WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.040 --> 00:00:03.359 Hi everyone, Welcome back to another podcast episode. My name is Alicia Gogin, 2 00:00:03.439 --> 00:00:06.759 the host of the Globe Secrets podcast. Why help you expand your mind 3 00:00:06.799 --> 00:00:09.720 and become more self aware so that you can glow up into the best version 4 00:00:09.759 --> 00:00:16.440 of yourself. Guys, she is here the new podcast art. Hopefully it 5 00:00:16.600 --> 00:00:22.079 is loaded on both Spotify and Apple. I'm pretty sure if I timed it 6 00:00:22.199 --> 00:00:25.320 right at this point, you should be able to see it. If you 7 00:00:25.359 --> 00:00:29.079 are on YouTube, my thumbnail will have it, but you should also just 8 00:00:29.079 --> 00:00:31.399 go check it out if you want. Remember you know what, I'll do 9 00:00:31.440 --> 00:00:35.079 you a favor and I'll just insert it on the actual YouTube video so you 10 00:00:35.079 --> 00:00:39.960 can see. Guys, we are finally rebranded. I have been talking about 11 00:00:40.039 --> 00:00:44.759 this photoshoot and rebranding the podcast art for so long. I'm not gonna lie. 12 00:00:45.280 --> 00:00:50.479 I really did not love my podcast art that I had for the longest 13 00:00:50.479 --> 00:00:55.479 time. I loved the blue esthetic. Blue is always my favorite color, 14 00:00:55.560 --> 00:00:59.399 like I'll write or die for blue. But the photo of me, I 15 00:00:59.439 --> 00:01:03.200 just didn't love it because it just wasn't like a professional photo. I made 16 00:01:03.200 --> 00:01:07.359 that on Canva literally when I first created my podcast. Actually, I had 17 00:01:07.400 --> 00:01:10.920 another photo which is still on Spotify. Hopefully I'm gonna be able to change 18 00:01:10.959 --> 00:01:12.400 that. If not, totally fine, it's just gonna look completely different. 19 00:01:12.400 --> 00:01:18.760 But anyways, I just felt like it was totally not a good representation of 20 00:01:19.599 --> 00:01:22.480 how I look now. Like It's not that I can't look like that, 21 00:01:22.519 --> 00:01:25.959 because when I do that slickback ponytail, it's a vibe. But it was 22 00:01:25.959 --> 00:01:29.120 just like a selfie. But you know what, it did the trick, 23 00:01:29.159 --> 00:01:32.120 and you know what, this is another thing to remind yourself of if you 24 00:01:32.599 --> 00:01:36.319 are somebody who is a creator or wants to do something, even in your 25 00:01:36.359 --> 00:01:41.040 own business, you don't need to have everything perfect to start. Okay, 26 00:01:41.200 --> 00:01:46.760 it's been how long over a year and a half of me having this podcast 27 00:01:47.159 --> 00:01:53.879 and not having a quote unquote professional photo taken of me for the podcast art, 28 00:01:53.920 --> 00:01:56.359 And even then, I still could have rebranded it and made it look 29 00:01:56.359 --> 00:01:59.159 better and actually just took my own photos, but I wanted to do a 30 00:01:59.159 --> 00:02:05.239 whole photo shoot. Anyways, it is here. I am literally so happy 31 00:02:05.359 --> 00:02:09.159 with how this photo came out. Now, I have many other photos that 32 00:02:09.280 --> 00:02:15.240 I like had taken different vibes as well. We did do a blue shoot 33 00:02:15.479 --> 00:02:17.120 where we had like a blue back drop and I was wearing blue, but 34 00:02:17.199 --> 00:02:21.719 I did find that it was really washing me out and I didn't love. 35 00:02:21.879 --> 00:02:25.719 I had a feeling. I had a feeling that my background for the podcast 36 00:02:25.800 --> 00:02:29.800 art was no longer going to be blue. And I love blue, but 37 00:02:30.319 --> 00:02:31.919 I just kind of had a feeling. So when we went and did the 38 00:02:31.919 --> 00:02:38.919 photo shoot, I wanted to try both a blue background, a white one, 39 00:02:38.360 --> 00:02:43.360 and also a pink one. I knew I wanted to do my makeup 40 00:02:43.560 --> 00:02:50.439 like light pink aesthetic, like soft pink vibes, I guess, And so 41 00:02:50.840 --> 00:02:53.120 when I got there, we decided to do the pink back drop to like 42 00:02:53.240 --> 00:02:57.680 see how it would look with my makeup, and it just popped. And 43 00:02:59.039 --> 00:03:04.919 the photo that I have of me sitting down wearing the blue top with the 44 00:03:04.960 --> 00:03:10.360 white jeans, the flare jeans, that was not even my original idea of 45 00:03:12.199 --> 00:03:14.840 how I was going to look, how I was going to be sitting and 46 00:03:14.960 --> 00:03:17.599 the outfit that I was going to be wearing. I literally spent I dropped 47 00:03:17.599 --> 00:03:22.120 one hundred dollars on this really beautiful dress, and I had a feeling that 48 00:03:22.199 --> 00:03:24.639 it wasn't going to be the one that was going to be the photo of 49 00:03:24.639 --> 00:03:28.120 me. Like I just whatever so I know, obviously I brought it back, 50 00:03:28.159 --> 00:03:34.360 but I am obsessed with this photo. I think that it is such 51 00:03:34.400 --> 00:03:38.439 a big representation of who I am. Okay, let me just quickly do 52 00:03:38.479 --> 00:03:40.960 a backstory here, because I did make an Instagram post about this, but 53 00:03:42.960 --> 00:03:45.800 or well maybe depending on when you're listening to this, we'll come up before 54 00:03:45.800 --> 00:03:53.840 the Instagram post. But I really wanted this photoshoot to be such a big 55 00:03:53.879 --> 00:03:59.280 representation of who I am and how all of the content that I have been 56 00:03:59.400 --> 00:04:03.680 creating putting out for you guys, how that content has created me the most 57 00:04:03.719 --> 00:04:08.439 glowed up version of myself. So I really wanted to be a representation of 58 00:04:09.000 --> 00:04:13.599 the glow up. And now we all are going to look different. Obviously, 59 00:04:13.639 --> 00:04:15.519 we all look different. We have different ideas of what a glow up 60 00:04:15.519 --> 00:04:19.480 means, and it's so unique to us. But I just really wanted to 61 00:04:19.920 --> 00:04:26.199 be the best version of me. And it's interesting because when I was thinking 62 00:04:26.199 --> 00:04:30.720 about doing this photoshoot, I actually was thinking, well, when you think 63 00:04:30.759 --> 00:04:31.439 about a photo shoot, what do you think about? You think about your 64 00:04:31.480 --> 00:04:34.639 makeup, your outfit, your hair. And at this point when I decided 65 00:04:34.680 --> 00:04:38.800 that I wanted to do a photoshoot, I didn't. I wasn't really wearing 66 00:04:38.800 --> 00:04:43.120 my hair natural like that. It was a wintertime. I was still doing 67 00:04:43.160 --> 00:04:47.560 slickback ponytails. And like I've talked about it many times that I've had a 68 00:04:47.720 --> 00:04:54.439 journey with accepting my natural hair and I've come such a far away, but 69 00:04:54.480 --> 00:04:59.000 I still wasn't really wearing it out like that much whatever. And so it 70 00:04:59.079 --> 00:05:03.160 was time for my yearly or really I should be doing it every six months 71 00:05:04.399 --> 00:05:10.600 hair cut. And so this was back in when was it January, February, 72 00:05:10.680 --> 00:05:15.959 March maybe March or something March, Yeah, before I moved, and 73 00:05:15.079 --> 00:05:18.199 I got my hair trimmed and went back home and got it done professionally by 74 00:05:18.199 --> 00:05:25.519 