WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.800 --> 00:00:05.679 What's up, y'all. Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I'm your 2 00:00:05.679 --> 00:00:23.760 host, Shafsamine dan Yale. You know, it's so crazy, the ebb 3 00:00:23.760 --> 00:00:28.719 and flow of life, like one day could be good as hell, the 4 00:00:28.760 --> 00:00:34.840 next day could be bad as fuck. Shit can change in an instant like 5 00:00:36.759 --> 00:00:39.520 that. Shit is so crazy. I was just on this bitch cheese and 6 00:00:40.200 --> 00:00:45.840 laughing all, you know, and today I was like serious as fuck, 7 00:00:47.039 --> 00:00:59.200 stop fucking playing with me, like totally different attitude. And so that was 8 00:00:59.240 --> 00:01:03.799 just one part of the day. But I'll start off because I actually my 9 00:01:03.920 --> 00:01:10.799 day started off amazing. My day started off amazing. I m I had 10 00:01:10.840 --> 00:01:15.680 my stronger class at ninety five and it was just one person today, but 11 00:01:15.760 --> 00:01:19.519 me and her was in their vibing. Shout out to Chanel. We was 12 00:01:19.560 --> 00:01:23.480 in their vibing. It was a very good class, I was. I 13 00:01:23.560 --> 00:01:27.840 was definitely pushing her to challenge herself and shit like that, and we you 14 00:01:27.879 --> 00:01:30.560 know, just chopped it up afterwards. So it was real cool. I 15 00:01:30.640 --> 00:01:34.319 see she signed up for Wednesday, so she liked, these are times that 16 00:01:34.319 --> 00:01:38.680 I could come in the morning. I'm like cool, betted up. And 17 00:01:38.719 --> 00:01:41.879 then after that, um, I told y'all I was going to go to 18 00:01:41.959 --> 00:01:47.040 that gym. It's a mind, body spirit gym. I absolutely fell in 19 00:01:47.079 --> 00:01:51.200 love with that ship today. M y'all know that I'm a very intentional and 20 00:01:51.359 --> 00:01:59.439 purposeful person. So anybody that you know is driven by their intention and just 21 00:01:59.519 --> 00:02:02.280 you know, as a like a deep meaning and a deep purpose behind what 22 00:02:02.319 --> 00:02:07.280 they do. I love that, and so I went to the gym. 23 00:02:07.919 --> 00:02:12.639 The aesthetics are everything. It really looks like a fucking It looked like a 24 00:02:12.719 --> 00:02:17.199 jungle in that bitch. And the guy that owns it is plant Base and 25 00:02:17.319 --> 00:02:23.520 he lost like, I don't know, over a hundred something pounds. He's 26 00:02:23.520 --> 00:02:28.479 a herbalist and just all into holistic health and all of that. And so 27 00:02:29.240 --> 00:02:34.080 you know, we just did the class or the like the little gym class, 28 00:02:34.120 --> 00:02:37.879 the session or whatever. And he does have a few weights in there, 29 00:02:37.919 --> 00:02:39.800 but it's mostly most of the work that we do is just like full 30 00:02:40.120 --> 00:02:46.599 body workout, just using your own body weight. And what's so crazy about 31 00:02:46.639 --> 00:02:49.400 that is that I actually like workouts like that. Now. I also really 32 00:02:49.439 --> 00:02:52.919 little kickboxing, but I like full body workouts where you just use your own 33 00:02:52.960 --> 00:02:55.759 body weight, and probably because of yoga, because that's all we do in 34 00:02:55.879 --> 00:03:00.919 yoga is use your own body way. And what I also realized today is 35 00:03:01.000 --> 00:03:06.039 that, um, I feel two ways about working out. Like I like 36 00:03:06.159 --> 00:03:09.080 working out depending on what it is. If it's kickboxing cool, I love 37 00:03:09.199 --> 00:03:14.120 that. If it's something like today, like I like work, I like 38 00:03:14.199 --> 00:03:16.039 for working out to be fun and like you know what I'm saying, to 39 00:03:16.120 --> 00:03:19.800 be kind of like in a group setting because it kind of gives me the 40 00:03:19.879 --> 00:03:22.400 motivation. Like just working out at the crib, it's not something that I 41 00:03:22.439 --> 00:03:25.759 want to do, or just going to like a Planet fitness by myself or 42 00:03:25.800 --> 00:03:29.360 something like that's not something that I want to do. That's not enjoyable to 43 00:03:29.400 --> 00:03:36.240 me. And but overall, I don't know. Sometimes I like working out, 44 00:03:36.280 --> 00:03:38.639 but sometimes I don't. But it just depends on the situation. But 45 00:03:40.240 --> 00:03:46.080 what I've noticed is that ever since I started doing yoga, my stamina and 46 00:03:46.199 --> 00:03:51.000 my endurance is through the fucking roof. Like when I used to work out, 47 00:03:51.400 --> 00:03:55.039 I'd be tired as fuck, couldn't keep up. Another big thing was 48 00:03:55.080 --> 00:04:00.759 though I would I would, I wasn't aware of like breathwork and breathing and 49 00:04:00.800 --> 00:04:03.159 how to properly breathe when working out it. So that's something something else that 50 00:04:03.280 --> 00:04:06.719 yoga taught me. But when I tell y'all the endurance and the stamina, 51 00:04:06.919 --> 00:04:12.400 like it's through the roof. And it was so funny because mine he said, 52 00:04:12.400 --> 00:04:14.919 it's a mind, body's spirit gim or whatever. So he was he 53 00:04:15.000 --> 00:04:15.879 kept saying this, and he was like, oh, okay, I see 54 00:04:15.920 --> 00:04:19.519 you like your spirit is strong. And I'm like, hell yeah, I'm 55 00:04:19.519 --> 00:04:21.519 talking to my ship. Well I'm working out, like hell yeah, my 56 00:04:21.560 --> 00:04:26.959 spirit strong. I ain't giving it like and I mean it was a moment. 