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step into exactly who we came here to be. Today, we're talking about
how to transmute the feeling of loneliness into lie on us energy, because all
energy is just energy and can be shifted and transformed in a way that we
can use to our advantage. I've had many seasons interacting with the energy of
loneliness, and it has taught me so many great lessons that other energies and
people simply can't. If you are going through a season of isolation, you
move to a new town and you don't have friends yet, you're going through
a breakup and you feel like you are experiencing intense loneliness, this is the
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it does not mean that you have to feel lonely. And maybe you're
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I'm alone? Of course I'm going to feel lonely. Well, baby girl,
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today's episode. First things first, there is a difference between feeling lonely and
being alone. I think we all have experienced that feeling of being at a
party or being with a group of friends but feeling completely disconnected, so you
just feel really lonely. I know for myself, I would be at parties
or at a friend's house and there'd be a bunch of people there, but
even though there was people physically there, I felt so lonely. And that
is when really I realized that it's not about the physical feeling. Lonely isn't
about our connection to others. It's about our connection to self. Because when
you put the equations together and you reflect on your life experiences, maybe you're
like me and you're like, yeah, I've had experiences where I was around
a bunch of people but I felt so lonely. But yet I've had time
when I was completely alone in solitude and I felt fulfilled. If that's true,
at least for one person, then loneliness isn't about our connection to others,
but our connection to our self. The first thing I want to invite
you to do if you're experiencing loneliness is to lean into the energy, because
that energy wouldn't be showing up in your life if there wasn't something for you
to learn from it. All of the energies we experience, there's medicine in
these energies for us to learn about ourselves, to learn about the world and
evolve loneliness. When we're feeling it, what's the first thing we want to
do? Run away from it. Run away from it, run away from
it. Okay, yeah, it doesn't work. I tried. I would
go out every single weekend, I would drink my little tail off. I
would try to avoid, avoid, avoid loneliness. And eventually those distractions of
the drinking, of the partying, of the going out, they don't work
anymore. They don't distract you anymore. And being in denial of our feelings
doesn't mean the feelings just boof away. It means the feelings get bogged down
and will pop back up later. We can't outrun loneliness, but we can
turn around, we can face it, and we can dance with it,
because that loneliness is just an invitation to connect to yourself deeper. What if
you leaned into the loneliness. What if you sat in the loneliness and you
bathed in the loneliness and you allowed yourself to just feel it instead of running
away from it. Loneliness is really interesting, and being alone is really interesting.
And how we see these terms and mingle them with one another is interesting
because I just know that there is a mom out there with five children right
now listening to this, praying for a lone time, praying for solitude.
And then there's someone listening to this who's praying for a partner for connections for
more people. We want to honor wherever we're at, because each season is
in fact temporary. As deep as we feel loneliness, we're also going to
feel completely fulfilled and connected to self. This is a law of polarity.
As far as the pench swings in one direction, it must and it will
swing in the opposite direction. So when the seasons are good, we want
to celebrate that the season is good, and when we're feeling lonely, we
want to celebrate that, Oh good I'm having this season. Now I'm feeling
these lower vibrational emotions. Now that means that my next one will be oh
so in the opposite direction. As far as the pendulum swings in one direction,
it must also swing in the other. Understand that if you are feeling
a deep sense of loneliness right now, it's not forever. It's for now.
And if you lean into it, if you let yourself cry, if
you let yourself journal, if you let yourself experience the loneliness, it will
move through you and it will leave. But it wants your attention because there's
something you have to learn from it. I used to see alone time as
something that would equal loneliness. I used to see alone time as something that's
really really negative, and I asked myself, Cecy, why were you so
afraid of this? Forget codependency, because that definitely played a role, But
on top of that, the first time I really experienced loneliness in an intense
way was when I stopped being friends with this group of girls. And I
was friends with this group of girls from about well most of them from kindergarten,
throughout high school, and then maybe like the first or second year of
college. I can't even remember when it ended. But one day all of
them, for whatever reason, decided not to be friends with me anymore.
