WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.320 --> 00:00:07.679 It's the two seventeen Recovery podcast with Corey Winfield. I think that's pretty fair 2 00:00:07.719 --> 00:00:11.000 for a guy once a quarter, four times a year trim and toenails. 3 00:00:11.199 --> 00:00:13.160 If it needs to be done, it needs to be done. I'll think 4 00:00:13.160 --> 00:00:16.320 you that you can go by the calendar year. You probably wish I would 5 00:00:16.719 --> 00:00:21.039 because I probably maybe really do it like twice a year and co holds Marni 6 00:00:21.320 --> 00:00:25.440 Winfield the people that really are drawn to twelve step program. One piece of 7 00:00:25.480 --> 00:00:30.480 those twelve step groups is because it's people from all different varieties in lengths of 8 00:00:30.519 --> 00:00:38.479 time of sobriety. It is the third of February twenty twenty four. My 9 00:00:38.560 --> 00:00:42.520 name's Corey Winfield, my name's Marnie Winfield, and this is the two seventeen 10 00:00:42.560 --> 00:00:47.880 Recovery podcast coming from the eighth No, No, it's the home studio location, 11 00:00:48.119 --> 00:00:51.119 right, not the it's the home studio, so we were going to 12 00:00:51.200 --> 00:00:53.880 call it that. Yeah, and it's good to have you on, Marty. 13 00:00:53.920 --> 00:00:56.960 It's been forever a couple of months, I think since you've done a 14 00:00:57.000 --> 00:01:00.880 podcast, almost as long since I clip my toenails last. I think it's 15 00:01:00.880 --> 00:01:06.400 like the only open you've played when when we've been doing podcasts together lately. 16 00:01:07.760 --> 00:01:11.079 Yeah, what kind of happens. But I played that on purpose because I 17 00:01:11.120 --> 00:01:18.920 did clip my toenails on the twenty fourth. Oh no, no, he's 18 00:01:18.959 --> 00:01:23.120 literally looking at a calendar. Yeah I can. I can actually tell you 19 00:01:23.439 --> 00:01:25.959 because I was gonna do it. I'm Martin Luther King day, but I 20 00:01:25.959 --> 00:01:32.159 got a little busy that day. No, it wasn't then, it wasn't 21 00:01:32.159 --> 00:01:36.680 the twentieth. That's February, my bat horn. Yeah, twenty fourth of 22 00:01:36.719 --> 00:01:42.840 January. Clip toenails. That's so, that's good, that's great. And 23 00:01:42.879 --> 00:01:47.599 then I threw out my back doing it. I don't know how you hurt 24 00:01:47.599 --> 00:01:51.200 your back clipping toenails. I don't know. It was serious work. And 25 00:01:51.239 --> 00:01:53.040 I talked to the guys about it, and I think they thought I was 26 00:01:53.120 --> 00:01:56.920 joking, but I really wasn't. Things you do in recovery, man, 27 00:01:57.480 --> 00:02:00.680 you know, just start clipping toenails once a quarter. Yeah, make that 28 00:02:00.760 --> 00:02:07.040 goal and you just go from there. But things for us have been pretty 29 00:02:07.040 --> 00:02:12.039 well. We saw Tyrone today, Yeah, he came by and we went 30 00:02:12.039 --> 00:02:15.719 out for lunch. That was nice. And things seem to be going well 31 00:02:15.800 --> 00:02:19.840 at the two seventeen Recovery Center, and we have an event planned for the 32 00:02:19.879 --> 00:02:23.439 twenty ninth, so excited. The end of the month. It's Recovery Stories, 33 00:02:23.479 --> 00:02:31.360 Message of Hope Part two and justin Mitch and I think Adam and the 34 00:02:31.439 --> 00:02:37.159 woman by the name of Rose they're going to do the stories, and then 35 00:02:37.319 --> 00:02:39.840 a guy by the name of Mike and a guy by the name of Jeff 36 00:02:40.719 --> 00:02:45.520 going to do the Message of Hope part and it'll be pretty good. I 37 00:02:45.599 --> 00:02:51.240 put together the video from the first one and I submitted it to Amazon Prime 38 00:02:51.360 --> 00:02:54.719 Video, so we'll see if it goes through there and clears the copyright stuff 39 00:02:54.759 --> 00:02:58.680 and if they want to copyright it or pay us like eight dollars to do 40 00:02:58.719 --> 00:03:01.319 it, and that's cool. I'm hoping it would be free for everybody, 41 00:03:01.680 --> 00:03:06.000 right, something that I did to try to make money off of. I 42 00:03:06.080 --> 00:03:14.039 just want people to see it. And that's just you having put together the 43 00:03:14.120 --> 00:03:16.759 speakers that were at the last event, yep, and kind of putting that 44 00:03:16.919 --> 00:03:22.439 and adding in a little bit and jazzing it up like you do. Yeah, 45 00:03:22.439 --> 00:03:27.199 because there we had four cameras going and I think for like Kendra and 46 00:03:27.719 --> 00:03:30.919 Mary, the way they were standing, I can only use two of the 47 00:03:30.919 --> 00:03:34.800 camera shots. And Mary looks like she was sitting, but she moved her 48 00:03:34.879 --> 00:03:38.759 chair to the side, so the microphone just left a big shadow right in 49 00:03:38.800 --> 00:03:42.919 the middle of her face, in which I was not. I was like, 50 00:03:43.080 --> 00:03:45.599 oh, there's no way to get it out of there. So it's 51 00:03:45.639 --> 00:03:49.080 like, okay, well live and learn. So I'm gonna tell everybody else 52 00:03:49.120 --> 00:03:53.479 this next one. Do not move like. I set the cameras up for 53 00:03:53.479 --> 00:03:54.759 a reason, you know, And I didn't really know what I was doing 54 00:03:54.800 --> 00:03:57.560 the first time. It was just like, let's turn them on and let's 55 00:03:57.639 --> 00:04:00.639 roll with it. And now I know. But it still wasn't bad. 56 00:04:00.680 --> 00:04:05.639 It wasn't horrible. And it just has the four story tellers, which I 57 00:04:05.719 --> 00:04:08.599 was one of them, and then it has Mary, and then it has 58 00:04:08.719 --> 00:04:13.479 David g which he was great. So is that available now then or not 59 00:04:13.560 --> 00:04:17.279 yet? Well I submitted it. I don't know, maybe like three weeks 60 00:04:17.319 --> 00:04:19.759 ago, two weeks ago, three weeks ago, something like that. And 61 00:04:19.839 --> 00:04:24.959 I was talking to my buddy Ron Robinson and he was telling me about the 62 00:04:27.120 --> 