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This is the two seventeen Recovery Podcast
with Corey Winfield. If you kind of

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look deeper at the situation, you
know, which I'm sure you will,

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because everything that we go through is
an experience that we learned from. And

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Justin Burke, I come right in. I am very sneaky about it.

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You'll be talking to someone and I'll
just come in and sit at my desk

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and just bust one out real quick. It is the ninth of February twenty

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twenty four. My name's Corey Winfield. I'm Justin Burke. Hey, we're

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just gonna bust one out. That
sounds about right. That's what I said.

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Coming in my office. Sit down, We'll bust one out, justin

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yeah, real fast, like because
we're gonna go see some stand up comedy

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tonight at the Traverse City Comedy Club. Yep, mm hmmm. Who's there?

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Oh not for sure, but what
but you know something about them?

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No? Oh yeah, trying to
get no you said something earlier. It

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was funny because you asked me who
was there, and I was like,

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I don't know, some brother from
Muskegan. You're like, oh, that's

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great, it's black guy. Black
guys are really funny. Yeah, that's

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why I tried to walking you into
that conversation, but you didn't know.

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I wasn't being politically. I didn't
want to well because I was like,

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it's racist, justin You're like,
what, what's racist? I was like,

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you just said that black people are
funny. You're like, that's comedians.

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That's not what I was saying,
and what I had you all confused.

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So that's why I think you were
kind of afraid to engage in this

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conversation with me a little bit right
now on the two seventeen Recovery podcast,

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which we talk about recovery, we
talk about our days and our lives in

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recovery. I'm not going to sit
here and tell you that I'm a doctor

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or a therapist or a counselor.
I'm just telling you what I'm going through

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in my own recovery, justin you're
kind of doing the same thing. And

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I have a little over five years, you have a little over four.

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So you know, we're doing the
thing, and we're making dreams come true.

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And there are dreams and other people
they don't have to understand them,

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no, because if you're sitting around
waiting for other people to understand your dreams

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and your goals, you'll be sitting
there forever yep and duck. Yeah,

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that's my experience of it all.
Yeah, And that's what I can share,

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is my experiences. But some people
if you tell them your dreams and

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your goals, Like what if I
tell people I'm going to make a movie

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and they look at me like,
okay, buddy, let them. Yeah,

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it's up to me to make the
movie, you know. And I

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know I've been talking about this movie
a lot lately, but that's something I

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want to do, and that's a
dream and a goal, you know,

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And I will make it one day. It might suck. I doubt it

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will, but it could. I
don't know, but I'm gonna make it.

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Yeah, I'd like to see it. Yeah, and then I'm gonna

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post it to Amazon Prime Video if
they're still around. I don't know.

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Like again, this isn't like,
hey, I'm going to make a movie

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next week or next year even And
those are great goals to set for yourself,

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but I'm not at that point yet, right, you know, I'm

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still in the like investigating what do
I need to do? What do I

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need script? It would be nice, that's what I'm working on now.

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But you have to you have to
take those steps and you have to go

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through that process. If I was
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make a movie by next year,
I'm going to have it completed, Yeah,

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that's unrealistic. That's a very unrealistic
goal. Now, if I have

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a script ready and I have like
like, I'm sure there's like eighty five

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different steps that I need to do
before I even start with the cameras,

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even though I started buying the cameras
first, which they do come in handy.

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Movie we want to mess around and
write fake Colone commercials like we did.

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Yeah, that was the day.
That was great. Yeah. But

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just the fact that knowing where you're
at in your goal setting and when your

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dreams and the stuff you have on
your plate, just know where you're at

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and know that it's a process.
Just like being sober. You can't get

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ten years today, Nope, can't
get ten years tomorrow unless you have nine

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years and three hundred and sixty four
days or whatever. Unless like your sober

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day is ten years tomorrow, then
you can have ten years tomorrow. But

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if you're just trying to be sober, ten years tomorrow and you just started,

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just got out of treatment. That's
not going to happen, So just

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take your time with it and do
the best you can. There's a lady

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that came in our office today and
I guess she's across the way here at

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our little office that we got neighbors
and stuff. And she came across and

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she was like, hey, how
do I don't know. First she asked

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if we had any like audio or
anything like that, or books on being

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sober or wanting to you know,
stop drinking, to help people stop drinking.

