It's the two seventeen Recovery Podcast with Corey Winfield. If you kind of look
deeper at the situation, you know, which I'm sure you will, because
everything that we go through is an experience that we learned from. And Justin
Burke, I come right in. I am very sneaky about it. You'll
be talking to someone and I'll just come in and sit at my desk and
just bust one out real quick. Yes, this is the twenty ninth of
January twenty twenty four. My name is Cory Winfield, joined by Justin Burke.
Fabulous. Yes, it's the two seventeen Recovery podcast coming from the North
Studio today where us Michiganders, that's what they call us, right, were
a little heartbroken because the Troy Lyons kind of choked it last night and the
lost, But you know what, I think for the most part, people
are in a pretty good mood. Adam was a little aside himself, but
he didn't come to our party, so we didn't really care about Adam and
this feelings were like good, kind of glad got that hurt, you bro
now. But the party that we had last night was fun. We had
pizza there, was a hot wing eating competition, like hot sauce. Try
it out, you know, did you take place? No. I didn't
participate in this either. I wanted nothing to do with it. And there
were some children here because you know, a little recovery action. We had
like eight nine pizzas and pop and cookies and all that stuff, and then
Kim went out and she bought some wings, and then we had hot sauce
for my friend Matt. He was here and he busted them all out and
he was having a good time. He loves hot sauce. And there was
a show where they eat a bunch of different hot sauces and he bought like
the kit from that show and he was all excited. And he came in
on Friday and showed us and I was like, well, dude, we're
having a super Bowl and not super Bowl. I got jokes. Son,
I got to the super Bowl Lions, they don't go together, but I
said we were having a divisional playoff party, and he's like, I'll be
there, I'll bring I will eat all this stuff. And he did so
good for him showing up. But the best part of these kids that were
here, and one of them was like I don't know if he was sleeping
or just acting like he was sleeping. I have no idea. His eyes
were closed. He didn't want nothing to do with like adult stuff, and
the other kid he wanted to be an adult so bad. He's like,
I want to eat hot stuff. And I said, we got to make
him sign a waiver. The mom to sign a waiver, like, somebody's
got to sign a waiver, because this is not a good idea, and
they were like, no, he's tough, he's cool, he can do
it. I don't know, and the challenge is going on, and we're
hearing laughter, we're hearing crying. Mitch's like tearing up, Mitch's son is
tearing up. But who knows for what reason that happened. But people were
like being affected by this hot sauce. And as I'm walking down the hallway,
this little kid comes out and this tears just running down his face like
he's crying, and he's like, do you have any milk? I said
no, I just kept going. He was crying, and I kind of
felt bad for like just a second, but I did. He went to
go like Burt, and then he thought he was I had to throw up
so he ran into the bathroom your ass. Yeah, poor little guy,
I know, And I said it was probably really rude. He probably remember
me. He's the mean guy. Do you have any milk? And I
just looked at him, not like he was unintelligent, but I just looked
at him and just said nope. But see, I warned him though,
I said, you don't want to do the sun. You don't want to
do this? No I do. I'm a big kid. He's probably what
eight seven eight? Yeah? Probably, Yeah, I'm gonna learn. I
bet he doesn't make that mistake twice. No, I bet he doesn't.
But Lions fans, there's always next year's cub fans. That's what we would
always say back in the day. You know, I didn't read something all
over It was all over Facebook though. Did you read my Facebook? Oh
you're reading something else? Yeah, just through my story on my Facebook.
A lot of people were complaining about them going on fourth down. But statistically
our kicker isn't very good. Whoa doing long rage kicks? It was only
forty eight he hit. His probability of making that forty eight yarder was less
probable than them going on fourth down and getting it. Yeah, the first
time, all the ad was catch the ball right drop. Yeah. The
next one, I don't know what the hell everything on that one. That
one even close GoF rolled out to nowhere and then threw it to nowhere.
