WEBVTT 1 00:00:03.480 --> 00:00:09.199 Welcome to the two seventeen Recovery Podcast. If you don't make mistakes, you 2 00:00:09.279 --> 00:00:12.919 won't learn. With your host Corey Winfield, you know there was a reason 3 00:00:12.960 --> 00:00:15.720 why that didn't work out, and you can look back at it and go, 4 00:00:15.839 --> 00:00:18.280 yep, I'm glad that didn't work out. Hall I wanted it because 5 00:00:18.280 --> 00:00:23.480 I would have been horrible and co host Marley Winningfield. Fairly expensive membership to 6 00:00:23.719 --> 00:00:27.160 Cold Gym when I was in college, but I used that all the time. 7 00:00:31.679 --> 00:00:36.079 It is Sunday, June twenty third. My name is Cory Winfield. 8 00:00:36.600 --> 00:00:40.320 My name is Marty Winfield, and this is the two seventeen Recovery Podcast. 9 00:00:40.439 --> 00:00:46.439 Back from the North Studio, No, the home studio, right north studios 10 00:00:46.479 --> 00:00:52.640 at work, it's North right right, Yeah, I'm so confused, but 11 00:00:52.719 --> 00:00:56.679 yeah, we're actually back in the studio. It feels good. Everything has 12 00:00:56.759 --> 00:01:02.920 been rearranged. We were redoing the studio, you could say, so now 13 00:01:02.960 --> 00:01:07.079 we're here. You have a baby in your lap. I do. He's 14 00:01:07.359 --> 00:01:12.239 busy right now. He probably will check in on the podcast. Yes, 15 00:01:12.280 --> 00:01:17.239 today, how are you feeling? Is good to be back in the studio, 16 00:01:17.519 --> 00:01:21.640 it is? It looks it looks nice, Yeah it does. Yeah, 17 00:01:21.879 --> 00:01:26.519 So it looks kind of refreshened, kind of got new acoustical panels or 18 00:01:26.560 --> 00:01:32.680 acoustic panels, what are you going to call them? And new paint on 19 00:01:32.719 --> 00:01:38.560 the wall. I guess yeah, your deck core a little bit over in 20 00:01:38.599 --> 00:01:42.159 the Winfield Plex, which is right next to the office. Yeah, yeah, 21 00:01:42.439 --> 00:01:48.680 it's not bad smells okay, Yeah. I got this purifier because it's 22 00:01:48.760 --> 00:01:51.120 one of the things about coming down to the office. I'm gonna be working 23 00:01:51.120 --> 00:01:55.480 from home a lot, not a lot, but more often. And you 24 00:01:55.560 --> 00:02:00.480 walk down and we have eighteen cats, right, we have two who use 25 00:02:00.519 --> 00:02:05.079 the litter box down here. It seems like there's eighteen. I'd swear there's 26 00:02:05.640 --> 00:02:08.039 no there's sixteen hiding somewhere, but you walk down here. It doesn't matter 27 00:02:08.080 --> 00:02:12.319 if you just clean it or not. Man, it just smells a litter 28 00:02:14.120 --> 00:02:16.360 And I'm always thinking that, how am I supposed to enjoy the Winfield Plex 29 00:02:16.639 --> 00:02:24.639 or my office a stink down here? Like Doodoo's cat do doo. So 30 00:02:24.680 --> 00:02:29.800 I got this. It's called a rabbit air, like a rabbit that jumps 31 00:02:29.840 --> 00:02:34.639 around in your yard gets eaten by wolves and kywities and stuff, or like 32 00:02:34.719 --> 00:02:37.919 a bunny rabbit. You can just say that an air like what you breathe 33 00:02:37.960 --> 00:02:45.520 in right yep. And they had some million dollar air purifiers. I did 34 00:02:45.560 --> 00:02:51.919 not get those. I got one that was a medium, I guess you 35 00:02:51.960 --> 00:02:55.879 could say, and people said it works, So I got it and it 36 00:02:55.919 --> 00:03:00.159 seems to be working. Okay, you can it's an right now. You 37 00:03:00.159 --> 00:03:02.439 can't even hear it, No, you can't at all. So it's pretty 38 00:03:02.479 --> 00:03:09.840 nice speaking of hearing things unfortunately. Well, first of all, we had 39 00:03:09.840 --> 00:03:14.840 a Recovery Stories Message of Hope part three last Thursday. We haven't done a 40 00:03:14.840 --> 00:03:17.840 podcast since then. It went pretty well. It went really well. I 41 00:03:17.919 --> 00:03:23.080 think all the speakers were great. The Recovery Story speakers were pretty good, 42 00:03:23.520 --> 00:03:28.360 and they all impressed me. Yeah, every single one of them. Yeah. 43 00:03:28.840 --> 00:03:30.960 