This. It's the two seventeen Recovery Podcast with Corey Winfield and it's better Half.
Marnie Winfield. Check check check check check check check check check on my
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It is they thirteen twenty point three and my name's Cory Winfield. My name's
Marny Winfield. Recovery Podcast. Spend a miss done one. Your last podcast
was on Monday and it was from the Day of Education. It's done by
n MRI in Gaylord, Michigan. So spent a minute. But I've been
super busy, Marnie. Let's talk about your past week and a half or
two weeks. I can't remember the last podcast you did. Yeah, spent
a minute. Um so yeah. I got to walk across the stage for
my graduation, which was awesome. Um. You know, I kind of
had debated doing it, I guess because I'm like, I know I did
it. I know I accomplished it. I don't need to, I don't
need to, you know, walk across the stage. But it was really
meaningful. And um, my family came, and you know, my mother
in law came, all my well, all my in law's game parents,
and then my parents came and their significance, so it was really it was
an awesome It was an awesome day to celebrate me and my accomplishment. So
if I really good, mh, I bet, And I mean I was
just I just walked to high school. You know, that was pretty cool.
So I can only imagine how that felt getting your masters, and I
know the hard work that you put in and to see you come from well,
I met you in treatment. Yeah, so when you were in treatment
and to see you come from there to there, you know, I knew
that it was definitely impossible with you and I get to see you were determined
to like make this time different, and that was the same attitude the feelings
that I share. So I think maybe that kind of drew me to you
as well. When I met you in treatment. A lot of people know
our story already, but I was the guy that was getting peanut butter for
people. I wasn't your therapist or anything like. I wasn't trying to play
them mack down on you, nothing like that. But people would, you
know, reference you wire talking about you as oh no, she's serious,
she's not playing around, And it really showed and you know, to pull
yourself up and get back on track. It takes a lot for someone who's
had so many heartbreaks and just bad goes at it, you know, to
just dust yourself off and get back up. You know, I'm really super
proud of you, and of course I love you a lot tons So to
see that, you know, I was like, that's my wife up there.
You know, it was very cool and very special, you know,
to see you do that, and I'm sure just feels great. And some
people and maybe you could understand what I say when I'm like, Yeph,
that's cool. Let's move on to the next. You know, people can
sit here and go Marty, that's great you did that, but in your
mind you already have other things planned. Yeah. I mean it's like Moore
is going to be, you know, like unveiled for me. It feels
like and I am you know, I didn't think it was going to be
emotional, but like sitting there and then you know, they played the song,
the graduation song, and I was like, I'm like, wow,
this, I'm glad I came and I did earn this because that's what it
is. I mean, I put a lot of work into it. It
was a goal that I had. I knew it was going to be a
lot of work when I signed up for it, but I knew I had
I was capable of it, and I just needed to remind myself every day
that, you know, it was something that I had the potential to do
and I had committed to it. So just keep tripping away, you know,
one assignment at a time, one day at a time. And that's
that's kind of the approach that you know I took taken with my recovery too,
is you know, it's it's something that I know that I need and
that I want, and um, I know there's it's a little different because
there's a survival factor there. Um, you know, I would have still
lived another day if I wouldn't have out in my master's degree. But um,
it's the same kind of thing that I knew I had it in me.
I just needed it to remind myself that I needed to put the work
in, you know, And that's what I That's what I've been doing with
my recovery and will continue to do with the rest of my life. But
um, all these different avenues are just keep like showing up for me and
opportunities, and it's all because I'm and doing the work for it, and
so it's it's truly amazing. It doesn't happen overnight, obviously, and that'll
show a lot of people up at first and early recovery. It's it feels
like it's gonna take forever. And I'm sure it felt like when you went
back to school again to get your masters. I'm sure it felt like,
oh, it's gonna take so long. And it did. You know,
it took a bunch of nights in a row, not just one overnight.
It didn't just boom happen. But you put those together, and just like
your recovery, you know, you keep working at it and you keep moving
forward, great things are going to happen. I'm gonna put yourself in situation.
It's gonna open more doors, and pretty soon before you know it,
everybody's looking at you like, wow, that's great. You did great stuff.
And you're the one saying, hey, yep, that is cool.
But watch me feel them still going yeah. And there were days, I
mean, honestly, there were days where I'm like I'm in way over my
head, like what did I sign myself up for? You know? And
even days that I was just like I can't do this, like it's too
much. But that negative thinking doesn't get me anywhere. And those are just
intrusive thoughts that aren't not true, and I just needed to like shovel those
away and just be like, nope, you know I can and I am,
and so let's just keep going. That's great, you know. And
just if you know someone's struggling or you know, going through it, just
tell them, look, it's it's day at of time. And that's why
they say that a lot, you know, on recovery, it's it is
it's day at of time, and you look at the big picture of it.
