It's to two seventeen Recovery Podcast with Corey Winfield. We're in northern Michigan,
but Yers saying it's pretty much all along America except Wyoming. I don't know
do we ever count Wyoming in anything? Man Co Holst Marnie Winfield, it's
my birthday? Did you party like it was your birthday? I had a
wonderful birthday. I was from people that I love and it was exactly on
the mat flol like I wanted it. Welcome to the two seventeen Recovery Podcast.
It is Saint Patrick's Day three seventeen, twenty twenty four. My name's
Corey Winfield. My name's Marnie Winfield. Welcome to the two seventeen Recovery Podcast.
It's Marnie's birthday. It's my birthday again. Yeah, I was from
twenty twenty that drop. We were holds up in a hotel fighting COVID.
It's a cute. It's a cute intro. I wish you could use it
all the time. Yeah, Well, we didn't have COVID, so we
weren't really fighting COVID. But not then we did it. We were trying
not to get it. And again even in that podcast, well because I
made that open last year and we used that and then I talked about how
I still didn't believe in COVID. Well, I believed in COVID last year
because I got it twice from Marnie whatever getting her job. Things I do
for you, my love, But I hope you had a great birthday.
I didn't do anything for you. I could. Well, I made you
breakfast that sucked, but you had bacon too, so I don't know.
I have to die. It was, it was wonderful. It was great.
We had a great dinner last night. We went out to one of
our favorite restaurants here in Traverse City, and then this morning was pancakes and
bacon, And I mean, who doesn't love pancakes and bacon, right?
I mean the pancakes for me, which I did post the recipe, and
there's something about cutting in half that just doesn't work out so well. But
it's on our Facebook page. If you want the recipe. Watch this guy.
He makes pancakes in the video, but he gives the recipe on there.
And I made it just like he said the first time it was good,
and then I halfed it and it wasn't so good, and then I
halfed it this morning it wasn't so good. But this is something that I'm
learning in recovery too. It's you got to do the things that sometimes you
don't want to do. But of course I wanted to make you breakfast until
I look over and it's seven oh three and I have my alarm set for
seven oh five, and I was so tired, and I was like,
oh, I just want to pretend it's not happening. And I was like,
no, I really don't want her waking up to my alarm on her
birthday, so let me turn that off real quick, in which I did,
so you didn't have to wake up with that. And then I got
up and I made you some breakfast. But that's the stuff that you do
for people you love. You know, you would do that for me in
a heartbeat. You'd get up at two am, you know, and if
you'd want to eat breakfast at two am, but you would do it.
I would do it. You would do that for me. So that's that's
something that you just have to kind of realize, you know, in early
recovery, like that's the things that you're trying to change, you know,
those are the things that you're trying to change because the old new I would
ever, I got an excuse for you. I overslipped. I didn't see
my law. I mean, list goes on, you know, excuses.
We become really good at making them. So yeah, yeah, I had
to get my ass up and I had to do the damn thing, which
I'm glad I did. And you know, I tried to buy you some
smell good yesterday, but you didn't think they smelled good. It's just okay.
Well, two things. Two is a two part thing I want to
share about Okay. One is that I think why you felt so obligated about
the pancake breakfast is because you asked me, like beginning of last week,
what do you want for your birthday? And I just said breakfast. Yeah,
So I mean that kind of set the stage for you to feel like
you had to do that, I think, even though we had other stuff
that was obligations for later in that later morning. Yeah, which normally which
you do make new breakfast when it's not my birthday, it doesn't happen.
You don't have to get up at seven, it's just you make it whenever.
Yeah, you get up. It just happened to be today that you
had other obligations. Yeah. Yeah, Normally I'd get up eight nine whatever
wanted major breakfast. Now I was like, I'm want breakfast at eight,
right, Yeah, it's not like that. Yeah, you're right, because
we had to go to the office because I was chairing the Recovery Dad's meeting,
which I think, I don't know, I don't know, I don't
know. Well, I think we'll hopefully, you know, we'll figure that
out. But if we move it, I want to do the Recovery Dad's
podcast, you know, which is going to be way different than this podcast,
and we'll see. Still working out the details on that. I'm going
to do a podcast tomorrow with this guy. His name is Patrick Jones,
Padrick Jones, and I talked to him last week. Cool dude. He
has this whole program set up because you know how recovery is all about changing
your life. I mean it is right, you know, and people don't
understand that, or maybe people do and they don't want to idea. But
you have to change the way you live, right, that's fact. Some
people don't want it. Well, I still want to hang out with Gerald
and neilm Well. Gerald nilms still get high, gerald in them still drink.