00:04:30.319 rules. I guess you could say, when you upload videos to video to 63 00:04:30.759 --> 00:04:34.399 Amazon Prime Video, if you have an email in there, any kind of 64 00:04:34.480 --> 00:04:38.839 like contact info, they will not do it. And then you have to 65 00:04:38.839 --> 00:04:42.160 resubmit it, and he said it takes longer. So when he told me 66 00:04:42.199 --> 00:04:44.720 that, I was like, oh shit. So I went back and then 67 00:04:44.759 --> 00:04:46.680 I deleted the video that I had already uploaded, which took forever, and 68 00:04:46.720 --> 00:04:51.120 then I had to upload it again after I took my email out and stuff 69 00:04:51.120 --> 00:04:54.720 like that. The only thing I left in was you know, it was 70 00:04:54.759 --> 00:04:58.839 a two seventeen recovery production, right, which I don't see them having a 71 00:04:58.839 --> 00:05:00.959 problem with that because they didn't it together. Right. If they want to 72 00:05:00.959 --> 00:05:04.439 copyright it and they want to distribute it, you know, then they can 73 00:05:04.480 --> 00:05:06.680 put all the crap they want in the middle of it, in the beginning 74 00:05:06.680 --> 00:05:13.319 of it or whatever. But as far as like any contact info or anything 75 00:05:13.439 --> 00:05:15.639 like that, sure, there's really nothing there. So we'll just wait and 76 00:05:15.680 --> 00:05:19.079 see it should I don't know, it'd be another week maybe. And what's 77 00:05:19.120 --> 00:05:25.920 the what's the length of it? Fifty six or seven minutes long? It's 78 00:05:25.959 --> 00:05:29.879 almost an hour, okay, because the recovery stories for like, you know, 79 00:05:29.959 --> 00:05:31.560 three to six minutes, because I did like six and a half minutes, 80 00:05:32.319 --> 00:05:35.240 and then I think Mary talked for like twelve and then David G talked 81 00:05:35.279 --> 00:05:40.839 for like twenty five. Okay, but it's good stuff. And yeah, 82 00:05:40.959 --> 00:05:45.040 I had to use the different cameras to edit it because the straight on camera 83 00:05:45.360 --> 00:05:47.480 people kept walking in front of it, so I only really walked through in 84 00:05:47.480 --> 00:05:50.759 front of it. I have to cut over to a different camera and come 85 00:05:50.839 --> 00:05:58.560 back and people coughing. I think it was might have been Tyrone this year, 86 00:05:58.680 --> 00:06:00.399 just people coughing. I'm like sex. But I did add music to 87 00:06:00.439 --> 00:06:05.680 it, which kind of I guess not drowns out the cough, but it 88 00:06:05.720 --> 00:06:16.120 doesn't make its apparent prominent. I don't even know. It's just like, 89 00:06:18.680 --> 00:06:24.399 hey, it's we're real people doing real thing in real time. So it's 90 00:06:24.439 --> 00:06:29.920 not like all right, you know, message of hope. Take five that 91 00:06:30.079 --> 00:06:32.759 was it. Whatever came out, whatever came out. So yeah, but 92 00:06:32.839 --> 00:06:35.439 it's pretty cool and I think people would really like it and there's some really 93 00:06:35.480 --> 00:06:42.240 good messaging in there. And we'll just see if if when it comes out 94 00:06:42.439 --> 00:06:46.399 on whatever, I will let you know. Yeah. Oh, it's a 95 00:06:46.399 --> 00:06:51.120 workout time for our kiddie. He has a sing where he picks, like 96 00:06:51.160 --> 00:06:55.240 I said, the worst times that he decides he wants to run his little 97 00:06:55.240 --> 00:06:57.000 wheel. I was like, what is it. I'm like, oh, 98 00:06:57.240 --> 00:07:00.879 I can't like what is that noise? Yes, a big wheel. The 99 00:07:00.920 --> 00:07:05.920 cat just runs on over and over. Imagine like a hamster wheel but way 100 00:07:06.000 --> 00:07:11.319 larger. Yeah, it's like that. It's really awkward. It gets there's 101 00:07:11.319 --> 00:07:14.240 really no good place to put it. No, it's really not. If 102 00:07:14.279 --> 00:07:17.240 you have like a six bedroom house, it would be like put it wherever, 103 00:07:18.040 --> 00:07:20.560 put in the cat's room. If you're if you're a cat person and 104 00:07:20.759 --> 00:07:26.160 cat owner, you know, if you've ever gotten a kitten like that year 105 00:07:26.279 --> 00:07:29.839 mark, Like they're full of energy and they're just like, yeah, I 106 00:07:29.839 --> 00:07:33.879 can run and run myself into a wall like they don't even care. Yeah, 107 00:07:33.920 --> 00:07:38.800 Like our cat just runs into the window. He runs just wham, 108 00:07:39.079 --> 00:07:41.639 and it just doesn't make any sense. Like it looks kind of cool. 109 00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:44.879 Like today this morning he ran in the jumped and then like kind of hit 110 00:07:44.920 --> 00:07:47.079 his back like his ass on it like man, like he was going to 111 00:07:47.120 --> 00:07:53.360 go up and like jump off it or something kind of like dirt biker tricks. 112 00:07:54.040 --> 00:07:55.759 I just looked and I shook my head. I was like, man, 113 00:07:55.800 --> 00:07:59.160 that dude's crazy, I know. But then they kind of calmed down 114 00:07:59.319 --> 00:08:01.399 and then they just like around and do nothing. Yeah, but he's in 115 00:08:01.399 --> 00:08:05.879 that stage right now where it's like just it's crazy. I wonder if human 116 00:08:05.920 --> 00:08:11.160 babies do that too, No, I don't think so, not to that 117 00:08:11.319 --> 00:08:16.759 extent. Uh. Yeah, we're doing with our our boy in May. 118 00:08:16.120 --> 00:08:20.720 How's the pregnancy going. It's going well, it's gone really well. It's 119 00:08:20.920 --> 00:08:26.800 I mean, obviously, anybody, any woman who's been through it, it 120 00:08:26.000 --> 00:08:33.320 knows it's there's unpleasantries about it, you know, discomfort and just kind of 121 00:08:33.399 --> 00:08:39.879 like everything's a little more difficult to do. But I mean I'm not really 122 00:08:39.919 --> 00:08:43.440 super complaining now because I mean I can't you know, there's still more to 123 00:08:43.440 --> 00:08:48.679 come with the third trimester, so ahead of me, ahead of us, 