On some people will try to get cute and like, yeah, but
they told me not to think of the future. You know, don't think
of the future, man, It builds anxiety. It's no, that's not
what they mean. You know, when you're thinking about things that haven't happened
yet, that's what can trip you up a little bit. And of course
the future hasn't happened yet. But I'm talking about like, yeah, but
if I do this, then I'm gonna go there and then everybody's gonna be
there, so I might as well, just drink now, or if I
go there it's gonna be bad. Or if I call the electric company,
they're not going to work with me, So why I can call them?
You know, like that kind of future planning is not going to work.
But you can say, look, here are some goals, and here's what
I want to achieve, and you know, if you don't achieve them right
now, why why you didn't? You know, what didn't work? And
how can you go out of a different way where you can't achieve that goal
exactly? It's frustrating and I'm like, I'm like, like with through seventeen
recovery like things, and again, things didn't just happen overnight. You know.
There's a lot of work, a lot of volunteer hours, you know,
just a lot of things went into this to make it, you know,
kind of get off the ground and look for the things that are happening
for us now. And it's great, you know, but there's a lot
of more things I want to do too, and I don't know, it's
just great to know that, you know, on like on yesterday, we
had to leave the office and I wasn't in the office for I don't know
more than a half hour, maybe hour, but I was out doing things
and it was nice to know that the guys that are there, Adam justin
Mitchell like they can do their job. You know. I didn't have to
worry about anything like that. So that was that was very nice to kind
of for someone who doesn't trust people, you know, for trust issues.
I felt really good. And I told you about that the other day or
maybe it was today. I was like, you know what, it felt
good that I didn't really have to worry about that. I wasn't worrying,
even though I did a little but not as bad, you know. And
it's it's baby stepping, and you know, we're always trying to work on
ourselves. At least I am, you know, to make myself more aware
of where I'm at in life and where I want to be and again how
I how I need to set goals to get myself there, and you know,
becoming a better leader is something that's definitely on my list. And slowly,
but surely again doesn't happen overnight. In case you're wondering, I'm not
sure. If you hear this fan that does not shut off, we are
not in a ritz Carlton no, no, we are not. We are.
We are on the road, of course to Mother's Day. Tomorrow is
Mother's Day and it was a birthday party and a niece that I haven't met
yet, so we did a little road tripping. And yeah, we're saying
this room smell, it's kind of funny. And this fan does not I
have not ever been in a room where the fan does not shut off.
I'm talking about like the fan against the wall that blows out heat and cool
air. You know I'm talking about. You've been in a hotel like sometimes
they have knobs, they used to anyway, now they have like a little
push buttons. But this thing does not shut off. I've never seen that.
You have options to adjust it, but you cannot turn it off.
No, even we get right now it's off, but it's not off.
And I don't know if I don't think these mics are picking it up.
We're not using obviously our studio mics. And what I'm using now is it's
very convenient, actually, and let me see if it has a brand name
to it. I got them off Amazon, and a lot of people will
use these four in which we use them for your sister's wedding, yeah,
like afterward getting people's shots, not shots, but getting their videos to the
bride and stuff like that. But it's a wireless microphone, and a lot
of people use them in cameras, but this one actually has an adapter you
can hook right up to your iPhone and we use Sprieker to do our podcast
from and it has like a little studio app. So we just hit record
on that and it just kind of rolls with it. And I don't know
the name of it doesn't have a brand name, just as wireless microphone,
so I would plug them. But I mean it's not the best microphone in
the world now, but I mean it sounds all right for what I're doing
right now. For it to be like the size of I don't even know,
what would you say, real grape and the grape green bean, but
no, like if you're a grape tomato, a large grape tomato, but
it's not that wide. It's almost like, I don't even know, Um,
if you took like a regular piece piece of like twizzlers, all right,
a regular twizzler, which is like eighty five carbs. Really are you
really playing this game? But nobody is. Carbs are a lot. No.
I was talking about trying to figure out comparing Yah. Yeah, you
take a regular like Okay, there's a Twizzler and you take a third of
it. That's about the size of the microphone. So I'm what I'm saying,
I'm just trying to give people what they want. They want some theater
of the mine. So the third of a Twizzler. That's about how how
bab these microphones are. And they just clip running your shirts though, it's
pretty sweet, and these are what we're using. The other day at the
day of Recovery with Na Marie and Tyrone was like across did you hear that?
I don't think, well, you were talking. I think yeah.