That that was a horrible play. Yeah, but yeah, all that aside,
though, they did have a good season. And I know there's a
lot of people in recovery that were here last night having a good time because
of the Lions. So the Lions gave us a chance to throw a community
event and we took advantage of that. So thank you Lions. We appreciate
you having a good year. You know, only one team at the end
of the year, only one team is going to walk away happy, you
know, to be one of the to be one of the last four,
that's pretty badass. And I'd say we came in third considering the point deficit
in between both games. Okay, like we did better than the Ravens.
Yeah, Ravens beat that ass earlier. Though. That's what I think they
should really turn to is to have a game, because yesterday it was it
was fun watching football. We had football early at Football eight and it was
good. I think they should do the same thing for the super Bowl,
like, have whoever loses, so like the Ravens and the Lions play for
the Winfield Cup or whatever, you know, like have them play for something
else because that way, because the Super Bowl kind of sucks in a way.
You get one game, blah commercials, and the games usually suck.
Yeah, I mean, if you go back to the last twenty years,
the game suck and except for that Tom Brady come back when that was pretty
damn awesome his best quarterback ever. You go, Tyrone Hatcher, who thinks
Matthew Stafford is But anyway, Tyrone, So to have a game before to
do it, you know, I don't know, call it something, but
to have more football one more time. Then you get two teams winning,
yeah something, you know, and like the Lions would have to take on
the Ravens, which would be a good rematch. I'd rather see that than
Kansas City and San Francisco. Right, I got money san Francisco. Wow,
you're gambling again. No, okay, I'm just saying I thought you,
Oh, I'd put my money on San Francisco. Well, last time
this happened when these two teams played. Ryan Beckman was on the podcast and
he put his money out of San Francisco. Yeah, actually no, no,
he put his money on Kansas City. I think Chris Goss put his
money out of San Francisco even though there was no money involved. But Chris
doesn't even bet, he doesn't even watch football, so he got conned into
that by somebody and he had to wear a helmet, especially helmet that we
made him, and you can go back to twenty twenty episodes and listened to
what Chris Goss had to do. It was quite comical. But Ryan had
bet that Green Bay was going to beat San Francisco to make it to the
super Bowl and he lost, and he had to like dye his hair like
cheese colored and he did, and he was supposed to do his facial hair
shaved it off. Hello, yeah, rotten move, jerk. But he
had to walk around with dumb hair for a while, so that was fun.
But again, you can go back to Our Fun and Recovery and listen
to those episodes from twenty twenty and they're right on the app two seventeen app
which is in the App Store and Google Play Store, So get that if
you don't have it yet. But I want to get into some other stuff
too. Besides the Lions. We're not going to just talk about the Lions
losing, oh, because that's going to hurt people's feelings. But I do
want to mention something before we move on that I posted on Facebook as well
today, and I was trying to be I was trying to be a leader
justin yeah, yep, I go to look at this. So I wrote
to lead by example, I'm going to work a full day today. I'm
coming back to work after lunch, and I'm going to finish what I'm working
on before I go home. Hashtag Detroit Lions because I think if they see
that, they'll be like, you know what, we should do that next
year? We should finish every game, not just going at halftime, not
just leave for lunch and be like, all right, man, I'll be
back later. And you come back and you know, you got your fast
food and your belly, you just want to take a nap and nap and
you don't really do anything in the rest of the day, a really good
productive morning and then you just as Chris Goss would say, since we brought
them up, I didn't anyway, they shit the bed. And I'm trying
to lead by example. Like, that's what I'm going to do today,
So hopefully they see that. And I do have to mention one more thing
about the Lions that is very very cool is, of course last year they
gave us I think thirty tickets to a game and we took people from the
recovery houses. You went. It was fun, it was a good time,
and we watched them. It was December fourth of twenty twenty two,
and we watched him beat Jacksonville. It was great, it was fun and
it was awesome. Well, this year they didn't release tickets to nonprofits,
so I applied for Detroit Lions memorabilia and nice, Yeah, they sent me
an email last week they're like, hey, congratulations, we picked your organization
to receive some stuff. So here you go. And today in the mail
I get a autograph football yep from Detroit Lion player guy. Yeah, yeah
rock right. He's his name Old tight End, not Old tight End,
but yeah, he is the other tight End. Yeah, and it has
like a letter of authenticity which they signed, which is kind of weird.
