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three thousand feet above us. See, I passed right over the top of

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on an unidentified object every liberty or
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A Welcome to UFO Chronicles a place
where people share their experiences of the

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strange and unexplained. If you've had
an encounter, I would like to be

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Hello everyone, and welcome to the
show. I hope you've all had

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a good week. I'm Nick Hunter
and you are listening to the UFO Chronicles

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podcast. This episode we meet Bridget
from Ohio, and Bridgidt is a lifelong

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high level experiencer and many of these
strange encounters she will be sharing with us

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Tonight, she's going to be taking
us on a journey, a journey into

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the unknown. Bridget is up next. But first, if you enjoyed a

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on with the show. Hello Bridget, Welcome to the podcast. Hi,

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thanks for having me invited to be
here. It is wonderful to have you

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join us today and you're calling from
the state of Ohio. Yes, now,

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Bridge, you have a lifetime of
experiences to share with us. Would

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you like to start at the beginning
please, ma'am? Sure? Yeah,

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so Yeah. My name is Bridget
Anderson. I am almost fifty years old,

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and I am a lifelong high level
experiencer. I don't even really consider

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it anomalists at this point. It's
just what my life has been. I

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have had experiences my entire life with
conscious recall of those experiences, going back

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to even when I was two and
three years old, with the small robotic

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grades in my room, and I
can remember I was so afraid of my

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closet and I never wanted to go
near the closet after dark, and these

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beings would come out of my closet, and a couple of times they came

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out from under my bed, and
I could never remember what their face looked

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like, but I always remembered that
fear and that feeling of dread that it

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caused in me. And as I
got older, I questioned it was it

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maybe just a kid's imagination, a
boogey monster, but something inside me there

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was always this nagging feeling that,
no, this has been going on your

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whole life, ever since you got
here, and you remember the monsters in

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the room when you were younger.
And so after we moved out of that

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house, we'd only lived there the
first few years of my life after we

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had moved out of that house,
I didn't see the small grades in my

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room anymore. At that point,
I would say my life was pretty much

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normal as a child, but I
would have these strange flashbacks or little memory

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bits, but memories to something that
I had no conscious recall of, and

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I would not understand what they were. Was this a dream? Was this

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something I saw on TV? And
it was just a flash, almost like

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if somebody just showed you a slide
real quick, and so I could never

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latch onto it and figure out what
it was, but they happened, and

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so I'd always had those flashbacks,
and then probably when I was around twelve

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years of age, I'd had one
of these flashbacks that was continual and persistent.

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And in this flashback, I was
looking down at a woman who was

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laying on white silk, and I
can picture it now just as if I

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did when I was a child.
She had short, crop blonde hair,

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she was wearing a navy blue dress
with white polka dots, and she had

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a pearl necklace on, and she
was sleeping on this bed of white silk.

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But something didn't look right, something
didn't feel right, and I was

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looking down at this woman, and
I had this flashback, this vision so

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often that finally, when I was
about twelve years old, I confronted my

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mom and I said, I've had
this vision, this memory in my head

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since I was a young child,
as long as I can remember, and

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my mom asked me to tell her
about it. So I proceeded to describe

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this woman to her and what I
was seeing. And I looked up and

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could see the look on her face. She was horrified, and I knew

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there was something there. And she
said, that was your great aunt's funeral.

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We took you there when you were
two or three years old, but

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I never took you up to the
casket. You stayed with me at the

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back of the room, and I
always made sure that you were facing the

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other way. There's no way that
you saw that woman in her casket,

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let alone to that kind of detail. And she said, how could you

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know that? And I couldn't explain
it either. I didn't know what it

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was. I just had this vision
that just haunted me on a regular basis,

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and so I kind of let that
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make of it. Obviously, it
freaked my mom out a little bit,

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but you know what could we do? It was what it was, so

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I kind of let that go for
the time being. Then, when I

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was about twelve thirteen years old,
I had picked out my dream bed.

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This was a king sized waterbed with
peach satin and lace sheets. It was

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my dream bed. I picked it
out. Shortly after getting this bed,

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I for some reason chose every single
night to sleep on the floor over the

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register vent with a blanket over my
head and over the register vent. I

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knew by that time that something was
happening to me at night, that someone

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was taking me, and in my
twelve to fourteen year old mind, I

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thought that if I laid over the
register event, the next time they came

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for me, I could scream and
my mom would hear me through the register

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vents and she would come save me
and keep them from taking me. Of

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course, no one ever came to
save me, and those episodes continued.

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Eventually, when I was sixteen seventeen
years old, I realized this isn't working.

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I'm not able to scream. They're
somehow still getting me, so I

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might as well go back to sleeping
in my bed. And so after getting

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that bed, it was years before
I ever slept in it, and no

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one understood why I chose to sleep
on the floor over a register event with

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a blanket over top of me.
And I didn't fully understand it either.

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I just felt like that was the
only thing I could do to try and

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protect myself, and it didn't work. So I knew from a very early

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age that things were happening to me, and I could feel it as well.

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I was always tired, and I
slept all the time, and the

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back of my head was always fuzzy. I complained about it so much that

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my mom actually took me in for
a cat scan. She thought there must

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be something wrong. They did the
cat scan and nothing was found, but

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I always had just this weird,
fuzzy feeling on the back of my head.

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And I wake up after a full
night's sleep, and I had felt

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fine the night before when I went
to sleep, but I would wake up

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feeling like I had been worked over
physically and mentally. And I knew that

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this wasn't a dream. I'd had
dreams before, but this was tangible.

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You could feel it. My muscles
felt exhausted. I had this feeling of

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anxiety and trauma that was left over, and it was much more real than

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a dream. But I never had
any logical reason or explanation for why I

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always felt that way and why I
was always so tired no matter how much

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sleep that I got. But I
knew that things were happening to me.

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So flash forward then to nineteen years
of age. I was at my first

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year of university at Syracuse University in
Syracuse, New York, and I became

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pregnant. So after the first semester, I came back home during Christmas break,

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and I was about two months pregnant
at that point, and the clinic

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had told me that I would have
the first three months to decide what I

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wanted to do, whether I wanted
to have an abortion or have this child

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or give it up for adoption.
So I hadn't told anyone that I was

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pregnant, and I came home on
Christmas break Withdrew from school and just cried

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myself to sleep every night. I
didn't feel like I could live with any

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of those options. I just didn't
know what to do. So on Christmas

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Eve, I was once again about
ready to go to sleep, and I

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was laying in my bed crying and
sobbing, into my pillow, and I

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found myself praying for the first time
in my life. I was never a

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religious person. I was not brought
up in a religious household. I had

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never been to church. I once
asked my mom why she had never taken

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us to church, and she said
that religion was a very personal thing that

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she did not want forced on us, and that when we were old enough,

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we could seek out religion for ourselves
if we wanted. So. For

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the first time in my life,
at nineteen years old, I'm laying there

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two months pregnant, two and a
half months pregnant, not knowing what to

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do, and I'm praying to God
to please take this back and give me

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a second chance. The last thing
I remember is sobbing in my pillow and

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praying, asking for a second chance. And then there was this bright light,

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I mean brighter than any light that
I've ever seen, and it was

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coming through my window. And I
was on the second story of our house,

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and there was a huge tree right
in front of that window. And

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typically when the sun would shine in, you would see the shadows from the

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branches of the trees and the leaves
moving. And here it is the middle

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of the night, and this light
that's, you know, one hundred times

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brighter than any sunlight had ever been
is shining through this second story window.

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And the first thing I thought was
where is the shadow from the branches on

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the tree. There was no shadow, it was just bright light. So

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then the next thing that I remember
is I sit up in my bed and

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I take this huge, deep breath, like I had been holding my breath

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or something, and all of a
sudden, I am hit with this pain

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that I had never felt before,
a pain in my abdomence. And I'm

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thinking that something's wrong, and I'm
going to have to come clean with my

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mom right now about being pregnant,
because clearly I'm going to have to go

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to the hospital. Something's wrong.
So I, and this is Christmas Eve,

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I get out of my bed and
I'm trying to make it to my

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door to go downstairs and wake my
parents up. And as I walk around

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my bed, the pain just intensifies
and literally knocked me onto the floor,

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and I felt this wetness gush all
down my pajama pants, and I thought

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it first that I had peed my
pants, and then I turned the light

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on and see that it's flood and
there's blood all over me, and it's

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dripping onto the carpet, and I'm
in so much pain I can't even move.

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I'm just doubled over on the floor. I grabbed some laundry and crawled

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onto the laundry so I would quit
bleeding all over my pastel carpet. And

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I just laid there for hours,
just immobile with pain. And this bleeding

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was heavy, and it continued for
hours, and I could hear my parents

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downstairs laughing and wrapping Christmas presents.
So after a few hours, the bleeding

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slowed down, and I was able
to clean myself up and hide all the

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bloody clothes and put something over the
stain in the carpet that I had made,

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and I crawled back into bed.
And the next thing that I remember

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is my parents waking me up to
open Christmas presents for Christmas morning. And

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I knew when they woke me up
that I was no longer pregnant. I

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know now that those pains that I
felt were contractions, but at nineteen years

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old and never having been pregnant,
I didn't know what was happening to me.

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But when I was woken up that
morning Christmas morning, I knew that

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I was no longer pregnant, and
I felt that God had answered my prayer

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that he had given me that second
chance. So after that incident, I

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ended up going back to my private
university the next year at Syracuse University.

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And this was nineteen ninety four that
I went back, and I was studying

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Japanese foreign policy, and so I
was taking intensive Japanese language courses. And

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it was finals week. I had
my big Japanese final the next morning at

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eight am. I was going to
set the alarm for seven o three am.

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I have this thing with threes.
It's always three with me, never

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seven o'clock. It would have to
be seven oh three that I would set

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my alarm. So I was going
to set my alarm for seven oh three

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so that I could make it to
my Japanese final at eight am. But

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I was so I was struggling in
the course. My grade was low.

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If I didn't get a good enough
grade on this exam, I was not

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going to pass the course and be
progressed to the next level of the language

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studies. I would have to repeat
that course again. So I was freaking

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out. I didn't think that I
was going to do well on this exam.

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I studied as much as I could
day and night, but I just

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couldn't pound it all into my head. And I just knew that I was

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not going to do well on this
exam. So the night before the exam,

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I had realized that I'm going to
have to pull it all night or

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I'm going to have to stay up
all night and take every minute until this

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test to cram as much of this
in my head as I can. So

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i'd never set the alarm because I
never went to sleep. So I'm drinking

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coffee, I'm taking caffeine pills.
I'm sitting at my desk, and I've

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got my headphones on because my roommate
was being loud and had some friends over,

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so I had some music on with
my headphones and I was listening to

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music while I was studying for my
exam. So one moment, I'm sitting

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there studying for my exam and I
decide I'm gonna take a break and have

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a cigarette. So I go over
and sit on my bed, and before

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I can even grab a cigarette or
do anything, the next thing i know,

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I'm floating up in the corner of
my room and I'm looking at my

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body sitting on the bed, and
I don't know what's happening. I don't

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know what this is. And I
will my body to look up at me

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in the corner of the room,
and I my body looked up and I

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looked into my own eyes and it
was like this glass was shattering inside my

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mind. I don't even know how
to put that into words, what that

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did to me, to look into
my own eyes. And I didn't understand

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how am I able to control my
body? If I'm not in my body?

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Am I dead? Am I dying? How can I wrap my head

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around this? How can I prove
that this actually happened to myself? So

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I had a plan that I was
going to smoke a cigarette. That's what

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I had wanted to do. That's
why I went to the bed. So

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I'm going to smoke this cigarette.
And I actually had only had one cigarette

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left, so it was my last
cigarette, and I was going to go

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ahead and smoke that. And I
figured if I wake up in the morning

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and I still have that cigarette,
then I'll know that this was just some

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crazy dream or something. And if
I wake up and the cigarette is smoked,

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then I'll know that this actually happened. But then I started second guessing

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myself, and I'm like, no, that's not going to work because I

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could have woken up half asleep in
the middle of the night and decided to

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smoke that cigarette and not even remember
it. What can I do to know

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sure that this is really happening.
So then I had a plan. I

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was going to smoke the cigarette halfway
and I was going to put the half

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cigarette out. And I thought,
if I wake up in the morning and

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I have an unsmoked cigarette, or
even a smoked cigarette in the ash tray,

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then I'll know that this was all
just crazy, something my mind created

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or a dream. But if I
wake up and there's a half smoked cigarette,

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I'll know that this really happened.
So I lit the cigarette. I

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watched myself light the cigarette, and
it was very strange, being able to

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control my body like I was in
it, but I wasn't in it.

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And I watched myself light this cigarette. I watched myself sit and smoke it

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to halfway, and then I put
it out in the ash tray. I

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have no memory after that of going
to sleep or laying down or anything.

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The last memory I have is putting
that cigarette out at halfway. So the

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next memory I have is waking up. No alarm was set, alarm went

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off, but sure enough I woke
up at seven oh three am, and

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I had no memory of anything.
I woke up completely naked, which was

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strange because I had had my pajamas
on the night before. But I woke

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up completely naked, feeling absolutely refreshed, and nothing was in my mind.

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I jumped up, I took a
shower, I got dressed, and I

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left for my exam. I don't
know how, but I knew all the

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answers at the exam, and I
knew that I didn't know all the answers

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the day before. I don't know
how I knew the answers, but they

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were there. And I knew without
a doubt that I had scored an A

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on the test. I just knew
it. So I left the exam feeling

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on top of the world, like
I cannot believe I just aced that exam

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as much as I've been stressing about
it and as much as I've been struggling

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about it, And so I then
remembered, oh, I need to get

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figurette. So I stopped and got
a pack of cigarettes and then I went

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back home for lunch and I upstairs
to my bedroom and I was going to

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sit down on the bed and have
a cigarette. And when I walked in,

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my roommate said, oh, how
did test go? And I said

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great, you know, and I
walked up to my bedroom and when I

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got to my bed, I saw
my nightgown bunched up in a pile on

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the ground right next to my bed. So I went to grab my nightgown

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to throw it into the dirty clothes, and just as I grabbed the nightgown,

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my roommate came to my bedroom door
to talk with me. And as

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I grabbed the nightgown, I had
this electric It was like being electrocuted,

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I had, but not that intense. I had this electric feeling run through

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my body. And at that moment, I remembered everything that had happened the

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night before, the out of body
experience, and I just immediately thought of

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the cigarette in that plan, and
I turned and looked at my ashtray,

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and there laying in the ashtray was
the half smoked cigarette in exactly the positions

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that I watched myself put it in. And at that point the rug was

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completely pulled out from under me.
Everything started spinning. I couldn't breathe.

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I felt like I was going to
pass out. I slid down onto my

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bed, and later my roommate would
say that when I grabbed the night down,

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she watched me go into some sort
of a trance. She said,

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my eyes just went blank and my
face went completely white, and she thought

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I was going to pass out or
die. And the next thing I know,

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my roommate is standing there in my
doorway crying, and she's telling me

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that I'm scaring her and that I
need to go and talk to someone.

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I didn't go and talk to anyone, but I did start looking into out

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of body experiences at that point because
I didn't know anything about that. So

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that was an out of body experience
that I had in nineteen ninety four.

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Didn't really know what to make of
it. Sit up as yet another one

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of these weird events that's been happening
to me my whole life, and I

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don't understand why these things are happening, but they continue to happen. So

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in nineteen ninety five, I had
participated in Semester at Sea. It was

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a program that was hosted by a
different university every year, they chose five

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hundred college students from universities around the
world, and they put us on a

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ship and cruised us around the globe, and we stopped at ten different countries,

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and we would spend a few days
to a week in each one of

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those countries. There were many different
experiences of high strangeness that happened while I

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was on that ship, but the
one in particular, the night before I

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boarded the ship, I had flown
to Seattle. I live in Ohio.

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I had flown to Seattle and met
a fellow college student from Syracuse. It

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was only the two of us that
actually there were three of us from Syracuse

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University that were selected for this program. So me and the other student,

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one of the other students from Syracuse, both flew into Seattle, Washington,

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where we met and we rented a
van, and the ship was leaving from

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Vancouver, British Columbia, So we
drove our rental van up to Vancouver,

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and we had got there a couple
days before the ship left and checked into

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a hotel and we were just so
excited, I mean, on top of

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the world. We're about to go
on this once in a lifetime trip.

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Around the world. We were going
out at night to the bars and having

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drinks and telling everybody about this trip
we were about to embark on. So

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the night before we were supposed to
board the ship, we had been out

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at the dance clubs and we had
been drinking. We then went to a

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pub. It was towards the end
of the night and we were on our

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way home and we passed this pub
that looked pretty crowded and like it was

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a happening place. So we decided
to stop in there for a few final

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before we went back to the hotel. And so as soon as we walked

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into the pub, I had a
strange feeling. I didn't know what it

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was. I couldn't put my finger
on it. I just had a strange

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feeling. And we go into the
pub and up to the bar, and

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we ordered some drinks. And as
I'm scanning the room trying to figure out

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why am I having this strange feeling
in here, I immediately land on these

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two men who were over in the
corner of this pub, and they're staring

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at me, and I knew instantly
as soon as I laid eyes on them

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that this was what was causing this
strange feeling in me and these two men,

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they were all really pale, like
beyond albino. It was almost like

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they had no coloring to them.
They were dressed in all black, no

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insignia or markings or anything. And
these two men were just sitting in the

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corner of this pub, staring at
me in a strange way. And I

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could tell that this wasn't just a
random these guys checking me out or they

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thought I was cute, like there
was intent behind this. They were there

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for me. I knew that I
had a strange feeling like who is this

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and what do they want? And
how would they even know that I was

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here? And so I got this
bad feeling like I don't want anything to

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do with these people, and so
I turned away and started talking with my

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friends and the bartender the people we
had been talking with at the bar,

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And then a table opened up at
the bar, so we decided to move

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from the bar to this table.
And when we got to the table,

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the bartender came over with a round
of shots that we hadn't ordered, and

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he said, these drinks were bought
for you by a couple of gentlemen.

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And I knew as soon as he
said it that it was those two men

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that had purchased the drinks, and
I turned to where they had been sitting,

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and they weren't there anymore. And
so the bartender set the drinks down

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on the table, and as the
bartender walked the way, there were those

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two men standing right before our table, right there. I don't know where

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they came from. I didn't see
them walk over. I didn't see them

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in the bar when I had looked
just moments before, as the bartender was

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bringing us these shots that I knew
they had bought for us. But such

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of these two men standing right at
our table, and they asked if they

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could join us, and they didn't
wait for a response, They just kind

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of said, can we join you? And they sat down at our table.

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And so we started telling them about
the ship that we were about to

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embark on the next morning and this
trip that we were going on. And

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they had like an Eastern European accent, but I couldn't really put my finger

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on at what the accent was.
But they had some sort of an accent

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that I couldn't identify, and it
founded European. But their English was pretty

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good, and they had like a
military air about them. I felt almost

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like they were in the military of
some sort, but again, they were

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wearing all there was no insignia.
So the last thing that I remember is

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having shots with them, doing a
toast and drinking this shot with them,

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and then the next memory that I
have is myself and the person from my

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university that I was traveling with.
We wake up and we're laying on our

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bed in the hotel room, but
it looks like somebody carried us into the

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room and just tossed us onto the
bed. We're fully closed, our shoes

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are still on, my purse is
stole around my shoulder, and the way

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we were laying it's like our bodies
had kind of shifted when we were thrown

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and was sort of like overlapping each
other, and one of my arms was

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bent in a really awkward way.
It literally looked like somebody had carried us

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both in and just tossed us onto
the bed. So we woke up feeling

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very out of it and obviously hung
over from the drinking, but there was

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something else. There was just this
clouded, thick feeling like some thing wasn't

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right, And we looked at the
clock and realized that we were late,

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the boarding was about to start for
this ship, and that we needed to

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get out of that hotel and get
to the dock immediately or we were going

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to miss this ship. So of
course we're freaking out. I mean,

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we had been planning for this expedition
for over a year and here we are

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about to miss the ship. So
we're running around the hotel room, throwing

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all of our stuff into our bags, trying to get out of there.

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We go down to check out at
the desk and the man working the desk

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tells us that our rental van had
been towed. And I was very confused,

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and I'm asking him, what do
you mean it's been Toad? Who

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had it towed and why? And
he said he didn't know. And at

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the time, there was this quick
little thought that went through my head,

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and the thought was, how do
you even know it was Toad if you

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don't know who toed it or why
it was towed. But we were so

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upset and concerned and needed to get
to this ship that I just had to

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kind of put it out of my
head and we said, well, where

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was it toad to And he said, I don't know. You know,

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you're going to have to call the
toe lots and see who who has this

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van of yours. So we're freaking
out at this point because the rest of

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our luggage was still in this van, and so we're calling all these different

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toelts trying to figure out where this
van ended up. And we finally did

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find the one that said, yeah, they had our rental van there.

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So we got a cab and had
them take us to this towyard, which

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was this really run down junkie on
the outskirts of town towyard, and we're

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thinking something is really wrong here,
like why would our car have even been

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towed? And I had this like
flash, this little flashback or memory,

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and in the flash, I'm sitting
in the driver's seat of this rental van

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and it's parked up on the sidewalk
right in front of the hotel. Like

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I had driven up onto the sidewalk
and almost ran into the building and stopped

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right in front of the building,
and my hands were on the ten and

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two position of the wheel. That's
what gave it away, because I would

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never I have never put my hands
on the ten and two position of the

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steering wheel. That's not how I
drive, and I could feel in this

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flashback that this wasn't on an organic
memory. I knew that this memory had

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been planted there, and in the
memory I said, oh fuck it,

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we'll just part here and we'll sort
it all out tomorrow. And it was

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just a quick flash and then that
memory was gone, and here we are.

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We're standing at this junky tow yard
on the outskirts of town, and

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I in my head, I'm thinking
something happened. What happened? And then

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those two men popped back into my
head. But at this point, we

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don't have time for any of that. This ship is about ready to leave.

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The boarding's already been going on.
So we go in to talk to

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these people to try to convince them
to give us our rental car back,

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and they're telling us that they can't, that there's paperwork and process and that

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it's going to be a couple of
days, and we're telling them absolutely not.

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This ship leads in like an hour
and we have to be on it.

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So we end up bribing them.
We ended up paying them a bunch

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of money to let us get our
luggage out of the van, and we

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told them, look, you can
keep the van. We'll call the rental

412
00:31:26.720 --> 00:31:30.319
agency and explain what happened and tell
them they're going to have to send somebody

413
00:31:30.400 --> 00:31:33.920
to come get this van, but
we need our luggage so this cab can

414
00:31:33.000 --> 00:31:37.160
take us to the docks and we
don't miss this ship. So after giving

415
00:31:37.240 --> 00:31:40.599
them most of the cash that we
had on us, they finally agreed to

416
00:31:40.680 --> 00:31:42.279
let us get our luggage out of
the van. So we get all of

417
00:31:42.319 --> 00:31:47.400
our luggage. We're piling it up
inside this cab, the trunks filled.

418
00:31:47.559 --> 00:31:48.839
I mean, I don't know how
we got it all in there, and

419
00:31:49.000 --> 00:31:52.319
the cab driver was not real happy
with us. So he takes us to

420
00:31:52.480 --> 00:31:57.039
the dock and drops us off,
and there was this progression that you had

421
00:31:57.079 --> 00:32:01.480
to go through this boarding line,
and there was like twelve different stations to

422
00:32:01.599 --> 00:32:06.359
this boarding line on the docks before
you enter the ship. And one of

423
00:32:06.440 --> 00:32:10.160
them was checking in, and the
next one was showing your passport and your

424
00:32:10.240 --> 00:32:15.400
vaccinations and all of that, and
then the next one is getting your ship

425
00:32:15.480 --> 00:32:19.279
identification made. So there's all these
little stations that you have to go through

426
00:32:19.359 --> 00:32:22.279
before they actually let you onto the
ship. So the person and I that

427
00:32:22.400 --> 00:32:27.680
we were traveling together, we start
going through these stations and as we're waiting

428
00:32:27.759 --> 00:32:30.720
in line for one of the stations, he says to me randomly, I

429
00:32:30.839 --> 00:32:35.799
think we were drugs last night,
And that sat really weirdly with me.

430
00:32:36.079 --> 00:32:38.200
And I turned to him and I
said, what are you talking about?

431
00:32:38.799 --> 00:32:43.480
Why would we have been drugged?
People drug you to rape you, to

432
00:32:43.640 --> 00:32:45.960
rob you, to murder you.
None of those things happened to us.

