1 00:00:10,720 --> 00:00:14,640 What's going on? Everybody? This is Eric Busy and this is another episode 2 00:00:14,679 --> 00:00:18,600 of ignorant philosophy with me, myself, Eric, and my brother Keen and 3 00:00:18,719 --> 00:00:22,960 mister who the fuck are you? And we were so wrapped up in the 4 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:27,640 conversation that we actually forgot to do an intro. Keenan was going to watch 5 00:00:27,679 --> 00:00:31,600 the Super Bowl, so we didn't get to kick this episode off with the 6 00:00:32,560 --> 00:00:37,840 song my Bad. I smoked two days in a row. I smoked Friday 7 00:00:37,840 --> 00:00:42,640 and I smoked yesterday last night. And when I smoked, man, I 8 00:00:42,679 --> 00:00:47,719 get super super I ain't gonna say I get paranoid, but it's something like 9 00:00:47,799 --> 00:00:54,600 paranoida. I don't know what it is exactly, but it had me opposed 10 00:00:54,640 --> 00:01:02,320 to me being scared and like post, it just had you had you too 11 00:01:02,320 --> 00:01:06,920 aware, nigga, what more aware than you wanted to be? What I 12 00:01:06,959 --> 00:01:08,760 had? Like, why am I sitting there? Why am I just looking 13 00:01:08,760 --> 00:01:11,439 around and thinking about shit too much? And I was like, I just 14 00:01:11,599 --> 00:01:17,879 I just was calming myself down most of the most of the high, because 15 00:01:17,920 --> 00:01:22,159 I feel like when I get when I get high, a lot of the 16 00:01:22,280 --> 00:01:27,159 questions that I have about life start popping up. You start thinking about you 17 00:01:27,319 --> 00:01:32,959 do you just start thinking about ship like my biggest, my biggest question last 18 00:01:33,040 --> 00:01:34,400 night. Let me turn me down a little bit. Ship just start popping 19 00:01:34,439 --> 00:01:38,719 in your damn head. You have your hot thoughts and you have your real 20 00:01:38,760 --> 00:01:42,680 thoughts. I don't having hot thoughts no more like hot thoughts. My hot 21 00:01:42,719 --> 00:01:45,959 thoughts now should be real every time, every single time. Bro. So, 22 00:01:46,319 --> 00:01:52,079 one of the questions that I had asked my wife was because we got 23 00:01:52,120 --> 00:01:56,040 to move and this might be just too trans well I don't know if it's 24 00:01:56,040 --> 00:02:00,560 trans too transparent or not. But we lived here since twenty two, I 25 00:02:00,560 --> 00:02:07,479 think, and pay rent on time. Neighbors love us. They sent us 26 00:02:07,520 --> 00:02:14,439 a the property management has been changed three times since we lived here, so 27 00:02:14,479 --> 00:02:21,199 they sent us a message. The new property manager they acquired the they acquired 28 00:02:21,199 --> 00:02:23,719 this house maybe like two and a half months ago maybe, and they sent 29 00:02:23,840 --> 00:02:28,800 us a message was like y'all can't renew y'all least. I'm I'm saying it 30 00:02:28,879 --> 00:02:31,639 short, but it was a long email to say y'all can't renew y'all leaset. 31 00:02:32,680 --> 00:02:36,120 So I thought it was something that we did. So I messaged them 32 00:02:36,159 --> 00:02:38,240 back, like was it you know what I mean? That we suck up. 33 00:02:38,159 --> 00:02:40,240 It was their complaints, you know what I mean. The rent ain't 34 00:02:40,240 --> 00:02:45,560 been late, so I'm confused. It was like, Nah, the owner 35 00:02:45,599 --> 00:02:49,719 of the house just wants it to once new. Uh. He didn't say 36 00:02:49,719 --> 00:02:53,360 they want new tenants. They want it empty. And it could be for 37 00:02:53,599 --> 00:02:57,680 renovations. It could be because they want to double the rent because that's the 38 00:02:57,719 --> 00:03:00,400 only way they want to be able to get double the rents to kick us 39 00:03:00,439 --> 00:03:04,479 out, you know what I mean. It can't go up two hundred man, 40 00:03:04,520 --> 00:03:07,319 maybe they could, I don't know the rules. But so my wife 41 00:03:07,439 --> 00:03:12,960 is upset about that. So we got to we're moving in. We're inheriting 42 00:03:13,000 --> 00:03:15,199 her parents' crib, which is a blessing because we don't got to go through 43 00:03:15,240 --> 00:03:19,599 the whole house buying process. And me and my wife really just some lazy 44 00:03:19,639 --> 00:03:23,280 niggas because we was like, even when we got married, we didn't want 45 00:03:23,280 --> 00:03:25,039 to have a big service. So we're kind of happy that it COVID happened, 46 00:03:25,080 --> 00:03:28,759 so we had an excuse not to have a big wedding. And we 47 00:03:28,800 --> 00:03:31,919 don't want to plan or think about buying a house because that's just way out 48 00:03:31,960 --> 00:03:36,919 of our comfort. Like just it just seems like a lot, and that's 49 00:03:36,919 --> 00:03:38,000 just me and my wife both don't want to do it. So we was 50 00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:45,199 looking at it like now we got to move into this house, and my 51 00:03:45,319 --> 00:03:51,719 questions that my wife was, I was like, are we failing? Like 52 00:03:52,319 --> 00:03:55,319 am I failing that I do something wrong? Because granted they telling us we 53 00:03:55,319 --> 00:04:00,719 can't stay here, so it's not even but I wass just but I was 54 00:04:00,759 --> 00:04:04,199 just like I couldn't help but think like that ain't got nothing to do with 55 00:04:04,240 --> 00:04:08,520 failure, I know, But how do you, as a man, how 56 00:04:08,520 --> 00:04:13,280 do you know if you're failing or not? Or is it because I keep 57 00:04:13,439 --> 00:04:16,079 I keep telling myself for I keep thinking like it's a marathon, right, 58 00:04:16,399 --> 00:04:18,759 like like Nipsey said, it's a marathon, and a lot of that shit 59 00:04:18,800 --> 00:04:21,519 didn't make any sense when he was alive, and a lot of that shit 60 00:04:21,560 --> 00:04:27,120 didn't make sense right when he died. But when I pay rent, instead 61 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:31,879 of me thinking that bill's a bill, cycle is a finish line, I 62 00:04:31,920 --> 00:04:35,000 just look at it like, oh, it's a marathon because it's never going 63 00:04:35,079 --> 00:04:40,040 to stop. It's never going to stop. Life is like as long ass 64 00:04:40,120 --> 00:04:43,399 marathon, and it's just I don't know. I just felt like as a 65 00:04:43,439 --> 00:04:46,439 man, I feel like one, I don't have no control because they telling 66 00:04:46,480 --> 00:04:49,839 me I got to go. But on the other hand, I am fortunate 67 00:04:49,839 --> 00:04:53,040 that I got a place to go, you know what I'm saying, because 68 00:04:53,079 --> 00:04:56,399 we got to be out by June, so we got four four months. 69 00:04:56,720 --> 00:05:00,040 I was like, Nigga, if we didn't have your mom's crib, I 70 00:05:00,040 --> 00:05:02,040 would have felt like a failure because we had to come up with deposits, 71 00:05:02,079 --> 00:05:05,160 We had to come up with the move and and shit like that with three 72 00:05:05,240 --> 00:05:09,160 kids. I was like, bro, I would have felt like brou I'd 73 00:05:09,199 --> 00:05:13,600 have been I mean, I understand I'll be dead feeling like a failure as 74 00:05:13,600 --> 00:05:17,600 well. So sh is this something that I don't I don't like that feeling, 75 00:05:17,600 --> 00:05:20,279 And I feel it the most when I get high, because I start 76 00:05:20,439 --> 00:05:24,560 noticing things like when I get high, you're like, man, let me 77 00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:27,680 clean up this motherfucking house. Let me. Then I start noticing that it's 78 00:05:27,720 --> 00:05:31,879 all my ship, you know, Like what the fuck? I'd be like, 79 00:05:31,959 --> 00:05:33,959 damn, my wife must be tired of me, tired of me. 80 00:05:34,160 --> 00:05:36,519 Man, God damn, let me start cleaning up around here. Man, 81 00:05:36,680 --> 00:05:41,439 I be thinking I'd be killing it, But I mean I am, But 82 00:05:41,959 --> 00:05:45,279 you feel me so I have to ask. I have to ask, and 83 00:05:45,319 --> 00:05:48,720 I know that she don't. I know that because sometimes you might think that 84 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:57,560 you're doing everything that you supposed to, but we be slacking, yeah, 85 00:05:57,759 --> 00:06:00,959 and I be, and I want and I want somebody to let me know 86 00:06:00,000 --> 00:06:04,759 that I'm slacking. Like I posted, I posted a like an idea to 87 00:06:04,839 --> 00:06:11,360 Patreon for black Widow and uh, one of the patrons was like, you 88 00:06:11,360 --> 00:06:15,279 know, this ain't this. Ain't it. It was like it was like, 89 00:06:15,319 --> 00:06:16,399 this ain't it. This is not what we expect. This is not 90 00:06:16,480 --> 00:06:20,040 what I expected. You you kind of raise our standards of audio. So 91 00:06:20,079 --> 00:06:23,959 this ain't this? Ain't it? And I knew. I knew that uploading 92 00:06:23,959 --> 00:06:27,600 it. When I read it, it's thumb and she she deleted it, 93 00:06:27,639 --> 00:06:30,519 but I messaged her and I was like, yo, I really needed that 94 00:06:30,560 --> 00:06:32,879 because the next one that I uploaded was crazy. But I say all that. 95 00:06:33,079 --> 00:06:38,680 I say all of that to say, sometimes I need to know when 96 00:06:38,720 --> 00:06:44,000 I'm lacking and I don't know if nothing. Yeah, and sometimes I'd be 97 00:06:44,040 --> 00:06:47,720 thinking in my head like are y'all just allowing me to It's kind of like 98 00:06:47,720 --> 00:06:50,759 do I got spinach in my teeth? Like you go all day with spinach 99 00:06:50,759 --> 00:06:54,240 and your teeth book right here, and you're just gonna let my BUTU you 100 00:06:54,360 --> 00:06:58,399 just you just let me walk around this book, not even just one person, 101 00:06:58,480 --> 00:07:00,879 a bunch of mother bunch of mother thought. I thought y'all were my 102 00:07:00,959 --> 00:07:05,240 friend walk around this my fucking booger and spinach of my im telling you, 103 00:07:05,319 --> 00:07:11,160 hey book right there. Yeah, I don't even know. I don't even 104 00:07:11,160 --> 00:07:13,639 know why that's so. That feels so weird to tell somebody it. Do 105 00:07:13,759 --> 00:07:16,319 be feeling with because it because people don't you don't know how motherfucker's gonna take 106 00:07:16,360 --> 00:07:19,480 it. You got people that sensitive and they feel like you're trying to embarrass 107 00:07:19,519 --> 00:07:21,399 me, Like, no, nigga, that's why I whispered it to you, 108 00:07:21,439 --> 00:07:27,680 motherfucker. That's why nigga, I could have been like you could have 109 00:07:27,720 --> 00:07:32,600 been on your nigga. I'm letting you know. That's that's the That's what 110 00:07:32,680 --> 00:07:38,000 it's been on the forefront of my mind. Is just like life, Like 111 00:07:38,079 --> 00:07:42,160 I ain't even watch that mother fucking uh the Monique ship. I don't give 112 00:07:42,199 --> 00:07:46,600 a fuck about what I don't. I mean, I I just seen it, 113 00:07:46,680 --> 00:07:48,560 like snippers of it. But it's ship we already know now at this 114 00:07:48,639 --> 00:07:51,560 point, So it's like I don't give a fuck about what money got going 115 00:07:51,600 --> 00:07:56,360 on or what money talking about. Yeah, all the world, I mean, 116 00:07:56,399 --> 00:07:58,800 we know the world's fucked up. So it's like I don't know. 117 00:07:58,879 --> 00:08:03,040 I just I be well, she just basically said the same shit was saying, 118 00:08:03,319 --> 00:08:05,959 like should we already know? I mean basically the ship like some of 119 00:08:07,000 --> 00:08:09,720 the other ship it was, I mean, just just show you, motherfuckers 120 00:08:09,759 --> 00:08:11,800 is fucked up, man, and it's and it's definite high power and it's 121 00:08:11,839 --> 00:08:16,319 in it's motherfuckers that I'm not gonna fuck that up for you. I was 122 00:08:16,360 --> 00:08:22,560 talking to a friend in La. We're talking about niggas just being shady, 123 00:08:24,639 --> 00:08:28,519 the business being shady and shady. You're thinking that it's gonna be, you 124 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:33,279 know, a network, like building your network. Yeah, you should build 125 00:08:33,279 --> 00:08:39,000 your network, but a lot of the times your network might not you might 126 00:08:39,039 --> 00:08:41,559 not fit the agenda of your network. Right now, I feel like it's 127 00:08:41,600 --> 00:08:46,320 women's empowerment. I feel like it's Black women empowerment right now. So it's 128 00:08:46,320 --> 00:08:54,279 over for niggas. Like women are getting women are hiring women instead of hiring 129 00:08:54,320 --> 00:08:58,480 the best person for the job, for sure, and I feel like they're 130 00:08:58,519 --> 00:09:01,960 doing. Some of them are doing the same thing that white men are doing 131 00:09:03,039 --> 00:09:09,039 that they're complaining about. Y'all are doing the exact same thing, and you 132 00:09:09,080 --> 00:09:11,799 can't really talk about it because not a lot of people are experiencing. Not 133 00:09:13,759 --> 00:09:18,440 women are. Women are not experiencing it because it's other women, but men 134 00:09:18,519 --> 00:09:20,879 are experiencing. But we can't complain about ship, you know what I'm saying, 135 00:09:20,879 --> 00:09:28,679 Like, we can't just go around, yeah, complaining about the things 136 00:09:28,679 --> 00:09:31,200 that women do. We can, but it makes it look like a bitch, 137 00:09:31,799 --> 00:09:37,600 Yes, look like a weak ass nigga. You just got up. 138 00:09:37,120 --> 00:09:43,720 Yeah. Yeah. But the the other thing that that's bothering me now is 139 00:09:45,240 --> 00:09:48,279 the situation that you're going through, bro, Like that ship. That ship 140 00:09:48,440 --> 00:09:54,879 really things like to think about, to think to think that that you can 141 00:09:54,919 --> 00:09:58,919 go out that way. Never in a million years you can go never never, 142 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:01,840 That's what it just when it ship, it's just unexpected, Like I 143 00:10:01,919 --> 00:10:05,399 know, you know what I'm saying, He had his heart surgeon and ship 144 00:10:05,519 --> 00:10:09,080 like that. But to think that it would be like that, it's crazy. 