Two seventeen twenty four because I think I put on there that's when we're going
to have the event. Okay, So I think they put that on there.
But that's pretty cool because we're obviously two seventeen so that is really nice.
Yeah, but the event is on the twenty ninth, and I think
we're going to auction it there somehow. But it's a really cool it's white,
it's got the Lions logo on it. It's a sweet looking football,
right. I might have to bet on it myself. I don't think that
would be appropriate. Probably not. I was thinking the same thing when we
opened it up, and I was like, this is inappropriate, but it
looks awesome. But I could have my girlfriend bet on it, yeah,
because she is non affiliated with two seventeen. But what if I want it?
You're gonna have to find a non affiliated member. Why. I'd just
be wrong to bid on many levels the football? Why? Why? Yeah,
it's ethically wrong. How how Yeah, because when you run a silent
auction, you don't get to bet on the merchandise. You don't bet on
it. You bid on it're bet on it. Yeah, but you
should be able to we're being able allowed to buy raffle tickets for that so
called items. Why. I don't know, because I was always told it's
absolutely wrong. I have just as good a chance. I don't know,
man, I don't know about that. I might have to look it up.
Yeah you should, I should. Well, I don't know. You're
not really good at looking things up on Google. Clearly, just that incident
with Google today. We'll get into that another time. But I was talking
about a medication I was on last week or maybe it was a couple weeks
ago, Contrave, and I blamed Contrave for making me feel not good,
right, And it wasn't Contrave, it was the other one I was on.
So I stopped taking that movie because I was like, I'm not taking
Contrave anymore. After I did the podcast in the next day, I don't
take the Contrave and I take the other one and I still feel the same
way, and I'm like, oh okay, and I felt bad and I'm
like, oh no, hopefully I turn people off to whatever, you know,
because again, and I clearly said, I'm not a doctor, I'm
just a dude. It was on some stuff. Try to get my weight
down and we'll see how that goes. But yeah, oops, wrong one.
I was so pissed too, because I thought, man, I'm tired
of feeling like crap. And I started feeling like crap. But I'm like,
oh, no, like, did you try eating anything like when you
took the medication. Yeah, it just makes you feel crap. I don't
know, it just makes you feel like crap. I don't like it.
Yeah, I mean contraary doesn't make me feel great either, But sorry,
I'm yawning at this point. At least you're not a zombie. That's true.
But I didn't want to throw that out there. And I threw out
my back the other day clipping my toenails. Wow, I think the last
time you clipped him was in April. I think Marnie made me clip them
before we went to Seattle, did she? So maybe August would have been
the last time. You need regular to grooming. Well, once a quarter
is what I think is fine, So four times a year. Marnie thinks
it should be like every week at least once a month. Is that what
you do? You just are like, well, it's that time, Like,
was there a certain level of what they get to? If I could
start to feel them as you stick out past my toe I clip them.
See, I don't feel them when they because they kind of curl around it,
and sometimes they don't and then like I'm cutting Marnie in bed. Yeah
that's no good. Nah, but they're weapons. Take the covers. We'll
guess what last year Achilles off? Yeah. So yeah, but I throw
out my back. I'm like, are you kidding me? Like, well,
you have heard do it for you? You gotta stretch. I gotta
stretch out for I clip my toenails. Like once a month you sit down
and you get a foot massage, she clips your toenails. Golly, i'mna
be forty six as you're justin in June like this. This is getting old
stuff that I've heard this was saying before. Getting old's not for pussies or
something like that. Right, it's true, man, you're gonna be over
the hill soon. I think I'm there. I remember when my father turned
fifty and I thought, oh my god, he's so old. Or maybe
that was forty. It might have been fifty. I don't remember. I
think it was fifty. I remember a holy cow man, But my dad
is old and I'm not. I don't think I'm ever gonna be old.
