What you need to do right now, what you need to do, nigga,
and you need to start telling niggas how to make money with clothes.
And in doing that, you're gonna tell yourself because you just told me something.
You just told me that niggas can buy a shirt for six dollars,
a sweater for six dollars, or a shirt for six dollars and they're selling
it sixty sixty dollars. But niggas never factor in low income families. You
can make a six dollar shirt and sell it for sixteen dollars, but then
make a set, make it affordable, and they're gonna keep buying your shit
opposed to you selling one motherfucking hoodie of money. Yeah, and that's you
know what's great, That's that's been my philosophy ever. Like I know,
but the most I will sell a T shirt for is twenty five dollars.
I don't care how, And I got some nice ass quality T shirts because
just like you said, I know, for one, most people is not
about to be spending though forty fifty dollars just for a fucking T shirt.
And two where I'm not greedy like that to where I'm not going to hit
like, I'll tell somebody this, even if what I'm doing my merchandise for
other people, Like I asked them what quality of shirt you want? Because
if you want me to provide you some three dollars shirts, I can do
that. But if you want an actual nice shirt that's gonna with standing,
that look good when people put it on and don't forgive you that, I'll
be hearing that when I'm at at him, I know, stop touching it.
I'd be like, bro, But yeah, Bro, that's a lot
of people into this clothing shit for the wrong reasons, and that's why a
lot of them phase out quick because just like you said that hoodie's sixty five
seventy dollars and you're selling one a month, you're not making no money.
So I wonder why people. I wonder why people make it to where the
world really can it experience the art and the art that they can display because
they want the money from it. Like I get it. Like I've been
hearing story. I've been hearing stories where actors might turn down a play because
they're not getting paid for it. Yeah, but I'd be like, why
not just do it? Get the experience what you want? Is the experience
allow They're allowing you the experience because they need you, like these local players,
like I ain't gonna front. They need you like if you if you
halfway decent, they can use you. But you mean to tell me that
you ain't gonna You're not gonna act. You're not gonna act like this is
like Oprah in front of you because they ain't getting paid and they they don't
put no, no, no, no, I ain't gonna say that.
I'm gonna say. I'm gonna say that that they want to act on stage,
but they never factor in the rehearsal time. Oh yeah, yeah,
so now you so now you're sick of ship. Now you're sick of certain
niggas because you might feel like they don't take it as serious as you,
but they got the same like your mind, even though you in this to
make something big so the world can see, you can get in it and
be counter productive because your own and like you didn't, you didn't factor this
part in. You said you wanted to do that for a dream. That's
why a lot of people get into ship for the wrong reasons. You know
who got a model kind of like how you was just speaking as Larrussell.
You heard him the artist from California. Yes, I have, I yeah,
but I don't listen to I don't either. But I think that's a
good point because what you what you're about to say better makes sense because you
don't like his content enough to listen to his music, So why why do
you listen to his any model? They be got simply because I saw if
his only motto is to get you to press play. Mm hmmm. And
you're telling me about him, but you didn't press play simply because I just
don't like the music, but I could, but listen. I can support
you, no, but I get but I can. I can support you
and what you do, but I don't have to like like the product.
But his behind, his hustle, the way he ye the way with that.
But yeah, like like if if if one of my partners, if
one of my best friends is a rapper, I'm gonna support him in his
drive to be a rapper. But if his music ain't for me, I'm
not gonna listen to that. And I'm it's like, bro, you my
nigga, And that's two friends crushing nigga dreams to the ground. So you
want me to put this nigga on my playlist even though I don't like it.
Hey, listen, you get playtime if yo, if my ship ain't
good, don't learn how to communicate with me and tell me that much.
You said you're gonna tell me my ship trash. I'm go an shoot tracking
dream. Why the would you tell me that? But yeah, I see
how niggas get killed. It might not be trash. It just might not
be for me, true, it just might not be my because I have
a I ain't even gonna have a very specific taste of music. That ship
got taste. I have a I'll be all over the place with it.
So Jesus, some ship just not for me, but the next nigga might
get it. You know who music I just tried to listen to and I
was like, damn, he needs more niggas around him. Everybody, Oh,
I know you're talking about you do. What trouble me is the problem
is that in that video, he the only nigga in the video and nobody
else in there. You got no it's white people playing behind him the whole
video. They playing, they playing behind him on a truck like they his
friends. But he's in a white genre. He is in the white general.
But they got black girls over there. Don't do that. They got
black girls over there. They got attach yourself to a fucking black girl,
and niggas will start to support y'all as a couple. Get you one of
them country black country sing girls, or get you a girl, a black
woman, because you ain't about to get the black artist the black female audience.
Bro without no black girls in the video. No, that's the fact.
What but you are smoking dicks so and he and he a clean trap
nigga. That's the problem. The ship he's saying. I'd be like,
that's equivalent to the trap shit. I'm outside, I'm drinking, nigga,
but not test me. These cowboy's gonna be in your ass. I got
the I got the guns with me. My homies is white. They got
good. Believe they got you know, they got nowhere. Niggas getting like
he's talking that ship, but he ain't got that, nan sister. If
you haven't noticed by now, this is Gave podcast. I'm your host,
Mike Haney aka mister h O d himself until my far right. I got
my boy pe pee. What up yo, yo? What's good? Y'all's
going on. We got to talk about that intro. Here we go,
and if y'all know, y'all know who he is, I feel super comfortable
the famous nobody my boy Eric Dizzey pod follow himself. Man, Listen,
this is the guy behind our sound. You know what I'm saying? Not
all the way there he go. I ain't recording it. Yeah, he
ain't recording it. I ain't recording it, and I'm glad that I'm not
because where I am, bro in my life, I just need a chance
to show niggas that I'm good. I'm a dad twenty four five. Hey,
if I get to do audio for two hours, I'm in that motherfucker
shirt off nigga baby or playing that back bun I'm doing all. I'm going
crazy, Bro, I'm trying to do the best shit ever. Bro.
No, that's a fact. I don't get to come outside no more.
Change it. If you a good father, if you running off of compliments,
if you get if you if you like me and you want niggas to
praise what you do, and then you got these little alien motherfuckers that came
out the woman that you love changed her whole fucking body up, nigga,
change the whole body up. And they's stealing time from her, like they're
still in love and affection from this woman. Bro. It's it's a I'm
trapped in this dynamic. That's how I look at it, Like I love
these little aliens that I watch come out of her and write change her,
but I still love my wife. It's weird. And then somebody allows me
to get out of that ship for two hours to edit somebodyo or just to
pull up. So that's why you're feeling good, yeah, bro, Because
as soon as I leave here, nigga is it's back to the Yeah.
As soon as you're open the garage, ain't no warming up to be in
the dad, nigga. As soon right there's there's no like what And I
got a dog all waiting at the door as soon as you try to escape.
As soon as you come back, guess who's Guess who's right there waiting
for it. They ain't right now about the door. Let's say a lot
about the type of file you are, though, man, because a lot
of people still, you know, we live in this society where everybody tries
to say sell first and all that, and some people will put their kids
second or third sometimes so they can try to get that that me time,
and it seems like you like, ain't no me, Tom, It's it's
all y'all first. And then if I got the little left house I do
me, I think I might be fucking them up. Give them too much?
What I love these niggas too much, bro, Like y'all can do
anything y'all want in the world because I'm right there watching to make sure that
you're okay. You know what kind of feeling that is, Nigga, I
can climb up thirty two stairs and turn around and that go my nigga waiting
for me being on his phone. Do you know what type of confidence that
get? I could do anything of my daddy behind me. No fact,
that's fact, bro, non facts. I know he gonna make I know
he gonna make sure that the guidance is gonna give me because I'm telling them
be good, y'all better stand straight. I'm giving them guidance learning how they
learning, how they respond to me critiquing and walking up the stairs or walking
on the street, and how I how I tell them, hey, don't
get in the street. There's a because it's a certain way or just or
you might scare your kid if you Hey, get the fuck why you ain't
parents respond like that opposed to hold on baby, wait with a smile on
your face, still still because you don't want to scare them. No,
that guy mean I'm scaring mine. I ain't scaring mind. When did you?
When did you develop? Because I mean, I remember when you when
your son was herst warn bro, were you already prepared to be this type
of father? No, man that nigga has to change his whole life.
No, I remember because it's appeariod. Because I've seen so many niggas outside
with kids, I thought that I could do the same when I was like
Nigga, she's tired. Yeah, but that shows what type of father you
are. That's a lot of husband husband. But niggas don't care though.
Niggas in the club partying all types of shit. All of this ship that
we like, it's down to a science. It's not. It's not nothing
but happenstance. Nah, And I think that a lot of the times we
believe that we can avoid doing the full list of perfection. Try to skip
steps. You try to skip steps because the consumer don't know that what makes
you use cables you use down or nothing about that, right, But if
they hear a hum, they're cutting that. Shut up. I don't give
a fuck who you think you is, how many people you think you know,
how many people think you'll support you. If there's a hum in it,
they're not listening to it. If it sound like if it sounds like
you didn't give a fuck about the recording, we didn't give a I told
you that first time I came in your career, Bro, and you play
some ship. I have not ever been able to listen to certain things the
same like I can't say that every time, motherfucker, I remember what it
was. Any music, any if it's a commercial, a YouTube ad,
I can pick up like damn, this sound quality trash. And that was
from that one day I was with you and you I played some shit for
Bro, play like a few podcasts that I like, I play some music.
I was like, really loud. I didn't even want to listen to
music on the way home because the car, the factory speakers in the car
that needs sound as good as that ship. I love doing that. I
I love inviting niggas to the studio I'm playing music. You ain't never heard
shit this loud, except if you go to the movies. I think they
might be underutilizing the audio movie theaters a little bit, like you think.
So, movies shouldn't be the only thing we experience like this. Nigga,
I go watch some YouTube shit in this motherfucker. I go in. I
want to see some Netflix shitting here. I want to see some Amazon prom
shitting here. All these streaming services need to allow the movie theaters to pay
them. I want to post a series, Nigga. A serious people would
do that, bro, especially now that they got reclined in chairs and ship,
you can be comfortable enough to leave your out. Damn, that's a
date night. We get to watch the Netflix movie because it's shown at this
movie theater at this time. Boom, Now we're all in here watching because
it's on my Q list. You many tell me I get to leave the
house. Imagine watching Game of Thrones in the in the watts. Crazy.
We might have to edit this out because somebody might hear this. It's certain
Ship on Apple TV. I'm like, bro, like Severance. I would
have loved to watch Severance or the Damn that's even like NBA playoffs and like
that that should be lives, especially the Indiana games that a in the game.
How could that even become a ship that contract contracts and mother fucking pitch.
Yeah, you gotta pitch. That's what I'm learning. That's that's where
I like. That's the right where I'm at in my career. That's I
realized, that's what I like. I feel like that's just where you like
or or or just I think people that just do podcasts everybody. I think
maybe everybody has a misconcession. All of this is supposed to work. I
think everybody does, like you can pie because you want to pod. But
then you you realize that it's a business on the other side of this,
and your model for your podcast might not fit the business. You might not
and you might not be it. There might not be a long game.
That's crazy you said that, because even before we even started to pod,
I was thinking of some shit, like different names and shit. And then
it just clicked because you know, p already always had I Create, and
I was just like, we just need to start one called I Create podcasts,
and it'll fit with everything in the world, even on the business side
of it. We can market it and pitch it to, you know,
different people. So that's crazy. You said that the one thing that I
don't like about this pod and y'all my brothers, and I'm not saying it
that this y'all, but people might. And this is something that you will
learn the more that you pied. Where people come through those doors, they
think that they're guests, so they talk, they're they're waiting for you to
ask them quest. Yeah, I don't. I'm your brother, I don't.
I don't give a fuck what you'll want to talk about. I'm kind
of if we was in my house, if Perry and maybe I'm being overpowered
in the conversation, but if there was something that you was wanting to talk
about, whether it be closed or movies or this, that you wouldn't know
how to interject and yes, and guests don't know how to do that.
They don't know how to do that. Yeah, So with ignorant philosophy,
we struggle for. That's why I was like Manu having guess niggas thinks today
celebrities, bro. Yeah, the only motherfucker who I was stuck for was
brook Nation. I'm asking you everything. I fucking love you. Oh,
I love you. Paris was there too, Yeah, I like your music
a lot. But shoot, but Bro, the same what is that sense
of your hair? You? Bro? And it's certain women who have sex
appeal and you want to you. I wonder how she is in bed when
I see Brook, I was like, I just want to smell you.
I don't even want to touch you. I don't put that ship on the
shelf. I wanted to. That's why. That's why she'd be selling them
a fucking cars like that. Niggas would go up there with the last dollars
just being her presidence. Bro, I would go into death for you,
bitch, no facts, like you said, ten thousand down, hold on,
let make something happen, just for a chance to talk with Bro.
Listen. She'd be moving and her energy is the same everything. Every to
have a bad bitch seminar for real, because anytime I've been goot, she's
the same person. Every y'all need to go study what she y'all not do
it. She was at what was she had a blossom Chevy I West,
Bro, Bro, I feel like seventy five of the seventy five percent of
the hellcats in the city from her every three days pulling up Hell okay,
I'm like, where the fuck is they even getting all these haircaps ship from
just to her for her selling? Bro, she ain't doing nothing. I
legal, so we don't got the spot. But Brooke, you need to
package what you are and sell it, bro, cause niggas is they buying?
They women? No women is I ain't talking about the niggas. I'm
talking about even women. Be like, bro, she is beautiful. Yeah
yeah, the package that ship up and tell them how to be how to
be bad too. Nah, that's for real. Now that's cool that.
Now I get what you're saying. Because motherfuckers. Do we feel like they
celebrities? Yeah? Bro, they walk in like, hey, ask me,
ask me about my nigga. I don't give a fuck about that.
Use this platform to talk, right, that's exchange conversation. Yeah, come
on talk nigga. I will think you as Charleston White. I was just
about to say, we don't. I feel like we don't try to model
nothing. We do off of like you know, the vlads, the Breakfast
Club, the million dollars worth of game, Like I don't like I watched
multiple different podcasts and I make sure like I don't try to use nobody's formula.
