WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.080 --> 00:00:04.879 Welcome back to the Black Girl Experience. I am your host, Jasmine Dan 2 00:00:05.120 --> 00:00:10.880 Yea, I am back. I am back. I am back. I 3 00:00:10.919 --> 00:00:25.640 am back. That wasn't a bad side. That was a decompressed sighe for 4 00:00:25.679 --> 00:00:34.600 real, for real, because baby, life when you really man, oh 5 00:00:34.640 --> 00:00:38.520 my god, I don't know what the fuck y'all be going through, but 6 00:00:38.640 --> 00:00:43.119 the should I be going through? Man, you need to fucking decompressed for 7 00:00:43.240 --> 00:00:50.399 real, for real. That's why I can't even think about anything other than 8 00:00:50.520 --> 00:00:54.679 my life, bro, for real, because life is too fucking much. 9 00:00:56.759 --> 00:01:00.399 The world wants you to care about so fucking much. I'm I'm sorry. 10 00:01:00.399 --> 00:01:03.719 All I can care about is my life right now. That's all that I 11 00:01:03.759 --> 00:01:14.200 can care about is my fucking life. Niggas only get one life. Niggas 12 00:01:14.239 --> 00:01:18.719 only get one life. We really be living this bitch like we get more 13 00:01:18.719 --> 00:01:23.879 than one life. You only get one life, nigga. So yeah, 14 00:01:23.920 --> 00:01:27.519 excuse me if I'm not worried about all that bullshit. I'm worried about my 15 00:01:27.599 --> 00:01:34.640 life. I'm worried about my life, how I'm gonna live. I don't 16 00:01:34.680 --> 00:01:38.959 give a fuck about how you live in your life. I'm trying to live 17 00:01:38.159 --> 00:01:49.519 my life and you see, I just had to do my decompressed sigh. 18 00:01:49.719 --> 00:01:53.280 I just moved my shoulders. It's a little it's a little tense in my 19 00:01:53.319 --> 00:02:00.280 back. It's a little tents in my back. I can't care about your 20 00:02:00.319 --> 00:02:07.560 life. I care about my life. I don't care man. So yeah, 21 00:02:07.639 --> 00:02:12.319 you been needing to decompress from life. Bro, when I tell you 22 00:02:12.360 --> 00:02:15.960 it's my back is tense right now? Is this a little tension in the 23 00:02:16.000 --> 00:02:35.680 back. I'm a little sore. But that's how life is. You're always 24 00:02:35.680 --> 00:02:39.360 gonna feel some type of way. Some days you're gonna be good, you're 25 00:02:39.360 --> 00:02:44.360 gonna be regular, you're gonna be happy something. Some days your body gonna 26 00:02:44.360 --> 00:02:51.960 be sore, some days you're gonna be in pain. You're always gonna feel 27 00:02:52.000 --> 00:03:00.039 something. And again, to think that society will wants you to place y'all 28 00:03:00.039 --> 00:03:07.120 focus on everything else that's going on in the world when you need to be 29 00:03:07.159 --> 00:03:22.240 focused on yourself. We really all could exist in life if we just existed 30 00:03:22.280 --> 00:03:29.960 in ourselves. For real, We could all just exist in life if we 31 00:03:30.120 --> 00:03:34.960 all would just exist in ourselves. But that's the problem. They want you 32 00:03:35.000 --> 00:03:37.439 to be here here, here, here here, They're there there, there, 33 00:03:37.479 --> 00:03:39.400 there, here here here, worry about this, worry about this, 34 00:03:39.759 --> 00:03:50.199 like nigga. Why niggas be worried about real life problems that they don't have 35 00:03:50.360 --> 00:03:57.240 time to give a fuck about anything else. So, yes, when you 36 00:03:57.280 --> 00:04:00.120 meet a person like me, I'm focused on my life. I'm on myself. 37 00:04:01.639 --> 00:04:05.879 I want to be able to walk through life and be good regardless of 38 00:04:05.919 --> 00:04:11.360 what's going on around me. Why because that ain't got ship to do with 39 00:04:11.400 --> 00:04:23.279 my life. So that's why I'll be worried about my motherfuck herself. That's 40 00:04:23.279 --> 00:04:29.279 why the focus is on my motherfuck her self and baby, I'm doing the 41 00:04:29.319 --> 00:04:33.959 best that I've ever done, focusing on myself, focusing on how I feel, 42 00:04:34.040 --> 00:04:40.759 focusing on what I want to do, focusing on what works for my 43 00:04:40.879 --> 00:04:46.319 life. When I was trying to do it other nigga's way, it wasn't 44 00:04:46.360 --> 00:04:53.399 working. But when I focus on myself, I get far. I go 45 00:04:53.639 --> 00:05:05.920 far, I flourish, I flow. I focus on myself. I just 46 00:05:06.600 --> 00:05:15.439 bro I've never seen myself go so fucking hard. I've never seen myself go 47 00:05:15.639 --> 00:05:26.759 hard. I go hard for myself. I go hard for myself. I 48 00:05:27.000 --> 00:05:36.680 pour into myself. That's why that's why I go so far. I think 49 00:05:36.759 --> 00:05:44.279 people really. I think people just say shit because it sounds good. I 50 00:05:44.360 --> 00:05:47.319 have to poorant. Everybody's talking about pooring to today, said, niggas is 51 00:05:47.360 --> 00:05:58.120 not pouring into themselves. Bro, niggas is not pouring into themselves or and 52 00:05:58.240 --> 00:06:00.839 I'm guilty of this too. I'm guilty of this too, talking about how 53 00:06:00.879 --> 00:06:14.759 I'm always pouring out. You could tell when you're not pouring into yourself. 54 00:06:16.040 --> 00:06:20.920 You can tell when you're not pouring into yourself. You you're gonna look like 55 00:06:21.040 --> 00:06:27.439 you're not pouring into yourself. You're gonna sound like you're not pouring into yourself. 56 00:06:28.720 --> 00:06:39.079 You're gonna act like you're not pouring into yourself. Pour into yourself, 57 00:06:41.240 --> 00:06:46.399 because baby, you're gonna get tired of pouring into other motherfuckers when they don't 58 00:06:46.439 --> 00:06:56.560 pour back. Have you ever poured into a motherfucker that ain't pour back? 59 00:06:59.160 --> 00:07:04.199 Who? Let's talk about boundaries, Let's talk about standards. Have you ever 60 00:07:04.199 --> 00:07:28.879 reported to a motherfucker that ain't poor back? That's my life. I just 61 00:07:28.920 --> 00:07:31.040 pulled my own card on that. I ain't gonna lie. I just pulled 62 00:07:31.079 --> 00:07:39.800 my own fucking card. A nigga can't breathe, I gotta take a drink. 63 00:07:42.199 --> 00:07:50.040 Who I put the fuck out of my card, nigga. My heart 64 00:07:50.040 --> 00:07:55.839 beating fast. That's how real that shit is. But when you when you 65 00:07:55.920 --> 00:08:00.240 think about it, when you say it out loud, you were poor bring 66 00:08:00.240 --> 00:08:11.639 into people that weren't pouring back into you. That's not pouring intoe yourself. 67 00:08:11.680 --> 00:08:28.319 That's not respecting yourself. You can't give when they don't give back. So 68 00:08:28.560 --> 00:08:33.320 yeah, that was a deep That was a life decompressed side, nigga. 