WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.680 --> 00:00:04.759 In today's episode. You know, Shelley's taking the lead on this one. 2 00:00:04.919 --> 00:00:09.400 M what you got. Oh, we've got an update from my living situation. 3 00:00:09.599 --> 00:00:13.960 We've got conference wrap up, not lock to it always a treat, 4 00:00:14.160 --> 00:00:20.519 boring as usual. We've got a Shelley's journal journey which I just read through 5 00:00:20.559 --> 00:00:24.879 and I'm yelling I was so fucking stupid, So it'll be a good one. 6 00:00:25.120 --> 00:00:27.640 Yeah, yeah, And I have a letter to read. Well, 7 00:00:27.839 --> 00:00:31.480 shit, I guess we should get to all that after the break. Let's 8 00:00:31.480 --> 00:00:38.840 do it all right, be right back. Hey, everybody, welcome to 9 00:00:39.079 --> 00:00:42.719 Letter Day Lesbian, a podcast about the next morning gay girl just try to 10 00:00:42.759 --> 00:00:48.560 figure out her life him Mary, I'm Shelly. I guess we're being singing 11 00:00:48.600 --> 00:00:52.359 songy today. Sometimes I just gotta do that. Then I feel better. 12 00:00:52.640 --> 00:00:54.880 I feel better. Good, So we can move on. Didn't know you 13 00:00:55.000 --> 00:00:58.960 felt worse? We can move on from the sing song part of the program. 14 00:00:58.960 --> 00:01:07.599 Good mixed up jazz hands your favorite? Yeah, yeah, always So 15 00:01:07.719 --> 00:01:11.319 those of you who were not aware the living situation with Mary and I, 16 00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:19.000 we recently moved out of the house that we shared together and Mary is now 17 00:01:19.480 --> 00:01:26.519 in an apartment closer to work with a well we'll be moving in like a 18 00:01:26.560 --> 00:01:30.560 month around the corner on the same floor to an apartment with room for a 19 00:01:30.599 --> 00:01:33.439 studio. We really need a studio again. Yeah, this is a goofy 20 00:01:33.519 --> 00:01:37.519 setup. Dan likes it because we're further apart. I feel so far from 21 00:01:37.560 --> 00:01:40.079 you. I know, it's like I can't I can see you through a 22 00:01:40.079 --> 00:01:45.719 bunch of wires and closet padding. Um, yeah, I know. Yeah, 23 00:01:45.760 --> 00:01:48.640 Mary's in a closet, and then I'm in the closet on the other 24 00:01:48.680 --> 00:01:53.200 side of the hall and there's sweaters. A strange closet configuration. Yeah, 25 00:01:53.280 --> 00:02:00.200 yeah, yeah, you're surrounded by my clothing cloth. Anyway, So Mary 26 00:02:00.200 --> 00:02:04.439 will be in the apartment with a studio. I from the house that we 27 00:02:04.519 --> 00:02:10.639 shared, moved to an apartment complex because at the time. Okay, it's 28 00:02:10.680 --> 00:02:14.400 expensive as shit in northern Virginia. I'm just gonna throw that out there. 29 00:02:14.479 --> 00:02:19.280 It's starting to sound like a long story. It's it's I just go back 30 00:02:19.280 --> 00:02:23.360 and listen to the Scandal sessions about your apartment. They're not all Scandal subscribers 31 00:02:23.599 --> 00:02:30.080 sessions. God damn it. If you want all the download the dirt, 32 00:02:30.240 --> 00:02:34.759 please subscribe. How do we do that? Mary? Oh? You can 33 00:02:35.479 --> 00:02:39.879 go to our website Latter day Lesbian dot org, slash support support support good, 34 00:02:40.080 --> 00:02:44.560 Yeah, to get more of the dirt, the download, the behind 35 00:02:44.599 --> 00:02:46.240 the scenes. Yeah. Can I just sum this up? It's taking you 36 00:02:46.280 --> 00:02:52.759 far too No. No, you ended up moving into a crappy apartment unbeknownst 37 00:02:52.759 --> 00:02:55.280 to you. Yes, it was a shit hole. It was a complete 38 00:02:55.319 --> 00:02:59.639 shit hole. It was and there will be. There's more in depth in 39 00:03:00.280 --> 00:03:01.960 scandals. Yeah, so you got out of it. I did. But 40 00:03:02.000 --> 00:03:06.560 the thing that I wanted to point out about that um is that this is 41 00:03:06.599 --> 00:03:09.879 the point that I'm getting to marry Jesus Christ. I'm just drinking my coffee. 42 00:03:10.280 --> 00:03:15.840 Yep. Oh, I'm drinking my Apostate coffee quick plug yeahst coffee, 43 00:03:15.879 --> 00:03:19.240 do it. I love those ladies, by the way. Oh yeah, 44 00:03:19.280 --> 00:03:22.840 go to Apostate Coffee dot com for ten percent off your order. That's always 45 00:03:22.840 --> 00:03:25.560 handy. I'm drinking out of dark Roast right now. Oh hell yeah, 46 00:03:25.599 --> 00:03:29.439 wait, you said go to their website for ten percent off. They have 47 00:03:29.479 --> 00:03:31.400 to type in oh they do. Okay, you have to enter LDL at 48 00:03:31.479 --> 00:03:35.000 check out. There we go. You know all were plugging people, we 49 00:03:35.000 --> 00:03:38.280 should plug Exmo candleco. Hell yeah, the gay away the prey candle. 50 00:03:38.439 --> 00:03:42.120 Yes, m it's a good one. I love the smell. We need 51 00:03:42.120 --> 00:03:43.960 to get another one, by the way, I think we burnt through it. 52 00:03:44.439 --> 00:03:47.840 Oh yeah, we kept on getting away the game that breinson the candle 53 00:03:47.960 --> 00:03:51.560 was gone. Although they do last a very long time, they do. 54 00:03:51.639 --> 00:03:54.479 They're high quality candles. Yeah, but when you are ritualistically ganging away the 55 00:03:54.479 --> 00:03:59.280 prey and you light it every time, then you need another one. Jen, 56 00:03:59.479 --> 00:04:02.240 are you listen? Hint, hint, hint. By the way, 57 00:04:02.280 --> 00:04:06.840 for those of you who have not seen Mary's awesome TikTok, I guess commercial 58 00:04:08.199 --> 00:04:11.280 that you put it to a video. It's a video because it's on TikTok. 59 00:04:11.680 --> 00:04:14.439 That was pretty funny. She wrote it, she's the actress in it. 60 00:04:15.000 --> 00:04:16.600 And it promotes the candles. Did it did all the things? Yeah, 61 00:04:16.759 --> 00:04:19.600 it does promote the candles. If you would like to check out all 62 00:04:19.639 --> 00:04:24.759 the funny candles and awesomely smelling candle We picked up the scent. We did 63 00:04:24.800 --> 00:04:27.439 that one. We made that shit. Yep, we sure did, with 64 00:04:27.480 --> 00:04:31.720 the help of the XMO candle co people. Jen and her husband, Uh 65 00:04:31.800 --> 00:04:35.759 sorry, Jen, mister candles, mister candles, Jen and mister Candles. 66 00:04:35.759 --> 00:04:40.240 Why am I blanking on his name because it's not like Tom. You know, 67 00:04:40.600 --> 00:04:46.639 something something unusual, unusual. Maybe it's Adrian and they doesn't she give 68 00:04:46.720 --> 00:04:48.920 him a like little nickname. I don't know, let's go with Adrian. 69 00:04:50.399 --> 00:04:54.000 If we're wrong, whatever, suck it up, mister Candles. To you 70 00:04:55.560 --> 00:05:00.279 please visit XMO candles dot com. Yes, and check out all the yummy 71 00:05:00.319 --> 00:05:02.839 funny fragrances. Yes, said a thing. It is yummy funny. Now 72 00:05:02.920 --> 00:05:08.480 you're yummy funny. Anyway, back to my story, Jesus. Okay, 73 00:05:09.319 --> 00:05:14.240 So being in this apartment was like hell, oh yeah, so bad, 74 00:05:14.439 --> 00:05:16.920 so bad. And that the reason that I that I chose the apartment when 75 00:05:16.959 --> 00:05:20.399 I did was I needed something with three bedrooms, right yeah, that's hard 76 00:05:20.439 --> 00:05:25.240 to come by, super hard to come by because it's so expensive around here. 77 00:05:25.240 --> 00:05:29.839 So I found the only three bedroom apartments in the area, right sure 78 00:05:30.360 --> 00:05:34.639 that you could afford exactly exactly. It was hell from day one, mice 79 00:05:35.240 --> 00:05:39.120 awful. It was horrible. I mean, whatever, trash, trust us, 80 00:05:39.120 --> 00:05:42.480 it's so bad, horrible. I should post the letter that I wrote. 81 00:05:42.560 --> 00:05:46.399 Anyway, So here's here's the point I'm getting too. Finally, I 82 00:05:46.560 --> 00:05:49.600 felt trapped, shut it. I felt trapped. It was horrible. I 83 00:05:49.639 --> 00:05:55.480 went away to Las Vegas forum like a long weekend for work, and so 84 00:05:55.600 --> 00:05:58.199 Mary had the dogs with her, so there were no dogs in there to 85 00:05:58.199 --> 00:06:00.560 like kill the mice. Yeah. I didn't want to stay there. No. 86 00:06:00.240 --> 00:06:03.519 Yeah. So I came home, opened the door and it was like 87 00:06:04.560 --> 00:06:11.240 just reeked of mouse shit and urine and probably dead mouse and surely dead mice. 88 00:06:11.480 --> 00:06:16.600 And is one of them named Shirley? Surely? So I walked around 89 00:06:16.639 --> 00:06:20.600 and there and they were just chew holes in everything. There was poop along 90 00:06:20.639 --> 00:06:25.600 the sofa along the top like where your head goes. There was poop in 91 00:06:25.639 --> 00:06:28.639 the kid's rooms, on their clothes, and I'm like, that is it. 92 00:06:29.160 --> 00:06:33.279 I can do this. I can't. I have to figure something out. 93 00:06:33.839 --> 00:06:36.879 I went to the leasing office and I sat down with one of the 94 00:06:36.879 --> 00:06:40.480 people that I'm like, okay, so I need to break my lease. 