Et they got, I can't hear you in your books? Whoop, they
asked, what that's not? Hello? Hello? Hello? I founded a
little sounded a little though. That was Spanish. I'm drinking a mark reader.
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thirty. And guess who was on fucking time tonight? So Rita only because
there's KWAFO in the building, Sita actual And you know what, sir,
Rita girl, I never have and I'm like me and Srita were pulling up
at the same time because I had to make a stop at covers. Now
I call myself ordering an advance from me to town. They say they go
bring it out, but you gotta go in and get it. It took
me, you know, eight minutes to figure that out. She got here
right at the ass crack of on time. Okay, my I was gonna
sit in the car and smoke, but a twenty five people just need one
hit up. Then, of course we have mister Essential, who is always
stepping it up. When tone decides, you know what, I'm just gonna
go home without notice and then own a company. I do step up when
he's also here, So let's not just pinch that picture, man. I
mean he does all the things I'm here too, you know what I'm saying.
Yeah, when he not, you know, too hot on mushrooms and
ship or Taylor Pork. And of course we have my uh, we have
my chocolate buddy in the building, uh chocolate herself, missus Taylor m Marie.
But that's name Cocle Marie. Yeah. But I'm gonna take you guys
for tuning in because you know, you could be somewhere out getting drunk for
this three day freaking but instead you were here with us still getting drunk.
That's right, and pour pour yourself up something warm and drink. Off your
line about listen, I you are not go ahead? Can I say something?
When you slide the micros down like that, you're going to strip the
microphone stand. When you pull it up and stuff without twisting the thing,
you're going to strip it. So just make look at you. You stopped
being straight, pulled it up and down and stuff, you know, got
unscrewed and stuff. That's he doesn't want you to be a stripper anymore.
Want you stop doing that? My wrist cool. Apparently everybody's sipping anyway.
That's why Margarita we bomped on the same thing. I don't even know which
camera on her. Hello, thank you? M Rich says, Hey y'all,
sorry, I've been in my a. I took the Facebook app off
my phone. Love and mis we love and miss you too. Ask sometimes
you just got to unplugged, man, we get it. I want to
be that mature. Yeah, sometimes you just got unplugged. Because this will
probably be the last totally awkward until July. Can Beat's day? I just
I needed. It's a Friday, No, I just with my birthday coming
up and jelly Bean birthday and the trip and the father's that. It's just
it's a lot going on in June, so you know, maybe just unplugged
for a little bit. Nah, we're doing a hostally awkward takeover in this
bitch. But the good thing, the good thing about that is by the
time I come back, I have a lot of ship to talk about.
Is awkward, that's what we're gonna call it. Drunk nigga is awkward,
and niggas is awkward. Before seasons special Margarita sipping and Margarita I heard that
probably Wiles show. It's wilder holes awkward. That's just a natural spin off
show right there by itself that Hey, hey, we should just call it
cancers in Charge in this Bitch and just just flip that ship upside down.
Hey, so nothing the non essential cast member who you know, she pop
up every now and then coming in here taking the essential workers, supplies and
ship. So I need another phone stand there? Uh, that's fun equally
essential, wouldn't you just trying to trying to give give us saying oh,
I'm sorry for not listening. To y'all. I told y'all she'd be front.
I see see, I told y'all she'd be from. She'd be from.
She'd be acting like we don't need each other cause she showed put it
on blasts like I should have listened to y'all. Y'all tried to tell me
serious. I do take stuff seriously. All right, now, we're so
you know what why while we're While we're on the subject of Kaila this,
we're going to start off with a video. Are you guys familiar with the
what is the actual name of that? Is it twenty one versus one?
Like, what is the name of that? It depends it's twenty versus one
versus So if you're not familiar with that and you're listening or you know,
watching live, that is where they have one person who comes in a room
full of suitors and of the opposite sex, and they have balloons to pop
when they are not interested. Some people, unfortunately, get their balloons popped
a sap, like as soon as they walk in. And then you have
others that you know, once they hear things like oh they got kids pop,
you know like that. So we're gonna play a couple of those videos
starting with this one. So Smith thirty seven and Joseph, what do you
do? I'm an uber and live driver full time and why did you end
up popping your blue? I don't know. It's the knee, the right
knee. He got something going on. I don't know what it is.
I got eggs with it and I use coconut oil. Yeah, zoom in
on that please, And I just don't know why it's like that. So
I've seen it and I was like, she's not on take my coconuts ver
regiment seriously. First of all, this fool gazy looking ass, nigga,
I'm lucky to be in the lineup these, he said. The ash on
her knees made him pop his blue all right. But when she asked that,
nigga, what was his job? What he's saying, he's a full
time uber and liber and lift who whoa whoa whoa whoa? He has he
has no health insurance. He brings absolutely enough. He brings nothing to the
table down nothing, full time full time uber and I never heard that happen
before as a person who has done like gigwork like that, depending on the
area that he's in or maybe doing like, all right, well, I'm
only doing like airport rising, you can make that ship. Yeah, you
don't make enough money to be that kind of a person. Honestly. You
know what, if you get a bot, you can get the little insert
like that, You get the inside scoop of trying to get into the system.
You can get all kinds of ship that other people can't. So you
can actually do it. I don't know how to, could you? Amazon?
And now you understand, Yeah, I'm like all these niggas taking all
the good ship. They're taking all the good ship. So ain't nobody fingers
that fast? And had a professional masturbator that fast? None? And I
am a professional masturbator. And I was even losing, so you know that
she was rid. Some shit came up last night. It's at four hours,
one hundred and forty two dollars. Brit said, he's so proud of
himself. I am a professional uber and lyft driver, like no, I
said. It was such confidence, Like, hey, if you bro,
I would rather him just say I'm a professional driver. I'll be cool with
that. O my own my own. I'm I'm a I'm a private contract
worker, I'm a ship, I have my own I have my own driving
service. Yeah, anything but that in thirty Possibly he don't bro right in
the fact that he has the all dashing. He'd be like, I popped
my balloon because her knee was ashy. I didn't get a chance to see
her. Right, she ain't ugly, but ash on the knee should not
be to decide in the fact that we restart it and we go let it
play all the way through before any commentary. No, I'm saying, like
more we can shut up wilets on this time. My name is Joseph Smith
thirty seven, and Joseph, what do you do? I'm an uber and
live driver full time. And why did you end up popping your balloe?
I don't know. It's the knee, the right knee. He got something
going on. I don't know what it is. I got em and I
use coconut oil. Yeah, zoom in on that please, And I just
don't know why it's like that. So I've seen it and I was like,
she's not gonna take my coconut oil to regiment. Seriously, the house
looked moisturized, you know, But I've seen that. This stigure got a
clip on nosering talking about somebody's fucking you know what next video play yes,
yes, and and the crazy part is so and the remaining part of it
comes to find out like she fell and her knee is actually healing. It
shouldn't even matter. So it shouldn't matter. But it's just funny because it's
like, bro, she is a fucking scabbas for me, Like what you
what you want? But she's not gonna take my coconut oil regiment. Serious.
He was up there being a clown. He just didn't want to.
He didn't want to get popped on. That's what it was. She didn't
have a ding ding when she came out. That was the problem. He
was like, Oh, this theo you're talking about. Her brother's at the
left knee order from the women's side of sheens. Even if you need any
if you need to be more strides, don't forget bang of body, butters,
pitch girl, not horror on myself. Hey, I make I makes
the coins from the from the body. I used it for my face me
too. I said that once. I feel like, uh you mm hmm,
but oh you know one is missing, but that's because I forgot to
send it to you. Just be three of these, well, so let's
get this whole off here, all right? So while I send tone this
third one because that one was fucking ridiculous, this one is is very interesting
to me for a certain reason. Okay, So why'd you pop too wrong?
For me to go? Yeah? What do you want at this point?
What's age range? Five years older is a limit? So how are
you twenty one? Okay? Okay? If you said five years is a
limit, there's like a lack of basic skills, okay, twenty one five?
Okay, okay, okay, all right, so why'd you pop same
for me? Age limit? I'm twenty your twenty six? I feel like
it's just a maturity level, and it isn't. I'm not mature, but
I feel like I just haven't lived it's enough, like enough life as you
have. So it's like I can't understand everything you're talking about, Like there's
always going to be a disconnect. Why are you here? It was trapping
so right, that's why you've been playing again because it was trapping the first
time. Hold on twenty six? Okay, So why'd you pop like two
wrong for me to go? Yeah? What do you want at this point?
What's age range? Five? Years older is a limit? So how
are you twenty one? Okay? Okay? If you said five years is
a limit, there's like lack of basic skills, okay, twenty one okay,
okay, okay, all right, So why'd you pop same for me
age limit? I'm twenty your twenty six. I feel like it's just a
maturity level. And I'm not mature, but I feel like I just haven't
lived it's enough, like enough life as you have. So it's like I
can't understand everything you're talking about, Like there's always going to be a disconnect.
Now, I might give her a path. She's only twenty now.
The thing that is funny to me about this is because how many men are
always online telling us that the reason that they day down like when we were
like, bro, that's creepy, and that is why we feel like it's
creepy, like what do you have in common with a motherfucker like that,
like that much younger than you to the point that they actually be talking about
So for her to be young and say that, it's hilarious because it's like
that's what we be telling y'all, and y'all be like, no younger women
they want to do this, and they want to do that, and it's
like, I'm going to push back on that and say, that makes sense
when you are older than thirty the evening holes either your face. Yes,
it's so punishable. That makes that makes sense if they're over thirty or forty
and whatnot. But in the twenties, you're your development, you turn.
Your development doesn't get going until after you are twenty four to twenty five.
So your immaturity is you're all you're all, you all in the same damn
immaturity level. Twenty twenty five, you are the same shit that five years
ain't that big of a difference when you're that age. When you actually become
like thirty and up, that's when you start experience it. Right now,
you're still a That's why insurance don't stop five. Yeah, you're you're you're
you're technically an adolescent until your twenty four. Yeah, but she's like,
bro, you can't even take me out drinking because I can't drink it.
That makes sense that she didn't say that, you said that. She said
you experienced more shit than me. But what I'm saying, that's one of
those things. But technically that's still true. That thing though. Imagine,
Okay, so he was twenty six and she was twenty. Now, imagine
she lived somewhat of a shelter life. She's been chilling. She's just now
like, Okay, I'm grown, I can go outside. Imagine this nigga
been outside since sixteen. So the conversation is gonna be different. Whether I'm
six years older, even that time, I've been doing shit before you.
These are all assumptions. But tell me, even okay, I understand I
talked to you, I talked to you in your language. That six years
gap is one whole fucking college experience. You completely become a different person when
you've done with college than you were before you started. Kind of kind of
this nigga here, I mean, I'm serious. I'm serious. I'm serious
because I'm coming here the pod because at this point, you pine's twenty.
At twenty, you've experienced some of the college life. You know, the
life, The lifestyle between twenty and twenty four don't change once you get to
college. College is college. You don't even know why you at college other
than your mama made I didn't know what I was college til I got out
ship. I really I was out of still didn't know what the fun I
was doing because you was going down there at freaking some ship. Now,
y'all, poty, don't even here. You're not listening to the person was
saying five years older and she's twenty one. Yeah, that's why we were
laughing. That's the way we last thing because it's still matched. Her here
is different, that was not. It's still the same. Fuck, nigga
pony tails. I just pushed the breaks. Don't push it in lying back
next man. So so that view, is it the same thought I mean,
if you do, if you want to know, I got my dress
tugged down a little bit, is it? Is it the same thought process?
If? Is it the same thought process? If he's thirty six and
she's thirty, it's the same thought process, is right. And that's what
I'm saying. That's exact, That's exactly what I'm saying. It's all situational.
Everything is situation. Because at twenty I had a two year old,
right, some twenty year olds already and there were twenty I was. I
just started from him. So she got a two year old, I just
started being freaked. Man. Life is different, but we just the same
thing now the twenty one, the twenty year old, Actually she's she grounded
her thought process very solidly. I'm gonna give her propulate twenty one year old,
don't you know fucking basic math? And she actually eliminated somebody that she
actually has in her category. She said she casts it to her TV so
she can come in real time. That's what I do when I'm at home.
I watch it on my TV, or you just go to YouTube and
put it on TV. Like my thing about it, like Apple pushed it.
My thing about assumptions is this whole process is so quick you don't even
know who the fuck you're talking to. You just basic off pop hop pop.
Hey, you're too young, you're too old whatever. It's speed dating,
yeah, speed dat. Speed dating is still having a conversation, speed
popping a bubble when we see the motherfucker you sitting down and having a conversation
with five minutes. When I was graduating middle school, when I was graduating
eighth grade, six years older than me, is already into your sophomore year
of college. Experiences are different, but the order you get, the closer
experiences get. And I said, you're the conversation. We're saying the same
thing. We're saying the same thing. You're saying the same thing as I
said. She's making an assumption based off of ack like your your age.
She didn't even talk to him and have a conversation. Maybe she did experience
why she did though, whatever, I'm just saying based off of what we
saw her. You almost thirty, or maybe maybe because you've been you've been
able to party all right, you've been able to do all this ship.
By the time I'm really just now getting in my bag, you might be
off that and want me to sit the fuck down. We ain't got time
for that, right because what was we doing twenty five twenty six this partying,
this shit like party takeover, partying heavy. But by the time she
gets to that twenty five to twenty six point, this nigga gonna be in
his thirties. Like, while you out all the time, while we can't
sit down to watch a movie, all you want to do is on the
streets because you ain't because you and your thirties. I'm not in my thirties
yet, trust me, and I want to do that ship. It ain't
fun young girls. I was just like, Wow, yeah, I don't
know it's like you said's teachers to be old to house to watch its case
by case, bab not want to be warming house? Good? You really
really do, bro, you saying medical terms and everything, welcome to welcome
to unk hood like real niggas will been like my anchor's back. But but
I'm gonna I'm getting ready to finally throw my thirty thirty in the club and
you coming in with a sweater vessel and ships like tom and I'm gonna blow
this whole up and be like if I'm twenty, Like there's drinking. Hey,
you know I didn't. I didn't graduated the wine and so I'm sure,
nigga, why are you drinking? You're still drinking hard, drinking Cisco
cocktail. You getting ready? You just decide what to wear. I wanted
to be drunk by five thirty at home by eight fifteen. I just still
catch wrong. So I definitely like, I respect their thought process was.
It was just it was just funny to me to see one of the young
girls actually say this when the old niggas always tell us that. We just
tell them that because well, y'all just bitter, because y'all ain't young no
more. And y'all ain't this, and y'all ain't that, and it's like,
all right, now, young bitch is telling y'all that, and he
ain't even as old as you niggas saying it. Your niggas is twenty years
older than niggas you're telling it to. That's a whole different conversation. That's
a while. That's a whole different conversation. That is a nasty. Now,
you niggas is already in your forties and she just told a nigga that
ain't even thirty yet that he was too old for her. All I know
was that twenty four to twenty five, I was just moving at my mama
house. I ain't lived that much more than the US. I bought my
first house at twenty two three. You're fucking anomaly. I bought my house
twenty seven twenty. Like I didn't. I didn't. I didn't. I
didn't. I didn't experience life life until I was thirty. I was.
That's when I was like, all right, I'm growing the ship. I
can go get me fucking a second house, like I'm like my fourth car,
like I was living. Yeah, right, twenty six, you're still
doing taco to six. Yeah six, you still you still living twenty sixties?
You are here talking about more, still living your house twenty six?
Bro was a fucking club promoter. Bro Bro was a club promoter at twenty
six, and we were still getting in the club free. The lifestyle was
very similar. It's not outragingly different, but I get it. So we
got we got one more of those to play in this ship. H m
hm. Why did you pop her balloon? I wasn't loving the sandals?
Okay, valume on this. Maybe know when you so? Why did you
pop her balloon? I wasn't loving the sandals. Ah, okay, wait
a minute, I'm like these sun those and you have ourn't Clarks, you
are way out of fashion. You can be talking to me, and you
know why you popped that balloon because you knew I was gonna because you know
you out like no, I'm out your lead. Come on now, let's
be for real. Let's be for real. You're chest higher than monks at
this point, so you could do the moon no huarantine I do to poping
off. I asked questions because I get people a chance. That's just me.
But you knew I was gonna anyway, so now cook bro, but
why but why you claim he was gonna popping on him anyway? So what
is you so upset for? And them shoes dud the dumbest fuck with that
dress on what she feels that because they say there on them that it gives
it a pass. No, that ship looks stupid and Clark's actually it looks
like we want to go ahead and give a shout out to our local celebrity.
