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miss any of the revelations. The last thing I could see was the girls
screaming at me, but I didn' t understand what they were shouting.
Everything gets dark intermittently. He kept hearing the screams in the distance or close
at times and for the moment felt that he could open his eyes, but
his eyelids were very heavy and he could not move them. I heard screams
like someone fighting and yelled at me very closely. Suddenly, a flash makes
me open my eyes. Sycarina and Carolina are all over me one on each
side. I' m dizzy and I don' t understand what' s
going on. I look around and again my eyes close. Again a severe
chest pain, injects energy, opens my eyes and I feel dizzy. I
' m in an ambulance. I have a paramedic who is pumping me air
with a resuscitator and another one with electric paddles looking at my reaction and a
monitor next to me beeping I take my hand to the one who is giving
me air and take off the resuscitator and I signal him to approach and I
say to him alice I have cialis I say with difficulty or that it is
okay Relax stay calm tells me firmly. The other for a doctor starts to
stick electrodes in my chest and immediately I start to hear a beep without laughing
like in a device. I started to calm down and then I saw the
sea flee in the ambulance. There with me. I had the look of
fury very fixed on me While I was breathing agitatedly, I felt a lot
of fear and suddenly the beep got out of control flooding my ear and everything
got dark again awake and it' s all there. It' s dark.
You hear a rhythmic beep and I look where it sounds and I see
the monitor, where a red heart beats and next door a number fifty-
eight blinks at the same rhythm and the time indicates that it is ten twenty
- seven at night. A slight pain in my chest reminds me of everything
while my eyes get used to the darkness. A deep sigh tells me I
' m not just looking at a lump in a room seat near the bed.
Someone is sleeping there, covered with a blanket, I feel a bitter
mouth and super dry throat and I look around and feel in bed, I
feel a small cylinder. I see it closely and it' s a push
button to call the nurse and I press it. Thirty seconds later, a
nurse appeared and lit the room light at once. Whoever was in the chair
is startling. It was bad. The nurse is coming to me. How
it feels. I have SED I said covering my eyes from the ceiling light.
Besides the SED, feel something else. It says while his fingers touch
my abdomen and some areas of the chest there I say when it touches my
side, that' s where he received the electrozoc It' s normal.
Take a deep breath slowly. I breathe deep when I see bad standing up
in a sleepy face. Smile slightly. When I see myself, I feel
a slight chest pain internally. When I breathe, I feel a slight pain
internally. It' s okay. That' s normal. While I was
serving water and putting the glass in my mouth to drink a few deaf people,
the doctor will come first hour. Please sleep that you need to rest.
It says as I settle the pillow savanna, check the dripper of the
serum hanging on one side and head towards the door and turn off the light
from the room before exiting. Then Malus comes up, takes my right hand,
takes my push- button off and puts it on the table, makes
me raise my arm, raises the blanket and she goes up to bed.
He gets under the blanket and lies next to me, carefully placing his head
on my shoulder. Right and my hand let her fall on her back,
put a foot on mine and cross her arm over my chest and let me
crawl through the dream. The next day, early in the morning, I
woke up with the nurse' s arrival with the doctor. I used badly
for quickly and stealthily from the bed. It gives the doctor room to check
me out and sit on the sofa in the room. After I had a
thorough checkup, he asked me what had happened. Well, Doctor, I
took a ciaali if I was having sex. The doctor gave a quick look
at malu sitting across the bed on the couch and well, I felt the
pressure on the chest in pain and lost consciousness. According to the paramedics'
report, the girls stressed the very son of a bitch. Apparently, they
saved his life, gave him cardiopulmonary resuscitation while they arrived later in the ambulance.