57 00:04:27.040 --> 00:04:30.560 I had my moments where I was tired after going through you know, 58 00:04:30.759 --> 00:04:34.000 a certain set or whatever. But for the most part, like I wasn't 59 00:04:34.040 --> 00:04:38.240 really tired. I wasn't really you know what I'm saying. Even in yoga, 60 00:04:38.319 --> 00:04:43.319 like the other day when we went hard with in Jamal's class, Jamil 61 00:04:43.519 --> 00:04:48.720 is gonna fucking push you past your fucking limits. Like, um, you 62 00:04:48.720 --> 00:04:51.199 know what I'm saying. He gonna test you, he gonna push you. 63 00:04:51.759 --> 00:04:57.879 And I'm getting to the point where I'm so mentally strong. I'm not. 64 00:04:58.000 --> 00:05:00.480 I'm not giving up. I'm not I'm not pulling out of a pose. 65 00:05:00.680 --> 00:05:05.040 I'm not falling out. I'm not you know what I'm saying like, I'm 66 00:05:05.079 --> 00:05:09.439 holding that shit whatever and saying with working out today when he kept saying, 67 00:05:09.439 --> 00:05:13.319 oh, your spirit strong. And what I've come to realize is that all 68 00:05:13.399 --> 00:05:16.399 the shit that I'd be going through in life has made me strong, like 69 00:05:17.480 --> 00:05:23.000 physically strong, but also mentally strong, spiritually strong. And so when I 70 00:05:23.079 --> 00:05:26.079 work out, that's why I'm able to stay in that ship, That's why 71 00:05:26.120 --> 00:05:29.720 I'm that's why I'm disciplined enough to stay in some ship or keep doing some 72 00:05:29.800 --> 00:05:32.839 shit or keep going through it and pushing myself to the end, because I 73 00:05:33.000 --> 00:05:36.240 just haven't been through too fucking much, you know what I'm saying. So 74 00:05:36.360 --> 00:05:43.879 like, and again, I think that just the adrenaline behind working out or 75 00:05:43.920 --> 00:05:47.759 doing yoga or being able to stick it out in those workouts and shit, 76 00:05:48.120 --> 00:05:50.639 it's what helps me stick it out in real life, even though I'd be 77 00:05:50.639 --> 00:05:55.600 feeling like I'd be breaking the fuck down in real life, but like, 78 00:05:55.839 --> 00:05:59.360 I feel like it just shows in my workouts and then yoga and shit like 79 00:05:59.399 --> 00:06:01.560 that. So I did fucking yoga this morning, and I went to workout. 80 00:06:01.839 --> 00:06:04.720 I thought I was gonna fucking throw up or pass out because I didn't 81 00:06:04.720 --> 00:06:08.759 eat shit. I had ended up againting I went to that place again. 82 00:06:08.800 --> 00:06:13.040 I went to bikes and coffee and got another latte and then that shit kind 83 00:06:13.040 --> 00:06:15.720 of sucked my stomach up today. But after that, I I had to 84 00:06:15.759 --> 00:06:18.959 go straight to the gym after that, and I'm like, damn, I 85 00:06:18.959 --> 00:06:24.040 ain't got nothing on my fucking stomach. So I damn never thought I was 86 00:06:24.040 --> 00:06:26.639 gonna die. But again my spirit was like, bitch, we got this 87 00:06:26.720 --> 00:06:30.040 shit, and I hailed it down. But I sucked that smoothie and that 88 00:06:30.160 --> 00:06:32.279 vety wrap up when I got out of there. Oh my god, bro, 89 00:06:32.560 --> 00:06:36.319 I was like, I'm so funny. I needed some fuel for the 90 00:06:36.360 --> 00:06:42.439 body, so um oh. And then so we did the workout and then 91 00:06:42.480 --> 00:06:46.319 at the end we stretched together collectively as a group, and then he comes 92 00:06:46.319 --> 00:06:49.560 around and he individually stretches everybody out, and I really liked that. And 93 00:06:49.600 --> 00:06:54.319 then also, you know, I ain't gonna put all that out there, 94 00:06:54.319 --> 00:06:57.879 but it's some ship in the works for show for me. And it's just 95 00:06:57.920 --> 00:07:00.720 so funny how the blessings and the opportunities keep presenting themselves. But you know, 96 00:07:00.759 --> 00:07:09.519 I'll keep it busted on that. And and then I was gonna come 97 00:07:09.519 --> 00:07:13.120 on here today because again I said itself. Funny how quick shit can change 98 00:07:13.279 --> 00:07:16.879 in an instant. And I just feel like today's message is just that, 99 00:07:18.920 --> 00:07:24.879 you know, you got to say fuck it, fuck them and keep it 100 00:07:24.959 --> 00:07:28.800 moving, you know what I'm saying. And I hate to say it like 101 00:07:28.879 --> 00:07:39.279 that, but for real, it's just like, people are very selfish. 102 00:07:39.560 --> 00:07:46.399 People are very selfish. Okay on my fantasiou shit, if you don't want 103 00:07:46.439 --> 00:07:50.560 me, then don't talk to me. Go ahead and free and sell. 104 00:07:51.079 --> 00:07:54.480 You know what I'm saying. People will be wanting to move a certain way. 105 00:07:54.560 --> 00:07:57.600 People will be you know, and people will be needing time to get 106 00:07:57.639 --> 00:08:00.959 their selves together. People will need, people be need and time to heal, 107 00:08:01.600 --> 00:08:03.959 because that'd be the thing. People really be out here hurt and going 108 00:08:05.040 --> 00:08:07.240 through shit, and then you be out here hurting other people. You all 109 00:08:07.319 --> 00:08:11.240 here hurt and bleeding. Now you over here bleeding on me. You know 110 00:08:11.279 --> 00:08:15.160 what I'm saying, So handle your ship, Stop putting me in the middle 111 00:08:15.199 --> 00:08:18.879 of your ship. Stop making me be collateral damage in your fucking story. 112 00:08:20.079 --> 00:08:24.480 You know what I'm saying. But yeah, people are just super selfish. 113 00:08:24.519 --> 00:08:30.240 And I would what I'll never understand about me. And it's like, but 114 00:08:30.399 --> 00:08:33.159 again, this is why your standards have to be high as a woman. 