Well, because you're comparing yourself to your father, you have to compare yourself
to Parker. That's true, which means you're old. No, no,
no, you just proved my point because I was always talk about my friends
being old because like their kids are graduating from high school. Old. I
asked, see when when your kid graduated from high school makes you old because
you have a kid they graduated from high school. And my cousin is right
in this too, and she's like a year or two younger than me,
I think a year younger than me. And she had two kids and they're
both I think graduating ones maybe graduating this year, or maybe they both did.
I don't know. I'm a horrible cousin. But she's old now because
she has kids that went to high school. She could be a grandma.
You boy, is not going to be a grandpa offer anytime soon, if
I even make it that long, because I wonder sometimes, you know,
with all this, but eating all those sweets and ice cream, I have
been sort of I have. I have some cookies yesterday at the party,
and then like three four pieces of pizza. But it was good. I
like pizza. It's good for you. Salted caramel brownies. Yeah, that
was so good. I don't know, man, it's tough, you know.
I get home and there's a little pan of salted caramel fudge brownies.
And then Marnie is like, oh yeah, there's that, make those tonight,
help yourself. She just wants to keep you. And it was so
good. And I take the luminum foil off, you know, look at
it and you could just see the caramel. It's like liquid. So it
was just like Milky Way candy bar caramel. You know, You're just like,
oh my god, it was so good. Through some ice cream on
some real ice cream mm hmm, straight from Kurkling, Yeah, from Costco.
That's that's some really good ice cream. But I've been on that carb
smart stuff. I've been eating the hell out of that lately. But there's
nothing like the real stuff. And once you get the real stuff, it's
hard to go back. Just like addiction. Man, I'm telling you that
the sugar addiction stuff is real. And I don't know, I just I
don't. I want to be there for Parker when it comes in May,
and of course we have. I think I have a big announcement to make.
What's that about May? Something else happening and details will be coming soon,
but I think that's a big announcement. I told you guys, I'm
a big deal. Is a big deal. I can't wait. Yeah,
my mama will be proud and she'll probably cry again. Hopefully she shows up.
Oh no, what she wants? Are you going to invite her?
Damn it? Justin now, she's like gonna show up and follow me around.
Nope, that she can be showing baby pictures and shit, there's my
son up there. Look at him here just telling stories. This is what
Corey did this time, and there's another time. And I want to point
hopefully she's deleted him, but I don't think she has. She probably could.
I don't think I'm gonna use them for the movie I'm making. But
she has like video of me like being drunk and like stupid, not stupid,
but just like whoo, yeah, I think we've all had those videos
at one point in time. Yeah. She tried to show him to Marnie
as around our wedding or maybe it was after our wedding or day of or
day before or something like that, and Marnie is like, Nope, I
don't want to see him that way. I never knew him that way.
And that made a lot of sense, And then I was kind of glad
that she'd never seen him that way because there's nothing good's gonna come of it.
Oh, look what Core used to do, Look what Core used to
say. Look how Core used to be. Like there's no point in that,
you know, Like I remember, that's good enough, right, But
I've never seen Marnie like that either, you know, and I don't.
I wouldn't want to either. Like, hey, you watch a video of
drunk Marnie Like, eh, no, no things. Yeah, it'll change
your perspective a little bit of the person. Then when they start acting a
little different or whatever for unknown reasons, you're like your mind instantly just goes
there. Well are you using you know it could be for some people.
I think Marnie and I we would know. You got'da be pretty obvious,
right, Like it's yeah, there's no there's no off switch for it,
Like it's it's just on, and once it's off, you just leave it
off, you know, Like that works best because you know if you flip
that switch on, it's it's not an on air studio light. No,
it's a destruction, destroy everything that you've built. Like and we just leave
it off works best. Mm hm. My mom sent me a picture though,
before I was born, and it was of my Grandma Winfield. I
don't really remember. I remember her house smelled funny all the time. I
don't really remember much about it, but I just said it smelled funny like
tomatoes or I don't know, maybe I was smelling alcohol. Who knows.
