This is the two seventeen Recovery podcast with Corey Winfield. I don't know why
would they sit there and watch this talk in two microphones and look at each
other and look at your faces that you give me sometimes and co Holt Marnie
Winfield. In situations like that, if you take the time to weigh the
pros and cons of your involvement in something. I think this is across the
board with a lot of things in life, you know, doesn't make sense
for me in my world. It is the twenty third of April twenty three.
My name is Corey Winfield. My name is Martie Winfield. Oh you
kind of did it with a I wasn't trying. You weren't like dramatic about
it, like I was, yeah, yeah, why would they watch us
do a podcast? Some people that's how they do it. They Ron,
my friend Ron Robinson and his podcast. They started well, he started recording
them and he was like, oh my god, Corey, you know how
much work that is. It takes me so long to like edit it and
like put it together. I said, yeah, Ron, that's that's why
I don't do that. There's more work, man. I was like,
I just do this podcast for fun and people can listen to it in the
shower driving they don't have to look at their phone and watch it. Yeah,
in a perfect world, shore that'd be great, man. I can't
like it that way. Yeah. Well yeah, because we can running here
and we don't have to do makeup, and I can wear boxers and T
shirt. I don't have to get done up either. Yeah. I don't
do my hair. No, but what if we did like one a week
and then I made interns. No, not with you, because I know
you're like, not about that, but if we do it for a North
studio, Yeah, you can do that. And I had like Cob or
somebody maybe named Cob whoever. You know, people are looking for stuff to
do, you know, and volunteer were like, hey, I'll show you
how to edit. But see, do I have time to show them how
to edit video shoot? I don't know. I tried to watch you.
I don't know. Thank you, but some people would love that, I'm
sure. Yeah, I'm sure they would. I'm just just throwing it out
there. Yeah, I think about it. It's possibility. I do want
to do some more videos, and we'll probably do on this week from the
office. You got some good m compliments from my class. Oh yeah,
I'm making videos. Yeah, I did the video that you needed for the
It was a project act or something, and I was acceptance and commitment therapy.
I had to do a just a presentation of the actual an exercise of
it. And you know, he's like all of videotape because it was my
class Solvia zoom right, So and I was doing the project by myself,
and so I had to do something that didn't involve another person. So I
just had to do this presentation. So I'm like, perfect, I will
have it all done and ready to go. So I had to do his
press play on the day. I need to present it, easy, peasy.
So I asked you for your help, and you're like, oh,
heck, yeah, I'll do all video tape it. So of course he
had like three different cameras set up at three different angles and you know,
like testing and did the whole put it all together and had music in the
intro. Yeah yeah yeah, and then I still screw that up and then
one of the cameras I wasn't sure how to anyway, Yeah, it turned
out great and he got lots of compliments on it. My class was like,
Wow, that was like professionally done. I was like kind of yeah,
I know. I can't wait you to the next Spotlight video. Whoever's
going to be in that, they're gonna feel awesome because it's gonna be amazing.
I'm just saying that right now. I'm not bragging. I'm not saying
blue. I'm just saying yeah. I mean, there's story could suck,
but the video of photography or video whatever it's called cinema videography, the vigia
is gonna look good. Yeah. I'm just glad you're excited about it.
Yeah, and you are getting better at it, you know, it's like
anything with practice. Yep. Look at the first one it was just done
with a iPhone. It was Tyrone's. It was like two minutes long,
just trying it. And now they're getting a little bit longer. And I'm
gonna even step it up one more notch and actually be in the videos too
as I'm interviewing the people, because like before, we couldn't really have me
in the video because we didn't have a video cameras or enough silend record it.
So like the questions like typed out or whatever, and I'm not saying
that older people have a problem with that, but all the older people had
a problem with that. Yeah, and since I'm older now too, I
get it because sometimes you can't see the TV and then read it and you're
like, wait what I get my glasses on. So anyway, yeah,
that'll be happening soon, so look for that on the website. The two
seventeen Recovery Center we have kind of officially opened now, we've had our grand
opening yet. That might be in August. No, it's just kidding,
but I don't know, it'll be whenever. Yeah, you know, we're
still gotta do some finishing up. But I mean just May. May is
gonna be busy, and so was June in July. I'm just saying that,
like I wish it was football season already. The Draft is coming up
this week. And anyway, the two seventeen Recovery Center, though, we
have a sign out front now, we do. We made that. We
have our road sign, yeah, so you can see it from the street
that because it's kind of like tucked away a little bit off the road.
