I probably won't tell anyone
else. It's too dangerous. Yeah, it's dangerous for you, and it's
dangerous for her. What if she decides to keep your secret and then they
find out about it later? But also, you had a man who kind
of knows your partner also who nearly shot you but instead just ruined one of
the deserts. Are they going to tell her? Because I'll promise you,
she wants to hear it from you, not them. Ah, cops aren't
squealers. Okay, they'll let me tell her if I'm gonna tell her,
okay, and I'll keep my secrets. I mean, they won't come right
out and say it, but right their attitude might give them away. If
every time I have a nice dessert treat in front of me, Bob slaps
it in my lap, then I might say something people watching, But hey,
I don't think he'll ever come right out and say it because we don't
do that. Well. Then I guess I that, I guess that would
be my advice. Constantly look inward for that compass. Am. I not
telling her because I because it's easier For me, I'm scared I don't want
her. Does she really not want to know the truth? Or am I
just telling myself that so I can have it to black and white? What
if I slipped your little note, No, you cannot tell her my paper.
No, hear me out, hear me out. If I slipped her
little note and it said I like replicants, square yes, square, no,
check one three, five, other than might work? It's what certainly,
And then I could run away. Yeah you know, yeah, yeah,
just leave it in my locker. Yeah. If I were your partner,
yeah, I would want to know because and please keep in mind,
I don't know Telma that well. I don't know who she is as a
person or what she's been through. But for me, if somebody I admire
and respect has a differing opinion to me, I want the opportunity to change
my mind. And that's the only way that would happen for me, because
anybody else on the street or TV, I'm not going to pay attention or
cares. But if somebody I who has saved my life has an opposing opinion,
then I have a moment to go with a minute and think about it,
and I might still disagree, but at least I have the opportunity to
do so. God damn it. I'm sorry. I was really really hoping
you were going to say something like that. I was. I was having
a moment of like, where are we in this relationship? Do I am?
I? Are we at the stage where I'm just brutally honest? Or
do I like, you know, kind of play it light? But I
figured, you know what, fuck it my mother Teresa moment, we're in
a relationship. I just well, like I'm just saying, maybe, maybe,
potentially, Jesus Christ gift give me. I heard at deck that was
scarier than Bob coming in. I wish you know what. I think.
I'm in a requisition the dessert places cameras. I need you to see your
face. It was a priceless Yeah. I thought he was gonna kill you.
We can laugh about it now, you know. I also have to
change my shirt. I have Sunday all over. Yeah. And we got
to get you back of the hospital. Yeah, or I'm going to get
in trouble. Yeah, okay, will you what will you do now?
Will you go talk to Selma? I don't know if I'm gonna do it
right away. I won't leave it too long. But okay, I think
hear and Sawyer in the middle of something real heavy right now. What they're
doing is is good and I want them to finish the want them to get
what they're after. Then once that is resolved, if you don't hear from
me again, don't say that. Please. I leave all my detective novels
to you. There's a lot of them. Yeah, I bet can I
have one of those rummy ones to go? Thank you good? Right?
So what should I do other than the rest and recoup? Before you say
that, because I know that what you're going to say, I can have
a terminal, I can somewhat access information. Should I be doing something,
Well, I'm going to do the same thing that you just did. What
I'm going to tell you what you would tell me? Ready? Uh huh
no, But go on anyway, follow your heart. Am I working just
to prevent the discomfort? Or am I working? Okay? I get that.
I get that. Oh boy, that sucks. I hate that.
Sei mm hmm, oh, thank you, thank you very much. Sorry
about before. Oh yeah, I don't know what to do in this situation,
like do I leave my tip or something? Oh yes, I'm so
banana boat glass and you know, scaring half the restaurant, myself included.
There are children in here, just saying yeah, all right, well let's
settle up and I'll get you back to the hospital and you back in bed.
Okay, mmm, god damn. That's good. It's very good and
I can't wait to have it write before drifting off into sleep watching my favorite
show. Can you guess Private Lives? That's right? How did you know
that I'm a detective? Okay, that's fair. Also, I I happened
to glance at your terminal one day and I see you spying on me.
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