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Hi everyone. This is Christina,
and this is MJ and also Carmen.

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Yes, this is a book Club
episode where finally recording the episode on the

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Hunting of Alejandra. Yes, it
took us six months, me six months

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to read a less than three hundred
It's less than three hundred pages, isn't

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it. It's like two hundred fifty
two or something. I believe it is.

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Yeah, but you have to also
like count the rest of the pages

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at the end, two fifty four
and the epilogue. Okay, okay,

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yeah, that is how long it
took us. Me I finished way after

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everyone. Was it really six months? Were you exaggerating? Didn't we start

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reading as like in January or December? No? No, no, no,

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no, no, I think we
started reading. I'm like, it

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could possibly be six months. So
it was at three months maybe, Okay,

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so yeah, that makes more sense. Anyway, I just felt like

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very long that there was a moment
where I accidentally just forgot to keep listening.

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You know, It's a good thing
because I'm saying that a lot of

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people still haven't been able to get
it from their library. That's true,

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and so like popular Yeah, I
almost because the Vampires of the North just

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came out. I'm like, I
almost really just like really want to do

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that one, but we could do
this Silver Night Trade first. By the

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time we finish reading it, like, it doesn't matter when it comes out.

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That's true, You're right. I
just want to start reading the other

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one because I just got my I
pre ordered it on audible and it's available

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now, so but I haven't saw
I'm going to read the other one,

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Silver Night Trade is, aren't I? Yes? But yeah, let's talk

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about this book first. Just still
warning for this episode. This is gonna

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be like a very free flow our
thoughts of the book, and then a

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discussion at the end. I didn't
write an outlined plot by plot walk through

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because I'm like, man, these
take really long. They do though,

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yeah, and it's a book,
so it's even longer. So like I

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just struggle with what to cut out
and I leave too much of detail and

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then I'm like, this is ten
pages. So yeah, I did a

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very short, very short one.
So before we start, I do want

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to give a huge sugar warning for
this book. If you've already read it

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with us, then you know that
this book require requires a huge as sugar

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few trigger warnings. So yeah,
did y'all cry? Yeah? Yeah,

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okay, yeah yeah, but I
the sugar warnings. I'm gonna give suicidal

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ideation, depression, intrusive thoughts,
gaslighting. Would you add anything else?

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Emotional abuse? M yeah, let
me see what else? Is there was

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something else? Is there an abortion
or miscarriage? Yes, there is,

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there is there? Okay that too? So yeah, those are the trigger

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warnings for the book. If you
haven't read it, if you already read

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it, then you know and you
suffered and you were bad with us.

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So I'm gonna give a first a
spoiler free summary. Carmen, who's so

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kind enough to write this for me, gotcha? But Alejandra is a stay

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at home mother struggles with the darkness
that only she can see and that threatens

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to consume her. During her darkest
times, a crying woman in white appears

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to her. With no support from
her husband, Alejandra seeks help and start

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seeing a therapist, where she begins
exploring her family history. She soon learns

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that her maternal ancestors also saw the
woman in white, Layarona. She also

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learns that Layrona will not leave her
alone until Alejandra follows La Na into the

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Darkness and that's spoiler free. I
think, yeah, yeah, everything's in

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there, and from now on we
are gonna include spoilers. So if you

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haven't read it, then why are
you listening unless you love spoilers. I

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love I have to watch her before. I'm like, hmm, should I

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even bother with this movie? Let
me see it? Yeah, yeah,

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I will do the same thing.
So so just to go on a quick

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side track, you know how we
laugh about me being diagnosed with ADHD because

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you haven't. Yeah, And okay, so I think my friends are like

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neurotypical or something not to say because
obviously I'm not diagnosed, but whatever,

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but I am and I am your
regenical twin and our DNA is the same.

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So yeah, we're watching this show, which was really good, by

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the way, it's a book series. What was the show called? What

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Show Love Us? It's on Apple
that Oh my god, it was so

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good. But I kept begging them
to tell me what happens, and they

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would not, and I was like, man, if this was if Christina

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was here, if she would tell
me what happens. And I was like,

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you guys don't understand, Like I
need to know. I know,

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and then like they like, we're
still gonna watch it, just tell me

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please. Yeah, I can't be
I cannot be at peace until I know

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if the question is burning, I'm
gonna find out. I cannot wait terrible

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And I'm like, damn, I
just how normal people watch shit? Yeah,

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Carmen, it is normal. People
don't sit there looking for all the

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spoilers. That's that's what I do
too, And like I'm on the phone

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look for spoilers. I'm watching like
I'm something. I got another episode.

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I contained myself while I was sitting
there, And then they're like, Carmen,

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you better not look at it than
up when you go to bed.

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And what did I do? The
minute? I was like silo, Reddit,

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that's what I think you read it. I'm like, how does this

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end? Reddit? What does this
mean? Red? Yeah? Yeah,

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nobody does that. Yeah apparently not
except people like us to know. Yeah.

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Yeah, here for the cheesement,
but like the next level. Okay,

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so yeah, now we're gonna get
into spoiler, the spoiler version of

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this book clip episode. There was
something I was going to say before that,

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What the hell was it? Wow? I've forgotten. Anyway, I'll

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go through the beginning of this though. So we started with Alejandra. She's

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in the bathroom and this fucking scene. I was like, this is triggering

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right off the battle book. We're
starting like this, really, we're starting

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strong already. Yeah. So she's
in the bathroom, she's trying to she's

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in the shower actually, and she's
bleeding from her period. There's knocking at

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the door, and she's like,
oh my god, I just want like

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a moment to myself, like why
can't I just shower? Oh? I

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know that feeling. Oh yeah.
I was like, oh, this is

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too relatable. And then she right
off the bat, like page one or

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two, we start with like the
suicidal ideation thoughts. Right while she's in

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there, do you think she sees
like a silhouette with the torn dressed But

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she's like maybe it's just a towel, And then a voice is you want

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to end it, don't you?
Then she's she's brought out of that moment

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because then we hear her stupid husband
Matthew say, who looks for dinner?

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That's exactly how I imagine he said. It's like, oh my god,

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should I become a voice actor?
I know that last time we did a

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book Club episode. We had the
same thoughts about you becoming a voice actor,

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and really this moment just cemented he
almost choked on my water. I'm

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sorry, there's someone serious. We're
terrible. It's fine though. Yeah.

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Everyone that loves as we can tell
us well love this episode and everyone that

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hates all the laughing and it's like, fuck, these girls get it's fine

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anyway. That's literally his first words. And I was like, wow,

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like right off the bay, we
knew we hated him. Yeah, seriously,

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red flag. And so she's been
in the shower for twenty minutes and

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like she's who, why why don't
he start dinner himself? M that's my

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question. So she's clearly struggling,
So she she leaves the shower and then

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once you know, she gets down, she starts walking down She immediately starts

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hearing like my mom, mom,
mom, and she's like when will that's

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stop? And I was like damn. And as she's walking downstairs, she

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doesn't even get downstairs yet, and
she's she's having more intrusive suicidal thoughts,

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like as she's walking down like obviously
she needs help, right, yeah,

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And she's again pulled out of these
thoughts by the kids that are arguing,

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and then Matthew just like I picture
Matthew sitting on the on the table scrolling

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on his phone. The three kids
are like like literally bitting each other up

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on the kitchen floor, and he's
like stop stop, no, please stop,

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like not even looking at them,
just scrolling on it. That's what

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I imagine him doing. Yeah,
for sure, it was. And we

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learned that this is a new house
for her. They've only been there for

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the whole family. They've only been
there three weeks. They just left Texas

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and they only left because Matthew got
a promotion. And she's thinking about this

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how like you know, it's all
new, and she missus Texas and she's

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on the verge of tears. And
like if you're like walking through your day,

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you know, the verge of tears, like it's rough. Yeah,

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And any not sane person, but
any caring person would see somebody on the

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verge of tears and be like,
hey, what's wrong? But exactly,

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but some people don't see. Yeah, they see that they don't care.

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Yeah, or it's like they don't
care. They care so little that they

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don't even register it, like yeah, they just yeah, it's like invisible,

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like it just doesn't matter. And
that's what Matthew does because like she

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yeah, she's having these thoughts,
she's on the ridge of tears. She

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like takes a deep breath, walks
into the kitchen and like Matthew doesn't say

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any like I think you can tell
when someone was literally on the ridge of

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tears. And so she walked into
the into the kitchen. Someone would say

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like, oh you okay, what's
wrong? Do you need help? And

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the first thing he says, it's
funnily you're here. They're all great.

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I would have lost my ship,
like uh no, and I don't believe

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in abusing your partners, but in
that moment that I would have decked,

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I would face, I would have
thrown hands, were like, bitch,

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you're here. I would It's a
quick little throat punch. They were like

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x raun hinges in this episode,
Oh my god, I think he's kids.

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It's really earlier than we've ever recorded. Yeah, yeah, I think

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a little delution. I only had
one cup of coffee and I haven't had

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my med so damn. So he
and she does tell him, She tells

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him like, oh, well,
you could have started dinner, and then

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he tells her, well, I
don't know what you have planned for dinner.

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You do all the grocery shopping.
It's your job, Like, bitch,

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give him P B and J sandwiches, Like who gives a shit?

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Like come on, mmm, like
any snack to appease them, Like,

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yeah, anything would have done.
Open the fridge and see what can I

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make a lot of this? Yeah, there's corn, dogs, microwaves.

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And the worst thing is that she
had a labeled bag of chicken already and

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veggies that were already cut up,
like it was already ready in a bag,

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Like he could have opened the fridge
and just saw that, like or

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seen it, you know. And
so like when when he says that,

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and she's just like thinking to herself, like this is what he wanted.

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This is his dream, not mine. She thinks about the time she told

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him that she often thinks about death
and that he told her there's no reason

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for her to feel that way because
she has it all Like well, other

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people who could only dream of she
has it, and so like she just

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needs to be happy. Excuse me, you know, it's like that what's

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it called that? That that sound
on TikTok risk, Like, I don't

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understand why that he Yeah, I
killed the man and he walked, and

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I don't understand why he couldn't.
People are saying that he couldn't walk.

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He walked, just fine. It's
like that would have been me. That

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would have been me. Yeah,
because wow, if someone says that to

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you, that's you need to stop
what you're doing. You need to go

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to the doctor, you need to
change. Yeah, because obviously they're not

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supported that. Right. What is
it called weaponized incompetence or whatever it's called.

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Now, Matthew is the definition.
Yeah, yeah, underneath that,

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it's Matthew from the Yeah. Yeah, well I was gonna mention, but

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I've mentioned it once. We're discussing
the book a little bit more there because

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there was critique about Matthew's character.
Say that right now, Okay, well

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we'll save it for us after this. As she's thinking that, she like

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pulls all the stuff out to cook
dinner and it's ready in an hour or

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whatever, and like once they're sitting
down and eating the tension at the table

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and saying, like you could cut
a knife through it, as they say,

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yeah, as they say, I
would have looked him dead in the

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eye while I was like cutting my
whatever, my piece of chicken with my

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knife, be like listen, yeah, I would have actually made a play

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for everyone but him. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. You know,

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I'm not gonna like, I'm not
gonna yell, I'm not gonna scream,

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I'm gonna argue in front of the
children. I'm just not gonna give you

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your fucking food like will or I'm
gonna make actually make the exact amount where

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there's not even enough for him to
make his own play, like yeah.

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And as she's thinking about they're at
the table and she's thinking about the moment

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from earlier where he told her that
she should just be happy, he interrupts

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her because she looks upset, like
why do you look so upset? You're

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always upset? Like what do you
Yeah, and he again says the same

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thing, just be happy. Just
let people feel their feelings, man,

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Like, Yeah, you don't have
to be happy all the time. You

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can It's okay, you're not.
It's not not really impossible to be happy

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at the time. It's perfectly normal. Yeah. I think once people realize

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like happiness is just something that sometimes
happens, you can be content and that

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sometimes happens. Yeah, they come
and go. Yeah I think it.