145 00:10:09,639 --> 00:10:15,559 Yeah. Yeah, I still don't even really know how to accept it. 146 00:10:16,120 --> 00:10:20,240 Do you want to tell the listeners what's happening or no, I mean 147 00:10:20,840 --> 00:10:24,679 the extent, but yeah, if most of them followed me, doesn't know 148 00:10:24,759 --> 00:10:28,639 my father passed. Yeah, no, I don't know when he passed, 149 00:10:28,639 --> 00:10:33,919 but you know they found on in his apartment on on Monday on the fifth. 150 00:10:33,960 --> 00:10:39,960 So that's what me and my family been dealing with. Yeah, that's 151 00:10:39,080 --> 00:10:43,120 just And I was I was texting you earlier about the ship that I'm going 152 00:10:43,120 --> 00:10:45,720 through, and you text me back with that. I was like, let 153 00:10:45,759 --> 00:10:48,440 me just shut my bitch ass up. Let me just because I was like, 154 00:10:48,480 --> 00:10:50,759 man, I would be devastating, and I figured, but you don't 155 00:10:50,799 --> 00:10:54,559 got Facebook, so I knew you wouldn't know. No, I see that 156 00:10:54,639 --> 00:11:01,519 ship, but I feel like I don't know. I was talking to stuck 157 00:11:01,559 --> 00:11:03,279 into a group of niggas, and I was just like, man, I 158 00:11:03,320 --> 00:11:05,440 just really wish that y'all would just take care of your heart, no for 159 00:11:05,720 --> 00:11:09,440 your body, your body, like and it sounds and that's just what it 160 00:11:09,559 --> 00:11:13,799 was. Like my sister, my aunt, they don't want to talk to 161 00:11:13,879 --> 00:11:16,039 him every day, his big sister and then his oldest daughter. It was 162 00:11:16,120 --> 00:11:20,720 just my sister, and you know, they used to tell him like he 163 00:11:20,879 --> 00:11:26,440 didn't want to like get disability, like he didn't want to do none of 164 00:11:26,519 --> 00:11:28,559 that. He trying to get back to work, you know what I'm saying, 165 00:11:28,600 --> 00:11:31,159 Like they were telling him to chill, relax. You know what I'm 166 00:11:31,159 --> 00:11:35,960 saying, take care of yourself and things like that. Go to the doctor. 167 00:11:37,080 --> 00:11:41,840 And you know that me and we are priud bro, we just are 168 00:11:41,919 --> 00:11:48,200 Pride is fucked up. The craziest thing about all of that is like when 169 00:11:48,240 --> 00:11:50,919 you go to the doctor. I don't know when the last time the men 170 00:11:50,000 --> 00:11:52,759 listening to this podcast went to the doctor. When you go to the doctor, 171 00:11:54,879 --> 00:11:56,480 had him check your blood pressure, had him check it, check a 172 00:11:56,559 --> 00:12:01,039 cholesterol, had him check all of this shit. And what scary is is 173 00:12:01,039 --> 00:12:05,639 when they tell you that your blood pressure is elevated. That's scary because you 174 00:12:05,679 --> 00:12:11,600 don't think that it can happen to you. So I can only imagine what 175 00:12:11,679 --> 00:12:16,639 it must feel like for somebody to say you gotta have heart surgery, or 176 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:18,399 you gotta do something, you know what I mean, something drastic, Like 177 00:12:18,440 --> 00:12:24,200 once your dad was passing. It just seems like he just would not accept 178 00:12:24,200 --> 00:12:28,600 it. Bro, Like Nigga lost maybe like a nigga, like a skeleton, 179 00:12:28,639 --> 00:12:31,360 bro before he passed, like a skin on top of a skeleton. 180 00:12:31,200 --> 00:12:35,759 And he still was like, yeah, when I get home. I was 181 00:12:35,799 --> 00:12:39,679 like, nigga, you not leaving here, Like at no point, at 182 00:12:39,679 --> 00:12:45,759 no point did it ever registered to him that it was over. And I 183 00:12:45,799 --> 00:12:50,559 think that I think that goes to what you were saying about men and pride, 184 00:12:50,600 --> 00:12:54,039 like yeah, because I think he rushed. He wanted to get out 185 00:12:54,080 --> 00:12:58,720 of the hospital so bad, like he just wanted to be home. So 186 00:12:58,799 --> 00:13:03,120 it's like, I got my eyes. It's just I don't know, man, 187 00:13:03,360 --> 00:13:09,039 shit crazy niggas need to start taking care of their bodies for sure. 188 00:13:09,759 --> 00:13:13,519 And that's why I was taking a walk before we recorded, because I felt 189 00:13:13,519 --> 00:13:18,360 like my body. I know, I've talked about the pain that I be 190 00:13:18,399 --> 00:13:22,519 knowing niggas can feel. You feel your body changing. That's a fact for 191 00:13:22,559 --> 00:13:26,879 real. That's a fucking fact. You can feel when your body is stressed, 192 00:13:26,720 --> 00:13:30,159 like when I when I smoke too, I can feel all of the 193 00:13:30,200 --> 00:13:33,399 tight spots in my body, bro all of them. And I was talking 194 00:13:33,440 --> 00:13:37,919 to see her last night. I was like the pain that like if I 195 00:13:37,960 --> 00:13:39,279 don't go, if I don't work out too, if I don't do two 196 00:13:39,399 --> 00:13:43,159 days, that pain gonna come back. I can feel it. And I 197 00:13:43,200 --> 00:13:46,600 was so terrified of that pain that I could just be. I just might 198 00:13:46,639 --> 00:13:50,000 have became a hypochondriac because I didn't go to the gym for like three days, 199 00:13:50,039 --> 00:13:52,720 and I just felt like a fat bitch. So I just felt like 200 00:13:52,840 --> 00:13:56,919 something. I know, I feel fat. I'm never like two old eight 201 00:13:56,080 --> 00:14:00,799 or some ship like that. Oh no, you're straight man, Hell no, 202 00:14:00,799 --> 00:14:05,600 not for me. I ain't used to this ship. This ship feels 203 00:14:05,639 --> 00:14:11,879 he feel heavy. But dj DJ sent me a picture of us at Luther 204 00:14:11,919 --> 00:14:13,440 Crib when we was recording there. He was like nigga. He was smaller 205 00:14:13,480 --> 00:14:16,720 than a pitch and I was super small. I don't ever want to be 206 00:14:16,799 --> 00:14:20,279 that small again. But I was like one eight. So I'm I'm cool 207 00:14:20,320 --> 00:14:24,320 with the two hunting, you know what I'm I just need to tone up. 208 00:14:24,840 --> 00:14:28,320 Yeah, but I feel like I feel like, you know, solid. 209 00:14:30,679 --> 00:14:33,679 I don't know our moods listeners, I'm sorry, but our moods is. 210 00:14:33,919 --> 00:14:37,240 My mood ain't there. But I still but I wanted to record because 211 00:14:37,240 --> 00:14:39,519 we did record last week for my mood ain't. My mood ain't there. 212 00:14:41,159 --> 00:14:46,840 And it's not that I'm not I'm optimistic about things, but I just don't 213 00:14:46,919 --> 00:14:54,360 know, like what am I supposed to be doing. Man, That's what 214 00:14:54,399 --> 00:14:56,879 I was asking here last night, Like like I was recording the Black Widow 215 00:14:56,919 --> 00:15:01,399 shit and I was high, and I don't I done came up with some 216 00:15:01,519 --> 00:15:05,679 new ship. Because I came up with some ship like me reading stories and 217 00:15:05,720 --> 00:15:09,000 supposed to be having actors. I find a way to like streamline and ship 218 00:15:09,039 --> 00:15:13,200 and I feel really good about it. And then one of the listeners send 219 00:15:13,279 --> 00:15:18,360 me this program to where I can make ambient music to go underneath me talking, 220 00:15:18,679 --> 00:15:22,200 and I was like, Yo, this ship is fired. So I'm 221 00:15:22,320 --> 00:15:26,639 doing that ship and I smoked and I was like, it's kind of one 222 00:15:26,679 --> 00:15:31,360 of those things like why do you think this is gonna work? And I 223 00:15:31,399 --> 00:15:33,759 had to talk to myself like, well, it has worked, it has 224 00:15:35,519 --> 00:15:39,159 it has worked, you know what I mean? But that self doubt, 225 00:15:39,320 --> 00:15:41,399 that self doubt. I was like, am I am I supposed to do 226 00:15:41,440 --> 00:15:46,559 this forever? Because it always be having self doubt, Like when it comes 227 00:15:46,600 --> 00:15:50,399 to the clothes, I'd be like I should do this or do that. 228 00:15:50,000 --> 00:15:54,480 Nouck ain't gonna fuck with this. I basically be doubting, you know what 229 00:15:54,480 --> 00:15:58,960 I'm saying, what I should do or how you should do? Thinking motherfucker 230 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:02,720 ain't gonna fuck with it, but they don't fuck with almost everything I have. 231 00:16:03,320 --> 00:16:07,480 Yeah, So I don't know. I just need to be I really, 232 00:16:07,559 --> 00:16:11,000 I just need some help with that ship. Like I can't keep doing 233 00:16:11,039 --> 00:16:17,600 it by myself. I don't even got like the imagination and thoughts process. 234 00:16:18,440 --> 00:16:22,759 Yeah, I think I think too. It's just like a level of trust 235 00:16:22,120 --> 00:16:26,600 because we all have people in our corner that can help us. But just 236 00:16:26,639 --> 00:16:30,600 reaching out to ask for help, Yeah, it just seems like pride again 237 00:16:33,120 --> 00:16:37,080 because I be nothing. I'm cool. I don't want to. I just 238 00:16:37,080 --> 00:16:38,919 don't want to have to hold nobody ship. I'm gonna give it back to 239 00:16:38,960 --> 00:16:44,080 you, but I just don't. I just know people, which I don't 240 00:16:44,120 --> 00:16:45,559 think. I got no niggas that to do that. We was to ever 241 00:16:45,600 --> 00:16:49,159 get to me and my niggas don't even really ever get into it. But 242 00:16:51,000 --> 00:16:53,759 like if we was too, I don't got no niggas that I feel thought 243 00:16:53,799 --> 00:16:56,200 in my face, like nigga, we ain't sit there when you ask me 244 00:16:56,240 --> 00:17:00,080 for that money or shit like that. So I don't. It's just I 245 00:17:00,120 --> 00:17:04,000 don't feel like asking nobody for nothing, and I just leave it at that. 246 00:17:06,440 --> 00:17:10,000 Now I feel like I. For me, I've just I had to 247 00:17:10,039 --> 00:17:14,880 reverse engineer what my problems was. Once I figured out what my problems was, 248 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:18,319 it was easy for me to try to figure it out, figure out 249 00:17:18,559 --> 00:17:22,759 a solution, like just really being honest about what my problems was and not 250 00:17:22,920 --> 00:17:26,160 the imaginate, not the imagine, the made up problems. Yeah, I 251 00:17:26,200 --> 00:17:29,599 know. I know my problems too, so I just need to to My 252 00:17:29,640 --> 00:17:33,640 problem was that I just couldn't. I couldn't create the stories fast enough. 