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Have you ever experienced something that shock
you to your very core, something that

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makes you remember every single little detail
of your surroundings from that moment in time,

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Even years after, I can remember
so vividly the moment I realized something

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was wrong with me. I was
in my junior year of high school,

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sitting in class just like any other
day. I remember the smell of the

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razors and cheap cologne that permeated off
my classmate who sat next to me.

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I remember the scratchy tag of my
T shirt and how I was resisting taking

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it off in the middle of class, just to cut it off. I

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remember what my teacher, Missus Brown, was talking about, the fall of

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Constantinople. My mouth felt dry,
and I kept looking at the clock,

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counting down the minutes until I had
lunch so I could get a soda.

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The sound of a pen clicking behind
me was synchronized with the song that was

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stuck in my head. All those
things were going through my brain at once.

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My adhd mind went a million miles
per hour. When it all came

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down to a crashing halt. When
I felt it at eleven twenty three,

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I felt what I can only describe
as a hand grabbing at the inner lining

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of my stomach. Yet it didn't
necessarily hurt, not at this point.

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That's not why I got so scared. You see, not only do I

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have ADHD, I also have OCD
that manifests itself in the fear of anything

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growing or moving inside me. Even
if I think about the concept of blood

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moving in my body or a heart
that is beating in my chest, I

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have to think of something else.
I've had full blown panic attacks because of

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it. The closest term for this
is tocophobia. That's technically the fear of

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pregnancy. I'm a guy, so
it's not completely accurate, but it's really

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the closest term. I mean,
I also have a huge fear of pregnancy,

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not necessarily of me being pregnant,
but even though I knew I could

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never get pregnant, the thought of
it made me feel sick. I bet

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you can imagine the terror that overcame
me. As I felt something moving inside

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me, I made an audible groan
and grabbed my stomach. The whole class

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turned to look at me. Even
my teacher stopped talking to ask if I

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was okay. I stood up and
started to run to the nurs's office without

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even acknowledging my teacher. My first
thought wasn't thinking that something was actually in

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my body. Even stomach aches and
the feeling of gurgling in my stomach made

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me feel this way before. I
didn't have anything on hand to help with

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the stomach ache. Unfortunately, however, the nurse always did. I sprinted

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across the school, hoping and praying
that my stomach wouldn't make that awful feeling

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again. Before I got there,
I turned the corner into the nurse's office

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with my tennis shoes squeaking in the
process. I saw the school nurse,

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Missus Kennedy, sitting on the couch
in her office reading a magazine. She

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looked up at me with a sweet
smile that quickly turned to worry. Sam.

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What is it? How can I
help? She said, as she

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stood up and hurried over to me, putting her hand over mine with just

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grabbing my stomach tightly. It's it's
my stomach. Something's wrong with my stomach,

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I mumbled with the red face.
She shuffled away over to a large

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medicine ca and she motioned for me
to sit down. She asked me questions

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about my stomach, asking if it
was pain, grumbling, cramps, nausea,

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etc. As she was asking me
what my symptoms were and digging through

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bottles, the feeling happened again.
However, this time it was different.

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It felt like fingers grazing against the
inside of my body. I screamed and

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wrapped my arms around my torso Missus
Kennedy ran over to me to comfort me.

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This seems a lot worse than normal. Maybe we should call your parents,

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she said, as she put her
hand on my back. It felt

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like some days I saw missus Kennedy
more than my teachers. Any small element

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would distract me so badly from class
that I had to go see her,

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sometimes multiple times a day. She
knew at this point when something was really

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wrong. Within about thirty minutes,
both my parents were there with us.

