WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.640 --> 00:00:04.679 Bottle Up Bitches is hosted by a horny mary couple. Content may include adult 2 00:00:04.759 --> 00:00:08.919 language and themes. Check the description for more details if your discretion is advised. 3 00:00:14.119 --> 00:00:18.800 It's season four. Welcome to Bottle Up Bitches, your favorite sex podcast, 4 00:00:18.920 --> 00:00:23.160 hosted by a horny married couple with me Rihanna Campbell and me producer Man 5 00:00:23.359 --> 00:00:27.480 Adam. Sex shouldn't be taboo or embarrassing, so let's talk about it, 6 00:00:28.480 --> 00:00:37.079 bites. It's season four. Now, look at it is it is, 7 00:00:36.799 --> 00:00:43.759 it is it is. You shouldn't practice. I don't know. I thought 8 00:00:43.759 --> 00:00:47.600 it's a pretty good, but whatever. Welcome back everyone. It's been a 9 00:00:47.679 --> 00:00:51.039 nice little break. I hope you've missed us as much we missed you. 10 00:00:52.920 --> 00:00:57.560 I'm doing baby talk now. That's season four. Is the season of baby 11 00:00:57.600 --> 00:01:03.680 talk. You worded here first? My baby talk is a little condescending a 12 00:01:03.719 --> 00:01:07.040 little bit. Yeah, sorry about it. Well, I'm just super stoked. 13 00:01:07.239 --> 00:01:11.319 I think that the break was much needed, even though we didn't get 14 00:01:11.400 --> 00:01:17.400 hardly anytime off almost none actually zero. Um, but we got a little 15 00:01:17.439 --> 00:01:21.680 break from interviews. UM, got to regroup, kind of rebrand a few 16 00:01:21.719 --> 00:01:25.560 things. I'm super stoked. I'm you know. Season four is for the 17 00:01:25.599 --> 00:01:32.120 Horse. You know, yeah that season four. That's a mouthful. Yeah, 18 00:01:32.400 --> 00:01:34.359 but no, I'm super super duper excited. Um. We actually did 19 00:01:34.519 --> 00:01:40.480 the interview with brittiny Um a few months ago actually, while we were recording 20 00:01:40.519 --> 00:01:44.879 season three. And it's really funny that that happened because I typically send email 21 00:01:45.200 --> 00:01:47.920 emails out to people that I really want to interview that I may never hear 22 00:01:47.959 --> 00:01:51.760 from again, and you know, I have our link to book with us 23 00:01:51.840 --> 00:01:55.120 in the email, and usually people either like you know, don't reply, 24 00:01:55.519 --> 00:01:57.680 or they do reply and they're like not interested, that's ever happened. They 25 00:01:57.719 --> 00:02:01.000 just don't reply um, or they reply and they're like, yeah, well 26 00:02:01.000 --> 00:02:06.359 book soon. I have never had someone actually just immediately book yeah, and 27 00:02:06.400 --> 00:02:08.639 they didn't even book a book us a few months out. They're like, 28 00:02:08.719 --> 00:02:14.639 okay, talk next week. So I wasn't anticipating a season four interview to 29 00:02:14.680 --> 00:02:16.120 happen Wild season three. Yea. I feel kind of bad for Brittin. 30 00:02:16.199 --> 00:02:19.439 He sorry about that, Brittin. That usually doesn't happen, but that's the 31 00:02:19.439 --> 00:02:23.439 context is usually people book us so far out because of their schedules and stuff 32 00:02:23.479 --> 00:02:28.719 like that. So that one was such a whirlwind of wins. I was 33 00:02:28.719 --> 00:02:30.400 like, oh my god, my gun. And I only did she reply, 34 00:02:30.520 --> 00:02:32.000 but she booked next week. It was like it was a super fast 35 00:02:32.000 --> 00:02:37.960 turnaround. Yeah. So we've been sitting on the secret for a while now, 36 00:02:38.039 --> 00:02:43.240 so that's been nice. Yeah, going back and editing and relistening. 37 00:02:43.240 --> 00:02:46.120 How are you feeling about it? I feel good. I really enjoyed the 38 00:02:46.719 --> 00:02:53.439 I really enjoyed the interview. I think like I think, like you know, 39 00:02:53.479 --> 00:02:59.520 we've had a lot of discussions with different types of people and like trying 40 00:02:59.520 --> 00:03:04.120 to find your sexuality, but I don't know if we've had someone who kind 41 00:03:04.159 --> 00:03:08.240 of has decided that their life purpose is going to help people with more of 42 00:03:08.319 --> 00:03:15.919 their sensuality with themselves. I think that was very fun to listen to and 43 00:03:15.520 --> 00:03:22.639 her going on this taking kind of taking this this weight of helping people feel 44 00:03:22.960 --> 00:03:28.280 very confident in there in themselves and in a very specific way, because if 45 00:03:28.319 --> 00:03:31.039 you think about it, you know, therapists and counselors, those are all 46 00:03:31.120 --> 00:03:34.719 very important, but they're very big on helping you with your mind to your 47 00:03:34.719 --> 00:03:38.439 mindset. And I think not only what she does is for mindset, but 48 00:03:38.520 --> 00:03:42.599 what can be challenging as she's taking on is she's changing the way people feel 49 00:03:42.599 --> 00:03:46.919 about their bodies as well. There's a lot of body work involved. You 50 00:03:46.960 --> 00:03:51.319 know, I follow Big Pussy Energy, which is her company on the instagrams, 51 00:03:51.560 --> 00:03:58.360 and she's got a masterclass coming up that I am going to be part 52 00:03:58.360 --> 00:04:00.080 of, so I could take a class as well. But there's a lot 53 00:04:00.120 --> 00:04:06.280 of feeling and looking at your body and feeling yourself and it kind of marries 54 00:04:06.560 --> 00:04:12.360 obviously, like mental and physical. I feel like that's really hard. Yeah, 55 00:04:12.479 --> 00:04:15.600 especially with us ladies, Like physicality is really hard to get over sometimes 56 00:04:15.600 --> 00:04:20.000 if we're not feeling confident or we're feeling unsure of ourselves. So, you 57 00:04:20.040 --> 00:04:25.680 know, big kudos taking on that kind of challenge because it's tough. Yeah, 58 00:04:25.839 --> 00:04:29.199 No, for sure, as confident as we may be in our bodies, 59 00:04:29.279 --> 00:04:31.079 like we're always going to have our down days, or we're gonna have 60 00:04:31.079 --> 00:04:33.759 certain clothes that we don't like to wear because if we think it xince she 61 00:04:33.800 --> 00:04:39.160 eats the wrong thing. You know, we all have insecurities. So the 62 00:04:39.199 --> 00:04:44.480 fact that that's part of her training, yeah, you know, I think 63 00:04:44.519 --> 00:04:47.360 that's really neat and really important and it can be really scary. So just 64 00:04:47.399 --> 00:04:50.959 taking that on, I'm really proud of her. Yeah, it's she's out 65 00:04:50.959 --> 00:04:55.240 there doing doing some good work, doing some good work. She was super 66 00:04:55.319 --> 00:04:58.920 vulnerable with us, talks to us about her recent relationship that at that point 67 00:04:59.000 --> 00:05:00.800 was recent at this point and is no longer as recent. And since it's 68 00:05:01.120 --> 00:05:04.480 been a few months. I think we recorded with her in December. Yeah, 69 00:05:04.879 --> 00:05:09.439 so it's been a whole quarter in some of new beginnings, they were 70 00:05:09.439 --> 00:05:14.079 always evolving. Things change every single month. So yeah, it'll be fun 71 00:05:14.120 --> 00:05:19.319 to listen back about her journey with old relationships and old feelings. I hope 72 00:05:19.319 --> 00:05:21.560 she listens to this and it's like, wow, look at me evolved, 73 00:05:21.639 --> 00:05:25.319 like she in the same place or she in a different place, you know 74 00:05:25.360 --> 00:05:29.920 what I mean? Yeah, anything you want to add, I don't think 75 00:05:29.920 --> 00:05:31.279 so. I'm just excited for people to hear this. So I think this 76 00:05:31.360 --> 00:05:36.720 is the first one that we've done that was such that it has been done 77 00:05:36.800 --> 00:05:42.040 in such a long time. How did I phrase? I phase that weird. 78 00:05:42.279 --> 00:05:45.160 It's like we haven't had one that we've just been sitting on for this 79 00:05:45.279 --> 00:05:47.279 long. That's so kind of like you said, like, I'm interested to 80 00:05:47.279 --> 00:05:53.040 see kind of and I'm excited for Bertini herself to hear it, to see 81 00:05:53.120 --> 00:06:00.959 kind of what changes have occurred, like if she's still like you, has 82 00:06:00.000 --> 00:06:05.920 those same thoughts or any of that kind of stuff, if her life in 83 00:06:06.000 --> 00:06:11.360 that amount of time has changed, or maybe I don't know what I'm trying 84 00:06:11.399 --> 00:06:13.439 to say. I know what you're trying to say. But also I don't 85 00:06:13.480 --> 00:06:15.279 think we gave her like a proper intro. Yeah, no, we did 86 00:06:15.319 --> 00:06:17.839 not. I'm really sorry about that. We'll keep getting better at this. 87 00:06:18.800 --> 00:06:25.040 So Brittini Brittini Burton is who she is, and you may know her from 88 00:06:25.800 --> 00:06:29.439 Below Deck down under the Peacock one. I believe. I think it's a 89 00:06:29.439 --> 00:06:32.160 Peacock exclusive. I might have made that up, might have just watched it 90 00:06:32.199 --> 00:06:36.959 on Peacock myself, and now I'm labeling it. But we talk about her 91 00:06:38.160 --> 00:06:42.879 journey after below Deck and what that goes into and the company that she started 92 00:06:43.000 --> 00:06:46.759 and her new line of work of helping people with their sensualities. I know 93 00:06:46.800 --> 00:06:49.560 I referred to her as a I think I recalled her a sensuality coach, 94 00:06:49.560 --> 00:06:55.439 but that's incorrect. So, yeah, she calls herself a sensuality facilitator, 95 00:06:56.360 --> 00:06:59.480 which is a really great way of putting it, instead of a sensuality foreman. 96 00:07:00.319 --> 00:07:02.000 Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, And I think she. I think 97 00:07:02.040 --> 00:07:05.839 in the episode she explains why facilitator is the more appropriate term. Yeah for 98 00:07:05.920 --> 00:07:09.279 her. Yeah, I know. It's really fun, really cool. So 99 00:07:09.639 --> 00:07:13.040 if you know her from those episodes, you know, you'll get to learn 100 00:07:13.079 --> 00:07:17.839 about what she's been working on ever since then and what her goals are now. 101 00:07:18.120 --> 00:07:23.120 Yeah. So I hope you guys enjoy this episode. I think this 102 00:07:23.199 --> 00:07:28.199 is our first person that has been televised like on the show as far as 103 00:07:28.240 --> 00:07:30.639 I know. I think so, so look at us goes. He's important 104 00:07:30.959 --> 00:07:33.720 for the ladies. I hope you guys enjoyed this episode. Brittany, she 105 00:07:34.240 --> 00:07:48.920 is a complete treat, have so much fun. I actually found you on 106 00:07:49.120 --> 00:07:53.879 it cracked me up because I found Big Pussy Energy and I was like, 107 00:07:53.920 --> 00:07:57.319 oh, this is so cool. It's relatively new. I'm looking through it 108 00:07:57.360 --> 00:07:59.800 and then your your handles in there and it's like found her and I'm like, 109 00:07:59.839 --> 00:08:01.519 oh, I wonder who the founder is. I looked and I was 110 00:08:01.560 --> 00:08:07.959 like, that's a very specific name, Routini. Why why do I why 111 00:08:09.040 --> 00:08:11.199 is this sticking with me? Why do I know a Routini? And I'm 112 00:08:11.240 --> 00:08:13.680 like oh. I started scrolling and I was like, I have seen two 113 00:08:13.759 --> 00:08:20.319 episode and I was like, oh, do you look at that? And 114 00:08:20.360 --> 00:08:22.519 that's the only one I've seen is the down Under one. It's been around 115 00:08:22.560 --> 00:08:26.800 for all my friends watch it. They've always been like, you should watch 116 00:08:26.839 --> 00:08:30.519 it. I see really good clips and such from different seasons, and I 117 00:08:30.600 --> 00:08:33.080 just was like, yeah, I'll get around to it. But yeah, 118 00:08:33.080 --> 00:08:35.399 I watched a few episodes and I was like, that's the only season I've 119 00:08:35.440 --> 00:08:37.879 seen is your season. So I was like, this hilarious one, so 120 00:08:39.360 --> 00:08:43.639 like blowdeck down Under that I was on the first season, So yeah, 121 00:08:43.679 --> 00:08:46.759 that's so funny. It's I like don't get that often in Austin because like 122 00:08:48.000 --> 00:08:52.120 the community and the people I magnetize and they magnetize me. Like most of 123 00:08:52.200 --> 00:08:56.639 us don't have cable or a TV. And I was on Watch What Happens 124 00:08:56.679 --> 00:09:00.399 Live like a month ago where I was flown to New York. I