69 00:08:33.799 --> 00:08:39.200 And not even just that shit, just life period. Life gets stressful as 70 00:08:39.200 --> 00:08:46.200 fuck, nigga. You need to Niggas need to woo side at the end 71 00:08:46.200 --> 00:08:56.879 of the day. I don't have nothing against people that are at certain phases 72 00:08:56.879 --> 00:09:00.279 in the life of you. And you'll turn up phase. That's cool. 73 00:09:00.320 --> 00:09:03.600 If you win your go out phase, that's cool. I'm sorry. At 74 00:09:03.600 --> 00:09:05.440 the end of the day, at the end of my day, I want 75 00:09:05.440 --> 00:09:11.639 to whose side, nigga, am my oh this hill, don't worry, 76 00:09:11.600 --> 00:09:15.240 I'm my oh this hill. I just want to come home and whose side 77 00:09:15.480 --> 00:09:18.559 And niggas just want to take a breath, and nigga want to sit down 78 00:09:18.600 --> 00:09:22.919 and buff day's shoulders up and down. I'm like, whoo, today it 79 00:09:22.080 --> 00:09:31.799 was a day today was a day. Oh my fucking god. Niggas be 80 00:09:31.879 --> 00:09:41.440 having days, niggas be having You don't know what type of day a motherfucker 81 00:09:41.639 --> 00:09:48.159 is having. You don't know what type You don't know what type of day 82 00:09:48.200 --> 00:09:58.639 somebody is having. So that's why you should be kind your attitude. Joe 83 00:09:58.720 --> 00:10:07.360 energy, he might change somebody day. A nigga might be on the verge 84 00:10:07.840 --> 00:10:13.720 of ending their fucking life. But you came in and had good energy. 85 00:10:18.240 --> 00:10:24.919 Do niggas really respect energy? I was about to end my life, but 86 00:10:26.039 --> 00:10:30.360 I meant you. You said something that you know that touched me. You 87 00:10:30.480 --> 00:10:39.039 spoke life into me. So that's why you can't pour into people that don't 88 00:10:39.039 --> 00:10:48.159 pour back. A nigga lose me, you're losing somebody that speaks life into 89 00:10:48.240 --> 00:10:56.399 you. What are the people around you doing? What are the people around 90 00:10:56.519 --> 00:11:07.000 you doing? That's why niggas can't get near me. That's why I'm a 91 00:11:07.080 --> 00:11:11.279 hermit. That's why I be in the fucking house. Niggas can't get near 92 00:11:11.399 --> 00:11:20.240 me. I don't want that type of energy around me. I'm focusing on 93 00:11:20.440 --> 00:11:28.080 myself. This is real shit. This is real fucking shit, bro. 94 00:11:30.159 --> 00:11:37.279 So yes, when I come home, I got the decompressed side. But 95 00:11:37.320 --> 00:11:43.080 it ain't all bad. It ain't all bad. Oh baby, it's good. 96 00:11:43.480 --> 00:11:48.600 Oh baby, it's good. It's good. It's good in the it's 97 00:11:48.679 --> 00:11:56.759 good in my hood. Because I'm focused on myself. I'm flourishing. I'm 98 00:11:56.759 --> 00:12:03.080 going far. Every day I wake up, I'll just man. I remember 99 00:12:03.080 --> 00:12:05.759 the days when I would wake up and I would be mad, like, 100 00:12:07.000 --> 00:12:11.120 damn, this is my life. Oh I gotta go to work, this 101 00:12:11.240 --> 00:12:18.639 is my life. Like I don't feel like that no more. I wake 102 00:12:18.759 --> 00:12:22.440 up, I feel good. I feel so good. I wake up early. 103 00:12:22.720 --> 00:12:28.039 I'm talking nigga. Four am, two am, three am, can't 104 00:12:28.080 --> 00:12:31.360 go back to sleep? Okay, well, I'm up. Let me be 105 00:12:31.440 --> 00:12:35.240 productive. When people wake up during the witching hours, or if you're in 106 00:12:35.240 --> 00:12:37.320 that phase and you're like, be like, why do I keep waking up 107 00:12:37.360 --> 00:12:41.000 at three am? Why do I keep waking up at three am? Nigga, 108 00:12:41.039 --> 00:12:46.919 You're supposed to be working. You'll be sitting there doing nothing in the 109 00:12:46.960 --> 00:12:54.759 middle of the night. Nigga, don't but those are the most productive hours. 110 00:12:54.480 --> 00:12:58.799 Fucking nine to five, fucking day job. Fuck nigga, three am. 111 00:13:00.120 --> 00:13:07.320 I'm up. I'm working on myself. The universe is trying to tell 112 00:13:07.440 --> 00:13:13.799 me something. But trust me, I was there when I was like, 113 00:13:13.000 --> 00:13:16.399 I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing, just up, Like why 114 00:13:16.440 --> 00:13:22.480 the fuck do I keep waking up at this time? You gotta ask yourself 115 00:13:22.639 --> 00:13:26.360 questions. You gotta understand when the universe is playing with you. I like, 116 00:13:26.480 --> 00:13:31.080 when the universe play with me, I'm like, yes, are you 117 00:13:31.120 --> 00:13:35.039 can we play a game? Are you ready to play a game? Like? 118 00:13:35.519 --> 00:13:39.519 I like the games that the universe play with me, but not all 119 00:13:39.559 --> 00:13:43.000 of them, not all the games. All the games don't be fun, 120 00:13:43.159 --> 00:13:48.799 but a lot of times the games to be fun. What is this trying 121 00:13:48.840 --> 00:13:54.039 to tell me that's a game with the universe? What the fuck is the 122 00:13:54.120 --> 00:13:56.759 universe trying to tell me I had a bed through this ship twenty five times? 123 00:13:58.000 --> 00:14:01.440 Well I don't, but you probably really was what it's trying to tell 124 00:14:01.480 --> 00:14:05.519 you? Why the fuck do you have to take a test twenty five times? 125 00:14:05.639 --> 00:14:09.879 Ask yourself that this is working on yourself? Why do I have to 126 00:14:09.919 --> 00:14:15.399 take a test twenty five A life test, nigga, not a test in 127 00:14:15.480 --> 00:14:28.480 school, A life test. A life test. Niggas be wasting years of 128 00:14:28.519 --> 00:14:41.159 their life doing the same shit over and over and over and over and over 129 00:14:41.480 --> 00:14:48.799 and over, like I want my life to change, Nigga, you gotta 130 00:14:48.960 --> 00:14:56.679 change. Niggas be wanting a life to change and don't do shit about it. 131 00:15:00.279 --> 00:15:05.840 How do I know that because I'm that person too. My life was 132 00:15:05.879 --> 00:15:15.960 the same for a very long time because I refuse to change it now. 133 00:15:16.240 --> 00:15:22.360 The tough part is when you gotta go against society, when you gotta go 134 00:15:22.399 --> 00:15:26.039 against your family, when you gotta go against what you know, when you 135 00:15:26.120 --> 00:15:33.519 gotta when you gotta go against everything. But if you're trying to change your 136 00:15:33.600 --> 00:15:43.960 life, nigga, you're gonna have to go against everything. I don't have 137 00:15:43.039 --> 00:15:48.200 to. I'dn't went up against every person in my life, like I'm on 138 00:15:48.279 --> 00:15:54.320 the last level of a fucking game trying to defeat the boss. Nigga. 139 00:15:54.480 --> 00:16:00.000 I didn't had to go up against everybody in my fucking life. And guess 140 00:16:00.000 --> 00:16:08.519 what, these niggas be your family. It'd be the people closest to you. 141 00:16:15.960 --> 00:16:18.360 I gotta go through a life battle. I gotta go through a life 142 00:16:18.440 --> 00:16:26.639 lesson with the closest niggas in my life. So yeah, if I already 143 00:16:26.639 --> 00:16:30.440 got to deal with that with my family, when I look at the niggas 144 00:16:30.480 --> 00:16:36.679 around me, What what what are we doing? If niggas got to go 145 00:16:36.720 --> 00:16:45.480 through life battles, life challenges, nigga life lessons with a family, Why 146 00:16:45.519 --> 00:16:53.120 the fuck do I want to go through that with you? I talked about 147 00:16:53.159 --> 00:17:00.120 this all the time. My favorite worst question in a job interview. Tell 148 00:17:00.159 --> 00:17:03.919 me about the time that you had a conflict with a car worker. Nigga, 149 00:17:03.960 --> 00:17:08.279 I'm coolest fuck with the gang talking about why would I want to have 150 00:17:08.440 --> 00:17:14.440 beef with niggas at work? We get nigga, we got a good vibe 151 00:17:14.480 --> 00:17:17.200 over here, we got a good moround going on over here. Why the 152 00:17:17.279 --> 00:17:21.759 fuck will we have conflict? But niggas like conflict. I'm a cool