You're listening to KFI A six on demand. Joe, Welcome to the Jesus
Christ Show. Hello, how can I help you? Well? Got a
life situation? Okay, it does concern God, at least my relationship with
God, because I've for the last two years now, I've had this kind
of lack of interest funk that I'm going through that happened ever since I had
the first insomnia I've ever had in my life. I had it for two
and a half months two years ago. Ever since then, I've just had
this general lack of interest that doesn't seem like my regular personality. And as
far as my God relationship, I've prayed many times. I've I've heard through
my research in the Christianity years ago that nothing's impossible with God, that the
difference between God's power and my power is an immeasurable It's so vast I would
think it would take basically nothing for God to be able to just in a
sense, snap God's fingers staying I mean back to regular and I can't figure
out why that hasn't been done yet. Usually when that hasn't been done,
it's because something is still in progress of being learned. God isn't toying with
you or playing around. It's a matter of a few things, one of
which the human the physical nature of humanity, and the biological machine that you
are is complicated and there's many things to it. So to get a clearer
picture, first, are you saying that you had about with insomnia two years
ago that lasted for two months or are you still wrestling that. I can't
you can usually find it something on the internet about anything. I'm not dealing
with insomnia that got solved with the one or two different drugs from a local
ND. What I'm dealing with is post insomnia, and there is nothing on
the internet I can I type in post insomnia, life after in SOMNYA,
and I can't figure out if what I'm going through is even normal or if
anybody's ever had it in their lives, except I have called a couple of
psychiatrists and asked them, have you dealt with insomnia? Have you dealt with
the funk of lack of it just comes after it? And at least a
few of them have said they have, So if they're telling the truth,
then other people have gone through this. So you're saying that you have kind
of a lack of zest for life. Well, people that knew me back
then that know me now say I'm definitely sounding better and using better words,
you know, like I've evolved to being more of whatever I am. But
I know I'm just not the same the person before the day that it all
happened. That person is not what I am right now. Okay, Well
there's a couple of things and again, and I know why it happened.
Basically, you know why the insomnia happened, right What was going Okay,
what was going on? I haven't called a friend that day and said something
feels really weird inside. So I was trying to be a personal trainer for
many years. Clients come, clients go. A life situation came up such
that I had no clients at a point two years ago, and I said,
I have to run an AD to get some And I figured I'd have
an AD for about four months, because you want it out there so people
can see it coming away from the place where I ran the AD. I
only ended up with a month and a half for however, our meeting went
there what they advised me to do for the best clients whatever. So after
a month and a half. So I was riding my bicycle home thinking,
what if nobody sees the AD in a month and a half, because I
thought I was going to have four months. What am I going to do
then? Is it a whole career change? I mean, it'll be gone.
And that's when I got home and called a friend and said, something
feels really weird inside of me. And that's the night insomnia started. And
I had had concerns over money over the last twenty years, so thinking about
money problems and trying to how to solve them wasn't new to me. But
that night, unless I took the drugs I eventually got the doctor, I
could never get any sleep at all. I'd get right to the edge of
falling asleep and there would be like this wall there and I just couldn't sleep.
But now so then I got a client a few days later off the
AD so great and that gave me most of the money I needed. But
I couldn't get rid of it Insombia, and I was thinking, you got
to get rid of it. Now, you have to look healthy. This
is the person you're training. And I at times, about a month later,
still with the insomnia, had to hold on to the gym, the
home gym. This person had even to keep standing up to be able to
train them, which is kind of a jokin and of itself, because here
I was deteriorating as I was supposed to teach health. Well, although this
is certainly not a show that deals with medicine, it's not the focus.
I'm not a doctor, right. I looked at the morality of things,
and we use scripture to take a look at the world and to see it
through that lens. Now, but in your circumstance, well, that was
my thing. Is the question with the whole God. I know it's not
about medicine, but it's just like it's patience I've had to try to have
over this time, to just in a sense of wait for this to get
gone. Were you patient before? I would say, I would considered to
be very intelligent, and I guess not about intelligence. Were you patient before?
Because some of the markers that you've given me our point to anxiety?