was 125 00:09:00.399 --> 00:09:03.960 on a talk show of Andy Cohen and like, I wanted to watch it 126 00:09:03.960 --> 00:09:07.759 and none of my friends had TV or cable, including myself, so we 127 00:09:07.799 --> 00:09:11.720 had to go to a bar to watch it. Was like none of my 128 00:09:11.759 --> 00:09:16.559 friends could watch it with me. That's amazing. Yeah, yeah, I 129 00:09:16.600 --> 00:09:20.120 saw your outfit in that and I was obsessed with your shoes. Oh my 130 00:09:20.159 --> 00:09:24.879 god. So that yea one. I was super bloated because of the gluten 131 00:09:24.960 --> 00:09:28.039 in New York. So I'm just like, that's just like funny to like 132 00:09:28.320 --> 00:09:31.519 look at myself and I'm like, that doesn't even look like me right now. 133 00:09:31.559 --> 00:09:35.279 But um, I told this. I hired a stylist, and I 134 00:09:35.399 --> 00:09:41.399 knew because I watched other episodes of Washhappens Live with fellow cast members that I 135 00:09:41.440 --> 00:09:45.639 was with that they don't really ask anything outside of the show, like it's 136 00:09:45.720 --> 00:09:48.399 only about the show, and for me, the show is a year ago, 137 00:09:48.519 --> 00:09:52.799 so it's more just like interactive like games and whatever. And so knowing 138 00:09:52.960 --> 00:09:56.320 that nothing about who I am now is going to be talked about, I 139 00:09:56.360 --> 00:09:58.759 told my stylist. I was like, so, I'm the founder of Bi 140 00:10:00.039 --> 00:10:01.919 the Energy, and I want to walk I want to look like the founder 141 00:10:01.960 --> 00:10:05.919 Big Post the Energy because people already know me as the female Dackhand and I 142 00:10:05.960 --> 00:10:09.519 know we're only going to be talking about what happened in my life a year 143 00:10:09.559 --> 00:10:13.480 ago. So I want to come to this show as who I am now. 144 00:10:13.519 --> 00:10:16.720 And so that's how we I told her the colors. I told her, 145 00:10:16.759 --> 00:10:20.639 like the Energy that I wanted to represent. My hair was big, 146 00:10:20.679 --> 00:10:24.440 like every little thing, every little like thing was actually really intentional with it. 147 00:10:26.039 --> 00:10:28.200 I love it. That is incredible because it did it get it. 148 00:10:28.679 --> 00:10:33.799 I resonate like those colors and that energy like with you and your brand. 149 00:10:33.919 --> 00:10:37.200 So it's working. You know exactly what you're doing. Thank you. Shoes 150 00:10:37.200 --> 00:10:43.600 are Versacchi. They were very like expanding like they just looked gorgeous. So 151 00:10:43.679 --> 00:10:46.639 I was like, I love this shoes. I just like scroll down, 152 00:10:46.679 --> 00:10:52.399 I'll just like these pink shoes are life there every fire? Yeah? Well 153 00:10:52.440 --> 00:10:56.799 how fun? Well I ergy by the way, how did I find it? 154 00:10:56.080 --> 00:11:01.399 Yeah? I was on Instagram and I think I looked up the words 155 00:11:01.440 --> 00:11:05.759 sensual. Oh okay cool. Yeah. I wasn't even looking for Austin. 156 00:11:05.879 --> 00:11:09.080 So when I saw that it was Austin based, I was like, what 157 00:11:09.240 --> 00:11:11.039 how have I not heard this? This is so neat. So it was 158 00:11:11.080 --> 00:11:15.240 just like one thing after another where I was like, amazing, Austin, 159 00:11:15.919 --> 00:11:18.960 M who dad? That seems were familiar? What a what a name to 160 00:11:18.039 --> 00:11:22.559 resonnate with me like Brittini And I was like I don't even know of Brittany 161 00:11:22.559 --> 00:11:26.200 in life. So Brittini. I was like, why do I know this 162 00:11:26.320 --> 00:11:28.840 name? And it took some stocking of yours to be like, ah, 163 00:11:28.879 --> 00:11:31.559 I know who this is very neat, and then it just kind of all 164 00:11:31.600 --> 00:11:35.320 fell together. And then when I saw like videos from Exposed, I was 165 00:11:35.399 --> 00:11:39.159 like, we're just running around in the same circles and just missing each other. 166 00:11:39.200 --> 00:11:41.600 By Bareley, Yeah, I love that. That's so Austin too. 167 00:11:43.120 --> 00:11:46.000 It's like you think you meet people and then they like someone that you know 168 00:11:46.080 --> 00:11:50.399 shows up to their party. That's like the weave and like the fabrics are 169 00:11:50.440 --> 00:11:54.879 so intertwined here. When you like know who you are, you magnetize those 170 00:11:54.919 --> 00:11:58.960 same people you know. Yeah. So you're originally from Michigan, right, 171 00:11:58.559 --> 00:12:03.840 yep, originally from Michigan. I'm twenty eight now, but I basically left 172 00:12:03.840 --> 00:12:09.200 Michigan when I graduate college and I just traveled for eight years. So I 173 00:12:09.200 --> 00:12:13.200 I've haven't really lived anywhere other than like a van or a hostel or a 174 00:12:13.279 --> 00:12:18.279 yacht in the in the eight year gap until I moved to Austin a year 175 00:12:18.279 --> 00:12:20.360 ago. So Austin's the first place that I've lived in since I was nineteen. 176 00:12:22.879 --> 00:12:24.960 Very cool. So you've been here for a while, yeah, which 177 00:12:26.000 --> 00:12:28.480 is a weird transition because I was so used to like saying like, oh 178 00:12:28.519 --> 00:12:31.919 I just moved here, but my year anniversaries on the twenty first of this 179 00:12:33.039 --> 00:12:37.879 month. Oh my god, that's so exciting. So yeah, so it's 180 00:12:37.960 --> 00:12:43.360 it feels really nourishing to be here, and like I said, my root 181 00:12:43.360 --> 00:12:48.440 shock or like the to be grounded somewhere like I haven't really experienced in eight 182 00:12:48.519 --> 00:12:52.080 years. And like I went to Tuloon last week and I realized, like 183 00:12:52.159 --> 00:12:58.120 I'm not ready to travel yet. Still something I'm really like neat, Like 184 00:12:58.159 --> 00:13:03.000 I love being rooted. That's amazing. And Austin's just such a fun place 185 00:13:03.039 --> 00:13:05.360 for that I'm sure you've seen. I mean we've only been here for five 186 00:13:05.440 --> 00:13:09.440 years. I'm from Houston originally and that's where we met. He's from Dallas. 187 00:13:09.519 --> 00:13:13.279 Yeah, so just in this last five years, we've seen so much 188 00:13:13.360 --> 00:13:18.120 change and how everything I'm like, all my favorite bars and restaurants are gone. 189 00:13:18.440 --> 00:13:24.480 And it's funny because like Austin seems like this is not me complaining about 190 00:13:24.480 --> 00:13:26.480 Austin by any stretch of the imagination, but it seems very more like your 191 00:13:26.600 --> 00:13:30.519 kind of thing. And you're talking about like you don't own a TV and 192 00:13:30.600 --> 00:13:33.039 all this, like it's very nature and hiking. And I heard like you're 193 00:13:33.039 --> 00:13:35.320 like I don't own a TV or cable and I'm like, oh my god, 194 00:13:37.000 --> 00:13:39.559 what do you do all day? How does that make any sense? 195 00:13:39.080 --> 00:13:43.799 So I have Netflix, so okay, there you go. We have a 196 00:13:43.840 --> 00:13:50.440 TV. But it's like I just use my laptop. Yeah, yeah, 197 00:13:50.559 --> 00:13:52.159 that makes sense. Well it's because you're also just like a movie person, 198 00:13:52.279 --> 00:13:56.480 so like she's obsessed with all things cinema. So people have lives and like 199 00:13:56.559 --> 00:14:03.000 self discover Yeah you can go outside, doesn't make it sense to make Oh 200 00:14:03.039 --> 00:14:05.759 my goodness. So something that really stood out to me seeing that you were 201 00:14:07.919 --> 00:14:11.039 essential empowerment coach, which I would love to learn the definition of what exactly 202 00:14:11.080 --> 00:14:16.279 the essential empowerment coach. Yeah, so I mean I really I that whole 203 00:14:16.360 --> 00:14:22.679 journey of like finding who I was as a title was a journey, and 204 00:14:22.840 --> 00:14:31.039 I've landed on central Empowerment Facilitator specifically because itsilitary. Yeah, because I am 205 00:14:31.279 --> 00:14:35.200 a person that curates space. I love like the more people, the better, 206 00:14:35.480 --> 00:14:39.919 Like one on one is something that I can do. However, I 207 00:14:39.960 --> 00:14:43.720 feel the most aligned in the most me in a really large group setting, 208 00:14:45.320 --> 00:14:50.240 and because of what I do which is like essentially empowering women through their bodies 209 00:14:50.279 --> 00:14:54.320 through movement. It's honestly, what from my experience, the more women that 210 00:14:54.360 --> 00:15:00.399 are there, the more permission they get from each other to embody their sensuality. 211 00:15:00.440 --> 00:15:03.200 So yeah, I could do one on ones, but then it's easy 212 00:15:03.240 --> 00:15:05.960 for them to compare themselves where they're at with me versus if they're in a 213 00:15:07.000 --> 00:15:11.279 room of one hundred women and they're seeing women with all different sizes, different 214 00:15:11.279 --> 00:15:16.039 age, different backgrounds doing this embodiment, it's practice. It just gives them 215 00:15:16.039 --> 00:15:20.039 so much for permission. And so that's where I landed on facilitator because I 216 00:15:20.080 --> 00:15:24.000 love it charges me up being in a group setting and events and retreats, 217 00:15:24.039 --> 00:15:28.320 like that's where I feel the most nourished. And then like sensual empowerment is 218 00:15:28.320 --> 00:15:33.360 really just yeah, I can like central embodiment is a tool that I use, 219 00:15:33.480 --> 00:15:35.399 and then I also use t working and lap dancing, So sensual embodiment 220 00:15:35.480 --> 00:15:37.919 is like the foundation. But really at the end of the day, I'm 221 00:15:37.919 --> 00:15:43.200 empowering you through the path of sensuality. Because empowerment, when you think about 222 00:15:43.200 --> 00:15:48.200 empowerment, like someone who's really empowered it's like they know three to sixty themselves. 223 00:15:48.200 --> 00:15:54.039 They know all themselves and they're they're owning it even though the spaces that 224 00:15:54.799 --> 00:15:56.960 right, like what I talk about centuality, so the space of being exiled 225 00:15:58.039 --> 00:16:03.000 or shamed or put down, we bring that up and a really soft and 226 00:16:03.120 --> 00:16:07.159 loving and like my groups are women based, so like you, a very 227 00:16:07.200 --> 00:16:11.120 like like comfortable space for women to really explore, so that you can bring 228 00:16:11.159 --> 00:16:14.279 out something that we have been told of exile and look at it and love 229 00:16:14.320 --> 00:16:17.960 it. And then you have this piece of the pie that naturally we're told 230 00:16:17.960 --> 00:16:19.480 not to look at, and you look at it, and that's where this 231 00:16:19.639 --> 00:16:23.879 empowerment just naturally comes through, because you are seeing a part of yourself that 232 00:16:23.919 --> 00:16:29.000 you've been told for so long not to ever look at, and we're bringing 233 00:16:29.039 --> 00:16:32.519 it out and loving it fully. So that's where empowerment comes from. I 234 00:16:32.519 --> 00:16:37.720 don't really teach empowerment like a mindset. It's like a natural antidote to like 235 00:16:37.840 --> 00:16:41.919 coming to BP. Yeah. Yeah, And I would love to hear more 236 00:16:41.919 --> 00:16:45.960 about your journey if you would like to share it, because on specifically a 237 00:16:45.960 --> 00:16:52.039 belowdeck you said something about how you didn't have romantic or physical connections in high 238 00:16:52.080 --> 00:16:56.320 school, and I loved that because I was a little hoe that's all I 239 00:16:56.320 --> 00:17:00.399 had. And so I was like, that's all because I met him and 240 00:17:00.399 --> 00:17:03.840 I was nineteen. So like I call my high school years my hoeing years 241 00:17:03.919 --> 00:17:06.759 because that's where I did when I did all my hookups and this, that 242 00:17:06.799 --> 00:17:08.279 and the third, and then I settled down with this one. You know, 243 00:17:08.359 --> 00:17:11.559 we're here like almost ten years later. So when you said that, 244 00:17:11.640 --> 00:17:15.720 I was like, oh, now she's like in this space. I want 245 00:17:15.759 --> 00:17:19.279 to know what was that aha moment to like finding your sensuality because my finding 246 00:17:19.279 --> 00:17:22.720 my sexuality I think has happened in the last five years, and it was 247 00:17:22.759 --> 00:17:29.240 taking