You know, we kind of just do that still, every formula,
Nigga, this is like nigga, but it might not work for us.
Nigga. You never know until you're try. I'm stealing everything I can until
everything, But if I like it, I'm stealing it, bro, And
it's not even stealing. It's called inspiration. You inspired me to go take
that little bitty piece that I like that you did and added to my shitt,
added to whatever it is that I'm doing. That's why I watched certain
movies, listen to certain pots. I want to know what y'all got,
Why people? Why do people like y'all? I'm still trying to figure out
how so many unsuccessful musicians become great podcasters. I'm still blown by that.
Is it because the audience that they do have is enough? Is that a
thing? For real? I know if he was being sarcastic or not.
Joe Budd Budd and Gilly the Kid, Gilly the Kid, those are the
two rappers that are the two main ones. The noriega like that, nigga,
right, I don't give a fuck who I don't give a fuck what
they try to sit here and tell me, no nigga I know the same
way they talk about flow riding, the same way they talk about I don't
know no nigga that say put Never niggas say Eminem before Norjega. I can
say some Eminem shit and most of my niggas be like, I remember that.
But why do people discredit Eminel because he's white, bro? And that's
not fair and it's crazy. It ain't from the D and every rapper in
the D respect and look up to that nigga. Bro, you know what
you you know how good you gotta be for niggas to not try you ain't
Nobody ever tried to batle what because they know she ain't Gunna Kelly did that
was as that he didn't try young Druggy Eminem? Oh well true? What
Eminem was? Eminem? Yeah right, the slim, shady nigga. Boy.
What that nigga made me not like in sync ninety eight degrees Britney Spears,
Christina Aguilera or Nigga. He made me dislike a whole genre of music.
Bro. Now, Eminem would not have I don't think he would have
thrived in the society we live in. Simply we only were we at in
the society because mm hmmm the ship that he was saying, Bro, you
and you got to stop that. He was what he was saying, some
shit about killing his mama. Bro, So do you think society is too
softly him? Nigga? High kids? Do you like violence? You want
to see me stick nine inch now each one of my eyelids, boy me
and do exactly like I did. Try to ask it and get fucked up
worse than my life is No, you cannot say it. You cannot say
that. Now. Nigga's gonna be like, yeah, well, this is
why I don't like niggas who like say he ain't raped. You know how
hard it is to do this? Catchy? You are making me sing along
to you doing the worstest of thingation. My six year old runs around the
house talking about Hi, my name is bro. And that's it. That's
what catchy is. They did it right, bro, And that's why I
thought doctor Dre did his motherfucking thing with Eminem. He ain't gonta do nothing
else. Hell no, because he got fifty two. He ain't do fifty
he or d he didn't do that. He didn't do fifty more. It
was like he was everywhere with that. But Eminem is responsible for fifty fifty,
the same monster niggas wasn't this and fifty. When he was hottest,
he was battling niggas A fifty fifty is the last person in the industry you
want to bother. Brot He goes hard. It's like he has ammo on
any and everybody, and it's like all he wants. He'd be daring niggas
to say anything to it, but do it precisely. You know what I
think it is. Think it's because he only got in this to make money.
He didn't think about it. He ain't want no friendships with no niggas.
He had got almost killed, bro, and you can see that too.
So the whole industry shot on him, the whole. This is what
casual listeners not saying, not saying, y'all, but casual listeners like my
wife have no idea this happened. Niggas tried to kill him. Yeah,
he sure everybody blacklisted him. This nigga got shot nine times. He got
blacklisted, got shot nine times, went away. Mm hmm. Did crunches
pull up dip type type of ship and came back and said, you think
you think you a gainster? Do you know how mad I would be if
the nigga I just tried to kill came back and side you think you are
gainst. No, that's crazy because he talked about that in this book.
I read his book. Bro, he had the whole cleans top doll niggas
mad at him. Bro, he wasn't beefing with the small niggas in all
that he was beefing with the main niggas, and people do not understand that.
So if I make it and the niggas the only niggas that I had
beef with got locked away for life. Ah, nigga, I'm going crazy.
Yeah, because Diddy was one of the niggas. Fuck you all your
ass. You left me out here to drive. Fuck you. I hope
everything everything that they saying about you, I know it's true. Matter of
fact, he asked me, could he shot for me? That interview was
wild? He asked me, hell no, you can't shot. I'm gonna
throw the rock. And he the reason why we're looking at going back to
same interviews. The interview he like party with me, daddy, Yet Bro,
wait what him and that fat when he said the fab he was like,
oh yeah, and Niggas was allowing him to talk to him like that.
That's crazy. Now think about that. We always talk about women allowing
men to talk to them like that. Fab he be his girl and nobody
batter than I. He still got a versus. And then dad did he
allow him to say to his face, but you in the party with me
like that? You didn't party? I mean like we didn't party. Don't
they mean you gotta fight him? I look at an interview over yeah,
wait, wait, what are you talking about? No? No, no,
no, what are you talking about? Because I want to go.
I want to make sure this ass whipping I'm about to give you what was
warranted. Would they be fab just too cool of an No? No,
no, no no. He knew that if he did anything that did,
he was out of here. Not maybe not killed, but his career might
have been. Bro. I can't I don't even think I would ever want
that type of power in any industry. Like that's dangerous because it because I
feel like, even if you're not that type of monster, bro, having
that type of power control, Bro, you really don't know what that could
do to you. You you might be the monster you think you're not.
That's what I'm saying. That's why, like I don't even I don't even
want to I don't I don't even. I don't even want to know.
If that's like, that's yeah, that's that's too much because you got I
don't know like Diddy's full backstory, where he comes from and all of that.
But like bro to now start to learn and see the type of nigga
he really has been over all these years. Bro, that sh it's like
knowing this for you. No, we did not, not like we're not
us, but niggas around him new. Yeah, that's but that's the end.
That's industry ship. I don't like when people say that, when they
say everybody knew, No, the industry new. Don't put that ship on
me, don't put that ship on you, and don't put that ship on
so you ain't know Diddy was on ship like that. If I did,
I wouldn't have danced so goddamn hard to his music. I never mind.
And which which bro are you speaking on specifically, DJ? Like the homosexual
ship I mean allegedly or the like the women of the He's just a nigga,
dancing in every fucking video. I mean, ship Nigga, rich bro,
you just happy that could have just been I don't like that? No,
why not? I don't You didn't like that, bron A Street,
I like you a street nigga and a Diddy song I like And I'm not
saying that ain't a Diddy song I like with him by himself. But I
bet you can say a song that you like is a hood nigga to the
that's just that, that's just stigas, different genres to the court, to
the chord. Right that nigga said Diddy was an ultimate uh ultimate pop pop
rapper. That's why he don't like Drake. Definitely. Drake wasn't wearing lemon
and clothes was at first. I only knew Drake from The Grassy. That's
the Drake. I know you watched The Grassy. No, how did you
know he was? How did you know he was in that previews Nigga,
I didn't know he was in that. Yeah, I didn't know he was.
I ain't even put them two light skinned niggas together. I know Drake
was in The Great Grassy. Never pop. I never watched The Grassy has
never popped in my head outside of the one time I saw it flicking through
TV STAPs. That's what I'm saying. I never saw Drake really never.
Yeah, I can't tell you I saw him on the TV. Yeah,
that's where he came from. Was the Grassy that big? I don't think
it was that big? Is he? That is he as big as he
is because people his the Grassy fans gave him a shot. No. No,
him being attached to young money is what That's what ca Yeah, being
attached to the right place, right time. And then it's like, no,
Drake was good. No, I'm not saying he wasn't good, but
him being him being good and attached to young money, as Wayne was kind
of slowly walking out, it allowed him moving to that spot in my opinion,
because if he imagine we've seen that a few We've only seen that a
few times. And I think it's Dre bringing snoop mm hmm, maybe that
might be it. And yeah, and Dre bringing eminem like, here is
somebody that I found out of the street. He's good. I think little
Wayne was the closest to doing that. I found somebody, Yeah that was
good. Here check him out. And it was phenomenal who could carry it
because you got if Drake. Let's say, lets none of them nick Tiger,
little chucky, little twist. It was about. It was about the
little niggas Tiger had. Tiger just corny. Yeah, and Tiger's actually he's
good makes but he's just that good to try to wrap the t the rapper
he was probably just tritting to be wasn't gonna work, so he had to
get into more like the pop ship can play. I don't even think that.
I don't think niggas would hang around Tiger if they could. I'm not
even saying that to be a disc but I might be like that for some
people. But Tiger, we all know that he can make bops boom oh
yeah, he got some slaps and he had and he had a good porn
tape too, scorn tape. He wasn't in it, fucking He put together
pay porn tape. He picked his favorite males and and women and put them
together in certain scenes and certain I was like, oh, you're good,
You're good. You are who you say you are, Black widow coming out
of no it ain't. You just gotta appreciate everything, and somebody do if
it was closed, I would you'll support his clothes. No, I don't
support his music because I don't think you say, but you know I didn't
support the porn. I tired it just to check it out. You wouldn't
support his clothes if it was good, just because it's Tiger. Come on,
you can't be bod. Where's your truck fit? Where's your little white
hoodie? Why? Where's where's your Beyonce clothing brand? Where's your I think
for missed with his shoes though? Where are your shack shoes? Sir?
I'm not wearing them. I can fortunate will. I can support one thing
what he does, and not something else they do. I can't. That's
bro, that's I don't think that's even fair if it's. If that's not
the case, then why we're not listening to R Kelly. I don't know
if that's not the case. I still listen to Okay so Boom, not
because he did the things that he's did, but he hasn't made any good
songs in a very long time. That's what's cool. I just replayed the
Owes No no no. They still make me feel like they know no no,
no no what man? Hold on? So you're telling me, and
it's mind you. A lot of people probably don't even know how good of
a djail you are. I think you're a fire as I only play those
songs because Dave asked me to about what I'm My question is, so if
somebody so, do you think it would be fair for somebody to be like
I fuck with Eric as an audio engineer, but I don't fuck with him
DJing. There's a lot of motherfuckers. No, I'm not saying or vice
versa. If they said I don't like Eric as a person, I don't
like him his podcast, and so you're saying, if you don't like the
person, you don't like nothing they do. Right, Okay, that's fair.
I'll with you. But and I'm saying, and I'm saying, I
don't think that I would hang out with type, so I do not listen
to his music, and so I don't follow him, so I don't know
that he had if he has closed out. The porn was on porn Hub.
It said it was him. I said, oh, let me check
this here. Maybe I ain't got to keep fucking scrolling through page thirty to
find something to get me off. That's what I thought. I was gonna
have some porn that I can have and go to whenever I need to be.
Hey, niggas, bet think me, Bro. The niggas watching that
we don't, I definitely do. I heard they contemplating trying to make niggas
like scann the I D or something. I guess to verify if you're eighteen
year older, I ain't said your ship. You put your y'all want a
social except follow me on everything? Some business for what? Why let me
hear black widow on the back while we can we can. We can resist
that as long as we want. But every site that eventually niggas is going
to do it, every site bro LinkedIn. Bro, if you want to
be verified, show us your id. Instagram, if you want to be
verified, show us your ID. Nigga, I'm on porn more than I'm
on Facebook, scanning this motherfucking I D so I could beat my ship.
Please, thank you. Niggas be resistant ship for too long, bro,
but you gotta cut it down. But no, but R Kelly listen back
to R Kelly. I don't. I don't listen to his music because it's
oh not because he was a horrible person. So if you if he had
anything new that was hot with and you liked it. I wasn't sure I
liked R. Kelly. When R Kelly was popping the nigga, the nigga
had on a Zoro mask and was slide stepping in an empty cruise ship from
the Pied Piper of R and B. The two thousands, y'all had no
shut up, and Niggas was. Niggas was lining up at weddings, black
cookouts, fucking sigma dances, everything to do this step in the name of
love. He called himself the Pied Piper of R and B. If you
do not know what the story of the Pied Piper, let me inform you.
Ahead, nigga, cruise through the city, play the flute, took
all the rats up. He then came back and played the flute and took
the kids. And this nigga called himself the Pied Piper and started dancing,
and Niggas was lining the step side to side. Now, usually I don't
do this. I don't mean to be nigga. Wait. No, I
just saw you key on somebody on the internet and they say it was this
brother bro, it was I would kill you. Niggay were talking about Kindrick
and Drake. No, this nigga. R Kelly said his brother Bro.
I watched that video on a biggest brother brother on a big back computer screen,
No four K. It was three sixty p off a lime wire of
for lime wire brow and it was green lines going down there and this nigga
face was clear as day. Bro were talking about Diddy's running down the hallway
and doing this to Cassie. That was wrong. But y'all wait, y'all
watched the same video. R Kelly, and this nigga had a career.
Jay Z did two albums with the nigga. Wonder if she wanted the VP
on she was a kid, You're disgusting, But no, this nigga was
a monster. And this nigga said, now usually I don't do this mix.
I was a kid, was in the club, like that's what you
call he was. He was hiding and playing sight. He said, he
was a Poe piper. So do you do you have any sympathy for any
people that have those type of monstrous traits? Like, at some point do
you have to? Because I know we all self reflect you know, none
of us are perfect. So do you ever find a moment to try to
look at them and be like, I wonder why they're so fucked up and
feeling empathy just a question. Yes, But I wasn't stepping to that because
I saw that ship. But I did when I started, when I started
R Kelly Doc he was fucked up. Yeah, but lock him up?
What do you want from that interview? Would fuck it? What was a
gel? That ship? I don't know how to hog type people. That
was the first. This is the problem, and this is why I like
podcasting. We can finally listen to a new artist. And this is why
I'm shocked that new artists aren't doing podcasts every chance they get, Like Lotto,
bitch jump on every single podcast, every single podcast, just talk.
It's free promo for sure, And you never know people might fall in love
with your personality so much they because if I like you, I'm going to
fuck with whatever you produce. The opposite the tiger. You don't like tigers.
So nothing I got because because a lot of on this motherfucking song,
I'm back onside. Yeah, bro, I like lot though, Like I
love Lotto, I love a lot of Uh, it's a lot of serious.
We get a lot of hard in both aspects as an artist thing as
visuale. You heard this on Instagram. Home, I'm back outside que Home
Nigga didn't made me mad man c Home Nigga didn't made me mad again?