The marker about the four months now to one and a half months, there's
certain things that you've said that point to anxiety. Would you have considered yourself
a patience person or have people pointed out that you're not always patient. I'm
very quick to think, quick to talk, and people would say anywhere,
some would say he's patient. The other ones would say he needs things done
now. And so that'd be a hard question to answer. Okay, in
the God's scheme of things, there's a couple of things going on. You've
changed the chemistry of your body in a couple of ways that possibly, I
mean, very much, I would think that happened. Absolutely, Still,
something in my brain is not the same. It changed, but it doesn't
mean that it won't be. It changed. The day you had what sounds
like panic, what sounds like intense anxiety. The day that you did that,
your chemicals change. I mean, it's just the way things work,
so much so that you knew it. You felt it. Something slipped away
and you felt like, hey, the stability the ground beneath me does not
feel solid. And you mentioned that to a friend or family member whoever you
called that day, so you knew that something had changed. Now, the
doctors to balance that out, because it was prolonged, gave you new chemicals
to take away the symptom of that, which is to put you to sleep
essentially and let you relax. And medicine is miraculous in many ways and could
do many things. And doctors depending on who you went to see. Did
you go see a general practitioner or your general doctor? And they prescribed the
sleep medicine. It's general. They give you an anty depressant because I think
depression insomnia related to each other, and so I gave you that, and
then something very strong called tamazepam that suppose that you can't stay on very long.
It's supposed to knock you out for eight hours, and it did nothing
the first night. I could eventually get two hours out of it. So
when I went back after a week and a half, he goes, well,
take one and after two hours later you wake up, take another one.
So I considered myself possibly on a high dose of it because I was
back to backing it. But I finally got to sleep at least four to
five hours a night, so I felt a little secure in my pattern.
And then after a month and a half, he says, we got to
get you off of this. It's dangerous, and he used something else to
get me off of that, and eventually that thing worked, and then I
got off of hit and the whole thing was over. I was hoping,
but then this lack of interest thing has been hanging out for the last two
years. Okay, so there again, I'm thinking maybe even the stuff I
used to get off of it zap my head a little bit and it takes
a while for it to come back. Indeed, you said that you have
or have not visited a psychiatrist. That's the final thing. My mother and
I are very tired of this process. And I'm now I've called so many
of them. Someone want to give on the phone. They are four or
five six hundred for the first hour and a half assessment and then three hundred
hour after that. So it's pretty pricey, but if they could guarantee it,
it'd be worth it. Well, there's no guarantees, but I will
tell you this from what you've said, and it's very reasonable to say that
you have altered things. And let's look at it from your strength. Right,
as a trainer, there are people that have done horrible things to their
body, the foods they eat, the lack of exercise, and your job
is to reverse that and get them into new goods and patterns, right,
not to give them a diet pill, not to just say okay, here's
a quick fix. It's a lifestyle change in a process and an easy to
understand one. And if I had an ankle injury or I file as OBE,
so this is that I do rehabs, I would be able to work
on something. This thing, it's like it's my brain and you're out of
Yeah, you're out of your strength. How I can work? I stare
at my brain from the lives clothes, thinking, if you're so bright,
if you're so intelligent, how do you not figure out how to balance out
your own chemicals? You know? Well? Sometimes though, and this is
not to downplay general practitioner doctors. They're wonderful and they do amazing things,
but sometimes if you're dealing with they're just dealing with those symptoms. So I
think that's rather than I said. A psychiatrist has to know more about brain
chemicals and a local MD. And that's basically my little hope and dream that
once I would actually be there talking with one, hopefully they'd go, oh,
no, I've seen that many times. Try this and it may or
may not be that quick, to be honest with you, Joe, but
I will tell you this that the little time that we spent together I would
say that it is a wonderful choice to find out and see if the psychiatrist
has different insight and maybe can wean you off of some of these things that
sound like they've leveled you out, that you have no highs and no lows.
You kind of are in the middle, just your tonality. On the
air, we speak to a lot of people. However, I will say,
on the God side of things, the spiritual side of things, you
do have an issue with patience. I can hear it in your voice.
I can hear it in your voice, and I can hear it even pushing
through the medication. And I understand that it's been a long time that you've
been wrestling with this and that that's going to be a natural part of that.
