This is the two seventeen Recovery podcast with Corey Winfield. Corey Winfield, Corey
Winfield, Corey, you have a rich person's name, like you should be
a billionaire with the name Winfield. Anyway, call me back, Broll.
It is the first of December twenty twenty three. Names Corey Winfield to seventeen
Recovery podcasts from the North Studio. Today and joining me in the studio is
the one and only fabulous Justin Burke Justin, how are you today? Fabulous?
Also joining me in the studio is one Mitch ol O'Brien. How are
you, sir? I'm doing great. How are the nineteen twenty year olds?
Oh the Yeah, it's been kind of hard trying to find a like
a nineteen twenty year old. Okay, well, you know we can maybe
figure something out out. It hasn't helped you with that yet. They don't.
The age span you can't span that far. You know, I go
up into the older ages. You get to get up into the seventies for
that good stuff, So you can't. You can't span the age that far.
We were talking about and my second ID driver's license when that happened.
We're switching subjects. Now we're talking about nineteen twenty year olds. Now you're
driver's license. I don't even know what you're talking about. It that's how
it all came. Doesn't make sense. I want to transition into the car
today. I don't even know what you're talking about. We had the effects,
no, but yes, welcome to the studio. We'll talk a little
recovery today and how you guys are doing in your recovery. But I wanted
to ask you both a question, and you guys can fight over who wants
to answer it first. But give me a moment that was probably at one
point your worst moment in your entire life. Take your time, think about
it. There's Christmas, but which one? Who's going first? Okay?
Four Christmases Ago? Okay, that's a good movie for Christmases, was it?
Yeah? I've never seen it. Oh you should watch it. Yeah,
I'm not over to the Christmas movie. So four Christmas is a go,
So like this one doesn't count. No, so we're going to be
like right before I got sober. Okay, so twenty eighteen, I think,
mmmm, that's here? Nor there four Christmases Ago. We'll just say
about that Okay. So you're sitting at home and I was, Me and
my buddy went to his family Christmas. Okay, he was like your friend.
Yeah, he was the plug and I was living in his yard in
a camp. Well, explain what the plug is because a lot of people
you're talking about, you're talking about your friend, your friend, and I
use air quotes and you hear plug, and of course you got plugs going
on. A lot of people use plugs during their let's just say intercourse.
Yeah, it's a little bit different, Yeah, you know, so okay,
it's very so a drug dealer, a drug dealer, Okay, so
you're hanging out, you went to your drug dealer's f family's Christmas. Okay,
but you said he was your quotes friend, yeah, okay, and
then that's what happened. We ended up getting kicked out of his family Christmas,
okay, because we're high as fuck, not giving a fuck, okay,
And it was a horrible I remember jumping out on the lake. I
only had like two inches of ice, just because I could do it,
and somehow Jesus saved you. Yeah, right that Sometimes you wonder, Sometimes
I do wonder, like why did he say? Man did so much stupid
things. Yeah, like I can feel the whole ice on the lake flexcene
and stuff. But yeah, we ended up getting kicked out. He got
into an argument with his nephew and he was like, oh, you're just
getting baby. I'm like always he's doing the same exact thing I'm doing,
and here you guys are just baby and caddling some more. Yeah, it's
probably like one of the worst experiences I ever had using was getting kicked out
on family Christmas. Sorry, I guess I should have been better on my
question. I didn't mean like, what was the worst time using you ever
had? I just met like in your whole life, like a real bad
moment. But that's yours, Mitch. There's been so many, but I
have one that stands out, and it is right before I got sober so
early January, because it would have been in the new year of twenty twenty
one, okay, and I had promised so many people I was actually in
a waiting list se get into the IOPs that I that I used to to
get sober. And I had promised so many people that I wasn't going to
use again, I wasn't gonna drink again, and I was standing at the
liquor store, which back then I could barely stay and anyway, But when
it came to, you know, getting what I needed from a liquor store,
all of a sudden, miracles were happening, you know, and standing
in line waiting with you know what I needed from there, and I had
like this duality going on in my head, like this is I need this?
I got this, there's And then I had like this other me in
my head going you told everybody you weren't going to do this. You promised
people that you were going to do this. You weren't going to do this.
