1 00:00:00,320 --> 00:00:05,240 Occurred to me this morning. I haven't spoken about July fifth, and I 2 00:00:05,360 --> 00:00:10,919 got notes from people who've been with me on local and national radio for years, 3 00:00:11,080 --> 00:00:13,480 and they've said, are you going to talk about July fifth? If 4 00:00:13,519 --> 00:00:19,239 you're new to the program, July fifth was a very important day for me 5 00:00:20,320 --> 00:00:27,760 in the formation of I guess full circle moment because my dad and I as 6 00:00:27,800 --> 00:00:33,520 a family, and my sister family, we used to spend Independence Day together 7 00:00:33,600 --> 00:00:36,320 out of the lake that's not far from where we're at right now or where 8 00:00:36,359 --> 00:00:41,439 I'm at North Idaho, and it was on July fourth. This was, 9 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:48,320 gosh, twenty two years ago, twenty two years ago that my dad utterly 10 00:00:48,359 --> 00:00:54,799 refused to die on that July fourth, just refused. And there's a lot 11 00:00:54,840 --> 00:00:58,679 of things to talk to in the show, and we'll probably get to that, 12 00:00:58,759 --> 00:01:02,359 the cultural things you're we're of the political stuff, and we might get 13 00:01:02,399 --> 00:01:04,920 to that. But I wouldn't be able to do the show in any good 14 00:01:04,920 --> 00:01:10,680 conscience, honestly and to feel good about what we do here if I didn't 15 00:01:10,719 --> 00:01:14,959 speak what's on my mind. So it's opportunity to turn out two and out. 16 00:01:15,680 --> 00:01:18,519 We may not get to the political stuff, but I may tell you 17 00:01:18,560 --> 00:01:21,120 what it was like. My intention is say tell you what it was like 18 00:01:21,200 --> 00:01:25,359 to keep this promise my dad extracted from me. My dad had said, 19 00:01:26,640 --> 00:01:30,840 when it's past the point of no return, meaning his life, when he 20 00:01:30,959 --> 00:01:37,159 was going to die, make sure it goes quickly. And he taught me 21 00:01:37,200 --> 00:01:42,840 my whole life about you never let an animal suffer. Come across an animal 22 00:01:42,840 --> 00:01:47,079 to spend gut shot, you spend your day tracking it, and you put 23 00:01:47,120 --> 00:01:49,280 it out. Its misery. That actually happened to us when we were hunting 24 00:01:49,959 --> 00:01:53,439 found a gut shot deer. My dad was furious someone would let that go 25 00:01:53,480 --> 00:01:57,400 and not track it down, and we spent an entire day tracking that poor 26 00:01:57,439 --> 00:02:04,480 animal and finally finally dispatching it. I'm not comparing my dad to a deer, 27 00:02:05,640 --> 00:02:12,120 but he told me. He told me something related to hunting. We'll 28 00:02:12,120 --> 00:02:16,840 talk about that if you stick around. Also, I want to take that 29 00:02:17,159 --> 00:02:23,080 and move it into culture today, because, as we said in the five 30 00:02:23,080 --> 00:02:25,840 minute focus, if you watch that, I am so glad I'm not single. 31 00:02:27,840 --> 00:02:31,120 I am so glad I'm not in the dating room because of dating apps 32 00:02:31,599 --> 00:02:36,520 and what I think they're doing to society. I'm farewell convinced that's what they're 33 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:39,639 doing to society. At least we'll get started with all of this with the 34 00:02:39,639 --> 00:02:44,879 help of our YouTube channel. It's YouTube dot com slash at the Todd Herman 35 00:02:44,960 --> 00:02:49,000 Show. If it's just the fun of watching people who hate my guys leave 36 00:02:49,039 --> 00:02:51,159 comments, that is sort of fun. I'm trying to get some of all 37 00:02:51,159 --> 00:02:54,520 on the show. I think Air troll Day would be a fun day. 38 00:02:54,680 --> 00:02:59,240 And of course we'll do this with the help of God Almighty, who is 39 00:02:59,360 --> 00:03:05,240 right there, right there in the room. When I was I guess forced 40 00:03:05,360 --> 00:03:08,960 to keep a promise to my dad churn up the morphine. We'll talk about 41 00:03:08,960 --> 00:03:15,840 that with the help of God Almighty. The Todd Herman Show is one hundred 42 00:03:15,879 --> 00:03:23,240 percent disapproved by big pharma, technocrarats and tyrants everywhere. No from the high 43 00:03:23,360 --> 00:03:39,520 mountains of Free America. Here's the Emerald City exile Todd Herman. Today is 44 00:03:39,560 --> 00:03:43,400 a day the Lord has made, and these are the time to which God 45 00:03:43,479 --> 00:03:47,360 is the Saturday Show. Lets sorry for the SWITCHERU. I can just put 46 00:03:47,400 --> 00:03:51,800 myself in the shoes of people who gather show prep stuff for me. The 47 00:03:52,039 --> 00:03:55,639 audio of burther the video, and so I will try to pay off that 48 00:03:55,719 --> 00:04:00,039 work. But honestly, as I said in the pre am to the preamble, 49 00:04:00,520 --> 00:04:04,919 I couldn't in good conscience proceed with the show without talking about this, 50 00:04:05,159 --> 00:04:09,080 not just given the notes that I got, but simply because I need to 51 00:04:09,080 --> 00:04:13,759 talk about it. So I'll pay you later for the therapy. We'll send 52 00:04:13,759 --> 00:04:16,199 you a check for the therapy. Good therapist about one hundred and fifty bucks 53 00:04:16,199 --> 00:04:21,040 an hour. So stay tuned, right. It was a long process getting 54 00:04:21,079 --> 00:04:26,360 to this point where my dad was ultimately in the hospital bed in which he 55 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:30,839 died. And it began with a prayer at home. Began with a prayer. 56 00:04:31,720 --> 00:04:36,120 Billy Graham taught me to pray, not really, but it's the only 57 00:04:36,519 --> 00:04:42,879 book I ever read about prayer. At that time. I'd obviously read the 58 00:04:42,879 --> 00:04:45,639 Bible parts of it, had not yet read it all the way through. 59 00:04:46,120 --> 00:04:49,360 I didn't yet understand it, but I read it. I didn't have a 60 00:04:49,399 --> 00:04:55,720 relationship with God, but I believed in Him and was encountering him and having 61 00:04:55,759 --> 00:05:00,959 moments with Him. And I said a prayer at home, and part of 62 00:05:00,959 --> 00:05:04,680 that prayer, and I'll focus on this part of the prayer because today is 63 00:05:04,680 --> 00:05:13,639 about this. Part of that prayer was to God saying please show my father 64 00:05:13,720 --> 00:05:18,680 how sick he is and how much he has loved. And that was a 65 00:05:18,720 --> 00:05:21,079 prayer set on my knees. And I said that Billy Graham taught me to 66 00:05:21,079 --> 00:05:28,519 pray. So Billy Graham suggested a prayer structure that I find incredibly helpful. 67 00:05:28,639 --> 00:05:31,839 And that prayer structure is, Dear Lord God, I pray to you, 68 00:05:32,399 --> 00:05:35,360 not as I think of you, but as you know yourself to be. 69 00:05:38,399 --> 00:05:45,800 And the reason I love that structure is I feel it releases us from our 70 00:05:45,920 --> 00:05:50,959 concept of God and the consequential limits, because in our concept of God we 71 00:05:51,040 --> 00:05:55,639 are limited beings. We are going to create limits for God. Even if 72 00:05:55,680 --> 00:05:59,680 we say, well, he's limitless, he's powerless. He is all powerful, 73 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:01,920 all knowing, is all seeing, is all of these things. We 74 00:06:02,240 --> 00:06:09,240 can't relate to that. Those are words we can't relate to. Being omniscient. 