So it's I think that's nice to give people an idea of where it actually
lives. Yeah, and people have come by. You know, there's no
point you needed and people just gonna walk in. And I've chatted with a
few people and kind of pointed them in the right direction. Direction, which
of course is what a recovery coaching is. And if you're looking for a
recovery coach, you know, reach out. Yes it's free. So they're
like, hey, I need a recovery coach or you've always wanted one er,
you know, if you know what it is, you know, give
us a call at the office. And I don't want to put you on
the spot, but is there a way Is there a way that people could
um request recovery coach off the website to be contacted. I was waiting for
you to mention that. Okay, now that you've mentioned it, yeah,
I'll put it on the website. I was just like, I'm gonna wait
until someone mentions it. No, that's a great idea. Yeah, yeah,
yeah, a little form that we can have you fill out. And
I mean it's nothing crazy. We're not gonna put your name out on a
marquee or anything. And no, just to be contacted by recovery coach,
you know, leave name, an email address or whatever info you feel comfortable
leaving. You know, it's just a Yahoo account or or phone number either
or both. M Yeah, well look you up and I'll get my pen
out right now, okay, right click it. I clicked it. Website
update, Yeah, but I've been wanting to do that for quite a while
now. Yeah, and we're working on finalizing our what when our meetings are
going to be our twelve step groups. That's coming along a little by little
so and those meetings are going to be on Zoom as well. Yeah,
we were hoping to start the meetings first week of May. Potentially that might
happen. Tyrone, he's coming by Tuesday and he's gonna have a meeting.
Not sure exactly on what time is meeting is going to be, but we
might do his meeting on Tuesday. So if you're down for a meeting on
Tuesday around noon, nishe I know, Tuesday at noon. Starting in May,
there's gonna be a different meeting. Yeah, but we might pop on
there and just do a meeting or something. But look at the website for
that and we'll have times and stuff and what different meetings are and joining the
fun. Yeah, you know, we're trying to have fun and recovery and
it's kind of what we're doing. Yeah, you know, our space isn't
the biggest, but for the people that are there, they're going to be
serious and all about it. So it's definitely a meeting that if you live
in Colorado, if you live in Virginia. That sounded weird, Virginia,
Why if you live in Corey because it's the name of a person. I've
never really noticed that before. Things you noticed when you're sober, Yeah,
telling you, but yes, join us. And there's also a meeting tomorrow.
I'll definitely post this on Facebook. It's at a diction Treament Services and
again it's on Zoom as well. But it's for families and it's tomorrow at
five thirty. Our friend Nancy now host it and they're going to be more
than likely doing some stuff at the two seventeen Recovery Center as well. Yeah,
not necessarily Nancy or ats, but that that same group of families.
It's like family support group. Yeah, so the idea is that it's going
to be the same group of individuals that join that group that's led by Nancy,
but it's just going to be pure lad which essentially just means one of
the people that is a regular at those meetings who knows the flow of how
they go and the structure and the agenda and the you know, expectations and
so on and so forth, is gonna be in charge of kind of facilitating
that. So whether you again it's on zoom, so for my people down
southwast Michigan or mid Michigan or Northern Michigan, whatever, if you're like,
oh, I can't make it, you know, there's is on zoom.
And like I said, I'll share that on Facebook tomorrow the link and everything,
and then once it starts up at the two seventeen Recovery Center, then
for sure, you know, we'll have that post on the website and everything.