124 00:08:48.799 --> 00:08:52.480 let's say. Yeah, that's kind of a even though you're not the one 125 00:08:52.559 --> 00:08:56.559 with the you know, baby in your belly, it's still it still affects, 126 00:08:56.720 --> 00:09:01.120 you know, us as a family and and stuff, which we're talking 127 00:09:01.159 --> 00:09:05.279 about. Possibly. I can't believe you never heard of what a baby I 128 00:09:05.320 --> 00:09:11.279 wonder for anybody here knows what a baby moon is, because you made it 129 00:09:11.279 --> 00:09:13.960 sound like it was something that I made up. Yeah, well I never 130 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:15.639 heard of it. You know. I guess I really don't know a lot 131 00:09:15.639 --> 00:09:18.879 of people who have babies. I guess or talk about it. So yeah, 132 00:09:18.879 --> 00:09:20.200 when you brought it up, I was like, what, you just 133 00:09:20.240 --> 00:09:22.600 want to take a vacation? And then I brought it up to your mom 134 00:09:22.600 --> 00:09:24.320 and your mom was like, oh, no, you guys just went to 135 00:09:24.320 --> 00:09:28.240 Seattle. You don't need a vacation. I was like, okay, mother 136 00:09:28.320 --> 00:09:31.440 in law. Yeah, well that's I'm just going to I wish I'm glad 137 00:09:31.480 --> 00:09:37.720 that I wasn't there for that comment because it's blowney because now I'm starting to 138 00:09:37.720 --> 00:09:43.120 think, like, man, eighteen years a long time, you know, 139 00:09:43.279 --> 00:09:46.879 to not just go off and I mean we can go off and do stuff, 140 00:09:46.919 --> 00:09:52.919 but like to have one last bang, right, Because when we went 141 00:09:52.000 --> 00:09:54.519 to Seattle, we didn't know. I mean we were hoping, yeah, 142 00:09:54.559 --> 00:09:58.799 that would be the last like crazy vacation we took. Yeah, but now 143 00:09:58.799 --> 00:10:01.360 it's like, man, we can really get it get another one in real 144 00:10:01.440 --> 00:10:05.960 quick. So we'll just have to figure out where you'd want to go. 145 00:10:07.039 --> 00:10:09.919 I guess you know, like these are sober people problems. Yeah, these 146 00:10:09.960 --> 00:10:18.440 are like good things to have. And when I was thinking about stuff the 147 00:10:18.519 --> 00:10:22.919 other day about you know, how how far I've come in the past few 148 00:10:24.000 --> 00:10:28.200 years, and you too, how far you've come and the things that we're 149 00:10:28.200 --> 00:10:31.960 doing now in life are the things that we wanted to do at one point, 150 00:10:31.480 --> 00:10:35.399 whether we knew it or not, and here we are doing it. 151 00:10:35.759 --> 00:10:39.759 Yeah. And I was talking to Tyrone today after you left, and Tyrone 152 00:10:39.799 --> 00:10:43.600 were ouse. I gave a shirt, a couple of two seventeen recovery shirts, 153 00:10:43.600 --> 00:10:46.080 and I was talking to him and I was like, you know, 154 00:10:46.480 --> 00:10:50.000 like, if you'd have told me, this is what I'd be doing, 155 00:10:50.799 --> 00:10:54.720 you know, five years ago, or even you know, four years ago 156 00:10:54.639 --> 00:10:58.399 when we first went to the UFAM rally, you know, like I got 157 00:10:58.399 --> 00:11:03.240 out of treatment in March early April of twenty nineteen is when we started the 158 00:11:03.240 --> 00:11:09.279 podcast and then we were on our way. Man, I guess that was 159 00:11:09.320 --> 00:11:15.440 five years ago, wasn't it. Yeah, if you'd have told me, 160 00:11:15.600 --> 00:11:18.399 like when we were at that first UFAM rally, which I got them to 161 00:11:18.519 --> 00:11:22.519 give us a media sponsor. Again, you can go back and listen to 162 00:11:22.559 --> 00:11:28.919 the podcast from then too. It's probably bad. It could be entertaining just 163 00:11:30.200 --> 00:11:31.320 to hear what we were doing and what we were saying and where we were 164 00:11:31.360 --> 00:11:37.279 at. But we showed up. They gave us a sponsorship so we didn't 165 00:11:37.320 --> 00:11:39.480 have to pay anything. To be a part of it. We talked about 166 00:11:39.519 --> 00:11:43.320 a lot on our podcast, and then we got there and they told us 167 00:11:43.320 --> 00:11:46.720 they were going to give us an eight foot table. I don't know this 168 00:11:46.759 --> 00:11:48.879 said they were going to give us a six foot table. So we bought 169 00:11:48.879 --> 00:11:54.039 a six foot table cover, which I screwed up. I tried to iron 170 00:11:54.120 --> 00:11:56.480 on a logo. It didn't work. It was horrible. Well, we 171 00:11:56.559 --> 00:12:01.240 get there, then they got eight foot tables. Our table covered didn't even 172 00:12:01.320 --> 00:12:07.039 fit. Like it was just it was just we just had to make the 173 00:12:07.080 --> 00:12:09.799 best of it. And now, honey, you know, because you've been 174 00:12:09.799 --> 00:12:13.039 there, we look pretty good when we show up, you know, like 175 00:12:13.080 --> 00:12:15.919 we look like we're we have it together. But back then, you know, 176 00:12:15.960 --> 00:12:20.480 it was just me and Rob, you know, it was, Yeah, 177 00:12:20.840 --> 00:12:22.799 it was. But yeah, if you'd have been like, hey, 178 00:12:22.919 --> 00:12:26.039 and it's what you can be doing, you know a few years from now, 179 00:12:26.039 --> 00:12:28.200 I would have said, what are you talking about? How am I 180 00:12:28.240 --> 00:12:33.279 going to do all that? Yeah, it's nuts, but that's what happens. 