And I remember crying to my mom and just breaking down because I was seeing
them on Snapchat going to parties and not inviting me. I was seeing them
hang out with each other and not inviting me and shamelessly posting it all over
social media so you know I would see it. And I remember feeling such
an intense emotion of I feel really betrayed right now because I have no idea
what happened. Number one. Number two, I have FOMO because I feel
like I'm missing out on all these experiences that I should be having too.
I thought these people were my friends, and I was crying to my mom,
just saying I didn't do anything like I would fully admit if I did
something. I'm a good person. I've been good to them. I don't
know what's happening. And I hated this time, like I really hated it.
I hated it because I started to associate being alone with fomo and being
betrayed and left out. And I was somehow like this loser because I didn't
have these friends anymore and they were going out and I wasn't. And I
made such a negative meaning around lonelyiness that every time I was alone or had
alone time, I would be like, oh no, I can't have alone
time. I have to go out. I have to go to a bar
or a party. I have to make plans. And I was forcing myself
to go out when I was a thing exhausted. I was forcing myself to
go out when I didn't want to go out. And it was all just
so I could run away from this feeling of loneliness. And all that did
was delay my own healing and make me really tired. And maybe I made
some mistakes along the way with some men, but we don't need a rehash
of that right now. Anyway, I gave being alone a negative meaning,
and I want you to check in with yourself. Are you giving the concept
of being alone a negative meaning? Because if you are, you're gonna run
from it and you're not gonna want to feel it. If every time you
were alone when you were a child it was because your mom was at work
and so you felt abandoned, you're never gonna want to feel alone again,
and so you're gonna run from it. Also, there's a biological need here
for socialization. In tribal times, if we were cast out of our tribe
and we had to survive on our own, we had to know which berries
were poisonous and which ones weren't. We had to hunt the tiger and also
survive the tiger. We had to build our little hut, We had to
make our clothing, We had to survive an unknown weather climates all on our
own. We couldn't and we would die. So being rejected from a tribe
literally equal death. And that biological need to be social and attached to a
tribe is still within us, and it's really really high when we're especially teens
and these young adults, we really want that socialization. As we age,
we get more comfortable with being alone, I will say, and you get
more comfortable just being yourself. And so there's this biological piece that wants to
be social. And then there's possibly the meaning we're creating about being alone.
Maybe we think it just equals little holiness. Maybe we think it equals betrayal
and death and all of the sadness. But I have come to reframe alone
time as selective solitude. Alone time is not something that I'm doing because I
have no other choice. I'm not choosing to be alone because I'm cast out
of this friend group and I have no one else. I'm not choosing to
be alone because I have no other choice because I'm a loser. I'm not
being alone because I was rejected. No, I'm choosing to be alone because
I simply like being with myself. And maybe you don't like being with yourself
just yet, so you're thinking, well, selective solitude doesn't really sound that
great to me. Because I don't want to hang out with myself, then
you don't know yourself, and that's even more of a reason that you need
to date yourself and hang out with you and get to know who you are.
Because there was a time in my life where I didn't want to hang
out with myself because I thought I was boring. And then I started dating
myself. I started reading, I started learning, I started listening to new
information podcasts, I started playing more pianos, singing, creating tiktoks, creating
a podcast, and I was like, Wow, my energy is actually so
cool. And I would have never known that about myself if I didn't spend
time with me. How do you get to know anyone? You have to
hang out them. So if you're not hanging out with yourself, don't you
dare say you hate yourself or you don't like yourself because you don't even know
yourself yet. Reframe your alone time not as something negative, not because you
have no friends, not because you're some loser, not because you're being rejected,
but because you're choosing this. And this is what I'm calling selective solitude.
When we think about selective solitude, there's a couple of things I want
to bring up to you. If you want to get good at anything,
you have to practice it. If you want to get good at piano,
you have to practice piano. You want to get good at knowing yourself and
being yourself, you have to spend time strengthening your connection to yourself. You
have to quite literally practice being you or this new version of you. Yeah,
there is definitely, I would say, external pressures for us to go
out beyond the scene, get engaged, being married, be in a relationship.