Why are you doing this? Don't do this? And then I walked
up to the counter with a smile on my face and said, hey,
how's it going. They have a good New Year's and got my stuff and
went home and did my thing. Just let a whole bunch of people down.
And that was really a tough one. I felt a lot of the
like I had lost a lot of trust with people, like most of it,
but that one's like really sunk in really hard. So I think that's
the one. Okay, So did you drink that bottle that you got?
Oh? Yeah, yeah, pissed everybody off. So and it wasn't a
bottle, Are you kidding me? Like, yeah, it was a collection
and that was just a I started it back again after I told everybody that
I never went to the liquor store at one bottle, like I've talked about
it on here before, like it was always I only bought fist because you
know, that's not a half galon. But you'd buy three or four of
them at a time. It's not as bad as buying a half gallon.
Yeah, then you'd be a real problem. But the other ones, you
know, but you were saying, there's different reasons because you had to hide
it to get it back in the house and stuff like that, because someone
would have saw you just walking in with a couple of counts and like,
yo, buddy, where are you going with that? Yep? If that's
Adam, If you just heard our bell go off for doing a podcast from
like I said, North Studio, I don't think so, it's the two
seventeen Recovery Center. You Oh it's my wife, Hi, honey, would
you like to be on the podcast today? I can bust out another microphone.
Oh okay, I can't wait to see it. Okay, so it
looks so fabulous. I know. Now we got a seventeen recovery center.
Christmas Tree got the can of canes for it. I think West we got
one or two up there. At least there are some of those spicy ones
off the red hots. It's nice. That's probably some people. At least
you quit sugar. Now, let's just not go there yet. We'll get
into that in a minute, the whole what I'm battling right now. But
so back to this. We were talking about the worst moments of your life,
or like the one of the worst moments, and mine came like five
years ago today. I was sitting in jail. And that trip to jail
wasn't the worst time, I don't think, because I was still under I
was still probably drunk. And it was when I got out of there I
really still thought the cops had set me up. Then I hadn't hadn't drove,
you know, this is all bs, And they wouldn't tell me what
they were charging me with. And I was just like, you can't hold
me no more, and they were like, yeah, we don't care.
And I was like, I haven't even been found guilty. Why you treat
me like a criminal, and they're like, yeah, we don't care,
you know, like we really do need some jail reform, you know,
because Okay, you kill somebody, you RaSE somebody, you know, steal
stuff, Okay, you should probably do some time. But for someone that's
in there for a substitute disorder, you know, there should be some oilar
stuff. And then the people say, yeah, but you can always go
back to, well, he was high or drunk when he did those other
crimes too, Sure you could break that all down. But for someone who
has been I don't know, asking for help, wanting help, they should
get some kind of help. Yeah. No, but anyway, that's a
whole nother thing. But just how they treat people in there, maybe a
different level to it, Like, hey, if you're accused of murder,
you go to level four. If you're accused of this, you go to
that. If you got caught some on the weed, then you need to
go here, you know, like there should be a different level to it.
And that's just my opinion as a professional radio broadcaster. Well, I
think you're right about especially about the people who are asking for help and need
help, because that's part of the story that I just said, was you
know, I was. I was on a waiting list to get into the
program, and I was white knuckling it failing horribly. You know. So
I really think that there's definitely something to that second time I went to jail,
which was I think the fourteenth, fifteenth something like that of December.
Maybe it was seventeenth, I don't know, But anyway, that time was
a little different because when I got out this time, I started drinking again.
Immediately went back to the house. There's half gallon sitting there. What
was I supposed to do? I was in jail for over week. My
booty hurt. It didn't think you're sitting on those cement blocks and stuff.
I didn't even get a pad like it was nothing. Wow, I know.
I didn't get the shower for like four days, like it was.
It was horrible. Man. I had a crowd rock going on and I
had a disinfection case thrown up because they didn't offer me a shower within three
days. Yeah, I don't caring. Baron County. They treat you like
an animal. And then like there's so many people that die in Barren County
jail, and like people don't know about it because they keep it under the
here's some hush money, and a lot of them are minorities or people who
come from the country from a different country, and they don't really publicize it,
so they just hush hush, and people die in there all the time,
and they have to pay a millions. So taxpayers of southwest Michigan,
you're you're paying. That happens everywhere. I mean, we just had one
a couple of years ago and our local jail, but nobody talks about it.