last 153 00:17:21.920 --> 00:17:26.720 nigga. I'm in the I'm in the corner with the cool niggas were trying 154 00:17:26.720 --> 00:17:33.440 to be cold. So yes, nigga, I come home. I want 155 00:17:33.440 --> 00:17:44.640 to have a decompressed sigh. But man, it's just it's a lot has 156 00:17:44.640 --> 00:17:52.359 been going on. But damn, I ain't even talk sea niggas. I 157 00:17:52.480 --> 00:18:11.079 taught two yoga classes this week. I talked two yoga classes this week. 158 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:17.799 I am so fucking proud of myself, bro, Like, oh my god, 159 00:18:17.920 --> 00:18:19.640 have I never been proud of myself, Nigga, I'm so proud of 160 00:18:19.680 --> 00:18:26.559 myself. I feel like I feel like I've stepped into my higher self. 161 00:18:26.599 --> 00:18:29.440 I feel like my higher self is like, we're fucking proud of you, 162 00:18:30.359 --> 00:18:33.680 nigga, standing ovation. Like I'm so fucking proud of myself, and I 163 00:18:33.759 --> 00:18:38.240 feel like I'm at my highest potential. I feel like I'm doing my best. 164 00:18:38.640 --> 00:18:45.000 You know what I'm saying. I'm very fucking proud of myself. I 165 00:18:45.000 --> 00:18:53.559 have never been this proud of myself. I am proud of myself, and 166 00:18:53.680 --> 00:18:59.079 I think my life is a reflection of that. If somebody seeing me, 167 00:18:59.119 --> 00:19:03.240 they probably like them you proud of yourself, Like, yes, I'm proud 168 00:19:03.240 --> 00:19:06.799 of my I'm proud of my accomplishments. I'm proud of my life. I'm 169 00:19:06.799 --> 00:19:14.240 proud of the person that I am. You walk with the energy that you're 170 00:19:14.279 --> 00:19:25.119 proud of yourself. So, yes, I talked to classes this week. 171 00:19:25.400 --> 00:19:30.480 I'm proud of myself for that. I'm very fucking proud. I'm proud of 172 00:19:30.519 --> 00:19:38.160 my progress. I'm proud of my gross I'm proud of my progress. Nigga. 173 00:19:38.160 --> 00:19:41.759 I ain't never seen me just get shit and just be both boo nigga, 174 00:19:41.839 --> 00:19:45.319 next level, next level, next level, pouring it, but I 175 00:19:45.480 --> 00:19:51.000 pouring into myself, A nigga going up every day. I'm feeling better every 176 00:19:51.079 --> 00:19:56.039 day. I'm feeling good every day, like the progress when I'm on my 177 00:19:56.079 --> 00:20:00.680 own fucking path, when I'm doing my own fucking thing, when I'm listening 178 00:20:00.720 --> 00:20:04.960 to myself. Yeah, I'm gonna progress because I know what's best for me. 179 00:20:07.319 --> 00:20:12.440 I'm proud of my growth. Yes, for fucking grow. Oh my 180 00:20:12.759 --> 00:20:18.519 god. But I'm gonna be honest. I never felt like I was a 181 00:20:18.599 --> 00:20:23.519 childish ShaSS bitch. I never felt like that. But even but no, 182 00:20:23.759 --> 00:20:40.319 but you can. You can grow up many other ways. Though I'm proud 183 00:20:40.359 --> 00:20:45.960 of my discipline. I don't do everything every day, but I'll tell you 184 00:20:47.000 --> 00:20:57.599 this, I do have some form of discipline, discipline through yoga to get 185 00:20:57.680 --> 00:21:11.400 up and do something every day, because that helps me mentally. It provides 186 00:21:11.519 --> 00:21:18.640 clarity, It provides focus, It provides balance, It helps me physically, 187 00:21:18.880 --> 00:21:30.759 It strengthens me, and it provides that This one because I do it every 188 00:21:30.839 --> 00:21:33.720 day. But I do it every day why because I love how it makes 189 00:21:33.759 --> 00:21:41.839 me feel. It gives me balance, It gives me clarity in my life. 190 00:21:45.680 --> 00:21:51.559 A lot of niggas is shook up. Niggas shook up in life. 191 00:21:52.759 --> 00:21:56.599 I don't want to be shaken up. I want to be clear, I 192 00:21:56.680 --> 00:22:07.559 want to be grounded. I want to feel rude it. So, I'm 193 00:22:07.559 --> 00:22:15.759 proud of my growth. I'm proud of my progress. Oh, I'm proud 194 00:22:15.799 --> 00:22:23.319 of my strength, nigga. I'm proud of my strength. But actually I'm 195 00:22:23.359 --> 00:22:29.000 not really surprised by that. Uh shout out to all the strong black women. 196 00:22:30.079 --> 00:22:33.759 That's our life, nigga. A black woman's life is strength, nigga. 197 00:22:33.880 --> 00:22:41.759 What what y'all thought it was anything else? A black woman's life is 198 00:22:41.880 --> 00:22:49.720 strength, nigga. You know I'm shit. We carry on our black nigga. 199 00:22:52.279 --> 00:22:57.200 The fact that I'm laughing because this shit is comical to me. A 200 00:22:57.359 --> 00:23:07.359 black woman's life is strength, ain't And sometimes we be kind of mad that 201 00:23:07.400 --> 00:23:11.480 we gotta be proud to be like that. Like, can I take a 202 00:23:11.559 --> 00:23:15.960 break? Can I lay back? Un? Can I be a Can I 203 00:23:17.079 --> 00:23:23.759 be a fucking king? Can I be a fucking lady? Bro? Bro, 204 00:23:23.960 --> 00:23:30.400 I don't want to be strange. I don't want to be strange, 205 00:23:30.279 --> 00:23:37.079 nigga. I don't wanna fucking be strength. You got the muscles. I 206 00:23:37.200 --> 00:23:42.960 want to be a fucking lady. I want to relax. I wanna kick 207 00:23:44.119 --> 00:23:52.640 back. I don't want to be in the field. Y'all niggas are sick 208 00:23:52.720 --> 00:24:06.319 at fuck. Oh my god, but no, we are required to be 209 00:24:06.480 --> 00:24:11.960 strong period as humans sniggers, not just as women are me and like, 210 00:24:12.960 --> 00:24:18.359 you need to have some strength for real. And that's the thing. I 211 00:24:18.400 --> 00:24:22.000 ain't gonna lie. Oh this is so crazy. I love key, don't 212 00:24:22.039 --> 00:24:29.039 be wanting to ask sometimes I don't me want to ask for strength. I 213 00:24:29.039 --> 00:24:32.720 ain't gonna lie because I know what comes with that. Like, damn, 214 00:24:33.920 --> 00:24:36.640 this is thing about to put some battles on me, like you know, 215 00:24:36.839 --> 00:24:42.559 like baby, but that's what I'm saying. Like, sometimes as a woman, 216 00:24:44.480 --> 00:24:49.519 I get tired of being strong. Bro, that shit is that shit 217 00:24:49.680 --> 00:24:57.680 wearing tear on my body? It for fucking real. Literally, people be 218 00:24:57.720 --> 00:25:07.960 walking around with burdens on their back. Seriously, though, people walk around 219 00:25:07.000 --> 00:25:22.160 with burdens on their back, whatever it is, financial burdens, emotional burdens, 220 00:25:22.920 --> 00:25:30.759 physical burdens. That shit requires a lot of fucking strength and at some 221 00:25:30.880 --> 00:25:40.200 point you're not gonna be able to hold it up. At some point you're 222 00:25:40.240 --> 00:25:42.559 not gonna be able to hold up the burdens in your life. That shit 223 00:25:42.680 --> 00:25:52.519 is gonna break you the fuck down. So yeah, the people around me, 224 00:25:52.759 --> 00:25:56.160 Hell no, I don't want you to be a fucking burden in my 225 00:25:56.240 --> 00:26:02.480 life. I have enough burdens on my back. But again, you can't 226 00:26:02.519 --> 00:26:10.039 pour into people that don't pour back. So yes, life, you need 227 00:26:10.119 --> 00:26:12.039 to decompress. You need to take a brand at the end of the day. 228 00:26:15.839 --> 00:26:19.680 But overall, well, shit, I can't even say overall, because 229 00:26:19.799 --> 00:26:23.640 you know I'm always fifty fifty. I