You know, that's probably not the people you want to hang out with.
Yeah, but they're my ferings. In case, don't call them for
a week and save many times they call you. Well, And that's real
quick. That's exactly what I say all the time. Is living in recovery
is exactly that. It's living in It's not about not drinking or drugging.
It's about living in your sobriety or your you know, the state of without
any mood or min alitoring substance and just being able to be you and living
in an environment and circumstances that you are in control of that create that safe
place where you can have fun and you know, be productive and still live
life on life's terms, but not engage in stuff that's sketchy and leading you
in the wrong direction. But gerald neime, I have phone hanging out with
them and we do march Madness, we do a bracket together. How can
I do that without? I could do without drink. And I'll just go
over there and just hang out a little bit. Again, call gerald in
them or don't call jerial in them for a week and see if they call
you. There's gonna be like, hey man, you got anything. That's
the only thing they'll ask you. They're not gonna be like, hey man,
what's up. How's the kids? Oh? Yeah, you don't have
them? Yeah, Like, are they gonna make you? Are they gonna
fit into your plan of changing your life? If your answer is no,
then move on. And it's not because Gerald nem or bad people. It's
just Gerald them aren't on the same page as you. Right, you have
to cut ties with all those people, right, And that's what Patrick was
saying. And he's got this whole program, and hopefully my my want is
to get me, Mitch and Justin on his plan because I mean, it's
it's the way you eat, it's the way you exercise, it's the way
you live. Because I got a little sun coming in May. I want
to be around for his tenth birthday. But the things I'm doing now,
like, I mean, some things are good, but my stress level is
through the roof. My eating hammits are horrible. I'll do good for like
half a day and I'll come home and be like and it was all or
not. And I was explained to him when I used to drive people to
treatment all the time. How I would do good for like a week or
so, and then I think I came home one time and I was like,
honey, I relapsed. You're like what I was like, I have
big kink size KitKat, king size Milky Way, king size Snickers and some
chips. Remember that it was like eighteen in the TwixT too. It's kin
size because I want ape shit. And it was that reminded me so much
of when I would go back and drink. It would be binge, you
know, it wouldn't be just be like, oh, admit, that's why
we can't just drink a beer, you know. And when I would cut
sugar out, I would just cut sugar out and just like, okay,
I'm not drinking, Okay, I'm not eating sugar. Okay, Well what
are you doing? You know? Are you do you have a healthy plan?
Do you have something in place? Nope, I'm just not going to
eat it. And then when the temptation shows up and I'm like, hey,
that would make me feel better, it tastes good, I'll just get
this, And then next thing I know, I'm walking out of the gas
station and they're like you want to sack for that, and I'm like,
of course I do. I can't carry all these candy bars, you know,
Like, but that's that's what it does, and that's what it is.
And he was kind of talking about that and he said, yeah,
He's like, all you need is that one percent. I was like,
well, I have one percent. He' say no, no, no,
the extra one percent. He was like, so if you say you want
to do something, you must at least be fifty percent. Like, hey,
I want to change my life and I want to be there for my
son when he gets older, because I want to change the way I'm eating
in the way I'm living, and not being healthy is probably not a good
idea. You know, that's not how that's not what's going to get me
to ninety years old. So if I can just go that one percent more
so, if I can flip it to fifty one forty nine, He's like,
that's all you need to do. And then once you get to that
fifty one percent, he said, then you add the two fifty three,
fifty four, fifty five c And he says, before you know it,
you're changing the things you do in life and not just talking about it,
because when you talk about it, Okay, clearly you want to do it,
but then you don't. And I was talking to him about something else,
and I was saying, you know, you're never going to be I
think I said, governor of Michigan. I was like, if you have
a plan to be governor of Michigan. Cool, Well I like to hear
it. But like for myself, I'm like, I'll be governor. I'm
just joking sort of. But if I really wanted to be governor, well
damn it, I need a plan, right. I can't just like I
want to be governor of Michigan this sit around the couch, because guess what,
I'm never going to be governor of Michigan if I just sit on the
couch. But if that's something I really wanted to do, I would have
to start looking into Okay, well what I need to do? I need
to Should I start out trying to win a mayor seat or do I do
that? I mean, there's things that you can do that will get you
to that level of being governor of Michigan if you really wanted to be So
with me wanting to eat healthy, well what am I doing sitting on the
couch literally? And what things do I need to change? So hopefully back
to my point here with Patrick Jones is I'm talking to him tomorrow and I
want to mention Justin to sit In too, and he wanted to record it.
