Karen. Yes, every once in a while you think that you are really
on the right path. You are dead on, you're going, you're progressing
perfectly. You have left behind all the judgmental and egotistical kind of personality traits
that you have. And that is when a universe says, I am time
for a gut check. Time for not only a gut check, in an
all round check. From personal experience, it's important to remember that we are
all a work in progress, and just when you think you've got it all
figured out, that's the time to realize you don't have anything figured out,
because the universe is so much more complex than we would possibly imagine. Well,
I think that's when the ego kicks in, you know, when you're
like, oh, I've got it figured out. I've made that called check
because as humans, that's what we want. We want to be able to
reach that level or any level, the next level. Yeah. Absolutely,
I think there's like a it's like a natural inclination to as you're getting good
at something, you start thinking that you're really good at something and well,
maybe I should share a story that just happened to me recently. A lot
of people will remember us talking about the fact that we are going through a
tumultuous time in our professional lives. The company that I worked for was going
through a reorganization and my job was eliminated, but I was invited to apply
for these other positions that were there within the organization, one of which was
tailor made for me, or so I thought. So I interviewed for two
different positions, the one that was tailor made for me and the one that
I already had but with bigger responsibilities, and thought. I aced both interviews
like I just crushed it. I was so sure, I'm so convinced that
I've got this job that I know I'm perfect for and all that kind of
stuff, only to learn more Nope, I got the other one. I
got the one that I'm already doing but with bigger responsibilities. But what happened
when I was told I did not get the other job that was Taylor made
for me was such a punch in the gut that I immediately fell back into
the ego centered thought process, and I was really upset. I remember that,
yeah, like like really upset to the point of you and I talked
about resigning like I'm done, I'm out of here. They don't appreciate me.
And then and then I had a special somebody remind me that I should
probably reread The Surrender Experiment. Those who don't know the book The Surrender Experiment,
it is a fantastic book about the importance of just trusting the universe and
knowing that the universe is going to put you in the best place possible.
And for some reason, the universe thought that that job was not the best
place for me. And I think going back, you could look at all
of those reasons and see them glaring at you and blinding light. But still
maybe maybe that light blinded you because you didn't see them. Well, what
blinded me was my ego, because suddenly I'm being rejected or denied a job
that I thought I was perfect for, which would have been a promotion,
and all I felt was betrayal. Right, and that's all that I saw.
But you're right going back with a different perspective, mindset and looking at
the potential, looking at the messages that the universe has been sending me,
it is glaringly obvious that if I had accepted that other role, the direction
that we want to head in, we would not have been able to do
absolutely not. And I think the message is so interesting because you know,
you work and you try really hard, and for us, we have been
on this spiritual journey or quest and you know you kind of feel like,
Okay, I'm at this level, but bam not really. Yeah, I
think there's so many lessons there, one of which obviously is surrender. Everything
is going to work out the way it's supposed to. The universe has better
plans for you, and if you trust the universe, they will take you
to where you are supposed to be. Right. But then also, don't
think that you are disconnected from ego as much as you think you are,
because the act of becoming much more spiritual when you hear it all the time
spiritual teachers who then suddenly lose themselves because they allow their own thoughts of themselves
to take over, and suddenly the ego sneakily comes in and takes over,
and then all of a sudden you're found to be more human than you thought
you were. Well, it's really a lesson in humility, absolutely, and
that is part of the surrender. Surrender, being humble, not thinking too
much of yourself, just quieting all of those thoughts. So that you can
really hear the lessons. Yeah, And when I think about it now with
a fresh perspective of a better mindset, we're here to serve others. Our
role in this life is to serve others. And if you can't be humble
in the service of others, then really who you're serving is yourself. And
that's probably the biggest lesson that I've had to face doing all this, going
through this change at work, that I thought I was serving others, but
at the time, really it feels very self serving.