dance lessons. I stripped for a while. I that was a big 248 00:17:29.240 --> 00:17:32.559 part of it. Was like I just want to explore my sensuality. Lap 249 00:17:32.680 --> 00:17:36.519 dances were very interesting for that reason. It was specifically with women, though 250 00:17:36.559 --> 00:17:38.880 I loved giving women lap dances, neither here nor there, but it was 251 00:17:38.920 --> 00:17:44.039 just a different experience. And yeah, lots of little things of just like 252 00:17:44.039 --> 00:17:47.400 feeling comfortable and confident in my own body and that kind of just like led 253 00:17:47.440 --> 00:17:49.440 into it. So I just wanted to hear about what that journey was like 254 00:17:49.519 --> 00:17:52.519 for you. Yeah, thank you, And I love that angle that you 255 00:17:52.640 --> 00:17:59.319 are giving it like high school, and it's interesting you saying that. It's 256 00:17:59.359 --> 00:18:02.599 like it's a great zoom out reflection of like who I am as an adult 257 00:18:02.640 --> 00:18:07.519 too, like to be completely like honest and transparent. Like sex for me, 258 00:18:07.599 --> 00:18:12.599 like the physical act of sex is something that even I would quote unquote 259 00:18:12.599 --> 00:18:18.640 saying my whole years wasn't something I chased after I go through really long periods 260 00:18:18.680 --> 00:18:22.759 of like not having penetration. So funny enough, I haven't like publicly said 261 00:18:22.759 --> 00:18:26.599 this, but like when I launched BP in September, I was like ten 262 00:18:26.640 --> 00:18:29.960 months cell of it, and like I like, I think it's been like 263 00:18:29.960 --> 00:18:32.759 eleven months, you know, so it's like and I'm not cell of it 264 00:18:32.880 --> 00:18:36.720 on purpose. It's just it's not like where I'm like I'm not having sex. 265 00:18:36.759 --> 00:18:40.079 It's just like I haven't found the person I want to open myself too. 266 00:18:40.119 --> 00:18:45.319 And so for me, like that's been like a big like mirror of 267 00:18:45.359 --> 00:18:47.839 just like how I've always been. I mean, we can go deep into 268 00:18:47.920 --> 00:18:52.880 like inner child and like my mom and all that. But yeah, so 269 00:18:52.039 --> 00:18:56.000 sex is never driving force. However, that was something that woke me up 270 00:18:56.039 --> 00:19:03.440 to my journey because I started my whole journey started to years ago a few 271 00:19:03.480 --> 00:19:07.079 facets because in my whole years, I would call it is when I was 272 00:19:07.319 --> 00:19:10.680 in yachting in twenty seventeen and I was like meeting all these people and we're 273 00:19:10.720 --> 00:19:14.480 young and we're honestly making a shit ton of money at like twenty one, 274 00:19:14.799 --> 00:19:18.200 and we're like people in Australia and South Africa, like you're just me a 275 00:19:18.200 --> 00:19:19.440 shit ton of people. So that was like when I like really explored my 276 00:19:19.440 --> 00:19:25.400 sexuality. But however, sex was so draining and no matter who the partner 277 00:19:25.480 --> 00:19:29.359 was, it was the same experience of just so much mental like I need 278 00:19:29.359 --> 00:19:33.599 to come to validate him and how he is and his ego, and it 279 00:19:33.640 --> 00:19:37.680 felt just like I remember, There'll be times where I would orgasm, but 280 00:19:37.720 --> 00:19:41.200 I would get a headache because I was concentrating. It was like a mental 281 00:19:41.319 --> 00:19:44.519 orgasm where I just like was like any organ and I would like puff it 282 00:19:44.559 --> 00:19:51.480 out, like straight it out from my head. And so I recognized that 283 00:19:51.519 --> 00:19:53.880 and I was like, Okay, maybe I'm just not someone that wants to 284 00:19:53.880 --> 00:19:57.720 do like friends of benefits or like surface level sex. So then I thought, 285 00:19:57.720 --> 00:20:00.119 okay, I need to get in a relationship ship so that I can 286 00:20:00.160 --> 00:20:06.359 experience emotional intimacy so that it flows into it more intimate sex life. So 287 00:20:06.400 --> 00:20:08.799 of course I get into a relationship. And this is like a few years 288 00:20:08.880 --> 00:20:14.160 later, and I'm traveling the world by myself and in Columbia and I meet 289 00:20:14.240 --> 00:20:17.400 someone and he lives in the UK and we start a long distance relationship. 290 00:20:17.440 --> 00:20:22.119 I eventually moved to the UK with him and for like five months, and 291 00:20:22.119 --> 00:20:27.400 it was during COVID, and in that I completely lost myself. There was 292 00:20:27.480 --> 00:20:33.480 like in the sense of like codependency, tendencies and a meshment and like just 293 00:20:33.599 --> 00:20:38.200 really wanting he was a partner. So I thought, if I have a 294 00:20:38.200 --> 00:20:41.000 boyfriend, that means I love him, and that means sex will be better. 295 00:20:41.039 --> 00:20:45.160 Like I just thought, I have the person that means I love him, 296 00:20:45.240 --> 00:20:47.839 But like that's not true. And I had to like, for me, 297 00:20:48.039 --> 00:20:52.400 that was something that I got to like physically experience for myself to recognize 298 00:20:52.400 --> 00:20:55.240 A plus B does not equal C. Right, you can't force yourself to 299 00:20:55.279 --> 00:21:00.000 love someone. And once I left that relationship and came back to the US, 300 00:21:00.240 --> 00:21:03.319 I recognized, oh my god, like even in a partnership, sex 301 00:21:03.400 --> 00:21:07.799 still felt pretty much the same, Like the undertone of it. And that's 302 00:21:07.839 --> 00:21:12.519 when I realized, Okay, this the only consistent thing is me. And 303 00:21:12.559 --> 00:21:15.319 I was already on a pretty spirit like I've pretty much always been on a 304 00:21:15.319 --> 00:21:18.440 spiritual journey. There was no like crazy awakening. It's kind of just always 305 00:21:18.440 --> 00:21:22.839 been an undertone in my life. So I had the awareness that I was 306 00:21:22.920 --> 00:21:27.279 pointing outwards and looking for sex and men and my orgasm and men. And 307 00:21:27.319 --> 00:21:32.920 so that's when I pointed the finger to myself and I created this whole like 308 00:21:33.039 --> 00:21:37.680 hibernating, dormant stage for five months when I was living my mom in Michigan 309 00:21:37.720 --> 00:21:41.880 in between travels, and I just really got into like feminine energy. It 310 00:21:41.960 --> 00:21:45.440 was more of a feminine energy journey that turned into a centual journey, and 311 00:21:45.519 --> 00:21:49.920 I read books from David Data, which explains the masculine feminine energies. And 312 00:21:51.039 --> 00:21:56.559 that's where I intunively found sensual movement in front of a mirror. I just 313 00:21:56.759 --> 00:22:00.960 intunively stood in front of a mirror, lights diem cadles On and like started 314 00:22:00.000 --> 00:22:03.200 moving for myself and touching my body not in a sexual way, but in 315 00:22:03.200 --> 00:22:08.400 a very sensual way. And that's what really woke me up to Holy crap, 316 00:22:08.440 --> 00:22:15.240 I've never felt so desired by something and it being myself, let alone 317 00:22:15.480 --> 00:22:18.920 in my life, Like I never felt so turned on, and to know 318 00:22:19.119 --> 00:22:23.440 that I could do it within myself for myself was a whole experience, which 319 00:22:23.640 --> 00:22:27.440 you know, fast forward two years is basically what I do for other women 320 00:22:27.640 --> 00:22:33.440 is to create that space. And like what really allowed me to wake up 321 00:22:33.480 --> 00:22:38.319 to that was giving myself the permission to touch myself and be slow and like 322 00:22:40.559 --> 00:22:42.200 their word voices of like, what are you doing and this is inappropriate? 323 00:22:42.200 --> 00:22:45.839 You're not supposed to do that when I'm in a room by myself. However, 324 00:22:45.920 --> 00:22:49.200 I allowed myself to just like buy like not pay attention to those voices. 325 00:22:51.279 --> 00:22:52.680 And the same thing when I taught myself how to twork. I taught 326 00:22:52.680 --> 00:22:57.079 myself how to twork in the hotel room in Australia when I ask quarantine before 327 00:22:57.079 --> 00:23:00.400 I got on below deck, we had to be quarantine in a whole about 328 00:23:00.400 --> 00:23:03.119 ourselves or two weeks. So I literally went on, you just love that 329 00:23:03.440 --> 00:23:10.279 work. Yeah, So all those little pockets where it wasn't like, oh 330 00:23:10.319 --> 00:23:12.519 I know how to twork, it was me giving myself the permission to look 331 00:23:12.559 --> 00:23:18.480 like a fucking idiot in front of the mirror and not judge myself for it 332 00:23:18.519 --> 00:23:23.240 and just be playful and give curiosity. And that's exactly what I bring into 333 00:23:23.319 --> 00:23:27.039 BPE is just this. I don't teach woman how to twork, like I'm 334 00:23:27.039 --> 00:23:30.759 like, you can do that on YouTube. There's so many videos. I 335 00:23:30.839 --> 00:23:33.160 literally just give you the space and like the energy of like you like, 336 00:23:33.480 --> 00:23:37.079 girl, you got it, Like who gives a fuck? Your booty is 337 00:23:37.079 --> 00:23:41.000 moving. That's all that tworking is. It doesn't look a certain way. 338 00:23:41.240 --> 00:23:45.799 And so that's basically my journey. If that answers it. No, that 339 00:23:45.920 --> 00:23:48.240 was everything, everything and more they could have asked for. So that's thank 340 00:23:48.240 --> 00:23:52.640 you so much for sharing because it's almost it's a very scary thing, like 341 00:23:52.720 --> 00:23:57.400 finding that feminine energy in yourself or essensuality in yourself, because it is such 342 00:23:57.440 --> 00:24:02.799 a repress no, no thing, like I don't I don't know, especially 343 00:24:02.839 --> 00:24:06.680 growing up where just even just the act of like, uh, female has 344 00:24:06.680 --> 00:24:08.960 sex, like that's not great. And then when guys was their virginity, 345 00:24:08.960 --> 00:24:11.559 it's like praised, so like you know, from such a young age, 346 00:24:11.559 --> 00:24:15.200 we're all just kind of told to put that aside and don't talk about it. 347 00:24:15.680 --> 00:24:19.799 Yeah, And I think that was a big moment for me, even 348 00:24:19.799 --> 00:24:22.799 in high school. I think by my senior year, I was like, 349 00:24:22.920 --> 00:24:27.000 I don't care if people know that I have sex because everyone else is doing 350 00:24:27.039 --> 00:24:30.799 it, and if they're going to judge me for it, I mean, 351 00:24:30.839 --> 00:24:33.200 I guess that's fine, but everyone's doing I'm not doing anything different than what 352 00:24:33.200 --> 00:24:36.759 the guys are doing or what other girls are doing. But for some reason, 353 00:24:36.759 --> 00:24:40.240 I'm being I'm being targeted about it. So like just giving your your 354 00:24:40.279 --> 00:24:41.799 self permission was the best way you could have put it up. Just like, 355 00:24:41.839 --> 00:24:45.000 I'm just gonna live, I'm gonna feel good, I'm gonna feel great. 