433
00:32:46.279 --> 00:32:50.839
We weren't robbed, we weren't raped, and we're still here, So why

434
00:32:50.880 --> 00:32:53.720
would somebody drug us? And he
just shook his head and he said,

435
00:32:53.759 --> 00:32:58.039
I don't feel right. I'm sick. And I too felt very sick,

436
00:32:58.119 --> 00:33:00.759
and I'd been hung over many times. This was not a hangover sick.

437
00:33:00.920 --> 00:33:06.920
This was thick, thick, like
your head's all foggy and you're just you're

438
00:33:07.000 --> 00:33:10.319
having trouble keeping it together. And
so again we just kind of put it

439
00:33:10.359 --> 00:33:13.559
out of our heads. I said, well, you know, I don't

440
00:33:13.559 --> 00:33:15.839
know why anybody would drug us,
or you know what the purpose would have

441
00:33:15.880 --> 00:33:19.680
been, but we're here now,
we made it through all this craziness,

442
00:33:19.799 --> 00:33:23.000
and thank goodness, this didn't cost
us this trip all because of our night

443
00:33:23.039 --> 00:33:28.319
out drinking last night. Let's just
get through this boarding process and get on

444
00:33:28.519 --> 00:33:32.519
this ship. So we make it
through the rest of the little doc area

445
00:33:32.640 --> 00:33:37.839
boarding process and we get onto the
ship and we kind of just let out

446
00:33:37.880 --> 00:33:39.680
a sire relief, like, Wow, that was close. You know,

447
00:33:39.799 --> 00:33:45.039
we almost blew the whole experience,
but we made it, and so we

448
00:33:45.400 --> 00:33:49.440
were assigned to different cabins. We
kind of parted ways once we got onto

449
00:33:49.519 --> 00:34:00.519
the ship, and we never talked
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Store. So while I was on
the ship, there were many strange events

456
00:34:38.880 --> 00:34:43.920
that happened, and so many that
I won't even go into all of them,

457
00:34:44.079 --> 00:34:50.360
but probably one of the more significant
ones was while we were cruising from

458
00:34:50.440 --> 00:34:53.880
one country to another in the middle
of the ocean. Oftentimes at night I

459
00:34:54.000 --> 00:34:58.920
would go up to one of the
top decks when everybody was asleep, and

460
00:34:59.079 --> 00:35:01.320
I would just lay up there on
the ground looking up at the stars.

461
00:35:01.400 --> 00:35:06.159
It was so amazing, as dark
as it was out in the ocean,

462
00:35:06.400 --> 00:35:09.760
and the stars were just so bright
and so vibrant. So a lot of

463
00:35:09.800 --> 00:35:14.159
times I would go up there at
night just to lay around look at the

464
00:35:14.239 --> 00:35:17.719
stars, collect my thoughts, reflect
on what I had done in the country

465
00:35:17.800 --> 00:35:22.159
we were just at. So usually
I would go to the top deck so

466
00:35:22.280 --> 00:35:27.559
that I could look at the stars. But this particular night, for whatever

467
00:35:27.719 --> 00:35:31.400
reason, I went to the lowest
deck and I just walked over to the

468
00:35:31.559 --> 00:35:36.400
edge of the ship and was just
leaning on the railing, kind of looking

469
00:35:36.519 --> 00:35:39.760
out into the ocean, looking at
the moon and the stars, and all

470
00:35:39.800 --> 00:35:45.000
of a sudden, I see these
lights, and for a second I forget

471
00:35:45.039 --> 00:35:47.880
that I'm on the lowest deck.
And when I see these lights, I'm

472
00:35:47.960 --> 00:35:52.880
thinking, Okay, somebody must be
shining a light out of their portal or

473
00:35:52.239 --> 00:35:59.079
playing some silly prank. But then
I realized the portals are above me.

474
00:36:00.000 --> 00:36:04.960
I'm on the lowest decks. So
I look down into the water and I

475
00:36:05.159 --> 00:36:09.360
see these yellow, red, and
green lights under the water, and they're

476
00:36:09.440 --> 00:36:15.079
getting bigger and bigger, and as
the lights got closer, I could see

477
00:36:15.519 --> 00:36:21.119
that there was a ship under the
water. And immediately I'm thinking, Okay,

478
00:36:21.280 --> 00:36:23.920
this must be some sort of high
tech sub or something, and they're

479
00:36:24.079 --> 00:36:29.519
just checking out our ship. And
as this craft got right below the water's

480
00:36:29.679 --> 00:36:34.840
edge, I had a telepathic communication
in my mind. There was a man's

481
00:36:34.960 --> 00:36:38.199
voice, and it said to me, you can run to the ends of

482
00:36:38.320 --> 00:36:43.559
the earth, you can strand yourself
in the middle of the sea. We'll

483
00:36:43.639 --> 00:36:47.400
always be able to find you.
And at that point, I was overwhelmed

484
00:36:47.480 --> 00:36:54.119
with this feeling of fear and dread, and I just turned and ran back

485
00:36:54.199 --> 00:37:00.000
to my cabin. And I'm actually
shaking right now even recounting this experience.

486
00:37:00.840 --> 00:37:04.760
So I turned and I ran back
to my cabin and I crawled up into

487
00:37:04.840 --> 00:37:09.000
my top bunk and I just laid
there and cried and just thought, what

488
00:37:09.280 --> 00:37:13.400
is wrong with me? Why is
all of this stuff happening to me?

489
00:37:14.519 --> 00:37:17.119
Is there something wrong with my head? Do I need help? Or is

490
00:37:17.159 --> 00:37:21.719
there something to this? This has
been going on my whole life, all

491
00:37:21.840 --> 00:37:24.920
these strange events, and nobody else
seems to experience these things. Why me?

492
00:37:25.519 --> 00:37:30.320
Why is all this stuff happening to
me, so I went to sleep.

493
00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:32.039
I mean, what could I do? You know? I went to

494
00:37:32.119 --> 00:37:36.920
sleep and got up the next day
and just tried to put it out of

495
00:37:36.960 --> 00:37:42.000
my head. Really finished that ship. It was an amazing experience. It

496
00:37:42.199 --> 00:37:45.119
was hands down the best time of
my life. That those three months of

497
00:37:45.199 --> 00:37:50.000
my life were the cream of the
crop. It doesn't get any better than

498
00:37:50.079 --> 00:37:53.880
that, just being whisked off like
a tourist, just to one amazing experience

499
00:37:54.000 --> 00:38:00.280
after another. And some of the
high strangeness events were good events. They

500
00:38:00.360 --> 00:38:05.679
were really amazing events that didn't scare
me. They weren't traumatic. But after

501
00:38:05.880 --> 00:38:10.079
seeing that ship in the water,
it's like things took a turn at that

502
00:38:10.239 --> 00:38:15.400
point. That was the first time
that I'd really felt that overwhelming sense of

503
00:38:15.719 --> 00:38:21.840
fear and dread, and I knew
something inside me. Knew this experience is

504
00:38:21.920 --> 00:38:25.639
different than the others that I've had. And it doesn't even feel like this

505
00:38:25.840 --> 00:38:30.760
experience is coming from the same source
that all the others were coming from.

506
00:38:31.400 --> 00:38:36.320
I kind of can just sense that
there's something dark. I don't want to

507
00:38:36.400 --> 00:38:38.599
use the word evil, but that's
the word that comes to mind. There's

508
00:38:38.639 --> 00:38:45.679
something dark or evil about this and
this fear and this dread feeling that it's

509
00:38:45.800 --> 00:38:50.480
caused in me. I was never
given that feeling from these other experiences that

510
00:38:50.559 --> 00:38:55.519
I've had prior to that. So
the ship ended in Christmas. Eves dropped

511
00:38:55.559 --> 00:39:00.920
us off on the dock in New
Orleans, and I ended up staying in

512
00:39:00.039 --> 00:39:06.079
New Orleans for a few days and
having an amazing time. Eventually, I

513
00:39:06.199 --> 00:39:08.719
did make it back home, and
I had decided to take the next semester

514
00:39:08.920 --> 00:39:14.559
off of college. So much had
happened to me on that ship. Not

515
00:39:14.800 --> 00:39:19.360
only did I have so much to
process just from all of the countries that

516
00:39:19.480 --> 00:39:23.840
we had visited and all of the
experiences of the tourism and the different things

517
00:39:23.880 --> 00:39:28.199
that we had done, but then
on top of that, all of these

518
00:39:28.360 --> 00:39:31.480
experiences of high strangeness that it happened
to me. And so I just came

519
00:39:31.519 --> 00:39:37.320
to the conclusion that there's no way
I can just start a new semester college

520
00:39:37.360 --> 00:39:40.079
in two weeks and just put all
of this away and keep going. I

521
00:39:40.199 --> 00:39:45.360
need some time to process all of
this. So I took the semester off,

522
00:39:45.719 --> 00:39:50.719
and I spent most of that semester
just hanging out in my parents' basement,

523
00:39:51.039 --> 00:39:54.840
sleeping a lot. I had all
of my photos developed, and I

524
00:39:55.000 --> 00:39:59.360
was reading back through my journals that
I had kept while I was on this

525
00:39:59.519 --> 00:40:05.320
ship, and I never wrote anything
about the high strangeness events in my journals.

526
00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:09.719
I would kind of leave myself some
clues, some like coding type things

527
00:40:09.800 --> 00:40:13.960
that I would do in the way
that I wrote in certain words that I

528
00:40:14.000 --> 00:40:17.639
would use, and a couple images
that I drew, but I never flat

529
00:40:17.679 --> 00:40:22.199
out wrote out those experiences in my
journal. Something told me, and I'd

530
00:40:22.239 --> 00:40:25.599
always known that I needed to keep
all of this in my head or people

531
00:40:25.679 --> 00:40:29.800
were going to think I was crazy
and then I wouldn't be able to lead

532
00:40:30.000 --> 00:40:34.639
any kind of normal life. So
I spent that semester that I had taken

533
00:40:34.719 --> 00:40:39.079
off just kind of trying to regroup
and recharge myself and wrap my head around

534
00:40:39.400 --> 00:40:44.960
everything that I had just experienced.
And I spent most of my time sleeping,

535
00:40:45.360 --> 00:40:49.840
or I would play games on the
computer down in the basement of my

536
00:40:49.960 --> 00:40:53.960
parents' home. And so one night
I was sitting in the basement playing game

537
00:40:54.079 --> 00:40:59.079
on the computer, blazing the Oregon
Trail, and I would sit and play

538
00:40:59.119 --> 00:41:02.920
that game for hours and hours.
And so back then the computers had the

539
00:41:04.039 --> 00:41:07.880
physical mouth that you had to put
your hand on and move it around to

540
00:41:07.000 --> 00:41:10.480
move the cursor. And so I
had my hand on the mouth, and

541
00:41:10.639 --> 00:41:15.960
I was playing this video game when
our house was struck by lightning, and

542
00:41:17.159 --> 00:41:22.199
my hand was on the mouth.
When the lightning struck our house and my

543
00:41:22.360 --> 00:41:27.480
hand was stuck to the mouth,
I could not pull my hand off of

544
00:41:27.559 --> 00:41:34.519
the mouth, and I felt like
this electrocuting hot pain start moving from my

545
00:41:34.719 --> 00:41:39.320
hand in the mouth up my arm. And as that pain is moving up

546
00:41:39.400 --> 00:41:45.639
my arm, I'm looking at the
computer screen. And the computer screen went

547
00:41:45.960 --> 00:41:52.000
completely blank, completely black, and
then the computer screen went completely white.

548
00:41:53.119 --> 00:41:59.880
And then at that point, a
little cartoon character of a mouth came out

549
00:42:00.079 --> 00:42:04.599
from the side of the computer screen
and crawled to the middle of the screen

550
00:42:05.360 --> 00:42:09.079
and turned and stood up on its
two hind legs, and I kind of

551
00:42:09.159 --> 00:42:15.039
gave this look of just shock and
disbelief. I couldn't believe what was happening.

552
00:42:15.079 --> 00:42:20.159
I didn't know what was happening.
And I guess upon seeing my reaction

553
00:42:20.440 --> 00:42:25.760
of shock, this little cartoon mouth
threw its head back and gave this laugh

554
00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:32.159
that was such an evil like maniacal
laugh. It was just I don't even

555
00:42:32.239 --> 00:42:37.400
know how to explain it, and
the voice that I was hearing, the

556
00:42:37.519 --> 00:42:40.719
laugh, and the tone of this
voice did not match what I was looking

557
00:42:40.800 --> 00:42:45.280
at, the cartoon character of this
little mouth. And I'm feeling this hot

558
00:42:45.400 --> 00:42:49.639
pain shooting up my arm, and
at this point it's getting up to the

559
00:42:49.719 --> 00:42:52.440
top of my arm, about to
go into my shoulder, and my hand

560
00:42:52.519 --> 00:42:58.920
is still stuck to the mouth.
And again a man's voice. The mouse

561
00:42:59.039 --> 00:43:02.239
is speaking. The mouth of the
mouth is moving on the screen, but

562
00:43:02.360 --> 00:43:07.760
I'm hearing this man's voice in my
head. The man's voice said to me,

563
00:43:07.960 --> 00:43:10.239
and I try to remember its exact
words, but I can never remember

564
00:43:10.360 --> 00:43:15.000
exactly what it said. It said
something to the effect of, it doesn't

565
00:43:15.079 --> 00:43:19.840
matter what you do, We'll always
be able to find you. Haven't you

566
00:43:19.960 --> 00:43:23.679
figured that out by now? You're
just wasting time. And at that point,

567
00:43:23.960 --> 00:43:28.360
right before that hot pain, it
was in my shoulder, and I

568
00:43:28.480 --> 00:43:30.159
felt like it was about to go
to my heart, and that when it

569
00:43:30.239 --> 00:43:34.960
went to my heart that I would
die. And right as that pain was

570
00:43:35.119 --> 00:43:37.400
up in my shoulder and I felt
it was about the head to my heart,

571
00:43:38.119 --> 00:43:43.639
I was just suddenly thrown back from
the computer. My hand was thrown

572
00:43:43.760 --> 00:43:46.320
off of the mouth, and I
was sitting. Our basement was a concrete

573
00:43:46.400 --> 00:43:50.840
floor, and I was sitting in
an office chair with wheels on it,

574
00:43:51.280 --> 00:43:57.199
and I was thrown back with such
a force that this chair went flying across

575
00:43:57.320 --> 00:44:00.880
our basement, all the way across
our basement, and I slammed into the

576
00:44:01.039 --> 00:44:05.920
back wall that my dad had a
weight rack set up on and some of

577
00:44:06.000 --> 00:44:08.000
the weights had fallen off the rack, some of the smaller ones, and

578
00:44:08.119 --> 00:44:14.360
I this chair just slammed into this
weight rack and I jumped up out of

579
00:44:14.440 --> 00:44:17.920
the chair and my heart was beating
like a million miles a minute. I

580
00:44:19.000 --> 00:44:22.559
thought it was going to explode at
any second. And I was shaking like

581
00:44:22.639 --> 00:44:25.760
a leaf and I couldn't catch my
breast. And at that point, my

582
00:44:25.920 --> 00:44:30.039
parents came running down the stairs and
they're like, are you okay? Are

583
00:44:30.079 --> 00:44:35.840
you okay? And they could see
that I wasn't breathing, that something had

584
00:44:35.880 --> 00:44:38.360
happened to me, and they were
telling me just calm down, just breathe,

585
00:44:38.599 --> 00:44:43.719
just breathe, and I finally did
take a breath, and my parents

586
00:44:43.800 --> 00:44:46.960
looked me over physically, I guess, for signs of a burner or something,

587
00:44:47.360 --> 00:44:52.360
and they said, just calm down, You're okay. Just take a

588
00:44:52.400 --> 00:44:59.360
deep breath, and that lightning strike
had blown every electronic that had been plugged

589
00:44:59.400 --> 00:45:04.079
in and house. Every one of
them are microwave, oven, OURPV,

590
00:45:04.760 --> 00:45:07.480
everything that was plugged into the wall. It just fried them and me.

591
00:45:08.400 --> 00:45:14.760
So that was in nineteen ninety six, and yet another strange event that I

592
00:45:14.800 --> 00:45:19.039
couldn't explain. And I never told
my parents about the mouth on the computer

593
00:45:19.159 --> 00:45:22.960
screen. I knew they would think
I was crazy and so and at this

594
00:45:22.079 --> 00:45:28.159
point I was scared. I felt
like, these are these experiences are different,

595
00:45:28.519 --> 00:45:31.239
these are bad. I feel a
darkness. I feel a lack of

596
00:45:31.400 --> 00:45:37.440
something coming from the source that's causing
these last few episodes that I've had.

597
00:45:37.039 --> 00:45:40.519
But I still didn't know how to
wrap my mind around what is all this?

598
00:45:40.800 --> 00:45:44.800
What's happening to me? And what
does it all mean? What do

599
00:45:44.880 --> 00:45:46.880
they want from me? What am
I supposed to do? Like, I

600
00:45:47.079 --> 00:45:52.599
just could not figure out what the
purpose of all this was, let alone

601
00:45:52.719 --> 00:45:59.480
what it even meant. So flash
forward, you know, over the years

602
00:45:59.559 --> 00:46:01.480
I had said that, you know, I would always feel like the back

603
00:46:01.559 --> 00:46:06.440
of my head felt really fuzzy,
and even after the cat scan, nothing

604
00:46:06.599 --> 00:46:10.519
was found physically to account for that. But I continued to wake up with

605
00:46:10.679 --> 00:46:15.079
that like hangover feeling all the time. I mean several times a week,

606
00:46:15.639 --> 00:46:21.920
just this strange hangover feeling where I
would feel like my muscles are exhausted and

607
00:46:22.079 --> 00:46:25.800
I have this trauma and this anxiety
and the back of my head feels all

608
00:46:25.920 --> 00:46:30.159
fuzzy and all I want to do
is sleep all the time. And I

609
00:46:31.000 --> 00:46:36.039
never could figure out why that is. But I knew that something was being

610
00:46:36.159 --> 00:46:38.360
done to me, but there was
nothing in my mind that I could point

611
00:46:38.440 --> 00:46:43.280
to. I couldn't remember anything,
but you know, you just know it

612
00:46:43.440 --> 00:46:47.480
on a gut level that someone's getting
me at night and doing something to me,

613
00:46:47.800 --> 00:46:53.159
and it's leaving physical traces. And
so I started to kind of realize

614
00:46:53.239 --> 00:46:58.920
the symptoms of what it felt like
after these events would happen. So I

615
00:46:59.039 --> 00:47:00.639
had a pretty good idea, yeah, that it was happening on a regular

616
00:47:00.760 --> 00:47:07.960
basis, because of these physical symptoms
that I actually have. So probably in

617
00:47:07.360 --> 00:47:13.199
the year two thousand, almost two
thousand and one, I was out of

618
00:47:13.280 --> 00:47:16.719
college by this point, and I
was living back in Ohio, and the

619
00:47:16.840 --> 00:47:22.760
electric company had sent out a calendar
and each month they had some scenic picture

620
00:47:22.840 --> 00:47:27.679
on the calendar. They sent it
out to everyone, and I was flipping

621
00:47:27.760 --> 00:47:32.239
through that calendar one day in two
thousand and two of the pictures were of

622
00:47:32.440 --> 00:47:38.320
mountains, and I got that strange, little electric feel run through me again,

623
00:47:38.599 --> 00:47:44.559
like there's something to this. And
one of the pictures was Mount Rainier

624
00:47:44.880 --> 00:47:50.920
in Washington and the other picture was
from Danali National Park in Alaska, and

625
00:47:51.039 --> 00:47:55.039
I just had this overwhelming sense that
I have to go there. There's something

626
00:47:55.199 --> 00:48:00.239
there for me. And I didn't
understand what it would be there for me,

627
00:48:00.519 --> 00:48:05.559
or why I would need to go
there, or what mountain it even

628
00:48:05.840 --> 00:48:08.360
was. Was it one of these
two mountains? Was it just a mountain?

629
00:48:08.639 --> 00:48:13.239
And what would be there for me? What would I need to go

630
00:48:13.400 --> 00:48:16.039
there to get? I didn't know. But I just had this strange pool

631
00:48:16.159 --> 00:48:22.119
this feeling like there's something there for
you, not an answer, but something

632
00:48:22.360 --> 00:48:29.000
physically there for you that you have
to go and get. So I realized

633
00:48:29.039 --> 00:48:31.360
at this point all of these things
have been happening to me for a reason.

634
00:48:31.559 --> 00:48:36.400
Obviously I'm supposed to do something with
it, and maybe this is it.

635
00:48:37.000 --> 00:48:38.599
Maybe this is the end. Maybe
maybe I'm going to go to this

636
00:48:38.719 --> 00:48:44.239
mountain. I'm gonna find whatever this
is and that'll explain all of this or

637
00:48:44.320 --> 00:48:47.639
be the end of all of this
or something. But I can't keep running

638
00:48:47.719 --> 00:48:52.559
from these dark things that have been
happening to me. I can't keep living

639
00:48:52.639 --> 00:48:57.800
with trauma and fear all the time. So I'm done being afraid. That

640
00:48:58.320 --> 00:49:01.599
emotion is not serving me here,
it's just making me less prepared to deal

641
00:49:01.679 --> 00:49:06.480
with these things. So whatever happens, better or worse. At this point,

642
00:49:06.519 --> 00:49:08.519
I didn't even care if I died, because quite frankly, it would

643
00:49:08.559 --> 00:49:14.360
be better than living under the anxiety
and stress and trauma that I was living

644
00:49:14.480 --> 00:49:19.440
under. I needed this to stop. I couldn't do this anymore, so

645
00:49:20.000 --> 00:49:22.519
I just said, that's it.
I'm going to lean into this head first.

646
00:49:22.719 --> 00:49:25.599
I'm going to go find this mountain
and I'm not going to stop until

647
00:49:25.639 --> 00:49:29.559
I do find it, and I'm
going to bring this to an end one

648
00:49:29.599 --> 00:49:32.920
way or another. And something inside
me just told me, like this is

649
00:49:34.000 --> 00:49:36.920
the big one, that this is
what all of this was preparing you for,

650
00:49:37.159 --> 00:49:39.519
that this is what you're supposed to
do with all of this. But

651
00:49:39.599 --> 00:49:43.960
I still didn't know which mountain it
was, or if it was even one

652
00:49:44.000 --> 00:49:46.800
of these two mountains in these pictures
that I that I had seen. So

653
00:49:47.159 --> 00:49:51.400
I realized, I'm going to have
to go to boat and I live in

654
00:49:51.480 --> 00:49:53.760
Ohio, so I thought, well, I'll go to Mount Rainier first in

655
00:49:54.000 --> 00:49:59.559
Washington State. That's obviously a lot
closer than Alaska, and I'll see what

656
00:49:59.639 --> 00:50:02.039
happened, and i'll see if I
have a feeling that this is where I'm

657
00:50:02.079 --> 00:50:07.039
supposed to be, and if not, then I'll know that it's Alaska that

658
00:50:07.119 --> 00:50:10.639
I need to go to. So
my first trip, I'm trying to make

659
00:50:10.679 --> 00:50:19.679
it out to Mount Rainier and I'm
driving down the highway and it was nighttime,

660
00:50:20.039 --> 00:50:22.679
and it was late. There wasn't
a whole lot of traffic on the

661
00:50:22.800 --> 00:50:27.320
road, and I don't remember exactly
what state I was in. I want

662
00:50:27.360 --> 00:50:31.719
to say it was maybe North Dakota. And so I'm cruising down this highway

663
00:50:31.800 --> 00:50:37.960
pretty late at night, and all
of a sudden, I have this strange

664
00:50:37.039 --> 00:50:42.400
feeling. It's almost like a feeling
like I'm being watched or I'm not alone

665
00:50:42.559 --> 00:50:47.239
all of a sudden, but I
was alone. And then up ahead there's

666
00:50:47.280 --> 00:50:51.920
an overpass in front of me coming
up, and I can see a bright

667
00:50:52.119 --> 00:50:55.320
light on the other side of the
overpass, and at first I'm thinking,

668
00:50:55.519 --> 00:51:00.320
well, it must be a vehicle
coming the opposite direct and I can see

669
00:51:00.360 --> 00:51:06.519
their lights coming towards this overpass.
But as I got closer to the overpass,

670
00:51:07.119 --> 00:51:10.000
I realized that that this wasn't two
headlights that I was seeing. This

671
00:51:10.280 --> 00:51:16.440
was one really bright light coming from
the underneath of this overpass, and it

672
00:51:16.599 --> 00:51:21.480
was so bright that I couldn't see
anything beyond it. It took up the

673
00:51:21.519 --> 00:51:24.320
whole underpaths, and so then I
started thinking, well, maybe it's a

674
00:51:24.400 --> 00:51:28.280
work crew. And you know,
they usually set up in the middle of

675
00:51:28.320 --> 00:51:30.920
the highway with the if they're going
to work at night, they have those

676
00:51:30.000 --> 00:51:34.920
bright lights. Maybe that's what this
is, is just the light coming through

677
00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:40.280
the underpaths from a work crew.
And so as I get to this underpass,

678
00:51:42.559 --> 00:51:46.480
right as I'm literally entering the underpath, I realized that this isn't a

679
00:51:46.559 --> 00:51:51.159
work crew. I don't know what
it is at that moment, but I

680
00:51:51.360 --> 00:51:54.599
know that it's bad and it's too
late to stop. My vehicle's already going

681
00:51:54.880 --> 00:52:00.639
under the underpass. So the next
thing I know, I'm driving down the

682
00:52:00.760 --> 00:52:06.639
highway at sixty five miles an hour. It's dark again, and my radio's

683
00:52:06.760 --> 00:52:09.840
on, but it's like off station, and so it's mostly just fuzz,

684
00:52:10.000 --> 00:52:15.920
and it's turned up so loud.
This spuzz was just deafening the sound of

685
00:52:15.960 --> 00:52:17.400
it. And I had my dog
with me. It was just me and

686
00:52:17.480 --> 00:52:22.199
my dog, and I turned to
look at my dog, and I could

687
00:52:22.320 --> 00:52:27.159
tell from the look on his face
and in his eyes that he too was

688
00:52:27.360 --> 00:52:30.760
stunned. Like we just looked at
each other, like what was that.

