WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.320 --> 00:00:07.400 It's the two seventeen Recovery Podcast with Corey Winfield. If you kind of look 2 00:00:07.480 --> 00:00:09.800 deeper at the situation, you know, which I'm sure you will, because 3 00:00:09.800 --> 00:00:13.960 everything that we go through is an experience that we learned from. And Justin 4 00:00:14.279 --> 00:00:17.640 Burke, I come right in. I am very sneaky about it. You'll 5 00:00:17.679 --> 00:00:20.679 be talking to someone and I'll just come in and sit at my desk and 6 00:00:20.719 --> 00:00:28.760 just bust one out real quick. Yes, this is the twenty ninth of 7 00:00:29.160 --> 00:00:34.840 January twenty twenty four. My name is Cory Winfield, joined by Justin Burke. 8 00:00:35.960 --> 00:00:40.759 Fabulous. Yes, it's the two seventeen Recovery podcast coming from the North 9 00:00:40.799 --> 00:00:46.799 Studio today where us Michiganders, that's what they call us, right, were 10 00:00:46.799 --> 00:00:54.719 a little heartbroken because the Troy Lyons kind of choked it last night and the 11 00:00:54.880 --> 00:00:57.840 lost, But you know what, I think for the most part, people 12 00:00:57.880 --> 00:01:02.520 are in a pretty good mood. Adam was a little aside himself, but 13 00:01:02.560 --> 00:01:04.799 he didn't come to our party, so we didn't really care about Adam and 14 00:01:04.920 --> 00:01:08.680 this feelings were like good, kind of glad got that hurt, you bro 15 00:01:11.000 --> 00:01:12.879 now. But the party that we had last night was fun. We had 16 00:01:12.920 --> 00:01:19.879 pizza there, was a hot wing eating competition, like hot sauce. Try 17 00:01:19.920 --> 00:01:25.719 it out, you know, did you take place? No. I didn't 18 00:01:25.719 --> 00:01:29.359 participate in this either. I wanted nothing to do with it. And there 19 00:01:29.400 --> 00:01:34.000 were some children here because you know, a little recovery action. We had 20 00:01:34.079 --> 00:01:38.359 like eight nine pizzas and pop and cookies and all that stuff, and then 21 00:01:38.439 --> 00:01:44.680 Kim went out and she bought some wings, and then we had hot sauce 22 00:01:44.680 --> 00:01:48.159 for my friend Matt. He was here and he busted them all out and 23 00:01:48.200 --> 00:01:49.640 he was having a good time. He loves hot sauce. And there was 24 00:01:49.680 --> 00:01:55.280 a show where they eat a bunch of different hot sauces and he bought like 25 00:01:55.359 --> 00:01:57.560 the kit from that show and he was all excited. And he came in 26 00:01:57.599 --> 00:02:00.560 on Friday and showed us and I was like, well, dude, we're 27 00:02:00.560 --> 00:02:05.640 having a super Bowl and not super Bowl. I got jokes. Son, 28 00:02:05.640 --> 00:02:08.240 I got to the super Bowl Lions, they don't go together, but I 29 00:02:08.280 --> 00:02:13.680 said we were having a divisional playoff party, and he's like, I'll be 30 00:02:13.759 --> 00:02:16.360 there, I'll bring I will eat all this stuff. And he did so 31 00:02:16.560 --> 00:02:20.919 good for him showing up. But the best part of these kids that were 32 00:02:20.960 --> 00:02:23.639 here, and one of them was like I don't know if he was sleeping 33 00:02:23.719 --> 00:02:27.159 or just acting like he was sleeping. I have no idea. His eyes 34 00:02:27.199 --> 00:02:30.719 were closed. He didn't want nothing to do with like adult stuff, and 35 00:02:30.759 --> 00:02:32.240 the other kid he wanted to be an adult so bad. He's like, 36 00:02:32.400 --> 00:02:38.120 I want to eat hot stuff. And I said, we got to make 37 00:02:38.199 --> 00:02:40.039 him sign a waiver. The mom to sign a waiver, like, somebody's 38 00:02:40.039 --> 00:02:44.599 got to sign a waiver, because this is not a good idea, and 39 00:02:44.599 --> 00:02:46.439 they were like, no, he's tough, he's cool, he can do 40 00:02:46.520 --> 00:02:53.520 it. I don't know, and the challenge is going on, and we're 41 00:02:53.520 --> 00:02:57.840 hearing laughter, we're hearing crying. Mitch's like tearing up, Mitch's son is 42 00:02:57.879 --> 00:03:01.919 tearing up. But who knows for what reason that happened. But people were 43 00:03:01.960 --> 00:03:07.479 like being affected by this hot sauce. And as I'm walking down the hallway, 44 00:03:07.759 --> 00:03:12.039 this little kid comes out and this tears just running down his face like 45 00:03:12.120 --> 00:03:17.000 he's crying, and he's like, do you have any milk? I said 46 00:03:17.199 --> 00:03:23.639 no, I just kept going. He was crying, and I kind of 47 00:03:23.680 --> 00:03:28.319 felt bad for like just a second, but I did. He went to 48 00:03:28.360 --> 00:03:30.080 go like Burt, and then he thought he was I had to throw up 49 00:03:30.199 --> 00:03:38.840 so he ran into the bathroom your ass. Yeah, poor little guy, 50 00:03:39.000 --> 00:03:43.840 I know, And I said it was probably really rude. He probably remember 51 00:03:43.919 --> 00:03:50.400 me. He's the mean guy. Do you have any milk? And I 52 00:03:50.439 --> 00:03:53.840 just looked at him, not like he was unintelligent, but I just looked 53 00:03:53.879 --> 00:03:57.879 at him and just said nope. But see, I warned him though, 54 00:03:57.919 --> 00:04:00.639 I said, you don't want to do the sun. You don't want to 55 00:04:00.680 --> 00:04:03.960 do this? No I do. I'm a big kid. He's probably what 56 00:04:04.039 --> 00:04:12.560 eight seven eight? Yeah? Probably, Yeah, I'm gonna learn. I 57 00:04:12.560 --> 00:04:15.719 bet he doesn't make that mistake twice. No, I bet he doesn't. 58 00:04:15.319 --> 00:04:20.399 But Lions fans, there's always next year's cub fans. That's what we would 59 00:04:20.399 --> 00:04:25.000 always say back in the day. You know, I didn't read something all 60 00:04:25.000 --> 00:04:28.439 over It was all over Facebook though. Did you read my Facebook? Oh 61 00:04:28.519 --> 00:04:30.800 you're reading something else? Yeah, just through my story on my Facebook. 62 00:04:31.160 --> 00:04:39.079 A lot of people were complaining about them going on fourth down. But statistically 63 00:04:39.959 --> 00:04:45.439 our kicker isn't very good. Whoa doing long rage kicks? It was only 64 00:04:45.480 --> 00:04:53.639 forty eight he hit. His probability of making that forty eight yarder was less 65 00:04:53.680 --> 00:04:58.480 probable than them going on fourth down and getting it. Yeah, the first 66 00:04:58.480 --> 00:05:00.920 time, all the ad was catch the ball right drop. Yeah. The 67 00:05:00.959 --> 00:05:03.040 next one, I don't know what the hell everything on that one. That 68 00:05:03.040 --> 00:05:06.800 one even close GoF rolled out to nowhere and then threw it to nowhere. 