Damn. So somebody called me. But that just that just put the cherry
on the top of my good ass day. Should I get there, I'll
just tell y'all that part right now. That just made my day. Because
somebody wants to the Future concert. Mind you already candidate futurity candid Detroit.
So this this ain't the Detroit Concert. Somebody wants the Future concert and they
just FaceTime me and they on the floor. And that's good for them because
it's their birthday. I'm happy for them. But that's special to me because
you you FaceTime me when you was at the concert because you're trying to show
me the vibes and that that just made that. That just made my night.
That just made my day. So that's a good ass day. But
okay, so now um oh. So I was saying that Jamal had the
owner of the Bloom Transformation coming to our yoga teacher training and she was talking
about like just like emotional cleansing through the body and stuff like that, and
she said that one of the things that they do there is called trimmering because
we hold like a lot of emotional trauma in our body, so like just
getting that out of our body or whatever. It was just a whole informational
thing whatever. And when he brought her there to the training, I'm like,
I want to go there and I want to do that. That's something
I would love to do. And so I just hadn't gotten the rounds of
doing it. And I've seen one person on my Instagram timeline they'd be going
there and she was like, I love it whatever, and I'm like,
I gotta fucking go there. I gotta go to bloom blah blah blah.
So today she was like, yeah, I want you to come to the
sound Bowl healing for my granddad. She was like, um, it's just
gonna be people that poured into him, and I want people that are appored
into me and just you know, special people to me to come or whatever.
And I'm like, absolutely, I'll come. So I fucking go.
Oh okay, wait wait wait wait wait wait. So then so after the
classes and ship, I go home, I take a shower, all of
that blaza blah, and I'm like, I gotta go. And mind you,
I had never ate at all today. All I had was that coffee,
and that coffee was good. And I can't even hate on the old
mulk, the old It was good with the old mulk, so Nigga got
it for free and the old mulk was good. So I still eight all
fucking day, so I'm hungry as hell, and I'm like, but I
just gotta I gotta get there. I want to be there on time or
what. Of course they gonna want to be on time. So I ended
up having to get a lift there. And so when I'm walking off the
house and I'm getting the lift and Nigga got the motherfucking music banging, but
he banging the vibes that Nigga playing today was a good day. And I'm
like, man, that's that's a good ass on to to be banging.
That's a good ass vibe. That's a good ass mantra Nigga that you know
what I'm saying. So when I get in the car, I'm like,
okay, vibes and he was like, you feel me? So we in
that bitch vibing out. We had a good conversation. But the fact that
that song was on it, he was like, how are you doing today?
And I'm like, my day been good already, Like I'm good today,
but no, but no, it had already been a good ass day,
and I'm like, it's gonna be a good ass day. So that
there, just it was a good ass day. Um, I don't talk
about good ass day. That's that Detroit shit. So yeah, that happens.
So I get to bloom. So I get there or whatever I see
Lauren, I'm giving her hook whatever. It's people in there. I'm speaking
to the people. I walk around the corner and I got to sit down
in my little spot or whatever. Guess who's fucking there, Fucking Cat from
the Trap. I just talked about Cat on another episode. Cat is there,
So I embraced Cat. We're showing love whatever. I'm like, cool
at least, you know what I'm saying. You know, I don't have
a problem with going places by myself, but you don't like to be somewhere
by yourself and like feel all the place or you know, don't know the
people around you. You know what I'm saying. It's not a problem to
speak to people and make conversation and make friends, but you kind of want
to be comfortable with somebody that you know in places sometimes. So I'm like,
it was so perfect that she was there, and so we do the
sound bowl healing. The meditation. It was so beautiful. It was so
crazy because during the sound Bowl meditation, you know, I didn't even know
what to expect, Like I have a sound ball and I've played it before,
but I'm not super deep into like sound ball healing. But um and
you know another thing that I've been working on this meditation too, like I'm
not I'm not a master meditator, master marrier maybe, but it's like no,
but no, um, so just not a master meditator. And then
like that, but I was able to One thing that I've learned from meditation
is to become the observer of your thoughts and not to judge yourself for what
comes up. And like, well, why are you thinking about this?
You should be listening to the sound baller, you should be well you know
what I'm saying. Just when you trying to meditate, you it'd just be
so much passing through your mind, and it's like why are you getting upset
with where your mind goes? Like because after a while, if you just
let your mind do whatever the fucking want to do, it's gonna space out.