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And I chuckled, Ye, you
can't help people stop drinking. People

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gotta want that, you know,
they have to want that, and there

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are tools out there that will help
them. But you know, I didn't

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really correct her in that, and
I was like, here you go.

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And because Mitch was like, well, I why don't we have an app

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or you know, there's our podcast
or no, I said, I go

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out there. So I put my
cape and I fly out to the front.

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Captain save them all here? How
can I help you? But we

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but we started talking and I guess
the guy, I guess, I don't

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know. She does some kind of
therapy or something. But like she knows,

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like she's not a recovering person,
so she doesn't really know, no,

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But so she came over to the
people that do and that was that

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was pretty cool. And I gave
her some books and I think I don't

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even think I've told her about the
podcast, but I don't know. It's

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something that it can't help people.
You know, we we like to go

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around, but we like to have
fun. You know, there's there's that

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factor of it that really keeps us
sober. Yeah, you said something to

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me the other day. You're like, I've just been laughing ever since I

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met you, dude. It's true, though. Yeah, we sent abstract

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art back and forth to each other
and treatment that was so much fun.

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I almost sent you one the other
day. Yeah. Yeah, it was

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fun because you know, art is
art, and you can make art and

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canna have fun. Yeah. It's
one of those little things, man,

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that there's the trick that kind of
pushed me through it this time. And

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I've said it a million times.
When I watched that treatment center for the

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last time for the fifteenth time,
I remember walking down that hall thinking,

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Okay, I can hate this and
just be miserable, or I can say

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screw it, I'm gonna have fun
and I'm gonna learn about myself at the

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same time, right. And I
think that's one thing that helped me though,

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too, because I was at treatment
for my first time, and I

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was learning a lot about myself and
you'd come in on weekends and we would

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laugh, joke, have fun,
actually genuine fun being sober, And I

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think that's one thing that helped me
because it actually showed me that you can

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have fun, genuinely laugh and enjoy
yourself sober, where I'd never realized that

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before in life at all. Yeah, a lot of people don't, and

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they don't and they and they did
it at the time, and I heard

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it many times when I worked at
the treatment center, people going I didn't

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know I could laugh this hard sober, and I'd remind him, whene's the

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last time he left that hard when
you were using, And they'd be like,

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oh, good boy, yeah,
a really good point. I wouldn't

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laughing much at all. I was
just always chasing to the next, you

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know. And the same thing with
drinking. You know, I'm I was

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not saying I am. I was
happiest when I would get home, and

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you know, I'd be shaking,
and I'd grab the bottle and try not

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to knock my teeth out, and
it would take quite a few chugs to

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get the shakes to stop. But
then when it was stopped, that's when

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I would feel like and I don't
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it was a sense of relief.
And then I just I felt normal.

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And in the movie twenty eight Days, have you seen that, Sandra Bullock,

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I think so well. Steve W. Shimmy was in there, and

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I guess he was like running the
treatment center or whatever in the movie.

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I don't remember exactly, but I
think that's pretty close to it, and

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he said something about, you know, drinking just to feel normal, and

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that's what we would kind of try
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you know, I would drink and
the shakes would stop, and then I

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would feel like a sense of relief
or as Steve Buscemi's character said, normal,

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you know, I felt like,
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all right, now I can have
fun, Let's go have fun, guys.

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It wasn't like that at all.
I mean maybe at first in the

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early days, and that wasn't even
funny either. It was just like to

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try to fit in, to be
cool. Yeah, when I was talking

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at Detox the other day, I
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if you want to break it down
and go back to like my childhood,

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and they say, like, all
the trauma that we've had, like we've

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all had in childhood trauma, and
the way we dealt with it was to

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deflect. And some people turn into
bullies, you know, some people,

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you know, go use drugs,
and some people drink. And at first

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I can trace it back to me
being a class clown. And it kind

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of coincides with when my father moved. And because I was like a really

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good student. I liked doing homework, I liked getting good grades. Then

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my dad leaves and I used to
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and actually his dad had left too, but he was kind of like the