He had another episode. When he arrived, he was unconscious, stabilized,
and we did some tests. He said while he was going through a
folder full of sheets. There was nothing significant about the tests. The troponin
test came out negative and that is the one that indicates whether or not there
was a heart attack, leaving the clear conclusion that what he had was a
cardiac arrest, which is not the same as a heart attack, but it
is no more dangerous. If she is not cared for immediately, she owes
her life to young women. Fortunately, immediate attention prevented his brain from running
out of oxygen. However, I will prescribe some medications for this week and
a temporary aspirin a day while we perform other more complete tests. But first
you must remove the cialyx from your body, so in ten days you must
come to do a more complete checkup. Zero sexual activity, neither alone nor
accompanied looking briefly again at evil, nor strong sports or physical activities. Avoid
strong emotions, avoid bothering, or being frightened. Absolute rest in your home
plenty of fluid and avoid red meats as much as possible. These days zero
hawk. If you need to do any activity, walk normally without a rush
for an hour a day. I' ll discharge you after noon to keep
you under observation during the morning. For the time being, all tests say
it' s okay after he says goodbye, leaving me with other relevant instructions,
he leaves the room quickly. I stare at the roof for a while
and the bad move on the couch getting up what a scare you gave us.
He says calmly scares me not, scared me when Maru showed up,
recording me with his cell phone while Andrea jumped in my dick, I suddenly
said upset with some discomfort. How come you guys came up with supporting the
girls in that madness? Please calm down, Pedro You can' t bother
The doctor said so. We' ll talk about it.“ Then yes,
” he said with absolute calm, placing a hand on my shoulder.
Okay, I said, sighing and looking at the roof like that. Girls
how are they Where are they wrong? They' re so scared. It
' s weird they didn' t come in. Twins must be outside with
Carola and Mom waiting for you to wake up and Andrea with her mom.
Since yesterday afternoon he took her away. I need you to back me up
on this bad thing. They can' t go on with that madness.
“ Please, if it is OK,” Submissa said,“ I do
not want to be opposed to this” This is over here. Please talk
that over with Carola, just as you managed to convince her of your decision.
Raise an incredulous eyebrow. I want you to. With regard to the
girls, I don' t want them to be encouraged or supported by any
more craziness.“ Oga something else,” he asked with concern. Yeah,
we, when we' re gonna talk when you get out of here,
he said decidedly. It' s okay. Please call the girls in
and leave me alone with them. A bad time came out of the room.
I felt like urinating and I felt like I had a probe on and
or let me go. The girls came in and I looked at them very
seriously with swollen and watery eyes. They slowly approached one on each side of
the bed. They looked scared and worried. You' ve seen the consequences
of what you did. Yes, they answered simultaneously the two cabizbastas and the
tears ran down their cheeks. They don' t know the consequences of what
they did yet. You don' t know how far your Aunt Maru goes
with what happened. Even I don' t know. Go to know how
much her aunt recorded or how much she knows about what happened in the apartment.
So I want you to leave this up here. No more craziness are
going to accept any decision that is made about it and if I ask you
something, I want you to do it without gossiping it is. This is
a very delicate thing. I told them many times and they didn' t
want to listen. Carina, she wanted to say something, and she raised
her finger in silence. He was talking calmly and quietly. I don'
t want any more try and nudity. When we' re alone. I
don' t want them using Motel' s apartment anymore until they' re
18. The trip' s already in we' ll see you, so
I don' t want to be pressured about it. We' re clear.
I didn' t mean to mention the heart attack, because I know
they scared the shit out of it, and that' s not what worries
me now. They did say off and the tears kept running down their cheeks.
Now come give me a hug that the danger has passed and I'
m fine, you don' t have to worry. It was just a
scare. I hadn' t finished saying it when both of them threw themselves
at me to cry out of grief. I' m sorry, Dad,
I' m sorry, Dad, I' m sorry, they said they
were heartbroken. It' s over now. I owe them my life.
If it hadn' t been for you, we wouldn' t be here
now and more grief- stricken cries from them. While I was caressing their
heads over my chest, they know nothing about Andrea. We haven' t
been able to talk to her since yesterday that Auntie took her. We'
ve written to him, but he doesn' t get the messages. They
answered me in jimoteos. Well, already trying to calm them down, find
a way to communicate with her, either by mail or messages. On the
other hand, it' s not the cell phone. It' s possible
Marus seized it. I need to know everything Maru tells you or does.
I' m not safe and I don' t know what your Aunt Maro
' s going to attack me with, but I know they' re not
going to stay calm. It' s okay They both said it. Now
call your mom and grandma. They can all pass after a pleasant morning where
I told them how Maru found me and not without first reprimanding them all,
including Marito, who arrived almost at noon, as they say, after a
distaste. Well, taste was all in a fright and good. Now to
wait for the test results that I would do days later and if there was
something unusual, I would go to Housten to do a more complete checkup.