I told him, I was like, we'll this do straight podcasts,
but he wants to film it or record it on his end. So I'm
like, all right, cool, but I think it would be cool and
I think it would be almost like a fringe benefit, you know. Or
I was like, man, maybe we can be the sponsor to Recovery Dad's
podcast. You know, like he wants to help men change their lives and
you know, he'll hit on his website. He's got like pictures and stuff
and we'll get more into that when we talk to him. But how'd you
find him? Uh? He reached out to me. Oh nice. It
was like, hey, I really love what you and Marnie are doing blah
blah blah. And I'm like, okay, whatever, man, because it's
like Marnie hasn't been on a podcast like eighteen months, you know, it
was like probably two or three weeks. But yeah, yeah, so I'm
just like, eh, you know, but it's cool that you know,
he did check us out and did reach out, and you know, there's
so many different pathways to recovery, and he's in recovery. He was like
talking about when he got divorced. He said it was hard, but I
think he's remarried now. But just the stuff that he's been through in his
life, you know, and just from addiction to alcohol to his addiction to
food. You know, this is one thing he found. He's like,
I just replaced one for the other and just having that mindset of taking it
to that extra one percent. You know, I have a treadmill sitting here,
you know, like I'm not using it, but it's hard for me
sometimes to see the end goal. And it's just like for people in early
recovery, like, how can I have ten years tomorrow? You're not.
You're not. It's impossible. If you're in early recovery, you can't have
ten years tomorrow. And I'm not going to be one hundred and eighty five
pounds or two hundred pounds or whatever I want to be. I'm not going
to be that tomorrow. And so there it's hard for me to see it
and it's going to take work, and it's so hard to get going sometimes
you know, like, oh, I got a new routine. But I
think the main thing I need to really start working on though, is the
stress. Yeah, and they say exercise does help that, so maybe there's
something in there. But yeah, it's like a little club. I guess
maybe it's not like a little club. I have no idea because I don't
really talk to him about the program thing that he's got going on. But
I think from what he was saying, it's almost like a a I don't
want to say, a meeting, but I think it's something that we'd all
check in and every week and it's like a support system for whatever his what
would you call it, it's a game for it? Actually, yeah,
ever check in with his program. I don't know. Anyway, there's more
that's exciting. I didn't know much about it. You mentioned it, like
the little tiniest little bit about it, but I didn't. This is what
I've most I've heard, So I think that's great. Yeah, because especially
if the guys at work, you know, it's like none of us and
I'm not going to speak for them, but I am none of us really
live in the healthiest lifestyle. Can I like have a side note and just
like, somehow get him a message, a message to this man, say
please don't cut sugar entirely out of my husband's diet because he becomes the crankiest
man alive. Well, the withdrawal, and he asked me about that when
I told him that I was I cut sugared. At one point, he's
like, how are the withdrawals on that. I was like, I was
horrible. Yeah, yeah, he's like, people don't think that. I'm
like, I know, you're not crabby, and like, yeah, they
say it's worse than crack. I heard somewhere. They said it somewhere and
put it on. But that's what they say, that the sugar addictions is
worse and people laugh at you whatever. Due, No, it's real.
It is real, and people who've ever gone through that will tell you it
is real. But we'll see what happens on. Yeah, there's lots of
opportunities with that, and I think it'll be fun. But just like everything
in recovery, it's about change. You gotta change your life, change what
you're doing. It's about living in the solution. Yeah, I'm a dry
path that dairy queen. Every day when I come home from work, it's
not moving, you know, so I don't really stop dairy queen, but
I get home and it's just sometimes there's muffins waiting for me, cupcakes and
not really cupcakes but pies. It doesn't make it a little bit difficult because
like I am in this, I'm in the like no diet anything right now,
because I mean I'm not even drinking diet like soda really as much.
And so I'm like whole everything, no low fat anything, because it's supposed
to be wholesome and because that's what the baby needs. I'm gonna come home.
That's a center refrigerator. We'll come home tomorrow evening. I'm gonna be
like, honey, I talked to Patrick's day. Guess what he told me
is, uh, I got to cut out all the sugar. We're gonna
be okay, though, right if I get a little grumpies, Is you
gonna be okay with me? Oh honey, No, Patrick said, though
he said all the men at work needs to cut out the sugar. All
that stuff in the breakroom gots to throw out. Stuff in the breakroom is
good now, it's decent. Okay, give me five of them. Then
I need something. I have rice cakes in the break breakroom and trail mix
in the breakroom and neutral green bars protein bars. Yeah, Jess. The
song end ever, apparently not apparently not just hit the button making end thanks
but no thanks catch That's what I was saying. The song ended cool.
