WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.760 --> 00:00:09.439 This is the two seventeen Recovery podcast with Corey Winfield. Corey Winfield, Corey 2 00:00:09.480 --> 00:00:14.519 Winfield, Corey, you have a rich person's name, like you should be 3 00:00:14.560 --> 00:00:18.879 a billionaire with the name Winfield. Anyway, call me back, Broll. 4 00:00:21.960 --> 00:00:27.800 It is the first of December twenty twenty three. Names Corey Winfield to seventeen 5 00:00:28.079 --> 00:00:33.920 Recovery podcasts from the North Studio. Today and joining me in the studio is 6 00:00:33.960 --> 00:00:39.679 the one and only fabulous Justin Burke Justin, how are you today? Fabulous? 7 00:00:39.799 --> 00:00:46.119 Also joining me in the studio is one Mitch ol O'Brien. How are 8 00:00:46.119 --> 00:00:49.600 you, sir? I'm doing great. How are the nineteen twenty year olds? 9 00:00:49.880 --> 00:00:55.439 Oh the Yeah, it's been kind of hard trying to find a like 10 00:00:55.520 --> 00:00:59.320 a nineteen twenty year old. Okay, well, you know we can maybe 11 00:00:59.359 --> 00:01:03.479 figure something out out. It hasn't helped you with that yet. They don't. 12 00:01:03.600 --> 00:01:06.680 The age span you can't span that far. You know, I go 13 00:01:06.760 --> 00:01:08.599 up into the older ages. You get to get up into the seventies for 14 00:01:08.719 --> 00:01:12.200 that good stuff, So you can't. You can't span the age that far. 15 00:01:14.319 --> 00:01:21.359 We were talking about and my second ID driver's license when that happened. 16 00:01:23.120 --> 00:01:25.840 We're switching subjects. Now we're talking about nineteen twenty year olds. Now you're 17 00:01:26.159 --> 00:01:27.519 driver's license. I don't even know what you're talking about. It that's how 18 00:01:27.560 --> 00:01:30.799 it all came. Doesn't make sense. I want to transition into the car 19 00:01:32.480 --> 00:01:37.760 today. I don't even know what you're talking about. We had the effects, 20 00:01:38.239 --> 00:01:40.560 no, but yes, welcome to the studio. We'll talk a little 21 00:01:40.560 --> 00:01:44.840 recovery today and how you guys are doing in your recovery. But I wanted 22 00:01:44.840 --> 00:01:49.200 to ask you both a question, and you guys can fight over who wants 23 00:01:49.239 --> 00:01:53.840 to answer it first. But give me a moment that was probably at one 24 00:01:53.879 --> 00:02:01.599 point your worst moment in your entire life. Take your time, think about 25 00:02:01.640 --> 00:02:07.280 it. There's Christmas, but which one? Who's going first? Okay? 26 00:02:07.599 --> 00:02:10.439 Four Christmases Ago? Okay, that's a good movie for Christmases, was it? 27 00:02:10.560 --> 00:02:14.719 Yeah? I've never seen it. Oh you should watch it. Yeah, 28 00:02:15.639 --> 00:02:17.439 I'm not over to the Christmas movie. So four Christmas is a go, 29 00:02:17.680 --> 00:02:22.240 So like this one doesn't count. No, so we're going to be 30 00:02:22.360 --> 00:02:25.919 like right before I got sober. Okay, so twenty eighteen, I think, 31 00:02:27.719 --> 00:02:30.400 mmmm, that's here? Nor there four Christmases Ago. We'll just say 32 00:02:30.680 --> 00:02:37.960 about that Okay. So you're sitting at home and I was, Me and 33 00:02:38.000 --> 00:02:45.080 my buddy went to his family Christmas. Okay, he was like your friend. 34 00:02:45.240 --> 00:02:49.560 Yeah, he was the plug and I was living in his yard in 35 00:02:49.599 --> 00:02:52.159 a camp. Well, explain what the plug is because a lot of people 36 00:02:52.280 --> 00:02:54.319 you're talking about, you're talking about your friend, your friend, and I 37 00:02:54.400 --> 00:02:58.639 use air quotes and you hear plug, and of course you got plugs going 38 00:02:58.680 --> 00:03:04.919 on. A lot of people use plugs during their let's just say intercourse. 39 00:03:05.240 --> 00:03:07.599 Yeah, it's a little bit different, Yeah, you know, so okay, 40 00:03:07.800 --> 00:03:12.400 it's very so a drug dealer, a drug dealer, Okay, so 41 00:03:12.439 --> 00:03:17.280 you're hanging out, you went to your drug dealer's f family's Christmas. Okay, 42 00:03:17.280 --> 00:03:21.680 but you said he was your quotes friend, yeah, okay, and 43 00:03:21.680 --> 00:03:27.599 then that's what happened. We ended up getting kicked out of his family Christmas, 44 00:03:28.000 --> 00:03:31.439 okay, because we're high as fuck, not giving a fuck, okay, 45 00:03:31.599 --> 00:03:37.159 And it was a horrible I remember jumping out on the lake. I 46 00:03:37.240 --> 00:03:42.280 only had like two inches of ice, just because I could do it, 47 00:03:42.919 --> 00:03:46.680 and somehow Jesus saved you. Yeah, right that Sometimes you wonder, Sometimes 48 00:03:46.759 --> 00:03:50.520 I do wonder, like why did he say? Man did so much stupid 49 00:03:50.520 --> 00:03:53.960 things. Yeah, like I can feel the whole ice on the lake flexcene 50 00:03:53.960 --> 00:03:55.960 and stuff. But yeah, we ended up getting kicked out. He got 51 00:03:57.000 --> 00:04:00.199 into an argument with his nephew and he was like, oh, you're just 52 00:04:00.199 --> 00:04:03.439 getting baby. I'm like always he's doing the same exact thing I'm doing, 53 00:04:03.560 --> 00:04:09.599 and here you guys are just baby and caddling some more. Yeah, it's 54 00:04:09.639 --> 00:04:13.360 probably like one of the worst experiences I ever had using was getting kicked out 55 00:04:13.400 --> 00:04:15.959 on family Christmas. Sorry, I guess I should have been better on my 56 00:04:16.040 --> 00:04:19.199 question. I didn't mean like, what was the worst time using you ever 57 00:04:19.240 --> 00:04:21.720 had? I just met like in your whole life, like a real bad 58 00:04:21.839 --> 00:04:28.800 moment. But that's yours, Mitch. There's been so many, but I 59 00:04:28.839 --> 00:04:32.360 have one that stands out, and it is right before I got sober so 60 00:04:33.480 --> 00:04:38.759 early January, because it would have been in the new year of twenty twenty 61 00:04:38.800 --> 00:04:44.560 one, okay, and I had promised so many people I was actually in 62 00:04:44.600 --> 00:04:48.000 a waiting list se get into the IOPs that I that I used to to 63 00:04:48.040 --> 00:04:51.319 get sober. And I had promised so many people that I wasn't going to 64 00:04:51.439 --> 00:04:57.399 use again, I wasn't gonna drink again, and I was standing at the 65 00:04:57.439 --> 00:05:00.199 liquor store, which back then I could barely stay and anyway, But when 66 00:05:00.199 --> 00:05:03.040 it came to, you know, getting what I needed from a liquor store, 67 00:05:03.319 --> 00:05:09.480 all of a sudden, miracles were happening, you know, and standing 68 00:05:09.519 --> 00:05:13.959 in line waiting with you know what I needed from there, and I had 69 00:05:14.000 --> 00:05:16.240 like this duality going on in my head, like this is I need this? 70 00:05:16.439 --> 00:05:19.360 I got this, there's And then I had like this other me in 71 00:05:19.399 --> 00:05:23.920 my head going you told everybody you weren't going to do this. You promised 72 00:05:24.000 --> 00:05:26.959 people that you were going to do this. You weren't going to do this. 73 00:05:27.639 --> 00:05:30.160 Why are you doing this? Don't do this? And then I walked 74 00:05:30.199 --> 00:05:33.240 up to the counter with a smile on my face and said, hey, 75 00:05:33.240 --> 00:05:38.560 how's it going. They have a good New Year's and got my stuff and 76 00:05:38.800 --> 00:05:42.759 went home and did my thing. Just let a whole bunch of people down. 77 00:05:43.120 --> 00:05:46.560 And that was really a tough one. I felt a lot of the 78 00:05:47.600 --> 00:05:50.120 like I had lost a lot of trust with people, like most of it, 79 00:05:50.680 --> 00:05:56.879 but that one's like really sunk in really hard. So I think that's 80 00:05:56.920 --> 00:06:00.000 the one. Okay, So did you drink that bottle that you got? 81 00:06:00.120 --> 00:06:03.759 Oh? Yeah, yeah, pissed everybody off. So and it wasn't a 82 00:06:03.879 --> 00:06:06.759 bottle, Are you kidding me? Like, yeah, it was a collection 83 00:06:06.800 --> 00:06:12.079 and that was just a I started it back again after I told everybody that 84 00:06:12.160 --> 00:06:15.040 I never went to the liquor store at one bottle, like I've talked about 85 00:06:15.040 --> 00:06:16.600 it on here before, like it was always I only bought fist because you 86 00:06:16.639 --> 00:06:19.160 know, that's not a half galon. But you'd buy three or four of 87 00:06:19.240 --> 00:06:23.480 them at a time. It's not as bad as buying a half gallon. 