The twins were silent all the time, feeling guilty and sorry. I don
' t think they' d weighed the fact that they talked very freely about
their sexual acts in front of so many people. Only with his bad aunt.
They had had carnal contact and the only confidant to some extent was their
mother, that others knew the details of what they were doing or what was
going on between them was just a mere affirmation of the fact that they were
partners or threesome that it really was no longer. They told me that Maro
was so upset that he didn' t want to talk to anyone after the
scare that happened with the heart attack. He just waited for them to tell
him that I was already stabilized and that I would recover quickly. They'
d even discharge me the next day. Then he left and took Andrea.
They haven' t heard from them since. I hadn' t started thinking
about what had happened. I didn' t want to get excited about the
images of the day before or worry about what I was going to be a
maro I talked to the mother- in- law. I asked him to
tell Oswaldo to drop the 8th yacht back north. With this just happened,
there would be no birthday ride and the yacht is needed in the north.
After noon, the doctor stopped by the room and checked for a while the
electro that he was monitoring and concluded that everything was fine. He ordered my
discharge, and in an hour he could leave the clinic. He left me
a diet for these days, reaffirmed the recommendations he had given me in the
morning and quoted me for in the first few days in his office. I
went out with everyone from the clinic to eat in a restaurant. We went
to celebrate life, but I was worried all the time. I thought about
Maru and the possible consequences. What I saw most likely was that I was
required to stay away from the family, although that seemed absurd to me,
but I also thought of the Naviera is what she had wanted from the beginning.
In the middle of the afternoon, I was escorted to the apartment.
Everything was still messy. My room was a laundry mess. The girls told
me they took me almost naked out of the apartment. I still had the
erection when they pulled me out. When I had the heart attack, Carolina
and Carina immediately started giving me cardiopulmonary resuscitation. Carola then told us that they
had received that training in Caracas since they were twelve years old. Carola had
them take the first aid course several times so she could help her grandfather in
case she needed it at some point. I really owe them my life.
Maro started fighting Andrea that if she had gone crazy and then with the twins.
She didn' t believe the heart attack at first, but she freaked
out when she saw the twins ignoring her. While I was being CPRed.
She had called the ambulance. Everything was chaotic. They explained the twins.
Maru wouldn' t stop fighting with them and Andrea until the paramedics arrived had
already taken my handcuffs and put me in a sorp as quickly as they could
without being able to disguise the erection by few. The doctors found them almost
naked. Right before they got here. Maru yelled at them to put something
on. Then Andrea dressed them as she could, while the twins kept giving
me resuscitation. One massaged my chest and the other breath mouth to mouth.
At the end of the afternoon, all but bad guys left. She was
focused on caring for me that if I was okay, that I felt some
pain, that I did want water, it seemed that I wanted to avoid
the time to talk I left her alone. I was really enjoying your company.
After more than six months away from her. I found it beautiful to
see her moving nervously over there and over here, looking for something to do
so that she wouldn' t be unemployed and have to start talking about it.
I let her mortify herself a little longer. Only when I felt like
sleeping to sleep. I told him bad, you know you' re not
obliged to talk. Today we have several days ahead of me. I said
itchy face if you' re bad. He said pouting. You were enjoying
my ribs. He squirmed his eyebrow, pouting and then smiling. That made
her relax, and after I bathed, she took a bath. I waited
for her on the side of the bed. I was falling asleep. When
I felt her lie next to me she hugged me and we fell asleep quickly
in the morning. When I woke up, she was awake. You'
re snoring a lot. You tell me very sweetly if that' s what
I' ve been told lately. So he said raising an eyebrow.“
You should have told those to come and take care of you,” Burlona
says,“ heheheje we both laughed” Then she gives a long sigh and
tells me when it happened. What happened knowing I was pregnant. It was
that I thought cool everything that had happened and I felt very guilty to hear
Maru tear Carola' s room apart and, especially, listen to everything she
said. When I did. It was heartbreaking. I realized that worse than
your infidelity had been our disloyalty to marub and the family, and that'
s why Mom and I argued a lot. I felt the need to take
on my guilt too, but Mom didn' t leave me. Mom thought
that could kill Dad or make Maru go crazy or both. I understood Mom
at the time pregnant, I understood that she was right. It was scary
to hear Maru tearing apart the rooms, wanting you to die and she wanting
to die. I' m sorry to interrupt you talking about pregnancy. I
eached inside Carolina and then I penetrated Andrea. Please tell me they gave them
the pills of the day. Then I said in anguish you don' t
have to worry. That' s why. Carola put the girls in three
- year plan last year, including Andrea, after they returned from the Santa
week vacation trip, when the girls told her everything that happened. She thought
that at some point this would come to pass and we had to take precautions.