95 00:06:40.680 --> 00:06:43.160 What are the terms? What do we do here? She's like, yeah, 96 00:06:43.199 --> 00:06:46.839 yeah, no problem. So if you break your lease now you pay 97 00:06:46.920 --> 00:06:50.639 us for two months. So you have to give a sixty day notice, 98 00:06:50.680 --> 00:06:55.360 which fuck that most places are thirty like most normal places. Right anyway, 99 00:06:55.480 --> 00:06:58.160 Well, when you break a lease, I think it gets funky. Well 100 00:06:58.879 --> 00:07:00.560 great, that wasn't the If it was just that, I would have been 101 00:07:00.600 --> 00:07:04.199 like, okay, cool, let's go. But so you break the lease. 102 00:07:04.319 --> 00:07:08.480 Now you give sixty days notice. You have to pay for all of 103 00:07:08.519 --> 00:07:11.920 those sixty days right then and there, and then at the end of the 104 00:07:11.959 --> 00:07:15.720 sixty days, when you move out, you have to pay for two additional 105 00:07:15.879 --> 00:07:17.639 months. Yeah, it's so weird after you're gone and you have to pay 106 00:07:17.680 --> 00:07:20.079 both of those months on that day that you mo ab out. It's like 107 00:07:20.639 --> 00:07:24.839 I felt so trapped and stuck and I'm doing the mask in my head. 108 00:07:24.839 --> 00:07:28.800 It's like twelve thousand dollars ridiculous, plus having to come up with money for 109 00:07:28.839 --> 00:07:33.279 another place first and last month's I took what she said as like, those 110 00:07:33.319 --> 00:07:35.360 are the rules, that's what we do. Yeah, right, So I 111 00:07:35.399 --> 00:07:38.680 went into a panic and I'm like, how am I going to scramble up 112 00:07:38.680 --> 00:07:41.480 and find twelve thousand dollars, which that's a fucking lot of money, and 113 00:07:41.519 --> 00:07:43.399 you don't just like, oh, I didn't know I had that in my 114 00:07:43.399 --> 00:07:45.279 savings. I don't have a savings account, by the way, I have 115 00:07:45.279 --> 00:07:47.639 no savings, so there's nothing. And I was like, do I borrow 116 00:07:47.639 --> 00:07:50.800 something from my eggs? Do I try to get some kind of you know, 117 00:07:50.879 --> 00:07:55.199 early inheritance from my parents, which was kind of weird because they're not 118 00:07:55.240 --> 00:07:57.639 dead yet. I mean, you did ask your brothers and they're like, 119 00:07:57.720 --> 00:08:03.560 no, sorry, yeah, yeah, yes, And I felt defeated. 120 00:08:03.759 --> 00:08:07.279 I was just like, I'm stuck here. My kids have to be in 121 00:08:07.319 --> 00:08:11.600 this shit hole. We were out chatting it up with Diana. Remember Diana, 122 00:08:11.680 --> 00:08:15.439 you need to have her on again. And I'm telling talking about this 123 00:08:15.439 --> 00:08:18.240 and she's like, why are you there? Right? Like that's fucked up. 124 00:08:18.639 --> 00:08:20.839 You need to you need to get out of there. And Mary too 125 00:08:20.839 --> 00:08:22.639 has been like, you need to get out of there, you know what. 126 00:08:22.720 --> 00:08:24.879 I think I was in that same boat. I'm like, well, 127 00:08:24.920 --> 00:08:28.399 when you break a lease, you just have to deal with the penalties. 128 00:08:28.439 --> 00:08:31.080 I've broken a lease before two and I just dealt with the penalties. Like 129 00:08:31.480 --> 00:08:35.720 I wasn't thinking, no, I'm not gonna take this anymore, Like my 130 00:08:37.120 --> 00:08:39.159 brain wasn't quite there because you broke like a normal lease where you weren't living 131 00:08:39.159 --> 00:08:43.360 in filth and trash, danger and exactly cables and like dogs shit everywhere, 132 00:08:43.360 --> 00:08:48.720 like anyway, So I want to say thank you to all of those on 133 00:08:48.799 --> 00:08:54.480 social media and in person who really like bolstered my confidence in getting out of 134 00:08:54.480 --> 00:09:00.360 this lease because I believe and I take this back to my being worn and 135 00:09:00.480 --> 00:09:05.879 raised as a female Mormon. Or you don't question authority, you don't fight 136 00:09:05.919 --> 00:09:11.120 back, you take what's given to you. You stay quiet. You have 137 00:09:11.279 --> 00:09:15.879 zero confidence in being able to fight back against something, even no matter how 138 00:09:16.000 --> 00:09:18.399 unfair it is, or to even take it on, Oh for sure, 139 00:09:18.440 --> 00:09:22.200 Like you just don't right, And I have to say, I'm just gonna 140 00:09:22.200 --> 00:09:24.759 throw this. I'm very proud of myself. Yeah, And that's a good 141 00:09:24.799 --> 00:09:28.240 thing to be because thanks to everyone, I was able to be like, 142 00:09:28.320 --> 00:09:31.639 yeah, you know what, you know what, fuck them, Fuck them. 143 00:09:31.679 --> 00:09:35.720 I don't have to live in this shit hole. I don't have to 144 00:09:35.759 --> 00:09:41.159 have my kids like afraid that there's mouse poop on there. I mean, 145 00:09:41.200 --> 00:09:43.360 and I'm a clean person, that's the thing. It's not. It's not 146 00:09:43.440 --> 00:09:46.080 like I leave stuff everywhere and the mice are like eating cracker crumbs it all 147 00:09:46.080 --> 00:09:50.000 over the floor. Now, this was put away in a pantry, yeah 148 00:09:50.039 --> 00:09:52.879 yeah, yeah. And while I was there, I kept it at bay 149 00:09:52.480 --> 00:09:56.159 Ish because a domino was killing like a mouse a day and I was sweeping 150 00:09:56.159 --> 00:09:58.159 and cleaning. But then when I was out of town for a weekend, 151 00:09:58.399 --> 00:10:03.159 yeah, boom. Anyway, so what I did was I got online and 152 00:10:03.360 --> 00:10:09.320 I researched the laws in Virginia, the tenant landlord laws where no, you're 153 00:10:09.360 --> 00:10:11.240 right, you're no, you're And again, that's something I would never have 154 00:10:11.320 --> 00:10:16.240 done, right, It wouldn't have even occurred to me to educate myself on 155 00:10:16.360 --> 00:10:22.279 how I can fix a horrible situation just fucking deal with it. Yeah, 156 00:10:22.320 --> 00:10:28.039 And so I did that. I found the laws. I contacted a friend 157 00:10:28.080 --> 00:10:31.039 whose husband is a lawyer. He's not a tenant landlord lawyer, but he 158 00:10:31.039 --> 00:10:33.279 can re law and shit right, talk to him a little bit. He 159 00:10:33.320 --> 00:10:37.039 looked over the laws too, and he's like, yeah, you definitely have 160 00:10:37.159 --> 00:10:41.039 a case, okay. And so I took a day and I wandered around 161 00:10:41.080 --> 00:10:45.559 the whole place inside it, and I took pictures of all the fucked up 162 00:10:45.600 --> 00:10:50.399 shit. We've got broken glass around the pool, We've got exposed wires everywhere 163 00:10:50.440 --> 00:10:54.159 in the building. There was garbage in the pool. Oh yeah, when 164 00:10:54.159 --> 00:10:56.600 the kids acme in the pool out law just pretend it's a pond. I 165 00:10:56.639 --> 00:10:58.279 mean it was. And the crazy thing is if you go on the website, 166 00:10:58.320 --> 00:11:03.559 everything is Yeah, it looks lies. The website lies. I know. 167 00:11:03.919 --> 00:11:05.799 I was tempted to just make like a snarky fake website, like, 168 00:11:05.879 --> 00:11:09.480 well, how it really is, Like steal their nice pictures and like put 169 00:11:09.519 --> 00:11:13.200 in what it actually is. Oh yeah yeah, yeah, like use their 170 00:11:13.279 --> 00:11:16.720 layout, put in shitty pictures. It's going to change all the descriptions to 171 00:11:16.799 --> 00:11:20.600 like being really shitty and then be like here's your new website and here's how 172 00:11:20.639 --> 00:11:26.639 it is actually fixed it. Yeah, because this is a Matan switch situation. 173 00:11:26.720 --> 00:11:31.799 Oh and then they fuck you like literally twelve thousand dollars to move out, 174 00:11:31.159 --> 00:11:35.360 essentially, and that's before me having to come up with the money for 175 00:11:35.519 --> 00:11:37.399 first and last month's rent deposit for a new place, right, so just 176 00:11:37.759 --> 00:11:41.759 to leave that shit. So I got all these pictures together, I went 177 00:11:41.840 --> 00:11:46.519 through all of my maintenance reports that I had made to maintenance. Um like 178 00:11:48.320 --> 00:11:52.039 the mouth the mouth shit, and the broken the AC was broken, oh 179 00:11:52.519 --> 00:11:56.639 week, the ac was broken. Summer. Your washer dryer, which is 180 00:11:56.639 --> 00:12:00.559 a combo thing. I don't recommend those things. Washer dryer and one not 181 00:12:00.799 --> 00:12:03.879 efficient efficient It takes like five hours to do a load of launch. Oh 182 00:12:03.960 --> 00:12:05.360 yeah, yeah, oh you know what I did. I say this, 183 00:12:05.799 --> 00:12:09.960 So the washer dryer broke right, So I can't do laundry. So I 184 00:12:09.960 --> 00:12:15.320 tried to go use like the laundry room where there's like pay laundry things. 