75 00:06:10,240 --> 00:06:13,399 We can say the word and think we understand the concept. But think, 76 00:06:14,480 --> 00:06:19,199 just just for a moment, of an eternal creature being a personality, 77 00:06:19,279 --> 00:06:25,040 a loving God who has always existed and always will. And one day, 78 00:06:25,199 --> 00:06:29,720 see there's the limit. I was going to say. One day, God 79 00:06:29,759 --> 00:06:36,600 said light be there were no days. There were no days. He made 80 00:06:36,680 --> 00:06:41,720 days for us. We need them. He doesn't. There was no time. 81 00:06:42,519 --> 00:06:46,519 He doesn't need time we do to make sense of things. He doesn't 82 00:06:46,560 --> 00:06:53,000 need directions or compasses. He doesn't need maps. He doesn't need words. 83 00:06:53,519 --> 00:06:57,879 He made words for us and then named his son the word, or at 84 00:06:57,959 --> 00:07:00,879 least one of the names of the Lord Jesus. So in that structure, 85 00:07:01,439 --> 00:07:04,160 dear Father God, I prayed to you, not as you think of yourself, 86 00:07:04,160 --> 00:07:08,959 but as you know yourself to be. It freezes from these limits. 87 00:07:09,639 --> 00:07:15,000 And so part of my prayer, And that was at night. It was 88 00:07:15,000 --> 00:07:18,399 a prayer before bedtime on my knees. Please show my dad how sick he 89 00:07:18,480 --> 00:07:21,120 is and how love and how sick he is, and how much he's loved. 90 00:07:23,360 --> 00:07:29,560 That next morning, I woke with a phone call and it was my 91 00:07:29,680 --> 00:07:36,040 uncle. Your dad is in the emergency room in Spokane and he's not expected 92 00:07:36,079 --> 00:07:43,639 to live. You need to get over here. So I went and sprinted 93 00:07:44,199 --> 00:07:47,079 and made it to an airplane and flew to Spokane, picked up a rental 94 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:53,879 car and drove into the hospital. And sure enough there was my dad and 95 00:07:54,120 --> 00:07:59,279 he was in the hospital room, and my sister and my mother, who 96 00:07:59,360 --> 00:08:01,680 was the divorce wife of my dad, or that remained very dear friends and 97 00:08:01,720 --> 00:08:05,560 loved each other till the end. He was there, she was there, 98 00:08:07,240 --> 00:08:13,240 and immediately we were confronted with you need to sign this, do not resuscitate, 99 00:08:13,279 --> 00:08:18,199 that's what your father wanted. So my sister and I discussed it with 100 00:08:18,199 --> 00:08:22,680 my mom and we did. That was a long time before he ended up 101 00:08:22,680 --> 00:08:26,720 in the hospital bed in which he died. It was, gosh, probably 102 00:08:26,759 --> 00:08:31,079 six months or so, maybe longer. He was in the hospital a long 103 00:08:31,120 --> 00:08:33,200 time, and they did a great job trying to figureut what was wrong with 104 00:08:33,279 --> 00:08:37,919 them. They really did, and he had fantastic insurance. Fantastic insurance. 105 00:08:37,480 --> 00:08:43,039 They even got up a helicopter flight to Seattle, which is where he ended 106 00:08:43,080 --> 00:08:48,840 up dying. And once again it was a phone call from my uncle when 107 00:08:48,840 --> 00:08:52,799 my dad awoke from coma in Spokane. This is six months prior. He 108 00:08:54,279 --> 00:08:56,799 sang a fight song with my mom. They sang the Cougar Fight Song. 109 00:08:58,440 --> 00:09:03,039 My dad made a joke, being as sick as he'd let on. It 110 00:09:03,080 --> 00:09:05,720 was a line from Tombstone that he said to me because I went and saw 111 00:09:05,799 --> 00:09:11,159 him and he in fact, when the doctor when he'd come out of coma, 112 00:09:11,919 --> 00:09:13,960 he spoke to the doctor. And the doctor came into the room and 113 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:16,279 sat down with all of us. He goes, your dad is awake, 114 00:09:16,440 --> 00:09:20,519 and I think he's gonna make it, but I'm very concerned that he doesn't 115 00:09:20,519 --> 00:09:22,919 want to live. I said why. He said, well, when he 116 00:09:22,960 --> 00:09:26,240 woke up, he said, am I alive? And I said yes, 117 00:09:26,320 --> 00:09:30,399 And your dad said, I was afraid of that. Listen, doc, 118 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:33,240 that's a little big Man. That's the great Western. You probably saw the 119 00:09:33,240 --> 00:09:37,200 movie with Dustin Hoffman based on the book A Little Big Man. That's a 120 00:09:37,200 --> 00:09:41,200 line from a movie. So I went in and saw my dad and said, 121 00:09:41,039 --> 00:09:45,559 you had me worried, And then he pulled out a doc holiday line. 122 00:09:45,960 --> 00:09:50,000 Well, I wasn't quite as sick as I let on. That was 123 00:09:50,039 --> 00:09:56,080 six months prior to going to Seattle, and he and I talked and he 124 00:09:56,200 --> 00:10:03,240 said, promised me this. When it's past the point of no return, 125 00:10:05,159 --> 00:10:13,399 make sure it goes quickly. Do you remember the deer m the one that 126 00:10:13,440 --> 00:10:20,279 we chased for a day, a ten hour day. Mm hmm. Remember 127 00:10:20,279 --> 00:10:24,679 it went to the bottom. It went into that thicket and it sought the 128 00:10:24,679 --> 00:10:33,240 bottom to hide. H don't let me get there when it's past the point 129 00:10:33,240 --> 00:10:39,279 of no return. Promise me that, like we did with Deer, you 130 00:10:39,759 --> 00:10:48,039 will make sure it goes quickly. And I think I prayed, I said, 131 00:10:48,080 --> 00:10:54,000 Okay, I promise. I don't think I was really prepared for the 132 00:10:54,080 --> 00:10:58,840 promise when that moment came, because it came about six months later, on 133 00:11:00,480 --> 00:11:07,919 July fourth, but my dad refused to die on July fourth. It As 134 00:11:07,960 --> 00:11:11,480 I'm telling this story, I'm getting prepared this weekend to have a couple of 135 00:11:11,480 --> 00:11:16,120 friends. Our dear friend Zach Abraham is headed over this way. Zach's the 136 00:11:16,200 --> 00:11:18,679 chief investment officer bow Or Capital Management, you know that. But my other 137 00:11:18,720 --> 00:11:22,960 dear friend, Tim Krukshank is coming over. And Tim just went through this. 138 00:11:22,759 --> 00:11:26,600 Tim just went through not the death of his father, but the death 139 00:11:26,679 --> 00:11:30,360 of his wife, Liz. And he's coming over. And there is a 140 00:11:30,360 --> 00:11:33,120 little bit of a rumor that Tim, the CEO bone Frog Coffee, might 141 00:11:33,200 --> 00:11:37,519 be looking at a retail location over here in North Idaho. It might be 142 00:11:37,679 --> 00:11:41,480 one of the many retail locations of bone Frog. There's one single, small 143 00:11:41,519 --> 00:11:48,000 one right now in Washington State in Redmond, which is around where Tim lives. 144 00:11:48,799 --> 00:11:52,039 So bone Frog is going to continue to grow. Praise God. Every 145 00:11:52,080 --> 00:11:54,320 bag says God. Country team on it, and that's true. God comes 146 00:11:54,360 --> 00:11:58,279 so first in Tim's life. So I hope these rivers are true, and 147 00:11:58,320 --> 00:12:01,879 I'm going to put them to the test when he's over here and go see 148 00:12:01,879 --> 00:12:03,759 if they're actually looking at buildings, because I've heard they're looking at buildings. 