Maru doesn' t know, and Andrea will only tell you if Marus
thinks of giving her some form of birth control, hormonal. Since the year
they had hoped this would happen I asked with amazement. No, but it
was a possibility, as the girls expressed their desire to do so. They
just got back from the trip. But let me go on as I was
telling you three days before Marus passed out at the Attic. I did the
pregnancy tests. It was three different marks I used and all three were positive.
Then I spent almost a week with the dilemma of whether to tell you
or not. When I decided to tell you the day when I called you
about thirty times I still didn' t know Maro was pregnant. It was
at night very hurt and disappointed that I couldn' t talk to you when
I knew she was pregnant, because Mom told me. I think that was
the last time we argued and realized I couldn' t have it. But,
well, we had already talked about this, but I needed to start
from here. After I took him out and spent my mourning, I just
sat on my own listening to his regrets made me feel more guilty every day
I passed by. She went almost every night to my room, to cry
and make me suffer without knowing it. My soul was breaking to hear her
tell me again and again how I had found them. He even talked about
ending the pregnancy several times. That was the thing that affected me the most,
that I had just finished with one, I couldn' t let her
do it and I held on. I made that belly see that in my
way how beautiful or beautiful it would be at birth and that it would be
only us that that creature was not to blame. And little by little I
changed her way of thinking about her pregnancy. I think about six or seven
months old was that she accepted that she was going to be the mother of
a beautiful girl. It' s not easy to know you' re guilty
or to be a part of it, that you caused someone so much pain
and that someone doesn' t know and that they lean on you. It
' s something that permanently corrodes you inside, something heartbreaking that eats your soul.
Piece by piece. There were days I didn' t see Maru.
In spite of that, I still felt very bad and the day I felt
worse Maro arrived in my room shattered with his attack of tragedy and pain.
I' m telling you, that transition was very painful. For a long
time I tried to soften Maru with respect to Carola, but there was no
way and no more fear and then I thought of taking my guilt. Maru
was very harsh and cruel in talking about you as Carola and rightly so,
I devoted myself to her in body and soul in what I could help her.
I tried to make him understand that I had a life ahead, a
new goal, someone I could love unconditionally and that it was her only,
but her sadness seemed to have no end, and that made me feel ever
worse. I was about to tell her several times that I had been with
you too, but that at that time would have annihilated her. As a
woman. I know what she suffered, because I suffered with her and I
promised myself never again to make someone suffer by standing between two people and that
I would do my best to unite or strengthen those who need my help.
I focused on making those I really care about happy. That' s why
I didn' t think twice about helping Mauricio when she came to me with
her crazy idea and that at all costs I wanted to be a mother too
because I needed that redemption. Either way, he paused and teared. He
ran through his nose. So, when Carola came to tell me that she
felt in love with You, that I had never stopped thinking about You.
Without thinking about it, I swore to join them. I couldn' t
be the cause of my other sister not being happy with whom she believes can
be her soul mate, and it' s that they' re both such
for as well as you know and even I know, I can be the
love of your life and you' re mine. But she' s your
soul mate and you' re hers, and I have no doubt about that.
After you told Carola about us, she spoke to me immediately and told
me she knew everything or almost everything. Then we argued about it, but
we realized that it was going to do us again and we didn' t
want it. She then said she was leaving me the way and I said
no, that I was leaving it to her. And that' s how
we had some time arguing about passing the ball. When you told me about
Carola that you had just been with her I already knew it since the first
meeting and why you didn' t accept it. You were always first and
that I made her see since then you didn' t let her know after
we got back from the trip, having been with her three times already,
because you didn' t tell her before the first moment, before they were
together, when she told you about the twins, how they met and all
that, why, well, why, because you never thought that I was
gonna find out or that we were both gonna find out and you wanted to
redo your women' s harem when you told me you were with mario on
the day of the will, I knew you weren' t going to change.