Okay, Hugh Wow, I'm gonna s south Side Beach to the Gray.
I'm a real ass beach of the songs, lean down a comboso songs.
You wit, I'm gonna use lose. You're frilly ad bitch on rule popped
out with a brand new doing popped out with the brand new teas walk this
milk good on tea, pop pert salt that you burn, be bes on
me on turn being beings on me on hell out of ten. I didn't
broke the skale out of ten. I'm gonna get them five on the twenty.
I swerving the glide? Is you telling them business and rioty? Let
him in the sleeping the slide? Put up too fine, I'm there'd bro
I love when women talk. They ship I do too, man. They
taking over, not to step up? Yeah, they over sex. It's
over with sexy red. You know what you don't don't talk about my chick
like as far as they're not gonna let her go away bro. All right,
let me ask you a question. How long you think that people are
attaching themselves to a brand to make money? Now you said for how long?
Yeah? How long you think brands are attempting to stand by a client
for the sake of making money until when you say, until it runs out
or where they bleed it dry or what. That's a good question because I
feel like if they seem if they think they can continue to find a way
to milk the cow, they're going to continue to milk it. And so
it's answer your question. I think they will do it until the well ones
runs dry. I feel like when she's not getting the tension that she's that
she has been getting, if they even the people are behind her or whatever,
they feel like it's dying down or she's losing. How do we know?
How do we how do we know? We just have that when she
drop us home? How do we know accurately that Sexy Red is as successful
as our algorithms are portraying her to be? So basically saying that like her,
I'm just asking because we don't know. I was because when did Nigga
stop liking Nelly? Who Nelly? When did they stop liking Nelly. I
think I mean after Ship wasn't after him and Kelly. Really, country grammar
was Nelly's. After that was this dilemma. I feel like Shae and Tailfeather
was the last thing that anybody care cared about that Nelly was on. But
he Nellie's got Nellie's one of those artists because Nelly had a country song,
right tim But white people have always fucking Nellie. That's when I stopped listening
to him. When white people start sucking No the country Ship, Why the
fuck did you make that song over and over again? Was hard? This
was my nigga six one eight, Oh, David Man, you just made
that song like you just made that song and pempt because it's all in my
head charted like crazy? Who are you? Are you? That was it
right after That's what That's what his music career kind of because he could follow
up. Why you think that is? He got all he could get out
of the rap music, but he could tour off of his the catalog he
has bro he can still. I never never said that he wasn't good.
I'm just asking when did the niggas stopped liking Nelly? It was it was
brown. It was about after that, So brands stopped working with him.
Why because YE know more? But I think that and I think that that's
the problem is because niggas is a lot. Niggas is getting songs. See,
we thought when we were younger that you could write a song and get
a beat and record it so good that something would happen to like something like
your your song can blow up. You put it on. They give you
the hope that you can put it on my Space, put it on,
put it on Twitter, put it on or whatever SoundCloud and get a million
plays or two million plays, and you get a deal and you have a
successful career that last you. That has not happened. But so back to
the original question with sexy Red bro So, because we can even a Shane
behind her bro facts And that's what I think, because you say no because
people do not think that she's as talented as our algorithms are portraying her.
She had a sex tape, broill bro she don't have fans. You'll think
she got fans risk may she sold twenty eight thousand copies on her on her
last project. I mean that's cool. No, that's not she. I
think what it is is she speaks for a certain type of you go to
the right. This ain't speaking down on no woman, but I feel like
there's a certain and they like she she represents them and they as they said
the last read, no ship. I don't want it. Can't go all
the way back to Little Kim. Can we why skip Cardi b because she
wasn't And I don't think Cardi was. Cardi has that she had that edge,
but I don't think she wasn't like bro text going to the extreme and
s read is what they used to what they used to say, ghetto fabulous
and proud Cardi kind of baby dad once Cardi Cardion doing it once Cardi got
to her when Sardi's baby daddy cheating on her. That was the song she
was supposed to make. She was She was the person who was supposed to
make that song. But it wouldn't fit Cardi. It would have That's what
I'm I don't think it would have. You are smoking crack. I don't
think that song would have fit her. What after that nigga trap after that?
Didn't have to look for that. Yes, the concept is cool,
but she ain't got the look. You know, I kind of do agree
because before, you know what's crazy. She saw the look. If you
think the songs that Sexy read right now is rapping Cardi b couldn't rap and
have another run, you're crazy those exact same songs with the exact same beats.
I'm not talking about songs the beasts. I'm talking about personality and how
motherfuckers see you. I will say now I agree, but before, because
you know what's crazy, niggas wire alter the way that they view you.
Fuck No, if I see a ghetto bitch, I see a ghetto bitch.
If I see somebody class they got some ghetto ship in it, then
that's just who it is. But Cardi was so he was talking about sex,
but I was following. I was following Cardi like when she only had
like two thousand Instagram followers, and the reason was that's awful. No,
she was. She was a dance trat V Live. That's yeah, that's
what she saw because you started following because I've seen the video clip of her
and they had her task and yeah follow So I had been following Cardi way
before the love and hip hops, before all of that. So she really
was and she would just be a rat yeah, she was. She started
to cow be, that's what. And she started doing she was drugging niggas
and taking a phone that credit card she started bro, she started doing skits.
She started growing and growing and then and that's yeah, that's the problem
that I said. I'm just her fair skin made him think that she was
not a hood rat. But she just has a look to me though,
Sexy Red was a hamster bro but that fits. The little laughster is a
rat still still in the road in family. If you saw a hamster run
around his motherfucker, you would still do this light scared rat. That's all
it is. Huh, that's what he's saying. I'm just saying. She
got pierces all everywhere. You know, she got the lakes front. I
saw what I saw her with her hair short, and I said, you
need to keep your hair like that. It was black sexy Red, Yes,
I saw the like in a little fla like she just took her brains
out. No, like she was like it was like done. I like
that ship, But I don't. I think it's over for sexually Red because
so you think the machine what what do you think would make the machine pull
the pug if they just see nothing else is coming from. The thing about
hood Rats is that a lot of brands associate hood Rat with black and dumb,
so a lot of things. A lot of people don't want to attach
their brand to her, to her image, and it's only so high that
they will allow you to get Definitely, I can hear, I can definitely
like black Boy JB. You got Drake, you got a Drake, you
had a Drake feature. It was on you to take, but you can't.
Brands don't want to. No, you funny looking, you look a
little you rolled the short bus. It's only that's why you need I feel
like that's kind of how Drake blew up. It was easy for brands to
trust a light skinned dude that was making jiggy music from Canada. From Canada,
he came down here and stole everything. Bro the look, the way
he dressed, the way he talked. And you want to know what song
when he was beginning to do that in it was him and it looked like
it was snow and the ship and he was driving started from the bottom that
one. That's when he started to keep it real from the jump. Yeah,
that's what That's what started him to argue that, so do you do
y'all think this has that's a good Has there been any artists that stayed authentic
to their true self and their core and they still buzzing today? Like had
That, the like the mainstream, the signs. He's the only person ever
jay Z got the streets nigga, the street, he got people, but
he cleaned it up to get the corporate Bro. If he started telling,
he started talking ship. He started. That's when his metaphors got started to
get crazy because he had to start hiding that ship in his raps. He'd
be talking that ship and if you like that money talking all that flashyt But
my wife did like he talks. He's a grown, mature street nigga.
So for niggas who like street niggas, he is the ultimate king street nigga.
Him he is. I don't know, fuck no, I still t
I he's clean dropped some ship today. I wouldn't listen to it. Bro,
you know has been dropping ship for years and nigga stopped listening to I'm
not talking about the music, I'm talking about him still him still having relevant
relevant if you can't if you can't drop an album and sell it. You
ain't relevant, But I thought people to watch you on social media. I
thought we were talking about like like a brand sponsorships for being in that court.
Niggas ain't attaching that to self. To t I, since he had
that rape case, he had too many chances. The nigga went to jail
too many times for guns and they kept trying to force him down our throat,
Bro, how you keep getting out of jail? Bro? How do
you keep getting this opera non fruit? How do you keep getting this opportunity?
Bro? Yeah, you lied on Little Flip. Little Flip did not
say that shit. He did not say that he was the King of the
South in Atlanta during birthday. Batch, you made this whole thing up,
Bro. Niggas in Atlanta is not pussy like that. Bro. To allow
a nigga from Houston to come to come to steal y'all, they would have
whooped his ass that night. What is you not leaving out of here without
us putting our hands and feet on you? My boy? You got niggas
who work at the coliseum or you said what they dropping it? Atlanta is
not pussy like that, Bro. They not pussy like they're gonna drop the
law. So I'm just gonna say that. He didn't say that. So
this nigga t I got out of jail, faked a beef and made a
whole CD about this imaginary beef. So this one nigga killed his whole career,
Bro, dramatically killed his whole career, Bro, off of a fucking
lie. And he kept going to like he his career. To me,
it's like, I want to know how you got these chances because you ain't
that good. You were good, but you ain't that good. Bro.
I feel like they was feeding him to us too, like they had too
much invested. We got it so they couldn't let him go go away.
They couldn't let him go away. Bro, we ain't nigga. Man.
I don't know. I have to disagree because I feel like t I has
always found a way to kind of reinvent himself. Even yeah, he faked
the beef, shipped everybody in that history. It's smoking mirrors. He faked
the beef, even with the show The Family Hustle, Like I feel like
that kind of reserve. No doubt. I didn't watch it. I did
not watch you. I just I just know when that was going on that
was another like a kind of how surge? How do we know that though?
Because he's still around? But is he though? And the reason why
I'm saying that, and I'm only I'm only challenging you because have you ever
thought about what our ggarithm is? Like? Have you ever just sat and
thought about what an algorithm is? Niggas? I don't think niggas have had
this conversation. I'm on Spotify and it's a nigga playing the exact songs that
I want to hear at this very moment, and he's talking to me,
how are you doing that? We're gonna go to the song that you're listening
to twenty twenty two and play the exact song that I didn't know I wanted
to hear. Apple Music don't do that. You know how many times I
skip on Apple Music the algorithms tracks. But Spotify nigga, I'll be like,
all right, I'm gonna have to start fucking with It's a nigga on
the other side of this, Yeah, yeah it is. And the reason
why I say that is because the algorithm can keep showing you say shit,
yeah no, bro, that's that's easy. You go on Instagram right now,
that's bro that sunglasses. Ever's gonna be sunglasses. If you get on
Facebook, you gonna see sunglass. I'm not even talking about the selling.
Sell me whatever. If you think that I like this microphone and I ain't
never seen this, or Timu or Amazon or whatever, sell it to me
because I like buying ship from my house. Cool. You just talking about
him. I'm talking about putting a person in front of your face every time,
every single time. He might not even be successful, he might be
broke as fuck. He just recording the video. And because our algorithms,
our algorithms say that or it's trying to feed us, this person will see
everything that they do. But we're not buying nothing. You want to know
what's funny? Who's that? My partner trying to like l Russell? But
I don't see his shit every but so I see I see Larussell shit.
I see his shit everywhere, bro, And nobody has ever sent me a
fucking song. Bro. His music like recorded music that's on Apple, Like,
I'm not a fan of it. Like when he does his show,
yeah, like I feel like he's damned there better at that his bars are
fire. But you know why he needs to take a deal. He needs
to take a deal because the labels have the nigga that needs to write for
him. Think he needs a writer, Yes, you know, why not
because he can't, right, But they's the record labels have some ship still
and they signed niggas and the good ones, like really good ones. They
sign them and take everything from them, they keep them. Niggas can't work.
Quentin Miller Ninkas writing for Drake. Yeah, we ain't doing it with
nobody, bro, But but but Russell needs to have somebody making him a
started from the bottom. Uh. He needs he needs those kind of songs.
What's the the Drake song that he got or nothing was the same?
Remember motherfucker's never loved us. That's the type of song that he needs to
make. That's all he That's what he talks about, getting it out the
mud niggas then fuck with me out I better on myself. So he needs
that kind of sound. It's a sound that he's missing that he's not getting
because he's sticking to the Bays sound. He's sticking to the the the organic.
Yeah, niggas don't want organic, niggas want greasy. Then that's the
process. It's not a seller, bro. You need to learn how to
coach these niggas to make that. You need to You need to be able
to coach these engineers, these writers, these people who make beats. To
make some shit. It don't cost no more than what you're already paying,
is what I'm saying. So you're saying there's nothing wrong with possibly compromising a
little bit of your I don't want to say integrity. But just like you,
you might not what you're trying to do, ownership, what you're what
you're trying to do. What you're trying to do, You're trying to get
exposure to show people that you can because at the end of the day,
you're selling something. So like say Zero the composer, Local Local Zero,
he is the most talented person I have ever seen in my life when it
comes to making beats. And I've seen a lot of people make beats.
I went to an arts school. I've seen a lot of people make beats.
The things that he can do on a computer pause, I don't know
if that's kinky or not. The things that he could do on his computer
is crazy. So tell me that Zero wouldn't gain a million followers overnight if
he just started taking songs and playing strings behind him. Because every time that,
every time a nigga do some orchestra strait, we liking it, right
like when they did the Chief Keeve and they did a certain outcast. When
they do it, we like it. So there needs to be a producer
to do that to rap songs because a lot of the songs that we like,
we can like them a little bit more because the producer could just ask
some strings, something something subtle. Yeah, honestly, I'm just sick of
remixes not having new beats. Bro, you you I done heard this beat,
yeah before a million tons, and now you're gonna slaps and you're gonna
trick me because I'm thinking I'm rapping the song and here come this other nigga
you didn't want to put the tag on the motherfucker. I'm gonna flip the
convo. Do you feel like you could be a good partner when you're on
your grind when this grind time relationship partner or business? Which kind of partner
I know you're talking to? Okay? Yeah, I think that niggas fail
at it because it requires you to communicate. Boom boom. That's exactly It
requires you to be vulnerable, and my algorithm keeps telling me not to be
that with my wife. Algorithms, bro Like, they are telling me that
women do not want men to be vulnerable. And it makes so much sense
if you're driving a ship, if a man is supposed to drive a ship
with confidence. And I can never tell my wife that I'm unsure that there's
an iceberg ahead of us, if I'm if if y'all telling me that I
can't communicate that to her because she's gonna look at me as if I failed.