115 00:08:33.159 --> 00:08:35.679 That's why you gotta have boundaries in place, because people are going to take 116 00:08:35.679 --> 00:08:41.639 advantage of you every fucking time if you let them. My thing is as 117 00:08:41.639 --> 00:08:46.320 a person, if you know that you're not capable to give somebody something, 118 00:08:46.440 --> 00:08:50.919 or if you're not able to reciprocate the energy or the love or whatever it 119 00:08:50.960 --> 00:08:54.279 is that they're giving, why do you want to waste their time? Why 120 00:08:54.279 --> 00:08:56.120 do you want to have your cake and eat it too? I mean, 121 00:08:56.200 --> 00:08:58.679 I mean, I guess I know why. Who the fuck don't want to 122 00:08:58.679 --> 00:09:01.519 have that cake and eat it? NIGGI? You don't want to just have 123 00:09:01.600 --> 00:09:03.720 a slice to cake in front of your face? You want that shit. 124 00:09:05.320 --> 00:09:09.360 But it's just like it's so crazy because I've been on here lately just talking 125 00:09:09.399 --> 00:09:13.200 about my intuition and how in tune I am, which I am, I 126 00:09:13.240 --> 00:09:16.080 absolutely am, And this is how I've gotten to this point that I'm at 127 00:09:16.120 --> 00:09:20.120 today is because I've been following my intuition. I've been listening to it. 128 00:09:22.320 --> 00:09:26.639 But it's also kind of unfortunate at times because it's like I'll be knowing, 129 00:09:26.960 --> 00:09:31.279 you know what I'm saying. I'll be knowing and one thing that I did 130 00:09:31.360 --> 00:09:33.919 think about today and I told this to like my home. I told this 131 00:09:33.960 --> 00:09:39.200 to two people today and I was like, you know, one thing that 132 00:09:39.240 --> 00:09:41.200 I had, I think I'm kind of say it. This is yesterday or 133 00:09:41.240 --> 00:09:46.039 the other day or whatever. One thing that I think I did say this 134 00:09:46.120 --> 00:09:48.919 on here. I said that one thing that I do hate asking God or 135 00:09:48.960 --> 00:09:54.080 the most higher whatever is to reveal stuff to me or to reveal people's true 136 00:09:54.080 --> 00:09:58.080 attentions. I hate asking. I hate to have to ask that because you 137 00:09:58.200 --> 00:10:03.480 gotta be strong enough to stomach it when it's revealed to you. You know 138 00:10:03.480 --> 00:10:07.519 what I'm saying, and that shit, it's tough, it's tough. I 139 00:10:07.559 --> 00:10:11.919 don't like. The truth hurts. The truth hurts. The truth is a 140 00:10:11.919 --> 00:10:16.120 hard appeal to swallow. But it's also like, why do it hurt so 141 00:10:16.240 --> 00:10:20.200 much? Or why is it? Why is it so hard to stomach? 142 00:10:20.240 --> 00:10:22.519 If you're such an intuitive person and you already know, But it's kind of 143 00:10:22.519 --> 00:10:24.960 like, you know, a lot of times I'll just be fighting what I 144 00:10:26.000 --> 00:10:31.159 already know. The red flags beat there, my intuition be telling me, 145 00:10:31.840 --> 00:10:35.639 y'all know how yesterday when I said I went to my home, girls like 146 00:10:35.759 --> 00:10:41.200 memorial for her grandfather, and it was a it was a healingsembo session, 147 00:10:41.720 --> 00:10:46.759 and so I ended up seeing a video that somebody posted from there, and 148 00:10:46.840 --> 00:10:50.000 the owner when I told you all that, like I was thinking about something 149 00:10:50.039 --> 00:10:52.679 that whole time or whatever, and I was like, I'm not really sure 150 00:10:54.440 --> 00:10:58.720 what like state of mind you're supposed to be in, Like I didn't know 151 00:10:58.759 --> 00:11:03.320 if I was supposed to be focused on, you know whatever. But the 152 00:11:03.440 --> 00:11:07.000 owner has said, you know, whatever state of consciousness you go to is 153 00:11:07.039 --> 00:11:09.639 where you go, Like you can go to sleep, you don't have to 154 00:11:09.679 --> 00:11:11.679 be awake, you don't have to be focused on any like, wherever you 155 00:11:11.759 --> 00:11:16.440 go is where you're supposed to be. And so that whole time during the 156 00:11:16.600 --> 00:11:22.039 sound bow healing, I was thinking about something specific that whole time, and 157 00:11:22.080 --> 00:11:28.039 I was like listening to my intuition. And it was so funny too because 158 00:11:28.200 --> 00:11:33.200 during it, so when she was playing the sound bows and shit, I 159 00:11:33.240 --> 00:11:37.840 don't know if it was was it just the soundball, I don't know whatever, 160 00:11:39.399 --> 00:11:45.000 but it was some sound that when I heard it, and it was 161 00:11:45.039 --> 00:11:48.559 going on like almost the whole time. So this sound came on and it 162 00:11:48.679 --> 00:11:50.679 sounded scary. It sounds like a scary sound it sound like kind of like 163 00:11:50.679 --> 00:11:54.919 a scary movie. In my mind, I'm like, damn, that shit 164 00:11:54.000 --> 00:11:58.519 sounds scary, but I'm not scared of it. And it just kept giving 165 00:11:58.519 --> 00:12:03.279 me the feeling of bad energy. But then I heard like the little chimes, 166 00:12:03.639 --> 00:12:09.960 and that made me feel like that was my energy and whatever the bad 167 00:12:11.080 --> 00:12:15.519 energy was with something else, and it was just like that's how I kind 168 00:12:15.519 --> 00:12:18.519 of be feeling about situations like it always. I don't say always, but 169 00:12:18.559 --> 00:12:22.639 a lot of times to be like bad energy and shit like that. And 170 00:12:22.759 --> 00:12:26.679 I don't know if the energy be trying to scare me or take advantage of 171 00:12:26.759 --> 00:12:28.120 me or what like. I don't know. I just feel like a lot 172 00:12:28.120 --> 00:12:33.519 of times like me in certain situations. But I don't know when I when 173 00:12:33.519 --> 00:12:35.879 I was hearing all of this, I was thinking about, like this is 174 00:12:35.919 --> 00:12:39.360 the bad energy, but the chimes and shit was my energy, and like 175 00:12:39.559 --> 00:12:41.799 it was never changing, you know what I'm saying. I don't know, 176 00:12:41.879 --> 00:12:46.120 it's weird, but it was what I was thinking about, along with my 177 00:12:46.240 --> 00:12:50.879 intuition and what I have been feeling about a situation. And so with me 178 00:12:50.000 --> 00:12:54.200 going back and forth with that yesterday and just so I've been going back and 179 00:12:54.240 --> 00:12:58.879 forth with it for a while. And you know, also during that sound 180 00:13:00.080 --> 00:13:07.720 Bowl session, I asked the most high to reveal somebody's intentions, you know, 181 00:13:07.879 --> 00:13:11.039 in regards to me, which I didn't even have to ask because I 182 00:13:11.159 --> 00:13:18.159 kind of already had my feelings or you know, already had my little inkling 183 00:13:18.200 --> 00:13:20.559 about what I felt about the