88 00:06:23.839 --> 00:06:26.120 Yeah, then you'd be a real problem. But the other ones, you 89 00:06:26.160 --> 00:06:29.120 know, but you were saying, there's different reasons because you had to hide 90 00:06:29.160 --> 00:06:31.600 it to get it back in the house and stuff like that, because someone 91 00:06:31.639 --> 00:06:35.000 would have saw you just walking in with a couple of counts and like, 92 00:06:35.079 --> 00:06:39.800 yo, buddy, where are you going with that? Yep? If that's 93 00:06:39.839 --> 00:06:44.040 Adam, If you just heard our bell go off for doing a podcast from 94 00:06:44.079 --> 00:06:46.439 like I said, North Studio, I don't think so, it's the two 95 00:06:46.439 --> 00:06:51.160 seventeen Recovery Center. You Oh it's my wife, Hi, honey, would 96 00:06:51.160 --> 00:06:58.480 you like to be on the podcast today? I can bust out another microphone. 97 00:06:58.720 --> 00:07:01.560 Oh okay, I can't wait to see it. Okay, so it 98 00:07:01.560 --> 00:07:05.639 looks so fabulous. I know. Now we got a seventeen recovery center. 99 00:07:05.800 --> 00:07:12.480 Christmas Tree got the can of canes for it. I think West we got 100 00:07:12.480 --> 00:07:15.639 one or two up there. At least there are some of those spicy ones 101 00:07:15.639 --> 00:07:19.600 off the red hots. It's nice. That's probably some people. At least 102 00:07:19.600 --> 00:07:24.879 you quit sugar. Now, let's just not go there yet. We'll get 103 00:07:24.879 --> 00:07:27.480 into that in a minute, the whole what I'm battling right now. But 104 00:07:27.879 --> 00:07:32.040 so back to this. We were talking about the worst moments of your life, 105 00:07:32.160 --> 00:07:38.199 or like the one of the worst moments, and mine came like five 106 00:07:38.279 --> 00:07:42.399 years ago today. I was sitting in jail. And that trip to jail 107 00:07:42.480 --> 00:07:45.720 wasn't the worst time, I don't think, because I was still under I 108 00:07:45.759 --> 00:07:54.120 was still probably drunk. And it was when I got out of there I 109 00:07:54.160 --> 00:07:57.480 really still thought the cops had set me up. Then I hadn't hadn't drove, 110 00:07:57.600 --> 00:08:00.120 you know, this is all bs, And they wouldn't tell me what 111 00:08:00.120 --> 00:08:01.920 they were charging me with. And I was just like, you can't hold 112 00:08:01.959 --> 00:08:05.079 me no more, and they were like, yeah, we don't care. 113 00:08:05.279 --> 00:08:07.399 And I was like, I haven't even been found guilty. Why you treat 114 00:08:07.439 --> 00:08:09.759 me like a criminal, and they're like, yeah, we don't care, 115 00:08:11.480 --> 00:08:16.560 you know, like we really do need some jail reform, you know, 116 00:08:16.600 --> 00:08:20.279 because Okay, you kill somebody, you RaSE somebody, you know, steal 117 00:08:20.319 --> 00:08:24.160 stuff, Okay, you should probably do some time. But for someone that's 118 00:08:24.199 --> 00:08:28.360 in there for a substitute disorder, you know, there should be some oilar 119 00:08:28.399 --> 00:08:31.120 stuff. And then the people say, yeah, but you can always go 120 00:08:31.240 --> 00:08:33.480 back to, well, he was high or drunk when he did those other 121 00:08:33.519 --> 00:08:37.799 crimes too, Sure you could break that all down. But for someone who 122 00:08:37.559 --> 00:08:41.720 has been I don't know, asking for help, wanting help, they should 123 00:08:41.720 --> 00:08:45.480 get some kind of help. Yeah. No, but anyway, that's a 124 00:08:45.480 --> 00:08:50.120 whole nother thing. But just how they treat people in there, maybe a 125 00:08:50.120 --> 00:08:52.440 different level to it, Like, hey, if you're accused of murder, 126 00:08:52.480 --> 00:08:56.080 you go to level four. If you're accused of this, you go to 127 00:08:56.159 --> 00:08:58.440 that. If you got caught some on the weed, then you need to 128 00:08:58.480 --> 00:09:03.279 go here, you know, like there should be a different level to it. 129 00:09:03.279 --> 00:09:07.240 And that's just my opinion as a professional radio broadcaster. Well, I 130 00:09:07.240 --> 00:09:09.440 think you're right about especially about the people who are asking for help and need 131 00:09:09.480 --> 00:09:13.919 help, because that's part of the story that I just said, was you 132 00:09:13.960 --> 00:09:16.240 know, I was. I was on a waiting list to get into the 133 00:09:16.320 --> 00:09:22.159 program, and I was white knuckling it failing horribly. You know. So 134 00:09:22.399 --> 00:09:28.200 I really think that there's definitely something to that second time I went to jail, 135 00:09:28.919 --> 00:09:35.080 which was I think the fourteenth, fifteenth something like that of December. 136 00:09:37.039 --> 00:09:41.840 Maybe it was seventeenth, I don't know, But anyway, that time was 137 00:09:41.840 --> 00:09:46.759 a little different because when I got out this time, I started drinking again. 138 00:09:46.159 --> 00:09:50.840 Immediately went back to the house. There's half gallon sitting there. What 139 00:09:50.919 --> 00:09:52.919 was I supposed to do? I was in jail for over week. My 140 00:09:52.960 --> 00:09:58.120 booty hurt. It didn't think you're sitting on those cement blocks and stuff. 141 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:01.960 I didn't even get a pad like it was nothing. Wow, I know. 142 00:10:03.440 --> 00:10:05.440 I didn't get the shower for like four days, like it was. 143 00:10:05.480 --> 00:10:09.960 It was horrible. Man. I had a crowd rock going on and I 144 00:10:09.000 --> 00:10:13.320 had a disinfection case thrown up because they didn't offer me a shower within three 145 00:10:13.399 --> 00:10:18.279 days. Yeah, I don't caring. Baron County. They treat you like 146 00:10:18.279 --> 00:10:20.240 an animal. And then like there's so many people that die in Barren County 147 00:10:20.360 --> 00:10:24.159 jail, and like people don't know about it because they keep it under the 148 00:10:24.360 --> 00:10:30.360 here's some hush money, and a lot of them are minorities or people who 149 00:10:30.480 --> 00:10:35.519 come from the country from a different country, and they don't really publicize it, 150 00:10:35.559 --> 00:10:37.759 so they just hush hush, and people die in there all the time, 151 00:10:37.799 --> 00:10:41.240 and they have to pay a millions. So taxpayers of southwest Michigan, 152 00:10:41.639 --> 00:10:46.639 you're you're paying. That happens everywhere. I mean, we just had one 153 00:10:46.799 --> 00:10:50.759 a couple of years ago and our local jail, but nobody talks about it. 154 00:10:52.120 --> 00:10:56.480 And they're people in there are they're treated in like civil rights are out 155 00:10:56.480 --> 00:11:00.240 the window, human rights out the window. You know, the fact they 156 00:11:00.279 --> 00:11:03.399 make you drink water out of the thing that's right above a toilet when you 157 00:11:03.440 --> 00:11:05.559 when you flush a toilet. You can do an experiment at home if you 158 00:11:05.759 --> 00:11:09.960 like. But turd and feces follow like it flows up in the air. 159 00:11:11.559 --> 00:11:15.480 Yeah. They say that your toothbrush has more poop on it than parts of 160 00:11:15.480 --> 00:11:18.320 your toilet does, just because of that. Not mind, but I close 161 00:11:18.399 --> 00:11:22.519 the lid when I flush the toilet. I think that I have a case 162 00:11:22.799 --> 00:11:28.399 in the local jail here. Toothbrush, the it's it's all one thing. 