Like I had the bar and I took it and I set it super 44 00:03:30.000 --> 00:03:36.080 low because there was a person that last time it just didn't work and so 45 00:03:36.280 --> 00:03:40.360 like my fear like I had the bar low in my fear high and they 46 00:03:40.400 --> 00:03:44.840 just came out and killed it. Roberta was great, Matt Rebecky was great, 47 00:03:45.039 --> 00:03:49.759 Corey Smoker was great, and Melissa from Potoski was great. So it 48 00:03:49.840 --> 00:03:53.159 was good some of them. And I didn't really spend a lot of time 49 00:03:53.159 --> 00:03:54.520 with them to tell them how this is how it works. This is the 50 00:03:54.560 --> 00:04:01.960 story part, but it's okay, it is what it is. And our 51 00:04:02.000 --> 00:04:06.080 two Message of Hope speakers, Luke leg and Tim c they killed it. 52 00:04:06.879 --> 00:04:13.000 They did great. So overall it was just an amazing event. Free Tacos 53 00:04:15.520 --> 00:04:20.519 space turned out pretty good and we ended up we had enough seating for everyone, 54 00:04:20.720 --> 00:04:24.720 which was a kind of a we were worried about. Yeah, I 55 00:04:24.800 --> 00:04:27.360 counted because the first one we did we had like ninety people, and the 56 00:04:27.360 --> 00:04:29.879 second we did we had one hundred and forty. The place holds one fifty 57 00:04:30.720 --> 00:04:38.519 and we were at the Grand Travis Event Center slash Comedy Club, and they're 58 00:04:38.600 --> 00:04:41.800 like kind of worried about it a little bit. But we had the taco 59 00:04:41.920 --> 00:04:47.800 truck outside Sober Eats and that made sitting at the tables a little easier. 60 00:04:48.560 --> 00:04:50.800 You didn't have a big plate of food in front of you, you didn't 61 00:04:50.839 --> 00:04:54.079 have to make room to get up and get more food and all that, 62 00:04:54.959 --> 00:05:00.120 so that was nice. Kevin from Sober Eat said he fed one p fifty 63 00:05:00.240 --> 00:05:06.040 and then opened it up for seconds. Okay, so I don't really know 64 00:05:06.079 --> 00:05:09.360 how many people were there, Like I said, like one thirty two is 65 00:05:09.360 --> 00:05:12.759 what I counted at one point of people inside, but there could have been 66 00:05:12.800 --> 00:05:15.160 people outside. I don't know, but it was. It was okay, 67 00:05:15.279 --> 00:05:21.399 and there wasn't like they it's there's a saying called nuts to butts. I 68 00:05:21.399 --> 00:05:25.519 think I've talked about that, Yeah, talked about it. It wasn't It 69 00:05:25.560 --> 00:05:30.199 wasn't nuts to butts in there, So that was good. Yeah, they 70 00:05:30.199 --> 00:05:32.720 had it set up a little differently than they had the first two times, 71 00:05:33.639 --> 00:05:39.040 which I liked and so but overall, like you said, the speakers were 72 00:05:39.079 --> 00:05:46.839 amazing and really authentic, you know, and everyone I think have had a 73 00:05:46.879 --> 00:05:49.720 little bit of reservation and anxiety about it, because who doesn't, you know, 74 00:05:49.839 --> 00:05:56.240 even though we are a non judgmental group of people, it's still just 75 00:05:56.279 --> 00:05:59.800 getting in front of a group, you know. But yeah, they took 76 00:05:59.800 --> 00:06:05.240 it on, you know, full force and did a great job and it 77 00:06:05.319 --> 00:06:09.000 was really inspirational. It was wonderful. It was a great event, and 78 00:06:09.040 --> 00:06:12.040 the food was good. You know, they always do a really good job 79 00:06:12.519 --> 00:06:16.279 obviously obviously, Yeah, thank you, Mitchell, and Mitchell did great. 