But she died from complications of drinking. Just say that when I'm told.
And there's a picture of my mom and her, and like I said,
it was like nineteen seventy six and they were somewhere on vacation or something and
my mom's and I asked, I was like, well, was was she
drunk? Was she drinking during the trip? And my mom said, she
didn't drink in front of us, but we're pretty sure like when okay,
good night, we'd go to bed, she'd walk to the store or somewhere
to get liquor, you know, and drink. And my mom said that
at that time, she was eighteen or whatever, and she was just thinking
of her mind, like if we can show this woman like there's good things
out there and she doesn't have to drink all the time. And I don't
know what the sea was back then as far as like treatment, and I
don't know. I really don't, you know. I know at some point
they were like putting people in the institutions and drilling in their brain and stuff,
you know, Like, I don't think it was like that, and
I think that's why people were afraid to go to treatment. But for her,
like, I don't know. I just started thinking about it and it's
sad that I didn't get to know her. And I texted my mom and
I said, well, I'm just glad that Parker is never going to have
to grow up seeing his mommy and daddy that way. You know, my
nephews they've seen drinking problems, and you know, they're eight and ten or
eleven and twelve or something like that. Again, I'm not the best family
member appears with names and ages and stuff. But I'm just super glad that
Parker doesn't have to see that. And I never saw that growing up.
Uh, you know, my mom's stepdad, they didn't they didn't drink.
My dad I didn't really see, but I knew he didn't drink. I
still mom, she didn't drink, you know, so I didn't. I
didn't see that. I didn't see the damage alcohol done it. People say,
oh it skips generation and that kind of makes sense. I think one
of my uncles was a big drinker and there's some complications he's going through with.
You know, I don't know if it's just old age or if you
know, drinking took its toll. And that's something I worry about, is
the twenty years of drinking and you know, just murdering my body. The
damage, you know, it's some of it's still there. You know.
The liver will, yeah, that'll heal itself. That'll be fine, it
can be for some. But the rest of the damage, you know,
it's you know, it's your stomach lining, my stomach problems. You know,
it's like how much of that's caused by alcohol? You know, and
your kidneys, Yeah, they seem to be okay, but again you never
know, you know, what's what's really down in there. And there's a
video that Martie and I watched and it was this guy like he's pretty much
dissecting and I might have had a link to it at some point. It
was over the summer, I think, is when we were talking about it.
But it like it showed like what it did to the lining and the
stomach and the esophagus. And the lungs even, you know, like because
they're alcohol Like that's how it gets That's how they use their breathalyzer because it
gets through your blood and then it goes out through the body, you know,
so like when it gets in your lungs, that's how they tell how
much you've been drinking. You know. But of course, for someone who's
been drinking twenty years, when you blow, you know, point two,
it's gonna have a way, you might not even feel it as opposed to
you know, get someone who's twenty one and drink it for the first time
they point two, they're passed out. You know, they're like, oh
my god. But like that's why I like people like me and probably Adam
and Mitch for sure. You know, when we go to the hospital or
something, then then we blow like a point four or five something, you
know, and they're like, what, you should be dead, and it's
like, no, that's how tolerance works, right. But with my grandmother,
I just felt kind of sad, and then I started to feel kind
of proud a little bit, just a little bit maybe humbles the right word,
because I was there at dust door, knocking at it, ready to
cross over grace of God, I didn't, and I'm here today to talk
about it. But I was fricking close. If I just would have went
home, went to sleep, I wouldn't have woke up, so the doctor
said, so to be that close but be able to turn it around.
And it wasn't just like, oh, okay, almost died, let's quit
drinking, like I thought it would be. It was much more than that.