163 00:11:28.879 --> 00:11:35.720 Yeah, the toilet and the drinking water. You have to flush the toilet 164 00:11:35.799 --> 00:11:39.320 as the turf comes out your butt. That way yoursel don't stink. But 165 00:11:39.399 --> 00:11:43.720 you've never spent really any time in jail though. I have one poop in 166 00:11:43.799 --> 00:11:50.039 jail, one one jail poop. My imagine being in there for months. 167 00:11:50.879 --> 00:11:54.840 Yeah, you'd have to do it more than once. Yeah, I think 168 00:11:54.919 --> 00:11:58.519 Mitchell get beat up in jail. I think he would. Yeah, the 169 00:11:58.600 --> 00:12:01.759 smell alone. Yeah, I almost got beat up by this kid for snoring. 170 00:12:01.799 --> 00:12:05.480 But I was like four times this size, so I mean yeah, 171 00:12:05.600 --> 00:12:13.039 So anyway, so the jail thing to me was one of my worst moments 172 00:12:13.120 --> 00:12:15.159 just in my life, just because I'm like, okay, I'm back in 173 00:12:15.240 --> 00:12:18.759 jail again, Like this sucks. I'm gonna get out Christmas Eve. And 174 00:12:20.320 --> 00:12:24.679 it was a real kind of wake up call. But looking back at it, 175 00:12:24.960 --> 00:12:26.960 that was probably one of the best things ever happened to me, you 176 00:12:28.000 --> 00:12:31.279 know. So, I don't know if I can say that about your guys' 177 00:12:31.320 --> 00:12:37.120 stories, like you're getting kicked out of your drug dealer's mom's Christmas, you 178 00:12:37.120 --> 00:12:39.679 probably wouldn't look back and go, that's the best thing that's ever happened to 179 00:12:39.679 --> 00:12:43.960 me. No, it realized It made me realize what a problem I had 180 00:12:45.000 --> 00:12:48.039 though, because my own family wouldn't even accept me at Christmas time. You 181 00:12:48.039 --> 00:12:52.240 know. That's why I was thankful that I even had that, you know, 182 00:12:52.360 --> 00:12:56.799 and because my addiction was so bad, and then to get kicked out 183 00:12:56.799 --> 00:13:01.159 of a family function that I didn't even belong to, really it was like, 184 00:13:03.399 --> 00:13:09.600 may I really am messing up somewhere? For me, it was the 185 00:13:11.320 --> 00:13:15.600 I look back on it and appreciate how far I've come now, and it 186 00:13:16.080 --> 00:13:22.639 make it's like a preventative memory, going I'm not going back there. That's 187 00:13:22.679 --> 00:13:24.879 not going to happen. Like that was low. I was low, the 188 00:13:24.919 --> 00:13:31.600 lowest in my life mentally. I mean, and I've been around when two 189 00:13:31.639 --> 00:13:37.720 different family members passed away like in the same like seen it happen. And 190 00:13:37.360 --> 00:13:43.200 that was a lower experience for me because because of the mental and emotional just 191 00:13:43.440 --> 00:13:48.679 fight that was happening. How many people I let down in that moment all 192 00:13:48.879 --> 00:13:52.639 right? Then they don't realize that that was the moment that I really let 193 00:13:52.679 --> 00:13:56.399 them down because obviously they didn't know about it until later. But that's when 194 00:13:56.440 --> 00:14:00.720 it hit me. Was then, but I still did it, you know, 195 00:14:01.039 --> 00:14:03.720 And to realize that I was in such a bad place that I was 196 00:14:03.759 --> 00:14:07.840 basically letting the substance drive everything that I did, and it was on the 197 00:14:07.960 --> 00:14:13.799 edge of just dying in general because of my health, you know. So 198 00:14:13.840 --> 00:14:16.759 it's it's really it's it's a really good preventative. You know, if I 199 00:14:16.799 --> 00:14:22.720 ever had after that, through the struggle of early recovery, i'd go back 200 00:14:22.759 --> 00:14:24.320 there and be like, yeah, no, not going back to that. 201 00:14:24.399 --> 00:14:28.440 Hell, not going to happen. Yeah, And you know what's crazy, 202 00:14:28.320 --> 00:14:33.159 at least for Mitch and I justin probably not you so much. But and 203 00:14:33.200 --> 00:14:35.759 I'm not saying this because it's happen to me. I'm just saying this because 204 00:14:35.759 --> 00:14:39.440 it's probably happened too much. But there are people that you probably slept with 205 00:14:39.519 --> 00:14:45.000 that you don't remember their faces or names, but you remember the face of 206 00:14:45.039 --> 00:14:48.960 the guy at the liquor store or the person that was selling you the the 207 00:14:48.960 --> 00:14:54.120 liquor because we I became friends with them. Yeah, I was Facebook friends 208 00:14:54.120 --> 00:14:56.960 with well, damn I didn't need Facebook friends. But like, if I 209 00:14:56.960 --> 00:15:00.440 think about the Fort Smith liquor stores, because there was three of them that 210 00:15:00.480 --> 00:15:03.200 I would well four if I was hitting them too much. I'd drive across 211 00:15:03.240 --> 00:15:05.799 town a little bit further, but I would hit him in a circle, 212 00:15:05.960 --> 00:15:09.159 you know. And Tuesdays I go to this, one, Wednesdays I go 213 00:15:09.200 --> 00:15:11.080 to that, and one Thursdays to go over here, and then I get 214 00:15:11.080 --> 00:15:13.679 my weekend stuff over here on Friday and then so like they didn't know I 215 00:15:13.679 --> 00:15:18.799 had a problem, you know. But I can remember like faces, you 216 00:15:18.840 --> 00:15:20.879 know. I don't remember their names or anything, so I don't have the 217 00:15:22.000 --> 00:15:26.600 issue that you do with not remembering all of it, but but I remember 218 00:15:26.639 --> 00:15:31.120 their faces though. I remember this, and that's crazy because like like those 219 00:15:31.159 --> 00:15:35.039 people I thought were like my friends and I had to like go in there 220 00:15:35.039 --> 00:15:37.399 and impress them or something, you know, like, hey, how's it 221 00:15:37.480 --> 00:15:39.399 going, y'all? Like I'm I'm drinking. I'm the one in the world 222 00:15:39.480 --> 00:15:45.919 that's drinking responsibly today is getting this half gallon, Like I don't know. 223 00:15:45.960 --> 00:15:48.879 This is such a weird thing, which will just being the having the nickname, 224 00:15:48.960 --> 00:15:52.159 like you're the and then they would say the name of the liquor, 225 00:15:52.799 --> 00:15:58.320 here's the here's the crystal Palace guy. We have more in stock because of 226 00:15:58.360 --> 00:16:03.000 you. Yeah, You're like it's like I look back at that, I'm 227 00:16:03.000 --> 00:16:11.600 like that is so bad, so bad. What is Crystal Palace? It 228 00:16:11.720 --> 00:16:15.039 is the one of the it is. I think it's the cheapest vodka that 229 00:16:15.120 --> 00:16:18.960 they sell in Michigan. Wow, I've never seen it. Yeah, that's 230 00:16:18.960 --> 00:16:26.919 what I was asking. Hey, what's that bealance me Crystal Palace? Welcome 231 00:16:26.919 --> 00:16:34.919 back crystals me to come out and tay what Crystal Palace was. It's a 232 00:16:36.039 --> 00:16:45.000 sep is the stuffed that miser's drink, and it's also may any other Christians, 233 00:16:45.120 --> 00:16:51.919 guys, where you're located at located in pin Ta, Ski, mich 234 00:16:56.399 --> 00:17:03.839 appreciates Russia. What's your rates? Oh? Well, I don't want at 235 00:17:03.880 --> 00:17:11.680 the strip now my main Susan. I'm the two seventeen recovery mouse. You 236 00:17:12.079 --> 00:17:21.119 Jo, you clean up dater today for Why didn't you like your