1 00:00:09,039 --> 00:00:13,240 All right, let's do it. All right, Welcome back to Nursing Uncensored. 2 00:00:13,279 --> 00:00:18,640 Guys. It is episode two of season ten. I am recording only 3 00:00:18,679 --> 00:00:23,359 for the second time in the Chicago studio. So it's evening and we've got 4 00:00:23,359 --> 00:00:26,600 a great show. We are talking to the friend of the show. You 5 00:00:26,640 --> 00:00:29,879 may know him as the boot Nurse. We're going to be talking to Kevin 6 00:00:29,920 --> 00:00:35,399 Gibson. He is a multifaceted person and someone that I'm proud to call my 7 00:00:35,439 --> 00:00:39,679 friend. He is a nurse, an NCLEX coach, he's a Navy vet, 8 00:00:40,079 --> 00:00:43,759 he's a dad. He's an award winning author, which we're going to 9 00:00:43,840 --> 00:00:47,799 talk about, and he's an all around I love this word, nurse preneur, 10 00:00:48,640 --> 00:00:53,600 not just an entrepreneur like as Sue first are entrepreneur, a nurse preneur. 11 00:00:54,079 --> 00:00:58,560 So we're going to welcome Kevin to the podcast. Kevin, what's upped? 12 00:00:59,320 --> 00:01:03,399 First of all, that intro just gave me goosebumps. I love that. 13 00:01:03,000 --> 00:01:06,640 I love it. You earned it, you earned it. I just 14 00:01:06,640 --> 00:01:11,200 said it in nursepreneur. That's a It's definitely multifaceted and anybody can do it. 15 00:01:11,280 --> 00:01:15,319 I'm nothing special, but I definitely put the work in for that, 16 00:01:15,400 --> 00:01:18,359 and so I like nurse preneur for sure. But yeah, well thanks for 17 00:01:18,400 --> 00:01:22,000 having me once again on your show. It's I love being on these with 18 00:01:22,079 --> 00:01:23,799 you, so I appreciate it. Yeah, we keep up with each other 19 00:01:23,840 --> 00:01:26,840 on social media, but it's always nice to have an actual face to face 20 00:01:26,920 --> 00:01:30,200 conversation and catch up because we haven't really done a big catchup, and you 21 00:01:30,280 --> 00:01:34,519 have had so much change since we've talked, like what like a couple of 22 00:01:34,599 --> 00:01:38,239 years ago something like that. I think it was like it was twenty twenty 23 00:01:38,239 --> 00:01:42,640 one, so it was almost three years ago. Gosh, think about what 24 00:01:42,719 --> 00:01:45,599 life was like. No, don't think about what life was like in twenty 25 00:01:45,680 --> 00:01:49,239 twenty one. And I take it back, but we're in much better places 26 00:01:49,280 --> 00:01:51,920 now. I think that's true for me, and I think that's true for 27 00:01:51,959 --> 00:01:53,840 you, and I hope that's true for the people listening here as well. 28 00:01:55,560 --> 00:01:57,959 So let's rewind. Let's back it up a little bit. Last time we 29 00:01:59,040 --> 00:02:05,280 talked, you had like we're either just about to start ICU or had just 30 00:02:05,359 --> 00:02:08,479 started ICU, And I know you've talked a little bit about that experience on 31 00:02:08,599 --> 00:02:13,439 like your Instagram channel and probably your other social media as well. Well, 32 00:02:13,520 --> 00:02:15,879 let's back it up, because we for months were like, oh, you 33 00:02:15,919 --> 00:02:20,199 got to come back on the show and talk about your ICU experience because you 34 00:02:20,240 --> 00:02:23,599 are no longer in the ICU. Is that correct? That is correct. 35 00:02:23,639 --> 00:02:25,639 I am no longer in ICU. Okay, So can we break that down 36 00:02:25,639 --> 00:02:29,960 a little bit. Can we go back to the early days of ICU and 37 00:02:30,159 --> 00:02:34,800 just talk for a second about what that experience was like for you. Yeah, 38 00:02:34,960 --> 00:02:37,800 so, of course everybody know, I was very gung ho about going 39 00:02:37,840 --> 00:02:42,560 to the going to the ICU, and I I made it very apparent for 40 00:02:42,599 --> 00:02:46,240 that to happen. I went to the ICU, and it happened just so 41 00:02:46,400 --> 00:02:51,639 happened to be. When the second wave of COVID started, it was very 42 00:02:52,599 --> 00:02:57,400 chaotic. It was very chaotic, and it was very I wouldn't say unorganized, 43 00:02:57,439 --> 00:03:00,479 but it was. It tried to be as organized as possible, but 44 00:03:00,479 --> 00:03:04,719 it was just extremely chaotic on a lot of the things that were that were 45 00:03:04,719 --> 00:03:09,159 happening. That's how I would literally say my very first aspect of working in 46 00:03:09,199 --> 00:03:13,800 a medical ICU, not necessarily burn IC but the medical ic you at a 47 00:03:13,800 --> 00:03:16,560 different facility than that I was at. It was wild and I don't know 48 00:03:16,599 --> 00:03:21,840 about the facility that you were in. But in my hospital, the medical 49 00:03:22,039 --> 00:03:25,039 ICU is where we saw a lot of our COVID patients, like our ECHAMO 50 00:03:25,159 --> 00:03:30,280 patients are prone patients. Like it was some pretty serious business. Like even 51 00:03:30,680 --> 00:03:34,439 after like kind of the first wave and everything had settled down, it was 52 00:03:34,479 --> 00:03:38,599 still pretty gnarly. I know that I did the crash course in the ICU, 53 00:03:38,719 --> 00:03:42,879 like I'm progressive care. I've never done ICU, and that time where 54 00:03:42,879 --> 00:03:46,400 they were like, here's how you tied right to med and you get three 55 00:03:46,120 --> 00:03:52,360 gos at it with a nurse before you're like doing it. So the terror 56 00:03:52,439 --> 00:03:55,879 that I felt was incredible. So I can only imagine walking into that. 57 00:03:55,879 --> 00:03:59,800 Now you're an experienced nurse, you're not a novice, so of course it's 58 00:04:00,360 --> 00:04:03,960 for someone I imagine that has at least some ICU experience. But like, 59 00:04:04,159 --> 00:04:09,759 I know you've talked about your situation with like your preceptors and how that was, 60 00:04:09,840 --> 00:04:13,159 and I think that's like a hallmark example of what the chaos is like 61 00:04:14,080 --> 00:04:15,920 in a situation like that. In the ICU, I saw that a lot 62 00:04:16,000 --> 00:04:19,360 with preceptors where I was in Progressive care. Just you want to talk a 63 00:04:19,399 --> 00:04:25,600 little bit about that like your your pilethora of preceptors. Yes, if anybody's 64 00:04:25,600 --> 00:04:30,759 ever seen my wife with the ICU videos on Instagram or on TikTok, I 65 00:04:30,800 --> 00:04:32,240 said that I had seven. I had to do a recount, and there 66 00:04:32,240 --> 00:04:36,120 were nine. I went to find with them. And first fifteen minutes I 67 00:04:36,160 --> 00:04:41,040 walk into that ICU during like my orientation, somebody dies. I think the 68 00:04:41,079 --> 00:04:44,519 first day we were in there, like when we all walked in there, 69 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:46,639 like new to that hospital. I think, like, Egiene, we're from 70 00:04:46,680 --> 00:04:50,959 three to five people died from COVID related issues, from being intibated, hemodynamic 71 00:04:51,040 --> 00:04:55,560 on stability or instability. I'm sorry, so this is all kind of wildness, 72 00:04:55,639 --> 00:04:59,279 but yeah, I had I had a preceptor who didn't know she was 73 00:04:59,319 --> 00:05:01,560 getting a but she didn't know that she was getting a new hire, And 74 00:05:01,639 --> 00:05:04,240 when I walked up and showed up, she was just like, oh what, 75 00:05:04,639 --> 00:05:08,720 So she didn't know I was supposed to be there. And then within 76 00:05:08,759 --> 00:05:11,000 the first thirty seconds of me talking to her, she was just like, 77 00:05:11,000 --> 00:05:13,000 oh, I don't know why she gave you to me because I'm going a 78 00:05:13,120 --> 00:05:19,439 PRN WHOA. See, that's already a terrible situation because you feel unwanted they 79 00:05:19,480 --> 00:05:24,160 feel overburdened. A statement like that, I don't know why she gave you 80 00:05:24,199 --> 00:05:28,360 to me. That's already I don't see the purpose in this. It's already 81 00:05:28,399 --> 00:05:30,120 like dismissive of you. So you're already like, Okay, what the fuck 82 00:05:30,160 --> 00:05:34,000 am I doing here? For no? Absolutely, And that's how I felt. 83 00:05:34,000 --> 00:05:38,720 And the thing that really trips me out is that I have an educational 84 00:05:38,759 --> 00:05:43,399 background as an instructor and as an educator, because I was a master instructor 85 00:05:43,399 --> 00:05:46,000 while I was in the Navy, and I've been an educator for I just 86 00:05:46,040 --> 00:05:49,439 hit nine years in January. So the fact that somebody who was a preceptor 87 00:05:49,600 --> 00:05:54,800 had the audacity to open up their mouth and to say something to somebody who 88 00:05:54,839 --> 00:05:58,439 is new that you've never met before, it's wild to me. And of 89 00:05:58,439 --> 00:06:00,079 course, just like everybody else that's new, I'm like, I absorbed that 90 00:06:00,160 --> 00:06:02,079 and I was like, Okay, I don't know you. I don't know 91 00:06:02,120 --> 00:06:04,759 what you've been through, I don't know what you're going through. I'm just 92 00:06:04,800 --> 00:06:08,079 going to take that one for what it is, and then we will just 93 00:06:08,160 --> 00:06:11,879 keep it. We'll just keep it moving. And then it was more everything 94 00:06:11,920 --> 00:06:15,160 was task driven. It wasn't necessarily the why. It was more of hey, 95 00:06:15,199 --> 00:06:16,040 we need to do this, Hey, we need to do this, 96 00:06:16,120 --> 00:06:19,439 and I'm just like, okay, yeah, that's how my first day was. 97 00:06:19,639 --> 00:06:23,959 They're not putting the energy into you. They're not saying this is how 98 00:06:24,759 --> 00:06:27,800 the culture of this unit is. This is how you manage these patients, 99 00:06:27,800 --> 00:06:30,439 this is how you time manage. That's the kind of stuff you need. 100 00:06:30,680 --> 00:06:33,959 You can look at the task list in your charting system, like you can 101 00:06:34,000 --> 00:06:36,879 figure out when your meds are due. You don't need a preceptor to tell 102 00:06:36,920 --> 00:06:41,240 you that. You need someone to help you get the flow of the unit 103 00:06:41,759 --> 00:06:45,600 and to learn the specialty. I have less experience as a preceptor, but 104 00:06:45,639 --> 00:06:49,519 I've been a preceptor also for years. Even when because I just like last 105 00:06:49,519 --> 00:06:53,279 week, got a surprise student. It was just for a few hours, 106 00:06:53,600 --> 00:06:56,800 but my initial thought was, oh, this is going to be exhausting. 