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your support and enjoy So, why don't you tell me exactly what happened?
At what point? At the start? I should hope you told me that
you didn't want to know. Okay, maybe just about the incident itself.
I walked into an alley i'd left the diner. Upon entering the alley,
there were four individuals. I didn't have my weapon. Why didn't you have
your service weapon? I had placed it in the car? I had it,
sir? Why did you make sure it wasn't left unattended? Is there
more to that statement? Galen? I was worried about, well, I
was worried about is state of mind. Case has been a little heavy,
and we'll have the full report to you soon. But there's been a lot
of leads, and I will admit that some feelings associated with my prior partner
was affecting me. Your prior partner, what about him? H? I
look over to Galen. We found out some disconcerting information. It is tied
end with Tyrrell to what extent We're still uncovering. Anyway, I walked into
this alley. There are four people there. Some aggression got out of hand
and I was fighting them. They had weapons I did not. At some
point I was knocked to the ground, where most of what happened after that
is a blur. They were going to kill him. Sir Olden leans back
in his chair and pulled my badge. I pulled my gun. I told
them. I warned them, Sir, they charged and fired. He closes
the folder and in front of him on the desk and pushes it forward,
still looking at you both now not really looking down at this paperwork, and
I need you both to roll manipulation. Please. I'm gonna pushy. Oh
actually no, I won't. Yeah, I don't think you can. I
can, but I won't. I tell you what, In an attempt to
help in this situation, I have enough resolve to push that five to attempt
to get a higher crit Yeah. I would definitely suggest doing that. I
literally have to roll a six. All right, here we go. I
rolled to three. Yep. Okay, So for those listening, we've got
one success and one fail. Uh Holden's eyes move away from you. Galen.
It's almost like he almost like he's ashamed to look at you, which
is weird. I don't think you've ever seen him like that before. Then
he looks directly at you. Bob, what about Sam? Has you so
upset? H We unexpectedly ran across him in an incident involving Natalie. I
can't remember her last name right now, Hermano. It was a bit of
a shock to see him after so long that that was Sam. Maybe,
what do you mean, maybe that's the I mean, he was your partner
here. How long was it Sam? Or wasn't it? It looked like
Sam, Sir, that's a big deal. If it's Sam, we cannot
have one of the LAPD working for the replicant underground. I understand that is
It was a it was a large shock to see this individual. It has
brought up a lot of emotions. I didn't I guess I haven't. I
think at this point, you see Bob is struggling. His words are coming
out short and very evasive. You see me shuffling back and forth a little
bit. I definitely look very uncomfortable. I don't know, sir. We
we don't know yet, Detective to Detective, I don't care about your feelings
right now. What I care about is that one of our own might be
caught working with the replicant underground. Do you understand what I'm saying? Yes,
sir? Do you want me to put out a bolo? How sir?
Sure? Are you not enough for that? Well? I would prefer
it if you contain it before it gets to that point. The last thing
that I want is this all over the news. Yes, sir, I
will make it a priority. Get your shit together, boys, And he
slides the paper forward as if he doesn't even want to fucking file it,
and refuses to look at Galen and then gestures for you to leave with a
wave of his hand. Yes, sir, I grabbed the file and leave.
Uh, I'll hesitate as I'm leaving the office. I'm gonna let Bob
go and I say, give me a minute, right, and then closed
the door. Why are you still here? Towards Holden? Why are you
still here? We'll we'll figure out what's going on, sir. Oh,
I know you will. It's not like him to be like that, and
it's not like you to get caught in a lie. H h. It
wasn't a lie, right, I am worried, though. I think things
are a lot worse than we think they are. Keep an eye out in
the department, noted, I'll clean this mess up. Oh, contain the
other one, Galen, Yeah, you can't be without a service weapon.
I know. I just didn't want him to. I didn't know where his
head was. Oh we do now. I look down at the paper where
clearly lists three deceased individuals two? Sorry, my bad? Is there any
chance these other two are going to come out of the woodwork here? I
doubt it. We'll get this wrapped up soon. I walk out. H
h. I looked around the office a little directionless m h. And then
I just stand there and wait, you're right now, are you? We're
too? Next, I looked down at his hand with the broken fingers.
H h H. I think I think another conversation needs to be had when
I need to talk to Skiff. I need you there, Thank you?
All right? Other than that, what about the other conversation, the one
we just got shoot out for? Yeah, you want what are you looking?
I know you're we got to reach out to Sam Bob. I know
Captain's ready to put out a bulow I know, and that's it's gonna be
problematic. Okay, there are a few different haunts he can go to.
There his there, there's his apartment. I really don't want to go,
but I think we should start there. M hm hm. But I'm galing.
I don't know what to do about this case and where our our partners
sit right now. I don't mm hmmm hm. You know, protocol would
suggest, not even suggest, it would demand that we let them in on
it before going out to his apartment. But after talking with Skiff, it's
not that I can't trust him. I think I can trust him as far
as I trust his convictions. What you know, what what if Sam is
involved in all this? What if I need to take him out? I
don't even know if or you know, if I should. I mean,
it'sigger than him anyway, right, And I'm so turned around. Oh god,
okay, I don't think we should be having this conversation here at this
point. I look around and I'm like, oh God, yes, all
right, yeah, yeah, let's uh, let's get to a spinner and
then let's just get up in the air. Let's get out of here.
We still got to talk to Selma and Skiff about what happened? Do you
want to talk to them about it? You're gonna wonder about the black eyes
the nose? Should I? Right now? I think we're all due a
conversation. You two would see Galen and Bob noticeably hurt. I wordlessly offer
you both a cup of coffee. It's probably not made the way you like
it. It's probably just made black, no milk, no sugar. But
I'll give you a cup of something hot. Thank you some good thanks?
Right? So what was that about? Were we need to go get Skiff
and we need to talk. I think that's a great idea. In fact,
I could radio him right now. Maybe I'll do that. Let's see
Skiff. Hello, just double checking on you. Yeah, Skiff, I
think we uh, I think we should probably talk about don't you come on
back to headquarters? The rest of the games all here? Pretty sure you
wouldn't rather of some pie? I would like pie, yes, but don't
skip out on this meeting, Skiff. We need to talk whether or not
you show up right now, we're gonna be discussing the things. Okay,
Oh I know, yeah, Okay, give me an hour make sure there,
Okay, over and now I think we should probably find a place to
talk. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I gotta be careful in the office.
There's years everywhere everywhere. Yeah, well, let's get suggested pie.
So maybe we find wherever that's going to be and meet up there. He
said, to give him an hour. Yeah, I don't know any good
pie places. M h We'll find something. Let's let's walk. Yeah,
let's walk. I've got my cup of coffee in my hand and just kind
of sip on it and get into the elevator. Mm hm h m hmm.
How long have they been playing that ad? I mean, at this
point, who really is in the market for somebody to keep bringing them sushi
at like four A. I don't get it. I mean, it's not
even fresh at that point. It's just all left out. Guys ever had
that. It's gross. I smirk. I smirk a little at this.