can see both sides. I just 230 00:26:23.680 --> 00:26:29.480 see both sides. I ain't gonna lie. The bad be bad, but 231 00:26:29.559 --> 00:26:34.599 the good be good, you know. But again, you gotta have that 232 00:26:34.720 --> 00:26:40.599 balance. You gotta have that balance, man, Yeah, you gotta have 233 00:26:40.640 --> 00:26:44.160 balance. Okay, I'd had enough bad. Put a little extra good on 234 00:26:44.240 --> 00:26:47.559 my plate. Please put the good on. Yeah, let me get an 235 00:26:47.559 --> 00:26:51.640 extra good. Let me get some extra good. Nigga's out here extra bad, 236 00:26:52.400 --> 00:27:02.039 niggas out here extra bad. But you gotta have that balance. Um 237 00:27:02.200 --> 00:27:06.839 acceptance. You gotta know how to accept the good and you gotta know how 238 00:27:06.839 --> 00:27:11.279 to accept the bad. And that's the thing we don't We don't want to 239 00:27:11.279 --> 00:27:15.160 do nothing uncomfortable because niggas can accept good all day. Oh, give it 240 00:27:15.160 --> 00:27:15.839 to me, give it to me, Give it to me, gigas, 241 00:27:18.039 --> 00:27:19.200 give it to give it to me, give it to me, give it. 242 00:27:19.240 --> 00:27:22.880 Niggas want. Niggas want all the good. You can't accept the bad 243 00:27:22.920 --> 00:27:27.799 though. Oh no, oh no, this is bad, This is uncomfortable. 244 00:27:29.079 --> 00:27:33.640 This, oh no, oh no, oh no. I can't take 245 00:27:33.680 --> 00:27:41.400 bad like but you can take the good though. So acceptance being able to 246 00:27:41.440 --> 00:27:48.279 accept what it is, and that's a that's a toughie. That's a tough 247 00:27:48.359 --> 00:28:04.359 one. Acceptance ship for what it is. And I think that in order 248 00:28:04.400 --> 00:28:10.400 to be able to accept shit for what it is, or it's easier to 249 00:28:10.440 --> 00:28:14.559 accept shit for what it is when you can accept yourself for what you are. 250 00:28:17.319 --> 00:28:21.319 Because again, the main focus in my life is me. So yeah, 251 00:28:21.400 --> 00:28:25.000 I care about other ship, but not that deep because I care more 252 00:28:25.000 --> 00:28:32.839 about what's going on with me. So whatever, accepting whatever outside of me, 253 00:28:32.920 --> 00:28:40.000 but accepting myself, because that's the thing. It's a lot of people 254 00:28:40.039 --> 00:28:45.720 that are not going to accept you. There are people that are not going 255 00:28:45.799 --> 00:28:52.160 to accept you for who you are, whether that be your race, your 256 00:28:52.319 --> 00:28:57.799 gender, just the person that you choose to be. I just I don't 257 00:28:57.799 --> 00:29:04.319 accept you for who you are, Like, damn what. So yeah, 258 00:29:04.359 --> 00:29:07.920 I'm gonna accept myself. I'm not gonna be trying to get in with this 259 00:29:08.240 --> 00:29:12.759 or that, or you or them like. I'm gonna just be good with 260 00:29:12.839 --> 00:29:15.880 myself. I accept myself ware who I am. I don't give a fuck 261 00:29:15.920 --> 00:29:22.160 about other niggas accepting me. I accept me. We care too much about 262 00:29:22.279 --> 00:29:30.720 other fucking people, and I just don't give a fuck. Why should you 263 00:29:30.759 --> 00:29:34.559 give a fuck. I'm trying to tell y'all that life would just be so 264 00:29:34.640 --> 00:29:41.240 simple if niggas just worried about themselves and focused on themselves, you'll get very 265 00:29:41.319 --> 00:29:45.319 far. You don't have to run into a nigga like because you're on your 266 00:29:45.319 --> 00:29:51.960 own fucking path. You don't ever have to run into anybody else when you're 267 00:29:52.000 --> 00:29:55.640 on your own fucking path. It ain't nobody on my way over here, 268 00:29:55.720 --> 00:30:00.599 nigga only I'm not only I know where I'm gonna This is my path, 269 00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:17.440 got your own path? So yeah, But one thing that I wanted to 270 00:30:17.480 --> 00:30:29.240 share is just that I hope that I can inspire at least one person listening 271 00:30:29.279 --> 00:30:36.319 to this, to a person that feels like they're lost in the world. 272 00:30:36.720 --> 00:30:40.240 You know what I'm saying, It just don't know where they're going, don't 273 00:30:40.240 --> 00:30:45.599 know what's happening, feel like they're constantly in the same cycle. And you 274 00:30:45.640 --> 00:30:49.680 know what I'm saying, it just can't figure ship out. Like there's a 275 00:30:49.720 --> 00:31:00.200 way, there's a way. But you have to tap into yourself. You 276 00:31:00.279 --> 00:31:10.200 gotta tap into your own fucking power. You You literally have power. You 277 00:31:10.400 --> 00:31:18.960 literally have power. The ship that y'all see me on is powers, nigga, 278 00:31:18.680 --> 00:31:30.279 these are powers within me. If you sit there and literally watch somebody 279 00:31:30.279 --> 00:31:42.519 transform their life, what you think they aren't, It ain't nothing over here 280 00:31:42.559 --> 00:31:55.319 with me. It's just me. You are powerful. You are powerful, 281 00:32:00.480 --> 00:32:07.519 and that strength, but not me talking about I look and you don't be 282 00:32:07.599 --> 00:32:15.160 wanting to ask for no you know, no battles because it requires strength, 283 00:32:15.160 --> 00:32:20.759 but not for real because that shit that should be tough, not You made 284 00:32:20.759 --> 00:32:27.240 me one of your toughest soldiers. This nig made me one of his toughest 285 00:32:27.440 --> 00:32:36.480 soldiers. White mean white me, And that's sad. That's sad. I 286 00:32:36.559 --> 00:32:38.400 get upset with myself when I do that, when I say, why mean 287 00:32:38.480 --> 00:32:49.359 what you mean? Because you that girl, That's why what you mean why 288 00:32:49.480 --> 00:32:59.599 mean you that girl? That's why tap into your power. And that's what 289 00:32:59.680 --> 00:33:02.559 I'm say. You gotta know how to talk to yourself. You gotta know 290 00:33:02.640 --> 00:33:07.119 how to talk to yourself. I would be damned of a motherfucker thought that 291 00:33:07.160 --> 00:33:09.720 I don't talk to myself. I talk to myself all the fucking time. 292 00:33:10.279 --> 00:33:15.440 Shit, that's the only person I talk to. I talk to myself the 293 00:33:15.519 --> 00:33:22.960 most. If you are here on the phone with somebody for hours on end, 294 00:33:23.240 --> 00:33:25.640 come here, let me check in with you. How much time are 295 00:33:25.640 --> 00:33:30.920 you giving yourself? You on the phone with a motherfucking for twelve hours a 296 00:33:31.160 --> 00:33:42.599 day. Baby, I'm talking to myself all day. And everybody does talk 297 00:33:42.640 --> 00:33:47.240 to themselves. But the question is, how do you talk to yourself? 298 00:33:52.359 --> 00:33:57.559 If you talk to yourself in a negative manner ninety five percent of the time, 299 00:33:58.400 --> 00:34:02.039 guess how you're gonna act. It's almost like a parent and a child. 