It's gonna zone out at some point, and then you'll just being in
the now you know what I'm saying, So don't be mad for thinking all
those thoughts or for whatever coming. You know what I'm saying, You just
got to be the deserver. So while it was playing, I was thinking
about a lot of stuff, but I was also like having like I guess,
I don't even know if I want to say, like a conversation with
my inner cell or whatever, but the voice within and just me trying to
rationalize like stuff with my intuition and all. Like, I was thinking about
a lot of stuff, but I was like just processing it in my mind.
So I never went to sleep at all during this. I was very
much aware. I was very much awake. But when it was over,
I felt like I had been sleep for so long, Like I felt like
I had got like the best sleep in the world. But mind you,
I literally was up there. I was thinking the whole time, like my
mind was on something the whole time. But when it was over, I
felt like I had been sleep. I felt well rested, and my energy
felt so high. I felt like I was on a cloud. Like I
couldn't even explain it, but it just felt so good. And yeah,
so KAT was there or whatever. After that, um you know, I
ended up going with Kat and oh my god, Oh my god. First
of all, Kat is a fucking vibe. So we had just an amazing
fucking conversation like again and just oh that wasn't one part I skipped, So
one thing that I kept thinking about when I had went to bloom and I
was like, I kept saying to myself and I'm like, I can't believe,
like I'm here, Like how am I even here? I kept saying
that in my mind and not not how am I here? Because I know
how I'm here. I know why I'm here, Like when I keep talking
about being in alignment, but I don't know, it's still a piece of
me that feels like that's crazy to me to be that in alignment and to
be in the room it was it was to be in a room was so
many individuals on the same shit. When I'm saying, like everybody as a
yoga teacher or a healer or does some type of healing work and all,
you know, just all of that, and just the fact that even I
randomly just sent her that text message like hey, you know, if you
up for it comes to the class, and then she invited me there like
just the way it all pieced together and the conversations and everything that happened today.
I was just like, so I kept saying to myself, like,
how am I here? But not how am I hear? Because I know
how I'm here, I know why I'm here. But it's just it's crazy
to really be living in the middle of what you've created, what you've manifested.
Would you know what I'm saying, When you really stick true to the
path and to the vision, it's so crazy how all of that shit come
together. Like, it was just so wild to me. And and that's
another thing. I feel like, that's what it feels like to be in
the present moment to really be mindful of that. So anyways, afterwards,
me and Cat go and hang out, and like I said, we had
a dog ass conversation. One thing that I've really learned about Cats that first
of all, Cat is a real ass bit. She cool as hellum and
a very nice and lovable person. But also I told her today, I'm
like, you you give like TV show vibes like and me and her we
definitely gonna have to collab and do a podcast. We might have to just
get together, but separately, like separately, but get together also and do
something together because like it's unmagical there with me and her, and like I
had to touch on a lot of things with her, just about her purpose
today and just how everything is an alignment for her. Like we had a
man a dog ass conversation. And so then we're like, we gotta go
get some to eat because my niggas had all that. We had a little
bit of fruit at the at the event or not the event, but whatever,
we had a little fruit there. But we had an eight all day
and so um, we went to like twenty places. Cat Like I know
all the places were good food. Anytime, like anytime somebody go somewhere with
me, they're gonna eat good. The food gonna be fire. Blah blah
blah. We went to like twenty different places and every time we went there
it was just the vibes was off or someone and I'm she like you want
to do this, we could do this, and I'm like no, Like
if I walked in somewhere in the Bible was off, I'm like no,
or it was just something going on. It was like no. So we
finally get the world. We're gonna eat that that fucking food was fired.
It was worth the fucking way. We still had even deeper dog ass conversation
when we sat there, like we literally just sat and talked for hours and
shit and like, but just very meaningful, impactful conversation and just talking about
where we at, Like we got real deep today, like and that's why
she definitely got to come on the podcast and stuff like that. But it
was just it was just really just a good ass day overall. And she
was talking about how good her day was and the fact that we even just
came together on some shit like organically, you know what I'm saying, and
again just grateful to be around my tribe and all of that or whatever.
Um. And then there's just so many other things going on in my life
and I'm not sure if I should share. I think I should just wait.
I don't even I'm gonna just hit niggas with a with a whammy because
I also want to see how it's gonna turn out. I don't want to
speak on it. And then it turned out a different way niggas be like
bit but yeah, so I kind of want to wait, but I'm very
excited, like I'm about into a whole I'm about to pull the whole move
on niggas, and y'all gonna be like, what the fuck. But I
think it's gonna be an amazing time. I think it's gonna be a vibe
like y'all niggas are seen, y'all niggas to see. I'm very excited about
it. Um. And so then, like I said, the cherry on
Tipe today was that person that just called me from the future concert like,
oh you want me to be there? I want to be there with you.