Really strong in the comments. We're so sfty if I walk out and
all I hear is pop because they don't even have a chance to say nothing
nothing. But it's really like you are really upset because he wasn't filling them
shoes and they didn't go with the fucking dress. And the crazy part about
it was not only not only did the style clash with the dress, the
color was so like because it was red, it might have even been up
like, okay, maybe if it was white, because the girl that was
talking hers work. You know what it looked like is you got tired of
standing there and you swapped out to put on something else and it didn't work.
You were not you could have just that that was the case. The
little beauty supply slides with the fur across the top would have literally looked better
than that ship that she had. Yeah, that's why she felt it was
the past. It could have been if if you just had to do it
your choice. Yeah, because she was mad because he popped in his first
Yeah, now hey, can we can we see that real quick? Can
we can we see that? But did I wasn't loving the sandals. Okay,
wait a minute, like these sun those and you have our't clarks are
way out of fashion. You can't be talking to me. And you know
why you popped that balloon because you knew I was gonna you know, you
out like you know, I'm out your leave. Come on, now,
let's be for real. Let's be for real. You're chest higher than minds
at this point, so you can do popping off. I asked questions because
I give people a chance. That's just me. But you knew I was
anything. Hello, Verson, I don't know, but look looking at just
on the screen. Look at that that that right there now, the very
first one, the very first one. He said that she was too skinny.
She didn't take it wrong. She was like, yeah, you know,
I'm Petita or whatever. She's not Petito, because she was like,
I'm tall and skinny. That is not what petit is. We're just and
ma'am. It's okay. But yeah, that that ship really really bliant,
Britt said, she big man. Yeah, she does everything. She cooked
that nigga, like when we was in k pot spot cooking it in the
middle of the table. That's how she She turned the gas up, cooking
up. They've turned that into so many songs. Yes, he was silent,
but yeah, that ship was. But the fucked up part, the
fucked up part was like you had so many women in the comments defending it,
Yeah, defending it, like, well, them shoes is bit.
You know, they don't go with that fucking dress though you don't. We
don't care what the shoes are. We don't care how much they cost.
They look stupid as with that dress. She she definitely ain't pressed because them
them shoes expensive. She's rest his shoes fit, his fit more than her
shoes. Her face, that bitch was more. That bitch was more pressed
than my uncle's Easter suits in Louisiana. Okay, she was pressed. No,
that was the same all those women and you're trying to do a press
several eliminations. Sometimes this is quick pick the smallest thing because they gotta get
get rid of somebody. Yeah, because if you sit, if you if
you don't nitpick, you'll be sitting there there fether whatever. I wouldn't wear,
no classes sport. So you're saying that actually brings me to another part
of our conversation. There are hey, how people have like this misconception about
dating multiple people at once. You do not have to date multiple people at
once. You can date people one at a time, whatever works for your
dating style. The thing I hate is that they feel like, well,
if you're dating more than one person at a time, like I'm not with
that because you know I'm dating with intent or you know I'm not just dating
for fun. Like dating multiple people does not mean that you were just dating
for fun. That is just a way of eliminating motherfuckers faster in less time.
While you can be looking for your potential match, you can be dating
for fun, or you can be like, you know what, perfect example,
I will be forty in about two weeks. I ain't got that much
fucking time to be sitting here dedicating six to nine months to each person individually.
So maybe I'm gonna go three at a fucking time. When you were
going for a job, and a job is interviewing people, they are mass
interviewing. They are looking for their best potential match in the least amount of
time but the least amount of resources. They don't fucking hire interview one person,
say Okay, we're gonna hire you and see how it works, and
if you don't work well, then we're gonna go spend some more money to
train somebody else and do it all fucking over again. No, they go
fucking go through a bunch of people and see who is the best fit for
the long term for their company. Dating multiple people can literally be the exact
same thing. So why people feel like you can't date multiple people at once
to get to know, like what's the best option for you. I don't
understand that. I mean you have to know your limits. I think I
hate that I grasp that concept with I feel like I got if it was
way too late, and if I had known that sooner, I would have
won about things differently. But I also look at it too, like it
can be overwhelming. So if you just simply can't handle that many people at
once, I mean, I get that. I am not an old hole.
I'm seasoned, lemon pepper, all of them right, and neither way
is wrong. You have to date or your style. I just hate how
people automatically think if a person dates multiple people at once, it automatically means
that they're not trying to date. Seriously, no motherfucker. Maybe I am
just trying to eliminate as many people as possible, versus saying, Okay,
I'm about to invest all this time, all of this shit into this one
person. Then six to nine months down the line, I realized, oh,
well, that ain't it. Let me start over. When while I
was dating multiple people, I'm like, you know what, I feel like
this person offers more than this person, so you know, I'll proceed with
this person instead, and then it's just, you know, you keep going
like that. So I don't know, but I tend to look at it
a little bit differently. So, but also to it's the communication factor as
well, because if you if you're communicating that to the people that you're dealing
with, then you good. There's some people that's on the outside looking and
like, oh, you're trying to do this, like you don't even know
what I'm doing like I'm communicating with these people the SA they call me.
They know they are part of the five or the starting five. In fact,
they said, we through the bullshit. Don't be lying about it,
because then that's when we have issues. Yeah, communication, be honest about
what you got going on, and we're good. Yep. That was another
thing I was about to say, Nicole. She said, I think part
of it is because people don't understand that you can date and not sleep with
all of them at the same time. Yep yep. Nick said. Also,
dating doesn't mean you're having sex with them folks either. Dating is literally
an evaluation for partnership because you can start out dating and feel like, you
know what, well, I'm not looking for nothing serious, and then be
like, damn you know what. We hit it off. You know better
than I thought. This motherfucker is actually kind of all right, I'm gonna
go now. For me, I would have to be like, I'm gonna
have to let him clap the cheeks because if he don't clap right, you
know, if you don't if you if you can't clap right exto stage left
down the line. Look, I tried, I didn't told y'all. I
didn't told y'all know. I tried to do the whole like I got in
the relationship before the sex thing. It was honeymoon fast. He was nice,
he was sweet, he was doing stuff. And then I got the
dick and it was like it was the kids male portion. I didn't get
that. I didn't get the full you know, that's why you know what
you give a d the whole boy, big facts, that is fucking egregious.
You are a whole relationship, a husband and your platform in the whole
relationship. She she I don't care if she does. Is granted for all
big life moments given in a relationship and the whole you need. Who got
a man? How to keep that man? I can't even keep that man.
Man at me every eight business day. That's a difference. That's just
that's I am constantly in the doghouse. Nigga, nigga, I would we
manage your ass every nine, at eleven, at six. At this point,
I just need to get a daily personalized collar. That saved me me
because I am constantly in the doghouse. To put yourself there. She just
she just believes and a sudden chose that man. Okay, gave that man
your heart. You gotta deal with his eight months like the way the way
your talk to us, the way you talk to us, that's how you
talk to mother you h hell yeah, yes, definitely, kids started because
it was like, bro, that's a nasty reference point. I thought I
thought it was gonna be a whipper and it was white castle. That's all
I'm saying. Did you want a slider? Definitely? I thought that Dick
was gonna be a whipper and it was a white castle. So not even
the Bacon Jr. You know sliders that they put up the top of your
bloody mirror? Who made you this way? This wasn't big either ship business
days It is never not. Why I don't you think I feel the baby
shower winers? Uh little smoky, Yeah, that's it. That's exactly how
I felt like terry crews and white girls, That's how I felt. You
see, these men have to go through. He had big dick energy.
I mean, what kind of energy do you want? That? He had
big dig energy? But yeah, how's a little How's a little dick?
Niggas supposed to carry themselves, not that bucking cocky And then just I'm just
asking what he's bitch alone from a nigga energy he has. He ain't got
no control over that over so he have a little bick energy. He's cat
fishing. He's cat fishing his energy. What is little energy? Right?
And I guarantee you well, you know what what I kind of like you.
You know what I don't want to do. This is all my funk.
He should I should have knew. I should have because you know that
nigga ain't got no bass in his voice, that that testosterone was low.
I should have knew he ain't got no base in his wild everyday voice about
I made you? But haven't you have? Have women actually talked to a
man with a deep voice and small meat m I don't know, because it's
funny, be like that's not he got a lot of bass in the voice,
but his voice is also is very You hear a voice deep his nuts
match his voice like his balls matched the deepest the rumble that comes. I
am so looking forward to this vacation, jo. I will be so happy.
Thank you, Nick, she said, Puny, carry yourself like you
reside in Winnie Hut. You what some talking about? Okay, but back
back to my whole thought that y'all get real already already think the daving pool
is small, then the small then the small daving pool got this bleach color.
Whatever y'all think is in it. I'm just saying, I'm just asking
what your motherfuckers want with y'all. Won't people you're about to start singing d
m X, what's going on? I would like to know enough sobriety,
He asked that question and never got to answer. Once again, I want
to bring attention to the fact that d m X have the audacity to ask,
bitch is what they wanted from a nigga in a song where he said
that he don't give head, bitch, that's what they want? They won't
they bussy stuffed on. I gave him to be married because he definitely was
talking about his wife and that song too. Doc said, you niggas can
eat off the play all you want, but not not right that well,
he said, everybody but to meiga, so we know you want to part
of I mean that was her perfect. I mean just this like say smaller,
don't you don't if you know what to do with it? Then ain't
that the DMX like the epenomy of a nigga with energy and ship. Oh,
we saw the mother up the swinging belly. I saw the silhouette when
he stumped out the shower, and that motherfucker looked like a pendulum on the
clock. We're like, wait a minute, than you now? Was her
skin beautiful? Really? Really? Really? Just the epiti me like when
a woman is mad, Now, that is one thing I've never done.
When she's done, I've never gotten mad. I told the nigga with a
big dick that his dick was small when it wasn't. If I ever cushed
you out and called your dick little, it's because it was. Don't ever
think that was out of anger. That was truth, out of anger,
but it was goddamn truth regardless. She was like the little black danle ain't
the night before last, I was like, but then again, in real
life, she's also Nick Cannon's baby mama. Nick got that together. It
really all the bitches off his vision board. He did. He did.
He said that. One that is new information to me. I was today
years old, and two I never would have guessed it because she ain't like
skinned. Yeah, Nick is knocking bitches, Maria carry We're talking about now
like I thought you said Kesha was his baby. He does have a baby.
I wanna say that motherfucker was heavy all I pizza that man. We're
talking about Nick, fam know that's different. This is no, no,
this is Sunday. It's expected on Sunday. You've been on freak ship.
Oh week, all right, let's go ahead and take it the court.
And the subject is freaking. It's the one that was in I know the
girl you talk or something. But there's another one though, that was in
the in the Bronx tail. Yeah, that's that's when TIS follow her.
Oh yeah, if you got a baby by her, I am jealous.
Oh she said that his baby mama. Yeah yeah, the baby mama.
Oh really okay, thank you, thank you Nick. She said that's not
that ain't his baby mama. But no, yeah, so one has just
no you have not. You know, it got to be a lot for
her to say something, you know, like because bro, like no,
for real, this niggas is trying to turn my Pact into d E t
U Cut Instagram edition. I just have. Lenisia Cole is the dark skinned
being. Okay, her name is ye okay, thank you Nick. That's
I just I just provide y'all with entertainment. You know, you provide us
with concern, because that's what all of us has been filed in the prices
rights models. Who has been concerned? Did you not see the comments?
Even Tommy said he was concerned, concerned. Niggas was out. Somebody knows,
somebody bring it up before, before, before, before it was brought
up. I was like this early in the morning. Early, I enjoy
it. I enjoyed. I enjoyed in silence. But I was like out
there by himself. So I'm like, maam her big, no, that
genuine. But I'm like, fam, I just I think I'm a little
concern. It became a Monday you you posted floating on my timeline. Oh
what oh when the ass the ass shaken, when the ass shaken, challenges
going, Oh my goodness, that ship. When I haven't been in the
group, it was wildest ship. It's when I haven't been in the group.
And Facebook makes sure to notify hey, five new posts from one and
guess what all of the minutes and then then, like Tommy said, to
be early like brothers wake up like morning would post because the first time being
hit Listen, gonna pop up right on one you post. You posted one
in the name of shoes to shake ass shoes wrong, that's the question.
I think, that's what That's what I'm like, that's my concern of like,
fam, you you've been getting them all, you get all of the
ass. That's when. Now, that's when the call out happened, because
at that point I had enough. That's when the call out happened. Because
at that point I had enough. This nigga really said, I don't know
why my algorithm was like this. I don't know what's wrong with the algorithm.
Fuck, because I saw you pout the algorithm clicking on every video in
every video wondering my Facebook is like, all right, freaky ass, you
go one. This is what happens when you keep clicking to video in the
comment, when you keep clicking the video in the comic ones, your algorithm
is gonna get freaky. My say all that, and then I was and
then I was mad because it's a relationship very interesting to find said, dude,
my whole algorithm is all comedic dumb ass thoughts ship, comedic dumb ass
thoughtless ship, and like I laugh at this ship because this is mindless.
I wish I would get as much ass on my timeline as you do.
I don't even know. I don't know how to. I don't have to.
I just got to just watch. I just go with the Horse Award
pageant. I was like, wow, just go there and click on it
for yourself. And this video and the shoes are stressed. Admitted it,
and that's the bad. It wasn't even good shoes. Hey, you have
no discrimination either. They can be white, black, Puerto Rican, Asian.
But the one you're sharing wasn't even like she didn't even have like that
that cuff underneath it. It was a shaken Yeah, it flapped, it
flapped and clapped if it flapp and clap. People like he was like word
flapping flap, wild flapping clapp. Word. It was the word. You
don't even have to be a fast ass, just wade as a freaking industry
words share this. I was just trying to bring some enjoyment to the group.
That's all I was trying to group is chilling one group. The group
just want to wait, just want the new episode to drive on Tuesday.
I thought this was gonna be a trial. It's like an intervention. If
we didn't need your traps. Ever, it was an opening ship case.
It was that all brone say, damn Bro was on on it, like
now that ship I be doing. I put it in the group. You
want to bring this ship to the regular timeline. If you ain't in the
group, you can't see this, but you want to talk about it on
the regular timeline. Yeah, and freaking turned this into a rico. You
hit like on everything, I'm taking us all yeah that ship just so apparently
the finds you guilty trying to pick the choose uh liking ship at a certain
time when it's like like afternoon ship like asked it was early in the morning,
was like wow, why Wow, Wow, I'm gonna wait time it's
gonna be I'm away like bro scrambling this morning eggs. Who brought your who
by your ass? Scrambling eggs Like, who's okay to bring her ass here?
Hey? I actually said I stayed in my comment. You'll keep waiting
this turn are you doing? I'll click on a couple of but I'm gonna
clicking on all of the motherfuckers my my likes and comments. Don't do not
outweigh how many motherfuckers he posts. The ratio was regular. My ratio was
do you know what conspiracy? Not like not like Tommy don't want to be
a necessary to this crime? You do. I don't know because I know,
I know. I forgot his grandma jammed up because he was using the
phone. So yeah, conspiracy. You clicked the light and you commented all
your niggas catching cases. One light versus twenty five posts don't matter that there
you are trying to get a sentence down. You saw one fact that but
taking people with with that air name should have been in this motherfucker. I
don't know through the post, but like that he everywhere, that is as
soon as our post one. He right there, hard eyes. Okay,
okay, that's nasty work. That's nasty work. It's still a man.
That's that's why I have never seen this much snitch in my life. You
ain't know what I'm saying that I've never seen this much snitching in my life.
You are over the here, just done, nigga, You gone up,
look like I'm guilty in my meat. My is gonna never Hey,
what one of those that I said? And then I over here. I
was in love of one of them. Oh my God, so much,
so much snitching going on everybody, henw some ship that makes gonna want to
look like a sing I'm telling everybody whom you have dined out like nigga.
I'm not really saying my algorithm is super wary. You like what it would
be funny. It's like because when you where you know a person, it's
like yeah, yeah, and then you like you reading certain ship in their
voice, so I can hear voice in my head. And as I was
reading, I was like, Ship, I'm like, she she is so
fit, she is show she is so fit, and like she capitalized the
right work. I'm like, she is fed the fuck up. Yeah,
I'm right, this is so. I am wal. He don't mean you,
you know in the group, the group in the first twenty you know,
be in there, man, damn everybody shouting. He shouting everybody out.
Damn yeh know, we don't name drive. Fuck that name. He
dropped the diamond, everybody, He's dropping the dropping the diamond, all y'all
dropping, I'm dropping dining name thinking about you. He show is right,
you don't care that you in the group. And he's saying everybody he cases
on all y'all guess who conveniently ain't in these comments tonight. You know where
you are, freak nigga. I don't know where he is. I don't
know where he is. A couple of days ago was like clay vaginas.
It was like different vaginas with numbers next For me, he was which number
you? Which number? Like that? Okay okay, okay, okay.