this like hair Diva, curl hair yeah whatever. I don't know a specialist 75 00:05:25.560 --> 00:05:30.519 that knows how to cut curly hair. And when she did it, and 76 00:05:30.800 --> 00:05:34.639 she always styles my hair, I was just and I've gotten my hair done 77 00:05:34.680 --> 00:05:38.480 before, and it's so different when you go to a hair salon and you 78 00:05:38.600 --> 00:05:42.439 actually style it, especially if you have curly, natural hair and you're not 79 00:05:42.560 --> 00:05:46.439 used to wearing it out that way or even going as far as not really 80 00:05:46.480 --> 00:05:49.759 taking care of it. Once you get it done, you literally look in 81 00:05:49.759 --> 00:05:53.120 the mirror and you're like, I didn't even know my hair could look this 82 00:05:53.240 --> 00:05:56.959 good, And then it inspires you to take better care of your hair and 83 00:05:57.040 --> 00:06:00.519 to like, you know, even maybe show you it's possible for you to 84 00:06:00.560 --> 00:06:03.720 actually love your hair and look how beautiful you look with when your hair's done 85 00:06:03.759 --> 00:06:09.399 correctly. And I think all my life I didn't even know how to do 86 00:06:09.480 --> 00:06:13.800 my hair properly at all. I had no idea. So a big part 87 00:06:13.839 --> 00:06:15.000 of the reason why I didn't even love my hair was because I didn't even 88 00:06:15.040 --> 00:06:17.519 know how to do it and it never looked good. And on top of 89 00:06:17.519 --> 00:06:19.759 that, of course I wanted to fit in and no one had the hair 90 00:06:19.800 --> 00:06:24.639 that I had, so obviously there was that component as well. So but 91 00:06:24.959 --> 00:06:29.800 I've seen how my hair can look when you actually do it properly. But 92 00:06:29.879 --> 00:06:32.680 I kind of just just like left it. And then I was working like 93 00:06:32.759 --> 00:06:35.560 three jobs and I just didn't really care too much to like, I didn't 94 00:06:35.560 --> 00:06:39.439 have a lot of time to my hair whatever excuses excuses. So anyways, 95 00:06:39.639 --> 00:06:43.519 when I did it this time, when I got my hair done, I 96 00:06:43.639 --> 00:06:46.600 was definitely more rooted in a lot of self love as well, like this 97 00:06:46.680 --> 00:06:50.480 year anyways, so I just looked at like, you know when you have 98 00:06:50.560 --> 00:06:56.079 like bo dysmorphia. It's like, my hair looked exactly the way that it 99 00:06:56.480 --> 00:07:00.319 looked before a few years back when she did it, But this time I 100 00:07:00.360 --> 00:07:02.279 look at it and I'm like, I can truly see how beautiful my hair 101 00:07:02.439 --> 00:07:06.240 is. But I wasn't really able to appreciate that like in twenty twenty when 102 00:07:06.279 --> 00:07:09.800 she did it, because I just wasn't there yet with my hair journey. 103 00:07:09.839 --> 00:07:12.560 I just didn't really look at my hair like a like beautiful, like curly 104 00:07:12.560 --> 00:07:15.959 hair like beautiful, or at least mine. So anyways, I was like, 105 00:07:16.160 --> 00:07:20.079 I was actually so obsessed with it, and I was so I was 106 00:07:20.120 --> 00:07:26.519 really like, I surprised myself because I'm like, I can't believe I look 107 00:07:26.560 --> 00:07:29.240 at my hair so differently, even though it's the exact same. It hasn't 108 00:07:29.240 --> 00:07:32.920 grown longer, the curl pattern's not different. It looks the same. But 109 00:07:33.040 --> 00:07:39.000 I love it. And it's just crazy what you putting in the work. 110 00:07:39.040 --> 00:07:44.199 You're like doing the inner work on your self image can do to how you 111 00:07:44.240 --> 00:07:47.199 look at yourself over the years and how you you know, when you stop 112 00:07:47.920 --> 00:07:53.800 hating on yourself so much and you start exposing yourself to people who look like 113 00:07:53.839 --> 00:07:57.319 you, and to really just go on a self acceptance journey and be like, 114 00:07:57.399 --> 00:08:00.120 I'm totally like my I am beautiful, my hair is beautiful, my 115 00:08:00.160 --> 00:08:03.240 skin, everything about you know, all of these things, and how you 116 00:08:03.279 --> 00:08:09.360 really actually look in the mirror and you and you can appreciate who you are 117 00:08:09.839 --> 00:08:15.120 even though you've always been this way. But it's like you're looking it's just 118 00:08:15.199 --> 00:08:16.879 I don't know, so it kind of blew my mind. So anyways, 119 00:08:18.680 --> 00:08:22.040 again, anyways, I'm saying one thousand times I love the way that my 120 00:08:22.079 --> 00:08:26.360 hair looked. And as soon as I got home, drove home, I 121 00:08:26.399 --> 00:08:28.920 looked in the mirror and I was so obsessed with my hair and I was 122 00:08:28.959 --> 00:08:33.080 like, I need to wear my hair like this for the photo shoot, 123 00:08:33.120 --> 00:08:37.480 and it only makes sense. And you know what, there was a huge 124 00:08:37.519 --> 00:08:43.720 part of me that was so scared because I wasn't used to really wearing my 125 00:08:43.720 --> 00:08:46.399 hair out natural like that at all. Like I didn't even have any Instagram 126 00:08:46.399 --> 00:08:50.919 photos of my hair like out like big, natural, curly hair, and 127 00:08:52.279 --> 00:08:56.600 it's not a normal thing for me to wear out in about and all these 128 00:08:56.639 --> 00:09:00.240 things. So you know, in my uncomfort of my own home, will 129 00:09:00.279 --> 00:09:05.279 whatever. But again, I didn't really have that much experience, but I 130 00:09:05.399 --> 00:09:09.679 knew that that fear was really just me keeping small and that it would I'd 131 00:09:09.679 --> 00:09:15.159 be doing myself a disservice if I just acted on that fear and said no, 132 00:09:15.159 --> 00:09:18.759 no, no, let me go get a wig or get fake hair 133 00:09:18.840 --> 00:09:22.440 in or do my ponytail even and those are beautiful things and I would look 134 00:09:22.440 --> 00:09:24.720 amazing doing that, and you know, I will always love the way that 135 00:09:24.759 --> 00:09:31.000 I look with the slick back ponytail, with the fake hairpiece Luxy hairs. 136 00:09:31.000 --> 00:09:33.039 Where I get that ponytail from? By the way, you guys, A 137 00:09:33.399 --> 00:09:37.320 lot of you guys asked me where I got that, or like, I 138 00:09:37.399 --> 00:09:41.279 don't get wigs really in, but I like the way my hair looks like 139 00:09:41.360 --> 00:09:45.679 straight whatever. It's great, I look amazing and I'll always love that. 140 00:09:45.720 --> 00:09:50.440 But it's also like, you can wear your hair natural too, you know, 141 00:09:50.519 --> 00:09:54.879 and you can look just as beautiful. And so I had that feeling, 142 00:09:54.919 --> 00:09:56.919 but I was like, this is it. This is my time to 143 00:09:58.080 --> 00:10:03.039 show the world the apps a lute best version, most gloat up version, 144 00:10:03.200 --> 00:10:07.120 most natural version of me, and I have to wear my hair natural. 