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It took me like years to realize
that, but yeah, it's very true.

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And he tells her that she chooses
to be miserable, which then reminds

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her of her adoptive family. Don't
even get me started on them. Yes,

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when we can get started on them, we can do it now because

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we will learn later in the book
that they're abusive. We can save it

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till then. Okay, if you
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I did not write up to them, so okay, let's fine, just

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go on. Okay, So we
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the next morning, right, crying
kids, terrible morning. We get more

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thoughts of like she's like driving them
to school or something, or she's picking

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them up. I don't remember she's
driving. Yeah, I think we get

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both almost back to back, so
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she's driving. Their arguing in the
back, and she's like, maybe I

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should just keep driving into our river
at night without them. They won't know

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I'm gone. And they're crying,
the arguing, the asking for me.

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It'll just it'll be gone. It'll
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and oh, I was just like, oh my god, this book it

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was it was rough. And then
she we learned a little bit more about

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her, like she did have a
job before they moved, she was in

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data entry, but like after the
third kid, it just made more sense

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for her to stay home, even
though she wanted to work. And how

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many people are in this position,
like, yeah, yes, and it's

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so hard because she's she pretty much
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and you know, she didn't really
have one, but just because she didn't

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have one didn't mean that she wanted
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And I'm sure we'll get more into
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later, but I thought that was
interesting. Basically she molded herself to be

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the person that Matthew would like instead
of being herself from the beginning and kind

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of set herself up in a way. But not to blame her for the

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situation she's in, but I think
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her about, like about having accountability
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your own decisions. Yeah, it
doesn't have to be this way, even

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though it has been this way,
like it can change. Yeah, And

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like reading the book, you get
why it happens, you get why she

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why she did this because of the
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She just needed to escape. She
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because I mean, as you're growing, you're always changing, right, You're

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not who you were ten twenty years. You're making You're developing your own sense

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of identity. And I think,
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are like, oh, when you're
in high SCHOOL'M like, no, no,

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you're still baby. Then you form
who you are in your twenties early

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thirties. I feel like I'm forming
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too. Yeah, Like twenties and
thirties is like the moment that you become

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who you are as an adult.
Yeah, And I think that when you

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have a traumatic past and childhood and
experiences like that, those moments you there,

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I think they're going to take longer
to come. And instead of I

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don't know, instead of she because
she was trying to find a way out

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of her home situation and the safest
and what looked like the best option was

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Matthew. So you can see how
her minded it was safe and it makes

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sense. But then she's you know, she's trapped, but well, let

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me finish what I wrote because it's
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So going back to her driving and
thinking right as she's she's going through

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her in her head about how she
didn't even want to move, she wanted

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to keep working, she didn't even
want to stop working. She's thinking all

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of this and the message from Matthew
comes in about how he's going to be

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late, and then she's like,
are you serious. He's been gone,

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he's gonna be he's gonna be gone. He's been gone, He's already gonna

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be late, like he's never there, and even when he is there,

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he doesn't help. But like maybe
she could, I don't know, have

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a moment herself if there's another adult
there. Right, But now he's going

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to be late, and so she's
not paying attention because she's thinking all the

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stuff, and she hits the car
behind her or in front of her,

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like rear ends the car in front
of her, and because she'd been so

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distracted. And then she's like,
great, this is another thing that I'm

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going to have to explain to Matthew, like why even happened? And then

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she's thinking to herself like why am
I so bad at this? Like this?

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She she keeps thinking like motherhood,
living like this, this life,

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it should be easy, it should
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so hard for me. Why is
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Because I suck, because I'm the
worst? That negative self talk on a

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loop? Yeah yeah, that made
me cry? Yes, that did?

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It was it was right? Yeah? Yeah, I don't know who hasn't

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had those thoughts, you know.
I think people with depression have those thoughts,

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people like my friends about with the
show again, yeah, or when

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you have untreated mental diagnosis, Is
that you didn't know about that could cause

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depression because you had no idea?
Yeah, because you weren't you didn't know

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how to manage your life because you
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of managing your life. Yeah exactly. Yeah. But yeah, once she

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said that, I was like,
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rough to see because she's like there's
this new term that I've started seen popping

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up, but single married momsy,
Yes, when she's a single married mom,

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she's she's doing all the work of
a single parent, but she's technically

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married however. But it's like it's
it's what's the point, what's the point?

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not there, if he's not helping

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you with the kids, whether it
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because like I know, most of
the moms carried the emotional weight of the

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family. Like, not only do
you have to handle your emotions, you

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have to handle your mental load,
yeah, the mental load. Yeah.

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or your your spouse, it doesn't have

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to be a man. But like
your spouse is not helping you, you're

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you're pretty much a single parent even
though you're married. But you're a single

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parent. You're doing everything. It's
even worse because when you're like, say

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you're divorced, because you don't know
when through all the ship and you have

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some nice to yourself because you're sharing
custody. You don't have that as a

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single married parent, don't. You
don't. And it's like it's like,

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be you're not alone, but you're
the loneliest you've ever been. Yep,

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yeah, yeah, I felt for
her. It was yeah, yeah,

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it's I'm telling you this would Yeah, it's just makes it makes me so

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frustrated. I was so mad.
I wanted to jump in there and just

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throw hands with it's just fucking punch
him in the throat. And as she's

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leaving this accident scene, she sees
the woman from the shower again. She

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thinks she does, but then she
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They get home, it's the same
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Katrina, so she asked for like
a bedtime story, and this she

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tells her the story of Layrona,
and she's like something, I think seeing

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the woman in white that she thinks
she's been seeing but she's not sure maybe

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like inspired her to tell her the
story of La Rona. But then like

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a little Katrina is like scared.
But it turns out that she's been seeing

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this woman yea, which I'm skipping
a lot because I think we learn that

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a little bit later, but like
in between, I think there's a point

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where Alejandra realizes, like I really
need help like like I really actually need

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to seek help, and she goes
and she finds Melanie Melanie, and I

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love Melanie. I mean too.
I'm like I was like, how do

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I find a therapist? Slash heler
like, hey, yeah, how do

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I find a Melanie? But yeah, Melanie is the therapist that she finds.

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But she's also so she's like very
open to like she understands the cultural

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background the Alejandra comes from because was
adopted it into white a white Christian family,

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and Alejandra her background everyone is Mexican, but I don't think she knows

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much about them until she does,
like an ancestry test, you know,

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finds her birth mom that way.
M hmmm. Before they left Texas to

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go to Philadelphia, she had just
started reconnecting with her mom. Another reason

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she didn't want to leave, finding
that community that she longed for for so

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long. Because on top of like
being a single not yeah, I was

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gonna say a single mom, single
man, but yeah, on top of

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being you know, a new parent
with that many kids, a newborn or

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yeah, the baby's like not even
a year old, right, I don't

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I don't remember how old he is, but he's little, yeah, or

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she's sorry, the baby nine months
or something. Yeah, yeah, it's

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like it's a little baby. Then
Katrina's like in her close to tween,

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right yeah, and then the other
one is in between. But like three

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kids, there's a new like a
new baby in the mix. She just

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finally got the community she's so longed
for because she was adopted and she already

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felt like she was missing a part
of her. She finally finds her and

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like you know, some some adoptive
people, it takes longer to connect like

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that with a parent, but she
she was like a little reserve, but

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almost all in right away. She
was very happy to find her mom,

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and then that gets taken from her. But then she's also in this new

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place and she doesn't want to tell
her mom, her bio mom, you

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know what's going on with her,
because she's like, I just met her.

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I don't want to scare off.
She can't talk to anyone about the

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thought she's having either, So it's
it's just like a it's a terrible it's

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a terrible situation. And to me, I don't know, but like I'm

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speculating that Matthew didn't like the fact
that she had someone else in her corner,

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and it almost and it almost felt
like his move to Philadelphia with something

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like for what does it about familial? Yeah yeah, yeah, I think

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if it wasn't it worked out that
way anyway for him, for him,

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for him specifically, because there's a
part where she tells Matthew she learned about

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her mom and she's going to meet
with her, and he's like, why

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we're all the family you need?
Yeah, I need to not make it

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voice, but that's what it came
off as to me, like he was

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like I selating her so he could
further control her. Oh that's what I

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was gonna say. Yeah. So
it goes beyond like weaponized incompetence and she's

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being like a useless man. He's
like an abusive, controlling man. Yes,

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m but tries to not come out
off that way. Yeah, like

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covert abuse yeah, uh huh.
Yeah. So where it took her so

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long to realize what it was because
she was in such a dark place.

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But once she starts going to see
Melanie, she starts seeing like, yeah,

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I don't need this, this is
I can change my future. I

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don't have I have ag yeah yeah
yeah, And and it's scary because she

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had not been working for so long, but yeah, the going through the

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therapy and then oh, another thing
that was like different about like Melanie is

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that she tells her about, you
know, the figure she's been seeing,

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because there's at one point there's no
denying that this figure is actually something that's

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hunting Alejandra. It's like she sees
it here and there, but then she

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sees it in the backyard or something. Yeah, and she and the therapist

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office that one point, yeah,
but isn't at the moment she sees it

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and like the kids closet. But
then she's like, I need to tell

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Melanie about this, yeah, because
she feels like it's escalating, and yeah,

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Katrina's closets because she's the one that
sees her. Yeah, Katrina tells

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her she still saw it too,
and that's when she's like, I'm needs

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to tell Melanie and instead of just
missing her or anything, because Melanie understands

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this cultural background and because she's like, yeah, I believe you. This

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is not just your like trauma.
This is like the hunting, this is

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this is something else. And they
look into it and they're like, oh,

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let's yes, but like I think
we skipped a part where we go

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back to her first ancestor that made
the fact of this thing. Yes,

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we do, Yeah, because the
book goes back and forth, and so

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as Alejandra has seen it, we
see snip it of what it actually is.

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But Alejandra obviously doesn't she didn't fully
comprehend. Yeah, but we do

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get a more info. I think
it's like as early as it's early on.

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Isn't it after her like first bake
Drone? Yeah, the second Chester,

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isn't it. I want to say
it was the second, but I

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can't even find it right now.
Yeah, Yeah, it's on. It

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starts on page thirty four mm hm. And it's Mexico, fifteen twenty two.

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Yeah. And the ancestor was at
sim At. This part was wild

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too, the whole mindel That's why
I finished his damn Books of Fasca.

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I couldn't stop reading. And I
like how the author did that whole thing

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that this creature was from like another
dimension or universe, that when this universe

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or dimension formed, it like it
was like pushed into it and stuff.

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Yes, so I thought that was
really cool. It takes place in fifteen

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twenty two in Mexico and her and
Tire village and people are being what is

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it called, colonization is happening.
Yeah, yeah, colonization is happening,

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and she has to stay behind as
her sister, her baby, and her

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father escape. The chapter was amazing, but it was also very rough.

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Yeah. Yes, because then she's
then becomes like a I want to say,

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like a like a slave to I
think, and slaved to one of

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the colonizers I forgot his name,
Sebastian. Sebastian, Yeah, and Sebastian

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is married and all this stuff,
but he's still like abusing at sea,

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like sexually, and she becomes pregnant
with Sebastian's baby. Yes, and this

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is where this creature thing, I
don't know what to call it. It

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comes off as a vampire but also
as a cool like the way the description

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is like of a ghoul, like
you know, it's like almost skeletal and

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has like the skin really forming the
shape of the ghoul. But then the

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way it like feasts on things,
it's almost vampiric and the way it feasts

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on negative energy. So I don't
know what to call it. Welcome to

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421
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Fuck it's a combination between like a
vampire a demandor and Colin Colin. Oh

422
00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:55,359
yeah, oh sorry I met Colin. Are we doing the shadow? Yeah?