107 00:06:57,319 --> 00:06:59,720 Yeah, like, I don't have the energy for this. But I would 108 00:06:59,759 --> 00:07:04,639 never say that to this eagerly excited student who's like hoping that she doesn't get 109 00:07:04,680 --> 00:07:10,319 a bitch to follow around, So to create that anxiety and a student like 110 00:07:10,360 --> 00:07:13,639 that, or not even a student like someone, you are a student in 111 00:07:13,680 --> 00:07:16,240 that moment because when you do have things to learn in that setting, But 112 00:07:16,279 --> 00:07:18,879 to say something like that is like too immediately to put a pin in their 113 00:07:18,920 --> 00:07:23,839 balloon and pop it on way to Not only that, but even if you 114 00:07:23,879 --> 00:07:28,279 are PRN, you're still going to be working on a unit PRN. So 115 00:07:28,360 --> 00:07:31,560 now you've just chat in the well that you'll be sharing with this person that 116 00:07:31,600 --> 00:07:35,319 you have to work with, so to speak. Just bad class move all 117 00:07:35,360 --> 00:07:40,279 the way around. Terrible. Yeah, so that was day one, right, 118 00:07:40,319 --> 00:07:45,240 wow, Yeah, that was day one, and there were just it 119 00:07:45,279 --> 00:07:48,040 wasn't just that hospital. It's just it was a national thing. It was 120 00:07:48,040 --> 00:07:51,399 a worldwide thing. But I can only speak specifically for my part of the 121 00:07:51,399 --> 00:07:56,639 world. And during that time, it was just everybody was feeling it. 122 00:07:56,720 --> 00:07:59,480 Every It didn't matter where you were, but everybody was feeling it. And 123 00:07:59,480 --> 00:08:01,040 it was a second wave, so it was more deadlier than the first one. 124 00:08:01,160 --> 00:08:03,680 We did date it. They didn't know how to treat it. They 125 00:08:03,680 --> 00:08:07,639 were using what they found to treat the first one to treat the second one. 126 00:08:07,879 --> 00:08:11,879 Uh, not reemda Zevie. Oh my god, it was room Zevere. 127 00:08:11,959 --> 00:08:16,240 That's what it was, just just all those things and then I don't 128 00:08:16,279 --> 00:08:20,839 know, it was just chaos. And confusion, burnt out on, appreciativeness, 129 00:08:20,920 --> 00:08:26,439 just everything that you could think of. Yeah, it's when you work 130 00:08:26,439 --> 00:08:28,600 and work and you never feel like you're getting caught up, and then all 131 00:08:28,639 --> 00:08:30,399 of a sudden you're like, oh, cool, it's going to get bad 132 00:08:30,439 --> 00:08:33,080 again. Like I haven't even caught my breath from the first round. And 133 00:08:33,799 --> 00:08:37,559 I think that you're right. It was national. It wasn't just like an 134 00:08:37,639 --> 00:08:41,639 isolated incident. It wasn't just your experience in the ICU. It was happening 135 00:08:41,639 --> 00:08:45,559 everywhere. And you had that experience with other preceptors as well, right like 136 00:08:45,600 --> 00:08:48,960 you had somebody else that was like peace out, I'm out of here. 137 00:08:48,279 --> 00:08:54,000 Oh yeah I did. And it's crazy because out of the nine preceptors that 138 00:08:54,080 --> 00:09:00,519 I had, there was one that I verbally and openly said that I would 139 00:09:00,559 --> 00:09:03,960 like to stay with her and shout out to Amanda, Amanda, if you 140 00:09:03,960 --> 00:09:05,159 ever listened to this, just now, I love you. And when I 141 00:09:05,200 --> 00:09:09,080 said hey, she said she would precept me because she's exactly what a preceptor 142 00:09:09,559 --> 00:09:15,960 is. Very was very, was teaching, was coaching, was calm, 143 00:09:16,720 --> 00:09:20,320 was was heartwarming, was not like she was everything that you could think of 144 00:09:20,399 --> 00:09:24,159 on an educator's aspect, and I was like, I love it. I 145 00:09:24,240 --> 00:09:26,559 love that shit, I love it. That's my education is just the thing 146 00:09:26,600 --> 00:09:28,840 that just really it's just a great feeling for me. And so when I 147 00:09:28,919 --> 00:09:31,879 had it, I was just like, hey, I would like to work 148 00:09:31,919 --> 00:09:35,159 with her, and they were just like, well, you're going to nights, 149 00:09:35,480 --> 00:09:39,240 and so they just completely disregarded they disregarded everything I said my feelings. 150 00:09:39,519 --> 00:09:43,399 That was one of many times where I would express myself and it would just 151 00:09:43,440 --> 00:09:45,879 be disregarded, and I was just like, okay, cool, Just like 152 00:09:45,919 --> 00:09:48,720 that little spiral notebook you got, I'm just right. I'm just taking down 153 00:09:48,759 --> 00:09:50,879 notes for when the time comes, because it's no matter of it's not the 154 00:09:50,919 --> 00:09:54,320 matter of if I leave, it's a matter of when I leave. And 155 00:09:54,360 --> 00:09:58,360 that was just one of the big things of the reason why I left. 156 00:09:58,559 --> 00:10:01,279 And I feel like, as nurses, we do need to take note of 157 00:10:01,320 --> 00:10:07,440 these things, because these are the things that create toxic workplaces, that create 158 00:10:07,480 --> 00:10:09,960 burnout, and you need to recognize them as early as you possibly can, 159 00:10:11,240 --> 00:10:13,440 because you don't want to notice this two three years down the road when you're 160 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:16,639 like, why have I been dealing with this for all this time? Like 161 00:10:16,679 --> 00:10:20,399 why have I been dealing. But yeah, it's a shout out to Amanda 162 00:10:20,440 --> 00:10:24,440 the preceptor. By the way, wherever she is on day shift, got 163 00:10:24,480 --> 00:10:28,759 a lesser. She's a nurse practitioner now, oh rightfully. And it's wonderful 164 00:10:28,080 --> 00:10:31,440 that she's taking that knowledge and she's bringing it into advanced practice. But it's 165 00:10:31,440 --> 00:10:35,919 also sad that there's one fewer preceptor at the bedside, because it's always the 166 00:10:35,960 --> 00:10:39,360 good preceptors that are like onward and upward, there's always a new influx. 167 00:10:39,559 --> 00:10:43,080 I wish there were more. But for those of you that are listening to 168 00:10:43,120 --> 00:10:46,039 this that are like, I think maybe I would like to be a preceptor, 169 00:10:46,159 --> 00:10:50,639 yes, you would if you're thinking about it, if you think maybe 170 00:10:50,679 --> 00:10:52,120 you'd like it, if you think maybe you'd be good at it. Might 171 00:10:52,159 --> 00:10:54,840 not be good at it on day one. I keep doing it, get 172 00:10:54,960 --> 00:10:58,440 used to it, learn, listen to other people. You will get good 173 00:10:58,440 --> 00:11:01,879 at it. And it is a satisfying skill. Like when you spend a 174 00:11:01,879 --> 00:11:05,759 shift with a student and at the end of that shift or at the end 175 00:11:05,799 --> 00:11:09,399 of that practicum or whatever they're doing, they're like, this was the best 176 00:11:09,440 --> 00:11:13,200 experience. It gives you this feeling of satisfaction. Okay, all the bulls 177 00:11:13,200 --> 00:11:16,240 should I put up with? It's worth it, Like when I have somebody 178 00:11:16,279 --> 00:11:18,000 that actually feels like what you're describing, where it's like, oh, I 179 00:11:18,039 --> 00:11:22,000 finally have somebody that I feel like I can learn from. I'm sorry that 180 00:11:22,080 --> 00:11:24,879 was taken away from you, but it sounds like, yeah, was just 181 00:11:24,919 --> 00:11:28,840 like one more nail in the coffin for your time in the icue of one 182 00:11:28,879 --> 00:11:31,600 of many, and just for all the listeners that are out there. If 183 00:11:31,639 --> 00:11:35,399 you're a new student, or even if you are a season nurse, just 184 00:11:35,480 --> 00:11:39,240 know and first season nurses you should already know this already. But a good 185 00:11:39,279 --> 00:11:43,240 preceptor can make a break a new grad. Yeah, And I really need 186 00:11:43,240 --> 00:11:46,960 for everyone who was in that position to realize where you came from and to 187 00:11:46,000 --> 00:11:50,679 not forget where you came from because a lot of people, a lot of 188 00:11:50,720 --> 00:11:52,279 people are just like, oh, I'm here. Fuck them, they'll figure 189 00:11:52,279 --> 00:11:56,960 it out. The nursing profession is in dire straits right now, is and 190 00:11:56,000 --> 00:12:01,039 it's visibly out there. So you being how you are towards these new, 191 00:12:01,200 --> 00:12:05,159 bright eye, bushy tailed people that want to be a part of this profession. 192 00:12:05,799 --> 00:12:09,080 And it's the same thing that I say when people argue that they don't 193 00:12:09,120 --> 00:12:11,879 have kids, so they don't want to pay school taxes. It's the same 194 00:12:13,000 --> 00:12:18,240 argument. You are responsible for the next generation of people that are surrounding you. 195 00:12:18,679 --> 00:12:22,039 Do you want to be surrounded by a bunch of incompetent morons? Or 196 00:12:22,039 --> 00:12:26,120 do you want to be surrounded by people that have skills and empathy and critical 197 00:12:26,159 --> 00:12:33,080 thinking? Like you're training the nurses that are someday going to be your coworkers, 198 00:12:33,639 --> 00:12:39,720 your coaches, your managers, your advanced practice nurses. Like, these 199 00:12:39,759 --> 00:12:43,840 people are going to keep moving up in or at least being around in healthcare. 200 00:12:45,279 --> 00:12:48,879 So your team, like whether you're training a nurse that may go off 201 00:12:48,879 --> 00:12:52,559 and work a job somewhere else, or whether you're training and pre accepting a 202 00:12:52,600 --> 00:12:56,919 nurse that's going to work on your unit. Who are training the people that 203 00:12:56,960 --> 00:13:00,559 are going to be standing beside you when the shit hits the fan? Do 204 00:13:00,600 --> 00:13:05,759 you want them to be horribly trained? Probably not, I'm guessing not. 205 00:13:05,159 --> 00:13:09,320 Don't horribly train them, not one per I agree one hundred percent with that. 206 00:13:09,799 --> 00:13:15,799 I know there were multifactorial reasons that you left the ICU. Now, 207 00:13:15,840 --> 00:13:18,600 some people love the ICU and they've worked there their entire careers. How did 208 00:13:18,679 --> 00:13:22,799 you know this wasn't the place for you. Like what made you go, 209 00:13:22,440 --> 00:13:26,919 Okay, this is game over. I need to plan on my exit strategy. 