I don't know if you see it, considering how we're standing in an elevator
and people eat it all times. I suppose at all times. I mean
I know I do, but I'd rather enjoy what I mean, you know.
Yeah, So Pi and I walk out the doors, and I think
I probably assume we're going to Lil's and start heading that way. As we're
walking, I think that I'm I'm probably toward what would be the back of
our group, you know, keeping pace, but normally you know, had
head, shoulders back, regardless, sense of purpose, all walking. But
right now, shoulders are hunched, hands are in my pocket, which you've
probably have never seen, and just looking around at things a little blankly.
How long is it on foot? Narrator? I think we decided that Lill's
was very close to the department, so I'd say maybe, I don't know,
fifteen minutes probably, okay, yeah, okay, a couple of blocks
away, not too bad, okay, And I think probably a lot of
the department that goes here will get stuff to go back, because it's fifteen
there, fifteen back, and you all are workaholics. But it's pretty rare
to see people sitting down and actually enjoying a meal. I think probably Skiff's
one of the only two or three people that will make time to sit and
eat here, Right, Skiff, I assume you actually make time to sit
and eat. Yeah, just for Laura Bility, Yeah, okay, yep.
So it's packed with a bunch of people, though, but you do
have the ability to, you know, make it so that people can't hear
what you're saying. And that's not exclusive to the LAPD either, So it's
not uncommon for you to go to a busy place and see people's mouths moving
somewhere else and you can't hear what they're saying because they have the ability to
do that as well. Privacy, Yeah, privacy. So as we are
walking, I think it's just a very quiet sort of walk the whole way.
Everybody's kind of on the edge of their of their set. I guess
when we get to the lills, I'll sort of look for a table that's
just or is it I can't remember. Did we decide that it's one of
those outdoor Yeah, it is outdoor, but there are still sections where you
can have like, you know, kind of I imagined it like it's one
of the outdoor ones, but the seating is kind of clumped together and you
might have a little bit of counter that sticks out so that you could have
people facing each other while they eat, and it's kind of like that the
whole way round. Lil's okay, regardless of any sort of privacy devices,
I will try and pick as a spot that's away from other people. Okay,
and this is what we had for Lill's by the way, so I'll
just put it up here up on the screen. So this is kind of
what you can. You can absolutely grab a table. It looks like okay,
I think upon sitting we can't see anything. By the way, I
don't know what you're talking about. Okay, I'll drop it here in the
discord for you. You can just change you just have to change the bookmark
on roll twenty. Oh, I was showing it on stream, but that's
okay. I'll drop it in there. No worries. Uh. So I
guess once we uh, once we're sitting down, I'll just h I guess
I'll motion to a server. M h. I actually imagine that. It's
a situation where you plug in what you want. Uh. You can have
probably have a server, but only if you go up to the counter.
Okay, So there's just like a yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
uh, you to the counter if you'd like, well, I'll punch in.
I'll punch in in order. What does everybody want? Uh? Uh?
Black coffee and slice of New York cheesecake. Anything's fine, I'm good
thanks. I think Bob can go for a slice of cherry pie and I'll
get some peach cobbler. How fast will we get this food? Oh?
All food? I really enjoy thinking about this in the World War because most
of the foods like synthetic and so it's not like real cherry. So I
imagine that's actually fairly quick. Yeah. I think they probably have it pre
made. There's not a lot of worry about it going off throughout the day.
However, we are experiencing kind of sort of food shortage in the World
War, which is about to really hit in the next year or two,
so you might be seeing occasionally like certain synthetics not being offered right now,
or certain types of replacement foods that you know. But it's only just starting,
so I don't think you would recognize like, oh, we're having a
food shortage yet. Okay, yeah, so maybe I'm married, but you're
like, huh, that's weird. They always have that flavor, but they
don't right now. Yeah. I imagine that at least for the cherry pie.
Whenever we do get it. It looks like like trying to think of
how to It's like if you mix gelatin with something red and let it sit
like it's it's still opaque. Yeah, like you know how cherry pie has
actual, like the round cherries in there. If there's none of that,
it just looks like they it's like some sort of red food. Yeah.
And goo. I definitely eat it way too fast, I mean, big
chunks, barely chewing, swallowing, doing it again until the plate's done,
just looking down at the plate as I eat it and scraping whatever residual goop
is on the plate as well. Just internally regretful that it was done.
So piste. Yeah, a couple of seconds. It was nice to not
have to feel like I needed to say anything. I am savoring my cheesecake.
I feel like we're in opposite mental spaces and just this is the best
slice of cheesecake I have had in a hot minute. And then this coffee
was freshly brewed, and man, they just they nailed it. They did
it today. So I'm just I'm in his zone, just kind of trying
to breathe deep, just enjoy the heck out of this cheesecake. So what
we see is Selma savoring, smelling her coffee, really enjoying the moment.
Bob Ate far too quickly, Galen. Are you eating? Uh, I'm
not. The pie is sitting there. Yeah, And I look at Bob
and I motioned towards mine. You on mine too, Yeah, I'll take
it. And just I do that thing where I like put my finger on
the plate and drag it over to myself. And uh, I'm slow with
the first bite. But then it's the same thing. I think. I
just, I just I'm eating like a duck at this point, so swallowing
it down and based on body language. But correct me if I'm wrong.
I believe we see Sawyer sitting there, arms crossed, watching you like a
hawk, Bob, waiting for you to speak, but you aren't or are
you eating? That's exactly Yeah, yeah, you're just every once in a
while, I'm like, oh man, people listening don't get to see the
incredible body work you guys are doing. So I thought I would take a
second to describe that, you know, boring holes into Bob with your eyes.
I think, after a requisite amount of silence, that just very suddenly
I snap and go. So, which difficult conversation we have in first?
It seems like you already have one in mind. I'm actually not sure,
because the main one that we want to have is with a person that's not
here yet. But maybe we should have a secondary conversation about that before he
gets here. I mean, I know I'm feeling one more human with some
food in me, So why don't we take a second. I mean,
is there anything you too, specifically want to discuss before we get into a
whole conversation with the squad? Bob, Honey, chew, chew your food.
Please, You're gonna You're gonna get a stomach ache that way. You
do keep you waiting my mind about dann time. Hello. I know I
had to make it stop first, and make several stops, it would seem.
But you know, I'm just I'm hairy and some some delicious cheesecake.
Why don't you get yourself some pie? No, I think I'll drink my
dinner. Drink your dinner. Okay, I don't look at Skiff. Oh,
I just realized, I take the glass. I'll have to go back.
AnyWho, AnyWho, someone came prompared what's up? What is up?
That is a wonderful question, Skiff, and I might ask you the same
thing, what is up? So Bob almost died? Good God? You
look like shit. Man. Okay, that's where we're starting off, all
right, Well, why don't you why don't you regale us? Please?
I don't? I I am? Yeah, I look so small in this
seat right now. Shoulders are forward, heads down, looking away from everybody.