423
00:31:55,400 --> 00:32:00,880
But like if there was a scale
like what I don't see, Okay,

424
00:32:00,880 --> 00:32:04,119
he could because he's like an energy
vampire. Yeah, and she is

425
00:32:04,279 --> 00:32:08,039
too, and feed off it's not
yeah, it's not energy, but it's

426
00:32:08,039 --> 00:32:14,039
like negativity. Yes, the emotional
vampire in what we do in the Shadows.

427
00:32:14,079 --> 00:32:19,319
That is Colin's girlfriend at one point. That is who Yeah. Yeah,

428
00:32:19,359 --> 00:32:23,279
I was gonna say like almost like
uh, what is that legend?

429
00:32:24,559 --> 00:32:30,400
Oh my god, she's in the
trees and shit and she's like snake ish.

430
00:32:30,440 --> 00:32:35,359
She was in one of Syria's books
and we've done an episode on her

431
00:32:35,400 --> 00:32:46,480
and they cannot remember her name.
Oh yeah. By I feel like it

432
00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:52,000
was like at that took me a
many Yeah, I know, I was

433
00:32:52,039 --> 00:32:53,799
completely drying to blank. I feel
like it's a mixture of that and like

434
00:32:53,839 --> 00:33:00,720
a witch like like yeah, it's
like almost I guess that that too.

435
00:33:00,839 --> 00:33:06,920
That too. It was like I
can't say it, how it how it

436
00:33:07,039 --> 00:33:13,920
feasts on like feast on babies,
babies. Yeah. Yeah, And I

437
00:33:13,960 --> 00:33:17,880
do like the ending of this chapter
because I was like really happy the way

438
00:33:19,839 --> 00:33:22,519
Subastian. I was like getting them
get up. I was like, you

439
00:33:22,519 --> 00:33:25,359
want to go through it, one
of you? What happens to him?

440
00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:28,960
Oh? Hold on. It was
just all you're probably on the page,

441
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:32,440
right, and I'm not on the
page. You were still on it.

442
00:33:34,519 --> 00:33:38,240
Say that this is like basic,
especially we're seeing the creation of this thing.

443
00:33:38,319 --> 00:33:43,119
Yeah, yeah, the creation and
it morphs into what we know as

444
00:33:43,200 --> 00:33:46,000
Laurona. And I just thought that
was beautiful because you see her name or

445
00:33:46,119 --> 00:33:52,200
the because I feel like Eatsy herself
is Laurona and it takes her form her.

446
00:33:52,440 --> 00:33:57,359
Yeah yeah, and then like yeah, okay, so before his end,

447
00:33:57,480 --> 00:34:01,799
I do remember that at Sea was
I don't know what happened to her,

448
00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:07,440
but she was like wishing for death
or something or for her the baby

449
00:34:07,519 --> 00:34:10,000
inside her to be killed, and
then this thing like hurt her or like

450
00:34:10,079 --> 00:34:15,119
felt her, yes, felt her
please, and was like because the baby

451
00:34:15,159 --> 00:34:20,119
in her is as a result of
Sebastian assaulting her, right, yes,

452
00:34:20,239 --> 00:34:24,800
yes, And she was like she
didn't want it, and she also didn't

453
00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:29,199
almost like gave up on life,
and she was like making a pact with

454
00:34:29,280 --> 00:34:39,280
this thing, and the pact was
made and this thing took the baby out

455
00:34:39,280 --> 00:34:44,840
of her and ate it. Yeah, I think so, yeah, because

456
00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:47,280
I so. To anyone else,
it looks like a mother killing her child,

457
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:52,320
like, but really, what is
happening is that a horrible situation and

458
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:57,880
she needed out, she needed out. Yeah, and so it's like a

459
00:34:58,119 --> 00:35:01,480
like a yeah, I mean a
rewriting of like yes, yeah. But

460
00:35:01,559 --> 00:35:06,880
in the pact. One of the
deals in the pact was that this thing

461
00:35:07,039 --> 00:35:15,440
had to go after Sebastian two and
and she yeah, and she And at

462
00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:22,239
this time Sebastian had moved his wife
and his child from Spain. Yeah.

463
00:35:22,360 --> 00:35:28,519
I don't remember how old his child
was. M I don't remember either.

464
00:35:29,199 --> 00:35:32,159
It was like it was either a
baby or a oh his two Okay,

465
00:35:32,360 --> 00:35:37,000
I'm on page forty two, and
it says, with an oil lamp hand

466
00:35:37,079 --> 00:35:38,719
taken from the front of the house, he crept towards the room where his

467
00:35:38,840 --> 00:35:45,840
two children slept, two kids that
he had with his wife, and he

468
00:35:45,960 --> 00:35:51,400
like goes throughout his house and he
discovers one by one that his family has

469
00:35:51,480 --> 00:35:58,199
been murdered by this thing. He
thinks, I think he thinks it's one

470
00:35:58,239 --> 00:36:01,559
of the It doesn't I don't think
it says who he thinks it is.

471
00:36:01,679 --> 00:36:07,559
But he's someone someone indigenous. Yes, yes, yes, but he doesn't

472
00:36:07,599 --> 00:36:12,079
have like a thing. And then
he's on page forty three revenge she would

473
00:36:12,119 --> 00:36:15,679
have to wait. So that's what's
going on in his head. He's he's

474
00:36:15,719 --> 00:36:21,440
like contemplating revenge to whoever, whoever
did this, Okay says before he takes

475
00:36:21,480 --> 00:36:24,320
another step to door slump behind him. He turned around and a slashing pain

476
00:36:24,440 --> 00:36:29,400
seared his hand, causing him to
drop the lamp. And this is at

477
00:36:29,400 --> 00:36:36,719
the time where the creature starts attacking
him, and it says his peripheral vision,

478
00:36:36,760 --> 00:36:40,079
he saw a figure standing outside.
It was an indigenous woman. She

479
00:36:40,199 --> 00:36:45,159
stood with her clothing and hair dripping
with water and a large grin on her

480
00:36:45,159 --> 00:36:49,119
lips. Her entire body had the
luminosity of the moon. Her eyes met

481
00:36:49,159 --> 00:36:52,719
his, reflecting his cruelty back to
him. Then she walked away and with

482
00:36:52,840 --> 00:36:57,679
the shirt steps before he could screw
his neck farther from the darkness to follow

483
00:36:57,840 --> 00:37:01,000
her. With her eyes, a
shadow emerged from behind the door, and

484
00:37:01,239 --> 00:37:05,559
in its hands it held his horsewhip. Oh, which I think he used

485
00:37:05,559 --> 00:37:12,280
the horsewhip to like beat the the
indigenous people they enslaved. Yes, so

486
00:37:12,320 --> 00:37:15,119
the creature was like, Oh,
they're gonna do it to you. And

487
00:37:15,159 --> 00:37:22,039
then he calls it a demon m
hm. On page forty four. Oh

488
00:37:22,719 --> 00:37:31,760
she's whipping him. And yeah,
but here we we get we start seeing

489
00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:39,199
how the being I hate the word
being because I sound oh Bean, sim

490
00:37:39,239 --> 00:37:45,199
still stuck on that which is a
demon, because that's like the closest thing

491
00:37:45,239 --> 00:37:51,119
we're going to get to it like
encompassed everything. And and we start seeing

492
00:37:51,159 --> 00:38:00,039
this demon I cat dec We start
seeing this demon in the beginning of and

493
00:38:00,320 --> 00:38:06,639
us like line of ancestry, and
and then we we see generation by generation

494
00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:12,559
how this thing attaches itself and affects
everyone. Yeah, it's generational trauma,

495
00:38:12,840 --> 00:38:15,360
Like yes, it's just amazing the
way she made it into a demon,

496
00:38:15,519 --> 00:38:21,519
because you can trace people's it goes, it travels. That's why it's a

497
00:38:21,559 --> 00:38:23,960
word. That's why it's a thing. Generational, Like it's real. And

498
00:38:24,159 --> 00:38:29,760
you know, for her to go
all the way back to colonization then the

499
00:38:29,800 --> 00:38:37,480
Mexican Revolution, Like oh yeah,
and I love that because there's so much

500
00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:43,719
scientific research that shows that generational trauma
actually changes your genetics, so you could

501
00:38:43,760 --> 00:38:47,800
actually trace it scientifically, I mean, I mean not just like psychologically,

502
00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:58,760
but also there's like mutations in people's
DNAs due to generational trauma. Yeah,

503
00:38:59,639 --> 00:39:01,280
yeah, just so. Yeah,
the way that it was depicted through this

504
00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:06,599
thing brilliant. Yeah, and we
see we literally see how it's affecting every

505
00:39:06,599 --> 00:39:10,079
single one of her ancestors and then
how this thing like thrives off of all

506
00:39:10,119 --> 00:39:15,880
the trauma. Yeah. I love
it. Yeah, it's thought of it.

507
00:39:15,880 --> 00:39:19,280
It's like ecstasy to it. I
was like, yes, and yeah,

508
00:39:19,559 --> 00:39:22,280
I literally so grossed out. Also, like I think a really good

509
00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:30,639
personification for narcissistic abuse, because this, this this demon creature thing is a

510
00:39:30,760 --> 00:39:36,639
narcissist. I mean, it's just
it's manipulative, it's abusive, and it

511
00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:42,599
feeds off of it's victims. It
wants it's yeah, them to stuff.

512
00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:49,320
Remember how mad it was when Catherine
basically said like, nah, I'm not

513
00:39:49,360 --> 00:39:53,199
doing this, and I mean I'm
obviously and that's defining the process of her

514
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:57,440
giving yeah up for adoption. Nah, I don't want to do this.

515
00:39:58,519 --> 00:40:01,159
Yeah, but that was her way
of like stopping, you know, the

516
00:40:01,239 --> 00:40:06,639
cycle for herself, and she stopped
there for herself, but not for future

517
00:40:06,719 --> 00:40:08,800
generations because she didn't even she's not
going to think about that it was what

518
00:40:09,000 --> 00:40:17,159
seventeen, But then we start seeing
it take hold or start planting its little

519
00:40:17,199 --> 00:40:22,719
seeds into Katrina and it starts,
Yeah, it really does. But like

520
00:40:22,760 --> 00:40:27,679
if you think about it, like
you know, starts start early, starts

521
00:40:27,719 --> 00:40:30,760
there early, it does. And
how many kids I remember, like,

522
00:40:31,039 --> 00:40:36,400
especially in our culture, like from
being as young as I don't know,

523
00:40:36,440 --> 00:40:42,280
as soon as you could walk,
you have like comments told like muhs and

524
00:40:42,360 --> 00:40:46,079
stuff like that. And that is
generational trauma, because that is shit that

525
00:40:46,199 --> 00:40:50,280
has affected all of us as women. Our mothers are grandmothers and all that

526
00:40:50,320 --> 00:40:58,559
stuff, and especially yeah, so
ingrained and all that is abuse in trauma.