ball? 237 00:17:21.240 --> 00:17:26.960 Susan? Oh? That boss so heavy? You bought that for me? 238 00:17:26.160 --> 00:17:37.119 Was that you JJJ because your job was almost gown jested when I got out 239 00:17:37.200 --> 00:17:45.839 last time? Oh yeah, and JJG just too hard for me to say, 240 00:17:45.880 --> 00:17:52.079 so you JJ. But I appreciate the thought of getting me that ball, 241 00:17:52.160 --> 00:17:59.440 But no, it's heavy. It's real heavy. Well maybe you'll grow 242 00:17:59.519 --> 00:18:03.599 up one day if you guys would free me some good like Guinea pig food 243 00:18:03.880 --> 00:18:12.759 stand a mouse, try to find you some nutsis and nuts and berries right 244 00:18:12.880 --> 00:18:19.519 like nuts? Morning came a fed me nuts with their hands that hair eat 245 00:18:19.599 --> 00:18:26.519 these nuts and I did you liked them them faster than your your mouse food. 246 00:18:26.839 --> 00:18:30.960 Oh, Mitch, I'd left something on the mouse wheel that you'd appreciate 247 00:18:32.440 --> 00:18:36.279 running. I was running the nice thing. I know. Little doody came 248 00:18:36.400 --> 00:18:41.640 squirting on my little booty, but it's on the weir I ran on every 249 00:18:41.640 --> 00:18:49.440 about two hours today. Yeah, so I just left that for you because 250 00:18:49.880 --> 00:18:57.799 because we redo the most doodoos in here. You're so winning a match you 251 00:18:59.000 --> 00:19:04.400 want? All right, Well, you guys had a good time. I 252 00:19:04.559 --> 00:19:12.640 just stayed our coming lost your bus on that crystal palace. It was nice, 253 00:19:12.759 --> 00:19:17.119 and let her use my microphone. They had to hold her up. 254 00:19:17.200 --> 00:19:19.039 You know, she's pretty short. Put her back in the cage now. 255 00:19:19.240 --> 00:19:22.480 But yeah, thanks for cleaning that guys. But no, the Crystal palace. 256 00:19:25.079 --> 00:19:30.119 He was joking around recovery guys. What are we doing here? Susan's 257 00:19:30.160 --> 00:19:33.519 about how we show compassion around here. Yeah, you know we did save 258 00:19:33.599 --> 00:19:37.559 up mouse's life. I was gonna kill it second chance, just like us. 259 00:19:37.559 --> 00:19:41.039 But those moments though in our lives when we can look back at and 260 00:19:41.039 --> 00:19:45.200 go wow, like in that moment, it seemed like the worst moment in 261 00:19:45.200 --> 00:19:47.880 our life, and then where we're at now and just look back and go, 262 00:19:48.440 --> 00:19:52.480 hmm, you know, I'm glad that happened, because if that didn't 263 00:19:52.519 --> 00:19:56.680 happen, who knows? You know? So, and we should take better 264 00:19:56.720 --> 00:20:00.039 care of her than our plants. Are you talking about Susan? You're back 265 00:20:00.039 --> 00:20:06.359 on that, Yeah, okay, so if you know that right after we 266 00:20:06.440 --> 00:20:11.039 finished cleaning Susan's okay, we're talking about that. Yeah, I watered all 267 00:20:11.119 --> 00:20:15.119 of the plants, all of them. Any other bragging montage you guys want 268 00:20:15.160 --> 00:20:23.240 to get together and put up like sure, okay, but three is just 269 00:20:23.279 --> 00:20:26.759 get it out whatever it does, no matter what we're talking about, you 270 00:20:26.839 --> 00:20:33.720 just jump right in and start talking. Okay. So the point I'm trying 271 00:20:33.759 --> 00:20:36.359 to make is if somebody's listening right now, in that moment, whether like 272 00:20:36.519 --> 00:20:40.720 my life sucks, can't get any worse? Yeah it can, then it 273 00:20:40.759 --> 00:20:45.599 does. But to be in recovery to actually change and to live a better 274 00:20:45.640 --> 00:20:48.319 life. And I don't I don't mean better life like you're a better person 275 00:20:48.400 --> 00:20:52.759 because you're in recovery. But your life naturally gets better with everything that that 276 00:20:52.839 --> 00:20:56.279 you do and you put the effort in and you see the results, and 277 00:20:57.480 --> 00:21:02.200 you know, like, that's what people need to realize. And I've told 278 00:21:02.240 --> 00:21:04.160 the story about my younger brother. You know, he was supposed to get 279 00:21:04.200 --> 00:21:07.480 married to this woman. And I can talk about my younger brother because he 280 00:21:07.519 --> 00:21:11.799 doesn't listen to the podcast and until he does, and I'll stop talking about 281 00:21:11.880 --> 00:21:14.480 him. But the story, though, is for real, and I had 282 00:21:14.480 --> 00:21:18.759 a conversation with him. He's married now to a wonderful woman and they have 283 00:21:19.000 --> 00:21:22.440 three beautiful daughters, and he would not want to change a thing about his 284 00:21:22.480 --> 00:21:26.839 life. But he almost didn't have this life, you know, if things 285 00:21:26.839 --> 00:21:29.720 would have worked out. You know, he was pretty much left at the 286 00:21:29.759 --> 00:21:33.359 altar and just thought, oh my god, what had happened, you know, 287 00:21:33.440 --> 00:21:40.039 and then they ended up going their separate ways. But if that and 288 00:21:40.079 --> 00:21:42.440 if you would have asked him like that day after the marriage didn't happen, 289 00:21:44.359 --> 00:21:45.400 he would have been like, this is the worst day of my life. 290 00:21:45.480 --> 00:21:48.960 This is the worst thing that could have ever happened to me. And yeah, 291 00:21:49.039 --> 00:21:52.000 it was, but it was also the best thing that's ever happened to 292 00:21:52.079 --> 00:21:56.319 him. So just because things aren't going your way, and then that's a 293 00:21:56.319 --> 00:22:00.000 tough one to come back from him sometimes. But just because things aren't going 294 00:22:00.039 --> 00:22:03.599 your way doesn't mean that that's the worst thing it's ever happened to you. 295 00:22:03.599 --> 00:22:07.279 You know, everything happens for a reason, and God was looking out for 296 00:22:07.359 --> 00:22:10.400 my little brother. That's how I look at it, because it was it 297 00:22:10.440 --> 00:22:11.799 would have been horrible, like and I told him, I was like, 298 00:22:11.839 --> 00:22:14.599 why are you married? Why are you trying to marry that chick? Like, 299 00:22:15.960 --> 00:22:18.640 don't And I even told him, I was like, look if your 300 00:22:18.640 --> 00:22:21.279 marriage, when your marriage doesn't last a year, you have to pay me 301 00:22:21.319 --> 00:22:25.559 back for the tucks that I rented, Like I was making list of everything. 302 00:22:25.839 --> 00:22:27.000 And then it was too much to just throw back in his face. 303 00:22:27.039 --> 00:22:30.960 But I wanted to. I want to, like here, but I was 304 00:22:30.960 --> 00:22:32.640 like, nah, I don't do that. It's kind of dick move. 305 00:22:32.759 --> 00:22:37.519 Like he's in a lot of pain right now. But yeah, example though, 306 00:22:37.559 --> 00:22:40.400 that's a pretty good one. And I use a lot when I talk 307 00:22:40.400 --> 00:22:42.440 at truma centers because it's just like, look like this might be the worst 308 00:22:42.480 --> 00:22:45.640 place that you think you've ever been in, you know, but yes, 309 00:22:45.920 --> 00:22:49.319 it can't get worse, but this might be the best thing that's ever happened 310 00:22:49.359 --> 00:22:53.119 to you. I like to, especially when we're over at like across the 311 00:22:53.119 --> 00:22:59.759 street, I like to congratulate people and thank them for being there, because, 312 00:22:59.839 --> 00:23:03.400 like I think, there's a lot of gloom and doom and the stigma 313 00:23:03.480 --> 00:23:07.039 is still so high. It's like, no, you're doing an amazing thing 314 00:23:07.079 --> 00:23:11.680 for you right now. Of course, across the street is not this Crystal 315 00:23:11.720 --> 00:23:15.359 Palace strip club. No, no, I wasn't