Yeah, I don't know, we'll see. But that's the beauty of it,
man, is I get a choice to it? You know, because
seriously, like if I don't know, and part of me remember when you
used to smoke, and people like, yeah, I know a guy who's
seventy six still smokes, everything's still fine, and you look at I'm like
mmmm, And I hear about the guy and that like it's perfectly fit and
he was forty two and was out jogging I had a heart attack and I
go mm hmm, y' mm hmm. I mean I hear a lot about
more about like the fat people dying a lot quicker. But like I mean
that there'll be that one case what we'll see does why don't work out?
Not really worth it? And that has nothing to do with it, you
know a lot of genetics and stuff. But I know, just to feel
better about myself, I think that would that would be great. And yeah,
I got a little baby on, you know, like I have to
think about that. And I'm a pretty cool guy, and I don't think
leaving early because I shouldn't want to change my eating habits or exercising habits.
I think that's I think that's pretty selfish. So I support you. Thanks,
honey. I appreciate that we can have the bank coming up on a
twenty ninth sort of. And I was talking with Matt about it. Matt
does the Recovery Dharma meeting, which we got to figure out that zoom thing.
We got to figure that out. That's a whole other topic. But
Matt was saying that his boss wants to go too, and I was like,
cool, she's in recovery, Like, all right, come on,
And he said that they went on it before something. They said it was
very cool. Everybody I've talked to you said the tour is super awesome.
Yeah, it's the Asylum Twilight Tour. I don't think they call it that.
I think is it on the website web site like yeah, are you
sure? But yeah, it doesn't say historical tour of State Hospital. I
think it just says historical tour the State Hospital. Now it says Asylum Twilight
Tour. Okay, I have not seen it, so I okay, I
believe you. Oh no, we're looking it up now. Jeez. Anyway,
but anybody who I've shared about, I won't go to website. But
I talked about him for like twenty minutes. I won't look at his website
about to look up the Asylum Twilight Tour. Okay. Anybody who I've shared
about that outing is super excited as well, So I hope that we I
think we're gonna have a good turn out for sure. It is the Village
TC dot com slash tour. Okay, it's your website and if you go,
it says take a tour and scroll down and it says guided historic walking
tour, which is not the one we're doing. That's two hour tour of
the Village campus, thirty bones a person twelve and under. The Asylum Asylum
Twilight Tour when we're on is a ninety minute tour thirty five bucks. A
person got to be sixteen or older. Anyone under eighteen gotta have apparent legal
guardian because it could get hairy. Yeah, okay, it's an excursion into
the basement of a former men's Ward Cottage nice as well as the underground steam
tunnels. Yeah, just give me pulse it. So it's gonna be good,
gotta be fun. Yep, it will be in the twenty ninth of
Marchism. We're doing it, and we're gonna do like a contest online.
But I don't know how that's gonna work because they're like, don't be putting
our pictures online. Yeah. I think we'll just see who's all interested,
and then when the spots fill up, the spots fill up, the people
be knowing about it. Yeah already, So I will let you know.
We're gonna post pictures. We can't take video though. We cannot take video,
so there's so many ghosts there they someone will go ahead and catch one
on the camera, and then I want that. Still waiting for the first
ghost on camera, I can't. Yeah, that's my favorite Ghost Adventures clip.
Yeah, I know he got scarred. And I was talking to somebody
about that the other day and I was like, man, I might have
been Kim. I was like the Ghost Centers. If I was a fisherman
and I caught a fish, I wouldn't be like I probably wouldn't be something
like fish. Well, they're also TV people, so they want to be
dramatic. But he ran into the wall. That's how dramatic he was being.
I think they wrote that out in the script. Do you think they
script that? But they just I mean, you're a noise and I'm gonna
take off running right into that door. No, he couldn't plan that.
He he was just like just beat Oh my god. Yeah, who knows.
He went to the school in Michigan. He went to a school in
Michigan. Really, yeah, film school, our finest, our state's find.