527
00:40:59,039 --> 00:41:02,800
And we get taught it as as
soon as we're born, and people

528
00:41:02,840 --> 00:41:07,280
and our family probably talked about it
even before we were born, honestly,

529
00:41:07,679 --> 00:41:13,840
and the womb in the womb m
yeah, But through therapy, Alejandra starts

530
00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:16,920
seeing like we need to beat this
thing. This thing can't do this to

531
00:41:17,000 --> 00:41:21,920
us anymore. We're gonna end it. And and then Matthew starts seeing a

532
00:41:22,039 --> 00:41:27,440
change in her too, and he's
a little bit about it. Of course,

533
00:41:27,519 --> 00:41:30,519
of course I didn't write down any
like direct quotes of what he says,

534
00:41:30,519 --> 00:41:34,039
but it's more of the same,
like he's just the worst. Yeah,

535
00:41:34,119 --> 00:41:39,719
he sucks. And then there is
a point where Melanie the thing actually

536
00:41:39,719 --> 00:41:45,239
physically manifests itself. And think she's
in alejanderson Will's room when this happens,

537
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:50,599
and so then she talks Melanie about
it. Melanie comes over. I wanted

538
00:41:50,599 --> 00:41:52,840
them to hook up. I thought
they were going to. They don't raise

539
00:41:52,880 --> 00:42:01,519
serious Melanie, she's a therapist.
There's a I just thought that they would

540
00:42:01,519 --> 00:42:05,199
liked each other, and I don't
know that. I think I saw that

541
00:42:05,239 --> 00:42:10,960
she's a social worker, so I
just thought they were. There's a pamphlet.

542
00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:17,440
There's a pamphlet. I'm sorry,
Karmen is a social worker. This

543
00:42:17,480 --> 00:42:22,679
is where she still worked up about
this. I am that would have been

544
00:42:22,679 --> 00:42:27,800
a violation. Cute couple, Are
you stop it? I'm not pulled through

545
00:42:27,840 --> 00:42:35,960
the screen and punchy right now.
There's an ethical violation. Clinicians and therapists

546
00:42:36,159 --> 00:42:44,239
aren't a power position over their clients. Okay, well, then I hope

547
00:42:44,280 --> 00:42:49,000
there'd beffs now that that would also
be an ethical violation. You can't be

548
00:42:49,079 --> 00:42:58,679
friends with your clients, don't I'm
not. Yeah, there's a pamphlet when

549
00:42:58,719 --> 00:43:01,360
if a client tells you that they
had like a relationship or sex with their

550
00:43:01,400 --> 00:43:06,039
previous therapists or something like that,
you have to give them a pamphlet that

551
00:43:06,079 --> 00:43:10,400
says therapy does not involve sex.
Oh my god, I didn't know that

552
00:43:10,480 --> 00:43:15,079
people lose their licenses over that.
Oh shit, Okay, well then I

553
00:43:15,119 --> 00:43:17,679
take it back as they should.
Oh yeah, you're right, you're right,

554
00:43:17,760 --> 00:43:21,000
it is wrong. I just thought, and that is why I should

555
00:43:21,039 --> 00:43:24,280
pass my exam on the twenty five. I believe in you that that was

556
00:43:24,360 --> 00:43:29,800
an a for me. Was not
That was not not a good lesson on

557
00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:36,760
the Code of ethics. It was
it was I needed it obviously. But

558
00:43:37,239 --> 00:43:39,679
Melanie comes over and not like a
is it like a cleans just like a

559
00:43:39,719 --> 00:43:45,079
cleanse cleanse? Yeah, and they're
they're gonna but it doesn't like it works

560
00:43:45,119 --> 00:43:47,480
maybe a little bit, but the
thing comes back. Then they need like

561
00:43:47,480 --> 00:43:52,719
a better plan. And so then
Katherine, Kathy you know, comes over

562
00:43:53,000 --> 00:43:55,760
from Texas. She's like, no, my daughter needs me. Because Kathy

563
00:43:55,840 --> 00:44:00,480
also sees the thing. Yeah,
oh my god, woman, that had

564
00:44:00,559 --> 00:44:06,920
scene when she sees it in the
in the baby's room that I was like,

565
00:44:07,000 --> 00:44:09,280
damn. And then it's not horror. Do you have the sentence near

566
00:44:09,360 --> 00:44:14,079
you? One of you? I'm
trying to find it. I am what's

567
00:44:14,079 --> 00:44:19,000
it called? On Francis's Oh,
that's where I am too, because I

568
00:44:19,039 --> 00:44:22,159
think it had been like a bad
night where Alejandra one it was a bad

569
00:44:22,239 --> 00:44:27,360
night where they saw the thing or
something like that, and then Kathy knows

570
00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:29,880
something is wrong. She feels like
something is wrong, and then a handa

571
00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:34,039
calls her, but Kathy has already
booked her, Like yeah. The one

572
00:44:34,079 --> 00:44:37,440
thing I don't like is that Alejandra
kept on making her kids sleep in different

573
00:44:37,480 --> 00:44:40,840
rooms. I'm like, this thing
is out there. Why aren't you having

574
00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:45,280
your entire family and run one room
so you can protect them. I was

575
00:44:45,320 --> 00:44:46,800
so mad at her for that.
I was like, girl, yeah,

576
00:44:47,320 --> 00:44:51,119
sleep on the floor, have your
kids sleep on the bed, But why

577
00:44:51,119 --> 00:44:53,199
are you? But I wonder if
that would have scared the kids even more,

578
00:44:53,360 --> 00:44:57,639
you know, like maybe she's trying
to maintain a sense of normalcy.

579
00:44:57,800 --> 00:45:00,440
But then I also feel like it
was just like it was too much.

580
00:45:00,480 --> 00:45:04,239
It's like you can't get to your
babies in time. Also true, it's

581
00:45:04,280 --> 00:45:07,519
hard. I'm like, you know
what kids are gonna do? A sleepover?

582
00:45:07,559 --> 00:45:14,719
No? Nothing's wrong. Everybody gets
marshmallows and watch movies. I just

583
00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:19,119
want some family time, no reason
kids. Okay, I found it.

584
00:45:19,119 --> 00:45:25,400
It's so Yeah, she sees like
a woman where the newborn sleep, and

585
00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:30,679
the woman is like an outdated we're
an outdated address from the fifties, and

586
00:45:30,760 --> 00:45:34,760
she can't tell like the women's features
from far away. But then she gets

587
00:45:34,760 --> 00:45:38,119
closer and closer, and now I'm
going to start eating shit, she said

588
00:45:38,119 --> 00:45:42,239
to herself. Kathy took a big
stripes to reach the end of the hallway,

589
00:45:42,360 --> 00:45:45,960
her heart pumping hard. She needed
to exercise more at her age.

590
00:45:45,639 --> 00:45:50,159
Sorry, Kathy stopped in front of
the glass wall where you can view the

591
00:45:50,199 --> 00:45:53,280
newborns. She gasped. A hideous
creature in the guise of a woman in

592
00:45:53,360 --> 00:45:58,079
white stood among the babies. And
it didn't wear a dress, at least

593
00:45:58,079 --> 00:46:00,840
not in the real sense. It's
dress was the patrick of dead flesh and

594
00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:07,119
fabric kinging over its exposed bones.
Its eyes had a glare of greed while

595
00:46:07,239 --> 00:46:13,480
bloody saliva drink from its mouth.
And then yeah, and then she calls

596
00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:16,400
her help, and obviously the thing
is gone. Yeah. When someone gets

597
00:46:16,400 --> 00:46:22,719
there and they're like, girl,
you need a vacation. We also didn't

598
00:46:22,760 --> 00:46:25,440
mention just because we skipped a bunch
of like the recap. But Katy's own

599
00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:30,280
mom, obviously we know Alejandra's whole
line of ancestors have been affected by this

600
00:46:30,800 --> 00:46:36,599
entity, this demon. But Katy's
own mom, it was terrible. The

601
00:46:36,639 --> 00:46:38,719
thing took her. The thing won. Oh. I was going to ask

602
00:46:38,800 --> 00:46:43,159
if because I didn't remember if it
was Katy's mom. The when I was

603
00:46:43,199 --> 00:46:47,360
like hooking up with people in the
hotel, that was Francis. Yeah.

604
00:46:47,599 --> 00:46:52,440
Yeah, because she needed to feel
alive. She and again it was the

605
00:46:52,480 --> 00:46:57,599
depression, postpartum depression, and then
you know, prolonged like untreated postpartum depression.

606
00:46:57,679 --> 00:47:00,320
And then she just like left one
day and then she but she left.

607
00:47:00,800 --> 00:47:05,679
Okay, I forgot what happened,
and she does end it those like

608
00:47:05,760 --> 00:47:12,079
thoughts that happen. She actually what
did she do? She she walks into

609
00:47:12,079 --> 00:47:15,039
the river. She walked into the
river. Yeah, and so so Kathy

610
00:47:15,119 --> 00:47:21,360
herself never never knows finds out what
happened to her mom. And then the

611
00:47:21,400 --> 00:47:28,920
same thing with Kathy's dad was like
weaponized incompetence. The same thing wouldn't help,

612
00:47:28,960 --> 00:47:31,800
but dad was more like he was
just working and working, and he

613
00:47:32,039 --> 00:47:36,800
left the kids with his family and
he was in and out, so it

614
00:47:36,880 --> 00:47:38,599
wasn't even weaponizing in cuppints, so
it was just like he was not there.

615
00:47:39,000 --> 00:47:45,719
Yes, it's like when he's married
to Francis. No, even when

616
00:47:45,719 --> 00:47:49,400
he was married to Francis, he's
like a work because he wasn't in the

617
00:47:49,400 --> 00:47:52,079
midd military comes and goes, so
he's not there. And then when he's

618
00:47:52,119 --> 00:47:55,559
back, he just gets her pregnant
and he goes again and comes back and

619
00:47:55,679 --> 00:48:00,880
goes and then uh, then she's
largely absent. He's also largely absent,

620
00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:08,239
and she sees him with another woman. Yeah, yeah, yeah, this

621
00:48:08,360 --> 00:48:17,960
is like the more Latino version of
what Matthews doing. Yes, But and

622
00:48:19,199 --> 00:48:22,679
Kathy, when she's giving birth to
Alejandra, she hears the thing, but

623
00:48:22,719 --> 00:48:28,440
she doesn't really register it until that
night when she sees it again at the

624
00:48:28,800 --> 00:48:32,960
hospital and that's why she books the
flight before even Alejandra calls her, and

625
00:48:34,000 --> 00:48:36,280
then you know, then they go
over there. They have a plan to

626
00:48:36,800 --> 00:48:43,360
get rid of it, but it
involves Alejandra temporary her harming herself because that's

627
00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:46,119
what the thing wants, so they
need to like lure it in. But

628
00:48:46,159 --> 00:48:49,800
they're only luring it in. But
Kathy doesn't want to do it. She's

629
00:48:49,800 --> 00:48:53,039
scared because you know, she's she
could possibly lose as like no, because

630
00:48:53,039 --> 00:48:58,199
this thing is gonna keep, it's
gonna it's gonna take little Katrina and then

631
00:48:58,239 --> 00:49:00,639
her children if she has them in
the future. It's not going to stop

632
00:49:00,679 --> 00:49:02,880
and needs to end here. And
so she like cuts herself and then like

633
00:49:04,119 --> 00:49:08,599
pushes that thing inside her basically right, yeah, it's pretty graphic, it

634
00:49:08,760 --> 00:49:13,719
is, but but yeah, they
I mean they in the end, they

635
00:49:13,719 --> 00:49:19,880
win, right, And I like
the ending where she just like, yeah,

636
00:49:21,199 --> 00:49:23,239
yeah, she does this thing that
she's recovering. And then do we

637
00:49:23,320 --> 00:49:27,000
like get a little fast forward and
she does like leave Matthew, right,

638
00:49:28,119 --> 00:49:30,800
yeah, I does. I think
she like I don't know if she like

639
00:49:31,199 --> 00:49:36,000
fully says I left Matthew, but
like I think she talks to him about

640
00:49:36,079 --> 00:49:43,400
like I think something like that.
Yeah. And then okay, so I

641
00:49:43,480 --> 00:49:45,719
read like at the end, because
I have some things that we like didn't

642
00:49:45,719 --> 00:49:52,039
cover that the creature says that she's
not the the youna the woman are that

643
00:49:52,480 --> 00:49:57,960
she makes like a separation that that's
that's what I said at the beginning,

644
00:49:58,039 --> 00:50:01,719
that se and the thing takes her
form. Oh my bad, keep saying

645
00:50:01,719 --> 00:50:08,639
its yes, Noel, Noel.
I think it's did her name all wrong?