sure. Yeah, No, 316 00:23:15.480 --> 00:23:18.440 across the street is Diction Treatment Services. They have a detac center across 317 00:23:18.480 --> 00:23:22.920 the street from us, which works out great because we work well with the 318 00:23:22.039 --> 00:23:26.160 Diction Treatment Services and one thing we do is take people to them from treatment, 319 00:23:26.240 --> 00:23:29.720 which is detox, so works that well. We work, We work 320 00:23:29.839 --> 00:23:33.599 really great with them, and we load those people over there, and yeah, 321 00:23:33.839 --> 00:23:37.279 it's it's something to see those people like we used to I used to 322 00:23:37.319 --> 00:23:38.920 talk and I used to bring you guys a couple times, justin probably more 323 00:23:38.920 --> 00:23:45.279 than anybody else, to the men's facility that they had. And it's a 324 00:23:45.400 --> 00:23:48.160 much different conversation that you're having with people while they're in detox. You know, 325 00:23:48.200 --> 00:23:52.000 some people go to detox and they think that is treatment, and in 326 00:23:52.039 --> 00:23:53.920 a way it's it's a form of treatment, but it's not like you're going 327 00:23:55.000 --> 00:23:57.319 through a whole treatment program. But some people think it is, you know, 328 00:23:57.400 --> 00:24:00.880 and that's because they're not educated with the whole process of it all. 329 00:24:00.880 --> 00:24:03.079 It doesn't mean that they don't know. Well, I mean, it does 330 00:24:03.240 --> 00:24:07.200 mean they don't know, but they're just not there's anything wrong with them. 331 00:24:07.240 --> 00:24:08.960 I'm just saying. But it's a different type of thing. You know, 332 00:24:10.039 --> 00:24:12.799 someone's who's been in a treatment center for two three weeks, they're feeling better, 333 00:24:12.799 --> 00:24:15.519 they're trying to move forward with what they got going on, where someone 334 00:24:17.279 --> 00:24:19.160 they're still in a haze, you know, and they're still trying to like 335 00:24:21.000 --> 00:24:26.599 wake up some of them. And it's just much different conversation. But it's 336 00:24:26.640 --> 00:24:30.160 a good one for you know, telling my brother's story and about that and 337 00:24:30.240 --> 00:24:34.440 how things and justin I think you were kind of in a similar situation sort 338 00:24:34.440 --> 00:24:37.640 of not too long ago when I kind of had to bring that up and 339 00:24:37.680 --> 00:24:40.799 you were with me, and I think that was the last time that we 340 00:24:40.839 --> 00:24:45.519 talked at that treatment center. It was trifling ass hoes. And no, 341 00:24:45.680 --> 00:24:48.680 I didn't add an ass on that. I just it's a a trifling ass 342 00:24:48.680 --> 00:24:53.079 hole. But that was kind of why I was explaining that, because you 343 00:24:53.119 --> 00:24:56.000 were going through some hard times and it's like, look, yeah, it's 344 00:24:56.000 --> 00:24:59.599 hard right now, it's tough, it sucks. You want to call a 345 00:24:59.599 --> 00:25:03.039 hole and die. Yep, but this could be the best thing that's ever 346 00:25:03.079 --> 00:25:06.680 happened to you, And a lot of times it is. You know, 347 00:25:06.759 --> 00:25:10.200 but we want something, and we have expectations of things going this way or 348 00:25:10.200 --> 00:25:12.759 that way, whatever, and they don't happen anything. Even when I was 349 00:25:12.759 --> 00:25:15.720 starting to seventeen recovery, I was trying to like get everything together to we 350 00:25:15.759 --> 00:25:19.079 could get people to and from treatment, and people were telling me how to 351 00:25:19.079 --> 00:25:22.880 do this, and then oh, you got to be a transportation company, 352 00:25:22.880 --> 00:25:25.160 and I'm trying to start and keep getting denied, and I'm like why, 353 00:25:26.119 --> 00:25:27.799 I was gonna be frustrated, But it's because that's not what I was supposed 354 00:25:27.799 --> 00:25:32.519 to be doing. We're not a transportation company. We're a nonprofit and we 355 00:25:32.640 --> 00:25:36.400 help people in early recovery, and that's one of the ways that we help 356 00:25:36.480 --> 00:25:41.039 them. And as you're getting denied, you're helping me become a future employee. 357 00:25:41.079 --> 00:25:52.920 And didn't even realize it or did I. Oh, it was all 358 00:25:52.119 --> 00:25:57.599 a plan from the beginning. It was all a dream, straight up magazine. 359 00:25:57.640 --> 00:26:03.920 What was the start, wrapping Biggie Smalls in my basement? It's another 360 00:26:04.000 --> 00:26:11.240 rap song, wrapping Biggie Smalls in my basement, don't remember anyway, And 361 00:26:11.400 --> 00:26:19.319 that's my breaking montage. I was wrapping Biggie Smalls in my basement. That's 362 00:26:19.319 --> 00:26:23.759 why you were doing that while you're can I have your plan to get justin 363 00:26:23.839 --> 00:26:30.319 as your your employee one day, wrapping it all out on the goal sheet 364 00:26:30.400 --> 00:26:33.599 the whole time, penn down, head down on you know, pending it 365 00:26:33.640 --> 00:26:37.480 out, wrapping in your basement. I did see a good video the other 366 00:26:37.559 --> 00:26:41.680 day on goals, did you Yeah, you should share it with all of 367 00:26:41.759 --> 00:26:45.799 us and email it to us about to just share it with you right now? 368 00:26:45.839 --> 00:26:49.319 Okay. So it was was the guy who was like, make a 369 00:26:49.359 --> 00:26:53.119 goal for where you want to be in a year from now, okay, 370 00:26:55.200 --> 00:26:57.599 which is something I did when I was in treatment. All right, And 371 00:26:57.640 --> 00:27:00.440 then I always tell people to, you know, and then write down how 372 00:27:00.480 --> 00:27:04.000 you're going to get there, you know, like what is a goal that 373 00:27:04.039 --> 00:27:08.960 you want to achieve? And the thing I saw on was this video class 374 00:27:10.000 --> 00:27:11.160 that I started taking, and it's like, okay, if you want to 375 00:27:11.200 --> 00:27:15.799 start a film career, where do you want your film company to be in 376 00:27:15.799 --> 00:27:19.480 one year? It's like, okay, well I would want to make early 377 00:27:19.680 --> 00:27:26.720 start on begin filming whatever or movie that we're going to make, So that 378 00:27:26.759 --> 00:27:29.720 would be my goal. Okay, well how am I going to get there? 379 00:27:29.920 --> 00:27:30.559 You know, it's like, well, I'm going to need to finish 380 00:27:30.559 --> 00:27:36.960 this film school stuff and probably need to buy some more cameras and stuff, 381 00:27:37.680 --> 00:27:40.319 you know whatever, but the fun part yeah, but pretty much okay, 382 00:27:40.319 --> 00:27:42.079 So that's in one year, and then you take it down to okay, 383 00:27:42.119 --> 00:27:45.960 well what I want to do in six months? You know, like you 384 00:27:47.000 --> 00:27:49.119 break it, you go backwards, you go okay, one year, six 385 00:27:49.160 --> 00:27:52.359 months, you know, you can can go three months, and then you 386 00:27:52.359 --> 00:27:56.000 step it back to the point where you get to what do I need to 387 00:27:56.039 --> 00:28:00.160 do today to get to that? You know, and then you know, 388 00:28:00.200 --> 00:28:03.119 okay, the next day you come in, you know like, okay, 389 00:28:03.160 --> 00:28:04.599 here's what I do tomorrow. So you can break it down to like or 390 00:28:04.599 --> 00:28:07.440 maybe just a goal a week, you know, like well I'm going to 391 00:28:07.519 --> 00:28:11.319 watch five of the videos or take five of the courses per week, you 392 00:28:11.319 --> 00:28:14.200 know, Okay, that's what I'm gonna do. So take five courses, 393 00:28:14.240 --> 00:28:17.160 take four courses, and then by the end of that month, I'll be 394 00:28:17.200 --> 00:28:18.880 on track to hit my goal, which will be start on the movie in 395 00:28:18.920 --> 00:28:22.599 one year. That was way more confused than what it needed to be. 396 00:28:22.720 --> 00:28:29.279 Here's no no, I like it because I actually like how you explain it, 397 00:28:29.279 --> 00:28:30.920 like you like tracking it backwards. Yeah, like you have a and 398 00:28:32.200 --> 00:28:37.160 I think before and this is kind of like a before recovery after recovery thing. 