253 00:17:33,920 --> 00:17:36,359 And I want to record. I want to put out ship now. I 254 00:17:36,920 --> 00:17:40,519 want to put out ship multiple times a week. I was talking to the 255 00:17:40,599 --> 00:17:44,640 podcast company that I host through and it was like, it's a nigga to 256 00:17:44,720 --> 00:17:47,640 upload every day. I said, how the fuck did he do that? 257 00:17:47,839 --> 00:17:52,559 We was just talking about dude, post god damn thirty goddamn videos a day. 258 00:17:52,839 --> 00:17:57,640 Yeah, like he probably he probably jobless, Yeah but still though I 259 00:17:57,680 --> 00:18:02,279 don't even think if I was jobless, I can do that. Yeah, 260 00:18:02,440 --> 00:18:03,880 I think too. For me, I was thinking about this shit too. 261 00:18:03,920 --> 00:18:10,559 I was like, Man, I've mastered creating while needing a job. I 262 00:18:10,640 --> 00:18:12,799 think a lot of niggas don't create when they need jobs, like all of 263 00:18:12,839 --> 00:18:17,279 my mixtapes. Think notice Flying Colors three or two. All of the mixtapes 264 00:18:17,279 --> 00:18:19,519 that I've ever made, I made because I was homeless, and look back 265 00:18:19,519 --> 00:18:22,400 on that shit, I was like, why the fuck was I writing a 266 00:18:22,400 --> 00:18:26,359 song when I needed money to eat? What the fuck was I'd been thinking 267 00:18:26,359 --> 00:18:27,400 about that shit? And I was like, am I doing that right now? 268 00:18:27,599 --> 00:18:30,240 Like? Am I? You know what I'm saying? Like, I 269 00:18:30,319 --> 00:18:34,519 just be questioning myself and questioning like the gifts that I have and because I 270 00:18:34,559 --> 00:18:37,880 don't know if it's delusion or that, Like, as a human being, 271 00:18:37,920 --> 00:18:41,839 we can make anything makes sense. Bro, we can do something dumb ass 272 00:18:41,839 --> 00:18:45,079 shit and find a reason to do the dumb ass I think I think really 273 00:18:45,119 --> 00:18:52,079 went in today's world is just a motherfucker seeing your face all the time, 274 00:18:52,640 --> 00:19:00,519 like a motherfucker keep seeing you is what I feel attract people who you and 275 00:19:00,559 --> 00:19:07,960 then eventually you could just people just go from there, like because it's a 276 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:10,839 lot of people today that youd just be like, how the funk? Why 277 00:19:10,880 --> 00:19:15,640 the fuck are people following you like this? But they just like I hate 278 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:18,799 you, Like it's there's people I don't even follow, but I see that 279 00:19:18,920 --> 00:19:22,240 ship because of other motherfuckers, and I just be like, why don't follow 280 00:19:22,319 --> 00:19:27,279 you like, but it's just because they just keep popping up in your motherfucker 281 00:19:27,319 --> 00:19:30,839 face and eventually, like that song you hate, but you keep hearing it. 282 00:19:30,920 --> 00:19:38,559 Eventually, I hate that song. But for some reason I thought that 283 00:19:38,720 --> 00:19:42,680 was I thought somebody else too. I never knew what's the bitch name from 284 00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:47,359 loving him? That's why I thought it was too on my mama. I 285 00:19:47,359 --> 00:19:51,480 thought it was but that song, I hate it, but a girl. 286 00:19:51,599 --> 00:19:53,960 But I catch myself singing this ship in my in my head, no, 287 00:19:55,119 --> 00:19:59,319 just like, and I'd be like, I'll be mad, like get this 288 00:19:59,359 --> 00:20:03,880 ship out of my head. Bro, Like I heard us all fucking two 289 00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:07,039 weeks ago then for the first time, and I hate that ship already. 290 00:20:07,400 --> 00:20:11,559 I heard it. I listened to it. I think last night, that 291 00:20:11,680 --> 00:20:15,960 night before last, she was like, twin, I just heard the whole 292 00:20:15,000 --> 00:20:18,200 song because I think she talking about a girl, because she said it's your 293 00:20:18,240 --> 00:20:23,200 perfume, and man, do not wear perfume. But old people, damn 294 00:20:23,240 --> 00:20:33,079 there call everything everything perfume perfume. No. I just I think I wouldn't 295 00:20:33,079 --> 00:20:40,000 be surprised though, if she is. I think that. I think what 296 00:20:40,079 --> 00:20:44,480 I realized over the weekend was I only need a certain amount of people in 297 00:20:44,480 --> 00:20:48,079 this whole world to fuck with me and fuck what I create. And I 298 00:20:48,119 --> 00:20:52,160 had to figure out what that number was. And now that I now that 299 00:20:52,200 --> 00:20:53,799 I know what that number is, I can aim for that number and I 300 00:20:53,799 --> 00:20:59,319 can stop wondering what that number is, or what the number would be, 301 00:20:59,480 --> 00:21:03,920 or what the like, just for me to feel financially secure. And then 302 00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:07,839 I was like, Okay, if I got that number, Okay, what 303 00:21:07,920 --> 00:21:11,359 can I create quickly? All right? Cool? Streamline boom record this day, 304 00:21:11,799 --> 00:21:18,960 boom boom. Like It's like it's like as a content creator, if 305 00:21:18,000 --> 00:21:22,480 anybody out there as a content creator or you create anything and you want other 306 00:21:22,519 --> 00:21:30,599 people to consume it, I think the best thing to do is is to 307 00:21:30,720 --> 00:21:38,440 realize that humans are numbers. Humans are numbers, and and you can and 308 00:21:38,480 --> 00:21:42,319 you can damn look up anything you want about human beings. It's kind of 309 00:21:42,319 --> 00:21:45,839 like we're fucking animals. Bro. You can look up nigga, you can 310 00:21:45,880 --> 00:21:49,039 ask chat GPT anything you want to know about motherfucking human beings and it will 311 00:21:49,119 --> 00:21:53,000 tell you and you use that to your advantage. But I think that too 312 00:21:53,119 --> 00:21:56,119 often people are relying on art to come out of thin air, and that's 313 00:21:56,160 --> 00:22:00,319 why they that's why they don't necessarily work. But not if you if you're 314 00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:07,039 doing your clothes. I guess it's just figuring out what motherfuckers is buying the 315 00:22:07,039 --> 00:22:10,839 most of them. Yeah your crad, Yeah for sure. I just need 316 00:22:10,839 --> 00:22:17,319 to just get I just need to start stop worrying about what other motherfuckers thinking. 317 00:22:17,359 --> 00:22:22,200 Ship. Just live my life and just it is because I don't like 318 00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,960 because I don't like confrontation and ship. I don't. I don't like because 319 00:22:26,039 --> 00:22:30,319 I want to. I will fuck you up, like like I don't. 320 00:22:30,519 --> 00:22:34,839 I be trying to stay away from that type of ship. So motherfuckers. 321 00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:37,799 That's what he was talking about yesterday. Like with social media, like it's 322 00:22:37,920 --> 00:22:41,079 it's a love and hate thing, Like I love it because people can get 323 00:22:41,079 --> 00:22:45,839 bread off of it. It's funny, it's entertaining, but then it's very 324 00:22:45,880 --> 00:22:51,640 negative and energy draining, and I just be nothing on that ship sometimes just 325 00:22:51,680 --> 00:22:53,799 looking at the comments that people just can say whatever the fuck they want to 326 00:22:53,839 --> 00:22:57,000 say and not even mean it. But people say the meanest ship on there, 327 00:22:57,519 --> 00:23:00,559 and it's just like for what, bro, Like why are y'all this 328 00:23:00,759 --> 00:23:06,240 negative niggas? Is unhappy? Just weak and I'll beat you up if I 329 00:23:06,359 --> 00:23:08,160 see you like I think, I think I had to think. I had 330 00:23:08,200 --> 00:23:15,480 to come to that conclusion too, because with with with Black Widow, it 331 00:23:15,640 --> 00:23:19,319 just got to be a certain level of sexy. And if I'm if I'm 332 00:23:19,359 --> 00:23:23,359 worried about what my nigga's gonna think when they hear it, I can never 333 00:23:23,480 --> 00:23:27,079 create what women need to actually hear. So I got a mo own. 334 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:30,599 I gotta talk sexy. I got a whispering ship. If I'm overthinking, 335 00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:37,200 like oh, if the niggas donna claim really it's ship like that too, 336 00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:41,920 like that make niggas like nah, I'm like, yeah, that's just stupid 337 00:23:41,920 --> 00:23:45,920 because my kids still gotta eat. Fuck them niggas. And and what I 338 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:49,240 realized too, Nigga, when I'm when I'm busy with Black Widow, I 339 00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:53,279 ain't even on my phone. So if my wife ain't coming in here joning 340 00:23:53,359 --> 00:23:57,240 on me, I really won't even see what niggas are saying. You know, 341 00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:03,000 But nigga, but motherfuckers ain't though, you know what I mean. 342 00:24:03,599 --> 00:24:07,720 It's it's dinner acting at the end of the day. And ship motherfucker's watched 343 00:24:07,759 --> 00:24:11,079 it with all that shit in it all the time. Bro, I am 344 00:24:11,160 --> 00:24:18,680 selling. I am becoming these women fantasies basically, that's all that. That's 345 00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:22,039 what And I just it dawned on me, like, bro, this is 346 00:24:22,079 --> 00:24:23,559 what you're providing. Bro, this is this? Is it? Like? 347 00:24:25,119 --> 00:24:29,160 Fuck all that funk, all that trying to tell great story type, No, 348 00:24:29,359 --> 00:24:32,000 nigga, find out what they want you to, find out what they 349 00:24:32,039 --> 00:24:34,480 want to hear, and tell it to them one hundred times over. Fuck 350 00:24:34,519 --> 00:24:38,519 what you think, nigga, Just make it sound good because I ain't. 351 00:24:38,799 --> 00:24:45,079 I ain't the most romantic nigga, gotcha, I ain't either, But I 352 00:24:45,119 --> 00:24:47,640 will read the funk out of a story though, So I will read the 353 00:24:47,640 --> 00:24:49,920 fuck out of a story that will make it sound fucking amazing. But yeah, 354 00:24:49,920 --> 00:24:53,000 I had to realize, like, nigga, just ask act your homegirls 355 00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:56,759 for help, Like, just ask them, Hey, what's you think of 356 00:24:56,759 --> 00:24:59,519 this story? This story? Does it read cool? Yep? I like 357 00:24:59,599 --> 00:25:03,160 this just bad? I got it. It's just asking for help. And 358 00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:10,039 then you know the community that the community that you have around you goda develop 359 00:25:10,079 --> 00:25:14,559 a certain level of trust. And I don't think I trust it or trust 360 00:25:14,680 --> 00:25:21,039 niggas like that because niggas is trash because one thing about it one thing about 361 00:25:21,119 --> 00:25:25,960 niggas is and not niggas asn't black people, but niggas asn't niggas. Anybody 362 00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:30,319 can be a nigga. Niggas are big for your fucking attention and don't even 363 00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:34,400 want it for real and give you a fucking excuse. Why the fuck are 364 00:25:34,440 --> 00:25:38,960 you telling me about whatever? Yeah? Why the fuck are you giving me 365 00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:41,559 this excuse? That's why I don't be paying attention to people. When I 366 00:25:41,640 --> 00:25:45,079 be out and they be bringing up the clothes or talking about they gonna get 367 00:25:45,079 --> 00:25:48,200 this or there, I'll be like, all right, whatever, nigga, 368 00:25:49,039 --> 00:25:53,480 nigga, what nigga? You ain't gonna even remember nigga tomorrow? Like yeah, 369 00:25:53,559 --> 00:25:57,839 no, no, And I'm not about to be chasing y'all niggas around 370 00:25:59,119 --> 00:26:02,279 and none of that. Y'all won't get it. I'll tell them. I'm 371 00:26:02,319 --> 00:26:06,559 my whole ship. So what are you doing to clear head with all that 372 00:26:06,599 --> 00:26:11,440 ship that's going on right now? I just play the game. That's facts. 