356 00:24:47.160 --> 00:24:52.039 I think also like finding that sexuality and sensuality within yourself. I think 357 00:24:52.079 --> 00:24:56.039 like a lot of us find it through other people or that's how we kind 358 00:24:56.039 --> 00:25:00.640 of get that. Like I feel sexy because as us or other person thinks 359 00:25:00.680 --> 00:25:03.599 I'm sexy, and for you to be able to kind of just like take 360 00:25:03.640 --> 00:25:08.400 a moment and go, no, I want to feel sexy because I think 361 00:25:08.480 --> 00:25:12.640 I'm sexy or i think I'm sensual, you know. I think is a 362 00:25:14.079 --> 00:25:17.599 great way to go about it. It's a tough way to go about it, 363 00:25:17.720 --> 00:25:19.319 but it's a great way to go about it. Yeah, a few 364 00:25:19.400 --> 00:25:25.079 things that I like felt through that is like when you picture like, oh, 365 00:25:25.160 --> 00:25:27.359 come with your cup full so that the other cup isn't like so that 366 00:25:27.400 --> 00:25:30.720 they don't have to drink or like fill your cup up. That's exactly what 367 00:25:30.839 --> 00:25:33.039 this is. So like in two three years ago, when I was just 368 00:25:33.119 --> 00:25:37.880 having sex, like I energetically was having them fill up my cup to make 369 00:25:38.000 --> 00:25:41.640 me know that I'm sexy or worthy or enough. And of course, I'll 370 00:25:41.680 --> 00:25:45.559 be honest, like there are still flavors of that I'm not like this like 371 00:25:47.920 --> 00:25:52.759 overly healed human like sure, different flavors in that. However, like now 372 00:25:52.000 --> 00:25:56.279 I'm coming with my cups so filled of like I am fucking sexy, and 373 00:25:56.640 --> 00:26:00.200 I know that not from an outside at this point, but like because I 374 00:26:00.400 --> 00:26:07.480 feel so like attack like attuned to my body and I know what my body 375 00:26:07.640 --> 00:26:11.680 like looks and feels like. And I worship her so that means you get 376 00:26:11.720 --> 00:26:15.000 to worship her too, And so that's like I've been a really big journey 377 00:26:15.039 --> 00:26:18.440 and so for me, these two like these two years of my journey where 378 00:26:18.480 --> 00:26:22.279 actually, like like I mentioned softly, like sex hasn't been a huge thing 379 00:26:22.359 --> 00:26:25.480 and like, yeah, I've had sex in those two years, but it 380 00:26:25.599 --> 00:26:30.160 wasn't a huge part of the my sensual journey honestly, not too much. 381 00:26:32.880 --> 00:26:37.200 And that's like where I am like teaching women right now is like sensuality for 382 00:26:37.319 --> 00:26:41.599 you and self pleasure and I like don't even really call it masturbation. It's 383 00:26:41.640 --> 00:26:45.839 like a self pleasure ritual. And it's interesting because now my personal life, 384 00:26:47.319 --> 00:26:52.960 I'm energetically now opening myself up to experiencing myself in sex with a man now, 385 00:26:53.240 --> 00:26:57.000 like I'm like open to it. And so it's really cool because I 386 00:26:57.119 --> 00:27:02.000 know in like two years or like the year that's gonna be BPE as well. 387 00:27:02.400 --> 00:27:06.799 But it's cool to see like how BPE shows up and it's like showing 388 00:27:06.880 --> 00:27:08.960 what I've been doing. And now right when I start a BP, I'm 389 00:27:10.039 --> 00:27:11.160 like, Okay, now I'm ready for the next phase, which is like 390 00:27:11.480 --> 00:27:15.880 showing up for me but in a space with the masculine as well, because 391 00:27:15.880 --> 00:27:21.200 the past two years it's really just been me. Right, I love this, 392 00:27:21.400 --> 00:27:23.160 this thinks He's so happy. This conversation fills my cup. Do you 393 00:27:23.200 --> 00:27:29.359 think in the times in the past two years where you have had sex and 394 00:27:29.559 --> 00:27:32.519 kind of you've had this journey, do you think it's taken some of the 395 00:27:32.680 --> 00:27:40.119 pressure off of sex. Um Like Okay, so that's a really good question 396 00:27:40.240 --> 00:27:44.000 because it's really interesting. In the two years, like every person that I've 397 00:27:44.039 --> 00:27:48.359 had sex with has been like a very like conscious decision as well, Like 398 00:27:48.319 --> 00:27:51.480 I mean, yeah, sure, I think I've had like two one night 399 00:27:51.559 --> 00:27:53.839 stands in the two years, and those weren't super conscious, but you know, 400 00:27:53.920 --> 00:28:00.440 it is good. But they each have showed me where I'm at my 401 00:28:00.559 --> 00:28:04.920 journey, honestly, Like the man that I chose show me where I'm at 402 00:28:04.960 --> 00:28:10.200 in my journey, and then how I related to myself in sex, show 403 00:28:10.240 --> 00:28:15.559 me where I'm at my journey. And up until like very recently, I 404 00:28:15.680 --> 00:28:21.400 still felt the undertones of like needing to perform, which is a huge and 405 00:28:21.480 --> 00:28:25.400 that's something I like symbol and code into BPE, like this is not performance, 406 00:28:25.440 --> 00:28:27.039 Like when I teach lap dancing, we are not performing. We're not 407 00:28:27.160 --> 00:28:30.839 doing this for the person the chair. This is for you and the person 408 00:28:30.880 --> 00:28:34.039 the chairs is witnessing you. So there's a lot of like when I teach 409 00:28:34.319 --> 00:28:38.759 lap dancing and tweking, like there's so much symbolism and like coding frequency underneath 410 00:28:38.799 --> 00:28:41.640 it. But when it comes to me and how I relate to sex, 411 00:28:41.759 --> 00:28:45.799 like, honestly, like the reason why I'm doing this is because sex and 412 00:28:45.960 --> 00:28:49.640 like intimacy is a huge pain pain point in my life. Not huge, 413 00:28:49.680 --> 00:28:52.799 but like it is the pain point in my life, and which is why 414 00:28:52.799 --> 00:28:56.799 I'm so passionate about it and why I'm like constantly like growing and searching for 415 00:28:56.920 --> 00:28:59.519 it. Because if it was such it was an easy thing for me, 416 00:28:59.559 --> 00:29:03.200 I probably want to go so deep and like make a business about sensuality, 417 00:29:03.240 --> 00:29:10.440 you know. So yeah, it's definitely it's helped. And it's amazing to 418 00:29:10.599 --> 00:29:17.880 experience myself insects now because it is showing me how much sensual embodiment and being 419 00:29:17.920 --> 00:29:22.279 a tune to myself has helped me in the bedroom. And it's not a 420 00:29:22.400 --> 00:29:27.440 mental thing, like I haven't like mentally changed my mental patterns. It's more 421 00:29:27.519 --> 00:29:32.119 like I'm just so in my body and like there's no need for a certain 422 00:29:32.200 --> 00:29:45.240 outcome. Now, Hey, beautiful bitches, have you heard of our Patreon 423 00:29:45.359 --> 00:29:48.720 yet? This is a really great exclusive place where you can get two bonus 424 00:29:48.759 --> 00:29:52.119 odes a month, monthly live streams, a private discord to chat with us, 425 00:29:52.160 --> 00:29:56.519 and all kinds of bonuses and extras. You don't want to miss it, 426 00:29:56.640 --> 00:29:59.039 so head over to Patreon, or you can click the link in a 427 00:29:59.119 --> 00:30:03.640 description. You can even head to our website at www dot cricket bunnymedia dot 428 00:30:03.720 --> 00:30:07.480 com and click the Bottled Up Bitch's icon. Join our Patreon, join the 429 00:30:07.559 --> 00:30:11.559 fun, and enjoy all the exclusive benefits to become a very important bitch. 430 00:30:22.519 --> 00:30:26.319 I really appreciate you sharing all of this because I know, at least for 431 00:30:26.519 --> 00:30:29.400 us, in this situation of having a sex podcast, people will be like, 432 00:30:29.480 --> 00:30:33.400 oh, you must have been raised like in a super open type of 433 00:30:33.519 --> 00:30:37.359 home and like making a lot of different assumptions about how I must have been 434 00:30:37.440 --> 00:30:40.640 raised to be so open, and I'm like, no, majority of that 435 00:30:40.839 --> 00:30:42.920 is not true. And in your case as well, I you know, 436 00:30:42.960 --> 00:30:48.039 I think people would make an easy assumption that, oh, if you're essensual 437 00:30:48.200 --> 00:30:52.799 empowerment facilitator, like oh, you must either have lots of sex or you're 438 00:30:52.880 --> 00:30:56.720 very experience and you're the most confident and you're all these different things like you 439 00:30:56.039 --> 00:31:00.640 like you were just born this way and so you've been so vulnerable. Is 440 00:31:00.680 --> 00:31:04.440 saying like, no, y'all, this is tough. It is so important 441 00:31:04.519 --> 00:31:08.599 because you know, a big piece of this podcast is I want friends to 442 00:31:08.680 --> 00:31:12.119 be able to have conversations with their friends. I've been in friendships where I 443 00:31:12.160 --> 00:31:17.400 can't even talk about my sex life without someone being uncomfortable, and so teaching 444 00:31:17.480 --> 00:31:21.640 people to be comfortable with themselves doing it in a space with other women can 445 00:31:21.680 --> 00:31:25.319 be so scary. So there's teaching people how to be vulnerable with themselves and 446 00:31:25.400 --> 00:31:27.759 with each other. That the shit's just so important. Yeah, and I've 447 00:31:27.880 --> 00:31:33.240 definitely felt that pressure. I didn't know, like I no one told me 448 00:31:33.359 --> 00:31:36.799 that, but it just felt like that. And I can just like energetically 449 00:31:36.920 --> 00:31:40.359 feel that, like the assumptions that people would make, and like I've said, 450 00:31:40.400 --> 00:31:45.519 like sex is something that like isn't the thing that I chase after, 451 00:31:45.279 --> 00:31:49.640 right, and so and like how I experience like they're like literally the reason 452 00:31:49.640 --> 00:31:52.599 why I started this is because like sex was so shitty and dull, so 453 00:31:52.759 --> 00:31:57.119 like that was like my driving force. And so in feeling that pressure, 454 00:31:57.920 --> 00:32:00.720 I was like, this is me. And then like also feeling like if 455 00:32:00.759 --> 00:32:04.000 I show up in the bedroom of a man, they're going to assume. 456 00:32:05.240 --> 00:32:09.519 But yeah, like the best thing to alcimize any like like this is anyone 457 00:32:09.720 --> 00:32:15.319 with anything, like to alcimize any pressure just to be super vulnerable and like 458 00:32:15.440 --> 00:32:19.160 open and honest and like, yeah, people will assume like I am an 459 00:32:19.240 --> 00:32:23.240 expert and what I do in ways, and I'm also like a student, 460 00:32:23.359 --> 00:32:28.079 like a very humble student. I'm just like maybe a few steps ahead of 461 00:32:28.279 --> 00:32:31.160 my clients and that's all that needs to be done. And I'm on this 462 00:32:31.400 --> 00:32:36.799 journey just a few steps ahead so that I can like help and like so 463 00:32:36.960 --> 00:32:38.720 I can still relate to people, because if I was someone who was like 464 00:32:39.400 --> 00:32:44.480 was orgasms were so fucking easy for me. And I'm teaching women how to 465 00:32:44.599 --> 00:32:46.519 orgasm, I probably wouldn't know how to teach them, or like I wouldn't 466 00:32:46.519 --> 00:32:51.039 know how to relate to their like challenges or the mental blacks given I'm not 467 00:32:51.119 --> 00:32:52.160 teaching. That's not what I teach. I don't teach women will rise. 468 00:32:52.559 --> 00:32:59.359 However, like good organ good better orgasms, and like experiencing yourself insects can 469 00:32:59.480 --> 00:33:04.400 be as all to being essentially embodied, so they are LinkedIn ways. But 470 00:33:04.519 --> 00:33:07.720 yeah, I'm on this journey like so humbly, and the more I the 471 00:33:07.920 --> 00:33:14.400 more I expose it, the more I feel like bigger and more empowered, 472 00:33:14.519 --> 00:33:20.160 because like feeling the pressure just makes me want to crunch and feel like feel 473 00:33:20.200 --> 00:33:27.200 small. Yeah, uh, this is my favorite. That's incredible. I 474 00:33:27.519 --> 00:33:31.160 because I didn't start orgasming until I was twenty three and I was already married, 475 00:33:31.240 --> 00:33:34.079 so like it's my favorite thing to be. Like I put a lot 476 00:33:34.119 --> 00:33:37.839 of trust in him because I was not I was not finishing when I was 477 00:33:37.240 --> 00:33:40.400 married. But what taught me, Like what what got me there was I 478 00:33:40.920 --> 00:33:45.599 had I was so scared of toys, so like I introduced a toy and 479 00:33:45.839 --> 00:33:50.200 that was so scary because I really had to just like sit there with myself 480 00:33:50.359 --> 00:33:52.079 and I was like, well, I have to set the mood for myself, 481 00:33:52.119 --> 00:33:55.119 Like what do I find sexy? How do I find myself sensual? 482 00:33:55.319 --> 00:34:00.200 Like I have to be really vulnerable with myself in this moment win and I 483 00:34:00.319 --> 00:34:04.440 also have I know Adam struggles with this too, Like we both have like 484 00:34:04.559 --> 00:34:07.960 this really intense like pressure in mind even that we've been together for eight years, 485 00:34:08.079 --> 00:34:10.920 Like just being vulnerable with ourselves and not letting our mind wander of like 486 00:34:12.800 --> 00:34:15.639 in my sexy year is this is this going well? Or what are we 487 00:34:15.719 --> 00:34:20.800 eating for dinner later? But having to be vulnerable with yourself is is a 488 00:34:20.960 --> 00:34:24.000 complete journey no matter how or what way you go about it. It's insane. 