And they're people in there are they're treated in like civil rights are out
the window, human rights out the window. You know, the fact they
make you drink water out of the thing that's right above a toilet when you
when you flush a toilet. You can do an experiment at home if you
like. But turd and feces follow like it flows up in the air.
Yeah. They say that your toothbrush has more poop on it than parts of
your toilet does, just because of that. Not mind, but I close
the lid when I flush the toilet. I think that I have a case
in the local jail here. Toothbrush, the it's it's all one thing.
Yeah, the toilet and the drinking water. You have to flush the toilet
as the turf comes out your butt. That way yoursel don't stink. But
you've never spent really any time in jail though. I have one poop in
jail, one one jail poop. My imagine being in there for months.
Yeah, you'd have to do it more than once. Yeah, I think
Mitchell get beat up in jail. I think he would. Yeah, the
smell alone. Yeah, I almost got beat up by this kid for snoring.
But I was like four times this size, so I mean yeah,
So anyway, so the jail thing to me was one of my worst moments
just in my life, just because I'm like, okay, I'm back in
jail again, Like this sucks. I'm gonna get out Christmas Eve. And
it was a real kind of wake up call. But looking back at it,
that was probably one of the best things ever happened to me, you
know. So, I don't know if I can say that about your guys'
stories, like you're getting kicked out of your drug dealer's mom's Christmas, you
probably wouldn't look back and go, that's the best thing that's ever happened to
me. No, it realized It made me realize what a problem I had
though, because my own family wouldn't even accept me at Christmas time. You
know. That's why I was thankful that I even had that, you know,
and because my addiction was so bad, and then to get kicked out
of a family function that I didn't even belong to, really it was like,
may I really am messing up somewhere? For me, it was the
I look back on it and appreciate how far I've come now, and it
make it's like a preventative memory, going I'm not going back there. That's
not going to happen. Like that was low. I was low, the
lowest in my life mentally. I mean, and I've been around when two
different family members passed away like in the same like seen it happen. And
that was a lower experience for me because because of the mental and emotional just
fight that was happening. How many people I let down in that moment all
right? Then they don't realize that that was the moment that I really let
them down because obviously they didn't know about it until later. But that's when
it hit me. Was then, but I still did it, you know,
And to realize that I was in such a bad place that I was
basically letting the substance drive everything that I did, and it was on the
edge of just dying in general because of my health, you know. So
it's it's really it's it's a really good preventative. You know, if I
ever had after that, through the struggle of early recovery, i'd go back
there and be like, yeah, no, not going back to that.
Hell, not going to happen. Yeah, And you know what's crazy,
at least for Mitch and I justin probably not you so much. But and
I'm not saying this because it's happen to me. I'm just saying this because
it's probably happened too much. But there are people that you probably slept with
that you don't remember their faces or names, but you remember the face of
the guy at the liquor store or the person that was selling you the the
liquor because we I became friends with them. Yeah, I was Facebook friends
with well, damn I didn't need Facebook friends. But like, if I
think about the Fort Smith liquor stores, because there was three of them that
I would well four if I was hitting them too much. I'd drive across
town a little bit further, but I would hit him in a circle,
you know. And Tuesdays I go to this, one, Wednesdays I go
to that, and one Thursdays to go over here, and then I get
my weekend stuff over here on Friday and then so like they didn't know I
had a problem, you know. But I can remember like faces, you
know. I don't remember their names or anything, so I don't have the
issue that you do with not remembering all of it, but but I remember
their faces though. I remember this, and that's crazy because like like those
people I thought were like my friends and I had to like go in there
and impress them or something, you know, like, hey, how's it
going, y'all? Like I'm I'm drinking. I'm the one in the world
that's drinking responsibly today is getting this half gallon, Like I don't know.
This is such a weird thing, which will just being the having the nickname,
like you're the and then they would say the name of the liquor,
here's the here's the crystal Palace guy. We have more in stock because of
you. Yeah, You're like it's like I look back at that, I'm
like that is so bad, so bad. What is Crystal Palace? It
is the one of the it is. I think it's the cheapest vodka that
they sell in Michigan. Wow, I've never seen it. Yeah, that's
what I was asking. Hey, what's that bealance me Crystal Palace? Welcome
back crystals me to come out and tay what Crystal Palace was. It's a
sep is the stuffed that miser's drink, and it's also may any other Christians,
guys, where you're located at located in pin Ta, Ski, mich
appreciates Russia. What's your rates? Oh? Well, I don't want at
the strip now my main Susan. I'm the two seventeen recovery mouse. You
Jo, you clean up dater today for Why didn't you like your ball?