373 00:26:11,519 --> 00:26:15,839 My niggas be on there. We just be on there two K call 374 00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:21,799 duty whatever, just laughing. There's always some funny ship that mofucker do while 375 00:26:21,839 --> 00:26:26,359 we're on the game. So I love I love how men find ways to 376 00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:32,240 be supportive because because it doesn't look like how women do it. Niggas are 377 00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:37,759 niggas make we make ourselves available and we and we and we make sure that 378 00:26:37,839 --> 00:26:42,519 the conversation sways the way it's supposed to for the person that we're trying to 379 00:26:44,279 --> 00:26:48,400 comfort. So yeah, shout out to the homies man, because I don't. 380 00:26:49,000 --> 00:26:52,680 My thing is I don't really go through ship a lot. So when 381 00:26:52,720 --> 00:26:55,599 I do, your niggas better show the fuck up. No for real, 382 00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:57,920 that's how we're feeling though. Ship. I don't be going through too much, 383 00:26:59,079 --> 00:27:03,119 like because that's why I say, like this ship, I don't even 384 00:27:03,279 --> 00:27:07,279 understand it, Like I don't even know how I'm spposed to feel like that's 385 00:27:07,319 --> 00:27:11,319 bro. I just asked my wife that I was like, hey, man, 386 00:27:11,839 --> 00:27:15,319 I do not know. I just like I know I've been crying and 387 00:27:15,319 --> 00:27:19,519 ship. But it's just like when I just think about certain ship, right, 388 00:27:19,559 --> 00:27:22,960 But like I was telling like, life is just it's just weird, 389 00:27:23,079 --> 00:27:27,279 like and then when something like I was just thinking something, I was just 390 00:27:27,319 --> 00:27:33,640 like when somebody died. Bro, this ship just seems so selfish. It's 391 00:27:33,680 --> 00:27:37,279 like we selfish because it's like because it's like y'all die, We give y'all 392 00:27:37,279 --> 00:27:45,920 this celebration, like celebrate like I don't know, but they pass away. 393 00:27:45,279 --> 00:27:51,000 We gonna miss them. We hurt, but we supposed to just be happy 394 00:27:51,119 --> 00:27:56,200 and eat and celebrate and then just go on with our fucking day for for 395 00:27:56,240 --> 00:28:02,279 the rest of our lives and know we won't forget but eventually not saying forget 396 00:28:02,279 --> 00:28:04,960 about somebody, but basically we just got to live our lives and just forget 397 00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:07,880 about them, you know what I'm saying. That that trunk of space that 398 00:28:07,920 --> 00:28:11,599 they took up is gone now, it's just weird, Like, yeah, 399 00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:15,079 I was thinking about I was thinking about that before. But I think you 400 00:28:15,119 --> 00:28:18,359 know, at the end of the day, nobody told us that we was 401 00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:22,079 gonna be here this long. Yeah, Like I don't know when you told 402 00:28:22,119 --> 00:28:25,079 me that. When you told me that ship, I was like, man, 403 00:28:26,319 --> 00:28:30,279 I keep thinking or acting like the people that I need to go see 404 00:28:30,440 --> 00:28:37,240 are gonna be here forever, and we would just get like get not just 405 00:28:37,279 --> 00:28:40,720 getting but we've been you know, working on it, getting better, communicating 406 00:28:40,759 --> 00:28:44,279 better, hanging, going to eat shit like that. That's what I was 407 00:28:44,319 --> 00:28:47,359 thinking about. So it's like, damn. In regards to trauma. You 408 00:28:47,400 --> 00:28:52,680 spend most of your life upset at the person upset and then they die. 409 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:57,039 Yep, that's why. Well I wanted to make a post, but I 410 00:28:57,079 --> 00:29:03,039 didn't. But I'm just just like, you really love somebody, let them 411 00:29:03,079 --> 00:29:07,720 know, Like, yeah, I think because holding a grudge or anything like 412 00:29:07,759 --> 00:29:11,079 that, that shit, it'd be too late. And it's always like that. 413 00:29:11,839 --> 00:29:15,200 I think I was when I was younger, early ignorant. For last 414 00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:23,640 few days, I couldn't grasp I couldn't grasp grasp the idea that love looked 415 00:29:23,799 --> 00:29:32,039 different for people. So like, my grandparents have called me twice in the 416 00:29:32,079 --> 00:29:37,200 past two months. My grandparents have called me twice before that, they called 417 00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:41,039 me twice in the past ten years. So when they called me again, 418 00:29:41,839 --> 00:29:45,400 I let to see her, like we might have to go to Gary because 419 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,160 I don't know why they keep calling me. And it was only twice, 420 00:29:48,240 --> 00:29:51,359 but I said, they keep calling me. And when they when they called 421 00:29:51,400 --> 00:29:52,799 the second time, I face timed them. I answered, but I faced 422 00:29:52,799 --> 00:29:57,240 down them back, and I was like, oh shit, y'all getting old. 423 00:29:57,880 --> 00:30:00,000 Oh fuck. I was like, man, how old are you? 424 00:30:00,039 --> 00:30:03,279 There was like seventy one. I'm seventy one. She's seventy three or vice 425 00:30:03,359 --> 00:30:10,200 versa, and I was like, I'm acting like I got forever to try 426 00:30:10,200 --> 00:30:15,039 to figure out a way to tell them I love them, And I got 427 00:30:15,079 --> 00:30:18,440 to figure out a way to tell them so that they receive it, not 428 00:30:18,559 --> 00:30:22,559 tell them in the way that I would want to be told, because quiet 429 00:30:22,559 --> 00:30:26,440 has kept my whole life. I just wanted to be accepted by them. 430 00:30:26,720 --> 00:30:29,599 And if they die before I get to tell them that, I'll be devastated. 431 00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:32,920 As hard as I'm trying to play, I want you to accept me. 432 00:30:33,119 --> 00:30:36,599 I want you to love me. I want to be the reason why 433 00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:40,240 I am the way. The reason why I am the way that I am 434 00:30:40,319 --> 00:30:42,680 with my kids is because of y'all. Because I want my kids to never 435 00:30:42,720 --> 00:30:47,079 have to question that. But you know, one day you might get a 436 00:30:47,079 --> 00:30:49,680 call and this Boom's over and it's like, fuck, bro, Like I'm 437 00:30:49,720 --> 00:30:52,440 so worried. I'm so wrapped up and having a move and paying rent and 438 00:30:52,480 --> 00:30:56,599 doing the bills and making sure my back ain't hurt and my stomach ain't too 439 00:30:56,599 --> 00:31:00,119 big, and then boom, I forgot to go kick it with donnad or 440 00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:02,880 forgot to go kick it with you know. That's how I be though. 441 00:31:03,359 --> 00:31:04,400 That's how I be feeling. That's why I'll always be like, man, 442 00:31:04,400 --> 00:31:10,079 twenty four hours ain't enough because it's like I'll be trying to do this and 443 00:31:10,119 --> 00:31:14,640 do this, and I somebody's gonna get left out. Yeah, yeah, 444 00:31:14,680 --> 00:31:17,519 And that's my problem. I'm trying to make everybody happy, try to fit 445 00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:22,240 everybody in my life. You can't. You can't, bro, you can't. 446 00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:25,359 And I don't want to be I don't want to be that nigga that 447 00:31:25,519 --> 00:31:29,119 just they like his wife, he'd be at home with his wife all the 448 00:31:29,119 --> 00:31:30,720 time, or they be doing We're gonna be doing shit. But be in 449 00:31:30,839 --> 00:31:34,160 parents, bro, we be tired, be tired as fuck at the end 450 00:31:34,200 --> 00:31:37,200 of the day after being a parent, and I'll be feeling like other parents 451 00:31:37,200 --> 00:31:41,359 should understand, but other parents do not be understanding. Other parents want me 452 00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:44,480 to make the sacrifices that they didn't make. I'm not dry, bro, 453 00:31:44,759 --> 00:31:49,200 No, I'm not going anywhere. But like I said, listeners, the 454 00:31:49,240 --> 00:31:52,960 mood is weird, and I feel like, you know, when I get 455 00:31:52,000 --> 00:31:56,440 online and I look at certain posts and I look at certain comments, I'll 456 00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:59,079 be realizing that a lot of people are feeling the same way too, Like 457 00:31:59,119 --> 00:32:00,680 what the fuck, am I what to be doing? Bro? Like like 458 00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:04,440 like people who can't find a job, like I'm wanted them. People I 459 00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:07,720 can't find a job, Well I got one, but I want a new 460 00:32:07,759 --> 00:32:09,440 one. I'm like, bro, what the fuck is going on? But 461 00:32:10,119 --> 00:32:15,480 it's just the world. They're laying people off at these big ass corporate jobs, 462 00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:19,920 like they're laying a bunch of people off. You're talking about the COVID 463 00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:22,240 star back up there, just talking about It's just a bunch of bullshit that's 464 00:32:22,240 --> 00:32:27,480 going on on the outside of the world that could affect us, and it's 465 00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:30,559 fucked up. It's like the supposed to stay above water. My nigga, 466 00:32:30,839 --> 00:32:35,160 y'are keeping your foot on my fucking forehead trying to keep me under the water. 467 00:32:36,119 --> 00:32:38,519 Yeah, And I gotta try to be happy to I gotta not I 468 00:32:38,559 --> 00:32:45,440 gotta not let this ship affect me. And I gotta stress strong, tired 469 00:32:45,559 --> 00:32:50,759 man, for real. I mean I should not be this hard. I 470 00:32:50,880 --> 00:32:52,720 think that's what and that's why I'll be thinking in my head what the fuck 471 00:32:52,759 --> 00:32:58,200 am I supposed to be doing? Because stressing about stressing about this ship ain't 472 00:32:58,240 --> 00:33:00,960 ain't ain't ain't ain't it, And everythinking in my head, am I am? 473 00:33:00,960 --> 00:33:08,000 I am? I tieing financial status to my importance in my own life, 474 00:33:08,559 --> 00:33:12,599 Like do I do I think I'm a piece of ship because I don't 475 00:33:12,599 --> 00:33:15,759 have a certain amount of money, or or do I believe everybody thinks that 476 00:33:15,839 --> 00:33:19,759 of me? You know what I'm saying? Like, well, I mean, 477 00:33:19,799 --> 00:33:24,680 I know everybody don't think money is a lot, but I don't. 478 00:33:24,720 --> 00:33:28,400 I don't think money got nothing to do with us. People just love us 479 00:33:28,400 --> 00:33:34,319 because cool. I don't want the motherfucking like me because I got money or 480 00:33:34,359 --> 00:33:36,839 because of money, because if you do, then I don't fuck with you, 481 00:33:36,960 --> 00:33:42,519 cause BIT want to be around. I don't think anybody would ever know 482 00:33:42,519 --> 00:33:44,799 how much money ain't I mean neither. That's why I say, like, 483 00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:50,039 it's what it's ways around showing you got money, you don't got it you 484 00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:53,559 it's most you can show motive, motivational or you know what I'm saying, 485 00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:59,279 humbly, or you can be a show off and and that's that to get 486 00:33:59,319 --> 00:34:04,559 you the bad attention that you won't like trying to show off and stunt on 487 00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:09,679 motherfuckers. Ain't the way. It's just not so very interesting, man, 488 00:34:10,079 --> 00:34:15,079 very interesting, very interesting times that we are in and you know, just 489 00:34:15,119 --> 00:34:17,840 hearing just talking to my friends and just hearing what they got going on. 490 00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:23,760 I'm like, bruh, welcome to the shit show. Like just and not 491 00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:28,840 to be not to sound pessimistic or anything. It's just life is happening, 492 00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:30,719 bro, Life is happening all around. And that's why I say, I 493 00:34:31,079 --> 00:34:34,840 at least gotta look good. I at least gotta go to the show. 494 00:34:34,880 --> 00:34:37,679 I gotta look good one at least I got to. Man. I can't 495 00:34:37,760 --> 00:34:42,239 take off my clothes and be like ell and be sad. That's gonna be 496 00:34:42,280 --> 00:34:44,880 fucking awful. Hell, now, get your ass up and go to the 497 00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:46,679 gym. And I don't even know if I'm sad. That's the thing I 498 00:34:46,719 --> 00:34:49,800 asked to her. I was like, what am I supposed to be feeling 499 00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:53,000 right now? Because I feel great, Like I feel good, I feel 500 00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:57,960 happy that I have a wife and kids that love me, get to create 501 00:34:58,320 --> 00:35:01,360 every day all day. But am I supposed to be feeling angry? Am 502 00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:05,840 I supposed to be feeling sad? Am I supposed to be feeling inadequate? 