Oh my god, I can't believe my life, bro, I can't
believe my life. But again, this is just a testimony to the fact
that and I just told Cat this today. I just told and I said
this on here too before. But we gotta stop saying shit just because it
sounds good on the ground. We gotta stop saying shit just because it's trendy.
I said it on an episode, and I said it's to cats today.
I'm like, I was getting tired of myself going to yoga every day.
And at the end, nigga's be like, okay, in He'll took
a deep breath, hands and brother head exhale out them all took another deep
inhale handso by the head, x Heller would no longer serve you, and
I was doing it every fucking day in hell x Heal would no longer serves
you. And I'm sitting here talking to myself, my higher self looking at
me like jas. But how many times you're gonna sit here in in Hell
and exhale saying you ex heller was no longer serving you and you still hold
on to it? How many times are you gonna do that? With you
being the person that you are. You gotta you gotta talk to talk,
but you gotta walk the walk. How many times are you gonna see here
in in Heale and say you exhaling what's no longer serving you, and you're
still holding onto it. I was feeling like a fraud. I was wondering
why s in my life wasn't changing. I was wondering why certain shit was
happening in my life because I was still holding onto things that no longer serve
me, and it showed. And even if it didn't show to the world,
to get showed to me, I gotta gonna sleep myselfa at night.
I gotta look at myself in the mirror every fucking day. I know what's
not serving me. I know what's not feeling good to me. I know
what's not benefited me. I know what's not value with me. How many
times are you gonna sit here in in hell exhale what's no longer serving you.
You gotta let that shit go. You gotta free up the space.
As soon as you do, the universe replaced. Boom, there you go.
She gonna slap you like a fucking below zero day in Detroit, Nigga,
She's gonna slap the fuck out of you. And again. Something else
that I said to somebody the other day, But what I said to myself
was like, I don't know, I'd be so caught up on what something
is or why something is happening. And it's also like, bitch you.
That's another thing. Who said that? Somebody said, are you experiencing life
or are you avoiding life? People be wanting to avoid life, people want
people be wanting to avoid the problems. People want to avoid the bad shit.
That shit is, Um, it's gonna happen, you know what I'm
saying. It's a part of life. So are you gonna experienced life?
Are you gonna avoid life. And so I'm always trying to pick a part.
I'm always trying to analyze shit. I'm saying, oh, what if
this is wrong? What if this happens like bitch's fucking life, live that
shit? Why you always shy? You know what I'm saying, it's always
trying to have some type of control over shit. And so UM. I
was thinking to myself when I was in the shower one day and I was
like, well, even if X, Y and Z happened, I pursue
this. I initiated this, so you know what I'm saying, it made
me. To me, I think it just was to make my ego feel
better, like you pursue this, so to that makes it more real because
if it if it would have came into your world, it's like it could
be flawed, it could be a plot, it could be you know what
I'm saying. The fact that I'm even looking at shit like that is sad,
but you know what I'm saying, it's like, well, you chose
to do this, so that makes it more real. That's what I was
telling myself and so m But either way, nigga, life is gonna life.
Life is gonna happen. You know what I'm saying, one way or
another. Nigga, this came into my life and is here. So no
matter how the fucking gout there. Who you know, how I got placed
there? Who did it? Whatever, nigga is here. It's supposed to
be here for a reason. However it's gonna play out. Is here for
a reason. So yeah, I'm a real I could be a real weird
though, but you know, I don't know. Like, I'm just really
happy where where ship is right now. And like I said, today was
just a really good ass day and every day it gets better. Bro.
Like another thing was I like how I could talk my shit in my classes
and stuff. And one of the things to that, like I love how
with yoga certain poses do certain things or how certain benefits. So you have
heart openers, you have throw openers, you know what I'm saying. And
up, dog, it's a heart opener, it's a throat opener. Okay,
being open to receive. You got you got that area open. You're
looking up to the sky, you know what I'm saying. Like, and
these are things that you're doing for the body. This is healing for the
body. You know what I'm saying. And again, if you're a person
that's really closed minded or you gotta closed heart, or you don't you know
what I'm saying. But again, the things that I'm attracting into my life,
throw opener, heart opener. I'm able to attract love into my life
because I'm opening my heart. I'm able to speak my truth. I'm able
to communicate. I'm I'm able to stand up for myself. I'm able to
verbalize how I feel because I'm doing throw openers. You know what I'm saying.