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class clown and I thought he was
funny, and I became friends with him

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and we both became like really huge
class clowns. And that was a way

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for me to deflect, you know, for me to just throw some funny

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stuff out there and not really worry
about the homework or what was going on

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in the class. But how could
I fire back quick how can I make

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somebody laugh like that? That's what
my goal was that day. It wasn't

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like, hey, I got to
solve this math problem or I got to

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read this chapter. It was how
can I make people laugh? And then

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where I was in classes with Kurt, that's the guy I was talking about,

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or the kid I guess back then. But if he said something funny,

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I would laugh. And it wasn't
like a, oh, he said

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something funny, I got it.
No, it was like we would like

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challenge each other almost, you know. It wasn't like we were like,

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hey, I'm going to challenge you
today, but it's like if he said

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something funny, I wanted to say
something funny too, And so it just

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became more of like that. And
and that was a way for me to

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deflect, in a way for me
to you know, take away from what

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was really going on outside and feel
better about myself, you know, because

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sure, if I got an A
on a test, okay, but what

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do you take tests every two weeks
or every week? You know, like

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someone will feel good once this whole
week and it's hard and I don't understand

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it. And I could just make
people laugh all day the whole class.

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Laugh. Yeah, be disruptive,
and I'm sure your teacher loved you.

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Some of them did, some of
them did not. Mister Kellogg rest in

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peace. In my senior year,
I was in there and I was just

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going through my routine, you know, and he's like and he like swore

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at me. He was like,
if you need this fucking class to graduate,

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I suggest you get the fuck out
now. And I was like,

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okay, and grab my shit and
just walked out. Went to the office.

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Was like, I'm going to need
a new third hour and they're like

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what. I was like, yeah, because I kind of want to graduate.

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And miss Kellock told me if I
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should probably not be in his class. And then I had a science teacher,

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Captain K. C. Clark.
I don't know if he's still alive,

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but if he is, well good
and if he's not, rest in

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peace. But he saw through my
bs and realized I was not going to

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be a scientist, that I had
to really very low interest in science.

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And he could tell that, and
he could also tell that I was a

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funny m effort in his class.
He didn't really like funny mfors, so

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he just kind of took it in
stride, and then it was time for

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the final exam and I was rolling
with a D and I needed to get

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at least a B or a CM
my final exam, whatever it was,

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to pass his class because we had
to take science at least one year,

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knowing that he did not want my
ass back in his class that next year.

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And I noticed that he had a
grading chart that he would just throw

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it was like a key, I
guess they call it where they would just

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throw it over and so it was
like ABCD, you'd fill it in.

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Well, he'd throw the key over
it and then just and I was like,

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okay, we're doing that all right. So I'd fill in like three,

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three of them. Sometimes I do
all of them, you know.

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So I'd fill it all in.
So he'd throw the key over it and

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go well. I ended up with
an A, A minus or something.

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And the smartest kid in class was
very pissed because he got a B and

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he's like, how in the hell
is Corey gonna get a A? And

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I get a to B and he
I still remember to this day, his

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little kiss ass was like up by
the very front, lean it up against

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the teachers, like desk. It
wasn't really a desk. It was just

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more of a countertop, you know
how them science teachers had those. It's

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like this black countertop and I had
like a sing in the middle and he's

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like leaning up on that, like
watching him great. And that's when he

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like flips out and he's like what
And I see him look right at me,

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and I was like, oh shit. He's like, oh, is

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Cory gonna get an air? And
I'm like, oh no, and he's

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like what, Corey cheated? He
filled in all of them. And I'm

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like, oh, damn it.
And then Captain Casey Clark looks at me,

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looks at the test changes it puts
the C on it and he's like

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what but he cheated And he's like, ep at least he tried, or

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he said something like that, like
it was a good attempt. But he

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made sure that I passed that class
because he didn't want me back. Yeah,

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and I'm cool with that man.
You know. I remember my senior

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year, I had to English class. Our English teacher wouldn't make us recite

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Shakespeare. Like. Freshman year was
Romeo and Juliet It's her level. Sophomore

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year was Hamlet I think, and
then senior year was make Beth, Yeah,