We have a huge, fucking yes. The problem is is that men
see an iceberg ahead and they don't communicate with their wife. So to give
her the chance to tell you what to do because she can see what's happening
via social media and all of these clips. Is that people are telling us
that relationships is based off of anything but communication and trust. They saying it's
a bunch of other It's not none of that, bro Like. I just
said, Like I said when I first got here, my wife's body does
not look the same. If I was basing it off of looks, I
might not be still attracted to my wife, but I love my wife.
I had to. I had to redefine what I thought beauty was. So
now you gain some weight because you don't carry my kids. Now I'm grabbing
on that ship. My son was in there. I love this nigga,
but they don't teach you how to relove somebody in different the different stages.
What's happening is that niggas on they grind or they got a passion and you're
not communicating. So now your partner hate your grind because your grind takes you
away from her. And all she want to do is spend time. That's
all she want to do is spend She loves you so fucking much that she'll
call you. She'll call you, hey, are you okay? And niggas
is so traumatized that niggas is like, man, she always asking me where
I'm at because they killing niggas. Bro. They are killings, bro.
They are killing cops, is killing niggas. Niggas is killing niggas. White
people is killing niggas. Is taking the jog and getting killed by white people.
Might not be here, but it's happened, and it was in my
algorithm for seven months. Now I'm terrified to trun and my neighbors because they
don't programmed me. Police get behind me. Everything on me is clean.
I ain't got nothing on me. You're still worried. Why am I worried?
I ain't never had a bad run in with the cops? Right,
never, I've never had. And when somebody when something happened to you,
who you calling the cops? The algorithm will make you believe that niggas ain't
calling nobody. Niggas is getting shit happened to them and they just sitting there,
sitting in it. No niggas is calling the cops, filing reports,
checking rings everything, Bro. Black men have been told that you showing emotion,
it is weak. But I love my passion so much that when I
speak about it, I'm speaking with the emotion. Yeah. So now I
don't feel comfortable talking to this about to you, because I've been told that
this is a weakness. The giddiness that I feel about my passion, the
fact that I can lose sleep, but it's taken. But she has a
bad she has a bad taste for it because it takes you. Niggas don't
ever want to take that girl to wherever they at yeah, and I struggle
with that. I'm not saying I never be. I never used to be,
like, baby, you want to come, come with me? So
now the time of part it causes us because I listen, did you know
what? I don't even know if you remember, Bro, we had this
conversation probably this was twenty eighteen maybe and I was telling them like, Bro,
me doing what I do is a problem, Like, and then you
face to make a decision how much do I love her? How much?
Because I didn't know this, because I didn't know that this was going to
be a problem. Yeah, So let me ask you this. If you
do that communication and you try to lend that space like, hey, well
while I'm doing this, that may take me away, you can come along.
If there's still a problem with that, does that mean that that person's
just not the one for you? Because I don't think, bro, If
you're as passionate as we are about our passions, Bro, I don't think
it's not gonna work. Yeah. I don't think you should have to give
that. I think the person for you, bro, because it's your partner,
might tell you if it's a shitty idea, and it might be a
shitty idea, and then you break up with this person, and then you
do your thing and it doesn't work because it was a shitty idea. You're
going to feel stupid. The problem with relationships is is that you trust this
person. So a lot of the times people don't get the free range to
do what they want to do because you haven't presented your partner with a good
enough reason that you should be able to leave your house and be on your
phone all the time. So if you ain't even pitched it to her,
you ain't even pitch your idea to her. Hey, babe, I'm about
to do this. What do you think about this? Because this is subsequently
going to help fund this, So do you think this is a good idea
before I take it in front of millions or hundreds of people or whatever,
or just sacrific time with you to do it. Yes, instead of trying
to go have nigga, your girl is smart. This little heffa is smart.
Niggas your girl the girl, That girl is smart and she got a
fucking opinion and she might be able to help you way more than the niggas
you are surrounding yourself with. This girl is sucking your dick and fucking you
raw and feeding you. She's asking you about hopefully she's asking you or she
hopefully she asked you about your day, but hopefully she loves you enough to
let you to show you enough that she cares about your well being. And
you mean to tell me that you don't want to ask her? Hey,
do you think this is a good idea? I mean you can add so
that was a good point that you said about her saying it's a shitty idea.
But she may think it's a shitty idea, but I think she can
say it's a shitty idea but still support your effort and whatever. No,
with so it's a shitty idea, So now she's gonna have to keep giving
you. But what if it's not a shitty idea? Is and it turns
out good? And then you're like, you motherfucker, you said this was
shitty, and now I'm making you. I answered that already you didn't pitch
it to her well enough to get her to understand. But what if you
don't pitch it because you feel like you ain't gonna understand any deal pitch and
you don't deserve a girl because they because because earlier said niggas don't know how
to pitch it though, then learn you on line learning how to fix your
motherfucking hell cat. You wan't line learn how to fix your motherfucking clothing company.
You want line learning how to motherfucking poe and do different type of shap
with a are So you ain't learned, So you didn't think to google pitch.
How can I pitch to my woman? How do I learn how to
pitch? Or how do niggas is doing research on everything else except me pitching
to my woman? Make me? So? Do you feel like even when
you gotta do you know audio gigs, do you feel like you have to
ask your wife to go with you? No? No, no no no.
We got kids. Now it's over for that. But I'm just saying
it's over for that. But if the All Star gig okay, had she
had we not had kids, right, she'd have been there with your ass.
She would have said, hey, I'm gonna tag along with you.
She's going Oh for sure, she's going okay, but we see that if
she But if she, my thing is that I just I don't like trying
to entertain my girl and my friends at the same time, right, and
I want it and I want it separate. I don't want it separate when
I go to work. I know, y'all. Niggas need to have girls.
That's the problem your girl. You keeping your girl locked the fuck up.
Niggas need to start inviting their girls. Then we wouldn't have to worry
about girls being there. Our girls are here. Niggas got girls, and
niggas don't invite the girls, right, So that's niggas go play golf and
guess where the girl is at at the spy with each other, they all
together, these niggas is down here for hours because you know why, because
she's in the spot with what they wise getting up down She don't give a
fuck because but you ain't about to go play golf for six hours and leave
me and this mother for crib. I feel that. Hell no, I
feel that now. Situas in here with me. Since being married, you
feel like you've compromised a whole lot. Uh No, I just had a
bunch of shit that I was doing that I didn't need to be doing.
And it kind of and it kind of made you feel realize that you really
went cold turkey. He did you niggas was paying me three hundred dollars.
What are you talking about our shit, bro, I'm talking about everybody.
Niggas was trying to pay me three hundred dollars to be the nucleus of their
party. I'm not even speaking on no ego shit. But that buddy shit
with Dave was my ship. You trying to pay me one hundred and fifty
two hundred dollars to DJ and you taking all the door, you're taking all
of the door, right, and you charging niggas twenty five. I can
count, I can count out. I can count. That's a lot of
us walk right, and I see how much walking out? And I see
that all of these people follow me, right, You didn't bring these people
down here, black Wood. It was crazy. Yeah, Oh that was
me and I allowed and I allowed my girl allowed me to go out and
be around people, risk everything, women, women for two hundred dollars.
I'm out from nine to four in a fucking morning. I should have been
many hours. That's too many hours. And I was gonna see how many
hours dollars an hour that was he was making. And when you start,
just when you start to realize that it costs two hundred dollars. It's not
a lot of extra money, especially when you're when you're making that much money
that ship go. You can make less money to pay me. But if
you don't want to do that, understand. But I'm not leaving my house.
I'm just not about to do it. The emotional drain. That's why.
That's why I give credit to Boogie Young and their personality allows them to
be fucked and talk to like crazy by these promoters and people and patrons.
Promoters ain't paying on time. Niggas will pay you a week later. Niggas
will pay you half in cash, half in zeal, a third and a
third in cash app. And they want to pay you. They want to.
They want too many fucking favors. Yeah, I would the club.
You gotta play music you don't like. None of these DJs like this music.
You think cash want to hear the shit be playing? Fuck no,
he's he has said it multiple times, but this is what they want to
hear or want him to play. I don't know. I don't know what.
I don't know why. I don't know why DJs get stuck playing stuff
to day Because I do know y'all niggas only react to the same songs.
Bro, I'm tired of playing Tevin Campbell. Can we talk? I hate
that fucking song. We I don't want to hear that fucking song every fucking
weekend, bro, and niggas want to sing and hold no bro holding hands.
Bro, That's when I stopped. But once I started to when I
was because I was only going out when I was going out because we were
trying to deald something with it. I'm not saying that we can't do that,
right, but nigga, why are we doing it? So? Can
we talk? Yeah, there's no music dropping every day, but that's what
it was. It would be shipped like that that I'm noticing. I'm like
Friday, this, this, this, this weekend seemed exact same as last
weekend. And once I started to, niggas started walking into a fucking portal.
Bro. No, once I started to realize that, I'm like,
we was over with it. Yeah, like you just I'm in there literally
just observing every day that I hate about it. Girl would have told you
that, Yeah, we should have presented it with her. I should have.
I should have. It did more harm than good, But my my
mental health, I can agree. My physical health. I can agree it
did way more harm. Yeah, I can agree way more harm than good.
I can agree with that way more harm. I put me in Nigga's
not getting home to four bro, and I'm not waking up until I don't
drink too much. I don't drank it. I don't drank too much.
You have slept the whole day away, whole day wasted. Bro. Now
what the fuck are you about to do all for what? Two fifty two
fifty Bro? Well, you that's the real ship. Will you think about
that? Bro? And that's my fucking problem. I overthink everything. But
when you really sit and think about it, you want me to leave my
fucking house for two fiftys I got to carry this heavy ass equipment, set
this ship up. I gotta download songs, I gotta look through songs.
I gotta put these in the folds. See, that's why I'm not so
caught up in going out now. You know what I'm saying, Like I
think we do. We did that ship so much. Man, that shit
burned me the fuck out. You know what I'm saying, what's the point
of going out now? That for me is if I'm not if it's not
a specific one thing I can it ain't out of town, and I can
tell you right now. If it's somewhere where I can't sit down when I
get there, I'm not going that's crazy. We just had to see that.
Yeah, epic, we could do anything I'm saying about. My life
has nothing new. I love that place. If they open Baca, I
be in there. Bookie Bang said something very interesting on this pot. And
I don't know if he thought that he was gonna get away with that.
What he say, I don't remember, but I made a mental note in
my head. Oh, I said that, if I ever get an opportunity,
I think about said. I said, you was one of my favorite
DJs. I said he was talking about DJ but but no, no,
no, no, I'm looking. But I said, that's my dog,
I said, I said, Eric one, my you know what he said,
Eric? He said he not even a real DJ bro And he said
he said, like, no, diic that But I know that I know
that. But if you had asked me, if you had asked somebody,
if I had asked body and said now they asked me, they say,
you're who your favorite local person who make shirts or who can make a whole
outfit, and I'd be like, my name and it ain't Perry. And
the person that I named did it every blue mom, there'll be a little
talk. I was like, oh no, no, you have me fuck
up and then they're gonna even really make close. I said the same thing.
But you had me at your wedding and it was standing room only.
You got me fucked up. Fucking back was hurting like a motherfucker. List,
Bro, that was the most painful wedding I have ever been to in
my entire life. And I don't think I get enough credit for showing.
That's my nigga. But the people who showed up to your wedding and stood
up, they love you. Only ill put to the reception. I ain't
going to the reception. You got enough standing out of me, nigga said,
I ain't going nowhere. I ain't going nowhere. Bro. My back
was on fucking fire. Bro. So you saying if you ain't good,
So you're saying you ain't going to the Boogie's wedding because it was standing on
only. You said no, no, no, no, no no no,
I didn't I didn't know it was sitting room only. I didn't go
I didn't get off working the wedding, so I was like, if I
can't go to the wedding, I'll just make it to the reception. Yeah,
I didn't know it was only standing room. Epic had seats, not
for no seats, not for a wedding, didn't have no seats, Bro
for us, Bro for the Illusions had seats. We could do what we
wanted, Epic. So if I if there was a section not to take,
you got to that. If you got to the club a nigga a
second after that, ship was lit. Ah you standing? You're standing,
Epic? Yes, what you definitely standing because everybody's sitting in them everybody sitting
in the seat, everybody at the bar. I go in the booth with
the money girl and sitting there. Well, they take me facts, mister
Epic. Though I do that it was a good time. How do y'all
feel about as black men, as black man? As a black man?
I don't want to This might be morbid. A lot of black men around
me are dying. I don't know how that's affecting y'all, but I know
how it's affected me a little bit. Death in general is just affecting me
a little bit different. I've had a lot of people died since COVID,
A lot of people, a lot of us have had people die. Yeah,
for sure, I don't want to I don't want to age myself out.
But if Niggas is dying at forty five and fifty and I'm thirty eighty
seven, I think, I I think, I think maybe that has a
bunch to do with why I don't want to go outside me too, Like
I want to be around my children as much as fucking post as possible.
Yeah, there's too much. There's too many things out there that's that can
take me away from fact. To these people, there's too much. It's
too many things, and it's and it's not even that important. If something
happened, if something happened while you were on the way to do something,
frivolous truck hits you. He was like, bro, I ain't even The
first thing you're gonna say is I didn't even need to lead a house.
Yeah, that that honestly makes me second guess how I react to just,
you know, stupidity out here in the streets. You know, a lot
of people are ignorant, Young people are ignorant, And I don't encounter those
people. Yeah I could, Bro. I the last encounter I had was
at the gym when I'm playing balls. Thinks to a place that I go
for like this is my stress relief. And I had to put my hands
on somebody. And I've had to, and I've had to. I've had
to because the way these young putting his hands on somebody not saying that you
saw no. But that's that's why a lot of the people I put my
hands on have got hands put on them because I don't. I don't look
threatening, so I have to show people what you do. What happened,
Long story short, bro, little nigga was talking Ship. I'm the mild,
laid back person I always am. I calmly and politely was trying to
tell him, like, Bro, you're too young for the super session.