503 00:35:05,960 --> 00:35:07,760 Like what am I supposed to be feeling? Because I don't know? If 504 00:35:08,159 --> 00:35:14,920 I don't want to be blind to the house being on fire while we're you 505 00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:16,480 know what I mean, does that make sense? Because if the house is 506 00:35:16,519 --> 00:35:21,280 on fire, but I'm saying, oh, I don't want to. I 507 00:35:21,280 --> 00:35:24,039 think I just want to be comfortable, and right now I ain't comfortable. 508 00:35:24,599 --> 00:35:28,840 Hm, I can't. I can't do what I want to do right now? 509 00:35:30,039 --> 00:35:32,960 What would make you comfortable being able to do what I want to do? 510 00:35:34,360 --> 00:35:37,079 I mean, what's that? Just with life? If I want to 511 00:35:37,119 --> 00:35:42,880 go so money, it's gonna it's definitely gonna always be money, like not 512 00:35:43,320 --> 00:35:46,360 saying like but yeah, just being comforted to where I can just if I 513 00:35:46,360 --> 00:35:51,840 want to get up and do something for all my kids and let's just go 514 00:35:52,039 --> 00:35:55,840 things like that, or you know what I'm saying. If my daughters it's 515 00:35:55,920 --> 00:36:00,760 just money, yeah, if they just I want is I ain't got it 516 00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:05,599 right now, but I wish I did and I can just Yeah. I 517 00:36:05,639 --> 00:36:09,199 hate that feeling because but now it's like I'm cool, but it's just, 518 00:36:09,519 --> 00:36:15,079 uh, ship's too hard right now. I don't know what I might need 519 00:36:15,119 --> 00:36:19,440 it for. Yeah, for sure. So it's it's like emergency money just 520 00:36:19,639 --> 00:36:27,920 right like rainy day money. I need mother for us to work or live, 521 00:36:27,960 --> 00:36:31,000 paycheck to paycheck and that's why. And I'm like, it's it's famous. 522 00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:36,960 Motherfuckers paycheck to paycheck. That's what I'm saying. Motherfuckers. We didn't 523 00:36:37,039 --> 00:36:39,199 think that ship. But these motherfuckers living paycheck to paycheck, paychack, they 524 00:36:39,199 --> 00:36:43,960 paychecked just may be bigger than they Definitely living paycheck to paycheck for sure. 525 00:36:44,079 --> 00:36:47,760 Some niggas in the league living paycheck to paycheck, like Toroi p Henson look 526 00:36:47,840 --> 00:36:52,440 like she live paycheck the paycheck in that New Usher super Bowl campaign with Ludicris 527 00:36:52,559 --> 00:36:59,039 and John She definitely what I said, like we we are here struggling, 528 00:36:59,199 --> 00:37:05,199 they struggling. Its just a different lifestyle. Micro microglass on the ass, 529 00:37:05,480 --> 00:37:10,360 Like motherfuckers always say, as long as you got a job of something that 530 00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:15,800 you love to do. Motherfuckers love to do what they they getting paid money 531 00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:17,639 to do what they love to do. And that motherfuckers are not happy. 532 00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:22,800 So I think. I think when I went over the weekend, when I 533 00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:29,320 found out, you know what kind of content I should be creating that I 534 00:37:29,360 --> 00:37:32,280 can create a lot of, I felt like, Okay, this is doable. 535 00:37:32,360 --> 00:37:35,840 If I only need a thousand people to be on this page, that's 536 00:37:35,880 --> 00:37:38,599 doable. Two thousand people that doing it like it's not a lot of people. 537 00:37:38,760 --> 00:37:43,119 It's not a lot of people, but two thousand people with a monthly 538 00:37:43,159 --> 00:37:45,800 subscription is a lot. So that's all. I was like, you know 539 00:37:45,880 --> 00:37:50,400 what, let me let me sit my ass down and create some sexy ass 540 00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:52,960 ship that women can fucking masturbate to sleep too, nigga, and not even 541 00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:57,440 give a fuck about what niggas is thinking. Cause niggas be messaging me on 542 00:37:57,480 --> 00:38:01,119 the low. Bro, I'd be I'm a start exposing. Niggas be messaging 543 00:38:01,159 --> 00:38:05,199 me on the load, like, hey man, that ship you made? 544 00:38:05,239 --> 00:38:08,400 I said to a chick man, she gave me some buns, And I'd 545 00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:13,280 be thinking in my head, are you a patronesss are you if I'm getting 546 00:38:13,360 --> 00:38:20,000 you some whoop? Nigga? Oh mama, let's let's start my nigga getting 547 00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:27,199 you whooping. Boy. Better be paying my nigga all the little coins in 548 00:38:27,239 --> 00:38:30,119 there. Man. But that's just I think, like I think that we 549 00:38:30,239 --> 00:38:37,760 believe. Like I'm gonna say me, I think that growing up, I 550 00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:45,320 thought that one job for one K retirement a house wife kids. I thought 551 00:38:45,400 --> 00:38:49,320 all of it, like in order to say that you are successful, you 552 00:38:49,400 --> 00:38:52,599 had to have all of these things. But then when you the job, 553 00:38:53,639 --> 00:38:59,760 the job ain't jobbing, and then you can't. You don't feel like you're 554 00:38:59,760 --> 00:39:04,920 being the uh, the proper boyfriend or proper husband. You don't feel like 555 00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:08,320 you're doing it enough or contributing enough, start to play on you. And 556 00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:12,480 then the kid like you can't do as much as you want for the kids. 557 00:39:12,519 --> 00:39:15,280 The kids don't know yet, they don't understand it yet, but but 558 00:39:15,480 --> 00:39:21,320 I feel like, although they don't understand it, it's compounded times three and 559 00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:23,199 it's put onto my wife and then she'd be like, that's not what I 560 00:39:23,239 --> 00:39:25,880 think, and I was like, you're a fucking liar. I know you 561 00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:30,440 think that. But then but now I'm like, my mindset, have my 562 00:39:30,440 --> 00:39:36,719 mindset over the weekend has shifted into all right, this is what this is 563 00:39:36,719 --> 00:39:40,280 what you're doing, do it to the maximum ability and if then, if 564 00:39:40,760 --> 00:39:46,079 then you only then can you say this ain't working? But man, I 565 00:39:46,159 --> 00:39:52,480 just feel like as a as men when things, there is no guide on 566 00:39:52,599 --> 00:39:58,119 what you're supposed to be doing as a man, like there's too many Like 567 00:39:58,119 --> 00:40:00,159 as a woman, they might you going through the same shit too, So 568 00:40:00,159 --> 00:40:04,159 I don't know. I ain't gonna say nothing say. I can't speak for 569 00:40:04,199 --> 00:40:07,880 them. I don't know, but it's definitely difficult to try to navigate this 570 00:40:07,920 --> 00:40:15,320 ship without I just maybe maybe everybody lost. That would make me feel even 571 00:40:15,360 --> 00:40:20,000 better if I knew that everybody was feeling lost, like everybody was, like, 572 00:40:20,039 --> 00:40:22,039 what the fuck am I doing? Do I love what I'm doing? 573 00:40:22,159 --> 00:40:24,239 Maybe? Yeah, I probably feel a little better, but I probably be 574 00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:30,159 goddamn a little worried too. Why don't nobody, why we all fucking lost 575 00:40:30,159 --> 00:40:32,159 that we need? Somebody got a God that's in the right direction, God 576 00:40:32,239 --> 00:40:36,559 damn it. Yeah, but there's too many directions to go in, too 577 00:40:36,639 --> 00:40:38,880 many different directions. Who's to say it's only one. You can do whatever 578 00:40:38,920 --> 00:40:42,159 the fuck you want. I think that's the problem. That's the problem. 579 00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:45,039 Do what makes you happy, and people can't do that because there's always people 580 00:40:45,079 --> 00:40:47,760 out here that want to judge because the motherfucker not living like you. I 581 00:40:47,800 --> 00:40:51,840 don't even know if it could be that. But it's also like what you 582 00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:54,880 might what you might love doing, might not be the bills that too. 583 00:40:55,360 --> 00:40:59,440 What you love doing ain't bringing in no money that too, So you gotta 584 00:40:59,480 --> 00:41:00,960 go do something you don't want to do. But then the problem is what 585 00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:04,800 they always talking about. You gotta sacrifice. But then why the fuck I 586 00:41:04,960 --> 00:41:07,719 was then the problem? But the problem is is nigga, I don't know 587 00:41:07,719 --> 00:41:12,559 if I'm giving up too soon or something that too see, you just don't 588 00:41:12,559 --> 00:41:15,440 fucking know. But then you've been thinking and then the next thing you know, 589 00:41:15,519 --> 00:41:16,519 it's been ten years. You're like, boy, I should have been 590 00:41:16,559 --> 00:41:22,519 stopped five stopped. But someone was telling me. God was telling me, 591 00:41:22,719 --> 00:41:24,440 Yeah, that's that. That's the that's the ship that be confusing me. 592 00:41:24,559 --> 00:41:29,599 Like am I wasting my time or am I just putting the time in? 593 00:41:29,760 --> 00:41:34,639 I do not know. I need to sign God. You never know. 594 00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:38,280 I mean, I've seen some people didn't get it clicking until thirty. We 595 00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:42,559 passed thirty. I know what I'm saying. Like Kevin Harden too changed and 596 00:41:42,559 --> 00:41:46,480 then motherfucker started a little late. The nigga too changed. Nigga, he 597 00:41:46,599 --> 00:41:51,800 was forty five, That's what I'm saying. Like niggas, it was late 598 00:41:51,960 --> 00:41:54,679 bloomers. But now that that nigga, Kevin Hort start like he got out 599 00:41:54,679 --> 00:41:59,679 here late. He was doing that shit for a long time. I think 600 00:41:59,719 --> 00:42:01,320 that I think, and I think I hate. I hate a lot of 601 00:42:01,400 --> 00:42:05,880 his stories like that. I hate him because that ship. I hate a 602 00:42:05,880 --> 00:42:07,159 lot of his stories because it'd be like it's one in a million. It 603 00:42:07,199 --> 00:42:10,800 ain't no one in a million, motherfucker. That's why I said cat cat, 604 00:42:12,360 --> 00:42:16,480 he said, plant, industreet plant. That's what they mean right there. 