145 00:10:07.519 --> 00:10:13.879 So this photo shoot was just became so much bigger than I even really thought 146 00:10:13.879 --> 00:10:16.720 it was in a split second, just literally just based off of my hair. 147 00:10:16.840 --> 00:10:20.159 So I know that some of you guys might look at it and be 148 00:10:20.159 --> 00:10:22.279 like, oh my god, it's it's a great photo, or you might 149 00:10:22.279 --> 00:10:24.080 not really think about it, but like, there's such a big story even 150 00:10:24.159 --> 00:10:28.919 behind this, just the fact that I'm wearing my natural hair and I and 151 00:10:30.080 --> 00:10:33.480 the fact that I love this photo of me. It's literally one of my 152 00:10:33.519 --> 00:10:39.120 favorite photos of myself. Is just it goes to show how far I've come. 153 00:10:39.200 --> 00:10:46.759 Because literally I'm gonna start crying right now, Okay, I think we 154 00:10:46.799 --> 00:10:52.799 can do this. I just look back on the entirety of my life and 155 00:10:54.799 --> 00:11:01.960 I can't believe how big of an issue that I thought that that my hair 156 00:11:01.159 --> 00:11:07.039 was and how big of a role it played in my confidence and how I 157 00:11:07.080 --> 00:11:13.720 lived my life and how I dressed myself and what I did to my hair, 158 00:11:13.840 --> 00:11:16.519 like all the things that I did to my hair because I just didn't 159 00:11:16.600 --> 00:11:20.840 love it and I didn't accept it and I didn't even know how to do 160 00:11:20.960 --> 00:11:26.440 it. And now finally, being twenty seven, twenty seven years old, 161 00:11:26.519 --> 00:11:31.879 finally I'm like wearing my hair and just like being myself the way that I 162 00:11:31.919 --> 00:11:39.320 should have literally always been. It just blows my mind. So girl, 163 00:11:39.399 --> 00:11:46.600 I did not expect to cry on the podcast today, but yeah, it 164 00:11:46.720 --> 00:11:54.200 just became a very big, very important photoshoot for me, and I am 165 00:11:54.240 --> 00:11:58.240 so happy that I did it. And I think that just I just look 166 00:11:58.320 --> 00:12:03.639 at this whole hair journey the same way that I look at like my body 167 00:12:03.679 --> 00:12:07.960 image or just even who I am as a person. And you know, 168 00:12:09.080 --> 00:12:13.840 it takes sometimes so long for you to go through the process of actually loving 169 00:12:13.840 --> 00:12:18.679 yourself. And I do want to share that with you, guys, because 170 00:12:18.799 --> 00:12:22.039 obviously I come on here and I share with you guys all the things that 171 00:12:22.080 --> 00:12:26.919 I've overcome, and you know how I love myself more and I self accept 172 00:12:26.960 --> 00:12:31.879 and whatever. But and sometimes it can feel like such a long journey for 173 00:12:31.960 --> 00:12:35.679 you, and it has for me in so many different ways, especially with 174 00:12:35.720 --> 00:12:43.080 my body. But I feel like I'm sharing this story because only really, 175 00:12:43.120 --> 00:12:48.919 at twenty seven years old, am I ending that chapter of self? Hey? 176 00:12:48.399 --> 00:12:52.879 Really, and another piece of I don't know, maybe inspiration. If 177 00:12:52.879 --> 00:12:56.000 you're going through anything similar, whether it's your hair or your body, your 178 00:12:56.200 --> 00:13:00.600 skin, your whatever, there will be stages, right, So I wasn't 179 00:13:00.679 --> 00:13:03.679 always absolutely hating my hair. Like I've said, the past few years, 180 00:13:03.720 --> 00:13:07.559 I've really really embraced my hair and I've loved it. But it's taken time. 181 00:13:09.000 --> 00:13:11.840 And I think like even when we talk about body image, we just 182 00:13:11.200 --> 00:13:16.080 expect ourselves to just once we realize we don't like ourselves and we want to 183 00:13:16.080 --> 00:13:18.720 fix our body image and we want to love ourselves more, we expect that, 184 00:13:18.799 --> 00:13:22.080 like the next day, we're just going to accept ourselves and be happy. 185 00:13:22.120 --> 00:13:26.200 And it's just it's not really how it works. But it also doesn't 186 00:13:26.200 --> 00:13:30.960 need to be like that. It's so fine that if you're in a stage 187 00:13:30.960 --> 00:13:35.519 in your life where you don't fully accept it yet, Like it took me 188 00:13:37.240 --> 00:13:41.519 so many years to do, like one stage after another another a stage of 189 00:13:41.639 --> 00:13:45.000 being okay with the fact that I was no longer going to straighten my hair 190 00:13:45.000 --> 00:13:48.919 anymore, like purm my hair anymore, and then I, you know, 191 00:13:48.960 --> 00:13:50.279 another phase in my life was like, okay, you know what, I 192 00:13:50.360 --> 00:13:54.919 love myself enough to stop ironing my hair and burning my hair off. And 193 00:13:54.960 --> 00:13:56.759 then you know, another year, it's like, okay, I love myself 194 00:13:56.840 --> 00:14:01.440 more to make sure that I'm getting trims and I'm doing deep conditioners every weekend 195 00:14:01.559 --> 00:14:07.039 now and then finally I'm more this year. I'm more confident with putting my 196 00:14:07.080 --> 00:14:09.960 hair in a bun and having my curls out, not too much, but 197 00:14:11.039 --> 00:14:15.240 just a little bit. Like you know, all of those processes. They 198 00:14:15.320 --> 00:14:18.720 take time and take phases, and I think that's totally okay. And I 199 00:14:18.759 --> 00:14:22.679 think that sometimes when we feel like we're not fully one hundred percent okay with 200 00:14:24.080 --> 00:14:28.639 what we're trying to work on, we think that we've been regressing, or 201 00:14:28.639 --> 00:14:33.159 we're failing, or we're slipping up, or we're messing up. And that's 202 00:14:33.240 --> 00:14:35.759 not how it works. That's not how healing works. That's really not how 203 00:14:35.799 --> 00:14:39.799 anything works in life. So I don't know, maybe that's just like some 204 00:14:39.840 --> 00:14:43.399 motivation for you. I know, I just went on a literal onwenty minute 205 00:14:43.480 --> 00:14:48.279 rant almost. But I say all that to say, I am so happy 206 00:14:48.279 --> 00:14:56.559 that my podcast art represents who I am, which is the best version of 207 00:14:56.559 --> 00:15:00.559 myself, honestly, the most glowed up version of myself. Another thing is 208 00:15:00.559 --> 00:15:05.600 I'm so happy because my photographer ended up calling me, I think a day 209 00:15:05.720 --> 00:15:09.440 or two before the shoot, and he said that the hair and makeup girl 210 00:15:09.559 --> 00:15:11.559 wasn't able to come so we could either move the shoot or we can keep 211 00:15:11.559 --> 00:15:16.159 it on that same day. And it was actually a relief to me that 212 00:15:16.200 --> 00:15:20.120 he told me that, because I had this internal knowing that I could do 213 00:15:20.159 --> 00:15:24.679 my makeup myself, and on top of that, I was gonna be doing 214 00:15:24.720 --> 00:15:26.360 my natural hair, like I knew at that point I had booked the hair 215 00:15:26.399 --> 00:15:31.399 and makeup girl, but then I realized and the hair was more for her 216 00:15:31.519 --> 00:15:33.759 to like fix it and be there on the photo shoot day so that like 217 00:15:35.000 --> 00:15:37.919 my hair could look good whatever. But I knew I was going to be 218 00:15:37.919 --> 00:15:41.399 doing my hair like no one else would be able to do it. So 219 00:15:41.519 --> 00:15:43.399 when he told me that she wasn't coming, I was like, you know 220 00:15:43.440 --> 00:15:46.840 what, this is actually good and I want this because I can do it. 221 00:15:46.879 --> 00:15:48.559 I can do my makeup, I can do my hair. I don't 222 00:15:48.600 --> 00:15:52.000 need somebody to tell me how to look