My nigga was searching for the vagina picks on why take it out like you
just die? That's the problem. Should be sticky all the time. Videos
like you at times want he's one step higher the old times he's one step
higher, maybe two? Man, Like that's what talking about? Thank you
so that you've been a contributor to the group. Tone for that, you
know? He said like this, No, you know what He's like,
Hey, freaking no. It's funny because I actually went and logged into the
group and that was it said, Hey, let people know that their top
contributors. That was it. That was tal in directly tell He was like,
man, he is coming to you. You is still out here in
the streets. You gotta go in fide. You didn't tell me, see
one, I'm a real friend because I didn't put the heat on you.
I put the heat on other. That's why the party today I didn't wake
up to after today party. I swear I thought it was it was.
It was like, but I just found out today that my best friend is
I was like, enough is enough? He was supposed to be the judge.
Would have turned into the put your name in the group just to see
what you will pull for crazy. Just not looking at wine post and looking
at comments me me it might be time to ship the group down. It
might be time to ship the group down. You might have to call it
quit. No. That That's why I'm like, bro, this is not
like okay. Ever since the video can't go in the group no more,
she just went left. I'm gonna say this. I'm gonna say this.
Some of the ship you post is some ship that I'd be like, oh,
these niggas be straight reading, reading these women their rights, because they'd
be like, they be coming with some straight facts and leaving the women looking
crazy because they be talking ship. So I'm like, it ain't always as
it is informative. It's just some informative and some ship in there. That's
But then some of the I like niggas don't be wanting to talk about the
other ship. They just want to come when I start posting ass and they
be like, why are you freak? And and can I say this?
Can you drew attention to it when you brought your ass in there talking about
some man? Why is my algorithm? I saw six niggas saying I was
gonna ignore him and let him live. I see, had you not had
you had you understand had you just posted the ass like you had been doing
out of set in my head, like I'm so sick of this freaky ass
nigga, but I have kept it moving, like I haven't you know what
the fact that you was like, man, I don't know what my algorithm
is showing up your horny faster. That's what did it. That's what pushed
me on the fucking edge. So on. But so what she's saying is
you robbed the bank, but then you talk talking about, oh, man,
I didn't get enough money after ATM machine say this though, I'm gonna
say this. I'm gonna say this. When I first start seeing the posts,
I looked at why. I looked at wine as an administrator in the
group, keeping it active and he is doing that job. Tommy, you
already snitched on him in the first I'm just saying, you know, well,
you Tommy the examination, you have already admitted that. That's what usually
when I'm texting, I'm just swiping doing this, trying to get Timmy,
just trying to get swapt with pro basis on that post. I'm just saying,
I'm pulling backs out. This is live, this is this is live
interaction right here. You know, because if Wine didn't post nothing, who
will be posting ship? Let me tell you a lot of people posting ship.
It is No, it's not. Why answer this question for the panel
and the audience, M answer the question what are your fears? No,
what are your fears? You've said it on the show many times already,
Like what we talk about, like in the group chest Ship, Like what
do you say your you're fearious being screenshot and what else being called? He
don't he don't want to be known as the fact freaking niggas here we are,
here, we are. It's a rational it's irrational fear now because you're
reacting fear when I say that I don't want to be a screenshot or be
called the fat freaking Nigga is like, I don't, I don't move like
that, my dye. That's what I mean when I said I don't want
outside. She already seen your outside, so you was freaking before she got
in there. I think, I think what's happened. Actually, as I'm
looking down the timeline, a lot of your freaking ship has actually toned down
quite a bit, and it's a lot of dating ship and just wild interviewing
Tommy really trying to get probation. I'm looking at the timeline ship in the
group telling you don't even realize he did. Ye, He's he's snitching and
say hey, I'm I'm hey. I'm the only one right here with the
timeline open looking at the ship. Everybody else just just blaming everybody's talking ship
on the top of the head. I'm looking at absolutely. But again,
recently, a lot of the ships that one comment Conna be I do this
ship in the group. It's private, it's a safe space if you're not
hostally awkward. You can't see why being why Yeah, that's a gym that
was on the everyday timeline. I'm not funking that's now though. But when
they was doing the ass the ceiling challenge that on your record, Yeah,
because that was on that Niggas wasn't finding the good ones. See, niggas
was sharing sealing challenges and the ship was trash. So I had to go
do some research for the real niggas gonna find the good. They keep sharing
these stand bitches. I'm I'm stop sharing the thin bitches. Where the big
booty holes that if y'all gonna shake guys and shake guys, they do,
but not in that case, No they don't, because I don't like the
bitch he be posting in my group. I think you did. Girl,
I'm like those milky cheeks she had. You was just looking at the ayes
I was. She had a what's that thing? I don't know. Four
weeks ago, I got four weeks ago, I got Kayla saying I'm going
to the gym ifter seen some cheeks. Okay, you and this too.
I never well, don't point the fingers, don't point the fingers, eat
your chicken, Parmesian and stop stop don't putting on fingers. All right,
right, I can't really just let you, just can't completely manipulated that he's
a cancer. I've seen the coming we understand each other. I just my
best So y'all are seeing in real time. While I said cancers ain't ship
in real time, Tommy is proven why they are not to be trusted on
real time. Timmy has proven why cancers are not to be trusted cancer right
up and down. But I'm actually going write down the timeline and my best
friends while y'all over here talking philosophically. I just sat here in real time,
like I'm here in real time watching you drop dimes on at least eight
niggas. Like, Bro, you admit it. Yeah, I'm a freaky
ass nigga, but so are these other eight motherfuckers, said, I'm so
hurt content. He cont you want you want to know what's funny. I
didn't hear him say that, but we're gonna name drop anyway. So Tony,
you have a picture to post this if there's a screenshot screens second one
not the ones of me and Mama. Okay, second one that I didn't
because I'm nervous. Well, I mean, since we got Tommy flip flopping,
here we go. We gonna show another flip flopping nigga on one now,
now, mister you I don't even know folks, at least the niggas
I was saying, I know personal See this nigga is one of the many
he mean, women haters of Facebook. Oh his video? Do you want
to play the video first? No? No, no, no, no,
not the video first. So this is a screenshot of a post that
he posted yesterday where, uh, we're gonna actually play the video. But
it is about a woman saying she's single about choice, and guy basically saying
like, no, you ain't single but choice. And he's yawning at this
fact that the woman has said she's single by choice. But if you look
a couple of weeks back, n SO shout out to low but she has
her own group. Now The Rain Reporter is no longer a podcast, but
you know it's just sex and mess group. At this point, she asked,
she says, are you single? If so, how long have you
been? Who's right there saying they've been single forever? Correct? So the
same nigga who was yawning at women saying that they are single by choice.
It's the same nigga that's in here talking about he's been single forever with the
little dumb looking face. Right, all right, So can we go ahead
and play this video twice. I am why not tell me how I'm not
when it's my choice to be single. Let's let's use another example. Let's
say I live in my mom's basement and I'm three hundred pounds and I have
Cheeto dust all over my shirt, and I play a lot of video games.
Yeah, okay, and I don't smash any girls. But I walk
around and say, well, I choose not to smash girls. Is that
really valid? No? But how does that relate to what I have going
on? No? I like that you asked me that question. I have
guys I talk to, I have options, and a couple of them do
want to be in a relationship. I choose because I couldn't go be in
a relationship. But why would you want to be in a relationship with those
guys? Anyways, what I'm trying to establish is that the guy that has
the Cheetos all over his shirt, et cetera. He can sit there and
say, oh, I'm choosing not to have sexual girls, but the reality
is the girls don't want him. Okay, Those girls that he wants don't
want him back. Okay. So when girls say, oh, I'm single
by a choice. That's not true. You're single because the man that you
want doesn't necessarily want you back. And a lot of the times is because
of your choices that women make, because women don't understand that you make certain
choices and you automatically alienate yourself from a portion of men that would have potentially
taken you seriously had you not done that. But girls like to cope and
say, oh, I have a bunch of choices, have a bunch of
options. All those guys on you instagram A, those guys that come to
your job, all those guys that talk to you, they just want to
smash. They're not real candidates. That's all I've been trying to say.
So, you too got to be in little You two gotta have bait.
You choose not to have somebody to come home to and talk to him about
your bad day. You lying to me. See what most people talk about
relationships. It's always the bad stuff. I don't want to get cheated on,
I don't want my heart breaks, I don't want nobody to play.
Nobody ever talks about the good part of the relationship feelings. Let me tell
you something I would give if you got a passport to you, Gunda.
If you a bull crap type dude, boy, you gonna be a bull
with no more to him. I don't want to hear him no more anyway,
cut out at that point in time. So whenever I see the guy
with the glasses, he's always going at women. He's one of those.
But the funny part is, why is it that men always feel like they're
the only ones that can be single bout choice? Right? Whenever they hear
women say that they are single by choice, they always feel like that is
an impossible thing. Y'all have been getting on me for the longest for not
being in a relationship with babe. That's not bad. No, no,
we've been getting on you for not claiming the relationship you're in with They that's
not that. That's the difference. That is what it is, because we're
not in a relationship. One hit the button like that hit the button one
that we had a relationship even more like that. No, one, here's
your chance. You're supposed to be putting her own trow for this, because
this is exactly we got no boyfriend. This is okay, okay, youn't
got a boyfriend. Okay, So let's say for instance, she was out
about let's say we had when I see like, if it's not a call,
right, no, no, no, it's not over, She'll just
leave us here because she's done. It was a love How would you feel?
I feel like, oh, that's what we're doing, drinking all the
mag and then I'm going to film. But I don't want to exactly,
which is why I can go film with somebody. But if you see,
what's the big deal, it's not a big deal. It's not a big
deal. If I'm going to film with somebody. You saw him on a
date with somebody? Why why do you y'are singles? Why do you feel
like that? Right? Why do you feel you need to go film with
somebody? Just go home? Or unless you're sitting to eat, because that's
that's true. Right If you say, what can the date? Who said
we wasn't finna eat? You said you're gonna go film somebody, I'm finna
just why do you have to go film? I'm just gonna walk out and
be like, oh, well no, I no longer want this steak.
I'm finna go film. No, that's not because you want we need the
rest of Like, okay, I'm going right, Like, why do you
feel like you gotta go film? See me? This is how I'm perceiving
you saying that's what we own. I'm going to go film. That's you
can get. You don't need to get. You know, you know exactly
what filming does to him. It's not you get back on somebody that you're
not in a relationship with. It's not gonna get and that nigga over there
right, we're getting mistake to go because we're not want to sit in there.
And if we do, you're gonna try to say, make sure you
in his eyesight because we know you y'all think y'all know me clearly, because
y'all think y'all sounding like I would make a scene, and I really wouldn't.
We just say you know you there, Yes, you're you're not in
a relationship. Anything about what he does that should have hurt your motherfuckers.
So the thing is, if we are right now saying that we're only having
sex with each other, if you are out on a date, that means
you lied about only having sex with me. To think we just said that,
you just said that got to bring the party. Damn we had watching
him said I didn't. I didn't think you were that person. I have
known this person. I have known this nigga for fifteen years. That I've
known this nigga for fifteen years. If if they out on a date and
he's showing affection, they fucked. What was the post right there? Say
on the screen yours? It doesn't mean that you're not. It doesn't mean
that you are. But because I have known this man over, because I
have known this man for over fifteen years, I am shocked at don't if
you if you're telling me that I would fucking leave. You said that we
would leave and we wouldn't stay there or that, and he talked myself,
Oh well you would want to sit in his line aside? You know?
So, God don't know me. This is not this is nothing me down
here. If I know him every time when I tell I blew, I
know him. When I tell God, after two weeks, what does he
do whenever he get mad? After two weeks? What does he do?
I know how this niggare is when it comes to affection. So if he
is, if he is out in public, if he is out in public
showing affection, because yes, we agree that we only each other I have
said anything about anger. You have become a real bitch, the real I've
always been real ones, the real ones out here talking ship. No no,
no, no, listen, listen. She's she's started to the regular
bitches out there claiming claiming that you know gangster you all of a sudden,
you can the bitch because I know him. He is just him. It's
just him, y'all said. If he's out on a date being lovely w
and all that ship, I know him. He's not an affectionate person like
that. If he's not fucking with you like that. So if he's out
on a date and they actually like he's showing affection and all that ship,
your first his first date, he's a first day, he not gonna be
on all that affection ship on the first exactly exactly. I don't know who
you are. I don't know you, y'all clearly don't know. I don't
know if you know at this point to think that I would be angry,
that would come out to myself so that this is the same person who after
he after he got angry with your boyfriend, after after he got angry with
me because he went and viewed my only fans. He sent me a picture
of him having sexual intercourse with somebody. Think that it was going to what
it was going to make me feel away because the actual caption was, well,
how now you see how this ship feel? And I swear to like,
I literally felt nothing about that. How can you question how I quit
to the fucking morning back like you'll probably put a motherfucker in a casket for
this nigga, Which is cool, that's a deep love of love. But
to love a motherfucker like that and for him to like try to press buttons
and get no reaction, that's your sick nigga. No, it's one.
I know that you're trying to do that until y'all gotta look at Like,
bro, we go to sex parties and ship together. So I think my
like that part of my brain, like the jealousy part of my brain.
People, No, I just I feel like like that, like the jealousy
the jealousy part of my brain doesn't click, like but what it clicked if
he came to and was like, all right, I know we've been in
this circle for a while, but I actually found somebody and I'm feeling her
and I really want to give it a try. I feel like I damn
near have to go through my messages and show y'all this ship, because you
know, because I feel I feel like y'all, don't. I feel like
I'm capping. She said, you need to chill out. That's a good
question, he said, why don't you date? Why I don't date is
because there is I do and the reason if he's not yours? And why
is he the fucking measuring stick for niggas who don't even know this nigga?
Because I get a feeling, because I get a feeling from him that I
haven't gotten from anybody else. But you're not giving nobody else a chance.
I do give niggas a chance. You be popping a balloon. I didn't
give to your chance. And what did he do with it? And what
did he do with it? He brought right? I say, he out
of hisself? He out of hisself. That was the best in the comments
at home, screaming like like a reality TV show like it was you gotta
gotta, you gotta get out here because whatever one day you do say and
he stand on your mind. You I'm trying to. I can see her
perspective, but I can't perspective. I can't see you can't see her.
I'm trying to see her. No, I'm saying, man, you know
what, I'm man like you said, one of these real bitches trying to
help with these real these real bitches out here who we claiming ship like oh
no and doing some other ship. I just want y'all to just be together
or leave each other alone. They can't. That's just wow. Either he
gonna be a part of the family or I'm a faith now you can't one
because every eight days now because because this is the same reason how me and
me and him wasn't together then. But yeah, he was apologizing because he
had sex with somebody else. So he said, I know you're super mad
at me and done with me again, but please don't let this be the
end. Thinkings, I'm sorry for being a horror again. Man, I'll
be trying. I'm just a dickhead. That girl don't mean jack shit to
me. Thinkers and anybody can go run and tell that. Please just talk
because we do. He was like, please just talk to me again soon
or whenever you can. I said, I'm really not mad at you for
fucking her. We wasn't together, so I can't hold you having sex with
somebody else against you. You didn't cheat on me this time. I'm mad
at you because I asked you more than once to be honest if you wanted
to or were having sex with somebody else and you lied about it. I
asked if somebody else was in a picture at all. You say, she
don't mean shit to you, But but why would you go through all of
that to lie if that wasn't the case. We not together. You don't
have to lie about things. So it's like, oh, no, my
thing is. My thing is whoever, whether it's him or anybody else,
any nigga who I have ever fucked with. The Only reason why I want
to know about what you're doing is because then it lets me know how to
move if you only you don't feel like, well, you know what,
I don't want to, you know, have sex with nobody else. It's
just us too, Okay, cool? If you like, well, you
know, whatship I got this? No, it's not. It's just mean
you understand that maybe we don't want to have sex with other people. It's
not a Relationship is when you two come to an actual agreement. It's when
you come to an agreement to commit to each other up people. That don't
mean that we're not seeing other people now that we're not doing that. If
I said I'm only you, it's just us. You can't fun me and
then go on dates. No, we're not doing that. That's that's why
some people. But that's what some people don't. That's still dating. Just
because you fucking somebody else, don't mean you still ain't dating that. You
have to say I'm exclusively with you and you, but you both have to
agree that you were exclusive. That's what I'm telling him. You have to
say that you're exclusive dating and talking. You could be fucking while you're talking.
They don't mean that you go together, y'all. A fucking wow.
Dating is you've never had sex with somebody you're not in a relationship with.
That's different. How How is that different? Okay? I don't know.
I just did it. Okay, right, What what did we talk about?