489 00:34:24.800 --> 00:34:29.920 Yeah, Like when like a big thing that I relate to and I 490 00:34:30.000 --> 00:34:35.079 haven't like is people say performance anxiety, and they usually relate it to like 491 00:34:35.280 --> 00:34:38.960 man and like the erection and how long they can last. But I relate 492 00:34:39.000 --> 00:34:42.800 to performance anxiety in the sense of being a woman, Like they're like, 493 00:34:42.880 --> 00:34:45.440 okay, I need to come, or like if I'm not coming fast enough, 494 00:34:45.519 --> 00:34:50.239 So performing anxiety, I like really relate to that, and I get 495 00:34:50.280 --> 00:34:53.360 it. It's a very like, um, it's like not for me. 496 00:34:53.480 --> 00:35:00.480 It was like not giving myself the space to like experience pleasure. I like 497 00:35:00.599 --> 00:35:05.960 I could orgasm, but what I used to do is just like bypass and 498 00:35:06.039 --> 00:35:07.719 be like, oh no, I'm fine, I don't need it. Like 499 00:35:07.760 --> 00:35:09.280 I just wouldn't even have it because I didn't want to. Like it was 500 00:35:09.320 --> 00:35:13.519 like there was too much pressure that I put on myself to orgasm ing and 501 00:35:13.639 --> 00:35:16.519 then like also feeling like I'm being pressured to go quicker. So I just 502 00:35:16.599 --> 00:35:22.760 like would like excuse myself from it. Which now it's like being essentially embodied 503 00:35:22.800 --> 00:35:24.440 like through my journey. It's not like that at all, but I've been 504 00:35:24.519 --> 00:35:28.039 there where I like just told a guy. I know I don't need it. 505 00:35:29.000 --> 00:35:31.559 Yeah, do you find out that you've you're going through this journey and 506 00:35:31.639 --> 00:35:36.840 that you're feeling very confident that you're attracting the right type of whether it's a 507 00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:39.440 relationship, a friendship, people in your life. Do you feel like you're 508 00:35:39.480 --> 00:35:45.719 attracting better people that you're surrounding yourself with or um. Yeah, I feel 509 00:35:45.719 --> 00:35:49.679 like in general, I've pretty I've always like had I feel like that wasn't 510 00:35:49.719 --> 00:35:52.800 a huge thing, like an issue, but it's been really interesting to like 511 00:35:52.280 --> 00:35:55.639 now, like recently, I'm in this phase like I kind of woke up 512 00:35:57.039 --> 00:36:00.480 when I was in Tuloom last week where you know, I start a BP 513 00:36:00.719 --> 00:36:02.360 because it's a passion, it's a I have a vision. I'm like, 514 00:36:02.480 --> 00:36:06.360 this is an impact, this is a movement, Like we need this, 515 00:36:06.639 --> 00:36:09.320 we meaning women, the US UK, like we all need it, I 516 00:36:09.400 --> 00:36:15.199 say, as a world experience in the next five years. But I didn't 517 00:36:15.280 --> 00:36:20.079 realize, like, Okay, this is actually a business and I need to 518 00:36:20.119 --> 00:36:23.280 put a business hat on and like actually figure out how to make it a 519 00:36:23.320 --> 00:36:28.280 business so that the impact can be created. And when I put that hat 520 00:36:28.360 --> 00:36:32.119 on, like man, I like woke up to like if it's not aligned, 521 00:36:32.280 --> 00:36:35.360 if it's not a full fuck, yes, I'm not doing it. 522 00:36:35.880 --> 00:36:38.800 And so this past week has been a huge theme of that. So I'm 523 00:36:38.880 --> 00:36:46.159 like, recently it's been this time of like really recognizing what is in alignment 524 00:36:46.239 --> 00:36:51.880 with me and my vision, and so that has been you know, I 525 00:36:52.000 --> 00:36:57.400 want to call it burning bridges, but like making putting, letting people down 526 00:36:57.880 --> 00:37:02.159 because I knew it wasn't in alignment with me, and the people I have 527 00:37:02.280 --> 00:37:09.519 attracted in Austin have been like amazing, amazing, an amazing community. I 528 00:37:09.559 --> 00:37:14.599 don't vp would not be where at all if it wasn't for the support that 529 00:37:14.679 --> 00:37:19.639 I've had here, Like truly, it's it's at my launch party, I 530 00:37:19.760 --> 00:37:22.000 like cut a ribbon with big gass scissors, Like I'm like a double leo. 531 00:37:22.199 --> 00:37:25.880 I'm like, we're doing the ribbon cutting. And when I cut the 532 00:37:27.000 --> 00:37:30.320 ribbon, I was upstate, I was on a stage by myself, but 533 00:37:30.719 --> 00:37:32.679 I said, like, this is not just me cutting a ribbon. This 534 00:37:32.880 --> 00:37:37.480 is the hundred of women that came to all my classes, and then the 535 00:37:37.840 --> 00:37:39.440 few women who were in the front lines with me when I felt like I 536 00:37:39.519 --> 00:37:44.320 couldn't do it or like who am I to do it like there's a whole 537 00:37:44.519 --> 00:37:49.800 army energetically behind me, and so yeah, I do feel like you know, 538 00:37:50.000 --> 00:37:54.639 I of course I've magnetized really powerful people in my life because of essential 539 00:37:54.719 --> 00:38:00.840 environment, but also just like who I am. Yeah, yeah, I 540 00:38:00.960 --> 00:38:04.800 feel very similar. You know, sometimes you just realize that people are in 541 00:38:04.840 --> 00:38:08.639 different seasons and you're like, that was really great and it doesn't make sense 542 00:38:08.719 --> 00:38:13.800 anymore this does, you know? Figuring that out, I think is also 543 00:38:13.920 --> 00:38:16.800 a big part of finding self confidence because I feel like, whether it's in 544 00:38:16.880 --> 00:38:21.280 a relationship or a friendship, people have we all have a tendency to stay 545 00:38:21.679 --> 00:38:23.320 in things that no longer serve us for way too long, just because either 546 00:38:23.360 --> 00:38:29.000 we're afraid of change or we're afraid of letting somebody down or making them feel 547 00:38:29.039 --> 00:38:30.880 bad. I used to stay in relationships for too long because I was like, 548 00:38:31.239 --> 00:38:35.920 their parents are going to hate me. I still always think about the 549 00:38:36.039 --> 00:38:38.239 parents, and that's like why I would stay in a relationship long, because 550 00:38:38.239 --> 00:38:42.360 it's like other parents really like me and they'll be really upset that they find 551 00:38:42.400 --> 00:38:45.840 out I broke up with their son. Yeah. I think that's a big 552 00:38:45.920 --> 00:38:52.880 trust muscle exercise. Like, you know, I like I saw I was 553 00:38:52.960 --> 00:38:58.840 seeing someone a year ago. I knew he wasn't my person, and but 554 00:38:59.519 --> 00:39:04.119 we were exploring sex together and we both stated, okay, we're not going 555 00:39:04.159 --> 00:39:07.280 to ever date, like we knew that. However, there was something that 556 00:39:07.440 --> 00:39:10.760 we knew was really that we were meant to experience together through sex, like 557 00:39:10.880 --> 00:39:15.119 he was really healing in like a divine masculine archaetype, I would say, 558 00:39:15.159 --> 00:39:17.559 and like the first man that I feel like it could be called a divine 559 00:39:17.599 --> 00:39:22.360 masculine that I've experienced in my life. And knowing that he wasn't my person, 560 00:39:22.880 --> 00:39:25.320 you know, causes anxiety of like oh my god, like what's the 561 00:39:25.400 --> 00:39:30.400 point that you get in your head? But there was this natural knowing of 562 00:39:30.880 --> 00:39:36.679 like after six weeks where I felt like there was this culmination of like all 563 00:39:36.760 --> 00:39:40.800 the lessons that I learned from him felt complete, and if we were going 564 00:39:40.880 --> 00:39:45.440 to continue seeing each other, it would only be for sex, but it 565 00:39:45.480 --> 00:39:47.199 wouldn't like we were seeing each other for sex. But it was like in 566 00:39:47.239 --> 00:39:52.119 a very healthy like every time we came to each other, like we were 567 00:39:52.239 --> 00:39:55.360 learning more and going deeper. Whereas there was this moment of like, Okay, 568 00:39:55.639 --> 00:39:59.519 this is where the plateau is this is a natural end, and so 569 00:39:59.639 --> 00:40:02.519 we both chose to end it. And that's the season thing that you're saying, 570 00:40:02.559 --> 00:40:09.280 Like, I learned so much in that experience, and I also showed 571 00:40:09.360 --> 00:40:13.880 up for myself and saying like knowing when it was going, like when we 572 00:40:14.320 --> 00:40:20.239 were meant to end. And I think that's such a valuable tool to show 573 00:40:20.320 --> 00:40:22.559 yourself that like I don't need to know the outcome of this, I just 574 00:40:22.719 --> 00:40:27.480 need to trust that, like I will know when I will know. You 575 00:40:27.559 --> 00:40:30.480 know, yeah, I think we all feel it, and it's a matter 576 00:40:30.559 --> 00:40:36.239 of having that internal mindset to know it's okay, it's okay for things to 577 00:40:36.360 --> 00:40:38.000 run its course. That doesn't make them a bad person. It doesn't make 578 00:40:38.039 --> 00:40:42.000 you a bad person. It just doesn't make sense anymore. And it's ran, 579 00:40:42.039 --> 00:40:44.320 it's ran, it's time, and you know, yeah, I think 580 00:40:44.400 --> 00:40:46.280 there's also that fear of like, well I have it again or or I 581 00:40:46.360 --> 00:40:51.239 mean that's me because I go long stent without sach. So I'm like, 582 00:40:52.039 --> 00:40:55.199 you know, so like that's that I could see that being something that would 583 00:40:55.239 --> 00:41:00.599 hold people too is like lack almost like what's the next one. But it's 584 00:41:00.639 --> 00:41:07.360 just like trusting in yourself and like since then I've done. I mean that 585 00:41:07.480 --> 00:41:08.920 was like a year ago, and since then, I've done so much. 586 00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:13.599 I started business and done so much. And I recently started seeing someone now, 587 00:41:13.679 --> 00:41:17.000 and so there was like a year of like like completely no sexual like 588 00:41:17.760 --> 00:41:22.280 energy with another person. And so to be able to compare who I was 589 00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:25.199 a year ago to who I am now with a man, it's like a 590 00:41:25.280 --> 00:41:31.000 completely different experience. I bet, I bet it feels much different, but 591 00:41:31.119 --> 00:41:35.960 in the best way. Yeah, I mean, and this person is someone 592 00:41:36.039 --> 00:41:38.840 that I wouldn't I don't see myself with either, and so I and I 593 00:41:38.960 --> 00:41:44.119 told him that, like he's very understanding, and it's me coming back to 594 00:41:44.239 --> 00:41:47.440 the trust of Okay, I will know when this is going to be done 595 00:41:47.480 --> 00:41:51.679 and when it's going to end, you know, because of course there's we 596 00:41:51.840 --> 00:41:53.719 go through all these fears of like, oh, in the past whatever, 597 00:41:53.880 --> 00:41:59.719 But yeah, showing up for myself and this experience has been I mean super 598 00:42:00.039 --> 00:42:04.880 powering because I'm like patting myself on the back of how like I am the 599 00:42:05.079 --> 00:42:09.360 woman that I wanted to be two years ago, and of course I saw 600 00:42:09.519 --> 00:42:13.800 more and more, but like, um, yeah, I'm just it's been 601 00:42:13.880 --> 00:42:17.960 a really beautiful, like journey to be a part of that's on growth. 602 00:42:19.239 --> 00:42:22.280 That's on growth right there. We'd love to see it, yeah, to 603 00:42:22.840 --> 00:42:25.000 clarify, to kind of understand your journey and where you're at. When you 604 00:42:25.119 --> 00:42:29.480 said, like, I'm the person I'm with now is not someone I see 605 00:42:29.559 --> 00:42:32.760 myself. Are you saying that you are at this point acknowledging that, like 606 00:42:34.159 --> 00:42:37.679 you're you're currently not seeing yourself with this person long term, or are you 607 00:42:37.840 --> 00:42:39.760 like doing that like this is someone I couldn't have seen myself with two years 608 00:42:39.800 --> 00:42:45.039 ago. No, No, oh, well I know my old self maybe 609 00:42:45.079 --> 00:42:49.880 two years ago might have wished like even though I knew, even though I 610 00:42:50.039 --> 00:42:52.559 know my two year ago self would know, Okay, this is not my 611 00:42:52.679 --> 00:42:54.320 person. However I would want I would want him to be in person just 612 00:42:54.360 --> 00:43:00.519 because pulls up this this hole. Yeah. However, now I'm like, 613 00:43:00.599 --> 00:43:06.920 Okay, he is not my person. And I also want to experience myself 614 00:43:07.119 --> 00:43:12.280 with insects because it's been a while, and I want to experience myself like 615 00:43:12.880 --> 00:43:16.559 being in my feminine while being held by the masculine, you know, and 616 00:43:16.960 --> 00:43:21.719 honestly, like there's been triggers that have been brought up because in a healthy 617 00:43:21.800 --> 00:43:25.559 way where I could feel the energetic currents of like, oh I need to 618 00:43:25.599 --> 00:43:30.039 come fast and like those old patterns, those old beliefs from two years ago, 619 00:43:30.159 --> 00:43:34.679 and the whole reason why I started this journey came back and I was 620 00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:37.639 like, I went through this whole week of like, oh my god, 621 00:43:37.800 --> 00:43:40.280 imposter syndrome, like I didn't learn anything those two years or just awash. 