or how to be. And of 223 00:15:52.000 --> 00:15:56.879 course, obviously it's so great to have like makeup artists and like hair silas 224 00:15:56.879 --> 00:16:00.399 and stuff like, especially when you're doing like like photo shoots, which was 225 00:16:00.440 --> 00:16:07.559 not that you need that obviously, but the nature of this shoot, it 226 00:16:07.679 --> 00:16:10.879 made sense for me to not have that. It made sense for me to 227 00:16:11.000 --> 00:16:15.159 just be myself, do my makeup, do my hair, show up as 228 00:16:15.200 --> 00:16:19.480 I am, and be okay with any imperfections. And I also I went 229 00:16:19.480 --> 00:16:23.080 into that shoot just knowing, like not having this high standard of how I 230 00:16:23.080 --> 00:16:27.600 should look or how the photo should turn out, because obviously when I was 231 00:16:27.720 --> 00:16:33.279 talking to my photo my photographer, we had a mood board we really talked 232 00:16:33.320 --> 00:16:37.200 about which was so great Darius, and I'll leave his information in the description 233 00:16:37.240 --> 00:16:40.879 if you're interested in get having a photo shoot in Toronto. I think he 234 00:16:40.879 --> 00:16:44.279 goes to Vancouver and la sometimes maybe I think. I don't know, but 235 00:16:44.360 --> 00:16:47.840 we really talked about how we wanted the audience to feel when they saw this 236 00:16:47.879 --> 00:16:51.879 photo. And some of the things that I actually expressed was I wanted I 237 00:16:51.919 --> 00:16:56.600 wanted you guys to feel very welcomed. I wanted you to feel like you 238 00:16:56.639 --> 00:17:02.879 could see the best version of yourself within me in a way, like you 239 00:17:02.919 --> 00:17:04.759 could be inspired. Like when you look at this photo, it's like, 240 00:17:06.680 --> 00:17:08.079 this is the energy that I want to be in. I want to be 241 00:17:08.119 --> 00:17:11.799 in this healing energy, this maybe even feminine energy. I didn't actually have 242 00:17:11.880 --> 00:17:18.960 that word like feminine energy, but I wanted it to be a very welcoming, 243 00:17:18.160 --> 00:17:22.759 very glowed up space in a way that was natural. I really wanted 244 00:17:22.799 --> 00:17:26.920 to be the most natural version of myself, and I knew being welcoming, 245 00:17:27.359 --> 00:17:33.400 being healing, being your natural, most glowed up version of yourself means being 246 00:17:33.400 --> 00:17:38.240 imperfect and not trying to control every single thing. And like I said, 247 00:17:38.440 --> 00:17:44.599 the mood boards that I had created, I knew creating those mood boards, 248 00:17:45.759 --> 00:17:48.880 the old me would have been so tied up on making sure that I literally 249 00:17:48.920 --> 00:17:52.400 sat the exact same way that I found that that girl was sitting, and 250 00:17:52.720 --> 00:17:56.440 made sure my hair was exactly like that and my clothes looked exactly like hers, 251 00:17:56.440 --> 00:18:02.119 and I didn't want that. So I was very detached from that mood 252 00:18:02.119 --> 00:18:07.559 board because I knew that the magic was going to come on my own, 253 00:18:07.599 --> 00:18:11.039 Like I was going to again, the photos that were going to come out, 254 00:18:11.039 --> 00:18:15.079 We're going to be completely different than what was on the actual mood board, 255 00:18:15.079 --> 00:18:18.200 which it was. The mood board was simply just the mood board. 256 00:18:18.240 --> 00:18:22.039 But sometimes when I used to like make mood boards, like visualizing things as 257 00:18:22.039 --> 00:18:26.240 well, when I like even in manifestation, I would literally try to live 258 00:18:26.359 --> 00:18:30.839 up to the images on my mood board to a t, and then I 259 00:18:30.880 --> 00:18:34.000 would be so critical and hard on myself when I didn't look like that girl. 260 00:18:34.119 --> 00:18:37.279 I didn't have that body or didn't have that hair. So I kind 261 00:18:37.319 --> 00:18:41.559 of like moved away from doing mood boards for a very long time. I 262 00:18:41.640 --> 00:18:44.720 do them now, though, but I look at them in such a different 263 00:18:44.759 --> 00:18:47.680 way. I really really look at them for like the colors, inspiration, 264 00:18:47.720 --> 00:18:49.759 the vibe, the energy, But it has nothing to do with like, 265 00:18:49.799 --> 00:18:56.119 I do not need to look like that girl, because I am inherently worthy 266 00:18:56.319 --> 00:19:02.920 and amazing and I have my own unique beauty that will shine through if I 267 00:19:03.039 --> 00:19:07.039 stop telling myself that I need to look a certain way. And realistically, 268 00:19:07.000 --> 00:19:11.319 the beauty comes from you being imperfect and allowing yourself to be imperfect, because 269 00:19:11.319 --> 00:19:15.440 when you try too hard and you try and like, you know, even 270 00:19:15.480 --> 00:19:18.440 with when we're talking about photos, but really anything in life, when you 271 00:19:18.480 --> 00:19:23.000 just try to have the perfect speech or the perfect line, or to say 272 00:19:23.039 --> 00:19:27.279 the perfect thing to the guy you're talking to, or wear the perfect outfit, 273 00:19:29.160 --> 00:19:32.359 it's just so much pressure to the point where it's like it's not you, 274 00:19:32.599 --> 00:19:37.519 Like, let's just be the real you. And that's what this photo 275 00:19:37.680 --> 00:19:41.880 is, it's the real me. So I didn't expect to be even sitting 276 00:19:41.920 --> 00:19:45.359 down on the ground. I didn't expect to be wearing that outfit. I 277 00:19:45.400 --> 00:19:48.440 didn't expect to be doing the pose where I was looking up, and I 278 00:19:48.480 --> 00:19:52.279 just thought, that's such honestly, that is such a reflection of me, 279 00:19:52.279 --> 00:19:56.799 me sitting down and looking up to my left with my right. I don't 280 00:19:56.799 --> 00:20:00.559 know where I'm looking because I am always wondering. I am always pondering. 281 00:20:00.839 --> 00:20:07.480 I'm always thinking. So it's like, what better photo than for me to 282 00:20:07.519 --> 00:20:10.559 be looking up to the side and like wondering, you know, because I 283 00:20:10.599 --> 00:20:11.519 want you guys to think. I want you guys to wonder. I want 284 00:20:11.559 --> 00:20:15.720 you guys to expand your mind. So I am very happy. Also, 285 00:20:17.240 --> 00:20:22.319 So the photo then, like the actual photo was taken by Darius and maybe 286 00:20:22.400 --> 00:20:26.680 I'm I should probably show some you guys, like some of the other photos 287 00:20:26.680 --> 00:20:29.920 will see like where I post them. I'm not sure I might use one 288 00:20:29.920 --> 00:20:34.000 of them for my book on the back for the author photo, I don't 289 00:20:34.000 --> 00:20:40.680 know yet. But the editing, though other than the actual photo, was 290 00:20:40.720 --> 00:20:45.279 done by me, Moa and Camva. So I made the glow up secrets. 291 00:20:45.319 --> 00:20:48.720 I did a little glitter. I really love the fact that I'm wearing 292 00:20:48.759 --> 00:20:53.039 a little bit of blue because I really wanted that, and I made sure 293 00:20:53.079 --> 00:20:56.480 to have the butterflies a little bit of blue in there. I love butterflies. 