There are so many things going on in the world, so many things that's
almost hard to choose from. There's just so much stuff, and much of
it affects me and I hear about it, or if it actually affects me
actually personally or really affects me in the moment. Stuff. It is crazy,
and it is by the middle of all that because of outside stuff.
It's also your regular emotions that are going through and that everybody else is also
feeling a lot of different things and everybody else is being affected. It's like
you're not alone crazy. Welcome to fifty plus. I'm James Jr. Another
set of my musings being my fifties. I turned fifty four this week,
so that's very interesting to have that that's coming up. Basically fifty plus,
I'm really heading towards legal senior citizen a h bottom of the year. It's
kind of funny, and it's this whole thing about being for me. Someone
asked me a question. You say, you feel lonely or you feel alone,
and what do you feel the difference between a two for yourself, for
me myself or that means because you're surrounded by some stuff. So here's the
thing. So I have learned the last couple of years, you could be
surrounded by a million people and feel alone. You feel like you're on top
of the world in some ways, and then you feel lonely in other ways.
It happened. Personal life sucks, professional life wonderful that happens to you
this day. Both things can happen. It's very interesting. I never knew
that until as I gotten older that can happen. Once I got into public
eye, I didn't know that either that it can happen. You can be
surrounded by all these people. You have all these I have all these followers
and fans and everything, and you can still feel lonely or alone. Now
I'm not officially alone because I have lots of people in my life and I
live with my brother and all kind of stuff, so I'm not alone,
but I do feel lonely at times. And it's not in lack of friendships
or anything like that. I have all that I was caregiving my mother,
so I'm not like I'm not doing nothing, but I'm lonely for certain types
of attention and affection that I have not had in years. And much us
to do of a pandemic that happens and everything now, so you get a
little older, and a lot of people who are old rest by fifty plus.
I'm bringing this up to be one or the other. There are a
lot of folks who are in their fifties and sixteen, seventies and eighties who
actually have lots of family. I surrounded by kids and grandkids, but they
may not have a partner or someone really special or someone actually hangs out with
them. Your holidays comes around, we love your grandma and grandpa, but
the rest of the year it's crickets. Then there's people who actually are alone.
They don't really have very many people. They don't have any friends.
They have some family, but no friends, and they don't do anything.
They feel alone and sometimes and lonely at the same time. But for me,
I have tons of I have more friends I can even shake stick at
which I'm very grateful for him, and more family and shas I have more
family, that's even I even want un as I was there. But for
that, for me, a lot of times is that that affection that one
person can give you somebody, it's a different kind of attention, different kind
of situation, um, romantic love, all that stuff. I've just sex
all that stuff which I don't have. And it's funny because I'm meeting people
who are all taken. They're they're all taken in some form, who find
me winsome or attractive or whatever. And I'll tell you something. It's for
the ego at first, and for the attention. It's nice. After a
while, it's still empty because they have somebody they go home to or in
their lives, and my bed is still empty. I'm still by myself,
and that's part is tough, and it's tough to say it out loud to
you for a lot of people, because you for men to say that out
loud. But I'll probably been talking about my feelings for years. I don't
really care if people will think it's crazy or weird. But I always wanted
feelings because I know there are folks that the who feel the same way.
So you're not alone. You're not alone at all, and that in that
sense maybe lonely, But I don't feels anybody says I'm you, so caress
bag yourself and that other I it will take a very special person to come
into my life because I don't go out to bars, I don't do all
these major things. I work from home, I'm doing a lot of stuff.
I'm here in my own, my house, my world, and in
la is just really tough. Everyone's in their own orbits and they're feeling their
stuff too. And to find somebody actually being carried a conversation with I want
to hang out with right a length of time. It's tough. And I'm
a bit pepper too either, So I mean they someboably think I'm too this
or two that, or two perky or two this or two stubborn. I
mean, who knows. Let me me go small dos to James is fine
with them, but they don't want James every day, so it goes.
It goes both ways. So to find somebody that it connects you. Now,
I've emotionally connected to certain people in my life I have and it's really
close and it's fine. It works sometimes it helps abate the loneliness a little
bit, but it's not. I don't have a person of my own,
and so that's something that I don't know if I get older, if I
would get one, And that's something that I've had to face. Also,
I've had to face some really strong things that you know, on the show
with my family and friends. And that's something that I seriously I've just decided,
I'm you know, this could be something that I may never find anybody,
this could be in and whatever it is I mean, I mean obviously
a perfect my professional life will go on fine and I'll have great success and
all that kind of stuff there, I'm not worried about that. And my
kids and grandkids I love them now going on too. That's something I have
to think about because I'm not some young spring chicken running around and a sea
of people where I go. I had somebody every week basically, so to
speak. When you get older, it thins out a bit and we have
a lot more issues that are different health lines and stuff that we don't have
when you're younger, and sometimes we're setting our ways. As you get older,
you get setting your ways. I know that I know what I want,
thank God I worked all that out. I know what I want,
to know what I like, I know what kind of person I want,
what kind of person I like. Luckily, I'm very die first in terms
of looks and style, but in terms of basic qualities. I know what
I want and what makes me happy, what won't make me happy, which
is good for everybody. Everybody should know that, at least to me,
like said, looks wise, it canna be whatever, um, But when
it comes to core values and things and style, it's you should know what
you want, um, and so that everybody's good and clear and it's it's
fine. So I am. But as my birthday approaches, it's just something
I get more introspective, just thinking this is really interesting. I'm like,
I'm at this age. I never I thought i'd be alone. I thought
I was gonna have well a personal I was with the I thought it was
gonna be still with them, and that didn't happen. I thought I was
done. I thought, was that feeling when I thought I found this person,
I'm off the market? How to worry about anymore? It felt good
and everything, and then it fell apart later. But that's really funny.
I was just like, Okay, I guess that's happening to me, things
happening outside of control. I just try to make a basket and I couldn't.
I missed it as life, right, But I've been enjoying on some
level. It sounds weird, but I'm kind of enjoying sharing my journey with
you here on this show, like all my other shows too, but on
fifty plus, I created the show for the older person. I wasn't sure
where I was going to go. I do have. I actually wrote a
show called fifty plus we do featuring older people, And right now I'm on
solidarity with the WGA, so I'm not running anything right now until they finished
striking. But I also um they're doing some skids on other conversations people in
their fifties. I have a whole idea about the show that I'm going to
keep continuing to do this year, and I continue to talk about it.
I think you know, as we get older, we are not invisible.
You're not gonna erase us, and our lives aren't over. There's so much
to do. If anything, I'm an example of that very least. We
have energy and vitality, and we have things to say and things to produce
and lives to live. So we're gonna continue the net. But thank you
so much for listening to me watching the show. And I'm James Agen,
of course, and I will talk to you next time. On another addition
of fifty plus