80 00:06:16.839 --> 00:06:23.120 Am seeing it. He did, and it was funny because well you know 81 00:06:23.360 --> 00:06:26.680 me, honey, we're married, we have a child, you know how 82 00:06:26.720 --> 00:06:32.560 I get. But I also like to see people take new challenges and this 83 00:06:32.560 --> 00:06:35.279 this was a chance for Mitch to get up there and it was a new 84 00:06:35.360 --> 00:06:41.120 challenge for him. You know, when I first brought Mitch and Justin and 85 00:06:41.160 --> 00:06:42.839 even Adam when I brought him on, you know, it's like, I 86 00:06:42.839 --> 00:06:46.399 want you guys to grow. I want you guys to push yourselves. So 87 00:06:46.439 --> 00:06:47.560 when he after the second one, he was like, I want to be 88 00:06:47.600 --> 00:06:50.079 the MC and the third one it's like, okay, cool, and he 89 00:06:50.120 --> 00:06:54.720 said he wasn't nervous, not at all. He was cool. Call him 90 00:06:54.720 --> 00:06:58.639 collected. Telly took that first step on the stage and it was funny because 91 00:06:58.680 --> 00:07:01.079 like I could hear shake voice. He gets up there and he's like, 92 00:07:01.160 --> 00:07:05.480 hi, everybody, welcome, and like his voice starts shaking because the nerves. 93 00:07:06.040 --> 00:07:09.399 I've been there. I know exactly what. I know exactly what he's 94 00:07:09.439 --> 00:07:14.839 going through, and it's the adrenaline and he doesn't. You know, sometimes 95 00:07:14.879 --> 00:07:17.160 people don't know how to harness it, and you really have to. You 96 00:07:17.240 --> 00:07:19.040 have to take it and you have to flip it and you have to make 97 00:07:19.079 --> 00:07:25.439 it yours and you have to fire yourself up to go and there I'm gonna 98 00:07:25.439 --> 00:07:27.959 go up there and rock that shit. Otherwise you're get up there and you're 99 00:07:27.959 --> 00:07:32.040 gonna get the shake voice. And sometimes it happens because emotions, and it 100 00:07:32.079 --> 00:07:35.800 can happen for many different reasons, you know. But I kind of chuckled 101 00:07:35.920 --> 00:07:38.879 when he got up there and he started doing it, and then he's just 102 00:07:38.920 --> 00:07:43.279 like ninety miles an hour, like flying through it. All right, everybody 103 00:07:43.279 --> 00:07:45.120 come over here and get away, because he just was like, I feel 104 00:07:45.120 --> 00:07:46.480 awkward. I want to get off stage now. Like that's what you think. 105 00:07:47.600 --> 00:07:50.879 Yeah, and you have to realize it's okay, you know. But 106 00:07:50.959 --> 00:07:54.959 for his first time to do something like that, the balls that it takes 107 00:07:54.959 --> 00:07:57.199 to get up there to do that, you know that that's pretty cool. 108 00:07:57.240 --> 00:08:01.040 And the fact that he's pushing himself and wanting to challenge himself. I think 109 00:08:01.040 --> 00:08:05.439 that's great. And in the event and in itself, I think, and 110 00:08:05.560 --> 00:08:09.360 why there's so many nerves around it on your end is because you don't really 111 00:08:09.439 --> 00:08:13.160 we don't really know what these how these people are going to do when they 112 00:08:13.160 --> 00:08:18.160 get up there, right, And nobody's professional speakers, right right, we're 113 00:08:18.199 --> 00:08:20.759 not. We didn't hire them, right, we didn't like look at their 114 00:08:20.800 --> 00:08:24.560 previous work and know what they can you know, what they can put out 115 00:08:24.560 --> 00:08:28.040 there. It's more just like do they have a story to tell? You 116 00:08:28.040 --> 00:08:31.439 know, that's what That's what the important part. And they were willing to 117 00:08:31.480 --> 00:08:35.559 do it and you know, out of the goodness of their heart and on 118 00:08:35.679 --> 00:08:39.799 their own time, and you know, it's service work. It's spreading the 119 00:08:39.799 --> 00:08:45.240 message. And that's what that entire event is is sending, you know, 120 00:08:45.320 --> 00:08:48.200 this message of hope and sharing a little bit about your struggles and a little 121 00:08:48.200 --> 00:08:52.960 bit about what it is that you know, had them decide to turn things 122 00:08:54.000 --> 00:09:00.240 around and live this, you know, take on this huge effort towards living 123 00:09:00.279 --> 00:09:05.080 a life of recovery. And it's a beautiful thing. But we need more 124 00:09:05.120 --> 00:09:09.320 people to tell those that everybody's got a story. Everybody's got you know, 125 00:09:09.720 --> 00:09:15.240 and everybody's are different, but everybody's are the same, and it's just about 126 00:09:15.279 --> 00:09:18.759 having the courage to get up there and put it together, put it together. 