Susan? Oh? That boss so heavy? You bought that for me?
Was that you JJJ because your job was almost gown jested when I got out
last time? Oh yeah, and JJG just too hard for me to say,
so you JJ. But I appreciate the thought of getting me that ball,
But no, it's heavy. It's real heavy. Well maybe you'll grow
up one day if you guys would free me some good like Guinea pig food
stand a mouse, try to find you some nutsis and nuts and berries right
like nuts? Morning came a fed me nuts with their hands that hair eat
these nuts and I did you liked them them faster than your your mouse food.
Oh, Mitch, I'd left something on the mouse wheel that you'd appreciate
running. I was running the nice thing. I know. Little doody came
squirting on my little booty, but it's on the weir I ran on every
about two hours today. Yeah, so I just left that for you because
because we redo the most doodoos in here. You're so winning a match you
want? All right, Well, you guys had a good time. I
just stayed our coming lost your bus on that crystal palace. It was nice,
and let her use my microphone. They had to hold her up.
You know, she's pretty short. Put her back in the cage now.
But yeah, thanks for cleaning that guys. But no, the Crystal palace.
He was joking around recovery guys. What are we doing here? Susan's
about how we show compassion around here. Yeah, you know we did save
up mouse's life. I was gonna kill it second chance, just like us.
But those moments though in our lives when we can look back at and
go wow, like in that moment, it seemed like the worst moment in
our life, and then where we're at now and just look back and go,
hmm, you know, I'm glad that happened, because if that didn't
happen, who knows? You know? So, and we should take better
care of her than our plants. Are you talking about Susan? You're back
on that, Yeah, okay, so if you know that right after we
finished cleaning Susan's okay, we're talking about that. Yeah, I watered all
of the plants, all of them. Any other bragging montage you guys want
to get together and put up like sure, okay, but three is just
get it out whatever it does, no matter what we're talking about, you
just jump right in and start talking. Okay. So the point I'm trying
to make is if somebody's listening right now, in that moment, whether like
my life sucks, can't get any worse? Yeah it can, then it
does. But to be in recovery to actually change and to live a better
life. And I don't I don't mean better life like you're a better person
because you're in recovery. But your life naturally gets better with everything that that
you do and you put the effort in and you see the results, and
you know, like, that's what people need to realize. And I've told
the story about my younger brother. You know, he was supposed to get
married to this woman. And I can talk about my younger brother because he
doesn't listen to the podcast and until he does, and I'll stop talking about
him. But the story, though, is for real, and I had
a conversation with him. He's married now to a wonderful woman and they have
three beautiful daughters, and he would not want to change a thing about his
life. But he almost didn't have this life, you know, if things
would have worked out. You know, he was pretty much left at the
altar and just thought, oh my god, what had happened, you know,
and then they ended up going their separate ways. But if that and
if you would have asked him like that day after the marriage didn't happen,
he would have been like, this is the worst day of my life.
This is the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. And yeah,
it was, but it was also the best thing that's ever happened to
him. So just because things aren't going your way, and then that's a
tough one to come back from him sometimes. But just because things aren't going
your way doesn't mean that that's the worst thing it's ever happened to you.
You know, everything happens for a reason, and God was looking out for
my little brother. That's how I look at it, because it was it
would have been horrible, like and I told him, I was like,
why are you married? Why are you trying to marry that chick? Like,
don't And I even told him, I was like, look if your
marriage, when your marriage doesn't last a year, you have to pay me
back for the tucks that I rented, Like I was making list of everything.
And then it was too much to just throw back in his face.
But I wanted to. I want to, like here, but I was
like, nah, I don't do that. It's kind of dick move.
