Welcome to the two seventeen Recovery Podcast. If you don't make mistakes, you
won't learn. With your host Corey Winfield, you know there was a reason
why that didn't work out, and you can look back at it and go,
yep, I'm glad that didn't work out. Hall I wanted it because
I would have been horrible and co host Marley Winningfield. Fairly expensive membership to
Cold Gym when I was in college, but I used that all the time.
It is Sunday, June twenty third. My name is Cory Winfield.
My name is Marty Winfield, and this is the two seventeen Recovery Podcast.
Back from the North Studio, No, the home studio, right north studios
at work, it's North right right, Yeah, I'm so confused, but
yeah, we're actually back in the studio. It feels good. Everything has
been rearranged. We were redoing the studio, you could say, so now
we're here. You have a baby in your lap. I do. He's
busy right now. He probably will check in on the podcast. Yes,
today, how are you feeling? Is good to be back in the studio,
it is? It looks it looks nice, Yeah it does. Yeah,
So it looks kind of refreshened, kind of got new acoustical panels or
acoustic panels, what are you going to call them? And new paint on
the wall. I guess yeah, your deck core a little bit over in
the Winfield Plex, which is right next to the office. Yeah, yeah,
it's not bad smells okay, Yeah. I got this purifier because it's
one of the things about coming down to the office. I'm gonna be working
from home a lot, not a lot, but more often. And you
walk down and we have eighteen cats, right, we have two who use
the litter box down here. It seems like there's eighteen. I'd swear there's
no there's sixteen hiding somewhere, but you walk down here. It doesn't matter
if you just clean it or not. Man, it just smells a litter
And I'm always thinking that, how am I supposed to enjoy the Winfield Plex
or my office a stink down here? Like Doodoo's cat do doo. So
I got this. It's called a rabbit air, like a rabbit that jumps
around in your yard gets eaten by wolves and kywities and stuff, or like
a bunny rabbit. You can just say that an air like what you breathe
in right yep. And they had some million dollar air purifiers. I did
not get those. I got one that was a medium, I guess you
could say, and people said it works, So I got it and it
seems to be working. Okay, you can it's an right now. You
can't even hear it, No, you can't at all. So it's pretty
nice speaking of hearing things unfortunately. Well, first of all, we had
a Recovery Stories Message of Hope part three last Thursday. We haven't done a
podcast since then. It went pretty well. It went really well. I
think all the speakers were great. The Recovery Story speakers were pretty good,
and they all impressed me. Yeah, every single one of them. Yeah.
Like I had the bar and I took it and I set it super
low because there was a person that last time it just didn't work and so
like my fear like I had the bar low in my fear high and they
just came out and killed it. Roberta was great, Matt Rebecky was great,
Corey Smoker was great, and Melissa from Potoski was great. So it
was good some of them. And I didn't really spend a lot of time
with them to tell them how this is how it works. This is the
story part, but it's okay, it is what it is. And our
two Message of Hope speakers, Luke leg and Tim c they killed it.
They did great. So overall it was just an amazing event. Free Tacos
space turned out pretty good and we ended up we had enough seating for everyone,
which was a kind of a we were worried about. Yeah, I
counted because the first one we did we had like ninety people, and the
second we did we had one hundred and forty. The place holds one fifty
and we were at the Grand Travis Event Center slash Comedy Club, and they're
like kind of worried about it a little bit. But we had the taco
truck outside Sober Eats and that made sitting at the tables a little easier.
You didn't have a big plate of food in front of you, you didn't
have to make room to get up and get more food and all that,
so that was nice. Kevin from Sober Eat said he fed one p fifty
and then opened it up for seconds. Okay, so I don't really know
how many people were there, Like I said, like one thirty two is
what I counted at one point of people inside, but there could have been
people outside. I don't know, but it was. It was okay,
and there wasn't like they it's there's a saying called nuts to butts. I
think I've talked about that, Yeah, talked about it. It wasn't It
wasn't nuts to butts in there, So that was good. Yeah, they
had it set up a little differently than they had the first two times,
which I liked and so but overall, like you said, the speakers were
amazing and really authentic, you know, and everyone I think have had a
little bit of reservation and anxiety about it, because who doesn't, you know,
even though we are a non judgmental group of people, it's still just
getting in front of a group, you know. But yeah, they took
it on, you know, full force and did a great job and it
was really inspirational. It was wonderful. It was a great event, and
the food was good. You know, they always do a really good job
obviously obviously, Yeah, thank you, Mitchell, and Mitchell did great.