I have this gym reserve. Blah blah blah. He continues to be defined,
telling me I don't run Ship. I went to get the piece of
paper that the lady printed with the age. It rips the paper up in
my face, those of I mean. At this point, now I'm deciding
if I'm just gonna hemn this little nigga upor if I'm gonna go ahead and
just really put hands on it. So as he steadied ass nigga bitch as
nigga pointing at me, but I'm just looking at him, and I just
was like, all right, he deserved, and I stuck that little nigga
in the mouth. He just deserved. Sometimes people deserve. And I waited
on his reaction and he wouldn't call it his mother eighteen years old. But
I say that to say because he could have had a gun in his bag.
You know these niggas nowadays, they talk like that and they not willing
to fight. So luckily he was not one of them kids that has a
gun, because then it could have been a whole nother situation. But I've
had to like encounters, even if I'm just in a store, people in
traffic, you know, they I've had to think, like, I'm not
going to even confront this situation because I'm not about to not go home simply
because I don't like the way somebody talked to me. That used to be
my problem. I used to have a big issue with the way people talk
to me, Like with me that's I feel the same way, but the
way I move now as an adult. It's how I've been moving since I
was a kid. I don't fuck with too many niggas. Yeah, you
know what I'm saying. Uh, I don't surround myself around too many niggas.
I'm just to myself, you know what I'm saying. And I've been
like that only because I've had older brothers, older cousins due jail time,
you know what I'm saying, Like real fucking jail time. So it's like
like nowadays, if like if done in your family fifteen and that's my brother,
he's still in costs ready in the fair now, you know what I'm
saying. But what does that do to you? Your big brother? Yeah,
that's devastating. What do it do to me? And at what age?
A? It's gonna play a big part too, Like when did he
leave? It's probably like twenty one, nineteen twenty, Okay he was an
adult, Yes, you know what I'm saying. Still you're still borderline trying
to figure shit out. But the problem is that not enough, not enough,
not enough people talk about that, I mean, but just like for
somebody that you really love, Yeah, but it is a different feeling.
But see, it's even different because like my My family is close on my
mom's side, like we all. You know, everybody in my family was
damnar raised by my grandma. Half of them called my grandma Mama. You
know what I'm saying, when it's really just their grandma. So you know,
you know every family you got like a you might have some Sopho motherfuckers,
you might have some geister motherfuckers, and the ghaistter motherfuckers really take care
of the family in whole. You know what I'm saying, something go on,
I know who to call. So when niggas is gone and I'm that
nigga, it hit different, you know what I'm saying. And these niggas
are called like, yo, what happened? You're good, you shay everything.
It's just a different feeling, man, Like I don't think I ever
wanted that, man, and you think I never wanted it. I don't
even call me. Don't even call me because because I'm not doing nothing for
you mm hmm. And it could be because of the way I was raised.
But don't call me. But you also bro because even back to what
I said, well, I was saying call sometimes you got to protect yourself
from yourself and that's what I've had to learn, Like, I know,
protect yourself from yourself. Yeah, Like, bro, it's so prime example.
There are certain environments I won't go in because I know if I'm there,
I know what to react to certain way and I know how I can
get so I won't even go because I'm protecting me from what I made.
What if that's what if that's a family event ship? It has been,
and there's been times where do you do that? I'm dealing with that,
man. You know what's the hardest part because it saying what you just said
is a lot. I don't go nowhere if I got to alter who I
am, yeah, and risk my comfortability in an environment and a lot of
the times that be just our family and I hate that. And this ship
sucks. Bro. It sucks, bro, because it's like I love y'all,
but it's like y'all not Yeah, I don't like the way I feel
when I'm here. Bro, that's just that. Bro. You know what's
crazy that ship is that feeling see yeah, look at you. That's a
blessing that that's not for real. And maybe because I'm just too nice not
it might not even be that BROO. The environment might not have gotten to
that that you know that that that position, you know, it's crazy.
I don't like loudness. That's why that's and I think a lot of people
don't like loudness. That's why I keep turning my headphones down because sometimes it's
last time. That's not but my family loud as fuck the lot. As
soon as they get let they get loud, and I'll be like, you
ready to go? Yes, why are y'all? Fucking hell? You wasn't
you didn't deal with that as a kid. I felt the same as a
kid. I was about to say, that's probably why you feel this.
When I was a kid, I was like, bro, because I couldn't.
You never made you can't do nothing, No nigga, I made myself
give you No nigga, I'm not making myself get used to nothing. That's
just my environment. No, it's not people as loud. They're going to
continue to be loud, and I'm about to crack his muffin. What there's
a chain of events that happens before my family is lap. Everybody starts off
calm and then guess what happens? They get Then you're skipping steps. They
turn on music. Music was already playing. It was calm music, Ericabadu
type ship okay, real low yeah. And then the more niggas that get
there, the louder they turn the fucking music up. And niggas don't have
just regular small speakers back in the day. Niggas have five foot one speakers,
the wood grain boys, wood grain heavy, two big ass wolfers in
that motherfucker. So now niggas is yelling over won't be like that? Why
am I side? Take the cat? Look, but the dog don't go?
And every they yelling like a motherfucker from the living room to the kitchen.
It was lit though at the time. It was lit at first,
and then something would always happen. Somebody started arguing, we'll suck you.
Then wait, wait, man, let me tell a story you want.
I'm not getting used to that because niggas always start arguing and start exposing it
about each other when we get this. Have y'all not realized that every time
we get past this certain threshold, shit happens, and usually when it gets
too loud. So now as I don't want to be around any of that,
I'm gonna come up. I'm gonna come show my face Hey, I
love y'all, and I am gone, and you're gonna be gone before that.
I am gone. I'm gone before it gets dark. Bro, I'm
back. I'm back on the highway with the sun still out. Bro,
I'm not staying here as soon. And then when and when I get home,
guess what I so and so did this or so and so did that.
I'm hearing the story and I'm like, I knew that this was gonna
happen. That must be part of my trauma because I love that shit.
Now, you know. I was literally about to say, some people either
deal with it the way Eric does, or some people get so used to
it that they don't the problem since the same ship he just described is my
family to a tea right now? Yeah, over my mama house right now.
That you've become this, but I've become accustomed to that. You see
what I'm saying, And it's a it's a what do they talk about in
those environments? It just opinons. Have you ever felt I didn't know different
conversations existed when I was a kid. I never felt inspired my entire child,
now that I know what inspired means. I never was inspired by anything
anybody said anything. I always in your family or just period in my family,
niggas never sat around and talked about anything inspiring or uplifting. But the
crazy thing about that, that's what made me though, because they didn't talk
about anything inspiring. I learned from looking at other people mistakes. No,
no, no, no, no, that's what I learned. I learned
what not to do. But I wish that I had. I wish that.
Imagine the conversation that they were talking about in the nineties, they still
talking about today, you said, are they yeah, and your family seventy
five percent. I don't want to be around that. I won't even watch
don't I don't even have algorithms that showed me what happened in the nineties.
I don't give a fuck about girlfriends. I don't give a fuck about arm
you fuck about that. I don't want to see anything that came out that
long ago or hear about it. No, because because why are we so
stuck in I think we as people get so stuck in nostalgia that we do
not realize that today, in ten years, we're gonna think that these was
the times, and all we do is sit back and talk about shit that
happened ten fifteen, twenty thirty. But we sat here and talked about the
club and that was that was five years ago. I just like, I
don't know, man, me, I'm different. I don't wondery about the
the old. Where are you at today? No, where are you at
today? Mentally? What do you like? What do you love? Let's
and let's have that conversation now it should be had for sure. But so
if you don't have anything in the past or that anything that you like to
go because sometimes, bro, you do want to I don't even want to
say relive a moment, just remember it, but just something you don't want
to sit and just remember what a certain time period was like now if it's
overdone, like every time. So let's say you leak up, Let's say
you haven't seen some of your college buddies. No, I'm a grown fucking
man. Why would I sit here and talk about being a whole time to
be alive? It wasn't a time to be alive. I was risking.
But you made it out of that, so now you can look back at
it. So whatever, But that's the story. But that's the story you
could tell your son. No, it's not why isn't it. Who gives
a fuck? I think it matters because because his childhood memory is gonna mean
something completely different. But who's still in this ain't world. It might be
different, but it's still he still got to go through the same ship and
everything you've been through, Bro, it made you who you are today,
the things that you I'm not saying that. I'm not saying that I disagree
with any of that. I just don't want you to I don't want to
sit and talk about it. I feel if I rarely see you, I
see you two times a year, right for Thanksgiving and Christmas, I only
see you for four hours. Think about that, and we're sitting here talking
about some ship that we talked about last Thanksgiving and the Thanksgiving before that,
And I think, then we get to a funeral and we do the same,
it turns into one of those things where we only talk about the past.
I think it's different for me because I'll just see my people on holidays,
so it might be different. That means it's worse. No, I
see my people all the time. That means it's worse. If you feel
like it's worse, but you're having not he he just said seventy five percent.
So he going over he kicked with his family every day, once once
a weekend, and he's saying, that's seventy five percent of the time they're
talking about the past. That's that's a lot. I feel you, but
I definitely see your perspective. You're so I'm gonna give you a prime example
and j DJ knows this, Fronn, We go ahead. Your mama's smart.
Our mamas are smart, they love our grandmas are smart, they have
opinions about ship. Are we limiting our family by only talking about things that
happened in the past? Or can I not? Can I not know what
you're thinking today? No, that's that's not That's good And that's what I
was saying. We do have conversations. That's what I was getting to.
Yeah, your your perspective is very important because you are right, and I
feel like a lot of times we don't speak on what is happening now.
An example I was about to give, like, you know, Chris,
our boy Chris Massy, when we you know, go to his crib and
chill in his basement and all that. There are a lot of times that
we, you know, we're talking about the team, Lidy days and all
that. But as of recent Bro, we because all of us are evolved
now as being and like even yesterday, DJ didn't make it, but but
we had like a two our conversation just about bro, just about being fathers,
raising kids, if we want more kids. Half of us got a
step child, so we talked about that. Just the refreshing, wasn't it.
Yeah, no, it's crazy. And we texted he texts. Everybody's
one was like, you know, I appreciate it was the best conversation I
ever had. And that's what he said in it, right, right,
But we get with our family and talk about old ship. You just proved
my point. That's what I was saying. That's I's not what you should
have lived with that niggas. I was saying you were right because no,
but for real, no, that's and now that I think about it,
Bro, even even just one of my uncles, my oldest uncle just passed
and he's a good bro. Part of life, but we niggas die.
You're right, but he had, Bro. He fought for two years for
what he was dealing with. Yeah, he you know, and the type
of man that he was. I honestly think like I don't want to.
Yeah, he was like, I'm cool, I'm ready to go. I
don't want to fight cancer. Bro. It wasn't even cancer. I can
tell you this. Bro. He was working on his car and his car
fell on him. Bro, he was paying for two hours on his car
and he was in a facility for two years. They was he couldn't eat
for like a year. They was trying to bro. He never had the
fuck Bro, that's awful. Yeah. So he get me out of here,
and that's the thing. I don't want to fight for my life.
And that's honestly. For two years, bro, he was trying to just
see if he would ever even stand up again. Yeah. So he passed.
He passed December thirty first, So I had a service in January and
all that, but I just you know, that was the that was.
We hadn't seen each other on that side of family in a while, I
think since my grandmother, which was his mother, passed, which was two
years prior. And you're right, bro, most of the conversations were the
same old stories. Now, mind you, it's more spaced out, so
I get it, But imagine if we're doing that every couple of weeks.
I don't know, man, I just felt like that shit. I get
what y'all saying, then I understand it. But for me and my upbringing,
I just felt like I need those type of conversations. What conversations?
The memories? Yeah, I need those? You need to fuel you,
yeah, because those are the things I hold on to. You know,
I'm very aware of what's going. Do you think do you think your hands
will get too full? But hold on ship. It's already too full.
That's a problem it is. You gotta let that ship go, bro.
Yeah, but if I let it, you'll make new memories. It's okay.
Have you seen that movie inside Out, the Pixar movie. I've heard
watched a lot of people watch watch it, watch it. I'm gonna check
it out because because the ship, like they put it in a very bubbly
way, but holding on to memories, some deep ship, bro, just
like just like so been killing it the Pixar. Be on some ship.
Here, be on some ship. I was thinking about. I was thinking
about your uncle, man, And the saddest thing about watching the man die
now that I have kids is knowing that I'm fighting to be here for y'all
and one day you gonna die. I think about that ship. I do
too, Bro, that ship. I told something. I told somebody that
and they thought I was weird. My wife and I was like, you're
like, why are you thinking about that? Brother? Listen, bro,
because it's I don't know how it is for y'all, but sometimes it's like
something will come over me, like, Damn, one day I ain't gonna
be here. Yes, it's recalling, you're conscious kicking in reality, like
one day I'm not gonna be here. I'll be looking at my fucking son
like that's the last time I did it. Bro. I was talking,
I need to I need to be here to protect you, man. Like
I said earlier about looking back and seeing your father there smiling with his hands
ready to hold you if you fall. That ship does. Like now that
I'm around my daughters, I was like, man, I see why bitches
be fucked up if they didn't have their father. If a girl went through
what I went through with my father, he calling every blue moon. He
don't really say he loved you like that. You don't remember hugging him like
that, Like if you had to go through that, how the fuck are
you gonna have a healthy relationship with a man you never ever developed, the
one that mattered the most. I fear that for my daughter. So you're
chasing a love that you don't even know. I feel that exact same people
are not in love because they do not understand. They do not know how
to identify love. Bro. I think about all the instances when I love
battered girls coming up. I just I was always attracted to the pitch that
a lot going on, and they did not recognize that this nice guy was
a healthy option. They would always date the toxic niggas. I'm like,
you didn't see this nigga was And I used to take offense to that.
Then I got older, I was like, oh, figure out. You
don't even you don't even know what a healthy relationship looks like. And there's
it's almost weird because it's almost like that the toxic nigga, it like triggers
a dopamine in them. No identify with it. I've seen I've seen you
and my family somewhere rather than my uncle, my brother, mine feels comforting.