399 00:28:37.240 --> 00:28:41.240 Before recovery, whenever anybody ever wanted to talk about goals, it was 400 00:28:41.279 --> 00:28:42.960 like where you want to be in the year, where you want to be 401 00:28:44.000 --> 00:28:45.079 in five years, where you want to be in ten years, And they're 402 00:28:45.119 --> 00:28:51.559 tracking it back in these big chunks. And that's actually a big part of 403 00:28:51.599 --> 00:28:53.880 my recovery story was people would say, you know, you get your life 404 00:28:53.920 --> 00:28:57.720 together and you need to do this, Well, this would have to be 405 00:28:57.720 --> 00:29:03.559 a goal. It'd be too much for me. I just saw Jordan Peterson 406 00:29:03.039 --> 00:29:07.559 talk about this as well. We're talking about cutting it up into smaller things, 407 00:29:07.920 --> 00:29:10.920 which is kind of like what you hear in twelve step programs when one 408 00:29:11.000 --> 00:29:12.160 day at a time, one hour time, one minute at a time. 409 00:29:12.759 --> 00:29:15.680 But tracking it back like that, I think it's it's a lot more helpful. 410 00:29:15.759 --> 00:29:21.720 And I've been noticing that in a lot of different areas where people are 411 00:29:21.759 --> 00:29:25.680 starting to show these paradigm shifts of this is how you can do it, 412 00:29:25.759 --> 00:29:29.279 and if you don't understand it this way, well let's say it this way. 413 00:29:29.359 --> 00:29:32.799 You know, it's just people understand things a little bit more, you 414 00:29:32.839 --> 00:29:37.200 know, a little differently than you know everybody else. And so I like 415 00:29:37.279 --> 00:29:40.839 that that track back on it. You know, one year, six months, 416 00:29:40.920 --> 00:29:44.359 one month. You know, that's neat you can really break it down. 417 00:29:44.440 --> 00:29:48.680 So like if I want to say by May, if I want to 418 00:29:48.759 --> 00:29:52.319 lose forty pounds by May, okay, that's my goal, all right. 419 00:29:52.400 --> 00:29:56.160 So and this would be a little different because weight is as much you can 420 00:29:56.200 --> 00:30:00.160 lose weight really quick, and it depends if you're male, female, you 421 00:30:00.160 --> 00:30:04.160 know, just under your body type or whatever. If if my body doesn't 422 00:30:06.640 --> 00:30:08.640 burn fat as quick as other Like at him, I don't know, he 423 00:30:08.680 --> 00:30:15.160 could eat. Yeah, that guy, he's something. It hangs out every 424 00:30:15.160 --> 00:30:18.400 once in a while. He's been wearing the same The dude's forty. He's 425 00:30:18.400 --> 00:30:21.079 been wearing the same pants since he's in high school, right, They can't 426 00:30:21.079 --> 00:30:22.119 gonna get his high school jeans and put him on. I'm like, dude, 427 00:30:22.160 --> 00:30:26.880 that's ridiculous. Yeah, why do you still own jeans from high school? 428 00:30:27.039 --> 00:30:30.599 That's another question I have for him too, But then little about it. 429 00:30:30.799 --> 00:30:37.079 I'm just holding on habits. But but just the way his body works, 430 00:30:37.160 --> 00:30:40.240 whatever, you know, but not le he'st forty. That shit won't 431 00:30:40.319 --> 00:30:44.279 change. We should start getting breakfast sandwiches every morning. Here you go at 432 00:30:44.319 --> 00:30:48.279 him, he does, he gets his own. He already does that, 433 00:30:48.920 --> 00:30:53.559 does he? Yeah? Got your ass? Like literally got your ass? 434 00:30:55.400 --> 00:30:59.400 But so so okay, So okay, So I want to lose forty pounds, 435 00:30:59.480 --> 00:31:03.359 you know, and six months or whatever. So in three months I 436 00:31:03.400 --> 00:31:07.519 will have in theory, I have lost twenty, you know. So it's 437 00:31:07.559 --> 00:31:10.920 like, okay, well, how am I going to lose twenty? And 438 00:31:10.960 --> 00:31:12.759 then you break it down, it's like, okay, so I want to 439 00:31:12.799 --> 00:31:15.279 lose two pounds a week whatever it is, you know, it's probably not 440 00:31:15.359 --> 00:31:19.119 even that many. But how do I get there? Well, I'm on. 441 00:31:19.359 --> 00:31:22.519 This would be day five of no ice cream. That's what's up? 442 00:31:22.799 --> 00:31:26.440 Congratulations, thank you? It was last night? Was hard? Was it? 443 00:31:26.720 --> 00:31:30.240 Oh? Man? I wanted to just go dive into it and just 444 00:31:30.440 --> 00:31:36.559 it. But I had like a little mini KitKat thing. I have some 445 00:31:36.799 --> 00:31:41.200 TUTSI rolls that you just have ice cream in your house. Yeah, that's 446 00:31:41.319 --> 00:31:48.079 reservations, I know, but just because I can't eat strength, me and 447 00:31:48.160 --> 00:31:52.039 my wife can't the strength that's exercise. Yeah, but it would be a 448 00:31:52.079 --> 00:31:56.119 lot easier if it was gone. And one way to get it gone is 449 00:31:56.279 --> 00:32:00.720 eat it all. But know, but like even this morning though, like 450 00:32:02.759 --> 00:32:07.400 I could tell like a little bit like I'm not as bloated or something or 451 00:32:07.160 --> 00:32:10.680 I don't know, it just seemed like I'm already starting to feel a little 452 00:32:10.720 --> 00:32:14.440 bit, you know. And we got a treadmill. It looks great in 453 00:32:14.480 --> 00:32:17.279 the basement. Nice. Yeah, it looks. It's just there. The 454 00:32:17.359 --> 00:32:21.880 cats, I think, have gotten on it more than I have. But 455 00:32:22.000 --> 00:32:23.200 I need to like turn it on, but I think there's something wrong. 456 00:32:23.279 --> 00:32:25.640 I plugged it in, I got out of the box, put it up, 457 00:32:27.519 --> 00:32:30.319 plugged it in, and then it didn't work. But our house is 458 00:32:30.400 --> 00:32:34.839 so I don't know who wired it. I don't know. They probably don't 459 00:32:34.839 --> 00:32:37.319 have jobs anymore. I don't know. It's so weird, like light switches 460 00:32:37.480 --> 00:32:43.680 do whatever. Man yeah, like three ways. Yeah, but they did 461 00:32:43.759 --> 00:32:46.200 it wrong. So an electrician come out and tell me that, and I 462 00:32:46.279 --> 00:32:49.319 was like, oh, I think it was my uncle Rob. He might 463 00:32:49.359 --> 00:32:52.759 have told me that they did it wrong too, but it's like, okay, 464 00:32:53.440 --> 00:32:55.839 they didn't know how to wire a three way switch or something, he 465 00:32:55.880 --> 00:33:00.119 said. So anyway, whatever it was, it's pain. And I guess 466 00:33:00.240 --> 00:33:04.240 is it a pain to flip a switch? T I don't know. No, 467 00:33:04.599 --> 00:33:07.599 I just really hope that it just works, because it was a bitch 468 00:33:07.920 --> 00:33:10.720 to get downstairs and get it out of the box, and I don't know 469 00:33:10.799 --> 00:33:14.640 how to send it back. So I'm just open it works. You didn't 470 00:33:14.640 --> 00:33:16.480 even have us do any government work to get it down there. No, 471 00:33:16.680 --> 00:33:22.799 I didn't. Impressive. Thanks, you're really showing dedication. Well TV was 472 00:33:22.880 --> 00:33:29.319 a hell a lot bigger. I needed help for that, but but that 473 00:33:29.480 --> 00:33:31.240 But that's what I can do, though, is okay, Well, I'm 474 00:33:31.240 --> 00:33:35.960 gonna sorry. You know, say, if I start walking for twenty minutes 475 00:33:36.000 --> 00:33:38.279 a day and I'm not