You go ahead, put me back. So you're telling me there's no
relationship. This is not exclusive. That's where we're at, right, it's
not exclusive. I'm just we're not exclusive. We're still right, right,
But we had a conversation to where I only want to have sex with you,
and then you say, yes, one, I only want to fuck
you to we just want to fuck each other. But we're still supposed to
be able to go out and date if that's what y'all agree to, Because
you have to look at one, because I agree to just only want to
sleep with you. I don't want to do it with nobody else, and
I'm not taking nobody else nowhere. But listen, But listen, you have
to look at not everybody ties emotions to sex. They could only want to
be having sex with one person at a time because that's where they feel safest.
Or they're like, okay, well if you if some shit come back
to me, I know who the fuck to go to. It has nothing
to do with the motion, It has nothing to do with the motions.
Sometimes the dating experience is more meaningful than the actual sex, like having the
experiences that you get you have with the person, going on trips or going
on why do you think something? Why do you think? Why do you
think? So many niggas be crying online talking about man ain't taking no bitch
out to dinner and then she finish, go home and fuck the nigga that
didn't feed her. Why do you think that is because they don't want to
be the nigga dating her, but she's fucking somebody else, so they're taking
her out doing all this shit. But she don't want to have sex with
him, but she might get to a point like you know what, I'm
really feeling him, I like whatever, and then go back to do like
you know what, I met somebody. You know, we can't do this
no more. That's that's that's because because a lot of people do, like
they have sex with who they're comfortable with. How often does that happen?
We don't know. That happens all the time. We don't know. So
it's like and the me, I don't think, I don't know. I'm
not sure enough to have this conversation like each other. But then you know,
you and this motherfucker posting another motherfucking hands in across the table. I
don't know. Maybe be like that some time. Hey, But but until
I say hey, I want you and I'm argue you, everybody else tell
you I'm your man and you my woman, it's over. It's over somebody
And like you said, that intimacy because it's like, look, going to
somebody else look, look, look at it this way. Okay, so
save me and him. You know, we had our little beef or whatever,
and I'm out and I'm dating people now during this time where I'm dating,
these are not people who I want to have sex with. But maybe
me and Caleb go out, we have some drinks. I'm horny as fu
like bro the Rose ain't gonna do it tonight. I probably backtracked to something
that's familiar, because what do we call me? The Captain planet of recycling
dick? So because I don't want to have sex with somebody new, because
I don't want to have sex with somebody knew yet, there's a hell of
a chance that I'm going to backtrack and fuck somebody who I've already fucked before,
even though I'm actively dated. But then once I find somebody who after
actively dating him, I'm like, you know what, I'm ready to take
that next step with them. All right. No, it was fun while
the lasting type ship, but you know, I'm I'm seeing somebody now,
I'm gonna getting a relationship. Before my last relationship with Marv, I was
literally supposed to go fucking Nick and I ended up falling asleep. You know,
you know, but because everybody, well everybody know. Everybody knows.
Everybody know that because I put that ship in the face. You know what
you described motherfucking dating. That's what I'm saying. But that's but that's what
he was disputing. I know, but I'm saying, that's how it happens,
like okay, but it's it's it happens that way until I say you
are we and you are exclusive. We pretty much open to do anything.
You can get mad and be all like I feel some kind of way,
but ship shoulder shrug, nigga what he tells me all the time, Like
he gets mad at me because he gets mad or feels a way because he
feels like, man, we we you know, we not even officially together,
Like I shouldn't be feeling this way. And I'm like, oh man,
make you feel that. Yeah, I'm like, bro, we've been
doing this for like we we love each other, like we literally like were
in love with each other. We just we got a lot of ship to
work out before we were to actually be in a fucking relationship. I told
y'all, like, I don't want us to get into a relationship without therapy
because we need that ship back bad. You need to move the therapist in
that Nigga needs to be in here right now. It's a couch behind you.
But but so for him to send you a damn video him fucking somebody
like, yeah, damn, so he will how you feel like that crunch
your munch? And I was like, was he talking? Was he?
Was he cutting a promo on in the video? No, it wasn't a
video, it was a it was a screenshot like like a picture about proper.
I would have propped the camera. I would have ripped my shirt like
hogkok and because the meanest promo as I was giving back, and I could
have been a bit shot. I could have been like, it ain't me,
her pussy dry. But I didn't. Well you know something, brother,
if that was me, that mother fucking would it looked like it was
a pitch shine. But I didn't because I'm like, I like, I
know you, I know you doing ship to try to get under my skin
because you feel a way about what you saw. So man like this people's
champ elbow. Yeah yeah, but I don't And and it's not because I
don't love them. It's not because you know I don't care. I just
think that my brain is wiredly different. It's wired differently when it comes to
jealousy. No, I think it's it's the ship that I've been through with
niggas and the ship that they've done. It's like nothing is ever surprising to
me anymore. Like I've had friends have babies by exes and ship like that.
Like, and I didn't get mad, I didn't cust nobody out.
I didn't try to fight nobody. It was like a word, that's what
we're doing, and then cut and then cuts. I'm like, bro,
it's like the third or fourth nigga that she Didne went behind me and she
was like, well that just me and y'all both got good taste. But
she don't like nobody to fuck behind her though. So yeah, that she
was wild. As as the summer is as as the summer corn now you
can't get you can remove, you can remove stuff that we played, so
I can what who as the summer is fast approaching. I want you guys
to be mindful of your hygiene in these clubs. Our brother is like,
for whatever reason, he has a lot of musty female friends. Brother Brother
with this brother bro always seems to know somebody who's who's a little tart.
But if you are, you know you get caught slipping because sometimes things happen.
I I personally have gotten dressed too fast, like rushing getting out the
shower and then driving home. I've told you, like not driving home,
but driving from home. And then I'm like, bro, I don't think
I remember to put the other in them. Yep, gotta have card,
the other and ship. And it's like now, as as a woman,
and I feel like as a woman, like as a very feminine woman who
carries purses and ship, there's no reason for y'all to get caught slipping.
I'm okay, can I say that? Says a disclaimer y'all using aluminum free.
I'm a butcher body bitch, so so I don't carry persons. I
don't carry persons. I mean I was bleeping blind before I turned to pink,
before I died in pink. I know a woman actually built like that
too. But that episode of people, Yeah, make sure you got you
gotta have your travel deodan, and I don't want you to be embarrassed.
Like you know, if you carry in a purse in the club and ship,
you know they open your bag with a little flash like and Ship ain't
nothing to be embarrassed about. If you got deodrant in there. If anything,
they probably appreciate it because motherfuckers do not want to sit here. And
it smelled like onions in the corner. In the corner. Yeah. But
in the event that you know, you do get caught slipping, hopefully you
got somebody that got your back. Like this Ta said, this guy needs
to be arrested, life sentence a gym. No, he needs a cake.
He needs a cake, he needs to he needs a key in the
city. Put the cat over here. It's the way he was moving and
grooving. And I've been I've been in relationships where she was like I think
I smell like, yeah you are, and I hooked her up here go
go fix it. So I've had times where like like I said, rushing
and ship and I didn't put the other on them, and I'm like,
nigga, we just gonna be fucking a buff of us smelling like you because
I'll go right in his closet because I'm like, bro, I'm not gonna
I'm not gonna be look and he'd be cracking and he will be cracking up
and he'd be like, hey, man, ain't gotta do what you gotta
do, because I'm like, bro, I'm not going I'm not gonna be
over here musty and ship huffing and puffing. No ready, man, I
got I got lo in the order, and you ain't take the podcast.
Guy, I still see him. I didn't see the little line near the
bottom of that who him? Somebody English? I don't think I actually don't
think people have real podcasts. I think they record it and just make a
bunch of reals. No, Bro, it's niggas who use too much beam.
It's niggas with ball hands. It's just that. And it was both
in that video. Niggas like Joe Buden type niggas just just be reckless.
There's always being in some mess. Yeah. Have you ever got to a
point where it was like, I fel like slapping the nigga a kid,
Rather, it's not your kid, it's not your little white motherfuckers. Before
I left work today that it's not a thing. Of of course, you
know, you going around and just putting your hand on random kids. But
I feel like everybody has been there. Brore It's like broy father's your mama
would slap you into this fucking wall right now, cause you know, kids
be disrespectful and shit. Now, I don't think I can really be mad
at this woman because how she handled it. I feel like what I feel
like, how she handled it like I can understand while it was frowned upon
by school administrators, but I mean, she did what she had to do,
and Truma at Campus Elementary had already entered a guilty plea. The judge
sentenced her to seven days in jail, and she got credit for one day
time serve, so she'll spend six more days behind bars. Official say Wilson
Johnson told two Campus Elementary students that she would give them a dollar to beat
up a fourth grader who had cussed at her. Records showed that the child
was pushed, bumped to throw out of his seat, and had his food
taken. Wilson Johnson's attorney told the judge that she was pregnant at the time
and that may have made her act out of character. The judge said that
the sentence fits the crime. The conduct is particularly egregious, and I think
you get that both hindsight. Obviously, I think some jail was appropriate.
It suggested that it be significant. I think that seven days in jail was
probably not to have the impact that we want so many of the craft in
the day of serving six editional days in jail Wilson. Johnson was also given
a year of probation and was ordered to pay eleven hundred dollars in fines and
fee exactly dollar. She was doing guy's work. Look, I'm not against
paying kids to whoop. Another kid asked, you didn't do it. She
was teaching life lesson and I think the punishment for the crime. She was
teaching life lessons. You are Are you that an adult? You don't know
me, you don't know what I'm old. I got something now. The
only thing that the only problem with is the currency, like a dollar.
Nigga like give me five no no, no, no, no no no
no see hit ban word. What happened? She offered him a dollar.
They were just supposed to go push him around a little bit. They started
liking that, and they probably didn't like that kid anyway, so all the
rest of them was extra. We've been waiting to fucking we've been waiting.
They took it. I felt I feel like I feel like where she went
wrong is to shooters. She was supposed to get kids that didn't go there
because what a bit the sweet say you don't pay it, hold the fuck
you to pay the lead. So she was supposed to get out of town
shooters. She was supposed to get kid is from another playground to come tune
that nigga up and nobody would have got caught. No brothers, No,
you tell me when that When that nigga walks across the damn was pond from
far away in that snow, nigga he about to woo, ask where where
the come from? No nigga went delivery punch, he said, mother like
that. That's my movie. Papa document asshole in all his movies. Some
stupid old lady, watch your mother mouth ship. Nigga four brothers is my
movie. I will watch that movie. Will always be discredited that movie in
that movie though every movie? Why is he? I want to all right?
I wanted little christ were not complaining? Is the smart techy nigga and
the chick. They make a good combo. Tyree is a ballad. He
don't even take his shirt off. Bro, Let's do something by the bitches.
He just here. I don't think women want to see his shirt off.
We don't. Tyre's biggest contribution to Fast and Furious was how your baby?
Or hot that big ass forehead? And it was him getting cooked script
script, you forgot who the people? The best part, the best thing
that he has ever contributed to the franchise was him getting cooked in Prime too.
Now, Lula whooped his eyes on the last. I didn't watch that.
Yeah, I started watching it when they when they were driving Lamborghinis Antarctica.
I was done. Anybody they did watch the Fast and Furious Always a
bad Jason Momoa is the best bad guy and they had it took ten movies
to get one, ten movies to get the best villa. I have a
confession. I've never seen any of them. Smart man, don't even start
you good. I say that. I say that to say I never will.
You don't need to bro. There's some franchises, Okay to skip the
first what what? What? What number was it? When? Uh?
When they jumped the submarine, No, they were jumping the car out of
the helica, out of the plane. All of them saw I saw that
highlight of what the is this ship from the helicopter. I was like bro,
is this ferious? This is the Avengers? Because what the When they
were on a high speed chase on the freeway and he jumped out the car
to catch his woman, that's when I knew they did. You could take
the lunch of video out thought these niggas was low level of car thieves and
now they is saving the world. What the fuck did I miss nothing?
I think for the first time a judge was fair and reasonable in his sentence
and with seven days seven days is cool. The eleven hundred dollars, the
eleven hundred dollars is really with it all? Yeah, it came down to
that corfee penalties and corfee. Know you're manipulating kids and ship. That's that's
some ship. She said she's pregnant at the time, though, and that
was a badass response. That was a dope at That was a dope ass.
That's that's why you can't argue. That's why he came off with it,
because he's That's why you gotta keep that one. That was in my
right mind, that's the one you gotta keep. Nineteen, I'm pregnant.
I don't know what the bro Oh, yeah, she was dude, nigga
Nigga ain't nine. The problem was dollar was like, but the problem was
she gave the dollar to snitching kids. Yes, they went above and beyond,
but they snitched Nigga in fourth grade. They don't know nothing better than
you gotta find those all. You gotta find the ones that know to be
quiet in the office. Was like, man, what happened? She got
real dollar? Just she said, don't hurt him, so we didn't hurt
him. Yeah, as as you gotta find the ones that don't. Administrator,
I didn't reach the point where Nigga wouldn't stitch it until sixth grade.
Up the fifth grade. Motherfucker's telling they you said, like birds. Oh
hell yeah, like this Nigga did earlier. I can make up. I
can make it. What it's a jail? You was talking, man,
they tell it every day. No, he doesn't do that. Was I
was trying to make a point. He picked up his glass. No,
No, what I was. What I was, What I was saying was
motherfuckers will snitch on each other base off of just hey, I know what
the other person said, so you might as well tell it. They start
crying. It's just like it's just like it's it's just it's just like first
forty eight, Mann, Hey, I want you first forty eight and fourth
grader, y'are terrible. Hey, So we know what he's saying. Now,
y'all, don't this This is the ship that worked right here, we
got cameras in the bathroom, so we might as well just say it and
ain't nobody ever looked, nobody was smart, nobody to go check. Fifth
grade is when your damn intuition starts kicking in and you start understanding your development
in your brain. That'start. Sixth grade. I got cameras in the bathroom.
Then I'm suing. I'm telling my mama that perse a sixth grader would
say that a fourth grader was like I had to kill and dimed out the
whole squad. They're not talking on the playground high school at getting ship.
Oh no, that's a lie because I got kicked out because and they didn't
even have to tell there's a lot of work though saying they wanted to she
was soft as fuck and not even involved. Would Yeah, that is true
because I was actually wouldn't even pull. I wouldn't pull the people in who
was involved. He was was around, I was going there. Did you
see what's happened? I would be canful, like you see what you see
what happened? All I know is Serena was just like in the bathroom and
she was in there by herself. No, she came in with Wine.
I was in the bathroom. What was that? That is just talking like
a conversation. Wo hey, you talked to him like a conversation. He's
the motherfucker's involved to do the legwork. I don't how many cameras and you
saw kids standing here, we didn't do it was always it was always one
nigga that did that. Though it was always one. I was like,
don't ask that. Niggain't saying ship right because it's like, okay, you
sitting up in my face telling me that you got cameras, go watch them,
go fucking watch. I said, I watched him. I saw what
happened. I saw you in there, So then you don't need to be
sitting here talking to me. Pet me my representation, nigga, s I
saw I saw it. I saw you talking to Wine. What did you
say? I was good? I was. I was a call my mama,
ass bitch. I was a call my mama ass like and then and
then because my my mama was light skinned, pretty with long hair, and
she had buns and titties. I used to exploit the funk out my mom
to get out of trouble. I've been in here like, oh well I
think I don't think she was really in the bathroom. Then out of my
mind she walked by. I know, you out my mom. She's coming
there. Irritated your heart because she had to come off working ship. That's
like a little bit more. That's light work. You know, get out
of here. That happens. We can get out of here. You know
how damn easy my job is now I have to deal with none of that
ship that is so that's like they're lucky. Way they lucky when have cell
phones to text back then, because I'd have been like, hey, hit
them first two buttons before you come in here. They were like changing off
the dude, do you know about job? Was no that that that wh
that windom outfit work just by hit them first two buttons both come here.
That was my job every day. It wasn't like because it wasn't a whim
like every so often. That was every day investigating some ship. You got
me did you already think I did something? So you need to punish me
for what you think? No, no, literally, if I got you
in my office, I know, I know you did it. I just
got you. I need you just tell me what you did. Okay,
by nigga, I got five other I need, I need my three days.
Hey. My response is I know why did it? And I got
five other people who said he did it? He did it. This is
the most episode ever I'm just giving. I'm giving the cheat code to parents
out there. Hey, if your kid is in office being talked to and
you weren't likely motherfucking and told on the ass and they got a lot of
facts, are you talking to the wrong generation of parents? Now? These
parents ain't like the parents back in the day. These motherfuckers they gonna fight
regardless who raised like now they getting they asked for telling on another motherfucker.
One thing, I had a mama come in like your mama, and I
was like, damn, she cuts me the fuck out and I wouldn't.