185 00:12:16.000 --> 00:12:18.960 You go in there and there's like fifty of them and three of them work 186 00:12:20.399 --> 00:12:24.279 maybe maybe this place, And of course they're never open because someone is using 187 00:12:24.279 --> 00:12:30.399 one of the three sum and there was that's where there was just exposed wires 188 00:12:30.399 --> 00:12:33.720 like you see the copper wires sticking out, not capped off at all, 189 00:12:33.799 --> 00:12:37.799 just like here you go. So I was pissed that I couldn't do laundry. 190 00:12:37.080 --> 00:12:39.759 So I knew that the one of the problems was is when I had 191 00:12:39.799 --> 00:12:46.039 maintenance come in. Here's how that part began. Keep up people. Oh 192 00:12:46.080 --> 00:12:50.279 my god, it smelled like dead mice under the washer dryer big time. 193 00:12:50.240 --> 00:12:54.840 But the washer dryers so heavy, I couldn't pull it away to clean up 194 00:12:54.879 --> 00:12:58.399 the dead mice. So maintenance dude came, pulled it away, told me 195 00:12:58.440 --> 00:13:00.679 I didn't want to see all the dead mice there, clean him up, 196 00:13:00.720 --> 00:13:03.039 pushed it back in. Then I tried to do some laundry, and then 197 00:13:03.799 --> 00:13:07.080 it started to leak. It was leaking into the basement. It was leaking 198 00:13:07.080 --> 00:13:09.919 into the basement and into my kitchen. So that's why Knute was broken. 199 00:13:11.080 --> 00:13:13.399 That's where we begin. That was your first clue. That was my first 200 00:13:13.440 --> 00:13:16.120 clue. So then I went away to Vegas right came back and there was 201 00:13:16.120 --> 00:13:20.440 a note in there saying they have to order apart for the laundry, the 202 00:13:20.879 --> 00:13:24.600 washshry dry. Yeah, I hear nothing. I hear nothing. They don't 203 00:13:24.639 --> 00:13:26.559 care. I'm like leaving more mesuge. I'm like, you know what, 204 00:13:26.600 --> 00:13:30.960 fuck them, I'm doing laundry. That'll show them. So I started a 205 00:13:31.000 --> 00:13:33.879 load of laundry, knowing I'm gonna flood the fuck out of this place. 206 00:13:35.840 --> 00:13:39.679 And I sure did. The laundry was going for like twenty minutes and I 207 00:13:39.679 --> 00:13:41.960 get a knock on the or I get a phone call for maintenance. He's 208 00:13:41.000 --> 00:13:43.679 like, hey, um, yeah, are you doing laundry? Sure? 209 00:13:43.799 --> 00:13:46.279 And of course a lot. I was like, yeah, I thought you 210 00:13:46.279 --> 00:13:48.559 fixed it. No, No, he was up right away, boom fixed 211 00:13:48.600 --> 00:13:52.759 it. Like why do I have to flood your fucking basement to any I 212 00:13:52.840 --> 00:13:56.840 know? Huh. Let's get back to you getting out of you wrote a 213 00:13:56.879 --> 00:13:58.960 letter. Okay, I'm trying to keep us on target. Here were fifty 214 00:14:00.159 --> 00:14:03.320 minutes. It's great, it's great, we'll still have time for my journal 215 00:14:03.360 --> 00:14:07.440 journey. It's that. So I put together all the documents, all the 216 00:14:07.440 --> 00:14:11.799 maintenance requests, like highlighted the dates, blah blah blah. Then I got 217 00:14:11.840 --> 00:14:16.840 the Virginia Code right, put that on there too. I just put what 218 00:14:16.960 --> 00:14:18.200 the code was, like, they can look that up if they want. 219 00:14:18.320 --> 00:14:22.279 You were citing sections of the code. Oh, I know. I like 220 00:14:22.399 --> 00:14:26.000 the word pursuant pursuantto code. I've never used that word so many times in 221 00:14:26.000 --> 00:14:28.679 my life. Then I did, did you feel like you're ready to take 222 00:14:28.720 --> 00:14:35.159 the bar? Now? Very close? Very close? So I got this 223 00:14:35.240 --> 00:14:39.799 document when I had it certified like notorized, I mean notorized. So now 224 00:14:39.799 --> 00:14:43.279 it's fucking official and scary. She's big lawyery words. And then I sent 225 00:14:43.440 --> 00:14:48.399 that letter certified mail saying basically, y'all are breaking the law. I'm the 226 00:14:48.440 --> 00:14:52.960 fuck out of here. So I waited, waited, waited. The one 227 00:14:52.960 --> 00:14:54.159 guy called me back. He's like, oh, yeah, I received that, 228 00:14:54.200 --> 00:14:56.919 and you talk to management blah blah blah, and so I didn't hadn't 229 00:14:56.960 --> 00:15:01.919 heard back from them, and so then I'm thinking they're just gonna fucking draft 230 00:15:01.000 --> 00:15:05.240 my account for this for the next month's rent, and I'm not going to 231 00:15:05.320 --> 00:15:07.720 be I'm not going to be here. I'm out the door because I couldn't 232 00:15:07.720 --> 00:15:11.519 remove my bank account from there. Now that was weird. It was weird 233 00:15:11.840 --> 00:15:13.639 there. It's like they were going to give my money. So I took 234 00:15:13.679 --> 00:15:16.720 all the money out of that bank account, all you know, four dollars 235 00:15:16.720 --> 00:15:22.399 out of yeah, and then I wrote them another letter, had it notarized, 236 00:15:22.799 --> 00:15:26.320 and then said it was something like, I do not give permission for 237 00:15:26.440 --> 00:15:31.279 trillium Yeah, Trillium apartments. If anyone's listening, Trillium apartments in fairfaxts to 238 00:15:31.360 --> 00:15:35.679 draft any money. Blah blash sent that motherfucker weight off to and I felt 239 00:15:35.679 --> 00:15:37.960 more and more empowered the more I was like, boom, take that. 240 00:15:37.080 --> 00:15:41.159 Bastards to take that. And so then I get a letter or an email 241 00:15:41.279 --> 00:15:46.919 from their staff saying, you know, we'll waive the two month penalty. 242 00:15:46.879 --> 00:15:50.240 You can just do thirty days and so you can move out and then pay 243 00:15:50.279 --> 00:15:54.360 all of October. And then I'm going, hmm, you know. I 244 00:15:54.440 --> 00:15:58.600 gave my thirty day notice on September twenty second, which means I should only 245 00:15:58.600 --> 00:16:03.759 have to pay till October twenty second, right, and it's really worth a 246 00:16:03.799 --> 00:16:04.960 fight, Like it's just a few more days whatever, and then I'm going 247 00:16:04.960 --> 00:16:07.440 to fuck that shit. So I send them a letter and I'm like, 248 00:16:07.519 --> 00:16:12.240 pursue it too, pursue it where by the law you only have to do 249 00:16:12.399 --> 00:16:17.159 thirty days if you're moving out because it's a ship hole. So I came 250 00:16:17.159 --> 00:16:18.080 back to him on that one and the guy came back. He's like, 251 00:16:18.120 --> 00:16:26.200 oh, yeah, we'll pro rate boom fuck yeah, fucking fucking yeah. 252 00:16:25.000 --> 00:16:32.519 Yeah. I felt so good about the fact that I stood up for myself 253 00:16:32.759 --> 00:16:34.919 and I almost didn't. I was crumbling. I was just gonna deal with 254 00:16:34.960 --> 00:16:41.039 it because I have not been taught to fight back, to stand up for 255 00:16:41.080 --> 00:16:44.000 myself. Yeah, I'm just taught to all those are the rules, that's 256 00:16:44.039 --> 00:16:45.559 what you do, and you can't you know, can't buck the system. 257 00:16:45.639 --> 00:16:51.080 Can't buck the system. So yeah, I got out of that fucking place. 258 00:16:51.159 --> 00:16:53.799 I got the fuck out of that fucking place. I found a house 259 00:16:53.879 --> 00:17:00.240 which is perfect for me and my kids, and in the same school trick 260 00:17:00.279 --> 00:17:02.519 that all my kids are in right now. I know it's a tender mercy. 261 00:17:02.559 --> 00:17:04.799 It is a tender mercy. It is a tender mercy. So that's 262 00:17:04.839 --> 00:17:10.680 my trillium story, and I want to ask listeners either discuss it on the 263 00:17:10.960 --> 00:17:18.240 you know, the what's it called lesbian podcast discussion? Black what because of 264 00:17:18.319 --> 00:17:22.079 your Mormon upbringing? What are things that you have just put up with in 265 00:17:22.079 --> 00:17:26.960 your life because you didn't you didn't know that you could say no. You 266 00:17:26.960 --> 00:17:30.559 didn't feel like you had the power to come back at it. You know, 267 00:17:30.920 --> 00:17:33.960 I got the power it's getting it's getting Is it getting kind of heavier, 268 00:17:34.000 --> 00:17:37.920 getting kind of hectic? Oh oh yeah, I think it's hectic. 