It feels comfortable. That's crazy, that's really I don't like that because
the more the more you talk about that, I really fear for my daughter
because she's not in my life. She's the oldest and the thing it is,
she's thirteen. The thing is, I want to be there, but
she don't want me to be there due to the things that either her mom
or family told her about me. Yes, I just talked just crazy.
I just talked to my barber man yesterday about this. I was he was,
like, I said, brother. The reason why I was so when
I come in here, if y'all got this far in the pot, I'm
an asshole when it comes to audio because this is the only time I get
to pop my ship. Yeah, this is the only thing that I got
outside of being the father. It's being good at audio. So y'all should
suck, I'm telling you. But I'm gonna help y'all. I'm not just
gonna shoo on you. But that's my and that's our that's our inside joke.
And I hope y'all don't take offense to that because but but I say
that to say he said, well, you're a good father too, And
I said, we don't know that. I don't know if I'm I don't
know if what I'm doing is correct right now. And we won't know until
that until they get old enough and be like you fucked me up and you
be like wait what, Like where did I go wrong? I'll be talking
to my wife about that ship all the time. I'm like, bro,
I don't. I'll be asking her every day. You'll be good. She'd
be like, yeah, why you ask me that? And not not to
dis verity like I'm worried, but I was like, I'd been hearing stories
where motherfuckers are just handing the part of the divorce papers and the nigga be
like, what the fuck what happened? Yeah? No communication. I thought
we're done. Yeah, I'm done with this. Yeah, well you went
and saw a bitch? When did you go see a lawyer? Right?
Where was I? I thought you was at you were seeking a lawy,
You were seeking concert when you've been hitting. Bro, that's a scary part
about being in love. Bro. Oh shit. So when the bitches put
you on Facebook and they and they married and say, I'm bro. But
see, that's why I don't put my business on Facebook. No, for
that reason, I know I don't put my shit on social media because I'm
not using social media for that foot clout or no, not even that I
don't care if y'all know who I am. There you go, I don't
care if I just consume what I got. I'm gonna post a little bit
here and there, but I don't really want you all to know. But
no, people, man, people have trust issues and we are doing too
much as men and women to not comfort them. And they trust issues because
not everybody has both parents. So the things that I was speaking about,
people are dealing with shit. Yeah that they don't know that. They're dealing
with the way that they receive love, the way that they fucked, the
way that they talk, the way that they succeed life, the way that
they feeling like it all has something to do with what happened when they was
a kid. Every single time, bro. And I'm watching my kids grow
up hoping that I'm not fucking them up. But you know what's crazy,
man, is I think all we can do is do the best that we
can and hope that it works. Maybe that's wrong, but what do we
There's no answer to what's right. There's no there's no no, no.
Guy. That's the shitty part about life. You know what I'm saying.
You got to figure out seriously, that's just even like with my son,
Bro. He's ten now, and I'm very hard on him, but I've
also made sure that I'm very verbal and explaining the type of energy I give
him sometimes because I'm raising a young man. So but I've also started to
soften up a little bit because I'm like, I don't want this little nigga
to hate me. Yeah, it's like, he's ten, You got two
years, have a daughter, yes, sixteen, slept step daughter sixteen.
You don't have a daughter. You have a daughter, but you don't have
a daughter. Reason why I say that, The reason why I say that
you might feel this way about your stepdaughter. So let me I apologize because
maybe you do feel this way when this motherfucker looks just like you, but
as a girl, it blows. It changed. Yeah, and I we
don't look like Bro. It changed. It changes everything because you are developing
every I can see myself in you at every stage of your life, the
mistakes you're making the way that I can see myself in you. And then
I start to I start to wonder if the things that I'm teaching you is
going to protect you from the niggas who are not as loving as me because
I hear stories about niggas that are fucking terrifying, and I do not want
you to encounter one of these terrifying niggas and not know how to deal with
yourself. But you want to know what's so crazy? The more, even
even if you teach them to the core, you still can't stop them.
I was just about to say this, yes you can. You can't make
a decision they want to make right. You're right, but there are certain
decisions you didn't make because your mama was on you or your uncle was on
you. There are certain decisions you didn't make right right. That's because I
knew better. Some you just got to know batter And you know why,
because people don't have real conversations. That's why. So that's why when I
say I don't want to sit around and sit with niggas out of my peers
and talk about things that happened yesteryear, Nigga, tell me about the stage
you're in in life, please, I mean, but half of them?
How are your knees half of my? How is your body half from other
people's? Stage in life is declining? You know what I'm saying? Because
the counsel that is the family ain't giving them nothing? Well, I'm and
I think, and I think the nucleus of the family falls apart because there's
the need for there's no need for me to keep this together. Right,
Who are you giving me? I would much rather hang go with my friends
every chance I get, because my friends will telling me I'm getting fat.
I don't even have no friends. You do, y'all got your niggas.
You got friends. I don't have no friends. I was thinking that too,
But but what is a friend? Maybe that's not you know what I'm
saying. Maybe it's not your time and need. No. But so no,
that's what your girl is for. And I'm gonna tell you why.
That's what your girl is for. See. I think that niggas need girls
so that they can have somebody to call and that they can be themselves with
Because if you don't know how to develop this relationship with a woman, you
won't have a relationship with a woman. Right, So people be like,
oh man, people are calling, that's what your girl do? Hey,
bab have you ate today? Niggas be mad at their family because they're not
asking them. I don't give a fuck if you know, if you care
that I ate I ain't a kid no more because when I at that time,
y'all didn't. So now now my mentality to y'all is, y'all didn't
care. When y'all knew my family was sucked up, y'all knew my mama.
Now you care because you know we we Okay, I don't know why
you care. Actually, I'm fucking quite puzzled. Why the fuck do you
keep calling me? You had such rude things to say about me as a
kid. You wasn't speaking so positive about me when I was a fucking kid.
Do you feel like my family is? Yes, my family was the
first for to call me assholes. You could say, yes, I don't
like being called an asshole because people just call me that because I got an
opinion. My family made me feel the way that I feel about myself.
Not y'all niggas right, they said, I'm not saying I'm And maybe people
people develop their insecurities from their family, because are you course people that's gonna
tell you about yourself good, bad, or indifferent? And they're gonna talk
about your mama behind her back to you, to you a motherfucker? That
not bro, They gonna say shit. They gonna say shit that microaggressions that
you deal with white people, your family. Your family might do that,
but I feel like family don't get together and talk about how to avoid the
pits. No, you're You're right. We don't even want We don't even
feel comfortable enough to go to each other and be vulnerable. Man, I
don't know what I'm doing right now. You probably can't. And if you
can't there, you can't tell them because they're gonna be like so and so,
I ain't. I've I've witnessed y'all talk about everybody else. I'm gonna
talk about me facts all yea doing sit down and talk about people. But
them were the ones I stay away from you. That's family, bro.
Let me you know what, I'm even ask you a difference. I was
about to ask you. Maybe not all, but we all. It's definitely
some of them. It's a lot because we grew up in toxic environments.
We don't know how to be. That's why that's why it's weird. Like
as an adult, I can see like how impactful negative energy is, and
you can start because you got to protect your kids from it, so you
have to. You gotta be more alert. Before you used to walk into
a place and not give a fuck. Yeah, now you be like,
wait, certain places ain't it's certain gas stations, I ain't taking my kids.
Certain it's certain restaurants. I'm not taking my kids. It's certain not
even going. I'm not even about to be associated with none of this shit
because I ain't running the risk. Yeh. But I feel like, you
know, as we get older, like I be wanting to talk to older
people, like about their body pain. Do you have body pain because you
don't work out, or do you have body pain because you're stressed the fuck
out? Or is it a combination of both. That's probably My auntie is
in a shit ton of pain. And I keep telling this old motherfucker get
some weights. When's the last time you grabbed something heavy, squat it down
and got back up? Yeah, you ain't. Never did it. Your
body hurt because you are weak as a motherfucker. It only can get you
from point A to point B. Anything else, anything else. You can't
jump, nigga, you can't run fast, you can't do shit. Trying
to break the curse on that. I would know you can't break the curse
on that because people do. That's what I was about to ask. You
are so, it seems and I think I know you're so. You're instead
of choosing to maybe be that person like DJ just said, to break the
curse and change that family dynamic, you just removed yourself and you're gonna focus
on your family r it seems like, which is fine. You got to
learn how to communicate to people. And maybe I'm feeling at this, but
people will tell you where they're at quietly. So sometimes people might say things
that let you know that they're not okay with you doing cocaine in the bathroom.
So maybe you don't share that. But what if you're battling the cocaine
edition and you want to communicate with your friend that, man, I am
battling this shit. But every time the topic of cocaine come up on the
Internet, you're the first person in the comments talking crazy about people who are
drugs. When hurt. When the whole usher Herpy situation came out, everybody
had opinions. Your friend has that, one of your friends, I don't
give a fuck who you are. One of your friends have that, And
here you are voicing this, y'all having full on debates about how y'all feel
about topics that I don't agree with y'all want. They talking about Trump and
the word nigga and this and that and people arguing. I'm looking at how
niggas are responding to Diddy shit, to any to to anything they having,
people be on Facebook arguing, and you get to see. I'm not saying
this is my faan, I'm just saying people in general, you can really
see who niggas are. Bro. Oh, yeah, for sure. If
you don't. Sometimes we don't even feel comfortable going around to our friends or
our family to tell them the things that we are going through, so we
kind of get stuck. And this the stuck in this weird ass place to
where I can't communicate with you about what I'm really going through because I'm in
fear that you might judge me, because I've seen you judge others for less.
I've seen you judge others for less what I'm Why do I think I'm
going to get the benefit of the doubt because I'm me, I'm your cousin,
because I'm me. I don't know. I want people to look at
my social media and be like, oh, he's not a maybe I can
trust in him. I have to I be careful with the things that I
post because I think about that and I appreciate that, because that's one thing
I hate about the Internet. Bro. I know so many people that are
one person on the Internet but another person in real life, and that shit
really it used to really bother me, but now it's just annoying to see
like you, Like, let's say, I know what you're doing every single
day of your life, but on the Internet, you're posting something else.
And DJ is basing what he knows off of you from the Internet, and
I know, like, Bro, that's not that nigga's life, bro,
Like I see him every day. That shit he just posted is a full
lot, That's what. That's what I don't like about it. You could
be whoever you want to be on that. Yeah, it's like eventure it
is, but that it's terrible. No, No, I don't judge that
that's who you choose to be. Maybe this is who you want to be,
but when you get into the real world that but that's that's just like
a nigga who claims that he's a hood nigga, a street nigga Internet and
then he get into some shit with his partners, and his partners about to
think I know he about that he got my back, and then he'd be
the first one to run. That's a silly example, but that type of
shit, that's how far fetched some of these people will elaborate who they are
on the internet or even when it comes to the money they may have.
I could be on the internet posting jewelry and I could have just got paid
and I'm flashing that money. But as soon as I take this camera off,
I'm about to go pay my ready, and now I got thirty dollars
to my name for the next two weeks. So if you hit me up
and be like can you hit me up and be like, hey, bro,
you got twenty, I can borrow and I'll tell you no, you
like, no nigga you just had two g's on Facebook or nigga just didn't
won't give it to you. Maybe. But if my nigga see me on
the internet flashing money and ask me for twenty, I'm not tell him to
kiss my ass. Go ask your girl, why the fuck are you asking
me? If you my why are you asking me for money? Unless you
are my dog? Like if you are not my motherfucking dog, and I
know that you are going through some really, really rough times. I'm going
to ask you if you need twenty I'm going to ask you if you need
money. If I don't know that, if you're not my dog and I
can't see, if we're communicating and you're telling me that you're hitting, you're
hitting some fucking hurdles, I might just cash aft be somebody. You might.
You don't even have to ask me, and you ain't gotta pay me
back. Niggas just gonna do it. Yeah, But the fact you can
post, you can post money on it on the internet. Whoever I ask
you for telling them to kiss your ass, you can do whatever you want.
I'm more so speaking about the things that people say in the comments.
Who you what pictures you post? I don't give a fuck what you post.
One time, my cousin did post a video I'm smoking a cigarette and
I was like, why, but so what? You don't think people can
be selling bullshit in the comments too? I wouldn't. I wouldn't sell some
bullshit that makes people view my inte my the way that I think. I
wouldn't want anybody to. I wouldn't want to put something out there that can
live forever, and motherfucker holds you to this shit. They're gonna hold you
to that, So I'm careful with that. You like your comments be funny
as hell when I do, because you know, Instagram will definitely show you,
like your first your niggas, your niggas right there. I'll take anything
you comment on. I be cracking up to let us try. But I
know these people. Yeah, like some of the people that I be comming
on, I know them. Yeah, I've had interactions with him, so
or if it's a celebrity, I mean, like for the like, if
I see my cousin under a fucking Diddy post and he making this whole long
gass and then he going back and forth with somebody about right and then he
says some ship like sometimes bit just needs to be slapped. What cause some
niggas to say that online? Yeah, yeah for sure. Or a nigga
in the comments talking down on Diddy for doing it, but he'd be hitting
his girls. So that's what I'm saying. Full of ship on the internet.
Yeah, he gotta have to be crost the White said so about that
Diddy ship that if I got a billion I should be able to. I'm
shocked that he's still around the white Yeah, I'm sure I like some of
the things that he say, but I'm shocked that he's still around the niggas
said, stop acting like your your granddaddy didn't beat your grandma ass back in
the day. And that's the things that I'll be talking about when it comes
to family. My It'd be some abusive niggas in my family. I'd be
like, why y'all never right? We don't talk about Bruno had ass,
like just they just omit it. It's so weird. That's something that we
do in the black community. Bro. We just we either problems or we
act like they're normal and just deal with it. Not many niggas tell stories
about them beating up their uncle for hitting their auntie. I've never heard that
story of that. And everybody got an uncle to hit their auntie. Rather
it be the family you're close to or the family would rather be on your
daddy's side or your mama's side. Somebody got an uncle that was an alcoholic.
Maybe he did a little heroin and he used to punch. We all
do, and niggas ain't never is a I never heard nigga talking about I
had to beat up my uncle or I had to beat up my daddy for
I never heard niggas say he had to beat up his daddy to save his
MoMA. Mm hmm. So niggas are used to watching it. So I
be shocked when everybody has all of this outrage about this nigga being heard nerves.