Like he's in a lot of pain right now. But yeah, example though,
that's a pretty good one. And I use a lot when I talk
at truma centers because it's just like, look like this might be the worst
place that you think you've ever been in, you know, but yes,
it can't get worse, but this might be the best thing that's ever happened
to you. I like to, especially when we're over at like across the
street, I like to congratulate people and thank them for being there, because,
like I think, there's a lot of gloom and doom and the stigma
is still so high. It's like, no, you're doing an amazing thing
for you right now. Of course, across the street is not this Crystal
Palace strip club. No, no, I wasn't sure. Yeah, No,
across the street is Diction Treatment Services. They have a detac center across
the street from us, which works out great because we work well with the
Diction Treatment Services and one thing we do is take people to them from treatment,
which is detox, so works that well. We work, We work
really great with them, and we load those people over there, and yeah,
it's it's something to see those people like we used to I used to
talk and I used to bring you guys a couple times, justin probably more
than anybody else, to the men's facility that they had. And it's a
much different conversation that you're having with people while they're in detox. You know,
some people go to detox and they think that is treatment, and in
a way it's it's a form of treatment, but it's not like you're going
through a whole treatment program. But some people think it is, you know,
and that's because they're not educated with the whole process of it all.
It doesn't mean that they don't know. Well, I mean, it does
mean they don't know, but they're just not there's anything wrong with them.
I'm just saying. But it's a different type of thing. You know,
someone's who's been in a treatment center for two three weeks, they're feeling better,
they're trying to move forward with what they got going on, where someone
they're still in a haze, you know, and they're still trying to like
wake up some of them. And it's just much different conversation. But it's
a good one for you know, telling my brother's story and about that and
how things and justin I think you were kind of in a similar situation sort
of not too long ago when I kind of had to bring that up and
you were with me, and I think that was the last time that we
talked at that treatment center. It was trifling ass hoes. And no,
I didn't add an ass on that. I just it's a a trifling ass
hole. But that was kind of why I was explaining that, because you
were going through some hard times and it's like, look, yeah, it's
hard right now, it's tough, it sucks. You want to call a
hole and die. Yep, but this could be the best thing that's ever
happened to you, And a lot of times it is. You know,
but we want something, and we have expectations of things going this way or
that way, whatever, and they don't happen anything. Even when I was
starting to seventeen recovery, I was trying to like get everything together to we
could get people to and from treatment, and people were telling me how to
do this, and then oh, you got to be a transportation company,
and I'm trying to start and keep getting denied, and I'm like why,
I was gonna be frustrated, But it's because that's not what I was supposed
to be doing. We're not a transportation company. We're a nonprofit and we
help people in early recovery, and that's one of the ways that we help
them. And as you're getting denied, you're helping me become a future employee.
And didn't even realize it or did I. Oh, it was all
a plan from the beginning. It was all a dream, straight up magazine.
What was the start, wrapping Biggie Smalls in my basement? It's another
rap song, wrapping Biggie Smalls in my basement, don't remember anyway, And
that's my breaking montage. I was wrapping Biggie Smalls in my basement. That's
why you were doing that while you're can I have your plan to get justin
as your your employee one day, wrapping it all out on the goal sheet
the whole time, penn down, head down on you know, pending it
out, wrapping in your basement. I did see a good video the other
day on goals, did you Yeah, you should share it with all of
us and email it to us about to just share it with you right now?
Okay. So it was was the guy who was like, make a
goal for where you want to be in a year from now, okay,
which is something I did when I was in treatment. All right, And
then I always tell people to, you know, and then write down how
you're going to get there, you know, like what is a goal that
you want to achieve? And the thing I saw on was this video class
that I started taking, and it's like, okay, if you want to
start a film career, where do you want your film company to be in
one year? It's like, okay, well I would want to make early
start on begin filming whatever or movie that we're going to make, So that
would be my goal. Okay, well how am I going to get there?
You know, it's like, well, I'm going to need to finish
this film school stuff and probably need to buy some more cameras and stuff,
you know whatever, but the fun part yeah, but pretty much okay,
So that's in one year, and then you take it down to okay,
well what I want to do in six months? You know, like you
break it, you go backwards, you go okay, one year, six
months, you know, you can can go three months, and then you
step it back to the point where you get to what do I need to
do today to get to that? You know, and then you know,
okay, the next day you come in, you know like, okay,
here's what I do tomorrow. So you can break it down to like or
maybe just a goal a week, you know, like well I'm going to
watch five of the videos or take five of the courses per week, you
know, Okay, that's what I'm gonna do. So take five courses,
take four courses, and then by the end of that month, I'll be
on track to hit my goal, which will be start on the movie in
one year. That was way more confused than what it needed to be.