605 00:42:17,280 --> 00:42:22,480 It's one in a lifetime, all right, motherfucker a plan. That's 606 00:42:22,480 --> 00:42:25,239 crazy that he the one that blew up though, now that you think about 607 00:42:25,280 --> 00:42:29,719 it, like it is crazy that he's out of everybody as he's he's as 608 00:42:29,719 --> 00:42:31,719 big as he is, no real quick too, like once he once he 609 00:42:31,960 --> 00:42:36,199 it was like once he was out out there, I don't know, man, 610 00:42:36,199 --> 00:42:39,280 because grown little Man was funny. It's a mother grown little man was 611 00:42:39,280 --> 00:42:44,360 funny as a motherfucker, little man, grown grown little man. Yeah, 612 00:42:45,360 --> 00:42:47,760 I just don't understand how he was in Soul Plane and then Soul Playing was 613 00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:52,400 in everybody House. That was the best promo, Like it didn't even come 614 00:42:52,400 --> 00:42:57,079 out of that. And then Ship the one little low budget movie paper Paper 615 00:42:57,400 --> 00:42:59,920 that was in everybody house. I ain't see that. I never seen that. 616 00:43:00,119 --> 00:43:02,039 Yeah, that was one of the first movies I seen that. Kevin 617 00:43:02,079 --> 00:43:06,320 Hart, I know who that little nigga was. It was funny it was 618 00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:08,199 a funny little movie though. Before we get out of here, what music 619 00:43:08,239 --> 00:43:15,719 you listening to right now? But look, I ain't really been listening to 620 00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:21,840 no music for real. I've been on Jordan Jordan's Uh yeah, I've been 621 00:43:21,840 --> 00:43:24,880 listening to that White Crocks in Yeah, White Crocks is my ship, bro 622 00:43:25,199 --> 00:43:30,280 and think twice that's the best song I ever heard. I was listening a 623 00:43:30,280 --> 00:43:34,519 little either day. That was pretty good for show. I think twice on 624 00:43:34,559 --> 00:43:37,960 that Jordan Ward album It's crazy, Yeah that I haven't I've been listening to 625 00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:44,920 that. I just baby listening to my my little feel good music playlist, 626 00:43:45,159 --> 00:43:50,880 the one I sent to you, instrumentals and ship. I only really been 627 00:43:50,880 --> 00:43:54,119 listening to music in the in the gym. What you've been watching? You've 628 00:43:54,159 --> 00:44:01,639 been watching anything? Yeah? I watched The Little Griselda if that's whatever her 629 00:44:01,719 --> 00:44:06,599 name is. Yeah, that that Little Drugs Bill little Chick was cool. 630 00:44:07,760 --> 00:44:10,039 Ray and Kanean watched the last episode of that. That motherfucker was good than 631 00:44:10,079 --> 00:44:15,320 a bitch, Yeah, good than a motherfucker. Boy. They about bring 632 00:44:15,360 --> 00:44:17,880 BMTH back yep. I think being Math to come back, so bim Math 633 00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:24,119 and then probably Tyrek and now all the motherfucker's good. Though. I watched 634 00:44:24,159 --> 00:44:29,760 the Mister and Missus Smith the new one. Yeah, I ain't watched that 635 00:44:29,880 --> 00:44:34,239 chick, gonna watch it fire. I just love Donald glover Man, anything 636 00:44:34,280 --> 00:44:37,760 that he anything that he produced. I'm watching it because Swarm was Fire. 637 00:44:37,280 --> 00:44:42,159 It was Swarm was fire. I love that. I love that series. 638 00:44:44,039 --> 00:44:45,880 Yeah, I liked. I mean, I love at O two. Yeah, 639 00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:50,320 so T was pretty good. A bunch of weird ship, but a 640 00:44:50,320 --> 00:44:52,760 bunch of weird ship like Black Mirror kind of but in the ghetto way. 641 00:44:53,480 --> 00:44:57,960 That's a good discription. Yeah, that's what. It's the vibes that gave 642 00:44:58,000 --> 00:45:00,800 me. I want Black Mirror. I I just I don't understand why why 643 00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:07,960 Americans can't make anything like Black Mirror, Like, yeah, k all them 644 00:45:07,960 --> 00:45:10,800 foreigners and ship movies be better than ours, bro, I don't know what 645 00:45:10,840 --> 00:45:15,800 the little China movies all that ship like. Yeah, the major movies be 646 00:45:15,880 --> 00:45:20,679 hit like Squid Game that was good, but that ship was good as fuck. 647 00:45:20,840 --> 00:45:24,760 It was good. It really was good. With Your with Your Moral 648 00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:29,519 and I watched it. They had like a game show that they had on 649 00:45:29,599 --> 00:45:31,400 Netflix. I watched that on too. I didn't watch that. I said, 650 00:45:31,679 --> 00:45:37,280 I was like I'm not playing. I'm sorry. Once I seen motherfuckers, 651 00:45:37,440 --> 00:45:38,960 motherfuckers can die. I was funk about that money. Once I seen 652 00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:44,000 motherfuckers was dying. After the if i'd have made it through the red light 653 00:45:44,000 --> 00:45:45,840 green like ship, remember, because they made it through that and the next 654 00:45:45,840 --> 00:45:49,280 one, they was like, y'all can leave you. I'm out of here. 655 00:45:50,199 --> 00:45:54,840 Fuck that money, boy, what yeah, motherfuckers was getting the nigga, 656 00:45:54,960 --> 00:46:00,039 I'm done. Nigga was mofucker's really dying? Smoked? Fuck No, 657 00:46:00,519 --> 00:46:05,679 that sh it was fine man, after the first After the first one, 658 00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:07,800 nigga, I seen how many motherfuckers draw, I said, oh hell no, 659 00:46:08,599 --> 00:46:15,719 hell no, they smoke it bigger. I would the crawled Rodervan so 660 00:46:15,840 --> 00:46:20,039 got damn scared wary. But they found motherfuckers who needed that. I need 661 00:46:20,079 --> 00:46:22,920 that money. It wasn't gonna be me. I needed it, but fuck 662 00:46:23,079 --> 00:46:29,880 that. There was so much money in that motherfucking thing. It wasn't every 663 00:46:29,880 --> 00:46:32,920 time a nigga died. That money went up every single time. Every single 664 00:46:32,960 --> 00:46:36,440 time. You know a movie, you know what movie was dumb as a 665 00:46:36,480 --> 00:46:40,039 motherfucker save the Last Dance, Stupid. I never liked that dumb ass movie. 666 00:46:40,800 --> 00:46:45,280 I never liked that stupid ass movie. That movie was dumbing a bitch. 667 00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:50,039 Oh my god, that loving basketball. Throw all them them type bitches 668 00:46:50,039 --> 00:46:53,840 away, brown sugar, stupid, brown sugar, stupid love Johones, stupid, 669 00:46:54,079 --> 00:46:59,119 all that shit dumbing the bitch, Throw that ship away along it is 670 00:46:59,159 --> 00:47:02,639 the only thing that, said Jones. She find as a motherfucker. But 671 00:47:02,719 --> 00:47:07,800 if anybody else is in love Jones, I hated that. Yeah, all 672 00:47:07,840 --> 00:47:12,119 the fake ass love movies, fake yourself. Then what is a good black 673 00:47:12,159 --> 00:47:15,119 movie? Then? Man, it's too motherfuck's society. God damn it. 674 00:47:15,320 --> 00:47:20,960 All the all that ship fuck no, real as hell, fuck no, 675 00:47:21,400 --> 00:47:23,880 I want the boys in the hood. The other day I was like that 676 00:47:23,920 --> 00:47:28,960 she was good at my ship toxic, are toxic, but that's real ship 677 00:47:29,039 --> 00:47:32,000 toxic. Don't give me no fairy tale cinderellas ship. Who are we in? 678 00:47:32,119 --> 00:47:37,440 Boys in the hood? Who are you? Who's traight? Did you? 679 00:47:37,639 --> 00:47:42,079 Okay? I'm I'm I'm him, and well I play sports, so 680 00:47:42,119 --> 00:47:45,199 I don't want to sound it was ricky. I was Ricky, but I 681 00:47:47,559 --> 00:47:52,760 want to know I want as dumb as Ricky though he was clueless as Yeah, 682 00:47:52,800 --> 00:47:55,559 he was from the hood, didn't know ship about the damn hood bro 683 00:47:55,760 --> 00:48:00,239 like. He didn't. He didn't. He didn't pay attention. He didn't 684 00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:04,000 pay attention to ship. Nah, no, No, I was thinking about 685 00:48:04,000 --> 00:48:07,440 it. I was like, damn, we really are tray. That's that's 686 00:48:07,480 --> 00:48:10,199 what I didn't That's what I identified with. And then and then I missed 687 00:48:10,320 --> 00:48:14,760 society. I'm kay, Like, I ain't ever robbed nobody or nothing like 688 00:48:14,800 --> 00:48:19,960 that, but well here roight he was. We robbed the nigga for the 689 00:48:20,039 --> 00:48:24,320 rems in the car, right, you hang around them type of face. 690 00:48:24,719 --> 00:48:29,639 You're getting some ship, Like I've done ship before. I't ever robbed nobody, 691 00:48:30,280 --> 00:48:31,639 but I've done some ship before. You know what I'm saying. But 692 00:48:32,719 --> 00:48:36,559 yeah, I mean, I'll be trying to identify myself. Was really it 693 00:48:36,719 --> 00:48:39,119 was just a nigga that was in the hood that got sucked into the streets 694 00:48:39,119 --> 00:48:43,360 type ship. But he really was a good kid though. But he grew 695 00:48:43,440 --> 00:48:46,599 up seeing that ship. Nuy he dined. He didn't even die for no 696 00:48:46,679 --> 00:48:52,440 street ship. Now he died off of some He died for disrespecting a woman. 697 00:48:52,920 --> 00:48:58,000 Now he died for beating buddy ass. He died for disrespect That's what 698 00:48:58,079 --> 00:49:00,679 it was. He beat buddy ass. And I told I told my son, 699 00:49:01,039 --> 00:49:05,480 I said, every time you hit them, talking about my daughters, 700 00:49:05,840 --> 00:49:07,440 I said, every time you hit them, I'm going to punch you. 701 00:49:08,039 --> 00:49:12,440 And was like why, I said, because he needs to get it in 702 00:49:12,480 --> 00:49:15,760 his mind that you don't hit not even that. I don't give a fuck. 703 00:49:15,519 --> 00:49:20,440 My mission is not to teach him not to hit women, is that 704 00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:24,000 if you do hit women, there's going to be some consequences to what. 705 00:49:24,199 --> 00:49:29,079 And you don't know what that con jail. It could be a motherfucker on 706 00:49:29,159 --> 00:49:31,719 your ass and that's what you do. Not you would much rather go to 707 00:49:31,800 --> 00:49:36,840 jail to have a nigga on your ass because you hit his sister because buddy 708 00:49:36,880 --> 00:49:39,119 thought, Buddy thought, I'm gonna come check this nigga. Maybe this nigga 709 00:49:39,199 --> 00:49:43,559 week ass nigga leave my cousin alone. And his sister was his cousin, 710 00:49:44,840 --> 00:49:50,079 bess something. Hold now you've got now, I gotta smoke you, my 711 00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:52,840 deaf, gotta smoke you. Now though I gotta smoke they whooped them like 712 00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:55,639 that. I gotta smoke you, bro, And that's just what it came 713 00:49:55,679 --> 00:49:59,320 down to. Yeah, I think a lot of niggas got smoked because they 714 00:49:59,440 --> 00:50:02,400 put their hand on somebody's sister, hands on somebody, or just fucking with 715 00:50:02,480 --> 00:50:07,599 them. A bitch that's just toxic and messy as fuck. That's why I'm 716 00:50:07,639 --> 00:50:10,199 mess with bitches like that, because, bitch, I'm not You're not about 717 00:50:10,239 --> 00:50:14,480 to be talking shit to another nigga and starting ship all the time, putting 718 00:50:14,480 --> 00:50:16,599 your hands on niggas and then they smack you and then you running to me 719 00:50:17,079 --> 00:50:21,559 to come save you. You too, No, not even not even not 720 00:50:21,639 --> 00:50:24,599 even that, like I'm gonna come and try to save you, and now 721 00:50:24,639 --> 00:50:28,639 I got to kill a motherfucker they kill me, you know what I'm saying, 722 00:50:28,760 --> 00:50:30,079 Like, nah, Bro, I just I'll stay out of that. 723 00:50:30,159 --> 00:50:35,159 I was talking to a motherfucker about infidelity, and I was like, the 724 00:50:35,239 --> 00:50:40,000 older I get, the more I realize how unsafe that shit is, bro, 725 00:50:40,320 --> 00:50:49,000 Like, man, trusting a bitch that's not yours is ludicrous, crazy. 