And the thing is that's going to be great is there's going to be
some diversity within the types of groups that are going to be happening, all
of them that all of them are obviously you know kind of I would say
self help sort of a kind of mentality. But the whole idea is like,
yeah, we're going to have people air quotes chair the group. But
all that means is that you're for sure going to show up, that you're
for sure going to be one person that's going to be there to be present
and be sitting down for others to join you. It really like there's no
pressure about what it is. The group is what makes the group the people
who come and get involved. And that's how it is in all, you
know, in all the twelve step groups, I feel like that you usually
go, well, not all of them. Some of them are a little
bit more a little bit more structured, but for the most part, it's
the group that makes the group. You know, it has nothing to do
with the facilitator. They just say, hey, welcome, you know,
maybe hand out some stuff, make sure you start on time and close on
time, make sure the doors open. That's all that really means. Yeah,
you know, I mean it's important. It's an important role. For
sure. It's service work because if nobody steps out to do that, then
other people aren't going to show up to come. And we're gonna have a
gambling support group as well. It's not necessarily going to be a GA group,
not we're just calling it a gambling support group. Yeah. And the
woman she kind of reached out to you somehow it ended up in your voicemail
at your job and passed it along and then I said up a time to
meet with her, and I said a message, Hey, you're still meeting
and I was like, okay, well I have to go drop the car
off thanks to Bell Tire again frogging us up fixing her tire. But then
I was gonna be like a minute two minutes late. Anyway, she showed
up a little early and you were there, so you got to meet with
her and yeah, yea, so that looks like that's going to be happening
on Tuesday nights at six thirty weekly for now again in May. In May.
So very exciting stuff going on, I know what saying. Very busy,
and I know we we're doing our best to do Tuesday, Thursday,
Saturday. Obviously it's a Sunday. And you got one on Tuesday and then
on Sunday. So I don't know. I thought you did one at work.
I did on Tuesday. We didn't one from the North Mitchell and I
see, yeah, he said his friends were listening. I don't know if
that was good or bad. Now. Mitchell's Mitchell's a cool dude man.
He, like we've talked about before, has is different way into recovery.
And he had a different program he is I would say faith based. I
don't know, but he's going to start a meeting and he's excited about it
and he's getting flyers made. And first I was like, oh, because
he's going to check out a celeb at recovery, you know, And I
was like, okay, cool, you can just take people there. He's
like, no, no, I still want to do my own meeting.
I'm gonna start it, you know. And that's what's so cool about this
too, is you can start your own meeting and that's fine with us,
you know, as long as it's not too crazy. You're like, hey,
we're gonna have a meeting where we're gonna be kicking puppies across the table.
Well, let's not do that. But that's how I stayed sober.
Well, I can also land you in prison. Yeah, no, none
of that. I mean they'll be still be screened obviously, but yeah,
but as far as like, yeah, I mean everything had to start somewhere
at one time, you know, So get an idea and run with it.
Yeah, you know, if it's something that helps you, Yeah,
I'm gonna do a podcasting group. I should. You should our podcasting save
my life. It didn't. I mean it did, but it didn't.
It was one of the things. It was one of my tools. We
call it intro to podcasting. Yeah, we just talk about podcasting sober.
I don't know, it'd be a horrible podcast, but or a horrible meeting,
right, I'd make an entertaining I guarantee you that. So, yeah,
those things are happening and we're very excited about that. One of my
buddies, I haven't talked to him a long time. I reached out to
him this week and I had a horrible dream about him. I had a
dream that he was murdered and you were there with me and we were like
getting the news and it was like, oh, he was murdered and his
wife was too, and we're like, oh my gosh. Then I woke
up immediately was like oh my gosh. And I sent him a message and
I was like, hey, man, are you okay? You go it's
a crazy dream. In real life, he's not married, you know,
so that was something that was kind of weird. And he hit me back
up later and I was like, yeah, just kind of in a tough
spot right now. You know, he has a job that's pretty hectic.
So like during the day when he's at work, things are just he goes
home and it's just total opposite. You know. He's a single guy,
has a dog, but it's just different. And he told me that he's
been eating a lot more, and I can so relate to that. People
in recovery or people who aren't even in recovery, we can turn to food
and it makes us feel good. I know, man, I've been every
single day in the last two weeks. I've had ice cream Sunday with hot
fudge and caramel, and I don't know how I've only gained one pound,
Like it's crazy. Well, well here's what I'm doing. Like one day,
I think that's all I had was ice cream, and another day and
even tonight when I had pizza because I planned out eating ice cream, so
I only had like a little bit of pizza. So I'm like saving,
Oh, that's probably why I don't feel so well to schedule and your ice
cream. Yeah, oh we want the steak. M I would, but
I'm gonna have some ice cream later. No, right, it's gonna start
myself today, so I have ice cream later. I mean, that's that's
crazy, but that's food is nuts, like food, nuts is food.