situation, but I asked for it to be 184 00:13:20.639 --> 00:13:26.240 revealed. And then something happened today and I was just like, this is 185 00:13:26.279 --> 00:13:31.879 the last straw type shit. And I don't know, man, It's just 186 00:13:33.639 --> 00:13:39.879 I don't know. I'm back in my little back in my little mode where 187 00:13:39.960 --> 00:13:45.200 like it's so weird because one half of me. It's very proud of me 188 00:13:45.279 --> 00:13:48.679 as a person. I'm very proud of the fact that I'm very emotionally in 189 00:13:48.759 --> 00:13:54.240 tune with myself with the world, with my intuition. I'm proud of myself 190 00:13:54.440 --> 00:13:58.600 to be able to, you know, like cope with my emotions and the 191 00:13:58.720 --> 00:14:03.519 health the way I'm able to like express myself. I'm okay with being vulnerable 192 00:14:03.559 --> 00:14:09.080 with people. I'm okay with being transparent, I'm okay with being emotional. 193 00:14:09.600 --> 00:14:13.080 But then sometimes I can be kind of mad at myself, like why do 194 00:14:13.159 --> 00:14:16.039 you why are you so fucking emotional? Why are you so sensitive? Why 195 00:14:16.080 --> 00:14:18.480 do you? You know what I'm saying, like, why do you wear 196 00:14:18.559 --> 00:14:20.639 your heart on your sleep? Why do you? I don't know, but 197 00:14:20.759 --> 00:14:26.480 it's like you, I can't worry about that shit. And I also cannot 198 00:14:26.639 --> 00:14:31.240 stop being a person that I am because people, you know, other people 199 00:14:31.320 --> 00:14:35.240 don't got the same heart as me, or other people don't move the same 200 00:14:35.279 --> 00:14:37.600 way as me. So it's just I don't know, it's a lot. 201 00:14:37.720 --> 00:14:41.480 And I was just getting upset with myself today for being the great person that 202 00:14:41.600 --> 00:14:46.279 I am, you know what I'm saying, Not me being upset with myself 203 00:14:46.279 --> 00:14:50.600 for being a great person. Just you know, but it's just like damn 204 00:14:50.799 --> 00:14:54.600 when but let me stop, Let me stop, because that was just me 205 00:14:54.679 --> 00:14:58.799 a couple months ago in another situation as far as like you know, the 206 00:14:58.840 --> 00:15:03.320 whole work and career, well with everything, but just being in the bad 207 00:15:03.360 --> 00:15:05.840 space, you know, a few months ago, like damn, why the 208 00:15:05.879 --> 00:15:09.240 fuck life doing me like this? And then look at me now, you 209 00:15:09.279 --> 00:15:11.600 know what I'm saying, on my Chris Brown should look at me now. 210 00:15:11.759 --> 00:15:15.919 But just in a good space. So it's like Jasmine, you over here 211 00:15:16.080 --> 00:15:18.519 kind of upset about some shit you like, why is this happening? Why? 212 00:15:18.639 --> 00:15:22.080 Why do I always end up in these type of situations? Whatever? 213 00:15:22.200 --> 00:15:26.240 Blaise blide and it's like, bitch, You're blessing probably right around the corner. 214 00:15:26.320 --> 00:15:28.639 Why are you playing? So? Why are you over here moping and 215 00:15:28.919 --> 00:15:33.639 fucking head down and fake sad of awesome? Shit? Like, girl, 216 00:15:33.679 --> 00:15:35.799 you need you need to be ready. You need to be gearing up because 217 00:15:35.799 --> 00:15:41.159 the shit is about to okay, the blessing is about to come through, 218 00:15:41.679 --> 00:15:46.039 period. So I don't know, but I mean, overall, today was 219 00:15:46.080 --> 00:15:48.039 a good day, but you know, I'll be in my feelings. It's 220 00:15:48.080 --> 00:15:52.559 also still pissy season, so and nigga probably gonna be in they fucking feelings. 221 00:15:52.000 --> 00:15:56.120 But erie season is coming up in ny good aries is all about the 222 00:15:56.159 --> 00:15:58.360 motherfucking self, okay, And that's the beginning of the Tuddy Act. The 223 00:15:58.440 --> 00:16:03.600 Niggas is the go getters. The Niggas is the fucking self starters of everything. 224 00:16:03.679 --> 00:16:11.240 So that's the bag I'm about to be in. Um but yeah, 225 00:16:11.519 --> 00:16:14.720 look at this, the snow is never gonna snop and Detroit, this ship 226 00:16:14.879 --> 00:16:18.720 is just sad as hell. But um no, just to touch on this 227 00:16:18.799 --> 00:16:21.919 again real quick, as well, you know how I was talking about the 228 00:16:21.960 --> 00:16:26.039 other day, Like in yoga, you know, certain poses are good for 229 00:16:26.120 --> 00:16:30.120 certain things, like certain ones are hip openers, certain ones are heart openers, 230 00:16:30.120 --> 00:16:34.720 certain ones or throat openers. Whatever. Um I really, I really 231 00:16:36.159 --> 00:16:49.679 really um I really attribute a lot of that to my growth and just me 232 00:16:52.960 --> 00:16:56.639 opening my heart or open in my throat or you know what I'm saying in 233 00:16:56.679 --> 00:17:02.480 certain spaces, because again, like that's something that I've been saying that I 234 00:17:02.519 --> 00:17:06.720 had to work on for a long time as far as like really speaking my 235 00:17:06.839 --> 00:17:11.920 truth or speaking up for myself or really verbalizing how I feel. If you 236 00:17:11.160 --> 00:17:17.079 listen to this podcast for as long as I've been doing this, you know 237 00:17:17.160 --> 00:17:22.119 that one thing that I always talk about is how in my childhood, this 238 00:17:22.200 --> 00:17:25.119 shit go back to fucking childhood. And I still this is why I should 239 00:17:25.119 --> 00:17:27.559 go to therapy, because it's a lot of stuff that I still don't understand 240 00:17:27.720 --> 00:17:34.279 or don't even really recognize or realize about myself for whatever. And I really, 241 00:17:34.680 --> 00:17:38.759 nigga, I need professional hope. But one thing that always used to 242 00:17:38.799 --> 00:17:42.960 happen in my childhood is that, like my dad would always tell me, 243 00:17:44.000 --> 00:17:48.559 like jazz and you clambing up again you clambing up like I would just never. 