269 00:17:37.000 --> 00:17:41.079 Maybe anyway, you got the power. Yeah. So I was talking to 270 00:17:41.079 --> 00:17:45.559 Mary this morning. We were just out with the dogs and we were talking 271 00:17:45.559 --> 00:17:48.279 about what we were going to talk about now, and I said, well, 272 00:17:48.279 --> 00:17:52.119 what did you just fucking have to put up with because you didn't think 273 00:17:52.119 --> 00:17:56.400 that you could fight back when you were being raised religiously right. And it's 274 00:17:56.440 --> 00:18:02.880 different from me because I had a parent, Well, I had a parent 275 00:18:02.920 --> 00:18:04.680 that was brainwashed and then I had a parent that didn't buy any of it, 276 00:18:06.000 --> 00:18:08.119 And so I had both messages at the same time. Confusing as fuck 277 00:18:08.200 --> 00:18:12.960 for a really long time. Sure, but then I think because I had 278 00:18:14.000 --> 00:18:17.839 that voice of reason ye kind of in the back of my head from my 279 00:18:17.920 --> 00:18:22.119 upbringing. It allowed me to make choices for myself. Yeah. I knew 280 00:18:22.160 --> 00:18:29.920 that I could because my father didn't cave just because my mother was found Jesus 281 00:18:30.240 --> 00:18:33.920 after they got married and dragged us all to church except for him. He 282 00:18:33.960 --> 00:18:36.960 never went to church never ever, the whole time I knew him never went 283 00:18:36.960 --> 00:18:40.599 to church because he didn't believe it. Yeah, and so I knew that 284 00:18:40.759 --> 00:18:45.440 I knew there were options, yeah, right, And I think that made 285 00:18:45.440 --> 00:18:48.240 all the difference. Yeah. So I know people have asked me like, 286 00:18:48.279 --> 00:18:52.200 well, how is it for you marrying your faith crisis? And it was 287 00:18:52.240 --> 00:18:55.799 different from my sisters. If anyone listened to the scandal session with my sister, 288 00:18:56.160 --> 00:18:59.200 you can tell that we just have a different outlook about our upbringing. 289 00:18:59.440 --> 00:19:00.920 You know, it was differ refresh. She worked at the Christian Broadcasting Network 290 00:19:00.960 --> 00:19:04.000 as an adult. Like, well, and there's a age difference too, 291 00:19:04.680 --> 00:19:08.359 There's four years between us. It's not a huge age difference. But I 292 00:19:08.440 --> 00:19:12.440 don't know, I don't know. I just I just uh saw my father's 293 00:19:14.319 --> 00:19:18.039 path and followed after him. I think, you know, that was an 294 00:19:18.039 --> 00:19:22.759 option for me. So there you go. There, I feel very fortunate. 295 00:19:22.920 --> 00:19:26.240 Yeah, thanks dad, Yeah, yeah, gave me a different point 296 00:19:26.279 --> 00:19:29.200 of view, you know, and you didn't have that. I didn't you 297 00:19:29.240 --> 00:19:32.920 have one point of view. I had one point of view. Obviously I 298 00:19:32.920 --> 00:19:37.359 had teachers that weren't Mormon, but just different. It's different when like your 299 00:19:37.359 --> 00:19:40.680 parents, your grandparents, all you grants and uncles, everyone that you've known 300 00:19:40.720 --> 00:19:42.640 as a child growing up, that you look up to, they all shared 301 00:19:42.720 --> 00:19:47.160 the same Mormon belief, which is we know what that is, and it's 302 00:19:47.640 --> 00:19:51.240 you can't bend it. You can't bend that belief when you're when you're raised 303 00:19:51.319 --> 00:19:55.640 that way. So yeah, that's my success story of learning. That's awesome 304 00:19:55.680 --> 00:19:59.319 confidence. Thank you. And you know I've seen you over the years, 305 00:19:59.319 --> 00:20:03.039 I've known you five years, just gain more and more confidence. Remember the 306 00:20:03.079 --> 00:20:07.599 gazebo we put together a time. Yeah, and you just were like I 307 00:20:07.599 --> 00:20:11.960 did this. Yeah. I never used to give up on project. I 308 00:20:12.000 --> 00:20:15.680 did when it was it get hard, It would get hard on my might, 309 00:20:15.920 --> 00:20:18.240 like get my husband to do it right, you know, because I 310 00:20:18.279 --> 00:20:22.440 saw that growing up. My mom never did anything. Sure, my dad 311 00:20:22.480 --> 00:20:25.519 did all of the things. So in my mind, doing things is hard. 312 00:20:25.640 --> 00:20:26.640 When it gets hard, you just get a man to do it. 313 00:20:27.480 --> 00:20:32.680 And the fact that I was like, just went on ahead and kept working 314 00:20:32.680 --> 00:20:34.960 on that gazebo with a thousand screws and nuts and ship. It was heavy 315 00:20:36.000 --> 00:20:38.319 too. It was heavy. Oh, we need to thank Diana again for 316 00:20:38.839 --> 00:20:42.319 her and Ben's help on that gaz holding it. And Lincoln, if you're 317 00:20:42.319 --> 00:20:45.400 listening, my son, didn't he come? Yeah? Yeah, I think 318 00:20:45.440 --> 00:20:49.519 so as a while ago. Yeah, So my question posing to our listeners 319 00:20:49.799 --> 00:20:55.119 is what things again did you just fucking put up with because you thought you 320 00:20:55.160 --> 00:20:59.400 had to because of your Mormon upbringing. Never really had thought about that that 321 00:20:59.480 --> 00:21:02.240 much. Know. It's funny, how, you know, the longer we 322 00:21:02.319 --> 00:21:06.559 do this podcast, Yeah, we're we're not strictly telling your story of leaving 323 00:21:06.559 --> 00:21:08.519 the church and your marriage and the whole deal anymore. That's been told, 324 00:21:08.720 --> 00:21:14.279 right, But then things pop up that make you think of your upbringing in 325 00:21:14.319 --> 00:21:18.200 the way you were taught and how you have You're still encountering things, yeah, 326 00:21:18.519 --> 00:21:23.480 that are baked in from your upbringing that you're now overturning, let's say, 327 00:21:23.559 --> 00:21:26.680 or you're you're rethinking it in a new way. Yeah, you know, 328 00:21:27.079 --> 00:21:32.000 this is not a one and done situation. This is going to be 329 00:21:32.039 --> 00:21:34.160 happening. I think the rest of your life, I would imagine. So 330 00:21:34.319 --> 00:21:38.480 I don't think that you your race forty years of brainwashing in an afternoon, 331 00:21:40.200 --> 00:21:42.720 or even five years. No, I know, and it feels good. 332 00:21:44.039 --> 00:21:47.759 It feels really really. I was so celebratory I went into work when all 333 00:21:47.839 --> 00:21:51.359 afterwards all I was like dancing around and my co workers were high fiving me 334 00:21:51.440 --> 00:21:55.400 because they know my background, right, so people to see that in me, 335 00:21:56.400 --> 00:21:59.440 they're just they just cheer for me. And I love that. Thank 336 00:21:59.480 --> 00:22:02.440 you for every who's cheered for me in this matter. Yeah, and you 337 00:22:02.480 --> 00:22:06.680 know it's uplifting to anyone else who is thinking, oh my gosh, raise 338 00:22:06.720 --> 00:22:10.440 your hand, listener, if you're like, that's me. I don't have 339 00:22:10.599 --> 00:22:12.920 confidence. I don't think I can accomplish things. I don't. I wasn't 340 00:22:12.960 --> 00:22:19.759 taught that I had power Yeah within me that could challenge anything. You know. 341 00:22:21.000 --> 00:22:23.440 Yeah, if that's you, guess what, there's hope. Yes, 342 00:22:23.559 --> 00:22:26.559 look at Shelley. Thank you, Shelley. Once again, you are a 343 00:22:26.640 --> 00:22:32.319 role model. You are thank you, you are inspirational. You are let's 344 00:22:32.319 --> 00:22:36.640 make out later. Okay, all right, it's too hard to reach you 345 00:22:36.720 --> 00:22:40.200 right this second. I know you're way over there. Later we'll make out 346 00:22:40.240 --> 00:22:42.599 later. Okay, we're done long distance making it? Yes, okay, 347 00:22:42.599 --> 00:22:47.359 well should we consider taking a litt commercial break before we get into this conference? 348 00:22:47.880 --> 00:22:52.480 Wrap up, let's do it. Okay, be right back, We're 349 00:22:52.519 --> 00:22:59.160 back. Hello. Conference Conference October twenty twenty two. General Accummierrance of the 350 00:22:59.200 --> 00:23:02.279 Church or Jesus of Latter day Saints. I still don't know why they do 351 00:23:02.359 --> 00:23:04.319 these things twice a year. What do they have to talk about? They 352 00:23:04.400 --> 00:23:07.799 just regurgitate shit, nothing's new. Which, by the way, I was 353 00:23:07.839 --> 00:23:12.279 in the dollar store the other day getting Halloween decorations and the lady there, 354 00:23:12.359 --> 00:23:17.119 the checkout lady, these two missionaries were in there talking to her. Oh 355 00:23:17.200 --> 00:23:18.279 my, and I kept hearing them saying, you know, so, yeah, 356 00:23:18.279 --> 00:23:21.720 did you get a chance to watch conference? Did you get a chance? 357 00:23:21.759 --> 00:23:27.160 And I'm thinking, why it will never work getting people to watch conference 358 00:23:27.160 --> 00:23:30.359 and then have them suddenly want to be Mormon. Conferences are the most boring 359 00:23:30.519 --> 00:23:33.759 fucking thing on the planet. You know, I was on the fence, 360 00:23:33.799 --> 00:23:37.880 but I saw these white guys talking put me right over the edge. Well, 361 00:23:38.359 --> 00:23:45.480 while speaking of white guys, guess what October twenty twenty two. The 362 00:23:45.680 --> 00:23:52.400 church became super progressive because they allowed a black woman to speak what twenty two? 363 00:23:52.480 --> 00:23:56.200 They're fine, They're like, let's let's lead the way in progressivism, 364 00:23:56.960 --> 00:24:00.759 progressivism. And I felt bad for the black lady because as they made her 365 00:24:00.960 --> 00:24:03.880 call herself Tracy, why browning, like you have to put an initial in 366 00:24:03.920 --> 00:24:07.480 there? Oh, it's stupid. I don't understand. Yeah, I don't 367 00:24:07.480 --> 00:24:11.759 know, And I don't understand how any African American person would want to be 368 00:24:11.880 --> 00:24:15.759 part of this cult. It's bizarre to me. I don't or gay for 369 00:24:15.799 --> 00:24:18.079 that matter, queer. I just I don't get it. Everyone's on their 370 00:24:18.079 --> 00:24:23.480 own journey. Sure, but I myself cannot comprehend this. Well. You 371 00:24:23.519 --> 00:24:27.160 know, I scratch my head a lot of the times about lots of things 372 00:24:27.160 --> 00:24:30.839 and kid that don't make sense, especially in more minutes. No. Right, 373 00:24:30.240 --> 00:24:34.599 So here's our wrap up conference. Boring a shit. Nobody cares. 