210 00:13:26,720 --> 00:13:31,120 There were a multitude of things from just my really bad sleep patterns because 211 00:13:31,120 --> 00:13:35,120 I was working at night. I was about to become a dad, so 212 00:13:35,320 --> 00:13:37,759 I didn't I didn't want to work nights. I believe we as people shouldn't 213 00:13:37,759 --> 00:13:41,080 be working nights anyway. But then again, hey, what's part of the 214 00:13:41,120 --> 00:13:43,240 profession. You got to work both sides. I didn't like the and but 215 00:13:43,320 --> 00:13:46,120 the biggest thing, two of the biggest thing, but one of one of 216 00:13:46,159 --> 00:13:52,159 them was that when you express yourselves of your concern nobody listens to you. 217 00:13:52,440 --> 00:13:56,360 And for the fact that I didn't get listened to for my concerns, I 218 00:13:56,360 --> 00:13:58,919 have a problem with that because if I'm telling you that I'm having a concern 219 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:03,399 and then something happens that is out of my control, i e. If 220 00:14:03,399 --> 00:14:05,759 somebody dies, then that's something that's going to wail my conscience for a long 221 00:14:05,799 --> 00:14:09,120 time. And it's going to be something that I've told you guys in writing, 222 00:14:09,200 --> 00:14:11,840 by the way, in writing about how the problem that I'm having, 223 00:14:11,240 --> 00:14:16,279 And so that was one second thing is the level of continuity, the having 224 00:14:16,279 --> 00:14:20,879 the same patient over and over and over to where you essentially start to learn 225 00:14:20,039 --> 00:14:24,879 the full body assessment aspect behemo dynamics. Hey, if I have a DKA 226 00:14:24,960 --> 00:14:28,159 patient, give somebody a DKA patient for a week. But in the hospital 227 00:14:28,159 --> 00:14:31,639 that I had, it wasn't like that. It had everybody there, so 228 00:14:31,840 --> 00:14:33,759 there was no continuity of care. Versus if you go to a level one 229 00:14:33,759 --> 00:14:37,159 trauma facility, they have those floors where you could have five or six KA 230 00:14:37,200 --> 00:14:41,679 patients that are right there. That's well, in my opinion, for myself, 231 00:14:41,679 --> 00:14:45,440 that was my first mistake. All new nurses go to a level one 232 00:14:45,480 --> 00:14:50,159 trauma facility. If you can just just go fu. You're hearing it from 233 00:14:50,200 --> 00:14:52,320 me. But the thing that really broke the straw, that really broke the 234 00:14:52,320 --> 00:14:56,440 camel's back was and I did a TikTok on this as well. Where I 235 00:14:56,519 --> 00:15:01,080 had they gave me three patients, two were intubated and one was essentially had 236 00:15:01,080 --> 00:15:03,279 just got done with dialysis. Yeah, your eyes are fued right now. 237 00:15:03,679 --> 00:15:07,440 Yeah, that's not listen. I've seen it to where this ICU gave this 238 00:15:07,600 --> 00:15:11,919 gave two critical care patients, two of them that were intubated and then one 239 00:15:13,000 --> 00:15:16,519 not only was getting actively getting CRT, but then it was actively on a 240 00:15:16,519 --> 00:15:22,720 balloon pump and no and not me, but I saw somebody else. Yeah, 241 00:15:22,759 --> 00:15:26,399 but for the experienced nurses, you shouldn't. No one should ever be 242 00:15:26,440 --> 00:15:28,960 that way. I don't care how much experience you have. You can't be 243 00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:33,679 in three places at once if you have three high alarms going off at the 244 00:15:33,720 --> 00:15:37,720 same time. I agree. So it's not about how good your time management 245 00:15:37,879 --> 00:15:41,879 is. If you have three patients d SA adding at the same time, 246 00:15:41,960 --> 00:15:43,600 if you have three patients trying to rip out their ET tube at the same 247 00:15:43,639 --> 00:15:46,840 time, it doesn't fucking matter how many years you've been a nurse. You 248 00:15:46,879 --> 00:15:50,960 cannot split yourself between rooms. Yep. I agree. Look, I've had 249 00:15:50,960 --> 00:15:56,000 three patients that were on they were spaced in between three rooms, and then 250 00:15:56,000 --> 00:15:58,639 another one that was on the other side of the floor. Oh hell no, 251 00:15:58,960 --> 00:16:00,840 And I was just like, wow, so why is this happening? 252 00:16:00,360 --> 00:16:03,480 And then in Texas we have what we call save Harbor and that and for 253 00:16:03,519 --> 00:16:07,320 those that don't know what safe harbor is, that is where you can report 254 00:16:07,679 --> 00:16:11,639 on safe patient nurse ratios in case of something that happens out of your control. 255 00:16:11,679 --> 00:16:14,480 So if a patient dies or if they're critical and you're in a room 256 00:16:14,519 --> 00:16:18,159 that's way across the floor. So essentially it's to see why you cover your 257 00:16:18,159 --> 00:16:22,200 ass, right, Yeah, But the straw for me was those aspects of 258 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:26,960 patients. Me advocating for my patient, nobody listening to me. And I 259 00:16:26,000 --> 00:16:30,279 said, to this patient who just got finished with getting dialysis, he's he's 260 00:16:30,720 --> 00:16:37,039 he's untundent, real slow. The dialysis nurse apparently word of mouth is that 261 00:16:37,080 --> 00:16:41,000 he's known to just draw so much fluid from people so fast and not put 262 00:16:41,039 --> 00:16:42,039 it back, and I'm just like, or not put it back at a 263 00:16:42,120 --> 00:16:45,279 rate, and then they're just just looking like that, and I'm just like, 264 00:16:45,360 --> 00:16:48,240 Okay, I need to tell somebody this. So I told charge nurse. 265 00:16:48,480 --> 00:16:51,679 They were just like, we need to we need what do you think 266 00:16:51,720 --> 00:16:52,679 do we need to keep them or do we need to get rid of them? 267 00:16:52,679 --> 00:16:55,399 And I was just like, oh, we need to keep him, 268 00:16:55,480 --> 00:16:56,320 and they were like, oh, we have a surgical patient coming up, 269 00:16:56,360 --> 00:17:00,840 so we need to move them. And I'm like what, So I'm just 270 00:17:00,879 --> 00:17:04,200 like, we shouldn't move him. So I advocate for my patient. Once 271 00:17:04,200 --> 00:17:07,920 again, no one's listening to me. So I'm advocating for my patient, 272 00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:08,680 advocating, and now it's just like, how is he doing? Now? 273 00:17:08,839 --> 00:17:11,400 Can we move him? I'm like no. And then the third time they 274 00:17:11,400 --> 00:17:14,240 were like, we're going to move them anyway, and so they were like, 275 00:17:14,279 --> 00:17:15,799 so, just get them ready to report and I'll take him over there. 276 00:17:17,680 --> 00:17:18,799 Then they took him over there, and I'm like, okay, I 277 00:17:18,799 --> 00:17:22,119 wrote it in the note and I said what I said, what she said, 278 00:17:22,160 --> 00:17:23,680 all that stuff. And then they bring up a surgical patient. It's 279 00:17:23,680 --> 00:17:27,799 probably about midnight, and it's a septic patient, somebody who was actively in 280 00:17:27,839 --> 00:17:32,519 sepsis. Now, the issue with somebody who was actively in sepsis was not 281 00:17:32,559 --> 00:17:37,599 my issue. The issue was when I was asking for help, no one 282 00:17:37,039 --> 00:17:42,319 helped me. That was the issue. I have had hemo dynamically on stable 283 00:17:42,359 --> 00:17:48,160 patients at that point, but nothing to somebody who was actively having sepsis to 284 00:17:48,240 --> 00:17:49,720 this point, and so that's something that was new to me. So I 285 00:17:49,799 --> 00:17:55,000 was like, hey, so I'm not really sure help me right vent management 286 00:17:55,079 --> 00:17:56,119 I could do all that stuff, and I'm just like, listen, so 287 00:17:56,160 --> 00:18:00,119 there's some stuff that's not really vibeing with my mind. Right now, I'm 288 00:18:00,160 --> 00:18:02,480 gonna feel overwhelmed. And they were just like, no, you got it. 289 00:18:03,559 --> 00:18:06,920 You're like, I'm telling you, I don't. I don't know what 290 00:18:07,039 --> 00:18:08,680 the fuck I'm doing. My exact words, I have my pull my mask 291 00:18:08,720 --> 00:18:11,200 down, and I told her everything. And then at that point, angry 292 00:18:11,240 --> 00:18:15,960 black man the stereotype or what is it, an angry black man or aggressive 293 00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:18,640 male that's on the floor, and I'm just like, oh, so now 294 00:18:18,680 --> 00:18:21,920 you hear me as I'm being aggressive to you. But whether I try to 295 00:18:21,920 --> 00:18:25,160 talk calming to but like when I was telling right, when I was trying 296 00:18:25,160 --> 00:18:27,559 to tell you, as a civilized human being, you weren't fucking listening. 297 00:18:27,920 --> 00:18:32,240 Yep. And that's what happened. This is nobody was listening. So that 298 00:18:32,440 --> 00:18:36,160 was probably the worst one of the worst nights I've had because I never felt 299 00:18:36,559 --> 00:18:38,920 I never felt so alone. And not only that, this was the most 300 00:18:38,920 --> 00:18:44,839 critical patient on our floor, who was the furthest away from the nurses station, 301 00:18:45,160 --> 00:18:48,960 so he was all the way by the trauma elevators and we call it 302 00:18:48,079 --> 00:18:51,920 Narnia because it was cold and it's dark back there, and he was by 303 00:18:51,960 --> 00:18:55,880 himself and it was just me. So you're by yourself, by myself with 304 00:18:56,640 --> 00:19:00,839 three patients that are now antibating. One of them actively had COVID and he 305 00:19:00,920 --> 00:19:03,160 was gonna he was at some point going to pass away. He was, 306 00:19:03,720 --> 00:19:07,160 but he was still intibated on the presser's And then I had another guy. 307 00:19:07,200 --> 00:19:10,839 I'm sorry, the second guy, he wasn't intibated. He was withdrawing from 308 00:19:10,920 --> 00:19:14,039 opiates or something like that. So he's a dude who asked pulling us fully 309 00:19:14,079 --> 00:19:17,640 cast at her, out standing up, pissing all over, agitated. Yeah, 310 00:19:17,640 --> 00:19:19,000 I couldn't even couldn't even go to the bathroom without somebody. When me 311 00:19:19,039 --> 00:19:22,759 coming back there, and then you see him standing up pissing on the floor, 312 00:19:22,759 --> 00:19:23,880 blood all over the floor, and two other nurses and they're helping them. 313 00:19:23,920 --> 00:19:26,799 I'm like, what in the fuck just happened here? Bro? I 314 00:19:26,880 --> 00:19:30,839 was gone for fucking five minutes and he was there. They were cool though, 315 00:19:30,839 --> 00:19:32,839 they were fine about it, but it was just about the whole situation, 316 00:19:33,400 --> 00:19:34,880 and long story short. Luckily, there was a travel nurse there who 317 00:19:34,880 --> 00:19:38,480 I love. Her name is two I spelled Thhu, being ICU nurse for 318 00:19:38,519 --> 00:19:42,319 I think ten plus years at that point and was amazing. And she was 319 00:19:42,480 --> 00:19:45,559 like, come on, come on, I got you. She had already 320 00:19:45,599 --> 00:19:48,759 had two bene patients on her own. She was just like I got you, 321 00:19:48,799 --> 00:19:51,200 and like I said, it wasn't the aspect of me doing all those 322 00:19:51,200 --> 00:19:52,759 other things. It was about the fact that when I had questions about anything, 323 00:19:53,200 --> 00:19:56,519 people just said figure it out. And that sink or swim shit. 324 00:19:56,839 --> 00:20:00,960 I don't know. I don't know where that originated from, but fuck all 325 00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:04,920 of you. Yeah, And here's the thing. If you're on the other 326 00:20:04,960 --> 00:20:08,680 side of that, if you're the person that can't breathe, do you want 327 00:20:08,720 --> 00:20:11,359 your nurse to just be like, maybe they'll call, maybe they won't, 328 00:20:11,359 --> 00:20:15,200 maybe they're busy, maybe they're won't they aren't the rest of the nurses or 329 00:20:15,240 --> 00:20:18,920 kicking it at the nurses station. I just want to give a little PSA 330 00:20:18,119 --> 00:20:22,599 to all of our new grads, our new nurses, our nurses that have 331 00:20:22,640 --> 00:20:25,559 been in practice only maybe a short time or maybe a year or two. 332 00:20:26,240 --> 00:20:32,400 If you see someone that is fucking drowning, don't wait for them to ask 333 00:20:32,519 --> 00:20:37,119 for help. Go help them. If you're not helping them with what they're 334 00:20:37,160 --> 00:20:41,279 actively doing. Make sure their other patients aren't falling out of bed de satting. 