300 00:34:06.200 --> 00:34:12.159 However you treat yourself however you talking to yourself. And you know a 301 00:34:12.280 --> 00:34:15.400 child is small. A child just takes it in. A child, you 302 00:34:15.400 --> 00:34:22.199 know what I'm saying. And that's what you do to yourself. So are 303 00:34:22.239 --> 00:34:31.360 you beating yourself down or are you building yourself up? Hopefully building. I 304 00:34:31.400 --> 00:34:50.119 ain't fucking with beating self sabotage. Oh I'm sick. I ever got connected 305 00:34:50.159 --> 00:34:53.400 to that bitch? How do we even meet? How to fuck did I 306 00:34:53.400 --> 00:34:58.079 I want? I wanna know? Please take me back to the place in 307 00:34:58.119 --> 00:35:02.800 my life when when I learned self sa aabotage? Because what the fuck I 308 00:35:02.920 --> 00:35:07.760 wish my higher self was there? How the fuck did we let this bitch 309 00:35:07.760 --> 00:35:15.480 slip through the cracks? Because this bitch is a fighter. This bitch don't 310 00:35:15.519 --> 00:35:28.920 miss a day self sabotage. It's one thing to sabotage something else, nigga, 311 00:35:28.960 --> 00:35:37.960 it's another thing to sabotage yourself. But if you're a person that's self 312 00:35:38.000 --> 00:35:45.440 sabotages, how can you not sabotage everything else around you? You sabotage yourself. 313 00:35:46.280 --> 00:35:51.000 So again, an even deeper issue. What do we got going on? 314 00:35:51.159 --> 00:35:53.599 Let's pull back the layers here, let's work on ourselves. This is 315 00:35:53.639 --> 00:35:57.960 what I'm saying. People be worried about the wrong shit. You need to 316 00:35:58.000 --> 00:36:02.880 be focused on yourself about a lot going on. It's a lot to peel 317 00:36:02.960 --> 00:36:07.079 back. A motherfucker meets you on the street, get your number now, 318 00:36:07.159 --> 00:36:09.519 y'all together, and then they're like, whoa, you got a lot of 319 00:36:09.559 --> 00:36:16.480 shit going on, bro, what the fuck? But you wouldn't know that. 320 00:36:16.599 --> 00:36:23.760 They wouldn't know that because they don't focus on themselves. That's why it's 321 00:36:23.760 --> 00:36:29.840 important to be intentional with people, because if a person is out here not 322 00:36:30.039 --> 00:36:38.679 focusing on themselves and they fucking with you, that's gonna trickle over into your 323 00:36:38.719 --> 00:36:50.000 life. That's gonna affect you, that's gonna change your energy. So again, 324 00:36:50.360 --> 00:37:04.239 just focusing on yourself, working on yourself. People talking about that healing, 325 00:37:04.280 --> 00:37:07.519 Are you really healing out here? Are you healing or are you the 326 00:37:07.719 --> 00:37:30.079 villain? That's two different things. Villain is just bad. They don't just 327 00:37:30.079 --> 00:37:36.320 just bad. Healing is like, I'm working on it. I'm I'm getting 328 00:37:36.360 --> 00:37:40.679 better, I'm accepting the pain. I'm accepting how I feel, I'm excepting, 329 00:37:40.719 --> 00:37:49.760 you know, I'm accepting what I'm going through. I'm healing. So 330 00:37:51.400 --> 00:37:53.559 yeah, man, life is a fucking lot, so I don't really got 331 00:37:53.559 --> 00:38:02.000 to try to be worried about anything outside of my fucking self. But my 332 00:38:02.119 --> 00:38:12.679 body is just very Yeah, I'm very sore right now. But also, 333 00:38:14.280 --> 00:38:29.639 m why are you sore? Growing pains? Growing pains? Oh you stretching 334 00:38:29.960 --> 00:38:35.440 you growing. Oh yeah, because why the fuck about just randomly not randomly 335 00:38:35.519 --> 00:38:43.360 sore? But you know, you do have those days, and I guess 336 00:38:43.400 --> 00:38:45.880 if you go like extra extra hard. But life, for the most part, 337 00:38:45.960 --> 00:38:50.320 feel like I haven't really been sore lately, growing pains. I also, 338 00:38:50.440 --> 00:38:52.159 yeah, I've been getting a lot of symptoms, not that I think 339 00:38:52.239 --> 00:38:58.639 about it, Like yesterday, man, was it two days in a row 340 00:38:59.159 --> 00:39:04.400 or was it just your I had a dog ass headache yesterday. No, 341 00:39:04.519 --> 00:39:08.840 I was probably like two days and my stomach was herry y'all's been like, 342 00:39:08.840 --> 00:39:12.199 bitch, you got COVID. No, it wasn't. No, it was 343 00:39:12.239 --> 00:39:21.239 just like, I don't I don't attribute that to being sick. It was 344 00:39:21.280 --> 00:39:22.880 just like, I don't know. I felt like I was just going through 345 00:39:22.920 --> 00:39:39.800 something, and I am. I've been going through a lot. Like I 346 00:39:39.800 --> 00:39:44.039 said, I'm proud of my progress. I'm proud of my growth, Like 347 00:39:50.360 --> 00:39:55.199 I've grown as a person mentally, I've grown as a woman. I've grown 348 00:39:55.239 --> 00:40:07.280 as a mother. That's another thing, bro, I am so proud of 349 00:40:07.280 --> 00:40:16.599 myself as a mother. Like when I look at my son, I'm I'm 350 00:40:16.719 --> 00:40:30.559 raising an amazing person. Like what type of person are you raising? And 351 00:40:30.639 --> 00:40:36.360 that's what you think too. Sometimes when you're dating a person, like it's 352 00:40:36.400 --> 00:40:38.599 like, oh, parents raise you to act like this, to treat people 353 00:40:38.639 --> 00:40:42.519 like this? Like what type of person are you? Know what I'm saying, 354 00:40:42.679 --> 00:40:47.280 Like you look at people and wonder how they were raised. Why would 355 00:40:47.320 --> 00:40:51.039 you do that to a person? Why would you treat a person like that? 356 00:40:54.480 --> 00:40:57.719 And people's parents love to walk around and say that like, oh, 357 00:40:57.760 --> 00:41:00.320 they wasn't raised like that. I didn't raise them like that. What they 358 00:41:00.400 --> 00:41:10.719 act like that? They act like that because that's who they are, That's 359 00:41:10.760 --> 00:41:28.440 who the fuck they are. I'm raising an amazing person. I think a 360 00:41:28.519 --> 00:41:30.840 lot. Well, yeah, I feel like kids. I think all kids 361 00:41:30.880 --> 00:41:36.159 start out good. All kids start out innocent, All kids start out pure. 362 00:41:36.320 --> 00:41:42.480 That's how we all start out until until you know, the world taints 363 00:41:42.599 --> 00:41:52.880 us. And some people don't come back after they get tainted. But I 364 00:41:53.000 --> 00:42:01.159 genuine believe, I genuinely believe that I'm a good person, so I teach 365 00:42:01.280 --> 00:42:06.880 my son to be a good person. My son is a good person to 366 00:42:07.039 --> 00:42:13.880 everybody. He's very nice. He's very nice, and unfortunately, sometimes in 367 00:42:13.960 --> 00:42:19.159 life, if you're nice, you know, you might you might get walked 368 00:42:19.199 --> 00:42:29.119 over. But that's why you gotta have discernment, you know what I'm saying. 