689
00:52:30.320 --> 00:52:36.719
It was almost like something happened,
but we were missing that time. It

690
00:52:36.880 --> 00:52:42.039
was like one moment, I'm realizing
there's something wrong with this light, and

691
00:52:42.199 --> 00:52:46.559
I'm heading into the overpass and then
flash, just like that, I'm driving

692
00:52:46.639 --> 00:52:51.960
down this highway sixty five miles an
hour, and the radio's off station and

693
00:52:52.199 --> 00:52:54.920
turned all the way up, and
I know that something's happened, but I

694
00:52:55.280 --> 00:52:59.079
can't wrap my head around it.
I don't know what it is, and

695
00:53:00.079 --> 00:53:02.639
my head just feels all fuzzy,
and I'm confused, and I'm afraid to

696
00:53:02.719 --> 00:53:07.480
stop the car. I'm afraid to
keep going. I'm afraid I might pass

697
00:53:07.519 --> 00:53:10.239
out because I'm starting to have trouble
breathing. And I look at my dog

698
00:53:10.400 --> 00:53:15.880
and when I see that confused,
kind of shaken look on his face.

699
00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:21.239
I know that I'm not making this
up, that he feels it too.

700
00:53:21.480 --> 00:53:27.360
Something happened, so it was probably
like and I did not stop. I

701
00:53:27.679 --> 00:53:30.840
did slow down, and I just
kept driving, and I was shaking like

702
00:53:30.920 --> 00:53:32.400
a leaf, and I just thought, the safest thing is for us to

703
00:53:32.559 --> 00:53:37.440
just stay moving. Stay in motion. A moving target is harder to get

704
00:53:37.440 --> 00:53:40.039
a hold of. I just need
to breathe and keep myself from passing out,

705
00:53:40.199 --> 00:53:45.440
and just keep driving. So we
drove for hours until it was daylight

706
00:53:45.519 --> 00:53:50.599
out, and then we pulled over
at a Walmart parking lot, and I

707
00:53:50.760 --> 00:53:54.440
made sure to pull into a busy
area of the parking lot where there were

708
00:53:54.559 --> 00:54:00.920
security cameras, and then I crawled
into the back of the suv with my

709
00:54:00.039 --> 00:54:05.320
dog and we laid down to get
some sleep. So it was probably the

710
00:54:05.440 --> 00:54:10.039
next day or two after that I
was getting close to Washington State. I

711
00:54:10.119 --> 00:54:14.880
may have actually even crossed over into
Washington State by that point, but it

712
00:54:15.039 --> 00:54:20.440
was a day or two after that
strange event had happened that my car suddenly

713
00:54:20.519 --> 00:54:25.199
broke down in this tiny little town, and there was only one repair shop

714
00:54:25.360 --> 00:54:30.199
in this town. So I took
the car to the repair shop and checked

715
00:54:30.239 --> 00:54:34.079
into a hotel, and the repair
shop, after looking it over for the

716
00:54:34.199 --> 00:54:37.400
day, informs me that there's a
part that they're going to have to order

717
00:54:37.599 --> 00:54:42.719
for this car because they don't have
the part, and that it's going to

718
00:54:42.840 --> 00:54:47.719
take days for this part to be
mailed to them shipped to them, so

719
00:54:49.320 --> 00:54:53.000
and it's very expensive, I mean
extremely expensive. So at that point,

720
00:54:53.199 --> 00:54:55.920
I'm going to have to use the
rest of the money that I have for

721
00:54:57.039 --> 00:55:00.320
this trip to fix this car so
that I can even get back home.

722
00:55:00.679 --> 00:55:02.960
And I realized at that point,
I'm not going to make it to Mount

723
00:55:04.039 --> 00:55:07.119
Rainier. So we've checked into this
hotel, and I kind of thought at

724
00:55:07.159 --> 00:55:12.039
this point it was almost a relief, because I was kind of afraid of

725
00:55:12.440 --> 00:55:15.360
what it was I was going to
find at Mount Rainier, what was going

726
00:55:15.440 --> 00:55:17.360
to happen to me there. And
so at this point, when the car

727
00:55:17.480 --> 00:55:21.239
broke down, I had to accept, Hey, that's it. We're not

728
00:55:21.360 --> 00:55:23.519
going to make it out there this
time, and now I can just relax

729
00:55:23.800 --> 00:55:28.199
and recover for a few days here
in this hotel while I'm waiting for them

730
00:55:28.280 --> 00:55:31.599
to fix my car. So it
turns out they had even more trouble getting

731
00:55:31.679 --> 00:55:36.000
this part, and after three or
four days, they still hadn't got the

732
00:55:36.079 --> 00:55:37.920
part. They still couldn't tell me
when the part was going to arrive,

733
00:55:38.280 --> 00:55:43.440
and on like the It was probably
the third or fourth night in the hotel,

734
00:55:44.400 --> 00:55:47.320
the same thing happened that had been
happening all my life. That night,

735
00:55:47.559 --> 00:55:52.280
I had taken a bath soaked in
a bubble bath. We had ordered

736
00:55:52.360 --> 00:55:55.280
pizza. I was well rested because
we'd been doing nothing but hanging out at

737
00:55:55.360 --> 00:55:59.920
this hotel and walking around for days
now, so I was well read.

738
00:56:00.000 --> 00:56:04.679
I felt totally one hundred percent normal
and back to my normal self. And

739
00:56:05.000 --> 00:56:07.440
I didn't have to think about what
was going to happen at this mountain because

740
00:56:07.480 --> 00:56:10.159
that was over now. I wasn't
even going to make it to the mountain,

741
00:56:10.599 --> 00:56:14.840
So I was relaxed. I was
comfortable, I felt good, and

742
00:56:15.199 --> 00:56:19.280
I went to bed on that third
or fourth night at that hotel, and

743
00:56:19.400 --> 00:56:22.679
I woke up the next morning and
it was that same hangover feeling. I

744
00:56:22.840 --> 00:56:29.000
woke up feeling like I had been
worked over physically and mentally. I could

745
00:56:29.079 --> 00:56:31.840
feel the ache in my muscles,
I could feel the trauma, the fear.

746
00:56:32.360 --> 00:56:37.800
The back of my head was fuzzy
again, and I knew that something

747
00:56:37.880 --> 00:56:43.159
had happened again, But I had
nothing to latch onto, no memory as

748
00:56:43.239 --> 00:56:45.800
to what could be causing me to
feel this way. I felt fine when

749
00:56:45.840 --> 00:56:50.320
I went to bed last night.
I supposedly got eight hours of sleep.

750
00:56:50.880 --> 00:56:54.800
Why am I waking up feeling like
this again? So that happened every night

751
00:56:55.159 --> 00:57:00.360
for the next three or four nights
at that hotel, and I I knew,

752
00:57:00.679 --> 00:57:05.599
I could feel. I could sense
that something had stopped me from making

753
00:57:05.679 --> 00:57:08.800
it to Mount Raineer, that something
had caused my car to break down.

754
00:57:09.400 --> 00:57:14.639
And every night something was getting a
hold of me and doing something to me.

755
00:57:14.840 --> 00:57:17.159
Because each day that I woke up, I felt worse and worse,

756
00:57:17.239 --> 00:57:22.079
and I felt this fear and panic, and so I started hounding the repair

757
00:57:22.199 --> 00:57:25.679
shop, like getting nasty with them, telling them, look, this is

758
00:57:25.760 --> 00:57:29.800
crazy. I've been here seven eight
days. Now, you got to get

759
00:57:29.840 --> 00:57:31.960
this part and get my car fixed. I need to go home now.

760
00:57:32.519 --> 00:57:37.400
So finally, a few days later, they did get the part, got

761
00:57:37.480 --> 00:57:42.159
my car fixed, and we did
end up making it home, and there

762
00:57:42.199 --> 00:57:45.639
weren't too many more incidents on the
way home. But I still had this

763
00:57:45.000 --> 00:57:50.880
uneasy feeling like I was being followed, like I was being watched. Something

764
00:57:51.039 --> 00:57:55.199
was very interested in me, but
I didn't know what and so we went

765
00:57:55.320 --> 00:58:00.440
back home. And of course I'm
a pretty persistent person and I was not

766
00:58:00.599 --> 00:58:05.039
about to give up. So I
kind of chalked that up as the trial

767
00:58:05.159 --> 00:58:07.480
run as to what I was up
against here and what it was going to

768
00:58:07.559 --> 00:58:13.280
take for me to make it out
to Mount Rainier. So I changed some

769
00:58:13.440 --> 00:58:16.400
things around to make sure that it
would go smoother. The next time.

770
00:58:16.800 --> 00:58:21.920
I had gotten this finder that I
had put together for almost a year.

771
00:58:22.239 --> 00:58:27.119
I had detailed road maps, I
had the mileage from one point to the

772
00:58:27.280 --> 00:58:31.280
next. I had every one of
my stops planned out to be stopped in

773
00:58:31.400 --> 00:58:37.119
a big area with a Walmart or
a large store or parking lot that was

774
00:58:37.199 --> 00:58:40.719
open twenty four hours, that there
would be people coming and going, that

775
00:58:40.880 --> 00:58:45.760
we could sleep in the back of
the car in a public setting. I

776
00:58:45.880 --> 00:58:50.079
also changed up the night and day
thing. Instead of driving all day and

777
00:58:50.199 --> 00:58:53.199
then trying to sleep at night,
I switched that because I realized that these

778
00:58:53.280 --> 00:58:57.760
things are happening at night while I'm
sleeping. They're getting a hold of me

779
00:58:58.119 --> 00:59:00.920
while I'm sleeping. So I came
and I said, Okay, we'll drive

780
00:59:01.000 --> 00:59:05.639
all night because at least I'll be
awake and I'll have some chance of fighting

781
00:59:05.719 --> 00:59:08.039
this off. And then during the
day we'll go to one of these public

782
00:59:08.119 --> 00:59:14.400
places and hopefully with a security camera
and lots of traffic, people, traffic

783
00:59:14.480 --> 00:59:17.000
going in and out of the parking
lot. And it seemed to work.

784
00:59:17.159 --> 00:59:22.239
It definitely seemed to work. I
felt like there were no strange events happening

785
00:59:22.559 --> 00:59:29.119
that I wasn't feeling that that hungover, feeling like like something had gotten a

786
00:59:29.159 --> 00:59:34.400
hold of me. So I made
it all the way out to Mountaineer on

787
00:59:34.559 --> 00:59:39.079
that second time with almost nothing happening, and my dog and I were hiking

788
00:59:39.199 --> 00:59:43.920
around the base of the mountain and
it was beautiful. It looked just like

789
00:59:44.039 --> 00:59:46.519
the picture in the calendar that I
had tore out and kept with me.

790
00:59:46.920 --> 00:59:51.440
But I knew as soon as I
got there that this was not the mountain

791
00:59:51.559 --> 00:59:54.760
that I was being called to,
And so we spent a few days hiking

792
00:59:54.840 --> 00:59:59.239
around the mountain and taking it easy, and I knew at that point,

793
00:59:59.639 --> 01:00:04.400
I'm going have to go to Alaska, and that's a much bigger ordeal than

794
01:00:05.000 --> 01:00:10.000
the Mountaineer in Washington State. So
I'm gonna need to go home and prepare

795
01:00:10.199 --> 01:00:22.760
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one meal kit. So we're on
our way back from this second trip,

813
01:01:52.639 --> 01:01:59.480
and we were few states away from
Ohio and my Grandma. Before I had

814
01:01:59.559 --> 01:02:01.679
left done that trip, my Grandma
was getting older and she was having some

815
01:02:01.840 --> 01:02:07.199
health problems, and she had ended
up having to have a bypass surgery on

816
01:02:07.360 --> 01:02:12.000
her heart. She struggled during the
recovery, and I knew that my Grandma

817
01:02:12.079 --> 01:02:15.719
wasn't going to be around very much
longer. I was closer to my grandma

818
01:02:15.800 --> 01:02:19.400
than any person on the face of
this earth. She and I were just

819
01:02:20.039 --> 01:02:22.920
as tired as you could be.
So we had always had this running joke.

820
01:02:23.039 --> 01:02:25.920
I had always told her. I
had made her promise me that she

821
01:02:27.000 --> 01:02:30.360
would die when I was out of
town because I couldn't handle it. I

822
01:02:30.440 --> 01:02:34.000
couldn't be the one to watch it. I couldn't see that happen, that

823
01:02:34.119 --> 01:02:37.159
I would never recover from it.
And it was always a joke with us,

824
01:02:37.320 --> 01:02:38.559
like, now, remember, you're
you're not going to kick the bucket

825
01:02:38.679 --> 01:02:43.199
until I'm out of town on vacation
or something, and she would always laugh

826
01:02:43.280 --> 01:02:45.039
and say, yeah, yeah,
I promise. I promised. So on

827
01:02:45.199 --> 01:02:50.320
the way back from this second trip
that we had made it to Mount Rainier,

828
01:02:50.639 --> 01:02:53.239
we had had a beautiful day.
We stopped and spent the whole day

829
01:02:53.400 --> 01:02:58.960
hiking, and I was going to
be driving in the overnight hours because I

830
01:02:59.119 --> 01:03:05.119
just felt safer that way. And
so we're driving it's nighttime after a beautiful

831
01:03:05.159 --> 01:03:09.039
day of hiking. I was physically
tired because we had hiked longer than I

832
01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:13.440
thought we were going to. We
kind of got lost and got off trail

833
01:03:13.519 --> 01:03:17.280
and it was a much longer hike
and much more physically exerting than I thought

834
01:03:17.360 --> 01:03:21.519
it was going to be. So
as we take off driving that night,

835
01:03:21.679 --> 01:03:23.400
I realized, like, I'm not
going to be able to drive all night.

836
01:03:23.559 --> 01:03:28.599
I'm physically exhausted from our hike,
and I need to get at least

837
01:03:28.599 --> 01:03:31.719
a few hours of sleep. So
I decided to pull off. It was

838
01:03:31.800 --> 01:03:36.480
a rest area, and I didn't
pull all the way down to the rest

839
01:03:36.559 --> 01:03:39.280
area. I sort of pulled off
the side of the exit ramp, just

840
01:03:39.440 --> 01:03:45.079
pulled under a light and there was
lots of traffic. Not lots, but

841
01:03:45.159 --> 01:03:51.000
there was traffic occasionally getting off of
the exit ramp to go into the rest

842
01:03:51.119 --> 01:03:54.320
area. And for some reason,
I just felt safer on the exit ramp

843
01:03:54.440 --> 01:03:59.400
because at the rest area you've heard
stories about, you know, people getting

844
01:03:59.480 --> 01:04:01.239
robbed, kidnapped, and I thought, Okay, well, at least up

845
01:04:01.280 --> 01:04:03.840
here on the exit ramp, you
know, there's not going to be people

846
01:04:03.960 --> 01:04:10.119
outside of their cars walking around and
walking around by our vehicle, but there's

847
01:04:10.159 --> 01:04:14.239
still going to be a steady flow
of traffic and people driving by. And

848
01:04:14.360 --> 01:04:17.800
were underneath this light, so this
was the safest area that I felt was

849
01:04:19.000 --> 01:04:23.960
the safest spot for me to crawl
into the back and sleep for just a

850
01:04:24.039 --> 01:04:28.960
couple hours until I felt replenished enough
to get behind the wheel again. So

851
01:04:30.159 --> 01:04:33.639
we pulled off at this rest area
and we're underneath this light. I was

852
01:04:33.679 --> 01:04:39.239
asleep and my dog was asleep in
the back of the suv, and something

853
01:04:39.480 --> 01:04:42.599
awoke me out of a deep sleep. I don't know what it was.

854
01:04:42.800 --> 01:04:45.480
I just sat straight up in the
back of the suv, and when I

855
01:04:45.599 --> 01:04:53.039
sat up, I could see this
gold ball of light coming towards my car,

856
01:04:54.199 --> 01:04:59.920
and I felt I didn't feel that
evil or that darkness that I had

857
01:05:00.159 --> 01:05:03.440
been feeling with the events that have
been happening to me. This light was

858
01:05:03.679 --> 01:05:10.519
radiating with warmth and love, and
it just made me feel so good all

859
01:05:10.639 --> 01:05:13.920
over my body. It's hard to
explain what it did. It made me

860
01:05:14.039 --> 01:05:18.440
all tingly and made me feel so
loved and a part of something whole.

861
01:05:18.719 --> 01:05:27.639
And so this light comes through the
back window of my suv and it starts

862
01:05:27.719 --> 01:05:32.559
to enter into my chest. And
as the light is entering into my chest,

863
01:05:33.000 --> 01:05:38.840
there's some recognition there. I recognize
this, and after all the light

864
01:05:39.199 --> 01:05:44.199
had entered into my body, it
hit me, this is my grandma's soul.

865
01:05:45.599 --> 01:05:49.559
And then that quickly in my head, I hear my grandma's voice say,

866
01:05:50.320 --> 01:05:55.679
no matter what happens, it's okay. And the light starts drifting out

867
01:05:55.719 --> 01:05:59.840
of my back. And as that
light is drifting out of my back,

868
01:06:00.599 --> 01:06:05.159
I am left with this feeling of
just such a loss, in such a

869
01:06:05.400 --> 01:06:11.440
sadness, and this feeling like I'm
being left all alone here now you're leaving

870
01:06:11.559 --> 01:06:15.440
me, and I just I was
sobbing so hard, I wasn't even breathing,

871
01:06:15.800 --> 01:06:19.880
and I grabbed my dog and I
was just rocking and crying, and

872
01:06:20.000 --> 01:06:25.000
I realized that my grandma had just
died. That was my Grandma's soul,

873
01:06:25.440 --> 01:06:30.119
and I turned and looked at the
cloth and the twenty two am. I

874
01:06:30.239 --> 01:06:34.360
don't remember going back to sleep,
but apparently I did, because the next

875
01:06:34.599 --> 01:06:40.079
memory I have is my cell phone
ringing at seven point thirty in the morning,

876
01:06:40.880 --> 01:06:44.639
and it was my dad, and
he didn't want to tell me that

877
01:06:44.760 --> 01:06:48.360
my grandma had died because he was
worried how I would make it all those

878
01:06:48.480 --> 01:06:53.920
miles that I still had to drive
home knowing that my grandma had passed.

879
01:06:53.960 --> 01:06:58.559
Everyone knew how close I was to
her. Everyone had been worried for years

880
01:06:58.719 --> 01:07:02.440
how I would handle this when she
finally passed. So my phone rings at

881
01:07:02.480 --> 01:07:06.880
seven point thirty in the morning,
and my dad is trying to keep a

882
01:07:08.000 --> 01:07:11.199
normal voice, a normal tone of
voice, and he says to me,

883
01:07:12.239 --> 01:07:15.079
Yeah, I need you to come
on back home now, right now,

884
01:07:15.360 --> 01:07:18.000
and we'll talk when you get here. He didn't want to tell me that

885
01:07:18.159 --> 01:07:23.719
my grandma had died, and I
said to him, Dad, I already

886
01:07:23.800 --> 01:07:27.639
know Grandma died. Last night.
At one twenty two am, her spirit

887
01:07:27.760 --> 01:07:32.760
came and said goodbye to me,
and I could feel the shock and disbelief.

888
01:07:32.880 --> 01:07:39.000
I could feel it through the phone. He was just stunned, and

889
01:07:39.119 --> 01:07:44.360
he said, well, the death
certificate actually says one twenty six. But

890
01:07:44.760 --> 01:07:49.320
yeah, that's that's pretty strange.
And at the time I knew that my

891
01:07:49.559 --> 01:07:55.360
time of one twenty two was the
correct time, and I knew that the

892
01:07:55.519 --> 01:08:00.280
reason the death certificate said one twenty
six was because after the soul leaves the

893
01:08:00.360 --> 01:08:09.800
body, the bioelectric activity slowly shut
down and there is still some of that

894
01:08:10.000 --> 01:08:17.119
activity registering until it's completely gone and
you're medically declared dead no activity. So

895
01:08:17.279 --> 01:08:21.359
I knew that her soul had departed
this existence at one twenty two. But

896
01:08:21.880 --> 01:08:26.039
this was not a time to say
I told you so, or prove that

897
01:08:26.119 --> 01:08:30.760
I was right, because in addition
to feeling that shock and disbelief from him,

898
01:08:31.359 --> 01:08:36.720
I also felt some jealousy from him
that his mother had chose to do

899
01:08:36.920 --> 01:08:43.439
that with me and not him her
son, and I could feel his hurt.

900
01:08:43.800 --> 01:08:46.760
Also. This was his mom that
he had just lost. So I

901
01:08:46.840 --> 01:08:49.760
didn't say anything about that. I
just said, oh, yeah, you

902
01:08:49.880 --> 01:08:55.199
know, a couple of minutes different. That is pretty strange. And so

903
01:08:56.239 --> 01:09:02.319
I continued back and made it back
and They actually postponed my grandmother's funeral until

904
01:09:02.359 --> 01:09:05.960
I made it back from this trip, and they had asked me to speak

905
01:09:06.000 --> 01:09:11.079
at her funeral because they knew that
I was the closest person in the world

906
01:09:11.159 --> 01:09:16.159
to her. But I couldn't.
I could barely breathe. I just there

907
01:09:16.279 --> 01:09:19.199
was no way I would be able
to stand up there on my feet and

908
01:09:19.760 --> 01:09:24.680
speak coherently without just completely losing it. So I told him, no,

909
01:09:24.960 --> 01:09:27.319
I can't do it. I don't
even know if I'm going to make it

910
01:09:27.479 --> 01:09:31.319
through this funeral, but I definitely
can't speak at it. So I'm sitting

911
01:09:31.640 --> 01:09:36.079
in my grandma's funeral and I had
dreaded it that moment. The whole trip

912
01:09:36.199 --> 01:09:40.760
back. That's all I kept thinking
was I can still put this out of

913
01:09:40.800 --> 01:09:44.560
my mind. I know it happened, but I'm not forced to accept it

914
01:09:44.800 --> 01:09:49.760
just yet. But that funeral was
that moment that I was forced to accept

915
01:09:49.800 --> 01:09:53.760
it, that I had to accept
that that door was shut, that I

916
01:09:53.880 --> 01:09:58.960
would not see her again. And
it was choking me to death having to

917
01:09:59.479 --> 01:10:04.319
swallow it and accept it and sit
there at her funeral. And I didn't

918
01:10:04.359 --> 01:10:08.760
want to go up to her casket, but I knew that I would regret

919
01:10:08.840 --> 01:10:12.800
it if I didn't, So I
forced myself to go up to the casket.

920
01:10:14.239 --> 01:10:17.439
And when I walked up to the
casket, I almost didn't recognize her.