Again, I might, I am hm hmm. I got into a
fight with Forging. Losing fight. Yeah, I heard a losing fight,
two of which died because of me. Were they replicants? Who the fuck
knows anymore? They were gonna kill him? I had to take the shot.
Oh so you, Bob, didn't do it? You did it.
He saved me. He didn't so much as kill them. I did that.
I think I'm putting together what's going on my phone? Can I ask
why you picked a fight with? Uh? Let me answer that for you
some Oh now you want to be is well versed in self destruction. I'm
guessing that's what happened here. When one part of your brain disagrees with another
part of your brain. Mm hmm, then all kinds of crazy shit can
happen and fill me and which parts are agreeing and disagreeing here? What's the
what's the conflict? Where are we at now? Bob? I I get
visibly angry, and I look over at Skiff and I was like, I'm
fucking pissed. I'm pissed off at myself. I ammently he also hates bananas.
I'm sorry about that. Okay, I didn't know how to react.
I still I still don't fucking know what to do, Skiff? Do you
you know as well as I do, what should happen and what hasn't happened
at this point? What are you, bob? What are you referencing?
What are you talking about? What is anybody talking about at this table?
Yes? You know that meeting I had mm hmm with h Nara right surely
after that meeting, I uh, I offered Galen my badge and gun I
told him to take it. I didn't want it anymore, like Galen often
does. He talked to me out of it, and uh it all has
to do with the new law that came down, the new kill on site,
and uh, I informed Galen, and I'm informing you that UH not
a robot. You don't just tell me to do something and I do it.
There are orders, then there orders we disobey. We all do it.
I'm going to tell you right now I make you want to shoot me,
but I think it's something. I think the law is wrong. I
don't agree with it, and I will not be an assassin. Were hired
by the LAPD. But the thing that Galen hit me to was that the
job is the same, just how we do it is different. I'm still
going to be a cop. Was still going to be a damn good cop.
You are a damn good cop. When it comes to the choice of
shooting anyone or anything on site, I will not be a party to that.
I will not play that game. I will make judgment calls every single
time, just like I have done since I started on the forest. I
will not pull my gun and shoot because it's what is demanded of me,
and I know what are dancing around it. But we're talking about replicants.
We're talking about killing them, no questions, no VK tests, no nothing,
and also talking about sympathizers in your job somewhere right now says that me
saying what I just said, you should arrest me at the very least.
Now you know me, you known each other along goddamn time, yep.
And if you shot me right here, I'd understand. We're not kind of
just hoping them all. You know, the thing that I think upsets me
the most is that you felt like you couldn't tell me we've disagreed on a
lot. Well, right now we're talking core principles. Skiff, you said
the job is demanding. That's not how it feels to me. I'm compelled,
it's my life disappointed. But at this instance, I'm not sure if
there's a whole lot I can do so, And I think that probably goes
for all three of you. From what I'm hearing and from what I'm observing,
that's all three of my squad mates are telling me that they don't want
anything to do no with this just they're not all the same. You might
have your own reasons, Bob, but ultimately, ultimately we're looking at We're
looking at three of you here. Now. That puts me in a very
very difficult position because right now I'm trying to manage my own morals and my
own ethics, and that has taken a lot of work in this field.
But you have to understand that I respect you, and Galen, I respect
you, and Skiff, I respect you and Sawyer and I have been working
diligently, honestly and genuinely to figure out what the hell has been going on.
And my squad fucking lied to me. That's all you've been doing,
is lying. That's not true. Yes it is. No, it's not.
You haven't even come clean to me yourself, Bob Skiff has talked for
you. I don't even you don't even know. No, I don't.
Do you know how many I have killed? Do you have any idea?
Have you seen my file? Yeah? You know what I've done. Have
you seen my file? Bob? I have? And I think that shit
on me. No, I think there's a bridge here. I don't fucking
know what to do. I put myself in that fucking alley way to die
because I don't know what to do. Look look at Skiff, Look at
him. I have been I wanted to shoot him and I had to put
my gun away because of a conversation we had. I don't know what the
fuck to trust anymore, Selma. I have no idea what to do.
All I know is that it's been too black and white. And it was
so easy. It was so easy to retire. It is not easy to
kill and to go back and look and feel like you've done that over and
over and over again, because they're not all the same. They can't be.
We saw Sam or something that was like Sam, but I knew Sam.
He was my best friend. He and I were there for each other
when we lost her. How can something be that human and not be human?
I don't know what to do. I don't I'm not lying to you
because I don't know how to be honest with myself. I don't know.
It's not against you, HM, it's just so fucking messy it is.
I don't know if this helps anybody mhm. Still, and I think we're
all in agreement. We still want to see Tyrold go down, so that
none of that has changed. There's a there, there is still a job
to do, there are there are things that are happening, and we're in
it. I I don't want to quit, but h I sure as fuck
can't figure this out alone. You're not alone, hm, SM what do
you think about the law that got past? Are you all in on it
when you hurt? Or were you all in on it when you hurt?
Yeah? Yeah, I'll come. I We're going to have this conversation again.
I have to. I know what your answer is, but they don't
it's my job. It's what I've wanted to do my whole life. I've
seen things happen from the same things that were designed to be more human.
And we're talking about an element of trust here. There's just a it's always
going to be something in me that I don't think trusts any one one hundred
percent. And I think that's because you're right. It's damn hard to tell
to distinguish between the two. But I'm going to look at it logically.
I have to. I don't have any other desire other than to see this
through and to see it the way it ought to have been, which was
never making any fucking things that looked like people in the first place. And
you can think that's hardhearted if you want, so, you know what,
I'm sorry. If my car started talking to me about how much it couldn't
stand being driven around and wanted to just drive itself off a bridge, I
think it has gone just a little too far. I think we decided to
put everything that we were into something that we can never be, or even
hope to be. It's still we still don't know. We still do not
know the extent of what a replicant is capable of. But I have seen
these things choke people out until their eyeball fell out of their goddamn face.
They are strong, they are not They are not human. You can place
all of that into whatever replicant you want. I can't, No way,
no way. You both know, you not both know, and humans are
capable of just as much cruelty. Oh I am so aware of that,
and I do not need reminding how awful humanity is. That's the reason I
got into the LAPD. I'm trying to take down the last awful slice of
it, which was basically degradation of the soul. This is an offense.
It's an offense. Let me ask my plate away. Let me ask you
something. See this, See where they put that anna weave inside me?
Mm hmm, yes, yep. How much of me can they replace and
still be me? From what I know of you, Skiff, you were
you weren't fashioned, you weren't engineered. But that's what I know about you.
And now my question is do I even know that you can add to
yourself all you want and claim that's the same thing. It's not. Well,
it's not the same thing at all. The reason there's blade runners at
all is because the replicants go outside of their programming, and that's what that's
what we do. Mm hmm, right, And what do we do that
people with people that go outside of their programming? What we send them to
rehab, we send them to prison. We don't immediately kill them. Is
that the point you're trying to make? These are not people? That's my
point. I don't know if we're going to look at this the same way.