I was with people and I was just I was not working like littlely there
went there for awful little bit no Tyrone. It was kind of comical a
little bit because Tyrone was like across the hall and I was ay man,
yeah yeah, and then like important people came up and I'm like trying to
do a podcast like through them. It was one of them kind of gotten
the way I feel. Did that? Don't worry about it. Tactor justin
like let la ask clowns doing did you answer that question. No, there
was some. There were some really awesome individuals there. Um. You know,
the people from MCBAP were there. Which is the forum. I'm gonna
murder this. It's Michigan Board of Addiction Professionals. I don't know where the
sea is, but no, that's what it is. UM and they were
there represented. And then um there was people there from Catholic Human Services.
There was people there from UM Sunrise. There are people there from Bear River.
There are people there from some recovery housing. Um. Uh, let's
see our CEO was there or I mean our c A Recovery Community CRI.
Sorry, recovery A line. Sorry. I knew I had the letters there.
I was picturing in my brain. Um yeah, um no, there
was a lot of people there. There was so it was it was really
interesting. They had some workshops that we could scept that you were separated out
you could choose one or the other UM, which were super informational and UM
yeah, I really enjoyed it. Yeah, and shout out to Great Lakes
Recovery. They were there too, and they had me host a panel discussion.
I guess yeah, we were. Yeah, you were kind of the
facilitator of it. I was horrible. I kept stuttering. I was like
and my mouth was dry. And they gave me this little last microphone,
like it was like ten swizzlers long, but half the size, half of
the diameter, and like I was trying to like put my little mouth over
there, like hold talking to you. Like it was pretty dumb. I
mean, I'm not saying that they should get new microphones, but they probably
should because they had one like wireless you could pass, but I had to
pass that to the panel, so left me with the stute microphone. I
couldn't even hear if. I was making my voice into it, and it
went wonderfully. I thought, oh, I thought it was horrible. One
day, it came home and she was like, you're funny at the end.
I was like, okay, all right, you're whatever, man,
Like I didn't know how to take that because she thought you were funny.
Yeah, well thanks, but I don't know how to take that because it
was it like, oh my god, you are so funny. You like
tripped like four times up there, you can oh jokes weren't landing? Oh
you thought you were thinking too much into it? It went it went fine,
Yeah, it was Yeah, it was an honor to do it though.
It was and they I mean they asked you of all those people that
were there to step up and do that, that means a lot. Yeah,
So I do appreciate them doing that. And it was actually Community Recovery
Alliance who was like, hey, can you step in and do that?
I was like, yeah, yeah, that's awesome. Yeah and then yeah,
but it was good though, and Murray was there. Ye, there
are people. Yeah, and we got some stuff. And of course we
don't like to talk about what we have coming up until like we know what's
coming up. But there's some interesting things coming up for two seventeen Recovery and
it's pretty exciting, you know, for being a recovery community organization like we
are and trying to move things forward with helping people in the company. You
know, it would be huge. So details coming soon on that, but
we just can't really talk about it too much for them. I'm a governor.
I'm not talking about that. As soon as we as soon as we
get the go ahead to talk about new things, we will be We'll fill
you in promise. Yeah. My man up in Charlotte, boy, he's
running for president. Chow is what we call him Derek Chowden. He's on
the podcast I think our first season, the first year. We don't have
seasons, we have years. But he's running straight up for president. I
was like, damn, bro, Like that's pretty pretty balsy, but I
can't win if you don't run. Yeah, I don't know if they'd ever
tell you about him or any of his story. No, it was crazy,
man, Like he like, think about like the worst thing you could
do to your family and then times that time by like ten, and that's
what he did. And yeah, and you know, I'm not I mean,
we talk he was on a podcast. We talked about it. I'm
not knocking him. I like the guy. And to see him bounce back
as z a miracle because a lot of people would not. They would have
just they would have not. But he told his family, like he was
so bad in his addiction. He told his family he had cancer, he
was dying. Like he played that for a while. And I know he
was telling me that his daughter didn't talk to him for a long time,
and like just everybody just was like f you you know, and understandably,
you know, and he gets it, you know, He's like I get
it, man, so from someone who can make I would say, almost
the ultimate mistake, you know, and the ultimate lie, and you know,
bounce back and clean himself up. And look, he accepts what he
did, you know, and he knows that he was in his active addiction,
but he doesn't pass that off as an excuse. You know. He
says that that's just horrible. That was miserable. And you know, so
whatever you are in your recovery to think that, you're like, man,
I can never come back from that. You know. I called her a
bitch or I called him an asshole or whatever. You know, Yeah,
it can. You can get some stuff back, and will you get everything
back? I don't know, But you can't beat yourself up over that because
that would be one like I said, like, I don't think any a
lot of people come back from that, because that would be a ass kicking
every single day. Yes, and to you know, even ask for forgiveness
on something like that, it's just nuts. But anyway, Yeah, if
he's run for president, you know, I'm just saying those are big dreams,
but maybe we start a governor, you know, That's what I'm saying
because I think that if I would have ran against Whitman, I could have
won, just saying, for real, don't look at me like that.