And listen well, what I' m going to tell you isn'
t that I want you to change. I know you' re never going
to change and I don' t want you to do it, because that
' s the biggest mistake women make in wanting to change them after we had
fallen in love with what they were like and accepted them, just as they
are. I loved you and loved you as you were, but I love
you and I love you as you are. And that' s how I
' ll keep loving you. I have no doubt about that, but I
saw you looking for something I couldn' t give you, and that'
s why I made the decision I made with her. You could have that
thing you can' t have with me. I thought that would redeem me
I needed it to heal my soul. After being guilty of the suffering of
one of my sisters, you need to give happiness to the other. You
may see it as an extreme act of love for the family and I'
m sorry you didn' t have a large family so you can understand what
love for the family is. That love for the family that, even though
it sounds bizarre, was taught to us by Mom and Dad. After Carola
left. I missed very much the family union that was at home, the
grills and weekend swimming pools. No more trips in Yate and outings to the
beach, also on movie Sundays, everyone' s meals at the table.
That' s all over. Everything we did together. I missed him and
so, Dad spent two and three weekends a month in Caracas with her,
while it was my turn to stay and suffer with Maro and I didn'
t complain about it. I assumed it because I felt I deserved it.
I understand and accept everything that touched me. Her suffering may have taken the
best part, but it' s because she was the least to blame for
all this. I never reproached Dad for the times I asked him about her,
he told me to stay calm, that she would soon return her.
The only thing comforting me was to be able to talk to her on the
phone sometimes and then one time to another video call where she never showed the
twins. But, well, it was all orchestrated by Dad his reasons.
I' d have Dad, he knew how to keep me busy. As
soon as I graduated he made me stay on the island studying hotel business management
and, from the very moment I started studying, he made me go to
his office to work on the hotel project. He wouldn' t give me
a break. Always talking about ideas to be put into operation and sending me
to study them. I was really exhausted and that' s the part distracting
me in the day. My vacation was in his office. There I learned
the management of the company, the hotels, the importer of Panama and the
distributor of the Mahame. The only break was to get home and find Andrea.
She was always very cheerful, always smiling and very little crying. Maybe
that was one of the things that made me put up with Maru because it
was so hard. Then she was hard on herself and the others. His
postpartum stage was fateful. Maru, when I came back from seeing the girl,
I came in the worst mood and treated everyone badly, I was talking
pestilences about you. He really hated you He said that he wanted to be
left alone and that men were useless, that is, he didn' t
say. I didn' t regret every day. It was one more reason
to regret everything and end what I felt for you. But when my phone
rang, all the cells in my body shuddered just to think that it was
you and my soul screamed when I saw it like this. That' s
when Andrea had it. I think the year and a half on a Friday
Maru came in a rage at the house and tells me that her boss had
invited her out into her suffering and breastfeeding she quickly put in shape and even
thinner than she was and maybe that caught the attention of her boss. I
saw that as an option to try to mend the damage I had done and
spent the whole weekend trying to get Maru to change his mind about men,
because I had put them all in the same sack as you. I didn
' t get him to accept the invitation, but he stopped generalizing. The
next week I insisted that he tell me about his boss as he was boss,
that because he had invited her and stuff like that. It took me
a long time to talk to her. Sometimes she was upset with me because
I asked her about him, but it didn' t work out and she
practically told me that I had invited her again and I insisted that she accept
it, but she said no, that she didn' t want anything with
men at the moment, However, I insisted with my curiosity to ask her
about him. Then the divorce came out, even if you don' t
believe Maru. That hit him very hard and he spent three days crying before
going to sign. I' ll never know where she got so much tears
for everything she cried in those three days. After they signed the divorce,
she herself said she was going to give the boss a chance, so when
she least expected it, one afternoon I came home and was getting dressed to
go out and ever since then I put all my effort into getting her to
give Alberto a chance. Almost two years later, the day they got married
I felt a great relief. I felt less guilty and with the next two
pregnancies I also felt much more relief. I thought all this was going to
be left behind in the past and with it my secret buried. However,
I never stopped feeling very guilty. Why I was aware that I also seduced
you long before seeing you in the bathroom I came to fantasize about you.