But it's crazy how we can turn to that and it makes us feel better.
And I don't know if it's because the stress of getting the office set
up and getting that going. I just feel like, oh yeah, but
when I get that half a caramel turtle Sunday going, it makes me feel
good and it tastes good. You know, it stimulates the brain in that
way. So I can totally relate to what he was saying. You know,
it's like getting home and he's just like boom, walks into an empty
house and he just had this crazy, hectic day where he's talked to like
thousand people and then booming, he walks in the door, and it's just
emptying alone, you know. And he just says he feels alone sometimes and
he's like, I don't want to die alone. Man. I was like,
well, in my dream, you and your wife were murdered, so
and you were murdered together, so you're not gonna die alone. Man,
I don't know who your wife is. And you know, hopefully that prediction
doesn't come true, but yeah, but it maybe it was good. It
was a prompt for you to connect with them and for to be a listening
year, you know, which is crazy because I wanted I went back to
sleep. We kept dreaming and you were there too, and you were like
and I was trying to like break down the dream in my dream, and
you were telling me that the reason why he was murdered in your dream is
it had to be something that was so shocking that you remember to send him
a message. I was like, oh, that makes sense. That's good
job, smart dreaming. I know you're putting on the therapy therapist hat there
too in your dream. In my dream, I was like, yeah,
that makes sense. That was weird. All that ice cream I'm meeting.
Thank you's been doing funny right. Yeah. So that's pretty much what I
have with things today. I don't know if you have anything that's come across
your mind or nothing. I've been able to talk to some family members because
I got my graduation ceremony coming up this next week, the sixth. It's
not this week, is it's next week? Yeah, so two weeks from
now, and so that's kind of been good to touch base with everybody.
And you know, know that our parents are coming to support me, so
looking forward to that. And I don't know, I just I'm just trying
to get through the semester, you know that whole thing. It's like you'd
think by it like when you're my age, Like people don't know at the
end of the semester. I guess when if you're at work and you have
big projects, do you know that was like when you're just like all you
do is think about just waiting for it to be over with and like I
just want this to do. I want to check this off my list,
I want to be done with it. Or you and I have total different
workout things. Do you think so yeah, because I say one does that?
Do oh the sixth? Okay, so I start working on the fourth
or fifth. I can tell you though, I actually journaled about that because
I did develop that skill throughout my graduate school. Like I was not that
good at planning for do dates at the beginning when I first was doing it,
and I just found it easier for me to like, if it was
due in two weeks from now, then have it done a week and a
half before that. At least try to. If they're a big project,
you know, some stuff you can't help and you have to wait till something's
read or done or assigned or given to you before you can work on it.
So but I don't know. I just I've found working and hat is
easier for me than having it like loose room over me. Used to like
this date do date, eighteen page paper due, and I'm like, I
need to have ten pages done by at least a month before it's douya.
There was something funny though, a little funny story that happened the other day
with your graduating. At first, you're like all bummed out. You're like,
oh, I'm not gonna graduate with the highest honors. Yeah, yeah,
okay, some people don't even I didn't even know what that. That's
fine, No, I think it's healthy for me to talk about that.
So I man, So when I was in high school and in undergraduate,
I was big on getting good grades and that was something I had to work
hard for to get good grades, but not like obsessed with it, you
know. Um, And then that kind of it's funny because like I always
share my experience at Michigan State University is when really I kind of I feel
like my disease was actually like real reared its head. You know. That's
when I kind of recognize that I had a problem with alcohol. But anyway,
fast forward to graduate school is it's a whole different frame of mind.