646
00:50:10,039 --> 00:50:14,840
And then where's the other one that
Israel? Yes? And then what's

647
00:50:14,880 --> 00:50:22,800
it called? Oh oh oh the
ancestor, the ancestor that fought with us,

648
00:50:22,119 --> 00:50:29,320
and she gives them the secrets?
Mom? Yeah, mom? Was

649
00:50:29,360 --> 00:50:32,079
it Francis's mom or grandmother? I
think it was her grandmother? Oh my

650
00:50:32,159 --> 00:50:38,039
bad? Okay, yeah. I
think she figures out because she her story.

651
00:50:38,079 --> 00:50:43,480
Her chapter was amazing, I think
my favorite. Yeah, we forgot

652
00:50:43,480 --> 00:50:46,119
to mention this whole thing. And
she meets Amelia, who we talked about

653
00:50:46,119 --> 00:50:50,639
on his story as unknown. Oh
my god, yes, I texted you

654
00:50:50,760 --> 00:50:54,440
right away. You did. Yeah, that was an amazing chapter. She

655
00:50:54,800 --> 00:51:02,679
ends up falling in love with Sapa
and and she gets pregnant with I thought

656
00:51:02,679 --> 00:51:07,360
it was just another so it was
about that, right, I thought,

657
00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:13,360
So does this happen? Yeah?
And so she ends up falling in love

658
00:51:13,440 --> 00:51:16,679
with him, gets pregnant, but
they're still in the war thing, and

659
00:51:16,719 --> 00:51:21,960
then she goes, yeah, she
killed you. She shot. No,

660
00:51:22,159 --> 00:51:25,400
she's shot, but like the thing
is like they're in a tent and she

661
00:51:25,480 --> 00:51:30,639
was having like a like some kind
of like moment with her man. And

662
00:51:30,679 --> 00:51:34,920
then she goes outside to get water
to a river and she sees and the

663
00:51:35,000 --> 00:51:38,400
river, she sees this the woman
and wife. And then finally I don't

664
00:51:38,440 --> 00:51:43,880
know what happens. I don't I
can't remember, but she gets then somewhere

665
00:51:43,920 --> 00:51:49,559
around that time, either right then
or like right after Sabbata and her go

666
00:51:49,719 --> 00:51:53,039
to this place for like this congregation, there was an ambush and Sabbata gets

667
00:51:53,039 --> 00:51:58,880
shot and killed, yes, and
then she pregnant, gets injured, and

668
00:51:59,239 --> 00:52:07,079
she's like her, I don't know
what's happening. But this creature thing is

669
00:52:07,920 --> 00:52:13,519
where she's like aboarding the haven't miscarried, miscarrying the baby because she was,

670
00:52:14,440 --> 00:52:20,199
and this thing gets close to her, yeah, and at that above her

671
00:52:20,280 --> 00:52:22,480
at some point, Yeah, it's
like right above her. So at this

672
00:52:22,559 --> 00:52:25,679
point she's like she's like, you
know, she's she's a she's a soldier

673
00:52:25,719 --> 00:52:30,920
too, so she like grabs this
thing and almost manages to kill it.

674
00:52:31,760 --> 00:52:38,159
And yeah, she it's like almost
like she's trying to do and she's grabbing

675
00:52:38,199 --> 00:52:43,239
it and she almost manages to kill
it. But you know, a lot

676
00:52:43,239 --> 00:52:47,719
of stuff happened. She loses the
baby, but she survives the gun wound.

677
00:52:49,360 --> 00:52:55,559
So then she returns to her home
where she sees her daughter and stuff,

678
00:52:55,840 --> 00:52:59,199
and and she tells her, Oh, like, we have some stuff

679
00:52:59,239 --> 00:53:01,480
that is in the family that we're
going to have to fight. And then

680
00:53:02,280 --> 00:53:08,679
you fast forward a bit and she
returns into Alejandra's dream and she's like,

681
00:53:08,760 --> 00:53:12,719
I know how to kill this thing, and you have to get close to

682
00:53:12,840 --> 00:53:15,159
dying. Yeah, in order I
forgot to say, yeah, I forgot

683
00:53:15,199 --> 00:53:17,920
to say. That's how they learn
how they have to beat this thing.

684
00:53:17,960 --> 00:53:21,239
And when they come up with that
plan. So I'm so glad that you

685
00:53:21,440 --> 00:53:22,719
yeah, because I was like,
wait, there's something this thing I forgot,

686
00:53:23,400 --> 00:53:28,360
but yes, and that's how they
learned that. In order to even

687
00:53:28,360 --> 00:53:35,559
get close to this thing, you
have to almost be right right a death

688
00:53:35,679 --> 00:53:39,960
store to even keep your hands on
it, which is why then Alejandra is

689
00:53:40,000 --> 00:53:43,360
like, I have to hurt myself
to do it. It has to think

690
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:47,119
that I'm I'm giving in, and
then she just shoves the thing inside of

691
00:53:47,119 --> 00:53:52,840
her. Yeah. It was just
freaking crazy m hm. And then and

692
00:53:52,880 --> 00:53:58,159
then she basically gives birth to this
thing at the end and then yes,

693
00:53:58,719 --> 00:54:01,719
finally fully kills it. Because she
made it mortal, she gave birth to

694
00:54:01,760 --> 00:54:07,480
it, like it wasn't just this
spiritual thing and became real real, Yeah,

695
00:54:07,679 --> 00:54:13,440
like physically real, physically real,
and that ending was just amazing.

696
00:54:14,360 --> 00:54:15,800
Do you, either of you have
anything to add before we get into the

697
00:54:15,840 --> 00:54:21,280
discussion questions. I don't think so. I just had it some stuff I

698
00:54:21,320 --> 00:54:23,039
did. I thought it didn't highlight
and I thought I just wrote random notes

699
00:54:23,079 --> 00:54:27,199
on my phone. But I did
highlights some stuff. Oh cool, Yes,

700
00:54:27,239 --> 00:54:31,920
I love highlights. So so let
me start from the beginning. I

701
00:54:32,000 --> 00:54:39,840
highlighted when the creature is like horney
for trauma. Yeah, and it's like

702
00:54:39,920 --> 00:54:50,039
talking about how hot the trauma is
for it's yeah. And then it says

703
00:54:50,199 --> 00:54:53,639
that violence that would scar that it's
so hot for violence that would have scar

704
00:54:53,760 --> 00:54:59,119
the psyche of generation after generation.
Yes. And there was this other part

705
00:54:59,159 --> 00:55:01,280
that I came across, and I
missed the page because we were discussing something

706
00:55:01,320 --> 00:55:05,159
else. But wasn't it looking about
Matthew? I wanted to stay too,

707
00:55:05,159 --> 00:55:09,119
And I don't remember. I don't
know. Oh her father, Oh oh,

708
00:55:09,159 --> 00:55:12,320
we didn't really talk about her father. I don't know. He really

709
00:55:12,320 --> 00:55:15,079
doesn't matter much me. I feel
like she reconnected him, and that's good,

710
00:55:15,199 --> 00:55:21,400
but then she finds out that he's
also traumatized and has his own generational

711
00:55:21,400 --> 00:55:24,800
trauma that he has to heal.
There was another thing that the creature said

712
00:55:24,840 --> 00:55:34,599
that it was so fascinated by the
way death affected humans, Like the whole

713
00:55:34,639 --> 00:55:39,400
thing got probably the it Probably they
just like loved the that they die,

714
00:55:40,119 --> 00:55:44,960
that people feel, Yeah, and
then like how weak their bodies are and

715
00:55:44,960 --> 00:55:49,280
stuff like that. I remember like
saying things like that, Yeah, damn,

716
00:55:49,320 --> 00:55:51,920
what the fuck was I gonna say
about Matthew later? Or no,

717
00:55:52,239 --> 00:55:53,440
my bad. I think it was
just about how Matthew is didn't like her

718
00:55:53,480 --> 00:55:58,599
going back to therapy. I don't
know. There was something about he also

719
00:55:58,800 --> 00:56:02,559
like didn't like that she had oh
yeah, anything that with her getting back

720
00:56:02,599 --> 00:56:06,639
in touch with her culture and her
roots. He didn't like, Yeah,

721
00:56:06,679 --> 00:56:10,840
anything that would lead her to community
and and give her life. I did

722
00:56:10,920 --> 00:56:15,719
highlight earlier on you know, when
she's having her horrible triggering breakdown in the

723
00:56:15,760 --> 00:56:22,960
bathroom. For years she abandoned herself
to be a willing sacrifice to please everyone

724
00:56:22,000 --> 00:56:27,280
around her, and now nothing existed
within her anymore. Even her own hand

725
00:56:27,400 --> 00:56:30,280
was not a hand at all,
but a blade she used to carve her

726
00:56:30,320 --> 00:56:32,880
heart for anyone who asked for it. And I was just like, wow,

727
00:56:34,000 --> 00:56:37,960
that is so when I read that. Oh yeah, and I'm like,

728
00:56:37,039 --> 00:56:45,239
this is why people have got a
ba and have boundaries clear. How

729
00:56:45,280 --> 00:56:47,000
can you learn that you need boundaries
if you don't know what they are?

730
00:56:47,639 --> 00:56:51,760
Yeah, it's like she didn't know
on so she was at her very breaking

731
00:56:51,800 --> 00:56:53,920
point and she's like, oh,
I can't do this anymore, you know.

732
00:56:53,960 --> 00:57:00,480
And it made me think of our
own mother, who another it's a

733
00:57:00,480 --> 00:57:04,400
trigger warning. Yeah, I highlighted
this because it made me think of her,

734
00:57:04,639 --> 00:57:07,400
you know. And I remember at
one point she'd be like, oh,

735
00:57:07,440 --> 00:57:12,559
I don't even buy myself new underwear
because everything I buy it for you

736
00:57:12,599 --> 00:57:15,920
buy. And I felt that because
I do that, I do that myself.