What makes a person then a soul? What makes a person a soul?
Well, first, I'd imagine they're probably home grown. I would assume
that they didn't come from a Petri dish. I don't know, call me
old fashioned or whatever. I know quite a few people who were born in
a Peter dish. And then you know, birned. Are you talking about
your new best friend, Nara Anderson? Well, if you want to talk
about clones not being people's that's another topic altogether. If I draw a line
in the sand and say I don't like people being made artificially, that I
don't think they should exist, So you can quibble all you like about what
makes a human what makes a replicant? Where the line is for me,
the line is they were built, they were fabricated, they were made,
and they've gone rogue. The blackout is a calamity the likes of which we
have never seen before, and I pray to God we'll never see again.
That's what replicants have given us, darkness. What people can do that too.
And that's the problem. There's a whole bunch of people in Japan that
have the same opinion about human beings. The problem is is that sickness.
For years, you're arguing that replicants are worse than humans, and I'm telling
you they are not. They are the same. The cruelty, the kindness,
the want to live. You know what see before, But I see
it now. How long have you felt this way? Really, all of
you? How long have you felt this way? Five fucking minutes? Okay?
Did you see what I selma? Did you see what I did in
that diner? Did you see how I decimated that replicant? Did you see
the anger I had? Did you see the blood on my hands? Did
you see there crushed throat? Did you see it? Skiff had just gotten
shot. He was still holding that fucking gun. You almost got taken out.
I had to throw you out of the way. Yep, And I
killed. I killed, and not simply but brutally. I'm sorry that you
had to do it that way. No, I didn't have to do it
that way. That's the problem. What did he do? He set up
a bomb? Why did he set up a bomb? Because I attacked him
at his door. Who's at fault, Selma sawyer? Who's at fault?
Who's at fault? Maybe the person with the bomb. If you back an
animal into a coordiny to be human and go further than that, why do
you have a bomb? What was he trying to do? What was he
afraid of? These things are lashing out because they fear extinction. They fear
that. They fear. You just said it. They fear What would you
do if you fear. I've seen what you do, I've seen how prepared
you try to be, and you're saying that when they are afraid, it's
different. Why Why is it different? I fucking cause my dreams are mine,
because my feeling or mine, because nothing in my head is stolen.
Do you know if their feelings? Do you know if their feelings are theirs?
Even let me put it to you this way, okay, if at
all I found out by some miracle by some way that was like, Selma,
guess what you're not? Actually, Selma, I would want someone else
finish it off because it's not me bullshit, it's bullshit. You can easily
say that, you can easily, you can easily say that you are not
in that position. That's how deeply I believe in what I believe. That's
how deeply I believe too. Okay, it changes, it doesn't. It's
not clear. They're not They're not just things. They're literally built off of
what we are with no choice. They have no choice. It's like it's
like being pissed off at the person working a register right because the business up
the price. They had no fucking choice they existed. Fuck tyrel Okay and
the choices they make. And fuck those replicants that caused so much fucking misery.
Fuck anybody human or replicant that causes that. Fuck me because apparently I
do it too. I got people killed. You weren't doing anything. I'm
not better, and I fucking hate it. I hate it. I hate
it. I hear what you're saying, Yalen, anything from you. Children
don't have a choice of being born either. Your parents make that decision.
It's something to think about. Are you assuming that I really haven't thought about
the life that comes into the world through actual humans. I'm amazing. It's
all about, isn't it? Where their creation is. Well, they don't
have a choice whether they're created, whether they're born neither, do we No,
Look, I uh, A lot of this is probably my fault.
How so I haven't I haven't retired any replicants, not personally. Bob's had
to do all the work. Oh my god, Oh oh my gosh,
oh oh boy, oh man, get the fuck out. Fair enough.
Well, I've personally retired three of them, two of which someone was there
for the other one. I wouldn't take you back. Can I ask you
something? You know you plan on staying in the lapd Yep, you're talking
open trees and open sedition. No, you're no, you're actively identifying as
a sympathizer right now. You understand it. You just put a loaded gun
to Selma and I's head that if we don't report you that they will is
us too? Do you understand that? Take out my gun and I put
on the table. That's your chance. Do your fucking job. If you
want to talk job, put your fucking money where your mouth is and shoot
me analyst future blade runner. Yeah, I'm future president. I don't want
anyone shooting each other in the diner. What are you gonna choose not to
do it? But it's your job, that's all I'm saying. I choose
not to do parts of my job. Not that hard to understand, right,
Okay, skiff, Okay, I can see what you're doing. You
know. I don't hate you RTT I can't. I know, and I
stand up and I'll let you all right. My god, I got another
question for you. Put it back in my hole, sir, got another
question for you, both, my ears? How long do you think you
can stick around in the lapd as a sympathizer, not reporting anything to hold
and not passing anything up the chain, not retiring replicants before they burn you
out. I've lasted this long, letting people off. It's the job,
said, times have changed, Calus spell job doesn't chat act as a declaration
of war between two species, and it won't end until one side is extinct.
And you're picking a side right now. I don't believe that. I
believe there are factions of people rep against both sides. That want the other
side completely dead. But I bet if you ask the majority, you just
won't live. That's all. Just nobody wants to die, that's true.
No, no, no, just live without having to murder the other side.
Well, unfortunately we're past that point as triggers are pulled a long time
ago. Man, you're defeated already. You haven't even started trying. I'm
telling you, I've let people offer stealing food for their family. I'm I
will make you this promise. If I see anybody repagan or human doing wrong,
I will do my job as a police officer. I will arrest them
or kill them if it comes down to it. But what I won't do
is put a gun to someone's head and pull the trigger just because the LAPD
tells me I have to. I've never can pop and I will never do
that. You keep popping back and forth over that fence, you're gonna get
impaled on it. It's not just find me. I'll go to my grave
with a fucking smile on my face. Then, so I did the right
fucking thing. It's not to you. Would you be okay? If they
had a law to shoot just women, just women, just because of women,
oh and it's different now, right because it's women. But it's just
a group and it's a loss and they have to do it. Your straw
man argument, it's not going to defeat me on this one. Straw Man,
it's not straw man. You're looking at these things as if they don't
feel, but by the nature of their design, they do. Okay,
answer me something, Skiff, What did you and Naarra talk about after you
cut coms? What she want? That's none of your fucking business because you
are not my partner. He is my partner. She is my partner.
Galen's my partner. You are not. And that's why I'm not telling you
shit. I reflexively touched the Hulster. No offense under my cart. You
know I haven't retired any Replicans yet either yet. Do you want to more
than anything? Well, you better be sure. Why do you want to
go ahead? This is important, guess me. I asked my hand out,
I put my hand out on Skiff, and I just I back them
up a little bit. It's okay, sorry, er, Why do you
want to kill them? Why do you want to retire them? Why?
What is your gaversation from me? And that'll my family and that'll fix it.
No, I won't fix it. I don't make me feel a hell
of a lot better. No, it won't. Speaking from experience, yes,
do you know how many I've killed? Do you know how many I've
retired? No? I don't. I made those choices because of my anger.