335 00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:45,759 Do they need to be changed, do they need suction? Are there 336 00:20:45,839 --> 00:20:49,559 meds all hours late, check into this, be a good It's not just 337 00:20:49,599 --> 00:20:53,279 about being a good coworker. You may hate the guts of the nurse you're 338 00:20:53,319 --> 00:20:57,759 helping, what you're ultimately doing is saving the person on the other end of 339 00:20:57,799 --> 00:21:03,359 that like care. So I'm sorry, but that's our responsibility as nurses. 340 00:21:03,440 --> 00:21:06,759 When we sign up to be nurses. We don't just sign up to be 341 00:21:06,839 --> 00:21:08,960 nurses to the people we're assigned to that night. That doesn't mean that you 342 00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:11,640 have to run nuts. You got your own shit to do. I get 343 00:21:11,680 --> 00:21:17,480 it. Sometimes everything's on fire and it's everybody's trying to get their own stuff 344 00:21:17,519 --> 00:21:22,119 done. Yeah, but if you're just like on your phone, you're looking 345 00:21:22,160 --> 00:21:26,119 at Zilla on the internet like you're dreaming of the two million dollar hole you 346 00:21:26,160 --> 00:21:30,119 can't afford to buy, get off your ass and go replace that bag that's 347 00:21:30,160 --> 00:21:33,039 about to run dry. Okay, that's my PSA, Thank you much. 348 00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:36,200 No, I get it, And like, for the most part, all 349 00:21:36,279 --> 00:21:37,880 nights, I was very good at that, especially the best off of my 350 00:21:37,920 --> 00:21:41,160 patients. I would walk and I would hear pumps going off, and I 351 00:21:41,160 --> 00:21:42,119 would like, Hey, so and so is this yours? Hey, your 352 00:21:42,119 --> 00:21:45,359 pump is out? Hey, I changed your pump for you. Hey I 353 00:21:45,400 --> 00:21:48,039 did this, Hey I did I was one of those people. But then 354 00:21:48,079 --> 00:21:49,480 it's just like the moment that I ask for help, they're just like, 355 00:21:49,519 --> 00:21:53,039 oh, no, you got it because you already know how to do it. 356 00:21:53,039 --> 00:21:56,680 I'm just sighting that's a toxic. That's a toxic in it. I'm 357 00:21:56,720 --> 00:22:00,359 glad you're out of there. So, by the way, I just I 358 00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:03,519 want to just interject one thing. I don't mean interupt. We have on 359 00:22:03,640 --> 00:22:07,400 my unit. We're a pulmonary unit for pulmonary hypertension. We give a medication 360 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:11,920 called flow land. It's an IVY medication has a half life of six minutes. 361 00:22:11,440 --> 00:22:15,920 It can cause rebound hypertension and really put that patient in a bad place. 362 00:22:17,359 --> 00:22:19,480 So, like we're told at the start of every huddle of every shift, 363 00:22:19,680 --> 00:22:22,599 if you hear that pump deeping in nine, I don't care who you 364 00:22:22,680 --> 00:22:27,799 are, you go in and restart it because we have six minutes before we 365 00:22:27,839 --> 00:22:33,160 have dire consequences for that patient. So anyway, I just wanted to say 366 00:22:33,200 --> 00:22:34,039 that to people like, you may not know what's running. It might be 367 00:22:34,079 --> 00:22:37,720 their hepburn drip, it might be their pressor it might be like might just 368 00:22:37,759 --> 00:22:41,799 be a TKO sale who knows, well, check it out. Check it 369 00:22:41,799 --> 00:22:44,960 out. If you're walking by and you don't have anything going on, check 370 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:48,839 it out. Okay, yeah most of the time. And if your unit 371 00:22:48,920 --> 00:22:52,119 is the type of place where no one would ever do that for you start 372 00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:56,759 shopping for a new job. Yep, Okay, then you started. You 373 00:22:56,759 --> 00:23:00,279 did. You started looking for a new opportunity thing else. And that was 374 00:23:00,319 --> 00:23:03,400 actually I think day four or four, and I was just like, I 375 00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:07,720 needed that and I needed to go I need to go away. So I 376 00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:11,119 think I had like four or five days off, but I had my reserved 377 00:23:11,240 --> 00:23:14,519 duty that weekend and I was just so pissed off, and so I I 378 00:23:14,519 --> 00:23:15,400 messaged a manager and I was like, hey, are you busy? So 379 00:23:15,480 --> 00:23:18,880 I left my reserve unit meeting or whatever I had going on, and I 380 00:23:18,920 --> 00:23:22,119 went straight up back up to the hospital uniform at all and I don't try, 381 00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:25,759 I don't walk anywhere in my uniform. And she was just like, 382 00:23:25,799 --> 00:23:27,359 hey's everything okay. I was like no, and so I told her flat 383 00:23:27,359 --> 00:23:30,559 out. I was just like I hate this place, I hate this fucking 384 00:23:30,640 --> 00:23:33,440 job, and I'm done. And she was just like, oh my god, 385 00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:36,240 why, And I was just like, oh, and of course, 386 00:23:36,240 --> 00:23:38,359 what do I do? I breacoping the fucking book that I have a list 387 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:41,720 of things, and I was just like, this person is trash. This 388 00:23:41,759 --> 00:23:45,559 person is trash. How exactly do I go through all this? I asked 389 00:23:45,559 --> 00:23:48,680 you about this? And then specifically, there are things that she said to 390 00:23:48,720 --> 00:23:52,279 me verbatim that I wrote down and I repeated them back to her. These 391 00:23:52,279 --> 00:23:53,599 were months later, and she was just like, wow, my god. 392 00:23:55,079 --> 00:23:56,759 And then at the end of the day, she was like, what do 393 00:23:56,799 --> 00:23:59,720 you How can I help you? And I was She was like, do 394 00:23:59,720 --> 00:24:00,400 you want to go back to days? I asked you to go back to 395 00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:04,279 day's long time ago, and you told me no. Oh, I asked 396 00:24:04,279 --> 00:24:07,839 you for more time for something, on something, and you told me no, 397 00:24:08,079 --> 00:24:11,880 too little, too late. And even if she had put you back 398 00:24:11,920 --> 00:24:14,720 on days for a little while, how long before they flipped your aspect Tonight's 399 00:24:14,759 --> 00:24:18,039 how long before it starts off over again? Yep? And so that's exactly 400 00:24:18,039 --> 00:24:18,839 what happened. And she was like, I could put you on days, 401 00:24:18,839 --> 00:24:22,160 I can you know for blah blah blah. I did what maybe two like 402 00:24:22,279 --> 00:24:26,640 my next set of shifts were like days, and I think by the end 403 00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:27,640 of the first day, I was just like, I'm done. I'm just 404 00:24:27,640 --> 00:24:30,359 going to finish out these lasts and I told her, I was like, 405 00:24:30,440 --> 00:24:32,400 I'm done, and she was She's like, where do you want to go? 406 00:24:32,400 --> 00:24:33,799 And I was like, I'm going to go back. I want to 407 00:24:33,799 --> 00:24:34,720 go back to the o War. And I knew the director that lived in 408 00:24:36,039 --> 00:24:37,599 that lived that worked in the war, and he was like, come on. 409 00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:41,839 And I finished out my last shift, and then that following Monday, 410 00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:44,480 I went to go see him. I was waiting to do. There was 411 00:24:44,519 --> 00:24:47,240 some other paperwork that needed to be done. So I worked in pack You 412 00:24:47,759 --> 00:24:51,279 for about two months three months, which was fine. I loved pack You. 413 00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:53,160 Pack You was the holy grail in my opinion, and that then my 414 00:24:53,240 --> 00:24:56,400 son was born, so I was gone for that. And then when I 415 00:24:56,400 --> 00:24:59,799 came back after those two weeks, I started working in the Oar and I 416 00:24:59,839 --> 00:25:07,200 were to the Oar from April of twenty twenty two, so yeah, April 417 00:25:07,279 --> 00:25:11,960 twenty twenty two essentially until now. What was the transition like, as you 418 00:25:11,039 --> 00:25:15,440 like, not so much like the actual functional transition, but like, how 419 00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:18,240 did you feel doing this? I hope you would have a sense of cool. 420 00:25:18,480 --> 00:25:22,200 I took control of the situation that wasn't serving me, and I changed 421 00:25:22,200 --> 00:25:26,039 it. But like, how did that feel emotionally for you? Because obviously 422 00:25:26,079 --> 00:25:29,880 you wanted to be in the ICU, you went there in the first place. 