Here's no no, I like it because I actually like how you explain it,
like you like tracking it backwards. Yeah, like you have a and
I think before and this is kind of like a before recovery after recovery thing.
Before recovery, whenever anybody ever wanted to talk about goals, it was
like where you want to be in the year, where you want to be
in five years, where you want to be in ten years, And they're
tracking it back in these big chunks. And that's actually a big part of
my recovery story was people would say, you know, you get your life
together and you need to do this, Well, this would have to be
a goal. It'd be too much for me. I just saw Jordan Peterson
talk about this as well. We're talking about cutting it up into smaller things,
which is kind of like what you hear in twelve step programs when one
day at a time, one hour time, one minute at a time.
But tracking it back like that, I think it's it's a lot more helpful.
And I've been noticing that in a lot of different areas where people are
starting to show these paradigm shifts of this is how you can do it,
and if you don't understand it this way, well let's say it this way.
You know, it's just people understand things a little bit more, you
know, a little differently than you know everybody else. And so I like
that that track back on it. You know, one year, six months,
one month. You know, that's neat you can really break it down.
So like if I want to say by May, if I want to
lose forty pounds by May, okay, that's my goal, all right.
So and this would be a little different because weight is as much you can
lose weight really quick, and it depends if you're male, female, you
know, just under your body type or whatever. If if my body doesn't
burn fat as quick as other Like at him, I don't know, he
could eat. Yeah, that guy, he's something. It hangs out every
once in a while. He's been wearing the same The dude's forty. He's
been wearing the same pants since he's in high school, right, They can't
gonna get his high school jeans and put him on. I'm like, dude,
that's ridiculous. Yeah, why do you still own jeans from high school?
That's another question I have for him too, But then little about it.
I'm just holding on habits. But but just the way his body works,
whatever, you know, but not le he'st forty. That shit won't
change. We should start getting breakfast sandwiches every morning. Here you go at
him, he does, he gets his own. He already does that,
does he? Yeah? Got your ass? Like literally got your ass?
But so so okay, So okay, So I want to lose forty pounds,
you know, and six months or whatever. So in three months I
will have in theory, I have lost twenty, you know. So it's
like, okay, well, how am I going to lose twenty? And
then you break it down, it's like, okay, so I want to
lose two pounds a week whatever it is, you know, it's probably not
even that many. But how do I get there? Well, I'm on.
This would be day five of no ice cream. That's what's up?
Congratulations, thank you? It was last night? Was hard? Was it?
Oh? Man? I wanted to just go dive into it and just
it. But I had like a little mini KitKat thing. I have some
TUTSI rolls that you just have ice cream in your house. Yeah, that's
reservations, I know, but just because I can't eat strength, me and
my wife can't the strength that's exercise. Yeah, but it would be a
lot easier if it was gone. And one way to get it gone is
eat it all. But know, but like even this morning though, like
I could tell like a little bit like I'm not as bloated or something or
I don't know, it just seemed like I'm already starting to feel a little
bit, you know. And we got a treadmill. It looks great in
the basement. Nice. Yeah, it looks. It's just there. The
cats, I think, have gotten on it more than I have. But
I need to like turn it on, but I think there's something wrong.