921
01:10:18.640 --> 01:10:24.279
It didn't even look like her,
like there was definitely something missing,

922
01:10:25.239 --> 01:10:30.880
and I realized that her soul,
or that light that animates the body that

923
01:10:30.439 --> 01:10:35.359
makes us who we are, is
what was missing, and what was laying

924
01:10:35.439 --> 01:10:41.640
there was just a shell of a
body that looked and felt nothing like my

925
01:10:41.720 --> 01:10:46.479
grandma when she was alive. It
was her soul that was missing. And

926
01:10:46.680 --> 01:10:53.920
so I sit back down at the
funeral and they're reading the little sayings and

927
01:10:54.000 --> 01:10:59.560
different people are getting up there talking
and all of a sudden, those telltale

928
01:10:59.640 --> 01:11:03.479
signs and start happening. The back
of my head starts feeling fuzzy, the

929
01:11:03.600 --> 01:11:09.880
rooms starts spinning, I'm having a
hard time breathing, and all of a

930
01:11:09.960 --> 01:11:15.359
sudden, I have this flashback,
and in this flashback, I am four

931
01:11:15.600 --> 01:11:23.439
or five years old, and it
was one of the most cherished activities that

932
01:11:23.600 --> 01:11:27.720
I would do with my grandmother.
She would sit on her couch with a

933
01:11:27.800 --> 01:11:31.319
pillow on her lap, and I
would lay my head on the pillow and

934
01:11:31.560 --> 01:11:36.439
she would either with a brush,
but usually with her hands run her fingers

935
01:11:36.640 --> 01:11:44.000
through my hair. And so my
flashback is one of those times that she

936
01:11:44.239 --> 01:11:48.199
was doing that. And I look
to be somewhere between four or five,

937
01:11:48.399 --> 01:11:53.359
maybe six years old top I was
young, and I'm laying on the couch

938
01:11:53.800 --> 01:11:58.880
and my grandmother is running her fingers
through my hair. And as she's touching

939
01:11:59.079 --> 01:12:02.840
my head before or she pulls her
fingers down through my long hair, I'm

940
01:12:02.960 --> 01:12:09.760
feeling this tangling feeling in my head. It feels like she's transferring this energy

941
01:12:09.920 --> 01:12:14.880
from her fingertips to my head,
and it gives me goosebumps. It gives

942
01:12:14.960 --> 01:12:17.439
me tangles all over, and it
feels really good, and it puts me

943
01:12:17.560 --> 01:12:20.439
to sleep. Every time she does
it. It puts me to sleep.

944
01:12:20.640 --> 01:12:25.720
And when I wake up, she's
still running her fingers through my hair,

945
01:12:26.039 --> 01:12:31.319
and I wake up feeling just so
snug and comfortable and just overwhelmed with love.

946
01:12:31.600 --> 01:12:36.479
And so in this flashback, I'm
seeing myself laying on the couch with

947
01:12:36.600 --> 01:12:42.479
her and she's running her fingers through
my hair, and just as I'm about

948
01:12:42.560 --> 01:12:45.960
to fall asleep, she thinks I
am asleep, but I actually wasn't quite

949
01:12:46.039 --> 01:12:51.000
asleep yet. It was like,
in that moment before you drift into unconsciousness.

950
01:12:53.039 --> 01:12:58.079
She says out loud, I wonder
where you are right now, baby

951
01:12:58.159 --> 01:13:01.319
girl. You know we can and
leave our bodies when we sleep and go

952
01:13:01.560 --> 01:13:09.119
on the most magical journey. And
upon hearing this, I sit straight up

953
01:13:09.880 --> 01:13:13.600
and I turn and look to her, and I have the biggest, scaredest

954
01:13:13.720 --> 01:13:18.720
eyes and I'm shaking my head no, and I'm trying to tell her telepathically

955
01:13:19.119 --> 01:13:24.359
or with my eyes. I'm not
allowed to do that. I'm not allowed

956
01:13:24.399 --> 01:13:28.680
to do that. I can't do
that. And she sees how scared I

957
01:13:28.760 --> 01:13:31.800
am and how shaken I am,
and at first she looks very confused,

958
01:13:32.479 --> 01:13:35.520
and then it's like she snaps out
of it and she tells me, Hey,

959
01:13:35.640 --> 01:13:39.520
it's okay, don't worry about it. Just just lay back down and

960
01:13:39.640 --> 01:13:42.760
go to sleep. And I lay
down on the pillow, but I'm actually

961
01:13:42.920 --> 01:13:46.000
shaking, and I'm really tense and
rigid, and there's no way I can

962
01:13:46.159 --> 01:13:50.159
get comfortable at this point. And
she starts running her fingers through my hair

963
01:13:50.239 --> 01:13:56.479
again, but it's different. There's
no energy transfer. I don't feel good

964
01:13:56.560 --> 01:14:00.399
about it. I just feel the
touch of her putting her fingers through my

965
01:14:00.520 --> 01:14:04.600
hair, and all of a sudden, it's like I had been pulled into

966
01:14:04.720 --> 01:14:10.000
a vacuum, like time and space
had just ceased to exist, and I

967
01:14:10.199 --> 01:14:14.439
was somewhere else seeing this flashback of
me and my grandma when I was four

968
01:14:14.560 --> 01:14:17.039
or five, maybe six years old, and all of a sudden, that

969
01:14:17.279 --> 01:14:21.319
quickly, it's like the vacuum is
sucked out of me. And I'm sitting

970
01:14:21.520 --> 01:14:27.560
back in my grandma's funeral, and
at this point, I'm actually hyperventilating.

971
01:14:27.720 --> 01:14:32.039
I'm overwhelmed by what I've just been
shown and realizing that I've left my body

972
01:14:32.119 --> 01:14:36.880
before and that my grandma is aware
of this, and that coupled with the

973
01:14:36.960 --> 01:14:42.119
fact that she's no longer with us
and that I won't see her anymore,

974
01:14:42.279 --> 01:14:45.960
it all just came crashing down on
top of me. And I felt like

975
01:14:45.079 --> 01:14:48.560
I was going to pass out,
and I jumped up in the middle of

976
01:14:48.640 --> 01:14:53.119
my grandma's funeral and I said,
I got to get out of here,

977
01:14:53.920 --> 01:14:58.159
and I just turned and ran out
the back door, and I threw myself

978
01:14:58.399 --> 01:15:01.840
into the driver's seat of my car, and I was shaking so bad,

979
01:15:01.920 --> 01:15:05.319
and my legs had lost all of
their strength. They felt like Jello.

980
01:15:05.560 --> 01:15:10.600
I didn't even feel strong enough to
turn on the car and drive, so

981
01:15:10.760 --> 01:15:15.079
I just sat there in the parking
lot, really weak and shaking, And

982
01:15:15.199 --> 01:15:17.359
after a while some people came out
to check on me, and they asked

983
01:15:17.399 --> 01:15:20.880
me to come back in and I
told them I can't, I don't want

984
01:15:20.920 --> 01:15:25.359
to. I'm not coming back in
there, and I didn't. I didn't

985
01:15:25.439 --> 01:15:30.760
go back in there. I did
eventually calm down, and I followed the

986
01:15:30.840 --> 01:15:35.239
funeral procession to the graveyard and was
there for her burial, and it was

987
01:15:35.880 --> 01:15:42.159
really tough to have to accept that
that she is gone and that door is

988
01:15:42.239 --> 01:15:46.640
now closed for me. So that
happened on the second trip, my second

989
01:15:46.760 --> 01:15:50.880
road trip, where I had actually
made it to Mountaineer, and it was

990
01:15:50.960 --> 01:15:55.359
on the way back that my grandma
had died and all of that happened.

991
01:15:55.600 --> 01:16:00.319
So after my grandma died, it
actually made me angry. I was mad

992
01:16:00.399 --> 01:16:04.000
at God. I was mad at
whatever power it was that was doing all

993
01:16:04.079 --> 01:16:09.119
of this to me and why they
had taken her from me. This was

994
01:16:09.199 --> 01:16:13.279
the person that I was closest to
in the world and all this crazy,

995
01:16:13.359 --> 01:16:16.520
messed up stuff is happening to me, and they chose that time to take

996
01:16:16.560 --> 01:16:20.000
her from me, and I knew
it was selfish to feel that way,

997
01:16:20.199 --> 01:16:25.399
but I did. I was angry, very angry, and I had this

998
01:16:26.239 --> 01:16:30.439
message, this feeling is this like
I don't want to say telepathic, because

999
01:16:30.439 --> 01:16:33.439
I didn't actually hear a voice,
but it was like suddenly, maybe you

1000
01:16:33.479 --> 01:16:38.479
would liken it to like a download. I suddenly had this feeling or this

1001
01:16:38.680 --> 01:16:43.960
knowledge inside me that said, you
have to walk this dark part of the

1002
01:16:44.119 --> 01:16:47.720
path alone. And I didn't understand
that dark part of the path. What

1003
01:16:48.119 --> 01:16:50.880
does that mean? What path?
What is all of this? Why is

1004
01:16:50.960 --> 01:16:55.520
this happening? What do they want
me to do? But you know,

1005
01:16:55.600 --> 01:16:59.560
I wasn't given any further explanation.
It was just that message, you have

1006
01:16:59.680 --> 01:17:03.239
to work off this dark part of
the past alone, and I connected that

1007
01:17:03.399 --> 01:17:08.600
with the fact that my grandma was
gone and now I was alone and on

1008
01:17:08.760 --> 01:17:15.039
my own, and so all of
my fear of knowing okay, you know,

1009
01:17:15.159 --> 01:17:18.119
I was right that these last episodes
have this dark tone, this evil

1010
01:17:18.199 --> 01:17:21.000
tone. They're different than the things
that have been happening to me all my

1011
01:17:21.079 --> 01:17:27.359
life. And I've always known that
there is good and bad, light and

1012
01:17:27.520 --> 01:17:30.720
dark, good and evil, whatever
you want to call it. Yin and

1013
01:17:30.840 --> 01:17:34.079
Yang. I've always known that my
whole life, and I've always kind of

1014
01:17:34.159 --> 01:17:39.479
had this sense when I would meet
people, I would like, I say,

1015
01:17:39.520 --> 01:17:42.960
I could read energy signatures. I
would know if if they were of

1016
01:17:43.079 --> 01:17:46.279
the Light team or the Dark team. I could sense evil, and it

1017
01:17:47.119 --> 01:17:50.439
helps me. It kept me safe. I knew certain people to avoid,

1018
01:17:50.600 --> 01:17:55.800
and throughout my whole life, I'd
had that ability of distinguishing the dark from

1019
01:17:55.840 --> 01:18:00.840
the light. And so now I'm
scared to death because I have flat out

1020
01:18:00.920 --> 01:18:04.600
been told that, yeah, I'm
on a dark path here, and my

1021
01:18:04.680 --> 01:18:10.800
Grandma's gone, and so I felt
like I was being punished. I've done

1022
01:18:10.840 --> 01:18:14.039
something wrong. Why would I be
having to walk a dark path. I've

1023
01:18:14.079 --> 01:18:17.720
always been protected by the light,
and I've always felt that loving sense of

1024
01:18:17.840 --> 01:18:23.439
belonging and protection from them, and
suddenly they're gone. I don't feel that

1025
01:18:23.680 --> 01:18:29.000
light or that protection or that love. I just feel scared, scared to

1026
01:18:29.159 --> 01:18:31.960
death of what's coming my way,
and I know it's dark, and it's

1027
01:18:32.039 --> 01:18:34.920
not something I want to be a
part of. I don't want to experience

1028
01:18:35.000 --> 01:18:38.840
this. I don't want to walk
the dark path, but of course you

1029
01:18:38.960 --> 01:18:42.159
have no choice. Every day I
kept waking up and I'm still here,

1030
01:18:42.439 --> 01:18:46.640
and so I knew that it was
pointless to try and avoid it. There

1031
01:18:46.720 --> 01:18:50.319
was no way to make it stop. Whatever this was, it was obviously

1032
01:18:50.479 --> 01:18:54.760
destined to happen to me and was
going to happen to me. So the

1033
01:18:54.840 --> 01:18:59.079
best thing that I could do was
tuck away that fear, because that doesn't

1034
01:18:59.159 --> 01:19:01.720
serve me, it doesn't help me. That just handicaps me to deal with

1035
01:19:01.840 --> 01:19:05.319
this stuff and just do the best
I can with it. And when it's

1036
01:19:05.359 --> 01:19:11.800
over, it's over. So I
let all that anger and all that fear

1037
01:19:12.079 --> 01:19:15.279
just turn into determination for me.
And I was like, that's it.

1038
01:19:15.680 --> 01:19:19.560
I am going to go at this
with a vengeance, and so I started

1039
01:19:19.600 --> 01:19:25.520
planning my trip to Alaska. Once
my grandma had died, I went and

1040
01:19:25.600 --> 01:19:29.079
bought a brand new car. While
I had come into some money. Obviously,

1041
01:19:29.239 --> 01:19:31.319
she left me everything in the world
that she had. She and I

1042
01:19:31.520 --> 01:19:35.399
were as close as to people could
be, and it caused a little bit

1043
01:19:35.439 --> 01:19:40.840
of problems with other family members,
but yet they expected it wholeheartedly, and

1044
01:19:41.000 --> 01:19:45.520
sure enough, she left everything to
me. So I used that money to

1045
01:19:45.760 --> 01:19:50.319
prepare myself for this final trip,
this final showdown to Alaska. I bought

1046
01:19:50.359 --> 01:19:55.680
a brand new car, so there
wouldn't be any trouble with car problems or

1047
01:19:55.680 --> 01:20:00.439
anything like that. I researched the
trip, and I had extra tires and

1048
01:20:00.680 --> 01:20:05.920
fix the flat, and I created
an extensive first aid kit. I mean,

1049
01:20:06.560 --> 01:20:11.000
this thing rivaled the best of them, because I knew how desolate it

1050
01:20:11.239 --> 01:20:14.840
was in Alaska. I knew I
was going to be out there in the

1051
01:20:14.960 --> 01:20:18.960
mountainous areas on my own with my
dog, trying to climb some mountain to

1052
01:20:19.079 --> 01:20:24.239
look for something that's apparently there for
me. And I knew that nobody would

1053
01:20:24.239 --> 01:20:27.520
be there to help me. So
I had to make sure that I was

1054
01:20:27.640 --> 01:20:30.920
prepared and that I could help myself. This wasn't the kind of trip that

1055
01:20:30.039 --> 01:20:34.600
you just on a whim tape off
drive in. So I had spent probably

1056
01:20:34.680 --> 01:20:39.920
close to a year preparing for this
trip. And in my first aid kit,

1057
01:20:40.239 --> 01:20:45.239
I had some very powerful painkillers,
and I had like a needle and

1058
01:20:45.399 --> 01:20:49.439
thread to give myself stitches if I
needed to. I had patches that would

1059
01:20:49.520 --> 01:20:55.399
like steal up open gaping wounds to
stop the blood loss. And I just

1060
01:20:55.920 --> 01:21:00.800
I was thinking of every possible worst
case scenario and what I could possibly face

1061
01:21:00.880 --> 01:21:03.560
out there. I went and got
a shotgun, and my uncle, who

1062
01:21:03.720 --> 01:21:09.840
was very into shooting, trained me
on the gun for almost a year and

1063
01:21:10.279 --> 01:21:14.560
I could take apart and put together
that gun like it was nothing. And

1064
01:21:15.640 --> 01:21:18.520
I'll never forget something that my uncle
said to me. I had gotten the

1065
01:21:18.600 --> 01:21:23.520
shotgun and learned how to use it
in case I came across a bear or

1066
01:21:23.600 --> 01:21:26.680
a mountain, lion or something.
When I was in the wilderness looking for

1067
01:21:26.800 --> 01:21:30.319
this mountain, that's what I assumed
that I might need that gun for.

1068
01:21:30.000 --> 01:21:34.399
So after training with my uncle on
one of our last training sessions, I'll

1069
01:21:34.439 --> 01:21:39.640
never forget what he said to me. He said, don't ever point this

1070
01:21:39.800 --> 01:21:44.800
gun at anything you don't want to
kill. But if you have to point

1071
01:21:44.880 --> 01:21:49.560
this gun, you better be ready
and able to pull that trigger. And

1072
01:21:49.720 --> 01:21:54.159
that's saying just always sat in the
back of my head. I don't know

1073
01:21:54.279 --> 01:21:56.840
why, but it was always there. It was in my head when I

1074
01:21:57.000 --> 01:22:00.359
was on this trip, like,
Okay, that gun is a last sort,

1075
01:22:00.920 --> 01:22:03.279
but if I have to reach for
that gun, don't hesitate, don't

1076
01:22:03.319 --> 01:22:06.640
even think about it. Pull the
trigger. So I had my gun,

1077
01:22:06.680 --> 01:22:11.880
and I had my first aid kid. I had any and all fluids and

1078
01:22:12.039 --> 01:22:15.760
extra tires and things that I could
need for the car and my dog,

1079
01:22:15.880 --> 01:22:19.399
and I were going to set out
on this journey for the third time now,

1080
01:22:19.840 --> 01:22:24.880
trying to make it to this mountain
that I've been called to, and

1081
01:22:25.359 --> 01:22:30.840
something inside of me just knew.
I just felt that this was a one

1082
01:22:30.880 --> 01:22:34.720
way trip that I would not be
coming back. And even though I knew

1083
01:22:35.159 --> 01:22:40.199
that it was going to be my
end, I also knew that it was

1084
01:22:40.319 --> 01:22:45.279
my salvation and that I had to
do it, that I couldn't let my

1085
01:22:45.439 --> 01:22:53.640
attachment to this reality stop me from
succeeding or winning in what I knew was

1086
01:22:53.840 --> 01:22:58.359
even more real than this reality,
which was all of these things that were

1087
01:22:58.439 --> 01:23:01.239
happening to me and the mess that
I were being given, and how they

1088
01:23:01.279 --> 01:23:08.279
were lining up with and interacting with
my physical reality. That's what convinced me

1089
01:23:08.399 --> 01:23:12.479
that no, I'm not crazy,
because these things are actually lining up with

1090
01:23:12.840 --> 01:23:17.760
and interacting with my physical reality.
So it is real. These things are

1091
01:23:17.880 --> 01:23:23.039
really happening, and they have helped
me and guided me early on, and

1092
01:23:23.439 --> 01:23:26.760
now all of a sudden, I'm
faced with all these dark things, and

1093
01:23:27.399 --> 01:23:31.199
I know I'm in a whole different
territory here, like this is a different

1094
01:23:32.000 --> 01:23:36.000
set of circumstances, the Dark Path
as it was told to me, and

1095
01:23:36.439 --> 01:23:41.319
I knew that I was being called
out to this mountain, and something inside

1096
01:23:41.439 --> 01:23:45.479
me just knew that this was a
one way trip. So as I prepared

1097
01:23:45.560 --> 01:23:48.239
myself and I was actually kind of
relieved. I needed this to be over.

1098
01:23:48.720 --> 01:23:53.239
I couldn't function like this much longer. It just was taking such a

1099
01:23:53.319 --> 01:23:57.199
toll on me. And I was
so scared all the time and paranoid,

1100
01:23:57.479 --> 01:24:02.319
and I didn't trust anybody, and
the anxiety and trauma all the time,

1101
01:24:02.520 --> 01:24:05.880
and just feeling exhausted all the time. I was like, I can't do

1102
01:24:06.039 --> 01:24:09.800
this anymore. I need this to
end. I want it to end.

1103
01:24:10.039 --> 01:24:14.600
So I'm going to go on this
final trip to Alaska. Whatever this is

1104
01:24:14.680 --> 01:24:16.760
I'm supposed to face, I'm going
to face it and then it's going to

1105
01:24:16.840 --> 01:24:20.920
be over. And that's okay with
me. So as I got closer to

1106
01:24:21.399 --> 01:24:26.760
time to leave for this trip,
I started struggling a little bit with my

1107
01:24:26.880 --> 01:24:30.560
attachment to my life and my family
and all the things that I knew I

1108
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:34.760
was not going to see anymore.
And the day that I was leaving,

1109
01:24:36.119 --> 01:24:40.680
I wouldn't make eye contact with anyone. I gave him a hug goodbye,

1110
01:24:40.840 --> 01:24:43.079
and I was saying, oh,
yeah, I'll be back in a couple

1111
01:24:43.119 --> 01:24:45.479
of months. You know, We're
just going to go out there. And

1112
01:24:45.800 --> 01:24:48.000
I never told anybody why it was
that I felt I needed to go to

1113
01:24:48.079 --> 01:24:53.479
Alaska. I kind of made up
this little lie. My dog was a

1114
01:24:53.600 --> 01:24:57.319
husky, and so I made up
this little lie for my family and told

1115
01:24:57.399 --> 01:25:00.199
them, oh, I promised my
dog that I would take him back to

1116
01:25:00.359 --> 01:25:03.239
his area of heritage. And I've
always wanted to go to Alaska, and

1117
01:25:03.319 --> 01:25:06.119
so him and I are going to
do this and we'll be okay. Don't

1118
01:25:06.119 --> 01:25:09.840
worry about it, you know.
And so on the day that I'm getting

1119
01:25:09.880 --> 01:25:13.199
ready to leave, I couldn't look
anybody in the eye because I felt like

1120
01:25:13.319 --> 01:25:15.520
if I did that, I would
just break down crying, and that I

1121
01:25:15.560 --> 01:25:19.319
would still everything everything that's been happening
to me and why I was going to

1122
01:25:19.399 --> 01:25:24.199
Alaska, and that this was a
permanent goodbye and I would not be coming

1123
01:25:24.319 --> 01:25:28.279
back. And I couldn't do that
because I knew they would stop me from

1124
01:25:28.319 --> 01:25:32.000
going. So I wouldn't make eye
contact with anyone. I just I hugged

1125
01:25:32.039 --> 01:25:34.279
them, and when they were talking
to me, I would look off and

1126
01:25:34.399 --> 01:25:38.680
look away, and I was kind
of nervous and shuffling, and I would

1127
01:25:38.760 --> 01:25:40.960
just tell them, Oh, yeah, don't you know, don't worry about

1128
01:25:40.960 --> 01:25:43.600
it. I'll call you every so
often let you know I'm okay, and

1129
01:25:44.039 --> 01:25:45.720
We've got everything we need. I
got plenty of money, you know.

1130
01:25:46.159 --> 01:25:48.960
Just don't worry about me. I'll
be back in a few months and everything

1131
01:25:48.960 --> 01:25:53.279
will be fine. But of course
they were worried about me. My parents

1132
01:25:53.399 --> 01:25:58.479
were terrified that their daughter, who
they know, has had strange things going

1133
01:25:58.560 --> 01:26:01.600
on, and they were witness to
some strange things, like my mom when

1134
01:26:01.640 --> 01:26:05.359
I was telling her about the woman
and the casket that I kept seeing.

1135
01:26:06.199 --> 01:26:11.680
They had witnessed some little things.
They knew that there were strange things about

1136
01:26:11.760 --> 01:26:15.439
me, and it kind of scared
them. And then during this period of

1137
01:26:15.560 --> 01:26:20.199
time, they could see that mentally
I was really struggling. I was coming

1138
01:26:20.319 --> 01:26:26.359
undone that things were getting worse for
me. I was having a hard time

1139
01:26:26.479 --> 01:26:31.159
maintaining my normal three D life with
the amount of this high strangeness stuff that

1140
01:26:31.359 --> 01:26:36.279
was happening, and as much as
was happening on such a regular basis,

1141
01:26:36.399 --> 01:26:40.520
it was just getting to be too
much for me. So I say my

1142
01:26:40.560 --> 01:26:45.640
goodbye, and my dog and I
head out for what we know is going

1143
01:26:45.680 --> 01:26:49.800
to be a one way trip.
So on the third trip, as I'm

1144
01:26:50.439 --> 01:26:56.479
getting out closer to the Washington State
area where I would then have to go

1145
01:26:56.680 --> 01:27:00.399
north up through Canada to get to
Alaska. As I get close closer to

1146
01:27:00.920 --> 01:27:05.039
the West coast, I start feeling
that same feeling of I'm not alone.

1147
01:27:05.399 --> 01:27:11.359
Something's watching me. They know that
I'm making another shot at getting to this

1148
01:27:11.560 --> 01:27:15.319
mountain, and they're going to try
and stop me again. They stopped me

1149
01:27:15.319 --> 01:27:21.000
the first two times from getting there
to Alaska anyway, And I just know

1150
01:27:21.199 --> 01:27:26.359
that I'm being watched, and not
just by one faction. I'm being watched

1151
01:27:26.399 --> 01:27:30.880
by multiple factions, and that something
is going to try to prevent me from

1152
01:27:30.960 --> 01:27:35.439
getting there. And so now I'm
even more anxious and worried and what's coming

1153
01:27:35.560 --> 01:27:39.039
my way and what am I going
to have to fend off and deal with?