423 00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:33,240 Yeah, what were you feeling throughout all of this? A lot of 424 00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:34,400 people don't realize. I've had people that flat out come to me. They 425 00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:37,200 were like, bro, if you couldn't hack it, just say that now. 426 00:25:37,279 --> 00:25:38,599 It was just like, it's funny when people on the internet can just 427 00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:41,920 say what they want, yeah, without consequence, right, And I was 428 00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:44,680 like, okay, But I had already worked in the ICU a little It 429 00:25:44,720 --> 00:25:47,279 was like a year and three months at this point, and then earl year 430 00:25:47,319 --> 00:25:49,400 two three months at this point, from between the burn ICU, the medical 431 00:25:49,559 --> 00:25:55,240 ICU, and then floating down to neuro and so I was just like it 432 00:25:55,279 --> 00:25:59,640 was time to go, because I know mentally I wasn't there anymore. And 433 00:26:00,359 --> 00:26:03,640 when I transitioned from that, it was more along the lines of for a 434 00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:07,400 short period of time, is oh my god, what are people going to 435 00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:11,119 think of me? But then I said to myself, no part of me 436 00:26:11,160 --> 00:26:14,279 gives a shit about what these people think about me, because in the end, 437 00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:15,960 mentally if I can't take care of myself, I definitely can't take care 438 00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:19,640 of my patients the correct way that I want to. And that aspect of 439 00:26:19,680 --> 00:26:26,359 me being emotional about it was very short lived during the transition, because one 440 00:26:26,359 --> 00:26:29,480 thing that people don't realize is when you're a nurse, you're versatile and you 441 00:26:29,480 --> 00:26:33,839 can essentially go anywhere. So my frustration was very short lived. And it 442 00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:37,799 wasn't the specialty that you couldn't hang with. It was the really not helpful 443 00:26:37,839 --> 00:26:41,359 people, and you could who's to say a few years from now, and 444 00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:44,599 I'm not saying you, well, well, in theory, you could go 445 00:26:44,680 --> 00:26:47,759 to a different hospital with a different culture and a different group of people and 446 00:26:47,799 --> 00:26:52,039 thrive in the ICU. It really is about time and place and the people 447 00:26:52,079 --> 00:26:56,400 that you are surrounded by. So I think that it's good that you had 448 00:26:56,440 --> 00:27:00,839 the perspective to be like, this just wasn't for me. I hope that 449 00:27:00,920 --> 00:27:03,640 other people feel that way, because it's true. People are going to be 450 00:27:03,720 --> 00:27:06,240 like, oh, you couldn't have it. You know what, you go 451 00:27:06,359 --> 00:27:10,119 do it. You go do something where people are like sabotaging you and not 452 00:27:10,240 --> 00:27:14,480 helping you. And those people that are like, you know, Christened by 453 00:27:14,480 --> 00:27:18,720 fire or whatever the word is. You're not a better nurse because you had 454 00:27:18,759 --> 00:27:22,319 to struggle the whole way through. Imagine how much better you'd be if you 455 00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:30,000 were supported and encouraged and taught and given the tools you needed upfront, and 456 00:27:30,039 --> 00:27:32,960 you didn't have to fight for every fucking skill you have. Sorry, I'm 457 00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:34,799 cursing a lot. I'll clean up my act. No, I won't. 458 00:27:34,920 --> 00:27:38,680 I'll never up my act. Wearing like a sailor I love it. Yeah, 459 00:27:38,759 --> 00:27:44,200 So I want to jump forward a little bit because I'm really excited about 460 00:27:44,599 --> 00:27:48,160 the work you're doing away from the bedside. Yeh, You've got You've got 461 00:27:48,160 --> 00:27:53,039 like a whole new universe that you've created for yourself. You've got the ill 462 00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:56,200 you talk about it. We'll talk about your online endeavors a little bit for 463 00:27:56,240 --> 00:28:00,119 those I'm sure a lot of people already know, because I think we a 464 00:28:00,319 --> 00:28:03,880 lot of audience. But talk about what you've been doing online. Yeah, 465 00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:07,960 So I before I do that, one thing I will say about that. 466 00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:10,680 Yeah, sorry, Well, one thing I will say about the ICU is 467 00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:15,160 that the majority of people there were great. It's the system, yeah, 468 00:28:15,359 --> 00:28:19,759 of how the hospital ran, which was which terribly sets everybody out for failure. 469 00:28:19,799 --> 00:28:23,680 But anyway, so that's and when you have management that doesn't listen when 470 00:28:23,720 --> 00:28:27,119 you say, look, there's a flaw in the system, there's a flaw 471 00:28:27,200 --> 00:28:32,440 in the way it's being trained. There's a toxicity in the culture here because 472 00:28:32,559 --> 00:28:34,279 maybe I spoke a little harshly. Maybe it's not a group of people. 473 00:28:34,559 --> 00:28:38,160 Sometimes there is. Sometimes there's a group of people that are truly toxic and 474 00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:42,079 they feed off of each other and they run and clicks, and it can 475 00:28:42,119 --> 00:28:47,400 be very like that. Like I've experienced that in other units, and I 476 00:28:47,440 --> 00:28:49,920 feel like it's more in critical care. Like you don't find a lot of 477 00:28:51,240 --> 00:28:55,720 bitchy sorority like clicks in Medsurge, at least I haven't in my experience. 478 00:28:56,000 --> 00:28:59,720 But then when you get up into the critical care, higher stakes ego, 479 00:29:00,359 --> 00:29:07,559 like they're like I remember going to SICU floating there and going into huddle and 480 00:29:07,640 --> 00:29:11,519 people are like fighting to take the sickest patients. Now that's not my mindset. 481 00:29:11,759 --> 00:29:15,680 I don't walk into a unit and go I want the sickest son of 482 00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:19,400 a bitch in this hospital. Like that's not But these are all people that 483 00:29:19,440 --> 00:29:22,400 like want to go to CRNA school. They want to like they want to 484 00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:27,119 lamp up their skills, and like they want the person that's on CRT and 485 00:29:27,119 --> 00:29:32,680 they're on like six press or like, I don't thrive in that environment. 486 00:29:32,880 --> 00:29:37,359 But there were people that were like clawing over each other metaphorically trying to get 487 00:29:37,359 --> 00:29:41,680 these patients, and they didn't want the patients that were just like stable vented. 488 00:29:41,759 --> 00:29:47,160 They use some horrible terms to talk about those patients. So that's a 489 00:29:47,200 --> 00:29:48,960 culture that doesn't make sense to me. Like I get it, but I 490 00:29:48,960 --> 00:29:52,920 don't get it for sure. But yeah, I feel like it's a bit. 491 00:29:52,039 --> 00:29:56,359 The culture's a lot of pieces. So I wasn't trying to crap on 492 00:29:56,400 --> 00:29:59,960 a particular group of people. So you escaped a situation that was not ideal 493 00:30:00,119 --> 00:30:03,559 for you, and now you are in a situation that is ideal or seems 494 00:30:03,640 --> 00:30:07,039 very ideal. Seems like you're thriving. I love it, actually, so 495 00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:11,319 I and other people love it too. I'm seeing the rave reviews you're getting 496 00:30:11,319 --> 00:30:15,599 and the people that are emailing you and being like, Kevin Rocks, why 497 00:30:15,680 --> 00:30:17,920 do you rock? Kevin? I was just born that way. No, 498 00:30:18,119 --> 00:30:22,880 But when I was working in the Oar, I ended up falling in the 499 00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:26,200 Oar. Oh, and I actually ended up like hurting my back, and 500 00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:29,920 not only hurting my back, but also I had to have surgery because I 501 00:30:29,920 --> 00:30:33,640 had a torn meniscus after that. So when that happened, this was in 502 00:30:34,079 --> 00:30:37,880 February of twenty three, so it's been a year. So when that happened, 503 00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:40,359 I was just like, I need to think about I need to think 504 00:30:40,359 --> 00:30:42,599 about something else because not saying that the bedside is just not for me, 505 00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:45,240 but it's just like my love for wanting to be at the bedside is just 506 00:30:45,319 --> 00:30:48,119 it's started. It's just dwindling. And like I said, I've been an 507 00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:52,359 educator for quite some time, and I was just like I had a and 508 00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:53,839 I struggled to pass the in clicks. So I was like, you know 509 00:30:53,839 --> 00:30:57,160 what, let me start coaching people. And I had already essentially been coaching 510 00:30:57,160 --> 00:31:00,079 people before that anyway, and I know we talked about that before. So 511 00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:07,680 I started coaching more people, and then I eventually created my own essentially formally 512 00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:15,039 created a coaching program and Inclex, an enclex preparatory program where I do three 513 00:31:15,079 --> 00:31:19,359 recorded videos for really high topic type of questions, high topic hype of content, 514 00:31:21,079 --> 00:31:26,759 and yeah, essentially last year I started an Inclex course that's really great. 515 00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:30,400 I think about that and I'm like, that seems like a lot of 516 00:31:30,440 --> 00:31:33,119 work, but you put the work in, and you have a lot of 517 00:31:33,160 --> 00:31:37,480 people that I love scrolling you. I took a gander at the Instagram post 518 00:31:37,559 --> 00:31:41,319 you put up, and there's a lot of people that are really excelling, 519 00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:45,039 like passing their endclus after using your program. And you do live streams like 520 00:31:45,079 --> 00:31:49,119 you go through questions online, you post them their YouTube, so like people 521 00:31:49,160 --> 00:31:52,680 can even go back and review that stuff. I as I've talked about this 522 00:31:52,720 --> 00:31:57,880 before, I love enclex review because I was a nurse, especially as a 523 00:31:57,880 --> 00:32:02,799 specialty in art. Especially as a specialty nurse, you lose a lot of 524 00:32:02,839 --> 00:32:07,440 stuff. Yeah, so this is this is valuable content and it seems like 525 00:32:07,480 --> 00:32:10,160 you have fun doing it too. I love it. I enjoy it. 526 00:32:10,240 --> 00:32:14,119 So that's the thing is like people don't realize how hard the work is to 527 00:32:14,519 --> 00:32:19,000 open up a med search book, cite everything, create the content, create 528 00:32:19,039 --> 00:32:22,880 the power points, then record it and I do my lives. And I 529 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:27,759 enjoy doing my lives because I love to talk shit to people, especially when 530 00:32:27,759 --> 00:32:30,960 people come into my lives telling me that the questions are easy and that you 531 00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:32,200 would never see these questions on inclex, and I was just like, how 532 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:36,160 can you never see these on inclex? The National Board has ten, like 533 00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:40,119 over ten thousand types of different types of questions, everything from very extremely easy 534 00:32:40,160 --> 00:32:43,960 questions to very hard questions. So for you to say that you never see 535 00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:46,200 it on inclex, somebody who only took it once at eighty five questions have 536 00:32:46,279 --> 00:32:50,079 no idea what the other ninety nine percent of those questions are going to ask 537 00:32:50,119 --> 00:32:52,720 you. So I'm glad that you know that you'll never see it, clown. 