244 00:17:49.079 --> 00:17:52.720 I don't know, I would just never say how I feel. I 245 00:17:52.759 --> 00:17:56.960 would never and I don't even know if it it wouldn't. I don't even 246 00:17:56.000 --> 00:18:00.799 I can't even really think back to certain times and be like was there really 247 00:18:00.839 --> 00:18:04.640 something wrong or you know, I don't ever think it was really something major 248 00:18:04.720 --> 00:18:08.960 wrong with me, but like it don't matter, just the fact that niggas 249 00:18:10.000 --> 00:18:12.119 would be asking me what's wrong and I just wouldn't say nothing. I just 250 00:18:12.160 --> 00:18:29.119 wouldn't talk. And again that's that motherfucking m imbalanced throat shocker and underactive. 251 00:18:30.240 --> 00:18:36.079 Damn, the're not not even working like so, you know, just getting 252 00:18:36.119 --> 00:18:40.279 to a place in my life where I feel like I'm able to fully express 253 00:18:40.359 --> 00:18:48.960 myself in every aspect you know what I'm saying creatively verbally, um, you 254 00:18:49.000 --> 00:18:53.640 know, in relationships and shit like that, and just really be And I 255 00:18:53.680 --> 00:18:57.920 think another thing with that is though it's like nig tired of getting the short 256 00:18:59.039 --> 00:19:03.279 end of the stick. Like hey, and again I had to repost that 257 00:19:03.279 --> 00:19:08.559 shit again today what I repost on Instagram that shit said, um fuck all 258 00:19:08.599 --> 00:19:11.119 that humble shit this week, turn it the fuck up, like for real, 259 00:19:11.240 --> 00:19:15.160 like you don't really you don't really get nowhere in life being humble. 260 00:19:15.279 --> 00:19:17.519 I mean, I'm always be a humble person, you know, for the 261 00:19:17.559 --> 00:19:22.200 most part. But I'm just saying, like, man, you niggas played 262 00:19:22.240 --> 00:19:23.880 too much. And I'm not talking about niggas, I'm talking about just people 263 00:19:23.920 --> 00:19:27.079 in general. Like, people are gonna play with you if you if you, 264 00:19:27.359 --> 00:19:30.680 if you played a humble brow, people are gonna continuously play with you 265 00:19:32.319 --> 00:19:34.799 like you, not that girl, like you, not that deal. And 266 00:19:34.839 --> 00:19:38.920 then that's why you gotta activate that throwshocker and be like, bitch, I 267 00:19:40.000 --> 00:19:42.279 am who I am type shit, you know what I'm saying. And I 268 00:19:42.319 --> 00:19:45.720 hate to be like that, but it's like people will be taking advantage of 269 00:19:45.759 --> 00:19:56.640 you. People take your kindness for fucking weakness when in reality you're not weak 270 00:19:56.680 --> 00:19:59.920 at all. And that's another thing, just like I was saying, like 271 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.640 I'll be upset with myself for being vulnerable and for being emotional and just you 272 00:20:04.680 --> 00:20:08.880 know what I'm saying. But I mean that's just me being real a lot. 273 00:20:08.920 --> 00:20:11.799 But that's the thing. A lot of people can't keep it real. 274 00:20:11.799 --> 00:20:15.960 A lot of people can't be vulnerable. A lot of people don't know how 275 00:20:15.960 --> 00:20:18.400 to express their emotions. A lot of people don't even process their emotions. 276 00:20:18.519 --> 00:20:22.720 Niggas just sweet. They sweep shit under the rug. They never address shit 277 00:20:23.319 --> 00:20:30.519 from childhood, from teenage years. Niggas got emotional trauma from adulthood. Niggas, 278 00:20:30.599 --> 00:20:34.039 nig y'all. Niggas don't want it with me, y'all don't want it 279 00:20:34.079 --> 00:20:40.000 with me. Like, but that's the thing. Like, I'm okay with 280 00:20:40.039 --> 00:20:44.440 myself and I'm okay with my emotions, and you know what I'm saying. 281 00:20:44.480 --> 00:20:48.759 I feel like I have a healthy relationship with myself emotionally because you know, 282 00:20:49.119 --> 00:20:55.000 because I deal with my shit and I'm just honest with myself. But in 283 00:20:55.039 --> 00:21:00.920 the same breath, I beat myself up about being that person because when you 284 00:21:00.960 --> 00:21:04.119 are that vulnerable, you get hurt a lot. You get hurt a lot. 285 00:21:04.400 --> 00:21:08.079 I get my feelings hurt a fucking lot. I get take an advantage 286 00:21:08.079 --> 00:21:21.200 of a lot. However, that that just means that I have to use 287 00:21:21.240 --> 00:21:23.799 my discernment better. And I have very good discernment, but you know, 288 00:21:25.359 --> 00:21:27.240 it's unfortunate. I'll be wanting to see the good and niggas, I'll want 289 00:21:27.240 --> 00:21:30.319 to see the good in people and shit like that. But it's like, 290 00:21:30.359 --> 00:21:34.680 bro, you gotta start using your discernment and you know, just just to 291 00:21:34.720 --> 00:21:38.319 prevent shit from happening. But again, I'm doing a lot better. And 292 00:21:40.200 --> 00:21:44.319 all that was another thing, like even when all of this shit that's happened 293 00:21:44.400 --> 00:21:52.240 in the last twenty four hours by me being able to really tap in with 294 00:21:52.279 --> 00:21:57.079 my intuition, Like that's the thing. I've just been listening to my intuition, 295 00:21:59.079 --> 00:22:02.519 you know what I'm saying. And I'm listening to my body. And 296 00:22:02.559 --> 00:22:06.920 that's what I've been talking about when I'm teaching yoga, Like I think I 297 00:22:07.000 --> 00:22:08.960 said this yesterday too, like I was saying in my yan class, and 298 00:22:10.000 --> 00:22:17.680 shit that you know, the body holds a lot of wisdom. Your body 299 00:22:17.720 --> 00:22:22.319 holding your body holds more wisdom than your brain. You know what I'm saying. 