1154
01:27:39.199 --> 01:27:41.840
And am I going to make it
there or am I not? My

1155
01:27:41.960 --> 01:27:45.880
dog and I suddenly were struck with
this illness. I mean, we were

1156
01:27:46.039 --> 01:27:49.399
sick, like something was attacking us
an energy. I could feel it,

1157
01:27:49.640 --> 01:27:54.840
and it was making us so sick
we couldn't eat or drink anything. We

1158
01:27:54.920 --> 01:27:59.479
couldn't even drink a little water that
we were just vomiting. And I felt

1159
01:27:59.560 --> 01:28:02.560
like I had had a nervous breakdown, but I didn't know over what.

1160
01:28:02.920 --> 01:28:08.880
I had nothing there to pin it
to. But we were clearly a mess.

1161
01:28:09.159 --> 01:28:13.000
I mean something was attacking us.
We were very sick. My nerves

1162
01:28:13.079 --> 01:28:15.920
were just shot. But I was
determined, like, no, I'm going

1163
01:28:16.000 --> 01:28:19.199
to push through. Nothing's going to
stop me. I Am going to get

1164
01:28:19.279 --> 01:28:26.199
there no matter what. And so
we cross over into the Yukon territory and

1165
01:28:26.680 --> 01:28:31.279
things got really desolate really fast.
I mean you would go for days without

1166
01:28:31.840 --> 01:28:36.680
seeing another car or another human being. You had to stop at every gas

1167
01:28:36.760 --> 01:28:42.680
station that you came across, because
the gas stations were placed just close enough

1168
01:28:43.039 --> 01:28:45.319
to get you to the next gas
station, so you had no choice but

1169
01:28:45.399 --> 01:28:49.920
to stop at every gas station and
fill up. So we kept feeling like

1170
01:28:50.039 --> 01:28:54.880
we were being attacked. And my
dog was extremely sick. I mean he

1171
01:28:55.039 --> 01:28:59.359
had an ate or drink or go
gone to the bathroom and probably close to

1172
01:28:59.439 --> 01:29:02.600
a week. And I was almost
just as bad, and not quite as

1173
01:29:02.680 --> 01:29:06.319
bad, but I was in really
bad shape too, and I knew that

1174
01:29:06.520 --> 01:29:11.119
something was trying to stop us from
making it to Alaska. But that just

1175
01:29:12.000 --> 01:29:15.239
increased my determination anymore and even more, and I thought, well, obviously

1176
01:29:15.279 --> 01:29:17.920
I'm on the right track and I'm
doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

1177
01:29:18.000 --> 01:29:21.840
If something is going to this much
trouble to stop me, so screw them.

1178
01:29:23.039 --> 01:29:25.479
I am going to push through and
I am going to make it there.

1179
01:29:32.159 --> 01:29:38.239
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dot Radio. And we did make it

1185
01:30:09.399 --> 01:30:15.039
there. Unfortunately, while I was
in Anchorage, some really really bad things

1186
01:30:15.119 --> 01:30:21.680
happened. It started with I had
wanted to go to a souvenir store and

1187
01:30:23.520 --> 01:30:28.039
purchase some like sweatshirts and different things, just on the off chance that we

1188
01:30:28.119 --> 01:30:31.359
did make it back there, or
to kind of make the trip look normal,

1189
01:30:31.520 --> 01:30:34.760
because I would have all these mementos
that I was bringing back for my

1190
01:30:34.920 --> 01:30:40.560
family and the receipts from these stores
and stuff. So for whatever reason,

1191
01:30:40.640 --> 01:30:45.359
I decided to stop and get these
these little souvenir type things at this store.

1192
01:30:45.840 --> 01:30:48.039
And I left my dog in my
car, and I had the windows

1193
01:30:48.119 --> 01:30:53.319
cracked, just a couple of inches, the front and the back sub windows,

1194
01:30:53.439 --> 01:30:56.439
and I went into the store.
And while I was in the store,

1195
01:30:56.560 --> 01:30:59.960
and I really wasn't even paying attention
to like what I was grabbed.

1196
01:31:00.239 --> 01:31:02.680
I didn't care what size the sweatshirt
were. I didn't care if they were

1197
01:31:02.720 --> 01:31:05.760
the coolest one or the one that
I liked best. I was just trying

1198
01:31:05.800 --> 01:31:11.039
to grab some souvenir stuff to make
this look like a legit tourist trip to

1199
01:31:11.119 --> 01:31:14.479
Alasta, so that I could throw
those in the car before I headed off

1200
01:31:14.560 --> 01:31:17.680
into the mountains to find whatever this
was that awaits me there. And as

1201
01:31:17.760 --> 01:31:24.199
I'm grabbing all of these things,
I get this overwhelming feeling that I have

1202
01:31:24.399 --> 01:31:27.279
to get out of there right now. I have to get out of here

1203
01:31:27.439 --> 01:31:31.000
right now, and I just stopped
in my track. I took whatever items

1204
01:31:31.039 --> 01:31:35.239
I had in my hands, I
went to the register, threw some cash.

1205
01:31:35.279 --> 01:31:39.680
Adam told him keep the change.
I ran out the door, and

1206
01:31:39.800 --> 01:31:43.560
as I run out the door,
there are two men trying to break into

1207
01:31:43.640 --> 01:31:47.399
my car, and one was at
the back window that had been rolled down

1208
01:31:47.439 --> 01:31:50.840
a couple of inches, and one
was at the front window, both on

1209
01:31:51.000 --> 01:31:56.119
the passenger side of the car.
And as one would try to stick his

1210
01:31:56.279 --> 01:31:59.720
hand in the back window that was
rolled down for my dogs to get some

1211
01:31:59.800 --> 01:32:02.439
man, my dog would lunge at
him. And when my dog lunged at

1212
01:32:02.479 --> 01:32:05.520
the one in the back, the
one in the front would try to put

1213
01:32:05.640 --> 01:32:10.279
his hand down in the window.
And so my dog was just lunging back

1214
01:32:10.359 --> 01:32:14.159
and forth, back and forth so
quickly, and I could tell that he

1215
01:32:14.640 --> 01:32:17.600
couldn't hold out any longer. They
were gonna get over on him and get

1216
01:32:17.640 --> 01:32:20.720
to the locker or the window or
something. And I came out of the

1217
01:32:20.840 --> 01:32:25.720
store just in time before that happened, and I hit the alarm button on

1218
01:32:25.840 --> 01:32:29.079
my car, and I started screaming, Hey, the hell are you doing?

1219
01:32:29.239 --> 01:32:32.079
And I just dropped everything, all
my bags and just started running head

1220
01:32:32.159 --> 01:32:35.760
first towards them, because my dog
was all I had left in this world

1221
01:32:35.840 --> 01:32:39.760
after my grandma died, and I
would have killed him if I would have

1222
01:32:39.800 --> 01:32:43.000
got my hands on him, so
I had no fear at that point.

1223
01:32:43.079 --> 01:32:45.760
I charged him head on, and
as I was running toward him, they

1224
01:32:45.960 --> 01:32:51.520
stopped in this strange, weird way
and turned and looked at me. And

1225
01:32:51.640 --> 01:32:58.520
when they blinked, I saw something
in their eyes. This is really hard

1226
01:32:58.600 --> 01:33:03.159
to put into words or it,
except to say that it wasn't them,

1227
01:33:03.720 --> 01:33:09.600
it wasn't that person. It was
like something had taken over that person in

1228
01:33:09.760 --> 01:33:13.239
that moment that they were trying to
break into my car. And when I

1229
01:33:13.399 --> 01:33:16.760
hit the alarm and started screaming,
they stopped and slowly turned and looked at

1230
01:33:16.800 --> 01:33:21.560
me, and I saw when they
blinked and opened their eyes that they were

1231
01:33:21.720 --> 01:33:27.920
back to the normal person that they
were, and they sort of looked around

1232
01:33:28.159 --> 01:33:31.920
and just bolted. They just took
off running, And so I was pretty

1233
01:33:31.920 --> 01:33:34.600
shaken at that point because I thought, what if they would have gotten a

1234
01:33:34.640 --> 01:33:36.840
hold of my dog, What if
they would have gotten him out of the

1235
01:33:36.920 --> 01:33:40.159
car. I mean, I could
have cared less about the money or the

1236
01:33:40.239 --> 01:33:43.359
gun or any of my stuff.
All I cared about was what if they

1237
01:33:43.439 --> 01:33:45.720
hurt my dog, because my dog
would have tried to attack them had they

1238
01:33:45.880 --> 01:33:49.279
gotten the window or the door open, and I'm sure they would have hurt

1239
01:33:49.359 --> 01:33:53.840
and or killed him. And so
at this point, I'm just freaking out.

1240
01:33:54.000 --> 01:33:58.000
And my dog's still really sick,
and he had just done this trying

1241
01:33:58.039 --> 01:34:00.239
to fend these two men off,
and I could see like he was on

1242
01:34:00.359 --> 01:34:04.600
his last leg. Whatever all this
was was killing my dog, and it

1243
01:34:04.760 --> 01:34:10.479
wasn't doing real well with me either, and so a lot of other bad

1244
01:34:10.560 --> 01:34:15.000
things had happened. We went back
to the hotel that night, and as

1245
01:34:15.199 --> 01:34:18.239
I was in the hotel, suddenly
the hair on the back of my dog

1246
01:34:18.479 --> 01:34:24.279
just stood straight up, and he
was like baring his teeth, and saliva

1247
01:34:24.439 --> 01:34:27.399
was dripping from his mouth, and
he was looking at the window, and

1248
01:34:27.720 --> 01:34:30.159
all of a sudden in the window. I had the curtains closed, so

1249
01:34:30.279 --> 01:34:33.560
I couldn't see the window, but
I all of a sudden saw a hand

1250
01:34:33.640 --> 01:34:40.319
and an arm come down from the
window. Somebody had opened the window and

1251
01:34:40.760 --> 01:34:45.319
was trying to put their hand into
I guess we had like this bar.

1252
01:34:45.439 --> 01:34:47.760
There were these bars that came down
and kept the window from opening all the

1253
01:34:47.800 --> 01:34:50.960
way. It would only open part
of the way for safety reasons. The

1254
01:34:51.079 --> 01:34:56.439
hotel had them. And this arm
was reaching over trying to lift up that

1255
01:34:56.600 --> 01:35:00.279
bar so that it could push the
window the rest of the way open,

1256
01:35:00.520 --> 01:35:04.479
and my dog was sparking and growling
like crazy. And I was so mad

1257
01:35:04.600 --> 01:35:08.840
at that point, and just so
sick and tired of fending off all this

1258
01:35:09.039 --> 01:35:13.239
darkness and all these bad things that
were happening. And I just started screaming

1259
01:35:13.359 --> 01:35:15.920
and cussing, and I was like, come on in here, motherfucker.

1260
01:35:15.960 --> 01:35:18.600
I want you to meet my friend
Susie's shotgun. And I grabbed my gun

1261
01:35:18.760 --> 01:35:23.399
and I loaded it, and by
the time I ripped open the curtains,

1262
01:35:23.439 --> 01:35:28.039
they were gone. And so my
dog and I just sat there like shaking

1263
01:35:28.159 --> 01:35:30.399
like a leaf. I mean,
we were on our last leg. We

1264
01:35:30.760 --> 01:35:33.720
had been so sick. We had
an eight or drinking over a week and

1265
01:35:33.960 --> 01:35:39.159
we were just vomiting, like dry
heaving, even with nothing in our bodies,

1266
01:35:39.239 --> 01:35:42.920
we still just kept dry heaving.
And then all these attacks, and

1267
01:35:43.159 --> 01:35:47.439
there was instances of missing time,
and I knew that bad things had happened

1268
01:35:47.479 --> 01:35:51.119
there that I had repressed that I
couldn't I didn't want to know. I

1269
01:35:51.199 --> 01:35:56.359
couldn't let myself remember I'm still alive, and that's all that matters. I

1270
01:35:56.399 --> 01:35:59.800
can keep going. I can't turn
and look back at those things or I

1271
01:36:00.039 --> 01:36:02.640
will die. I will come undone. So all of this bad stuff had

1272
01:36:02.680 --> 01:36:09.439
happened, and I realized, Okay, whatever's happened here, I have to

1273
01:36:09.479 --> 01:36:13.079
get out of here. My dog
and I are dying, and I'm just

1274
01:36:13.199 --> 01:36:15.640
I'm done. I'm going to turn
around and just high tail it home and

1275
01:36:15.720 --> 01:36:19.279
try to get out of here.
So we get in the car. Well,

1276
01:36:19.359 --> 01:36:25.159
we sat there shaking like a leaf
until daylight came. And after the

1277
01:36:25.279 --> 01:36:30.199
daylight came, I packed us up
and I still had my gun loaded.

1278
01:36:30.439 --> 01:36:33.119
The safety was off, and as
we came out of that hotel room,

1279
01:36:33.239 --> 01:36:38.399
I had my guns pointed. If
anybody was outside my hotel room, if

1280
01:36:38.479 --> 01:36:42.399
anybody was next to my car,
I was going to shoot and kill them.

1281
01:36:42.520 --> 01:36:44.880
That's how sped up I was.
I was going to get in the

1282
01:36:45.000 --> 01:36:47.279
car and I was going to go
home, and anybody who tried to stop

1283
01:36:47.359 --> 01:36:50.199
me, that was the last thing
they would do in this reality. So

1284
01:36:51.279 --> 01:36:56.560
we get in the car and we're
headed home. At some point we're still

1285
01:36:56.600 --> 01:37:00.720
in Alaska. My dog began to
drink a little water, and I thought

1286
01:37:00.760 --> 01:37:05.000
that was encouraging. It was.
It was strange because the closer we had

1287
01:37:05.079 --> 01:37:10.680
gotten to Alaska. On the way
out there, the worst this attack or

1288
01:37:10.760 --> 01:37:15.640
this sickness was. But now now
that I had chosen to leave, it

1289
01:37:15.840 --> 01:37:18.880
was like the longer we were on
the road and the further we were getting

1290
01:37:19.000 --> 01:37:23.479
away from that mountain in Alaska that
I had been trying to get to,

1291
01:37:24.319 --> 01:37:27.960
I could feel some of that lifting, like we were starting to feel a

1292
01:37:28.039 --> 01:37:31.479
little bit better, and my dog
started drinking. At one point he had

1293
01:37:31.520 --> 01:37:34.520
acted like he needed to go to
the bathroom, which was a good sign

1294
01:37:34.640 --> 01:37:39.319
because he hadn't gone to the bathroom
and I don't know, seven to ten

1295
01:37:39.439 --> 01:37:42.439
days something like that, and I
knew he was going to die soon,

1296
01:37:42.560 --> 01:37:45.840
like he couldn't keep this up very
much longer. And so, and that

1297
01:37:45.039 --> 01:37:48.000
was also one of the reasons I
chose to just turn and go home.

1298
01:37:48.119 --> 01:37:51.439
I had this guilt that, you
know, I'm literally pushing this dog to

1299
01:37:51.560 --> 01:37:55.880
his death, and this is killing
me, and I just I'm done.

1300
01:37:55.960 --> 01:37:58.760
I can't do this anymore. I'm
going to try and make it home.

1301
01:37:59.079 --> 01:38:02.640
And so at one point, while
still in Alaska, the dog had acted

1302
01:38:02.720 --> 01:38:05.560
like he needed to go to the
bathroom. He was whining like he needed

1303
01:38:05.600 --> 01:38:09.800
to stop, and I needed to
stretch my legs. Anyway, we had

1304
01:38:09.840 --> 01:38:13.199
been in the car for days,
and so I pulled off on the side

1305
01:38:13.239 --> 01:38:15.840
of the highway there, and the
Alaskan Highway is based at the time was

1306
01:38:15.920 --> 01:38:20.600
basically just a gravel road and there
was hardly any traffic on it. So

1307
01:38:20.720 --> 01:38:25.359
we pull off on the side of
the road, and I told myself,

1308
01:38:25.800 --> 01:38:28.720
we're not going to go into the
woods. We were going to stay where

1309
01:38:28.800 --> 01:38:31.000
I can see the car in my
vision. And I've got my gun on

1310
01:38:31.239 --> 01:38:35.319
my shoulder, loaded and ready to
go. And so I've got my car

1311
01:38:35.439 --> 01:38:39.920
keys in one hand, I've got
my dog on his leash and my other

1312
01:38:40.039 --> 01:38:43.600
hand, and I've got the gun
slung around my shoulder, and we're just

1313
01:38:43.720 --> 01:38:46.239
planning on walking back and forth right
there next to our car, and let

1314
01:38:46.319 --> 01:38:49.000
the dog go to the bathroom.
And you know, dogs liked to go

1315
01:38:49.199 --> 01:38:53.880
to the edges of the woods and
kind of sniff around or whatever. So

1316
01:38:54.399 --> 01:38:57.720
they had like, I don't know, maybe five ten feet on each side

1317
01:38:57.760 --> 01:39:01.119
of the road cleared and cut in
the and the wilderness started at that point.

1318
01:39:01.239 --> 01:39:04.520
So I had walked up to the
edge of the woods and let my

1319
01:39:04.680 --> 01:39:08.840
dog walk along looking for a good
place to go to the bathroom and sniff

1320
01:39:08.880 --> 01:39:12.560
around, and I don't know what
happened. The next thing I know,

1321
01:39:13.039 --> 01:39:16.479
we are deep in the woods.
I have no memory of walking into the

1322
01:39:16.520 --> 01:39:21.079
woods. I had specifically told myself
not to get out of sight of our

1323
01:39:21.159 --> 01:39:25.000
car, that this was a quick
go to the bathroom, And all of

1324
01:39:25.039 --> 01:39:29.239
a sudden, it's like I was
missing time, And all of a sudden,

1325
01:39:29.359 --> 01:39:32.680
we're deep in these woods, and
I'm thinking, what just happened?

1326
01:39:32.760 --> 01:39:38.079
How did we get here? How
far in are we? Did we walk

1327
01:39:38.119 --> 01:39:41.319
in a straight line, I mean, hopefully or else? Are we going

1328
01:39:41.399 --> 01:39:43.840
to get locked out here? Or
are we even going to make it back

1329
01:39:43.880 --> 01:39:46.680
to the car. And all of
a sudden, my dog did the same

1330
01:39:46.800 --> 01:39:49.760
thing that he had done in the
hotel room. He stopped in his track,

1331
01:39:50.000 --> 01:39:54.399
All of the hair on his back
stood up, he bared his teeth,

1332
01:39:54.479 --> 01:39:58.720
and saliva was just dripping. He
was staring at this big tree that

1333
01:39:58.920 --> 01:40:02.199
was probably, I don't know,
fifteen twenty feet away from us, maybe

1334
01:40:02.239 --> 01:40:06.760
maybe thirty feet away from us,
and I thought, okay, there's a

1335
01:40:06.880 --> 01:40:12.119
bear or a bobcat something around that
tree is about to come out, And

1336
01:40:12.239 --> 01:40:15.279
so I threw my dog's leash on
the ground and I stepped on it with

1337
01:40:15.439 --> 01:40:18.399
my foot and then I had free
hands to get my gun, and I

1338
01:40:18.520 --> 01:40:21.720
got my gun, and I took
the safety off, and I was just

1339
01:40:21.880 --> 01:40:26.439
pointing it at that tree, and
I was scanning my surroundings. I was

1340
01:40:26.520 --> 01:40:30.840
looking for any kind of movement,
anything, and I'm still expecting that this

1341
01:40:30.039 --> 01:40:33.840
is a bear or a bobcat or
some wild animal that's about to come out

1342
01:40:33.880 --> 01:40:41.119
from behind the trees. And all
of a sudden, this scraggly looking wild

1343
01:40:41.279 --> 01:40:45.359
man steps out from behind the tree, and he has this evil smile on

1344
01:40:45.479 --> 01:40:49.800
his face, and as I look
into his eyes, I can almost see

1345
01:40:50.000 --> 01:40:56.119
flames dancing in his eyes. I
don't even know how to explain that,

1346
01:40:56.399 --> 01:41:01.159
except I knew that I was dealing
with a more concentrated form of evil,

1347
01:41:01.520 --> 01:41:09.039
of darkness that I had ever experienced. This was a million times more concentrated

1348
01:41:09.560 --> 01:41:14.880
than this darkness that had been pursuing
me recently. And I knew that it

1349
01:41:15.000 --> 01:41:19.439
was excited that it had lured me
right where it wanted me. And so

1350
01:41:19.640 --> 01:41:24.840
I had my gun pointed at him, and I said to him, buddy,

1351
01:41:25.359 --> 01:41:28.479
I don't want any trouble here,
but you take one more step in

1352
01:41:28.560 --> 01:41:31.880
my direction, and that's exactly what
we're going to have. And it was

1353
01:41:32.039 --> 01:41:35.640
like he thought it over for just
a second, still with that shitty and

1354
01:41:35.720 --> 01:41:41.560
grin on his face, and then
he lunged at me, and I didn't

1355
01:41:41.680 --> 01:41:45.840
hesitate for a second. I pulled
the trigger. And I'm not trying to

1356
01:41:45.920 --> 01:41:49.960
toot my own horn here, but
I had become a really good shot practicing

1357
01:41:50.079 --> 01:41:55.199
with my uncle for almost a year. I mean I had hit bullseyes from

1358
01:41:55.319 --> 01:41:59.600
much further away than what I was
from this man, So I am absolutely

1359
01:41:59.680 --> 01:42:05.760
positive that I was correctly aimed at
his chest. And I was using big

1360
01:42:05.920 --> 01:42:11.680
game cartridges. These were the most
powerful shells that you could get for a

1361
01:42:11.720 --> 01:42:15.000
shotgun, and they would spread out
when when you shot, the pellets would

1362
01:42:15.000 --> 01:42:19.199
spread out and it would cover a
huge area. So when I pulled that

1363
01:42:19.319 --> 01:42:25.359
trigger, there was absolutely no way
that I didn't hit him. At least

1364
01:42:25.560 --> 01:42:29.640
some of those pellets would have hit
him. I'm one hundred percent positive of

1365
01:42:29.760 --> 01:42:33.600
it. But yet the pellets seemed
to go right through him. He wasn't

1366
01:42:33.680 --> 01:42:40.000
even faith he was still coming towards
me. And at that point I realized,

1367
01:42:40.479 --> 01:42:44.199
either this isn't human, or this
thing is more than human, and

1368
01:42:44.560 --> 01:42:47.960
this is evil that's coming for me. And I just slung my gun around

1369
01:42:48.039 --> 01:42:53.479
my neck, scooped up my dogs
leashed in one motion, and we turned

1370
01:42:53.600 --> 01:42:57.760
and just took off running. And
I mean, usually this husky could I

1371
01:42:57.800 --> 01:43:01.760
mean drag me outrun me by ten
times, but not this time. I

1372
01:43:01.880 --> 01:43:05.600
mean, I was keeping my own
with him. We were running so fast

1373
01:43:05.720 --> 01:43:11.039
through those woods that I almost felt
like my feet weren't touching the ground.

1374
01:43:11.319 --> 01:43:15.079
And we flew out of those woods. We come out of the wilderness back

1375
01:43:15.239 --> 01:43:20.119
up onto the street and we're I
mean probably like a quarter mile down the

1376
01:43:20.199 --> 01:43:24.319
road from my car, but I
can see my car down the street,

1377
01:43:24.680 --> 01:43:28.560
and so we turn and we're running
to the car. And my keys were

1378
01:43:28.600 --> 01:43:30.520
in my pocket at that point,
and I was thinking to myself, the

1379
01:43:30.600 --> 01:43:33.880
car's lock. I have to get
my keys out of my pocket and get

1380
01:43:33.920 --> 01:43:38.520
the car unlock so that we can
just dive into the car in one motion.