374 00:24:34.680 --> 00:24:40.319 There's just it's bullshit, obviously. But we have a great, great, 375 00:24:40.599 --> 00:24:47.240 great quote from Jeffrey R. Holland. He says, I know many who 376 00:24:47.279 --> 00:24:52.640 wrestle with wrenching matters of identity, gender, and sexuality. Does he really 377 00:24:52.680 --> 00:24:55.160 know them? No? Who does he know? I thought, I'm like, 378 00:24:55.160 --> 00:24:57.440 he should say I know of them, he read about it one time. 379 00:24:57.519 --> 00:25:03.599 Yeah he doesn't know. No, fucking Jeffrey. I weep for them, 380 00:25:03.119 --> 00:25:10.359 and I weep with them, knowing how significant the consequences of their decisions 381 00:25:10.519 --> 00:25:17.240 will be for the fuck yeah first of all, fuck you. Second of 382 00:25:17.279 --> 00:25:22.160 all, when someone is I don't want to say wrestling with because we shouldn't 383 00:25:22.160 --> 00:25:25.000 have to wrestle with our identity. We are who we are, right, 384 00:25:25.000 --> 00:25:27.279 we sure because the wrestle typically is like will I be accepted? Right? 385 00:25:27.359 --> 00:25:32.720 And that's how hopell I tell my family, Yes, that's right. So 386 00:25:32.759 --> 00:25:37.160 when he's like, I'm crying for you because I know, um, if 387 00:25:37.200 --> 00:25:41.079 you make the wrong choice, your life is fucked forever. That's basically what 388 00:25:41.119 --> 00:25:45.000 I feel from this. Now. What it should say is, Jeffrey, 389 00:25:45.039 --> 00:25:49.119 our Holland should be like, I weep for you because my organization is so 390 00:25:49.279 --> 00:25:55.880 fucked up that we have caused you, lovely people to want to not be 391 00:25:56.079 --> 00:26:00.200 here anymore. But now or be yourself? Yeah yeah, yeah, be 392 00:26:00.279 --> 00:26:03.440 here is in like die by suicide? Well for sure, I picked up 393 00:26:03.279 --> 00:26:07.480 on that. Okay, I wish it wasn't even a thing. I wish 394 00:26:07.480 --> 00:26:11.319 it wasn't even something that people had to struggle with decisions in as you struggle 395 00:26:11.400 --> 00:26:15.279 with your decision on whether or not to be a sinner. Yeah, that's 396 00:26:15.279 --> 00:26:18.839 what that feels like. Yeah, Oh, you're struggling with your decision to 397 00:26:18.880 --> 00:26:21.640 give into your sin and go to hell. I weep for that because it's 398 00:26:21.640 --> 00:26:23.759 gonna be a rough road for you going to hell. Well that's the implication. 399 00:26:23.839 --> 00:26:29.519 Yeah, exactly, So fuck you, motherfucker. That's from Jeffrey R. 400 00:26:29.599 --> 00:26:32.680 Holland. Um, I'm scrolling to the talks. I don't listen anymore. 401 00:26:32.720 --> 00:26:34.960 I just kind of scroll through, and there was one by David A. 402 00:26:36.160 --> 00:26:40.200 Bednar and the title is put on Thy Strength. Isn't he the earring 403 00:26:40.200 --> 00:26:42.319 guy? He has problems with ear rings? Yes, too many arrings, 404 00:26:42.400 --> 00:26:48.400 Yes to any earrings? Too many holes? Never enough holes. Anyway, 405 00:26:48.440 --> 00:26:52.240 the name of his talk was put on Thy Strength O Zion. That's just 406 00:26:52.240 --> 00:26:55.079 a stupid ass name. I didn't even read it. I'm like, I 407 00:26:55.079 --> 00:27:00.279 can't. The fuck is wrong with people? Hey, no, what he 408 00:27:00.319 --> 00:27:03.519 talks like this and you're arrogant to call utah zion. I'm sorry, he's 409 00:27:03.640 --> 00:27:07.960 arrogant. End of story, period. Yes, that's appropriation. It's true. 410 00:27:08.079 --> 00:27:11.240 It is. It is. There's nothing about Utah that's in Zion. 411 00:27:11.559 --> 00:27:15.000 I'm sorry, you know, not a damn thing. No, not a 412 00:27:15.079 --> 00:27:18.960 damn thing. It's arrogance. You're exactly right. An arrogant person would use 413 00:27:18.000 --> 00:27:22.440 that to name his talk anyway, fuck him, And the whole thing is 414 00:27:22.640 --> 00:27:27.000 arrogant. Mormonism is arrogant. Yes, absolutely. Lastly, Oh, you 415 00:27:27.039 --> 00:27:30.039 didn't want to talk about anything, Bednar said, No, the title is 416 00:27:30.079 --> 00:27:36.680 so stupid. I didn't even read the title. Oh my dear God, 417 00:27:37.839 --> 00:27:40.519 all right, that's what I was doing. I didn't even bother reading it. 418 00:27:40.599 --> 00:27:44.640 Just the title was like, seriously, people talk like this. Finally, 419 00:27:45.839 --> 00:27:48.559 what I have here is apparently there were some new temples announced. You 420 00:27:48.599 --> 00:27:52.079 guys know how I feel about temples. It's just fucking a waste of me. 421 00:27:52.200 --> 00:27:56.880 Yeah, So apparently a temple was announced and a family member of mine 422 00:27:56.920 --> 00:28:00.720 I'm not going to say names, distant family member, this person says, 423 00:28:00.279 --> 00:28:04.000 my heart is so full tonight. God. When you start like that, 424 00:28:04.079 --> 00:28:10.079 and it's throw uk emoji. It was an amazing general conference listening to the 425 00:28:10.160 --> 00:28:15.960 Lord's prophet, apostles and leaders of the church. Puke emoji A new temple 426 00:28:17.119 --> 00:28:18.920 for the Church or Jesus Christ of Latter Day's Saints, such a long thing 427 00:28:18.960 --> 00:28:22.880 to type out was announced that we'll be built less than ten minutes from our 428 00:28:22.920 --> 00:28:29.240 old house in Las Vegas. I literally cheered when the new temple was announced 429 00:28:29.240 --> 00:28:33.759 and then cried, oh my god, part it is such a blessing, 430 00:28:33.640 --> 00:28:37.480 is it? Let's talk about what the fuck a this person doesn't even live 431 00:28:37.519 --> 00:28:41.799 there anymore. Okay, but just like, oh, they built an So 432 00:28:41.839 --> 00:28:47.000 they threw another lots of millions of dollars to a big building, a useless 433 00:28:47.000 --> 00:28:52.200 building with millions of dollars worth of decorations and shit for the teeny tiniest percentage 434 00:28:52.200 --> 00:28:55.680 of population who will be able to go in there and do fake shit for 435 00:28:55.720 --> 00:29:00.400 dead people. And we're celebrating. Shelley starting to think it's I'm leaning, 436 00:29:02.240 --> 00:29:06.599 definitely leaning. Meanwhile, the church is sitting on one hundred and sixty plus 437 00:29:06.680 --> 00:29:11.119 billion dollars and they're like, well, let's make more temples. Well I 438 00:29:11.119 --> 00:29:14.759 don't understand, And why is it a blessing? Why are you weeping over 439 00:29:15.319 --> 00:29:18.039 such a waste of money? Think about how many people could be helped with 440 00:29:18.039 --> 00:29:22.839 that money? Church didn't help people stop awful. So I remember when I 441 00:29:22.839 --> 00:29:26.680 was super indoctrinated, I celebrated when temples were built because that was a sign 442 00:29:26.680 --> 00:29:30.240 of the church, like rolling forward and being like, weird, the true 443 00:29:30.319 --> 00:29:32.839 church, look at us, we have all these temples. It was like 444 00:29:32.880 --> 00:29:36.720 I cheered for the church. They were my team, and so any kind 445 00:29:36.759 --> 00:29:41.319 of you know, opening new missions or new temples like that was like, 446 00:29:41.400 --> 00:29:45.720 yeah, we are the one true Church. So you can understand why this 447 00:29:45.799 --> 00:29:48.119 person would write first on Facebook? No, no, no, of course 448 00:29:48.160 --> 00:29:49.799 I can. I understand it because that's I was a dumb ass too once 449 00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:53.799 upon a time. Yeah, but I just it's so gaggy. Speaking of 450 00:29:53.839 --> 00:30:03.640 gaggy cute music, Oh, this is the journal journey. Yeah, who 451 00:30:03.680 --> 00:30:07.400 is at your segue? Journey? Okay, I'm going to read from this 452 00:30:07.559 --> 00:30:18.920 here journal. Even though it's tray journal, it's Shelley's journal. Journey music 453 00:30:18.960 --> 00:30:21.400 has been cute. Okay, thanks for queuing. All right, let me 454 00:30:21.440 --> 00:30:26.759 open up this my maroon um leather bound journal. What you got? Well, 455 00:30:26.759 --> 00:30:30.319 since I'm sitting in a closet recording, I have to use my phone 456 00:30:30.359 --> 00:30:33.359 