127 00:09:18.840 --> 00:09:26.919 But there there is this piece of putting it together, you know that 128 00:09:26.480 --> 00:09:31.759 in terms of like having the timing being right and kind of having the setup 129 00:09:31.799 --> 00:09:35.799 like it's a story, you know, because you went through a pretty substantial 130 00:09:35.840 --> 00:09:41.600 training training the same story over and over and over and over and over and 131 00:09:41.600 --> 00:09:43.639 over. Right, so it's not like it's you know, and these people 132 00:09:43.679 --> 00:09:48.320 haven't gone through that training. Well one of them had, but yeah, 133 00:09:48.879 --> 00:09:56.120 so you know, they all did a great job and the attendance was wonderful 134 00:09:56.440 --> 00:09:58.519 and I think we always get really good reviews from the people that it went 135 00:09:58.559 --> 00:10:01.799 to it. So we'll keep on doing that. We're doing on quarterly, 136 00:10:01.919 --> 00:10:05.440 right, I mean that's the plan. Yeah, which puts us into kind 137 00:10:05.480 --> 00:10:11.960 of a buying because we'd have to either do it July and August September, 138 00:10:11.799 --> 00:10:18.960 and if we do September, we like to do one in the next because 139 00:10:18.960 --> 00:10:24.600 how our fund it is, September ends the fiscal year, so that's that's 140 00:10:24.639 --> 00:10:26.600 it. So the new quarter begins in October. Well, if we want 141 00:10:26.639 --> 00:10:31.799 to do one in the next you know, twenty twenty five, twenty twenty 142 00:10:31.840 --> 00:10:35.639 four, twenty twenty five, first quarter October, November, December. We 143 00:10:35.639 --> 00:10:39.399 don't want to do it November or December because Christmas and Thanksgiving, so that 144 00:10:39.399 --> 00:10:43.440 puts this October. So do we have them back to back? I mean, 145 00:10:45.600 --> 00:10:50.279 I don't know. Well, I mean I guess there's there's always space 146 00:10:50.360 --> 00:10:54.279 for for for us to be flexible if it makes more sense to do it 147 00:10:54.320 --> 00:10:58.360 a certain way. I mean fitting four in two a year, as it 148 00:10:58.399 --> 00:11:03.120 was what we kind of came up with originally, just to keep them consistent. 149 00:11:03.879 --> 00:11:07.000 But I think if it falls where it falls, and then just to 150 00:11:07.039 --> 00:11:09.879 have it, you know, have the timing makes sense for the people that 151 00:11:09.919 --> 00:11:13.159 are going to attend it and for the putting it together in general and the 152 00:11:13.159 --> 00:11:18.600 funding. So you can revisit that and see what we'll see. I would 153 00:11:18.679 --> 00:11:24.080 like to it will be fun to get a bunch of people really good at 154 00:11:24.080 --> 00:11:30.000 this and actually film them in a cool location telling their story, kind of 155 00:11:30.000 --> 00:11:33.200 promote that, because not talking about your whole story, but just like a 156 00:11:33.360 --> 00:11:39.000 story, and then kind of promote that and like go on tour, right, 157 00:11:39.159 --> 00:11:41.559 that'd be fun because if you get up there and you just tell your 158 00:11:41.559 --> 00:11:46.440 whole story, or if you record just a whole story on YouTube or something, 159 00:11:46.519 --> 00:11:48.159 people seen it. When you get there, what are you going to 160 00:11:48.200 --> 00:11:50.000 say the same story again? But if you tell a little piece of it, 161 00:11:50.559 --> 00:11:54.080 you know, and like a little promo video, that could maybe entice 162 00:11:54.120 --> 00:11:58.080 people. It's kind of like a band, you know, they released a 163 00:11:58.159 --> 00:12:00.039 single and I want you to hear it and they want you like it and 164 00:12:00.039 --> 00:12:03.240 then come see him live to catch the rest or by the album. M 165 00:12:03.840 --> 00:12:07.759 m hm. I don't know. I'm just thinking something that would be fun 166 00:12:07.799 --> 00:12:11.399 to do for people in recovery. Yeah, get folders, and I've talked 167 00:12:11.399 --> 00:12:15.399 about this, get folders to sponsor us or something higher grounds in Traverse City. 168 00:12:15.440 --> 00:12:18.080 What's up? Absolutely, I don't know. Man's making noises over there. 