1381
01:43:38.720 --> 01:43:41.960
I can't stop and fumble around.
And I could feel this being right

1382
01:43:42.079 --> 01:43:45.640
behind me. He was gaining ground
on me. He was catching up to

1383
01:43:45.720 --> 01:43:49.319
me, and I went to turn
to look and see how close he was

1384
01:43:49.399 --> 01:43:56.319
to me, and this voice in
my head a female voice, a telepathic

1385
01:43:56.439 --> 01:44:01.039
message said no, don't turn and
look, or you lose. Put everything

1386
01:44:01.159 --> 01:44:05.600
you've got into getting out of this
situation. You can see how you did

1387
01:44:05.680 --> 01:44:10.800
when it's over. I didn't know
what to make of it. All I

1388
01:44:10.880 --> 01:44:14.600
knew was I didn't feel the darkness
from this voice. I felt like it

1389
01:44:14.800 --> 01:44:17.439
was a line being thrown to me
from the light, from the good,

1390
01:44:17.600 --> 01:44:20.560
and I listened to it. I
didn't turn and look to see how close

1391
01:44:20.640 --> 01:44:24.920
he was. I never slowed my
pace. I just kept going, and

1392
01:44:25.000 --> 01:44:28.399
I was as I was running,
I was trying to fumble for my keys,

1393
01:44:28.439 --> 01:44:31.039
and I finally did get them out
of my pocket, like feet before

1394
01:44:31.119 --> 01:44:35.319
we got to the car, unlocked
the car, We dove into the car,

1395
01:44:35.880 --> 01:44:39.760
I started it up and just peeled
out of there. I mean,

1396
01:44:40.680 --> 01:44:43.800
I was shaking so bad. I
hadn't even taken the gun off of my

1397
01:44:43.920 --> 01:44:46.399
shoulder and so it was behind my
back and I couldn't like lean back in

1398
01:44:46.439 --> 01:44:50.439
the chair, and I was shaking
so bad. I was almost like going

1399
01:44:50.600 --> 01:44:53.960
numb, and I thought I was
going to pass out, but there was

1400
01:44:54.039 --> 01:44:57.279
no way I could stop. I
had to just keep going and get as

1401
01:44:57.319 --> 01:45:01.039
far away as I could. So
it was probably about two or three hours

1402
01:45:01.199 --> 01:45:05.399
before I could even bring myself to
slow down enough to take the gun off

1403
01:45:05.479 --> 01:45:09.399
of my shoulder. I didn't stop, but I slowed down enough that I

1404
01:45:09.439 --> 01:45:12.119
could let go of the steering wheel
and get the gun off my shoulder and

1405
01:45:13.199 --> 01:45:16.920
kind of like catch my breath.
And I'm still shaking, and I'm thinking,

1406
01:45:17.359 --> 01:45:19.680
you know, I thought I was
maybe going to have a chance of

1407
01:45:19.760 --> 01:45:23.520
getting out of Hearing and getting back
home, because I just don't want to

1408
01:45:23.560 --> 01:45:27.840
do this anymore. And then I
started realizing I'm probably still not going to

1409
01:45:27.880 --> 01:45:30.600
make it back home, and this
probably isn't the last of this darkness that

1410
01:45:31.000 --> 01:45:36.560
I'm going to encounter. So another
couple of days went by. We crossed

1411
01:45:36.600 --> 01:45:41.880
over into the Yukon Territory, and
we were on our way down through Canada

1412
01:45:42.000 --> 01:45:45.119
back to the lower forty eight of
the state, and I was probably going

1413
01:45:45.159 --> 01:45:48.560
about thirty five forty miles an hour. It had been a couple of days

1414
01:45:48.640 --> 01:45:54.079
since I'd seen another car. And
we come up over this hill and as

1415
01:45:54.159 --> 01:45:58.399
I come over the hill down I
can see down below at the bottom of

1416
01:45:58.520 --> 01:46:03.520
the hill a a bigfoot, a
sassquatch is walking from the side of the

1417
01:46:03.640 --> 01:46:09.439
road up onto the road, and
I know, I have this thinking feeling

1418
01:46:09.560 --> 01:46:12.840
in my chest. This is not
a chance encounter, this is not an

1419
01:46:12.880 --> 01:46:16.760
accident. This thing is here for
me, and I know that it's going

1420
01:46:16.840 --> 01:46:20.239
to stop me from making it out
of these woods, and that that's why

1421
01:46:20.319 --> 01:46:26.800
it's here. And I also knew
and could see that this being had planned

1422
01:46:26.800 --> 01:46:30.680
it perfectly that at the exact moment
that my car would be right where it

1423
01:46:30.920 --> 01:46:34.640
was, it would be standing in
the middle of the road, not in

1424
01:46:34.800 --> 01:46:39.119
my lane in front of my car, but like on the center line.

1425
01:46:39.239 --> 01:46:42.279
If there had been a center line. There wasn't it was just a gravel

1426
01:46:42.359 --> 01:46:45.119
highway. But if there had been
a center line, this thing had timed

1427
01:46:45.199 --> 01:46:49.479
it to where it was walking just
casually, slowly, like it didn't have

1428
01:46:49.560 --> 01:46:53.600
a care in the world. But
it had timed it so that it would

1429
01:46:53.640 --> 01:46:57.319
be standing in the center of the
road right at the moment that my car

1430
01:46:57.520 --> 01:47:01.000
intersected it. I wasn't about to
stop or slow down. But I also

1431
01:47:01.119 --> 01:47:03.960
knew that this thing, I mean, this thing was massive. It was

1432
01:47:04.119 --> 01:47:10.359
like eight to ten foot tall.
It was so big and muscular, and

1433
01:47:10.479 --> 01:47:14.359
I could see the muscles rippling under
the skin. This was no man in

1434
01:47:14.439 --> 01:47:16.840
a monkey suit, and I knew
that all this thing would have to do

1435
01:47:16.920 --> 01:47:20.119
would be to take its arm and
hit my car, and it would just

1436
01:47:20.199 --> 01:47:24.479
send my car rolling, you know, probably hundreds of feet or something.

1437
01:47:24.600 --> 01:47:28.560
I was no physical match for this
thing, so I had no choice.

1438
01:47:28.640 --> 01:47:30.279
I couldn't stop the car. I
wasn't going to stop and turn around and

1439
01:47:30.359 --> 01:47:34.159
head back to that darkness I had
just fled from. So I just thought,

1440
01:47:35.039 --> 01:47:38.600
just keep going. That's all I
can do, is just keep going

1441
01:47:39.000 --> 01:47:43.399
and see what happens. And so
I'm bracing myself for this thing to attack

1442
01:47:43.520 --> 01:47:47.000
my car, and I'm worried that
my dog is going to lunge across me

1443
01:47:47.279 --> 01:47:50.960
to the driver's side window, where
this thing is about to be standing right

1444
01:47:51.039 --> 01:47:56.359
next to my driver's side window.
And I look over and my dog is

1445
01:47:56.520 --> 01:48:00.319
just in this trance like there's something
very odd. Like he wasn't moving,

1446
01:48:00.439 --> 01:48:04.199
he was just in this trance.
I've never seen my dog like this before.

1447
01:48:04.279 --> 01:48:09.920
He was just looking straightforward. I
almost didn't even see him breathing.

1448
01:48:10.119 --> 01:48:15.159
He was just in a trance.
And at the very moment that this being

1449
01:48:15.359 --> 01:48:18.319
is standing like six inches from my
driver's side window, which was rolled up

1450
01:48:18.319 --> 01:48:23.439
because I was scared to death.
Something pushed the pause button. And I

1451
01:48:23.600 --> 01:48:27.119
know that sounds crazy, and I
tried to talk myself out of it so

1452
01:48:27.279 --> 01:48:30.279
many times, like that can't be
real. That didn't happen. Your mind

1453
01:48:30.640 --> 01:48:36.920
imagined that. But it did happen. Everything stopped like someone had just pushed

1454
01:48:36.960 --> 01:48:42.359
the pause button. My car stopped
in mid air. None of the leaves

1455
01:48:42.439 --> 01:48:46.399
were rustling in the wind. There
was time had stopped. I could feel

1456
01:48:46.439 --> 01:48:50.800
that time had stopped, and I
was just hanging in limbo, almost like

1457
01:48:50.920 --> 01:48:57.119
the world had just turned into this
painting, this still painting. And I'm

1458
01:48:57.199 --> 01:49:01.600
sitting there in my car and this
bigfoot six inches from my driver's side window,

1459
01:49:02.239 --> 01:49:06.119
and I turned to look at it, and as I made eye contact

1460
01:49:06.199 --> 01:49:13.279
with it, I received this telepathic
message. It was such an intense,

1461
01:49:13.479 --> 01:49:18.079
overwhelming, complex message that words really
aren't going to do it justice. I

1462
01:49:18.199 --> 01:49:25.159
really can't even describe it in words, except to say that this being was

1463
01:49:25.279 --> 01:49:29.840
telling me that it was a programmed
being who was sent here to stop us

1464
01:49:29.920 --> 01:49:33.560
from making it out of these woods
alive, but that it was hurting in

1465
01:49:33.720 --> 01:49:39.119
here just like I was, and
that it had decided that it was not

1466
01:49:39.279 --> 01:49:43.520
going to follow its objective that not
only was it not going to kill us,

1467
01:49:43.760 --> 01:49:46.720
it was going to help me.
It told me that its boss would

1468
01:49:46.720 --> 01:49:51.159
be coming for me, and that
I shouldn't stop and I shouldn't sleep,

1469
01:49:51.720 --> 01:49:57.720
that I should just go all the
way, and that it was going to

1470
01:49:57.840 --> 01:50:02.439
help me and sacrifice itself in the
hopes that I could help us all.

1471
01:50:04.479 --> 01:50:12.479
And in that moment, something unpressed
the pause button, and that quickly I

1472
01:50:12.600 --> 01:50:16.720
sped past this being. My vehicle
moved past it. My dog started moving

1473
01:50:16.840 --> 01:50:21.960
again, and I'm looking in my
driver's side rear view mirror thinking was I

1474
01:50:23.119 --> 01:50:27.760
hallucinating? Did this really just happen? And I can see this creature.

1475
01:50:27.880 --> 01:50:31.159
It was black, Its hair was
black, and the leaves and the foliage

1476
01:50:31.279 --> 01:50:34.920
was all green, bright green,
so there was no way it like blended

1477
01:50:34.960 --> 01:50:40.439
in or anything. I saw this
thing walk the rest of the way across

1478
01:50:40.600 --> 01:50:44.600
the road, and as it reached
the edge of the road. This sounds

1479
01:50:44.640 --> 01:50:48.600
crazy, but I swear to you, it pixeled out. It pixeled.

1480
01:50:49.239 --> 01:50:54.479
I saw it break up into a
bunch of pixels and it just disappeared.

1481
01:50:54.920 --> 01:51:00.199
I saw it disappear in my side
rear view mirror, and I was completely

1482
01:51:00.319 --> 01:51:06.239
overwhelmed. I was crying. I
felt all this love and all this pressure

1483
01:51:06.359 --> 01:51:10.600
put on me, like what does
he mean so that I can help us

1484
01:51:10.640 --> 01:51:14.159
all? I'm just one person and
I'm so screwed up in a mess,

1485
01:51:14.239 --> 01:51:16.279
and I don't know what any of
this is. I can't even help myself.

1486
01:51:16.600 --> 01:51:20.560
How could I possibly help everybody else
too? I didn't know what to

1487
01:51:20.680 --> 01:51:26.239
make of it. So we did
make it back home, not without further

1488
01:51:26.359 --> 01:51:30.079
incident. Of course. I always
felt that darkness. It was two steps

1489
01:51:30.159 --> 01:51:33.920
behind me and closing fast. It
was always there, It was always watching,

1490
01:51:34.000 --> 01:51:40.000
It was waiting for me to mess
up. And I did as I

1491
01:51:40.079 --> 01:51:43.560
told you. I live in Ohio. As we got to Indiana and I

1492
01:51:43.680 --> 01:51:47.720
got onto the interstate of seventy four, which is the interstate that the exit

1493
01:51:47.840 --> 01:51:51.960
for my house is on. Now
we're still hours away from my house on

1494
01:51:53.119 --> 01:51:57.199
this highway. But just as we
had gotten onto that highway that was the

1495
01:51:57.279 --> 01:52:00.359
same highway I lived off of,
It's like my body let out a little

1496
01:52:00.439 --> 01:52:04.159
sigh of relief. It was almost
like an involuntary thing, like, uh,

1497
01:52:04.640 --> 01:52:10.079
we're on the highway that my house
is off of. We might actually

1498
01:52:10.199 --> 01:52:13.760
make it home. And just as
my body let out that little sigh of

1499
01:52:13.840 --> 01:52:16.720
relief. That was all it took. And all of this just came crashing

1500
01:52:16.800 --> 01:52:23.359
down on top of me, like
someone had just crashed into a brick wall,

1501
01:52:24.199 --> 01:52:28.079
and there were just bricks flying and
hitting me. And some of these

1502
01:52:28.159 --> 01:52:31.640
things that I had repressed that had
happened in Alaska, we're trying to work

1503
01:52:31.720 --> 01:52:35.199
its way back into my mind.
And I kept shutting it out, saying,

1504
01:52:35.239 --> 01:52:38.439
no, I can't remember that.
I don't want to know that that

1505
01:52:38.560 --> 01:52:41.920
will be my end. I don't
want that, and I wouldn't let that

1506
01:52:42.199 --> 01:52:45.399
enter back into my mind. But
then all these other strange things that had

1507
01:52:45.439 --> 01:52:50.439
happened were just flooding me, and
I actually started having a panic attack,

1508
01:52:50.640 --> 01:52:56.079
and my hands and my feet went
numb, and I was getting to the

1509
01:52:56.159 --> 01:52:59.279
point I couldn't control the car anymore, and I was afraid we were going

1510
01:52:59.359 --> 01:53:01.760
to crash. Now we were on
a busy highway, but there were no

1511
01:53:01.920 --> 01:53:08.319
cars around us, and so I
slowly was able, using my hands like

1512
01:53:08.439 --> 01:53:12.520
my arms on the steering wheel,
was able to control the car enough to

1513
01:53:12.600 --> 01:53:15.760
get it off the side of the
highway, and with my numb foot on

1514
01:53:15.880 --> 01:53:18.439
the brake, was able to bring
us to a stop. But we were

1515
01:53:18.479 --> 01:53:23.680
still in dry and I was just
sitting there at a stop and I wasn't

1516
01:53:23.760 --> 01:53:27.760
breathing, and the numbness was just
moving up my arms and my legs,

1517
01:53:27.880 --> 01:53:31.079
and I thought I was having a
heart attack. I just had this weight

1518
01:53:31.279 --> 01:53:34.399
and this pain on my chest,
and I was like, well, I

1519
01:53:34.479 --> 01:53:38.159
thought we were going to make it
home. We almost made it home,

1520
01:53:38.279 --> 01:53:43.359
but this is the end. And
all of a sudden, I see lights

1521
01:53:43.439 --> 01:53:47.359
coming and I can see in the
side rear view mirror that it's a semi

1522
01:53:47.640 --> 01:53:51.279
coming towards me in the lane right
next to where I'm pulled off on the

1523
01:53:51.359 --> 01:53:56.279
highway, and I thought, I
need help, and this is the only

1524
01:53:56.600 --> 01:54:00.359
vehicle I see coming my way.
I have no choice. I'm going to

1525
01:54:00.479 --> 01:54:05.520
have to do something to one stop
these memories that are trying to come back

1526
01:54:05.600 --> 01:54:10.199
into my head from getting in there. I need something to shake me out

1527
01:54:10.239 --> 01:54:15.000
of way from that because I can't
let that back in and I need help

1528
01:54:15.119 --> 01:54:17.439
medically. I think I'm having a
heart attack. So right as this semi

1529
01:54:18.239 --> 01:54:24.119
is nearing me, I used my
arms and I purposely pulled out in front

1530
01:54:24.159 --> 01:54:28.079
of it, thinking that the semi
was going to smash into me. And

1531
01:54:28.880 --> 01:54:35.000
I had a better shot of probably
maybe possibly surviving that impact. Then I

1532
01:54:35.119 --> 01:54:39.640
did if I let whatever that was
that was trying to get back into my

1533
01:54:39.760 --> 01:54:43.359
head in So I thought, this
will knock it out, it'll knock me

1534
01:54:43.520 --> 01:54:46.079
out, it'll stop that from coming
back into my head. And yeah,

1535
01:54:46.159 --> 01:54:50.239
there's only a small percentage of a
chance that I'm going to survive this accident,

1536
01:54:50.319 --> 01:54:54.520
but it's my only shot. I
have to do it. So I

1537
01:54:54.640 --> 01:55:00.079
pulled out in front of this semi
and this semi served so hard. I

1538
01:55:00.159 --> 01:55:04.520
mean it basically jackknifed itself to keep
from hitting me. And this guy was

1539
01:55:04.760 --> 01:55:08.760
furious. He rolled down his window
and he said, what do you have

1540
01:55:08.840 --> 01:55:12.760
a fucking death wish or something?
And all I could get out was heart

1541
01:55:12.800 --> 01:55:16.520
attacks, nine to one one please, And at that point the expression on

1542
01:55:16.640 --> 01:55:20.920
his face changed, his demeanor changed. He called nine one one and they

1543
01:55:20.960 --> 01:55:26.560
were asking him to check my pulse
and different things, and he was asking

1544
01:55:26.600 --> 01:55:29.600
me to roll down my window and
unlock the car door so that he could

1545
01:55:29.680 --> 01:55:33.840
check me. And I was still
so paranoid and so distrusting and knew that

1546
01:55:34.039 --> 01:55:39.119
darkness was getting me and I wouldn't
roll down the window. And I told

1547
01:55:39.199 --> 01:55:43.079
him, buddy, I ain't unlocking
the car door or unrolling down the window

1548
01:55:43.159 --> 01:55:46.439
until I see sirens, so just
back off. And so he's telling the

1549
01:55:46.560 --> 01:55:49.039
nine to one one call. She
won't let me. She won't let me

1550
01:55:49.520 --> 01:55:54.439
even she won't even roll down the
window. So they finally convinced me to

1551
01:55:54.640 --> 01:55:58.399
roll down the window a couple of
inches and stick my arm out the window

1552
01:55:58.479 --> 01:56:01.720
so that he could take my pulse
my wrists, and the ambulance showed up,

1553
01:56:02.039 --> 01:56:05.239
and they're all trying to get me
to unlock my car door and get

1554
01:56:05.279 --> 01:56:09.720
out of the car, and something
inside of me is telling me no.

1555
01:56:10.319 --> 01:56:14.560
I keep having these flashbacks to what
the Bigfoot had told me, don't stop,

1556
01:56:14.680 --> 01:56:17.000
don't sleep, just keep going all
the way. So my body is

1557
01:56:17.079 --> 01:56:20.680
telling me, no, you have
to keep going, but my mind is

1558
01:56:20.760 --> 01:56:25.239
saying, you can't. You're going
to get yourself killed in this condition.

1559
01:56:25.439 --> 01:56:29.560
You physically can't go on like this. So then the police tells me you

1560
01:56:29.720 --> 01:56:31.680
have no choice here, hun,
I can't let you take off driving in

1561
01:56:31.760 --> 01:56:34.960
this condition. You have to come
out of the car and get in the

1562
01:56:35.039 --> 01:56:39.479
ambulance and let us check you out. And so I start telling him there's

1563
01:56:39.520 --> 01:56:42.319
no way I'm leaving my dog on
the side of the highway here in the

1564
01:56:42.439 --> 01:56:45.800
dark like this, that's just not
going to happen. And so he called

1565
01:56:45.880 --> 01:56:48.399
my parents and asked my parents told
them what had happened, and that an

1566
01:56:48.439 --> 01:56:51.960
ambulance was going to be taking me
to a hospital, and that they needed

1567
01:56:53.000 --> 01:56:57.000
to come and pick up my dog. And the police officer promised me that

1568
01:56:57.159 --> 01:57:00.760
he would stand there with my car
until my parents got there to pick him

1569
01:57:00.840 --> 01:57:05.079
up. And so I got in
the ambulance and I was facing my car

1570
01:57:05.319 --> 01:57:10.039
so my dog could see me on
the stretcher in the ambulance. The doors

1571
01:57:10.079 --> 01:57:13.600
were still open, and I could
see my dog, and I could see

1572
01:57:13.680 --> 01:57:17.279
this worried look on his face,
and I knew that he was hoping more

1573
01:57:17.319 --> 01:57:20.560
than anything that I would get out
of that ambulance and come back to the

1574
01:57:20.680 --> 01:57:25.239
car, that I wasn't going to
drive away and leave him there. And

1575
01:57:26.079 --> 01:57:30.520
as they started to close the doors, I saw the look on his face,

1576
01:57:30.079 --> 01:57:35.279
just that crushed look when he realized
she is driving off and leaving me

1577
01:57:35.439 --> 01:57:44.000
here. And I came undone.
That look on his face did more to

1578
01:57:44.119 --> 01:57:48.560
me than any of that darkness ever
did. I was shaking uncontrollably. I

1579
01:57:48.720 --> 01:57:53.920
was shaking so bad that my teeth
were chattering, and the ambulance workers said

1580
01:57:53.960 --> 01:57:57.560
that I was going to break my
teeth because I couldn't calm myself down,

1581
01:57:58.319 --> 01:58:02.399
and they were going to have to
tranquilize me for my own safety. So

1582
01:58:02.640 --> 01:58:06.560
they did, and within a couple
of minutes, I felt like I was

1583
01:58:06.680 --> 01:58:11.760
just floating on this cloud and I
didn't forget any of it. I knew

1584
01:58:11.800 --> 01:58:15.840
what was happening. I was still
completely aware of what I had just done,

1585
01:58:15.920 --> 01:58:17.600
and I had just left my dog
on the side of the highway in

1586
01:58:17.680 --> 01:58:23.479
the dark because I had no choice. I just didn't care so much anymore.

1587
01:58:23.920 --> 01:58:28.479
It was like comfortably numb. And
so we get to the hospital and

1588
01:58:28.800 --> 01:58:31.760
I thought only a few minutes had
passed, but apparently hours had passed.

1589
01:58:31.880 --> 01:58:36.640
And my parents are walking into the
hospital and the first thing out of my

1590
01:58:36.720 --> 01:58:42.039
mouth is where's my dog? Where's
Arrows? And my mom's saying, calm

1591
01:58:42.119 --> 01:58:45.039
down, Arrows is fine. He's
out in the car waiting for you.

1592
01:58:45.680 --> 01:58:47.760
Let's get you checked out of here
and get you home. So they got

1593
01:58:47.840 --> 01:58:51.640
me checked out of the hospital and
put me in the car. My mom

1594
01:58:51.800 --> 01:58:56.039
was going to drive my car with
me and Arrows in it. And my

1595
01:58:56.159 --> 01:59:00.279
dad was going to drive their car
back and follow us, and my dog

1596
01:59:00.359 --> 01:59:02.520
was with me in the back seat
and my mom was driving. I was

1597
01:59:02.560 --> 01:59:06.520
in the passenger seat. And as
we took off driving, my dog laid

1598
01:59:06.560 --> 01:59:11.159
its head on my mom's shoulder and
just laid out, just gave out this

1599
01:59:11.439 --> 01:59:15.439
sigh. And it's like I could
feel him saying, or thinking or feeling,

1600
01:59:16.079 --> 01:59:19.560
thank God you're here, because we
weren't going to make it. And

1601
01:59:20.119 --> 01:59:25.039
my parents drove us back home,
and I did get to see my home

1602
01:59:25.119 --> 01:59:29.760
again, and my life did go
on. Obviously I'm still here. Other

1603
01:59:29.880 --> 01:59:32.920
things had happened after that. It
wasn't like that was the end and we

1604
01:59:33.039 --> 01:59:36.680
were safe. Now. I knew
that we weren't safe, but I did

1605
01:59:36.800 --> 01:59:40.920
feel like, at least we're on
home turf now, at least I've got

1606
01:59:40.960 --> 01:59:44.920
the home court advantage. I've got
resources, I've got my family. You

1607
01:59:45.000 --> 01:59:47.560
know, I know this area,
I know these woods around here. Should

1608
01:59:47.560 --> 01:59:51.359
I ever find myself in a similar
situation, a lot better than you know,

1609
01:59:51.520 --> 01:59:57.039
being thousands of miles away on my
own up in Alaska. So you

1610
01:59:57.119 --> 02:00:00.880
know, some other things have happened
since then, quite a few things.

1611
02:00:00.039 --> 02:00:13.079
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It's the x x X. Then
fast forward to twenty and nineteen when

1620
02:01:03.399 --> 02:01:09.319
the COVID lockdowns started. It was
a huge shift, Like, you know,

1621
02:01:09.439 --> 02:01:13.119
you're so caught up in your daily
routines and you got to get to

1622
02:01:13.199 --> 02:01:15.039
work and take care of the kid
and get her to school, and you

1623
02:01:15.119 --> 02:01:20.319
don't really have as much time to
sit and reflect on things and focus on

1624
02:01:20.479 --> 02:01:24.279
things. It's like I had kind
of put all of that out of my

1625
02:01:24.479 --> 02:01:27.560
head and I'm not doing that anymore. I don't want to be associated with

1626
02:01:27.680 --> 02:01:30.720
any of that I just want to
live a normal life and watch my kid

1627
02:01:30.800 --> 02:01:33.960
grow up and just be done.
So. Then twenty nineteen and the COVID

1628
02:01:34.039 --> 02:01:38.600
lockdowns happened, and once there was
no more school, there was no more

1629
02:01:38.680 --> 02:01:42.439
work. We were just stuck in
this house all the time, I had

1630
02:01:42.479 --> 02:01:48.279
a spiritual awakening. And during that
spiritual awakening, it was it was overwhelming.