And I was at Great Wolf Lodge and the nigga hauled off and slapped
a woman and dragged her outside. And the only person that got up with
security, the only person that got up with security. So y'all, I
ain't get up. I was just about to ask, did you have an
inclination to not my problem? And that's the same way I feel about the
didy shit that ain't my problem to have. My opinion doesn't matter right now
that we've seen it. Oh, do what you're gonna do? Same thing
with R. Kelly when I saw that video. Oh no, do what
you're gonna do. I'm not about to get into this. I'm done with.
As soon as you show me who you are, I'm done. You
don't get you don't get to keep playing me for a food. Get the
records yourself or nothing. No, some ship is too egregious. Bro,
Yeah, you making you making songs? Did he making songs? He don't
understand you like I do? He does he ever make that to you like
I do? So give it to me. These two, these two,
this pedophile and this Womna Beat are making music together and the song is called
Satisfy You Christ the Irony Usher Usher knowingly made a song with R Kelly and
it's called the Same Girl. That's crazy. They all were complicit in this,
bro, while we not holding them niggas. This nigga Jayz he made
two albums with this nigga bro, and it's in the Allia video talking about
I love you Hey, any family member of mine. If y'all ever find
out somebody was abusing me and y'all make music with this nigga, you are
dead to me? Non facts, don't I don't when I die, I
don't want to see you. You bet not gonna. I'm gonna hunt you.
I'm gonna show up at your house at three in the morning every night
for the rest of your life and fuck with you. You will never get
sleep again in your life because why would you do that? That's the industry
is crazy, bro. It is that is some deep as ship. So
is there anything that you or any not any anything or anybody that you give
grace to or are forgiving to or you kind of because it's in this This
is my wife. She the only person. Okay, and I'm sure your
kids too, But there my wife. That's it. My kids don't even
get grace. You bet not fuck up. You better not do it.
You better not do it. My son is in the son is in the
weird stage. Man. He'd just be asking for asphopps and I don't give
it to him because I realized that the things that I used to get in
trouble for I don't necessarily mean that he has to get in trouble for.
Yeah, a lot of times I'd be like, bro, I had to
realize that you knew better, but ship that they maybe just like stand in
the corner, bro saying, hey, that's standing in the corner when when
they starting they can't starting. I sit down, stop that ship, bro,
I mean my little niggas standing in the corner with his arms up.
Oh yeah, that's lit. I don't even want you leaning. He was
trying to go like that. I said, put them arms up there.
You gotta be careful. You know better, you gotta be You gotta be
careful how you even discipline your kids and how you communicate to them when not
for real gets something wrong. You don't want to suck them up. Yeah,
but not only that ship. You don't want them to go telling other
motherfuckers what you done did I don't care about that trouble. I don't care,
but I do. I don't care about that My kids go to all
white schools. That's real because the ship that me and go to school say,
my dad beat me last night they call. We ain't get into that.
We ain't gonna We ain't even get to the beat points. We didn't
even get to the people right right. We gotta we have to learn to
communicate. You're what you're saying is true. But I think about it.
I think about it in the sense of I don't want to. I don't
want to, I don't want to ruin our relationship, and I don't want
you to the image of whipping. The image of it bothers me like the
the aggression given to I ain't never got a whooper, I got my ass
beat. That's that's awful. Yes, it is, but I needed it.
Imagine telling your kid know what you needed was love. You wouldn't know,
you didn't, You wouldn't have acted, You wouldn't have. You wouldn't
have, you wouldn't have did ship bad enough to get your hands put on
you? Boy, I was bad? Why were you bad? Because I
was outraged? I don't know you. I said you was mad. Something
was pissing you off? Because why would you do these? Because when you
really, when you really look at your kid, imagine telling your kid to
go outside and get a switch. Imagine being mad enough to telling your kid
to go get a switch off the tree and you hit him with it like
that, like you look like a slave owner. Yeah, and you essentially
whipping them for not being a slave. What is it when by following what
you said right, watch the dish is why you didn't clean that? Why
you didn't take the chicken out? Why you didn't? And it's usually because
you can't manage the aggression that you have with life. I was just about
to say a lot of that came from the anger that they the parent had.
You got to manage your mother fucking emotions. So it's like I'm already
on ten when I get off work or wherever, because I don't something.
I didn't dealt with all this bullshit for how many hours at the day,
and then I walk in this door on my household and it's any more bullshit.
Somebody got to get touched. I feel like that was definitely a big
part of and that's how our generation was. That's why I don't like whippings,
because I'm not allowing anybody to make me that mad to where I put
my hands on somebody who looks exactly like I've never had the whoop my son
simply because he's so terrified just off my voice. I've never I had to
snatch him up one time, and this was very well warranted. But as
far as like striking with a belt or none, I've actually never had to.
I'm not doing that shit. But I he fucked up. But we
but we grew But we grew up with that ship. Yeah, sure,
that's all. We fucked up. But I definitely snatched you. Yes,
we sucked up. You feel like we fucked up? We are fucked up.
How do you feel like we fucked up? The crack Air? The
crack Air fucked us up And it ain't even got it's they made a plan.
They got together and made a plan to put drugs in our community to
fuck them up, and it worked. That's really crazy and it worked.
So the last episode and touched on that and he was like, I don't
know if it's verbatim, but it's on the lines. He said that society
shouldn't blame us. That's how I clip you sah, Yeah, they shouldn't
look down on us for the for the Yeah, they kind of pushed us
into Yes, that's exactly. Yeah, but I don't know, we put
ourselves in that ship. A motherfucker puts some dope in hand, you ain't
got to sell it. If it's coke, I might have done it.
I ain't gonna sell it. But I'm just saying a good weekend, but
I'm not about to sell it. You can't say that because you got to
think at the time they did it, the people was either in such despair
that they use it or they was hurting. I know, I know,
I know, I know. But have you ever talked to a drug dealer.
Let's have you ever had a conversation with a drug dealer for sure from
back then? Yeah, if you ever asked them what they bought well with
the money, yeah or yeah, ship cars close a bunch of bullshit.
Your family wouldn't in that motherfucking must despair if the only thing you bought was
a car. You didn't do nothing. You didn't buy no property, right,
but you didn't buy no land that you didn't put nobody in school.
That goes to the lack of the education, the knowledge. You wanted money
to impress. Bitches, you are the people that's watching. You wanted money
to impress. You just want You didn't You didn't want to make enough money
to pay just your mom's rent. I mean, you ain't got a hustle
like that. Yeah, but your why is crazy. That's the American dream
that was sold to the black community being being a nigga with the change,
the cars, the women. That's what they thought. Why do niggas want
to wear minks? Who did they see? Was it that cod niggas was
in the summer? Have you ever had a mink on? No? It
looks heavy, it looks heavy. It's heavier than the pelly. I don't
like regular coats periods, so I definitely and don't get the long joint to
go all the way down you gotta dress. You got a mink dress on
facts? Why you checking that? Motherfucker? I'm robbing you. You mean
to tell me you about a coat? You better coach check this mink?
This twenty thousand dollars mink. I'm about to call somebody. They're coming to
get them if we're in that much despair. Right, But niggas is buying
minks and showing up to thirty eighth Street. Yeah, we bought we we
niggas a large majority of people sold drugs to look good for women. Yeah,
they took the They took the man out of the house. See,
I think the man is so important to be around because the man can tell
you, hey, man, it's more important things in life, right like
look at look at look at meach being in jail, and then look at
his father saying y'all shouldn't be doing this. Yeah he was right, Yeah,
y'all was. You didn't want you Why y'all hustled like that and your
house didn't change? Yeah, y'all don't even renovate the house, right,
I never y'all left. Y'alls be in these two bedroom, one bath in
the in the trap, still with twenty thousand pocket. I ain't never that
part of what a seventy five thousand dollar car driveway. That's the ship.
You're fucking up notchious, while we're not talking about big meat being fucking up
noxious. I worked at Applebee's and Marietta and Blue Da Vinci came to apple
Bee's and he had it was him and a bunch of niggas and some rats,
and he had maybe like four Lamborghinis. I didn't see the Lamborghinis until
they left. These niggas were the rudest patrons I ever dealt with and the
cheapest patrons I ever dealt with in my entire They didn't tip, They left
a fucking mess. They was. They was rude as a motherfucker. They
were loud as a motherfucker. They didn't I was trying to provide the best
service for these motherfuckers because I'm like, oh, I know, I know
of this, Yeah, but maybe I shouldn't have. But I was like,
all they black, I don't want to I don't want to assume that
they all of them are saying they might be a little different, they might
be a little bit I mean, but damn nigga all turned out to be
the same, you turned out to be worse. These niggas had a billboard
in Atlanta that said, the world is yours BMF. Why did y'all buy
that? Because if niggas being despair and the hood, y'all brought a tiger
to the club, No, it got lost in treads. Why did y'all
do that? Niggas wanted to show who was the big man. But I'm
not. I don't want to go to a club where there's a nigga in
there doing that. Yeah, because what I'm I gotta go home after this
and by the end of the night, shit ain't gonna look right in here.
But that's also one of them things. Man, Like we said earlier,
you you might not know what type of money monster you can become when
you get that kind of money. They might have said, all you gonna
be a different nigga with a lot of money. Yeah, y'all gonna hear,
y'all gonna have audio as soon as y'all walk into my house. My
ship is going to reflect well now, growing and mature. But in my
early million, early twenties, nigga I would have had I would have blew
that exactly on studio equipment. I would have blew that. Oh, I
would have blew that. I would have blew that. Bro. I would
have blew that. No cars, no no Bro and a lot of studio
equipment. He has everything, Bro, I want to do it? Sound
Bro, one of them. So many microphones cost ten thousand. There's a
there's there's some really expensive microphones. There's some really expensive boards, Nigga.
I would have been what I would have I would have and I would have
been homeless with the ship. What is what is a ten thousand dollars microphone
doing? Bro? And I'm not even trying to be funny. Why does
it? What does it do? That is that type of VI see that
you brought that up. I was listening to Summer Walker on the way over
here, and I was like, Bro, there's a certain clarity I'm not
getting from her voice. It's like a it's like a cap It sounds like
I know she's I know they use an auto tune because I can hear the
robotic effect and some of them notes that she's doing. That's cool, But
there's a certain clarity to her vocals that I'm not hearing. You know who
has that they used? They use good equipment. O te Pain, I
know you. T Pain uses auto tune, and there is everything that you
can hear every His voice sounds so clean and pure. He figured out what
we might not listen to him now because whatever reason. But when I listened
to like Katie Perry, this is Friday nine, when you listen to it,
there's a different bandwidth that comes through, and it's usually it's twenty hurts,
twenty thousand herts on it. So you know, when you're looking at
it old school equalizerboard, it's the last one and the first guy like that.
Yeah, this the the one and the higher frequencies. That's what the
clarity is. And pop music is polished and it's a lot higher, and
you can get that when you have microphones with bigger diaphragms and to allow to
capture that. You can't replicate that. So when you got a ten thousand
dollars microphone or a twenty thousand dollars microphone going into a ten thousand dollars compressor
going into a five thousand dollars this and then going into Cardi B and Sexy
Red music would never sound the same. They got they figured it out for
her. They haven't figured it out. For sexy Sexy red vocals sound like
they just sound like they sound like Kroger and Cardi b sounds like Whole Foods.
It's a different level of clean. It's the same grocery store, the
same layout. Soon did you come in? You sa her equivalent to save
a lot? The Krogroom road nice, bro, the crogrom S Grinford is
nice, the kro gram Dice is nice. I'm not saying anything about it
with you. I'm just saying, like the expectation that was a very good
But some niggas sound like Walmart, right, some niggas sound like Audie.
There are certain brands that you can attach to because the way that they sound.
But Nigga, when that ten thousand, that ten thousand dollars microphone is
just it just captures things that you can't understand. And that's why I don't
like Joe Budden as much as I used to, because I feel like y'all
should invest in that. I feel like who you think you are, you
are that, but why don't your audio reflect that? Because you can't say
you're a bad bitch and you not and you and I spent this on the
shoes, and this on my clothes and this on my chain. But then
you you war retail on your mic. Why did your bad bitch me to
cut off at that point? Why didn't you just keep going? Why did
you go to bird Off and buy the most expensive sweater but go to sam
Ash and by the cheapest mic. Yeah, if you have a bad bitch,
be a bad bitch. I run a bark. So I feel some
people just cut corners, so you're still what needs to be done. I
don't think people like you said before, they they don't understand that all of
that matters. I didn't understand all that matters either, until maybe you don't.
I'm I'm kicking myself and ask no, maybe you don't. I think
it does. Because that's why, even when it comes to the closing,
what I do, bro, I would rather just wait until I can.
It don't even have to be the best of the best, but there's a
certain level of just quality and presentation that I won't go under. So until
I can either stay there or go above it, then I just won't do
much because I don't want to compromise who I am and what I do and
the way I represent it. Because I just simply can't afford certain stuff right
now. Oh man, there's a flaw in that, bro, there's a
flaw in that. What's the fall? Not everybody requires what you think is
good, but you think it's good versus what I think is good. When
it comes to close, maybe different what you think is good versus audio versus
what I think is good gonna be different. And I have to remind myself
that when I'm spending hours trying to tweak some shit or spend an hour trying
to write a story, what y'all think is good versus what I think is
and it's the same because I'm studying it from a different LANs. I'm way,
yeah, you just listening. You just listening. You're not even I'm
spending hours on mixing some shit you don't even really give only they don't even
appreciate that effort. So it's like, why give it to them if they're
not even gonna recognize how much you put into it. I think they can't
recognize the effort. I think that I ain't gonna say they don't appreciate it.