Am seeing it. He did, and it was funny because well you know
me, honey, we're married, we have a child, you know how
I get. But I also like to see people take new challenges and this
this was a chance for Mitch to get up there and it was a new
challenge for him. You know, when I first brought Mitch and Justin and
even Adam when I brought him on, you know, it's like, I
want you guys to grow. I want you guys to push yourselves. So
when he after the second one, he was like, I want to be
the MC and the third one it's like, okay, cool, and he
said he wasn't nervous, not at all. He was cool. Call him
collected. Telly took that first step on the stage and it was funny because
like I could hear shake voice. He gets up there and he's like,
hi, everybody, welcome, and like his voice starts shaking because the nerves.
I've been there. I know exactly what. I know exactly what he's
going through, and it's the adrenaline and he doesn't. You know, sometimes
people don't know how to harness it, and you really have to. You
have to take it and you have to flip it and you have to make
it yours and you have to fire yourself up to go and there I'm gonna
go up there and rock that shit. Otherwise you're get up there and you're
gonna get the shake voice. And sometimes it happens because emotions, and it
can happen for many different reasons, you know. But I kind of chuckled
when he got up there and he started doing it, and then he's just
like ninety miles an hour, like flying through it. All right, everybody
come over here and get away, because he just was like, I feel
awkward. I want to get off stage now. Like that's what you think.
Yeah, and you have to realize it's okay, you know. But
for his first time to do something like that, the balls that it takes
to get up there to do that, you know that that's pretty cool.
And the fact that he's pushing himself and wanting to challenge himself. I think
that's great. And in the event and in itself, I think, and
why there's so many nerves around it on your end is because you don't really
we don't really know what these how these people are going to do when they
get up there, right, And nobody's professional speakers, right right, we're
not. We didn't hire them, right, we didn't like look at their
previous work and know what they can you know, what they can put out
there. It's more just like do they have a story to tell? You
know, that's what That's what the important part. And they were willing to
do it and you know, out of the goodness of their heart and on
their own time, and you know, it's service work. It's spreading the
message. And that's what that entire event is is sending, you know,
this message of hope and sharing a little bit about your struggles and a little
bit about what it is that you know, had them decide to turn things
around and live this, you know, take on this huge effort towards living
a life of recovery. And it's a beautiful thing. But we need more
people to tell those that everybody's got a story. Everybody's got you know,
and everybody's are different, but everybody's are the same, and it's just about
having the courage to get up there and put it together, put it together.
But there there is this piece of putting it together, you know that
in terms of like having the timing being right and kind of having the setup
like it's a story, you know, because you went through a pretty substantial
training training the same story over and over and over and over and over and
over. Right, so it's not like it's you know, and these people
haven't gone through that training. Well one of them had, but yeah,
so you know, they all did a great job and the attendance was wonderful
and I think we always get really good reviews from the people that it went
to it. So we'll keep on doing that. We're doing on quarterly,
right, I mean that's the plan. Yeah, which puts us into kind
of a buying because we'd have to either do it July and August September,
and if we do September, we like to do one in the next because
how our fund it is, September ends the fiscal year, so that's that's
it. So the new quarter begins in October. Well, if we want
to do one in the next you know, twenty twenty five, twenty twenty
four, twenty twenty five, first quarter October, November, December. We
don't want to do it November or December because Christmas and Thanksgiving, so that
puts this October. So do we have them back to back? I mean,
I don't know. Well, I mean I guess there's there's always space
for for for us to be flexible if it makes more sense to do it
a certain way. I mean fitting four in two a year, as it
was what we kind of came up with originally, just to keep them consistent.
But I think if it falls where it falls, and then just to
have it, you know, have the timing makes sense for the people that
are going to attend it and for the putting it together in general and the
funding. So you can revisit that and see what we'll see. I would
like to it will be fun to get a bunch of people really good at
this and actually film them in a cool location telling their story, kind of
promote that, because not talking about your whole story, but just like a
story, and then kind of promote that and like go on tour, right,
that'd be fun because if you get up there and you just tell your
whole story, or if you record just a whole story on YouTube or something,
people seen it. When you get there, what are you going to
say the same story again? But if you tell a little piece of it,
you know, and like a little promo video, that could maybe entice
people. It's kind of like a band, you know, they released a
single and I want you to hear it and they want you like it and
then come see him live to catch the rest or by the album. M
m hm. I don't know. I'm just thinking something that would be fun
to do for people in recovery. Yeah, get folders, and I've talked
about this, get folders to sponsor us or something higher grounds in Traverse City.