1631
02:01:48.560 --> 02:01:55.800
It was like I was having like
a dozen different TV sets being thrown

1632
02:01:55.880 --> 02:02:00.079
at me. But these weren't just
images on a TV. This was everything.

1633
02:02:00.239 --> 02:02:04.079
This was the whole experience. This
was the emotion, the understanding,

1634
02:02:04.359 --> 02:02:09.520
the seeing it from a higher perspective, each one of those events, and

1635
02:02:09.640 --> 02:02:14.760
it was all these events of high
strangeness that I'd experienced all my life,

1636
02:02:14.840 --> 02:02:18.319
but I was seeing them with like
a different level of consciousness. Now I

1637
02:02:19.680 --> 02:02:24.520
was seeing it from outside of like
looking down at it, Like I could

1638
02:02:24.600 --> 02:02:28.000
see why it happened, and I
could see the whole experience, not just

1639
02:02:28.119 --> 02:02:30.199
the little flashbacks that had been going
off in my head, my whole life,

1640
02:02:30.439 --> 02:02:35.640
and I had a completely different understanding
as to what all this was and

1641
02:02:35.840 --> 02:02:41.920
why all this was happening to me, and that, obviously I came to

1642
02:02:42.000 --> 02:02:45.640
realize. I said that I had
thought that I was being punished when I

1643
02:02:45.800 --> 02:02:49.039
was told that I had to walk
this dark path alone. I thought that

1644
02:02:49.119 --> 02:02:54.319
I was being punished, and that
the light had cut me free and turned

1645
02:02:54.359 --> 02:02:59.560
me over to darkness. And I
came to realize after that awakening that I

1646
02:02:59.720 --> 02:03:02.920
wasn't being punished, that it was
a great honor that they felt that I

1647
02:03:03.079 --> 02:03:08.640
was strong enough to make it through
that, and I did. They were

1648
02:03:08.760 --> 02:03:13.279
right, of course, it took
a lot of help from players on both

1649
02:03:13.359 --> 02:03:15.079
sides, the dark and the light. I never would have made it on

1650
02:03:15.199 --> 02:03:18.359
my own. I should have been
dead a million times over by now,

1651
02:03:19.239 --> 02:03:25.760
but something always stepped in and sacrifice
of themselves or gave me a clue or

1652
02:03:25.840 --> 02:03:30.000
a hint, or helped me to
make it through, to keep going.

1653
02:03:30.279 --> 02:03:34.680
And then suddenly what that bigfoot had
told me that it's going to help me

1654
02:03:35.399 --> 02:03:40.920
because we're all suffering in here in
the hopes that I could help us all.

1655
02:03:41.720 --> 02:03:45.560
And suddenly I knew what that meant
and what I was supposed to do

1656
02:03:45.840 --> 02:03:49.239
to help us all. And what
I was supposed to do was share my

1657
02:03:49.359 --> 02:03:55.920
experiences and tell the world everything that
I've been through and what I learned from

1658
02:03:56.000 --> 02:04:00.239
it, and what it all meant, and that I would help awaken humanity,

1659
02:04:01.039 --> 02:04:06.199
help usher in the Great Awakening,
which would give humanity a greater understanding

1660
02:04:06.319 --> 02:04:11.399
of what this reality is, and
that we would be granted access to some

1661
02:04:11.560 --> 02:04:16.439
of these higher frequency or higher realm
aspects of existence, that we were being

1662
02:04:16.560 --> 02:04:21.920
granted that opportunity, that this was
all a huge texts, and that I

1663
02:04:23.039 --> 02:04:27.319
had been put through all of these
things and guided through them to make it

1664
02:04:27.439 --> 02:04:30.640
through them so that I could share
them with everyone, to help everyone understand

1665
02:04:30.760 --> 02:04:38.279
what this all was essentially a simulation, And so I wrote my pdf.

1666
02:04:38.600 --> 02:04:44.199
I had so free public pdf.
I posted it free immediately after writing it.

1667
02:04:44.399 --> 02:04:46.680
It was almost like a stream of
consciousness. All of this was just

1668
02:04:46.800 --> 02:04:50.319
coming out of my head so fast. I was just typing. I never

1669
02:04:50.399 --> 02:04:55.079
went back and edited it. I
didn't fix any spelling errors. I didn't

1670
02:04:55.079 --> 02:04:58.720
even read it back. As soon
as I typed the last word, I

1671
02:04:59.000 --> 02:05:01.800
took it down to the CA store
and I had some hard copies printed out,

1672
02:05:02.439 --> 02:05:09.199
and then I immediately posted it as
a free public PDF. And there's

1673
02:05:09.279 --> 02:05:13.279
a lot of experiences in there that
I didn't get into here, because,

1674
02:05:13.279 --> 02:05:17.399
as I said, I am a
lifelong high level experiencer, and so many

1675
02:05:17.520 --> 02:05:21.800
things have happened to me. I
couldn't possibly sit here and run down every

1676
02:05:21.880 --> 02:05:27.399
single thing, and it would take
forever. But for those that are interested

1677
02:05:27.720 --> 02:05:31.159
in hearing some of my other experiences
and some of this and a lot more

1678
02:05:31.279 --> 02:05:38.279
detail, you can find that pdf
at pdfposts dot io, and if you

1679
02:05:38.359 --> 02:05:42.119
go to that website, you can
click on the search bar and type in

1680
02:05:42.479 --> 02:05:48.720
the gray area that's gray gr ey
and it's the third or fourth document down.

1681
02:05:49.319 --> 02:05:54.439
My name's on there, and look
for the Yin and yang sign on

1682
02:05:54.600 --> 02:05:58.760
the cover. So that is my
story, or at least the highlights of

1683
02:05:58.920 --> 02:06:03.760
my story, and I hope everyone
gained something from it. I came to

1684
02:06:03.880 --> 02:06:11.680
realize that after seeing it from this
different perspective, as traumatizing and horrifying as

1685
02:06:11.760 --> 02:06:15.479
most of it was, knowing now
what it was and why it was,

1686
02:06:15.640 --> 02:06:18.680
and how much of an honor it
was, I would absolutely do it again.

1687
02:06:19.000 --> 02:06:25.840
And if the things that I went
through helped fill in even one blank

1688
02:06:26.159 --> 02:06:30.279
for one person, then it was
worth it. So I would encourage everyone

1689
02:06:30.479 --> 02:06:35.439
to go to pdfposts dot io and
type in the gray area in the search

1690
02:06:35.560 --> 02:06:42.640
bar and read the pdf, and
hopefully it would help enlighten you as to

1691
02:06:42.760 --> 02:06:45.800
what some of this is and why
some of this is so thank you for

1692
02:06:46.000 --> 02:06:50.039
having me and for listening to me
ramble for a couple of hours. Now.

1693
02:06:51.079 --> 02:06:59.439
Wow, Yeah, it has been
very, very bizarre my entire life.

1694
02:06:59.640 --> 02:07:01.600
Like I said, said from the
time I was two or three years

1695
02:07:01.640 --> 02:07:06.119
old, the stuff started, and
it has been life long and it's just

1696
02:07:06.439 --> 02:07:12.520
been one wild ride, that's for
sure. And I'm just extremely thankful to

1697
02:07:12.760 --> 02:07:15.000
have made it through it, to
be here, to be able to discuss

1698
02:07:15.079 --> 02:07:20.159
it and to help others that are
going through these similar things, that are

1699
02:07:20.239 --> 02:07:26.239
questioning their sanity or not understanding why
this is happening to them and what all

1700
02:07:26.319 --> 02:07:29.199
of this is. So, like
I said, if I can fill in

1701
02:07:29.439 --> 02:07:32.239
even one blank for someone, then
it was all worth it. Oh,

1702
02:07:32.319 --> 02:07:36.119
made the link available in the description
of this episode and on the website definitely

1703
02:07:36.199 --> 02:07:41.479
were for read, especially all those
looking for answers. Thank you. Yeah,

1704
02:07:41.800 --> 02:07:45.840
it's like I said, the spelling
mistakes are in there, and I

1705
02:07:45.039 --> 02:07:49.680
didn't edit it or even reread it. After going back and rereading it since

1706
02:07:49.800 --> 02:07:54.760
posting it, there were areas I
wished I had to find a little better.

1707
02:07:54.880 --> 02:07:58.720
There were areas that I realized might
be a little bit confusing and that

1708
02:07:58.880 --> 02:08:01.520
I should have maybe word it's something
a different way. But at the time

1709
02:08:01.800 --> 02:08:05.880
I felt like I wanted it exactly
the way that it came out of my

1710
02:08:07.000 --> 02:08:13.000
head, because sometimes you can gain
some interesting information from those Freudian slips,

1711
02:08:13.079 --> 02:08:16.960
if you want to call it that, or even from the grammar mistake.

1712
02:08:16.199 --> 02:08:22.880
So I didn't I felt very strongly
that I didn't want to change a single

1713
02:08:22.960 --> 02:08:26.239
word, a single spelling mistake.
I was like in under the influence of

1714
02:08:26.359 --> 02:08:31.079
this energy like this almost like a
conscious streaming, like this was just pouring

1715
02:08:31.159 --> 02:08:35.720
out of me. And I wrote
it in just a few marathon typing sessions,

1716
02:08:35.840 --> 02:08:39.239
one of which was literally an overnight
marathon. I was just typing faster

1717
02:08:39.840 --> 02:08:43.359
than I could keep up. My
mind was just like flying a million miles,

1718
02:08:43.399 --> 02:08:46.119
and I just kept thinking, I
got to get it all out.

1719
02:08:46.159 --> 02:08:48.079
I got to get it all out
and out of my hands before anybody could

1720
02:08:48.119 --> 02:08:52.439
stop it from going public. And
once it's out, it's like I can

1721
02:08:52.520 --> 02:08:54.319
let out this big sigh of relief. I did my job. I put

1722
02:08:54.399 --> 02:08:58.920
my truth out there and hopefully it
helps some people, and you know,

1723
02:09:00.000 --> 02:09:03.560
so that's the best that I can
do. So I was able to get

1724
02:09:03.640 --> 02:09:07.720
it posted publicly as a free public
document and it's gotten close to four thousand

1725
02:09:07.800 --> 02:09:13.159
hits so far, so obviously some
people have found it, and I've gotten

1726
02:09:13.199 --> 02:09:16.600
a lot of really good feedback on
it from people. So I feel like

1727
02:09:16.800 --> 02:09:20.159
I have done my job to the
best that I can, and I continue

1728
02:09:20.279 --> 02:09:24.039
to try and do that job of
helping others to understand this. And that's

1729
02:09:24.600 --> 02:09:28.640
the big reason that I'm here speaking
with you today. How did you have

1730
02:09:30.000 --> 02:09:35.199
the strength and the energy to go
through all that? Honestly, I don't

1731
02:09:35.279 --> 02:09:37.279
know that I did. I think
I had the anger. I think I

1732
02:09:37.479 --> 02:09:41.239
was pissed off that this was happening
to me, that something was putting me

1733
02:09:41.359 --> 02:09:46.800
through all of this, and I
turned that anger into energy to fight it

1734
02:09:46.920 --> 02:09:50.680
with. And that's what it was. It was me taking all that anger

1735
02:09:50.840 --> 02:09:54.840
and turning it into the energy I
needed to keep going and fight through this.

1736
02:09:54.159 --> 02:09:56.960
What else could I do. I
couldn't stop the stuff from happening.

1737
02:09:58.039 --> 02:10:01.640
I was going to have to endure
it one way, or so I might

1738
02:10:01.720 --> 02:10:07.079
as well get mad and put on
my you know, my warrior suit and

1739
02:10:07.600 --> 02:10:11.800
lean into it, because I had
no choice. Really, when you travel

1740
02:10:11.079 --> 02:10:16.560
it's the traveling which is important,
not the destination. What do you feel

1741
02:10:16.000 --> 02:10:20.279
was up that mountain in Alaska?
Yeah, I actually wrote something to that

1742
02:10:20.359 --> 02:10:24.800
effect in the last chapter. I
won't give you a spoil alert, but

1743
02:10:24.000 --> 02:10:30.479
something to that effect in the last
chapter of my PDF that I realized it's

1744
02:10:30.560 --> 02:10:35.319
not about the destination, it's about
the journey and how you conduct yourself on

1745
02:10:35.439 --> 02:10:39.880
that journey. One of the experiences
that I didn't get into here, which

1746
02:10:39.000 --> 02:10:43.520
I guess I probably should have,
because it leaves everybody on a cliffhanger as

1747
02:10:43.600 --> 02:10:46.880
to why I felt I needed to
go to Alaska and what it was that

1748
02:10:46.079 --> 02:10:52.479
was there for me. During my
awakening, I was shown a memory that

1749
02:10:52.720 --> 02:10:56.239
I had no knowledge of. I
had had no flashbacks of this, I

1750
02:10:56.399 --> 02:11:01.439
had no knowledge whatsoever of this.
But I was shown a man of a

1751
02:11:01.600 --> 02:11:05.560
hybrid child of mine, and it
was the fetus that was taken from me

1752
02:11:05.760 --> 02:11:09.720
that Christmas Eve, my first year
of college. And this hybrid was human

1753
02:11:11.079 --> 02:11:16.039
and the alien hybrid. And this
little girl was almost ten years old.

1754
02:11:16.399 --> 02:11:22.760
And I saw her hair and I
recognized her hair on a cellular level,

1755
02:11:22.920 --> 02:11:26.359
and at first my mind said,
oh, her hair looks like mine.

1756
02:11:26.520 --> 02:11:28.680
And then I stopped and I was
like, no, not like mine.

1757
02:11:30.159 --> 02:11:33.319
It is mine. And it hit
me at that moment that this was my

1758
02:11:33.439 --> 02:11:39.520
hybrid child. And I was in
an underground facility and there was a blue

1759
02:11:39.600 --> 02:11:45.960
being sitting beside me, and another
blue being was walking across this field with

1760
02:11:46.159 --> 02:11:48.359
carrying this hybrid child. I didn't
know it was a hybrid child at the

1761
02:11:48.439 --> 02:11:52.279
time. I just saw this blue
being walking across the field was carrying something.

1762
02:11:52.600 --> 02:11:56.760
And then as they got up to
a few feet away from us,

1763
02:11:56.840 --> 02:12:00.760
that's when I was looking at this
child and recognized the hair, recognized that

1764
02:12:00.880 --> 02:12:03.680
this was my child, and all
of a sudden, it's like like they

1765
02:12:03.720 --> 02:12:09.600
had put the memory in my head
of that flashback to that night Christmas Eve

1766
02:12:09.760 --> 02:12:13.800
when I lost that pregnancy. And
then the being beside me smiled like this

1767
02:12:15.239 --> 02:12:20.279
smile, this knowing smile of yeah, that's what happened, and I knew

1768
02:12:20.560 --> 02:12:26.520
and I could feel, and basically
she told me telepathically that we were very

1769
02:12:26.680 --> 02:12:31.840
important to their research, that they
needed to see what would happen when that

1770
02:12:31.039 --> 02:12:37.720
connection was withheld from both of us. And apparently what happened was that this

1771
02:12:37.960 --> 02:12:43.680
hybrid child developed her siabilities and drew
me to Alaska like a beacon. So

1772
02:12:43.880 --> 02:12:48.479
what I felt that I needed to
go out there and get what I felt

1773
02:12:48.640 --> 02:12:54.239
was physically there for me was my
hybrid child who was desperate to make that

1774
02:12:54.439 --> 02:13:00.600
connection with me, and who was
using some sort of siability to draw me

1775
02:13:00.720 --> 02:13:03.199
out there. And I didn't know
what was drawing me out there, but

1776
02:13:03.399 --> 02:13:07.279
I knew it was so strong and
so important that I would give up my

1777
02:13:07.439 --> 02:13:11.039
life to get out there. And
no matter how hard they knocked me down,

1778
02:13:11.479 --> 02:13:13.880
I was going to get up and
keep going. I was going to

1779
02:13:13.960 --> 02:13:18.199
get there or I was going to
die trying. And I think by the

1780
02:13:18.359 --> 02:13:20.720
third time that I was on my
way out there, they realized she's never

1781
02:13:20.880 --> 02:13:26.720
going to stop coming for her.
Even though she doesn't actually consciously know what

1782
02:13:26.840 --> 02:13:30.840
it is she's coming for, it's
strong enough that she won't stop. And

1783
02:13:31.039 --> 02:13:33.600
so at that point they had to
show me her, and I guess they'd

1784
02:13:33.640 --> 02:13:39.520
gotten the answer to their experiment that
that's what would happen when that connection was

1785
02:13:39.600 --> 02:13:43.119
withheld. We all seek to know
who we are and where we come from,

1786
02:13:43.319 --> 02:13:48.000
and I can only imagine from her
point of view that you know she

1787
02:13:48.239 --> 02:13:52.880
would would be desperate to know her
mother or who she came from. And

1788
02:13:52.319 --> 02:13:58.479
apparently there is an unseen connection,
a link accord that they don't see the

1789
02:13:58.600 --> 02:14:03.119
others, the non human intence.
They don't quite understand. They're trying to

1790
02:14:03.239 --> 02:14:07.600
figure it out, how to manipulate
that connection, what's all involved in that

1791
02:14:07.800 --> 02:14:11.520
connection? And I guess she and
I were a big part of their experiments

1792
02:14:11.600 --> 02:14:16.399
and trying to understand that. So
I did, and was shown in my

1793
02:14:16.479 --> 02:14:22.560
awakening that what all that Alaska stuff
was about was me on the inside being

1794
02:14:22.840 --> 02:14:28.359
drawn to seek out my child,
and hybrid or not, she's still my

1795
02:14:28.560 --> 02:14:33.960
child and I love her, and
that was one of the big reasons that

1796
02:14:35.119 --> 02:14:37.039
I wrote the book as well.
I felt like, if I write this

1797
02:14:37.239 --> 02:14:41.520
and I put it out there,
it will forever be in the record,

1798
02:14:41.800 --> 02:14:46.880
and somehow, some way she'll be
able to gain access to it and know

1799
02:14:46.199 --> 02:14:54.079
that I never, I never did
not want her. I was too young.

1800
02:14:54.399 --> 02:14:56.920
I didn't understand. It wasn't that
I didn't want her. I didn't

1801
02:14:56.960 --> 02:15:01.880
want to be nineteen years old with
a baby in a college jop out and

1802
02:15:01.199 --> 02:15:05.039
that I didn't know what had happened, and I didn't know that she was

1803
02:15:05.119 --> 02:15:11.720
taken and obviously mixed with another species
and I wanted her to know that I

1804
02:15:11.880 --> 02:15:15.479
loved her, that I did try
to get to her, and that I

1805
02:15:15.479 --> 02:15:18.680
would never stop trying to get to
her. So that was another reason that

1806
02:15:18.199 --> 02:15:22.680
I wrote and published the book in
the hope that it would somehow find its

1807
02:15:22.720 --> 02:15:26.520
way to her. One day about
it. Every day. There's not a

1808
02:15:26.640 --> 02:15:31.079
day that goes by that I don't
think about her, and I wonder what

1809
02:15:31.279 --> 02:15:35.800
her existence has been. That I
carry that guilt that maybe if I hadn't

1810
02:15:35.880 --> 02:15:39.640
asked God to take it back and
give me that second chance, maybe she'd

1811
02:15:39.680 --> 02:15:43.600
have been born and none of this
would have happened. She would have known

1812
02:15:43.640 --> 02:15:46.920
where she came from. She wouldn't
have felt like she was given up or

1813
02:15:46.039 --> 02:15:50.319
taken or I don't know what she
feels from her perspective, And I think

1814
02:15:50.359 --> 02:15:54.560
about it every day. What does
she know? What does she think?

1815
02:15:54.199 --> 02:15:58.560
Will I ever meet her? Will
will we be able to make contact?

1816
02:15:58.720 --> 02:16:01.520
Because when they showed her to me, there was a glass wall that ran

1817
02:16:01.680 --> 02:16:05.920
from like it was like a hockey
rink, like from my waist all the

1818
02:16:05.960 --> 02:16:09.000
way up to the ceiling, and
I could sense, I could feel that

1819
02:16:09.199 --> 02:16:13.800
this wall didn't allow any resonance to
go through it. This child would not

1820
02:16:15.000 --> 02:16:20.479
have known or felt my presence there, just as I couldn't feel hers.

1821
02:16:20.800 --> 02:16:24.520
I didn't know it was her until
she was close enough that I could look

1822
02:16:24.560 --> 02:16:28.279
at her hair and somehow recognized it
on a cellular level that it's not just

1823
02:16:28.600 --> 02:16:31.239
like my hair, it is my
hair. It comes from me. And

1824
02:16:31.600 --> 02:16:35.200
that was my thought, was this
being was created for me. And it

1825
02:16:35.360 --> 02:16:39.639
was at that moment that I believe
they put that flashback in my mind of

1826
02:16:41.200 --> 02:16:46.959
losing that pregnancy ten years earlier,
and me realizing and putting those pieces together

1827
02:16:46.200 --> 02:16:50.799
like, wow, that's what happened
to this fetus that night that I lost

1828
02:16:50.840 --> 02:16:56.440
her. And here I am ten
years later in Alaska seeking her out from

1829
02:16:56.520 --> 02:17:01.399
some unknown connection that I didn't even
know. Oh, that that's what was

1830
02:17:01.479 --> 02:17:05.680
calling me to Alaska. But it, in fact was this child who had,

1831
02:17:05.079 --> 02:17:11.440
I guess, developed her her sighabilities
to make contact and draw me to

1832
02:17:11.639 --> 02:17:16.360
her in any way that she could. And so apparently we were very important

1833
02:17:16.440 --> 02:17:20.360
to their research in that regard the
countless people I spoke to over the years

1834
02:17:20.559 --> 02:17:26.159
which go for a very similar ordeal, there is always a connection and it's

1835
02:17:26.319 --> 02:17:31.239
always both ways, because she's fond
of you. Yeah, yeah, it's

1836
02:17:31.399 --> 02:17:35.079
tough. When I was given that
flashback back, it sent me to a

1837
02:17:35.159 --> 02:17:41.760
really bad place. I spent days
in my bathroom just crying, shaking and

1838
02:17:41.879 --> 02:17:46.040
vomiting. That's all I could do
was cry and shape and vomit and just

1839
02:17:46.200 --> 02:17:50.959
think, how could you do this? I never would have I never would

1840
02:17:50.959 --> 02:17:54.040
have wanted that for her, and
I didn't know what had happened to her.

1841
02:17:54.479 --> 02:17:58.000
I thought God had answered my prayer
and that God had taken her back

1842
02:17:58.079 --> 02:18:01.520
to the light or given her to
someone who was ready for her and to

1843
02:18:01.600 --> 02:18:05.079
give her a good life. I
never in a million years would have thought

1844
02:18:05.239 --> 02:18:07.680
that that's what would have become of
that fetus. And so there's a lot

1845
02:18:07.719 --> 02:18:11.239
of guilt with that, and I
have to live with that that this is

1846
02:18:11.319 --> 02:18:15.719
what happened. And yeah, to
a degree, I couldn't control it.

1847
02:18:15.840 --> 02:18:20.280
It was beyond my control. But
there is still that level of it was

1848
02:18:20.440 --> 02:18:24.440
my doing that created her in the
first place, that asked for her to

1849
02:18:24.639 --> 02:18:28.200
not exist so that I could have
a second chance, which is an awful

1850
02:18:28.239 --> 02:18:31.959
selfish thing on my part. But
at nineteen years old, and you know,

1851
02:18:31.360 --> 02:18:35.879
you don't know any better, and
I certainly didn't know any of that,

1852
02:18:35.280 --> 02:18:39.000
and so I'll always wonder what her
life was like, did she have

1853
02:18:39.120 --> 02:18:43.120
a good life, who raised her, was she loved? You know?