Like, it's really like, I don't know, you gotta you gotta
do it for yourself. You know what I'm saying. I can't. I
can't convince you of it. You're trying to do it for yourself. But
I'm just I'm just saying what's working for me. I'm just saying what's working
for me. So I've noticed that as well. I'm just like man like
I have not I don't even know if I want to say I ain't never
been happy before, that would be a would that's a why, that's why
that's fun to say. That's no, that's for real, that's and why
that shit say you ain't never been happy before. I won't say that.
I won't say I've never been happy before, but I've never been this happy.
I've never been this content with like my life just like my real life,
like you know what I'm saying, like being able to literally for real,
Like I don't know if people be lying when they be said, I'll
be waking up, I'll be thinking God, I'd be grateful. Like some
niggas really just wake up. They fee hit the flow and they walk straight
to the bathroom and brush their teeth, or they go smoke a blunt,
or they get on the phone or they get on Instagram. Some people really
don't wake up and be like, thank you God for another day of life,
or thank you or whatever, or I'm grateful for this. I'm you
know what I'm saying. People really walk through life and just don't be grateful
or don't express gratitude. Which I have been that person before, but at
this point in my life, at this space in my life, I really
wake up and be like, Oh, I love my job, I love
what I do. I'm happy to be awake, I'm happy to go outside,
I'm happy to do this. I'm you know what I'm saying, like,
but again, I'm able to do that because I'm happy with where I
am. I'm content with where I'm at, I'm content with my real life.
You know what I'm saying. When you're not happy with your life,
it's hard to be grateful. It's hard to see the blessings when you're not
happy with your life. So just waking up with a whole different attitude,
with a whole different mindset, like it just push you in a different headspace
and push you in a different space in life like tomorrow. Mind you,
these past couple of days, that little snowstorm had us down bad. We
didn't have power at the trap, Nick, I ain't teach for shit.
We didn't have power Fiday some but I don't teach every day, but I
didn't. You know, I missed classes. I missed a weaker glasses.
But and you know what, but I also feel like I was getting tired.
I was getting worn out from the tramp. I ain't gonna lie.
So it was a cool little break. But then I got tired of doing
yoga at home, and I learned that absence does make the heart girl finder.
I'm like, dang, I miss teaching. I missed, you know
what I'm saying, And it's doing yoga at home. It's not the same
as doing it as a studio. It's not the same. It's just a
different energy, it's a different vibe there. But again, it's all about
balance, you know what I'm saying. Another thing that I learned is that
to me and somebody had a conversation with me about this, and I think
it just depends on you know, I'm open to take advice and criticism from
from everybody and anybody, but I just think at the end of the day,
we're all individuals, so certain stuff means certain stuff to certain people.
For me, like, one thing that I realized is that I want to
push myself to go harder with yoga and just to just so I can constantly
become better and evolved, and you know what I'm saying, become better with
it every day. I don't feel like I can slack. That's why I
go so hard. And I had to think about it. I'm like,
and that's why I'd be so adamant about taking other people's classes and going to
the trap and doing that, because that's what's gonna keep me sharp, That's
what's gonna keep me, you know what I'm saying. And that's what's gonna
challenge me if I just do yoga at home every day. First of all,
Yo, that's the thing I had to say this to myself. I
said, what's yoga at home? That's you know what I'm saying. It'd
be real laxed when I'm at home. But it's like, nigga, if
you're doing yoga, you're doing yoga. Why you know what I'm saying.
But again, it's that balance because I just I'm not gonna go that hard
at home, you know what I'm saying. But it was a couple of
days where I'm like, no, you need to put yourself and you need
to go harder because it was just getting very lax to me. And it's
like that's no, you know what I'm saying. But again, it's just
about balance. But again, that's why I like to take other people's classes
to stay sharp. That's why you know, I want to teach classes and
stuff like that, because it's a certain you know, as a teacher,
it's just a certain energy, it's a certain presence you got to come with.
You can't be doing home yoga. But again, I had asked myself,
what is home yoga, nigga yoga and yoga you need to be doing
that shit. So but again, you know, every day ain't gonna be
no hard core, hard throttle go deep in the mud for it. You
know what I'm saying. You getting on your man is good enough every day.