181 00:12:33.480 --> 00:12:37.679 And I was telling Tyrone too, like early in my life, early 182 00:12:37.679 --> 00:12:39.480 in my career, I knew I wanted to, you know, be on 183 00:12:39.519 --> 00:12:41.679 the radio. I knew I wanted to do this and do that, and 184 00:12:41.679 --> 00:12:45.919 I would go after my goals. And then when I started drinking and you 185 00:12:45.919 --> 00:12:48.679 know, smoking pot and all that like big time, that's when my dreams 186 00:12:48.759 --> 00:12:54.559 kind of became something that I would just tell people, Oh, yeah, 187 00:12:54.559 --> 00:12:56.000 I want to do that one day. Yeah, I want to do that. 188 00:12:56.080 --> 00:13:01.960 I want to be this, I want to do this. But now 189 00:13:01.960 --> 00:13:07.399 that I've had, you know, five years of being sober, when I 190 00:13:07.440 --> 00:13:13.960 say things, I know that I can achieve them, and it's a part 191 00:13:13.960 --> 00:13:16.759 of like, well, how are you going to do it? You know, 192 00:13:16.919 --> 00:13:18.440 I told you that I was gonna make a movie, Well I should 193 00:13:18.440 --> 00:13:22.399 write a script, yeah, you know, And so I bought a book 194 00:13:22.399 --> 00:13:24.840 on how to write a script and I start reading that, and there's going 195 00:13:24.919 --> 00:13:28.879 to be things in that book that will, I don't want to say, 196 00:13:30.399 --> 00:13:33.399 send me on a little detour for making the movie, but there'll be things 197 00:13:33.399 --> 00:13:35.879 that I learned that I'll have to do before I make the movie, you 198 00:13:35.919 --> 00:13:39.879 know. And there is just part of the process of wanting to make a 199 00:13:39.879 --> 00:13:41.279 movie. Now, if I just just like, Hey, I'm going to 200 00:13:41.320 --> 00:13:41.919 make a movie and you're like, well, how are you going to do 201 00:13:41.919 --> 00:13:43.919 that, I'm like, I don't know, just watch a bunch of themen 202 00:13:45.639 --> 00:13:50.799 buy a camera. That's not really right. I'll just say I'm going to 203 00:13:50.840 --> 00:13:52.440 make a movie, and I'll be eighty years old. I'm like, oh, 204 00:13:52.440 --> 00:13:54.279 I'm gonna make a movie one day, and you'll be like throwing pancakes 205 00:13:54.279 --> 00:13:58.360 and coffee mugs at me and like, shut up, shut up with that 206 00:13:58.360 --> 00:14:01.879 stupid movie. You didn't make it, and you're not going to. I'd 207 00:14:01.919 --> 00:14:05.600 rather say, yeah, you did that once and it sucked, so shut 208 00:14:05.679 --> 00:14:09.120 up. No. I mean, like, I think, I think you're 209 00:14:09.200 --> 00:14:16.759 right. I think with setting goals, and especially since you know they're where, 210 00:14:16.919 --> 00:14:20.480 you're in a place where you're healthy enough and sane enough to have the 211 00:14:20.519 --> 00:14:24.919 goals that we come up with be realistic, right, and it's not like 212 00:14:26.919 --> 00:14:30.360 it's not that far off base, And we're also realistic about the fact that 213 00:14:30.440 --> 00:14:35.240 they don't happen overnight. And I was never in that healthy space when I 214 00:14:35.279 --> 00:14:37.639 was in my active addiction. Even if I had some kind of idea in 215 00:14:37.679 --> 00:14:41.919 mind of something bigger, bigger that I wanted to do down the line, 216 00:14:41.519 --> 00:14:45.039 it's like I didn't. I didn't have any idea how I would get there. 217 00:14:45.080 --> 00:14:48.039 I couldn't even wrap my head around like what would be the first steps 218 00:14:48.039 --> 00:14:54.200 to like make that happen? Because I wasn't I wasn't healthy, and and 219 00:14:54.279 --> 00:14:56.639 it didn't seem achievable, so I didn't Actually if you didn't actually believe that 220 00:14:56.679 --> 00:15:01.159 you could do it, then you wouldn't actually think about in a realistic way 221 00:15:01.320 --> 00:15:07.120 to an approaching, approaching making that actually happen, you know, and all 222 00:15:07.159 --> 00:15:09.879 that stuff comes with time. So like these people that are in early recovery, 223 00:15:09.000 --> 00:15:13.759 like there's nothing wrong with having big ideas, There's nothing wrong with that, 224 00:15:13.279 --> 00:15:16.960 it's just what are the small things that you're going to do to get 225 00:15:16.960 --> 00:15:20.679 to that bigger thing? You know, and make sure first things first, 226 00:15:20.759 --> 00:15:24.120 make sure you have like your your ducks in a row for your own health, 227 00:15:24.200 --> 00:15:28.279 like have you are you make sure you're physically healthy? You know? 228 00:15:28.799 --> 00:15:31.840 Do you have you know? Have you do you have a job that you 229 00:15:31.879 --> 00:15:35.320 know that you that's conducive to your recovery, so you know it's not putting 230 00:15:35.399 --> 00:15:39.919 your you know sobriety and danger that and are you budgeting correctly? Like there's 231 00:15:39.919 --> 00:15:45.000 all these little life skills that we just did not address when we were in 232 00:15:45.120 --> 00:15:48.879 active addiction. And so yes, always have your big goals and your small 233 00:15:48.919 --> 00:15:54.240 goals, but like stay in the here and now too, to make sure 234 00:15:54.240 --> 00:15:56.159 you don't get too far ahead of yourself and you know, then end up 235 00:15:56.200 --> 00:16:00.240 back at square one. Like that's the kind of mentality I needed to have 236 00:16:00.960 --> 00:16:04.200 when I was kind of like laying things out for myself because at one point 237 00:16:04.320 --> 00:16:12.120 I thought being sober six months was impossible. A year that's crazy. And 238 00:16:12.399 --> 00:16:15.120 I tell people that first year, and maybe it's because you're getting a coin 239 00:16:15.200 --> 00:16:18.480 every month. And the thing I did, and I've repeated this over and 240 00:16:18.480 --> 00:16:22.000 over on the podcast, when I did with my coins is I started giving 241 00:16:22.039 --> 00:16:25.240 them to my mom because then they met something. At first, I was 242 00:16:25.279 --> 00:16:26.759 like, if I'm not getting another two month coin, another three month coin, 243 00:16:26.879 --> 00:16:30.320 I've collected so many of those, I'm not going to do it anymore. 