1854
02:18:43.440 --> 02:18:46.479
And I hope to get those answers. I do hope at some point,

1855
02:18:46.559 --> 02:18:50.879
whether it's in this life experience or
after it, I hope to get those

1856
02:18:50.920 --> 02:18:56.440
answers and to make contact with her. I'm holding out for that. Of

1857
02:18:56.479 --> 02:18:58.440
course. You can tell yourself,
I'm as much as possible. But at

1858
02:18:58.440 --> 02:19:01.479
the end of the day, you
know, we all have path and this

1859
02:19:01.799 --> 02:19:05.319
was your path, and this was
her path, whether it's divine or not.

1860
02:19:05.760 --> 02:19:09.639
Yeah, And I do tell myself
that that somehow they knew that I

1861
02:19:09.799 --> 02:19:15.159
was strong enough to endure all of
this. So surely the soul that they

1862
02:19:15.280 --> 02:19:20.239
put into that unborn child would have
had to have been a strong soul because

1863
02:19:20.360 --> 02:19:22.600
they would have known what she was
going to be facing, what she would

1864
02:19:22.680 --> 02:19:26.520
endure. So that's the one thing
that gives me some peace and some solace,

1865
02:19:26.799 --> 02:19:31.600
was that, you know, all
this time I was traumatized and scared,

1866
02:19:31.719 --> 02:19:35.520
and then once I saw it from
outside of it and realized what it

1867
02:19:35.600 --> 02:19:39.159
all was, I realized that they
were right, that I was strong enough

1868
02:19:39.200 --> 02:19:43.479
and able to get through this,
and I did and so I have to

1869
02:19:43.639 --> 02:19:48.520
just have that face that she too
was selected knowing what she would endure,

1870
02:19:48.799 --> 02:19:52.120
and that they knew that she was
strong enough to endure it. So that's

1871
02:19:52.319 --> 02:19:56.639
the one saving grace that I have, is that surely they're looking out for

1872
02:19:56.760 --> 02:20:01.159
her as well, just as they
did for me throughout this whole life experience.

1873
02:20:01.239 --> 02:20:03.399
I hope you know, like I
said, she's made up with the

1874
02:20:03.520 --> 02:20:07.000
same hard stuff you are. So
I do speak to a lot of people

1875
02:20:07.120 --> 02:20:09.959
and a lot of people's experiences on
here. Not all of them will share

1876
02:20:11.000 --> 02:20:13.959
the fact that they've had this pregnancy
and they've lost it is saying. A

1877
02:20:15.000 --> 02:20:18.200
lot of them will just share their
experiences, leave that out and then tell

1878
02:20:18.239 --> 02:20:22.120
me off record, but it is
mind blowing. Nothing is off record.

1879
02:20:22.319 --> 02:20:28.200
I want everyone to know all of
this, the stuff that's uncomfortable and embarrassing

1880
02:20:28.319 --> 02:20:31.840
and that you wouldn't necessarily share.
I mean, when you read that PDF,

1881
02:20:31.959 --> 02:20:35.959
there's things in there that I wish
everybody didn't know about me. But

1882
02:20:35.360 --> 02:20:39.079
it's important that they do know because
it's all part of it, and I

1883
02:20:39.280 --> 02:20:45.239
want people to see the whole thing. I'm not keeping anything out. I

1884
02:20:45.360 --> 02:20:48.000
put it all out there, and
you know, if that's my mission,

1885
02:20:48.159 --> 02:20:52.559
is to turn myself inside out for
the whole world to see all of these

1886
02:20:52.680 --> 02:20:56.760
bad decisions and things that I went
through. And then that's my past,

1887
02:20:56.959 --> 02:21:03.600
and I'm gonna follow faithfully and do
what I feel and was told that I

1888
02:21:03.719 --> 02:21:07.600
need to do, and I'm doing
it. I'm talking, you know,

1889
02:21:07.760 --> 02:21:13.079
on our weekly show. I'm putting
the PDF out there and encouraging people to

1890
02:21:13.239 --> 02:21:16.239
check it out and share it with
others. I'm working with a Mouffon investigator.

1891
02:21:16.399 --> 02:21:20.079
I told you I did do the
two hour interview with Linda Moulton Howe,

1892
02:21:20.360 --> 02:21:26.840
although that actually was more about the
my Lab experiences. I didn't even

1893
02:21:26.879 --> 02:21:30.840
get into this with you. But
in addition to being a lifelong high level

1894
02:21:30.959 --> 02:21:35.399
experiencer, I am also a lifelong
my lab of ducty. The US government's

1895
02:21:35.440 --> 02:21:41.159
been very interested in my experiences and
abilities as well, and that's a whole

1896
02:21:41.360 --> 02:21:45.200
nother ball of act. Yeah.
At the top of my lab, Yeah,

1897
02:21:45.360 --> 02:21:50.600
it's I could kill some of those
people. And I actually am hoping

1898
02:21:50.959 --> 02:21:56.760
to testify before Congress under oath with
David Grush and things starting to break open

1899
02:21:56.879 --> 02:22:00.600
and Congress wanting to hear from people
that were involved in these programs. We're

1900
02:22:00.680 --> 02:22:03.959
told that eventually they will want to
hear from experiencers as well. I am

1901
02:22:05.000 --> 02:22:09.920
also a research subject of Melinda Leslie, and she's joined our show several times,

1902
02:22:09.079 --> 02:22:15.600
and she's friends with Daniel Sheehan,
who is a top constitutional trial lawyer

1903
02:22:15.760 --> 02:22:20.600
famous for bringing little blower cases against
the United States government. And Melinda Leslie

1904
02:22:20.719 --> 02:22:26.319
is good friends with Shehan, and
I am trying to use my connection with

1905
02:22:26.520 --> 02:22:30.280
Melinda to get to get me in
the door with Daniel Shehan, and I'm

1906
02:22:30.360 --> 02:22:35.879
hoping to generate a class action lawsuit
against our government for these my lab activities,

1907
02:22:37.040 --> 02:22:41.479
because I think a lot of people
would not be okay with realizing that

1908
02:22:41.639 --> 02:22:46.799
their very young children are being abducted
by the United States government and they're being

1909
02:22:46.959 --> 02:22:50.680
tested for siabilities, and if they
have those siabilities, they're going to be

1910
02:22:50.799 --> 02:22:58.639
inducted into these black op programs and
forced to do and endure horrifying things.

1911
02:22:58.000 --> 02:23:03.719
And I've talked extensively on our weekly
Twitter show about it. Of all the

1912
02:23:03.799 --> 02:23:07.600
bad experiences that I've been through in
my life and all the traumatizing things with

1913
02:23:07.719 --> 02:23:13.159
the non human intelligence, it doesn't
even come close to the betrayal that I

1914
02:23:13.319 --> 02:23:20.760
feel from these my lab activities,
just being that feeling of being betrayed by

1915
02:23:20.840 --> 02:23:24.959
your own people. Not only am
I traumatized and scared and don't know what

1916
02:23:24.079 --> 02:23:28.840
any of this is, but then
you're reabducting me, forcefully interrogating me,

1917
02:23:30.079 --> 02:23:33.239
forcing me to do things I don't
want to do, so that you can

1918
02:23:33.319 --> 02:23:37.520
get answers for yourself, and you're
not sharing those answers with the world or

1919
02:23:37.639 --> 02:23:41.520
humanity to help us all as a
species. You're selfishly porting this information for

1920
02:23:41.680 --> 02:23:46.559
yourself to see what you can get
out of it, and you're destroying people's

1921
02:23:46.639 --> 02:23:52.120
lives in the process. And so
it is also my mission to expose this,

1922
02:23:52.440 --> 02:23:56.719
and I have enough information to do
just that. So that's a whole

1923
02:23:56.799 --> 02:24:01.120
other ball wax. And I've endured
threats and surveillance. I've been under surveillance

1924
02:24:01.200 --> 02:24:05.520
my entire life, and I'm sure
this was listened in on as well.

1925
02:24:05.680 --> 02:24:11.319
All of my electronics are I've had
interference, like calls dropped, being kicked

1926
02:24:11.360 --> 02:24:15.319
out of our show, had things
that I mailed in the US mail that

1927
02:24:15.520 --> 02:24:18.600
never made it to their destination.
So yeah, that's a whole nother ball

1928
02:24:18.680 --> 02:24:22.120
of wax that I didn't even get
into with you. But in addition to

1929
02:24:22.280 --> 02:24:28.040
being a lifelong experiencer, I'm also
a lifelong my lab abductee, and the

1930
02:24:28.159 --> 02:24:31.319
two seem to go hand in hand. If you're a high level experiencer,

1931
02:24:31.760 --> 02:24:35.799
they're interested. They want to know
why and what it is about you,

1932
02:24:35.959 --> 02:24:39.319
and what your abilities are and what
you can do for them. Ultimately,

1933
02:24:39.639 --> 02:24:41.120
you know, you know a lot
of people they say, oh, the

1934
02:24:41.200 --> 02:24:43.840
government wouldn't do that. They wouldn't
do that kind of thing to their own

1935
02:24:43.879 --> 02:24:48.079
people. I'm not just talking about
the United States. I'm talking about various

1936
02:24:48.079 --> 02:24:54.319
different governments, but governments which experiment
on their own soldiers. You have governments

1937
02:24:54.399 --> 02:24:58.639
which spy on their own people.
There's nothing that they won't do for their

1938
02:24:58.680 --> 02:25:01.959
own interest. I think that's one
of the things that people are finally starting

1939
02:25:03.000 --> 02:25:05.280
to wake up to. I think
we're all realizing that the veil's been pulled

1940
02:25:05.319 --> 02:25:11.559
over our eyes in so many different
ways by so many different entities that we're

1941
02:25:11.639 --> 02:25:13.719
starting to wake up now and look
around and say, hey, these people

1942
02:25:13.840 --> 02:25:18.479
haven't been operating in my best interest
in looking out for me. They've been

1943
02:25:18.520 --> 02:25:24.760
taking my tax dollars and actually using
them to manipulate and control me to benefit

1944
02:25:24.840 --> 02:25:28.920
themselves, and I think as more
of this starts to come out, all

1945
02:25:28.000 --> 02:25:31.719
hell's going to break loose, because
when people realize the things that our government

1946
02:25:31.840 --> 02:25:35.920
has really been involved in and what
they've been doing and doing to their own

1947
02:25:37.000 --> 02:25:39.479
citizens, Like you say, I
don't think there's many that are going to

1948
02:25:39.520 --> 02:25:43.360
be okay with it. I mean, every horrifying thing you can imagine,

1949
02:25:43.559 --> 02:25:48.719
and so much that you can't even
imagine, is going on in these underground

1950
02:25:48.799 --> 02:25:54.479
bases, and they are abducting young
children and testing them and traumatizing them to

1951
02:25:54.559 --> 02:26:00.120
get them to disassociate so that they
can pull out these viabilities in them and

1952
02:26:00.639 --> 02:26:03.079
the ones that make it to the
top of the class. And unfortunately I

1953
02:26:03.319 --> 02:26:07.040
was one of those, because as
a child, you just want to please

1954
02:26:07.120 --> 02:26:09.719
the adults. You don't realize what
you're getting yourself into. But if you

1955
02:26:09.840 --> 02:26:13.600
do find yourself at the top of
the class and with these abilities, they

1956
02:26:13.920 --> 02:26:18.360
forcefully induct you into these programs and
before you know it, as a teenager,

1957
02:26:18.440 --> 02:26:22.959
they're throwing you into a real world, horrifying situations, trying to get

1958
02:26:24.000 --> 02:26:28.360
you to make contact with dark entities
and trying to have you be an astral

1959
02:26:28.440 --> 02:26:31.799
scout and lead their military groups to
different artifacts that they're looking for, and

1960
02:26:33.200 --> 02:26:35.959
they're threatening you. They're threatening to
kill you, they're killing people in front

1961
02:26:37.000 --> 02:26:39.840
of you to disassociate you so that
you will do these things for them.

1962
02:26:41.280 --> 02:26:45.719
And then there's the whole sexual misconduct
element of it as well. You're dealing

1963
02:26:46.000 --> 02:26:52.760
underground with extremely secretive programs that have
zero oversight, and these are all young,

1964
02:26:52.319 --> 02:26:56.879
sexually active males that are in these
programs, and so there is a

1965
02:26:58.040 --> 02:27:03.719
lot of sexual misconduct that have to
these children and young adults, particularly females,

1966
02:27:03.799 --> 02:27:07.360
but I'm sure males as well.
And so that's just a whole other

1967
02:27:07.479 --> 02:27:11.200
element that is just sick, and
it's got to be stopped. These programs

1968
02:27:11.239 --> 02:27:15.440
have got to be exposed to people
that were running them and that were calling

1969
02:27:15.520 --> 02:27:18.440
the shops that were at the top
of the food chain there. They need

1970
02:27:18.520 --> 02:27:22.120
to be held accountable. They made
choices and now they need to stand beside

1971
02:27:22.159 --> 02:27:26.200
them just like everybody else. So
I actually feel honored to get to be

1972
02:27:26.360 --> 02:27:30.079
one of the ones that gets to
deliver that build to them, and I

1973
02:27:30.159 --> 02:27:33.719
intend to do exactly that. I've
got enough names, dates, locations,

1974
02:27:33.799 --> 02:27:39.399
equipment names, I've got enough to
make a dent in things and they know

1975
02:27:39.520 --> 02:27:43.920
it. And they did a subconscious
interrogation on me after my awakening. They

1976
02:27:43.000 --> 02:27:48.559
wanted to know how much I had
gotten back and what I planned on doing

1977
02:27:48.639 --> 02:27:52.200
with it, and I didn't let
them in. I tucked some of the

1978
02:27:52.639 --> 02:27:56.239
deepest stuff away. They used an
energy weapon. They were in a craft

1979
02:27:56.360 --> 02:28:01.680
over my house and they used a
directed energy web. And I wake up

1980
02:28:01.719 --> 02:28:03.959
in my bed and there's a notebook
and a pen laying next to my head

1981
02:28:05.040 --> 02:28:07.879
and I didn't put it there,
so clearly they had come into my home

1982
02:28:07.959 --> 02:28:11.799
and put that there. And they
instructed me that I was not to write

1983
02:28:11.840 --> 02:28:15.440
down the questions, only to write
down the answers. Why they had me

1984
02:28:15.520 --> 02:28:18.079
write them down, I don't know. But I have that notebook and I

1985
02:28:18.239 --> 02:28:22.440
have all those things that I wrote
down, and there were a few times

1986
02:28:22.479 --> 02:28:26.399
that I did actually write down the
questions or write down things that I wasn't

1987
02:28:26.440 --> 02:28:31.600
supposed to, and those pages were
forwarded to Linda Molton. How she has

1988
02:28:31.719 --> 02:28:35.239
those, and they were forwarded to
others as well, so they know better

1989
02:28:35.360 --> 02:28:39.920
than to even try and come and
steal them or make them disappear. At

1990
02:28:39.959 --> 02:28:41.840
this point, I put them in
enough places that it doesn't matter, so

1991
02:28:43.319 --> 02:28:46.440
this is all going to come out
and I will be going public with all

1992
02:28:46.520 --> 02:28:52.159
of it, and if the class
action suit doesn't take then I intend to

1993
02:28:52.200 --> 02:28:56.680
file criminal charges against the ones that
have done the worst things to me.

1994
02:28:56.959 --> 02:29:01.799
So yeah, that would be there's
a whole nother show there, because,

1995
02:29:01.920 --> 02:29:05.200
like I said, I didn't even
get into that aspect of things with you.

1996
02:29:05.520 --> 02:29:07.840
I just kind of wanted to keep
it with the high strangeness, and

1997
02:29:09.280 --> 02:29:13.000
it wasn't even all the high strangeness, just sort of the highlights and the

1998
02:29:13.120 --> 02:29:16.360
general consensus of the way my life
has gone and the path that I was

1999
02:29:18.040 --> 02:29:22.440
led down and realizing why that was
and what it all was. But yeah,

2000
02:29:22.639 --> 02:29:26.760
all along on the side of that, I had the US government abducting

2001
02:29:26.840 --> 02:29:30.479
me as well, wanting to know
what do they want you to do?

2002
02:29:30.639 --> 02:29:33.399
What are they saying to you?
Well, why do you have this connection

2003
02:29:33.520 --> 02:29:35.440
with them? And you know,
we need you to do this for us,

2004
02:29:35.520 --> 02:29:39.799
and we need you to make contact
with this And it was just awful.

2005
02:29:39.000 --> 02:29:43.479
It was so awful, like so
much worse than any of the non

2006
02:29:43.600 --> 02:29:48.280
human intelligence encounters and interactions. So
but I truly believe they're going to get

2007
02:29:48.319 --> 02:29:52.479
what's coming to them, because they
should have known that they were not going

2008
02:29:52.559 --> 02:29:56.239
to be able to keep this secret
forever, and that eventually there would be

2009
02:29:56.319 --> 02:30:01.120
whistleblowers and people would come out,
and now happening. So I'm very excited

2010
02:30:01.200 --> 02:30:05.440
and honored that I made it this
far, that I'm here to put my

2011
02:30:05.600 --> 02:30:09.639
truth out there, to hold certain
people accountable for the things that they did,

2012
02:30:09.840 --> 02:30:13.920
and to watch the awakening of the
human species, and to see all

2013
02:30:13.000 --> 02:30:16.440
of this come out into the light
of day. It's just amazing that I

2014
02:30:16.559 --> 02:30:20.440
even made it this far. Indeed, I said, it's quite a journey

2015
02:30:20.559 --> 02:30:24.920
because there was obviously two factions at
work here. You know, you've got

2016
02:30:26.239 --> 02:30:30.680
a relatively good side of things,
and then you've got this very dark force.

2017
02:30:30.799 --> 02:30:33.000
It just seems to want to keep
putting you back. Yeah, the

2018
02:30:33.120 --> 02:30:35.760
yin and the yang, the dark
in the light. And I came to

2019
02:30:35.920 --> 02:30:41.280
realize that they're both necessary and serve
their purpose, and without one the other

2020
02:30:41.360 --> 02:30:46.840
wouldn't exist. Like they say that
saying, if it weren't for the darkness,

2021
02:30:46.920 --> 02:30:50.760
you wouldn't see the stars. It's
like a push pool, a magnetic

2022
02:30:50.920 --> 02:30:54.639
balance that keeps this whole thing working. And so as tough as those dark

2023
02:30:54.760 --> 02:31:00.959
experiences can be, they are necessary, and I'm just privilege that I made

2024
02:31:01.000 --> 02:31:03.840
it through both sides, the light
and the dark, and that I'm still

2025
02:31:03.879 --> 02:31:07.920
here to tell about it. And
post COVID, are you still have an

2026
02:31:07.959 --> 02:31:11.879
experiences? Is there still things going
on? And not too much? I

2027
02:31:13.040 --> 02:31:16.120
feel like I was given most probably
not all. I know not all,

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but I was given most of these
experiences I've had all my life back and

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an understanding of what they were.
After the Awakening, I was reabducted by

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all the different groups that I've had
interactions with, just like the humans.

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They all wanted to know how much
I was given back and what I planned

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on doing with it, and there
was some threats and intimidations made that you

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know, I shouldn't be going public
with this and I shouldn't be naming names,

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and that you know, I just
don't understand that there's bigger things in

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play here, and you know I
at this point, I have no fear

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of any of them, and I
told them all, thank you for your

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opinion, and I will certainly take
it into account, but ultimately I'm going

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to do what I feel is best
and I've been given the authority to do

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that, so unfortun you have no
choice but to just sit back and let

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that happen. And that's what I'm
doing. Good stuff, good job,

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Bridgete. Well thank you. I
started thinking like, man, I've been

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talking for like two hours, non
stuff. I hope we're still there.

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That we didn't like cut out or
something. I'm talking with dead air.

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No, I would have got in
contact of you again. Don't worry now,

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bridget A message to our listeners now
that there are plenty people out there

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that have gone through similar programs,
you understand and probably of what they're going

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through and what they're feeling. What
advice would you give them? I would

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say, stand in your truth.
I was told that I need to have

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the courage to speak my truth and
the conviction to stand beside it. As

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more and more of us come forward
and share these uncomfortable truths, it makes

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it that much easier for others to
do so. And as more and more

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do so, we start to realize
that this is happening to a lot more

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02:32:50.719 --> 02:32:54.479
people than our willing or who have
been willing to come forward and share that.

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02:32:54.719 --> 02:33:01.360
And knowing that and starting to realize
that destigmatizes it, and soon there's

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not going to be any stigma associated
with this. Many people don't come forward

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02:33:05.600 --> 02:33:09.319
because they feared or ruin their professional
reputation, that their friends and families are

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02:33:09.399 --> 02:33:11.959
going to think that they're crazy,
that they're going to be put into a

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mental institution. I mean, most
of my life, that was why I

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02:33:16.520 --> 02:33:18.920
didn't speak out loud about any of
this. The few times that I put

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a few feelers out there, I
could see people looking at me like I

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02:33:22.360 --> 02:33:26.879
was stark, raving mad, and
I thought, Okay, I cannot talk

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02:33:26.920 --> 02:33:30.399
about this because I'm going to end
up in a mental institution, and then

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02:33:30.440 --> 02:33:33.719
I'm certainly not going to complete my
mission or have any kind of a normal

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life. So that's not an option. I'm going to have to keep it

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all inside. But now the world
is changing, the landscape is changing.

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We have made more progress in the
last five years in these matters than I

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02:33:46.399 --> 02:33:52.159
think in all of human existence prior. So the world is changing. People

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02:33:52.559 --> 02:33:56.520
do believe you, And there is
now a change where people are looking to

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02:33:56.680 --> 02:34:01.639
experiencers to want to know what we
experienced, and why do we think we

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02:34:01.799 --> 02:34:05.639
experienced these things, and what was
the reasoning for it all? And who

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02:34:05.719 --> 02:34:09.239
are these beings and what does it
all mean? People want those answers now,

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02:34:09.479 --> 02:34:13.239
and we have sort of backed our
government into a corner where they really

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02:34:13.319 --> 02:34:16.159
have no choice but to come forward
with disclosure. And sure they're trying to

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02:34:16.280 --> 02:34:20.200
control it and manipulate it and give
us as little as possible so that they

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02:34:20.239 --> 02:34:24.200
don't have their dirty laundry get hung
out in the process. But with that

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02:34:24.399 --> 02:34:30.280
disclosure going public, and it shouldn't
be this way. But hearing your government

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02:34:30.399 --> 02:34:33.079
or authoritative figure tell you, yeah, okay, these things are real and

2078
02:34:33.159 --> 02:34:37.639
they have been happening, and yeah, we have been looking into them for

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02:34:37.760 --> 02:34:41.000
a long time. We didn't tell
you because we didn't know what it was.

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02:34:41.239 --> 02:34:46.719
Well, that destigmatizes it in a
mass way. And now all these

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02:34:46.840 --> 02:34:52.440
different organizations are popping up, and
people are creating private databases to log all

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02:34:52.520 --> 02:34:56.719
these types of activities so that they
can try and find the common threads to

2083
02:34:56.840 --> 02:35:01.479
put some of these pieces together.
And I believe that all hold some of

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02:35:01.520 --> 02:35:05.319
these pieces, some of us knowingly, some of us unknowingly. But I

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02:35:05.440 --> 02:35:09.319
believe from the bottom of my heart
that we have to all have the courage

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02:35:09.719 --> 02:35:13.520
to come forward with our truths and
put our piece of the puzzle out there

2087
02:35:13.799 --> 02:35:18.959
so that we and others can start
manipulating those pieces of the puzzle to try

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02:35:18.000 --> 02:35:20.879
to get a sense of that big
picture and what it is and why all

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02:35:20.959 --> 02:35:24.879
this is happening. So I would
say to others, have the courage to

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02:35:26.040 --> 02:35:28.799
come forward and speak your truth,
do your part. Put your piece of

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02:35:28.840 --> 02:35:33.200
the puzzle on the table so that
even if you don't want to work with

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02:35:33.319 --> 02:35:37.200
that puzzle, others have that piece
to work with it. Wonderful final words,

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02:35:37.559 --> 02:35:41.040
bridget I really appreciate you coming on
sharing that for our listeners. Thank

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02:35:41.079 --> 02:35:45.280
you for having me. It's been
wonderful speaking to you. Take care and

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we will speak soon. All right, take care, Okay, you enjoy

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your day. Bye now, Bridgete. Thanks bybye. That's all for this

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episode. I'm afraid. Keep updated
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have an encounter that you'd like to share

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email me at UFO Chronicles at gmail dot

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02:36:03.840 --> 02:36:07.200
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to me via the contact page on my

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website UFO Chronicles podcast dot com.
A big fanget a bridget for sharing tonight,

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and thank you all for listening.
I will be back next week.

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Till then, stay safe and keep
watching the skies. Goodbye An