726 00:50:49,239 --> 00:50:52,320 That ship is dumb as a motherfucker. Because she knows where you stay, 727 00:50:53,039 --> 00:50:58,960 she know that you got a situation. She can like you. I 728 00:50:59,719 --> 00:51:02,320 just I was telling my young niggas. I was like, Bro, right 729 00:51:02,360 --> 00:51:08,599 now, I might seem like an old nigga, but do not trust motherfuckers, 730 00:51:08,599 --> 00:51:12,920 bro, because she can backdoor you for real, you have no idea 731 00:51:13,000 --> 00:51:16,519 she can back door you have niggas sitting outside your crib robbing you. She 732 00:51:16,599 --> 00:51:20,840 can. She can be sucking your dick and then have a motherfucker come kick 733 00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:25,480 the motherfucker like you just left the door. You do not know what motherfucker's 734 00:51:25,519 --> 00:51:29,000 got going on, bro, And that shit be like you go to a 735 00:51:29,000 --> 00:51:31,760 motherfucker, You go to a chick crib and she doesn't fucking drop the dime 736 00:51:31,840 --> 00:51:35,400 on you. Not niggas like I'd be like, bro, noa, I'm 737 00:51:35,400 --> 00:51:39,519 cool. I'll be trying to give a little niggas game, bro, And 738 00:51:39,639 --> 00:51:42,519 when I be giving them game, they be looking at me like, Bro, 739 00:51:42,559 --> 00:51:47,079 you are traumatized. I'm like, no, We've seen it. I'm 740 00:51:47,159 --> 00:51:54,159 just fortunate enough to not have dealt with h the crazy that I that I've 741 00:51:54,199 --> 00:52:00,840 heard about. Because niggas real bro' be too. I'll be like, whoa, 742 00:52:00,400 --> 00:52:04,079 I don't know how to big one. I peeped the crazy ship, 743 00:52:04,119 --> 00:52:06,719 bitch. If I've ever seen you do some crazy ass ship, if you, 744 00:52:06,800 --> 00:52:08,079 if you are female, you're gonna do some crazy ass shit on social 745 00:52:08,159 --> 00:52:12,400 media. You crazy, You're gonna show the world, you crazy bit you 746 00:52:12,480 --> 00:52:14,719 crazy, and I don't want nothing to do with you. That's the That's 747 00:52:14,800 --> 00:52:20,000 why I had to get on Facebook too, because people your your family follow 748 00:52:20,119 --> 00:52:24,320 you on here and they don't be caring. You don't care that you're looking 749 00:52:24,639 --> 00:52:30,000 like an idiot, you ousting anothering, you ousting somebody on you know what 750 00:52:30,039 --> 00:52:31,920 I mean? Like the ship that people be doing on Facebook, arguing on 751 00:52:31,960 --> 00:52:36,559 Facebook, posting I've seen the chicken. I've seen a chick yesterday. I 752 00:52:36,639 --> 00:52:42,800 just kept posting messages and all this ship about her, her ex and his 753 00:52:42,960 --> 00:52:45,760 new girl, like just a bunch of everybody, like, man, stop, 754 00:52:45,920 --> 00:52:51,360 you are just stop. You are embarrassing yourself, Like this is embarrassing 755 00:52:51,480 --> 00:52:53,599 you think that you you think that you're dropping the dime on buddy. Nah, 756 00:52:53,880 --> 00:52:59,239 everybody cracking Joe I wheel tomorrow not today, Like no, stop. 757 00:52:59,320 --> 00:53:04,519 They looking at you like you're a fucking goofball for real, goofball man, 758 00:53:04,719 --> 00:53:09,239 crazy looking crazy niggas too, niggas too, yeah, just looking crazy and 759 00:53:09,239 --> 00:53:13,119 they ain't gonna take them motherfucker back after all that. It's just like man 760 00:53:13,239 --> 00:53:15,639 gone, man, I'm about now about. Don't follow you if I ever 761 00:53:15,719 --> 00:53:19,480 block you, because what you want nobody want to see that. I never 762 00:53:19,559 --> 00:53:24,239 see anybody acting crazy on social media. I unfollow you quick, I unfriend 763 00:53:24,320 --> 00:53:27,519 you quick. I don't even want that on my time. Yeah. I 764 00:53:27,519 --> 00:53:30,519 don't want no parts of you. I ain't, I ain't you, and 765 00:53:30,559 --> 00:53:35,119 you I'm blocking you because you are a maniac I have. I want no 766 00:53:35,239 --> 00:53:38,079 parts. Yeah, I want no parts of that ship man, not at 767 00:53:38,119 --> 00:53:40,440 all. Who you got in the Super Bowl? Man? Before they get 768 00:53:40,480 --> 00:53:45,480 up, Man, I pretty much know the Chiefs going in. Man, 769 00:53:45,559 --> 00:53:49,199 they want Taylor, Taylor Smith, whatever fuck her name is. They want 770 00:53:49,239 --> 00:53:52,119 her to get it. They want that bitch to get the damn ring her 771 00:53:52,199 --> 00:53:55,840 damn self. But I'm forty nine this window. I like the Chiefs, 772 00:53:55,840 --> 00:53:59,159 but I just don't want to win. Just not not this year. Not 773 00:53:59,239 --> 00:54:02,920 Why what the girls there? Not the swiftiest. I like Taylor Swift, 774 00:54:04,159 --> 00:54:07,360 I mean she's cool. I love Taylor Si. Man, but you don't. 775 00:54:07,679 --> 00:54:10,440 You don't follow sports and watch Sports Center, and you don't you don't 776 00:54:10,440 --> 00:54:15,320 see what's going on. But you've just seen that damn cake motherfucker just made 777 00:54:15,320 --> 00:54:20,119 with her holding a damn trophy. If they don't bother, you don't know 778 00:54:20,159 --> 00:54:24,280 what does I think? For me? I just understand I just understand why 779 00:54:24,400 --> 00:54:28,360 the NFL is doing it. Yeah, marketing, I understand marketing, and 780 00:54:28,719 --> 00:54:31,519 that's why niggas is down bad. Broever, you gotta go get us frail 781 00:54:31,599 --> 00:54:37,320 white girl to bring motherfuckers to watch this game. Niggas is doing bad. 782 00:54:37,239 --> 00:54:42,239 They ain't even need it though, they just boosted it up. No, 783 00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:45,360 because they didn't know they was gonna be together. It just happened to happen. 784 00:54:45,400 --> 00:54:49,559 But once they seen it, they're like, oh, we got some 785 00:54:49,679 --> 00:54:52,760 here. That's why I said it's probably fake. It's probably probably just friends. 786 00:54:52,880 --> 00:54:58,360 But if not, he's playing crazy because she would have been pregnant first 787 00:54:58,559 --> 00:55:02,840 intercourse. You're not gonna run we had you're knocking rup. Do you think 788 00:55:02,880 --> 00:55:13,760 Taylor Swift use condoms? We we ain't. We ain't raw dog again dog. 789 00:55:15,480 --> 00:55:19,760 They called that nig They said Taylor Swift's boyfriend. They don't even call 790 00:55:19,800 --> 00:55:22,000 that nigga, but his name no more. Now, you got to make 791 00:55:22,000 --> 00:55:24,400 more money than her to be called your name, and you don't have more 792 00:55:24,440 --> 00:55:30,079 money than the Swift. I'm wrong, you can. I wanted to take 793 00:55:30,079 --> 00:55:36,079 her last name excellent swear God, I wanted in Swift. Are you talking 794 00:55:36,079 --> 00:55:40,800 about Jenny Jackson was a little thick, now I would. I want to 795 00:55:40,840 --> 00:55:45,360 know, as a nigga who created righted content for a living, I want 796 00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:52,599 to know what type of sex do these pop singers be having, because I 797 00:55:52,679 --> 00:56:00,280 want to fuck Ariana Grande and Taylor swift them. That's if my wife to 798 00:56:00,360 --> 00:56:07,679 give me passes. Grande is first going for them, grind Grande's first, 799 00:56:07,239 --> 00:56:13,360 Grande Dojah Cat, I'm deaf, smoking the boots off. Dojah? What 800 00:56:14,440 --> 00:56:16,159 if you because if you put Taylor and Sisson and I'm not Taylor, but 801 00:56:16,320 --> 00:56:22,880 uh Doshah and Sisson in the room, I'm going to pick Dojah if you 802 00:56:22,199 --> 00:56:25,559 if you put Summer and Doje in the room, I'm going to pick Dojah. 803 00:56:25,920 --> 00:56:29,960 But if you put Dojah and Ari Lennox in the room, I might 804 00:56:30,280 --> 00:56:36,320 get Ari because her voice bro she just I like Jenny. I'm not fucking 805 00:56:36,320 --> 00:56:42,679 her. She she pratties the mother. No, I don't want carry Heelson. 806 00:56:43,119 --> 00:56:45,360 I love them. She's fine, she fine, though, she fine. 807 00:56:45,440 --> 00:56:49,559 She finds a motherfucker though, But nah, I don't want to pass 808 00:56:49,559 --> 00:56:51,719 for Carrie. She fine. I follow her. I'll watch her. I 809 00:56:51,760 --> 00:56:57,719 look at her instrument, But Noah, because I'm thinking about I don't know, 810 00:56:57,760 --> 00:56:59,760 man. I just want to know how they fuck. I don't even 811 00:56:59,760 --> 00:57:01,960 want to I just want to know how they fuck. What y'all be doing, 812 00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:06,320 What y'all like, what y'all don't like? Who on top? How 813 00:57:06,360 --> 00:57:08,039 long do you ride on top? Well? Do you wear lingerie? Do 814 00:57:08,039 --> 00:57:12,159 you wear a white T shirt to bed? How do you sleep your breast? 815 00:57:12,239 --> 00:57:15,320 I don't watch white porn. I watch all that ship, but none 816 00:57:15,320 --> 00:57:19,239 of I don't give about none of that ship on porn. I want to 817 00:57:19,280 --> 00:57:22,800 know what they do. I've seen Arianna Grande in the in the studio recording 818 00:57:22,800 --> 00:57:28,400 her vocals by herself Harmony's crazy, yep. I want to do it to 819 00:57:28,440 --> 00:57:31,880 you that right there alone, and want to do it to her. I'll 820 00:57:31,880 --> 00:57:36,320 be thinking about who got good sex and who don't got good sex? Kneel 821 00:57:36,360 --> 00:57:39,400 long, Nope, she ain't got good sex? Fuck no, hell no? 822 00:57:39,840 --> 00:57:44,440 And what's the girl on Joe Budden's podcast? Uh? Melissa for it? 823 00:57:44,760 --> 00:57:47,880 Fuck nor did? She probably never did? Fuck no? I know 824 00:57:49,000 --> 00:57:52,039 she she was hot at one point in time. Fuck no, she was 825 00:57:52,119 --> 00:57:58,840 cute. Gigs she was, But if she ain't giving it up with her 826 00:57:59,000 --> 00:58:04,559 you know know we didn't talk about last time was siddy stuff post about uh 827 00:58:05,239 --> 00:58:12,920 superhead. My question to you is do you knowingly or did you knowingly fuck 828 00:58:15,000 --> 00:58:22,920 battered women? Not battered batter means what batter means women that was beat I 829 00:58:22,920 --> 00:58:28,719 don't mean them. I mean women that got daddy issues, my issues, 830 00:58:29,599 --> 00:58:32,880 like did you like when? Like did you Because a lot of niggas don't 831 00:58:32,880 --> 00:58:37,840 talk to women to even know they just I said, I really didn't know. 832 00:58:37,880 --> 00:58:40,320 I really back then, I really didn't pay attentionships she I'm asking all 833 00:58:40,320 --> 00:58:44,119 the type of motherfucking questions I mean because I didn't plan on being with a 834 00:58:44,159 --> 00:58:46,079 lot of them, so I really didn't even That's how that was my bag 835 00:58:46,119 --> 00:58:49,920 though. So you played sports, you was you was a cool nigga. 836 00:58:49,920 --> 00:58:52,960 I wouldn't that I had. I had to use my mouthpiece pause. I 837 00:58:52,000 --> 00:58:57,119 mean you had your ones that I did. But like I really, if 838 00:58:57,159 --> 00:59:00,199 I ain't look at you as like really ain't nothing with you, I wouldn't. 839 00:59:00,199 --> 00:59:04,639 I didn't give a fuck about what you had going on. But you 840 00:59:04,719 --> 00:59:08,119 asked no, oh you didn't ask because I don't care about none of that. 841 00:59:08,920 --> 00:59:15,599 Hm, he was old whooping. I remember I remember this girl that 842 00:59:15,639 --> 00:59:17,039 I was trying to talk to brush. I found out a nigga that her 843 00:59:19,199 --> 00:59:21,800 her brother tried to set her house on fire, her mama was a drug 844 00:59:21,800 --> 00:59:24,079 addict. Her dad was said, I'm not fucking you. Get the hell. 845 00:59:24,280 --> 00:59:29,159 No, I'm your brother now, deaf. No, I'm definitely fuck 846 00:59:29,280 --> 00:59:31,840 no, no, no, I don't. And Steph said that when she 847 00:59:31,880 --> 00:59:36,480 read Superhead books, she said that she started to feel like that she was 848 00:59:36,480 --> 00:59:37,920 sucked up. Yeah, she was fucked up and they was just taking advantage 849 00:59:37,960 --> 00:59:40,280 of her. And I was like, man, she is and she looks 850 00:59:40,360 --> 00:59:47,239 great, look good. The mother, Oh my god, oh bro, 851 00:59:47,440 --> 00:59:53,800 she's fine. She Philia fine. Yeah my god. I ain't ain't nothing, 852 00:59:54,760 --> 01:00:00,000 ain't nothing better than the old ass fine woman. Yeah see, I 853 01:00:00,480 --> 01:00:04,000 see, I can, I can. I can fuck with a female that 854 01:00:04,079 --> 01:00:07,079 fucked. That fucked a lot. But if you if you got the train 855 01:00:07,199 --> 01:00:10,800 ran on you, that's where that's what ship gets. I don't care about 856 01:00:10,800 --> 01:00:14,000 the train. I do. Bro. It's over for me, Bro, 857 01:00:14,320 --> 01:00:17,400 I find you better take that ship to the grave. The train. My 858 01:00:17,519 --> 01:00:23,920 thing is my thing is I give a fuck women who women who see I 859 01:00:24,320 --> 01:00:30,880 don't want to tie in mental health or life issues problems. Once I find 860 01:00:30,920 --> 01:00:37,320 out, I just feel like back back then, women girls who was allowing 861 01:00:37,440 --> 01:00:42,000 six niggas to fuck, they had something going on. They had something going 862 01:00:42,039 --> 01:00:45,079 on, and niggas didn't give a fuck. I can't. I'm hurt. 863 01:00:45,199 --> 01:00:49,760 I find that bit you is living like that. You heard that she has 864 01:00:49,840 --> 01:00:52,800 six dicks, and you hurt that she was she worked at a mental place 865 01:00:52,840 --> 01:00:58,199 to take six dicks. I don't even want to know why you were doing 866 01:00:58,280 --> 01:01:02,320 that, but the fact that you or I'm crazy, I'm more so. 867 01:01:02,360 --> 01:01:06,519 I'm more so stuck on the wy. I'm more so stuck on the why, 868 01:01:06,599 --> 01:01:08,320 because what the fuck? What happened to you? Bitch? Yeah, 869 01:01:08,320 --> 01:01:12,760 I do need to know? I mean I don't because it's over. So 870 01:01:12,800 --> 01:01:15,000 I'm like, I'm not even worried about having to deal deal with it or 871 01:01:15,039 --> 01:01:19,360 even worried about it coming back, because bitch, it's over. You know 872 01:01:19,400 --> 01:01:22,239 you should have kept it to yourself. May be going through some ship, 873 01:01:22,360 --> 01:01:28,320 man, especially like young people bro like especially our maybe this age too, 874 01:01:28,360 --> 01:01:30,320 because now you can go through some ship you don't line find a motherfucker and 875 01:01:30,440 --> 01:01:32,719 just get to them. Back in our day, we had to ride a 876 01:01:32,760 --> 01:01:35,840 bike to a motherfucker. We had to catch a bus to a motherfucker. 