294 00:20:56.519 --> 00:21:00.000 I just think that's such a good representation of us, all of us 295 00:21:00.039 --> 00:21:04.680 in this community, just like this little baby cocoon and it needs to like 296 00:21:04.720 --> 00:21:07.559 it's trying to find its way, and then you just like fly open and 297 00:21:07.599 --> 00:21:11.039 it's like that was your core. I don't know, I just I love 298 00:21:11.039 --> 00:21:15.559 it. So I think that it's it makes sense to be on that photo. 299 00:21:15.680 --> 00:21:18.519 And I put a little bit of glitter. I don't know if you 300 00:21:18.519 --> 00:21:21.720 could tell, but I put a little bit of glitter under where I was 301 00:21:21.720 --> 00:21:23.559 sitting because it's like you're glowing up into the best version of yourself. So 302 00:21:25.480 --> 00:21:27.920 yeah, I hope you guys love it. Let me know. And also 303 00:21:30.160 --> 00:21:36.359 with me posting the new cover art, I have decided to make a podcast 304 00:21:36.400 --> 00:21:40.799 Instagram. Now some of you guys have already found it and it's been locked. 305 00:21:40.880 --> 00:21:45.000 It's been I made it private because I wasn't posting on it. And 306 00:21:45.039 --> 00:21:48.920 it was actually a second account that I had from a very long time ago, 307 00:21:48.680 --> 00:21:52.000 but I just wasn't posting on it. And I've gone back and forth 308 00:21:52.039 --> 00:21:53.880 with making an Instagram for podcasts. You don't need to, like, if 309 00:21:53.880 --> 00:21:57.160 we're talking about like a business standpoint and or just being a content creator, 310 00:21:57.440 --> 00:22:02.359 you don't need an Instagram for your podcast to grow it. You don't need 311 00:22:02.400 --> 00:22:06.599 a second chance, like you don't need all of these things. But I've 312 00:22:06.640 --> 00:22:11.559 been very inspired to just actually finally have a second page for my Instagram because 313 00:22:11.839 --> 00:22:14.000 yeah, I'm sure I want to build it, and I want to build 314 00:22:14.039 --> 00:22:15.119 my audience, and I want to build a community, but I just want 315 00:22:15.119 --> 00:22:18.839 to like have a space for me to like update you guys, make sure 316 00:22:18.839 --> 00:22:23.359 you guys are always getting updates regarding when the podcast is going live. And 317 00:22:23.400 --> 00:22:26.799 I also want to make it kind of like a kind of like a Pinterest 318 00:22:26.920 --> 00:22:33.160 board in a way to inspire you guys, because I love Pinterest, and 319 00:22:33.240 --> 00:22:37.079 I know not everyone has Pinterest and or we don't really look at the same 320 00:22:37.119 --> 00:22:38.440 thing. So I would love to be able to translate some of the things 321 00:22:38.440 --> 00:22:44.000 that I'm seeing on Pinterest and putting it on the podcast and hope it will 322 00:22:44.039 --> 00:22:48.480 not hope, but kind of have it connect or translate with the episodes that 323 00:22:48.519 --> 00:22:52.000 are going to be live that week. Also make sure to follow it because 324 00:22:52.119 --> 00:22:56.440 I'm going to be starting to ask you guys all of the q and as 325 00:22:56.480 --> 00:23:02.039 on the podcast Instagram. So the podcast Instagram is the Glow Up Secrets Podcast. 326 00:23:02.200 --> 00:23:04.799 I'll make sure to have all of the links of course in the description 327 00:23:04.960 --> 00:23:10.319 moving forward. But yeah, I'm just really excited for this new rebrand and 328 00:23:10.519 --> 00:23:12.759 to continue to build this community on YouTube. If you guys are watching on 329 00:23:12.799 --> 00:23:17.480 YouTube, of course, still going to be a thing Instagram. If you 330 00:23:17.480 --> 00:23:21.000 guys want some inspiration, you want to keep up with the podcast, then 331 00:23:21.160 --> 00:23:23.359 definitely go follow. I think it's gonna be so fun in this summer, 332 00:23:23.440 --> 00:23:27.599 just to keep us all motivated. You know, there's gonna be so many 333 00:23:27.599 --> 00:23:30.599 top us we're gonna be talking about this summer, romanticizing your life, which 334 00:23:30.640 --> 00:23:33.839 we're going to talk about next week. I was going to talk about it 335 00:23:33.839 --> 00:23:37.359 today, but I'll tell you why we're not. And I don't know, 336 00:23:37.519 --> 00:23:42.000 just like hot girl things like it's the summer of loving ourselves and being hot, 337 00:23:42.079 --> 00:23:45.960 so like what the heck? Like, what the heck? We all 338 00:23:45.000 --> 00:23:48.160 need to be on the same page, thank you. Okay, So last 339 00:23:48.200 --> 00:23:52.680 week, and I mentioned this on last week's podcast episode, which I ended 340 00:23:52.720 --> 00:23:56.000 up posting on like the weekend or I don't even know. I think it 341 00:23:56.079 --> 00:23:59.880 was like Monday or Tuesday yesterday maybe that I posted. I don't even know. 342 00:24:00.279 --> 00:24:04.680 I was locked out of my Spreaker account, which hosts my podcasts and 343 00:24:04.720 --> 00:24:11.240 distributes them, and all I can chop it up to is Mercury retrograde. 344 00:24:11.559 --> 00:24:17.000 There's no other There is no other explanation. There was like this weird bug 345 00:24:17.240 --> 00:24:19.079 that happened, and I was trying to contact Spreaker and I couldn't get a 346 00:24:19.079 --> 00:24:22.480 hold of them because it was the weekend, and like nobody was like available 347 00:24:22.519 --> 00:24:27.000 for me to get in contact, which with which was kind of annoying because 348 00:24:27.000 --> 00:24:30.400 I'm like, what if I was Joe Rogan and I had this podcast and 349 00:24:30.440 --> 00:24:33.240 I just like it was just not available on Apple, Like, would you 350 00:24:33.279 --> 00:24:37.240 guys just be saying wait till Monday. I don't know. Whatever. It's 351 00:24:37.279 --> 00:24:41.599 fine, I get it, it's back now. But I just wanted to 352 00:24:40.759 --> 00:24:47.400 touch on that because I always hear that when Mercury is in retrograde, there's 353 00:24:47.440 --> 00:24:52.920 always technical issues happening, and that was such a weird technical issue that is 354 00:24:52.000 --> 00:24:56.400 just like it just doesn't happen. So anyways, I don't know. Maybe 355 00:24:56.400 --> 00:24:59.559 just also another reminder, like if anything is going weird in your life right 356 00:24:59.559 --> 00:25:02.799 now, just laming on the planets. Blame it on the planet because sometimes 357 00:25:02.880 --> 00:25:07.160 ignorance is absolutely bliss. And that is something that I have been coming to 358 00:25:07.200 --> 00:25:12.559 a realization these days, is I've just decided sometimes to just choose ignorance is 359 00:25:12.599 --> 00:25:18.960 bliss over like spiraling and listening to everyone else's opinions and advice and everything that 360 00:25:19.039 --> 00:25:22.039 everyone else has going on to that, like, I'm staying my own lane, 361 00:25:22.400 --> 00:25:26.359 respectfully and making sure that I'm very responsible with it. But I'm staying 362 00:25:26.359 --> 00:25:30.960 in my own line, thank you. Okay. So today I have been 363 00:25:30.000 --> 00:25:34.480 a little bit overwhelmed. I think it's and it's actually a good overwhelm. 