169 00:12:18.159 --> 00:12:22.120 He is sleeping. But well, back to the sounds that I was 170 00:12:22.120 --> 00:12:28.120 talking about, And I learned a lesson here too. Next time we do 171 00:12:28.240 --> 00:12:31.120 it, we're gonna have camera people. I'm gonna have Justin stationed on a 172 00:12:31.159 --> 00:12:35.240 camera. I'm gonna ask her buddy Jesse to be on another camera, and 173 00:12:35.240 --> 00:12:37.559 then I'm gonna be on a camera because it's too much for me to run 174 00:12:37.679 --> 00:12:41.120 to each camera and turn it on. Doo doop, doop doop. Because 175 00:12:41.120 --> 00:12:45.399 when you do that sometimes you forget to record on one of the cameras. 176 00:12:46.200 --> 00:12:50.279 Yeah, maybe the one with the microphones attached to it. Maybe, Sorry, 177 00:12:50.399 --> 00:12:54.080 Lukele, but don't worry, we got it. Figure it out. 178 00:12:54.519 --> 00:12:58.000 Yeah, we're still going. You know, does not sound like the rest, 179 00:12:58.039 --> 00:13:03.159 but and you'll only have two camera angles. But I'll think of it 180 00:13:03.159 --> 00:13:05.159 out there for you. But it because luked like did great and I just 181 00:13:05.159 --> 00:13:09.120 feel so bad about that. But I just didn't come back around to turn 182 00:13:09.159 --> 00:13:11.879 it back on. Fortunately, you know, it's every time we do it 183 00:13:13.240 --> 00:13:18.159 we learn something. We learned something though, and it's about progress not perfection. 184 00:13:20.919 --> 00:13:24.759 We're getting there though. Yeah. The first one went the smoothest I 185 00:13:24.759 --> 00:13:28.200 think, but just kind of weird well first, I mean this only was 186 00:13:28.200 --> 00:13:31.399 the third, so it's not like they were pretty smooth though, but just 187 00:13:31.440 --> 00:13:35.200 did Yeah, I mean, timing was good and decorations were everything came in 188 00:13:35.279 --> 00:13:41.519 on time, had silent auction. Now we got rid of that Lions football, 189 00:13:41.600 --> 00:13:46.279 right, Yeah, I think that we could have promoted that a little 190 00:13:46.279 --> 00:13:50.279 bit. I don't think people really knew about that obviously. Yeah, but 191 00:13:50.399 --> 00:13:56.080 the donations turned out great. People, we did a lot of We did 192 00:13:56.080 --> 00:14:01.600 better with the raffle this time. I think it's coming together a little by 193 00:14:01.679 --> 00:14:07.360 little every time. Yeah, a lot of return donors, which was nice 194 00:14:07.879 --> 00:14:16.639 for that piece. So yeah, it's nice. Nice to be done with 195 00:14:16.720 --> 00:14:18.799 it. Yeah, I guess I unders that the end, it's like, 196 00:14:18.000 --> 00:14:22.159 okay, let's move on and now it's just starting planning it the end. 197 00:14:22.480 --> 00:14:26.840 Yeah, and then if somebody let us a message on Facebook and they're like, 198 00:14:26.879 --> 00:14:31.559 how come we didn't hear about this, Oh no, we should like 199 00:14:31.639 --> 00:14:33.200 us and follow us, listen to the podcasts a little bit. Yeah, 200 00:14:33.240 --> 00:14:35.120 I think so. I even said that, like, you should probably listen 201 00:14:35.120 --> 00:14:41.120 to their podcast. I guess. Yeah. But the next event is on 202 00:14:41.200 --> 00:14:43.080 the twentieth of July. We're teaming up with our good friends and Addiction to 203 00:14:43.080 --> 00:14:46.600 Treatment of Services for a volleyball tournament. That will be fun. We're gonna 204 00:14:46.600 --> 00:14:52.679 supply the food. We're gonna bring baby. Parkers gonna come. Oh Parker's 205 00:14:52.759 --> 00:14:54.840 coming to that. M h. Yeah. I ain't gonna put them in 206 00:14:54.879 --> 00:14:58.399 a little beach attire. I'm gonna put them in a little beach beach tire. 207 00:14:58.480 --> 00:15:05.039 And I'm gonna bring your little remote fan. Yeah, it's probably hot. 208 00:15:05.279 --> 00:15:07.000 It's going to be hot, my drones. I'm just going to bring 209 00:15:07.080 --> 00:15:11.480 him for a little bit. He did come set up this last event. 