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That may seem fast, but I'm
an only child and my parents are very

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aware of my tendencies. They know
I can spiral and like to be around

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if it happens. They kept asking
me where the pain was. I think

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they assumed by the way I wasn't
responding to their questions, the pain must

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have been really bad. The reality
was that I just didn't know how to

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tell them. What was going on. I got so frustrated after they asked

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me over and over again that I
just yelled at them something is inside me,

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Get it out, Get it out. I left my shirt and was

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ripping at my stomach, leaving rednails, scratches and cuts. My mum and

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dad ran to either side of me
to grab my arms. Missus Kean had

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seen me go pretty crazy, but
this was the worst I've ever gotten in

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front of her. My parents,
however, had seen a similar situation before,

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not exactly like this, but they
didn't skip a beat on trying to

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help me. Sam breathe, sweetie. Just remember everything is in you for

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a reason. It's keeping you alive. Nothing is going to hurt you,

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my mom said softly to me,
trying to calm me down with the words.

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My therapist gave her ice cubes.
Get him ice cubes, she said

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to missus Kennedy. As I started
to hyper ventilate, Missus Kennedy grabbed a

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zip lock bag and started to fill
it with ice cubes. My mom went

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over to her and grabbed her an
ice cube right out of the bag,

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opened up my hand and put the
ice cube in it. This worked in

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the past. To distract me.
I knew that's what she was doing,

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and trust me, I wanted it
to work too. But this was different.

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I kept trying to tell myself that
it was just a different feeling I

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hadn't felt before, that it wasn't
possible something was physically inside my body,

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but I couldn't help it. Everyone
in the room could see that this was

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getting intense. I think they assumed
it was just a mental breakdown and that

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nothing was physically wrong with my body. But I didn't care. I just

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wanted help. My parents got me
into the car, with my mom even

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sitting in the back seat with me, she kept trying to distract me with

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conversation when my mind was only on
that awful feeling in my stomach. We

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pulled up to the er and my
mom guided me in while holding both my

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wrists. If i'll Achoo was walking
me on a leash, but I didn't

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fight it. I knew she was
just trying to stop me from scratching my

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stomach. We walked in and I
spoke to the receptionist. All I said

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was that I had a terrible pain
in my stomach. I didn't want to

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sound too crazy. I just needed
a doctor to look at whatever was going

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on. After giving the receptionist my
name and insurance information, we went to

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sit down. I was sitting in
between my parents, and I could see

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my mom lean back to try and
mouth something to my dad without me seeing.

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I didn't think much of it.
I was way more worried about other

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things. My dad then went up
to the receptionist. He pointed over to

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me, and she looked a little
concerned. I saw her pick up the

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clipboard that I had my information on
it, and she started writing something else

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on it. I asked my dad
what he did, and he just said

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not to worry and that he wanted
to let her know it was urgent.

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No more than ten minutes went by
and I felt a terrible moving sensation.

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I cringed and grabbed my stomach,
immediately followed by not just the feeling of

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a hand grabbing my insides, but
also scratching and pinching. I yelled out

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in pain as the other people in
the waiting room looked at me mortified.

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A doctor and a couple of nurses
came running over to me and helped me

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up, but I couldn't stand up. I was in too much pain.

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They put me in a wheelchair and
started to head for a room. However,

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they didn't take me through the normal, big er doors that went to

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the standard examination rooms. They took
my parents and I through a smaller door

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to the side that I had a
pad lock on it. We walked through

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a white hallway that was very quiet. The doctor and nurses showed us to

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my room and helped me into my
bed. As I was wriggling and wincing,

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I had one parent either side of
me, patiently waiting to stop my

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arms from scratching. The doctor was
trying to ask further questions, but he

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could tell it wasn't going anywhere.
I knew that my dad probably told that

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receptionist about my ozyd tendencies that I
needed to go to the pside cord,

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not just to the standard side of
the er. I couldn't take it any

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more and blurted out that something was
inside my stomach and that it was trying

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to get out. The doctor just
looked at my parents for a reaction,

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and they gave him a sad nod. It was like they warned him that

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this could happen. The doctor didn't
just think I was crazy. My parents

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did too. The doctor took a
deep breath and came up to me.