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and you had to memorize like thirty
five lines to like pass for the

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third marking period. And I was
like, I'm not doing that, Like

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I can't barely remember two lines at
the same time. Like I just didn't

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do it. I had an E. And then like fourth marking period,

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I think I had like a D
plus C minus. And I remember I

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broke my leg being all drunk just
before graduation and I ended up missing a

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little school time because of it.
Come back in and she's like, well,

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here's your senior exam. And I'm
like, oh, this is gonna

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be awesome. And it was like
what is your name, what city do

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you live in? It's just simple
random stuff. And I'm like, you're

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just doing this so I graduate and
you don't have to deal with me next

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year. Yeah. Yeah, Yeah. There was like ten questions that you

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should automatically know about yourself. Well, you know, some some classes are

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easier than others suggestin but yeah,
that's that's what happened sometimes. And like

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I said, I wasn't mad at
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time, and with the science teacher, you know, so I was just

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like, that's cool, man,
And I remember like they had like did

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you ever dissect a frog? Did
they even give you knives or any thing

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like that, anything sharp to work? I don't. I don't think it.

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Baldenly did. I remember taking biology, but I don't think we dissected

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frogs we were supposed to, and
I don't think I did. I think

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I skipped that whole week because I
hated the way it smelled. Man,

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it did stink, and kids would
all the students would always complain. Yeah,

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so I think they just quit doing
it because we'd be like, I'm

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not going to class this week at
stinks in here like dead animals, and

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like can I put this on my
resume? And I like, where am

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I going to get a job at
a frog plant? Do they have those?

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Like? I think I don't even
know where you would go to get

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a job like frog Legs company or
something. I think my freshman year we

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had a old senior, I mean
an old science teacher, and like my

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sophomore year, we got a new
one. She came down from the middle

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school and she just didn't dissect frogs
anymore. So I don't know if it

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was school of policy, we didn't
do it, or if it was just

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her take on it, Marnie,
because we were talking about that a couple

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weeks ago and she said that she
did. She actually went in and dissected

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a frog. I think it used
to be pretty standard to do things like

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that, But with today's society,
I don't think you would do that.

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I don't know. It seems like
things have gotten so crazy because like the

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stuff that I used to do on
the I don't think I get away with

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now. No. Yet people are
being more like, hey, you can

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be a dog, you can be
a frog, you can be a woman,

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you can be a man, you
could be an astronaut, you can

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be whatever you want, right right, But you just can't have fun at

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other people's expense anymore. And I
like the and not Still that's not really

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bad, not saying that I like
to have fun of other people's expenses.

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But in the school of mel Brooks. If you've ever seen Blazing Saddles,

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you know what I'm talking about.
He makes fun of everybody. He's like,

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as long as I make fun of
everybody, there's nothing really wrong there.

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Make fun of my people, and
make fun of your people. And

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make fun of all people. Then
I'm not really racist or you know,

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picking on anybody because I'm making fun
of everybody. Yeah. So that's the

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kind of school of knocks that I
want to, you know, like just

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make fun of everybody. Me too, And it's not really making fun.

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Well sometimes it is, you know, but it's the same time. It's

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more of a thin line now.
But yet we're more accepting of everything.

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Yeah, but not. It's just
a weird It's very weird. It's weird

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how things change. We got to
care about We really have to worry about

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people's feelings and their sensitivity life.
They want us to, but I still

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don't. I love to find it
really hard to flip that light on.

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I find it really hard to do
that in life because I mean, we've

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talked about our schools enough where we
kind of pretty much went to the same

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school, just like two hundred miles
away. You were in kind of a

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city. I was in the woods. But you know, we had a

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multi racial school that we both went
to, and so we had all walks

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of life in our schools and we
all joked around, laughed, had fun,

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and like if we would do the
things in today's society that we did

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back then. I'm sure i'd be
expelled from high school. Yeah, it's

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just weird man. It is.
Now kids are in their vapor weed,

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you know, like they're vaping weed, stealing their phone that they're not supposed

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to have, taking it home with
them, taking her chromebooks to school like

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my daughter did. Oh yeah,
I dropped it on my school floor.