I also felt attraction before that day. In the bathroom you were always very
funny and you made me laugh a lot seeing your way of treating Maru like
a queen and you had her on a pedestal. Even she was another with
you, she was sweeter, softer and smiled more why at home. She
was always authoritarian. She had much character of unfounded respect and admiration. And
it' s not that we were afraid of him, not anything to see.
He was always right. Come on, I was the older sister,
the example to follow, and both Dad and Mom respected her and gave her
third- in- command position, so to speak. I really don'
t remember that Maru was a gift I found out when you told me.
However, until then I always saw her as someone who could guide us to
the lack of mom and dad, which happened several times when when they were
younger, they went on trips alone, but seeing you with her was something
else, It was like seeing the couple dreamt You always so cheerful, fun
and loving tell me when you started drinking with dad, they would get drunk
in a way as if they were friends of all life. It made me
laugh to see Carola get furical because of that thing I never understood. Sometimes
I heard máro talking to Mom or some friend saying that he had won the
lottery with you and that made me dream. When I realized I was also
swallowed up by you and you had put my world upside down. When Dad
died and you came back to the family, you turned my world upside down
again to hear you say that now we could be together, and all that
filled me with an incredible illusion. I suddenly saw myself floating in the clouds,
but you started to talk curly really fast. And that irritated me,
because that night I just wanted a vent, you just wanted sex I decided
I couldn' t leave everything so easy and that' s why I threw
up on you everything I said that night, when I was really dying to
be with you that night. If you had insisted a little more, we
would have sure made it enchanted the way you chose to do it, because
until now, Pedro Miguel Antón Mendoza, there has been no way that you
caught me that I didn' t like how easy it would have been.
If that night had been different. It wasn' t going to be just
as complicated, because the next day, Carola would have told me what she
told me in the same way and that would make me worse later on at
the mall, when you told me what you dreamed about having kids and watching
him grow all that crazy straw, being a family father. Carola had already
told me that she had told you that the night before when they went to
bed and you were like a cockatoo to tell me again about your flamboyance and
lack of originality. Besides the laugh she gave me, it was very revealing
and made me realize that you could only have that thing you want with Carola.
The nervousness and feeling lost broke out in me in the form of laughter
to see you. Shooting out looking for the parking lot made me look as
if I was losing you and I stopped laughing I felt a void so deep
that it scared me, because I knew it would no longer be just for
me that at some point I had to let you go to find that you
were looking for and while I could enjoy it knowing that any moment would be
the last and every time we did it I was going to do it as
if it were the last time. Then I came after you. All this
time, Carola and I have seen how you handled things at your whim,
without consulting us and without thinking about the consequences and look at everything that turned
out and yes I admit that I let myself be carried away and rediscovered myself.
I' ve done things I never thought I' d do more in
my life. I figured doing it with Carola and unthinkable about the girls,
let alone Marito, that is, all this filial sex stuff. My head
' s still crazy and all that' s got your stamp on it.
I think everything that happened last year was very intense. There were so many
surprises, so many secrets, they came out and everything had your signature whatever
was going on. You were in the way. So, Carola and I
decided that it would be us who would take the reins of our destiny.
We weren' t sure you' d agree to what I decided, but
we weren' t going to give you any more alternatives than you decided for
us. Carola, before the trip on already told me that she was going
away, that she knew very well what you and I felt and she was
going to leave us the way and I forbade her. Even after the problem
on the yacht, I told her I was moving away that I couldn'
t go on. And this time it was she who didn' t want
to be just her if it wasn' t just me like she wanted it
wasn' t just her, because I wanted what the three of us would
be. So, Carola and I talked a lot about Troice' s stuff.
We love it and we love it I swear to you, but it
' s not a relationship we can have here. And going away means leaving
too many things behind, things that are not yet resolved in the family.