622 00:43:40.960 --> 00:43:45.400 However, those were just showed me to remind me like, Okay, this 623 00:43:45.519 --> 00:43:49.320 is where you once were. And then a week later we met up again 624 00:43:49.400 --> 00:43:53.920 and I showed up super just like in my fullest expression and like showed up 625 00:43:54.679 --> 00:43:59.719 as who I am now, and it just allowed me to see the contrast 626 00:44:00.519 --> 00:44:04.280 and so you can do for me. I feel like I have done so 627 00:44:04.519 --> 00:44:08.239 much on my own and now I get to like this is my my period 628 00:44:08.280 --> 00:44:15.039 where I really get to practice and like use the tools out in life now. 629 00:44:15.199 --> 00:44:20.440 Yeah. Yeah, growth doesn't happen in a straight line, so there's 630 00:44:20.440 --> 00:44:24.000 always going to be these weird little divots and dips of refiguring something else out 631 00:44:24.039 --> 00:44:28.599 that you haven't had to deal with the fact. But I also, very 632 00:44:28.639 --> 00:44:32.199 selfishly, I love that you're almost using, not using, but like the 633 00:44:32.360 --> 00:44:37.119 experience of this person that you're with that you recognize like this isn't long term 634 00:44:37.159 --> 00:44:38.440 for me, that you're using this as like a tool, as like an 635 00:44:38.519 --> 00:44:44.039 learning opportunity, and it makes me so happy. You're like, I've been 636 00:44:44.199 --> 00:44:46.199 very honest, like I don't know this is this isn't the this isn't gonna 637 00:44:46.280 --> 00:44:50.000 last forever. But I've got some things to figure out, so let's just 638 00:44:50.039 --> 00:44:52.960 figure this out together. It's great and he knows, Like, man, 639 00:44:52.440 --> 00:44:55.719 he knows. I told him day one. I was one day one, 640 00:44:55.760 --> 00:45:00.280 like day two, right when I was able to fill into our dynamic mix. 641 00:45:01.039 --> 00:45:07.960 But him being in my life has just really like shown me and like 642 00:45:07.239 --> 00:45:13.320 it's like it's been a beautiful practice of me speaking my needs because I mean, 643 00:45:13.400 --> 00:45:15.320 I don't know how this is going to come across, but there's a 644 00:45:15.360 --> 00:45:17.559 low it's a low cost, or it's a low like I know he's not 645 00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:22.280 my person and I'm not his person, and I know that like we are 646 00:45:22.360 --> 00:45:27.480 not we're on two different levels. But he's someone that is open to learning 647 00:45:27.599 --> 00:45:32.039 and open to experiencing something different because I know I'm giving I'm offering that to 648 00:45:32.159 --> 00:45:37.400 him, and it's just been I've been able to really show up for myself 649 00:45:37.519 --> 00:45:40.320 in ways that I never showed up for myself before, like speaking my needs 650 00:45:40.440 --> 00:45:44.280 and being blunt. Like there's a point where I was like, this is 651 00:45:44.320 --> 00:45:49.320 what I need and if you can't show up like that, then like we're 652 00:45:49.360 --> 00:45:53.639 gonna end. And I literally said that to him, and he invited me 653 00:45:53.719 --> 00:45:58.360 for dinner and we talked it out and it was great. So I've just 654 00:45:58.440 --> 00:46:04.159 been able to really show up for myself from this experience and have someone like 655 00:46:05.880 --> 00:46:10.199 reflect to me my own journey and growth practice makes perfect. You give me 656 00:46:10.320 --> 00:46:14.679 like for science vibes, we're gonna do this so for science. Yeah. 657 00:46:14.719 --> 00:46:20.679 I was kind of curious about that too, Like you know, you start 658 00:46:20.800 --> 00:46:24.400 kind of seeing someone and you decide, hey, this is not like my 659 00:46:24.599 --> 00:46:29.679 long term purpose. What is the what is the reasoning to like stay with 660 00:46:29.840 --> 00:46:32.119 that person as opposed to like, hey, I don't think this is gonna 661 00:46:32.159 --> 00:46:37.119 go a long term let's just like call it here not quote unquote waste our 662 00:46:37.239 --> 00:46:40.000 time and whatever I aspect that is, So like, what's the purpose of 663 00:46:42.199 --> 00:46:46.519 hanging around this guy? Yeah, I feel there's a few ways, like 664 00:46:46.840 --> 00:46:52.719 I am not like, so there's a thing called solo polyamory. I don't 665 00:46:52.760 --> 00:46:57.079 really like connect to the term, but I know that's exactly what I'm like, 666 00:46:57.920 --> 00:47:01.280 like the definition of it is what I'm experiencing where I'm my primary partner 667 00:47:01.840 --> 00:47:06.679 and I'm not seeing multiple like more than one right now, but like I'm 668 00:47:06.679 --> 00:47:12.760 open to it. But it's where you like are you're like dating other people, 669 00:47:13.400 --> 00:47:19.239 and my intentions aren't to find my life partner. Instead there to witness 670 00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:23.400 myself in different dynamics and see what I actually really want because I know the 671 00:47:23.599 --> 00:47:27.280 list, because of course I want to I want to find my partner, 672 00:47:27.360 --> 00:47:30.159 and I also know I'm not ready yet. I do know that like energetically 673 00:47:31.480 --> 00:47:37.079 I don't have the tools yet for that soon. But what I'm learning through 674 00:47:37.159 --> 00:47:43.639 other people is what I want. So it's to experience myself in different ways 675 00:47:44.119 --> 00:47:49.679 and to really understand what I do want and to like have this like knowing 676 00:47:50.559 --> 00:47:54.880 of the person I do want to call in and so basically I'm just you 677 00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:59.159 know, what I'm experiencing is like what a lot of people do, like 678 00:47:59.519 --> 00:48:04.280 unconsci where you're just like dating a lot of people and like your experience yourself 679 00:48:04.320 --> 00:48:07.360 through other people. But I'm doing it from a very conscious space of like 680 00:48:07.880 --> 00:48:14.199 I'm doing this for me to experience myself and really like get to know someone 681 00:48:14.280 --> 00:48:16.679 else and get to know another human. And it's like I'm not just taking 682 00:48:17.039 --> 00:48:22.719 there's there's it's a giving and it's really beautiful. And knowing from the start 683 00:48:22.840 --> 00:48:28.079 my expectations and my intentions makes it a really like nourishing experience. Like I'm 684 00:48:28.119 --> 00:48:32.199 not like I'm not leaking my energy like know where you're just like oh, 685 00:48:32.920 --> 00:48:36.400 she says she doesn't want to be a partner, but like you're kind of 686 00:48:36.480 --> 00:48:39.360 leaking that like undertone, it's like no, like this is what I want. 687 00:48:39.400 --> 00:48:42.519 And if this is not something that you want to be a part of, 688 00:48:42.599 --> 00:48:50.800 it's fine too, you know. Yeah again for science, it's just 689 00:48:50.920 --> 00:48:55.039 like it's like yeah, like you don't know what you want until you like 690 00:48:55.480 --> 00:49:00.840 put yourself out there. Yeah. I love this. I really I don't 691 00:49:00.840 --> 00:49:01.559 know if you're doing this, but I think you should. You need to 692 00:49:01.599 --> 00:49:05.960 write all these things down, need to write all these experiences down, Like 693 00:49:06.079 --> 00:49:07.719 this is something I would read people would read, or I love about it 694 00:49:08.199 --> 00:49:14.199 because that's like I get into my psyche really like quickly, and I don't 695 00:49:14.239 --> 00:49:17.480 really have any like off limit topic, so it's really fun for me. 696 00:49:19.559 --> 00:49:22.159 Yeah, I love having the conversation it's it's so good. So I live 697 00:49:22.199 --> 00:49:24.599 for and this is what the kind of conversations that like to have with my 698 00:49:24.679 --> 00:49:29.119 friends. And they're either like good or they're like not good. I'm like, 699 00:49:29.199 --> 00:49:35.079 oh yeah, but why Well? So, um, what is next 700 00:49:35.199 --> 00:49:38.719 for BPE? I note that you have some different things you've announced recently and 701 00:49:38.920 --> 00:49:44.840 there's some new things, So what is next? Yeah? So um the 702 00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:50.440 past few months BP has been like a weekly offering in Austin, and I'm 703 00:49:50.639 --> 00:49:55.280 I've chosen to end that with the new year. Um, so BP's really 704 00:49:55.320 --> 00:50:01.320 stepping into like its own space, its own U experience. So I see 705 00:50:01.400 --> 00:50:07.519 doing monthly events for women to come to and to experience themselves. I'm going 706 00:50:07.599 --> 00:50:10.159 to do a co ed event in February for men and women to come and 707 00:50:10.239 --> 00:50:15.440 do central embodiment, so that'll be really powerful. But in general, I 708 00:50:15.559 --> 00:50:22.760 am announcing a three month program for women to do like at home with me, 709 00:50:23.039 --> 00:50:27.599 like on zoom, and that's gonna be really powerful because it's going to 710 00:50:27.639 --> 00:50:30.559 be a whole journey of you know, I didn't just step into BP. 711 00:50:30.800 --> 00:50:32.800 I'm not like, oh okay, big puss the energy. It was this 712 00:50:34.119 --> 00:50:37.960 two year journey right, So I'm bringing out all those tools and all the 713 00:50:38.079 --> 00:50:45.719 practices that woke me up to this like bigness and to like owning my power 714 00:50:45.159 --> 00:50:50.039 and constantly choosing to own my power. And so that's going to be a 715 00:50:50.119 --> 00:50:53.199 really poem program for women. And then I have a retreat in March as 716 00:50:53.239 --> 00:50:58.760 well in Austin, like a little bit outside of Austin. Is that the 717 00:50:58.880 --> 00:51:01.360 Marble's Fallow one? Yeah, yeah, I did go on the one on 718 00:51:01.440 --> 00:51:07.519 the website. Oh amazing. Yeah, A lot of like little like this 719 00:51:07.719 --> 00:51:09.719 is like we're putting it out. I'm putting it out, and like the 720 00:51:09.880 --> 00:51:15.440 big vision for a Big Pussy Energy is to have it be like a world 721 00:51:15.519 --> 00:51:19.719 tour essentially, where like my launch party was a four hour event where I 722 00:51:19.800 --> 00:51:24.400 facilitated sixteen women through central embodiment, tworking and lap dancing and so bringing that 723 00:51:24.719 --> 00:51:30.800 experience to different studies across the country and to different countries across the world. 