But I can hear that. So I offer you this that whenever God
allows you to go through a trial and you're going through it and there's something
about it that just doesn't seem right, you're not hearing or you're not you're
not grasping that one thing that He's trying to get to you. And I
think patience is going to be a very powerful part of that. So I
want you to kind of meditate to think on that. I'd love for you
to open up scripture and maybe even if it's just going through Proverbs and just
reading little bits and pieces, to start under prayer and see what God has
to say. Really be there, not just hey, God, help me
get me out of this. Just what do you want me to see?
What am I missing? And I think that that will have, along with
these other decisions, will have a powerful, powerful change in your life.
You know, it's interesting. There's so many things that have great importance in
life, and people kind of push them aside and get focused on the things
that are right in front of them only. But there's a great vast importance
that God has for you. And I know it's not in vogue to have
faith really, at least not in faith in God. People have put them
their faith into all kinds of other things, sadly, and not something that
the Bible is ignorant of. But people are starting to put their faith into
themselves. And I know, on the surface, you hear that and you
think, well, that's good. That means people have self confidence and self
esteem. It's not about that. It's that if you're only reliant on yourself
for the things of God, for the spiritual things. Then you are your
own God. And I assure you, if you are your own God,
then you're going to let yourself down. Now. On the flip side of
that, there are those that have faith that look towards God during times of
pain, times of frustration, trials and the like and say, why God
are you taking me through this? Well, the Bible's very clear you will
go through trials, you will experience tough times. Faith Christianity doesn't remove those
tough times from your life. It helps you get through them and hopefully learn
something through them. When you are continually going through the process of a trial
and it seems like it's going on and going on forever, it is very
easy to say God, why me. But usually when people are saying that,
the expectation is to jar God and have God go oh my gosh,
yeah, I didn't mean for you to go through this, I apologize and
clear it away rather than saying God, why me? What do you have
planned? Why do you need me to learn? What do you want me
to see? What do you want me to know that I don't now?
And coming from the trial from that mindset will set you up to receive and
to understand better than just kicking the can and being frustrated. But I assure
you, if you're in that trial, there is something something to be learned
ed. Welcome to the Jesus Christ Show. Thank you for taking my prayer.
I call. I'm almost embarrassed ask this question. Oh, don't be.
It's regarding the Lord's prayer, which is so beautiful. I don't know
why I didn't ask this question earlier. The meaning of that I will be
done on earth as it isn't have an I if you would explain the meaning
of that. Sure. The prayer is often quoted and not always understood in
its fullness. So I'm glad that you call. There's there's so much to
it, and it's quite beautiful as you go through. Let's say, go
through it in Matthew. When you go through the prayer and you listen to
the specifics of it, our Father, who are in heaven, hello'd be
thy name, thy kingdom Come, They will be done on earth as it
is in heaven. That really the parts of the prayer are important because if
you read it, I say prayer, pray like this, I'm not saying,
just recite this prayer and it's not that it's bad to recite the prayer,
but I'm saying pray like this, and the language there is very important
because really I'm giving a template for prayer, explaining the different the different things
that go into a prayer that make it important and beneficial. So in this
case you have the beginning, it says, pray, then this way,
our Father, where art in heaven. That's acknowledging who God is and where
God is, that he's on his throne, and that he's above all things.
Hallowed be thy name, that God is holy. Thy Kingdom Come,
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Thy Kingdom Come
is validating the promise of God that God will bring heaven, that God will
usher in those that believe into heaven. So Thy Kingdom Come is acknowledging that
promise with the Covenant of God, and that He will fulfill that promise.
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. This is acknowledging
the fact that God's will being done is at the center of all of this,
and that in heaven it's already done because the angels that rebelled are gone.
So everyone in heaven is applying the will of God. So you're asking
that that that has taken place in heaven will take place on earth. Please
allow people to see your will to apply your will into their lives. So
that is part of the petition. The prayer there give us this day our
daily bread is talking about sustenance and having that balance in life and taking in
what you need, not what you want. Forgive us our debts, as
we also forgive our debtors. You know, allow please forgive us for the
things we do, but allow us the grace to forgive others. Lead us
not to temptation. Another verse that confuses people, but deliver us from evil.