I know if I could still see the possibility that it could work. That
possibility we' d take, but there was a condition. I needed to
know how committed you could be in this relationship. And I said I needed
because I wasn' t the one who felt safe. Carola, if she
felt safe and told me that if we decided at once on the troisella tableware
I trusted you without you, even though I knew it and that from the
beginning, 17 years ago I accepted you like this. And it was because
you belonged to Maru and I was just someone else. And now that you
were mainly mine, I didn' t feel safe. I know that many
times you told me that you' re able to leave everything for me and
I believe you, but I couldn' t help but feel scared. It
' s one thing to know and another thing to feel, and Carola showed
me that it' s just my insecurity and that it would be a passing
thing. And, as I told you before, I loved you that way
I still love you, and I' m sure you' d always love
yourself that way. Carola tried to step aside several times and it was I
who didn' t leave her. Every time she tried to do it since
last year that she found out about us more than once she told me that
she would turn away, that she understood very well what you were telling her
that you loved me, but I didn' t let her walk away.
But after what happened on the trip, I couldn' t leave our happiness
in your hands, not the way you were doing everything, let alone.
Now that everyone knew that I had an abortion and that I couldn' t
have children, tell me one thing I' m sorry to interrupt you with
this decision you made. You were also looking for Carola to get pregnant all
this time. Not that was something that should be in mutual agreement between you
and when I decided on it, you should just remove your implant mmm or
Q. As I told you that night on the already I made the decision
that you would stay with her. I had a hard time convincing her,
but I promised her that later we' d be the three that would do
it in a progressive way. But your intensity, your pride and intransigence at
what we asked of you at first, made us argue a lot at home.
If we had talked about that from the start, many problems would have
been saved. Yeah, that' s right, but we didn' t
want any better. That being said, I didn' t want it to
be that easy She' s always been on your side, and if it
had been you who would have made the decision, she would have supported you.
When we sat down and talked at the restaurant that you reversed my ultimatum,
I knew I couldn' t deal with you how hard you are your
stubbornness. It' s impressive. Carola and I argued very hard that day.
Everything she did afterwards was her decision and she told me that at any
moment she would tell you the whole truth. Carola, from the very first
moment she accepted you as you were. She tells me she sees you so
much like Dad and that' s maybe what makes her do, even though
you don' t think she' s so faithful and loyal to you all
that she lived with Dad is what makes her so submissive to You, even
though she has an incredible character she knows how to control herself better than I
do. However, it can' t help being that way with you.
I really don' t understand it at all, maybe because I didn'
t have what she had with Dad that wasn' t that I would have
wanted, I never did, let alone regret that it didn' t happen.
This whole incest thing is so new to me so much that I still
question it, even though it quotes me in an unusual way. Since the
trip I have not been with Marito again, although he has sent me some
proposals indirectly to hold a meeting. They haven' t insisted and with Carola
since the December trip, only at the same time that we were together the
three of us when you got drunk the girls didn' t talk no.
No. I haven' t been with them since last year' s trip
to Canada, even though I' ve been stressed many times I' ve
managed to resist the temptation regarding Mom. She and I talked a lot after
the trip was over. We even got drunk just the two of us sharing
our loss and pain from the past and we regretted what happened and understood that
there was no way to know what was going to happen, if we had.
The family was completely separated right now, we would have lost Maru forever
and possibly Andrea, but especially Dad. The incalculable size scandal that Maru would
have unleashed and the consequences we were still paying for. Recently, when Carola
traveled north to see you, I talked to Mom again about her relationship with
Dad. I wanted to know what I didn' t know until then.
It is one thing to live with them, but another is to know those
details that no one can tell you. And he told me something that was
very revealing. The fear of losing Dad has always been present since they decided
to be together. Dad' s promiscuity was something she had to accept since
they met and it didn' t slow down a bit when they got married.