I plugged it in, I got out of the box, put it up,
plugged it in, and then it didn't work. But our house is
so I don't know who wired it. I don't know. They probably don't
have jobs anymore. I don't know. It's so weird, like light switches
do whatever. Man yeah, like three ways. Yeah, but they did
it wrong. So an electrician come out and tell me that, and I
was like, oh, I think it was my uncle Rob. He might
have told me that they did it wrong too, but it's like, okay,
they didn't know how to wire a three way switch or something, he
said. So anyway, whatever it was, it's pain. And I guess
is it a pain to flip a switch? T I don't know. No,
I just really hope that it just works, because it was a bitch
to get downstairs and get it out of the box, and I don't know
how to send it back. So I'm just open it works. You didn't
even have us do any government work to get it down there. No,
I didn't. Impressive. Thanks, you're really showing dedication. Well TV was
a hell a lot bigger. I needed help for that, but but that
But that's what I can do, though, is okay, Well, I'm
gonna sorry. You know, say, if I start walking for twenty minutes
a day and I'm not hitting my goal, well then I can kick that
up, you know, and then I could even Okay, let's let's cut
out the TUTSI rolls. Let's do more protein, you know, there's things
that I can do to get on track. But if I just sit here
and go, yeah, I'm gonna lose forty pounds, I may Okay,
that sounds good. Yeah, But if I don't have anything behind it,
no action, you know. And if you're writing them down, And that
was another thing that guy said, to write it down, it's like something
about it. And he went on to explain, like this Harvard class of
whatever, nineteen something, fifty sixty set whatever it was, out of the
one hundred and five of them, said that they write down their goals,
and then when they came back for their reunion whatever, twenty thirty years from
now, the people that had written down their goals had more money than all
the rest of the one hundred people or whatever in the class put together,
Like all the rest of the ninety five people put all their money together,
and those five still had more money. And we're doing bigger things than those
other people. It's a spiritual practice too. Well, lot of spiritual leaders
will tell you to do that. Yeah, So write it down and track
your goals that way, and then send your donations to two seventeen recovery.
Well it becomes yeah, and it makes sense. But you are writing it
down, so you're kind of like making a deal with your off. When
you write it down, you see it, so yeah, you make it
real s. What's your goal? What's my goal? You have a goal
every week for you to succeeding pretty well in my blog writing and coming out
more with my feelings and in herself. Even if you have to use chat
GPT, that's fine. What's that? What even if you have to use
AI to write your blog, because it's not going to just write a blog
for you. It'll go through and change your words and switch things around.
No, but you have to start with it. If you just threw a
bunch of stuff down. But no, your blogs have gotten a lot better.
Man. Remember you're getting one stars and getting yelled at yeah for two
little lines. I don't know. Whatever Martie said to you is the way
to go, because my way wasn't working because she didn't yell at me.
She talked to me like I was a normal human being. Positive reinforcement.
It's weird how that work. It shouldn't make sure you guys get paid every
couple of weeks, sometimes on time, yeah, sometimes on time early day
days and now lately are we getting paid today, or maybe I was buttering
you up with the whole remember before, and I'm like, what if I
just forgot to pay you people. I was already prepared for it because I
knew one day was coming. I was all right, how we worked on
grants, Yeah, because yeah, that's the thing because we're paid up to
date, you know, so like we don't get reimbursed sometimes till like the
middle of the month now, and it's like, whoa, some other people
weren't all right though? What was that? I won't say, No names,
tender is more important. Oh Adam's on tender. No, that would
be you man. Now he's saying that he's throwing him out there with Susan
back in here. Oh yeah, so I did get you guys a gift
today. Did you guys appreciate it? Yeah? Ye thinks you're welcome.
You want to elaborate on what you got? Not really, some jokes have
to stay inside. I was born with mine, but I'm but I can
identify it now. Yeah, me too. I'm just glad that I mailed
at the Tyrone today too, because Justin got us all the same gift.
He mailed it to Tyrone. Wow. I know he should get it tomorrow.
I'm pretty excited to see his reaction. I told him. I was
like, remember it's from Fabulous. Tyrone calls justin Fabulous. That's awesome.
He mailed it up for him. Yeah, that story. I still love
the fact that I'm the one that kind of started the fabulous thing after you
said it, I got it rolling and now it's actually like your name.
Maybe we should start. We should have done it today because my film career
that I'm starting, I need to make more videos. And I saw that
video and did we talk about it a running in the pocast? I don't
think we did video. Well. I saw a commercial for like some cologne
and I had the dude from Dune in it. Oh yeah, we did
talk about it the other day, but not on a podcast. And it
was just so cheesy. And the dude's like, look in this way and
he looks at the camp at the end and they're like dijianni whatever but whatever
whatever the perfume was or colone, and I'm like, man, he has
a little leather jacket on and like jean jacket. He got the story.
I think he looked at the camera with his little jean jacket on and like
I was like, oh no, I was leather. Sorry, that's an
xbody. They started thinking like maybe we should spoof this, and until morning,
I was like, I want to spoof that, like I want.
All the guys that worked almost all have our own cologne, like commercial.