Oh my god, it's so tiring, it really is. And I
am also seeing that pressure. I've been in a relationship for some time,
and I have people in my life saying when are you getting engaged? When
are you getting married? It's time and time and time, and giving me
their fleeting I just hit my face on my microphone. But that's how it
feels, honestly, like they're hitting me with their energy. They're fleeting empty
comments that I simply don't care about, and yeah, that's the only way
I can say it. And they've been asking me just relentlessly, when are
you're getting engaged? Like isn't it time? And I'm like, why are
you so worried about what I'm doing with my time and my energy? I'm
pretty sure you have problems that you probably need to find solutions for. Go
do that, okay? Anyway, So I had to come to a realization
in myself that what my life is going to look like is going to be
very different than anybody or you know what, most people my age, it's
going to look different. I have always since I was little, and I'm
telling you this because maybe you can relate to it. I have always since
I was little. I didn't dream about getting married. I didn't dream about
having this big wedding. I quite honestly thought it was stressful even as a
child, like that seems like a lot. I wanted to be hand Montana.
That's what I wanted. I wanted to be this star, this singer.
I wanted to have an effect on the world. I didn't really know
what that meant, but I wanted to help people heal and I thought that
was going to be through music, and maybe it still will be, But
turns out it was using my voice, through podcasting, through content creation,
through writing. By the way, show up as her my book. You
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I wanted to be in Montana not dreaming about getting married. I want to
get married. I'm interested in it, Like, yeah, I want to
do that, but it's not something I feel like I need to rush in.
And also, I've been with my partner for so long. He's not
going anywhere, like I know, we're fine, Like I'm not in some
sort of rush. And there are people who are in a rush and that
is their big north star and that's beautiful too. I just don't think we
need to compare our life journeys. And so anyway, the reason I'm telling
you this is because right now I'm realizing that I need a lot of alone
time for me to focus on me, on my craft. I know that
once I get married and I have kids, I'm gonna have a lot of
other responsibilities that are gonna take up a lot of my time. That's just
the truth. And right now I have so much I want to birth into
existence. I have so much of myself I still want to develop, and
that requires space. It requires me to be with me. It requires me
to spend time with God and my jewels and my highest self. It requires
not going out and drinking, not going out and being social all the time.
It really requires solitude. And I've been fighting, you know, a
lot with my strength to get through life. That's why I was in my
masculine energy for so much of my life, and that's almost my default in
a lot of ways. When I feel unprotected, it's like masculine shield.
Put it up. I spent so much of my life fighting with my strength,
fighting for people to change, fighting to get invited, fighting to feel
included. I am at the point that I am just so tired of fighting.
And I remember one time I was talking to God and I said,
I'm so tired of fighting, like I don't want to fight anymore. And
God just said, well, then stop. You're the one with your free
will choosing to fight. If you don't want to fight, stop Instead of
fighting with our strength, we need to lead with our spirit, and we
need to honor where we're at. I swear to you, God has been
canceling all of my plans. Every time I make a plan to go to
a social event or whatever it is, it's canceled one hundred percent of the
time. And I'm like, what is going on? What is going on?
I get it now, Okay, I need more time with CC.
I need more time with myself. I need more time to develop me and
develop my my aren't my craft the words I want to give to the world.
I need more time to strengthen my relationship with God. I just need
more of it. I need more space with it. And if you're like
me, and by the way, you know I'm not Beyonce, there's a
reason that five hundred million people aren't listening to this podcast right now. There's
a reason you are, though, it's because you are too like me.
We're resonant with one another, We're in a similar vibration. And if you're
like me, it means you're just a little bit different. And I feel
like I'm about to choke up. You're a little bit different. And I
have to say, I spent so much of my time trying to mold myself
to not be who I am. I've spent so much of my time.
Here comes the nasal here comes the naislinists. I spent so much of my
time trying to like what people my age liked. I spent so much time
trying to be socially included in things that I honestly just don't care about.
I've done this since I was in elementary school, I mean, first grade.