149 00:12:03,799 --> 00:12:07,799 That would be phenomenal. That might mean that I would get to have my 150 00:12:07,840 --> 00:12:11,720 friend closer to me. And if you've not got yet a chance to know 151 00:12:11,799 --> 00:12:13,639 Tim, I will tell you this, you can know him in a way. 152 00:12:13,960 --> 00:12:16,799 Although he's a man of real depth and real character. He's a retired 153 00:12:16,879 --> 00:12:22,600 Navy seal buds instructor, Patriots through and through, has nothing to prove on 154 00:12:22,639 --> 00:12:26,720 that front. But I would tell you this that you can get to know 155 00:12:26,799 --> 00:12:30,200 him a little bit. Through the coffee. Tim could have done what a 156 00:12:30,240 --> 00:12:35,159 lot of companies owned by people who have a footprint or a brand like Tim 157 00:12:35,240 --> 00:12:37,600 does is a seal. It would have been very very easy for Tim to 158 00:12:37,679 --> 00:12:41,120 go grab some junk coffee and put a cool brand on it. He refused. 159 00:12:41,799 --> 00:12:46,200 He recruited Dave Stewart's a legend in the coffee business. She had his 160 00:12:46,279 --> 00:12:48,600 best coffee was his company that Starbucks was forced to buy to get out of 161 00:12:48,600 --> 00:12:54,559 their way to make some of the roasts and to mentor team the team bone 162 00:12:54,559 --> 00:12:56,919 Frog and the rest of them. Tim hires veterans, works with the veteran 163 00:12:56,960 --> 00:13:01,240 own companies whenever he can. But the coffee, it is so solid and 164 00:13:01,360 --> 00:13:05,320 so indicative of who Tim is because it had to be the best, because 165 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:09,559 it says God, country, team, and part of team is family. 166 00:13:11,200 --> 00:13:13,720 You might notice when you buy bone Frog these days, it's not right now 167 00:13:13,840 --> 00:13:22,480 Tim leaving notes to customers always sometimes it's his kids. It's a family company. 168 00:13:22,320 --> 00:13:26,159 Try the coffee and simply make a decision based on that, not on 169 00:13:26,240 --> 00:13:30,279 the brand. He would not want that. Go to Bonefrog Cooffee dot com 170 00:13:30,279 --> 00:13:33,480 slash todd use promo code todd to get ten percent off of your first purchase 171 00:13:33,960 --> 00:13:39,440 fifteen percent off subscription coffees Bonefrog Coffee dot com slash todd. So Tim's coming 172 00:13:39,480 --> 00:13:45,159 over in the midst of this grief, and we hope to go shooting and 173 00:13:46,200 --> 00:13:50,080 have fellowship and brotherhood to help bring him out his grief. Not that it's 174 00:13:50,080 --> 00:13:54,480 going to work. The grief is too raw. I got another phone call 175 00:13:54,559 --> 00:13:58,919 about six months after my dad went into the hospital and Spokane that they were 176 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:03,559 moving him to Seattle because they wanted to be able to get him more intense 177 00:14:03,639 --> 00:14:05,440 care. Now, the cynic in me says, yeah, maybe you wanted 178 00:14:05,480 --> 00:14:11,159 him off the books. Maybe, but the doctors at the University of Washington 179 00:14:11,159 --> 00:14:15,200 Medical Center were actually really into trying to save his life. In fact, 180 00:14:15,519 --> 00:14:18,279 they said this, and I get this now, They said, your father's 181 00:14:18,320 --> 00:14:22,200 a really interesting case. My father had a whole series of issues, some 182 00:14:22,279 --> 00:14:26,639 of which he gave himself by refusing to treat himself. I've talked to him, 183 00:14:26,679 --> 00:14:30,559 I've talked to you about his over use of alcohol, and I have 184 00:14:30,639 --> 00:14:35,000 a profen that certainly didn't help. His refusal to take his meds for his 185 00:14:35,120 --> 00:14:39,080 thyroid that didn't help. His over use of food didn't help. All those 186 00:14:39,080 --> 00:14:43,000 things didn't help. All related to this core belief my dad was. My 187 00:14:43,080 --> 00:14:46,039 dad had a core belief that he was a worthless man, that he was 188 00:14:46,159 --> 00:14:52,000 unloved. He hated himself. So when he showed up at the hospital in 189 00:14:52,039 --> 00:14:56,639 Seattle, it was six months after showing up in Spokane. But the craziest 190 00:14:56,679 --> 00:15:03,440 thing happened in Spokane, the nuttiest thing. Remember that prayer, Dear God, 191 00:15:03,480 --> 00:15:05,919 I pray to you not as I think of you, but as you 192 00:15:05,960 --> 00:15:13,600 know yourself to be remember that prayer. Through his time and Spokane, he 193 00:15:13,679 --> 00:15:18,519 started to get visits from people all around the country, some of whom were 194 00:15:18,559 --> 00:15:22,559 eleven or twelve years old the last time he saw them. They simply learned 195 00:15:24,679 --> 00:15:28,960 that he was sick and very sick and in the hospital and might not live. 196 00:15:28,720 --> 00:15:31,559 They were now people in some of their twenties or thirties, some in 197 00:15:31,600 --> 00:15:39,039 their forties, some of their fifties, and the younger ones were people that 198 00:15:39,120 --> 00:15:41,600 he had worked directly with as a social worker, because he worked with troubled 199 00:15:41,679 --> 00:15:45,879 kids, kids who were kicked out of the house, kids who were homeless, 200 00:15:45,960 --> 00:15:48,360 kids were in juvenile hall, kids who had been in jail and then 201 00:15:48,399 --> 00:15:52,879 put into adult prison, and from all around the country. They came to 202 00:15:52,919 --> 00:15:56,480 share their love with him, to celebrate what he did for them, and 203 00:15:56,799 --> 00:16:02,240 they used his nickname Big T. We had family members fly in and so 204 00:16:02,279 --> 00:16:06,559 many family members come and express this love. I watched my dad realize, 205 00:16:07,080 --> 00:16:12,480 Wow, I truly am loved, and it was some of the most joyful 206 00:16:12,600 --> 00:16:17,559 time my father ever experienced. Want to know why. Because he was forced 207 00:16:17,559 --> 00:16:21,600 to sit there and accept the love, he couldn't walk out. He couldn't 208 00:16:21,639 --> 00:16:25,519 say no to the social limitations. He couldn't say no to go in the 209 00:16:25,600 --> 00:16:30,440 parties to family events. He couldn't show up late and leave early. He 210 00:16:30,519 --> 00:16:37,120 had to sit there accept the love. He died before his dad mom, 211 00:16:37,960 --> 00:16:41,559 well, his birth mother had died many many years before that, decades before 212 00:16:41,559 --> 00:16:47,799 that. But he had come to accept my Grandma Nikki as mom. So 213 00:16:47,919 --> 00:16:52,600 that was paid off. God paid that prayer off. My father learned how 214 00:16:52,639 --> 00:16:59,240 sick he was, and he learns how well loved he was that prayer. 215 00:16:59,519 --> 00:17:04,119 I didn't realize that until I took his ashes home. That was a moment. 