210 00:15:11.720 --> 00:15:16.360 In a minute, he just slept. Yeah, it was nice to see 211 00:15:16.399 --> 00:15:22.080 him out and about I guess, yeah, you got to meet some people. 212 00:15:22.240 --> 00:15:26.440 Well, they got to meet him. He wasn't really awake. He's 213 00:15:26.480 --> 00:15:30.720 like, I'm will wake up and say, Hi, he's four weeks old. 214 00:15:30.799 --> 00:15:35.159 Now he's getting so much bigger. It's crazy how big they get and 215 00:15:35.240 --> 00:15:39.919 how fast. Yeah, and I'm not going to say that, well, 216 00:15:39.960 --> 00:15:43.080 I'm going to say it. I don't want you to say. I don't 217 00:15:43.080 --> 00:15:48.679 say that. I want him to be two twos acute age. I see, 218 00:15:48.919 --> 00:15:54.200 I know what you're saying. I mean, he's it's not like reciprocated 219 00:15:54.279 --> 00:15:56.360 attention is the thing right now. I know. I feel like I'm failing 220 00:15:56.440 --> 00:16:00.720 him as a father. You're not. It's he's just like he has no 221 00:16:00.879 --> 00:16:07.720 clue and you read all this stuff like he supposedly he kind of thinks he's 222 00:16:07.720 --> 00:16:11.519 still like in he doesn't think he's still in the womb, but like he's 223 00:16:11.559 --> 00:16:17.080 not his own independent him yet he just like goes with the flow. You 224 00:16:17.120 --> 00:16:19.840 know. No, he don't, No, Mama le's he starts crying. 225 00:16:21.320 --> 00:16:23.440 Yeah, Like as soon as I get him, he starts crying and shaking. 226 00:16:25.879 --> 00:16:27.679 He did his little meltdown earlier and I was like, are you done? 227 00:16:27.919 --> 00:16:32.720 I wrapped his ass up, swaddled him, and then he just calmed 228 00:16:32.720 --> 00:16:36.159 down. But then there's times like last night where there's I don't I don't 229 00:16:36.200 --> 00:16:40.559 even have whatever it is that he needs. It's just he's just a baby 230 00:16:40.879 --> 00:16:44.759 and he's going to go through. See. I missed that last night because 231 00:16:44.759 --> 00:16:48.120 I woke up about twelve. It was about twelve, maybe twelve thirty something 232 00:16:48.159 --> 00:16:52.320 like that, and I had thrown up in my mouth because if I eat 233 00:16:52.360 --> 00:16:56.840 late or something like it just it's horrible, just comes back up. It's 234 00:16:56.840 --> 00:17:00.039 because my doctor says, because I need to see a chiropractor. Yeah, 235 00:17:00.679 --> 00:17:04.359 no, your doctor said that he thought you were stopped up and oh with 236 00:17:04.359 --> 00:17:07.160 the poop, yeah, that's that's what makes me nauseous. But no, 237 00:17:07.319 --> 00:17:11.920 the other stuff and the hurting of like my side that's been hurting for two 238 00:17:11.039 --> 00:17:17.480 years, and the pancreatitis stuff all that, that's just because I went there, 239 00:17:17.599 --> 00:17:21.880 even though I had a coliscopy and everything. But that's cool. When 240 00:17:21.880 --> 00:17:25.680 do you have that scheduled to your chiropractor? I don't know. But once 241 00:17:25.720 --> 00:17:27.240 I get that, I'll be all fixed and I won't have this gird or 242 00:17:27.400 --> 00:17:34.839 whatever it's called. Yeah, because anyway, that's a whole nother. But 243 00:17:37.839 --> 00:17:41.279 anyway, so I came downstairs because I was like, I have to get 244 00:17:41.279 --> 00:17:45.519 this puke out of my throat. So I eat some ice cream, you 245 00:17:45.559 --> 00:17:48.240 know, it does it. And that's another thing, because like, if 246 00:17:48.279 --> 00:17:53.319 I am going to poop this up, I want it to be delicious ice 247 00:17:53.319 --> 00:17:57.839 creams. And then I was sitting down there, like on our main floor 248 00:17:59.319 --> 00:18:04.960 of the mansion, Windfield Mansion, and I couldn't hear the TV. I 249 00:18:06.079 --> 00:18:10.640 had Ghost Adventures on, and I couldn't hear what the demons were saying to 250 00:18:10.720 --> 00:18:14.519 him. I was like, what, And I'm wondering if they're like doing 251 00:18:14.519 --> 00:18:17.119 it, if they don't do it and surround sown'm on purpose, I don't 252 00:18:17.160 --> 00:18:21.880 really know, so damn it. I can't hear the demon. So I 253 00:18:21.920 --> 00:18:25.119 turned it off there and then I took the elevator down to the Winfield Plex 254 00:18:25.720 --> 00:18:30.680 and I watched Ghost Adventures there, maybe for I don't know, two minutes 255 00:18:30.720 --> 00:18:33.279 before I crashed out. But I fell asleep sitting up. My neck was 256 00:18:33.319 --> 00:18:37.799 all hurting. This morning, Yeah, I woke up. I was up 257 00:18:37.839 --> 00:18:42.640 all night and I'm like, well, apparently he's downstairs. Yeah, the 258 00:18:44.240 --> 00:18:45.680 light was I woke on. I woke up and it was light out like 259 00:18:45.680 --> 00:18:48.279 five thirty or something, and I came upstairs. Maybe it was six, 260 00:18:48.279 --> 00:18:51.079 I don't remember. It was somewhere around there, and I was like, 261 00:18:51.119 --> 00:18:53.119 oh, dang it, I'm gonna be in trouble because my goal was just 262 00:18:53.160 --> 00:18:57.319 to watch the Ghost Adventures and then hope that my food had traveled down far 263 00:18:57.440 --> 00:19:03.279 enough it would get it up if I lay down, but not the case, 264 00:19:03.279 --> 00:19:04.559 and that's why I missed is Yeah. I was like, you'd be 265 00:19:04.680 --> 00:19:11.039 nice if you and Daddy was up here right now. At least I wasn't 266 00:19:11.039 --> 00:19:17.640 downstairs drinking. This is true. Could you even imagine having a kid like 267 00:19:19.559 --> 00:19:22.960 how, I don't know how you could and be and be drinking. Yeah, 268 00:19:23.119 --> 00:19:26.799 Oh yeah, there's no way. It's I mean, you have to 269 00:19:26.839 --> 00:19:37.240 be so attentive and like present that it's yeah, it's I couldn't. I 270 00:19:37.279 --> 00:19:41.640 couldn't. I can't imagine. It'd be tough. And I think that's why 271 00:19:41.640 --> 00:19:48.200 I you know, a lot of marriages are are broken up well obviously, 272 00:19:48.839 --> 00:19:52.480 right Mitch, obviously, because you know because of you know, substance use 273 00:19:52.519 --> 00:19:57.400 disorder, and you know, people who are addicted to substances and that becomes 274 00:19:57.400 --> 00:20:00.119 the number one thing in their life, you know, not food, water, 275 00:20:00.519 --> 00:20:03.240 taking care of a child, and maybe with being a mom it can 276 00:20:03.279 --> 00:20:07.079 be a little easier. I don't really know because I'm not a mom, 277 00:20:07.960 --> 00:20:11.079 but that instinct will kick in or like, no, this is number one 278 00:20:11.079 --> 00:20:12.799 priority. But I know, like there's other drugs that will just knock that 279 00:20:12.880 --> 00:20:18.559 right off of the right the number one spot. But it would just be 280 00:20:18.279 --> 00:20:22.200 it would just be hell, and then like the regret you'd feel after that 281 00:20:22.200 --> 00:20:25.880 would be horrible too. But I think that if I was like, all 282 00:20:25.960 --> 00:20:29.039 right, honey, I'm going to the garage, run going to the office, 283 00:20:29.079 --> 00:20:33.839 and just down here drinking. I came up after you had been dealing 284 00:20:33.839 --> 00:20:38.160 with the baby all day and screaming and crying and diapers, and here I 285 00:20:38.200 --> 00:20:41.079 am down here just getting drunk, right, And then you know, you 286 00:20:41.119 --> 00:20:45.400 can't even ask me to watch them because I'm drunk. I'm like, no, 287 00:20:45.519 --> 00:20:48.000 I'm good. And you can smell the liquor on my breath. You 288 00:20:48.000 --> 00:20:51.400 know, give me back my child. You're not gonna touch them, you're 289 00:20:51.440 --> 00:20:53.359 not gonna hold them. I think that you know, having a child with 290 00:20:53.640 --> 00:20:56.640 you know, someone who has the sums just disorder or maybe coming in stoned 291 00:20:56.720 --> 00:20:59.559 or whatever, like you don't want to hand the baby off to them, 292 00:20:59.720 --> 00:21:07.160 right, that could be a problem. I think that there's another reason. 