We're talking and I'm just I'm done. I've been done for years,
but even more so now, and in different ways. I mean, I
remember I would join all the sports teams to be with my friends. I
hate sports. I hate sports where it's I would do whatever they wanted to
do because I just wanted to be there. I just wanted to be included.
And now I'm thinking I don't care anymore. I'm just owning it.
I'm different. If you're listening to this, you're different, like welcome to
the club. You are different, Okay, you are You're special okay,
and everyone's special. You're special in a different way, though, you are.
And I think that if we can own the season that we're in or
the person that we are and say yeah, I don't like going out as
a sporting events where there's thousands of people there. I don't like feeling all
that energy all the time. I don't like going out every weekend and drinking.
I don't like doing these things. I rather make celery juice. I
rather do a really cool sound bath. I rather go to yoga. I
rather spend time with God than gossiping. Own that, because when you own
that, and you strengthen your connection with yourself, that loneliness goes away.
And even if it's there, so spend time with it. It's okay.
It's not going to kill you. I used to think that the loneliness would
literally kill me. It won't kill you. It will, however, make
you stronger. And if you were like me and you have those big dreams,
and again, maybe you didn't see Hannah Montana, but you saw something
else and you're like, that's what I want, or you always had a
feeling that you were meant for something big. Chase that align with that,
lean into that. Don't give up on that because everyone else your age is
doing something different. Don't give up on it, because that is betrayal to
your inner child. And it's interesting because I felt so betrayed by all of
my friends for just flat leaving me, But really I was betraying myself for
so long because I was trying to fit in in ways that aren't authentic to
me. And if we're betraying ourself, we're gonna feel that betrayal in our
external reality too. It's so important that we acknowledge who we truly are and
own it. However you show up, whatever you and body, I don't
care if you're out here looking all kinds of crazy. Own it. And
you know what, my partner this morning sent me a really good text,
and he said, rational people do okay things, and irrational people do great
things. People who have irrational belief in what they're doing are those that change
the world. So if you have big dreams, if you have this intention
on your heart that you want to birth something into the world, follow it.
Don't get distracted by what everyone else is doing. Lean into your alone
time, don't get distracted by the external world. Don't get distracted by your
friends or the people you want to be friends with. Don't let that seduce
you. Go after what it is you know you've wanted for your whole entire
life. And I'm telling you, I'm telling you there's a reason that not
ten million people are listening to this because not ten million people are really meant
to change the world in that way. But if you're listening to this,
you are. So what are we learning from loneliness? We're learning that being
alone doesn't equal loneliness. And if we fear being alone, that's actually an
invitation to lean into it. We know that loneliness can't kill us. It's
not, you know, a murderer. It's a energy, it's a feeling,
and if we lean into it now, it will leave us alone later.
What can you do in your alone time to get to know yourself,
to lean into your own personal reality. Things that I did was I experimented
with new ways of being. So I thought I hated reading, but it
turned out I just hated the types of books I was reading. So I
started reading self help and loone so and behold, turns out I loved reading
self help books. So I started to read self help. And you don't
have to read self help. You can read any kind of book. Read
Harry Potter for all I care. But start giving your attention to something outside
of just scrolling on your phone. Because when we're scrolling on our phone and
we see all these lines of social media and it's two one two on my
clock right now. When we see these lines on social media, it can
make us feel like we're missing out. You're not missing out. Most of
the people who are on social media pretending to have a perfect life are miserable.
So don't care about them. Care about you, and refocus on yourself.
Read books. Learn something new, whether it's a language, or maybe
you're reading self help books, or you're learning something new in that way,
you can order pre order show up as her link in bio. Maybe you
are just experimenting with meditation, you're experimenting with a new work plan. I
invite you to find a strain that serves you. Maybe that's working out.
Finding a strain that serves you means you pick something that's kind of difficult to
do, but you do it anyway to show yourself how powerful you are.
So for me, running is something that not enjoyable, but I would do
it anyway to show myself how powerful I am. So maybe it's working out
three days a week or reading that book or learning a new language, And
you're gonna tell yourself, I'm going to pick a strain and I'm gonna do
it anyway, and I'm going to show myself how amazing and cool I am.