69 00:05:06.839 --> 00:05:12.680 That that was a horrible play. Yeah, but yeah, all that aside, 70 00:05:12.680 --> 00:05:16.040 though, they did have a good season. And I know there's a 71 00:05:16.079 --> 00:05:20.600 lot of people in recovery that were here last night having a good time because 72 00:05:20.600 --> 00:05:26.120 of the Lions. So the Lions gave us a chance to throw a community 73 00:05:26.120 --> 00:05:29.959 event and we took advantage of that. So thank you Lions. We appreciate 74 00:05:30.000 --> 00:05:32.360 you having a good year. You know, only one team at the end 75 00:05:32.360 --> 00:05:35.160 of the year, only one team is going to walk away happy, you 76 00:05:35.199 --> 00:05:38.560 know, to be one of the to be one of the last four, 77 00:05:39.040 --> 00:05:43.360 that's pretty badass. And I'd say we came in third considering the point deficit 78 00:05:43.600 --> 00:05:46.120 in between both games. Okay, like we did better than the Ravens. 79 00:05:46.360 --> 00:05:51.360 Yeah, Ravens beat that ass earlier. Though. That's what I think they 80 00:05:51.399 --> 00:05:56.079 should really turn to is to have a game, because yesterday it was it 81 00:05:56.120 --> 00:05:59.519 was fun watching football. We had football early at Football eight and it was 82 00:05:59.560 --> 00:06:01.399 good. I think they should do the same thing for the super Bowl, 83 00:06:01.560 --> 00:06:05.199 like, have whoever loses, so like the Ravens and the Lions play for 84 00:06:05.360 --> 00:06:10.279 the Winfield Cup or whatever, you know, like have them play for something 85 00:06:10.319 --> 00:06:14.279 else because that way, because the Super Bowl kind of sucks in a way. 86 00:06:14.639 --> 00:06:18.240 You get one game, blah commercials, and the games usually suck. 87 00:06:18.720 --> 00:06:20.920 Yeah, I mean, if you go back to the last twenty years, 88 00:06:20.920 --> 00:06:26.319 the game suck and except for that Tom Brady come back when that was pretty 89 00:06:26.399 --> 00:06:30.759 damn awesome his best quarterback ever. You go, Tyrone Hatcher, who thinks 90 00:06:30.759 --> 00:06:38.120 Matthew Stafford is But anyway, Tyrone, So to have a game before to 91 00:06:38.199 --> 00:06:41.319 do it, you know, I don't know, call it something, but 92 00:06:41.360 --> 00:06:46.240 to have more football one more time. Then you get two teams winning, 93 00:06:46.839 --> 00:06:50.319 yeah something, you know, and like the Lions would have to take on 94 00:06:50.439 --> 00:06:55.480 the Ravens, which would be a good rematch. I'd rather see that than 95 00:06:56.079 --> 00:07:00.360 Kansas City and San Francisco. Right, I got money san Francisco. Wow, 96 00:07:00.439 --> 00:07:03.839 you're gambling again. No, okay, I'm just saying I thought you, 97 00:07:05.120 --> 00:07:09.680 Oh, I'd put my money on San Francisco. Well, last time 98 00:07:09.720 --> 00:07:14.199 this happened when these two teams played. Ryan Beckman was on the podcast and 99 00:07:14.399 --> 00:07:17.199 he put his money out of San Francisco. Yeah, actually no, no, 100 00:07:18.600 --> 00:07:27.040 he put his money on Kansas City. I think Chris Goss put his 101 00:07:27.079 --> 00:07:30.720 money out of San Francisco even though there was no money involved. But Chris 102 00:07:30.720 --> 00:07:34.839 doesn't even bet, he doesn't even watch football, so he got conned into 103 00:07:34.879 --> 00:07:39.879 that by somebody and he had to wear a helmet, especially helmet that we 104 00:07:39.879 --> 00:07:44.920 made him, and you can go back to twenty twenty episodes and listened to 105 00:07:45.360 --> 00:07:48.120 what Chris Goss had to do. It was quite comical. But Ryan had 106 00:07:48.120 --> 00:07:51.560 bet that Green Bay was going to beat San Francisco to make it to the 107 00:07:51.600 --> 00:07:56.600 super Bowl and he lost, and he had to like dye his hair like 108 00:07:56.800 --> 00:08:00.000 cheese colored and he did, and he was supposed to do his facial hair 109 00:08:00.319 --> 00:08:05.959 shaved it off. Hello, yeah, rotten move, jerk. But he 110 00:08:07.000 --> 00:08:09.240 had to walk around with dumb hair for a while, so that was fun. 111 00:08:09.240 --> 00:08:13.160 But again, you can go back to Our Fun and Recovery and listen 112 00:08:13.199 --> 00:08:16.680 to those episodes from twenty twenty and they're right on the app two seventeen app 113 00:08:16.680 --> 00:08:20.040 which is in the App Store and Google Play Store, So get that if 114 00:08:20.040 --> 00:08:24.120 you don't have it yet. But I want to get into some other stuff 115 00:08:24.160 --> 00:08:26.519 too. Besides the Lions. We're not going to just talk about the Lions 116 00:08:26.560 --> 00:08:30.680 losing, oh, because that's going to hurt people's feelings. But I do 117 00:08:30.759 --> 00:08:37.000 want to mention something before we move on that I posted on Facebook as well 118 00:08:37.000 --> 00:08:41.600 today, and I was trying to be I was trying to be a leader 119 00:08:41.799 --> 00:08:46.320 justin yeah, yep, I go to look at this. So I wrote 120 00:08:48.039 --> 00:08:52.919 to lead by example, I'm going to work a full day today. I'm 121 00:08:52.919 --> 00:08:56.200 coming back to work after lunch, and I'm going to finish what I'm working 122 00:08:56.240 --> 00:09:03.000 on before I go home. Hashtag Detroit Lions because I think if they see 123 00:09:03.039 --> 00:09:05.759 that, they'll be like, you know what, we should do that next 124 00:09:05.840 --> 00:09:11.440 year? We should finish every game, not just going at halftime, not 125 00:09:11.559 --> 00:09:13.679 just leave for lunch and be like, all right, man, I'll be 126 00:09:13.679 --> 00:09:16.240 back later. And you come back and you know, you got your fast 127 00:09:16.279 --> 00:09:18.679 food and your belly, you just want to take a nap and nap and 128 00:09:18.720 --> 00:09:22.559 you don't really do anything in the rest of the day, a really good 129 00:09:22.559 --> 00:09:26.919 productive morning and then you just as Chris Goss would say, since we brought 130 00:09:26.960 --> 00:09:33.039 them up, I didn't anyway, they shit the bed. And I'm trying 131 00:09:33.039 --> 00:09:35.159 to lead by example. Like, that's what I'm going to do today, 132 00:09:35.159 --> 00:09:37.159 So hopefully they see that. And I do have to mention one more thing 133 00:09:37.159 --> 00:09:43.039 about the Lions that is very very cool is, of course last year they 134 00:09:43.080 --> 00:09:46.320 gave us I think thirty tickets to a game and we took people from the 135 00:09:46.360 --> 00:09:50.679 recovery houses. You went. It was fun, it was a good time, 136 00:09:50.320 --> 00:09:56.159 and we watched them. It was December fourth of twenty twenty two, 137 00:09:56.320 --> 00:10:00.080 and we watched him beat Jacksonville. It was great, it was fun and 138 00:10:00.120 --> 00:10:03.360 it was awesome. Well, this year they didn't release tickets to nonprofits, 139 00:10:03.840 --> 00:10:09.759 so I applied for Detroit Lions memorabilia and nice, Yeah, they sent me 140 00:10:09.759 --> 00:10:13.240 an email last week they're like, hey, congratulations, we picked your organization 141 00:10:13.279 --> 00:10:18.600 to receive some stuff. So here you go. And today in the mail 142 00:10:18.080 --> 00:10:26.360 I get a autograph football yep from Detroit Lion player guy. Yeah, yeah 143 00:10:26.600 --> 00:10:31.559 rock right. He's his name Old tight End, not Old tight End, 144 00:10:31.600 --> 00:10:35.759 but yeah, he is the other tight End. Yeah, and it has 145 00:10:35.799 --> 00:10:39.279 like a letter of authenticity which they signed, which is kind of weird. 