What's up? Absolutely, I don't know. Man's making noises over there.
He is sleeping. But well, back to the sounds that I was
talking about, And I learned a lesson here too. Next time we do
it, we're gonna have camera people. I'm gonna have Justin stationed on a
camera. I'm gonna ask her buddy Jesse to be on another camera, and
then I'm gonna be on a camera because it's too much for me to run
to each camera and turn it on. Doo doop, doop doop. Because
when you do that sometimes you forget to record on one of the cameras.
Yeah, maybe the one with the microphones attached to it. Maybe, Sorry,
Lukele, but don't worry, we got it. Figure it out.
Yeah, we're still going. You know, does not sound like the rest,
but and you'll only have two camera angles. But I'll think of it
out there for you. But it because luked like did great and I just
feel so bad about that. But I just didn't come back around to turn
it back on. Fortunately, you know, it's every time we do it
we learn something. We learned something though, and it's about progress not perfection.
We're getting there though. Yeah. The first one went the smoothest I
think, but just kind of weird well first, I mean this only was
the third, so it's not like they were pretty smooth though, but just
did Yeah, I mean, timing was good and decorations were everything came in
on time, had silent auction. Now we got rid of that Lions football,
right, Yeah, I think that we could have promoted that a little
bit. I don't think people really knew about that obviously. Yeah, but
the donations turned out great. People, we did a lot of We did
better with the raffle this time. I think it's coming together a little by
little every time. Yeah, a lot of return donors, which was nice
for that piece. So yeah, it's nice. Nice to be done with
it. Yeah, I guess I unders that the end, it's like,
okay, let's move on and now it's just starting planning it the end.
Yeah, and then if somebody let us a message on Facebook and they're like,
how come we didn't hear about this, Oh no, we should like
us and follow us, listen to the podcasts a little bit. Yeah,
I think so. I even said that, like, you should probably listen
to their podcast. I guess. Yeah. But the next event is on
the twentieth of July. We're teaming up with our good friends and Addiction to
Treatment of Services for a volleyball tournament. That will be fun. We're gonna
supply the food. We're gonna bring baby. Parkers gonna come. Oh Parker's
coming to that. M h. Yeah. I ain't gonna put them in
a little beach attire. I'm gonna put them in a little beach beach tire.
And I'm gonna bring your little remote fan. Yeah, it's probably hot.
It's going to be hot, my drones. I'm just going to bring
him for a little bit. He did come set up this last event.
In a minute, he just slept. Yeah, it was nice to see
him out and about I guess, yeah, you got to meet some people.
Well, they got to meet him. He wasn't really awake. He's
like, I'm will wake up and say, Hi, he's four weeks old.
Now he's getting so much bigger. It's crazy how big they get and
how fast. Yeah, and I'm not going to say that, well,
I'm going to say it. I don't want you to say. I don't
say that. I want him to be two twos acute age. I see,
I know what you're saying. I mean, he's it's not like reciprocated
attention is the thing right now. I know. I feel like I'm failing
him as a father. You're not. It's he's just like he has no
clue and you read all this stuff like he supposedly he kind of thinks he's
still like in he doesn't think he's still in the womb, but like he's
not his own independent him yet he just like goes with the flow. You
know. No, he don't, No, Mama le's he starts crying.
Yeah, Like as soon as I get him, he starts crying and shaking.
He did his little meltdown earlier and I was like, are you done?