244 00:16:30.320 --> 00:16:33.639 But then I realized, Okay, well I'm gonna send them to my 245 00:16:33.679 --> 00:16:37.039 mom because that'll mean something to her. And now it meant something for me 246 00:16:37.080 --> 00:16:38.600 to get those coins. So that was another reason, you know, to 247 00:16:38.960 --> 00:16:44.360 keep going every month to get another one to my mom. Yeah, and 248 00:16:44.600 --> 00:16:48.320 once you hit that year, I think, was it the na you get 249 00:16:48.360 --> 00:16:52.879 a year and a half coin or tag or something. Yeah, one of 250 00:16:52.879 --> 00:16:57.279 those or something. But then but for like AA people or whatever, you 251 00:16:57.320 --> 00:17:00.279 know, like I don't really get my coins from A anymore. I just 252 00:17:00.320 --> 00:17:04.160 go online and get them. Actually you get them for me. I do, 253 00:17:04.839 --> 00:17:12.720 and I buy mine and send it to my mom. So it's it 254 00:17:12.759 --> 00:17:15.319 seems like it goes by a lot faster after you get that. The year 255 00:17:17.880 --> 00:17:22.279 and our man Jonathan Domond Cadillac, he was telling me like, I can't 256 00:17:22.279 --> 00:17:26.200 believe I've got like I think maybe three years now, two years, three 257 00:17:26.279 --> 00:17:29.559 years, I don't know. He's doing really good. He's in that point 258 00:17:29.559 --> 00:17:30.880 where if he looks at drinking, he looks at it like, WHOA, 259 00:17:32.319 --> 00:17:33.680 why would I want to do that today? You know, like why would 260 00:17:33.680 --> 00:17:37.119 I just stub my toe into the wall. That's not a good idea. 261 00:17:37.880 --> 00:17:40.559 And it does. It flips to where you start looking at it that way, 262 00:17:40.599 --> 00:17:45.079 and that's a good place to be. But with the goals, you 263 00:17:45.119 --> 00:17:48.200 can do it. And like you said, Marnie, it doesn't happen overnight. 264 00:17:48.160 --> 00:17:51.359 You know, all the stuff I want to happen overnight. Most of 265 00:17:51.440 --> 00:17:52.240 us do. We want it now, we want it today, we want 266 00:17:52.279 --> 00:17:55.720 it, come on, let's go. It doesn't work that way, but 267 00:17:55.759 --> 00:18:00.440 you can make progress every single day. I mean there's a a lot of 268 00:18:00.519 --> 00:18:02.880 days. I mean, just look at the year three hundred and sixty five. 269 00:18:02.960 --> 00:18:06.599 Chances to get better every single day. Yeah. And I think a 270 00:18:06.640 --> 00:18:12.640 lot too of the fact that why we lose that momentum of like getting doing, 271 00:18:12.799 --> 00:18:18.079 taking the little steps towards the big goals is because we don't have the 272 00:18:18.119 --> 00:18:23.839 confidence in ourselves. And like, at least for me, is I was 273 00:18:23.920 --> 00:18:30.240 able to maintain my sobriety and you know every day just be like, hey, 274 00:18:30.599 --> 00:18:33.519 I did it again. I did it again, you know, and 275 00:18:33.720 --> 00:18:37.480 keeping those expectations certain accountability for myself, but not like throwing myself a friggin 276 00:18:37.640 --> 00:18:42.039 parade every you know, it's kind of like this is my life now, 277 00:18:42.160 --> 00:18:45.279 Like this is how I need to live my life if I want to be 278 00:18:45.279 --> 00:18:51.039 able to live and be have a productive have a productive lifestyle and interaction with 279 00:18:51.359 --> 00:18:53.920 the world. And so the more I was able to do that on a 280 00:18:53.960 --> 00:18:57.319 daily basis, the more confidence I had in myself, and the more it 281 00:18:57.400 --> 00:19:00.640 was like, let's keep check been away at this stuff, let's keep doing 282 00:19:00.680 --> 00:19:03.319 these things and these little things that I do. And then maybe I came 283 00:19:03.400 --> 00:19:06.960 up with something that was a little bit bigger, a little bit more challenging, 284 00:19:07.279 --> 00:19:11.839 but it didn't see seems so self defeating. It was like because when 285 00:19:11.920 --> 00:19:15.319 we had these big ideas, even in early recovery, even if we were 286 00:19:15.319 --> 00:19:18.920 sober for a minute or two or a year or whatever, and we're like, 287 00:19:18.279 --> 00:19:22.759 yeah, that's never gonna happen. I don't even want to put that 288 00:19:22.759 --> 00:19:26.119 on my radar. I'm setting myself up for failure because that's that's too big. 289 00:19:26.880 --> 00:19:30.799 Only good shit like that happens to like other people, not to me, 290 00:19:32.079 --> 00:19:34.880 which is totally not true. But if you keep staying clean and sober 291 00:19:34.920 --> 00:19:41.400 and recognizing these little victories, you'll recognize how much potential you actually have. 292 00:19:42.000 --> 00:19:47.640 And it's amazing. And there'll be times you want to give up there betimes 293 00:19:47.799 --> 00:19:49.039 is hard, and there'll be times you just want to throw your hands up 294 00:19:49.079 --> 00:19:55.200 and like I can't do it, But you gotta stick with it. You 295 00:19:55.279 --> 00:19:59.039 gotta trust God, you gotta have faith, I really do. Or the 296 00:19:59.079 --> 00:20:02.079 times and bad stuff happens and you're like, why is this happening? I've 297 00:20:02.079 --> 00:20:07.200 been staying sober, like like, aren't I supposed to be getting like these 298 00:20:07.240 --> 00:20:11.960 free passes from negative things and from misery? Because I look at me, 299 00:20:12.079 --> 00:20:15.079 I have not picked up a drinker drug, and it's like, no, 300 00:20:15.160 --> 00:20:22.480 sweetheart, that's life. That's just these things happen and you just need to, 301 00:20:22.400 --> 00:20:26.359 you know, navigate through them bus as you can, because I know 302 00:20:26.440 --> 00:20:30.240 drinking and drugging is not going to make them easy go away or make them 303 00:20:30.279 --> 00:20:36.839 easier. Yeah, And I look at it like I'm a pretty smart guy 304 00:20:37.119 --> 00:20:42.680 because they say you learn from your mistakes. Learned quite a bit a lot 305 00:20:42.720 --> 00:20:47.039 of stuff I know. But that's another thing too, is people will compare 306 00:20:47.079 --> 00:20:49.039 themselves to other people, and then they shouldn't do that, and don't let 307 00:20:49.039 --> 00:20:52.920 people rob you of your dream and your goals. People will laugh, people 308 00:20:52.960 --> 00:20:56.279 will tell you you can't do it, they'll judge you for it. I 309 00:20:56.319 --> 00:20:59.599 was talking about that today