216 00:17:07,160 --> 00:17:11,799 Never carried the ashes of a loved one. My dad's ashes weighed in 217 00:17:11,839 --> 00:17:19,000 at just about nine and a half pounds, like a baby, and I 218 00:17:19,200 --> 00:17:25,880 was not able to drive emotionally unsafe. So my now wife drove me home 219 00:17:26,319 --> 00:17:33,480 and I cradled the ashes of my father to my chest like a baby. 220 00:17:36,640 --> 00:17:41,680 Later, she and I would bring a baby home about nine pounds. He 221 00:17:41,759 --> 00:17:47,759 never got to meet her. It was six months later, and it was 222 00:17:47,799 --> 00:17:51,079 another phone call, and it was from my same uncle, and my uncle 223 00:17:51,119 --> 00:17:55,559 said, the hospital called me. They've run some tests. It appears to 224 00:17:55,599 --> 00:17:59,359 your dad's kidneys and liver have shut down. He is not expected to make 225 00:17:59,400 --> 00:18:03,839 it through the day. This was on July fourth. I got out of 226 00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:08,839 beds and I prayed, and I drove to the hospital, University of Washington 227 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:12,319 Medical Center. I got there at about seven o'clock in the morning on July 228 00:18:12,400 --> 00:18:18,440 fourth, and I walked into the hospital room and there was my father and 229 00:18:18,480 --> 00:18:21,359 the doctor. The doctor took me outside. Of course, I said good 230 00:18:21,400 --> 00:18:22,759 morning to my dad, told him I loved him, give him a hug. 231 00:18:23,640 --> 00:18:26,400 And he had never really been an I love you guy. He'd said 232 00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:30,039 it once or twice. It was hard for him, really difficult for him 233 00:18:30,079 --> 00:18:33,319 to say I love you. He showed it. He showed it. I 234 00:18:33,359 --> 00:18:37,599 felt loved so went out and I chatted with the doctor for a bit about 235 00:18:37,640 --> 00:18:40,279 okay, tell me what's going on. And he said, you well, 236 00:18:40,359 --> 00:18:42,799 your father's kidneys have stopped functioning. His liver stoped functioning. I said, 237 00:18:42,880 --> 00:18:47,880 you know this, how well, here's the graphs we use. These are 238 00:18:47,920 --> 00:18:51,400 the censors we use. Here's what we'd be seeing if there was liver function. 239 00:18:51,680 --> 00:18:55,079 Here was what we'd be seeing if there was kidney function. Here's what 240 00:18:55,119 --> 00:18:56,640 his urine is looking like. Here's what his blood's looking like. We're doing 241 00:18:56,680 --> 00:19:00,480 these blood samples. All this adds up. These organs have stopped working. 242 00:19:02,400 --> 00:19:03,640 And I said, and there's no bringing them back. He goes, no, 243 00:19:03,680 --> 00:19:12,400 there's not. Okay, So standing there in the hallway, my memory 244 00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:21,079 went back to what Dad had said, Remember the deer. Don't let me 245 00:19:21,119 --> 00:19:26,799 get there. Make sure it goes quickly. I called my sister, who 246 00:19:26,960 --> 00:19:33,519 was in the midst of a pregnancy. She had unfortunately lost some children in 247 00:19:33,559 --> 00:19:37,279 pregnancy. She wasn't able to complete the pregnancies. It was horrible for her 248 00:19:37,279 --> 00:19:41,079 and her husband, horribly painful. She was to be in bed rest. 249 00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:47,240 She refused. She came down to say goodbye to my dad, and she's 250 00:19:47,279 --> 00:19:52,279 a medical professional, so she came into the room her husband and she greeted 251 00:19:52,279 --> 00:19:55,839 my father and they talked for a bit, and then her husband needed to 252 00:19:55,920 --> 00:19:59,000 leave, he had to go to work, and so he said to my 253 00:19:59,119 --> 00:20:12,599 dad, it's been an honor, big tea. And Dad said, don't 254 00:20:12,599 --> 00:20:19,920 you make me come back if I mistreat my daughter. And my brother in 255 00:20:21,039 --> 00:20:25,960 law left, my sister and I talked. I had her talk with the 256 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:32,039 doctor and the doctor explained it to her in professional terms. As colleagues. 257 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:37,000 And she took me aside, and she said, it's the end. So 258 00:20:37,039 --> 00:20:41,279 how long can he live? She said, I don't know, forty eight 259 00:20:41,200 --> 00:20:45,279 sixty four us. I said, ultimately, how would he die? She 260 00:20:45,319 --> 00:20:48,799 said, well he would drown, So he would drown, and he would 261 00:20:48,880 --> 00:20:52,599 drown them in his own body fluids. What do you feel? Distressed? 262 00:20:53,000 --> 00:21:03,119 Probably, so there was that promise. Remember the deer? Son? Yeah, 263 00:21:03,279 --> 00:21:08,279 I remember the deer. My sister went back in, was visiting with 264 00:21:08,279 --> 00:21:15,319 my dad, and I took the doctor aside. I'll tell you a second 265 00:21:15,319 --> 00:21:21,680 what I said. So I said to the doctor in the hallway, standing 266 00:21:21,720 --> 00:21:27,039 there, just face to face, I need you to churn up my father's 267 00:21:27,759 --> 00:21:34,480 morphine a lot. And he said, is he in pain? I said 268 00:21:34,519 --> 00:21:45,839 no, I made my father a promise. And the doctor said, you 269 00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:51,400 know what you're asking. I said, I do. I know how this 270 00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:56,359 will end. It will be hastening his death. I also want to do 271 00:21:56,440 --> 00:22:00,319 everything I can to avoid discomfort. I understand that he will drown than his 272 00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:03,559 own body fluids. Is that right? Yes? How do I stop that? 273 00:22:04,039 --> 00:22:07,680 Well? You can't because I guess you could sit next to him. 274 00:22:07,680 --> 00:22:10,160 We can provide you a pump I can show you how to pump his lungs. 275 00:22:10,200 --> 00:22:14,640 Okay, I'll pump his lungs. He said that could go on for 276 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:19,559 days. I said, oh, that's fine. So he turned up the 277 00:22:19,599 --> 00:22:26,119 morphine a lot. He went into the room and he did it. He 278 00:22:26,160 --> 00:22:30,400 didn't tell my dad what he was doing. Had we had the attorney's rights 279 00:22:30,480 --> 00:22:33,960 to do that. My dad had given that to us. And when the 280 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:37,359 doctor left the room, I went over to my dad and he said, 281 00:22:40,039 --> 00:22:44,119 is it taken care of? I said, I've just kept my promise to 282 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:52,839 you. He nodded. So as the morphine dire began, my brother half 283 00:22:52,839 --> 00:22:57,079 brother came in with his now wife and I filled him in what was going 284 00:22:57,119 --> 00:23:00,759 on. They sat and visited with my dad. Ultimately, my sister needed 285 00:23:00,799 --> 00:23:06,599 to leave because of this troubled pregnancy which has resulted in my beloved beloved niece 286 00:23:06,640 --> 00:23:11,640 who I love so dearly. And so he got to my father and got 287 00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:18,839 to place his hands on my sister's stomach and to speak to the baby he 288 00:23:18,839 --> 00:23:27,519 would never meet. He also wrote her a check. He wrote her a 289 00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:32,880 check. I got to deliver that check to my sister and she got to 290 00:23:32,880 --> 00:23:34,559 hold onto it for years. I think we kept the account open just for 291 00:23:34,640 --> 00:23:38,640 that. It was for I forget the age, but we had reasoned at 292 00:23:38,680 --> 00:23:41,960 some point my niece would be old enough to appreciate the