And again, that's why you need to balance. That's why you need
to do a shanga. That's why you need to slow down and do y
in, especially because that's what your body be need at certain times. You
know what I'm saying. I'm a person that go hard. I want to
do to shana seventy five days a week. But you know you also need
ye you need that, you need that slow class. You need a restorative
class. You need like a deep stretch. You need something you know,
to kind of work with the body. So and then you need your rest
days too, So that's the thing as well. But yeah, man,
like life is just life. Be lifeing, but in a good way.
And I'm glad I'm finally at a point where I could say that, like
in a good way. I'm just happy for all the niggas around me.
I'm happy for myself. I'm happy for I'm just happy for so much and
I'm very proud of myself. Man, Like this ship has been a very
long journey. It's still a long road ago. It's gonna still be so
much more to learn, It's gonna be still so much shit to fuck up
on. It's still you know what I'm saying, nigga, It's life.
It's life, and you can't worry about none of that shit though. You
gotta be right where you are in a moment that you are right now,
and right now you're right here listening to me, baby, Okay, okay,
So that's it is what it is. But today was definitely a good
day. So I'm just here expressing gratitude to y'all for that. We're back
at it again next week, nigga, and put motherfucking ye put me down
for you in night's nigga. So um yeah, this week I'll be teaching
Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and then I'll be teaching at the high school
on Tuesday. That's it for that and then oh and in tomorrow after I
teach them. I never went to that gym that I was I talking about
it on here. I didn't go to that because it ended up being a
snowstorm. But I'm gonna go tomorrow. I'm so ice Yesterday. Yesterday I
went hard with the young Gyl. It was a very rough day and my
body was through and that was another thing. I was throughout, Like I
gotta go home and lay down and take a nap because my body was just
through the fucking ringer. And then when I woke up, I still was
just feeling lazy as fucking I'm like, I gotta create this flow, and
the hours was just passing. I was just looking at myself and I'm looking
at my phone and I'm looking I'm like, what's gonna happen with this end
class? And it was fucking amazing. But um yeah, so I'm excited.
And I think another reason why today's class went really well because I set
an intention for my flow, and the intention was to surrender and to really
just let everything go, to let all your thoughts go to you know what
I'm saying, and to just connect with your body. And actually, you
know, because the body holds more wisdom than the mind than your brain,
you know what I'm saying, And that's how we hold onto emotional trauma and
shit like that. So today, I was just telling people to really connect
with their body and listen, have a conversation with your body. What does
your body need? You know what I'm saying, because a lot of times
we ignore our bodies. Niggas be tired and be running on fumes. You
know what I'm saying. You'd be overworking yourself, overworked, underpaid, going
to a job. Can't take time for yourself, can't take a sick day,
can't. You know what I'm saying, And your body be telling you
like, bro, I'm about to burn out, nigga, Like I'm about
to be done. Niggas pass out, have a heart attach whatever. You
know what I'm saying, Like nigga's bodies be giving out on them, like
because you're not listening to your body. So I was telling people to surrender
everything, don't even think about nothing else but this moment, and just feel
your body. You know what I'm saying, whatever it needs, even for
me. So like again, I said an intention for the practice today,
but I had to surrender myself. I had to surrender my emotions to feeling
like like, oh my god, how am I gonna do this? She
ain't class. I had to surrender my thoughts. I had to surrender all
of that shit and it ended up like just being great. So here I
am telling Nigga's to surrender and set an attention. It's like I had to
get there. It was just like Nigga putting me in the game. Coach,
I'm here and I was in that bitch and Nigga Kobe Bryant and that
bitch. I'm so funny. Oh, I'm so funny. I am so
funny. Oh my god. But um yeah, so I thought I would
just come on here and share that with y'all. Unfortunately, this is gonna
have to be broken up into two parts because that call came through. But
I appreciate it. I went to the concert, I saw what I saw,
and that's it. And if you're in the Metro Detroit area, I
absolutely suggest and recommend that you come to the Trap Yoga Studio and come take
some classes. Like I said, put a Nigga on yend Okay, it's
up, and a shawana as well. Um, I see myself getting better
and better. I'm gonna see how tomorrow's class goes. Maybe I could slow
it down a little bit and did a yend class. Maybe I could slow
it down and it really be a flow flow for real, So we'll see.
But that is all that I have for y'all. I hope y'all enjoyed
this episode. I hope y'all took something from this messure. You follow me
on all platforms and say hello, my homies, Blackground experience on TikTok and
come to see your girl at the Trap. I'm out