It was me digging into my issues. It was me accepting help from
others, going to treatment and not giving up right, actually going to treatment
with an open mind in a list ear m. Eventually. I remember the
first time when I went to California. This guy was a few years older
than me, and he's just like, man, He's like, you got
to get your shit together. You're a good looking guy, you're young,
like you got it going on, Like it's good together. Man. I
was like, Okay, I'm trying. That's what I'm here for. But
at that time, too, I wasn't really a big AA fan. And
I went to my first AA meeting out in California and it was a speaker
meeting. I didn't know, so I just thought all of them were like
that, and like in La and Santa Monica. They're all actors and stuff,
and it just seemed like a presentation. It seemed like it was just
acting. They were trying to get their next role. In their next role,
they were playing an alcoholic or a druggie, and they were up there
just telling the story to make people believe it. That's what that's the vibe
I got. And then the lady's like, oh, this is the fifth
time I've seen you. Oh, you get better every time. And I'm
like, oh, so it's like Leonard Skinner show. And I even said
that, you know, I was like, this is like Leonard Skinner's you
know, like this isn't this is real life stuff, Like you shouldn't be
I don't know. It just seemed really weird to me. So I don't
need aa, don't need any of that. So I threw all that to
the side until later I was actually taken to a real meeting and like,
oh, okay, this is this is more my speed, this is how
it works. Okay, this is this is way different than what I thought
it was going to be, right, But it took it took a lot
of learning, man, And it was like four three three years. You
know of hell and failure and being humble. I was a person who I
had a house, I had a good job, I had a car,
and then I didn't have a house, I didn't have a good job,
and I didn't have a car, you know, to lose it all and
to still be standing to go okay, well, none of that stuff even
really mattered anyway, right, And to realize I wasn't happy in life life
in Arkansas. It was just it was very I don't want to say sobering
because it did the os effect. But then moving back home, thinking things
are going to be just the same or better just because I'm home, and
that wasn't the case either. It was just me getting into myself and I
talk about the last place I want for treatment. Okay, it could have
been anywhere, you know, I could have been in any state in the
country. But I had to be in the right mindset, like you said,
you know, like finally like let my guard down, willing to learn,
willing to do the things that I didn't want to do what I needed
to do. And I'm not talking about dangerous stuff. You know. When
I walked into treatment, it's like, what do I have to lose?
I really need to figure this out. I don't want to go back to
jail. What do I gotta do? And I want to have fun,
So let's have fun and recovery and let's learn about myself. Right, And
so we're living you did, so we're living too. Didn't want to live
with a bunch of dudes. No, well it was awesome. Yeah,
and you look back at it, and the time though we were there,
it seemed like, oh, I can't wait to get out of here.
But now looking back, it's like, I would love to go hang out
there one day. You know. Honestly, if it wasn't such far drive.
When I was in need of a place, I almost debated on calling
Jason saying, hey, you know I need to move back in. Yeah.
He would have like if you had, if you would have had a
bead, right, you know, just because rent's cheap, and you know,
I had a job, I wouldn't be stuck at the house. I
had a car and be able to go back and forth. It was like
an hour and fifteen minute drive, and I didn't want to make it,
but it was definitely on the table of you know, where do I want
to be at a good you know, and I had a good experience.
I never had a bad experience in any sober living house. I say that
either either one of them, because you follow the rules, what you're supposed
to do right, kicked out on one, but it's different experience. I
wasn't there for the right reason, you know. But when I went to
Jason the Beck's and Nathan's house, I was there for the right reasons.
But I didn't want to be there. I would much rather just go to
my own apartment and do my own thing. But I knew that that wasn't
working. And if I went to this house and I was talking to somebody
about this the other day and they were telling me somebody was I asked him
him, like, hey, is so and so how are they doing?
They're like not good? And I'm like, oh, okay, well you
know this place or that place and he's like, oh no, he doesn't
like he doesn't want to go there because he doesn't like this person and this
and that. I was like, man, the guy. I hated this
guy, I mean hate and hates some strong word. Hated him and he
was at Nathan's house. And I did not want to go to Nathan's house.
Because of him, and I was like, nope, I'll go somewhere
in Travers City. And that guy I talked to was kind of asking dumb
questions. I was like, never mind, at least I know my people
I went through treatment with are at Nathan's house, and at least I know.
I don't like that, you know, I knew the rest of the
people pretty much. I'm like, all right, let me just go there.