light because I'm damn near blind these days. Okay, Now, some of 457 00:30:33.400 --> 00:30:37.119 this seems familiar. I might have maybe mentioned it once, but whatever, 458 00:30:37.200 --> 00:30:41.079 deal with it. It's coming twice. This is from March second, I'm 459 00:30:41.160 --> 00:30:45.400 guessing nineteen ninety six. Yes, can the letter I got today from Brand 460 00:30:45.480 --> 00:30:52.400 He said he needs me to change him spiritually. What can I do? 461 00:30:52.279 --> 00:30:56.759 What can I do when I feel so weak? Oh God? I feel 462 00:30:56.799 --> 00:31:00.920 like his testimony in faith and strength completely overshadows my own? Oh God, 463 00:31:00.960 --> 00:31:04.960 how can I lift him up? I only pray I do not drag him 464 00:31:04.960 --> 00:31:14.079 down. Pause for Mary to laugh a bit. God, I was a 465 00:31:14.160 --> 00:31:18.720 fucking stupid Why did he want you to change him spiritually? What did that 466 00:31:18.799 --> 00:31:19.839 mean? I don't know. He said it, and then I got all 467 00:31:19.880 --> 00:31:26.240 guilty about it. Duh, I'm not doing something right. Of course I 468 00:31:26.279 --> 00:31:30.119 was never doing something right, and I was always writing about it in my 469 00:31:30.200 --> 00:31:33.960 journal. Okay, you're ready for this? Yeah. I long for the 470 00:31:33.039 --> 00:31:37.759 day when we can work together as husband and wife to return to live again 471 00:31:37.799 --> 00:31:41.559 with our heavenly father. Oh God. More, I dream of the glorious 472 00:31:41.680 --> 00:31:47.359 day when our calling an election might be made. Sure you don't call an 473 00:31:47.359 --> 00:32:00.599 election? Is that is an amazing foom pod music? Mary, Today's fucked 474 00:32:00.680 --> 00:32:07.279 up Mormon Phrase of the day is calling and election calling. And yeah, 475 00:32:07.119 --> 00:32:10.880 okay, you already gave away that this is like in the afterlife. Yeah, 476 00:32:12.000 --> 00:32:15.680 I gave a lot of clues in my pathetic journal entry. But I 477 00:32:15.720 --> 00:32:21.160 can only imagine it's like some past saint or God or Jesus or somebody in 478 00:32:21.240 --> 00:32:30.039 the afterlife is calling you to like calling the chosen people together. Maybe are 479 00:32:30.079 --> 00:32:34.920 you elected to a certain like no duty. As much as I want to 480 00:32:34.920 --> 00:32:38.119 give you partial credit, it's so much better than that. Okay, I 481 00:32:38.119 --> 00:32:43.720 don't know the answer. Okay, buzzer, here's what it is. So 482 00:32:43.759 --> 00:32:45.119 you go through the temple the first time, you're like when you get married, 483 00:32:45.279 --> 00:32:50.880 right, You're you're sealed. And then for the best souls, typically 484 00:32:50.960 --> 00:32:53.440 the rich ones, the general authorities, blah blah blah, you will get 485 00:32:53.480 --> 00:32:58.759 called to come to the temple again by like a head haunt show of the 486 00:32:58.839 --> 00:33:01.119 church. They do some ritual I don't know what it is to make your 487 00:33:01.200 --> 00:33:09.480 calling an election sure, which means you are then promised that you have made 488 00:33:09.480 --> 00:33:14.279 it to the upper levels of the celestial kingdom. And there is nothing you 489 00:33:14.319 --> 00:33:16.960 can do at that point to make that go away. So this is in 490 00:33:17.039 --> 00:33:22.079 preparation for your afterlife. Yeah, they're telling you you made it. You're 491 00:33:22.119 --> 00:33:23.200 good. Do whatever the fuck you want the rest of your life. You're 492 00:33:23.200 --> 00:33:27.200 good, you're in. Wait, what's the difference between a calling and an 493 00:33:27.240 --> 00:33:30.200 election? I don't know, it's just the calling you're calling an election is 494 00:33:30.200 --> 00:33:34.400 made sure. That's such a stupid line. I've said it a billion times, 495 00:33:34.400 --> 00:33:37.400 but it was always this thing like, is it going to be us? 496 00:33:37.559 --> 00:33:38.880 If we live righteously, then we'll get called to the temple and have 497 00:33:38.960 --> 00:33:44.480 our calling an election made sure? Oh my god, meaning you did it? 498 00:33:44.720 --> 00:33:47.079 Like in this life, you did, You did all things. You're 499 00:33:47.119 --> 00:33:50.640 You're good to go. It didn't matter what you do the rest of this 500 00:33:50.680 --> 00:33:52.599 life, because you you are in. So you could go murder somebody after 501 00:33:52.640 --> 00:33:54.759 that. Well, and I've asked people that question, like, well, 502 00:33:54.799 --> 00:34:02.000 you won't want to. I might. Yeah. Wow, that's a good 503 00:34:02.000 --> 00:34:06.599 one. Yeah, that is a good one. I was stumped, wasn't 504 00:34:06.640 --> 00:34:08.320 sure. I still am kind of unclear on how it all works. But 505 00:34:08.480 --> 00:34:13.039 well, it's fake and they change the rules as they go. Well, 506 00:34:13.079 --> 00:34:15.679 so now that you know what it was I was striving for. Here in 507 00:34:15.719 --> 00:34:20.039 my journal, we get back to my reading. I dream of the gloriless 508 00:34:20.079 --> 00:34:23.119 repeat, I dream of the glorious day when our calling an election might be 509 00:34:23.199 --> 00:34:27.840 made. Sure, now it sounds even stupid, or doesn't it now that 510 00:34:27.920 --> 00:34:30.800 you know what it is, But the next sentence is even better. I 511 00:34:31.000 --> 00:34:38.840 shudder to think. What if it never happens? The fuck was wrong with 512 00:34:38.880 --> 00:34:45.000 me? You are brainwashed? Oh, Shelley was brainwashed everybody? There's more? 513 00:34:45.159 --> 00:34:49.559 Well, it more. Also, I'm just getting so much anxiety out 514 00:34:49.559 --> 00:34:53.280 of your writing. Of course, absolutely, it explains so much about your 515 00:34:53.280 --> 00:34:58.679 anxiety. Now. I am just used to functioning in an anxious state because 516 00:34:58.679 --> 00:35:00.519 that's all I ever did. Not good for me. No, it's not 517 00:35:00.760 --> 00:35:05.960 new. Body keeps a score book. Yeah, yeah, but I believe 518 00:35:06.000 --> 00:35:08.400 that's true. Yeah. We get so amped up on different things and stressed 519 00:35:08.400 --> 00:35:13.639 out. And a church probably took ten years off my life. Assholes probably, 520 00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:16.800 and lots of tithing. Okay, I want to do another paragraph here 521 00:35:16.960 --> 00:35:21.920 because it was all done on the same day. Why do I always feel 522 00:35:21.960 --> 00:35:25.440 like I'm struggling. I just don't feel like I'm where it should be at 523 00:35:25.440 --> 00:35:31.280 this point in life. I truly want a relationship with heavenly Father. Perhaps 524 00:35:31.320 --> 00:35:37.079 sin is the great barrier that keeps me from reaching him. What can I 525 00:35:37.159 --> 00:35:42.559 do? I must always repent. I should try making new covenants with the 526 00:35:42.599 --> 00:35:46.840 Lord every morning, like starting brand new with each day, setting goals from 527 00:35:46.840 --> 00:35:52.119 sun up to sundown, keeping this spirit with me all day long to help 528 00:35:52.159 --> 00:35:58.039 me accomplish these goals, Praying throughout the day to my father to tell him 529 00:35:58.639 --> 00:36:02.079 next patient, tell him how I'm doing with my goals, and to ask 530 00:36:02.119 --> 00:36:07.920 for his help and support, to give thanks. Tomorrow morning, I will 531 00:36:07.960 --> 00:36:09.679 start this new plan. I need a new beginning. I need to be 532 00:36:09.719 --> 00:36:15.599 revitalized. I need to regain my views. Did you have views? I 533 00:36:15.639 --> 00:36:19.280 don't fucking know what a hand they were? Your dad's views? Wow? 534 00:36:19.280 --> 00:36:22.199 I think I'll stop there. I have another one right after it, but 535 00:36:22.239 --> 00:36:24.119 I'm gonna hold off. Okay, I'll make a note. You're gonna make 536 00:36:24.119 --> 00:36:29.440 a note, all right? Wow? Oh, Shelly, I know, 537 00:36:30.320 --> 00:36:35.079 Oh my goodness, So glad you are not that person anymore. You are 538 00:36:35.119 --> 00:36:38.920 a completely different person, Thank god. I was just Yeah, and you 539 00:36:38.960 --> 00:36:43.639 can look back on it and laugh. What's that line in that Indigo Girls 540 00:36:43.679 --> 00:36:45.840 song? Every five years or so, I look back on my life and 541 00:36:45.880 --> 00:36:50.519 have a good laugh. Totally, you know, we're not laughing at you 542 00:36:50.639 --> 00:36:52.119 or laughing with you, laugh at me. I was a fucking dork. 543 00:36:54.880 --> 00:36:59.039 I'm laughing at me. Shit, Oh my god. I mean part of 544 00:36:59.039 --> 00:37:01.000 it is what you were in your ties, right, sure, and you 545 00:37:01.039 --> 00:37:04.760 know that's a time when we're all kind of just figuring out who we are 546 00:37:04.800 --> 00:37:07.719 too, and that's part of it. But I was I was in my 547 00:37:07.719 --> 00:37:10.039 twenties in a brainwashed state. Yeah, in a cult. And that makes 548 00:37:10.039 --> 00:37:13.920 you say some weird ass ship that most twenty year rolds probably wouldn't say. 549 00:37:14.159 --> 00:37:20.760 Probably soon. I love that journal entry. I can't remember when that was, 550 00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:24.079 but that's funny. Oh my goodness. Okay, well that's your riveting 551 00:37:24.239 --> 00:37:29.840 journal journey. Thank you. So glad you are not that person anymore. 