I was just watching it. I was like, Damn, she's putting the
right words together. I saw all the words that she was spitting and ship
I was like, damn, I was like, well, you know he
did it. I let her do all that ship. I'm sorry whatever,
I know I did something. Now for me, it sucked because I we
know kids will play the victim. I really was public enemy number one to
my fucking administration. I'm gonna say to the public getting me a number one
meeting that you were like called out on ship and like blame for ship that
you didn't do. Yeah, or even if I was actively trying to Like
so here's the thing. When I was in school, I used to try
to avoid because I knew if I got to a point where I had to
whoop your ass, I was gonna fuck your shit up entirely. So I
would at least like it was my mom and my dad. My mom was
the dude, you gotta do be cause she knew that I didn't start.
I wasn't a shit starter, so she knew if I got to a fight,
I was either protecting my sister, my cousin something like that, or
somebody was fucking with me. I was never a shit started that, but
I was too goofy for that. I used to kick it with my homeboys,
crack jokes, rib do all that kind of shit, but I wasn't
a shit starter. Now. My dad always had this thing of, well,
you need to go tell you know, a teacher or an administrator,
or do this, or do this. So he wanted you to be,
you know, running tattle. Yes, do you not ot When I was
on the run, this nigga was on the phone with me trying to get
me to turn myself in and hung up on him. I called him from
a payphone because I didn't trust him either in the frozen vegetable nigga, I
went to the nigga. I went to a pay phone. It was fucking
seventy six and Bradley at the fucking gas station nigga. I called my pops
from a payphone because I felt like if I didn't, that nigga was gonna
call the United States Eastern District of Wisconsin and tell them where the fuck I
was. So I didn't tell. I didn't call him from the landline either,
but no soil, cause one chick. She kept fucking with me.
I'm like, all right, you know what, I'm gonna let him know.
So I went to the security guard. I'm like, all right,
I'm not gonna do this too many more times she keeps fucking with me.
Somebody better tell her just ignore that. I'm telling you I'm not coming back
here too many more times. She been doing shit on the bus when she
see me in the hallway, heard her little friends be trying to gang up
and ship. I'm letting you know that this is me trying to avoid it.
So either y'all talk to her or I'm gonna handle it. No,
she was in a higher grade, but she wasn't bigger than me. Right,
Yes, at seven am, bright and early on the nineteen bus stop
on your birthday at that birthday looks bit Damn. I gotta quit whooping motherfuckers
for their birthday. Bro. So well, she was like that, like
she dressed nice anyway. She got them SSI chicks and shit, so she
was fresh. She ain't acritarted. Yo, you are sick, nigga.
She ain't a retarded you handicaps. She had sick of self. You her
blood, bro, she started bleeding. She can not oh uh even poxic.
Now she got some pain to compare it to on a scale of zero
to Tamika, how bad does it hurt today? Now? She got attle,
she got a little chart. Yes she could, she should have known
about that before she got me kicked out of school. So no, it's
an awesome guy. No, she brought grown bitches up to the school to
fight me. I got kicked out because she was a she was a singer
and I was a junior. So they're like, well, she's almost done.
It don't make sense to kick her out. That would have been automatic
for it. As soon as you bring someone up there, you automatically spelled.
So soon as soon as you bring somebody up. Remember when I told
you I was public enemy number one with my administrators and Ship. Yep,
So that's so that was a thing. So my mama, So my mama
came up there and we were up there to clean out my locker. Want
no bullshit, no nothing. So my mom signing in, she was like,
go downstairs, get you know, get whatever little stuff you gotta get
out so we can go. I'm headed down to go to my locker.
And one of the security guards, her and the administrator used to work together
and Ship and where you think, you like, just start cussing me the
fuck out because I'm here to clean out my locker. She didn't know my
mama was over there. That the fucking window. She thought it was just
me, so like looked at Mom was like this, She was like,
go do what I told you to do. I ain't got no smoke from
me. Boss. When I tell you, I could hear my mom from
all the way in the basement. I didn't know that you can say bitch
that many times consecutively in done so. Then so you as so you as
an administrator, you see this coming, how would you approach my mom as
far as you interacting with Yeah, interacting with the security guard. You see
them going back and forth and my mom is customer, you know, disengaged.
Well, this motherfucker decided that he was gonna go with his little weak
ass walkie talking and his white ass hips and walk up in my mom face,
pointing his finger saying, who does she think she is? Long story
short, me and my mom are not running to the truck. They have
caught the police on my mo bro to get the police called on you at
Marshall, nigga at Marsha question you gotta de escalate to them, But he
didn't do that and then talk to you like, hey, it's it's good.
I got like I gotta show you that I got out of control you.
You're good right. They never got to that point though, because what
should have happened was the security should have actually escorted you down to get you.
The security should have been informed that me, me and her mom are
here to go down to her lock or to clean it up. Can you
escort her down to make sure you don't go into no classrooms? Security don't
know who's come in here, because then bush it Yeah, that was that
was on bush because me and her we didn't get along. And my grade
level minis fact. Yeah you can you you you you you may. We
lived a sheltered life in high school. There's there's a gaggle of motherfuckers in
the school in high school that you like, I can't waiting this motherfucker lea
nobody just like that, like it just don't imagine like having conflict with the
motherfucker. You gotta see school just like prison. Now, the one thing
that I did, the one thing I did astor we got hubor privileges to
go home, I would be friend students like me me because whatever time they
in my office, I'm like, what happened now? And that's how well
he ran in schools for a long time were you familiar with doctor Armour.
M okay, well he was like he passed away a couple of years ago,
but that was our like that was our mister Clark. But but with
him, like that's how he was, like if he saw like he pulled
you into office, like he talked to you, not at you. He
built a relationship with us. I would sit there and listen to you,
like miss Lavell to this day, if you're still alive, fuck you damn
if you're still alive. Right, but doctor Armor gone, I don't know
if she's still kicking my little school this day. And she was to this
day the meanest work, the meanest evilst ass. Students see me somewhere like
it's mister Miles, Hey, what's going on? They be talking to me
because I didn't. I did punish him. I kicked some of the kids
out, like some of the kids I talked to I didn't expel. They
were like, yeah, I was on some fun ship because they know I
gave you shot after shot after shot. Like look, I can't keep on
having these conversations with you, keep on doing the same ship ni because like
doctor like if it was just like he would let me like he would have
me sit in his office. So it's like even while I was like,
see your suspension, we were trying to like figure this ship out. Like
I was in his office and because it was so cool and everybody like motherfuckers
kept popping in and ship. He was like, get the class here that
just like, bro, don't make him yell at you. Just you know,
did ever you see what happened? You see what you see what happened?
She in the office, advocating for the administrator, like a we don't
we don't got control, I think, But did you see the video of
the nigga who pushed the other student because they was disrespecting and he swung and
hit the teacher. Yeah, I didn't see it when you posted. Yeah,
I was like, he don't get in trouble getting chanced after chance after
chance when they said, and he probably don't get sent to the office because
it's like with Red and Jelly Bank, like because I made sure that I
made sure. That is literally what I worked hard for to make sure that
they were not like me. I saw where my mom made missteps and holes
in her parenting, and I was like, I got all that ship out
the way, so It's like with my kids. Whenever we were in conferences
and SHIP, I was always being told how when other kids was being unruly
and Ship, my kids was the leaders. So like RIB was the one
that turned like man, y'all see here, trump like chill out, and
then everybody shut up because everybody respected me. And I was like, damn
man, like we is kind of wild and and shit. So so you
know that those are the kind of kids that I had. Like so but
no, middle school. Middle school was different middle school because I was cussing
motherfuckers out and I was just I was doing bullshit. So it was like
if I would fall asleep in class, like my teacher missed her time,
he'd be like, let her sleep, leave her alone. She ain't fighting
nobody, she ain't yelling at nobody. Yes, quiet, let her sleep.
Like you be in my office, I'm like, I gotta go to
this meeting. Come on, come on, you walk with me. I
take my computer in the meeting. That's how that's the armor with you,
you with me. All they sending you home and doing Ship and doing a
goddamn thing and having you in a classroom doing a goddamn thing either. You
know what my highest you know what, my highest grade point average was in
middle school when they put me on CEO suspension for like two weeks. I
mean, and I see your in house suspension for like two weeks. I
was in that little prison. It was in that little prison where we couldn't
talk, We couldn't breathe couldn't poop, had to eat our lunch in there,
like we was a special wad kids and ship. But because there were
no outside distractions, it wasn't no arguing because you can't talk unless you and
actually and even in the room and a whole bunch of other bitch ass niggas,
so you ain't really something like somebody you really want to with anyway.
Like that was a bunch of losers. I was in that motherfucker for two
weeks. Like, don't let you sleep in that motherfucker. You can't.
It was literally like prison. It was literally like prison like. And I
got like a three point five that fucking semester, just off of two weeks
of isolation, not being able to be around my friends, not being able
to go to sleep, not being able to goof up and do none of
that ship. And I was like, dog, I see some of my
former students, like, god damn, man, you ain't got shit to
do with focus. You literally you don't have nothing. There are no distractions
in there, and it's like you have to you have to work because the
quiet will drive you insane. It is so quiet in there. I was
a scene one once and the two students came up to me and like,
my house got damn. They talked about the in school suspension because we had
in school suspension and we had you like writing like we call them lines.
They weren't like, I will not do work. What you be copying?
You copying like some shit we give you, like the Book of Virtues you
copy in like East South's Fable or some shit you just copy and some shiit
three times. That ship is stupid. It was stupid, but it's set
your ass up. I would have preferred if you would have just went to
all of my classes and got all of the work for the day. But
you know what that is. That's what we did. But you know a
list of like fifteen rules. And since you're here your entire day, nigga,
if you fill up, you need pap. This is my our and
ours. They went, they collected the work so we wasn't falling behind.
So all the work from our classroom, I had no choice but to do
that. Shitn't turn the fucking in My philosophy was day one. You ain't
want to be in class in the first place. You you writing these things,
and then and then and then, and then you get into work,
and then when you get to work, you get two days of work,
and you're gonna be in there working your ass off until this is done.
I remember the cheat code when you had to do I will not You just
put the one line for the I and then just get the crossing this ship
mm hmmm, Nope, crack that cold. I got I got ship,
my damn drop box, it's got. I'm gonna pull that up. I
got quote. I got quotes for sagging pants, I got quotes for talking
out of turn, talking loud, eating class, all kind of ship,
just different quotes from all over the world, eating class. In my mind,
shut up, nerve, Yeah, it'd be ten hours long quotes right
these ten times each. Okay, if that's it, they realized should right
there, like who is a not? That's a who is anonymous? This
motherfucker got plenty quotes? Who the fuck is anonymous, always write quotes.
I will almost rather be a fucking history class than to do this ship.
Send me home. I'll take your ass whooping over this ship. Well we
we are going on our trip in less than every week. And I have
been, you know, we we we've been getting our ship together, so
been eating right doing stuff. I honestly I haven't been like drinking like alcohol
like that and ship. I really don't drink like that unless I'm around him,
because this nigga is we go. If it's one thing we gonna do,
we go drink and eat some chicken and ship. That's just like that
exactly. And it's and it's so funny because for him to be so so
so fucking light skin, I really be forgetting like this nigga grew up in
like the trenches of that, so you don't eat drake. They grew up
in Canada. Hain't for the mighty nigga sensitive h Yeah, yeah, we
singing and ship thank god? But yeah, have you heard his voice?
I don't think you know everything? Everyone, We could do it real big,
bigger than you. Everything put you up and everything and hasn't never error
for everybody. We have been getting in shape, exercise and doing all this
little ship right, you know, trying to I'm trying to look good and
fatter. Look, I'm trying to look good and feel good for you know,
year forty trying period. Yeah, yeah, for real. It's a
wrestling reference for those who don't know. But no, I've I've been doing
a lot to get healthy overall, like just mental health, you know,
physical health, losing weight, you know, trying to put my c PAP
machine and ship, getting house klo, working out for your mentor nobody else.
Probably I'll be going to push you out of moving vehicles sometimes is like,
hey, let's go, we want to eat a saven. Okay,
that that's how he gave me. I'm just weak like that period. Yeah,
how you used to get rides to work? I feed you. That's
how you are because can you give me a ride to work? You even
get a chance to hesitate about you something to eat my keys. That's how
everybody give me. Man Yep, I'll be there. Oh my god.
We went to k Pot over by Southbridge. It was like Korean barbecue hot
where you cook your food in the middle. It's fucking delicious. Well,
explain that just a little bit more thrill, like in the middle of the
table, order your meats on the tablet and stuff and then you cook it
on the grill and there's a there's a nice variety of stuff. Yeah,
we have to go to have Korean and it's all you can eat. It's
unlimited. Hey, we like we can do this, so definitely is it's
unlimited. But for the hot pot, you choose what you want your soup
face to beat and then from there you can choose like with meats, veggies
or you know, wherever you want to put in there, season and sauces
all of that and the like spring rolls, chicken fries, seaweed. Yeah,
actually kind of yeah, because you can like but yeah, so it's
you know, they got chicken. Actually it's what it's back street to back
Street is on firewell but actually the old b W Three's on Mayfield Road will
be opening as a k pot in July. Yeah, yep, so I
just found that out what the lights is on when I went earlier. But
the ultimate is probably not that he's not running for re election, so it's
probably gonna open after his his term is up and he can't run for re
election or he just not. I don't know, he's just not. But
also also also the Buffalo boss is gone, so it's probably gonna be yeah,
but it was. Yeah. So you're so you're in the middle.
You know, you got you got the grill right in the middle, and
you take your raw meat. You know, you put your olive oil or
your butter whatever you want to you know, cook your meat in. And
you were cooking your meat and the middle of the table. So it is,
it's it's really nice if if you haven't tried it out, I definitely
suggested, I can't wait to go back. So oh that drink was amazing.
I what the fun was that called strawberry that it was strawberry something.
No, no, it was the name of it though it was one too
as long as a wall dolls, but it was. It was really been
there in a while, man out that would be like a good date,
like a good engaging date, Like you're cooking your food, you having your
drinks. Saw that even give you directions because on the and the thing it
says it on the wall like if you have this meat, you cook it
for three to five. You got this one you cook for two to three
and tell you how to you saw you saw the apple Applebe's is closing a
bunch of I thought it was just Chili's. They better not touch all nationwide.
Okay, they better not touch up pizza. Just don't touch our apple
Bee's red Labster we did two hundred one hundred closed and the one over by,
Yeah, they just shut the doors, like at least red. I
know we were just talking about because I kept telling her why does she remember
where all the old roses are? Because driving outside, I'm like, wait,
what, I know that one still there in the good question? Which
was it was one that was in like it. I think that's the only
one in something car Hartford because we went, not that it was a few
years ago. We had went and it's still looking tastes and yeah, I
think that's the only one left. It's a prime quarter up and we talked
about that. It's too is one and green one in green Bay and one
in Janesville. Yeah, he didn't like chicken, but the food itself was
really good. I think I might hm hmmm, I'm to figure out if
I liked Backstreet or k pots better. And I think they're good for different
things, like if you just want to because like when you went to Backstreet,
you didn't do the hot pot. You only did the hot pot.
Because the thing is when you go, everybody at the table pretty much has
to match. Yeah, you have to agree on the first to do hot
pot. Everybody at the table got to do hot pot, So y'all got
to agree on it. Because you can do the Korean barbecue hot pot or
both. We did both when we went. So you pay your flat fee
and then you add an extra like five dollars to it. But it's cool.
I mean they give you the table and you literally go through and like
click, and then by the time we came back, before we came back
from the buffet getting our sauces and stuff, they had already started putting the
food on the same we had our meats, we had our hot pots,
the veggies. It is because everything was fresh and what I had, Oh
my god, it was like I didn't have to do anything. I didn't
have to do anything to tweak it. She didn't need to add no extra
I didn't add anything to it all I put I put the meat in the
pot. Because how it works is just like the little squares and ship in
front of you. It is like the little the little cook top, so
they put your pot right on top of the cook top, so they all
of the meat and all the ship that they bring to you is raw meat,
so you know you're either cooking it in the middle or you're cooking it
like in your little hot pot. I didn't have to season the meat or
do anything to it. Based off of the soup base that I got.
It was fucking perfect, even like even the corn, even the corn.
Her corn was good, but mine, no, Yeah, so the corn
that I had, like once I ate the corn off the actual cop like
you can see all the flavor that had been soaked into it. Like,
yeah, so my shit was really good. And I was like no because
I got to meat so base. But I don't think I want that again.
I think next time I might do like you Tomato or brit said,
you can order everything in your table is full, damn the over women.