538 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:55,759 But I love getting on TikTok and talking shit to people. It's funny. 539 00:32:57,039 --> 00:33:00,839 I'm see that and wrong, and sometimes more wrong they are, the 540 00:33:00,839 --> 00:33:04,799 more confident they are. Yeah, one hundred percent. Yeah, it's true. 541 00:33:04,839 --> 00:33:08,319 And also, who's to say that one of those quote unquote easy questions 542 00:33:08,599 --> 00:33:12,680 isn't going to give you a foundational piece for something that's going to come up 543 00:33:12,839 --> 00:33:15,200 in the futuregon, And it's there's no shame in it not being that easy. 544 00:33:15,240 --> 00:33:19,519 That's why we're all here exactly. And it's all about, like you 545 00:33:19,519 --> 00:33:22,319 said, laying a foundation. When I get on TikTok and I do these 546 00:33:22,359 --> 00:33:25,880 lives because I do them. Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays at five thirty Central time. 547 00:33:27,240 --> 00:33:29,680 I tell everybody, I'm like, listen, there are people that are 548 00:33:29,720 --> 00:33:32,079 here who literally today just open up their mouth and say that they wanted to 549 00:33:32,119 --> 00:33:36,920 be a nurse, and the algorithm heard them, and then here I am. 550 00:33:37,160 --> 00:33:38,920 So you have Then you have people that are who are doing pre ricks, 551 00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:43,119 people that are getting into school, people who are actively in school, 552 00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:47,079 people who have graduated failed inclects multiple times and are now already a nurse for 553 00:33:47,119 --> 00:33:50,200 a year or a season. Nurse, I get nurses that have been in 554 00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:52,640 there. I am nurses that are in there that have been nurses twenty thirty, 555 00:33:52,680 --> 00:33:55,920 forty years, and that a message me and say thank you for taking 556 00:33:55,920 --> 00:34:01,279 care of us. And I was just like, I truly love doing everything 557 00:34:01,359 --> 00:34:05,720 in collects because number one, it was my struggle. But then number two, 558 00:34:05,839 --> 00:34:10,239 it's just a little better to teach us than us exactly exactly, And 559 00:34:10,519 --> 00:34:15,239 any nurse that is a good nurse is going to know that there's no point 560 00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:21,199 at which you stop learning correct forever learner as we are. Yeah, even 561 00:34:21,199 --> 00:34:23,000 if you stay in the same specialty for thirty years, you're never going to 562 00:34:23,079 --> 00:34:28,760 master everything, master all this pathophysiology. You're gonna have a different person present 563 00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:31,280 each time, and that person's going to be unique specimen, so to speak. 564 00:34:31,360 --> 00:34:35,480 So so yeah, perish the thought that you've ever reached a point where 565 00:34:35,519 --> 00:34:38,760 you needn't learn it anymore. Right, So, how did all this translate 566 00:34:38,960 --> 00:34:45,960 into your book? Oh that's right, Oh that's right. I wrote a 567 00:34:45,079 --> 00:34:49,440 book. I almost forgot I did. And it was funny because when I 568 00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:52,400 posted a years like that's awesome, and I was like surprise, Oh I 569 00:34:52,440 --> 00:34:53,840 know, I was like, wait, where the hell did that come from? 570 00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:59,800 A lot of times I feel that I have imposter syndrome, but then 571 00:34:59,840 --> 00:35:06,360 I realize that I have been on this journey of becoming a nurse nurse preneurship. 572 00:35:06,559 --> 00:35:08,440 Not a year, it's all it's been. It's literally from the day 573 00:35:08,480 --> 00:35:10,960 that I opened my mouth, and I was in twenty twelve when I said 574 00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:15,000 that I wanted to be a nurse. Everything that's encapsulated from that day all 575 00:35:15,039 --> 00:35:21,280 the way until today where I'm talking to you, is encapsulated of what this 576 00:35:21,360 --> 00:35:25,599 book is essentially going to mean. So I wrote a book and it's called 577 00:35:25,679 --> 00:35:31,320 concer It the Journey to Passing the End clicks and it's not just going to 578 00:35:31,440 --> 00:35:35,760 be just a regular run of the mill book that you can buy at Barnes 579 00:35:35,760 --> 00:35:37,400 and Noble, Walmart, Target, or wherever you buy your book from, 580 00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:40,280 because that's where they're going to be. But it's not, Hey, it's 581 00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:45,960 all about test strategies and stuff. It's about the true journey of studying for 582 00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:51,840 this end clicks and why I failed, not once, not twice, three 583 00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:57,400 times, what I did to conquer all of the things that were going on 584 00:35:57,559 --> 00:36:00,679 in my life, to include the chance of being transferred to a ship that 585 00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:06,159 was going to a that was going to deploy, my relationship that was very 586 00:36:06,239 --> 00:36:08,320 much on the rocks and very much affects everything that I had going on, 587 00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:14,920 me transferring to a new duty station and all that stuff. Like the military 588 00:36:14,920 --> 00:36:15,800 loves the fact that you go to school, but they don't give a shit 589 00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:20,360 about what you have going on if the mission does not entail of what the 590 00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:22,800 mission has going on. So I had to think about that. And then 591 00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:27,000 it's about the fact that it's just me not knowing what I didn't know and 592 00:36:28,119 --> 00:36:30,760 applying that to my success. And one of the things that will also be 593 00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:37,760 in the book was we'll talk about the having a mentor like a mentor of 594 00:36:37,800 --> 00:36:40,400 some sort. Everybody that's listening to this, I don't care what you're trying 595 00:36:40,400 --> 00:36:43,760 to be in life. I don't care if you're trying to be a CRNA. 596 00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:45,960 I don't care if you want to you want to be a nurse practitioner. 597 00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:49,119 I don't care if you want to be have a doctorate and underwater basket 598 00:36:49,119 --> 00:36:52,800 weaving. I don't care what it is. Find that individual that you would 599 00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:59,719 love to emulate and be in the position and follow them and ask them for 600 00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:01,360 guy, And that's what happened. I opened up. Not only did I 601 00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:05,760 open up my mouth, the clouds opened up and was just like, there's 602 00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:08,840 this person for you. And that happened. And the moment that happened is 603 00:37:08,880 --> 00:37:12,679 where I started to see where I was faltering. And you have to be 604 00:37:12,719 --> 00:37:15,440 able to be coachable and you have to be able to accept that I call 605 00:37:15,519 --> 00:37:19,679 that. I finally got off of my beach and a lot of people were 606 00:37:19,679 --> 00:37:21,599 just like, what does that mean, Kevin. Let me tell you, 607 00:37:22,039 --> 00:37:23,599 Adrian, I'm going to tell you right now. I'm a military guy. 608 00:37:24,159 --> 00:37:28,400 Especially I was in the Navy. I keep saying I was in the Navy. 609 00:37:28,559 --> 00:37:30,559 I was in the Navy. But I was in the Navy, and 610 00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:34,800 Navy was pretty much what I lived by. And if you don't know the 611 00:37:34,840 --> 00:37:37,639 story of the Invasion of Normandy in nineteen forty four, when the Allied forces 612 00:37:38,079 --> 00:37:43,360 invaded France to stop Hitler from doing Hitler things, the beaches of Omaha and 613 00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:46,119 Utah Beach where the bloodiest of essentially that assault, and a lot of people 614 00:37:46,199 --> 00:37:50,480 died on the beach, and there was a good saying that happened was there 615 00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:52,519 are two people on the beach, those that are dead and those that are 616 00:37:52,519 --> 00:37:58,119 going to die. So I use that, and I use that narrative to 617 00:37:58,360 --> 00:38:02,000 tell you that if you are have somebody who are if you're someone who is 618 00:38:02,079 --> 00:38:06,719 not successful at that exam or just anything in life that you're trying to accomplish, 619 00:38:06,960 --> 00:38:08,679 there's either one or two things you're gonna do. You're gonna stay on 620 00:38:08,679 --> 00:38:13,760 the beach, or you're gonna run through the gunfire and you're gonna be scared, 621 00:38:13,800 --> 00:38:15,800 and you're going to accomplish your mission. So you have a better chance 622 00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:19,840 of living by running through the gunfire, running through all the hell, being 623 00:38:19,880 --> 00:38:22,920 scared, doing it with the chance of succeeding, rather than knowing that You're 624 00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:25,440 not going to succeed by staying on your beach, So what do you want 625 00:38:25,440 --> 00:38:29,519 to do? You're going to stay on the beach and not progress or are 626 00:38:29,559 --> 00:38:34,960 you gonna be scared and go that way? Force progression? You tell me, 627 00:38:35,239 --> 00:38:37,360 and most people are just like, I want to get off my beach, 628 00:38:37,400 --> 00:38:42,519 then fucking get off your beach and let's go. Stop, let's go, 629 00:38:42,559 --> 00:38:45,559 and let's get to work. And that is the premise of this of 630 00:38:45,599 --> 00:38:50,159 this book. So it's supposed to be