724 00:51:32.960 --> 00:51:36.199 That's so fun. I love this. I want to know more about this 725 00:51:36.320 --> 00:51:40.599 coed situation because that is so amazing. Because I know that we've been calling 726 00:51:40.679 --> 00:51:45.360 the season. The season three that we're on has been m We've been calling 727 00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:53.159 it like Adams Adams Journey because we've had conversations with um sex coaches and different 728 00:51:53.199 --> 00:51:59.360 like therapists and such. In the entire time it's Adam. Everyone feels Adams 729 00:51:59.480 --> 00:52:04.559 like for learning and also he's like discovering all these things very therapeutic and cathartic, 730 00:52:04.679 --> 00:52:08.360 and he's like learning learning all the things, and it's very it's very 731 00:52:08.440 --> 00:52:12.679 into it. Yeah, you've been learning a lot about yourself and about Like 732 00:52:12.800 --> 00:52:15.599 he's like, I have anxiety. I'm like, you have anxiety about with 733 00:52:15.719 --> 00:52:21.000 your performance or about this or about feeling used to talk about how masturbation was 734 00:52:21.039 --> 00:52:23.280 like shameful to him. I was like, oh no, I didn't know 735 00:52:23.360 --> 00:52:28.000 this was a thing. So I love I love men going on the journey 736 00:52:28.039 --> 00:52:30.360 as well, because that one is also just like extra foreign. Yeah, 737 00:52:30.679 --> 00:52:36.480 I mean it was like a co creation idea because when I started, I 738 00:52:36.559 --> 00:52:38.639 mean before even Big PUSSI Energy came out, I was already I was teaching 739 00:52:40.039 --> 00:52:45.119 my torque shop class in Austin, and so I already was like in sentual 740 00:52:45.159 --> 00:52:50.519 embodiment outwardly, and I was like hosting lady nights. I would call it 741 00:52:50.679 --> 00:52:53.039 men's nights, So ladies would come over once a month, and we would 742 00:52:53.039 --> 00:52:57.400 talk about SAX, so essentially this and then once a month I'd have men 743 00:52:57.480 --> 00:52:59.840 come over and we talk about sex and I'd be the only woman in the 744 00:53:00.079 --> 00:53:05.519 room. And so like men have been asking me like, Okay, how 745 00:53:05.599 --> 00:53:08.639 do I become centraally embodied? Like what does that journey look like? And 746 00:53:08.760 --> 00:53:15.400 to be honest, like I don't know. I BPE is literally the birth 747 00:53:15.519 --> 00:53:22.119 of my own personal journey that I'm I'm sharing with other women to walk along. 748 00:53:22.760 --> 00:53:25.480 However, I did do. I co facilitated an event with my friend 749 00:53:25.559 --> 00:53:32.800 Layola, and it was like a sensual party where everyone like I guess you 750 00:53:32.840 --> 00:53:36.639 can call central play party, but there was no like sex. It was 751 00:53:36.719 --> 00:53:37.760 more just like ever you could be naked if you want it, but it 752 00:53:37.840 --> 00:53:42.960 was more just like sensual and like just being like seen. And I taught 753 00:53:43.000 --> 00:53:46.800 a lap dance class or a lap dance workshop, and before I taught the 754 00:53:46.880 --> 00:53:50.679 lap dance like in the co ed space, which that's the only time I've 755 00:53:50.719 --> 00:53:52.800 ever taught co ed so far. Even this is like three months ago. 756 00:53:53.239 --> 00:53:58.800 I led the men and women in a central embodiment ten minute routine. Usually 757 00:53:59.079 --> 00:54:01.199 do thirty minutes to embodiment, but I did a really short ten minute, 758 00:54:01.239 --> 00:54:05.840 just so you get into your body. And one of my friends, who 759 00:54:05.920 --> 00:54:09.400 was a man, he was there and the whole night was like four hours, 760 00:54:09.760 --> 00:54:15.639 and he came up to me and he said, the best experience of 761 00:54:15.760 --> 00:54:17.840 that whole night was the ten minutes that you were guiding us in the sensual 762 00:54:17.880 --> 00:54:22.039 embodiment practice. So not even the lap dance, not the whole night where 763 00:54:22.039 --> 00:54:25.559 you're like feeling sensual and you're with others, and you know, that ten 764 00:54:25.679 --> 00:54:31.960 minutes was the most eye opening experience that he had. And in how I 765 00:54:32.079 --> 00:54:36.480 guide sensual embodiment, all of our eyes are closed, even my own, 766 00:54:36.639 --> 00:54:40.039 So it's a very inward experience. It's for you to experience yourself, to 767 00:54:40.119 --> 00:54:45.760 experience your body and your sacral shaka, which is where your sensual sexual energy 768 00:54:45.000 --> 00:54:50.760 is. And he and I didn't change the movements. I did the same 769 00:54:50.800 --> 00:54:54.159 exact movements I teach women. And so it also opens up the whole like 770 00:54:54.480 --> 00:54:57.920 how men are supposed to move or if I move my hips like that, 771 00:54:58.400 --> 00:55:01.199 does that mean I'm like gay? Like I don't even know what goes through 772 00:55:01.239 --> 00:55:05.519 it, but like the whole like yeah, being feminine and a man like 773 00:55:05.639 --> 00:55:10.320 that, shaming and like the cultural norms when it comes to like expressing yourself 774 00:55:10.360 --> 00:55:16.159 and more of a feminine energy. So he brought up that experience to me 775 00:55:16.239 --> 00:55:21.000 and he said, like he had tears coming through because our hip store emotions, 776 00:55:21.119 --> 00:55:22.679 like our hips are like the nober one space where emotions are stored, 777 00:55:23.039 --> 00:55:27.679 and so I guide you removing your hips. And I think that really opened 778 00:55:27.760 --> 00:55:34.360 him up and opened his body, and so his feedback from that experience and 779 00:55:34.480 --> 00:55:37.119 he's a great dear friend of mine and he's a really heart open person, 780 00:55:37.280 --> 00:55:42.840 like helped me realize that, like I don't need to change anything about sensual 781 00:55:42.880 --> 00:55:46.159 embodiment to curate it for men. If anything, it's inviting the men into 782 00:55:46.199 --> 00:55:52.079 their feminine energy and into being slow and into being exploratory, which is like 783 00:55:52.159 --> 00:55:58.760 the feminine like going slow and being present. So that's what brought up the 784 00:55:58.800 --> 00:56:00.280 idea. So I'm literally just going to teach the same thing I teach to 785 00:56:00.360 --> 00:56:06.039 women, just with men in the room as well. Yeah, I love 786 00:56:06.119 --> 00:56:07.880 that, and I know, I know we got to wrap up, but 787 00:56:07.880 --> 00:56:09.360 I did want to say this real quick that, Uh, I do think 788 00:56:10.400 --> 00:56:15.519 I love that like having men be a more feminine role because I do think 789 00:56:15.639 --> 00:56:20.920 like that's such a struggle for men. Um, we talk about this all 790 00:56:20.960 --> 00:56:24.360 the time. You'll always see pictures of guys dressing up for Halloween and they'll 791 00:56:24.360 --> 00:56:27.719 be dressed as a woman. They'll have the dress on, and you're always 792 00:56:27.760 --> 00:56:30.039 like, oh, look at them. They're not afraid to dress as women. 793 00:56:30.079 --> 00:56:32.159 And I have to be like, no, here's what's happening, because 794 00:56:32.159 --> 00:56:36.079 I think, like any time a man is feminism, it's always in this 795 00:56:36.280 --> 00:56:39.000 very ironic like look at me, I'm a dude with a skirt on. 796 00:56:39.800 --> 00:56:44.559 Like I grew up in College Station where Texas A and m Is, So 797 00:56:44.679 --> 00:56:47.320 like every Halloween it was just every like guy was out there with a skirt 798 00:56:47.360 --> 00:56:53.159 because it's because you see the good in people. But when I know these 799 00:56:53.239 --> 00:56:57.760 guys and there is a little bit there is, Yeah, there's a there 800 00:56:57.800 --> 00:57:00.599 can be a negativity too when people are doing it with the wrong mindset. 801 00:57:00.760 --> 00:57:07.480 Yeah. So I love you. Like having this opportunity for men to actually, 802 00:57:07.559 --> 00:57:12.559 like in a very genuine, earnest way, dig into their looking in 803 00:57:12.719 --> 00:57:19.199 feminism. Yeah yeah, yeah, looking masculine femine energies. And so it's 804 00:57:19.280 --> 00:57:23.119 really just allowing the feminine and all of us to be seen, not by 805 00:57:23.199 --> 00:57:27.960 others, but by yourself. Yeah, because if you think about it, 806 00:57:28.119 --> 00:57:32.480 I feel as a as a female, when we have tendencies to have masculine 807 00:57:32.559 --> 00:57:36.679 energy, it's like an empowered thing. It's like you go, girl, 808 00:57:37.159 --> 00:57:38.599 you work hard for that money, you do the things. But when it 809 00:57:38.719 --> 00:57:44.039 comes to men honing it on a feminine energy, it's still something that is 810 00:57:45.280 --> 00:57:50.000 scary and isn't at a point where society and culturally we're looking at that as 811 00:57:50.039 --> 00:57:52.880 like this crazy positive thing. It's still something that people are very on defensive 812 00:57:52.880 --> 00:57:57.039 out still. So that's really important that you're doing that. Yeah, thank 813 00:57:57.079 --> 00:58:00.119 you, Yeah, I'm excited. Well, Brittini, where would you like 814 00:58:00.199 --> 00:58:06.360 people to find you in BPE? Well, Instagram is a great space. 815 00:58:06.480 --> 00:58:10.840 So I have my own personal account which is at Brittini Burnan and then BP 816 00:58:12.159 --> 00:58:15.440 she has her own account too, So that's a Big Pussy Energy with one 817 00:58:15.639 --> 00:58:21.000 S for pussy. Instagram doesn't allow it. I got around, and then 818 00:58:21.039 --> 00:58:23.280 I also have a website which is Big Pussy Energy dot co. So those 819 00:58:23.320 --> 00:58:29.199 are the great spaces to look into it more perfect and all that's going to 820 00:58:29.239 --> 00:58:32.719 be linked in the show descriptions. Everyone can hyperlink it there, alrighty guy 821 00:58:32.760 --> 00:58:37.639 as well. It was such a blast talking with you, Brittini. And 822 00:58:37.119 --> 00:58:40.599 until next time, I'm sure you'll catch me in a retreat or stocking you 823 00:58:42.000 --> 00:58:45.039 at yoga one or the other, because I think we should be friends. 824 00:58:45.199 --> 00:58:47.599 But until next time, thank you so much for talking with us today. 825 00:58:47.960 --> 00:58:52.639 Thank you. It's so fun. I just aired out all of my shadows 826 00:58:52.679 --> 00:59:06.440 and it feels really I hope it was artic. Wow. Wow wow. 827 00:59:07.559 --> 00:59:09.960 So for the first time ever, the end of the interview is not the 828 00:59:10.079 --> 00:59:14.760 end of the episode. How do you feel about that? Oh? Oh, 829 00:59:15.000 --> 00:59:17.159 or have we started? We're starting? Oh? Okay, cut it 830 00:59:17.559 --> 00:59:22.719 um. We're introducing something new. We're introducing something Yeah. No, it's 831 00:59:22.800 --> 00:59:25.320 very exciting. Sorry, I was pulling it up. I wasn't I wasn't 832 00:59:25.360 --> 00:59:30.280 prepared. I was also pulling it up, but I can multitask. Wow. 833 00:59:30.719 --> 00:59:35.079 Well, well, I just wasn't aware to start. Well, welcome 834 00:59:35.119 --> 00:59:38.679 guys. I hope you enjoyed um that interview and I call more conversations than 835 00:59:38.760 --> 00:59:42.760 interview, but I do hope you enjoyed the time with Brittany and learning about 836 00:59:42.800 --> 00:59:45.880 her. Make sure you go follow her and big Pussy energy on everything Lincoln. 837 00:59:45.239 --> 00:59:51.159 The descriptions, but we introduced. We're introducing something new that we did 838 00:59:51.280 --> 00:59:53.840 during the break. So if you don't keep up with us on social media 839 00:59:54.559 --> 00:59:57.960 um or you're not one of our Patreon members, you may not know that 840 00:59:58.079 --> 01:00:04.440 we participated in the Tucson Erotic Art Show over the break. We introduced a 841 01:00:04.519 --> 01:00:08.480 little interactive exhibit called the Hotline at the Tucson Erotica Art Show and it is 842 01:00:08.760 --> 01:00:15.360 a sex confession booth, an anonymous sex confession booth where people can provide advice, 843 01:00:15.519 --> 01:00:19.920 talk about their fantasies, leave a confession, a favorite moment, a 844 01:00:20.079 --> 01:00:22.559 least favorite moment. It's pretty open forum, but it's a way for people 845 01:00:22.639 --> 01:00:28.800 to be part of the conversation of making sex less taboo and intimidating, you 846 01:00:28.880 --> 01:00:31.679 know, just like we try and do every single week. So we wanted 847 01:00:31.760 --> 01:00:37.039 to introduce something like that, and we are also going to share that information 848 01:00:37.800 --> 01:00:40.519 with you guys, our listeners, so you can also leave an anonymous sex 849 01:00:40.639 --> 01:00:44.920 confession even if you weren't in Tucson. Yeah, so people are going to 850 01:00:45.039 --> 01:00:49.719 leave these they already have and we're just gonna listen to them. It's all 851 01:00:49.760 --> 01:00:51.920 as anonymous as you want it to be. We're going to listen to them 852 01:00:52.320 --> 01:00:54.000 and discuss them at the end of the episodes. And if you want to 853 01:00:54.079 --> 01:00:57.400 be part of the show and you want to leave one of these, you 854 01:00:57.599 --> 01:01:01.559 can do so by calling the phone number five one two nine one zero, 855 01:01:01.880 --> 01:01:06.159 five to seven, nine to six, and you can leave a voicemail and 856 01:01:06.199 --> 01:01:09.119 then it'll get played on this show and we'll talk about it, talk about 857 01:01:09.159 --> 01:01:13.639 it, and that phone number will be in the description as well. So 858 01:01:14.360 --> 01:01:15.679 I don't feel like you need to run and find a piece of paper at 859 01:01:15.719 --> 01:01:21.400 this very moment. But okay, we've got quite a few to pick from. 860 01:01:21.519 --> 01:01:23.000 You know, this was up all month, so they've got quite a 861 01:01:23.079 --> 01:01:27.599 few. Any rhymer way you want me to pick these? Do we want 862 01:01:27.639 --> 01:01:29.599 to do them in order? Do we want to mix them up? I 863 01:01:29.639 --> 01:01:31.840 think we shouldn't mix them up. Okay, I am going to just pick 864 01:01:31.880 --> 01:01:35.559 a random one. How about that? Yeah, sounds good? Okay, 865 01:01:35.599 --> 01:01:37.519 And four people to know we have not listened to any of them. We've 866 01:01:37.559 --> 01:01:40.719 not listened to any of them. This is all blind listening, blind listening. 