369 00:42:29.880 --> 00:42:31.199 But this, but again, these a lot of type of things that 370 00:42:31.239 --> 00:42:37.519 you gotta teach your kids, the real things that matter. How how how 371 00:42:37.559 --> 00:42:45.199 are you gonna survive in life? If you die a morl knock on wood? 372 00:42:49.800 --> 00:42:59.840 Is your kid gonna be able to survive in life? So yeah, 373 00:43:00.039 --> 00:43:07.719 So I'm just I'm so proud of my growth. Man, I'm just I'm 374 00:43:07.719 --> 00:43:12.159 just looking at myself again. I feel like I feel like I'm my higher 375 00:43:12.199 --> 00:43:16.000 self, looking at myself. Be the best, be at my highest potential, 376 00:43:17.000 --> 00:43:22.000 doing the best that I can do, putting my best foot for clearly 377 00:43:22.039 --> 00:43:30.360 a business putting her best foot forward. You're doing the best you've ever done. 378 00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:37.960 And that's what happens when you focus on yourself. I can't focus on 379 00:43:37.039 --> 00:43:42.880 nothing else but me, Baby, I'm looking at me. I'm looking at 380 00:43:42.920 --> 00:43:55.760 me. You looking good today, girl, focusing on myself because you see 381 00:43:55.760 --> 00:44:01.360 what happens when you focus on other things. You see how you start to 382 00:44:01.440 --> 00:44:08.000 deteriorate. You see how you start to drain. You see you see how 383 00:44:08.000 --> 00:44:15.679 you start to change when you focus on other things. Don't let it be 384 00:44:15.719 --> 00:44:29.079 a distraction, because a distraction is coming in hot, it's coming in tempting, 385 00:44:30.719 --> 00:44:37.400 it's coming in looking good. It's coming to distract you. It's coming 386 00:44:37.440 --> 00:44:46.400 to throw you off, off your track, off your path. A nigga 387 00:44:46.400 --> 00:44:51.440 out here walking their path and a distraction will come and knock you off. 388 00:44:51.760 --> 00:44:55.920 Bitch, get out of here, get moved. That's what a distraction does. 389 00:45:00.199 --> 00:45:02.760 I don't need it. I don't need it. That's why I need 390 00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:06.679 to be focused. So yeah, I'm gonna be disciplined to get up and 391 00:45:06.679 --> 00:45:15.519 do yoga every day because I need to be focused. I love balancing poses. 392 00:45:16.760 --> 00:45:22.719 That's why I have so much fucking balance in my life. Oh you're 393 00:45:22.760 --> 00:45:27.159 spiritual as fuck. You really be awesome shit, but you also kind of 394 00:45:27.239 --> 00:45:30.719 ratchet though. But it's a balance. You're a real nigga. You're a 395 00:45:30.760 --> 00:45:42.840 real nigga. But in order to have balance in your life, you have 396 00:45:42.960 --> 00:45:47.360 to have focused or else you're gonna be wobbly. That's why your gaze has 397 00:45:47.360 --> 00:45:52.719 to be on something. You have to be looking at something to hold you 398 00:45:52.800 --> 00:46:02.840 in place. You gotta focus to be balanced. If you're worried about custon, 399 00:46:02.880 --> 00:46:07.559 because I'm worried about that. You're worried about all the ship in the 400 00:46:07.639 --> 00:46:13.079 fucking world. Nigga. No, you're not gonna have balance. You're gonna 401 00:46:13.079 --> 00:46:17.159 be all over the place. Who you look like you're about to topple over. 402 00:46:19.480 --> 00:46:24.559 I'm over here, still grounded and rooted in myself, in my truth, 403 00:46:24.840 --> 00:46:30.159 what I stand for, what I say. I'm on ten toes about 404 00:46:30.199 --> 00:46:36.960 this shit. Nigga. I'm gonna go to war for myself. Nigga Warrior 405 00:46:37.119 --> 00:46:43.239 A opening up to Warrior B, reversing that war. Yes, I'm gonna 406 00:46:43.239 --> 00:46:49.840 go to war about myself. I don't play about me no more. I 407 00:46:50.039 --> 00:46:55.159 used to. I don't play about me no more now though, because I 408 00:46:55.159 --> 00:47:00.360 I see my value, I know my words, I know what I bring 409 00:47:00.440 --> 00:47:06.840 to the table. You ain't see it, niggabye fuck out of here. 410 00:47:15.000 --> 00:47:21.320 Yes, it's just so much. Life is so fucking much. Life is 411 00:47:21.320 --> 00:47:29.679 so fucking much. Gotta get focused, Gotta get on your game, gotta 412 00:47:29.719 --> 00:47:36.239 get on your aim. Because time is everything, Time is money, Time 413 00:47:36.360 --> 00:47:37.480 is money. Let me share, Let me share it, let me share 414 00:47:37.480 --> 00:47:40.480 it with you, Let me keep it a buck, let me keep it 415 00:47:40.559 --> 00:47:51.559 all the way the fuck real. Y'all know that the yoga studio that I 416 00:47:51.599 --> 00:47:55.159 was working at in October. You know that they closed down November thirtieth. 417 00:47:55.519 --> 00:48:00.400 Remember the girl sent the email and was like, Hey, I don't really 418 00:48:00.400 --> 00:48:02.519 give a fuck about your families, but I can't do this no more. 419 00:48:02.920 --> 00:48:07.519 I gotta worry about my family. Yeah, the yoga studio was closing. 420 00:48:07.000 --> 00:48:14.679 Remember that I didn't have a job. When I was going through yoga teacher 421 00:48:14.719 --> 00:48:20.639 training. All I could think about was how the fuck am I gonna pay 422 00:48:20.719 --> 00:48:25.760 for this? Am I gonna still be able to do this? Am I 423 00:48:25.800 --> 00:48:35.360 gonna be able to finish this? As soon as I started that, bitch, 424 00:48:35.599 --> 00:48:40.039 my job was over. I'm like, what the fuck? But that's 425 00:48:40.079 --> 00:48:45.280 what I'm saying. Give gives his toughest battles to his toughest shoulders, his 426 00:48:45.480 --> 00:48:52.119 soldiers, and then God had to stick it out. I had to stick 427 00:48:52.159 --> 00:48:55.039 it out. I had to figure it out. I just paid my yoga 428 00:48:55.039 --> 00:49:00.320 teacher training off today. Yes I graduated, but I had to pay for 429 00:49:00.480 --> 00:49:07.400 it. So again, when it came back to that, every opportunity doesn't 430 00:49:07.440 --> 00:49:14.239 come with a paycheck. I didn't mind having to work that off, but 431 00:49:14.400 --> 00:49:22.719 that's tough to have to work for something and not you know, reap the 432 00:49:22.760 --> 00:49:29.400 bit the benefits financially at all. So that's what it means to put your 433 00:49:29.480 --> 00:49:38.079 blood, sweating tears into something. But I had to work for that, 434 00:49:38.320 --> 00:49:46.000 Nick, I had to work for that. So I'm proud of fuck of 435 00:49:46.199 --> 00:49:52.159 myself. Today. I felt like a burden was lifted. But I worked 436 00:49:52.159 --> 00:50:00.360 for that. I did that myself. I would have never appreciated did it 437 00:50:00.440 --> 00:50:05.199 truly if it was given to me. I worked for that. I did 438 00:50:05.280 --> 00:50:09.079 that. This is something that I hold deeply within myself. This is this 439 00:50:09.400 --> 00:50:15.719 me accomplishing. This is deeply rooted in myself. And when I look back, 440 00:50:15.000 --> 00:50:17.440 I don't have Oh yeah, I paid for this, Like you know 441 00:50:17.480 --> 00:50:20.960 what I'm saying, somebody else did it for me? What if somebody gave 442 00:50:20.960 --> 00:50:27.519 it to me? Like I worked for this physically, mentally, spiritually, 443 00:50:27.760 --> 00:50:35.559 emotionally. I poured myself into this. I worked for this. I did 444 00:50:35.679 --> 00:50:40.800 this. So today I was happy as fuck, and I'm just happy that, 445 00:50:42.039 --> 00:50:51.599 like how fast everything is happening for me. I'm happy to have a 446 00:50:51.639 --> 00:51:01.840 place to call a home, Like this is the tribe that I was asking 447 00:51:01.960 --> 00:51:07.440 for when I'm like, man, I just please align me with my people, 448 00:51:07.800 --> 00:51:12.239 align me with my people that know me, that understand me. That 449 00:51:12.400 --> 00:51:16.760 just feel me. You ever met niggas like that, that know you, 450 00:51:16.880 --> 00:51:21.760 that feel you, that understand like, nigga, we're not the same people. 