inspirational and motivating and of course with 631 00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:54,079 tips of the things that I did wrong and how to do them right, 632 00:38:54,280 --> 00:39:00,679 time management support system understanding and CLEX style questions, understanding the content, how 633 00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:04,480 to apply it, what the test is asking you, understanding the GAMECLEX test 634 00:39:04,519 --> 00:39:07,000 plan, and then recreating the testing center along with other things that are going 635 00:39:07,039 --> 00:39:12,719 to be in there. So that is how all of that translated into this 636 00:39:12,760 --> 00:39:16,840 book. I'm still caught up in the metaphor, I'm still like that hit 637 00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:21,000 me in the fields, Kevin. If I'm not being facetious, yea. 638 00:39:21,480 --> 00:39:25,639 If you've never seen and if you've never seen Saving Private Ryan, I have, 639 00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:30,599 Yeah, I have opened the opening scene of Saving Private Ryan the first 640 00:39:30,719 --> 00:39:35,280 forty when they open up. So I've only watched that movie one time. 641 00:39:35,320 --> 00:39:38,519 I can't watch it more. Les Once is enough. And you know, 642 00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:42,960 for somebody who's been to war, but not in that aspect, not in 643 00:39:42,960 --> 00:39:45,639 that aspect, but somebody who has been to war, I can understand the 644 00:39:45,719 --> 00:39:50,360 fear that those men went through. And I know this is probably they're just 645 00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:52,360 like, Yo, that's ridiculous for you to say and put in that analogy. 646 00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:54,960 I was just like, but is it the Because that's what I understand, 647 00:39:55,559 --> 00:40:01,840 and for what I want all the listeners to understand is that you put 648 00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:06,960 yourself in those men's shoes, but you put it to whatever issues that you 649 00:40:07,000 --> 00:40:09,400 have going on. It's the same exact concept. Those men were scared out 650 00:40:09,440 --> 00:40:13,519 of their mind. And the only thing I heard somebody say, we got 651 00:40:13,559 --> 00:40:17,079 to get off this beach. And they got off the beach and they were 652 00:40:17,199 --> 00:40:21,480 victorious. So do you want to get off your beach and be victorious or 653 00:40:21,519 --> 00:40:27,679 do you want to stay watching everyone watching everyone else live? So you tell 654 00:40:27,679 --> 00:40:29,760 me. But like I said, if you everybody, if anybody wants to 655 00:40:29,760 --> 00:40:32,960 get the real true analogy, watch the opening scene of Saving Private Ryan. 656 00:40:34,320 --> 00:40:36,960 You'll probably only watch it once. It'll probably make you cry like a baby 657 00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:39,400 like it made me, and you'll see exactly what I'm talking about. It'll 658 00:40:39,480 --> 00:40:42,599 hit you. It'll hit you more in the fields if you go and watch 659 00:40:42,599 --> 00:40:45,639 it. So get off your beach. Get off your beach. It's in 660 00:40:45,679 --> 00:40:49,679 a less powerful way. I've said to people, time is going to pass 661 00:40:49,760 --> 00:40:54,079 anyway. Wouldn't you rather pass it doing something that you love or that's going 662 00:40:54,159 --> 00:40:58,519 to pay off. You can sit on your ass. That's time is going 663 00:40:58,599 --> 00:41:04,920 to go. And that's what I said. I've worked more doing this program 664 00:41:05,440 --> 00:41:08,559 and coaching and tutoring and doing these live sessions, especially on the back end. 665 00:41:08,960 --> 00:41:15,000 I've worked more in the last year hardcore than I have in my entire 666 00:41:15,039 --> 00:41:21,840 adult life. Honestly, I believe it, because that's what stops me from 667 00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:27,159 doing educational content is the citation, getting it right, making sure. I'm 668 00:41:27,159 --> 00:41:31,280 always like, man, what if I cite information wrong? That? But 669 00:41:31,360 --> 00:41:35,840 you're off the beach and I'm still on the beach and off of it, 670 00:41:36,280 --> 00:41:38,400 like I'm literally essentially, I like I'm in the middle of the beach. 671 00:41:38,519 --> 00:41:42,559 I'm and I'm out in the open, and those comments are coming in. 672 00:41:42,639 --> 00:41:45,360 That's wrong, that's wrong, that's wrong. Thank you for telling me that. 673 00:41:45,519 --> 00:41:46,920 So now I can go back and I can clarify, and then I'll 674 00:41:46,960 --> 00:41:50,920 look in the book or I'll be like, Okay, I see where I 675 00:41:50,960 --> 00:41:52,599 misworded that. Let me go and let me fix that word, you know, 676 00:41:52,679 --> 00:41:57,000 because everything is trial and error. Yeah. Absolutely. Do you go 677 00:41:57,079 --> 00:41:58,800 like and I try to tell people, Hey, do you go to Nurse 678 00:41:58,840 --> 00:42:00,199 Mike and do you open up your mouth and say that to him? Or 679 00:42:00,239 --> 00:42:04,119 Hey, do you go to Inclex High Yield and say that to doctor z? 680 00:42:04,480 --> 00:42:07,039 Or hey do you go to Mark Klemick, do you go to Remar, 681 00:42:07,480 --> 00:42:08,920 do you go to do you go to Kaplan and you tell them that 682 00:42:09,199 --> 00:42:12,559 an hours? Or are you rude to them like that? You know what 683 00:42:12,559 --> 00:42:15,519 I'm saying, Hey, don't do that. Yes exactly. But then again, 684 00:42:15,559 --> 00:42:17,760 like I said, I'm in the middle of my beach, and until 685 00:42:17,800 --> 00:42:22,039 I conquer this beach, just like I conquer my exam, I'm still going 686 00:42:22,119 --> 00:42:24,400 to be put. I'm still going to be getting the comments and I'm still 687 00:42:24,440 --> 00:42:27,880 going to be getting the bullets raining at me until I conquer it. I'm 688 00:42:27,880 --> 00:42:31,239 glad you know that you don't have to just I'm one of those people that's 689 00:42:31,239 --> 00:42:37,400 still learning not to be like, oh okay, okay, sorry, I'm 690 00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:40,360 still very much learning not to be that person. That's all. Am I 691 00:42:40,440 --> 00:42:45,639 wrong when I'm not? Sometimes I'll be I could be absolutely correct, and 692 00:42:45,679 --> 00:42:50,599 I'm like, oh you question yourself. Yeah yeah, even when maybe I 693 00:42:50,599 --> 00:42:53,599 shouldn't. But that's a skill that we just need to keep developing. And 694 00:42:53,639 --> 00:42:58,280 again, lifelong student, never done, never absolutely and it comes with time. 695 00:42:58,519 --> 00:43:01,000 Yeah, comes with when I when I very first started doing this, 696 00:43:01,280 --> 00:43:06,000 I had people that there were just like you're a fraud, You're a scam. 697 00:43:06,039 --> 00:43:08,199 And I was just like huh, and I was like how I was 698 00:43:08,280 --> 00:43:12,320 like, am? I was like, I go live from times a week 699 00:43:12,360 --> 00:43:15,480 and people see me. Most people that are scams you don't see them. 700 00:43:15,519 --> 00:43:17,320 But whatever. Sure, yeah, yeah, you're like I'm actually putting the 701 00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:22,440 work in. Yes, And the book is like I'm pre sale now or 702 00:43:22,480 --> 00:43:27,840 pre sale so you can actually pre order the Kendle version right now on Amazon 703 00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:30,760 and for all my digital friends. Yeah, for all my digital friends. 704 00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:36,199 So you can actually pre order it right now on Kindle through Amazon, but 705 00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:39,599 through my website, the bootners dot com slash Books, and you will see 706 00:43:39,679 --> 00:43:44,679 my glorious face there and the cover and my scrubs with my with my head 707 00:43:44,679 --> 00:43:45,639 cover. I think I have my fanny pack on. By the way, 708 00:43:45,679 --> 00:43:49,159 if you don't have a fanny pack, get one. Don't care what nobody 709 00:43:49,159 --> 00:43:52,119 says. Real men and women wear fanny packs. Let me tell you. 710 00:43:52,199 --> 00:43:54,679 Let me just take a minute to tell you about my fanny peck journey. 711 00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:59,239 So I had one for work, and honestly, I peel a lot, 712 00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:01,639 I drink a lot of water. I do work a job where I am 713 00:44:01,679 --> 00:44:06,440 able to pee most of the time, so I'm blessed. But I was 714 00:44:06,519 --> 00:44:12,360 having a hard time dealing with the taking it because I how do I even 715 00:44:12,440 --> 00:44:15,719 qualify the let's just say, let's just say, I'm not one that can 716 00:44:15,760 --> 00:44:17,880 just like drop troal with the fanny pack hanging there, like I can't do 717 00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:23,679 that. And I was having so much complication with doing the whole draw string 718 00:44:23,960 --> 00:44:30,320 and the fanny peck and the couldn't do it. So I wear I clip 719 00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:32,800 a series of things to my shirt collar. People are actually make fun of 720 00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:36,280 me. I should make a video someday about all the crap that I clip 721 00:44:36,320 --> 00:44:39,599 to my shirt collar I have I do. People are so I have certain 722 00:44:39,599 --> 00:44:43,679 people at work that'll be like you got any new gadgets on your shirt today? 723 00:44:44,039 --> 00:44:45,280 People are like, how does your shirt stay up? And I'm like, 724 00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:49,400 I got secrets. I have secrets how I keep this all on place 725 00:44:49,440 --> 00:44:52,480 side. But yeah, so instead of having it around the waist, I 726 00:44:52,519 --> 00:44:57,280 have everything up top. But I don't know, it's just how I've always 727 00:44:57,320 --> 00:45:00,719 done it. Whatever works. Yeah, I wish I could do a fanny 728 00:45:00,760 --> 00:45:02,119 pack. I would love to be able to do a fanny pack. But 729 00:45:02,119 --> 00:45:06,760 I'm one of those people that I have sixty eight pockets and every pocket has 730 00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:10,440 a designated set of things in it so that I always reach for the right 731 00:45:10,480 --> 00:45:14,320 pocket to get the right thing. Nice. Like I said, hey, 732 00:45:14,360 --> 00:45:17,559 for whatever worked for you. I just I felt the need to defend myself 733 00:45:17,599 --> 00:45:20,480 on the fanny pack thing. I was like, I tried it. I 734 00:45:20,519 --> 00:45:22,559 swear I tried it. Once you figure out, once you figure out the 735 00:45:22,599 --> 00:45:25,639 system that works for you A and as long as it's cool and it doesn't 736 00:45:25,679 --> 00:45:29,800 it's not hurt. Nobody hurting. Hey, look do you Yeah, they 737 00:45:29,840 --> 00:45:32,800 did the thing on my unit last year. The year I can't remember, 738 00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:36,599 but it like they it was when high school. They do like best dressed 739 00:45:36,719 --> 00:45:40,199 most likely to be president most likely to like, I won the Mary Poppins 740 00:45:40,239 --> 00:45:45,400 Award, the nurse with the most shit in the bottom of our endless pockets. 