hitting my goal, well then I can kick that 476 00:33:38.440 --> 00:33:42.559 up, you know, and then I could even Okay, let's let's cut 477 00:33:42.599 --> 00:33:45.680 out the TUTSI rolls. Let's do more protein, you know, there's things 478 00:33:45.680 --> 00:33:47.799 that I can do to get on track. But if I just sit here 479 00:33:47.880 --> 00:33:57.599 and go, yeah, I'm gonna lose forty pounds, I may Okay, 480 00:33:57.640 --> 00:34:00.720 that sounds good. Yeah, But if I don't have anything behind it, 481 00:34:00.079 --> 00:34:02.240 no action, you know. And if you're writing them down, And that 482 00:34:02.319 --> 00:34:06.920 was another thing that guy said, to write it down, it's like something 483 00:34:06.960 --> 00:34:09.480 about it. And he went on to explain, like this Harvard class of 484 00:34:09.719 --> 00:34:15.679 whatever, nineteen something, fifty sixty set whatever it was, out of the 485 00:34:15.679 --> 00:34:17.159 one hundred and five of them, said that they write down their goals, 486 00:34:17.800 --> 00:34:22.679 and then when they came back for their reunion whatever, twenty thirty years from 487 00:34:22.719 --> 00:34:28.880 now, the people that had written down their goals had more money than all 488 00:34:28.960 --> 00:34:31.800 the rest of the one hundred people or whatever in the class put together, 489 00:34:32.320 --> 00:34:35.840 Like all the rest of the ninety five people put all their money together, 490 00:34:35.960 --> 00:34:38.840 and those five still had more money. And we're doing bigger things than those 491 00:34:38.880 --> 00:34:43.880 other people. It's a spiritual practice too. Well, lot of spiritual leaders 492 00:34:43.920 --> 00:34:46.880 will tell you to do that. Yeah, So write it down and track 493 00:34:46.960 --> 00:34:52.320 your goals that way, and then send your donations to two seventeen recovery. 494 00:34:52.840 --> 00:34:58.239 Well it becomes yeah, and it makes sense. But you are writing it 495 00:34:58.320 --> 00:35:00.400 down, so you're kind of like making a deal with your off. When 496 00:35:00.400 --> 00:35:02.400 you write it down, you see it, so yeah, you make it 497 00:35:02.519 --> 00:35:09.880 real s. What's your goal? What's my goal? You have a goal 498 00:35:09.960 --> 00:35:17.800 every week for you to succeeding pretty well in my blog writing and coming out 499 00:35:17.920 --> 00:35:23.400 more with my feelings and in herself. Even if you have to use chat 500 00:35:23.519 --> 00:35:31.000 GPT, that's fine. What's that? What even if you have to use 501 00:35:31.039 --> 00:35:35.880 AI to write your blog, because it's not going to just write a blog 502 00:35:35.960 --> 00:35:37.920 for you. It'll go through and change your words and switch things around. 503 00:35:38.760 --> 00:35:43.960 No, but you have to start with it. If you just threw a 504 00:35:43.960 --> 00:35:45.039 bunch of stuff down. But no, your blogs have gotten a lot better. 505 00:35:45.119 --> 00:35:52.320 Man. Remember you're getting one stars and getting yelled at yeah for two 506 00:35:52.440 --> 00:35:57.239 little lines. I don't know. Whatever Martie said to you is the way 507 00:35:57.320 --> 00:36:01.599 to go, because my way wasn't working because she didn't yell at me. 508 00:36:01.800 --> 00:36:06.159 She talked to me like I was a normal human being. Positive reinforcement. 509 00:36:06.320 --> 00:36:10.519 It's weird how that work. It shouldn't make sure you guys get paid every 510 00:36:10.559 --> 00:36:16.119 couple of weeks, sometimes on time, yeah, sometimes on time early day 511 00:36:16.199 --> 00:36:22.440 days and now lately are we getting paid today, or maybe I was buttering 512 00:36:22.480 --> 00:36:23.840 you up with the whole remember before, and I'm like, what if I 513 00:36:23.960 --> 00:36:29.559 just forgot to pay you people. I was already prepared for it because I 514 00:36:29.639 --> 00:36:31.920 knew one day was coming. I was all right, how we worked on 515 00:36:32.039 --> 00:36:36.760 grants, Yeah, because yeah, that's the thing because we're paid up to 516 00:36:36.840 --> 00:36:38.559 date, you know, so like we don't get reimbursed sometimes till like the 517 00:36:38.639 --> 00:36:43.199 middle of the month now, and it's like, whoa, some other people 518 00:36:43.280 --> 00:36:47.559 weren't all right though? What was that? I won't say, No names, 519 00:36:50.159 --> 00:36:57.440 tender is more important. Oh Adam's on tender. No, that would 520 00:36:57.480 --> 00:37:06.239 be you man. Now he's saying that he's throwing him out there with Susan 521 00:37:06.320 --> 00:37:13.960 back in here. Oh yeah, so I did get you guys a gift 522 00:37:14.000 --> 00:37:17.840 today. Did you guys appreciate it? Yeah? Ye thinks you're welcome. 523 00:37:20.079 --> 00:37:27.199 You want to elaborate on what you got? Not really, some jokes have 524 00:37:27.280 --> 00:37:37.079 to stay inside. I was born with mine, but I'm but I can 525 00:37:37.159 --> 00:37:42.639 identify it now. Yeah, me too. I'm just glad that I mailed 526 00:37:42.639 --> 00:37:45.719 at the Tyrone today too, because Justin got us all the same gift. 527 00:37:45.679 --> 00:37:50.599 He mailed it to Tyrone. Wow. I know he should get it tomorrow. 528 00:37:50.639 --> 00:37:52.800 I'm pretty excited to see his reaction. I told him. I was 529 00:37:52.800 --> 00:38:00.840 like, remember it's from Fabulous. Tyrone calls justin Fabulous. That's awesome. 530 00:38:00.880 --> 00:38:08.480 He mailed it up for him. Yeah, that story. I still love 531 00:38:08.559 --> 00:38:12.960 the fact that I'm the one that kind of started the fabulous thing after you 532 00:38:13.039 --> 00:38:15.400 said it, I got it rolling and now it's actually like your name. 533 00:38:16.159 --> 00:38:22.719 Maybe we should start. We should have done it today because my film career 534 00:38:22.800 --> 00:38:25.239 that I'm starting, I need to make more videos. And I saw that 535 00:38:25.400 --> 00:38:28.559 video and did we talk about it a running in the pocast? I don't 536 00:38:28.559 --> 00:38:34.760 think we did video. Well. I saw a commercial for like some cologne 537 00:38:34.920 --> 00:38:37.000 and I had the dude from Dune in it. Oh yeah, we did 538 00:38:37.079 --> 00:38:39.599 talk about it the other day, but not on a podcast. And it 539 00:38:39.719 --> 00:38:43.280 was just so cheesy. And the dude's like, look in this way and 540 00:38:43.360 --> 00:38:49.559 he looks at the camp at the end and they're like dijianni whatever but whatever 541 00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:53.079 whatever the perfume was or colone, and I'm like, man, he has 542 00:38:53.119 --> 00:38:59.400 a little leather jacket on and like jean jacket. He got the story. 543 00:38:59.440 --> 00:39:02.280 I think he looked at the camera with his little jean jacket on and like 544 00:39:02.800 --> 00:39:06.079 I was like, oh no, I was leather. Sorry, that's an 545 00:39:06.239 --> 00:39:09.960 xbody. They started thinking like maybe we should spoof this, and until morning, 546 00:39:09.960 --> 00:39:12.480 I was like, I want to spoof that, like I want. 547 00:39:12.519 --> 00:39:16.719 All the guys that worked almost all have our own cologne, like commercial. 