146 00:10:39.679 --> 00:10:43.320 Two seventeen twenty four because I think I put on there that's when we're going 147 00:10:43.399 --> 00:10:46.159 to have the event. Okay, So I think they put that on there. 148 00:10:46.159 --> 00:10:50.440 But that's pretty cool because we're obviously two seventeen so that is really nice. 149 00:10:50.519 --> 00:10:52.759 Yeah, but the event is on the twenty ninth, and I think 150 00:10:52.759 --> 00:10:56.279 we're going to auction it there somehow. But it's a really cool it's white, 151 00:10:56.600 --> 00:11:00.159 it's got the Lions logo on it. It's a sweet looking football, 152 00:11:00.200 --> 00:11:03.039 right. I might have to bet on it myself. I don't think that 153 00:11:03.080 --> 00:11:07.480 would be appropriate. Probably not. I was thinking the same thing when we 154 00:11:07.519 --> 00:11:09.480 opened it up, and I was like, this is inappropriate, but it 155 00:11:09.519 --> 00:11:13.840 looks awesome. But I could have my girlfriend bet on it, yeah, 156 00:11:15.240 --> 00:11:20.639 because she is non affiliated with two seventeen. But what if I want it? 157 00:11:20.600 --> 00:11:26.039 You're gonna have to find a non affiliated member. Why. I'd just 158 00:11:26.120 --> 00:11:33.159 be wrong to bid on many levels the football? Why? Why? Yeah, 159 00:11:33.200 --> 00:11:39.759 it's ethically wrong. How how Yeah, because when you run a silent 160 00:11:39.840 --> 00:11:43.919 auction, you don't get to bet on the merchandise. You don't bet on 161 00:11:43.960 --> 00:11:46.080 it. You bid on it're bet on it. Yeah, but you 162 00:11:46.080 --> 00:11:50.960 should be able to we're being able allowed to buy raffle tickets for that so 163 00:11:52.080 --> 00:11:56.879 called items. Why. I don't know, because I was always told it's 164 00:11:56.879 --> 00:12:03.320 absolutely wrong. I have just as good a chance. I don't know, 165 00:12:03.360 --> 00:12:05.600 man, I don't know about that. I might have to look it up. 166 00:12:07.120 --> 00:12:09.240 Yeah you should, I should. Well, I don't know. You're 167 00:12:09.240 --> 00:12:15.200 not really good at looking things up on Google. Clearly, just that incident 168 00:12:15.279 --> 00:12:20.559 with Google today. We'll get into that another time. But I was talking 169 00:12:20.559 --> 00:12:22.480 about a medication I was on last week or maybe it was a couple weeks 170 00:12:22.480 --> 00:12:28.840 ago, Contrave, and I blamed Contrave for making me feel not good, 171 00:12:28.519 --> 00:12:33.200 right, And it wasn't Contrave, it was the other one I was on. 172 00:12:33.440 --> 00:12:35.480 So I stopped taking that movie because I was like, I'm not taking 173 00:12:35.480 --> 00:12:37.840 Contrave anymore. After I did the podcast in the next day, I don't 174 00:12:37.879 --> 00:12:41.320 take the Contrave and I take the other one and I still feel the same 175 00:12:41.360 --> 00:12:43.240 way, and I'm like, oh okay, and I felt bad and I'm 176 00:12:43.240 --> 00:12:46.399 like, oh no, hopefully I turn people off to whatever, you know, 177 00:12:46.720 --> 00:12:50.399 because again, and I clearly said, I'm not a doctor, I'm 178 00:12:50.440 --> 00:12:54.120 just a dude. It was on some stuff. Try to get my weight 179 00:12:54.200 --> 00:12:58.559 down and we'll see how that goes. But yeah, oops, wrong one. 180 00:12:58.200 --> 00:13:01.159 I was so pissed too, because I thought, man, I'm tired 181 00:13:01.159 --> 00:13:03.639 of feeling like crap. And I started feeling like crap. But I'm like, 182 00:13:03.679 --> 00:13:07.080 oh, no, like, did you try eating anything like when you 183 00:13:07.120 --> 00:13:11.320 took the medication. Yeah, it just makes you feel crap. I don't 184 00:13:11.320 --> 00:13:13.320 know, it just makes you feel like crap. I don't like it. 185 00:13:16.919 --> 00:13:20.840 Yeah, I mean contraary doesn't make me feel great either, But sorry, 186 00:13:20.840 --> 00:13:24.159 I'm yawning at this point. At least you're not a zombie. That's true. 187 00:13:24.360 --> 00:13:28.320 But I didn't want to throw that out there. And I threw out 188 00:13:28.360 --> 00:13:33.759 my back the other day clipping my toenails. Wow, I think the last 189 00:13:33.759 --> 00:13:39.399 time you clipped him was in April. I think Marnie made me clip them 190 00:13:39.399 --> 00:13:43.639 before we went to Seattle, did she? So maybe August would have been 191 00:13:43.679 --> 00:13:50.120 the last time. You need regular to grooming. Well, once a quarter 192 00:13:50.440 --> 00:13:54.039 is what I think is fine, So four times a year. Marnie thinks 193 00:13:54.080 --> 00:13:58.559 it should be like every week at least once a month. Is that what 194 00:13:58.600 --> 00:14:03.519 you do? You just are like, well, it's that time, Like, 195 00:14:03.679 --> 00:14:05.559 was there a certain level of what they get to? If I could 196 00:14:05.600 --> 00:14:09.960 start to feel them as you stick out past my toe I clip them. 197 00:14:09.159 --> 00:14:11.759 See, I don't feel them when they because they kind of curl around it, 198 00:14:13.879 --> 00:14:18.279 and sometimes they don't and then like I'm cutting Marnie in bed. Yeah 199 00:14:18.320 --> 00:14:22.679 that's no good. Nah, but they're weapons. Take the covers. We'll 200 00:14:22.679 --> 00:14:30.000 guess what last year Achilles off? Yeah. So yeah, but I throw 201 00:14:30.000 --> 00:14:33.799 out my back. I'm like, are you kidding me? Like, well, 202 00:14:33.919 --> 00:14:35.159 you have heard do it for you? You gotta stretch. I gotta 203 00:14:35.159 --> 00:14:39.559 stretch out for I clip my toenails. Like once a month you sit down 204 00:14:39.600 --> 00:14:43.080 and you get a foot massage, she clips your toenails. Golly, i'mna 205 00:14:43.080 --> 00:14:46.679 be forty six as you're justin in June like this. This is getting old 206 00:14:46.679 --> 00:14:50.360 stuff that I've heard this was saying before. Getting old's not for pussies or 207 00:14:50.399 --> 00:14:54.879 something like that. Right, it's true, man, you're gonna be over 208 00:14:54.960 --> 00:15:00.000 the hill soon. I think I'm there. I remember when my father turned 209 00:15:00.159 --> 00:15:03.519 fifty and I thought, oh my god, he's so old. Or maybe 210 00:15:03.559 --> 00:15:07.799 that was forty. It might have been fifty. I don't remember. I 211 00:15:07.799 --> 00:15:13.039 think it was fifty. I remember a holy cow man, But my dad 212 00:15:13.120 --> 00:15:15.799 is old and I'm not. I don't think I'm ever gonna be old. 213 00:15:16.759 --> 00:15:20.440 Well, because you're comparing yourself to your father, you have to compare yourself 214 00:15:20.480 --> 00:15:26.399 to Parker. That's true, which means you're old. No, no, 215 00:15:26.399 --> 00:15:30.480 no, you just proved my point because I was always talk about my friends 216 00:15:30.480 --> 00:15:35.399 being old because like their kids are graduating from high school. Old. I 217 00:15:35.440 --> 00:15:39.519 asked, see when when your kid graduated from high school makes you old because 218 00:15:39.559 --> 00:15:43.759 you have a kid they graduated from high school. And my cousin is right 219 00:15:43.759 --> 00:15:46.159 in this too, and she's like a year or two younger than me, 220 00:15:46.159 --> 00:15:48.600 I think a year younger than me. And she had two kids and they're 221 00:15:48.639 --> 00:15:52.720 both I think graduating ones maybe graduating this year, or maybe they both did. 222 00:15:52.759 --> 00:15:56.519 I don't know. I'm a horrible cousin. But she's old now because 223 00:15:56.519 --> 00:16:00.519 she has kids that went to high school. She could be a grandma. 