I wrapped his ass up, swaddled him, and then he just calmed
down. But then there's times like last night where there's I don't I don't
even have whatever it is that he needs. It's just he's just a baby
and he's going to go through. See. I missed that last night because
I woke up about twelve. It was about twelve, maybe twelve thirty something
like that, and I had thrown up in my mouth because if I eat
late or something like it just it's horrible, just comes back up. It's
because my doctor says, because I need to see a chiropractor. Yeah,
no, your doctor said that he thought you were stopped up and oh with
the poop, yeah, that's that's what makes me nauseous. But no,
the other stuff and the hurting of like my side that's been hurting for two
years, and the pancreatitis stuff all that, that's just because I went there,
even though I had a coliscopy and everything. But that's cool. When
do you have that scheduled to your chiropractor? I don't know. But once
I get that, I'll be all fixed and I won't have this gird or
whatever it's called. Yeah, because anyway, that's a whole nother. But
anyway, so I came downstairs because I was like, I have to get
this puke out of my throat. So I eat some ice cream, you
know, it does it. And that's another thing, because like, if
I am going to poop this up, I want it to be delicious ice
creams. And then I was sitting down there, like on our main floor
of the mansion, Windfield Mansion, and I couldn't hear the TV. I
had Ghost Adventures on, and I couldn't hear what the demons were saying to
him. I was like, what, And I'm wondering if they're like doing
it, if they don't do it and surround sown'm on purpose, I don't
really know, so damn it. I can't hear the demon. So I
turned it off there and then I took the elevator down to the Winfield Plex
and I watched Ghost Adventures there, maybe for I don't know, two minutes
before I crashed out. But I fell asleep sitting up. My neck was
all hurting. This morning, Yeah, I woke up. I was up
all night and I'm like, well, apparently he's downstairs. Yeah, the
light was I woke on. I woke up and it was light out like
five thirty or something, and I came upstairs. Maybe it was six,
I don't remember. It was somewhere around there, and I was like,
oh, dang it, I'm gonna be in trouble because my goal was just
to watch the Ghost Adventures and then hope that my food had traveled down far
enough it would get it up if I lay down, but not the case,
and that's why I missed is Yeah. I was like, you'd be
nice if you and Daddy was up here right now. At least I wasn't
downstairs drinking. This is true. Could you even imagine having a kid like
how, I don't know how you could and be and be drinking. Yeah,
Oh yeah, there's no way. It's I mean, you have to
be so attentive and like present that it's yeah, it's I couldn't. I
couldn't. I can't imagine. It'd be tough. And I think that's why
I you know, a lot of marriages are are broken up well obviously,
right Mitch, obviously, because you know because of you know, substance use
disorder, and you know, people who are addicted to substances and that becomes
the number one thing in their life, you know, not food, water,
taking care of a child, and maybe with being a mom it can
be a little easier. I don't really know because I'm not a mom,
but that instinct will kick in or like, no, this is number one
priority. But I know, like there's other drugs that will just knock that
right off of the right the number one spot. But it would just be
it would just be hell, and then like the regret you'd feel after that
would be horrible too. But I think that if I was like, all
right, honey, I'm going to the garage, run going to the office,
and just down here drinking. I came up after you had been dealing
with the baby all day and screaming and crying and diapers, and here I
am down here just getting drunk, right, And then you know, you
can't even ask me to watch them because I'm drunk. I'm like, no,
I'm good. And you can smell the liquor on my breath. You
know, give me back my child. You're not gonna touch them, you're
not gonna hold them. I think that you know, having a child with
you know, someone who has the sums just disorder or maybe coming in stoned
or whatever, like you don't want to hand the baby off to them,
right, that could be a problem. I think that there's another reason.
Yeah, I'm thankful that I'm not in that mindset anymore. It feels good,
it really really does. He's smiling right now. Daddy is a huge,
huge reflex s grin his Jesus smiles. I've brought him down here like
one time for a quick second, but this might be the first time he's
really been down here. Yeah. Well, he doesn't seem to mind it.
No, he probably thinks it's really cool. We got cool lights going
on. Yeah, he can't wait se his microphones. He's not going to
think these microphones are cool. Yeah, like daddy has them. Like you
know, kids will come to my office and or when kids are at the
office, they'll come in my office and they'll see microphone stuff and they it's
like loser shit. They'll just come running up like whoa what is that?
I want to talk of that? I think for him it's just gonna be
second h or he's gonna be like, yeah, microphone, what's up?
His friends will be over, like your dad's house is so cool. I
mean your mom and dad's house is so cool. Yeah, you guys can
probably hear them. He's just squirming around. Uh oh yeah, right away.
A little insight into our world. He's gonna wrap it up. Thanks
buddy, that's what he has to say. And he's telling nothing but fibbs
right now. Daddy did not do that. Mommy's gonna do her magic trick
with them. Now. They say that if you ever have a child and
they're like crying and stuff, you can, of course look at something google
for yourself. But if you take their little feties, take their feet and
then like take the baby not facing you put them against your chest, grab
his little feet, kind of tuck them up, and then you take your
right hand kind of lean forward or your left hand however you're doing it,
and so they're kind of like frog man like baby like like. It does
work sometimes it stops them from crying. Yeah, but just make sure your
hand isn't like on their throat, because I don't choke them to death,
probably, but you just put it right on their chest or their little shoulders.
Yeah. Well, anyway, that's enough of the podcast today. We
figured we'd just do a little check in and kind of recap the recovery stories
of that, and there he is, dilaplicated. No, I'm not sure
it's the word that we're looking for. Just well, thanks for listening,
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and I'm glad if you can meet meet Parker via air. All right,
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