check from Grandpa, 293 00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:49,359 the actual check. My half brother and his brother, I mean he and 294 00:23:49,440 --> 00:23:53,359 his now wife. They stuck around in the hospital room and we began doing 295 00:23:53,359 --> 00:23:57,359 things to make my dad comfortable. And this was now at about two o'clock 296 00:23:57,400 --> 00:24:02,119 in the afternoon, and that everybody that other people had to leave, my 297 00:24:02,119 --> 00:24:04,799 sister had to leave. At some point my uncle came, another uncle who 298 00:24:04,880 --> 00:24:08,440 was in Seattle came and he walked in and we greeted him, and he 299 00:24:08,480 --> 00:24:11,039 said to my dad, hey, big guy, this is when you need 300 00:24:11,079 --> 00:24:12,920 to fight it. This is when you need to fight it. You need 301 00:24:12,960 --> 00:24:18,599 to fight. And I took my uncle asidea said no, no, no, 302 00:24:21,400 --> 00:24:26,599 here's where we're at. My sisters confirmed this, The doctors confirmed this. 303 00:24:26,920 --> 00:24:33,559 No, now's when you need to let go. How difficult is that 304 00:24:33,640 --> 00:24:40,119 to say to my dad's little brother, no, big brother needs to go. 305 00:24:42,559 --> 00:24:48,680 He abided. He didn't say let go, but he stopped saying fight, 306 00:24:52,359 --> 00:24:56,720 so he had to leave. He said, I love you. I 307 00:24:56,759 --> 00:25:03,519 think they shook hands. I think that was the physical manifestation of caring. 308 00:25:03,720 --> 00:25:11,880 They shook hands and we started to do things like I was reading my father 309 00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:14,640 the book that we'd read while I was in the hospital. I'd read him 310 00:25:14,640 --> 00:25:17,680 Lonesome Dove, which is my favorite, one of my favorit books top five 311 00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:21,359 favorite books, and so I was reading that to him. We were talking, 312 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:25,319 and ultimately the morphine hit pretty quickly and my dad was passed out. 313 00:25:26,960 --> 00:25:30,400 And we continued to sit in the hospital room, and I continued to sit 314 00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:34,880 there using this device that would pump the fluid out of his lungs. And 315 00:25:34,960 --> 00:25:38,519 I don't want to be gross, It's not just it was not just mucus 316 00:25:40,920 --> 00:25:44,559 because his body was not eliminating urine, et cetera. So I am I 317 00:25:44,559 --> 00:25:48,319 am pumping his lungs so that I would not have my father drowned. I 318 00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:53,279 would not have him in any distress. So we're sitting there on this and 319 00:25:53,359 --> 00:25:59,160 my brother and he is now wife, and I are talking and visiting and 320 00:25:59,759 --> 00:26:06,240 it it comes to about gosh, ten o'clock at night and the fireworks are 321 00:26:06,279 --> 00:26:10,640 going off and at the University of Washington, we were in between a fireworks 322 00:26:10,640 --> 00:26:17,200 display on Capitol Hill in Seattle. Back before the Communists owned it and Lake 323 00:26:17,359 --> 00:26:22,359 Union back before the homeless people street people were given the ownership over this great 324 00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:26,119 park called Gasworks Park. Before the Communists gave it to them, there used 325 00:26:26,160 --> 00:26:33,039 to be fireworks, amateur fireworks shows on the lake, multimillionaires putting us off. 326 00:26:33,079 --> 00:26:42,079 So the whole sky is lit with these fireworks, and they had turned 327 00:26:42,079 --> 00:26:47,519 off the monitors. We didn't want the beeping anything like that. My dad 328 00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:53,880 was breathing, but more and more shallow, and then the fireworks ended. 329 00:26:55,559 --> 00:27:04,079 It's probably about eleven o'clock or ten thirty, I think fire excanded, just 330 00:27:04,200 --> 00:27:11,160 silence. We just sat There was the sound of the pump. Anytime my 331 00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:15,200 dad coughed, I would put this thing in his nose, go down into 332 00:27:15,200 --> 00:27:26,240 his lungs and bring the fluid out. I think it was yeah, about 333 00:27:26,240 --> 00:27:32,640 ten point thirty that the doctor walked in and we were sitting there quiet. 334 00:27:33,240 --> 00:27:37,640 I had my hands on my knees and my head in my hands, and 335 00:27:38,519 --> 00:27:47,640 very tired and maybe leaning against the railing of the hospital bed. And the 336 00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:52,519 doctor came in and he said, I am so sorry. I didn't get 337 00:27:52,559 --> 00:27:53,799 to know your dad a lot, but man, he was a real gentleman. 338 00:27:55,400 --> 00:28:03,759 Interesting man, and I said, is he dead? He goes, 339 00:28:03,759 --> 00:28:07,240 oh. I was thinking, Oh, he has to be. He has 340 00:28:07,319 --> 00:28:14,240 to be. The amount of morphine I'm giving this man. Doctor walked over, 341 00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:19,279 checked his pulse, his heart beat. I said, he's breathing. 342 00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:29,720 And then the doctor looked outside at the last few fireworks and he turned. 343 00:28:29,759 --> 00:28:34,119 He goes, is July fourth important to you guys? I said, yeah, 344 00:28:34,160 --> 00:28:37,160 it's our favorite family holiday together. He goes, Oh, your dad's 345 00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:41,960 not gonna die in July fourth. You think he would do that to you. 346 00:28:41,960 --> 00:28:47,759 Your dad's holding on. Tell him it's okay to let him to go. 347 00:28:47,880 --> 00:29:02,000 Now. Funniest thing happened a man who was so knocked out on morphine 348 00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:15,480 that the doctor thought he was dead all the sudden showed sign of emotional life. 349 00:29:15,759 --> 00:29:19,039 I'll tell you about this in a second. Maybe one of the reasons 350 00:29:19,039 --> 00:29:22,799 that I'm driven to talk about this today is I have word that I can 351 00:29:22,839 --> 00:29:26,480 share now, specific details. You know. The partner of the show Alan 352 00:29:26,559 --> 00:29:32,039 Soaps, Young Alan, the young man who's nonverbal, so high on the 353 00:29:32,039 --> 00:29:37,079 autism spectrum, but a great inventor of soaps and fragrances of soaps and Alan 354 00:29:37,119 --> 00:29:41,799 Soaps dot com slash Todd is the website. This is the soaps we talk 355 00:29:41,839 --> 00:29:45,480 about all the time, made in America, all natural, three generations to 356 00:29:45,519 --> 00:29:48,680 soap making expertise behind them, huge quality soap hired. Now we have three 357 00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:52,799 people, three young people working there that the rest of the world, the 358 00:29:52,839 --> 00:29:56,519 party would rather see stored in a box or having been aboarted. I can 359 00:29:56,559 --> 00:30:02,599 now share this with you that John, who is the dad of Alan and 360 00:30:02,759 --> 00:30:07,240 he's the business guy behind Alan soaps. John went to the doctor yesterday to 361 00:30:07,359 --> 00:30:14,119 have yet another screening. John's had a whole series of health issues. It 362 00:30:14,240 --> 00:30:18,640 now may well be lung cancer. So John was appreciative yesterday that we prayed 363 00:30:18,640 --> 00:30:22,880 together. And I would ask you, if you have a relationship with the 364 00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:26,759 Lord Jesus and they're saved by him, that you would pray for wisdom for 365 00:30:26,799 --> 00:30:32,559 the doctor's and discernment and strength for John. It would be a very very 366 00:30:32,559 --> 00:30:37,279 difficult thing for young Alan to lose John. It would be a very difficult 367 00:30:37,359 --> 00:30:41,480 thing for us and the show to lose John. John knows where he's going. 