And that's what I said, is when I when I made the spoof poster
of Justin's fabulous thing, I was going for a perfume ad, like walking
by a perfume counter, you'd see like this poster up there, and and
that's what I had in mind. The Fabulous by Justin Justin Burke. But
he made me look real creepy on the little poster. I just used your
picture picture. We'd have to call you like Burke or something like. That
was the way he positioned me on it, Justin Burkey, It doesn't matter
how you church it up. But then like started thinking like different names for
our fragrance. What it was, Adam, He was like, mine would
just be would or something was just what do we call it? I don't
even remember? Yeah, but what was it all? I don't know?
Mmm, you guys said mine was farts pray, Yeah, for Surete by
Mitch Michelle, Oh, what did you get? What was mine? I
can't remember. I can't even remember. It was crazy. The whole thing
was crazy. Yeah, having fun in our cooveries what it's about. But
we really should start working on those videos. I only remember Adams for some
reason because the other one was mildew and he smelled that you could get in
like a trailer, some trailer backwards trailer and cokaskar. It's like, what
will we be wearing, particle? I want justin. I was wearing the
jean jacket though, because I'm a fingering with Adams. Would you only be
able to find one? Probably just fit at him? Well, yeah,
what am I wearing again? One of your track suits? Bro? He's
about to be a mobster, so he's just like the Sopranos. You pimp
you pimping fabulous. That was my favorite day. It's like it's comfortable when
on that to him. The only days I've worn sweatpants to work. Where
when I was having my little issue there a couple of weeks ago. Oh
when you're shock grow was black. Yeah, it's been kind of hard trying
to find a like a nineteen twenty year old. I'll always change the subject
like that. Some people enjoy my Yeah, people, but yeah, I
don't know. I mean, should he wears track suit? I think you
have to? Yeah, what else you got? You have a couple of
nice buttons button ups that you've worn doing like I think I got one.
I gave most of them away. You bought your track suits and then you
gave away all your other clothes. Yeah, that's really just a burkeet thing
to do. Got you away? I got too fat? They want to
fit me? No more, body shame me some more fabulous. Yeah,
you are catching up to me. Anyway. I'm going the other week.
I got a goal to and I'm working on that goal. That's what we're
talking about. To my new place where I can actually cook and things like
that, I mean cook rom at Now I just would rather wait, fabulous
nice. What if Justin had like I can just picture with that beard just
has kind of a longer beard right now, if you just had like just
shit just glistening, fabulous, just dripping off this beard. They have those
like those things you can put in them that like like light up the Christmas
lights for beards. Just so you probably don't know that about coming to America
and call it like shimmering by fabulous fabulous. Yeah, familous would be your
name, Justin Justin Burke collection Bark. I don't know anything for me that
other than the butt stuff. You guys always talk about Woods Woods next with
disc golf course. Sometimes you have to go the video. Have you walked
right past I walk right past it. It was different. You just don't
there we're seeing it trunks. People think, oh, he's got weapons,
roll to paper. There were weapons, but I was going to paper.
The person I had with me was a felon and I didn't know I couldn't
have my own guns in the trunk. Well, no, you can't.
Like the shot would be like you first see the tree and then that the
camera would cut it behind the tree. There's like squatting. It has to
be likes to be like me from behind, but it's like you can see
me on two sides of a tree, cuts up and just give that face
of like relief, Like it's like the moon Daryn clip. It does happen
in the woods. Bear that's writing it down. So we have to right
now by the time t. J. Miller gets wind of the the video
that we did for him, we're gonna have all this other ship on there
and she needs to be like no with him. The fact guy shop in
the woods, this gather out there. Literally that was oh good stuff.
Tramp Is Friday man there it is no but you gotta laugh and you gotta
have fun in recovery. That's what we do here the most. Yeah.
Say, anyway, we got got some videos to go work on in a
video storyboard. So if anybody had some bear ears, let me know I
need that for a video. Email them at Mitch at two seventeen Recovery Mitchell
Mitchell. I tried to get Mitch, but I was like ten minutes too
late for that. I remember. I was like, damn it. I
mean I could change it with a few clicks. But email Adam. Yeah.
That was great for the grand opening. He had his regular cards.
Though. I'm done with my identity crisis. I'm good now. Thanks for
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