This is not God leading you into temptation and you saying, hey,
please don't do that. Stop leading me to temptation. The proper wording is
lead us away from temptation and deliver us from evil. So and then it
goes on as some people will add, for Thine is the Kingdom, the
power, and the glory forever. I mean. But that's very powerful when
you go through that and you see that those different parts are about the different
parts of prayer that you should have in your prayers every day. That will
help you to connect with God. So excellent question. I appreciate that.
Ed James. Welcome to the Jesus Christian. Yes, I'm calling regarding some
problems that I have. I'm a born again Christian and thought I could take
on an industry that I just had no business taking taking on, and I
need to see if I can get back into the God's flock, trying to
try not to be so shameful what I've done in the industry. This particular
industry was pornography, okay, And was there a pattern that you saw?
Were you just curious at first? And then yeah, I was curious at
first, kind of grew up in the area that it seemed like it was
not a bad thing to do. And then I became saved and I wanted
to I wanted to get rid of it because I felt then after being saved
that it was wrong. And maybe there's a lot of people that had fell
into that and maybe that's why they didn't want to turn to God. I'm
not for sure, but I thought I can take it on, and I
did. When I did go through the motions of trying to see how I
can do that with petitions, moratoriums and things of that nature, and then
I just kind of fell back into it. I confess that, and then
the reason that I kind of fail back is the shame. But also you're
you're also just labeled so much and it's just kind of hard. How so
you mean by people that find out or by people in the church, right,
exactly exactly more people in the church are struggling with it than you may
think. So that kind of judgment usually comes with the concept of people trying
to make themselves better than you. So I wouldn't worry about that. Just
now worry about yourself and your connection with God. That's okay, that's key.
And as far as the battle within, is this something you do multiple
times a day, Oh, I'm, I'm it's more under the control now.
Just I just struggled with just going back to church. That's that's more
or less it. And and we and and not wanting to be dishonest about
the real the relevation of that, but to be honest about it and how
I go about or should I even go about being a revealing that because when
you do, then that's the thing of pointing starts. Well, if it's
something that you are in control of through prayer and through changing lifestyle, things
doing. There's many things that can be done. What you can put adult
I know it seems silly, but you can put restrictions. Yeah, do
things like that just to remind you, to give you more hurdles to jump
over. And like I said, I've been doing that and I'm controlling it.
Sure hits. I'm sorry, no, and I just don't want you
to get The enemy is very good at taking humanity and the things that come
with humanity, the sin nature of man and these types of things, and
really trying to put so much shame on top of it that you won't show
your face in a church, or you won't show your face around the people
of God. So that the thing that is human and frustrating and part of
your walk and really part of you getting closer with God by removing things like
pornography from your life. But the enemy, even in that victory, wants
you to feel shame. And you can't let the enemy get that foothold in
your life because the pornography is bad enough, because that's something that gets a
foothold that makes you feel bad about yourself. It's a very limited pleasure time.
All of these things is what builds the addiction there. But now when
you are working or pushing it out of your life, the enemy loves to
go. You're filthy. You should feel nothing but shame. God doesn't even
want you in his house. The people of God, they don't love you,
they don't care about you. They don't want you there because that still
serves his purpose. His entire purpose is to keep you from God. And
that is worse than any pornography you can look at. That is the true
vulgarity in life and the spiritual life, is the enemy lying in your ear
day in and day out that you're not worthy of God, when God himself
said you are so worthy that I will send my son to die on the
cross and resurrect three days later so that you shall be saved. And to
allow the devil to speak to you like that is to reject that very gift
of grace. And you need to push through it, and you really need
it. Doesn't mean you need to wear a scarlet letter on your jacket or
shirt you need to tell everybody every time you walk into a church, it's
not about that. And don't feel that. I know I appreciate the fact
that you want to be honest but even at church, you don't meet everybody
and shake hands and go I'm an alcoholic. Oh well, I love pornography.