364 00:25:34.519 --> 00:25:38.519 It's like good stress. There's been a lot of things coming my way in 365 00:25:38.599 --> 00:25:44.119 terms of opportunities with brands and brand work, and also I just had a 366 00:25:44.240 --> 00:25:49.200 literal death and rebirth and came alive again, so I have been having to 367 00:25:49.200 --> 00:25:55.119 get back into creating content and stuff, so and obviously living my life seeing 368 00:25:55.119 --> 00:25:57.240 my friends doing things. But with that, I feel like everything hit me 369 00:25:57.279 --> 00:26:02.880 at once, and I've been very overwhelmed with different content like I'm doing all 370 00:26:02.880 --> 00:26:06.319 these different scripts, these brand deals, these these video concepts. I have 371 00:26:06.359 --> 00:26:07.839 a million things going on, and I feel like there's so much going on. 372 00:26:07.920 --> 00:26:14.799 So I when I get in those situations, sometimes I end up like 373 00:26:15.759 --> 00:26:18.799 getting frozen, Like I get frozen in time and I'm not able to decide 374 00:26:19.079 --> 00:26:22.720 and make a decision. And so what I tend to do. I see 375 00:26:22.799 --> 00:26:30.480 myself constantly procrastinating and putting things off and like making excuses as to why I 376 00:26:30.559 --> 00:26:33.880 still haven't picked up the camera and filmed when I should have filmed like two 377 00:26:33.920 --> 00:26:40.359 hours ago. So anyways, that was today, and so I decided finally 378 00:26:40.599 --> 00:26:44.440 it's literally like almost five o'clock, that we were just going to make this 379 00:26:44.480 --> 00:26:48.720 episode be updates and chit Chattie, and then next week we will talk about 380 00:26:48.799 --> 00:26:52.799 what I already actually have written out for romanticizing your life and why I think 381 00:26:52.799 --> 00:26:56.440 it's so important to do that, but I just couldn't get myself to get 382 00:26:56.440 --> 00:26:59.160 there. I couldn't get myself to do it. So we're not doing it. 383 00:26:59.279 --> 00:27:02.680 And this is your sign that, you know what, if you find 384 00:27:02.680 --> 00:27:07.319 yourself procrastinating, sometimes just release the freaking resistance and do something completely different and 385 00:27:07.359 --> 00:27:10.960 like stop having such a huge attachment on the fact that it needs to be 386 00:27:10.960 --> 00:27:14.000 down right the second. I guess sometimes we do have deadlines, but like 387 00:27:14.359 --> 00:27:18.119 sometimes you just get in our own ways and it's actually insane as to watch, 388 00:27:18.119 --> 00:27:22.200 Like there's no need to stress. Okay, so that's that. So 389 00:27:22.240 --> 00:27:26.519 if you're stressing right now, stop literally stop right now. Thank you. 390 00:27:26.880 --> 00:27:30.039 Whatever you're thinking about wherever your mind just went, if you're thinking about a 391 00:27:30.079 --> 00:27:33.640 guy, you're thinking about your job, you're thinking about your health, your 392 00:27:33.640 --> 00:27:37.200 body, your summer plans or whatever in a negative way, not in a 393 00:27:37.200 --> 00:27:40.160 positive way. With the summer plans, stop, thank you. Stop. 394 00:27:40.319 --> 00:27:44.119 Also, like I just mentioned with the brand deals, I'm going to be 395 00:27:44.119 --> 00:27:48.759 doing a few more upcoming on my main channel. So if you guys do 396 00:27:48.839 --> 00:27:52.720 watch the main channel, I really appreciate the support. Like my last video, 397 00:27:52.759 --> 00:27:56.519 I just did a Buff Buddy collection which was so aligned because I love 398 00:27:56.599 --> 00:28:00.279 them. I literally love their workout sets and if you want them. By 399 00:28:00.319 --> 00:28:04.000 the way, I do have a code Alicia ten el Cia ten for money 400 00:28:04.039 --> 00:28:07.920 off a little plug there. But yeah, I did a collab with them 401 00:28:08.000 --> 00:28:12.200 and you guys were so happy for me. Also, we hit two hundred 402 00:28:12.480 --> 00:28:17.559 thousand subscribers on YouTube, which is insane. So also thank you for that. 403 00:28:17.759 --> 00:28:21.519 Totally forgot about that. I think I forgot about that because I just 404 00:28:21.640 --> 00:28:25.160 knew it was like already in my existence, because that's how I think about 405 00:28:25.160 --> 00:28:26.319 things. When it comes to things that I want in my life, I 406 00:28:26.400 --> 00:28:30.759 just have a belief that it's happening, and that's that I decide how I 407 00:28:30.799 --> 00:28:34.000 want things to go in my life, and you should too. You should 408 00:28:34.039 --> 00:28:37.960 really just start deciding what gets to happen, because if you don't, then 409 00:28:37.960 --> 00:28:41.920 other people get to decide for you. And I'm not in the business of 410 00:28:41.000 --> 00:28:47.039 letting other people decide what gets to happen to my life. So sometimes it's 411 00:28:47.079 --> 00:28:49.720 like anti climactic a little bit for me when I hit milestones because I'm just 412 00:28:49.759 --> 00:28:52.200 like, already knew what was going to happen. But anyways, thank you 413 00:28:52.200 --> 00:28:56.839 for walking with me. I cannot wait to hit one million subscribers on the 414 00:28:56.920 --> 00:29:00.920 YouTube. What was I saying? The brand deals? I very much so 415 00:29:02.119 --> 00:29:07.319 appreciate you guys watching and supporting, especially on videos where I'm doing a brand 416 00:29:07.359 --> 00:29:11.920 deal. I get that not every brand deal that every influencer does or creator 417 00:29:12.000 --> 00:29:15.480 does will be aligned to you and you'll be interested in it, which is 418 00:29:15.480 --> 00:29:18.960 totally fine. I'm not. I'm definitely not. There's many creators where I 419 00:29:19.000 --> 00:29:22.720 watch their content and I just for me, I think it's it's part of 420 00:29:22.720 --> 00:29:26.039 my job. So I understand it because like we're in the same field. 421 00:29:26.039 --> 00:29:27.599 But even way before I was a content creator, I just understood that that 422 00:29:27.759 --> 00:29:30.400 was just like a part of their job. Like brand deals are something that 423 00:29:30.640 --> 00:29:34.960 help support creators, So I watch them. If I'm interested in the product, 424 00:29:34.960 --> 00:29:37.640 then sure great. If I don't love it, it's not a big 425 00:29:37.640 --> 00:29:42.799 deal. So I really do respect and appreciate you guys when you do watch 426 00:29:44.079 --> 00:29:47.079 any of my content and I do have a brand deal, and you guys 427 00:29:47.119 --> 00:29:49.720 are still rocking with me and supporting even if you if you don't buy anything 428 00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:53.279 or if you're not like actually interested in it. I appreciate that because you 429 00:29:53.279 --> 00:29:56.440 know, I get it, like we don't always want to see a bunch 430 00:29:56.440 --> 00:30:00.920 of brand deals and things like that and stuff. But again, I really 431 00:30:00.440 --> 00:30:06.400 have grown my channel to a point where I'm only doing brand deals that makes 432 00:30:06.440 --> 00:30:08.160 sense for my audience. And again, not every single person is going to 433 00:30:08.200 --> 00:30:12.200 be interested in listening and wanting anything to do with that. But that's totally 434 00:30:12.240 --> 00:30:18.559 fine or something that and or I should say that I really love and I 435 00:30:18.599 --> 00:30:22.359 think that is so cool, and like, why not work with this brand 436 00:30:22.359 --> 00:30:25.200 and share it to more people and maybe you guys would be interested in, 437 00:30:25.240 --> 