737
00:57:15,960 --> 00:57:20,559
We'll stop it. I'm trying.
I know this year have actually spoiled

738
00:57:20,559 --> 00:57:22,920
myself. I was like, you
know what, fuck them kids, I

739
00:57:22,960 --> 00:57:30,960
need underwear. I thought you ever
gonna say something else the kids, I'm

740
00:57:31,000 --> 00:57:38,000
buying myself with coloring. But no, But it's so important and it's so

741
00:57:39,280 --> 00:57:46,679
and it's so like ingrained culturally societally
for moms to give up everything like your

742
00:57:46,719 --> 00:57:50,119
a mother first, and yeah,
you know your kids. You know,

743
00:57:50,119 --> 00:57:52,960
you should protect your kids, you
should care for your kids, but at

744
00:57:52,000 --> 00:57:55,079
the end of the day, you're
your own person. And yeah, a

745
00:57:55,079 --> 00:58:00,440
lot of people get lost in parenthood, yeah, and forget who are and

746
00:58:00,480 --> 00:58:04,800
it's so tough because it's like such
a huge responsibility. And that's what I'm

747
00:58:04,840 --> 00:58:07,480
saying about Alejandra. She never knew
who she was and then you throw in

748
00:58:07,679 --> 00:58:14,519
parenthood and that's after kid, Like
not to give our whole mom's life story,

749
00:58:14,639 --> 00:58:20,920
but it made me think of her, wasn't she also like didn't hand

750
00:58:21,079 --> 00:58:25,519
also go through parentification with her adopted
family, yeah, which also has a

751
00:58:25,519 --> 00:58:31,000
whole other layer, like she never
had a childhood. Yeah. Yeah,

752
00:58:31,079 --> 00:58:36,880
And I mean it's and it's like
so true for generation after generation, right,

753
00:58:36,960 --> 00:58:43,559
Like we see our mothers giving up
their whole persons to care for us,

754
00:58:43,639 --> 00:58:45,519
right, and like what do we
learn about caring for ourselves? You

755
00:58:45,559 --> 00:58:50,400
know? Yeah, not to sound
like a major cheese ball, but like

756
00:58:50,559 --> 00:58:53,679
I'm so glad that I started first
podcasting with you, Carmen, and then

757
00:58:54,440 --> 00:58:58,480
you know all this and all that
I'm doing, because I think I was

758
00:58:58,559 --> 00:59:02,039
like literally falling into the oh yeah, I've fallen into that because like,

759
00:59:04,440 --> 00:59:07,000
yeah, it's so loud to cry
because I just thinking back, yeah,

760
00:59:07,039 --> 00:59:09,639
well, and it made me think
of you MG two when you when you

761
00:59:09,679 --> 00:59:13,599
said that Christina had reached out to
you to start spooky taels and you're like,

762
00:59:13,639 --> 00:59:15,199
I need adults to talk to.
No. I did, because it

763
00:59:15,239 --> 00:59:20,599
was like mid pandemic and like my
my husband like works all the time,

764
00:59:20,880 --> 00:59:23,239
like all the time, like twelve
to fourteen hour days, so by the

765
00:59:23,239 --> 00:59:29,159
time he gets home, he might
see the kids or he sees the kids

766
00:59:29,199 --> 00:59:32,719
for an hour, and in the
pandemic at bedtime and bed time, so

767
00:59:32,920 --> 00:59:37,159
I did. I had no community
I had. I mean I talked to

768
00:59:37,199 --> 00:59:38,639
my parents, but it's like your
parents, I'm come on me too,

769
00:59:38,880 --> 00:59:45,360
the same things. It's and it
was like I had during the pandemic.

770
00:59:45,440 --> 00:59:49,480
I was just completely I mean obviously
everybody was, but a completely more isolated

771
00:59:49,559 --> 00:59:52,440
because at least when my kids went
to school, I think it thrust a

772
00:59:52,440 --> 00:59:57,679
lot of us who maybe went out
to I don't know, work and sat

773
00:59:57,679 --> 01:00:02,360
people there. If that if that
into a deeper isolation, and so that's

774
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:06,280
why I'm like, yeah, yeah, because I already keep to myself and

775
01:00:06,280 --> 01:00:09,159
I have like my my group of
friends I could count on both hands,

776
01:00:09,239 --> 01:00:13,079
right, Like I don't talk to
a lot of people. So at that

777
01:00:13,199 --> 01:00:15,639
point, like a lot of my
mom friends, I wasn't able to see

778
01:00:15,880 --> 01:00:20,400
regularly like I did. And it
was just like oh my god. And

779
01:00:21,000 --> 01:00:23,320
at once, at some things were
like pluses and minuses because I am very

780
01:00:23,360 --> 01:00:28,039
family oriented, but like there comes
a point in time where it's like I'm

781
01:00:28,119 --> 01:00:31,039
just talking to children. I have
nobody to talk to. And it was

782
01:00:31,079 --> 01:00:34,719
so hard, And I think it
was hard for a lot of moms,

783
01:00:34,800 --> 01:00:38,679
especially if you were the parent who
had to stay home with the kids during

784
01:00:38,719 --> 01:00:44,079
the pandemic, like if you were
lucky enough to still be working outside.

785
01:00:45,000 --> 01:00:47,199
I think like that. I mean, as hard as it was, it

786
01:00:47,239 --> 01:00:52,519
was the only, yeah, only
communication you had with other people. Like

787
01:00:52,800 --> 01:00:54,280
I remember back when I was a
pick me, because I used to be

788
01:00:54,360 --> 01:00:57,400
a terrible pick me. It was
the worst when I was doing or me

789
01:00:57,920 --> 01:01:02,119
and all these married we would like
talk shit about the stay at home moms

790
01:01:02,119 --> 01:01:06,679
like they're not doing anything. I
will never say that shit again, Like

791
01:01:06,920 --> 01:01:08,679
this is the hardest job, Like
what do you mean? And it's so

792
01:01:08,760 --> 01:01:12,480
hard, and it's like this year
is going to be one of the hardest

793
01:01:12,519 --> 01:01:17,480
years for me and my kids because
again, like the crazy like shifts for

794
01:01:17,559 --> 01:01:22,320
him. But like my kid is
also ADHD, so he needs extra support

795
01:01:22,440 --> 01:01:27,719
upon extra support. And yeah,
so it's like the pandemic I think was

796
01:01:27,760 --> 01:01:30,840
like one of the biggest things that
many people. If you didn't have an

797
01:01:30,840 --> 01:01:34,760
experience like Alejandra, you probably had
it for the first time. Yeah,

798
01:01:34,840 --> 01:01:37,639
you saw it for the first time, whether it was with your mother or

799
01:01:37,800 --> 01:01:43,199
like other women that you know.
But like you finally started hearing stories that

800
01:01:43,239 --> 01:01:47,280
are similar to Alejandras where people are
just like losing themselves. And I was

801
01:01:47,320 --> 01:01:52,079
reading interviews with v Castro and she
literally wrote it about herself, like she

802
01:01:52,360 --> 01:01:58,559
was in that mind space that Alejandra
was like comment having those thoughts and that's

803
01:01:58,599 --> 01:02:00,960
why she wrote the book. Like
she she has said in interviews, she

804
01:02:01,199 --> 01:02:07,159
is Alejandra like and yeah, it's
it's so common, but like a lot

805
01:02:07,159 --> 01:02:08,559
of people don't talk about it.
But like you said, Carmen, like

806
01:02:08,559 --> 01:02:13,039
we I was reading this too,
and I could see it and my mom

807
01:02:13,159 --> 01:02:15,920
and our mom oops I did the
Mexican kid thing. Yeah no, and

808
01:02:16,000 --> 01:02:21,440
not only our mom, but like
I could see it probably every woman in

809
01:02:21,480 --> 01:02:25,280
our family. Yeah, I saw
it myself because I've gone through similar situations

810
01:02:25,679 --> 01:02:30,079
and again with my mom because she
my mom's like the oldest daughter of like

811
01:02:30,519 --> 01:02:36,559
seven kids, no eight kids.
Yeah, So I was like, Mom,

812
01:02:36,599 --> 01:02:38,559
I'm so sorry, like you were, she was never a child and

813
01:02:38,599 --> 01:02:42,519
I saw that. Like when I
saw that, I was like, speaking

814
01:02:42,559 --> 01:02:45,480
of that, have you guys ever
like come across those videos where it's like,

815
01:02:45,519 --> 01:02:52,400
oh, teaching my mom how to
roller skate because she and I do

816
01:02:52,519 --> 01:02:53,800
that. I do that with my
mom. I was like, Mom,

817
01:02:53,880 --> 01:02:59,000
you have to set boundaries with you
because my mom is like she's raised she

818
01:02:59,119 --> 01:03:00,519
raised her own mom, you know
what I mean. So I was like,

819
01:03:00,559 --> 01:03:05,440
Mom, you have to put boundaries
with my grandmother. You are not

820
01:03:05,599 --> 01:03:09,280
her mother, she is your mother. And I also I've also like,

821
01:03:09,440 --> 01:03:12,159
you know, I do stuff like
that with her. I'm like, no,

822
01:03:12,239 --> 01:03:15,920
you're joining us. This is I
guess we're painting with the kids,

823
01:03:15,960 --> 01:03:17,320
but you're joining us too. And
I forced her to do stuff and she's

824
01:03:17,360 --> 01:03:19,679
like, I don't want to do
this. I'm like, you're going to

825
01:03:19,760 --> 01:03:22,960
be a child for like the next
hour you're doing it. Forget that.

826
01:03:23,320 --> 01:03:27,960
Those those vidos make me crist Do. I was always thinking like, man,

827
01:03:28,039 --> 01:03:30,719
I'm gonna have to buy my mom
that like one of her toys that

828
01:03:30,760 --> 01:03:34,760
she wanted as a kid one Christmas, and I'm gonna like, I'm gonna

829
01:03:34,760 --> 01:03:39,719
buy my eyes out, like no, no, okay, And should we

830
01:03:39,760 --> 01:03:49,880
get to this question questions now?
Oh wait, wait, wait I had

831
01:03:49,880 --> 01:03:55,079
more stuff all you're just like I
was like trying to get through this.

832
01:03:55,280 --> 01:03:58,840
Oh no, no. So I
at first I didn't know what time I

833
01:03:58,880 --> 01:04:04,400
was leaving because I'm gonna go see
Carol g in La and I didn't know

834
01:04:04,440 --> 01:04:08,000
what time we're leaving. But we're
not leaving until like four, so I

835
01:04:08,039 --> 01:04:11,719
have time to pack it. Okay, yeah, okay. So another thing

836
01:04:11,760 --> 01:04:16,239
I highlighted was on page seventeen,
where it's also about Alejandra, because this

837
01:04:16,280 --> 01:04:20,039
is you know, early on during
you know, her worst time, her

838
01:04:20,079 --> 01:04:26,800
worst state, and so she's thinking
about how Matthew everything is Matthew's and she

839
01:04:26,880 --> 01:04:30,320
has nothing. And so the part
I highlighted was that she did not even

840
01:04:30,400 --> 01:04:33,480
have her own last name, not
the last name of the children. And

841
01:04:33,519 --> 01:04:35,920
I was like, oh my god, because for her, I mean,

842
01:04:35,920 --> 01:04:43,039
she wasn't adopted, She's adopted,
so her last name. It's not and

843
01:04:43,079 --> 01:04:45,639
then and I don't know because it
says not the last name of the children.

844
01:04:45,679 --> 01:04:48,239
So I don't know if she ended
up changing her last name to Matthew's

845
01:04:48,320 --> 01:04:51,679
or not. But if she had, that's also not really her last name,

846
01:04:51,800 --> 01:04:56,199
you know. Yeah, so yeah, I had it that also.

847
01:04:56,800 --> 01:05:00,519
I just want to say. The
last thing I highlighted was something that said

848
01:05:00,840 --> 01:05:03,039
or from flow to chapter where she
says, we must listen to the woman

849
01:05:03,079 --> 01:05:06,840
who came before us. We changed
the future by unloading the sorrow sorrow of

850
01:05:06,880 --> 01:05:12,519
the past. We sever the court
of generational curses. Some cords are meant

851
01:05:12,559 --> 01:05:15,360
to shrivel away to black and dead
flesh. They are are blood, but

852
01:05:15,440 --> 01:05:18,119
we are not them. We did
not have to accept it, none of

853
01:05:18,159 --> 01:05:20,639
it. And I was like,
oh my god, yes, yes,

854
01:05:23,079 --> 01:05:27,119
it brings me to the to the
point, it's in our culture you don't

855
01:05:27,159 --> 01:05:30,480
talk about your your sadness or what
you go through. You're supposed to be

856
01:05:30,639 --> 01:05:35,559
quiet about and you're literally broken,
yeah, and you and and your rock

857
01:05:35,599 --> 01:05:39,519
bottom. That's when you're like,
what am I doing? Yeah? And

858
01:05:40,159 --> 01:05:45,000
but even then you're still supposed to
like swallow it and not talk about any

859
01:05:45,039 --> 01:05:49,320
abuse that happened in the family.
You don't talk about, like the family

860
01:05:49,320 --> 01:05:57,000
pedophile. You don't talk about like
what is it called Grandpa's second family.