300 00:22:25.119 --> 00:22:27.119 And now and then yoga, you have to listen to your body. 301 00:22:27.440 --> 00:22:33.839 You gotta tell people like you know, well, just the studio that I 302 00:22:33.880 --> 00:22:36.599 work at it particularly, I don't know what other niggas do, but one 303 00:22:36.599 --> 00:22:38.519 of the things that we say, like you know, this is your matt 304 00:22:38.559 --> 00:22:42.400 this is your practice, so do whatever your whatever your body feels. You 305 00:22:42.400 --> 00:22:45.599 know, I might direct or cue for you to do a certain move, 306 00:22:45.720 --> 00:22:48.400 but you can do whatever the fuck you want to do. You know what 307 00:22:48.400 --> 00:22:52.400 I'm saying. If you feel like you need to be moving the hips, 308 00:22:52.599 --> 00:22:56.559 doing body rolls, doing neck rolls, I don't know, take a couple 309 00:22:56.559 --> 00:23:00.039 of cat cows. But if you if we're doing something else, but you 310 00:23:00.079 --> 00:23:02.839 feel like nigga, I need to be doing updog to child's posts than do 311 00:23:03.400 --> 00:23:06.119 whatever you feel you need your body to do. You know what I'm saying. 312 00:23:06.480 --> 00:23:10.839 But I tell people like, listen to your body. What does your 313 00:23:10.880 --> 00:23:14.759 body need? You know what I'm saying, Have a conversation with your body. 314 00:23:14.799 --> 00:23:19.279 Your body, your body is gonna tell you and a part of your 315 00:23:19.319 --> 00:23:23.000 body speaking to you and having a conversation with you with your intuition talking to 316 00:23:23.039 --> 00:23:29.079 you. Because like I've said before, I'm here most times with niggas or 317 00:23:29.200 --> 00:23:32.839 all the times with niggas in my life. I always knew what the outcome 318 00:23:32.960 --> 00:23:37.720 was gonna be with a nigga, because well not always, but most times 319 00:23:37.759 --> 00:23:41.720 I knew what the outcome was gonna be with a nigga because my intuition told 320 00:23:41.720 --> 00:23:45.839 me from day one. But I went against what I felt, and what 321 00:23:47.000 --> 00:23:51.000 is that? That's me going against my body that's going against what because again, 322 00:23:51.480 --> 00:23:53.799 your intuition is speaking to you faster than what your mind can communicate with 323 00:23:53.880 --> 00:23:57.559 you, because they on two different levels. Again, the body has more 324 00:23:57.640 --> 00:24:06.200 wisdom, just like that's what flight or fight is. If you out somewhere 325 00:24:06.240 --> 00:24:07.880 and you're like, oh shit, it feel like something about to go down. 326 00:24:07.920 --> 00:24:11.720 You know what I'm saying. Your body can feel it. That's your 327 00:24:11.799 --> 00:24:18.200 intuition. The body holds wisdom. Body smart as fuck god body, So 328 00:24:18.880 --> 00:24:25.759 you know what I'm saying. Like, I think yoga has gotten me more 329 00:24:25.799 --> 00:24:29.440 in tune with my body. I'm able to really listen to my body and 330 00:24:29.519 --> 00:24:34.079 trust what it's telling me. So when my intuition is speaking to me, 331 00:24:34.160 --> 00:24:38.039 it's like I'm trying to talk to you. I'm trying to have a conversation 332 00:24:38.039 --> 00:24:41.720 with you. I'm trying to tell you something, you know what I'm saying. 333 00:24:41.519 --> 00:24:45.480 And I feel like I feel like I was on the road to making 334 00:24:47.799 --> 00:24:53.319 a very quick, a very quick decision that probably was not gonna be in 335 00:24:53.440 --> 00:24:57.279 my best interests, you know what I'm saying, because again my intuition told 336 00:24:57.319 --> 00:25:03.079 me that that's not It wasn't. And then I'm over here asking the Lord 337 00:25:03.160 --> 00:25:10.240 to reveal to me people's intentions and then you know, some shit happened within 338 00:25:10.319 --> 00:25:14.720 twenty four hours. So it's like, and that's another thing. You got 339 00:25:14.799 --> 00:25:21.160 another thing that I kept telling myself. When people show you who they are, 340 00:25:21.319 --> 00:25:27.039 you have to believe them. And what I have to do is again 341 00:25:27.160 --> 00:25:32.000 it's the mind and the body are not on the same page. The body 342 00:25:33.119 --> 00:25:37.000 is way for your intuition works way faster than what your mind does. And 343 00:25:37.160 --> 00:25:40.759 my mind is always trying to talk me out of stuff. My mind is 344 00:25:40.799 --> 00:25:44.240 always trying to play tricks on me, like, well, I don't know, 345 00:25:44.440 --> 00:25:47.559 like maybe not give it a chance. Like nigga, every time your 346 00:25:47.559 --> 00:25:53.319 mind tell you something, it'd be wrong because the intuition is right. You 347 00:25:53.480 --> 00:25:59.039 be trying to make logical sense out of what your intuition already knows. That's 348 00:25:59.039 --> 00:26:02.680 why men and women men can never get on the same page because they work 349 00:26:02.720 --> 00:26:06.000 off of logic and we work off intuition. Like that, don't that don't 350 00:26:06.039 --> 00:26:08.200 make sense? This is like, it's not gonna make sense to your logic, 351 00:26:08.240 --> 00:26:18.960 ass mine. You know what I'm saying, My intuitive inkling is telling 352 00:26:18.960 --> 00:26:27.279 me x y and Z. And what niggas don't understand is that man a 353 00:26:27.440 --> 00:26:33.400 good woman. It's gonna be a spiritual backbone for you and that's going to 354 00:26:33.480 --> 00:26:40.680 take you very far in life. But niggas just I don't know. Niggas 355 00:26:40.720 --> 00:26:41.960 don't be ready for that. Niggas don't be in the space for that. 356 00:26:42.920 --> 00:26:48.359 Niggas don't be understanding that. You know again, because you're going off that 357 00:26:48.559 --> 00:26:51.920 fucking logic, because if it don't make sense on paper, then it just 358 00:26:51.960 --> 00:26:56.359 don't make sense to a nigge whatever. But I'm just at a place in 359 00:26:56.400 --> 00:27:00.160 my life where I don't you want to deal with people that are on the 360 00:27:00.200 --> 00:27:03.319 same page as me. I only want to deal with people that are able 361 00:27:03.359 --> 00:27:10.640 to reciprocate my energy because I give all good fucking energy, I give all 362 00:27:10.720 --> 00:27:14.720 good fucking vibes. I bring value to the table. I