Now, the one thing I will tell you is you can't just order a
bunch of shit just to waste it, because if you yeah, so,
it's fourteen dollars per pound. So if you just like, ooh, just
give me one of everything for all the meat and ship. But then it's
like you just got all this raw ass meat that's left that you didn't even
cook. They gonna charge you fourteen dollars a pound for it. Yeah,
yeah, they give you rice and ship, like if you ask for me,
I got fun noodles. I got rice noodles, and I put that
ship in my hot pot. Like that ship was so fucking good. Like
I said that you got, I can't wait. She got the spicy and
I got to meet. It was Japanese, so it was okay, but
as far as the flavor, it wasn't as flavor for as hers that that
man that's just want spicy. It was so fucking good. It's the funny
part. It's right next door to where I went and picked up my seat
pap machines. So weird. We did that in see look this is our
problem. Now we're sitting here. I was talking about us losing weight,
and then we got stuck on talking about food. It was funny. When
we left out, it was I guess, and I was like, I'm
the one that got a real coat on. You had enough blue jean jacket
I had on. I had on rain boots, nigga, I had on
rain boots. I'm gonna be slicing your niggas too for my daughter in the
coin, I'm talking about losing weight so I can fit in this. We
had that discussion. We got we bought trying to drop forty pounds. Yeah,
this tuxedo and look sexy, bitch. Well, for those who can't
lose weight or just you know, losing it slowly, or maybe you know
you're just cool in your body, you can always go shop here. This
is the first time my life that I have been considered plus size and bitch
on my side six but out here in Asia, oh yeah, that's that's
that's thick, that's big. So I had to go to a specific mall
to get some shopping done. And let me just say that mall was kind
of eating up. I'm gonna show y'all, so let me show y'all the
name of the mall before y'all asks. And it's right across the street from
Platinum Hall. Gets a few stuff from Platinum, But as far as bottoms
not. When you first step in this, oh they hit you with the
bam. They not giving a damn about being politically correct over here, said
up your big your big big bag, big bag. That's how it's feels
when you're walking through here. But I will say that even though these names
of these shops is crazy. The Oufice is down size, has old waited
like four x in the same office that I'm showing, and these pieces be
like between eight to ten dollars each. And this is like the best plus
size sold clothing I've ever seen. Ain't got ship on this mall. If
you plus size, you need to come and shop in Thailand. Most of
the clothing stores you can't even get higher than the Bruh Love Calories as a
store name is wild, right, I'll go to that. But the fact
that girl, the fact that the Biggins got their own mall open air,
is crazy, she says. So I had to go shop at the plus
size mall. She's a size six. She slim, thick, they they
look like they they are the definition of petite. Like the other girl thought
she would see eat his leaves and rice noodles. No, literally, that's
what She's still thick. Yeah, at one point in time she ate me
she came to the world thick as a bird. So, speaking of birds,
I just saw bear and the swimming pool celebrated our differences ching ching.
The woman was trying to swim with their babies across to shut out the motherfucking
I was like, bro, you ain't moving quick enough. Teachers, take
these little ass kids on the future and just let them watch of bear show.
In this work, I feel like that duck mom was a bad mom
because she kept she wasn't deciding which way to go, and the bear was
like, oh you confuse, I make this choice for you and came down
and ate her babies. Has she went back that way the first time?
They probably could have made it. Now you had a nice little four piece
duck nugget. Yeah, yeah, well, speaking of bad moms, Fried
Duck with the ducks nasty transition. Speaking of bad moms, that'll probably be
like, you know, taking us out of here tonight because we got what
forty three minutes I'm saying before we like our actual cut off. Yeah,
we'll work Holiday. I got to be the extra earlier tomorrow. Oh Holiday
had the time something three times? Three times. There was a lady.
Yeah, there was a lady on TikTok who recorded, you know, herself,
crying and making a cake for herself. Somebody talk about that. Yeah,
she was crying and making a cake for herself and saying, you know,
when you got to make your own birthday cake as a single mom type
shit, you know, so your kids can feel happy when they sing you
happy birthday. So people were like, you know, hey, you know,
we want to buy you a cake, or like, you know,
trying to send her money and do all that stuff. But people saw this
video as it was going viral and sent it to her baby's dad. This
is what he had to say about it. It's so loud, okay,
tone, can you make sure the volume was up on this because that last
video was kind of low? Okay. So it says stitch incoming from ex
husband. Her caption says, being a single mom is making your own birthday
cake on your birthday so that your babies can feel happy. They are singing
to you, and she is crying. So I didn't sent this video a
lot or last few days people asking my comments on it. It stands out
is it? You know, a lot over the last few days, people
asking my thoughts and my comments on it. And before anyone says, oh,
you don't know her situation or you know, you don't know what she's
going through, well I do because I lived it. I'm her ex husband
and right now I have a full custody of our kids. This is our
parent agreement. As you can see, I have all week days and weekends
time sharing with the kids, holiday, academic breaks, and for her to
get any rights back to the kids. These are the things that she needs
to do. And yes, child support, she ows that it's up to
over twenty one thousand dollars, so she's a mother and doesn't pay child sport.
She was done arrested her check fraud and during that hearing it turned out
that it was that she stole almost a million dollars from another guy and also
she fake cancer in the past. These are scans that she would send and
post on her page before, so you know, to summon up you know,
this person for people that follow her or giving her praise and showing telling
her how strong and how you know, amazing she's doing well. She's really
not a full time mom. She barely has her kids, She goes out
all the time, and she doesn't even have a job even so she uh
just really not someone that other single mom should really be looking towards that for
inspiration or anything like that. There are a lot of you know, hard
working single moms out there, and a lot of respect to them all.
I just want to say, is she just isn't one of them. So
hopefully everyone can see this video and know you know who she really is.
He's wasted your love. So she's the female Frank you know her mind me
because he's sick of her ship. Like, bro, this ship been getting
sent to me. Let me address this ship. Hey, remember when Bart
Simpson fake falling down the wheel? Yeah, all these stars came together and
made this song and ship for Timmy that fell down, sending not love down
the wall. That's it said that bit was scamming, scamming, and they
said she probably making these videos to help pay her child support. You know
remember when Frank You remember Frank took the little boy out and said he had
cancer? You know why Shameless? Oh my goodness, I thought you watched
show. Yeah, I thought you watched it when Mont was always talking about
it. It's Shameless is one of those shows it takes me a minute to
get into. So I had, like I watched like the first episode or
two. I never get past that. I think the most I really get
past is like the episode where she was like jagging dog. You're sucking them
off under the table and she trying to have her with her homework. You
just post the video video. Yeah yeah, he's like, I think I
liked it. Yeah, that's be and Kevin right, Yeah, like I
know that you know characters. It's just I haven't watched it, and I
mean it'd be like that sometimes because it took me a couple of times to
get into Walking Dead, and then once I got hooked on that ship,
I was hooked on that ship. It took me a long time to get
it. Like, it took me a good I think three times to get
into Sons of Anarchy, and when I did, Nigga, it was just
well, Frank, Frank is just spaka boys. This chick. Oh.
I know, Frank's a piece of ship. I know that he took He
took the boy out and told him he had cancer and had him shaved his
head, and he went outside and collected money every day, going every day
he had him thinking he was going to have cancer. Send him to a
cancer camp with other kids. Frank went all the way with some bullshit and
he was ride that ship out. I mean, if you're gonna be on
bullshit. Oh he would go full play. Gotta commit to it. They
committed when he got married. Did he get married? Lady? You see
what happened when the internet won't let you just hate in peace. She was
being perfectly fine, chilling, hating on her baby dad and I don't he
took my kids? How bold are you to get on the internet and know
that you don't have your kids? You a social path, and to record
yourself crying? This is this is what Batman does before he go out in
that fucking pajamas and beat up poor people. You know what? But you
know what's gonna happen is that we all said, we all know that,
we all know that. She just looked it so over it like, let
me do this fucking video, but you know what's gonna happen. That's how
you felt about what's gonna happen. She don't even got a job. This
is a snitch episode. And because like y'all couldn't see it because of you
know, obviously how it comes up on the screen, but like because I
was reading the agreement on my phone. Bro, she has zero overnights with
her kids. He gets three hundred and sixty five days. She don't got
no days with the fucking kids. He's in control of the weekdays, the
weekends, the fucking summer breaks, holiday breaks, all the holidays. I
feel like but at some at some point, but you know what's gonna happen
now is that when people are still going to actually tune in to see whatever.
Is it hating though? Is it hating? Because well, yeah,
I feel like we No, you got off scott free and you stay with
these little you know, because in a way, in the way it could
be a defense, because it's like, bro, you out here trying to
put me out as a dad, and I'm the one to have them.
Once it got to the point where he was like, she party all the
time, she ain't got no job. Then okay, you know she's not
taking care of the kids. That's balid, but she ain't got no job.
Shut line the mockers my brain, the whole You're missing the whole point.
I'm trying to shut down her next scam that she gonna try. I'm
missing the whole point. Who the fuck you still use his checks? I
work at the bank. A lot of people that still use check. How
does how you able to scam? At this point a lot of people use
checks and a check and a check verification, saying was using the bank card
now. Actually actually the main people who get scam used checks. Oh motheruckers,
you got about another gear before you start writing them. That was unnecessary,
that was unwarranted. It just it happens. It just he's like,
I'm no longer essential, I'm gone, we're gonna come in. No,
but it's always some motherfuck that got how much is it? No? But
that that that ship is crazy looking for. So yeah, before I play
like the last two videos, I am actually going to post screenshots from my
own in a conversation that was had over the weekend. So it starts out
because I've been car shopping and my mom sends me a picture and she's like,
hey, look it's your dream card. So I'm like, should you
buy me a testa? Like? Cause my mom, just before you start,
just put it on the screen. As a person who doesn't pay anything,
like, she doesn't have an income income, she only gets disability income.
So because of that, her credit limits are really really low. She
so she got eight hundred plus credit score, but it's like she really can't
do anything with it because they're like well, you ain't got enough income to
pay us back, so we ain't really fucking let you. So I'm like,
should you give me a testa? She's like, girl, from what
you say, we don't buyd mother and daughter like that. I said,
we don't, but we bond enough where you don't pay rent, electricity and
heat and storage for all the space you're taken up. God damn, I'm
just saying, if we didn't have, you know, I would be charging
you for everything. So she said, I didn't know you felt like that.
If I did, I wouldn't have come back, which caused old boy
to spass out about me moving myself back on a highway alone, because y'all
know she was going down to Alabama every summer or whatever they was doing until
he went and got himself locked up. So I said, mine, in
forty years, name a bunch of mother daughter stuff we did. You were
a great provider, but work always came before all of your relationships. Even
with me. Most we did together was because of like the guy she was
dating at the time, the only dad that I really acknowledge. She said,
Wow, you still don't get it as a single mom. It wasn't
easy and Charles. That's my dad wanted me to fail. But I tried
to give you everything to make up for what Charles wouldn't do. You should
have understood that when you wasn't able to buy things for the girls on their
birthday and Christmas with dead beat dads, how would you feel blindsided later on
in life like you did me like you did me by the girl. I
don't know what that meant, she said. I was so proud of being
able to provide for my family. I guess like throwing all my parties and
stuff, and like she used to do stuff with my friends. Y'all too
really and you as a thinking she'd just understand that it's certain conversations that are
pointless to have with these people. She said, I wore Kmart and palersshoes.
Well I had up top stingers. But I see now you wanted everything
just greedy. So every time he goes on his eight days, if you
go and do this, see your mom, now go to the next so
you go, you be me and your mom? No? Could they always
kind of coincide with She started it with that little snarky ass comment about girl.
Let you tell it. We don't bond like that like, she would
be fond enough where you ain't fucking freeloading. So go to the next one.
You really did like and you got dark, like the whole thing,
but the whole thing, but it was this part. But I see now
you wanted everything just greedy. I say, if I just told you that
you were a great provider, why would you assume that I wanted more stuff?
I said, we didn't do stuff together. I had to teach I
had to teach myself to take the girls to the movies, out to eat
and do stuff, to spend time with them because I didn't have that.
Even if I didn't have money, me and the girls would still watch TV
together. Look at how me and Jelly watch wrestling together every week. I
wanted a connection to my mom outside of just money and gifts all the time.
That's not a bad thing. She didn't respond after that one. But
how you gonna call me greedy? Because I'm like, bro, I wanted
an actual relationship with my mom that wasn't just transactional. You know that whole
generation that way, the emotional, having the emotional part of it versus the
actual provider part. Because I had that conversation with my dad and he's passed
out too, And this is when he was still within his right mind.
Now this one, unfortunately, he's not. So when we had tried to
have that conversation, I just walked away because I said, you know what
I said, You're never going to understand that because you've never had that experience,
I said. So that's why I had to make sure that I'm good
with my kids. So my kids had that emotional support because you were not
able to provide that emotional support. And I can see why and how it
was affecting you. And that's something that like I told her, like I
had to teach myself that it wasn't a default because that's not what I was
shown. Correct. So it got to a point where I'm like, bro,
like making my kids feel how I felt. I need to do the
things with them that I wanted my mom to do with me. So it
was like there was a point where I was working two jobs and going to
school. I didn't have, you know, time for us to do a
bunch of shit. But if it was the weekend, all right, what
movie y'all want to watch? You know, y'all wanna y'all want to cook?
Something y'all, you know, like little stuff like that was big stuff.
So, like I said, like even with me and Jelly, like
every Monday, every Friday, that's our thing. We sitting in front of
the TV and we watching wrestling, whether we're sitting down and it's like,
all right, uh, that's another thing that me and Ja because Ree is
at the age now where she like she always wanna go. But even with
me and Jelly, like we sit down and we were going through all the
Marvel TV shows and shit together like stuff like that. With Ree, all
right, we're gonna sit down. We're finna watch all the Harry Potters over
again, like you know, so we have specific things that we bond of
over. It started out Ree was who I bonded with first over wrestling.
Once these two niggas ruined it for I'm gonna say it every time. Don't
even don't even act like when it was coming, because he was finna try
to defend this up. You just the whole this whole episode there through the
book, he said, hey, someone said winning Rome. At this point,
we've already loved the episode, the snitching episode. But yeah, so
after that, it was I was kind of by myself on it. But
then once Jelly being got to the point where it's like I would notice,
like if I was in there watching wrestling stuff and she's kind of like picking
in the door, then it's like, Jelly, you want to watch wrestling
with me? And then that became our thing. So that's you know,
it's nice. I love having specific things that I can do with my kids.
So it's like we didn't have a favorite restaurant me and my mom with
my kids, just like I know where they want to go eat at,
I know what they want to do, ship like that. Like as soon
as because Ka asked me, she was like, dude, why was you
looking that up? Because I was looking up the k pop place and telling
the kids about it, like we gotta go here because my kids look,
damn if it's Asian culture. My kids is like yep, like that anime
food fucking length, that's that's they lane going to that Korean It was a
Korean fried chicken place that's right there next to the theater down there on Firewall
as well too, because that's orient Yeah, okay, everybody could make chicken
good, it said white, Well, you know what, the white people
who made good people worked in it because niggas didn't know that it was white
people froming that chicken back there. Yep, I risked going. I had
just got my braces put on. Remember we was going to five dollars two
that at the movie and we went in there for wings and I had just
got my breaks out. I was, man, everything you said, it's
like she completely just like miss my mom does have two people always look at
me sideways when I'd be like, I still haven't talked to her, I
have nothing to say, get it together and then we'll regroup it some times.
Yep, that's my mom, but I don't have to put up with
her and I and I hate it because it's one of those things where it's
like as much as I be like, bro, she's not gonna get it.
And it's just it constantly comes up because she lives there and she always
acts like something is still old to her, and it's like, bruh,
that's still that generation though, too, because I think somebody owed them everything,
everything, every tispect. But no, this is like I've told my
mom. This is me telling you the truth, the truth that you should
have been told many moons ago. For some reason nobody else did, so
yes, here I am doing it like you shouldn't be doing this, this,
this or this, this is not okay. Yeah, and it's like
everybody else is not the problem. You are. You have to. Yeah,
and when you have kids, you have to. If you don't heal
yourself or at least recognize like what your trauma is from your childhood, it's
so easy to inflict that on your children. So, like I said,
like I did not start out as the best mom. I didn't. It
was that you know, oh, well I'm buying you know, all of
this expensive shit. I'm doing this like I was really following in my mother's
footsteps. I had to check myself like, bruh, you're doing the shit
your mom did, you know? So that's why now, like I do
have those check ins, but I'm like, basically it's the fucking parents and
report card, Like is there something you feel like I'm not doing enough of?
Is it, you know, something that I need to scale back on?
Is you know, if you feel like you have needs that I'm not
meeting? What are they? If you feel like, you know, well,
I wish we would do this a little bit more, you know,
all Right, Well, yeah, like you know, I want to know
those things because I don't want you to feel like my parenting isn't giving you
what you need to grow. And that's so important for you to do it
all the time. I do it all the time. Let me. Hey,
I'm just checking in making sure you're a great mom. Who told you?