in the online meeting we had to seventeen. Recovery 310 00:20:59.599 --> 00:21:03.240 Center is about other people not understanding what your dreams and your goals are. 311 00:21:03.279 --> 00:21:11.119 But at the same time, when somebody questions you or maybe questions your sobriety, 312 00:21:11.160 --> 00:21:15.839 Hey, what are you drinking again? Or what's going on? And 313 00:21:15.880 --> 00:21:18.759 people get mad about that. Oh I can't believe they wouldn't trust me. 314 00:21:18.079 --> 00:21:22.319 Oh no, no, no, you earned that distrust you really did, 315 00:21:22.359 --> 00:21:25.160 because you've lied, you've cheated, you've done things that you said you didn't 316 00:21:25.160 --> 00:21:27.240 do, and you got away with a couple times probably too. But so 317 00:21:27.240 --> 00:21:30.200 if somebody doesn't trust you when you're in early recovery, you earned it. 318 00:21:30.759 --> 00:21:33.440 You know, you earn that distrust, just like you have to earn that 319 00:21:33.480 --> 00:21:37.839 trust back. So even if you had two years three, it doesn't matter. 320 00:21:37.880 --> 00:21:42.799 If somebody questions you or or your sobriety or or whatever, then you 321 00:21:42.799 --> 00:21:45.039 can do about it. You can't change the only way you can change someone 322 00:21:45.079 --> 00:21:49.880 else's mind by actions, by showing what you do on a daily basis and 323 00:21:49.920 --> 00:21:52.960 moving that forward, and then they can't really say that about you anymore. 324 00:21:55.240 --> 00:21:59.880 Like Mitch's telling me that somebody who's like, I think he's in prison off 325 00:22:00.160 --> 00:22:03.240 meth, but he was running around with the homeless community here in Traverse City 326 00:22:03.319 --> 00:22:10.480 doing hood rat stuff. And he told somebody from one of the shelters in 327 00:22:10.519 --> 00:22:12.720 town that, oh, two seventeen years, oh that to sevent two recovery. 328 00:22:12.720 --> 00:22:15.759 That's that's the bunch of guys that say they're sober and they're really not. 329 00:22:18.519 --> 00:22:19.279 And Mitch was like hurt by that, you know, and I'm like, 330 00:22:19.359 --> 00:22:22.279 well, people are gonna say dumb shit, you know. But if 331 00:22:22.319 --> 00:22:25.599 he came or if he knew me, this guy, which like I said, 332 00:22:25.640 --> 00:22:30.640 i'd have to write him because he's in prison now. But there's no 333 00:22:30.680 --> 00:22:33.200 way he would say that, oh, you're not sober, you're not really 334 00:22:33.279 --> 00:22:37.319 in recovery. Held. He wouldn't say that about any of us, you 335 00:22:37.359 --> 00:22:40.000 know. But people like to talk shit, people like to say things. 336 00:22:40.039 --> 00:22:42.720 But I know for a fact that I'm doing the things I need to do 337 00:22:42.759 --> 00:22:48.000 to move my life forward. And I have the track record where I can 338 00:22:48.079 --> 00:22:49.799 just point back and go, look, look at this. Do you think 339 00:22:49.839 --> 00:22:52.119 I could do any of that if I wasn't sober? Are you kidding me? 340 00:22:52.720 --> 00:22:57.160 And that's kind of unfortunate that, you know, people like that, 341 00:22:57.200 --> 00:23:03.240 because at the end of the day, hurt people and sick people, you 342 00:23:03.240 --> 00:23:06.519 know, who don't feel good about themselves, tend to try to take stabs 343 00:23:06.519 --> 00:23:10.440 at other people to make themselves feel like they're not the only one that's messing 344 00:23:10.519 --> 00:23:14.960 up, and even if it's completely one percent untrue, you know, And 345 00:23:15.519 --> 00:23:19.000 that's sad. But yeah, you can't. You can't go buy what other 346 00:23:19.039 --> 00:23:22.200 people say out there. You have to just worry about your own self worth 347 00:23:22.279 --> 00:23:29.359 and you know, have confidence in yourself. That's what you got to do. 348 00:23:30.480 --> 00:23:34.359 But something else I want to talk about today, and yeah, I 349 00:23:34.400 --> 00:23:38.039 still want to keep it around a half hour, but just real quick. 350 00:23:38.039 --> 00:23:41.759 I heard about this on the radio the other day. I was driving home 351 00:23:41.799 --> 00:23:48.160 and the ticket they were talking about this new product that's out called high Seltzer, 352 00:23:49.079 --> 00:23:52.759 and I just wanted to be completely honest and talk about it. I've 353 00:23:52.799 --> 00:23:56.559 talked about it with you, Marnie, I think I have. I know 354 00:23:56.599 --> 00:23:57.440 you were there when I was talking about it a couple of times. But 355 00:23:59.559 --> 00:24:06.519 it's high Seltzer and it has the should I can't remember it at Yeah, 356 00:24:06.559 --> 00:24:12.759 it's the Delta eight, Delta eight something like that, and like the weed 357 00:24:12.799 --> 00:24:18.599 that you would smoke and all that stuff or whatever has like Delta nine that 358 00:24:18.640 --> 00:24:22.200 gets you really super messed up. At the Delta eight. It's a legal 359 00:24:22.240 --> 00:24:23.880 thing. It's kind of what's in the gummies and stuff. It's more of 360 00:24:23.920 --> 00:24:29.880 a mellow one weed. Guy told me when I was talking to him about 361 00:24:29.920 --> 00:24:33.279 it, he said, yeah, it's like a diet It's like a diet 362 00:24:33.319 --> 00:24:36.319 weed. You know, you still get high from it, but you won't 363 00:24:36.319 --> 00:24:41.880 be all like crazy or anything. Well, this high seltzer, it's like 364 00:24:41.039 --> 00:24:45.039 zero alcohol, zero sugar, zero chemicals whatever. It has one chemical in 365 00:24:45.079 --> 00:24:48.440 it, a delta eight. But they say drinking a bottle will get you 366 00:24:48.480 --> 00:24:55.279 the same buzz as drinking two glasses of wine, but at leaves your system 367 00:24:55.359 --> 00:24:57.279 quicker. And I started thinking. I was like, man, that'd be 368 00:24:57.319 --> 00:25:02.720 pretty cool. And then I really started thinking about it, and I thought, 369 00:25:02.720 --> 00:25:07.720 oh no, that's dangerous. Like I couldn't just have a