bring value to 363 00:27:14.839 --> 00:27:18.880 nigga's lives. I'm a good person. I'm a good woman, you know 364 00:27:18.920 --> 00:27:22.759 what I'm saying. So it's like, again, why why why would that 365 00:27:22.799 --> 00:27:32.599 not be reciprocated? Why do I keep ending up in situations where this is 366 00:27:32.640 --> 00:27:34.480 not a fair trade. I'm getting the short end of the stick. But 367 00:27:34.519 --> 00:27:38.759 again, it's all about standards, it's about self respect, it's about self 368 00:27:38.839 --> 00:27:48.119 love. It's about boundaries. You know what I'm saying. You only tolerate 369 00:27:48.200 --> 00:27:52.000 what you allow, you know what I'm saying. So at some point it's 370 00:27:52.000 --> 00:27:55.880 just like jask me, you gotta you know what I'm saying, You really 371 00:27:55.880 --> 00:28:00.759 gotta put your foot down with shit, period because because what I want is 372 00:28:00.799 --> 00:28:03.839 out there for sure, somebody's cable blue of giving me what it is that 373 00:28:03.920 --> 00:28:10.799 I wanted, what I deserve. But I gotta move around, you know 374 00:28:10.839 --> 00:28:15.799 what I'm saying. I gotta move around. Where as the niggas that's standing 375 00:28:15.960 --> 00:28:22.559 up, not sitting down. You know what I'm saying, move out the 376 00:28:22.680 --> 00:28:32.319 way if you ain't, you know. But again, people be selfish, 377 00:28:32.400 --> 00:28:36.319 which is crazy to me. Somebody will tell you that you don't deserve x, 378 00:28:36.480 --> 00:28:38.160 Y and Z, or they will tell you what you do deserve or 379 00:28:38.200 --> 00:28:41.000 whatever, and it's like, okay, cool, you you know that I 380 00:28:41.079 --> 00:28:45.640 deserve this. You know what type of person I am? So step aside 381 00:28:45.640 --> 00:28:48.720 and let somebody give that to me. Then why do you still you know 382 00:28:48.720 --> 00:28:56.839 what I'm again? Selfish? Selfish, selfish, There's nothing else to say. 383 00:28:56.880 --> 00:29:04.119 There's no way around it. If you're if you don't have the capacity, 384 00:29:04.400 --> 00:29:10.559 if you are not capable of giving me what I need, what I 385 00:29:10.759 --> 00:29:19.880 want, what I deserve. Why do we need to interact? Why? 386 00:29:21.039 --> 00:29:33.680 What would be the purpose besides besides me being short changed, besides me getting 387 00:29:33.680 --> 00:29:45.200 the short end of the stick, besides beside me feeling played, besides me 388 00:29:45.319 --> 00:29:57.839 feeling used, like what what? What are we doing? Selfish? And 389 00:29:57.960 --> 00:30:07.759 that's crazy to me because I'm not. I'm not a selfish person like hmm, 390 00:30:07.720 --> 00:30:12.599 or am I No, that's not selfish I'm about to say, because 391 00:30:12.640 --> 00:30:15.720 I'll be holding on the ship. But I don't. I don't. I've 392 00:30:15.759 --> 00:30:25.400 never I don't think I've ever tried to hold onto somebody, um, you 393 00:30:25.480 --> 00:30:32.599 know, for my own personal or selfish reasons, you know what I'm saying, 394 00:30:32.720 --> 00:30:37.440 like knowing that I wasn't a match for that person, or knowing like 395 00:30:37.440 --> 00:30:40.759 oh we're not compatible or I can't do nothing for you, Like I never 396 00:30:41.079 --> 00:30:44.359 have tried to hold on to a person in that type of way. I'll 397 00:30:44.400 --> 00:30:48.160 be holding on when Nigga's really like you need to be you need to losing 398 00:30:48.240 --> 00:30:52.839 up that grip, baby girl, you need to let this go. Yeah, 399 00:30:52.880 --> 00:30:56.480 I ain't never tried to hold on to nobody when I know like hmm, 400 00:30:56.839 --> 00:31:00.200 they need to be off with somebody else or this ain't for me year 401 00:31:00.279 --> 00:31:02.920 or whatever like, but I don't know. I think that's just something at 402 00:31:02.960 --> 00:31:07.480 me. I think that's a man thing, like niggas be wanting to hold 403 00:31:07.480 --> 00:31:12.640 onto you until they find what they really want, which is unfortunate because if 404 00:31:12.680 --> 00:31:15.640 I'm not what you want, then let me go. Like why, you 405 00:31:15.680 --> 00:31:22.480 know what I'm saying, Like why I would never I don't know. I 406 00:31:22.480 --> 00:31:26.960 guess I was about to say. I guess it's like if a nigga had 407 00:31:26.960 --> 00:31:30.880 a car and it's like this ain't my favorite, or this ain't the car 408 00:31:30.960 --> 00:31:33.640 that I really want, but I just don't want to go without a car, 409 00:31:33.759 --> 00:31:36.440 so I'm gonna just keep this one until I get the one out. 410 00:31:36.480 --> 00:31:41.359 I guess, I guess, But that ain't how you should move. But 411 00:31:41.519 --> 00:31:45.839 like you know, and I really just I really want for people to heal, 412 00:31:48.599 --> 00:31:52.839 but maybe I'll be making people feel But that ain't on me. It 413 00:31:52.880 --> 00:32:00.160 ain't on me. It's on you to stand up and be honest that you 414 00:32:00.200 --> 00:32:01.680 need to work on yourself. You know what I'm saying. But you want 415 00:32:01.680 --> 00:32:05.240 to hold on to me and drag me down along the way, and your 416 00:32:05.319 --> 00:32:09.519 bullshit because for whatever reason, you know, and it's like, no, 417 00:32:10.319 --> 00:32:13.799 you need to heal and you need to do it on your own. You 418 00:32:13.839 --> 00:32:16.599 need to be alone. You know what I'm saying. You don't need no 419 00:32:16.720 --> 00:32:22.759 distractions and you don't need to hurt nobody else in the process when you already 420 00:32:22.839 --> 00:32:28.559 hurt. I'm over here actively working on my healing and have me and for 421 00:32:28.759 --> 00:32:34.880 years I'm looking for something real and here, y'all come just you know what 422 00:32:34.880 --> 00:32:37.799 I'm saying, Come get in the mud with me. Hell no? Then 423 00:32:37.039 --> 00:32:49.480 held Noah, So I don't know, but yeah, I just figured out 424 00:32:49.480 --> 00:32:51.799 would come on here and