861
01:05:57,960 --> 01:06:00,800
You don't talk about like a lot
of stuff you're suppos about your cousin hitting

862
01:06:01,000 --> 01:06:04,559
his wife in front of everyone the
Christmas party, Yes, you don't talk

863
01:06:04,639 --> 01:06:10,800
about that. And and to even
go and get therapy, they label you

864
01:06:10,880 --> 01:06:15,920
as a stas local, yeah,
you know, instead of like and I

865
01:06:15,960 --> 01:06:18,519
always have to remind my grandmother,
who has depression and stuff, was like,

866
01:06:18,599 --> 01:06:21,519
if you have a broken arm,
you go to the doctors. If

867
01:06:21,519 --> 01:06:26,039
you feel broken spiritually, you go
to a doctor that can heal you.

868
01:06:26,480 --> 01:06:31,239
And and but that's still it's like
uh, swimming against the river because it's

869
01:06:31,320 --> 01:06:38,920
so taboo and Hispanic Latin culture and
it's and that's why better but slowly Yeah,

870
01:06:39,000 --> 01:06:41,280
no, And I was gonna say
not to keep bringing our mother up,

871
01:06:41,360 --> 01:06:45,320
Christina, but it makes me think
because like you said, MJ,

872
01:06:45,440 --> 01:06:48,920
swimming, what did you say,
swimming upstream? Swimming upstream? Like I'm

873
01:06:48,960 --> 01:06:51,679
like, I don't want to thinking
about fishes. I know, I don't

874
01:06:51,679 --> 01:06:58,679
remember the quote ever, but anyway, like for her to have saught therapy,

875
01:06:59,159 --> 01:07:06,880
divorce, our father remarry yep,
and she's she's the first one and

876
01:07:09,480 --> 01:07:14,320
out of her siblings to get a
divorce and oh yeah yeah, and it

877
01:07:14,400 --> 01:07:19,280
was for the better. And and
our grandparents knew what our father had to

878
01:07:19,280 --> 01:07:23,519
put her through, and they still
were like, oh, stay with him,

879
01:07:23,519 --> 01:07:27,199
Oh we love him. A lot
of that too, A lot of

880
01:07:27,239 --> 01:07:30,639
that happens like, oh, you
made a commitment, you married that person

881
01:07:30,960 --> 01:07:33,239
through sickness and in health. And
I'm like, but it's like Flori said,

882
01:07:33,320 --> 01:07:39,159
no, we don't have to accept
these things exactly. Yeah, you

883
01:07:39,199 --> 01:07:42,159
had to when it was the man
who could only get a job and who

884
01:07:42,320 --> 01:07:45,880
could only earn money. We don't
live in that society anymore. But and

885
01:07:46,000 --> 01:07:50,920
also religion plays a huge part.
Yeah, it does. You can't go

886
01:07:51,000 --> 01:07:57,559
against your husband, can't get a
divorced because it's a sin. You can't

887
01:07:57,559 --> 01:08:02,119
even like have any more conections or
like romantic connections, even after you guys

888
01:08:02,159 --> 01:08:04,559
separate, Like if you're going to
separate, you still have to be like,

889
01:08:05,079 --> 01:08:10,599
what is it called when you don't
have sex? What is it called

890
01:08:13,519 --> 01:08:16,840
right or abstinent to? I don't
know which one is? Right before you

891
01:08:17,119 --> 01:08:21,800
Oh yeah, so it's like you
guys can like separate, but you guys

892
01:08:21,880 --> 01:08:27,920
can't have any romantic anything afterwards,
and then it only applies to the woman.

893
01:08:28,199 --> 01:08:31,640
Yeah, it does because and nobody
would ever say anything again if like

894
01:08:32,239 --> 01:08:39,399
the man is has like baby MoMA's
left right and center, like they don't

895
01:08:39,399 --> 01:08:44,680
care. But oh, if a
woman has like a child and she's married

896
01:08:44,720 --> 01:08:46,239
to she's trying to like she's dating
your son, you'd be like, oh

897
01:08:48,600 --> 01:08:54,840
that min it's yeah, there was
an episode about that. Yeah there was

898
01:08:55,039 --> 01:08:58,720
yeah, yeah, yeah, And
I've seen that happens so many times where

899
01:08:58,880 --> 01:09:04,239
like our own son has like four
different baby mamas and he gets with a

900
01:09:04,359 --> 01:09:09,319
woman who only has one kid.
Yeah, and they're like, oh my

901
01:09:09,479 --> 01:09:12,640
god, she's this, she's that. I'm like, your beer son is

902
01:09:12,640 --> 01:09:15,079
the manhood. He has four baby
mamas. Why are you worried about the

903
01:09:15,119 --> 01:09:21,520
girl? Like you should be worried
about like how your grandchildren are in separate

904
01:09:21,560 --> 01:09:26,640
homes and not being unified by your
son regardless if they are in separate homes.

905
01:09:27,119 --> 01:09:31,359
M But anyways, it's all that. That's we can get into the

906
01:09:31,439 --> 01:09:34,640
questions. Yeah, yeah, question
which I think we've already kind of talked

907
01:09:34,680 --> 01:09:40,399
about it. But I'll say what
the two replies that we got from the

908
01:09:40,439 --> 01:09:43,680
newsletter. So the first question was
what did you think of the depiction of

909
01:09:43,720 --> 01:09:48,279
generational trauma in the book? And
our spooky listener Marylyn wrote, I thought

910
01:09:48,279 --> 01:09:51,680
it was really good. It was
shown as sort of an outside source affecting

911
01:09:51,680 --> 01:09:57,840
the person, something that felt like
it was out of Alejandra's control. So

912
01:09:57,960 --> 01:10:00,960
yeah, I mean we already they
talked a bunch about that, but yeah,

913
01:10:01,039 --> 01:10:04,039
that is true. I loved that. I loved how it was depicted.

914
01:10:04,359 --> 01:10:09,760
Yeah, I mean it was powerful
to make it like a its own

915
01:10:09,800 --> 01:10:15,039
like physical you know, entity manifestation
mat Yeah. Yeah, I thought that

916
01:10:15,119 --> 01:10:17,119
was amazing. And I like that
how it showed that you could defeat it.

917
01:10:18,199 --> 01:10:21,039
Yes, that that was the most
important part, Like, yes,

918
01:10:21,079 --> 01:10:25,720
it's there, but you could still
overcome it and defeat it. Yes.

919
01:10:26,239 --> 01:10:30,319
Yeah. And then the next one, in the traditional legend of Layrona,

920
01:10:30,439 --> 01:10:32,720
we are told she kills her children
over a man. How did you feel

921
01:10:32,720 --> 01:10:38,119
about v Castro's rewriting of La Jorona? And Marilyn wrote, I kind of

922
01:10:38,119 --> 01:10:40,680
love it. They always make her
seem like a stupid and horrible woman.

923
01:10:40,800 --> 01:10:44,439
But when you think you're saving your
children from a horrible feature, then you

924
01:10:44,479 --> 01:10:47,159
feel desperate and would consider that,
especially if you have nowhere to run.

925
01:10:48,079 --> 01:10:51,760
Not saying it's right, but desperate
times desperate measures. Yeah. Also,

926
01:10:51,880 --> 01:10:57,640
the ending of the la Jorona story
at the end got me crying, like

927
01:10:57,720 --> 01:11:00,840
she thought she was doing good,
but the story and did the other way

928
01:11:00,880 --> 01:11:03,800
around, with Laona being the one
that died and it's looking for her kid,

929
01:11:04,319 --> 01:11:09,399
her kids that survived. Yeah,
and then let me read the other

930
01:11:09,399 --> 01:11:14,800
one here. This is from Patricia. This version of the story was interesting.

931
01:11:14,920 --> 01:11:17,279
I can imagine how hard it was
for women when they had no rights

932
01:11:17,319 --> 01:11:20,199
and were forced to pick a man
to take care of them. I think

933
01:11:20,199 --> 01:11:23,760
this goes along with the theme of
the book. With the theme through the

934
01:11:23,760 --> 01:11:27,359
book the women are being haunted by
the choices they were forced to make,

935
01:11:27,640 --> 01:11:32,640
then passing it, passing on the
same pressure to the children. And I

936
01:11:32,680 --> 01:11:38,880
think we already also talked about our
answers to that question. Yes, yeah,

937
01:11:39,000 --> 01:11:43,479
we always do this, but yeah, it's true. I love the

938
01:11:43,520 --> 01:11:46,520
rewriting of it because it really paints
a better picture. I think. Yeah,

939
01:11:46,560 --> 01:11:50,119
and then who knows you know the
real story, because now at this

940
01:11:50,159 --> 01:11:55,720
point it's like a game of telephone, right, Like, yeah, yeah,

941
01:11:56,439 --> 01:11:59,880
I like this version. I'm gonna
this one. I like this too.

942
01:12:01,119 --> 01:12:05,079
We mostly follow a hand, but
the book goes back through different generations.

943
01:12:05,119 --> 01:12:09,840
How did you feel about the back
and forth? And Marilyn Rowe,

944
01:12:09,880 --> 01:12:15,319
I was down with the sickness.
It gave more insight into who her ancestors

945
01:12:15,319 --> 01:12:18,920
were and what they went through with
the hunt, what the hunting did before

946
01:12:18,960 --> 01:12:23,479
her, and how the story plays
out. And I just love that she

947
01:12:23,600 --> 01:12:26,279
wrote I was down with the sick
I also like how like you see you

948
01:12:26,319 --> 01:12:30,279
connect the dots to how it made
all the hunter who she is at that

949
01:12:30,439 --> 01:12:33,239
moment in time. You get you
get the whole, the whole picture,

950
01:12:33,399 --> 01:12:36,760
the whole picture, literally the entire
thing. It made me wish that I

951
01:12:36,800 --> 01:12:42,600
could have the same about you know, our maternal ancestors, Like yeah,

952
01:12:43,079 --> 01:12:46,039
like that we couldn't know, but
it's just been so yeah, there's no

953
01:12:46,079 --> 01:12:49,640
way of knowing, No, at
least I mean for us, as some

954
01:12:49,680 --> 01:12:57,680
people could go and find out,
but let us' Is it safe to assume

955
01:12:57,720 --> 01:13:00,199
we all hate Matthew? He seemed
to show who he was from the beginning.

956
01:13:00,359 --> 01:13:04,119
Why do you think Alejandra ignored the
red flags? Do you agree with

957
01:13:04,159 --> 01:13:10,560
their choices. Marilyn wrote, yes, we hate Matthew. She chose the

958
01:13:10,600 --> 01:13:14,319
safest option, and it's not uncommon
to be with someone you don't really love

959
01:13:14,399 --> 01:13:17,279
in order to be stable. She
knew he could provide and he was into

960
01:13:17,319 --> 01:13:20,039
her, so she ran with it. I don't really agree with it,

961
01:13:20,039 --> 01:13:24,920
but being adopted into a not great
family and then trying to escape that,

962
01:13:25,199 --> 01:13:29,239
it's a situation that's not new.
And also like she might have not known

963
01:13:29,279 --> 01:13:33,239
what love is and would only assume
that something better might be what love is.

964
01:13:33,319 --> 01:13:38,760
But like when you're an abusive when
you grow up in an abusive household,

965
01:13:39,199 --> 01:13:43,159
you connect love with a lot of
abusive behavior. Yeah, when it's

966
01:13:43,199 --> 01:13:47,119
not that and you don't know what
healthy love is. Yep. Yeah.

967
01:13:47,239 --> 01:13:51,520
And then A Patricia wrote yes,
as in yes we all hate Matthew.