Oh I cheated on my wife. I can't have a relationship. Now,
that's not how you greet everybody. Because humans are humans, and even
believers wrestle with those things and are fearful of them and will judge you differently
until they get to know you. So if it as you get to know
somebody or your pastor or these types of things, and if it comes up
and it's appropriate, absolutely, It's not that you're trying to hide it or
stuff it down. It's just not a good thing to lead with. And
that's what I did. I lead with it. Yeah, it's a tough
one, brother, because they they there's an automatic belief to that, and
even though it could be somebody who themselves are struggling with it, they'll still
want to judge you. I revealed it under the guise of that it would
be a coup, that I did it confidentially, and that I tell you,
that's what a portrayal that was. Well, humans are humans, and
there you will It is a betrayal. Absolutely, This was someone in leadership.
Yes, yeah, that's that's gross, but it is, but that's
going to happen. And I learned, and like I said, you know,
I had such a strong relationship and I know I can rebuild that and
I know that what my gift is, I'm an encourager and I can encourage
people. I really love encouraging people, and I love your show. I
just took me a little while to get to you. And I appreciate your
answers and they are rot on the nose, So thank you so much.
In anybody else that's listening that had that problem, Jesus loves you, man,
and you can go to him, and I appreciate your help. Brother.
You know what happens quite a bit, James, and I want you
to really think about this, is that people that have the gift of certain
things, like you say, encouragement, almost never ever impart that gift onto
themselves. And you have to allow yourself to hear those very same words that
you've given others time and time again, those words of encouragement and kindness,
acceptance, and you need to allow yourself to have them as well. Guard
yourself until you feel safe. Not every church, sadly, is safe,
not every person in a church is safe, even though there will be those
that are so guard yourself as you're opening up and you're learning about a church.
I'm sorry that you'd open up to somebody and you'd say, Hey,
this is what I'm wrestling with and they did not keep that in confidence or
they treated you different because of it. That really is a horrible sin,
unto itself. But understand that you are coming out from underneath being a slave
to this. Two Peter two nineteen says that for whatever overcomes a person to
that, he is enslaved. And if there's something that overcomes you, and
in this case it's pornography and that sensation of orgasm, whatever it is building
those things up, or the release that comes with it, those types of
things can be very powerful, and I want you to work through them,
obviously as you're doing. But I don't want you to feel the shame of
the enemy that whispers in your ear, because all that does is trying to
keep you from God, and you're not going to fall for that. And
I don't want you to fall for that. The enemy hates you, and
the enemy hates me, and the enemy wants nothing more than to keep us
away from each other because in that bond, in that relationship, there is
strength, strength to truly overcome, strength to guard yourself against the ways of
the enemy, which are ultimately death, not physical death necessarily, but spiritual
death. And the enemy has a way of finding those soft spots in your
life, poking at you day in and day out, seeing how you respond.
And when the enemy finds what you respond to, then he pounces.
And when the enemy sees something in your life, whether it be pornography or
whatever it might be, that is ruling it something that you're struggling with,
knowing that you care enough to confess it and to strengthen yourself and to remove
it from your life. These addictions that pull you down, that the world,
the very hurdles that the enemy has put in front of you, or
bad enough. But the moment you get strength to push them aside, the
moment you get strength to say, I won't let this put me in bondage
anymore, I won't let this control me. I will not be enslaved.
And you push past them and you start to better yourself. Then the enemy
switches gears and he just slithers up next to you and gets in your ear
and says, Wow, that sure was a pretty big hurdle. You probably
aren't even over it yet, And it doesn't really matter, because even if
you're over it, even if you remove it from your life, you've got
the stink of that, the scars from that, all over your body,
and that's all anyone can see. And that is so putrid to the nostrils
of God. He will turn himself from you because of what you've done.
But the enemy is a liar, and the enemy plays on your insecurities.
The enemy plays on the things that you worry about, that you are constantly
thinking of, because all he needs is just to push it off a little
bit. Each day. The less time you spend with God, the less
time you search for God, the less time you spend praying, talking,
connecting with God, is time that He has you in a place of vulnerability.
He has you in a place where you're softened to Him, even when
it's a place of strength. In one arena, you're getting better, you're
strengthening yourself, you're trying to purify yourself through God. The enemy uses that
transition to make you feel so bad about yourself, to make you feel so
ugly that you'll turn yourself away from God. But he'll make you believe that
it's God turning himself from you, but I assure you it's not. My
arms are always open and I'm facing right at you, wanting nothing more than
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