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I knew I was about to hear
some kind of dumb speech about how this

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was just my O c D and
everything was going to be okay. As

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he came closer to me, I
pulled on my shirt and he gasped.

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Not only was my stomach scratched a
blight crazy, but we saw a movement.

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It looked like when a pregnant woman
can see a baby kicking, but

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this was much stronger. It was
stretching my skin. My parents stood up

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and gasped, while the doctor looked
frantic and unprepared. Damn, damn,

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damn, damn, damn, the
doctor said, as he backed out of

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the room. Hang on, We're
getting this taking care of Just hang tight.

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Seconds later, a nurse came in
to gave me some painkillers. I

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started to feel the pain slip away
with something so much worse started to creep

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in. I heard her voice,
not my own, not some creepy sounding

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creature, but the voice of a
normal sounding man that I'd never heard before.

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But that wasn't the scary part.
The scary part was what he was

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saying to me. Get me out, Get me out, Get me out.

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It started in a normal tone,
but slowly became more urgent and rushed,

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then demanding. The voice would coincide
with a movement inside me. It

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was getting so loud that I was
having a hard time hearing the people around

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me. The doctor came in just
a few minutes after I last saw him.

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He was red and sweaty, like
he'd just run a marathon. He

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told me they needed a zoo,
just a few tests and what was inside

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me? Before taking action. I
was trying so hard to pay attention to

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the words coming out of his mouth, but all I could hear was the

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voice. The voice stopped for just
a second and changed what he was saying.

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Now he was repeating, cut me
out, cut me out, cut

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me out now. I now knew
this thing didn't just want out, but

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it wanted out now. I begged
the doctor to just get it out now,

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but he wouldn't listen. The voice
spoke up again, this is taking

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too long. Don't be afraid.
Get me out yourself. I think it

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could feel me resisting him without realizing
it. I was looking around the room

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for something. It was like I
didn't have control over my head or eyes.

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Anymore. I knew the voice was
looking for a knife, but I

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was trying to ignore the feeling.
I knew there weren't any knives around.

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I was in a very safe place. Just as I had the feeling I

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was safe, it was immediately taken
away. The thought passed through my head

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that my dad probably had a pocket
knife on him. My heart sank.

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I knew this thing could hear my
thoughts. I knew what it would try

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to do. The next thing I
knew. I was on my feet leaping

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for my dad. My body it
is luckily it's in pretty good shape for

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his age, and had no problem
putting me in my place. He got

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on top of me and pinned me
to the ground. All the while I

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could barely hear my mom in the
background yelling at my dad to be careful.

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My dad knew something was going on
and that I just needed to be

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on the ground until I calmed down. My body tried to flail, but

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it wasn't successful. The whole time, the voice in my head now yelling

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and screaming, not saying any distinguishable
words, but just having what felt like

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a tantrum. What made my dad
the most uncomfortable was the kicking feeling coming

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from my stomach. After a couple
of minutes, the voice calmed down and

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I felt in charge of my body
again. My dad slowly got up and

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attempted to help me up, at
this point with an audience of hospital staff

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that looked like they were getting ready
to take me somewhere for more tests.

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Just as I stood up, I
felt the voice take over and I lost

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all sense of my own body.
I felt like a shell of myself.

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My dad gave me a soft,
yet worried smile, and in that instance,

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I grabbed him and reached into his
pocket. My heart sank as I

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felt his pocket knife. The room
started to panic and about five people tried

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to grab it from me. The
last thing I remember is plunging the knife

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into my stomach. I felt a
blinding pain and everything went black. Several

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hours later, I started to wake
up. Everything was extremely blurry and fuzzy.

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I could hear a faint voice telling
me to relax. As the minutes

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passed by, things started to get
a little bit clearer. I looked around

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and saw I was in a large
room with a few other patients. A

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nurse was going up to all the
beds and checking in on them. I

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tried to sit up a bit to
get more comfortable. I moved my hospital

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gown out of the way and saw
a huge scar about six inches across.