You get these big eyes that turns sexy or something. What are you doing.
No, I'm just saying, with giving the right campaign, I could
have won. And look, I'm not gonna stoop to her level. I'm
not gonna do it. I'm gonna run my clean campaign. I'm gonna give
thee what they want. And that's a good governor, a good man,
good honest, hard working man. Yeah, in my first video, I'm
gonna have I already playing this out, honey, listen, because this still
might happen. I'm gonna have um, somebody who looks like Whitmer like up.
What I'm just saying, like when you're playing dirty and no, I'm
gonna go up and I'm gonna congratulate because she's gonna be gone. I might
running against her. That's the whole thing, is the whole politician. That's
because everybody here. If your game plan is to just bash everybody else,
that I already shame on you. Okay, you ready, Yeah, all
right, it's last time I beg you to let me finish. By the
way, he just kidding. So anyway, so has somebody looks like Whitmer
and then me walking up to her, you know, we're outside ice cream
parlor, and I shake her hand and I say good job, thinks,
and then she passes the baton and I take it it. Meanwhile, in
the background, there's some guy stealing an ice cream cone from some kids and
I stop him. I say, don't do that. There you go,
that's it. Oh okay, well I hadn't modify it quite a bit.
She started represend to me about what I was really gonna do. But yeah,
that's what I was gonna do. Yeah, no, bag. Now
what I really wanted to do, though, is like Corey Winfield, you
have somebody thing is honey? You say too much to be a politician.
I know, if people love it. I'm like Donald Trump. You cross
too many lines, I know, but it's gonna be fun just saying him
I love you, but just saying, okay, so Corey Winfield, he
doesn't take ice cream from kids. And then like, have this kid trying
to get me an ice cream and let me smack it out of his hand.
Doesn't take ice cream from kids, Corey Winfield, govern you want Michigan,
you want him in Lancing and had me just like hanging out with them
all and Lancing like, what's up? I don't know, I have nothing
to say, Like Burgers, I got nothing. My other campaign was gonna
be like F Michigan and then but I have a whole thing about that.
Okay, Yeah, that's what I felt like people are doing. If you're
from Michigan, F Michigan. That that's why feel like some of the politicians
are doing to us. So anyway, I know, I know, I'm
just spitballing here. Whatever happened to that whole positivity thing that you had going
on for a while when everyone was like Corey is so positive? This is
like not it at all. I was just spitballing here. You know,
I'm being governor anyway, Chow, if you need a running mate, bros,
run the other way now look me up. Man like yeah, look
me up. Well you already have my contact. So it just texted me
as something that because I'll go back with you can't one if you don't run.
That's true. That is one piece that is true. So what we
might have a grand opening, Well, we will let you know when our
grand opening is going to be. For the two seventeen Recovery Center. We've
not secured a date yet, but everyone's going to be invited and it's just
gonna be kind of a h I guess, informal, but we will have
some sort of kind of like ceremonial. I don't want to say ribbon cutting
because we might not have a ribbon that's cut. But I'm buy a ribbon,
I know, but I'm just saying it doesn't It could be a theoretical
ribbon, you know. More so just like we should cut an invisible ribbon
with invisible scissors, like a film thattt no beeople out of my campaign too,
the imaginative imagine imagine it. He imagines the impossible. So but no,
it's we're for like mid or I mean early early June, early June
sometimes, so we'll keep you updated on that. Yeah, I should have
a ghost a ghost cut it. How the ghosts come thing invisible ribbon with
the invisible scissors and then he can't stay after it because he's got to catch
a spaceship out of the town. We're talking about. Ghosts are alien?
Wow, come check it out. Openings like over over the Top, its
way over the Top. I was gonna invite Trumps, but we're having a
no grab him by the pea zone. This is what he's all right,
we're done, we're done. Jokes are over. I geez, oh geez,
you just have a little fun. I'm really tired. Yeah that's delirium
talking. All right. Well, anyway, thanks for listening, and yeah,
sorry we haven't been checking in as much about well do our to do
that? And yeah, we appreciate you listening and we cut loose and have
fun sometimes. We do appreciate the fact that if you understand that and you
get it and you can have a chuckle too. So yeah, thanks everybody,
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