368 00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:44,000 He's going with Jesus. There's no doubt he is a servant of the 369 00:30:44,039 --> 00:30:47,359 Lord Jesus. So if you could say that prayer, and here I am 370 00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:49,960 talking about my father passing. I was an older guy. I mean I 371 00:30:51,039 --> 00:30:56,720 was twenty eight years old something, or maybe an older and Alan's Alan's only 372 00:30:56,759 --> 00:31:03,119 thirteen. Would be catastrophically difficult for them. The Lord would see them through 373 00:31:03,119 --> 00:31:06,079 it, no doubt, no doubt, but if he would just pray for 374 00:31:06,160 --> 00:31:11,559 a John and appreciate that. So after the doctor left the room and told 375 00:31:11,640 --> 00:31:14,160 us, yeah, it's July fourth, your dad's not going to die on 376 00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:22,400 this day, my dad started to say something in his morphine stupor, mulummim 377 00:31:26,480 --> 00:31:37,720 what I love you. He started to stay every few minutes and even got 378 00:31:37,720 --> 00:31:48,480 clearer I love you. I've puzzled for many years how a guy who can 379 00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:56,720 barely breathe was able to utter those words I love you. It was a 380 00:31:56,759 --> 00:32:05,400 thing he most wanted to get through to us at midnight, because I wouldn't 381 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:15,160 lie to him. At midnight twelve oh one am July fifth, I said, 382 00:32:15,240 --> 00:32:20,559 Dad, you did it. We had a wonderful fourth of July together, 383 00:32:20,559 --> 00:32:23,000 a wonderful Independence day. You can go, you can let go. 384 00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:30,599 You did it. And a little while after that he stopped speaking, stop 385 00:32:30,640 --> 00:32:36,400 saying I love you. The Briskot so shallow. I was so tired, 386 00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:42,079 and I still sat there by the edge of the bed. When I would 387 00:32:42,079 --> 00:32:47,720 hear him distress, I'd wake up and activate the pump. And then, 388 00:32:50,359 --> 00:32:54,839 for the first time since I guess probably five point thirty the previous morning, 389 00:32:55,319 --> 00:33:00,880 I fell asleep for about two minutes. And in that two minute period. 390 00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:05,039 I know this because I asked my brother later how long I was asleep. 391 00:33:05,079 --> 00:33:07,640 He said, you're about two minutes. I fell asleep for about two minutes, 392 00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:14,000 and my dad died, and my brother described it to me, and 393 00:33:14,119 --> 00:33:23,960 Dad just went and in my sleep, I didn't know this, and then 394 00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:30,880 I heard my brother say Todd, and I woke up and I knew, 395 00:33:31,559 --> 00:33:37,119 and this is maybe morbid or weird, but I did everything I could to 396 00:33:37,240 --> 00:33:49,119 inhale. I wanted to inhale the last breath my father, ah Man, 397 00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:52,680 sorry for the bait and switch on the show this morning. It's just been 398 00:33:52,680 --> 00:34:00,000 a while since I've told the story. So having inhaled this last breath, 399 00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:08,079 then the rest of my dad's commands came to me. His promise, remember, 400 00:34:08,239 --> 00:34:15,559 son, do not mourn my body. I will not be there. 401 00:34:19,519 --> 00:34:22,639 My dad had accepted the Lord Jesus in the hospital. I'd like to say 402 00:34:22,760 --> 00:34:30,079 that God used me for that. Maybe it planted some seeds. Ultimately, 403 00:34:30,159 --> 00:34:34,760 it was a pot smoking hippie pastor from North Idaho who still has a pot 404 00:34:34,800 --> 00:34:40,360 smoking hippie church. It was given us by God. He's a responsible pot 405 00:34:40,480 --> 00:34:44,840 user, if there's such a thing. I happened to think meriwater is very 406 00:34:44,840 --> 00:34:49,519 bad for you. But it was through the pot smoking hippie pastor who had 407 00:34:49,519 --> 00:34:53,000 a great relationship with the Indian tribes up there. My dad loved the native 408 00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:58,800 people, loved working on the reservation. I loved being made an honorary tribe 409 00:34:58,840 --> 00:35:01,400 member. It was huge, huge honor for him. I remember that. 410 00:35:01,599 --> 00:35:07,639 Never forget that he wore around his neck something that one of the medicine men 411 00:35:07,719 --> 00:35:14,719 gave him all while in the hospital, and he'd accepted. Jesus, do 412 00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:20,519 not mourn my body. I said to my brother and his now wife, 413 00:35:20,719 --> 00:35:28,440 we have to leave. Can we stay? No. Dad was clear, 414 00:35:29,679 --> 00:35:30,800 We're not going to sit here more in his body. He's not in it. 415 00:35:34,719 --> 00:35:38,440 My dad hated his body. I'm so glad to know he will have 416 00:35:38,519 --> 00:35:47,039 a new and glorified one. So very difficult thing to walk out of a 417 00:35:47,119 --> 00:35:55,639 room with quote your dad left behind even though it's his body, And I 418 00:35:55,679 --> 00:36:07,159 was just absolutely driven to talk to the desk people said, I know this 419 00:36:07,199 --> 00:36:10,159 is so strange, but I can't leave without knowing what's going to happen in 420 00:36:10,159 --> 00:36:15,559 my dad's body. What's the process here? We already knew where he was 421 00:36:15,599 --> 00:36:17,360 going to go the mortuary. I had that all worked out, But what's 422 00:36:17,400 --> 00:36:22,360 going to happen? And they said, well, your father will be moved 423 00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:25,000 over to this location. You guys did want an autopsy. We're going to 424 00:36:25,039 --> 00:36:29,400 do that autopsy and then your father's body will be a little of her two 425 00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:30,159 and she got that. I said, so is that not going to happen 426 00:36:30,159 --> 00:36:31,920 today? She said, yes, it is a way. You can let 427 00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:36,320 me know where he's at, where his body's at. She said, sure, 428 00:36:36,360 --> 00:36:44,280 we can call you. They're so good. We went through that process 429 00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:51,599 of getting my sister back over and