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Most of the scar looked very surgical, like what i'd imagine sea section surgery

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would look like, except where I
remember the knife going in. It looked

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like a bunch of extra stitches had
to be added where it went in.

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It also looked pretty bruised. I
can imagine that a dull ten year old

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knife that was harshly shoved into a
body really wouldn't clean cut through and leave

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some damage. The feeling of shock
from looking at my stomach was quickly gone

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when I realized that meant whatever was
in me was now gone. I didn't

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hear the voice, I didn't feel
a hand in my gun anymore. I

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didn't see that vile kicking anymore.
I felt like I could breathe. I

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asked the nurse what they found,
and she looked flush. Ah, that's

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something that you are. Your doctor
will talk to you once you eat something

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and can speak clearly, she said
as she scurried off, looking upset.

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Shortly after that, I was wheeled
into a recovery room and my parents came

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to see me. As they walked
in, they had a very similar look

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on their faces as the nurse did. They looked pale and didn't want to

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look me in the eyes. I
kept asking them questions about what was going

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on, but they said the doctor
needed to discuss it with me and he

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wanted to make sure I wasn't feeling
high from the anesthesia. While we had

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the conversation, the doctor didn't come
and see me for another ten hours,

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which felt strange. And to add
to the strangeness, my parents were taking

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shifts hanging out with me. There
was only overlap when they switched and the

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other parent took over while the other
one left the room. I would understand

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if they weren't both with me for
the whole time. I'm not that needy,

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but they were only both in the
room together for about an hour.

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That was the hour before the doctor
came to my room. Finally, the

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doctor came in to talk to me. When he walked in, the room

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was cold and quiet. It was
evident he didn't feel the same relief I

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was feeling. He seemed awkward,
like he was taking way too long to

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get over to me, He grabbed
a chair and scooted it close to me.

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Listen, Sam, I know this
last twenty four hours has been very

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challenging. I apologize for not explaining
what happened during your surgery sooner, but

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we all needed time to figure it
out and quite frankly, process what happened.

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We feel we have enough information to
let you in on what is going

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on. Silence filled the room.
I felt like no one was brave enough

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to break it, and I asked
with confusion, I think it'll be easier

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if we just show you. The
doctor, along with my parents, helped

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me into a wheelchair and we started
to make a way across the hospital to

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an entirely different section. I couldn't
believe all the things running through my head

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at what we were about to see. It felt like cruel and unusual punishment

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to leave me in anticipation and not
just tell me what I was about to

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see. When I went around the
corner, I couldn't process what I was

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looking at. I thought they were
showing me a large tumor or growth of

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some kind. Why would a tumor
be in a big incubation chamber with tubes

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connected to ivs and machines coming out
of it. As I got closer,

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I started to see human features on
it. It was mostly just a six

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foot lump of flesh, but I
could see a hand sticking out of it.

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It was small, but what made
it creepy because it looked like a

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fully developed man's hand, just small. I could see a patch of hair

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coming out of what I assumed was
its head. It had no discernible facial

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features, just a few teeth scattered
in one section. As I looked at

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it with disgust, coming to terms
with this thing, I was just in

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my body, I had a realization
I wasn't feeling sick at the thought of

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something being in my body. Sure, I was grossed out that this particular

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thing was just in me, with
the thought of bacteria in my body didn't

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make me want to throw up.
I thought about all the blood pomping through

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my veins, and I felt normal. Not only was the voice and kicking

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on, but my OCD was gone
too. It was just this thing trying

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to find its way out for years. As I was staring at the creature,

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the doctor came and put his hand
on my shoulder. We believe this

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is your twin brother. I immediately
looked up on my parents, who looked

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very disturbed and upset. I let
the doctor finish talking. We believe that

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you absorbed him in the womb,
and that he's been living inside you your

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whole life. This is an extremely
rare condition called vetus and fetu. It

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seems he didn't quite have the best
opportunity to develop normally. That's why he