293 00:21:07.119 --> 00:21:14.519 Yeah, I'm thankful that I'm not in that mindset anymore. It feels good, 294 00:21:14.559 --> 00:21:19.039 it really really does. He's smiling right now. Daddy is a huge, 295 00:21:19.279 --> 00:21:23.920 huge reflex s grin his Jesus smiles. I've brought him down here like 296 00:21:25.079 --> 00:21:27.799 one time for a quick second, but this might be the first time he's 297 00:21:27.839 --> 00:21:33.799 really been down here. Yeah. Well, he doesn't seem to mind it. 298 00:21:33.039 --> 00:21:36.680 No, he probably thinks it's really cool. We got cool lights going 299 00:21:36.759 --> 00:21:41.279 on. Yeah, he can't wait se his microphones. He's not going to 300 00:21:41.319 --> 00:21:47.759 think these microphones are cool. Yeah, like daddy has them. Like you 301 00:21:47.799 --> 00:21:51.559 know, kids will come to my office and or when kids are at the 302 00:21:51.599 --> 00:21:53.480 office, they'll come in my office and they'll see microphone stuff and they it's 303 00:21:53.559 --> 00:21:56.119 like loser shit. They'll just come running up like whoa what is that? 304 00:21:56.119 --> 00:21:59.519 I want to talk of that? I think for him it's just gonna be 305 00:21:59.519 --> 00:22:02.279 second h or he's gonna be like, yeah, microphone, what's up? 306 00:22:02.799 --> 00:22:06.119 His friends will be over, like your dad's house is so cool. I 307 00:22:06.119 --> 00:22:10.920 mean your mom and dad's house is so cool. Yeah, you guys can 308 00:22:10.960 --> 00:22:17.559 probably hear them. He's just squirming around. Uh oh yeah, right away. 309 00:22:18.000 --> 00:22:21.319 A little insight into our world. He's gonna wrap it up. Thanks 310 00:22:21.319 --> 00:22:25.519 buddy, that's what he has to say. And he's telling nothing but fibbs 311 00:22:25.599 --> 00:22:33.319 right now. Daddy did not do that. Mommy's gonna do her magic trick 312 00:22:33.400 --> 00:22:36.240 with them. Now. They say that if you ever have a child and 313 00:22:36.279 --> 00:22:38.160 they're like crying and stuff, you can, of course look at something google 314 00:22:38.160 --> 00:22:41.839 for yourself. But if you take their little feties, take their feet and 315 00:22:41.839 --> 00:22:45.519 then like take the baby not facing you put them against your chest, grab 316 00:22:45.559 --> 00:22:48.160 his little feet, kind of tuck them up, and then you take your 317 00:22:48.240 --> 00:22:52.480 right hand kind of lean forward or your left hand however you're doing it, 318 00:22:52.000 --> 00:22:56.759 and so they're kind of like frog man like baby like like. It does 319 00:22:56.799 --> 00:23:00.640 work sometimes it stops them from crying. Yeah, but just make sure your 320 00:23:00.880 --> 00:23:06.640 hand isn't like on their throat, because I don't choke them to death, 321 00:23:06.680 --> 00:23:11.480 probably, but you just put it right on their chest or their little shoulders. 322 00:23:12.559 --> 00:23:18.160 Yeah. Well, anyway, that's enough of the podcast today. We 323 00:23:18.240 --> 00:23:22.039 figured we'd just do a little check in and kind of recap the recovery stories 324 00:23:22.079 --> 00:23:26.599 of that, and there he is, dilaplicated. No, I'm not sure 325 00:23:26.640 --> 00:23:30.920 it's the word that we're looking for. Just well, thanks for listening, 326 00:23:30.000 --> 00:23:34.799 and we will have to do another episode some of the time, but more 327 00:23:34.839 --> 00:23:38.319 episodes are online. If you need some advice or want to hear some early 328 00:23:38.400 --> 00:23:41.279 stuff, they're all on the app. You can go back to twenty nineteen 329 00:23:41.359 --> 00:23:45.200 if you want to, and you can get the app from any app store, 330 00:23:45.440 --> 00:23:48.839 or you can listen online to at two seventeen recovery dot com. Do 331 00:23:48.839 --> 00:23:51.720 you want to say something else, Nope, just want to say thanks everybody, 332 00:23:51.720 --> 00:23:56.000 and I'm glad if you can meet meet Parker via air. All right, 333 00:23:56.799 --> 00:23:59.359 all right, I talk to you later. Hi, Thanks for listening 334 00:23:59.359 --> 00:24:03.000 to the two says venteen Recovery podcast. Listen to over nine hundred episodes on 335 00:24:03.039 --> 00:24:07.759 the two seventeen Recovery app that's free in your app store or online at two 336 00:24:07.799 --> 00:24:11.960 seventeen recovery dot com.