I guess it was a maybe Holt or I don't know. I think
it started with the h but I don't think it was Hope. Anyway,
it was somewhere there beside southeast side of the state. Zach Beggins. I
don't know them. Yeah, I'm just saying that's where he went. So
that'll be fun though, and hopefully next month. I'm waiting on the Detroit
Tigers howl the back at me because they were like, hey, here's some
tickets. Maybe I mean email didn't really say that, but also what you're
shooting for for April? Yeah, I think it was the eighteenth. If
my mind's what'd you looking like that. What do is something else going on
the eighteenth? Yeah, okay, I don't think so. Well, they're
playing the Texas Rangers, who are the World Series champions from last year,
so it doesn't really mean much this year. They should play the World Series
at the beginning of the year. Well, everybody's healthy, get it out
of the way, and then like you could watch your team play the rest
of the year and you're like, we're the champs this year, so like,
oh, the champs are coming to town. Instead they make you play
through the whole season. Fingers cross on that one. Then yeah, yeah,
no, no, for sure. Don't get people excited about something that
might not happen. But I don't see why I won it. I'm just
you know what I'm saying, How long are games again? Two and a
half hours now? Because they have stop watches or something. I haven't been
to a game. Well, we went to the game the Pitt Spitters thing.
Yeah, but that was even I mean that was like college kids stuff.
But yeah, I haven't been to a real game and I don't know,
it's been a minute. Maybe Texas. I think Texas Rangers. Yeah,
so fitting I would want to go see the Texas Rangers getting all the
Cubs were Yeah, and Sammy Sosa was about to hit his like whatever home
run, but he wasn't doing Samoyds no more so it was hard for him
to home runs, so he didn't hit one that day. Yeah, but
the Tigers, it would be interesting. I guess it'd be fun to get
a bunch of sober people and would have to get like a bus. I
think because last time and this time we would still, you know, want
to include diction treatment services here in Traverse City, but like last time,
we had them drive the buses or something. They're little vans. Yeah,
not little vans. I'm not trying to say like they have little vans.
But it'd be cool to get like somebody else to drive us, like yeah,
but not a greathound but something similar. I don't know. So I
could sleep, not to drive like you would sleep. Maybe wouldn't Maybe you
wouldn't quiet down back there. I'm trying to go to sleep up here is
right into the game. Wouldn't happen? M h. It's cute though,
how much that would cost? Like fifty bucks? How much would cost ust
to pay some money to drive a bus there with us? A lot a
couple hundred, oh little thousand, probably under that one hundred thousand, two
hundred and fifty dollars five hundred maybe, oh maybe take back Top Cans should
do a POPCN drive. It's a lot of cans. It is a lot
of coons, and we have to pay some money to crush them all.
Get our money because that's a you know how long you'd have to well,
that would take forever. The guy behind you be so pissed off. You'd
have to break it up. I think they would like stop putting cans in
there. Man, we had to change it out five times. Just roll
up. All the other machines are broken. Don't you hate that when you
go there and you got some cans, you got like maybe one bag and
there's some guy like twenty yeah or thirty like beer. That's happened to me
like a couple of times at Costco because they only have one, yeah,
ternal one. I'm like, you're literally can't you just punch out? Let
me do this and then like start another Like that's what I would do if
I like, you're really gonna make me wait and then I just you know,
but then it's just like you know what I'm what other people do.
I'm not. I'm not in control of their mindfulness. You know, if
they want to just be in the zone, whatever, but let him in
the zone. Yeah, anything else you want to talk about today, Nope,
I'm just I'm excited to have this child. That's about it. Yeah,
your belly is getting pretty big. Now you feel what I like?
What I feel like? You know, now you know what it's like to
be a fat guy. Everything is harder. Yeah, I'll tell you this.
Hey, let's go to Seattle. They walk up some hills. Hey,
let's put together two desks. And that was what I did. And
I was like, man, I'm feeling this for sure. But yeah,
it's not uber. Let's just walk it. Let's go. Well I could.
Yeah, yes, I just said I'm a fat guy and that fat
guys feel exactly what pregnant women feel. You know. It's a beautiful thing
though, I'll take it for sure. But yeah, the countdowns is on,
So ten weeks left? Hell yeah, so we should check in every
week then we can. Yeah, we'll do weekend check ins with Marnie okay
from the home studio. Yep, sounds good. Cool, And then I'll
do a podcast tomorrow with Patrick Jones from the North Studio with the guys and
let's see what Patrick Scott going on? All right, all right, well,
thanks Marty for joining me on the podcast today. I mean you're the
co host, so for sure appreciate that. And happy birthday. I love
you, Tons, I love you. Thanks for listening to the two seventeen
Recovery Podcast. We hope you come back for our next episode.