741 00:45:45,559 --> 00:45:47,079 Yeah, and it's so funny because people all the time will come up 742 00:45:47,119 --> 00:45:51,440 to me and be like, I know, you gotta fill in the blank 743 00:45:51,519 --> 00:45:53,000 here. And if it's not in my pocket, it's in my bag. 744 00:45:53,360 --> 00:45:57,480 People will be like, you got a coppahma stacks, you got some cobain, 745 00:45:58,000 --> 00:46:00,480 you got a paper clip, you gotta screw, you got an eyeglass 746 00:46:00,559 --> 00:46:05,119 crew driver, you got some ibuprofen, you got some cedrons for me, 747 00:46:05,320 --> 00:46:07,039 You've got it. You got some extra nail files, and I got it. 748 00:46:07,880 --> 00:46:12,840 I got it the endless Harry Poppins bag. So yeah, that'll be 749 00:46:12,920 --> 00:46:15,559 in in my other life, it was Mary Poppins. Nice. So yeah. 750 00:46:15,599 --> 00:46:21,960 So people can get your book, they can join you for your sessions. 751 00:46:21,960 --> 00:46:24,239 You said Monday Wednesday Friday. Yeah, it's Monday Wednesday Friday at five 752 00:46:24,480 --> 00:46:29,679 thirty on on TikTok. And that's where I just go through. I just 753 00:46:29,719 --> 00:46:32,440 go through questions for about an hour and then I do a Q and A 754 00:46:32,440 --> 00:46:36,840 after that, and I try to answer as many questions as I can and 755 00:46:37,519 --> 00:46:39,400 let people know that if you need an Inclex course, I have a course 756 00:46:39,440 --> 00:46:45,159 that's available that's on demand that has two different Inclex reviews in there, one 757 00:46:45,199 --> 00:46:49,480 based off of the client needs like management of care, pharmacology, swan and 758 00:46:49,559 --> 00:46:52,599 so forth, and then I do a new generation one. So I have 759 00:46:52,719 --> 00:46:55,000 sixty plus videos in there right now. So I let them know that they 760 00:46:55,039 --> 00:46:58,280 can go and get those reach torone, Like, I have a bunch of 761 00:46:58,320 --> 00:47:01,519 stuff that whatever you want, come hang out out and people can find you 762 00:47:01,599 --> 00:47:05,480 every where. You're on TikTok, you're on Instagram, you're on YouTube, 763 00:47:05,480 --> 00:47:08,599 you get your website. Yeah, so you're a man of many hats. 764 00:47:08,840 --> 00:47:14,280 You're also in your free time. You're like, you don't have enough to 765 00:47:14,320 --> 00:47:16,360 do already. You are a man of many hats. And I tip my 766 00:47:16,440 --> 00:47:21,239 hat to you. I just heard my geriatric neighbor. He plays drums in 767 00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:24,280 the basement. He just started playing the drums. God bless him. I 768 00:47:24,320 --> 00:47:28,239 think that's our cute to wrap ups. Oh my god, I think I 769 00:47:28,239 --> 00:47:32,719 can hear it. Can you? Oh he just stopped? Oh yeah, 770 00:47:32,840 --> 00:47:37,039 I heard something. Yeah. So we have a couple that live blow us. 771 00:47:37,039 --> 00:47:40,360 We live in a two flat, just like on the edge of Chicago, 772 00:47:40,599 --> 00:47:44,960 and yeah, he plays the drums in the basement. Sometimes he's and 773 00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:50,880 he hits the whole catalog. Sometimes he's playing to Lynyrd Skynyrd. Sometimes it's 774 00:47:50,920 --> 00:47:54,760 TLC. He played Waterfalls for a good few weeks. He's done. He 775 00:47:54,840 --> 00:48:00,679 does rock, he does hip hop, he does old standards. He hits 776 00:48:00,719 --> 00:48:05,000 the hippie circuit hard. So he just I'll have to figure out what tonight's 777 00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:14,800 hold on. He started again with yeah, all right, on that note, 778 00:48:15,559 --> 00:48:19,440 thank you for joining me. Yeah, absolutely, I said, like 779 00:48:19,440 --> 00:48:22,920 I said, I appreciate you. I appreciate you for always inviting me to 780 00:48:22,960 --> 00:48:28,480 the podcast and it's always fun. I'm actually surprised you don't hear my son 781 00:48:28,519 --> 00:48:30,079 screaming. He was screaming at my door earlier. I'm glad that you didn't 782 00:48:30,079 --> 00:48:34,320 hear him, because he would walk in here with no shirt on and be 783 00:48:34,400 --> 00:48:37,760 what's going on here? He could be the youngest guest I'm nursing uncensored. 784 00:48:38,079 --> 00:48:42,239 I was gonna say, you're one of the elite members of the Return Guest 785 00:48:42,280 --> 00:48:45,760 Club. There's only there's a few, but there's not a ton and so 786 00:48:45,960 --> 00:48:49,840 I was thinking, like, if people have come on, it's like the 787 00:48:50,000 --> 00:48:52,360 SNL club where if you host five times you get like a jacket or whatever, 788 00:48:52,519 --> 00:48:55,519 so you have something else to aspire to, as if you already haven't 789 00:48:55,519 --> 00:49:00,599 accomplished enough in life, you need to get your five times guest jacket for 790 00:49:00,679 --> 00:49:04,800 the nursery. Look, I'm Outlook, I'm always humbled to be invited to 791 00:49:04,840 --> 00:49:07,000 anything. I don't need a jacket. It's just to the fact that you're 792 00:49:07,000 --> 00:49:10,400 still you're still creating your tribe and around people that are just great for you 793 00:49:10,519 --> 00:49:13,599 for growth. Like I said, I appreciate it and I love it, 794 00:49:13,639 --> 00:49:16,679 and it's always been it's always a fun time when I'm here. And this 795 00:49:17,079 --> 00:49:21,199 the last thing I'll say. This has been a special recording. I've been 796 00:49:21,320 --> 00:49:23,480 actually riding high. I've been on hiatus a long time, you know, 797 00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:29,320 just started recording releasing again. But as of the time of this recording, 798 00:49:29,360 --> 00:49:30,880 I don't know how many days it'll take me to get this out. God 799 00:49:30,920 --> 00:49:35,800 help me. But at the time of this recording, like yesterday or the 800 00:49:35,840 --> 00:49:40,119 day before, I hit one million downloads. Yes, yes, hey everybody 801 00:49:40,199 --> 00:49:45,599 right now. It took a little longer than I anticipated, but we got 802 00:49:45,639 --> 00:49:49,639 there. It's not a race, and I just wanted to take lations. 803 00:49:49,960 --> 00:49:52,400 Thank you. I wanted to take this opportunity to say out loud and to 804 00:49:53,039 --> 00:49:57,639 the listenership, to my audience, there are some people that I have been 805 00:49:57,679 --> 00:50:00,760 listening from the beginning. I see them. I see I'm looking at my 806 00:50:00,840 --> 00:50:05,440 Instagram stories. I see the numbers. I see the people that are like 807 00:50:05,480 --> 00:50:09,400 coming back and commenting over and over again. I appreciate you. I love 808 00:50:09,639 --> 00:50:15,840 my og listeners, my new listeners, welcome. I'm so glad you're here. 809 00:50:15,280 --> 00:50:19,400 My coworkers and my current job are starting to catch on that I have 810 00:50:19,519 --> 00:50:23,440 podcasts. So if any of my current crew are listening, hey guys. 811 00:50:24,039 --> 00:50:27,400 But yeah, it's been a while ride. This is season ten. So 812 00:50:27,519 --> 00:50:31,159 Kevin, thank you for being part of the tenth season of Nursing Uncensored. 813 00:50:31,280 --> 00:50:35,239 This is a monumental season for me. Like it. Like I said, 814 00:50:35,239 --> 00:50:38,840 seven years, a million downloads is nothing for people to realize, that's nothing 815 00:50:38,840 --> 00:50:43,880 too, that's nothing to downplay, or as my dad would say, that's 816 00:50:43,920 --> 00:50:45,719 nothing to shake a stick out. Yeah, yeah, that's nothing to shake 817 00:50:45,760 --> 00:50:50,559 a stick at or downplay because you still had to put the work in order 818 00:50:50,760 --> 00:50:53,880 for that to happen. So congratulations to you on your one million dollards. 819 00:50:53,880 --> 00:50:59,000 That's hum Thank you so much. What's the next route for you to have 820 00:50:59,039 --> 00:51:00,840 a million books sales? That would be a mean Oh hey, I'm just 821 00:51:00,880 --> 00:51:07,199 saying, ten thousand free low prebow or pre orders can get me on the 822 00:51:07,239 --> 00:51:12,719 New York Times bestsellers list. Okay, so this is the push. Let's 823 00:51:12,719 --> 00:51:15,320 get the Kindle editions, let's get it going matter. It doesn't matter if 824 00:51:15,360 --> 00:51:19,800 it's kindle or if it's paperback, all like, the book will be real. 825 00:51:19,920 --> 00:51:22,199 Okay, yeah, the book will be to get your book on June 826 00:51:22,320 --> 00:51:27,559 fifth, and June fifth is significant because that marks my anniversary of becoming a 827 00:51:27,679 --> 00:51:30,559 nurse. Oh, it only makes sense for me to release it on that 828 00:51:30,639 --> 00:51:36,280 day after it took me three unsuccessful attempts and then finally passing in on June 829 00:51:36,840 --> 00:51:39,960 bit of twenty twenty, so four year anniversary. Hey there's a book for 830 00:51:40,039 --> 00:51:45,000 you, Kevin. You're a sentimental motherfucker. Hey, hey, you've got 831 00:51:45,039 --> 00:51:49,480 to have some type of meaning around here, and that's mine. That's mine 832 00:51:49,480 --> 00:51:52,199 for y'all. Thank you for coming back. We're going to do it again 833 00:51:52,320 --> 00:51:54,239 sometime. Okay, yes, ma'am, I appreciate you. All right, 834 00:51:54,239 --> 00:52:08,960 ex what all right? All right? The Nursing Uncensored podcast, like nursing 835 00:52:09,000 --> 00:52:15,320 itself, can be intense at times. We don't censor, but we do 836 00:52:15,400 --> 00:52:22,719 protect private health information has been changed and concealed. We're not talking about you, 837 00:52:23,519 --> 00:52:30,039 Mema, your boss and wife, or anyone you might know. We're 838 00:52:30,079 --> 00:52:37,960 real health professionals trying to give you factual information. However, you are responsible 839 00:52:37,000 --> 00:52:43,360 for doing your own research and not taking anything we say as professional or medical 840 00:52:43,400 --> 00:52:50,639 advice. Opinions belong only to the person expressing them and do not reflect our 841 00:52:50,679 --> 00:52:59,639 employers, educational or professional institutions. I hope you learned something from laughed a 842 00:52:59,639 --> 00:53:01,760 little. I bet you'll come back for the next conversation.