beer. 370 00:25:08.680 --> 00:25:12.880 I wouldn't stop, you know, like if I started drinking this stuff to 371 00:25:12.920 --> 00:25:15.279 get a buzz. Okay, first of all, what do I want a 372 00:25:15.279 --> 00:25:22.200 buzz? It feels good to be present, it really does. And if 373 00:25:22.240 --> 00:25:26.119 I drank that, and I'm sure other people with a drinking problem like myself 374 00:25:26.359 --> 00:25:27.759 would hear this and think, oh man, that's that's what I'm going to 375 00:25:27.880 --> 00:25:30.720 do then, because it's legal and I can do it and it gives me 376 00:25:30.759 --> 00:25:34.079 a buzz and it's safe and blah blah blah. I don't think it. 377 00:25:34.240 --> 00:25:37.640 I don't think it would be safe for me. I don't again, I 378 00:25:37.680 --> 00:25:41.079 can't even have a beer. Well, if you really want it for me, 379 00:25:41.519 --> 00:25:45.160 I'm a hundred of them and this is just just hearing this, Like 380 00:25:45.240 --> 00:25:48.119 even when I heard it, you explain it for the first time. It's 381 00:25:48.519 --> 00:25:53.119 for me. It's just like you're describing a mood and mind altering substance. 382 00:25:53.759 --> 00:25:57.920 So like, I don't care what the label says. It doesn't matter to 383 00:25:57.960 --> 00:26:02.440 me. I'm not on probation. It doesn't matter if I consume something and 384 00:26:02.480 --> 00:26:07.480 I test positive in my pee or whatever. It's I'm not interested in taking 385 00:26:07.559 --> 00:26:11.519 anything that is a mood or mind altering substance. Would have been altered for 386 00:26:11.559 --> 00:26:17.279 so long. So it's like, if there's no appeal in that, there's 387 00:26:17.359 --> 00:26:22.279 no loophole that I'm looking for. I'm not looking for some kind of like 388 00:26:22.279 --> 00:26:27.519 validation of what some label says that makes you feel some kind of way, 389 00:26:27.920 --> 00:26:33.559 But it's technically not a thing that we're that we have sworn off for life. 390 00:26:33.799 --> 00:26:41.839 That's a friggin' that's BS. So that's yeah, just as someone I 391 00:26:41.880 --> 00:26:44.279 don't know if it was, you know, the former addict thing that is 392 00:26:44.319 --> 00:26:48.200 just immediately I'm like, oh wow, like that's pretty cool. Then you 393 00:26:48.240 --> 00:26:51.519 know, the recovery cory comes in. It's like whoa, wha, whoa. 394 00:26:51.720 --> 00:26:53.440 It's not a little close to home, You're going to drink something that 395 00:26:53.480 --> 00:26:57.119 gives you a buzz or mind altering you know, didn't you do that before? 396 00:26:57.200 --> 00:27:00.799 How'd that turn out? Oh? Yeah, almost killed yourself? Okay, 397 00:27:00.839 --> 00:27:03.480 great, and you're gonna try that again for what? For a little 398 00:27:03.519 --> 00:27:06.039 buzz? Because you don't want to be present for something? What? What's 399 00:27:06.079 --> 00:27:10.200 going on? And you were not present for twenty years, you know, 400 00:27:10.240 --> 00:27:11.759 like, why would I want to go back to that? And yeah, 401 00:27:11.839 --> 00:27:15.559 at a little close to home, Oh, I can drink it. Oh 402 00:27:15.599 --> 00:27:18.599 that's my shit. But just the brain, you know, hearing it and 403 00:27:18.599 --> 00:27:25.000 going oh hmmm, But it's that, it's that And in those moments that 404 00:27:25.039 --> 00:27:27.119 you really have to catch yourself, you know, as someone who's in recovery, 405 00:27:27.160 --> 00:27:30.440 someone you know, who wants to live a different life than what you 406 00:27:30.440 --> 00:27:33.079 were living before. You have to change, have to change what you do 407 00:27:33.119 --> 00:27:36.519 and to change how you think. And I'm not a bad person for coming 408 00:27:36.559 --> 00:27:37.920 to my brain because that's just the natural thing that it would do, I 409 00:27:37.960 --> 00:27:42.119 guess because I'm a former addict. But you have to catch that because it 410 00:27:42.200 --> 00:27:45.640 had been easy for me to go, let me get online and order these, 411 00:27:47.279 --> 00:27:48.160 but I had to go no, no, no, no, like 412 00:27:48.200 --> 00:27:51.759 that does a horrible idea, and you have to like think about it. 413 00:27:52.200 --> 00:27:55.400 Now. Do I care if my brother or sister do it? Nope, 414 00:27:56.039 --> 00:27:59.160 I have no control over them. I don't think they're bad people if they 415 00:27:59.160 --> 00:28:02.240 do it. No. I just I'm just talking about for me, my 416 00:28:02.279 --> 00:28:03.160 aunt and my uncle. They could all do it. I don't care. 417 00:28:03.240 --> 00:28:07.319 My mom could do it, you know what. I don't care. That's 418 00:28:07.319 --> 00:28:11.759 on them. I know I can't do it. And is it safer than 419 00:28:11.799 --> 00:28:17.079 alcohol? Probably? Alcohol is the most dangerous drug out there, and people 420 00:28:17.079 --> 00:28:19.839 act like it's not oh no fiting, no, oh no heroin. If 421 00:28:19.839 --> 00:28:22.319 you really want to look at the stats, how many people die every day. 422 00:28:22.799 --> 00:28:30.640 Alcohol wins the tobacco as well. But I just think that for me, 423 00:28:30.359 --> 00:28:34.279 is a very dangerous idea to even have in my head. Even though 424 00:28:34.319 --> 00:28:37.799 I'm not a bad person for having an idea. It just popped in there, 425 00:28:37.759 --> 00:28:40.920 and I think that was just a n aptural response. But I just 426 00:28:40.960 --> 00:28:44.400 have to know that that's just that's not for me. Well, I mean, 427 00:28:44.799 --> 00:28:47.880 I wouldn't stop at one because I never wanted two glasses on wine. 428 00:28:47.880 --> 00:28:51.319 I wanted one hundred. Yeah, But if you really like break it down 429 00:28:51.559 --> 00:28:53.039 and step back and like, look at the whole thing. It's just like 430 00:28:53.599 --> 00:29:00.599 all you're doing is is your the end the end result is your under the 431 00:29:00.680 --> 00:29:04.839 influence. Right. That's so if you mean not to like sugarcoat it, 432 00:29:04.920 --> 00:29:11.440 but