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So now my screen's broke, brand
new Christmas present. Just don't care like

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they should get her the toys that
we had. Get her like a my

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little pony. Oh I didn't have
my little pony, but you know what

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I'm saying. I had some Jad
Joe's, but yeah, get her some

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stuff like that. I'm like,
here you go. She's like, Dan,

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I'm thirteen. You'd be like,
yep, there you go. Here's

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a new sweater, here's some new
geens you've been wanting. Well, when

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I was thirteen, let's let's take
it back thirteen fourteen. I had a

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dirt bike. I had a snowbill. Like almost all the video game systems

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that came out, like I had
regular Nintendo Super, Nintendo Nintendo sixty four.

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My brother had the PlayStation PS two. I think we had a sega.

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That's a problem with you. Then
you were getting much shit. I

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mean, my mom worked hard,
but at the same time, me and

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my brother also worked hard. You
know, probably don't don't know what a

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woof football bat is, do you? Yes, that you got beat with

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no, but I remember, you
know, like we knew what hard work

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was. We knew you had to
work to earn things. You know,

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it just wasn't handed to you.
So my mom bust her heart. You

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know. She would work two jobs, you know, waitress tables, work

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in a gas station, whatever she
had to do to make ends meet,

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you know. But she got us
things that we wanted, and sometimes I

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guess, like I found out this
year, like I wasn't necessarily appreciative of

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the things that she did get us
because sometimes they weren't exactly named brand that

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we wanted and we would call her
out on it during Christmas and stuff,

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and not realizing how hard she'd work
to get it for us until I had

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my daughter this year. You know, I got her a gift card and

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she looked at was like, really, that's it it I actually that I

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was, like, I asked you
what you wanted for Christmas? And like

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It crushed me. And I looked
at my mom after we walked downstairs in

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her house and I was like,
did I ever do that to you as

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a ki kid? She was like
yeah, two or three times. She

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goes, you know how it feels
now, don't you I still do that

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to my mom. I was like
that hurt. She asked me what I

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want, and I tell her I
want this camera, like, oh no,

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no, not that camera, this
camera, And then I get the

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first camera and I'm like, but
I told you I didn't want that camera,

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But I do like the camera now
I've learned to use it in as

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kind of nice as you mean.
But anyway, back to your started me

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to cut you off there. I
was thinking about how was a dick to

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my mom? But you know,
I mean me and my brother both had

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jobs by the time we're fourteen.
We both went out and got a job.

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We both worked. You know,
my mom got a cell phones,

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but we worked, so we had
to pay our own cell phone. You

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came up in that good life.
I didn't a cell phone, you mean

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cordless phone. That's what I was
trying to do, Like, oh we

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had those phones. I mean I
had a computer in my bedroom. A

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computer. What's that I didn't have. No, No, there's no computer.

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Like my grandpa had a computer.
We'd have to go over there to

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print some stuff out every once in
a while, or watch him play this

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weird game that he had, you
know, like that's all. That's how

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we did it. I mean,
so, I guess I grew up really

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spoiled. Thinking back about it,
mm hmm. About my childhood, you

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know, I was kind of with
those spoiled brats. But at the same

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time, I had respect for my
elders. You know, I did things

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right. I got decent grades in
school. I always carried at least seas.

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If we didn't have seas, we
got grounded. And back in the

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day, you know, you didn't
have this nice little app on your phone

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check grades. So I'd be like, mom, my grades are up to

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a seat. I believe it when
that progress report comes out in four weeks.

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Mm, we'll see. Then I
got four weeks to stick around.

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She'd be like, well, you're
groundings all. You're grounded until I get

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something set home in the mail.
Got your ass two times because you can't

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ride took the car way, but
anyway, we do have to go because

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I can tell people are still bounced
around the office and not respecting the light.

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Before they were like you here,
Mitch talking and people like in the

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hall and stuff, and so we
flipped on the on air light. But

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I didn't know nobody cares about us
here. Oh, just Cory just around

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there, playing around. Paul cares
talking about life and recovery. But no,

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but we do have to go to
that comedy show. But thanks for

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jumping on with me and busting one
out on a Friday before we get out

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