her husband's and we made a decision to 430 00:36:51,599 --> 00:36:53,519 do exactly the other thing Dad told us to do was you are going to 431 00:36:53,519 --> 00:36:58,119 go out and you are going to either have a huge garbage load of hamburgers 432 00:36:58,119 --> 00:37:01,079 and French fries and beer or root beer or pizza. You're going to go 433 00:37:01,119 --> 00:37:08,119 eat. You're going to celebrate my life, but you're going to do it 434 00:37:08,239 --> 00:37:14,880 as a brother and sister. There wasn't a real argument about where to go. 435 00:37:14,920 --> 00:37:19,440 It had to be this place called the Doghouse. My dad's heart was 436 00:37:19,440 --> 00:37:22,960 always with the Washington State University Cougars, which is where he got his undergrad 437 00:37:22,960 --> 00:37:24,440 degree. But he liked the hussyustas fine. It's where he went to graduate 438 00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:32,519 school. So we did. But guys, this is the first time I 439 00:37:32,559 --> 00:37:37,519 can tell you that I absolutely can look you. Are we in this camera 440 00:37:38,039 --> 00:37:43,159 that I can actually look you in the eye and tell you I encountered my 441 00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:52,280 dad's soul. There's no doubt that I encountered my dad's soul. It was 442 00:37:52,320 --> 00:37:59,360 in the parking garage and my card been there since just before seven am the 443 00:37:59,400 --> 00:38:02,360 previous day. It was an expensive parking job, and I was waiting in 444 00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:07,719 line to pay. There's like probably ten people in front of me, and 445 00:38:08,119 --> 00:38:13,599 all of a sudden, above me, above me, came the most beautiful 446 00:38:13,639 --> 00:38:20,039 feeling of joy above me, a feeling of joy, And then I felt 447 00:38:20,079 --> 00:38:23,000 my father's voice inside my head. I felt it. I didn't hear it, 448 00:38:23,039 --> 00:38:25,719 I felt it. I felt it in my body, my Dad said, 449 00:38:25,800 --> 00:38:32,119 I can move, I can move, I can fly. I had 450 00:38:32,320 --> 00:38:39,559 no anticipation. Is such a thing. And I started to laugh and cry 451 00:38:39,719 --> 00:38:43,280 in the parking garage and I spoke out loud. I said, well done, 452 00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:52,760 Dad, you died a great death. Well done, and we went 453 00:38:52,840 --> 00:39:00,360 over to meet at the restaurant. I'll complete this in just a second. 454 00:39:00,519 --> 00:39:04,960 Wow, the way this partner Announcements are working on today, this is nuts. 455 00:39:07,360 --> 00:39:12,639 Yeah. I would have absolutely gone and taken over my dad's house and 456 00:39:12,840 --> 00:39:15,199 I would have gone through the medicine cabinets and said, we are done with 457 00:39:15,239 --> 00:39:20,360 the ibprofen. For God's sake, We're done medicating you with wine. I 458 00:39:20,400 --> 00:39:22,239 know you're probably an alcoholics, so we're going to work our way down. 459 00:39:22,239 --> 00:39:25,320 I'm not going to force you to go cold turkey, but on the iberprofen, 460 00:39:25,400 --> 00:39:29,800 Dad, this is killing you. The autopsy showed my dad had liver 461 00:39:29,880 --> 00:39:37,119 disease, and probably because of the alcohol. Definitely because of the overuse of 462 00:39:37,159 --> 00:39:40,960 iberprofen. It wasn't just the autopsy that said that. I had a therapist 463 00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:45,920 at the time who was a psychiatrist, a reformed pill pusher. She no 464 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:50,320 longer prescribed medications. She just thought that they were just they were just terrible. 465 00:39:51,039 --> 00:39:52,000 She read that, you know, having been to med school, and 466 00:39:52,039 --> 00:39:54,880 came back and said, yeah, it's pretty clear your dad destroyed his liver, 467 00:39:55,239 --> 00:40:00,679 and probably with the iboprofen. The wine wasn't helping. Because my dad 468 00:40:00,679 --> 00:40:04,320 had probably twelve maybe sixteen I have a profen a day because he was in 469 00:40:04,400 --> 00:40:07,840 so much pain because he just so mistreated his body differently than me. I 470 00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:12,360 mean, I don't mistreat my body, I think, but I'm constantly exercising 471 00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:17,000 and pushing very hard. My dad was constantly eating and pushing very hard, 472 00:40:17,039 --> 00:40:22,159 and it just added up into a lot of inflammation. I'll just tell you 473 00:40:22,280 --> 00:40:28,679 exactly exactly what I would have told him, trade for trade Iberprofen makes inflammation 474 00:40:28,760 --> 00:40:32,639 worse. It assaults your liver, it assaults your kidneys, it's bad for 475 00:40:32,719 --> 00:40:37,039 your brain. It's pharma and circle right back to the beginning. It's making 476 00:40:37,079 --> 00:40:40,440 the inflammation worse. It is only masking the symptoms. On the other side 477 00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:46,920 of this native path krill, it is going to reduce the inflammation. It's 478 00:40:46,960 --> 00:40:52,320 going to protect your hearts and your liver an immune system. It is far 479 00:40:52,519 --> 00:40:59,159 more absorbable, far more potent, far more effective than fish based omega threes 480 00:41:00,039 --> 00:41:04,960 because of its potency as a crustacean. Krill with a k is a crustacean. 481 00:41:05,519 --> 00:41:08,440 It is a purer form of this in that these krill live in the 482 00:41:08,480 --> 00:41:12,559 Antarctic. These aren't farmed krill by the way. They come out of the 483 00:41:12,599 --> 00:41:17,880 Antarctic, and those are the purest waters in the ocean. So I would 484 00:41:17,920 --> 00:41:22,039 have said to my dad, I am the iboprofin's gone, it's in the 485 00:41:22,119 --> 00:41:27,840 landfill or I've burned it. Here's your native pathcrill and yeah, take more 486 00:41:27,840 --> 00:41:30,119 if you need it. I am, says said the other day, I'm 487 00:41:30,119 --> 00:41:32,280 going to be taking more because I'm upping my volume of exercise as I get 488 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:36,840 near to seal fit. So I will say it to you. If you 489 00:41:36,960 --> 00:41:43,519 or a loved one is eating iberprofen, stop it. Please go to nativepathcrill 490 00:41:43,559 --> 00:41:45,400 dot com sash Todd and just see the specials they have for you there. 491 00:41:45,440 --> 00:41:52,199 That's nativepathcrill dot com, slash Todd, nativepathcrill dot com, sash Todd. 492 00:41:53,199 --> 00:41:58,679 So we get to the doghouse and I walk into the bathroom in a bar 493 00:41:58,840 --> 00:42:02,880 that has been playing modern music. So the hits of the day, because 494 00:42:02,880 --> 00:42:07,400 it's a bar for college kids, the hits of the day. I remember 495 00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:08,280 going, oh, my gosh, youri have to put up with this music 496 00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:13,760 for college kids. And we're sitting here and we ordered pizza and hamburgers. 