So I did, and then my bed right next to the dude I
hate, right next to it dude, and I'm like, lord, is
this funny? And I was like, please don't give me because we all
had to chore. I'm like, please don't give me bathrooms bathrooms, and
I'm sleeping next to the dude I hate wonderful. You're cleaning pretty good bathroom
though, oh man, once yeah, once you get into it. And
I love throwing the people's stuff away because there's a rule take your stuff in
the bathroom, you take it out of the bathroom. Some people just could
and figure that out. So I used to love throwing stuff away. And
then people like word's much soap, word's aloofah. I'm like trash, and
I took the trash out out out. I didn't just throw it in the
trash, and no trash was taken out, so that that was a lot
of fun for me, and I got to appreciate it and later on,
and I sure did an episode about this. When Marnie was at work one
day, I cleaned her bathroom because we had separate bathrooms, and she appreciated
and I just started cleaning her bathroom. And it was so much easier cleaning
her bathroom than a bunch of dudes, you know, Like it was a
nice clean up bathroom my wife. And you know, I think I texted
Jason and told him, you know, thanks for what you do, and
thanks for giving me this opportunity to clean my my wife's bathroom and like it.
Yeah, you know, And I wasn't wanting anything from it. I
just knew that it wouldn't make her happy to have a clean bathroom, you
know, and doing stuff for other people's is what makes you feel good inside.
Yes, now there were some benefits, of course, just being a
good husband. But but nah, it's it's back to the grammar thing.
Though it's humbling, proud, but whatever it is to be able to make
it through there, to almost die and then still come out the other side
and be able to live and be able to help other people. You know.
I'm just like, Wow, I the Winfield who made it, you
know, because my grandma didn't. And I don't know how far down the
line things had went, you know. My Grandma Winfield, she I think
was the first born here. I think the rest came from Russia. Well,
Germany is I think the Windfields came from that. So I don't know,
man, I like to track my ancestry. Oh, hey, sister,
that I didn't know. That's always a fun one, I bet.
Yeah. I haven't really talked about that too much, you know. I
remember being seventeen and my grandma told me about her demons and fighting with alcoholism
and onto other things. And she told me, when I was seventeen,
just having that beer dashed outside in the snow bank wasn't a good idea.
Me sitting at my grandfather's desk and my grandmother's house rolling up joints after he
went to bed because he frowned upon me smoking weed. She told me one
night, she goes, justin, You're gonna go down a very dark road,
and I don't want to see you go down it, and I didn't
know what at the time when she was even really talking about. You know,
I didn't know nothing about addiction. I knew my mom struggled with drinking
through my whole childhood, so man, I guess that's what she was talking
about. But I didn't never review myself having a problem with a drink at
all, which most of us don't in the beginning. But then it got
worse and worse and worse, and eventually that she ended up passing away,
and I just continued to use and use the news. And now in my
mom's house, there's a because we have my grandmother cremated, so we have
her ashes set up on a shelf for like a little memory shelf, and
there's a coffee cup up there that she got my mom and I put all
my A coins in there. No nice, Yeah, yeah, I bet
your mom likes that. But you're not doing it for your mom either.
Really, let's say you're doing it for your grandma and just the family,
just everybody, right, you know, people that walk by and they see
that. You know, don't know how many people are walking by your mom's
they're going into your mom's house or nothing, But people that do family members
whatever. Like they see that and they know, okay that there's someone out
there that's doing it. There's someone out there that did it, you know,
and still doing it. Yeah. I told my mom this past week,
and I would like to get her a clock where I could put all
by A coins in there for the numbers. We should get Jill to make
you one. Yeah, like the two seventeen clock she made us. Awesome,
that's pretty sweet. There are two seventeen coin in there. Mm hmm.
Yeah, that's pretty awesome too. Yeah, I said to seventeen coin.