548 00:39:17.719 --> 00:39:21.960 And that's what I said, is when I when I made the spoof poster 549 00:39:22.320 --> 00:39:27.000 of Justin's fabulous thing, I was going for a perfume ad, like walking 550 00:39:27.039 --> 00:39:30.519 by a perfume counter, you'd see like this poster up there, and and 551 00:39:30.800 --> 00:39:42.000 that's what I had in mind. The Fabulous by Justin Justin Burke. But 552 00:39:42.119 --> 00:39:45.000 he made me look real creepy on the little poster. I just used your 553 00:39:45.119 --> 00:39:52.360 picture picture. We'd have to call you like Burke or something like. That 554 00:39:52.480 --> 00:40:00.400 was the way he positioned me on it, Justin Burkey, It doesn't matter 555 00:40:00.480 --> 00:40:05.000 how you church it up. But then like started thinking like different names for 556 00:40:05.079 --> 00:40:07.519 our fragrance. What it was, Adam, He was like, mine would 557 00:40:07.559 --> 00:40:14.119 just be would or something was just what do we call it? I don't 558 00:40:14.159 --> 00:40:19.000 even remember? Yeah, but what was it all? I don't know? 559 00:40:20.360 --> 00:40:28.039 Mmm, you guys said mine was farts pray, Yeah, for Surete by 560 00:40:28.239 --> 00:40:36.400 Mitch Michelle, Oh, what did you get? What was mine? I 561 00:40:36.480 --> 00:40:45.840 can't remember. I can't even remember. It was crazy. The whole thing 562 00:40:45.000 --> 00:40:50.559 was crazy. Yeah, having fun in our cooveries what it's about. But 563 00:40:50.719 --> 00:40:53.480 we really should start working on those videos. I only remember Adams for some 564 00:40:53.599 --> 00:41:04.039 reason because the other one was mildew and he smelled that you could get in 565 00:41:04.199 --> 00:41:09.280 like a trailer, some trailer backwards trailer and cokaskar. It's like, what 566 00:41:09.360 --> 00:41:20.719 will we be wearing, particle? I want justin. I was wearing the 567 00:41:20.800 --> 00:41:25.280 jean jacket though, because I'm a fingering with Adams. Would you only be 568 00:41:25.320 --> 00:41:29.239 able to find one? Probably just fit at him? Well, yeah, 569 00:41:30.159 --> 00:41:39.079 what am I wearing again? One of your track suits? Bro? He's 570 00:41:39.079 --> 00:41:43.679 about to be a mobster, so he's just like the Sopranos. You pimp 571 00:41:44.079 --> 00:41:47.400 you pimping fabulous. That was my favorite day. It's like it's comfortable when 572 00:41:47.960 --> 00:41:54.480 on that to him. The only days I've worn sweatpants to work. Where 573 00:41:54.519 --> 00:41:58.960 when I was having my little issue there a couple of weeks ago. Oh 574 00:41:59.039 --> 00:42:01.840 when you're shock grow was black. Yeah, it's been kind of hard trying 575 00:42:01.880 --> 00:42:07.519 to find a like a nineteen twenty year old. I'll always change the subject 576 00:42:07.599 --> 00:42:15.719 like that. Some people enjoy my Yeah, people, but yeah, I 577 00:42:15.719 --> 00:42:17.639 don't know. I mean, should he wears track suit? I think you 578 00:42:17.880 --> 00:42:22.280 have to? Yeah, what else you got? You have a couple of 579 00:42:22.320 --> 00:42:28.400 nice buttons button ups that you've worn doing like I think I got one. 580 00:42:29.559 --> 00:42:34.239 I gave most of them away. You bought your track suits and then you 581 00:42:34.360 --> 00:42:39.280 gave away all your other clothes. Yeah, that's really just a burkeet thing 582 00:42:39.400 --> 00:42:44.760 to do. Got you away? I got too fat? They want to 583 00:42:44.840 --> 00:42:49.039 fit me? No more, body shame me some more fabulous. Yeah, 584 00:42:50.159 --> 00:42:54.760 you are catching up to me. Anyway. I'm going the other week. 585 00:42:57.519 --> 00:43:01.159 I got a goal to and I'm working on that goal. That's what we're 586 00:43:01.199 --> 00:43:06.559 talking about. To my new place where I can actually cook and things like 587 00:43:06.639 --> 00:43:12.639 that, I mean cook rom at Now I just would rather wait, fabulous 588 00:43:13.639 --> 00:43:17.760 nice. What if Justin had like I can just picture with that beard just 589 00:43:17.880 --> 00:43:21.480 has kind of a longer beard right now, if you just had like just 590 00:43:21.519 --> 00:43:27.360 shit just glistening, fabulous, just dripping off this beard. They have those 591 00:43:27.559 --> 00:43:31.079 like those things you can put in them that like like light up the Christmas 592 00:43:31.199 --> 00:43:37.599 lights for beards. Just so you probably don't know that about coming to America 593 00:43:37.800 --> 00:43:44.599 and call it like shimmering by fabulous fabulous. Yeah, familous would be your 594 00:43:44.679 --> 00:43:55.480 name, Justin Justin Burke collection Bark. I don't know anything for me that 595 00:43:55.880 --> 00:44:06.559 other than the butt stuff. You guys always talk about Woods Woods next with 596 00:44:06.800 --> 00:44:15.159 disc golf course. Sometimes you have to go the video. Have you walked 597 00:44:15.320 --> 00:44:23.800 right past I walk right past it. It was different. You just don't 598 00:44:23.880 --> 00:44:28.880 there we're seeing it trunks. People think, oh, he's got weapons, 599 00:44:29.440 --> 00:44:34.599 roll to paper. There were weapons, but I was going to paper. 600 00:44:38.039 --> 00:44:40.440 The person I had with me was a felon and I didn't know I couldn't 601 00:44:40.440 --> 00:44:44.159 have my own guns in the trunk. Well, no, you can't. 602 00:44:44.800 --> 00:44:46.119 Like the shot would be like you first see the tree and then that the 603 00:44:46.199 --> 00:44:52.880 camera would cut it behind the tree. There's like squatting. It has to 604 00:44:52.960 --> 00:44:55.599 be likes to be like me from behind, but it's like you can see 605 00:44:55.639 --> 00:45:02.760 me on two sides of a tree, cuts up and just give that face 606 00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:07.559 of like relief, Like it's like the moon Daryn clip. It does happen 607 00:45:07.639 --> 00:45:36.760 in the woods. Bear that's writing it down. So we have to right 608 00:45:36.840 --> 00:45:42.400 now by the time t. J. Miller gets wind of the the video 609 00:45:42.519 --> 00:45:45.000 that we did for him, we're gonna have all this other ship on there 610 00:45:45.239 --> 00:45:52.280 and she needs to be like no with him. The fact guy shop in 611 00:45:52.320 --> 00:46:05.920 the woods, this gather out there. Literally that was oh good stuff. 612 00:46:07.599 --> 00:46:14.679 Tramp Is Friday man there it is no but you gotta laugh and you gotta 613 00:46:14.679 --> 00:46:16.679 have fun in recovery. That's what we do here the most. Yeah. 614 00:46:17.079 --> 00:46:22.519 Say, anyway, we got got some videos to go work on in a 615 00:46:22.639 --> 00:46:28.199 video storyboard. So if anybody had some bear ears, let me know I 616 00:46:28.679 --> 00:46:32.239 need that for a video. Email them at Mitch at two seventeen Recovery Mitchell 617 00:46:32.480 --> 00:46:36.320 Mitchell. I tried to get Mitch, but I was like ten minutes too 618 00:46:36.400 --> 00:46:39.760 late for that. I remember. I was like, damn it. I 619 00:46:39.880 --> 00:46:50.320 mean I could change it with a few clicks. But email Adam. Yeah. 620 00:46:50.920 --> 00:46:54.599 That was great for the grand opening. He had his regular cards. 621 00:46:54.679 --> 00:47:00.280 Though. I'm done with my identity crisis. I'm good now. Thanks for 622 00:47:00.320 --> 00:47:05.159 listening to seventeen recovery dot com. Read the blogs that justin Mitch and Adam 623 00:47:05.199 --> 00:47:07.960 Wright. Rate them. You can leave a comment if you'd like. But 624 00:47:08.079 --> 00:47:12.519 they're they're getting better. They're pretty good. I like them. Thank you, 625 00:47:12.920 --> 00:47:15.679 Yeah, I appreciate it. Doing great job. Check thus out get 626 00:47:15.719 --> 00:47:20.440 the app as well, App Store, Google play Store. Very easy to 627 00:47:20.480 --> 00:47:23.719 find, I think to seventeen recoveries. Sometimes you gotta put podcasts on it. 628 00:47:23.880 --> 00:47:27.719 I don't really know, but there's links. That's why I say it's 629 00:47:27.719 --> 00:47:30.360 easy at two seventeen recovery dot com and just pluck those and go to the 630 00:47:30.400 --> 00:47:35.519 app store and get it. So appreciate you listening and we'll talk to you 631 00:47:35.719 --> 00:47:40.840 later later bye. 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