00:30:26.680 you know, the workout sets that I'm wearing and you know, I think 438 00:30:26.680 --> 00:30:30.599 it's a cool brand or other ones that I'm coming up that I'm not gonna 439 00:30:30.759 --> 00:30:33.119 mention too much right now, but anyways, so thank you guys so much 440 00:30:33.119 --> 00:30:37.400 for all the support and all the love. Another thing is just like you 441 00:30:37.519 --> 00:30:45.559 guys on my comments and my dms, you just so incredibly nice. Like 442 00:30:45.599 --> 00:30:51.000 you guys are all just so freaking nice to me, and I really really 443 00:30:51.039 --> 00:30:53.160 appreciate it, and I see your comments and I try my best to get 444 00:30:53.799 --> 00:30:57.480 back to you guys. It's very hard, but I do spend a lot 445 00:30:57.519 --> 00:31:00.200 of time getting back to you guys, and I I just yeah, I 446 00:31:00.279 --> 00:31:03.359 love you guys. You guys are great and I can't wait to just conquer 447 00:31:03.480 --> 00:31:07.319 this summer. Summer is gonna be so incredibly fun. Another thing that I 448 00:31:07.359 --> 00:31:11.279 did recently, I don't know if a lot of you guys know what like 449 00:31:11.440 --> 00:31:15.240 to know it is, but it's essentially I kind of think about it as 450 00:31:15.279 --> 00:31:21.599 like an Instagram in a way, where you could post your outfits, products 451 00:31:21.599 --> 00:31:23.799 that you're really loving, and you can link them so that you know, 452 00:31:23.839 --> 00:31:26.559 if somebody really likes your outfit, then they can go and find it. 453 00:31:26.559 --> 00:31:30.000 It's like all affiliate links, so like we'll be transparent with that. But 454 00:31:30.440 --> 00:31:33.799 I revamped my like to know it, so I'm going to start posting. 455 00:31:33.799 --> 00:31:36.720 Well I already have. I have a lot of outfits on there, but 456 00:31:36.759 --> 00:31:40.039 I'm gonna continue to keep posting. So anytime I can find a link for 457 00:31:40.119 --> 00:31:44.640 anything, just know that I have everything in one spot now. So if 458 00:31:44.640 --> 00:31:47.720 you go to my link in my bio or description whatever, and you go 459 00:31:47.720 --> 00:31:52.000 onto my candor the Globe Secrets thing that I have, you'll see a link 460 00:31:52.359 --> 00:31:55.680 for you to go on that. So that way, like if you ever 461 00:31:55.839 --> 00:31:57.359 wanted to know you, Guys always ask me, like where I get my 462 00:31:57.400 --> 00:32:00.920 shirts from. I get a lot of them from garage, I always say 463 00:32:00.920 --> 00:32:06.799 that, and whatever else my makeup products when I do get ready with me 464 00:32:07.000 --> 00:32:10.440 and stuff, I have all of those links. So if you are interested 465 00:32:10.480 --> 00:32:14.599 in anything ever, it will be linked. As much as I can. 466 00:32:14.799 --> 00:32:16.359 I try to find things. There's obviously things that I wear from like last 467 00:32:16.359 --> 00:32:21.839 season. I'm not somebody who goes through a million things, but it's all 468 00:32:21.880 --> 00:32:23.400 on there and I'm really proud of that page. Okay, I came up 469 00:32:23.400 --> 00:32:29.720 with a really cool idea for a YouTube video which should be up on Saturday. 470 00:32:30.240 --> 00:32:34.319 So yeah, yeah, should be up on Saturday. And it's basically, 471 00:32:34.319 --> 00:32:36.160 I don't want to give too much away, but it's like, I 472 00:32:36.200 --> 00:32:38.319 don't really know what it's going to be exactly titled, but it's basically a 473 00:32:38.359 --> 00:32:44.519 summer ki kickoff video, and essentially it's just going to be a video to 474 00:32:44.559 --> 00:32:49.160 motivate you and inspire you to have the best summer of your freaking life and 475 00:32:49.200 --> 00:32:52.400 to change up your vibe and to create a mood board, like I made 476 00:32:52.400 --> 00:32:55.559 a whole mood board. I've talked about certain things that you can do to 477 00:32:55.720 --> 00:33:00.839 change your literal day to day life because I have recently just done the same 478 00:33:00.839 --> 00:33:06.839 thing. Like I'm very much so in the energy of the summer. I've 479 00:33:07.200 --> 00:33:10.640 wrote out my goals, things that are going on. I'm thinking about all 480 00:33:10.680 --> 00:33:15.880 the things that are happening, and I'm creating an identity and I'm creating a 481 00:33:15.000 --> 00:33:20.920 vibe and I'm curating that and I'm living that out and I'm doing that because 482 00:33:20.960 --> 00:33:22.960 I want to have the best freaking summer of my life and I want you 483 00:33:22.000 --> 00:33:29.079 guys to have the same. And the prompt or the inspiration that I actually 484 00:33:29.440 --> 00:33:32.279 had to make this video came from the other day, or actually when I 485 00:33:32.319 --> 00:33:37.559 was sick. I was going through my archives on my Instagram stories and I 486 00:33:37.599 --> 00:33:42.119 was looking back at last summer and I just had the best freaking summer, 487 00:33:42.720 --> 00:33:46.119 despite literally not having the life that I have now, because at that point 488 00:33:46.160 --> 00:33:49.480 I just believed it was going to happen and I was eventually going to live 489 00:33:49.480 --> 00:33:52.880 the life that I am right now, full time content creator, not working 490 00:33:52.880 --> 00:33:55.599 a job that I didn't love. But we know that story. Whatever, 491 00:33:57.599 --> 00:34:00.279 I still enjoyed the hell out of my summer. I had a spiritual girl 492 00:34:00.400 --> 00:34:05.079 summer. I was like morning routines, going on my balcony, doing my 493 00:34:05.160 --> 00:34:09.199 journals, pulling freaking goddess cards. I had my crystals going my incense. 494 00:34:09.519 --> 00:34:15.039 I had certain songs that just hit and I started playing them again even this 495 00:34:16.119 --> 00:34:19.880 like just recently, and I was like, oh my gosh, this reminds 496 00:34:19.880 --> 00:34:23.199 me of summer, and I just want to curate a vibe for this summer 497 00:34:23.280 --> 00:34:27.159 so that I can look back and be like that was like the best summer 498 00:34:27.199 --> 00:34:30.840 ever. So anyways, I got inspired and I was like, we need 499 00:34:30.880 --> 00:34:34.360 to do this again, and everyone needs to be on board with me. 500 00:34:34.639 --> 00:34:38.519 You guys are gonna make your own like mood boards though, and you're gonna 501 00:34:38.519 --> 00:34:42.599 do certain things that will allow you to feel like you're the best version of 502 00:34:42.639 --> 00:34:46.000 you and get excited for summer and whatever capacity that looks like or feels like. 503 00:34:46.119 --> 00:34:49.599 But we're all going to be doing that. So that video is gonna 504 00:34:49.599 --> 00:34:52.079 come. So I'm really excited for you guys to see that. I'm very 505 00:34:52.159 --> 00:34:57.960 much so in my Okay, I said this before I'm going to Calgary, 506 00:34:58.239 --> 00:35:01.519 Guys. I I need to explore Canada way more like I don't know what 507 00:35:01.559 --> 00:35:06.800 I've been doing. Anyways, I'm going to Calgary in July and I there 508 00:35:07.360 --> 00:35:12.239 listen. I've been saying that my soul is somewhere residing still in the South 509 00:35:12.760 --> 00:35:20.800 in America though from a past life. But I am so inspired and motivated 510 00:35:20.840 --> 00:35:25.280 to