Yeah, yeah, got those those are official. Mm hmmm. Well,
I think that'll wrap up today's podcast down the Memory Lane. But it
does feel good to be on the side of it. And no matter how
long you've been sober, if you go back out, you know, just
and I don't know how many people listen to this that are back out,
Probably not very many. But if you know a family member or a friend
you know who's struggling, don't judge them, you know, just just be
thankful that they reach out for help again, and even chasing them down to
be like, hey man, I heard your drinking, I heard you're using
I don't know if that's the best approach either. I just kind of sit
back and, you know, wait for people to hit me up, and
they do and I don't judge them, and I'm proud of them. Actually,
it's hard, you know, to pick yourself up and go okay,
and you might heroin might be your thing or whatever opiates, and then you
beat that and you're like, all right, cool, Well, alcohol wasn't
my thing. I don't have a problem with that. I can drink and
then before you know it, you're shaken because you need some alcohol and you're
like, oh shit, what just happened? Alcohol is wasn't my thing?
But now I'm addicted to it exactly. I need help, but I can't
admit it. You know. That's a tough one. But you can and
it's going to be okay. And there's actually something I was going to share
with you here. It was the reports from twenty twenty two of emergency rooms
Dirt and it has the top substances. I just wanted to see if you
wanted to play a game, would like to play a game? Justin sure?
Okay, hold on, let me tie you up. Okay, So
what would you think is the number one read number one substance people visiting emergency
departments. Mmm, I want to say alcohol, but I think methamphetamine psychosis
would just about take it nowadays. Final answer, Yes, in America.
In America, you would say methamphetamine psychosis. That's wrong. First of all,
the rate of drug related visits was highest between people twenty six to forty
four Okay, Okay, and the country of America the highest percentage of drug
related emergency department visits at forty five percent. Atchie Hall said, alcohol did
but like, but in today's society, I'd almost rather say method phetamine psychosis
because there's a lot of people that just lose their shit. Well, then
that's great that you bring that up, because there's kind of a twist to
this, Okay, because along the whole country, everything's pretty much alcohol,
you know, around forty five percent, and that's why the average of the
whole is around there and a little bit higher. But the East Coast alcohol
was even higher than forty five percent, and on the West Coast, methinphetamine
was the number one. So out in Seattle, Oregon, California, Like,
that's what people were visiting the emergency department for now, Between the ages
of eighteen to twenty five. What do you think the highest related emergency Department
visit was alcohol? No? No, no, OPEI it's no matt No,
I don't know. Benzo's really no cannabis. Cannabis. We ate too
many gummies, so I think I'm gonna die. I don't know, like
you go to sleep. And males and every drug, males had the most
over females. They had a higher drug related ED visit except for benzos.
That was pretty much the same. Males and females both This is black rap
African American individuals had higher rates of drugulated visits than all other racial groups for
alcohol, cannabis, and cocaine, and they had similar rates to white individuals
for opiate and benzos. Regional rates were similar for all drug categories, except
alcohol related visits were highest in the North East. And I already told you
that meth for the West, non Hispanic or Latino individuals had higher rates than
Hispanic or Latino individuals for all substances. Okay, but it goes alcohol forty
five percent, opia, it's twelve point seven, which is like a five
point six and a five and then a two seven for fenol but cannabis was
eleven point nine percent day. Yeah, and then there was like a little
chart here that it went down alcohol opia, it's cannabis, meth, cocaine,
drug unknown, benzo, antidepressant, and then it gets smaller. But
that's that's some facts from SAMSA. And this was sent to me by Buddy,
and it's got tons and tons and tons of stuff in it, like
you can read this for days. But I just wanted to play that game
with you, justin so at least I was we were playing Saw. We
should make that game. Just make it Saw. I want to play a
game. Mm hm, put your finger in here. I want to play
another game. Pull my finger. Don't pull Mitch's finger. Oh wore mine?
Yeah, I have to get Mitch on here in a couple of days.
You know how he's doing after his Hot Sauce incident. Well, that
and just life, which is like that's a Mitch wellcome to Mitchell day and
Mitchell's life. He's wearing a Superman shirt today, so I'm proud of them
for that. But anyway, you have a meeting to run, and I
have a wife to go see, So we are done. Thanks for listening
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