It's more about learning what you learn rather than the grade you get. But
if you do the work and you're learning what you need to learn, chances
are you probably have a good grade. The point of the story is is
that there was one grade semester, this last semester that there was some confusion
about if it was what grade I was going to get and anyhow, it
all's working itself out. But Fair State University, which is the school I'm
graduating from, gives you as you walk across the stage and presents to you
your diploma, and then where you stand in your grade point average, which
was depending on what great it was going to be. It was either going
to I was gonna graduate with highest distinction or distinction of the honors college,
you know it with honors recognition, and so it was we will wobbily between
that if they in any way. And so I was really disappointed because I
was like, I know, for a fact, I'm going to my GPA
is going to be of highest honors, but it might not be printed that
way. And that pissed me off because I was like, how can how
can you give somebody credit for something or not give them credit for something that
they haven't even had a chance to prove themselves of yet. And so I
had some emails back and forth with like the dean and stuff and anyway,
and ended up working itself out. So but not before this is the funny
part of the story, yeah, is you hadn't really told mom. Now,
I had not told my mother the whole the whole confusion of the grade
and the of the semester prior, and um, it's it's irrelevant. I
mean, the point is is that it was between two grades and it was
this one project that made a difference, and it was a group project,
so that kind of sucked, and you weren't really trying to stress anybody out
over it. But then your mom came to the office and you're like,
well, yeah, I was the time I better teller. Yeah, And
it's not that your mom was going to be disappointed, but you were disappointed
that it wasn't going to be that way, and you thought, I'll tell
her, and so you do, and you you know the whole explanation,
here's what the deal is, and blah blah, blah. And then right
after, I mean, minutes after you tell her, minutes after I tell
her, get an email. Oh you're good, You're gonna graduate how you
wanted to. Yeah, so you didn't have to tell your mom that at
all. That's what was hilarious to me. I know, I know,
but that was just God's way of being like, don't be you shouldn't be
scared. You know what I mean? It is and it's and that's why
I said, I'm like, I didn't lie to you. She's like it
was it was an omission. I said, are you really mad at me
for not telling you? I was like, it's my business, like I
don't have to, but um, you know it was. It was a
learning experience too, and it actually made me step back and be like,
hold on, wait a second, like what do these? What do these?
What does this even mean? And why am I worried about what's printed
on a piece of paper that will you know, be thrown away by everybody
who looks at it. And but then again, all the time and commitment
and effort that I put into getting this degree, and definitely you know that
that piece I think is why it upset me so much. But you know
it was. It was kind of it was entertaining, It was funny how
it all worked out. It was hilarious. Yeah. So it was like
because I feel like I was holding a secret too. Yeah yeah, yeah,
not that I don't know it just it made me relieved that you told
her, and then it was relieved that you are pradureing how you wanted so
people like me just to hear the graduate word would have been like, sweet,
here's your certificate, mister Winfield. Thanks. I don't even need that.
I'm good. I know you thought my college career was kind of funny
and the joke, and it kind of was. But that's okay. I
learned the things I wanted to. I think that's good for the most part.
But now I have some artwork to do. Yes, you do,
And I did take a third of a semester of art. Was the last
semester. Yes, yeah, so I feel like I'm prepared. If I
can only remember chalk or ink or whatever watercolor is. When I'm supposed to
put down first fifty seven by something, it's big, seven by eighty three
maybe yeah, yeah, yeah, it's big, and it'll be something,
all right, it'll be at the office one day, so you can come
see it if you like. Awesome, perfect, Well, thanks for listening.
Um, we're gonna have all that stuff what we're talking about earlier,
like our meeting schedules and stuff like that. That's also going to be on
the app as well. Awesome. Make sure you get the app and you
can listen to all the podcasts. And I think it was a couple of
podcasts that go I was like, go back and listen to the first one.
Don't They're horrible. I tried to listen to them, but there is
one of those early ones where I do talk about I'm going to have a
studio and my microphones and and you hear the guys laugh, okay, Georg,
so I guess that's me laughing. Now, don't let anybody knock your
dreams because they don't understand them. You know, they're your dreams, and
I don't know, you're the only one that can make them come true or
make them mind come true. So absolutely keep working hard and stay sober,
and you can accomplish everything anything you want, really, anythink and everything.
This song. Thanks for listening, and we'll be back on Tuesday, if
not sooner. Yeah. Thanks everybody, hope we had a good weekend.
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