224 00:16:00.720 --> 00:16:04.480 You boy, is not going to be a grandpa offer anytime soon, if 225 00:16:04.480 --> 00:16:08.240 I even make it that long, because I wonder sometimes, you know, 226 00:16:08.279 --> 00:16:12.360 with all this, but eating all those sweets and ice cream, I have 227 00:16:12.559 --> 00:16:17.799 been sort of I have. I have some cookies yesterday at the party, 228 00:16:17.799 --> 00:16:19.799 and then like three four pieces of pizza. But it was good. I 229 00:16:19.840 --> 00:16:23.200 like pizza. It's good for you. Salted caramel brownies. Yeah, that 230 00:16:23.320 --> 00:16:26.559 was so good. I don't know, man, it's tough, you know. 231 00:16:26.600 --> 00:16:33.840 I get home and there's a little pan of salted caramel fudge brownies. 232 00:16:33.840 --> 00:16:37.960 And then Marnie is like, oh yeah, there's that, make those tonight, 233 00:16:37.799 --> 00:16:44.200 help yourself. She just wants to keep you. And it was so 234 00:16:44.240 --> 00:16:47.279 good. And I take the luminum foil off, you know, look at 235 00:16:47.320 --> 00:16:49.759 it and you could just see the caramel. It's like liquid. So it 236 00:16:49.840 --> 00:16:53.799 was just like Milky Way candy bar caramel. You know, You're just like, 237 00:16:53.840 --> 00:16:56.480 oh my god, it was so good. Through some ice cream on 238 00:16:56.639 --> 00:17:03.720 some real ice cream mm hmm, straight from Kurkling, Yeah, from Costco. 239 00:17:03.920 --> 00:17:08.359 That's that's some really good ice cream. But I've been on that carb 240 00:17:08.480 --> 00:17:11.599 smart stuff. I've been eating the hell out of that lately. But there's 241 00:17:11.680 --> 00:17:14.960 nothing like the real stuff. And once you get the real stuff, it's 242 00:17:15.000 --> 00:17:18.920 hard to go back. Just like addiction. Man, I'm telling you that 243 00:17:18.960 --> 00:17:22.160 the sugar addiction stuff is real. And I don't know, I just I 244 00:17:22.160 --> 00:17:27.000 don't. I want to be there for Parker when it comes in May, 245 00:17:27.079 --> 00:17:30.000 and of course we have. I think I have a big announcement to make. 246 00:17:30.720 --> 00:17:37.039 What's that about May? Something else happening and details will be coming soon, 247 00:17:37.119 --> 00:17:40.880 but I think that's a big announcement. I told you guys, I'm 248 00:17:40.920 --> 00:17:45.759 a big deal. Is a big deal. I can't wait. Yeah, 249 00:17:45.839 --> 00:17:48.960 my mama will be proud and she'll probably cry again. Hopefully she shows up. 250 00:17:49.759 --> 00:17:52.839 Oh no, what she wants? Are you going to invite her? 251 00:17:52.960 --> 00:17:56.960 Damn it? Justin now, she's like gonna show up and follow me around. 252 00:17:57.000 --> 00:18:00.279 Nope, that she can be showing baby pictures and shit, there's my 253 00:18:00.319 --> 00:18:07.279 son up there. Look at him here just telling stories. This is what 254 00:18:07.359 --> 00:18:11.079 Corey did this time, and there's another time. And I want to point 255 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:14.400 hopefully she's deleted him, but I don't think she has. She probably could. 256 00:18:15.000 --> 00:18:17.519 I don't think I'm gonna use them for the movie I'm making. But 257 00:18:17.680 --> 00:18:21.599 she has like video of me like being drunk and like stupid, not stupid, 258 00:18:21.599 --> 00:18:26.759 but just like whoo, yeah, I think we've all had those videos 259 00:18:26.839 --> 00:18:29.599 at one point in time. Yeah. She tried to show him to Marnie 260 00:18:29.920 --> 00:18:32.960 as around our wedding or maybe it was after our wedding or day of or 261 00:18:33.000 --> 00:18:36.880 day before or something like that, and Marnie is like, Nope, I 262 00:18:36.880 --> 00:18:40.000 don't want to see him that way. I never knew him that way. 263 00:18:40.000 --> 00:18:42.480 And that made a lot of sense, And then I was kind of glad 264 00:18:42.519 --> 00:18:47.599 that she'd never seen him that way because there's nothing good's gonna come of it. 265 00:18:47.680 --> 00:18:48.640 Oh, look what Core used to do, Look what Core used to 266 00:18:48.640 --> 00:18:52.400 say. Look how Core used to be. Like there's no point in that, 267 00:18:52.480 --> 00:18:57.920 you know, Like I remember, that's good enough, right, But 268 00:18:59.039 --> 00:19:00.119 I've never seen Marnie like that either, you know, and I don't. 269 00:19:00.200 --> 00:19:03.400 I wouldn't want to either. Like, hey, you watch a video of 270 00:19:03.480 --> 00:19:07.319 drunk Marnie Like, eh, no, no things. Yeah, it'll change 271 00:19:07.359 --> 00:19:14.000 your perspective a little bit of the person. Then when they start acting a 272 00:19:14.039 --> 00:19:18.960 little different or whatever for unknown reasons, you're like your mind instantly just goes 273 00:19:18.000 --> 00:19:25.160 there. Well are you using you know it could be for some people. 274 00:19:25.160 --> 00:19:29.240 I think Marnie and I we would know. You got'da be pretty obvious, 275 00:19:29.680 --> 00:19:33.519 right, Like it's yeah, there's no there's no off switch for it, 276 00:19:33.680 --> 00:19:37.200 Like it's it's just on, and once it's off, you just leave it 277 00:19:37.240 --> 00:19:40.440 off, you know, Like that works best because you know if you flip 278 00:19:40.440 --> 00:19:44.519 that switch on, it's it's not an on air studio light. No, 279 00:19:44.759 --> 00:19:49.200 it's a destruction, destroy everything that you've built. Like and we just leave 280 00:19:49.240 --> 00:19:55.359 it off works best. Mm hm. My mom sent me a picture though, 281 00:19:56.599 --> 00:20:00.400 before I was born, and it was of my Grandma Winfield. I 282 00:20:00.440 --> 00:20:04.000 don't really remember. I remember her house smelled funny all the time. I 283 00:20:04.039 --> 00:20:07.880 don't really remember much about it, but I just said it smelled funny like 284 00:20:07.920 --> 00:20:11.799 tomatoes or I don't know, maybe I was smelling alcohol. Who knows. 