552 00:37:29.880 --> 00:37:31.960 Oh god. I mean we couldn't be friends. No, I wouldn't be 553 00:37:35.599 --> 00:37:37.519 Yeah, you'd be like, she's looking at my boobs? True, that 554 00:37:37.519 --> 00:37:45.719 would be true. Well there you go, yeah, there you do go. 555 00:37:45.760 --> 00:37:51.880 Okay, we I think have time for a letter. Why don't we 556 00:37:51.920 --> 00:37:55.480 take one last quick break and then I'll read the letter and then we'll do 557 00:37:55.599 --> 00:38:00.639 patrons do it all right? Be right back, yeah, listen up. 558 00:38:00.679 --> 00:38:06.199 It's time once again for another modest mixed tea break. I wonder why they 559 00:38:06.199 --> 00:38:09.519 refer to their mix as modest, because I personally think they have a lot 560 00:38:09.559 --> 00:38:15.360 to brag about. So today we're talking about Wake the fuck Up, a 561 00:38:15.480 --> 00:38:21.320 blend of various organic black teas and elderberries to kick your groggy ass in the 562 00:38:21.440 --> 00:38:24.880 head each morning. 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You'll tell you tell me 572 00:39:15.599 --> 00:39:20.320 once we start reading it. This is a special treat because it's from Dan 573 00:39:20.840 --> 00:39:24.360 at Extension Audios. Sister Shit no, we haven't read that. I don't 574 00:39:24.360 --> 00:39:28.599 think we have. And this came in like two years ago. Sorry, 575 00:39:28.679 --> 00:39:31.639 Dan's sister from Extension Audio, Lisa. Sorry Lisa, she's not from Extension 576 00:39:31.679 --> 00:39:38.400 Audio. Sorry Dan from Extension Audio's sister, Lisa. Jesus. All right, 577 00:39:39.280 --> 00:39:44.360 here we go, dear Mary and Shelley. I started listening to your 578 00:39:44.400 --> 00:39:47.480 podcast earlier this year, that would be two years ago, and have enjoyed 579 00:39:47.519 --> 00:39:52.480 every episode since. Your show has been amazingly helpful to me as I have 580 00:39:52.519 --> 00:39:58.519 been transitioning out of Mormonism. I think you guys are awesome. Thanks Lisa, 581 00:39:58.599 --> 00:40:00.559 thank you. I'm excited to write in and say hello to you both 582 00:40:00.599 --> 00:40:05.760 because my connection to your show happens to be very close to home. My 583 00:40:05.840 --> 00:40:09.280 older brother and very best friend is Daniel. Leave it in, Daniel, 584 00:40:09.400 --> 00:40:15.280 Daniel, Daniel, my brother. Leave it in, Daniel, she says, 585 00:40:15.320 --> 00:40:20.559 although he is better known here as Dan at Extension Audio. Or leave 586 00:40:20.599 --> 00:40:22.840 it in Dan. I put that. She didn't write that part. I 587 00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:25.559 put that in. He told me about a new show he was mastering, 588 00:40:25.639 --> 00:40:30.239 called Latterday Lesbian. Although mastering is a terrible word. I don't like that 589 00:40:30.280 --> 00:40:35.000 word. I know it's bad. I mean technically that is how production has 590 00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:37.679 been referred to for years and years and years. I think we should change 591 00:40:37.679 --> 00:40:42.440 it. Mixing and finalizing. We could say that okay, okay, is 592 00:40:42.480 --> 00:40:45.679 it because it sounds too much like a master bait? No, it sounds 593 00:40:45.679 --> 00:40:49.079 like master. Master is a terrible word. Oh, like the noun I 594 00:40:49.159 --> 00:40:52.360 am your master, right, Not in a good way. It's just a 595 00:40:52.400 --> 00:40:55.119 bad word. Yeah, it's an eliminate master. Gotcha from our vocabulary. 596 00:40:55.400 --> 00:40:58.920 Anyway. The show was Latter Day Lesbian. Hey, that's our show, 597 00:40:59.760 --> 00:41:04.360 and after several conversations with him, where he expressed how cool these ladies were, 598 00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:07.880 I guess that's us. I think so shit, and how much he 599 00:41:07.000 --> 00:41:12.679 thought it would resonate with me, I finally tuned in. Oh, thanks 600 00:41:12.840 --> 00:41:20.320 Dan for yeah for recommending us. My faith crisis hit full speed last summer 601 00:41:20.360 --> 00:41:23.039 in twenty eighteen, while I was living at home with my parents. That'll 602 00:41:23.079 --> 00:41:28.320 do it, yep, who are currently very active Mormons. I had graduated 603 00:41:28.400 --> 00:41:34.760 from Brigham Young University, Idaho not long previously and was feeling profoundly stuck. 604 00:41:35.119 --> 00:41:37.880 Yeah BYU Idaho. By the way, is bu on fucking crack? Is 605 00:41:37.920 --> 00:41:42.079 it? Yes? Yikes? As if provo is not bad enough. No, 606 00:41:42.320 --> 00:41:45.920 right, Well, Idaho is like take provo BYU, and then add 607 00:41:45.960 --> 00:41:50.840 do not show any of your skin anywhere ever. Oh wow, they're really 608 00:41:51.000 --> 00:41:54.000 strict. Good lord, Okay, anyway, she was feeling profoundly stuck. 609 00:41:54.760 --> 00:41:59.800 I used all of the pressure building up from that situation to spring me across 610 00:41:59.840 --> 00:42:05.679 the Pacific to start work as an English teacher in China. It was as 611 00:42:05.679 --> 00:42:08.079 far away as I could possibly get from my family and the Mormon Church. 612 00:42:08.360 --> 00:42:13.199 I ran away to a land where it virtually does not exist. Wow. 613 00:42:13.400 --> 00:42:15.840 Yeah, good for her. It was an amazing year, and I really 614 00:42:15.880 --> 00:42:21.719 took advantage of the space I needed to process my emotions and do a lot 615 00:42:21.800 --> 00:42:25.400 of reading. The paradigm shift that comes from leaving a high demand religion is 616 00:42:25.440 --> 00:42:30.639 a real mind fuck. Yeah. Unsurprisingly, I removed my name from the 617 00:42:30.719 --> 00:42:36.440 church records shortly before returning home for the summer. A girl. Yeah. 618 00:42:36.440 --> 00:42:38.840 Thankfully. Through it all, I have had the constant support of my amazing 619 00:42:38.920 --> 00:42:45.280 brother Nah to help me cope through this insane transition. He and I have 620 00:42:45.360 --> 00:42:50.559 been talking incessantly about the Church, religion, God, and life for the 621 00:42:50.639 --> 00:42:53.480 last two years, and we are no closer to figuring it out. But 622 00:42:53.519 --> 00:42:58.079 we are closer to each other than ever before. That's what counts, right 623 00:42:58.159 --> 00:43:00.280 for real. Despite the fact that I reach turned to China to teach for 624 00:43:00.320 --> 00:43:05.880 another year, being the savvy technology dude that he is, he approached me 625 00:43:05.920 --> 00:43:08.960 with the idea to start our own podcast as a tool for others who might 626 00:43:09.039 --> 00:43:15.440 benefit from the conversations that we have as X Mormon Siblings. Siblings and Zion 627 00:43:15.719 --> 00:43:20.199 is now available in all the places. Did you say Zion now? I 628 00:43:20.239 --> 00:43:24.119 said Zion. It kind of had a Zion feel to it. Siblings in 629 00:43:24.280 --> 00:43:29.599 Zion, Okay, that's how Mormon Zion Mormons stole it. Okay is now 630 00:43:29.639 --> 00:43:31.920 available in all the podcast places. If any of your listeners are interested in 631 00:43:31.960 --> 00:43:36.440 tuning in there as well, you know, I'll have to reach out to 632 00:43:36.519 --> 00:43:39.599 Dan to see if they're currently in production on that show, because I don't 633 00:43:39.760 --> 00:43:43.920 honestly know, but you can definitely listen to past episodes if not, yeh, 634 00:43:44.000 --> 00:43:47.599 Siblings and Zion, I said it, you kind of say Zion. 635 00:43:47.719 --> 00:43:52.639 You do a little bit of a on at the end anyway, Just Zion 636 00:43:52.960 --> 00:44:00.360 Zion Zion. Yes, that is better. Siblings and Zion. Find it 637 00:44:00.559 --> 00:44:06.360 on your favorite podcast app. Okay, let me wrap this up. Please 638 00:44:06.400 --> 00:44:09.079 do. Lisa says, I'm so glad that you chose Daniel, leave it 639 00:44:09.079 --> 00:44:13.719 in, Daniel in Daniel to work on your podcast, and that it led 640 00:44:13.760 --> 00:44:17.639 to me also getting to enjoy your conversations, insights, tangents, and foom 641 00:44:17.679 --> 00:44:22.079 pods. Yeah, thanks for helping me steer clear of cults. Love Lisa, 642 00:44:22.320 --> 00:44:27.960 Oh, Lisa, thank you for I know that's awesome. Two years 643 00:44:27.960 --> 00:44:31.280 ago I got around reading it. That's a good letter. That has a 644 00:44:31.320 --> 00:44:36.320 good letter, I know. And you know what, love me some Dan 645 00:44:36.400 --> 00:44:39.920 from Daniel from Extension Audio. We'll just thank them now. There you go. 646 00:44:40.280 --> 00:44:44.519 There's your thanks. Dan. If you don't get thanked at the end 647 00:44:44.559 --> 00:44:46.400 today, thanks for leaving it in, Dan, it's near the end. 648 00:44:47.159 --> 00:44:51.760 We love you, appreciate all you do for us. Okay, did you 649 00:44:51.840 --> 00:44:54.599 want to uh get started on some patrons write them down, but let me 650 00:44:54.639 --> 00:44:59.840 dottle check. All right, how are we doing their new names today? 