they're saying here you can feel under the influence, but technically you're not 433 00:29:11.640 --> 00:29:18.480 under the influence because it's legal man delta agal, it has no that doesn't 434 00:29:18.480 --> 00:29:22.680 matter. It's you're under the influence. So like that to me is like 435 00:29:22.720 --> 00:29:30.440 using substances doesn't matter. It's just a different substance. It is absolutely so. 436 00:29:30.519 --> 00:29:33.200 I just wanted to throw that out there real quick. Yeah, and 437 00:29:33.400 --> 00:29:37.519 also before we jump off your since must I almost at thirty two minutes, 438 00:29:40.640 --> 00:29:48.000 Mitch I made his commercial for his colone called Bear and if you want to 439 00:29:48.039 --> 00:29:51.519 watch it, we have a TikTok now. I tried to making it for 440 00:29:51.559 --> 00:29:53.079 two seventeen. Somehow I made it for myself. I have no idea. 441 00:29:55.480 --> 00:29:59.960 I posted on there, and it's on Facebook too, under my personal Facebook, 442 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.160 but I think I tagged mentioning it and I'll probably put it on two 443 00:30:02.240 --> 00:30:06.000 seventeen recovery because it's just it's silly. It's fun. In recovery, there's 444 00:30:06.039 --> 00:30:07.480 a story about Mitch, and I'm not going to make you go back and 445 00:30:07.559 --> 00:30:12.039 listen to the podcast. But there was a time that he might have wandered 446 00:30:12.079 --> 00:30:17.640 into the woods during a disc golf game because he had emergency, which of 447 00:30:17.720 --> 00:30:21.559 all, everybody in the world has had emergency number two, right, And 448 00:30:21.960 --> 00:30:23.799 he told us about it. That was that was his big mistake, was 449 00:30:23.880 --> 00:30:30.680 telling us about it. And I saw the commercial from It's Blue d Chanel 450 00:30:30.839 --> 00:30:33.960 or It's from Chanell or whatever. I might even saying that, right, 451 00:30:34.240 --> 00:30:37.759 yeah, okay, that's it's a Colone and it has the guy from Dune 452 00:30:37.839 --> 00:30:44.640 in it, and he's just looking all d baggy, you know, looking 453 00:30:44.680 --> 00:30:47.920 at the camera. He's looking like he's supposed to look for a clone commercial. 454 00:30:48.160 --> 00:30:49.119 That's what they were going for. I was ragging on it. I 455 00:30:49.200 --> 00:30:51.559 was like, man, I saw that. I was like, you gotta 456 00:30:51.559 --> 00:30:53.799 be kidding me. That's just that's horrible. And I'm joking. And then 457 00:30:53.880 --> 00:30:56.759 they sent me a mailer that has you can open it up, you know. 458 00:30:56.759 --> 00:30:59.799 I think it was like author or somebody open up and you smell it, 459 00:30:59.839 --> 00:31:03.200 and I'm like, damn, that's actually pretty good. So then I 460 00:31:03.240 --> 00:31:04.319 had to buy it for me for Christmas. I like it. Yeah, 461 00:31:04.920 --> 00:31:08.240 but we thought we would make spoof commercials. And we were like sitting in 462 00:31:08.279 --> 00:31:11.880 the office one day, me, Mitch, Adam and Justin and I was 463 00:31:11.920 --> 00:31:15.599 like, we got to do that. And we were started like joking about 464 00:31:15.839 --> 00:31:21.079 what cologne or what sent what we would do, and Justin said it would 465 00:31:21.079 --> 00:31:25.640 be fabulous. Adam said he wanted his like wood or something, and then 466 00:31:25.720 --> 00:31:30.039 Mitch got on the whole oh like go in the woods, and somehow I 467 00:31:30.160 --> 00:31:32.440 was like, oh, there's a bear shit in the woods, you know 468 00:31:32.599 --> 00:31:37.480 that whole question, and so it took us back to the incident of emergency 469 00:31:37.640 --> 00:31:42.480 pooping in the woods, maybe allegedly, and so we made a video with 470 00:31:42.559 --> 00:31:48.000 that. Mitch happened to have a bear costume, like helmet, bear head, 471 00:31:48.759 --> 00:31:52.559 so we went to the college and drove around. He drove around with 472 00:31:52.640 --> 00:31:55.480 it on his head for a little bit just to get the shots that we 473 00:31:55.559 --> 00:31:59.200 needed. It wasn't doing anything too unsafe, and then I, you know, 474 00:31:59.279 --> 00:32:01.640 it was in my movie making skills. So I got some pretty cool 475 00:32:01.680 --> 00:32:05.200 shots, you know. The one with the mirror was pretty sweet. I 476 00:32:05.319 --> 00:32:06.680 was doing it. I was like, all right, Mitch, look up 477 00:32:06.680 --> 00:32:07.839 now, and he's like, oh, I know what you're doing. But 478 00:32:08.480 --> 00:32:10.720 it was it was interesting. You know, I had the drone out, 479 00:32:10.839 --> 00:32:15.279 got some drone footage and yeah, so just check it out. It's it's 480 00:32:15.359 --> 00:32:20.480 worth it, really is. It's funny. It's really funny. It's inspired 481 00:32:20.519 --> 00:32:24.599 by a cologne commercial and a true event, so keep that in mind when 482 00:32:24.640 --> 00:32:29.960 you watch it, so have and have fun and remember it's all about fun 483 00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:31.640 and recovery. Yeah. If you watch that video and go these guys are 484 00:32:31.640 --> 00:32:36.319 hating life, they're not having any fun, then you clearly are not understanding 485 00:32:36.359 --> 00:32:39.359 the message of the video, right, So enjoy it. And I should 486 00:32:39.359 --> 00:32:44.240 put it on the website too. Just absolutely TikTok and all that. So 487 00:32:44.319 --> 00:32:46.119 yeah, I'll edit to the website of two seventeen Recovery dot com. The 488 00:32:46.240 --> 00:32:49.839 time you go there, it will be there, and it'll be on our 489 00:32:49.880 --> 00:32:52.440 app as well. Enjoy that. And Marnie, thank you so much for 490 00:32:52.519 --> 00:32:55.960 coming on the podcast and doing one from the home studio. Yeah for sure. 491 00:32:57.279 --> 00:33:00.359 All right, have a good night everybody. Thanks for listening the two 492 00:33:00.519 --> 00:33:05.240 seventeen Recovery podcasts. We hope you come back for our next episode.