285 00:20:11.279 --> 00:20:17.839 But she died from complications of drinking. Just say that when I'm told. 286 00:20:18.599 --> 00:20:22.720 And there's a picture of my mom and her, and like I said, 287 00:20:22.759 --> 00:20:29.960 it was like nineteen seventy six and they were somewhere on vacation or something and 288 00:20:30.119 --> 00:20:32.880 my mom's and I asked, I was like, well, was was she 289 00:20:33.000 --> 00:20:36.799 drunk? Was she drinking during the trip? And my mom said, she 290 00:20:36.799 --> 00:20:40.759 didn't drink in front of us, but we're pretty sure like when okay, 291 00:20:40.759 --> 00:20:42.680 good night, we'd go to bed, she'd walk to the store or somewhere 292 00:20:42.680 --> 00:20:48.880 to get liquor, you know, and drink. And my mom said that 293 00:20:48.119 --> 00:20:52.279 at that time, she was eighteen or whatever, and she was just thinking 294 00:20:52.319 --> 00:20:56.319 of her mind, like if we can show this woman like there's good things 295 00:20:56.359 --> 00:20:59.039 out there and she doesn't have to drink all the time. And I don't 296 00:20:59.039 --> 00:21:03.559 know what the sea was back then as far as like treatment, and I 297 00:21:03.599 --> 00:21:07.519 don't know. I really don't, you know. I know at some point 298 00:21:07.559 --> 00:21:11.799 they were like putting people in the institutions and drilling in their brain and stuff, 299 00:21:11.839 --> 00:21:14.440 you know, Like, I don't think it was like that, and 300 00:21:14.480 --> 00:21:18.119 I think that's why people were afraid to go to treatment. But for her, 301 00:21:18.160 --> 00:21:22.279 like, I don't know. I just started thinking about it and it's 302 00:21:22.279 --> 00:21:26.039 sad that I didn't get to know her. And I texted my mom and 303 00:21:26.359 --> 00:21:32.799 I said, well, I'm just glad that Parker is never going to have 304 00:21:32.920 --> 00:21:37.839 to grow up seeing his mommy and daddy that way. You know, my 305 00:21:37.759 --> 00:21:44.799 nephews they've seen drinking problems, and you know, they're eight and ten or 306 00:21:44.799 --> 00:21:48.720 eleven and twelve or something like that. Again, I'm not the best family 307 00:21:48.720 --> 00:21:53.799 member appears with names and ages and stuff. But I'm just super glad that 308 00:21:53.839 --> 00:22:00.000 Parker doesn't have to see that. And I never saw that growing up. 309 00:22:00.119 --> 00:22:03.920 Uh, you know, my mom's stepdad, they didn't they didn't drink. 310 00:22:06.200 --> 00:22:10.480 My dad I didn't really see, but I knew he didn't drink. I 311 00:22:10.480 --> 00:22:11.200 still mom, she didn't drink, you know, so I didn't. I 312 00:22:11.200 --> 00:22:15.440 didn't see that. I didn't see the damage alcohol done it. People say, 313 00:22:15.440 --> 00:22:18.519 oh it skips generation and that kind of makes sense. I think one 314 00:22:18.559 --> 00:22:23.279 of my uncles was a big drinker and there's some complications he's going through with. 315 00:22:23.440 --> 00:22:26.240 You know, I don't know if it's just old age or if you 316 00:22:26.279 --> 00:22:29.160 know, drinking took its toll. And that's something I worry about, is 317 00:22:29.200 --> 00:22:33.279 the twenty years of drinking and you know, just murdering my body. The 318 00:22:33.359 --> 00:22:38.200 damage, you know, it's some of it's still there. You know. 319 00:22:38.799 --> 00:22:42.279 The liver will, yeah, that'll heal itself. That'll be fine, it 320 00:22:42.359 --> 00:22:45.440 can be for some. But the rest of the damage, you know, 321 00:22:45.559 --> 00:22:49.480 it's you know, it's your stomach lining, my stomach problems. You know, 322 00:22:49.519 --> 00:22:52.319 it's like how much of that's caused by alcohol? You know, and 323 00:22:52.440 --> 00:22:56.880 your kidneys, Yeah, they seem to be okay, but again you never 324 00:22:56.960 --> 00:23:02.160 know, you know, what's what's really down in there. And there's a 325 00:23:02.240 --> 00:23:07.240 video that Martie and I watched and it was this guy like he's pretty much 326 00:23:08.680 --> 00:23:11.839 dissecting and I might have had a link to it at some point. It 327 00:23:11.880 --> 00:23:15.160 was over the summer, I think, is when we were talking about it. 328 00:23:15.480 --> 00:23:18.440 But it like it showed like what it did to the lining and the 329 00:23:18.480 --> 00:23:22.400 stomach and the esophagus. And the lungs even, you know, like because 330 00:23:22.400 --> 00:23:26.799 they're alcohol Like that's how it gets That's how they use their breathalyzer because it 331 00:23:26.799 --> 00:23:30.119 gets through your blood and then it goes out through the body, you know, 332 00:23:30.160 --> 00:23:32.880 so like when it gets in your lungs, that's how they tell how 333 00:23:32.960 --> 00:23:34.680 much you've been drinking. You know. But of course, for someone who's 334 00:23:34.680 --> 00:23:41.160 been drinking twenty years, when you blow, you know, point two, 335 00:23:41.039 --> 00:23:45.200 it's gonna have a way, you might not even feel it as opposed to 336 00:23:45.440 --> 00:23:48.480 you know, get someone who's twenty one and drink it for the first time 337 00:23:48.559 --> 00:23:51.920 they point two, they're passed out. You know, they're like, oh 338 00:23:51.920 --> 00:23:57.279 my god. But like that's why I like people like me and probably Adam 339 00:23:57.400 --> 00:24:02.759 and Mitch for sure. You know, when we go to the hospital or 340 00:24:02.799 --> 00:24:04.400 something, then then we blow like a point four or five something, you 341 00:24:04.400 --> 00:24:07.079 know, and they're like, what, you should be dead, and it's 342 00:24:07.119 --> 00:24:12.359 like, no, that's how tolerance works, right. But with my grandmother, 343 00:24:12.519 --> 00:24:17.160 I just felt kind of sad, and then I started to feel kind 344 00:24:17.160 --> 00:24:22.680 of proud a little bit, just a little bit maybe humbles the right word, 345 00:24:23.480 --> 00:24:27.200 because I was there at dust door, knocking at it, ready to 346 00:24:27.319 --> 00:24:33.960 cross over grace of God, I didn't, and I'm here today to talk 347 00:24:33.960 --> 00:24:37.960 about it. But I was fricking close. If I just would have went 348 00:24:37.039 --> 00:24:41.480 home, went to sleep, I wouldn't have woke up, so the doctor 349 00:24:41.559 --> 00:24:47.519 said, so to be that close but be able to turn it around. 350 00:24:47.559 --> 00:24:48.920 And it wasn't just like, oh, okay, almost died, let's quit 351 00:24:49.000 --> 00:24:52.640 drinking, like I thought it would be. It was much more than that. 352 00:24:52.799 --> 00:24:56.839 It was me digging into my issues. It was me accepting help from 353 00:24:56.880 --> 00:25:03.759 others, going to treatment and not giving up right, actually going to treatment 354 00:25:03.799 --> 00:25:10.079 with an open mind in a list ear m. Eventually. I remember the 355 00:25:10.119 --> 00:25:12.160 first time when I went to California. This guy was a few years older 356 00:25:12.160 --> 00:25:14.880 than me, and he's just like, man, He's like, you got 357 00:25:14.880 --> 00:25:17.160 to get your shit together. You're a good looking guy, you're young, 358 00:25:17.279 --> 00:25:21.319 like you got it going on, Like it's good together. Man. I 359 00:25:21.359 --> 00:25:23.240 was like, Okay, I'm trying. That's what I'm here for. But 360 00:25:23.400 --> 00:25:26.119 at that time, too, I wasn't really a big AA fan. And 361 00:25:26.160 --> 00:25:33.559 I went to my first AA meeting out in California and it was a speaker 362 