451 00:51:21.920 --> 00:51:25.719 We ain't come from the same mama. You like feel like, dangn 452 00:51:28.400 --> 00:51:35.400 this my soul tried, These my niggas, these my people. That's what 453 00:51:35.480 --> 00:51:43.000 this is for me. I'm aligned with my people. I'm grateful for that. 454 00:51:43.119 --> 00:51:45.719 I'm thankful for that, you know what I'm saying. So if you 455 00:51:45.760 --> 00:51:49.440 wake up every day and you're somewhere where you don't belong or you got people 456 00:51:49.440 --> 00:51:52.519 around you that's not supposed to be around you, you're gonna hate that shit. 457 00:51:52.639 --> 00:51:57.559 It's not gonna be good for you. You're gonna hate the niggas in 458 00:51:57.599 --> 00:52:00.480 your life. You're gonna always be arguing with the niggas in life. You're 459 00:52:00.480 --> 00:52:02.760 gonna always have drama with the niggas in your life because them, it's not 460 00:52:02.840 --> 00:52:08.119 your people. The universe is trying to get you the fuck away from them, 461 00:52:08.239 --> 00:52:12.880 but you want to stay. I'm just toxic as hell. I like 462 00:52:13.039 --> 00:52:15.599 be into like bitch, No, the universe is trying to save you, 463 00:52:15.719 --> 00:52:23.119 motherfucker. But people go through those same lessons over and no. Like, 464 00:52:23.320 --> 00:52:30.679 bro, you're gonna fuck yourself up. You're gonna fuck yourself up, and 465 00:52:30.760 --> 00:52:34.440 you're gonna hate it. You're gonna fucking hate it. But you could have 466 00:52:34.480 --> 00:52:37.679 been over here with you'all tribe. Nigga. Waking up grateful every day, 467 00:52:37.800 --> 00:52:42.039 waking up thankful every I can see my niggas today. I get to be 468 00:52:42.079 --> 00:52:45.559 around my people. I get to be around the people that I connect with 469 00:52:45.760 --> 00:52:52.519 on an energetic level. Were on the same vibe, but we on the 470 00:52:52.559 --> 00:53:00.599 same frequency. That shit feels good. You talk to somebody and they feel 471 00:53:00.679 --> 00:53:04.800 like home, Like, oh, I man home, Nigga. I can 472 00:53:04.880 --> 00:53:09.199 kick off my shoes okay and relax my feet with a person. I could. 473 00:53:09.400 --> 00:53:14.639 I could let my hair down with a person. I could be vulnerable 474 00:53:14.719 --> 00:53:17.559 with a person. I could be intimate with a person. I can share 475 00:53:17.599 --> 00:53:22.880 with a person. Those are the type of connections that I want. That's 476 00:53:22.880 --> 00:53:30.440 the type of energy that I want around me. We gotta really be connected, 477 00:53:37.320 --> 00:53:40.199 because after you connect with somebody on the physical, that don't mean shit, 478 00:53:40.480 --> 00:53:45.480 Okay, who work? Okay? What else? What else? Nigga? 479 00:53:49.920 --> 00:53:55.000 We gotta be connected on an energetic level. We gotta be connected on 480 00:53:55.039 --> 00:54:07.480 a mental level. That baby, Yes, that's top two. I don't 481 00:54:07.480 --> 00:54:15.559 even know which which one mental or energy or energetic. If you had to 482 00:54:15.679 --> 00:54:23.199 choose mental or energetic. Hold on, let me think, Let me think. 483 00:54:24.599 --> 00:54:32.119 Okay, mental connection, you stimulate me. You you know you're stimulant. 484 00:54:32.119 --> 00:54:36.920 I'm moving. You stimulate me. You get me thinking. You're a 485 00:54:37.079 --> 00:54:43.679 challenge. You know what I'm saying. We could communicate, we can have 486 00:54:43.760 --> 00:54:46.440 conversations, we can go there with each other, we can get deep. 487 00:54:47.159 --> 00:54:52.320 It's not surface level, you know what I'm saying. The mental connection or 488 00:54:52.480 --> 00:54:59.719 energetically again, how I'm at my soul tribe and it's just like we vibe, 489 00:54:59.760 --> 00:55:06.079 we click, were there like we're here because we connect energetically. You 490 00:55:06.159 --> 00:55:10.119 might not even connect energetically with your family. You might not connect energetically with 491 00:55:10.199 --> 00:55:19.280 your man. You might not connect energetically with your friends. What's the energy 492 00:55:19.360 --> 00:55:23.639 like when y'all in the room together, what's the real vibe? This bit 493 00:55:23.760 --> 00:55:28.320 really acting funny? You know what I'm saying. You know what the energy 494 00:55:28.440 --> 00:55:35.320 is? How do you connect with somebody energetically? It's so it's so easy 495 00:55:35.400 --> 00:55:42.880 to read energy. It's so fucking easy. It's so fucking easy to read 496 00:55:42.960 --> 00:55:45.239 energy. Somebody could walk in the room and be looking in a certain type 497 00:55:45.239 --> 00:55:47.920 of way. You like, damn, what's wrong with you? The energy 498 00:55:49.119 --> 00:55:59.280 is off, so stop acting like you can't read it mentally or energetically. 499 00:55:59.320 --> 00:56:07.719 Though, if I had to choose, Uh, I'm gonna pick energetically over 500 00:56:07.840 --> 00:56:15.480 mentally because I already know that everybody ain't got at all. So when you 501 00:56:15.679 --> 00:56:21.599 used to nigga's not having it all. Uh, that's a very big problem. 502 00:56:21.599 --> 00:56:24.679 But I could work with that and try to figure that out. If 503 00:56:24.679 --> 00:56:31.239 it's off energetically, nigga just don't work. Sometimes I meet people, specifically 504 00:56:31.280 --> 00:56:34.760 guys, like if I'm out and I'm hanging, I don't know, and 505 00:56:34.840 --> 00:56:37.119 I really don't do this, but I feel like this does happen sometimes, 506 00:56:37.159 --> 00:56:47.079 Like men will get irritated with me because I don't feed into them because of 507 00:56:47.159 --> 00:56:50.960 their energy. It's like, I don't even want to have a conversation with 508 00:56:51.000 --> 00:56:54.800 you because I can see what type of energy you have. And then you 509 00:56:54.800 --> 00:56:58.239 know, they start treating me a certain type of way or start talking to 510 00:56:58.239 --> 00:57:02.280 me like, see, not you giving off the bad energy because you know 511 00:57:02.320 --> 00:57:06.360 what I'm saying, Like no, but I already read that. I already 512 00:57:06.400 --> 00:57:14.440 read that. So yeah, if the energy is off. And again, 513 00:57:14.559 --> 00:57:16.239 that's why I'm a hermit. That's why I have to be by myself. 514 00:57:16.280 --> 00:57:21.400 That's why I like to be in my bubble, because I read energy and 515 00:57:21.440 --> 00:57:24.960 I'm very protective of my energy. I don't let anything penetrate the aura. 516 00:57:25.079 --> 00:57:28.719 Okay, I don't want that shit. I don't want to be around it. 517 00:57:28.960 --> 00:57:32.480 You I'm not gonna purposely put myself in that position. Hell no, 518 00:57:32.920 --> 00:57:37.559 I worked too hard to get this good energy, this good vibe. That's 519 00:57:37.599 --> 00:57:39.920 why motherfucker's wanted. No, I'm not. It ain't for sale, It 520 00:57:39.920 --> 00:57:44.880 ain't for sale. I created this for myself. This is really my life. 521 00:57:45.800 --> 00:57:51.239 Go find that for yourself. So yeah, just many things, but 522 00:57:52.360 --> 00:57:54.480 um, I don't know. I'm just I'm also just in a very good 523 00:57:54.519 --> 00:57:58.400 place, you know. I'm just also in a very good place. Though, 524 00:57:58.440 --> 00:58:04.960 seriously, just across the board, I just feel fucking great, you 525 00:58:05.000 --> 00:58:07.199 know what I'm saying. And that's the thing to never turning back, never 526 00:58:07.239 --> 00:58:12.760 turning back. I remember in the days when I did not feel like this. 527 00:58:12.920 --> 00:58:16.320 I feel fucking great. I want to I want to keep this momentum 528 00:58:16.360 --> 00:58:21.480 going. I want to stay in this energy. This is the best that 529 00:58:21.519 --> 00:58:25.679 I've ever felt mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically. I feel fucking great 530 00:58:25.679 --> 00:58:30.039 in every aspect of my life. I want to stay here. I want 531 00:58:30.039 --> 00:58:31.639 to continue to pour into this. I want to continue to nurture this and 532 00:58:31.679 --> 00:58:35.760 just get better and better and better and better and better. You know what 533 00:58:35.840 --> 00:58:38.159 I'm saying, Like, why would I not? Why the fuck not? 534 00:58:45.079 --> 00:58:46.920 So Yeah, So I just wanted to come on here and just share that 535 00:58:46.960 --> 00:58:52.280 with y'all. I don't know if there's anything I think I did get pretty 536 00:58:52.280 --> 00:58:55.519 deep, but I say I don't think I had anything too deep to share. 