968
01:13:53,880 --> 01:13:57,319
It felt like Alejandra wanted to have
a normal family and with Matthew that would

969
01:13:57,359 --> 01:14:00,199
be a sure thing to her.
I think it's really coming from a first

970
01:14:00,199 --> 01:14:05,520
generation Mexican American family. You're also
looking for the version of the perfect American

971
01:14:05,600 --> 01:14:10,359
family and forget to ask yourself what
you really want or what's best for you.

972
01:14:10,760 --> 01:14:14,199
The other factor is that Handra didn't
have any family that she could talk

973
01:14:14,199 --> 01:14:17,039
about red flags with. Yeah.
Yeah, and I completely agree, Like

974
01:14:17,079 --> 01:14:23,560
I completely understand how she got ended
up with Matthew and stayed. Yeah,

975
01:14:23,600 --> 01:14:27,760
and it's so because it does talk
about how they were as a dating couple

976
01:14:28,000 --> 01:14:31,039
and how he, like I guess, won her over, and the little

977
01:14:31,079 --> 01:14:34,920
thing she overlooks in the beginning,
which I think anybody could do. I

978
01:14:34,960 --> 01:14:42,159
think it's normal to do that,
and then really how she stayed throughout time

979
01:14:42,199 --> 01:14:46,000
too, And there's also like a
sunken cost fallacy for a lot of people

980
01:14:46,479 --> 01:14:49,600
about Oh, I mean I've been
doing this for this long. Yeah.

981
01:14:50,680 --> 01:14:57,680
And it also made me think about
how what traditional values are like a double

982
01:14:57,800 --> 01:15:02,399
edged sword kind of like, yeah
know women, some women, not me,

983
01:15:02,560 --> 01:15:10,319
but some women feel like they like
they need to follow those traditional roles.

984
01:15:10,439 --> 01:15:15,079
Yeah. But I mean there's a
reason that feminism is a thing.

985
01:15:15,560 --> 01:15:21,840
There's a reason that women where these
roles are even more ingrained still fight for

986
01:15:23,640 --> 01:15:27,800
you know, liberation, Like there's
a reason for all those things. Yeah,

987
01:15:28,720 --> 01:15:31,359
it's it never I mean it could
have worked, sure, but I

988
01:15:31,399 --> 01:15:36,239
don't know. Kind of I'm just
saying that to be nice, not really,

989
01:15:36,319 --> 01:15:41,479
because I mean, we have all
this history showing men abused to power

990
01:15:41,840 --> 01:15:45,760
men control women. The more traditional
you know, roles are followed, and

991
01:15:45,880 --> 01:15:49,399
so I mean, yeah, that's
why I said some women and and for

992
01:15:49,439 --> 01:15:55,760
those women it's a double one short
because they feel like it's the right thing,

993
01:15:55,800 --> 01:15:58,399
but at the end of the day, they're nonun control of their own

994
01:15:58,399 --> 01:16:01,520
lives, you know. Yep,
yeah, I can't say it better than

995
01:16:01,560 --> 01:16:05,279
that. Yeah, what would you
rate this book? Patricia bro It was

996
01:16:05,359 --> 01:16:10,399
really good. I would give a
ten out of ten pizza pies, and

997
01:16:10,399 --> 01:16:15,199
then Maryland said he out of ten
ghosts, and then let me check out.

998
01:16:15,199 --> 01:16:17,359
I don't think our Instagram had any
They just have comments about how people

999
01:16:17,399 --> 01:16:23,960
really liked the book, but nobody
answered the questions on Instagram, which is

1000
01:16:23,960 --> 01:16:29,119
fine. We know people read it. Let's see what did anyone. Yeah,

1001
01:16:29,159 --> 01:16:30,640
this book was so good. I
loved it. Can't wait to see

1002
01:16:30,640 --> 01:16:33,039
what the next book is. This
one was so good. So yeah,

1003
01:16:33,760 --> 01:16:36,560
yeah, the Sun was good.
Yeah, what would you guys? Read

1004
01:16:36,600 --> 01:16:43,880
it? Ten out of ten?
What? Ten out of ten crystal balls,

1005
01:16:45,760 --> 01:16:54,840
Karmen, ten out of ten,
creatures, ten out of ten blood

1006
01:16:54,840 --> 01:17:00,880
sucking demons? Actually, no,
I really liked it. I really liked

1007
01:17:00,880 --> 01:17:02,079
it. It was, it was, it was. It's so far my

1008
01:17:02,119 --> 01:17:05,359
favorite book this year. But we'll
I guess, we still have a few

1009
01:17:05,359 --> 01:17:10,680
books to read, so we'll see. We'll see if it gets knocked from

1010
01:17:10,680 --> 01:17:14,920
its number one spot. I have
a feeling vampires of that, I know.

1011
01:17:15,079 --> 01:17:18,560
I have a feeling it's gonna do
it. I love her like I

1012
01:17:18,560 --> 01:17:25,640
don't think I've read a better book
decade than Oh my god, I forgot

1013
01:17:25,720 --> 01:17:30,039
the book, this book. Yes, oh my god, what a fan

1014
01:17:30,119 --> 01:17:35,079
on me, I know. And
then overall final thoughts, Marilyn wrote,

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01:17:35,119 --> 01:17:39,079
it was dope. I've recommended it
to a few people, especially people I

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01:17:39,119 --> 01:17:45,279
know going through shit. And then
picture Hiro I enjoyed the book was scary,

1017
01:17:45,399 --> 01:17:49,239
especially when she would scare the kids. And then she said she also

1018
01:17:49,319 --> 01:17:54,640
loved how La Rona had a different
backstory. Yeah, and yeah again,

1019
01:17:54,920 --> 01:17:59,520
my overall final thoughts are like amazing
book. The by far like one of

1020
01:17:59,560 --> 01:18:05,000
the best pictions of generational trauma and
horror that I'm Yeah, I have seen

1021
01:18:05,079 --> 01:18:10,840
like uh not, what is it
when someone doesn't like something like a bad

1022
01:18:11,079 --> 01:18:15,920
word? Yeah, I've seen like
bad reviews about there's a different where I

1023
01:18:15,960 --> 01:18:18,760
was thinking of, But I don't
remember haters. I don't know. Yeah,

1024
01:18:18,800 --> 01:18:23,600
but I've seen people say like the
writing is flat, like nobody talks

1025
01:18:23,640 --> 01:18:26,960
like this. Alejandra is only the
only fleshed out character, but I think

1026
01:18:26,960 --> 01:18:31,640
we're seeing everything from character. Of
course she has the main character energy.

1027
01:18:32,239 --> 01:18:35,680
Yeah. Yeah, And they're like, especially Matthew, nobody talks like that.

1028
01:18:35,720 --> 01:18:43,000
But it's like, please, this
is the most realistic, like like,

1029
01:18:43,279 --> 01:18:46,640
okay, I can't even talk.
How lucky for them to never actually

1030
01:18:46,760 --> 01:18:50,880
meet someone like Matthew, because I've
met a few Matthews. I think we

1031
01:18:50,960 --> 01:18:55,279
all have, and they do talk
like that, and they do behave like

1032
01:18:55,439 --> 01:18:58,840
that. Yeah, like especially when
he says what is where is it?

1033
01:18:58,960 --> 01:19:01,000
I forgot it's in the bat and
he's like, this is what you wanted?

1034
01:19:02,079 --> 01:19:08,399
Yes, Oh my god, I'm
sorry. Men sounks like this all

1035
01:19:08,439 --> 01:19:12,680
the time, all the time.
Actually, if you look up a man,

1036
01:19:12,800 --> 01:19:15,279
it'll say Matthew and Journey. I
was gonna say, if anything,

1037
01:19:15,319 --> 01:19:18,720
I feel like every man has a
Matthew inside of themselves that they need to

1038
01:19:18,720 --> 01:19:25,680
fight every day to not be like
because falls like fight your Matthew. Guys,

1039
01:19:26,319 --> 01:19:35,479
Oh my god, you're in Matthew. But yeah, I mean like

1040
01:19:35,520 --> 01:19:39,279
overall, I really enjoyed the book. Yeah, and I don't understand the

1041
01:19:39,920 --> 01:19:42,760
fighting comments whatever. I don't know. Yeah, No, I mean I

1042
01:19:42,800 --> 01:19:45,279
feel like we could go on and
on and on to talking about this book

1043
01:19:45,319 --> 01:19:49,600
because there's so much that we still
didn't even like we're like covered the surface.

1044
01:19:50,479 --> 01:19:56,039
Yeah yeah, like definitely recommend it, but I mean, anything else

1045
01:19:56,119 --> 01:20:00,279
before we end this, because now
it's an hour thing, that is it?

1046
01:20:00,439 --> 01:20:05,319
And like if I guess if anybody
reads this book after this episode comes

1047
01:20:05,319 --> 01:20:09,760
out, we want your opinions like
that we can keep talking about it.

1048
01:20:09,840 --> 01:20:13,600
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm so glad that we're

1049
01:20:13,640 --> 01:20:16,920
doing this because like who others?
Whose are we going to talk about books

1050
01:20:16,920 --> 01:20:20,399
with for an hour and a half. Oh and then like I love the

1051
01:20:20,439 --> 01:20:28,079
cover too, oh yeah, Like
and then you see the creature saying right

1052
01:20:28,199 --> 01:20:34,199
inside of like who I'm guessing is
the representation that I don't even have the

1053
01:20:34,199 --> 01:20:36,960
book, I just have the picture
of it. But I like the cover

1054
01:20:38,039 --> 01:20:41,920
because it's like this creature is inside
her, which is like the generational trauma.

1055
01:20:42,000 --> 01:20:45,720
So it's like a very beautiful artistic
itsentation of what she's going through.

1056
01:20:46,560 --> 01:20:49,479
Yeah, I love it. I
can't believe you missed it, kermen.

1057
01:20:49,880 --> 01:20:53,000
Yeah, and now that I look
at it, so obvious, but I

1058
01:20:53,119 --> 01:20:55,760
just like, I think I was
so like like I would just look at

1059
01:20:55,760 --> 01:21:00,439
the flowers and how pretty they are, and yeah, oh man, this

1060
01:21:00,520 --> 01:21:03,720
was so fun. Ye, but
yeah, I guess before we go.

1061
01:21:03,840 --> 01:21:09,760
Our next book is Silver Nitrate by
Silvia Moreno Garcia. If you want to

1062
01:21:09,800 --> 01:21:12,720
join the book club, keep along
with the updates on where we are on

1063
01:21:12,760 --> 01:21:15,800
the book, get the discussion questions
and have time to answer them before we

1064
01:21:15,840 --> 01:21:18,920
record so that we can include your
answers. You can sign up for the

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newsletter. It's on substack. You'll
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1066
01:21:21,960 --> 01:21:26,000
just fee the whole thing on substack
itself. The link is in the show

1067
01:21:26,000 --> 01:21:29,319
notes. There's also a bookshop,
a link that I keep for getting to

1068
01:21:29,319 --> 01:21:32,039
put in the show note. If
you buy the book there, then we

1069
01:21:32,119 --> 01:21:34,439
get a little bit, a little
bit of sense, a little bit of

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01:21:34,479 --> 01:21:40,359
coins. So if you don't have
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01:21:40,359 --> 01:21:44,159
to get Vampires of a Norte if
you haven't gotten it, that's also on

1072
01:21:44,199 --> 01:21:48,560
our list. Daniell do that and
yeah, I think that brings us to

1073
01:21:48,600 --> 01:21:54,560
the end. Thanks so much.
Both of you for talking about the book

1074
01:21:54,600 --> 01:21:57,520
with me. I mean it was
main pleasure. It was a good discussion.

1075
01:22:00,119 --> 01:22:08,960
And stay a spooky We'll catch everyone
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1076
01:22:08,960 --> 01:22:14,199
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