00:25:33.599 --> 00:25:34.599 meeting. I didn't know, so I just thought all of them were like 363 00:25:34.640 --> 00:25:38.960 that, and like in La and Santa Monica. They're all actors and stuff, 364 00:25:40.279 --> 00:25:42.880 and it just seemed like a presentation. It seemed like it was just 365 00:25:42.960 --> 00:25:45.319 acting. They were trying to get their next role. In their next role, 366 00:25:45.319 --> 00:25:48.759 they were playing an alcoholic or a druggie, and they were up there 367 00:25:48.799 --> 00:25:51.680 just telling the story to make people believe it. That's what that's the vibe 368 00:25:51.720 --> 00:25:55.039 I got. And then the lady's like, oh, this is the fifth 369 00:25:55.079 --> 00:25:57.359 time I've seen you. Oh, you get better every time. And I'm 370 00:25:57.400 --> 00:26:00.960 like, oh, so it's like Leonard Skinner show. And I even said 371 00:26:00.960 --> 00:26:03.839 that, you know, I was like, this is like Leonard Skinner's you 372 00:26:03.880 --> 00:26:07.279 know, like this isn't this is real life stuff, Like you shouldn't be 373 00:26:08.279 --> 00:26:11.920 I don't know. It just seemed really weird to me. So I don't 374 00:26:11.960 --> 00:26:14.720 need aa, don't need any of that. So I threw all that to 375 00:26:14.759 --> 00:26:18.720 the side until later I was actually taken to a real meeting and like, 376 00:26:18.759 --> 00:26:21.440 oh, okay, this is this is more my speed, this is how 377 00:26:21.480 --> 00:26:23.720 it works. Okay, this is this is way different than what I thought 378 00:26:23.759 --> 00:26:26.839 it was going to be, right, But it took it took a lot 379 00:26:26.839 --> 00:26:33.119 of learning, man, And it was like four three three years. You 380 00:26:33.160 --> 00:26:41.119 know of hell and failure and being humble. I was a person who I 381 00:26:41.160 --> 00:26:42.279 had a house, I had a good job, I had a car, 382 00:26:44.640 --> 00:26:45.960 and then I didn't have a house, I didn't have a good job, 383 00:26:45.960 --> 00:26:49.400 and I didn't have a car, you know, to lose it all and 384 00:26:51.880 --> 00:26:55.759 to still be standing to go okay, well, none of that stuff even 385 00:26:55.799 --> 00:27:00.319 really mattered anyway, right, And to realize I wasn't happy in life life 386 00:27:02.000 --> 00:27:07.480 in Arkansas. It was just it was very I don't want to say sobering 387 00:27:07.519 --> 00:27:11.039 because it did the os effect. But then moving back home, thinking things 388 00:27:11.079 --> 00:27:15.519 are going to be just the same or better just because I'm home, and 389 00:27:15.559 --> 00:27:19.839 that wasn't the case either. It was just me getting into myself and I 390 00:27:19.920 --> 00:27:23.519 talk about the last place I want for treatment. Okay, it could have 391 00:27:23.519 --> 00:27:27.759 been anywhere, you know, I could have been in any state in the 392 00:27:27.799 --> 00:27:32.599 country. But I had to be in the right mindset, like you said, 393 00:27:32.640 --> 00:27:36.519 you know, like finally like let my guard down, willing to learn, 394 00:27:37.039 --> 00:27:40.599 willing to do the things that I didn't want to do what I needed 395 00:27:40.599 --> 00:27:42.400 to do. And I'm not talking about dangerous stuff. You know. When 396 00:27:42.440 --> 00:27:45.119 I walked into treatment, it's like, what do I have to lose? 397 00:27:45.559 --> 00:27:48.759 I really need to figure this out. I don't want to go back to 398 00:27:48.880 --> 00:27:52.839 jail. What do I gotta do? And I want to have fun, 399 00:27:52.200 --> 00:27:56.480 So let's have fun and recovery and let's learn about myself. Right, And 400 00:27:56.799 --> 00:28:00.519 so we're living you did, so we're living too. Didn't want to live 401 00:28:00.519 --> 00:28:03.319 with a bunch of dudes. No, well it was awesome. Yeah, 402 00:28:03.359 --> 00:28:04.880 and you look back at it, and the time though we were there, 403 00:28:06.400 --> 00:28:07.400 it seemed like, oh, I can't wait to get out of here. 404 00:28:07.759 --> 00:28:11.039 But now looking back, it's like, I would love to go hang out 405 00:28:11.039 --> 00:28:14.319 there one day. You know. Honestly, if it wasn't such far drive. 406 00:28:14.960 --> 00:28:18.400 When I was in need of a place, I almost debated on calling 407 00:28:18.759 --> 00:28:22.440 Jason saying, hey, you know I need to move back in. Yeah. 408 00:28:22.440 --> 00:28:23.119 He would have like if you had, if you would have had a 409 00:28:23.119 --> 00:28:30.640 bead, right, you know, just because rent's cheap, and you know, 410 00:28:30.720 --> 00:28:33.920 I had a job, I wouldn't be stuck at the house. I 411 00:28:33.960 --> 00:28:37.000 had a car and be able to go back and forth. It was like 412 00:28:37.039 --> 00:28:41.079 an hour and fifteen minute drive, and I didn't want to make it, 413 00:28:41.119 --> 00:28:45.960 but it was definitely on the table of you know, where do I want 414 00:28:45.960 --> 00:28:48.559 to be at a good you know, and I had a good experience. 415 00:28:48.720 --> 00:28:52.799 I never had a bad experience in any sober living house. I say that 416 00:28:52.079 --> 00:28:57.559 either either one of them, because you follow the rules, what you're supposed 417 00:28:57.559 --> 00:29:03.599 to do right, kicked out on one, but it's different experience. I 418 00:29:03.599 --> 00:29:06.720 wasn't there for the right reason, you know. But when I went to 419 00:29:07.400 --> 00:29:11.440 Jason the Beck's and Nathan's house, I was there for the right reasons. 420 00:29:11.480 --> 00:29:12.920 But I didn't want to be there. I would much rather just go to 421 00:29:12.920 --> 00:29:17.039 my own apartment and do my own thing. But I knew that that wasn't 422 00:29:17.079 --> 00:29:21.440 working. And if I went to this house and I was talking to somebody 423 00:29:21.519 --> 00:29:23.880 about this the other day and they were telling me somebody was I asked him 424 00:29:23.920 --> 00:29:26.519 him, like, hey, is so and so how are they doing? 425 00:29:26.559 --> 00:29:29.359 They're like not good? And I'm like, oh, okay, well you 426 00:29:29.400 --> 00:29:32.480 know this place or that place and he's like, oh no, he doesn't 427 00:29:32.519 --> 00:29:34.440 like he doesn't want to go there because he doesn't like this person and this 428 00:29:34.480 --> 00:29:37.240 and that. I was like, man, the guy. I hated this 429 00:29:37.319 --> 00:29:41.960 guy, I mean hate and hates some strong word. Hated him and he 430 00:29:42.039 --> 00:29:47.160 was at Nathan's house. And I did not want to go to Nathan's house. 431 00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:48.880 Because of him, and I was like, nope, I'll go somewhere 432 00:29:48.920 --> 00:29:52.720 in Travers City. And that guy I talked to was kind of asking dumb 433 00:29:52.759 --> 00:29:56.119 questions. I was like, never mind, at least I know my people 434 00:29:56.200 --> 00:29:59.160 I went through treatment with are at Nathan's house, and at least I know. 435 00:29:59.200 --> 00:30:02.559 I don't like that, you know, I knew the rest of the 436 00:30:02.559 --> 00:30:03.519 people pretty much. I'm like, all right, let me just go there. 