And I do that my kids tooper. It's funny now that I recognize,
is that back when I was like their age, I was ready to
get out the house, like I moved out with a baby on my hips,
Like I got to get up out of here. But my kids they
don't want to go nowhere. Like I'm talking, I'm showing them different colleges
and stuff that they can go to hout to state and everything like no,
I'm we we want to stay here. I'm like, hold on, I
don't want to just be here. And that was the thing. And it
was like I literally went to prison trying to stay out of my mom's house
because I didn't like I felt like as long as I was under her roof,
I wasn't going to progress. Yep. And then her having my stepdad
there and he was an abusive ass nigga, Like I just I didn't want
to be in that environment, so I did what I had to do to
get money to make sure that I like, I don't I don't want to
be here. You go through so much because you don't want to go,
you don't want to go back. Yeah, that's crazy because when you finally
leave, you realize I don't want to say how far behind, but you
realize like, damn, I was really in some shit like this is wild
yep. So it's like being in you know that that situation. I've created
an environment for my kids where they know, like, you don't have to
leave until you're ready, and yes, I am doing my part to help
you be ready. So when when you were ready, you not only you
know, have come into this on your own because I didn't push you out
the nest. You have my full support mentally and financially, like I'm trying
to help get you there, right, But it's like I didn't have that.
I was just I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go.
Like I was living in my my my cousin, she had a one
bedroom apartment in West Line, and when I tell you, it was about
five of us, four or five of us crammed in this one bad.
I mean it was the party crib. We was all kicking in and shit,
but it was like all of us is crammed in this spot because it's
like we all had shit going on at home and we didn't want to be
there. And that wasn't you know, something that was on my mind,
like when I turned eighteen, like oh, you know, you need to
apply for low income or something and do all this kind of shit. That's
not what I did. Like my sister, like all my cousins, they
did that shit. I did it because my stepdad, Like I wasn't.
I wasn't at that point of feeling like I gotta fucking get out of here.
But with Ree, even though she doesn't have to go anywhere, that's
something that I did. When she turned eighteen, I put her name on
the list right away, because you never know what you're gonna need. It
may get to a point where she get bad for me, and it's like,
well, you don't have to worry about it because you got somewhere where
you can lay your head. You don't have to struggle with me type shit.
So you know, I did all those things for her and read her
credit to Ruth, it's just, you know, it's just certain things I
don't want to repeat the same mistakes that my mom did. And making my
kids feel like everything comes before them. That is one thing that I really
did, like I felt like I was putting work and everything else above my
relationship with my kids. So that's another reason why I said, like with
me having a part time scalede. Now everybody knows I'm not a morning person.
I had an option to work two to six that would be perfect for
me. The reason I didn't choose that is because I didn't know, you
know, Jelly was gonna get sick, obviously, But it's like Jelly was
talking about whether she wanted to play tennis or swim teams, all this kind
of stuff. It felt so good being able to go, like even though
she was asked, being able to go to re volleyball games and shit all
the time, like, you know, having that free time to be able
to do that. Being home, I get to cook more and do shit,
and it's, well, man, can you make this? You know,
I really like when you make this. And being able to do those
kind of things, just like being more active and really being able to be
a mom in the house. I don't want to go back to work full
time, and it's like, I know, you know, money is definitely
an issue, and with the rate of pay that I have now, working
full time will help me out so much. But it's like, on top
of not wanting to stress myself out with the full time duties of this position,
I really just I spent so much time away from my kids because I
had to work. I don't want to have to put myself in that position
again. I like being able to be there when they need me because I'm
not giving all of my time to this fucking job every day. And then
by the time I come home, I'm too tired to cook, I'm too
tired to watch TV. It's a it's not a good feeling because even not
working full time, I feel like that by the time I get home,
I'm so drained and I have to step into my mode. And he don't
deserve me lashing out at him or being all tired and exhausted in him not
being able to get what he needs because said fair to him, and I
know, even with him being the age that he is, like he will
be fifteen in a week. I'm really putting in him like, even once
you leave my space, I am still your mom. You still have a
home to come home to. I don't care what you're going through out in
the world. Call your mom even if you mess up, call me.
Because I didn't. I didn't have that option. I wasn't able to do
that and make sure I get in instilled in him like no, I don't
care what it is. Call me. You're not by yourself, let me
help you, because he said that's cool. They were talking about they are
like in this health class and they're talking about like decisions, like good decisions,
bad decisions, And the teacher said, what would happen if it's two
am, your friend is drunk and you all need to get home and your
friend's trying to drive you home. What do you do? And he was
just and he said that he told the teacher like oh, he said,
my mom would be mad because I would have to wake her up and I
made it. She would be mad. I made a dumb decision. And
I was like a dumb decision, Like what do you mean because I was
out with somebody that I was getting drunk, and I'm like doling. If
it's three in the morning and your friend is drunk, call call your mom.
I'm coming to get you. I'd rather get a live child than identify
then. So I was like, no, like, even if you can't
get me, call anybody, because the whole ride with the logistics after,
let me get to so what what has created that thought process that he thinks
that first before his safety? HM question? You know what I mean?
Like what he said, because it would be a dumb he made a dumb
decision. I would be mad at him for making a dumb decision. Yeah,
but I get I get that. But something has transpired that that's his
first thought as opposed to calling you for safety. You know what I mean.
I don't know they're angry. I think it's just I think it's just
a thing. I think it's just a thing with kids period, like you
knowing, Like, damn, bro, I was out doing some ship I
had no fucking business doing. Now I gotta call my mom, like now
I gotta hear this ship. Like what it is like when my when my
children were like like the ass stop, I'd be talking to him just like
this. I literally would talk to and they felt like I was yelling at
them. Where mothers don't talk like this all the time, y'all fussing and
kind of like b b by. They don't want to hear that. They
more afraid of that than I actually call you and like, Hey, I'm
I'm in a bad situation. Yeah, I think my I think my kids
will call me. But he didn't say he wouldn't call. They said he
mainly said I'd be mad because he don't like being good, right, but
but but but yeah, but look at think of the reality of that in
the situation. Is he more prone to think through like I ain't gonna call
it. I don't want to hear her mouth. But but that's why hearing
him say that for the first time, that's why I'm now I'm gonna keep
reiterating to you. I don't care what it is I need you to call.
Don't think about she gonna be mad, don't think about think about I
need to call my mom right now. Now that he expressed that, now
I know that that's something that we need to work on. I know you're
gonna hear my mouth and you're gonna hear my mouth. Are going to be
worked out. You two things can be true at once. You can know
that you can always come to me. But that don't mean to think it
won't be It ain't gonna be consequences because you came to me. One thing
that I learned as an administrator was that it helped me be a better parent
because with one thing that was always gonna happen was the kids. They're gonna
come back, like they're gonna come back like me going off on them right
now. It's me like projecting my anger on them at that moment, and
that is never good, especially with teenagers in high school, Like triggers are
going up through a kid and trying to get the truth out of them right
when they at the peak of like man, it's fighting and ship like,
you're not gonna get anywhere with them. So that's when you get cussed out
exactly exactly. So then it escalates because then the adult is going back like,
don't be don't you disrespecting me? And then it becomes its back and
forth. It's like, bro, you knew they was mad, right,
let him calm down. That's that's equivalent to a police officer going to a
hostile situation trying to de escalate some ship by escalating. It's just the same
ship, but they got guns and ship they shoot like that nigga who ran
up on my mama and in school right right. So, so my daughter
called me at three o'clock in the morning. I'm like, what the fuck
are you doing? In my head? What the fuck are you doing out
with this? But you called me, I'm gonna get you. I'm gonna
take you home. And but but but, knowing my one of my daughters,
she's gonna talk about it in the car a little bit. And I'm
like, all right, well, are you ready to talk about it?
That's talk about I'm not gonna actually project any anger with it. I'm like,
so, what the what what happened? Like why are we? Why
are we here? Kind of thing, and talk about it. I know
that's like gentle parenting kind of sound, and almost sounds like back in the
day that's white because if usually your mama your daddy show upree l like of
money, whooping your ass or beating you upside the head something. But I
barely got to punch my kids in this ship. I very rarely do.
I mean, I've gotten some real like you telling me this kind of ship
from kids. I have to act like I don't. I'm not surprised by
it, like all right, well what are we gonna do about that?
So you know, even in my head like really so yeah, I mean,
my my kid was comfortable enough to come to me and buy a strap
on. So so that's and she actually she just showed me one the other
day. She was like, Monk, you say this because I don't want
to. I don't want to be disloyal and go buy it from somewhere else.
But yeah, I mean I think that's important. Everybody don't have an
action, I mean, honestly speaking to you, if something if the ship
hit the fan with me right now, I I can't call my parents and
they can't. I literally I can't pick up the phone and call them.
I have to call some I got to figure out something else. I have
to call one of my siblings. Honestly, I have to call one of
my friends. That's just the reality, and it sucks. But it's just
this is right, the dope thing that I've actually recognized that my daughters actually
have a relationship with each other outside of Yeah, that's that's crazy to me.
Right now, they be hanging in each other, they'll call each other,
they be ribbing us. You know, you know, your mama did
this definite call that older brother. I was like, that'srange talk to your
daughter because she's just talk she's time home. I'm like, what what you
know? Yahn do the same thing. So, but my son will just
sit there and be laughing at all of them because he'd be like, ma,
I'm like new generation. But it's like it was always a it was
all My relationship with my mom was always like a gift and a curse because
it was like we had that open communication where you know, I could talk
to her about stuff and whatever, but it was like it was more so
like just kind of telling her things I knew better than to really look for
like any type of emotional support from her. And that is why, like
when I started dating Mark and me and his mom got so close, all
of those years of not having a nurturing parent, a person who like it
was just it was a different feeling, you know what I'm saying. And
it's like my mom, I don't want it to get you know, confused,
like it's just one hundred percent bad with her because it's not like yeah,
but it was like it's just it's different. Like I was able to
call my mom for stuff, because my mom was actually the go to for
everybody, my cousins, my friends. I can't tell you how many motherfuckers
then moved in our house because you know, they had trouble at home and
parents put them out, and shit, they was downstairs in the basement or
you know, eating the food and doing everything else. Like, my mom
wasn't the type of person to turn anybody away. Like I said, she
became a foster parent. So it wasn't that it was just work and money
was always my mom's Achilles hill. Like that was it was always down to
money, money, money, money, money. So as I got older,
arguments, money money, money, money, money, and now if
we fight, it's gonna be money, money, money, money, Like
it seems like money was always the most important thing to her, and then
life humbled the fuck out of her and it literally took everything. All of
these things that she valued, all of these things that she always put in
front of her family, everything is gone and she never got it back.
So these cars and shit that you used to pride yourself pH on, all
this expensive jurry, your house, your job, all of this shit is
fucking gone. You got you got all this health shit going on. You
can't work, you can't do none of that shit. No more so now
it's like you're forced in a situation where you have to live with the daughter
who you've basically avoided her entire fucking life. And now you surprised because I'm
like, we don't have that bond like that, because we don't like I
love you and I appreciate you for all of the shit that you did do.
And even my mom was like that, like, yeah, I can
always come home. I had to go back home a couple of times.
But it was like, even when going home, I was fighting to get
the fuck out of it because it's like, I know it's going to come
with some kind of stipulations of me regretting it in the end, because you're
gonna make me feel like I owe you. And that's exactly what even when
you're living with me. You've been living with me for six seven fucking years,
Rent and Bill free, and you will still make it seem like I
ain't living with you. No fucking six seven years into my adulthood. So
what is we doing here? You know what I'm saying, Like I don't
know, but because yeah, and then it's like even, and then even
even when you move, even when you moved yourself into my place, you
had a nigga with you. So now that's two bodies that I'm taking care
of rent free bill. And then it's snow, really really bad for those
who don't know, I have a house on the corner. When I was
coming home from work, you text me and tell me that I need to
stop and bring some money and some beer home because he did the snow.
Why would I pay him to shovel snow in the house that he living in
for free? And then when I tell you that, well, never again,
never again, y'all can leave, because if I'm gonna pay somebody to
do some snow, they damn sure not gonna be living here. Y'all not
buying groceries, y'all not paying no fucking bills. That's the case. Because
because even Win didn't joked about shit, I've rented the fucking basement out.
I can literally have somebody renting because it's their own little apartment down there,
y'all taking them space. It's like you got your own little like it's a
bedroom down down there. It's a full like furnished living area down there.
Like you gotta wash your ass, use the bathroom and make you something to
eat. Other than that, I don't got to see you. But I'm
just saying, like, but you really thought that you were supposed to charge
me for doing the snow because well, it was a lot of snow.
There's a lot of bills in this motherfucker. What do you mean, right,
because because because I'm not renting, I own this house, so I
have to pay for every fucking thing. I got property taxes on top of
my mortgage. I got homeowners insurance, I got water bill, I got
we energies, I got all this. When shit goes like, but I
gotta pay you to do the snow? Here are you gonna crack? But
to have to explain that to an adults is mind boggling to have to explain
that philosophy to But there's some people have never having to explain it to her
when she is literally paid for everything and taking care of this nigga because he's
never had his own car, he's never had his own anything. So it's
like there's a mentality of people who have like habitat fear humanity homes and they
are pretty much gifted every single thing up to like the appliances and ship and
then they got to put the work in for them houses though they gotta help
you. Yeah off, but after that, you know they'll you know,
the sweat equity is in there. But then they have the space. But
then they still have a renter's mentality, so it's certain extent they're like,
well, ship, the refrigerator wasn't working, so I stopped paying my rent,
Like Nigga's not rent this mortgage. They gonna take this motherfucker. You
can't do that. You can't interact with your mortgage bank like you are your
landlord. That's not the same thing. People that they'll lose their house because
they have that mentality that just it's just wild to me that they think that
it's come down to me. Like it got to a point where like I
wasn't I was in a really bad space mentally and like I wasn't paying because
I'm like, bro, if they go ahead and they foreclothes on this bitch
and they take it, I am free and clear of them. I can
start the fuck over, like I can just I don't have to worry about
nobody but me and my kid. I was that fed up to where I'm
like, this is my only way, like really forcing them out. And
at the last minute I was like, you know what, I went ahead.
I paid everything. But it was just like even then with me telling
her like y'all got to find some place to live, like showed her the
paperwork and everything, it's like these motherfuckers weren't trying to like do nothing.
I had to put out my wife, wife's mother, my mother in law.
We had to say down and have a conversation, this ain't this ain't
working, fam, you got it. That was hard. But the fact
that she sat down with me and agreed with me was it was crazy.
But to go to somebody who you know, that has been taking that has
taken care of you know, their family for all this life and they come
over and do some more traveling and ship like, sorry, this ain't gonna
work, this is this is my this is my house. Yeah, And
then it was like having somebody staying with you and knowing that you know,
you're struggling with things and they are not contributing, and it's basically like just
because they're used to you figuring things out. That was a fucked up thing.
Like Kayla was the only person like who I like actually sat down and
like talked to about like my lights and shit last year, like at the
end of last summer, Like y'all know, I was dealing with all of
that shit with after I got hurt and then I had the fucking surgery,
Like I had all of this shit going on, like I wasn't bringing in
money and shit like that, and then it's like the money that I was
bringing in, I was trying to catch up on all of the ship that
I wasn't able to pay when I wasn't able to work. Yeah, I'm
dealing with right now, and it's like I wasn't I wasn't able to make
all that fucking money back because I was doing all them fucking rentals and shit
because the car went down. And then it's like it was fine when I
was able to do all that work, but once I got hurt in December,
that shit fucking that shut so much shit down because I wasn't able to
do that. I wasn't able to do deliveries, I wasn't able to do
Amazon, I wasn't able to do door Dash and grub Hub and all of
that shit. I literally had to sit the fuck down. And I didn't
get the job I have now until April. So by the time I start
getting paid, this ain't until damn near June. So by this time,
I'm trying to Yeah, I'm trying to catch up on all this other kind
of shit, and it's like I'm drowning. Now. One time, did
you, you know, kind of step up to help with that? So
I don't know. I just it's always a price or something. And that's
why, even though I knew with her the option was always there, I
tried to utilize it as less as possible, because, Bro, I don't
want to feel like I owe you nothing. I don't want to feel like
the person who I'm supposed to be able to come to and it's gonna have
my back, is going to have my back for a price. And that's
how it's always felt. It's always felt like the women in our family is
transactional, Like I don't like to ask my antis and shit for nothing because
it's like, well, what you're gonna do for me? Like yeah,
And it's so funny because it's like my mom will say about yo granny and
your mom doing it. It's like, bro, all y'all the same.
That's why y'all don't get along when y'all be having y'all beef and shit,
because y'all do the same shit. Y'all treat motherfuckers the same way. Y'all
always feel like you can't do something for somebody unless you're getting something out of
it. So going back to what I said earlier about if you don't heal
yourself and like recognize, you know, what your traumas are and try to
correct that shit, you can pass it down to your kids. This is
one of those things. Now, this is triggering, you know, trigger
borning. It does discuss, you know, sexual abuse. So just throwing
that out there if you need to, you know, take take a minute.