537 00:58:55.679 --> 00:58:59.960 I think that was pretty deep. I think that went pretty Jazmine. 538 00:59:00.039 --> 00:59:01.679 I think that went pretty deep. That's what I'm saying. This is the 539 00:59:01.679 --> 00:59:06.239 life of a Pisces. This is picy season nigga. Like if that wasn't 540 00:59:06.239 --> 00:59:08.199 deeper than the ocean floor already, Like, Nigga, that was pretty deep. 541 00:59:08.440 --> 00:59:13.760 That was pretty fucking deep. That was like fifty nine minute nigga. 542 00:59:13.840 --> 00:59:16.440 That was an hour deep, my nigga. But it can get deeper, 543 00:59:16.480 --> 00:59:20.239 That's what I'm saying. That's what I'm trying to tell niggas. Niggas be 544 00:59:20.280 --> 00:59:23.000 like, damn bitch, all right, that's enough. That'd be too much 545 00:59:23.079 --> 00:59:27.559 for people. It's too intense, it's too much passion, it's too much 546 00:59:27.599 --> 00:59:35.400 for niggas. I get deep as hell, like, damn bitch, we 547 00:59:35.599 --> 00:59:42.920 still digging, Yeah, go deeper, Damn bitch, we still swimming. 548 00:59:43.280 --> 00:59:47.840 Yeah, go deeper, Like I want to get to the bottom of it. 549 00:59:49.320 --> 00:59:53.800 I want to get and it is no bottom. Just keep going deeper, 550 00:59:54.960 --> 01:00:00.840 Just keep going deeper. And that's one of my favorite things to say. 551 01:00:00.880 --> 01:00:05.360 I'm always looking for the deeper meaning of things, like you could never 552 01:00:05.400 --> 01:00:08.119 just it could be something so simple. It could be something so simple, 553 01:00:08.400 --> 01:00:15.119 and I'm gonna over analyze it and Nigga dive into the deepest oceans of figuring 554 01:00:15.159 --> 01:00:17.679 out the answer to it because like it's more to this, but it's more 555 01:00:17.719 --> 01:00:22.679 to this, But it's more to this, it's where did that come from? 556 01:00:22.719 --> 01:00:27.320 Like you know? And I feel like the deeper meaning being the sweet 557 01:00:27.360 --> 01:00:30.079 shit that mean, the sweet shit, the deeper meat like Dane that she 558 01:00:30.199 --> 01:00:34.440 had a deeper meaning. It wasn't you. Nobody cares about the little basic 559 01:00:34.519 --> 01:00:36.679 whatever you threw out there, like Nigga, no, what do this shit 560 01:00:36.800 --> 01:00:45.679 really mean? It's something underneath this, like okay, I am am, 561 01:00:45.679 --> 01:00:49.679 I am I in my season? Am I in my feelings? I'm I. 562 01:00:49.679 --> 01:01:01.000 I don't really think. I don't know, not like m. I'm 563 01:01:01.000 --> 01:01:05.039 always in my feelings, but not like that right now, not that type 564 01:01:05.079 --> 01:01:08.400 of being in my feelings. But I'm definitely always my feelings. That's nigga. 565 01:01:08.440 --> 01:01:10.760 How can you not be in telling your feelings? That's how the fuck 566 01:01:10.800 --> 01:01:17.920 you feel? And that's nigga's problem. You're not even tapped into how you 567 01:01:19.000 --> 01:01:27.199 fucking feel. Gonna gets how you feel. Ignoring how you feel like that's 568 01:01:27.239 --> 01:01:30.880 a that's a that's a real sickness. That's an illness. You should be 569 01:01:31.000 --> 01:01:36.239 tapped into your feelings. I'm numb. I don't feel shit. WHOA get 570 01:01:36.239 --> 01:01:38.960 the funk away from me. That means if you get shot, you don't 571 01:01:39.119 --> 01:01:43.239 like. I'm gonna need you to feel, man, I'm gonna need you 572 01:01:43.280 --> 01:01:52.320 to feel. Knock on what somebody passed away. You should be able to 573 01:01:52.400 --> 01:01:59.800 grieve, you should be able to feel. That's what it means to heal 574 01:02:00.280 --> 01:02:05.599 again, to accept wherever you are with it, to accept the pain, 575 01:02:05.920 --> 01:02:10.159 to accept how you feel it so that you can heal. You trapping the 576 01:02:10.239 --> 01:02:15.159 energy. Oh this made me mad. I'm gonna just keep it inside. 577 01:02:15.480 --> 01:02:17.719 Somebody died and just never deal with it, Like, WHOA, that's a 578 01:02:17.800 --> 01:02:25.599 lot to hold on to. Your body is holding onto those feelings. Your 579 01:02:25.719 --> 01:02:31.119 body is holding onto the way that you feel. That's sick. You're killing 580 01:02:31.159 --> 01:02:38.639 yourself. You don't even have to drink poison. You're holding on to how 581 01:02:38.719 --> 01:02:45.119 something made you feel. You cannot internalize shit. You have to let that 582 01:02:45.159 --> 01:02:51.719 shit go. You have to release that toxin. You have to cry it 583 01:02:51.800 --> 01:02:57.599 out, you have to talk it out. Shit. You might have to 584 01:02:57.639 --> 01:03:06.639 get up and walk it out. You gotta let that shit go again. 585 01:03:06.719 --> 01:03:09.079 Here, I am going deep as fuck like but that's but that's how you 586 01:03:09.079 --> 01:03:13.119 have to think about your life. That's how deep you have to get into 587 01:03:13.159 --> 01:03:16.039 your life. That's how deep you have to get into yourself. So yeah, 588 01:03:16.079 --> 01:03:21.679 I'd be a bit much for niggas cool. That means that you're not 589 01:03:21.719 --> 01:03:25.079 doing the work, and I don't want to be with you anyway. I 590 01:03:25.119 --> 01:03:30.920 want somebody that's working on themselves because it's a lot to work on yourself. 591 01:03:31.679 --> 01:03:37.639 So imagine dealing with somebody that's not working on themselves. Nigga, you fucking 592 01:03:37.719 --> 01:03:46.719 up my progress on myself because you no. So yes, I'm gonna leave 593 01:03:46.800 --> 01:03:53.920 y'all with that. Shall enjoy this episode? Um um um, I don't 594 01:03:53.960 --> 01:03:59.320 know. Go click the link in my bio on Instagram and go get your 595 01:03:59.320 --> 01:04:06.440 tickets to the part party Glowing the Dark Yoga Party. It's gonna be lit, 596 01:04:06.440 --> 01:04:12.559 literally lit, but just a reflection of my life, Just just a 597 01:04:12.599 --> 01:04:18.800 reflection of how I'm feeling about myself, glowing and growing. That's the season. 598 01:04:19.239 --> 01:04:29.679 That's the season I'm in. That's the chapter I'm in. I'm gonna 599 01:04:29.800 --> 01:04:35.480 enjoy this. I'm gonna be present in the moment. I'm not missing anything 600 01:04:35.599 --> 01:04:42.760 here. I'm here for the journey. Baby, I'm here for this. 601 01:04:42.920 --> 01:04:54.119 I love this for myself. You deserve this, you are worthy. It's 602 01:04:54.199 --> 01:05:00.280 my motherfucking season, period, So yes, follow me on all platfor forms 603 01:05:00.280 --> 01:05:03.840 that heaven. My homies Blacker experienced all of that. Um yes, that's 604 01:05:03.840 --> 01:05:05.159 all that I have for you, All about