Maybe you want to date yourself and just take yourself out to a new
restaurant or to the beach, take a walk on the beach. Go earthing.
That's when you take your bare feet and you walk on planet Earth.
Go sunngazing where you stare at the sunset or the sunrise and you just connect
to the sun's energy. Spend time with yourself. And what we're calling this
is selective solitude. We're choosing to be with ourself. And by the way,
if you are feeling really lonely, date the divine because there are spiritual
beings that are with you twenty four to seven loving ancestors, God, your
higher Self, your angels that are there with you all the time. If
you feel like you don't have support in the three D, if you feel
like you don't have friends and family supporting you, call on your spirit team.
Say spirit guides of highest love, truth and connection, connect to me
now, let me feel your presence in my life. Give me a sign.
And just you wanting to connect with your spirit team is a sign that
they're wanting to connect with you too. And by the way, they're always
wanting to connect with you. But you have free will, so you have
to be the one to connect with them. So date the divine date yourself
hang out with you. You are going to learn so much about yourself that
being with other people could have never talked. You're gonna learn so much about
yourself that forcing yourself to go out drink at the bar could have never taught
you. And I'm not saying to never be social. I'm just saying,
if you're in a season that's more isolated, honor it. I'm saying also
add in time that if you're social, you also have time just with you,
because remember, there may be a season one day when you do get
married and you do have kids, that you're gonna be like, damn,
I wish I had some of that alone time right now, loneliness. What
even is that? I could not fathom it. I always think about that
show Alone, where these experts go into the wilderness all alone, then they
have to survive. And when these people are dropped off in the middle of
nowhere and they're all alone, they are so happy. They're like, finally,
I love this for myself. I can't wait to be all alone and
put myself to the test. You can see this period or this season of
your life simply as an experiment. What am I gonna do with myself?
What am I going to expand within myself? And I was talking with my
shaman the other day, and she was talking to me about how these great
leaders that we know and love, these great speakers, these really successful people,
they all got where they are by spending some time alone with themselves.
They all practiced solitude. And if we're trying to run from that solitude again,
we're just distracting ourselves and delaying our own progress. We are human,
so that means that we get good at what we practice. If we practice
being alone, it's not gonna be as scary. If we practice being with
ourselves, we're gonna get good at being by ourselves. If we practice being
with ourselves, we're gonna get good at being a human being ourself. Especially
if you're wanting to quantum leap into a new identity, you have to practice
being that new identity, for it's a fully man of fest into this three
D and to have that quantum leap. So this alone time is a gift.
It's a gift for you to get to know who you incarnated as.
It's a gift for you to expand and strengthen your gifts that you already have
within yourself. I recently made a TikTok and I was just talking about since
I mentioned gifts, how we are told that our gifts are given to us
simply for other people. And while I think that our gifts have a side
effect of helping other people, I think our gifts are given to us for
ourselves to use when we need them. Think about when you use your gift
the most, maybe it's writing or singing or dancing. We use our gifts
the most when we're suffering, because we're transmuting that lower vibrational energy into art
into creation, and we're transmuting the sadness into power. We are giving gifts,
I really believe, as a vehicle to help us transmute our pain,
as a vehicle to help us transmute our suffering. Our gifts can only be
strengthened if we give them enough time and energy. So if you're choosing you're
having selective solitude like I am in this season, maybe this is for you
to strengthen your gifts and use your gifts so you can heal yourself. It's
not always about other people put yourself back on that pedestal. Selective solitude doesn't
mean that you can't be in a relationship. I'm in a relationship. It
doesn't mean you have to excommunicate everyone in your family. I'm not doing that.
It means that we're intentionally creating more time and space to be with just
our self and our spirit team. To remember that our ascension is not upward,
but in word, to remember that the light is within here, not
out there, that our good vibrational emotions come from within, they cannot just
be sparked from out there. This time is a gift, and if you're
going through it, guess what so am I? This is similar to like
another Dark Knight soul for me, I experiencing intense need of alone time and
self solitude and really getting to know me again and expanding. I love you
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