867 01:01:40.800 --> 01:01:46.239 I'm gonna play it and we're gonna we're gonna talk about it. I 868 01:01:47.400 --> 01:01:55.280 like to list ask I like all different colors, of us. I like 869 01:01:55.719 --> 01:02:00.039 mail asks, one like thee mail asks. I like to like ash, 870 01:02:00.519 --> 01:02:04.960 I like to like blooky hue. But sometimes when I'm with a fan, 871 01:02:05.320 --> 01:02:08.519 if I look an ass, it's like looking at I think about looking a 872 01:02:08.599 --> 01:02:15.280 poky boil and looking on fans and it's so good when they moan, oh, 873 01:02:15.400 --> 01:02:22.920 they moan, you want that acts like don't you? Yeah, you 874 01:02:22.159 --> 01:02:27.840 do? You like that song? Grin sobbing you going round and round and 875 01:02:28.079 --> 01:02:35.639 round and oh inside slipping the slip, Oh you know it. I like, 876 01:02:37.639 --> 01:02:43.599 ah. So what what I like about this voicemail is how doctor sees 877 01:02:43.639 --> 01:02:51.280 it sounds it's giving green eggs and ham poetry slam. It really does. 878 01:02:51.599 --> 01:02:53.880 Yeah, it really did. That was quite a That was quite a performance 879 01:02:54.119 --> 01:02:58.840 in that voicemail. And for context, you know that was um I don't 880 01:02:58.840 --> 01:03:01.079 know what day, but these are in the evening, so people are at 881 01:03:01.119 --> 01:03:07.239 the bar, they're drinking, they're enjoying themselves, so you know they're they're 882 01:03:07.280 --> 01:03:10.360 clearly having a good old time. I love. I don't think we talk 883 01:03:10.559 --> 01:03:15.159 enough about ladies looking ass, sure, I do think it's more when we 884 01:03:15.239 --> 01:03:20.199 think about it, it's thought of as the men doing it to the ladies. 885 01:03:20.639 --> 01:03:24.320 Sure. I think it has to do with like masculinity and everyone afraid 886 01:03:24.360 --> 01:03:28.039 of their sexuality, that men aren't going to talk about it as much. 887 01:03:28.480 --> 01:03:30.079 And I can even see ladies being afraid to talk about it as well, 888 01:03:30.199 --> 01:03:35.320 because it can come off almost like a cleanliness thing, you know what I 889 01:03:35.400 --> 01:03:37.480 mean, Like it's cue when guys do it. But it could be like 890 01:03:37.400 --> 01:03:40.159 grown man ass could be gross. It could be very gross. Yeah, 891 01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:44.800 because you specifically won't even get near me if you haven't showered, if I'm 892 01:03:44.880 --> 01:03:46.639 like trying to put a finger on anything. Yeah, and I got a 893 01:03:46.679 --> 01:03:50.559 Harry, but you do have a Harry. But I like your hairy butt, 894 01:03:50.639 --> 01:03:53.800 so yeah, but no, I mean good for her. Yeah, 895 01:03:53.840 --> 01:03:59.960 I'm curious, like how I want to know the strategy behind that, because 896 01:04:00.119 --> 01:04:02.440 not every man will That's what That's what I was trying to about to say, 897 01:04:02.559 --> 01:04:06.960 Yeah, like how how she goes about how does she introduce introducing that? 898 01:04:08.119 --> 01:04:11.079 And like is it difficult to find people? Because I mean the way 899 01:04:11.159 --> 01:04:13.800 she phrased it, it sounded or they phrased it. I don't want to 900 01:04:14.000 --> 01:04:16.320 yeah, gender them. Um, the way they phrased it, it sounds 901 01:04:16.360 --> 01:04:21.880 like they like it's something that they genuinely try to make happen like it's for 902 01:04:23.119 --> 01:04:27.960 them. Yeah, So I'm curious how difficult it is to find someone that 903 01:04:28.159 --> 01:04:32.039 is willing to take that go down that road, especially like if they don't 904 01:04:32.239 --> 01:04:35.400 you know, if if they're not in a committed relationship and doing a one 905 01:04:35.480 --> 01:04:39.559 night stand, whether they are not, I don't know that information wasn't prevalent 906 01:04:39.679 --> 01:04:42.800 in there. I would argue for someone could be easier. You think, 907 01:04:43.199 --> 01:04:45.480 hmm, like, all, I'm never gonna see this person again, sure, 908 01:04:45.960 --> 01:04:50.000 getting these cheeks, maybe I could see it either way. But I 909 01:04:50.159 --> 01:04:55.039 do not condone. I do not condone non consent. Like let's see, 910 01:04:55.159 --> 01:04:58.480 let's be fair. But like let's say I was with you where you and 911 01:04:58.599 --> 01:05:02.000 I have been married for four years together for eight you and I don't really 912 01:05:02.760 --> 01:05:06.320 consent anymore. Sure we have, well we consent, but we don't have 913 01:05:06.440 --> 01:05:10.760 like conversations. Correct, you and I are very much like I consent to 914 01:05:10.880 --> 01:05:13.719 try and think whatever happens, I happened. Yeah, and so in that 915 01:05:13.920 --> 01:05:17.079 situation, maybe this is a question for you. Would you rather us talk 916 01:05:17.119 --> 01:05:21.119 about that ahead of time or would you rather me ask for forgiveness later? 917 01:05:21.239 --> 01:05:26.079 Because if you're because I could see you overthinking it, being nervous, actual 918 01:05:26.199 --> 01:05:29.239 sheets are clenched. You know. Is it better just in the heat of 919 01:05:29.280 --> 01:05:32.159 the moment, when I'm like whether I'm giving you a sloppy toppy I'm making 920 01:05:32.239 --> 01:05:35.800 my way down to your giblets, I'm making my way down to your chili 921 01:05:35.880 --> 01:05:43.599 ring. I know I love saying that to you. I always say it 922 01:05:43.840 --> 01:05:49.800 only makes my ass pucker and my my dick shrivel up. I only say 923 01:05:49.840 --> 01:05:54.079 it because you don't like it. Um, you know what I mean? 924 01:05:55.000 --> 01:05:58.800 Is this a good thing to work our way into in the heat of the 925 01:05:58.960 --> 01:06:00.960 moment. I think, like a part of me is like no, because 926 01:06:00.960 --> 01:06:03.159 I don't want to be surprised. But I think if I looked at it 927 01:06:03.280 --> 01:06:08.039 realistically, that would probably be the best way to do it for you, 928 01:06:08.360 --> 01:06:11.800 for me, Yeah, in a committed, consensual relationship correct, Yes, 929 01:06:11.920 --> 01:06:15.880 yes, if you have that kind of relationship with whoever you are involved. 930 01:06:15.199 --> 01:06:18.639 Yeah, Because I could just see guys overthinking it. Yeah, I think 931 01:06:18.679 --> 01:06:21.800 I would, because from my perspective, I think I would get nervous. 932 01:06:21.920 --> 01:06:25.760 And we talked about this in the podcast. I want to say season two 933 01:06:26.199 --> 01:06:29.440 where where I've brought up to you that when it comes to ass play, 934 01:06:30.280 --> 01:06:32.800 it is a conversation for the women to have with the men about the men 935 01:06:33.079 --> 01:06:36.760 in their ass yes, whereas vice versa. In the heat of the moment, 936 01:06:36.840 --> 01:06:43.000 guys are constantly like, sure, ass play. It's very rare that 937 01:06:43.079 --> 01:06:45.840 I've ever unless it was straight up penetration, unless it was anal sure, 938 01:06:45.960 --> 01:06:48.239 I have never had a guy asked me if they could do anything in my 939 01:06:48.280 --> 01:06:54.159 butt. They just so. I think that's an interesting takeaway too, that 940 01:06:55.880 --> 01:06:58.960 you know, whether we need to have more conversations with women or also men 941 01:06:59.039 --> 01:07:02.360 just need to like get over themselves. I would say probably the former. 942 01:07:02.639 --> 01:07:08.800 Yeah, yeah, but yeah, it is interesting that with men, you 943 01:07:08.880 --> 01:07:11.679 never asked me when you look my booty hole. No, I feel like 944 01:07:11.800 --> 01:07:15.559 there was probably a conversation early on about it. I don't think we had 945 01:07:15.639 --> 01:07:20.559 conversations in the beginning of our relationship. I was a hoedown and you were 946 01:07:20.639 --> 01:07:25.679 very excited. We were nineteen and twenty one and especially eight years ago, 947 01:07:25.960 --> 01:07:30.239 so conversations are also very different in regards to consent um. And you know, 948 01:07:30.320 --> 01:07:32.000 I just liked each other and you just didn't number on me. Yeah, 949 01:07:32.800 --> 01:07:36.079 we never talked about it. I think conversation again, it's always a 950 01:07:36.079 --> 01:07:41.239 conversation when it's full penetration. Yeah for sure. Yeah, I don't think 951 01:07:41.800 --> 01:07:44.320 requires prep work on both their ends. That doesn't mean you could just slip 952 01:07:44.400 --> 01:07:46.559 in. Yeah, and that's like that is a shocker. Yeah, if 953 01:07:46.599 --> 01:07:51.079 you're not expecting it. Um, but good on her, Good on her 954 01:07:51.800 --> 01:07:56.360 bird to be excited and proud about it. Yeah. I think I think 955 01:07:56.400 --> 01:08:00.039 women should be more open to it because men aren't going to be historically. 956 01:08:00.199 --> 01:08:03.280 Yeah, And I also think, like I think it's interesting, um, 957 01:08:05.719 --> 01:08:13.159 like you know the idea that like physically, I mean it's like physically scientifically 958 01:08:13.239 --> 01:08:17.319 whatever, like anal on a woman does not like there's no there's no part 959 01:08:17.359 --> 01:08:21.199 of the body that that makes feel good, you know what I'm saying, 960 01:08:21.560 --> 01:08:27.359 Like as opposed to men have a prostate right women have like the clutorists and 961 01:08:27.439 --> 01:08:32.000 like their sensitive parts in their in their volva, Like women doesn't don't have 962 01:08:32.239 --> 01:08:38.640 that like gland or whatever in their asshole that feels good whenever it's it's being 963 01:08:38.880 --> 01:08:42.399 touched. Um. Such scientific Well, so there's the idea that like, 964 01:08:42.720 --> 01:08:45.880 you know, anal is for whoever is when it comes to a man and 965 01:08:45.960 --> 01:08:48.760 a woman having sex, anal is more for the man for the woman than 966 01:08:48.840 --> 01:08:53.800 the woman because of that theoretically right, but like there is the but they 967 01:08:54.000 --> 01:08:59.800 like some women even though there's not maybe a physical but they can still be 968 01:09:00.039 --> 01:09:01.560 really entered. And I feel like this is a similar thing where like, 969 01:09:02.439 --> 01:09:06.279 yeah, she just like really enjoys it. It's more of a it feels 970 01:09:06.279 --> 01:09:12.640 like a more mental and emotional turn on. Yeah no, absolutely, yeah, 971 01:09:13.159 --> 01:09:17.439 yeah, so good for her. Kudos to her for being our first 972 01:09:17.680 --> 01:09:21.239 on air confession. Yeah, shout out to you, friend, shout out 973 01:09:21.319 --> 01:09:25.840 to you. Don't forget to call and leave your own confession so we can 974 01:09:25.880 --> 01:09:30.039 talk about it and all that good stuff. So check that out, Lincoln 975 01:09:30.079 --> 01:09:31.279 description, Adam, do you want to give that phone number one more time? 976 01:09:31.479 --> 01:09:34.239 Yes, ma'am, so people can call a call you. We're not 977 01:09:34.279 --> 01:09:38.039 going to listen to him ahead of time. So yeah, so call us 978 01:09:38.119 --> 01:09:43.560 at five one two nine one zero five seven nine six. That is nine 979 01:09:44.680 --> 01:09:50.760 Oh shit, that is five one two nine one zero five seven nine six 980 01:09:51.079 --> 01:09:56.199 four bottled up. Yeah, so call us and leave your message and we'll 981 01:09:56.199 --> 01:09:58.760 talk about them. Also, that is not like our personal phone numbers. 982 01:09:58.800 --> 01:10:00.680 It don't be weird and call us over and over again. 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