be this like coastal Cowgirl this summer. I know, I know, 511 00:35:25.920 --> 00:35:30.880 how did I go from Central c to saying that I want to be like 512 00:35:30.760 --> 00:35:35.440 at the Calgary Stampede. I don't know, but we are here and we're 513 00:35:35.480 --> 00:35:39.000 doing it, and that is a vibe. Like I made a Pinterest board 514 00:35:39.119 --> 00:35:45.039 for Calgary Stampede and you can follow it if you want, but whatever, 515 00:35:45.079 --> 00:35:49.559 it doesn't matter. And I am so like I want to be wearing cowboy 516 00:35:49.599 --> 00:35:52.840 boots. I like the brown esthetic. I want the cowboy hat. And 517 00:35:52.880 --> 00:35:53.599 I was also thinking of my girl, how are you going to fit the 518 00:35:53.599 --> 00:35:58.599 cowboy hat on your hair? Because your hair is naturally big. It's totally 519 00:35:58.639 --> 00:36:02.159 fine, we'll figure it out out. I found really cute outfits, Like 520 00:36:02.239 --> 00:36:07.320 I'm just really here for the coastal cowgirl. I really am. Also like 521 00:36:07.400 --> 00:36:14.360 the suburban housewife vibe. I'm really into. Like I talk about this a 522 00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:17.400 lot, like I really all I want in my life is to live in 523 00:36:17.400 --> 00:36:24.360 the suburbs and have a beautiful home, beautiful family, be happy as hell, 524 00:36:24.760 --> 00:36:29.079 living my best life, having my wine nights with my girls. Like 525 00:36:29.079 --> 00:36:31.519 that's a vibe. But that's the thing. I want that for my future. 526 00:36:31.760 --> 00:36:37.159 But I'm gonna live like I have it now. So that's like that's 527 00:36:37.159 --> 00:36:39.239 what I'll be talking about in the video. Like go, we don't need 528 00:36:39.280 --> 00:36:44.000 to wait. You are going to pull little things that make you feel the 529 00:36:44.039 --> 00:36:47.199 best and that your soul is calling that you really really want, but you're 530 00:36:47.199 --> 00:36:51.920 gonna start doing it now. So you're gonna get the music, You're gonna 531 00:36:51.960 --> 00:36:54.920 get the mood boards, you're gonna get the literal habits that are gonna make 532 00:36:54.960 --> 00:37:00.239 you feel like you're already living that reality now, because realistic, if we're 533 00:37:00.239 --> 00:37:02.760 talking about manifestation, that's what you're supposed to do. Okay, We're not 534 00:37:02.800 --> 00:37:07.920 waiting for anything. There's nothing to wait for, there's nothing to wait for. 535 00:37:07.480 --> 00:37:14.039 You decide now. We are done looking at the reality that we have 536 00:37:14.480 --> 00:37:16.400 and being like I don't have it. I don't have the suburban life, 537 00:37:16.440 --> 00:37:19.679 I don't have the husband, I don't have this that, and the third 538 00:37:19.719 --> 00:37:22.079 no, be the version of you that has that. Thank you. So 539 00:37:22.159 --> 00:37:25.599 that's what we're doing. I'm really really excited, as you can obviously tell. 540 00:37:27.000 --> 00:37:29.320 Okay, and another thing that I'll talk about in the video, but 541 00:37:29.360 --> 00:37:32.719 also that's really been helping me is to make playlists. So I've been sharing 542 00:37:32.719 --> 00:37:35.760 my Spotify playlist. I told you guys, I was going to do it 543 00:37:35.920 --> 00:37:37.400 in the wintertime, and I did it, and I'm so proud of myself. 544 00:37:38.480 --> 00:37:42.559 So I've made a bunch of summer playlists, so you can definitely search 545 00:37:42.599 --> 00:37:45.079 up my name Alicia Gogan on Spotify and you can find it. I'll have 546 00:37:45.159 --> 00:37:46.960 it linked as well. A lot of you guys have been liking it and 547 00:37:47.039 --> 00:37:52.360 following me. I love that, like not me being a DJ. My 548 00:37:52.480 --> 00:37:54.159 dad used to be a DJ. I feel like low Kia could be a 549 00:37:54.159 --> 00:37:58.920 really good DJ. I'm not gonna lie. Maybe that could be a hobby 550 00:37:58.960 --> 00:38:01.480 this summer. We'll see. I have very good music taste and I like 551 00:38:01.599 --> 00:38:06.199 a lot of different genres of music. So anyways, I made a lot 552 00:38:06.280 --> 00:38:08.440 of playlists, so if you haven't been following, there's so many, like 553 00:38:08.519 --> 00:38:13.880 summer, house music, rap music, of course, there's just so many. 554 00:38:14.360 --> 00:38:17.679 But I recently just made another one and it's called a Spanish Summer. 555 00:38:19.199 --> 00:38:22.280 So if you are into Spanish music, then that playlist will absolutely be for 556 00:38:22.320 --> 00:38:29.320 you. And I think that that's gonna be a big player in my vibe 557 00:38:29.320 --> 00:38:31.400 that I'm curating for the summer, and I'm here for it. There's just 558 00:38:31.440 --> 00:38:35.880 something about Spanish music because I was getting kind of sick and tired of listening 559 00:38:35.880 --> 00:38:38.440 to the same music, whether it be my house music or my rap music 560 00:38:38.440 --> 00:38:40.320 and stuff, especially because I go to the gym a lot, so I'm 561 00:38:40.320 --> 00:38:45.519 always playing them. But I was like, Okay, what kind of music 562 00:38:45.559 --> 00:38:49.159 can I play right now? That's gonna get me into a happy vibe in 563 00:38:49.280 --> 00:38:52.159 like the vibe of summer, but I'm not like listening to the same songs 564 00:38:52.199 --> 00:38:55.960 over and over again. And then a Spanish song came on from my liked 565 00:38:57.599 --> 00:38:59.599 songs from a while ago, and I was like, not, this is 566 00:38:59.639 --> 00:39:01.159 it. I'm back. I'm back in the vibe. So anyways, I 567 00:39:01.199 --> 00:39:05.920 made a playlist. It's really good. I know nothing about what they're saying 568 00:39:06.480 --> 00:39:10.480 at all, and I think that that's the beauty of this whole thing, 569 00:39:10.719 --> 00:39:15.800 Like this whole playlist, I think that that's what it. That's what makes 570 00:39:15.920 --> 00:39:17.920 me like it more. It's like, I'm not I don't know what they're 571 00:39:17.920 --> 00:39:22.880 saying, and I don't want to know. So anyways, that's going to 572 00:39:22.920 --> 00:39:28.840 be all the updates. I really hope that you like the podcast art. 573 00:39:29.800 --> 00:39:32.519 I really hope that you follow the Instagram. I really hope that you continue 574 00:39:32.559 --> 00:39:36.800 to rock with me this summer. I'm really excited to have you guys by 575 00:39:36.800 --> 00:39:40.159 my side listening. You guys are always just sharing, listening and being here 576 00:39:40.159 --> 00:39:45.280 with me, and I love it. And it's gonna be a very beautiful, 577 00:39:45.360 --> 00:39:50.760 amazing summer and we're going to come to so many realizations. We are 578 00:39:50.800 --> 00:39:52.960 going to grow so much, We're going to manifest so many things. We 579 00:39:53.000 --> 00:39:59.079 are going to step so much more into our self worth, which in turn 580 00:39:59.599 --> 00:40:04.639 will create the life that we really really are aspiring to have. But we're 581 00:40:04.639 --> 00:40:07.559 going to do that by becoming the change. So that starts now if you 582 00:40:07.599 --> 00:40:10.960 haven't already started. So yeah, I love you guys so much, and 583 00:40:12.159 --> 00:40:16.920 I will see you or you will hear me in next week's episode. Bye