I have not felt okay since the first time I've retired one, and
it gets worse. I just get more angry and I want to do it
again, hoping that that time that'll be the one. I feel like there's
justice. It's just murder. That's all it is. Is it murder?
When you kill a killer. They're not all killers. The ones that initiated
the blackout are. And that's when I would fucking kill every one of them
because I'm still angry and they did something, but not all of them have.
That's the difference. You can't lump them together. You just can't,
not any more than you can lump anyone together. You just can't do it.
You may want to to justify your anger, I know, because that's
how I've lived, But there's no fairness in that law. There's no law
in that law. It is unprecedented. It's open murder with a pat on
the back, and we're supposed to be okay with it. You know,
Bob, I'm starting to regret asking Lieutenant to not partners. I look over
at him and so I said, I need you to go ahead. I
hate everything about this everything. I want to be angry and I want someone
to suffer. I want that, and that's gotta be the most human and
non human thing to be. But why am I so important that I get
to choose life and death? Why because of my anger? Because I'm pissed
off because a group of replicants, I did something awful that my own personal
fucking vendetta adders. There's nothing in this city and those at the top do
not give a fucking shit, and you know that it's something you've spewed yourself.
How are we not any more disposable than these replicants. They're not the
problem, maybe just a symptom. I'll tell you something. I do feel
bad for them. You're right, they didn't choose to be born. It
is sins of the father, isn't it. It is Tyrrell's fault. Ultimately,
all the people in that wretched building made those choices. They've robbed us
of our humanity. They've stolen our memories, engineered new ones from the rubble,
and they've built a race of destroyers, but undermine what it is to
be human. They devalue our existence by putting them onto the streets. And
it is very unfortunate that the sins of the father fall on the shoulders of
their children. But ultimately, ultimately that's not my choice to make. I'm
just following orders. And the favor that I'll do for you both and Galen
is that I'm with Selma on this one. Whatever she decides, I'm going
to follow her. And if she decides that you're all getting reported, that
you're all being outed as sympathizers, that this is the end of the road
for you, I'll give you a heads up because I think that's what I
owe you all. But I think that's about all I owe you. I
stand up and I lean into Sawyer's face, just following orders. You're a
coward. I walk away. I stand up. Hm, I'm not discussed.
And I woke up looking for Samma. No, I think I may
have changed my mind on pie. What do you got, asshole stuck in
with a bill? Yeah? One slice of apple? Make it? Make
it too just tell me what you got. What do you have on hand
right now? Can I get? Can I get this Soviet heavy? Then?
Whatever? Just shut up and give it to me. There you go,
and sort of stumble away, put my hand up, stumble over to
see the bar. There's a flash my head. A woman. There's a
farm. H I yah. Should we call for backup or anything? Martinez?
Should we call for backup? This is sketchy to me? M yeah,
Can I can I get a Can I get a drink? The club
is packed, but I feel like I can only hear my voice. I
see the bartenders speak, and I just sort of bleterally nod my head.
Just give me, just give me a drink. Okay. Everything seems to
be moving like slowly for me, and every everybody else seems to be moving
quickly. And and I look around and I see Martinez walking towards the farm.
And it's outside the city. And she won't talk to me. She
just keeps walking. She has a hand on her on her holster. There's
a a familiar necklace around her neck. We approach, she motions for me,
go around the back. I just want to drink, okay, excise
me. Whatever you have on hand. I don't care. I'm good for
it. I having money. I'm a blade runner. I have the money.
You can see through the window. Someone's opened the door. There's a
silhouette and I see Martinez on the other side of the open door. She
says something, but I can't hear it. I drink and I'm making my
way onto the dance floor, flirt with anything that moves. It becomes a
blur. We go to some corner with someone. I don't even know what's
happening. There's a muzzle flash, window shutters. I yell Martinez, my
world is a blur. Why why I feel like I fade away? H
m hmm. I'm in my office and I don't know. I think Sawyer
up here with me, sayer, are you with me? I join you
pretty quickly. There's not maybe a few minutes delay of it. Okay,
I come in and I don't have any words. I'm just I assume that
you're I assume that you're working. Did they talk about anything else? They
tried to moralize me a little bit. What does that mean? The say
moralized thing they were doing when you were there? I stayed for a few
minutes, I asked skiff exactly what Anderson was talking about, she asked him.
He told me to He told me to screw off. I am I
do a kind of do you mind gesture as I try to as a gesture
with my ka, like I want to uplink to your terminal? Can you
give me the day I need to be alone? Get me to back off.
I feel like every time I have to talk to the squad at this
point, it doesn't feel like a squad. I'm learning so much about people
that I thought I knew. So I need some time. Okay, you
uh, you don't know what you're gonna do next. No, it's been
a while actually since I don't know. I didn't know what I was going
to do. I know, I know who I am, but what I
do should match up with who I am, right, And I kinda shake
my hands, Sawyer. I know, I know you. I know I
know you're just trying to do right, but I do need I need some
time. I just need some time alone. Okay. Oh, I don't
want to I don't want to put any kind of pressure on you, but
we have to make some decisions together in the near future. And I just
want you to know that I am behind whatever you choose. I appreciate that.
I've got some work to do in my office, and then I'm probably
gonna head back to the place said it took you all. Okay, I
have some follow ups i'd like to do, kay, and I have a
lot of information to compile. I heard that. So once I have it
all together, we can talk about what we're gonna what we're gonna do about
it. Yeah, I'm I'm sorry, thank you, oh you? Uh,
I appreciate that. Well, you know where to find me, Yeph.
Okay, just trust your gut, right, I'll get out of your
hair now, Okay, and uh, I head off to my terminal.
I stopped working on a few things. Let's stay with Thelma for a minute.
My palms are sweaty as soon as the door closes, and my heart
is beating in my rib cage, and I just keep feeling how sweaty my
palms are right now. Even though Sawyer said I wasn't supposed to feel press
all I'm feeling is pressure. All I'm feeling is this weight of the world.
As everything that I have worked so hard for, the friendships and relationships
that I've tried to establish, and I weigh. I weigh if those decisions
that I'm making are the ones that I'm about to make, are the ones
that are truly the most important to me, are truly the most identifying of
my humanity and my desire to align with my own core values. And so
I sit up, and I wiped my hands on my pants because they're still
so sweaty. And I go to Holden's office. I mean not, Oh
Jesus, okay, all right, holy shit, Yeah, come in unless
you want to do it. Meanwhile, I was gonna clip her there,
but let's fucking do it. Let's do it. Come in. Mm hmm.
I sit down. If this is about what happened earlier, I've already
talked to them. Uh huh. Unless you have anything else to add,
Do you have something else to add? Yeah, I've been here way too
long. Oh. When I was a little kid, I love playing hide
and seek, and I would give everybody plenty of time to hide. Holden,
my partner's left me, and they left me with a really tough decision.