share that. I'm over here looking out the window 425 00:32:51.839 --> 00:32:55.039 at this fucking snow, like this is wild. It's fucked to me. 426 00:33:00.359 --> 00:33:05.480 I'm trying to think, is there anything else? No, not for real, 427 00:33:05.599 --> 00:33:07.880 But I just think if I continue to be on the path that I'm 428 00:33:07.880 --> 00:33:12.279 on right now, like even going to that gym today and when he did 429 00:33:12.319 --> 00:33:15.640 the meditation and all the shit that he was saying during the meditation and all 430 00:33:15.640 --> 00:33:19.119 of that, like was just really fucking speaking to me. And then he 431 00:33:19.160 --> 00:33:22.319 brought the Palo soundo out. He brought the sound ball out. All the 432 00:33:22.480 --> 00:33:25.880 essential oils, like the whole nine. But he was just like really talking 433 00:33:25.880 --> 00:33:30.599 about purpose and intention and you know, being in tune with your spirit and 434 00:33:30.680 --> 00:33:36.079 being on your own path and like that shit is really a mind body spirit 435 00:33:36.119 --> 00:33:39.559 gym. So I fuck with it. But again, just every day feeling 436 00:33:39.599 --> 00:33:44.519 like I keep ending up in spaces that are truly in alignment with my path 437 00:33:44.680 --> 00:33:49.720 and like, you know, having these certain conversations with people and just all 438 00:33:49.720 --> 00:33:53.240 of this stuff happening, and then again just continuously being in tune with my 439 00:33:53.359 --> 00:33:58.839 intuition and doing whatever the fucking says to do or to listen to it or 440 00:33:58.839 --> 00:34:02.200 whatever way to go. It's just like just keep going. Jask me, 441 00:34:02.440 --> 00:34:07.079 you know what I'm saying, and don't get distracted, don't let shit hold 442 00:34:07.119 --> 00:34:09.800 you back, don't let shit hold you down, you know what I'm saying. 443 00:34:09.800 --> 00:34:14.960 Because you're you're on a journey and a lot of shit is gonna come 444 00:34:15.000 --> 00:34:16.480 on this path, a lot of shit is gonna go on this path, 445 00:34:17.960 --> 00:34:22.599 and you can't hold on to it. You gotta appreciate everything for what it 446 00:34:22.800 --> 00:34:28.039 is. You gotta appreciate your time with stuff. You gotta appreciate the experience 447 00:34:28.119 --> 00:34:30.840 and what you learn. You know what I'm saying. I was just on 448 00:34:30.840 --> 00:34:35.840 this bitch yesterday talking about are you here to experience life or are you here 449 00:34:35.880 --> 00:34:42.159 to avoid it? And it's like, no, nigga, you a's gonna 450 00:34:42.159 --> 00:34:45.039 get your feelings hurt in this bitch some less than others. I don't know 451 00:34:45.079 --> 00:34:52.880 why me, why I gotta be like the most motherfucking I don't know. 452 00:34:52.000 --> 00:34:58.840 I'm just prone to getting hurt, man, Like what the fuck ou? 453 00:35:00.480 --> 00:35:05.360 But I don't know, And I don't want to make it seem like I'm 454 00:35:05.400 --> 00:35:09.119 hurt like that, but it's just like I don't know, I don't know. 455 00:35:10.559 --> 00:35:14.280 I don't know, but I don't know. I go out. I 456 00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:20.960 feel this was hurt, but it wouldn't go be as bad as as what 457 00:35:21.119 --> 00:35:23.880 I think it was gonna turn out to be, though I think it could. 458 00:35:24.039 --> 00:35:29.239 I think it could have did a very bad downward spiral if I would 459 00:35:29.239 --> 00:35:34.559 have, if I would have kept going. So I just think I think 460 00:35:34.599 --> 00:35:39.679 I made the right move today. I think, um, I think the 461 00:35:39.719 --> 00:35:45.079 direction that I'm going in is the best direction for myself. I think I 462 00:35:45.079 --> 00:35:52.360 should just continue to listen to my heart and just fucking keep keep walking on 463 00:35:52.440 --> 00:35:57.119 my path. Nigga, She's keep going on my journey because whatever it is 464 00:35:57.199 --> 00:35:59.679 meant for me is going to you know what I'm saying, it's not gonna 465 00:35:59.719 --> 00:36:02.960 miss me. I'm gonna walk right into it. And like I said, 466 00:36:04.360 --> 00:36:08.800 it's probably right around the fucking corner. And don't even it's so funny too. 467 00:36:10.039 --> 00:36:15.079 It's so funny because let let me be right with what I'm thinking right 468 00:36:15.079 --> 00:36:17.599 now in my mind. Let let me be right, and that shit gonna 469 00:36:17.639 --> 00:36:22.239 be wild. But that's crazy because I already knew that too, and already 470 00:36:22.840 --> 00:36:34.480 that's weird. That's funny. Life is funny. So yeah, I just 471 00:36:34.480 --> 00:36:37.039 wanted to come on here and share that with y'all. A nigga gotta get 472 00:36:37.119 --> 00:36:39.559 up early. It's one forty one in the morning. I'm gonna be getting 473 00:36:39.639 --> 00:36:47.920 up very soon to do it all over again. But I hope that y'all 474 00:36:49.000 --> 00:36:51.880 enjoy this. I hope it did something for y'all. Hope, hope, 475 00:36:51.960 --> 00:36:53.920 hope it touched somebody in some type of way. You know what I'm saying. 476 00:36:53.960 --> 00:36:58.239 I hope all as well. I hope y'all nigga is out here doing 477 00:36:58.320 --> 00:37:07.480 y'all spiritual development and growth, working on your emotional healing, your physical hell 478 00:37:07.519 --> 00:37:12.639 and all of that. Shit because it's really like, it's really needed because 479 00:37:12.719 --> 00:37:19.679 nigga's just out here hurting themselves, hurting others, not growing, not evolving, 480 00:37:20.000 --> 00:37:23.440 not changing, you know, it's like, what the fuck are you 481 00:37:23.480 --> 00:37:28.719 here for? What are you doing? What are you really doing? So, 482 00:37:28.920 --> 00:37:30.360 yeah, make sure you follow me on all platforms that Hillo, my 483 00:37:30.440 --> 00:37:37.320 Hommies, Black Girl Experience on TikTok. Yeah, that's it. That's all 484 00:37:37.360 --> 00:37:38.599 I have for y'all. I'm out.