437 00:30:03.559 --> 00:30:07.359 So I did, and then my bed right next to the dude I 438 00:30:07.400 --> 00:30:11.319 hate, right next to it dude, and I'm like, lord, is 439 00:30:11.359 --> 00:30:12.400 this funny? And I was like, please don't give me because we all 440 00:30:12.400 --> 00:30:15.880 had to chore. I'm like, please don't give me bathrooms bathrooms, and 441 00:30:15.960 --> 00:30:22.000 I'm sleeping next to the dude I hate wonderful. You're cleaning pretty good bathroom 442 00:30:22.039 --> 00:30:23.400 though, oh man, once yeah, once you get into it. And 443 00:30:23.400 --> 00:30:26.720 I love throwing the people's stuff away because there's a rule take your stuff in 444 00:30:26.759 --> 00:30:30.200 the bathroom, you take it out of the bathroom. Some people just could 445 00:30:30.279 --> 00:30:33.599 and figure that out. So I used to love throwing stuff away. And 446 00:30:33.640 --> 00:30:38.119 then people like word's much soap, word's aloofah. I'm like trash, and 447 00:30:38.160 --> 00:30:41.200 I took the trash out out out. I didn't just throw it in the 448 00:30:41.200 --> 00:30:45.240 trash, and no trash was taken out, so that that was a lot 449 00:30:45.279 --> 00:30:52.279 of fun for me, and I got to appreciate it and later on, 450 00:30:52.440 --> 00:30:55.880 and I sure did an episode about this. When Marnie was at work one 451 00:30:55.920 --> 00:30:59.920 day, I cleaned her bathroom because we had separate bathrooms, and she appreciated 452 00:31:00.079 --> 00:31:02.519 and I just started cleaning her bathroom. And it was so much easier cleaning 453 00:31:02.519 --> 00:31:04.759 her bathroom than a bunch of dudes, you know, Like it was a 454 00:31:04.839 --> 00:31:07.599 nice clean up bathroom my wife. And you know, I think I texted 455 00:31:07.720 --> 00:31:11.359 Jason and told him, you know, thanks for what you do, and 456 00:31:11.240 --> 00:31:17.559 thanks for giving me this opportunity to clean my my wife's bathroom and like it. 457 00:31:18.160 --> 00:31:19.799 Yeah, you know, And I wasn't wanting anything from it. I 458 00:31:19.839 --> 00:31:23.720 just knew that it wouldn't make her happy to have a clean bathroom, you 459 00:31:23.759 --> 00:31:26.799 know, and doing stuff for other people's is what makes you feel good inside. 460 00:31:27.680 --> 00:31:32.680 Yes, now there were some benefits, of course, just being a 461 00:31:32.759 --> 00:31:37.400 good husband. But but nah, it's it's back to the grammar thing. 462 00:31:37.400 --> 00:31:44.960 Though it's humbling, proud, but whatever it is to be able to make 463 00:31:44.960 --> 00:31:48.039 it through there, to almost die and then still come out the other side 464 00:31:48.640 --> 00:31:55.240 and be able to live and be able to help other people. You know. 465 00:31:55.279 --> 00:31:56.359 I'm just like, Wow, I the Winfield who made it, you 466 00:31:56.359 --> 00:32:02.480 know, because my grandma didn't. And I don't know how far down the 467 00:32:02.519 --> 00:32:07.839 line things had went, you know. My Grandma Winfield, she I think 468 00:32:08.000 --> 00:32:14.720 was the first born here. I think the rest came from Russia. Well, 469 00:32:15.079 --> 00:32:19.599 Germany is I think the Windfields came from that. So I don't know, 470 00:32:19.680 --> 00:32:25.240 man, I like to track my ancestry. Oh, hey, sister, 471 00:32:25.319 --> 00:32:29.839 that I didn't know. That's always a fun one, I bet. 472 00:32:29.920 --> 00:32:31.400 Yeah. I haven't really talked about that too much, you know. I 473 00:32:31.440 --> 00:32:37.039 remember being seventeen and my grandma told me about her demons and fighting with alcoholism 474 00:32:37.200 --> 00:32:42.880 and onto other things. And she told me, when I was seventeen, 475 00:32:44.200 --> 00:32:51.119 just having that beer dashed outside in the snow bank wasn't a good idea. 476 00:32:51.640 --> 00:32:59.119 Me sitting at my grandfather's desk and my grandmother's house rolling up joints after he 477 00:32:59.200 --> 00:33:02.960 went to bed because he frowned upon me smoking weed. She told me one 478 00:33:04.079 --> 00:33:06.599 night, she goes, justin, You're gonna go down a very dark road, 479 00:33:07.200 --> 00:33:08.599 and I don't want to see you go down it, and I didn't 480 00:33:08.640 --> 00:33:12.440 know what at the time when she was even really talking about. You know, 481 00:33:12.880 --> 00:33:16.839 I didn't know nothing about addiction. I knew my mom struggled with drinking 482 00:33:19.160 --> 00:33:23.200 through my whole childhood, so man, I guess that's what she was talking 483 00:33:23.200 --> 00:33:28.960 about. But I didn't never review myself having a problem with a drink at 484 00:33:29.000 --> 00:33:32.720 all, which most of us don't in the beginning. But then it got 485 00:33:32.759 --> 00:33:39.920 worse and worse and worse, and eventually that she ended up passing away, 486 00:33:40.000 --> 00:33:45.079 and I just continued to use and use the news. And now in my 487 00:33:45.119 --> 00:33:50.160 mom's house, there's a because we have my grandmother cremated, so we have 488 00:33:50.200 --> 00:33:53.480 her ashes set up on a shelf for like a little memory shelf, and 489 00:33:54.440 --> 00:33:59.359 there's a coffee cup up there that she got my mom and I put all 490 00:33:59.400 --> 00:34:07.160 my A coins in there. No nice, Yeah, yeah, I bet 491 00:34:07.200 --> 00:34:09.239 your mom likes that. But you're not doing it for your mom either. 492 00:34:09.239 --> 00:34:13.440 Really, let's say you're doing it for your grandma and just the family, 493 00:34:13.559 --> 00:34:15.519 just everybody, right, you know, people that walk by and they see 494 00:34:15.519 --> 00:34:17.800 that. You know, don't know how many people are walking by your mom's 495 00:34:19.320 --> 00:34:22.840 they're going into your mom's house or nothing, But people that do family members 496 00:34:22.880 --> 00:34:27.000 whatever. Like they see that and they know, okay that there's someone out 497 00:34:27.039 --> 00:34:29.480 there that's doing it. There's someone out there that did it, you know, 498 00:34:29.519 --> 00:34:32.719 and still doing it. Yeah. I told my mom this past week, 499 00:34:32.760 --> 00:34:35.920 and I would like to get her a clock where I could put all 500 00:34:35.960 --> 00:34:40.599 by A coins in there for the numbers. We should get Jill to make 501 00:34:40.639 --> 00:34:45.719 you one. Yeah, like the two seventeen clock she made us. Awesome, 502 00:34:45.880 --> 00:34:50.360 that's pretty sweet. There are two seventeen coin in there. Mm hmm. 503 00:34:51.000 --> 00:34:53.039 Yeah, that's pretty awesome too. Yeah, I said to seventeen coin. 504 00:34:53.159 --> 00:35:00.960 Yeah, yeah, got those those are official. Mm hmmm. Well, 505 00:35:01.639 --> 00:35:07.639 I think that'll wrap up today's podcast down the Memory Lane. But it 506 00:35:07.679 --> 00:35:12.480 does feel good to be on the side of it. And no matter how 507 00:35:12.519 --> 00:35:16.079 long you've been