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looks the way he does despite his
appearance. He has all the organs he

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needs to survive. Looks like he's
missing a lung and his gall bladder,

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also a bit of his liver,
but other than that, it looks like

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he will live for at least a
few years. He won't be able to

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leave this room due to him needing
a feeding tube and a few other things

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that his body cannot do on its
own. He needs a lot of support

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just to live. What makes this
situation extremely unique is that your twin is

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still alive despite your body not sustaining
him anymore. Even though we have him

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hugged up to a few ivs and
machines. It is unexplainable how he is

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living outside of your body. I
was in complete shock. I didn't want

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to believe it. I asked my
mom why she never told me I absorbed

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to my twin in the womb,
and she said she had no clue.

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There was never a sign when she
was pregnant with me. He also mentioned

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that sometimes, even in pregnancies,
women will go their whole pregnancy without even

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getting a belly. It's called a
cryptic pregnancy. I've always had a bit

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of a gut, but never anything
big enough to cause suspicion. I guess

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in my case, I had a
fetus feed too, and an experienced similar

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to cryptic pregnancy, even though it
was in my stomach. At least,

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that was the doctor's best guess.
Although it all sounded like bs to me,

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the doctor or my parents kept trying
to explain more and more details to

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me. I don't know why they
didn't slow down a little bit for my

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sake. How could they not tell
I wasn't processing any of this. I

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noticed something while they were trying to
explain things to me. I kept calling

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it. He Now, listen,
I'm not some kind of asshole who won't

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respect someone who wants to be called
a specific pronoun. I've never been that

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kind of person. But this is
where I draw the line. Not just

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that, but this thing had a
name. My parents named it and said

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it was his birthday. While they
told me all this information, he didn't

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look happy about it. It seemed
like they were forced to do all this

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nonsense, and now it was my
turn to be convinced. I could tell

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they were trying to force it.
The doctor told me, despite it not

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having a high probability for a long
life, that we should still try and

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give it all the love it deserves. Of course, the doctor referred to

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it as a he, but I
refuse to. This thing disgusted me.

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This thing tried to kill me and
ruined my quality of life for so long,

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and now, oh, we're going
to treat it like it's some kind

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of prince. No, absolutely not. Luckily, it seemed like it would

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never leave the hospital, but my
parents planned on going to visit it daily,

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visiting it. Are you kidding me? It has no eyes, no

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ears, It's probably miserable, and
has no concept of people even being around

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it. I'm refusing to ever see
this thing again or acknowledge its existence.

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I could get in trouble for even
talking about this. The hospital or anyone

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involved has signed NDAs to not share
any information about this until it officially dies.

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This is because it's a medical anomaly
and the first of its kind.

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They want to do the proper research
and how this all occurred before coming out

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with a statement. I just have
to get this all off my chest.

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I feel like I'm the crazy one
here when I know I'm not. I

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don't care if I get in trouble. I'm scared that the doctors are trying

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to force my parents into giving this
thing a proper life. I think that's

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why it took them so long to
tell me. I think they scared my

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parents into keeping it alive and guilting
them, or even forcing them into being

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its parents. I'm all for every
life being important and all that stuff,

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but I have a feeling my parents
are terrified of this thing, just like

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I am. I'm convinced they gasped
at my parents into believing this thing is

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my brother. If there wasn't any
sign of him while my mom was pregnant

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with me, could this thing be
something else. This all happened about two

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years ago. It's still alive and
they're still researching it. My parents continue

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to visit it despite everythings told me
that I'm probably just struggling with jealousy now

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that I'm not an only child anymore, and so much are my parents's attention

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is on him now. But it's
so much bigger than just jealousy. Since

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this thing showed up and my OCD
is pretty much gone, I've hardly seen

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my parents. I know I'm not
just jealous. There is something more to

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this, I know it. Something
just feels off about this whole thing.

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What is this thing? Where did
it come from? And what does it want