497 00:42:13,760 --> 00:42:15,599 By the way, I was pretty gluttonous at that point. I was at 498 00:42:15,639 --> 00:42:19,559 my not quite four hundred pounds. I started losing weight, but I was 499 00:42:20,079 --> 00:42:25,199 probably it was probably to eighty, so I started the process of dropping fat. 500 00:42:25,719 --> 00:42:29,840 This is a lot less than four hundred or three eighty was I don't 501 00:42:29,840 --> 00:42:31,760 know there was ever four hundred, but three eighty three ninety. And as 502 00:42:31,840 --> 00:42:37,360 I'm as I'm in the bathroom, it's now all of a sudden, the 503 00:42:37,440 --> 00:42:43,360 music pauses and the song Turnturn Turn comes on, the beat of the Birds 504 00:42:43,440 --> 00:42:47,280 version of Turnturnturn from the Book of Ecclesiastes. For every season, there's a 505 00:42:47,320 --> 00:42:52,559 time, a time to live, a time to die. And I'm listening 506 00:42:52,599 --> 00:42:58,800 to this, going how in the world is this on? And it was 507 00:42:58,880 --> 00:43:05,960 my dad's favorite folk rock song. Dad was a country music guy. He 508 00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:07,679 didn't like much folk rock, but when that came on, he'd turned that 509 00:43:07,760 --> 00:43:14,079 up. I'm thinking this has to just be on in the bathroom, but 510 00:43:14,159 --> 00:43:15,639 I walked outside. It wasn't just on in the bathroom. It played. 511 00:43:15,679 --> 00:43:20,119 I sat down and it went back to hits of the day. This is 512 00:43:20,199 --> 00:43:27,559 one song. And I even told my sister and her husband about the significance 513 00:43:27,559 --> 00:43:34,960 of that from the Book of Ecclesiastes. So we ate, We talked about 514 00:43:35,039 --> 00:43:38,679 Dad, We toasted him, talked about what he would have word at the 515 00:43:38,719 --> 00:43:43,639 restaurant, which would his joke would have been one of everything. Then he'd 516 00:43:43,639 --> 00:43:51,559 say, what are you guys going to eat? I went home and at 517 00:43:51,599 --> 00:44:00,039 that point it was probably two or three o'clock, maybe later, and I've 518 00:44:00,039 --> 00:44:04,280 been up since five point thirty the previous day with that little two minutes of 519 00:44:04,320 --> 00:44:08,400 sleep, and had two cats, Schmidty and Floyd. If you have to 520 00:44:08,559 --> 00:44:10,800 have me push you to tell you, okay, I'll tell you. I'll 521 00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:15,760 tell you. They're Schmidti and Floyd, both of them female. And I 522 00:44:15,800 --> 00:44:22,639 went and laid down on a futon couch. I'd eaten ice cream because to 523 00:44:22,639 --> 00:44:30,159 eighty who cares? And Schmidty the orangish cats, the tiger type rangish cat 524 00:44:30,280 --> 00:44:34,039 pretty much orange, a little tiger stripes. She came and she laid down 525 00:44:34,039 --> 00:44:37,880 on me, and I went to sleep and I fell asleep. I made 526 00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:45,960 I passed out, and in that sleep I woke up feeling my dad's beard 527 00:44:46,000 --> 00:44:54,840 against my face and I opened my eyes. I made sure, like, 528 00:44:54,880 --> 00:44:59,480 wait, what am I feeling? I was feeling his beard. He grew 529 00:44:59,559 --> 00:45:04,840 this incredibly luxurious beard, thick, beautiful beard. In the hospital, someone 530 00:45:04,840 --> 00:45:07,760 told me it's because of the hormone, the THAIROI deficiency, your hair can 531 00:45:07,800 --> 00:45:14,079 get really thick. And to make sure I was awake, I petted the 532 00:45:14,079 --> 00:45:22,000 cat Schmidty, and then once again I felt my father's voice. It's not 533 00:45:22,159 --> 00:45:28,239 hearing it, it's not seeing it, it's feeling it from the inside out. 534 00:45:30,079 --> 00:45:36,360 And my father said this, where is your sister? And I spoke 535 00:45:36,400 --> 00:45:42,920 aloud. I said, Dad, she had to leave to make sure that 536 00:45:43,000 --> 00:45:45,960 she has a successful birth. She's staying with a friends. And I don't 537 00:45:45,000 --> 00:45:51,360 know where that friend is. They'd come over from spoken to be there, 538 00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:55,880 so she was staying with a friend. And my dad said, I have 539 00:45:55,920 --> 00:46:05,000 to go. Please tell her I love her. I said, I will. 540 00:46:07,320 --> 00:46:13,039 That was the last time I ever heard my father's voice or felt it. 541 00:46:15,760 --> 00:46:20,880 That was July fifth. There's a whole bunch of news we could have 542 00:46:20,920 --> 00:46:28,679 talked about. Hunter Biden being brought into the White House meetings. Steve Bannon 543 00:46:28,800 --> 00:46:36,760 just broke this. Reporter Jonathan Carlth ABC just busted him over his rhetorical knee. 544 00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:42,920 Brian Stelter going back and forth on Joe Biden's dementia. There's so much 545 00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:46,519 and we'll get to this next week. We're gonna take some time off for 546 00:46:47,119 --> 00:46:53,119 July fifth and July fourth, so so many things we could have covered, 547 00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:58,519 and some cultural stuff we'll get to next week about online dating. But here's 548 00:46:58,840 --> 00:47:10,239 the show. Close ready, you and everyone you know will die. You 549 00:47:10,280 --> 00:47:17,000 have a soul. I am telling you I met my father's I am telling 550 00:47:17,039 --> 00:47:25,800 you I spoke with a Catholic priest, a very strict Orthodox Russian Catholic priest, 551 00:47:25,960 --> 00:47:32,880 who was there when his father died. His father rejected God even until 552 00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:39,400 the last second, refused to reconcile with God. His father was dead. 553 00:47:39,719 --> 00:47:51,119 They kept the equipment on his father was dead for about fifteen minutes, and 554 00:47:51,159 --> 00:47:58,079 then though the brainscan didn't show anything, the organ activity didn't show anything. 555 00:47:59,079 --> 00:48:01,840 They had the alarms off, but the equipment on that man's body. That 556 00:48:01,960 --> 00:48:07,920 man's body sat up in bed and said, oh, my soul, oh 557 00:48:07,960 --> 00:48:14,920 God, Oh no, my soul. The brain monitor, the organ monitors 558 00:48:14,960 --> 00:48:24,639 recorded nothing. You'll face it. Where are you going? It's knowable. 559 00:48:28,519 --> 00:48:31,199 Accept the Lord Jesus is your Lord and savior. Ask him into your life, 560 00:48:31,559 --> 00:48:36,320 ask him to change you. You'll be filled with the Holy Spirit. 561 00:48:37,280 --> 00:48:44,760 It's not going to solve your problems. You will still get lonely, He'll 562 00:48:44,800 --> 00:48:47,400 still get angry, but over a process of time he will change you. 563 00:48:47,519 --> 00:48:52,960 I will give you this warning. You're going to hate disappointing God as you 564 00:48:53,039 --> 00:49:00,760 grow. Independence day is tomorrow. We have independence from the sting of death 565 00:49:02,159 --> 00:49:08,840 if we want it. So do you want it again? Sorry for the 566 00:49:08,880 --> 00:49:14,239 bait and switch. I've always pledged to always be honest with you. There's 567 00:49:14,320 --> 00:49:17,599 simply no way I could have done the political show today. Just couldn't. 568 00:49:19,719 --> 00:49:22,960 This is the Todd Hermann Show. Please go, be well, Go be 569 00:49:23,039 --> 00:49:28,480 strong, go be kind and go and make decisions.