sober, if you go back out, you know, just 508 00:35:16.920 --> 00:35:21.039 and I don't know how many people listen to this that are back out, 509 00:35:21.199 --> 00:35:23.840 Probably not very many. But if you know a family member or a friend 510 00:35:23.960 --> 00:35:29.360 you know who's struggling, don't judge them, you know, just just be 511 00:35:29.440 --> 00:35:35.239 thankful that they reach out for help again, and even chasing them down to 512 00:35:35.280 --> 00:35:37.519 be like, hey man, I heard your drinking, I heard you're using 513 00:35:38.519 --> 00:35:43.360 I don't know if that's the best approach either. I just kind of sit 514 00:35:43.440 --> 00:35:47.079 back and, you know, wait for people to hit me up, and 515 00:35:47.400 --> 00:35:52.400 they do and I don't judge them, and I'm proud of them. Actually, 516 00:35:53.039 --> 00:35:58.440 it's hard, you know, to pick yourself up and go okay, 517 00:35:58.840 --> 00:36:06.079 and you might heroin might be your thing or whatever opiates, and then you 518 00:36:06.159 --> 00:36:07.679 beat that and you're like, all right, cool, Well, alcohol wasn't 519 00:36:07.719 --> 00:36:10.760 my thing. I don't have a problem with that. I can drink and 520 00:36:10.800 --> 00:36:17.000 then before you know it, you're shaken because you need some alcohol and you're 521 00:36:17.039 --> 00:36:21.800 like, oh shit, what just happened? Alcohol is wasn't my thing? 522 00:36:21.800 --> 00:36:24.960 But now I'm addicted to it exactly. I need help, but I can't 523 00:36:24.960 --> 00:36:30.119 admit it. You know. That's a tough one. But you can and 524 00:36:30.159 --> 00:36:32.159 it's going to be okay. And there's actually something I was going to share 525 00:36:32.159 --> 00:36:44.280 with you here. It was the reports from twenty twenty two of emergency rooms 526 00:36:45.119 --> 00:36:55.079 Dirt and it has the top substances. I just wanted to see if you 527 00:36:55.119 --> 00:37:00.440 wanted to play a game, would like to play a game? Justin sure? 528 00:37:02.440 --> 00:37:07.239 Okay, hold on, let me tie you up. Okay, So 529 00:37:08.280 --> 00:37:21.360 what would you think is the number one read number one substance people visiting emergency 530 00:37:21.400 --> 00:37:30.920 departments. Mmm, I want to say alcohol, but I think methamphetamine psychosis 531 00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:37.079 would just about take it nowadays. Final answer, Yes, in America. 532 00:37:37.199 --> 00:37:50.360 In America, you would say methamphetamine psychosis. That's wrong. First of all, 533 00:37:50.360 --> 00:37:53.599 the rate of drug related visits was highest between people twenty six to forty 534 00:37:53.719 --> 00:38:02.480 four Okay, Okay, and the country of America the highest percentage of drug 535 00:38:02.519 --> 00:38:13.079 related emergency department visits at forty five percent. Atchie Hall said, alcohol did 536 00:38:13.159 --> 00:38:19.280 but like, but in today's society, I'd almost rather say method phetamine psychosis 537 00:38:20.039 --> 00:38:22.960 because there's a lot of people that just lose their shit. Well, then 538 00:38:22.960 --> 00:38:25.960 that's great that you bring that up, because there's kind of a twist to 539 00:38:27.000 --> 00:38:35.320 this, Okay, because along the whole country, everything's pretty much alcohol, 540 00:38:35.519 --> 00:38:37.760 you know, around forty five percent, and that's why the average of the 541 00:38:37.800 --> 00:38:43.360 whole is around there and a little bit higher. But the East Coast alcohol 542 00:38:43.519 --> 00:38:50.679 was even higher than forty five percent, and on the West Coast, methinphetamine 543 00:38:51.079 --> 00:38:54.559 was the number one. So out in Seattle, Oregon, California, Like, 544 00:38:54.880 --> 00:39:02.000 that's what people were visiting the emergency department for now, Between the ages 545 00:39:02.320 --> 00:39:09.159 of eighteen to twenty five. What do you think the highest related emergency Department 546 00:39:09.239 --> 00:39:22.039 visit was alcohol? No? No, no, OPEI it's no matt No, 547 00:39:24.159 --> 00:39:31.880 I don't know. Benzo's really no cannabis. Cannabis. We ate too 548 00:39:31.880 --> 00:39:37.239 many gummies, so I think I'm gonna die. I don't know, like 549 00:39:37.400 --> 00:39:47.280 you go to sleep. And males and every drug, males had the most 550 00:39:47.599 --> 00:39:53.840 over females. They had a higher drug related ED visit except for benzos. 551 00:39:53.840 --> 00:39:59.880 That was pretty much the same. Males and females both This is black rap 552 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.079 African American individuals had higher rates of drugulated visits than all other racial groups for 553 00:40:07.159 --> 00:40:13.599 alcohol, cannabis, and cocaine, and they had similar rates to white individuals 554 00:40:13.639 --> 00:40:20.159 for opiate and benzos. Regional rates were similar for all drug categories, except 555 00:40:20.199 --> 00:40:23.119 alcohol related visits were highest in the North East. And I already told you 556 00:40:23.159 --> 00:40:29.639 that meth for the West, non Hispanic or Latino individuals had higher rates than 557 00:40:29.800 --> 00:40:37.159 Hispanic or Latino individuals for all substances. Okay, but it goes alcohol forty 558 00:40:37.199 --> 00:40:42.239 five percent, opia, it's twelve point seven, which is like a five 559 00:40:42.239 --> 00:40:51.159 point six and a five and then a two seven for fenol but cannabis was 560 00:40:51.199 --> 00:40:55.000 eleven point nine percent day. Yeah, and then there was like a little 561 00:40:55.079 --> 00:41:01.320 chart here that it went down alcohol opia, it's cannabis, meth, cocaine, 562 00:41:01.440 --> 00:41:09.239 drug unknown, benzo, antidepressant, and then it gets smaller. But 563 00:41:09.320 --> 00:41:17.960 that's that's some facts from SAMSA. And this was sent to me by Buddy, 564 00:41:19.840 --> 00:41:22.760 and it's got tons and tons and tons of stuff in it, like 565 00:41:22.840 --> 00:41:27.159 you can read this for days. But I just wanted to play that game 566 00:41:27.159 --> 00:41:32.559 with you, justin so at least I was we were playing Saw. We 567 00:41:32.559 --> 00:41:37.679 should make that game. Just make it Saw. I want to play a 568 00:41:37.760 --> 00:41:43.800 game. Mm hm, put your finger in here. I want to play 569 00:41:43.840 --> 00:41:49.920 another game. Pull my finger. Don't pull Mitch's finger. Oh wore mine? 570 00:41:50.039 --> 00:41:51.719 Yeah, I have to get Mitch on here in a couple of days. 571 00:41:51.760 --> 00:41:55.079 You know how he's doing after his Hot Sauce incident. Well, that 572 00:41:55.199 --> 00:42:00.920 and just life, which is like that's a Mitch wellcome to Mitchell day and 573 00:42:00.920 --> 00:42:02.840 Mitchell's life. He's wearing a Superman shirt today, so I'm proud of them 574 00:42:02.840 --> 00:42:07.320 for that. But anyway, you have a meeting to run, and I 575 00:42:07.360 --> 00:42:10.039 have a wife to go see, So we are done. 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