I'm gonna say that I don't think they recognize the effort, because how
would they well, And I'm only saying they don't appreciate it because they don't
even know what Like, like I said, I didn't appreciate how good you
were at what you did until you showed me the difference between you and everything
else and sold me with this podcast. So me not me being me,
being me being ignorant to the skill set and the different levels that the audio
engineer can do. I'm not even realizing, like, oh, like,
if you just sent me something, I'm not gonna appreciate it because I'm like,
I don't even understand what this is. But when you really broke that
ship down and I was sitting in that room, I was like, this
sounds like I'm in the speakers and then versus hearing something else that wasn't what
you just couldn't I couldn't appreciate it until I understood it that there's a there's
a videographer that I really are am I as Collie here a rapper? Yeah,
a rapper. Put it up on the set of a rapper. You're
a good rapper. But the way the ship that he be doing with graphics
and videos, I'm like, bro, you're not a fucking rapper. You're
a fucking videographer. What you're a multi media specialist. That's what you are.
That's what he is. But he just posted some ship with his daughters.
Ship was cold. I've seen it, I said, Bro. I
replied to it. I did. To the clarity of it, Bro,
Yeah, the clarity of it. Bro. He posted the video that he
posted last year and this year, and what I What he did last year
I thought was good, and then he posted the I was like, oh,
ship. We don't really understand the importance of quality when it comes to
video and audio, but we consume it all the time and all the same
and all the same, so it matters. So you like when you when
you said he ain't gonna put your song on this playlist if you're an artist,
it's because your ship don't sound like it belongs on my playlist. You
know what song does belong on the playlist? Fucking dead Silence Vanilla Bean.
That is the best local song produced wise I've heard in a very fucking long
time. That ship sounds so fucking good. Shout out to what's that big
Instagram? I don't know calling me, I don't know, I'll find it.
Yeah, that's show hard I fuck with Vanilla bean. I just want
to see you go. See that's ship Sally me. But nah, I
definitely do feel what you're saying. But once again, I do a lot
of what I do for me. Oh that there's a flaw in that,
but you for me. I feel if I'm doing because if I'm not doing
it for me and I'm doing it for the money, And I've learned if
you're doing something for money, you're doing it for the wrong reason. I
think I think the perfect balance is learning how to do both equally. I
think, honestly that's where I'm that's where I'm getting to because my friend that
works every vote, man, I love her to death. Man. She
was just like, bro, you are talented, but you are not producing
the stuff that we need to hear to put money behind you. Like she
was like, Erodica is cool, but throwing it down just a little bit.
What do they want? They want their real ship? And I think
I think I figured it out. I think I kind of figured it out.
I ain't gonna say what I'm gonna do, but you have figured it
out because they all the conversations we don't have. You're like, yep,
I think I got it because you can put sex and stuff, but I
think the story gotta be a little bit like like I think, I think
what's wrong with erotica, but I think what's wrong with e Rodica is that
the story, even my ship, the sex shouldn't just happen, because then
it's just like porn, right, Like need a story with I'm gonna show
up. I saw her at the club, we saw it, we drank,
got home fucked, or I found him on Instagram found him fucked,
or this person found a fuck. They want to know. I think people
want to know how the character is actually thinking, feeling. Make them,
make them fall in love with this character before you put it dick out,
make him fall like I think people like with Dark Knight. I think the
reason why Dark Knight was so successful was that because it was the first dark
superhero movie. Like even the way that they shot it wasn't bright. It
was dark. It was super dark. It was dark, and the Joker
was like, oh shit, this nigga is this nigga fire And it's just
the setting in the on of it. I think that was the first time
that we could actually that people have started to want more out of characters.
Yeah, it's got the Joker part. That Joker was like the first villain
I think I saw what's the word? That was the first villain I saw
myself in. Yeah, we people could resonate. Well, I see why
you're doing this shit, my nigga. Yep, yeah, like it makes
sense now. All these other villains it's just psychopaths. We don't understand.
Wow, this is Nigga's a ping. We actually understand. How the fuck
are you a pinguin? Not even just the Batman? Even like I feel
like they did a good job within those with that well Marv, I feel
like they they they slow burned that. Yeah they made that again. Yeah,
it's almost like they made you feel like I can because I ain't gonna
lie once I start, because I bro's I watched what I after I watched
avengerans Is, I watched that The Joker with Joaquin Phoenix like around the same
time, and in that Joker, they really make you be like, I
see why you turned out to be a monster movie, And after watching both
of those movies, I could damn near relate to him. And I'm like,
am I going crazy? Because I'm starting to understand the village. That's
a good character, and that's what niggas are not doing with e Rodica.
Yeah, you ain't even giving us enough backstory. You feel like you ain't
doing that with Black Widow. No, because I got insecured about Black Widow,
and I'm gonna say this another we gotta wrap it up. But I
feel like twenty sixteen seventeen was a really bad time and a good time at
the same time. It was a good time, and I think that I
expected Black Widow to catapult me somewhere else. I feel like when I deal
with Black Widow, I'm kind of dealing with it in the sense of like
an angry, angry mother to a child, like why didn't why I'm spanking
it, I'm, for a lack of better terms, I feel like I'm
abusing Black Widow because it didn't take me to where I thought it needed to
go, and at that time, I have a distaste for it now,
like when I sit down and write, I kind of be like, what
am I doing this for? It wasn't gonna work. I'm talking to myself
meanly because I feel like that was the I feel like I missed the train
almost and the reason why I feel like that is because I did. I
feel like that. I feel like I made music and I didn't go as
hard as I didn't network. I didn't I didn't follow the rules. I
didn dah d d da dah, and then my music. I didn't have
a music career like a lot of people need to realize that, like I
didn't. I didn't have what it takes. I don't have what it takes.
So with podcasting, we did agnit philosophy before a lot of people started
pods and then doing two a week video audio putting it out, and it
didn't get me to where it didn't give me the respect I thought that motherfucker
should give me being the one putting all this shit together. I couldn't.
I couldn't. My conversation with people didn't change like people did in charge like
podcast networks or jobs or whatever. So you I have this this taste to
do it now because I was like, I did all of that, and
I even know that some people ain't making money now and I know that it's
a dead I need to feel like I don't want to feel like it's a
dead end, but I feel like I spent too much time doing it so
I'm trying to make it make sense. It has to work now. So
I got to figure out how to find the balance of doing what they want
me to do, which is the audience, figuring, figuring that out,
and then making it. Because if I can't do that, then am I
really an artist? Or if I can only create what I want to create,
I'm an artist. But Emma, you know what I'm saying, and
that's like you just told me, I gotta find a balance. You gotta
find the balance. Like if I'm the only one that like it, is
that doing for me? What are you doing? I can dress myself and
that's it, or whatever else you gotta you have to. You have to
make some ship that is kind of true to you that you can say,
Okay, I did I did the best that I can do. I took
the time. And the only way you can do that is if you if
you make a pitch, you have to make a Okay, this is what
I want to do, this is what I want to accomplish. That way,
you know you have a metric of success, because if you don't have
a pitch for yourself, you don't even know how how you're supposed to be
aiming, So how do you even know if it failed or not? Because
Black Widow was a success, I couldn't keep it up. I didn't understand,
you know, I didn't understand what I had. I didn't understand I
didn't understand podcasts in the sense that you can't take time off. There is
no time off to never take no time off. Don't take no weeks off,
don't take no months off, because as soon as people can't rely on
you to drop, they will stop relying on you to drop somewhere else.
But it takes time for you to write some ship. Like I'm in a
space now to where I know that I need to take time off to write.
But I can't take time off to write because you got people wait,
because I got people wait. I don't want Patreon to go down, So
it's a stressful. Still try, Yeah, I gotta and and you can't
do that. You gotta disappear like Frank Ocean. You gotta disappear. But
I don't have that. Then I'm scared to if I get a job that
takes more time, and I got my family and my wife, I had
time to do it, So I'm terrified of it. So I have to
figure out a way to I gotta make it work. I have to figure
out way to work. I gotta figure out to make make it work.
So I gotta I gotta unlearned. I gotta unlearned or detached to the sourness
that comes from black widow. So I can be successful at it because you
can put some ship out, but you don't know what people are gonna what
people gonna like from you. And as an artist, you can't just listen
to what you like. You can't just make what you like. If the
if the whole thing is to gain an audience to sell them something, the
whole purpose is for all of this is to get enough people to sell some
ship too. Then you need to figure out what market you can communicate with
and make some ship for them. That's it. That's all that this is.
And maybe try to expand maybe you know, but to diversify your portfolio
somehow, you know what I mean? Do what cons that doing. He's
with the Asian nigga in Taiwan. That was genius. I don't think people
even talk about that enough. They just say he's streaming nigga. No,
that nigga is smart, you know, But so it's, you know,
a podcasting. It's I feel like, I feel like the way I feel
about Sexy Red in regards to them sucking all of the life out of her
and then spending back out is like that they were podcasting. Podcasting kind of
the bubble kind of got big. They gave all the money to Amy Schumer,
Kim Kardashian, the Obama's Spotify gave all the money to people. Uh,
the Black Effect made charlemagneham podcast network. They built a bunch of shows.
They didn't go find the people who had a following already. They didn't.
Ain't nobody got the True Crime Sisters yet, it's a podcast Sisters who
Killed or Ain't nobody when it got the Oprah ain't called them yet. So
to me, it's like, how much success do I even have to have
in order to people for people to notice me to even so now it's now
I'm relying know on I'm now relying on my audience to pay for my life
and to pay for the production of this. And it's a lot. Yeah,
it's a lot. Yeah it is. You gotta like just rent alone,
so I gotta I gotta rely on people to come over here and record
for me for free and the hopes of and I'm like, man, that
feels bad. I want to pay these people, and fortunately people will still
fuck with me and do it for free, but but it just feel bad
for you because you're like, damn, I want to give you what what
you I did? Yeah, I did all of this work. Yeah,
I had these people come over here and record this, and and I'm taking
time setting up. I gotta yeah, I gotta make it make sense.
So I got to make sure the story that I do next is people ain't
like here you go. I want them to be I want them to read
and be like damn, I want to be a part of this. So
it's gonna take time. So it's like I'm stuck between the rock and the
hard place with the content. I gotta be a dad, I gotta be
a husband. I'm moving like I got a whole bunch of life ship going
on while I have to find a time to write and still trying to show
up for the people that wait. Bro. I get it. It's tough.
Bro, it's tough. It's tough. It's tough. It's tough.
But that's why you gotta have a partner that can talk you off the edge
or help you bounce ideas. So y'all can be together and talk about what
she's passionate about her work, you talk about with you because maybe at the
end of the maybe, at the end of the day, it's just a
hobby to keep you entertained until you die. Yea. So maybe maybe maybe
you find a way to make some money, but it will never be it's
not it's not going to provide a lifestyle. Yeah, maybe it might not
it Maybe maybe this is the lifestyle and we're not even realizing it. Like
I said, we're so worried about the past that we maybe maybe we are
in the moment mahomie Carlos dj Ai. He was like, man, you
do know you live in a life you want to live, right. You
might not be the richest man, right, but you definitely said you live
in the way that you want to live. So I'm like, damn as
perspective, So I got it. I had to talk to my wife and
be like, all right, what kind of life? What do we want?
Right? Because maybe I'm missuscessent and if you if you walk around with
this, oh I'm not nothing because I don't have money. But Yo,
maybe you do got money, right, maybe because you ain't gotta you ain't
got a hell cat. But yeah, maybe that wills nigga. Yeah,
maybe maybe you don't need that. We might not have the biggest house,
but you got a house. Maybe you don't need all that, right,
you know what I mean? Like, we got to figure out what success
is. We got to figure out what a successful relations or what success for
us look like, because it's different for every individual, right, not for
not what we see other motherfuckers. Not a blanket. It's not a blanket
statement. I think that's the problem with relationships is that we don't we don't
we think that, we think that if ours don't look like that, then
we ain't making it. Yeah, but you might be. Yeah, you
know what I'm making it. We just ain't got the bread. That's real.
I enjoyed this conversation. I appreciate you pulling up man. Yeah,
I was shocked with the nigga said, hey, I want to do an
episode. Listen what I said. No, I appreciated. I'm being pumped.
Not the nigga behind the audio want to get on the audio. No.
The thing the thing about POD is I got a distaste for it,
right, all I see is all I when I watching people do pods,
I was like, man, I can't get out of producer mode. Yeah,
I know that. For the years that ignorant philosophy was successful. I
mean and we we were successful when there was no Instagram yep with video.
Yeah, I did two videos. We did two episodes that YouTube, right,
they were on YouTube, no view, niggas went on YouTube like that
pt no reels on it? What no reels? So we was getting four
or five six thousand episode plays an episode with no to gram reels with funny
moments. All the funny moments we had could have went viral. Yeah,
never know Instagram reels. So when I'm watching people do pots now, I'd
be like, I'll be jealous a little bit. I'll be jealous a little
bit like if I had a die Keenan and boogie right now yeah, or
brook Nation on my pod right now back, like if we had the tools
right back and then oh yeah yeah yeah be up. Yeah, it'll be
up. So I be kind of like salty, But people don't ask me
to be on their pods. So I do appreciate just the opportunity to speak.
We appreciate you, bro. And even outside of the pot, bro,
I know shit. I mean speaking for myself bro, even the conversations
we've had bro, just you know, just an adult and ship being a
parent. We don't get to see each other often, bro, but the
times I've pulled up, brought clothes whatever, just chopped them. Bro,
it's always made time. Like with people don't understand we brothers in real life,
Yeah for sure. So I feel comfortable, you know what I'm saying.
Like some people are like, oh I got yeah, nigga, we
brothers in real life. Yeah, I called the nigga tackle this nigga called
pe every day. I probably get a pee nerves called here every day.
But that's what I'm saying. Those are I value those friendships. Yeah,
fat relationships. I'll be trying. I be. I try to have them,
you know, with family members and stuff like that, but it just
never seems. Ain't nobody on what you own and they and they're not supposed
to. Yeah, they're not supposed to. You're not supposed to understand what
I'm doing and this family like that that I have. You know what I'm
saying, Like y'all not supposed to know what you know. I don't expect
for y'all to know what I'm doing. Just know that I'm doing some ship
just so well you see this ship. I gotta go be your dad guy.
We'll be your daddy. Man. Appreciate podcast, Mike Haney, p
Money James, Nobody before we calls real quick. Shout out to Moni for
the chairs. First day in them. I told you, yeah, I
ain't gonna I ain't gonna lie mine. The only reason that Amione is the
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miss you. Really, I mean, niggas really ain't. Hey, the
niggas say, oh, y'all like these chairs, so we're gonna get you
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