877 01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:37,800 Now you can get an uber to it. You can get an uber. 878 01:01:37,239 --> 01:01:40,119 Yeah. So if you had six motherfuckers riding bikes to your house, so 879 01:01:40,159 --> 01:01:45,119 we're gonna have more fucker problem because what the fuck you got six bikes outside 880 01:01:45,360 --> 01:01:49,000 in your house? You got six bikes at the at the porch of your 881 01:01:49,039 --> 01:01:53,880 crib. That looks just sounds crazy. Something on that someone kickstands. None 882 01:01:53,920 --> 01:01:58,639 on kickstands. That's crazy. Nah, but real, I don't know. 883 01:02:00,719 --> 01:02:04,239 I'm not, I'm not. I'm not having sexual no. No. When 884 01:02:05,000 --> 01:02:07,880 women, yeah, they probably is going through something for sure. They don't 885 01:02:07,920 --> 01:02:13,320 move like that. Some women do. Some women. Some women are moving 886 01:02:13,360 --> 01:02:15,880 like that. Some do. But I'm saying like majority women ain't built like 887 01:02:15,920 --> 01:02:22,519 that. They're tail on their themself. And when they cheat, they I 888 01:02:22,559 --> 01:02:25,400 can't. I just couldn't hold it in. I couldn't do him like that. 889 01:02:25,679 --> 01:02:34,239 Like savages. I know some savages. I know some savages. That's 890 01:02:34,239 --> 01:02:42,599 why, that's why I feel the way savages. Some some I might have 891 01:02:42,679 --> 01:02:47,000 to funk around and find out, and then the other ones know, and 892 01:02:47,039 --> 01:02:51,320 then some of them is like, that's like who I call system ship and 893 01:02:51,320 --> 01:02:54,239 I just see how they like I don't look at them like that. But 894 01:02:54,280 --> 01:02:58,280 I just see like what they do. And I love when you talk to 895 01:02:58,320 --> 01:03:04,599 your system, you just find out. Oh like you and y'all ain't ship 896 01:03:04,880 --> 01:03:07,159 a ship and niggas aren't even suspected from the real, real pretty ones. 897 01:03:07,280 --> 01:03:10,360 No, bro, I'm talking about business. Ain't ship boy the ship I'll 898 01:03:10,400 --> 01:03:16,159 be here and seeing I'd be like, that's why I beat nothing. That's 899 01:03:16,199 --> 01:03:20,199 what I'm saying. Niggas, why nothing. Just gotta get them a girl, 900 01:03:20,840 --> 01:03:25,559 No, because else you're gonna trust men. I need I need to 901 01:03:25,559 --> 01:03:30,199 trust who I'm sticking my dick in. I need to trust you because you 902 01:03:30,280 --> 01:03:35,679 can fuck up my whole life. You can fuck up my whole life with 903 01:03:36,079 --> 01:03:39,400 one bad experience. I want no parts. And so we went to hate 904 01:03:39,440 --> 01:03:44,360 you. Yes, we went to the skate rink out West two weeks ago. 905 01:03:45,440 --> 01:03:49,880 Yeah, last weekend. So this beautiful black woman in this motherfucking green 906 01:03:49,960 --> 01:03:52,400 jumpsuit, and the first thing in my mind was, bitch, get away 907 01:03:52,440 --> 01:03:59,239 from me. You might be the devil, look at it. Get away 908 01:03:59,239 --> 01:04:01,159 from me. Y'all don't know what demons is on your back like a fucking 909 01:04:01,280 --> 01:04:06,280 monkey pop who sent you? No motherfuckers is definitely making too much eye contact. 910 01:04:06,280 --> 01:04:10,840 I just play, who sent you like the devil? You got me 911 01:04:10,920 --> 01:04:14,199 looking at you and supposed to be looking at you, the devil, the 912 01:04:14,239 --> 01:04:15,880 devil? When the last thing you've been to the skate ring ship? I 913 01:04:15,920 --> 01:04:23,400 went, but twice recently too. Cases. She likes skating. I'm gonna 914 01:04:23,400 --> 01:04:26,000 get some skates, though, I was. I got to get my own. 915 01:04:26,079 --> 01:04:29,440 I can't do them brown dubers. I wasn't that motherfucker like we used 916 01:04:29,440 --> 01:04:32,639 to be in this motherfucker faithfully faithful. I used to know how to skate 917 01:04:32,719 --> 01:04:38,159 like a motherfucker boy. Ain't skating about fifteen years being that motherfucker. I 918 01:04:38,199 --> 01:04:40,480 was like, man, this ship is so crazy. The audio is still 919 01:04:40,559 --> 01:04:44,440 trash. You were skating, Nah, I was pushing the I was pushing 920 01:04:44,440 --> 01:04:46,000 the girls around. I was walking. I was walking on it. But 921 01:04:46,039 --> 01:04:49,559 I want to say, she's hurt Nigga after them skates, Nigga. I 922 01:04:49,599 --> 01:04:53,039 didn't even want to put them on. Man, the motherfucker's so heavy. 923 01:04:53,159 --> 01:04:55,039 Yeah, I didn't want to put them on. I think I might get 924 01:04:55,039 --> 01:04:59,679 some roller blades. I didn't want to put the motherfuckers on. Fast nigg 925 01:04:59,679 --> 01:05:03,679 gonna be zooming around the motherfucker skating the ring. I'm like, damn the 926 01:05:03,760 --> 01:05:10,079 race fucking shirt. That was the only case I knew how to skate in 927 01:05:10,159 --> 01:05:13,559 for real, for real, like my grandma bought us skated in. I 928 01:05:13,599 --> 01:05:15,599 never want to ice skating. We need to go on. I want to 929 01:05:15,599 --> 01:05:19,400 go ice skating. I got that one downtown. It's always it's always there 930 01:05:19,480 --> 01:05:23,159 there, me and me and you. I went down there just to like 931 01:05:23,400 --> 01:05:26,559 chill and looking ship. I was just like, nah, we need to 932 01:05:26,559 --> 01:05:29,599 go one. It's a little bigger than this. Too many people on that. 933 01:05:30,679 --> 01:05:32,440 I definite want. I definitely get some blades. We had, we 934 01:05:32,440 --> 01:05:39,920 had them close. I ain't trying to fall. Oh nigga instantly went to 935 01:05:40,000 --> 01:05:49,840 the my fingers hurt. I didn't even think about that problem. I'm always 936 01:05:49,840 --> 01:05:57,039 thinking about some final destination. Why are you? Oh, you always just 937 01:05:57,039 --> 01:06:00,920 thinking about hey, hey ship. But you gotta be cautious. Gotta be 938 01:06:01,039 --> 01:06:05,760 cautious because when you don't think about it, that's when the ship happened. 939 01:06:06,360 --> 01:06:11,519 Man. I gotta go downtown to the I gotta go downtown over the weekend 940 01:06:11,599 --> 01:06:15,280 for to work the All Star Joint. And the only thing I can think 941 01:06:15,280 --> 01:06:18,480 about is all of them motherfucking people. That's the only thing I can think 942 01:06:18,480 --> 01:06:21,000 about. I ain't thinking about the job I gotta do. I ain't thinking 943 01:06:21,000 --> 01:06:25,440 about what I gotta wear. I ain't thinking about nothing. I'm thinking about 944 01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:31,079 all of the motherfucking people that I have to I'm just gonna go where life 945 01:06:31,159 --> 01:06:38,880 can't afford me, wherever that takes me. I'm not going broke for this 946 01:06:38,960 --> 01:06:44,639 ship. Where you're gonna be ill, pull up, pull help us, 947 01:06:44,840 --> 01:06:46,519 help me. It's gonna be food in there. It's gonna be like an 948 01:06:46,519 --> 01:06:49,840 event space. Yeah, I said I need I got a staff. I 949 01:06:49,880 --> 01:06:54,719 got a staff. But I ain't going nowhere but this motherfucker. I'm gonna 950 01:06:54,719 --> 01:06:58,559 just be downtown, going wherever wherever. I thought about going to Trapping Tacos. 951 01:06:58,960 --> 01:07:00,239 I might go to that little line ship though, for sure. Where 952 01:07:00,320 --> 01:07:06,400 is it, Lucas that ship? All of these ads just look so weird. 953 01:07:06,440 --> 01:07:11,159 When it says Indie, I'm like, it's crazy, but it's so 954 01:07:11,360 --> 01:07:15,679 much. It's so much ship. It's so much ship. I saw Wayne 955 01:07:16,239 --> 01:07:24,199 the Baby City Girls the last day he the last party. Yeah, like 956 01:07:24,320 --> 01:07:28,199 she's gonna be crazy young Miami, and I'm like, I love you. 957 01:07:29,800 --> 01:07:33,320 That's a fine. Oh She's so fucking gorgeous, ain't she. I used 958 01:07:33,320 --> 01:07:38,199 to like j T over her. I did too, She's a bird. 959 01:07:38,280 --> 01:07:43,440 Now she's different. Yeah, us made her weird. Anybody, anybody who's 960 01:07:43,480 --> 01:07:47,800 to do that to you, even weird than the motherfucker that's my nigga, 961 01:07:47,960 --> 01:07:50,960 So I know he probably a real nigga, So that's probably what got her. 962 01:07:51,159 --> 01:07:58,079 But that nigga just a little and he little hell weird, little than 963 01:07:58,119 --> 01:08:05,519 a bit. Yeah, I think I'm I think I enjoy this, this, 964 01:08:05,519 --> 01:08:09,079 this gig, this weekend, I'm looking forward to. You know, 965 01:08:09,159 --> 01:08:12,119 it's gonna be fun. It's gonna be nice weekend. Yeah. Man, 966 01:08:12,480 --> 01:08:15,520 well thank you for listening to this unsure ass episode with me and Keenan Swift. 967 01:08:16,159 --> 01:08:20,600 My my DAF you know, was next Saturday, so I probably won't 968 01:08:20,600 --> 01:08:25,720 be doing ship till later that day. They're gonna be emotionally all right, 969 01:08:26,119 --> 01:08:30,199 Yeah, I'll be straight. I think I don't. I don't been through 970 01:08:30,279 --> 01:08:33,680 so much in my life when it comes to like death and ship, I 971 01:08:33,720 --> 01:08:42,359 don't really only process like yeah, it's like afterwards, like I just deal 972 01:08:42,399 --> 01:08:44,760 with it. I'd be like, man, they just they look it ain't 973 01:08:44,760 --> 01:08:47,560 gotta be no more but like twenty twelve probably was it with the year like 974 01:08:49,319 --> 01:08:55,720 I lost like probably five niggas like that was close to me that year. 975 01:08:56,000 --> 01:09:00,359 That year, so it was like I can't even cry no more, like 976 01:09:02,560 --> 01:09:09,119 just be hurt. DJ j R, Thomas, Little Uh, Little James, 977 01:09:09,279 --> 01:09:14,279 like a couple of cousins. Like that year was tough. Damn yeah, 978 01:09:14,279 --> 01:09:19,239 that ship was tough. Man. Well we'll see y'all. We see, 979 01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:25,359 man, y'all better stay out the way and out the way. And 980 01:09:25,520 --> 01:09:27,760 just if y'all, I want to know how y'all feeling, man, d 981 01:09:27,920 --> 01:09:29,760 m me if y'all follow me, I want to talk about this, like, 982 01:09:30,960 --> 01:09:31,960 yeah, I definite want to know how y'all feel. If y'all feel 983 01:09:31,960 --> 01:09:35,640 like what the fuck am I doing? Let me know because and then I 984 01:09:35,680 --> 01:09:40,920 could communicate with us on motherfucking Twitter and ship y'all. Yeah, I just 985 01:09:40,920 --> 01:09:45,039 want to know what, motherfuckers is how y'all getting through life every day? 986 01:09:45,600 --> 01:09:47,439 Like what is the goal? What are we doing here? I asked here, 987 01:09:47,640 --> 01:09:49,600 like what are we doing here? What are you supposed to be doing? 988 01:09:49,720 --> 01:09:54,159 We just want to be mating and feeding these kids until we die. 989 01:09:54,319 --> 01:09:58,319 I mean that's what I feel. That's what man, are for mating. 990 01:10:00,439 --> 01:10:05,239 Bring your life into the world. Yeah, just shoot the sperm every goddamn 991 01:10:05,279 --> 01:10:10,680 where. Well I am Eric, Fuck that, I'm done, ericdizzy dot 992 01:10:10,760 --> 01:10:13,520 Audio. Follow me on all social media. I'm here with my brother Kenny 993 01:10:14,000 --> 01:10:17,720 Hey Rich I really expensive three one seven Instagram, y'all know what it is. 994 01:10:17,760 --> 01:10:20,760 Keene Upter, Facebook and we'll see y'all next week. Man,