And so I just wanted you to know that I wanted to give them
a little time to hide because I can't shoot them in the face, not
right now, and if that means giving up my gun and my badge,
I'll do it now. It's a very tough decision, very tough spot.
But I wanted you know that's where my mind is at, and I'm still
dedicated to this job. Why would you need to shoot them in the face,
Selma, Why would I need to shoot them in the face. They're
telling me that their views directly oppose my own. And because you don't shoot
somebody in the face for views that oppose your own, right, you don't
shoot your friends. What I'm saying is that I don't know. I don't
know my friends. Do those views oppose those views of the LAPD, and
I lean in directly. We better be good at hiding them. Yeah,
that's what I wanted to tell you. Thank you, Soma. Is that
a bright future? Very bright? I'll get out of you here, sir
dismissed. Well, I wasn't expecting that, Sawyer. Where are you?
I'm currently in my office at the LAPD. I'm working on my terminal,
okay, and I'm currently in the process of seeing if I can remote access
the relay point that is sending information from the LAPD to Terrell I'm trying to
see if they have an access point to it from my terminal. Ah ooh,
okay, let's do a roll. Is this the first roll of the
day. No, we did a manipulate role at the very beginning, a
couple of mons. Sorry, this has been a roller coaster. I can't
even opt up. All right, let's do a roll. It'll be a
tech roll. You can have advantage because you know there's something there. Gotcha.
I rolled a three without the advantage. Okay. You can either reroll,
or we can just stick with the three because three is insanely critical anyway,
or you can reroll. Yeah, yep, I could reroll the just
the one, yes, and we'll add it on top the six. Sure,
I'll just roll a D twelve all right, Okay, same roll,
it'll be three. Okay. Ah. You're trying to find what data exactly
is going back or are you trying to connect to Tyrell right now? Through
this? I'm not trying to connect to Tyrell. I'm trying to see if,
because everything's related to my terminal, everything's related to that point. I
would like to see if I can access it and if I can get any
idea of what information is being earmarked, or if it's just like a general
sweep of everything in the department. Well, this is a three. This
is a critical success here, so I am going to say you absolutely can
access it. It's a lot of data that is scrolling very quickly for you.
Do you attempt to capture any of this data right now or are you
just watching? I'm watching right now. I'm trying to see if there's any
immediate Oh yeah, something called immediate and what they're monitoring. Yeah, gotcha.
It's a lot of things that I think, probably rushing very quickly,
probably are a little overwhelming to understand unless you know exactly what it is that
they're they're pulling, and they're pulling a lot of extra stuff that is purposely
meant to distract. But I think without a doubt you see ems that code
those three letters pop up multiple times, EMS one, EMS six, EMS
five, MS eight, nine and ten. You know, all sorts of
things from the lapd yes to tyrell sir. This relay. Yes, the
next thing I'd like to do, and this is a bit ambitious, so
I'll see if I can piggyback off that crid perhaps, Okay, I would
like to create a connection between this relay and my terminal back in my heidout,
so that I can tap into this feed. Ooh okay, yep,
another tech orle please, this one's normal. I'm going to push that four.
Okay, all right, if you're resolved down by one. Oh wow
wow. So okay, that went from a one to a three. So
again critical success. So I was going to say pick a number one through
three for you to choose what data you were going to successfully get back at
your terminal back at your hideout. But because you ruled this critical three,
you can have all of that data arrive at your terminal. So what does
this look like? What this looks like is I'm effectively cloning the relay point
and okay, creating a our sarptitious tunnel. Yep, under it. So
the architecture of the no idea. Yeah, yeah, they have no idea.
You're just making a copy and sending the copy somewhere else. Yep,
okay, got it. I'm linking in and I'd like to believe that at
this point I may be able to more specific and this would be more the
thing I do in future, but with the intent of potentially being able to
alter information before it goes out. That's obviously going to be more of a
but I'm planning for the future right now. Okay, do you do anything
to do you do anything to offset the fact that this is coming to you
to your hideout, or are you pretty confident that no one will ever bother
to look. I'm trying my best to make sure that no I would find
that. Okay, Okay, I'm trying to leave the Terrell connection as the
obvious and making mine a hell of a lot less obvious, if possible.
And once that's all done, I will I'll kind of glance around the office
and realize that this is the first time I've been calm inside the LAPD for
as long as I can remember, because every time I've come here, i've
had recently, i've had a bodyguard. I've had someone watching my back.
I've had Bob with a gun standing somewhere nearby, ready to deal with any
threat come my way. But right now I'm alone. I'm doing possibly one
of the riskiest things I've ever done. But for some reason, I just
feel completely at ease. I feel completely in control, and I think when
I look around, I don't think anyone's particularly interested in me or looking my
way out. I think I'm just sort of another person in the background,
and I I take a moment with this little book that I carry around with
me, so a book of poetry. And all the poetry inside this book
is perfectly handwritten. I've spaced it out, and they out my poems.
There are poems that belong to other artists. There's no original poetry in it.
But there's Thomas Hardy poetry. There's Lewis Carroll poetry. There's poetry by
Lord Byron. And I read a passage to myself, this perfectly printed poem
in my own handwriting. I dreamt a dream which was not all a dream.
The bright sun was extinguished, and the stars did wander darkling in the
eternal space, rayless and pathless, and the icy earth swung blind and blackening,
and the moonlight a morn came and went and came and brought no day.
And men forgot their passions in the dread of this, their desolation,
and all hearts were chilled into a selfish prayer for light. I tuck the
poetry book away, and then, almost invisible, I just bolt sat at
the lapd I make my way to my Spinner, which is parked somewhere nearby.
Then I traveled back to my hideout in silence. Would you say you
wrote that poem yourself. I hand printed it, so it's like not a
poem that I've written. That's Darkness by Lord Byron, that sawyer has hand
printed this passage in this book. Skiff M Where are you? I think
I stopped it? Uh, bodega? Refill my glass that I still haven't
taken back yet. I got some chips. Do they notice? Do I
notice? What? Like that You've taken the glass and come back like an
hour later? Do you think they don't notice? I'm just curious for setting
the scene here? Is it busy? Is it empty? No? No,
I didn't take it back that no, okay, okay, you didn't
go back to the bar, yeah, okay, right, No. I
walked into the bodego with my glass in my hand. Yeah, okay,
all right, with liquor in it, the liquor thing off the shelf,
put it on there, put it on the counter, put some chips on
the counter, and then immediately, like as they're ringing it up, I
unscrew the bottle and put it, put more in my glass and I pet
the bodega cat. There's always one. Cheers, grab my chips, grab
my drinking head outside and uh walk around the corner to the alley and I
look for some Grab a milk crate or whatever passes for a milk crate.
Set it down, PLoP against it, back against the brick wall. Mm
hmmm. I look at the the glass when I look at the bottle when
I finish the glass, and then I uncorked the bottle. When I take
the glass, and I'm thinking about throwing it, but it doesn't belong to
me, so I put it in my pocket oddly enough, and then I
just kind of hunch over. It seems dangerous. It's gonna break. You
might things break, and usually I'm more careful than that, wouldn't you see?