That' s why the fear of losing him was always there. Despite
that, Dad always made her feel safe. When he arrived and told her
the details with whom he had been where and that they had done the times
she expressed that fear to him, He always told her that he only loved
her and that he would never stop and that perhaps that fear. The expectation
at all times was what kept the flame alive always between the two. Even
participating in swing parties together, she sometimes felt that fear and if there was
something she envied Dad was the assurance he had of her. Dad never asked
her to tell him what she was doing on the outside. It was as
hard for her to do as it was for her to tell him. However,
he did so only to please him and only once did he not tell
him something because he had been excited. But there was something more revealing that
Mom told me. So we were talking about the Captain. He told me
of the times that he participated in the orgies that Dad organized on the yacht
and I asked him again about what we had talked about in January too and
that it was because of that promiscuity of Dad and because she was not like
him or because she didn' t have the freedom to do it. And
that' s when he told me that man by nature has a vital need
to have variety in absolutely everything he does and more when he has what,
unlike us, that what we need is security, comfort, is the tranquility
that gives us the sense of belonging. He gave her that assurance by telling
her everything he did and with whom he did it he was simply certain of
her. He only satisfied his need for variety and she allowed it because she
understood it to be his nature. He never tried to change it and that
was one of the pillars of why they were happy. I feel that'
s not what happens between us. I don' t have that need for
variety. I don' t feel like it. I, after I left
here almost eighteen years ago, did not feel or have that need to vary.
I had completely monogamous relationships. There were no infidelities or extravagances like those
we have done. What happens here with you, because I don' t
know how to describe it not in words. I don' t feel like
I have to vary between you and Carola. I feel like it' s
something like I tell you, like they belong to me. It' s
the closest thing to that. I don' t feel like you' re
missing Carola or her with you. I know they' re both mine and
out of us, with her if I feel like they' re missing or
better said if they' re you at some point I don' t know
if Carola told you I guess if she told you. But when she was
in Miami, she and Conni were with me. If she just told me
recently, she said very calm. They connected very well, as if they
knew each other all their lives. That' s partly the case. Remember,
Pedro, you told me when you were with her, surely as a
friend, you told her about us. And that' s what I want
to refer to after talking to mamaca and considering that behavior patterns are repeated between
us, just as Dad was with Mom and her with him. You'
re being you with us and us with you, well, besides Conni.
There' s your cousins, the twins. Hum with them happens something very
peculiar with her if I felt jealous once it' s not that I like
them for nothing we always get along very well and as cousins I love them
a lot. On the day of Dad' s Mass I swear to you
that I felt bursting into jealousy, but it was because of the episode at
the church door that Carola told me when she came and covered your eyes.
And then I felt a flame inside of me when you invited them to the
nudist walk in the pool, in my face, the way you did it,
the way you came to tell us you weren' t going on the
walk so derogatoryly, it led me to invite them right there, because they
didn' t know anything about that walk. Besides, that ride was Anne
' s idea. You didn' t have to go answer me. The
invitation was made by Anna, so it was disrespectful. If I recognize him
well, I don' t know what happened to me at the time.
Jealousy left me no choice. I' ve never felt that way before,
but I found out that those jealousys were because there was a chance that the
two of them might also be able to give you what Carola and I can.
But anyway it was just that there' s my skinny one. If
only you knew what kind of things I came to think of. There were
thousands of reasons I thought or are what happened between us any number of reasons
for what they decided or better said, you decided. I thought I was
going crazy and I was falling into depression and I was even getting alcoholic,
if not for my employees and the captain who called Aconi, and this one
agreed with Jacques. I spent three days in a spa in Jamaica smoking marijuana
That way out of depression was more like a weekend of relaxation with sermon included.
I was aware of what was happening to me, just that I needed
to relax a little bit and lower two to the drink. If you looked
really bad, even worse than now, speaking of now, what happened to
all of you encouraging the girls to do what they did wrong. I could
die the mother' s pussy. What happened to you isn' t our
fault, the girls. That was going to happen, if not at that
point later, but it was going to happen. What happened to you was
Maru' s fault. We don' t know how she got into the
apartment. What triggered your episode severely was the scare of seeing her there.
Everything was going very well, as the girls told us. To be fair
to you, I too would have stayed stiff on the spot. If Maru
finds me with Andrea, I don' t know. I don' t
know how she got into the apartment. Now that I think about it every
time she went to the apartment this year, she could have at some point
taken one of the extra keys that are in the kitchen. I said thoughtful
every time how that is asked strangely, raising a accusing eyebrow and sitting on
the shot in bed. So much for today' s chapter until the next one.