651 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.679 I said words that you'd hear in conference. Okay, so I came up 652 00:45:02.719 --> 00:45:07.480 with this idea. Wait we're recording right now. Oh okay, carry on. 653 00:45:07.599 --> 00:45:12.199 Sorry, we're doing a conversation starter. Okay, like it? How 654 00:45:12.199 --> 00:45:16.199 are we doing their new names today. New names today will be words you 655 00:45:16.199 --> 00:45:20.599 will hear in general conference. Okay, okay, who's the first one? 656 00:45:21.079 --> 00:45:27.079 Number one is Lisa Marie P. Presley. I guess you don't hear that 657 00:45:27.119 --> 00:45:30.320 at a general Nope, nope. They would never refer to Elvis in a 658 00:45:30.400 --> 00:45:35.599 conference unless they were doing baptisms for the dead. Right. The word I'm 659 00:45:35.639 --> 00:45:39.440 thinking of is persecute. Okay, I was thinking prosperity. Okay, is 660 00:45:39.480 --> 00:45:43.159 I'm gonna go with mine. I have an idea there, Okay, But 661 00:45:43.239 --> 00:45:45.000 persecute not in the way that we think of it, but in the way 662 00:45:45.039 --> 00:45:51.320 the church thinks of it, as in the Church believes they are being persecuted 663 00:45:52.519 --> 00:45:58.400 by non Mormons. Oh okay, like woe is us for them, poor 664 00:45:58.880 --> 00:46:05.679 poor us. People want to call us Mormons and we're not where where they're 665 00:46:05.679 --> 00:46:12.719 just right, yes, just stupid old yarn. Yeah, so Lisa Marie 666 00:46:12.800 --> 00:46:16.599 percute. Dear. Sorry, it is not my fault, but this is 667 00:46:16.639 --> 00:46:22.199 the you know, the word that I can't think of right now? What 668 00:46:22.440 --> 00:46:25.840 the category of names were, you know? I see? Okay? Next 669 00:46:25.920 --> 00:46:28.800 up, by the way, I thank you, Lisa Marie. Next up, 670 00:46:28.840 --> 00:46:31.480 Amy, no last name? Oh? Can I do it? Yeah, 671 00:46:31.559 --> 00:46:39.159 Zion Zion, Amy Zion, than amy Zion. Thanks for your support, 672 00:46:39.639 --> 00:46:45.199 good Lord. Next up, Harriet m M. How about missionary. 673 00:46:45.239 --> 00:46:50.719 I'm sure that missionaries are mentioned in conference sometimes, God always. As a 674 00:46:50.719 --> 00:46:54.920 matter of fact, the conference in April, m reinforced to all the boys 675 00:46:55.039 --> 00:47:00.599 that if you are worthy, you need to go. I want a mission 676 00:47:00.719 --> 00:47:04.280 period end of story, which then of course calls out the boys who just 677 00:47:04.360 --> 00:47:07.400 kind of decided they didn't want to go, and so now they are labeled 678 00:47:07.559 --> 00:47:13.639 as sinners. Well they have to guilt people into going on a mission, 679 00:47:13.920 --> 00:47:16.360 of course, because they really believe that's the way to get new converts. 680 00:47:16.519 --> 00:47:22.000 Absolutely, new converts equals more tithing. Uh, it's a money call. 681 00:47:22.159 --> 00:47:25.800 Goes down to the money. It all does boils down to money every single 682 00:47:25.840 --> 00:47:30.280 time. They also reminded the girls you don't have to go, which again 683 00:47:30.360 --> 00:47:37.679 it's like yeah, yeah, yeah. And then they also encouraged the elderly 684 00:47:37.719 --> 00:47:42.960 people to go serve their missions, which, by the way, my parents 685 00:47:42.960 --> 00:47:46.079 served two missions. Damn near killed my mom, damn near. We've talked 686 00:47:46.079 --> 00:47:50.840 about the before, ye yeah, And to fucking be like, I know, 687 00:47:50.880 --> 00:47:52.320 you have grandkids and all. So this was a thing. This was 688 00:47:52.360 --> 00:47:55.719 a thing that my dad actually told me because all of us kids, of 689 00:47:55.719 --> 00:47:59.159 course back then we were brainwashed. We're like, oh, parents are so 690 00:47:59.280 --> 00:48:02.559 holy blow going, I messied. It was like, your grandkids will get 691 00:48:02.559 --> 00:48:06.559 there, We'll be there when you get back. Well, it's okay. 692 00:48:06.559 --> 00:48:09.320 Well didn't they not attend your wedding or something? No, didn't attend my 693 00:48:09.360 --> 00:48:13.519 wedding, I know, um, which I'll give shit, but didn't attend 694 00:48:13.840 --> 00:48:19.159 the blessing of my baby, my last baby, And it mattered to me. 695 00:48:19.239 --> 00:48:22.079 Back then. They were only like an hour and a half flight away, 696 00:48:22.519 --> 00:48:25.719 right, and they wouldn't couldn't go. My mom wanted to and my 697 00:48:25.760 --> 00:48:28.519 dad was like, no, hun, you can't. You know, you 698 00:48:28.519 --> 00:48:30.880 can't leave your mission, leave your mission. And it's all bullshit. Makes 699 00:48:30.880 --> 00:48:35.360 me angry. My mom suffered significantly. Um so yeah, sorry, that's 700 00:48:35.360 --> 00:48:39.159 your new last name, Harriet missionary. It can be Harriet missionary style. 701 00:48:39.239 --> 00:48:42.920 If that, oh it's better for Harry, is it better? Well, 702 00:48:42.960 --> 00:48:45.639 I don't know, it's up to her. That's funny. You can choose 703 00:48:46.800 --> 00:48:52.639 next. Now this is spelled m a c I A h m. What 704 00:48:52.159 --> 00:49:00.679 m A c I a h mcaiah maybe okay, but macaia didn't offer up 705 00:49:00.760 --> 00:49:05.519 last name, so um oh freak of shoes. Well I picked the last 706 00:49:05.519 --> 00:49:07.440 one, So why don't you pick a common where it's a ridiculous one. 707 00:49:07.519 --> 00:49:13.800 Conferences so many, there's so many. I'm just gonna go with, um 708 00:49:14.079 --> 00:49:22.639 makaia, geth seminee, geth semonee, get get the seminee because there's always 709 00:49:22.639 --> 00:49:28.039 a talk in general conference about Jesus, like near dying, and get semine 710 00:49:28.039 --> 00:49:31.280 for our sins because we're horrible. They loved it so much, but we 711 00:49:31.320 --> 00:49:37.559 need to show that appreciation by basically being a Mormon. So right, yes, 712 00:49:37.639 --> 00:49:43.960 sorry, your new last name is guests semine last Lacy, m m 713 00:49:44.639 --> 00:49:49.199 m um. Can I do this one? Sure? Master bait, masterbait? 714 00:49:49.239 --> 00:49:52.519 Did they say that? And common oaks? They never actually say the 715 00:49:52.800 --> 00:49:55.559 Jesus, but I wanted to say the word. But they talk about sexual 716 00:49:55.760 --> 00:50:00.639 sin and we know way up there, especially when they're when they when they 717 00:50:00.639 --> 00:50:02.000 speak in the priesthood session, which is like the men and the boys, 718 00:50:02.119 --> 00:50:06.679 mm, they hit that ship home. Okay, they don't say the word 719 00:50:06.760 --> 00:50:10.360 master bait, but they definitely And who's this patron again, Lacy master bait? 720 00:50:10.719 --> 00:50:16.199 Sorry, Lacy, not sorry, that's the best one. Thanks for 721 00:50:16.280 --> 00:50:23.559 sport. Lacy Master, Basha Master, Lacy Lacy, Lacy Master Bakay, 722 00:50:23.880 --> 00:50:29.440 Okay, sorry, Lacy Lacy, you could just PM me later and I'll 723 00:50:29.440 --> 00:50:32.000 apologize for shot. I can give her a new name of shem. There 724 00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:36.920 you go? Or is it a DM Personal Message? Direct Message? What 725 00:50:36.960 --> 00:50:40.000 do you say? They're all different and I'm always afraid I use DM now. 726 00:50:40.239 --> 00:50:43.800 Isn't it the same thing? Though? It is? But okay, 727 00:50:43.920 --> 00:50:46.519 okay, whatever, slide into your DMS. Yeah, there you go. 728 00:50:47.599 --> 00:50:51.760 I think we're wrapped on this episode. Everybody, there you go. In 729 00:50:51.800 --> 00:50:54.119 the name of Jesus Christ Amen yep. Already thanked Dan, So don't want 730 00:50:54.119 --> 00:51:00.960 to do that twice. Don't get greedy Dan. Oh Dan shit. Maybe 731 00:51:00.960 --> 00:51:02.840 we should thank Dan's sister for writing in Thank you, Lisa, Thank you 732 00:51:04.039 --> 00:51:07.360 appreciated that. Sorry it took us so long to get to your letter. 733 00:51:07.079 --> 00:51:09.679 If you would like to send us a letter, we might get to it 734 00:51:09.719 --> 00:51:14.679 in the next couple of years. We'll see what happens. That email address 735 00:51:14.960 --> 00:51:21.320 is Latter Day Lesbian dot org slash contact make a note, make it and 736 00:51:22.079 --> 00:51:25.440 stare clear of those cults because they're no joke, no joke at all talk 737 00:51:25.440 --> 00:51:28.920 to your by later Bye,