Yeah, what happened? Told my best friend something you didn't want to
hear. I don't know if we're going to be best friends anymore. That
makes me really sad. You know, I thought I was your best friend.
You are you can have more than one best friend, right. It's
trying to lighten the mood for you. Thanks. You always do the right
thing, So I keep you around, is it? You know? I
keep you around. Then you do too? Mm hm, What is she
gonna do? I don't know, trustfully, I know as much as you
do. What do you think she's gonna do? I don't. I'm scared,
Sam, I'm really scared. I'm scared, not even because it made
me my life. It's I don't want to lose her. Do you remember
what she did for me? I was I was no one way, one
way train to either killing myself or ending up in prison, and she pulled
me out. You don't forget that, so don't don't forget it. I'm
afraid she might. No, you know her better than that. You don't
think she'd ever? Did you ever leave me behind? I didn't say that.
Lighting the mood again. I like it? He wantn't? No,
I'm good? Yeah, I figured you ever think out where it is?
I sit here and talk to you in nothing a ghost? Hey, nol,
that's not nice. I don't see I mean things about you or you're
drinking problem. You need to be rude. You have me there? You
do have me there? What would you do or a detective? Sam Lake?
Do which scenarios? Am I you? Or am I? Heart?
You're me? Okay, that's gonna be really hard for me to imagine.
Now he's throwing insults. Yeah, okay, well you deserve that one.
Wow. I deserve a lot more than that, that's for sure. That's
up for debt. Okay, all right, I'm you set the scene for
me, detective. Okay, so some law was passed that said I had
to kill things on on site or on on or kill things and people,
Yeah, just cut because they are what they are, or they sympathize with
those that are what they are, no choice of their own to be that
thing, mind you pardon me, But then, but that's part of that's
part of being a cop is they give you rules and you have to follow
the rules. But every cop I know chooses some rules to follow most I
would say most, and some they don't. I mean, I don't know
a single cop played runner or not who hasn't let someone go with a warning
knowing they probably could have, you know, charged them with something and arrested
them. And now they're telling us that we have to shoot and kill things
on site. Like let's even let's even take the huge like are they human?
Are they not? Are they living? Or whatever? Take that shit
out out of the equation. Like if the cops told me that I had
to shoot every radio I saw, that'd be fucking That'd be very, very
hard, hard rule to follow. Like every single radio I see, if
I suspect it of being a radio, I have to put a bullet in
it. Does that make sense? And now the person that I'm partnering with
that I love more than anyone else in this whole fucking world. Love she
wants all to see all the radio is dead and I'm starting to see the
radio side of things, and I can't do it anymore. But I'm gonna
still be a cop though, right, I make judgment calls in the moment.
If that radio killed somebody, I would shoot that radio. No problem
of that radio is just sitting around being a radio. How can I shoot
it? Especially if the radio talks to me and tells me it doesn't want
to be shot. Oh, Skiff, you're a right pickle. I think
you have to do what you do best, which is, you know,
following that ticker of yours wherever it leads you, even though it leads you
into trouble half the time. Well, I'll tell you, my heart,
I feel even with all of this, even with the threat of my my
pest and may be only real pardon me, friend leaving me and us not
being partners or friends or anything anymore. Still fine, I'm doing the right
thing, and that's that's what you taught me. That's why I keep coming
back to you. Do you know what the right thing? Yes? I
don't. It's just so terrible that the right thing means breaking my fucking heart.
E skiff, I'm I'm listen to me. This is important, Okay.
I didn't teach you anything. I'm a character in a book. You
taught yourself. You did it, you and we go through whatever this is
in stages, seasons, not that you know what those are really, because
you experience life this way all the time, constant rain, piss all the
time. Are you that much of a sad sack? No? I mean
the weather, the weather, Skiff, it's in my world, if I
can even call it that. I don't have this all the time. You
do, but I don't. But the point is that it's okay for things
to not be the same for ever. It's in fact really important that they
aren't, otherwise you won't grow as a person. And just because Selma was
in your life, a very significant part of your life for a very long
time. Doesn't mean that you have to lose anything that you learned and who
you grew as a person while you were together. You can still take that
with you even if she's not around anymore. Do I do I ask for
reassignment? Do I continue on until she does? Do I quit? I
don't know. I'm a fucking character in a book who never had a partner.
I could solve it all by myself, a Goffin or no, maybe
that's what I have to do. Then look for a Magoffin. No,
solve it all by myself. No, I don't think you. Mhm.
I was there that Galen had that conversation with you. Yeah, he was
looking out for you. He was looking out for you in the restaurant.
You see him body that he got right in you that I saw it,
I felt it. I knew what he was doing. I appreciate it.
But wow, I didn't give Galeen enough credit. I wrote him off.
Seemed like a one one note tony one one one trick magician, something of
that, something that's right. He seemed very one dimensional, right cardboard character.
I see there you go and you surprised me. You know me too.
Maybe I trade up, Maybe maybe I get it. Maybe Gayland is
my new best friend. That game outage. I mean, you saw what
we got up to when we got together, Like when we had our time
together. We ended up getting I don't even know if waste is the right
word for it. I got forgetful, comic comically fucked up, and we
ended up with a bunch of pleasure models and maybe not pleasure models together.
We haven't talked about it since. Do you need to talk about it?
No, I'm just saying, that's that's who I want. That's what I'm
thinking about, making money, best friend. But I that's okay. I
don't want a new best rat. God damn it, whatso much? That's
never gonna happen. It's never gonna happen. Probably not. Nor sometimes things
break. You think you're gonna tell me she wouldn't do that. Partners were
partners. Partners mean something to us. She never do that. But that
motherfucker Sawyer. Oh oh, that weasel faced motherfucker. He's gonna rat till
rat motherfuck. I bet he's in the Captain's office right now, fucking ratting
on all I gave him. Do you know you were there? I gave
him the opportunity to shoot me. I know that was that was He didn't
even that was impressed to take it. I have to say I was.
I was watching that the whole time, thinking like, oh this is this
could go real south? Or is he really pulling this off? He's pulling
this off? Is he gonna shoot him? But it was I was on
the edge of my seat me. I knew he wouldn't do it. It
was more, yeah, I didn't. I thought someone would. I don't
think someone would shoot me. I thought she. I thought she would arrest
me. But that's sawyer. Oh boy, he wanted to. I could
taste it. Oh, I could taste it. Oh. I've seen that
look before. I've seen that look when people have shot at me before.
Oh he wanted it so bad. But that little fucking rat he never do
it. Never do it. He does his battle with the keyboard. People
change, things change. Oh, I bet he do it now, some
time to think about it. Oh, I bet he do it now.
But I don't think he would do it to my face. I think he
might walk up behind me and shoot me in the back. But I don't
I wouldn't put it past him. Now do you recognize all these people?
Pay attention? Do you recognize all these people? You got me amped up?