But she don't hear, Okay, give me an example, please,
Like I told her, like, hey mom, I got violated and stuff
like that in January, and she lit a cigarette and was like okay,
and then she didn't say that, and then I got up and I walked
off. What was going through your mind at the moment? I was blessed
when I was younger. This is a trigger conversation for me. One thing
I will not do is sit here and be ridiculed by my own childhood knows
I will go to the ends of the earth for you. You know it.
He said, you can said your peace. Now you listen to me.
And the reasons why I didn't say nothing because you know this already.
If you felt like you needed more help, I'm not the one to help
you with it because I ain't gone, I ain't done with my own healing.
And you know this, this is not something I hear from you.
So if you needed that healing, what you should have did what got yourself
and to look over professional help or reached out to being said I need profession
help, so I I can't help myself. So I have like mixed feelings
about that. And it's like, as a person who has been through it,
I empathized with her, but it's like both actually, because I felt
how the daughter felt like I talked to my mom about it, and my
mom just she didn't. It's like she doesn't have the emotional capacity of being
a mom, And I felt like she just kind of looked at me as
an obligation versus, this is my daughter. I love her. It was
a she's here now, I gotta do what I gotta do to take care
of her. I don't want nobody to say I'm a bad mom. So
this is the shit I'm gonna do. It's like that switch never and I
feel like it's possible that that switch never flipped from my mom because my mom
didn't want to have me. Yeah, I remember you talking about it.
Yeah. So it's like the other part two is how was she raised?
Because that's the other side of it too, because like I can say for
myself, my mother wasn't raised by her mother. She was raised by my
grandmother, my great grandmother, and my grandfather, and so she didn't have
that maternal instinct. So therefore when I was being raised, I didn't have
that either. And the same thing like, even though my dad was raised
by his family, he was like the youngest boy of eleven, So when
you're the youngest boy eleven, he just like he out like he's just doing
his own thing. Like just like as long as he, you know,
come back and bring money and bring money into the house, you know,
he's fine. So it's one of those situations where it's like you kind of
have to go back. But at the same token, a lot of times
it's so triggering for them. They're not gonna share that with you and tell
you what they're you know how they were raised as well either, so then
you you kind of in the dark, not knowing how they were raised,
me trying to figure it out. Seeing for me, I felt like my
mom had had no fucking excuse because my mom was the baby. She was
the favorite my mom. My mom and my grandma were like this, like
she loved my mom to like the house that I grew up in. She
got the house because my granny signed a house over to her. My granny
did every like they had an actual relationship. There was so much love there
and just that's why I feel like it was because she didn't want to be
a mom. My dad was please don't kill my baby, don't do this,
don't do that, and convinced her just to end up being a single
mom. But it's like even before her, you know, they divorced,
my strongest bond was with my dad. Me and my dad went everywhere together.
We you know, he was the one doing my hair in the morning.
He was taking me to you know, school and picking me up every
single field trip. My father never missed the field trip. He was It
was her and him and my friend, her mom Kim two favorite. Everybody
always wanted to be in one of our groups, and then because me and
her daughter was close, our groups was gonna end up being by each other
anyway. So it was like you know what I'm saying, like yeah,
yeah, until she couldn't do that no more, right, So I feel
like, you know, it was never something that she wanted. She didn't
want that type of bond with me. And then it's like if you know
my dad and know like how much I really looked like my father, Like
when I'm girly, you can see my mom, but it's like when it's
just like a regular like I'm just like, it's even my uncle, my
dad's brother, Like he said that all the time. He'd be like,
dude, he was like, you even walk like your dad, Like you
know what I mean. So it's like it's so much of my father and
me, and I feel like I just feel like there's a lot of resentment
there that she really don't want to admit. And I'm like, I would
rather you admit it because then shit would make sense, but she's not gonna
be able to because and that's that's her. That's still trickering for her.
Once again, so she's not gonna be able to go ahead and ever admit
that. And I've had those I had had those conversations with my mom.
We finally got to a point where she was like okay, and we both
were able to go ahead and have that forgiveness portion of it. And so
we were able to get to that point. But then it was because of
me having to say, well, hey, I see because of this,
this and this, this explains why you were the way that you were.
And so then I had to kind of be like that she she ain't taken
responsibility for shit. She don't feel like she did nothing wrong. She felt
like she was the perfect mom, and she gets offended by the wrong shit.
It's like y'all just saw on the text messages. I told her like
you were a great provider, Like I didn't want for shit, but what
I wanted was an actual relationship, Like you literally cannot name things that we
had to bond over, Like it's just you know, what's my favorite color?
You know? Like so it's like I don't know. But I also
feel like as far as the video, like you're telling her like, well,
you should have got professional help. You didn't even go get professional help,
right, but also that too, like depend upon where her age was
at that point, she wouldn't have been I was like, she wouldn't have
been able to get professional help without her permission, so she wouldn't have been
able to or even in like, well, you should have told me you
needed it. If you just said that you haven't done the healing for yourself,
that should have automatically clicked to be like, you know what, I
know how I'm still dealing with this all these years later, I need to
get my baby some help. You so you're mad at her for feeling like
you weren't supportive in the moment that she needed you most because you feel like,
well, you should have knew that I was going through shit well as
a person who has gone through that, as a person who was gone through
that, you I don't know. I just I feel like she handled that
wrong, like I think I think as a parent, she most definitely did,
because it's like she put it all back on her and it's like,
that's not the way it goes. As a parent. Is your responsibility to
protect your child, is your responsibility to provide for your child, And as
a parent, that don't stop when they turn eighteen, even when they get
grown. So if you knew all that stuff was going on, you should
have been seeking professional health. You've been where she is, so why not
help her with that? Because even as an example is an example, May
twenty eighteen, when I knew something was wrong, I took her and got
her evaluated because I'm like, I know how long it took me to get
help and to get therapy, and shit, I didn't have that as a
child when I needed it. So when I sat down and I talked to
her, I knew, I'm like, we gotta get her some help.
And even then my mother talked to me so fuck. She wasn't here.
She was down south with my stepdad. My mom talked to me so boud
like I hung up on her because you know this, this is your fault
and this is this and this is it because I'm trying to get my fucking
daughter help because I know that mentally she's not she's not doing good. That's
what I need, right, no, right, And you messed my baby
up and now she this and she did, and now she got like,
bro, I'm not trying to hear it. So I hung up on But
it's like I actually went and got my daughter help. You watch me fucking
struggle, right, So how dare you? You know what I'm saying?
Like, So it's just like I said, it's not one hundred percent bad.
My mom had, you know, her good points as far as like
with being able to talk to her about certain things or you know, her
coming through for certain things. But it's just always feeling like she was gonna
want to return on her investment, you know what I'm saying. Like,
I went out and when I needed a car for work, I went out
and I signed for this car with a twenty four point nine to nine percent
interest rate because I didn't want to ask her to co sign. And all
of this came about because she knew that I had just got a job.
I need a way to work. The moment she gets mad, she takes
away what she know you need. So she's one of them, Well I
don't know how you go get to work today. Well, I don't put
my keys down, don't touch my keys, and she's she's actually to flex
on me like that a couple of times, and I said, oh okay,
well then you put my house keys down. So now it's so yeah,
I can catch an uber, I can catch the bus, I can
get a ride where you go live at. So now it's like she's gotten
to a point where she know whenever she would try to play that with the
car keys ship, I'd be like, all right, well rent doing the
first. She quit doing that ship but prior to but she couldn't do it
with me, but she was still able to do it with my stepdad.
So the moment she get mad at him, well, don't touch my truck
key. He ain't got nothing to he just can't take He can't take her
truck, he ain't got ship. So now it's either you finish, sit
your ass in the house, or you're finna call somebody to come get you
because you ain't got no choice. For me, it's like, all right,
we'll tell you what drop my house key there. It's either that or
rent do on the first. So you could doing that shit now because you
realize it don't hit the same as it did when I needed you. And
I feel like my mom really has this thing where she she felt like people
who need her you do not want to be abunder her. So now that
we don't have that dynamic anymore where I need her to survive. It's like,
yeah, yeah, it sounds like family counseling session. Yeah, but
she ain't gonna go. Yeah. So this is this is the last parents
video that we're playing, you know, for the night. And once again
the comments pissed me off because I hate how when you know y'all already know
how I feel about when kids are expressing themselves and adults automatically feel like they're
not entitled to, you know, having boundaries and shit, and it's like
when you absent parents, Bro, you ain't got no, you ain't got
no serv that shirt. So my baby, I don't call me sorry I'm
killing I'm so sorry. I was. I'm sorry. I screwed up and
might have kids sometimes it just happens. That doesn't mean I don't care about
you. I I looked like too. Wasn't that simple? You don't know
my favorite color? You don't know my favorite yellow? No it's not now
it's black. I think you had so many people who own this little girl
a for what, Well, it don't matter. She's still she shouldn't be
talking to her mom like that. That's still her mom. And it's like
shut up, shut up, like y'all act like kids are not people and
are not entitled to feel hurt, abandoned, frustrated. I just that's what
I don't get, Like, did y'all think kids are sucking pets? Like
what? Like are they are? They are they like accessories? Do you
look at kids? It's like we're they're the sims. It's a personal phone.
So this girl, she's supposed about down with all of the respect.
This that's what she Okay. Yeah, And I really really really didn't like
that because like there were so like because it was only a few of us
in the comments, like y'all are dumb, y'all are so dumb, Like
because I don't. I don't like that. And it's like, especially like
y'all know my situation with jelly Bean and you know, and her dad,
and it's like, y'all really act like kids are not entitled to have boundaries.
They are not entitled. Yeah, And it's funny because somebody in the
comments, you know that there's always one who's it don't matter what she did,
Yes it does, Yes, it does. Y'all be wanting us to
kiss the asses of people who mentally, emotionally and physically abuse us so bad
because of their position on a family tree or the date that they were born.
Fuck you and fuck that right, And I say it all the time,
like that's not what I teach my kids, because he read and learned
my mama a couple of times. And I sat there like you started it,
Like you started it somebody in a way that they don't care for.
You don't get to dictate how they their response to that. Absolutely, you
don't get to dictate how they react to you or they're what they have to
say. You don't get to because you started this, and then now you
have to deal with what comes after. Yeah, you don't get to dictate
because Rie is almost twenty and my mom will really she will say some real
unnecessary, fucked up shit. So then Mahenrie response, Now you want to
have an attitude because you feel like she shouldn't talk to you like that,
But you didn't have to talk to her like that. You went out of
your way to say some bullshit that you didn't have to say. No,
I'm not gonna step in and tell her that she was wrong, you was
wrong, or if they both getting on my nerves, I will literally go,
I'm like both of y'all shut the hell up because you did this and
you did this and I just don't want to hear it and people probably look
at me like bobo because they both annoying, that's what. But it's the
truth. Like like, no, y'all, don't. You don't get to
you know, throw your your age and your relationship around when and demand respect
when you are not being fucking respectful. And that was a huge thing with
Jellybean's dad, like feeling like, well, I'm her daddy, she needs
to respect me, regardless. That means nothing. All that is is just
that you you donated, You made a donation. Now, bro, you
fucked her mom and she regrets it all right, Like what I'm sorry you
are, Like I'm saying, I don't, yeah, respect But but the
but the thing that I hated the most about the comments here is somebody been
feeding that to her and and and making her hate her mom. Like why
do y'all feel like kids don't develop these feelings on their own. You don't
think this. You don't think this girl has friends and she sees her friends
with their moms. She's probably been at she probably been at sleep been on
sleepovers and shit, and she's like damn man. She she making personalized cupcakes
and shit. She making little you know, heart pancakes and shit for us
in the morning. She doing all of this kind of shit. My mom
said, fuck me, that's saying that because guess what the world he's able
to see exactly. So if he ever showed back, and he'll never be
able to say his mama said anything. Every feeling that he got, he
came from him. And that was the funny part about with jelly Bean's dad
because up into like when I tell you, the timing was wild. Jelly
Bean hit her breaking point right before we went to CALLI had we went to
Cali, probably like nine months earlier, he probably might have had a shot.
But something in her clicked and was like this nigga, don't fuck with
me, so fuck him too. I didn't have to do that anytime she
wanted to communicate with this whole ass nigga. In my head, I was
like, but why are you making me waste my fucking battery on this ship
when you know this whole ass he ain't finna answer. If he do answer,
he's finna lie, or he just not go respond. Yeah, I
didn't say that. I m hm he didn't answer. Okay, he didn't
answer. He didn't call me back mine. Did my dad call back?
Nope, he can't call back back. Okay, And she got tired of
that. They get tired of you not showing up. We don't have to
tell them any fucking thing to take care of them. They see us doing
it art and the same look. It was the same thing with my dad.
My mom did not bad mouth my father to me once, but my
dad will have everybody believe that my mom I was putting shit in my ear.
No. I got tired of you not showing up when I needed you,
when you told me you were gonna do things, and you Oh,
I'm sorry, Surety, I can't. I can't. I can't. I
can't by actually for something. Ask your mama she get child support. Ask
your mama she get child You created them feelings of me until I just didn't
want to deal with you anymore. That hadn't that had nothing to do with
my mom. Well, if your mom had just let she didn't stop you
like so yeah, but yeah, that is gonna conclude this week's episode of
Hocially Awkward. I want to thank you guys for tuning in hopefully you know
this episode was able to, you know, make you tap into some shit.
If you feel like, damn, I didn't realize that. You know,
maybe I do need to connect with my kids a little bit more,
or maybe in my head I see it one way. I need to sit
down and you know, see how they're feeling and what you know, their
outlook on my parenting is because sometimes you think you were doing everything perfectly.
Look at my mom. You think that you were doing all that you can,
and you were. It's a whole side that you're not even acknowledging that
you need to do for your fucking kids. You know, maybe it kind
of triggered you in another way, and maybe this will kind of, you
know, a light of fire under you say, damn, like I got
some unresolved things that I need to sort out. Maybe I need to talk
to somebody about this, because it is it was triggering. I talked to
a motherfucker every week and it's shit that I yeah that I started therapy before
that, I hadn't even gotten a chance to address the shit that made me
jump back into therapy in the first place. Because it's it's so much unresolved
things with my mom and my dad, like I just had to tell her
before. I was like, this is two weeks ago, I said.
My relationship with my uncle and how he has come through for me and my
daughters continuously over the past month and a half two months whatever has made me
realize I convinced myself that I forgave my dad because maybe I just didn't want
to deal with them emotions no more. But all of this, the shit
that my uncle was doing that my dad should have been doing, has really
made me understand that I haven't forgiven him at all. I told myself I
did, but now all of this shit is bringing up all these emotions I
didn't forgive him, So now I have to work through this. So you
know, if you do need some help, I definitely encourage you. I
found my therapist psychologytoday dot com. They're honestly great to me because you can
filter based off what you feel like you need. If you feel like you
know you want a male therapist, female therapist, black therapists, you know,
certain religions and stuff like yeah, that let you filter based off of
you know what your needs are. So that's how I found my therapist,
Kia Holloway. She is she is amazing. It's funny because we got so
many mutual friends, and I know they've been sharing my post. It be
like, that's why this girl in therapy now. But no, that's the
thing too. It's also it is still Mental Health Awareness Month and everything as
well too. And the thing is too that we all honestly need to talk
to somebody. I mean shout out to the code for this comment. She
says. Sometimes we have to parent our parents. Ain't that the truth it
is? But definitely, you know, do what you need to do.
I have my own therapists and everything as well too. Just because I'm a
life coach and a health coach doesn't mean nothing. You still gotta make sure
she talked to me and be able to go ahead and speak to somebody.
You got people trauma dumping on you all the time. I need somebody to
talk to absolutely. So if you weren't able to, you know, tune
into the full episode. You can always you can always tune in on Tuesday
mornings at ten am when the episode stream on all of your favorite streaming platforms.
But in this time you can actually go back and listen to your faves.
You know what I'm saying, y'all got a full month to y'allselves,
Is it safe in the group again? We gotta Yeah, if you add
me as an admin so I can monitor miss the nasty time I didn't even
know you no longer. Yeah, I've been did that. I've been did
that because I whenever they would suspend my my Facebook page, we couldn't post
in the group. But now I don't have them issues anymore. Your girl
is monetized, monetized, now we're good. So yeah, so we we
don't have them issues. But yeah, so take this time catch up on
you know, episodes that you may have missed. Go re listen to your
faves because we are out of here until July. Happy birthday to me Gemini
season. We are in here so by the time we return, I will
have so many stories and I cannot wait. So until next time, we
got a hoe