Now? Which once everyone around you? I don't, no, not
all of them. You want me to keep a lookout. Four, I
don't know lawyer with a gun sneaking up behind you. No, I'll tell
you this. If him or Selma have it out for me and they get
the mm hmm kotsu to take it into their own hands and give me what
they think I got coming, salute them for it. But I'm not I'm
thinking that it's not gonna happen. I'm thinking I'm gonna get ratted out by
that computer jockey and he gonna just sit back and smile while either I get
shot or arrest or maybe nothing. Maybe nothing happens. Maybe I wake up
tomorrow, I walk into the office and they asked me how the job's going,
and I tell them it's going great. It's going great. We got
some leads, Captain, we got a bead on what we're looking for.
We're gonna go after the bad guys and we're gonna take him down and we're
gonna put him in jail or in the ground, and the Captain's gonna put
up fucking metal at me like he did the other time when I got shopped
in that other place for doing my fucking job. That's what he's gonna do.
And I'm gonna have so many fucking metals that I'm gonna be walking with
a fucking hunch. That's my plan. You're gonna have to get a lot
stronger skiff. I mean it, our time's coming. I'll go home tonight.
It's a good idea. Fucking no where i'd go normally, you can't.
I don't hm hm. Maybe I'll see if babies, see if they
have a rum or someplace I can stay. I wish I could help you.
Give you have Yeah, I appreciate you. All right, I bear
get up. I very get it. You know what. I'm gonna get
up in a minute. Give me a minute. We'll give you five minutes.
Have a glass of water. Okay, that's a good idea. I'll
have a glass water. Okay, you have your going Yeah, okay,
all right, yep, I still got it. Got my gun on my
wallet. Wait, wait, hold on left cat pocket, cute, hold
on phone, smokes wallet, yep, badge all right, got them all.
I do that before I walk out. All right? All right,
God, I wish you could hug me. I wish I was real.
Do me both, partner, do me both. That's just it, Skiff.
It's not just doing me both, is it. I have a whole
sea of people out there wishing the very same thing, and I gotta do
the right thing a matter of the cost. And you will in five minutes.
Five minutes, Bob, Yeah, where are you? I am standing
outside of apartment one zero zero seven. I am looking at the pad next
to the door. I take a shallow breath. I reach out, not
really knowing what to expect, but I put in the code and hope that
the door to Sam's apartment opens. It does. I look concerned because I
didn't expect this. I don't know what I expected. I pushed the door
open while standing in the hallway. There's a slot. I look to see
if there's any as it opens in that little streak of the door. Are
there any lights on? Inside? No? I'll walk in as I do.
There's a little hallway a place to take your shoes off, but I'm
not going to do that. As I continue to walk down the little hallway.
There's a kitchenette on my left that is attached to a small dining room.
There's a little table with two chairs that easily belong to the table and
one extra that doesn't. Behind that, on the wall there's a series of
shelves. I'll walk over to it see that. There's a little bit of
dust. To my right is the living room, if you want to call
it that, and a small space through a door next to that with a
bed and a very small bathroom. I look at the items on the shelves.
There is a picture of me standing there with my arms crossed with a
very serious look on my face, with the exception of just a little hint
of a smile on my lips. His arm around my shoulder and neck in
a bit of an action stance of looking goofy like he just did it.
Is Sam, laughing about something I can't even remember now. And on the
other side is chi Yo. She's wearing this it's kind of a canvas jacket
that just hangs off her frame and her hairs pulled back in a ponytail.
And I'm confused because while looking at it, I'm holding her hand. I
quickly put the picture down face down, a step back, and I walk
to the living room. I go to where the curtains are. It's a
little button for them to open up. Tell me something, Sam, what
the fuck is going on? What's going on? I? Uh? I
can feel something slipping away from me. I don't know what it is.
I turn around real fast, I take a breath in, set my shoulders
back, and I look around the apartment objectively. What are you looking for?
I don't know something, something out of place, something in place.
I don't know I'm missing something. Again. I need you to roll for
me. You can choose. You can choose observation or intuition, different type
of answer depending on what you choose to roll. I'm gonna roll observation.
Uh, that's a success, a one. As you look around the apartment,
you can tell he hasn't been here in a very long time. It's
been abandoned. Ah. It looks like only the essentials were grabbed. Okay,
Sam, where would you go? What would you do? I sit
down on this little couch that I've sat downe on so many times before.
I've got my hands on the sides of my head. I am leaning forward
with my elbows on my knees a little bit, and I am trying to
be sam. I am trying to remember as much as I can about this
wonderful, happy person that I saw become devastated, along with my own devastation.
You've discovered you're not who you think you are. Okay, okay,
we've grabbed some things. You're gonna run, but you're still here. You
need a place to be, place to be familiar. No, you wouldn't
do that. No, you're smart. You're gonna stay moving. Would you
have left me anything? I stand up and I walk into the bedroom.
There's it's a fairly small bed, enough for two people. But next to
the bed there is a pillow on the floor with a blanket and a little
It's not a mattress, it's like a thin sheet of memory foam. I
don't paid any attention. I just keep looking. I go over to one
side of the bed. I pull out a drawer. It's empty. Okay,
he grabbed the keys. Okay, so at least for a while he
was striving. Okay, Oh god, how do I I turn around and
I go over to a closet. I open it up. I reach up.
There should be a shoe box. Is it there? Yeah? Absolutely,
I pull it down. There should be a pictures, a lot of
pictures in here, okay, pictures of what Sam's childhood, and they shouldn't
exist. I start to lay them out on the bed, one at a
time. They're all aged, they look so real. I look through them.
I'm looking at Sam as a kid. I see him as a teenager.
I see him in his twenties, and I'm so angry for him.
What a fucking lie. Okay, okay, you want answers too, You
would want answers. I know that I saw you, or maybe that was
you, maybe it wasn't. That's gonna have to stay over here. You
have your ride. I might be able to track that down. And I
think back to a conversation that we had. We would always have these conversations
that Sam would start. They were always these stupid fucking hypotheticals, Hey,
Bob, if you were doing this, what would you do? Always made
me think about the stupidest shit. But he did think on one part of
town was a better hiding place than any of the others. That's where I'm
going to have to start. I pick up all the pictures and I put
them back in the box, okay, and then I throw it away.
You throw the box away, okay. And then I turned to leave.
There's nothing here, not that I can see, not that I want to
see. I need to find Sam. That's all that matters. I need
to find Sam. So I start to make my way back through the apartment.
Let's twice. Now you've said you want to leave, but you don't
leave yet. Is there something there's here? Oh no. I go over
to that picture I put down. It's in't an old frame. You don't
really see those anymore. I take it out on the back of a date
and it's my wedding date. H m hm ah. I moved out when
she died. I couldn't stand to be here anymore. M m m m
hmm. What was she? If Sam wasn't real, what was she?
I don't understand. I don't understand. M h m hmmmmmm mm hm h
m hm. Okay, y, I gotta find him. M hm m
h m hm. I walk out of the apartment. M do you I
gotta find him? Do you take the picture with you? Yeah? Yeah,
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